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how do people have ideas. I wanna draw or write but have absolutely 0 ideas. and I am too lazy to work on wips. how do you get ideas
#like genuinely I see people saying they have so many ideas they wanna write/draw while I wanna do that too but my brain is empty 😭#can't relate bro like there's nothing in there#I don't leave my wips bc of a new idea I leave em bc I get bored of em you feel#or I go into the 'I can't write/draw I suck bro' spiral so I think they're bad or smth#or I simply can't continue them#I literally don't know what to do and need ideas#someone help how do you just do that 😭😭#it's getting frustrating atp#and when I do get ideas I don't even know where to start#or I can't form it perfectly in my head#so my brain just either abandons it or art/writersblock stop me#it suckkkkss 💀#and to add onto that my ideas are almost rarely actual ideas#they're literally vibes bro 😭#I can't form a perfect idea in my head#it's all blurry n wtv#thank you for nothing brain#levi's ted talks#not ninjago
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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She is so so pretty but also her face is so so dumb sometimes and the only thing to do is smooch her on her little forehead!
#my most beloved pigroll is an absolute delight#I can't stand being pawed at but she's decided that's her way of acquiring the snuggles and I can't fault her for that#somebody hella rewarded her when she slapped them and we've been reaping the horrors ever since <3#is it worth training and fostering a different attention seeking behaviour?#or do I just accept that this creature has found a solid means of communication that produces the results she wants and I#simply continue to be pawed at (at home and at work 😔)#turnpike
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If you're waiting for a reply from me, I'm really sorry for the wait! I have most of them written in drafts, but I'm holding on to all of them except the resonance thread (Resi is a fickle muse sometimes and I don't want to lose him while he's working with me) because I'm trying to get some artwork done for commissions and gifts!! I plan to release threads come Friday, but i really appreciate the patience! ^^
#i promise i'm still interested in writing with everyone! I know i don't gotta explain myself#but. alas. My special interest is writing. And I cannot draw if I Owe Replies because my brain simply won't let me#so i write them and then hold them until i've made the progress i need to and then i get to release them as a treat#So thank you everyone who doesn't mind waiting!! I'm giving you smooches on the cheeks if you want them!!#and i'm SO excited to continue so many of these threads <3#tristan rambles#update#I WILL happily answer DMs/IMs or asks though! since they're usually not anything i can't set aside while working and get back to when i can
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no, actually my least favorite thing about watching thai dramas while speaking & understanding thai... is that the dialects never match up 😭😭😭 if a character is from a non-central province, they'll have their whole family speak in northern/southern/isaan dialect while the main character, who's played by an actor from bangkok, will unexplainably not have any remnants of his native dialect when he speaks even though he was born & raised in the area and often time never even left... that shit breaks the fourth wall to me, like... why even hire an actor who doesn't fit the role fully, I don't get it 😭
#axelle rants#i told sunset about you#to be continued#I'm too lazy to tag ALMOST EVERY SHOW THAT TAKES PLACE OUT OF BKK#I adore itsay but this is literally its only AND biggest flaw in my eyes bc why the fuck is teh only breaking into southern dialect -#- for shits & giggles when he was born in phuket and lived there his whole life like WUT#same for oh-aew the dude never speaks southern dialect at all it makes ZERO sense#but teh's mom tarn & SOME of the friends speak correctly... it's so jarring#there's only 3 types of shows that have avoided this#1) to me it's simply you where nadech's character speaks both isaan dialect & central dialect as a way to show us that his character is -#- ashamed of his roots & then gradually accepts them. it's well done imo#2) isaan shows with an entirely isaan cast & crew like siew sum noi and nah harn... which is why I love isaan shows sm#3) I believe 1000 stars did this well? unless earth's character is supposed to be northern which in that case nevermind#HOWEVER bkpp MADE itsay so I'm willing to forgive the fact that they can't speak southern dialect even though it takes me out of the show#axelle learns thai
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hate hate hate that I am no longer used to write on my phone.
