#or else because im scared of violence as a trans woman but i’m sick of fear of violence making me passive
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solemn vow to never be complacent or meek around things i feel strongly about again — to at least start the conversation even if i don’t have the words to talk back exactly to a poisonous idea — in kind, to pick up the thread if someone else does the same — tired of letting evil shit unfold —
#honestly this mostly only happens because of my disability which. i've been dreaming/reading about navigating that in ways feel better#or else because im scared of violence as a trans woman but i’m sick of fear of violence making me passive#rarely because i got scared in the crosshairs of financial insecurity and feared losing work#but that is what im parsing this time and very determined not to let that happen ever again#cuz like. having the supposed 'non-action' of passivity even available to you is a privilege of whiteness#in this case it was taking a creative-side gig on a play that felt very clear the playwright had given very little if any consideration#to nonwhite perspectives like clearly by a white person thinking about a white audience kinda liberal politics#and i took it bc my friend's mentor was directing and she put us in touch and spoke highly of him#and she's indigenous and very willing to call out white bullshit so i had some hope/trust that he would push it more#and he........ did at least cast a latino actor in the one role that would have made the play horrifically racist#if it had been cast as a white person but that felt like doing the absolute least to me#im still very much figuring this world out#understanding the ethics of theater work and im glad i did this in that regard#cuz like. i didn't fully realize that my only real chance to make a creative + ethical statement was right out the gate in accepting the gi#as an SM like... there's really no other chance to have an opinion so i should not take work if the script doesn't align w my ethics#and use that rejection as a chance to make it clear what's fucked up#...if i even ever SM again that was the most stressful gig i've ever done and i didn't even get paid for it. fuck#sorry for writing half the post in the tags. if ur reading this ur too close >O< jk haaiiii thx for reading my diary#very much a 'i am thinking through these concepts still and ur welcome to share ur thoughts on them' kinda post
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165 Questions
(this took a couple days to complete so I don't know if the answers will even make sense haha)
did you pay attention to anything you were being taught in health class? we didn't really have a ‘health class’ at our school. we had a whole day once a term where our usual lessons were cancelled and we were all split off into different groups to learn all that shit. i used to stay home on those days because the routine change sent my anxiety sky high
what are your feelings regarding shopping? i like it when I'm in the right mood
do you think people have any misconceptions about you? i think people sometimes mistake me for being rude or stuck up when its actually that I'm quite shy
have you ever worn fishnets? Nope
do you go somewhere to get your eyebrows done? my sister’s house
do you believe prayer really works? i do, especially after this week
do you have one best friend who is always there for you? kind of
describe one of your most emotional farewells. not really had any emotional farewells
have you ever been tied up? eh, nope.. well not in a serious way :’)
how many times have you been cussed out? i dont think i really have been in a genuine way, only ever jokingly
does it bother you when people ask personal questions? not really, if it did i wouldn't have a tumblr just for surveys haha
do you know anyone who’s been in jail? dont think so nope
have you ever considered acupuncture? Nope i cant do needles
have you ever watched the same sex undress? only when it happens in films/tv but never watched a guy get fully naked aha
have you ever seen the last person you kissed cry? Nope
have you ever seen your mom or dad drunk? Yeah, but only a handful of times
do you enjoy mario games? not really played Mario games tbh
do you think that necessities should be free? (ex. food, toilet paper) not sure
does it bother you when dogs lick you? i love my dogs but i don't really like being licked, i don't like the feeling of it especially on my face or feet
do you feed your pets human food? Occasionally, but we always double check before that its nothing poisonous or anything
which is worse: being sexist or racist? dont even get me started. They're both as bad as each other. The thing about racism is that its never picked up on when it happens to a white person. We experience it too, but for some reason it doesn't count if you're white.. Racism is NEVER okay and it affects ALL races. White people, black people and every skin colour in between.
