#oopsie posted this on the wrong blog haha

[rockconsumer]

IAG, ready for Era 3!

Little doodle of an Era 3 design for IAG

[seahdalune]

Seana's 2023 art highlights

(surprisingly, not a reupload this time!)

January: i drew nothing! we're off to a great start.

February: i drew something! i love Champ even if i haven't drawn anything tf2 related since April. i think it was this piece where i decided to give Champ RED coloring. [link]

also, this is the month i made my second Moldy plush.... i wasn't very happy with this one, though. [link]

March: uhhhh. more of my tf2 ocs but i think those aren't that interesting. just go to my tf2 oc blog @brokenbrainstormbulb if you wanna see them honestly, i have an image limit to keep ffs. that said, this was around the time i got into TC2, so i drew a lot of that kind of stuff... i'm never drawing stuff for it ever again, sorry. [link]

April: look at the cool thing i drew for a fellow tf2 robot fan! now, this is the point in time where i start drawing more because of a certain interest, so look forward to all the art that'll come up here.....

May: wow, this really was my first public piece of Papa Louie art, huh. i was so proud of it when i showed it off on tumblr the first time... i don't like it as much anymore. for one, the office wall color is wrong.... i still can't believe Papa Louie was what got me out of art block, but god, i'm glad it did. i don't think i've drawn this much before, and even though the community's tiny, i'm glad to give back as much as i can. anyways, i said something like "it's so funny that people think they're either super married or divorced as hell" on the same post. i still think that, and it's defos funny as hell, but i've grown a kind of appreciation towards the ship as well. like yeah, you go girls, we love that extra slow burn with so many road bumps on the way! [link]

June: how the hell did i pump this out. this was also like a few days before i had to leave for the airport too... i don't know myself sometimes. i swear i still love Boigashipping! i just... i'm just busy with other ships okkkk [link]

July: i didn't draw anything...? i was in Bali. and i was busy selling adopt designs to draw anything substantial, oopsie! actually, i DID draw the first part of WDB... it's uh, still the only part. i'm sorry!!!! i'm sorry!!!! i swear i have the whole thing outlined!!! can you just give me anons about the story instead so you won't have to wonder what comes next!! [link]

August: TOSI fixation. it had not gone past it's conceptual stage, i must note. i do wish i would do something about it though. [link]

September: the art trade i did with my friend! actually, i was a few weeks late with my part, so it was supposed to be finished by August. oops. i like the textures tbh. my Chuseok drawings.... i need to draw more characters in hanbok, hee hee. [link]

October: (breaths in) ...this is the month i finally gave into the JoGotcha wantings. LOOK. ever since someone put the idea into my brain i couldn't get enough of it, and like,, nobody draws the ship anymore so i had to take matters into my own hands. this is the first ship i'm this obsessed with. i usually leave ship stuff to other people but this time that wasn't enough and i... i had to do SOMETHING, y'know? [link]

Cringetober? who's that? haha;; i stopped feeling like doing the whole list after less than a week. impressive.

November: oh look, Plushy Power League. Quinn didn't win, but i do like the thing i drew as propaganda, so whateves. the first Papa Louie character i ever drew (minus Chuck and Taylor)... did i change how i draw her? uhh. maybe? i'm not too sure. [link]

also look! the keychain drawing... i need to talk about my Gods and Monsters au again at some point. actually, since i last uploaded the image of my keychain, i revised it tons... it's kinda different now, and i defos think it looks better. this is actually the time i finally fixed the stupid display setting thing that was really messing up my coloring! [link 1] [link 2]

December: ...oops! tablet broke. and i got my 3ds back so i just didn't draw that much even after exams were over. didn't stop me from drawing though, and in fact i think i made something pretty neat with my christmas art.... even if it did come one day late. [link]

wow. that's a whole year of stuff... and that's defos a lot! i think i'm really happy with what i drew this year.... i don't know what was in my water the last few years but my art highlights felt really.... miserable? for some reason. i mean, yeah, i didn't do a lot of what i had planned (GOE ANIMATIC IM SORRY) but i can see that i've done just as much with my hands anyways, so like, who cares? plus, i always have next year... that's coming in 3 hours, oh god- so, maybe i won't be too hard on myself for not fulfilling my goals... like, i kinda glossed over it, but i did sell my designs for money, and that's like, really impressive! so many people around me buy and sell their art stuff already, so i guess i didn't really register it as something to be proud of... but doing that shit (making, and marketing) is hard!! so like, it's a wow moment for me!

anyways, i'm tired, i only came back home a few hours ago, and i need to get up again for church in a few hours.... mrphgdjd. lets stop being sentimental, and i'll see you people next year. that's a long way off! hope you don't miss me.