#I would write 1000-1500 words at night by simply typing on my phone at 1am#but now I don't feel like I am able to even write a short scene#and I have to wait until I'm home to get to my computer#but it'll be too late (aka 10 pm) when I get there and by 11pm I have to be in bed so I can wake up at 6am again#let me fix these fucking chapters 😭😭 my hands are itchy to fix this awful continuity error#so I can update once a week as I wanted to#if I finish chapter 5 and get to chapter 6 maybe I can post chapter 4 but I need to have chapter 5 completely done#cuz I have Jessica have a silent meltdown at the end of chapter 5 that I'm no longer happy with#cuz it's a bit too convoluted even for me#and I hate how little free time I have#I was supposed to work on it from 6:45pm to 7:30pm on my tablet cuz I bought a keyboard so technically it's like a mini pc#but my uni friends felt the need to keep me company so they invited me to a bar to drink something#and I couldn't tell them that I actually wanted to be alone to write some dumb fanfiction#so I accepted and while I enjoyed it. I couldn't stop thinking about this fic 😭#I can't even read others' ff cuz my mind is just thinking about mine.#I already feel bad about not being able to comment per chapter anymore as I used to#so I have to give it my utmost attention at least#whatever. me rambling.#personal
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electric guitar... electric guitar save me.......
#i just need to get enough money by the end of the year to buy an electric guitar that's IT#my big dream is actually to start a band. dead serious.#but i can't sing past a very small range (good screamer tho) no space for drums and don't want to play bass....#the electric guitar is simply the coolest instrument you see#anyway maybe i'll save and get a telecaster but idk the best beginner's guitar so#i'm continuing the tradition of my sisters getting into instruments and then never touching them again#for my oldest sister it was the violin for my other sister it was the acoustic#but this time i'll actually like practice daily and git gud at it PROMISE YOU THAT#and also i need money to buy cool outfits too... what's a guitarist without a cool outfit
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YouTube yesterday: Hey btw The Longest Johns just released a song about Horatio Nelson's death.
Me: Cool, excuse me as I stare off into space and think about L'Manburgian soldiers' reaction to hearing about Kiril's dying to withering whenever I play the song.
#regicide au#like yes I know realistically Kiril would be a bit of a controversial figure in L'Manburg#his father (and ancestry in general tbh) represents centuries of colonialism and oppression#like ffs you can't just walk into a place like Pogtopia going 'hi I promise I'm a good Krafta'#when you've had to spend the past few years drastically unlearning all the colonialist propaganda you were fed as a child#anyway Artur is representative of continuing the oppression of an entire people no matter how hard you have to grind your boot on them#while Kiril represents the effort to at least make a start on fixing the mistakes of the past#with liberation in the hopes that will open the door for reparations etc#not that he ever expects to see that because he'll be dead from fratricide#(not to mention shit like that will take generations for the wounds to begin healing so no veteran of this war will live to see it either)#he still wants to do *something* as a way to work towards that better future though#a war of independence sure as fuck wasn't what he imagined but 'the universal language is violence' yada yada#it certainly seems to be Artur's universal language#and Kiril gains an even better image of himself as a general who is willing to fight and potentially die with his soldiers#those under his command absolutely have deep respect for him thanks to how he conducts himself#...and then the withered arrows start flying#people are going to end up talking about how he never let on he was hit himself#he simply visited the affected soldiers in the infirmary some of whom were doomed to die in one of the worst ways possible#then he was gone. just grabbed by his brother so he could be killed in Rayusel (or away from the public eye in general)#rumours are going to fly about all sorts of things pertaining to Kiril's final hours but one thing is for sure#there is going to be grief amongst the soldiers who loved him#'let him die in peace' ...yeah they really are going to hope that somehow he didn't suffer as much as a typical withering victim#god I am just shaking this song vigourously by its shoulders I swear
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It's a very special kind of a Hell when you ship a rare pair in a very specific way, and one day your ship gets a new shipper making content, but they ship your ship wrong 🙃🙃🙃🙃
#wrong to me specifically#I'm sorry but Merle is a bottom lol#he does *not* top Rick#he tops maybe Daryl on occasion#though honestly I think this is mostly that *Rick* simply is not a bottom to me#like where I can see Merle topping certain people#I can't see Rick bottoming unless literally forced to#this isn't me telling people *not* to write whatever they want#this is just me complaining about a thing that bothers me#I literally just won't ever read those fics#by all means continue to write them#I just personally hate them on principle#it's also probably because I was one of the first people to really start writing rick/merle fic in earnest#like before me I think there may have been one or two fics#so the ship feels like my baby lol
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Alright time to blacklist the word vote again.
#do not lecture me#or think for one second that your holier than thou social media lecture is going to seriously convince jaded people to vote#like repeatedly saying 'well republicans worse' is simply going to continue to exhaust people who are already exhausted#also find it tiresome that the literal fucking moment a Democrat does something bad I have to see a million fucking posts#about how no one is allowed to be upset or annoyed or to dare post anything online even slightly negative#about them or the voting process#that we can't have a fucking reaction. Ever.#like save it!!! Fucking save it!!!!
