#or accidentally read an omegaverse fic bc i missed a tag

[thelambthatkilledthewolf]

Sometimes being autistic makes being in fandom so annoying because I cannot stand people who don't interact with content the same way I do

Like yes, I do believe that everything is open to interpretation. I do believe that everyone should be allowed to ship whatever they want, because it's all made up and you should do what makes you happy

However

My interpretation is correct. My ships are correct. All other ships are disgusting. My headcanons are correct and if you don't agree with them or you have a headcanon that clashes with mine, I wish bug infestations in your house

I know these thoughts are wrong, and I'm being stupid. I know everyone is correct because there is no incorrect answer. But stupid autism dictates that it's MY hyperfixation, so I am automatically correct about it and everyone has to agree with me

I do not like the ship JonElias. I find it very icky. I think that people should be allowed to ship that, if that's what they're into. If I see it or hear about it though, I have to take several minutes away from the Internet and maybe scream a little because it makes me feel so icky. If you ship JonElias, it doesn't matter if you're a cool person or not, it doesn't matter if I have the tag blocked so I don't see it anyways, I literally cannot like you. It's so stupid. I could block a really really cool person just for liking a ship that I don't. It's ridiculous

I'm just. So damn annoyed. I feel bad for the mean thoughts I get about people who have different opinions than me, but I literally can't stop them. It's so frustrating

[theliterarywolf]

Omegaverse, I feel like the "gay" stories have completely shifted. Which a trans friend agrees with me on: The "male" omega has a completely AFAB body, vagina and boobs, no peen, which is really kinda... missing the point? And I mean, this is what the story then peddles as the "male omega body" even if there are female Omegas also with AFAB bodies. I've yet to see a fem-Alpha with an AMAB body. Trans friend has mentioned how it's annoying bc 1) very few tag it. 2) it triggers their dysphoria.

See, now, that's interesting because (utilizing a Read More because of technical genital talk outside of the typical 'heehee, horny on main' sense)

The vast majority of Omegaverse fanfic that I've come across either has:

Male omegas who still have penises but also self-lubricating asses that they get pregnant through.

or

Male omegas who still have penises, though the penises are smaller than their alpha and beta counterparts, but they have a vaginal opening underneath said penis for pregnancy purposes.

And in regards to breasts, again, most Omegaverse fic that I've come across don't have male omegas getting prominent breasts; it's usually 'oh, the pecs will get softer and the nipples slightly enlarged for the sake of breastfeeding'.

I'll also add in that, even though I have read Omegaverse fics with female alphas, they typically never go into the female alpha relationships (i.e.: they're in side/background couples) or they essentially pull a 'oh yeah, female alphas pretty much have the same biology as regular human women; they're just dominant and use omega male semen to get pregnant'.

I will agree on people needing to be a bit better in tagging the variations they use in their Omegaverse stories because, yeah, they can run the risk of accidentally triggering someone's dysphoria in trying to make their application of the trope stand out.

[80hdean]

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#5

ok maybe it’s just bc it’s 3am or maybe that it’s fathers day and also pride month and also transnatural week approacheth but like I had a record scratch thought the other day and it won’t leave me alone… but it’s also like skirting the realms of propriety for a lot of ppl and it’s related to a convo about something that I don’t have any answers for I don’t have any hard opinions about whether it’s ethical or fetishizing or not in every context

but like hear me out, if we are into domestic curtain fic and we are into baby jack and/or give-them-a-baby-natural and we are into trans dean and/or trans cas truthing (which we certainly are, at least for the sake of this post)

if these things are true then I would like to respectfully ask: where is the (non fetishy non omegaverse) mpreg fic? maybe it’s not called that idfk but like, I can think of a hundred scenarios off the top of my head that would result in either comedy gold, cavity-inducing fluff or Peak Suffering that involve an oops baby scenario, none of which require any magic or angel grace or supernatural handwavey nonsense. like it’s genuinely 100% in the real world possible for a dude to accidentally get knocked up! it’s not super likely if he’s on t but it’s certainly a thing that could happen

anyways I just think dean is so full of disorders and trauma and secret desires for children and family that it would also be entertaining to watch what happens if he was also full of cas’ baby

11 notes • Posted 2021-06-21 08:14:19 GMT

#4

this isn’t news but like yeah ‘when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell he was lost’ but also did you ever consider that when castiel first laid a hand on him, dean imprinted like a baby bird and was ruined for anyone else after that?