do you think suicide is selfish? Only if the way you do it affects someone else. for example, jumping in front of a train or car, or throwing yourself of the top floor of a busy shopping centre in front of loads of people. thats when it gets selfish because youre forcing other people to witness something that could be potentially traumatising and could disturb them for the rest of their lives. Especially when it involves jumping in front of a vehicle because that driver has to live their life knowing that someone died because they hit them with whatever they were driving. personally, if someone jumped in front of my car and ended up dying i would never drive again and it would ruin my life. so yeah, thats when suicide is selfish, and this was a long answer haha
would you take a dirty picture of yourself for someone you are dating? No
what are the most embarrassing songs in your itunes library? probably glee songs
how picky are you when it comes to choosing who to kiss or not kiss? seems I'm not fussy enough from past experience :’)
do you feel that having sex anywhere but a bed is more exciting? i wouldn't know
in your opinion, is it ever okay to get back with an ex? depends on the situation and why you broke up
what’s the first animal you go to see at the zoo? Whichever is closest to the entrance. we always need a system when we go to the zoo so we see everything haha
what’s the strangest or rarest creature you’ve seen at a zoo? when i went to australia zoo there were loads of creatures i didn't even know existed and i cant remember any of the names
what animal is at a zoo that really, in your opinion, shouldn’t be? im not sure. i think as long as the animals have a good way of life, are treated right and are happy then theres no reason why they shouldn't be at the zoo. and if being there means they're protected and can help the species not to go extinct then thats awesome!
do you like zoos or aren’t you bothered? i like the a trip to the zoo :) I'm gonna love taking a foster kid to the zoo
i offer you a cigarette, you say… no, and do not smoke anywhere near me
why do you think you were put on this earth? i haven't quite figured it out yet
is it ever okay to hit a child? when is this? it is never okay to hit a child
do you think violence in video/computer games influences the nation also? Maybe slightly, i think it can de-sensitise us and make us see violence as more normal. BUT saying that, i play gta and it doesn't make me want to go round punching/shooting people so it depends on the person i guess..
are you in any shape or form, racist? No. i don't understand it at all. at the end of the day, we’re all humans no matter where were born, what our nationality is, skin colour is. It doesn't matter. A person is a person.
are you in any shape or form, sexist? again it doesn't matter what gender you are, you're still a human being
how do you think the world will end? as a christian, i believe it ends when God decides it will end.
what natural phenomenon do you find the most beautiful? Aurora borealis or however you spell it
would you kill someone who killed a child? how about YOUR child? i dont think i could ever kill someone.
what is your favorite cover of a song? pretty much everything Pentatonix does. I LOVE their cover of ‘Hallelujah'
have you ever been in love with someone who was fatally ill? neve been in love
have you ever received or given a make-over? Yup, received a few. given a few, my male best friend was the best because he let us do a photoshoot of him in full make up and i still have the pictures :’)
do you know anyone who is HIV+? not that i know of
have you ever been to a desert? no, i was supposed to go riding camels in the desert while on holiday but i got sick and spent two days stuck in the hotel in bed
do you know any trans* people? Nope
what is your favorite beatles song? let it be.. is that them? Idk
what is the poorest you have ever been? Teenage years when i got £70 to last a month but it basically all went on my gym membership and bills.
i’m sure you know of the gamer fad on youtube. who’s your favorite? dont really follow any gamers, i like watching pointless blog play sims though
is there something written on your shirt right now? nope, its a plain black shirt
what is your favorite song to play on guitar hero or rock band? i dont play either of those
where do you find the surveys you take? i follow a load of survey Tumblrs and steal ‘em of there
what’s one weird/annoying thing your pet(s) tend to do? Sit at the door and bark every time they see a squirrel. or a bird. or a shadow. Literally anything and one of them will bark, then they all start barking and having four dogs barking its an absolute headache.
what’s your favorite song by your favorite artist? oh i cant answer that, i have too many favourites.
do you have an “original character?” i dont really get the question
what about a persona/fursona? wut..?
do you ever MAKE your own surveys? nope im not very original
why’s it the woman who have to give birth anyway if the man is physically stronger in most cases? first of all, rude. secondly, its all Eve’s fault.. read the bible
do you get good internet where you live? yeah its alright most of the time
ever had a cavity? how many? Never
ever broken a tooth? Nope
what did you do on the playground at your school as a child? i liked playing make believe. me and my friend in primary school came up with our own pretend kids tv show called witches and fairies where she played a witch, i played a fairy and we had adventures :’)
are you into comics? a bit
did you ever have computer disc games you played as a kid? Sims!! Rollercoaster tycoon & zoo tycoon.