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after months of inactivity on simblr, i’ve decided to start a new lepacy! meet Soraia Queiroz, a style influencer living in oasis springs~
[starter home by kkustura on the gallery]
#i lost all motivation to continue the other one even though i LOVE them#the switch to the EA app completely destroyed my motivation simply bc i have the game on steam#and i can't fuckin activate and deactivate DLC on a whim anymore#+ the big updates completely ruined THAT mods folder so. starting from scratch again hellooo#playing with the base game only IS weird though#ts4#the sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 screenshot#soraia queiroz#ts4 lepacy#queiroz legacy#queiroz g1#queiroz round 1#(i've decided to start counting rounds from the beginning bc i'll start rotational play once i have Kids)
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okay so i have too many ideas and i've been writing about THREE different characters but i suddenly just... lost every ounce of inspiration i had so i'd appreciate if you could send any thoughts/requests 😭😭
#i may continue them later but i simply can't do it now 😭#i had the best angsty jackie blurb but i cannot think of any dialogs#i was writing something about van but.. not sure if i was loving it#i was ALSO writing something about deena from fear street but i just found out a bot with a really similar scenario so 😭#please send something#would y'all like something about movie!olive abroholos?? from mphfpc#yellowjackets#sammy speaks:3#yellowjackets showtime
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I want to die 👐
#vent#tw sui ideation#im thinking that if the problem is so deeply rooted inside me then why continue to live? as stubborn as i am i wont really ever let go of#my pathology. not when i still breathe.#i compare myself to people and i even spill my turbulent personality to them in hopes of a response#and time and time again i either get nothing or something that simply makes no sense to me#but when you dont care. well. i may have lied about my capacity for selflessness#my emotional needs are my lifeline. and it keeps fraying#an existance like this is one where you only suffer and wait for death. when your insides are hollow then there is nothing for you#no one can fill this void but yourself. myself#and i won't i can't do it
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i've been making a lot of bad art lately which is one of the world's most healing activities but if you have perfectionist tendencies you really have to commit to volume (if you make ONE bad painting it's just a bad painting whereas if you make 20 it's a meditative practice!). unfortunately we live in a one bedroom apartment and now we have to commit a significant portion of our storage to bad paintings. i would recycle them but unfortunately i need spare bad paintings to weave together into bad papercraft!!
anyway so i decided to move my bad artmaking into a new, smaller sphere and make bad linocuts. and let me tell you. if you are trying to get past thinking "my art should be good," linocut is a wonderful teacher. everything can be going great and then you exert slightly too much palm pressure and WHOOPS! sliced the face off. luckily the craft is so niche that negative self-talk can't really stick to it. i'll think something like "everybody else's linocuts are perfect. nobody else fucked up their linocut of a hot lady sphinx." and this is such a patently bananas sentence that i can simply laugh fondly at it and continue hacking away at my little rubber square. recommend
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Winter's Chance
Summary: It's Rafe's turn to have your son for the weekend, but it seems the weather wants you to spend the holidays together.
--Finally some Baby Daddy Rafe
With delicate rubs to your son's tummy, you desperately tried to get him to calm down with soft pleads and overeager soothing. He'd been fussing all day, so much that you'd called the doctor to make sure everything was okay.
They simply reassured you that it may just be a prolonged stage of fussiness. Most babies grow out of it around 4 months which is exactly where Max had just reached a few weeks ago.
Just when he was finally beginning to calm for a moment your ears are filled with the chime of your doorbell. Max picks up his crying as if he had never stopped. Your eyes roll, already knowing who is on the other side of the door.
You gently scooped him up to rest over your shoulder on top of the little binkie you tend to have thrown over your shoulder at all times for moments like this. He was cute, but the spit-up was never pretty and you were always prepared.
Opening the door from a distance you weren't expecting to see Rafe step in partially covered in snow. It distracted you momentarily before Max's cries cut through the shock.
"I know, I know." You whine, gently rocking him, backing away from the cold air that swept against your feet. "Hurry up, and close the door." His eyes roll, "Hello to you too." He closes the door and stomps off the snow from his boots before stepping out of them and hanging up his jacket.
"Woah, woah, what are you doing? This is just a pick-up, then you can have fun trying to calm him down at your place." Rafe stands still, his thumb gesturing to the door behind him, "You haven't seen the news, have you? They're closing the roads, so we're snowed in. The only reason I made it here is because of the suspension on my truck."
Your face turns sour and Max continues to cry.