[rawrtriesagain]

Long post incoming idk how to do Read More on mobile, sorry. Tldr: just a post abt my writing as usual and stuff about my interest in lwa (nothing crazy)

I know I talk abt my old fuckin fics all the fuckin time (like Jesus theyre old enough to be considered toddlers now) but anyway this is my vent blog and y’all will never hear the end of it so guess what still has an absolute GRIP over my mind after 3 years

Its forest of arcan- im jk its dreamer of stars lmaooo. I reread it right now for the funsies after months of forgetting abt it, and each time I read it I think “surely I am over this story and can move on with my life” and like the first half of the story its like yea I kinda am over it haha but then the second half just obliterates the thoughts and runs me over and I just lay in my bed and contemplate my life and go into like a State of Emotions and simply have to talk about it (but it also could be because its 4am at the time of writing this)

I do think it mostly has to do with nostalgia though. Truthfully I’m probably not able to write smth like that again because it was 100% written completely on emotion and quite actually everything bad Diana was feeling in the story was smth i was also going through so it was easy to… write a vent and disguise it as a fic LOL. But I was also running on the high of being in love with my best friend which also really easily translated to everything going on in the fic blah blah nobody remembers it but me so this means nothing to anybody and im being cringe and gay on main (not even my main)

ANYWAY the point of my babbling here is that honestly I miss having that intense amt of emotions that would spur that level of creative writing? Like yea forest of arcana (not updated in over a year) is fun and all but it definitely isnt written on a personal level like dreamer was. I also just genuinely miss writing lol and its like ok bitch why dont you write then and then its like good question why dont i?? I probably still enjoy writing more than i do drawing and i know my blogs say otherwise but the two mediums are both definitely different outlets for my life. Maybe i would change my mind the day my art is actually good tho 😛

Im laffing rn seeing me talk abt this “deep” different outlets of life cause like when u think abt it im also literally just Currently describing little witch fanfic and fanart since thats all i do LOL. Not that theres anything wrong with lwa being my Muse of course, but it just adds humor in whatever the emo hell im going on about

Another side sad mini vent but i dont think im as into lwa as i used to be which also waters down my interests in doing things, but im literally not interested in any other media or fandom rn either so lwa stays my hyperfixation. Plz dont be alarmed lol im not saying im NOT into lwa anymore since diana is still a fuckin god to me like 10/10 chara design and vibes, but its definitely not as strong as it was when i first joined the fandom 3 years ago. And you know what maybe it has to do with me not watching little witch academia in full in those entire three years after i first watched it lmao. Most of the friends ive made in the fandom are pretty much gone too which is sad but is what it is. Sometimes i get a burst of seratonin when i think about smth diakko and definitely like now when i reread my fics i also remember the Emotions i had for these Gays and it like floods back for a bit like a buff.

I think something im very interested in for both the spark of writing and also the revitalization for my love for diakko is that i wanna do like a oneshot slice of life series for diakko. Just something easy, cute, subjectively funny, and a vibe. I still fantasize abt diakko shenanigans even if mundane and i wish i could also capture it more in my art but im not at that level yet, so writing it is. First i probably need to rewatch lwa in full since ive forgotten most everything except for key diana scenes haha oopsie And sucy world episode that was a good fuckin episode.

Anyway thanks for reading this far if you did lol sorry for the LONG ASS NONSENSE POST. Sometimes i see how i type in my blog and to people and compare it to my writing and its like where the hell did my comprehensive english go. Sorry if this was just hard to read from the lack of grammar and punctuation but thats showbiz anyway stay tuned for the next diana content ttyl bffl rofl xD zomg

[wickymicky]

weki meki are the only ult i have those kinds of posts for though lol. by the time i made this sideblog, i already listened to loona, fromis, and dc

[islandpcosjourney]

Honesty

6th July 2019

So I briefly mentioned in my last post why I hadn’t written in so long and now its been 2 months since I started this particular post! I’ve been scared about my honesty. Is it a good idea? My family background would tell me no, as we were a very private family, as was the way in the highlands and islands, but the modern way is to be open and honest. I’m not saying I’m modern in any respect but the option is there now that its OK to be open and honest. Folk have applauded me for my honesty and said that its inspired them. The idea of writing honestly is to help me but if it helps someone else in the process, then surely it��s a good thing to keep doing?