what do you think of people who have therapists? Brave. I've had a few therapists during school/college so i know how difficult it is and i gave up on therapy so i really admire people who stick with it
do you have any of those adult coloring books? i have a few, my favourite is one full of the original Alice in wonderland artwork. ALSO i found out the other day theres a fantastic beasts one and i rally want it
ever ridden an elephant? Nope
deserts: dreary or beautiful? i think they can look beautiful in pictures but i imagine they'd be dreary irl
ever seen a panda? only in pictures
what kind a camera do you have? my phone is my main camera. i do own a Sony a290 dslr that i have to buy for college but i don't use it anymore
do you have stretch marks? where? don’t be shy, they’re tiger stripes! i do, on my thighs
lobsters: cool or scary? Scary
opposoms: total vermin or cute? i dont know what they are
what tv channel dominated your childhood? Cbbc
ever actually seen a snake in the wild? dont think i have nope
have you ever had a PET snake? what kind? NO! Snakes scare me
ever had an encounter with a snapping turtle? they’re scary! i have not nope
do you like oatmeal? Nope
wherever you live, have you ever seen your national bird? does England have a national bird?!
ever had a reptile as a pet that you had to feed crickets? Nope. i would like a bearded dragon, but having to feed it live bugs freaks me out. even just the thought of having the bugs in my house i cant even
ever play hearthstone? dont know what that is..
ever gone hunting? biggest thing you’ve ever shot? No. and I'm disgusted by people who do hunt
how about fishing? biggest thing you’ve ever caught? i used to fish with my grandad when i was a kid, but i only ever caught small ones
coolest place you’ve ever been fishing? Idk I've only ever been to lakes on camp sites
which is cooler: african or asian elephant? i didn't know there was a difference
craziest thing you’ve ever eaten? i dont eat crazy stuff, I'm too scared of eating crazy stuff
what’s in a camel’s back? Idk ask the camel
steve irwin: foolish for messing around with animals or brave for teaching us? Brave. i love Steve irwin, i think he did great work and its a shame he died. I've been to his zoo in australia and I’ve never seen happier animals in a zoo. we spent at least half an hour watching the tigers play in the water with the zoo keepers and you could tell there was a genuine love between them.
what do you think of people who put their whole life on social media? If thats what they want to do then fine.
don’t you think it’s a bit deceptive to wear a push-up bra? nope. if wearing a push up bra makes you feel better about yourself and gives you confidence then you do it!
do you truly believe we came from chimps? No
well, what do you think of extra bones and even organs in our bodies? why do we have them? Idk
if you could choose anyone to be your father, who would it be? my dad
weirdest video game you’ve ever played? i dont think I've played any weird games tbh
we’re having a pig-pickin’! whatcha eating? a what?
ever been on a scary hay ride? no I'm a chicken
ever been to a castle? Yuppie live like half an hour away from Warwick castle so I've been there a lot in my life
what’s your favorite kind of penguin? rockhopper- we had to make penguin masks in college for one of the shows the actors were doing so i made a mask of a rockhopper penguin
whales. should they be allowed in sea world? if they're treated right then yeah
ever seen an albino? whether it be human or animal? yeah there was someone in my school who was albino
what do you think of the song “miss jackson” by panic! at the disco? Don't think I've heard it
what is the wallpaper on your best friends cell phone? it used to be a picture of me and him but i don't know if he's changed it
do you feel comfortable singing in front of others? No
do you like using big words when you talk? No I tend to say words wrong and make a fool of myself
do you EVER use caps lock? Rarely. i cant read things very well if they're written in capitals
are you loud when you’re having sex? Doubt it
have you ever wanted to drop out of school? yes, i hated school but in England you're not allowed to just drop out
when was the last time you watched south park? dont think I've ever watched it
are you italian? nope
are you interested in photography at all? Yes i enjoy taking photos and used to be super into it but when i studied it in college i had such an awful time it kinda ruined it
any survey takers that annoy you on tumblr? nope
do you like bob marley? hes alright, I've not really listened to his music much so i don't really have an opinion
can you talk to your parents about anything without them judging or bickering at you? my mom, pretty much yeah. dad, not so much.