"So why did you come in the first place if you knew you wouldn't be able to make it back?" He ignores your question for the most part, "Relax, baby. As excited as you are to see me, I didn't come for you. I came for my son. There he is," Rafe's expression lights up as he reaches for Max and takes him out of your hold.
"Rafe you can't just take him and expect him to calm-"
For the first time in seven hours, silence consumes the room. No more screams and tearful cries. "You've got to be fucking with me," You don't say it loudly, but Rafe still hears.
"Guess he was just missin' his daddy, huh? Isn't that right, Max?" Rafe's tone is playful as he pokes at Max's tummy which elicits tiny giggles and the brightest smile you'd seen all day.
You walk away, headed towards the kitchen. Not sure why you were moving so fast, Rafe was hot on your heels. "It's not your fault, it's probably just been a long day-" He finally shuts the fuck up with his smug remarks when he hears a soft cry, "Y/n," Your name rolls off his tongue, tender and sweet. "Baby, what's wrong?" Effortlessly, he supports Max with one hand while he reaches to turn you so you're facing him.
Your eyes are filled with tears, lips quivering ever so slightly and he knows what's coming. He's seen you like this more times than he can count. He takes you under his arm, your cheek pressed to his chest and you break down, muttering into the fabric of his hoodie.
He comforts you with a big hand rubbing your back, soothing you the way he learned from those parenting books that he swear he never read. "It's so hard, Rafe." Is all you manage to say through broken cries for the first five minutes before you're pushing off him, expression more angry than upset? "He was crying all day, and the second you walk in, he's perfectly fine."
Rafe's lips frown, puzzled. "And that's a bad thing?--"
"Yes! Why do you get to be Superman?!" Earlier, the sound of a pin drop would disturb Max from calming, but now even your exclamations left him unfazed, as long as he was in Rafe's arms he was unbothered.
As a matter of fact, with a second glance, you notice he'd actually fallen asleep. Just Perfect. Another win for Superman.
He chuckles, leading you both to have a seat on the couch. Your son sleeping soundly in his father's hold. "Well, I think I've got the abs for it." His shit-eating grin spreads across his lips.
"You try carrying a baby in your stomach for nine months, and you tell me if you still have abs after." Subtly, his tongue wets his lips at the memory, "All I remember is how good you looked pregnant. Shit, wanna do it again?" You'd never wanted to hurt someone so badly.
"You're lucky you're holding my son." He scoffs, leaning in slightly as if to speak away from the baby. "I seem to remember the two of us going half on the conception, and a few times after that." You air-swat him and stand, making your way for the stairs. "I'm going to take a nap."
The hours flew by as you finally had your first uninterrupted nap in what felt like years. By the time you woke up, the sun was long gone, and there was a thick layer of fresh snow sitting on your window pane. You headed downstairs and stopped at the bottom of the steps to appreciate the view.
Nothing melted you quite like the sight of Rafe taking care of Max. You hated to admit it, but he was a good dad. A really good one. Hot, too. Rafe held the bottle to Max's lips, murmuring some undistinguishable babbles with a soft smile. Surely speaking a language only the two of them can understand.
"I hope you warmed the bottle before you gave it to him." You say, and he finally notices you standing by the stairs, stalking your way over and sitting beside him.He ignores you, knowing that you're just trying to get under his skin. "You look well rested." He remarks and you sigh with a soft nod. "Yeah, I am actually." He grins to himself, "Must be a miracle to sleep well on that cheap-ass mattress you got up there."
"Sorry, we can't all have premium mattresses." Rafe pulls the bottle back once he realizes Max has had his fill. "Y'know my money is your money right? I give you ten thousand a month but everything I have is yours, too." Standing him up on his lap first, Rafe holds the baby over his shoulder, gently patting his back.
"Well, I don't need to live in a fifteen thousand sq ft house to be happy unlike you." He shakes his head slowly, his gaze falls on you, somber. "I seem happy to you? I don't give a shit how big my place is. It's always going to be empty without you two in it... " He trails off, alluding there's more to come.
"Rafe.. What are you saying?"
"Move in with me, again." Your head shakes before you sputter profuse denials, "No, Rafe, we can't we tried that before remember? We don't get along. Technically, we're not even together." The conversation is briefly interrupted by a small gurgled burp on Max's behalf.
Rafe leans down to place a drowsy Max in his rocker in front of the couch before sitting back up. "Things were different then, we were eighteen. I can't do the back-and-forth anymore. Don't you wanna wake up in the morning, see that Max is taken care of and I'm making you breakfast, then we go back to bed and I take care of you? Huh?" He hums, his voice igniting sparks along the length of your neck as he nosed along it.
