#or else theyll get in trouble w the adults
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literally nobody was picking up my meds bc they all just assumed someone else would do it and you know having a bit of a Why Am I Alive moment
#smudgy.txt#.vent#sui ideation#sui mention#suicide mention#i feel like i dont exist but do just enough to feel the pain of being alive etc etc etc#they dont care. they dont care. they dont care.#in fact my existence is an annoyance to them!#and yknow youd think id be mad at them for that but seeing as theyre#basically the only people ive known/been surrounded by in person my whole life#its like.. ohh IM the problem. im the Bad One.#and man ive felt like this for so much of my life. that im the burden the annoyance the annoying little sibling trying to#insert itself into everything trying to feel included when no one wants me around#i feel like an idiot for wanting to live to exist to be Me bc what is Me really like what if im just copying what ivd seen what if i#dont actually exist#no thats not it. i just wish i didnt#all my childhood memories have me feeling like i dont belong like im an outsider of some sort that everyones forced to include#or else theyll get in trouble w the adults#everyone just has to Deal with me. i keep inserting myself into their lives and they just have to deal w it out of politeness#i want to cry
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that reminds me like if ur still younger or living with ur parents/family i think a good but of advice that i wouldve wanted to have when i was a kid and teen is that ur parents....already know everything
and by that i mean they know if ur actually sick they know if u snuck out they know if ur on drugs they know if ur lying. its scary and invasive and wrong....but they Know
my point is that if ur parents are the kind where u dont get in trouble or they dont bring it up its bc theyre letting u get away with it or they just dont care
and then for other parents who are constantly trying to catch you at something alot of times they did something Wrong like going thru ur stuff ur diary ur room ur bags ur online ur private business, which they should not be doing it doesnt matter that theyre The Parents The Authority they should n o t be invading ur privacy
im 31 and as a full grown adult™️ im telling you they still dont have that right even when ur a kid living under their roof........its privacy invasion and its a violation and its wrong and they shouldnt be doing that
but if ur parents are creeps then usually theyll try to catch u in a lie and trip u up......the key is to talk as little as possible dont yell dont get emotional distance urself treat it like its an interrogation even if u love ur parents like.......say very little answer in yes or no dont try to explain bc they WILL use ur desire to explain and try to weave a story against you! they will!
you will be standin there thinkin uve got some rlly good story and it sound legit™️ and the entire time they see right through you
i am just saying this for anyone bc i wish i knew when i was younger, just spend as little time with ur parents as possible dont argue dont talk back dont yell, catch urself as you start to feel overwhelmed, and begin to realize ur limits like what sets u off, try to leave the room as quickly as possible dont stay just to argue they dont wanna have a debate or hear ur explaination (which might not even be a lie lol) they just want u to fuck urseld over and alot if times even if ur not lying they will wear you down and work you over to such an extent that eventually you w i l l say something you shouldnt like cuss or somehing bad or mean or the truth if u were trying to lie or youll say soemthing that sounds different than you said before so evne if u werent lying theyll take that and act like u did...
just talk to ur parents as little as possible be around them as little as possible dont argue dont debate dont overexplain just use yes and no and okay
parents are constanly trying to trip u up and get u worked up JUST to have an excuse to punish you
leave as quickly as possible and dont try to prove them wrong or prove ur point i am telling u right now they dont care and they dont think ur right anyways even if u do make a good point they dont.......care
they know everything so dont try to lie just evade and ask to leave or just walk away, be really quiet and meek and eyes looking anywhere except them, dont be combatative just leave bc one of the biggest mistakes in my life was thinking i could change my parents opinions and beliefs and it. was not going to happen
theyre already set in stone u wont be able to talk them into having a conscience or empathy or morals or mercy or forgiveness or compassion or a heart........
i wish that instead of wasting so much of my time and energy as a child and adult talking to them and trying to explain myself and things i wish i had just gone back to my room and lived my life
spend that time hanging out with ur friends and reading in ur room playing games etc whatever else go outside just g e t a w a y from them.....
the best advice i have for anyone still under 18 is to spend as little time with ur parents as possible and as much time out of the house with friends or by urself even or just in ur bedroom watching tv reading learning stuff urself instead of wasting time trying to teach ur parents bc they either already know or they dont care
as little interaction with them as possible dont argue dont talk back just ackowledge them and say okay and then leave
otherwise youll end up just wasting your time and breath on people who dont deserve it and wont change anyways
obviously if you have decent parents this doesnt apply
#best advice i could give to anyone younger or living with their parents or family#be around them as little as possible and do not argue about a n y t h ing#its not worth it and ur not going to get what u want out of that#its a waste of time and energy just try to get through until u canget away from them#dont interact#dont try#just stop trying!#bc they dont care and theyll just use it against you anyways
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