are you interested in art? a bit, not a lot though
don’t you think we’re spending too much money on exploring the mere theory of climate change? no i think were not spending enough. we should all be way more concerned with global warming than we are
everyone always wants to know your favorite animal. what’s your SECOND favorite? i dont have a first favourite so i cant have a second favourite. i just have a big list of favourites
who’s your favorite disney character? again, i don't have a favourite there are too many. i tend to like the sidekicks in the movies more than the main characters like Sven & Olaf from frozen, Pascal & Maximus from Tangled etc
have you ever taken the eharmony personality quiz? Nope
do you take vitamins? if so, what kinds? Vitamin C
how much was your prom dress? what’s the most you’d spend? my prom dress wasn't very expensive, I can't remember exactly how much it was. I still have it in my wardrobe but I don't like it
would you marry someone of a different religion? Possibly, if i loved them enough. and if they understood i wouldn't change my religion
how did you learn the word “fuck”? probably at school
if you could make one of your enemies your best friend, who would it be? i dont have enemies so idk
what is the last movie you saw in theaters? Passengers
have you ever got into a wreck? not a serious one nope
do you think you are an argumentative person? Not really, unless its something I'm passionate about or if I'm hurt by something
can you admit when you’re wrong? Yeah
are you easily confused? very :’)
do you think you would make a good wife/husband? i think i would
have you ever caught a butterfly? not on purpose.
have you ever deliberately tried to get someone drunk? nope i dont drink so i wouldn't try make anyone else
do you like being kissed on the neck? no, it feels gross
favorite song by the band the offspring? never heard of them
how many times each morning do you press the snooze button? i dont set an alarm often and when i do i don't press snooze
when you go out to eat, what sides do your order with your food? normally fries
what video game or computer game are you best at? sims
how do you normally come across new music? listening to the radio, or when ads or videos use a song i like the sound of i find out what it is
what subject in school do you feel is the least necessary? English, I've never had to analyse a book or poem in my life since leaving school
do you enjoy power outages or do you get annoyed? no they're annoying
are you pretty politically correct? idk probably
have you ever behaved like a stalker? probably online yeah :’)
do you appreciate other people’s opinions? depends what its about
if you could pick your own pet name, what would it be? pet name for myself or for an actual pet..? I've already decided when i get my own dog i want to call it moose
do you care what’s going on in the world? i care, but i don't make an effort to find out cause its usually all depressing stuff
how many partners is too many? at one time or like in a lifetime..? lifetime it doesn't matter but if you have more than one parter at once then thats too many
do you examine the tissue after you blow your nose? nope
do you prefer boys to shave down there? Idk
how much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? she knows its non existent
are any of your siblings married? what are their spouse’s names? Nope ut she lived with her partner Tom
have you ever had a pet bird? Yeah, we used to own to cockatoos called bobby and beauty
how many times have you moved in your lifetime? 2
if you could get one piercing and one tattoo, where would you want them? dont want any piecrings. i have a tattoo already but i want another one on my ankle/foot of a lighthouse
would you consider yourself to be adventurous? Nope
has any part of your house ever been flooded? dont think so
is there anyone that you’re worried about right now? who and why? our foster baby, he's two weeks old tomorrow but he's still in hospital with drug withdrawals so he cant come home yet
if you won a lot of money, would you donate any of it? to what organization would you donate it? I would donate to dogs home or a mental health charity
describe the best friend you’ve ever had, or the best person you’ve ever known. I cab right now
have you ever adopted a stray animal? We've adopted a few dogs in my lifetime but none recently
what time did you wake up this morning? about 9am
ever wonder if you’re someone’s everything? yeah, i cant see anyone getting to know me and being like ‘shes perfect for me’ like srsly I'm too much of a mess
would you ever bleach your hair platinum blonde? not platinum nope
what is your mom’s middle name? Anne
do you know the color of your ex boyfriend/girlfriend’s eyes? n/a
have you had your wisdom teeth out? Nope
your appendix? yeah, mine burst when i was two years old and tried to kill me haha
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