"Rafe.." your voice is shaky, feeling the heat from the discussion.
"Whadd'ya say, hm?" You reflect, having Rafe stay with you today, in just a few short hours you'd been able to take a break, he held you when you cried like he always did. You'd hardly even fought. Though that was no surprise, the two of you fought considerably less ever since Max came into the picture.
"Okay, yes." You can feel the lines from his smile stretch against your jaw just before he begins to pepper kisses on your cheek. "Y'know, we made the world's cutest baby ever right?" You smile, both your gazes focused on the little one before you.
"He's got your eyes, for sure." Rafe states and you giggle, "You're just saying that because they're brown." He sits up straight, heartfully disagreeing. "I'm not. They're the same eyes that I fell in love with when I first laid my eyes on you, and the same ones that humbled me when they looked up at me for the first time in the NICU."
His words were touching. You're seeing a whole new side of him. Not the usually hot-headed and impulsive man you were used to. This one was sweeter, softer, and more sincere.
You reeled him in for the first kiss, his lips soft as they pressed against yours, his hands confidently holding you at your waist. "Ah, I see you're taking me up on my previous offer. Let's go for a girl this time, yeah?" He grins, and you pinch him.
#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#rafe x you#rafe cameron smut#rafe drabble#outer banks smut#rafe obx#outer banks imagines#rafe smut#rafe cameron blurb#rafe x reader#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe cameron x you#rafe blurb#rafe cameron imagine#rafe fic#rafe cameron fanfiction#bsf!rafe#rafe cameron drabble#rafe outer banks#rafe cameron fic#drew starkey smut#drew starkey#obx fic#outer banks#outerbanks rafe#obx#dilf rafe cameron#dilf rafe#baby daddy rafe
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thinking about getting walked in on by topper and kelce and rafe getting embarrassed <3 (no smut but suggestive)
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you're sat on rafe's lap, knees hugging his hips while his hands are planted firmly on your waist. the sun casts a golden hue over the living room as you're sat on the sofa, his piercing blue eyes boring into yours, soft smile gracing his lips.
"i love you," you whisper, peppering gentle kisses down his nose, "you're my sweet angel."
you pull back just in time to see the tips of his ears turn red in embarrassment, his head falling backwards to avoid eye contact. you can't help but giggle at how shy he's become.
"stop," he groans, but wraps his arms tighter around your waist, "that's your name."
softly, you cup his face forcing him to meet your gaze, "now it can be yours too."
instead of responding, rafe leans forward capturing your lips in a kiss that soon deepens. your hands move from his face to the back of his neck, pulling him as close to you as possible. he moves his kisses to your neck, nipping and sucking at the skin while you pant and whine in his ear.
then, unexpectedly, the door swings open.
"well, well, well," topper's voice cuts through the room causing you and rafe to separate, chest's heaving, "what do we have here?"
"get out." rafe snaps, his voice clipped.
kelce follows right behind, stopping in his tracks at the sight in front of him. you immediately notice how rafe tenses underneath you, his usual cockiness diminishing to nothing but embarrassment. his hands drop to his sides and he hides his face in your neck, sighing loudly as topper and kelce continue laughing at the situation.
you roll your eyes, growing annoyed that they're still standing in the doorway, until an idea pops into your head. grabbing rafe's hands, you put them back on your waist and he looks up in confusion.
"shut up guys," you glance over your shoulder at them, tone sharp enough to make them pause, "we're in the middle of something."
they share a look, eyebrows furrowed until your hands drop to rafe's belt, slowly starting to undo it. rafe's eyes widen in shock, mumbling in your ear to stop.
"fuck no." kelce blurts, nearly tripping over his own feet at how fast he's out the door, topper following quickly behind.
the door slams shut and you turn to face rafe, his cheeks flushed and eyes wide. he can't decide if he's more embarrassed at being walked in on or turned on at how confidently you handled it.
"did you have to do that?" he groans, though he follows it with a laugh.
you simply shrug, fingers coming to trace his jaw, "they should've knocked."
#drew starkey#drew starkey imagine#drew starkey imagines#drew starkey x reader#obx#obx season 4#outer banks#outer banks imagine#outer banks imagines#queer#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe cameron imagines#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x you#rafe obx#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron smut#queer drew starkey#drew starkey x you#drew starkey smut#poguelandiarafe#rafe outer banks
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