12 notes • Posted 2021-05-23 06:52:14 GMT

#3

shit bro do you ever just read (or re-read) the letter in the beginning of Stone Butch Blues and feel the weight of a thousand bricks slowly crushing your chest so tight until suddenly you’re sobbing? no? me neither

For more than twenty years I have lived on this lonely shore, wondering what became of you. Did you wash off your Saturday night makeup in shame? Did you burn in anger when women said, “If I wanted a man I’d be with a real one?”

Do you ever think of me in the cool night?

I never could have survived this long if I’d never known your love. Yet still I ache with missing you and need you so…

The storm has passed now. There is a pink glow of light on the horizon outside my window. I am remembering the nights I fucked you deep and slow until the sky was just this color.

I can’t think about you anymore, the pain is swallowing me up. I have to put your memory away, like a precious sepia photograph.

13 notes • Posted 2021-07-15 02:54:57 GMT

#2

it’s midnight and im back on my mpreg bullshit

akfjdkfj the non-cringey mpreg corner of this fandom (which seems to be like, um, four or five people lmfao it’s hard to know) is really rad and I appreciate the different angles everyone approaches it from, whether it’s baby-trapping someone (@autisticandroids’ mpregpocalypse), or it’s the body horror atrocity that happens when one is pregnant (postpartum prometheus by @dragqueendean & @nifedick), or it’s the angst angle of giving destiel the Most babies in the most tragic way possible (@astermacguffin’s au), these are all great!! I genuinely enjoy all of them for various reasons.

what I’m still not getting, though, is why it’s always cas being impregnated. I mean, the obvious answer is that it’s easy to invent some sort of handwavey angel magic that allows him to do pretty much anything with a fetus. but angel magic aside, are there character reasons for not inflicting this curse upon dean?

bc from where I’m sitting, it seems like a very entertaining way to cause dean Physical Suffering and Psychic Agony, as well as the gold mine of conflict between his fear of fucking up any life he’s responsible for and his deeply buried desires for that picket fence life he thinks he doesn’t deserve/isn’t cut out for.

I suppose that last part is arguable. It’s just one potential interpretation of the dean the show presents. resonates with me, so I ran with it but I don’t assume that’s ubiquitous.

perhaps the other issue is the characterization of cas, bc gender fuckery aside (i.e. I will not argue that carrying a human fetus is feminizing or whatever), gestating a human or human adjacent being inside a human vessel is difficult and strenuous and does make someone more vulnerable for a decent chunk of time (the degree of this varies widely, obviously). I kinda felt like towards the end of the show at least, cas had been beaten down so far physically/metaphysically (given his dwindling grace and decreasing mobility (though this is a rare hc of mine that I’ve never seen discussed on tumblr so it’s not a huge part of this argument)) that it is less interesting to me to make him more vulnerable? dean, in contrast, seems as strong and powerful as ever.

the other aspect is that to make dean pregnant you would either need to do more handwavey angel magic (which, sure why not what makes one magic more plausible than another?), or you’d have to make dean a trans man and deal with the fallout of that. I don’t think making dean trans is the issue, though, at least not in the tiny corner of spn fandom I find myself in, at least not for transphobia reasons. perhaps it’s just that the consequences of inflicting pregnancy on a trans man are arguably worse than on an angel, and therefore would be more difficult to parse and write in a non shitty and non cringe way.

or maybe it’s just me, succumbing to the brain worms? but I kinda think the extra consequence flavor is what makes the idea so spicy~

38 notes • Posted 2021-07-09 06:12:30 GMT

#1

Okay!! I know we are all supposed to be horrified at soulless Jack and be sad that he killed Mary or whatever but okay like

Jack is autistic

there’s just...I am not capable of seeing him as not autistic. and I’m gonna not go into it but the fucking soulless arc for him annoys me bc it plays right the fuck into those “autistic people don’t have emotions and can’t feel empathy” horseshit narratives and it makes me very mad!!

anyways my boy Jack he just had some overwhelming emotions and was tired and anxious and he had a meltdown!

(he just happened to have a god-powered meltdown)

but Mary pushed him 😂 she did what every idiotic allistic person does to every autistic kid ever having a meltdown; she followed him and made direct eye contact and wouldnt fucking shut up demanding he stop stimming and start responding to her and as much as I like Mary and as much as this obviously sucks for the story on the show—

there’s definitely a part of me that saw that scene and felt righteous vindication bc IF ONLY we had the fucking power to make people just stop when they’re being too loud/pushy/demanding

so what I got out of this storyline was:

Jack is an Autistic Hero!

103 notes • Posted 2021-02-02 06:26:54 GMT

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