Back to the Harp Festival again. This year I got to cuddle lots and lots of babies. I knew I was going to see at least one new baby, my mum had asked me to get a baby present organised before I came down, so I was prepared for that at least. I was not, in any way, prepared for some of the reactions I got. Had I not have written previously about my infertility, I probably wouldn’t have had this reaction from a new mum. On being surprised to see someone with their new little one (surprised as I didn’t know that they were actually coming), I was asked if I was ok with it, they weren’t sure if I’d want to see them or meet their wee one. Wow, that was unexpected! It was of course, said in the nicest possible way by someone who clearly didn’t want to upset me or put me in a difficult situation. Someone who’d had difficulties themselves and had my best interests at heart but in every scenario I’ve ever thought about, having an issue being around a new baby & their parents was never something I remotely considered. And I didn’t have an issue. I laughed at the suggestion that I might, but at the same time, I was confused. Was I meant to have a different reaction? Had I made out in my blog that I was so upset about babies that I couldn’t be around them? I hope not! I love babies and children! So naturally (to me) I couldn’t wait to give this new bundle of joy a big Màiri cuddle! I was in my element meeting them and hearing all about their journey into the world. Genuinely! I love being around babies, I get giddy every time! Eventually when they woke up, it was my turn to get cuddles and I was in my element!! Unfortunately, I probably could have chosen a better occasion/timing to do this as this was the evening where everyone was meeting up again for the first time since the previous harp fest and it was at this moment when I got caught out. A couple I hadn’t seen for probably longer than a year, suddenly caught my eye. They were near enough to us and had my Mum with them. Their eyes shot out of their heads as they practically screamed over to me “oh my goodness, this isn’t Màiri’s is it?”. My heart sunk. I was so embarrassed for the new parents who’s child I was holding. This was their moment to introduce their wee bundle to everyone and here was I cuddling them with a couple who knew me getting the wrong impression, thinking the child was mine. I think I covered up well enough by laughing and correcting them very quickly (as I then watched their faces drop in disappointment) but my poor mum - we exchanged a look that clearly (in just a split second) said “this is awkward, yes my heart has just been ripped out, yes I’m disappointed, yes their reaction is going to affect me later but right now I’m having the time of my life celebrating this wee one’s arrival into the world and their first ever harp festival!”. All that in a split second, oh yes! After that, my only thought was really to move on, place the baby back in their pram and run away! But, I knew that would be too obvious so I stayed a little longer to not arouse suspicion and dealt with the whole situation calmly.

Later, while meeting yet more people, on my own this time, no baby in tow haha; somebody asked me how I was and how old was my baby as they’d seen me with one earlier. Oh dear, not again! I was a pro at this now, knocking them back, watching them look embarrassed/silly – big oopsies! But all the time, keeping a straight face and letting nobody know that inside, I was feeling useless as a woman. Needless to say they were folk who weren’t aware of my difficulties and had no idea that comments such as “oh it’ll be you next” or “soon though!” were hurtful enough, they didn’t have to rub it in by saying how close and natural I had looked with the child. I could take that to heart negatively or I could take that to heart positively. I looked natural with a baby. Of course I did. I’m already a mum in my heart. I just don’t have a child to prove it. I have my two cats and my doggie, I’m their mamaidh (Gaelic for mummy) and I love them and care for them as if they were my children. I have my students, who I look out for as if they were my own but I guess I don’t have many children around me that I would babysit for instance or be around for longer than a general visit to see their parents. I am definitely missing that kind of interaction in my life.

Then it happened again! The next day, with another baby, while the new parents relaxed on the sofa nearby and had a well deserved rest for a few mins, I took this baby into my arms and cuddled her as if she were my own, just natural, normal, no fuss, talking away to them with no concern that I was doing anything wrong, they were comfortable in my arms and all was well. Then somebody walks by with that same look of “Oh wow, Màiri, I had no idea you’d had a baby”. There it is again, that feeling of immense hurt and pain AND embarrassment. “No they’re not mine, they’re the parents!” I laughed it off, everyone around me did, except that look again from Mum – “Yes I know, this is hard” - but again, the completely innocent assumption from a passer by, clearly shows that I look comfortable with a child, in a way that makes people jump to the conclusion that they’re my child. So many feelings – Joy, Elation, Despair, Pain, Embarassment, Shock, Peace – all at once.

So why is it, that 2 months on, those feelings haven’t gone away? They may not be all at once but they’re there, every day, in some form. I have days where the pain is so great that I just want to scream. Instead, I cry silently. I have days where I thank my lucky cards that I don’t have children! Days where things are going so wrong that I couldn’t imagine having that kind of day where adding children into the mix may make things a lot more complicated! How do parents fit everything in?! Days where I think that everyone else is winning at life and I’m the only one failing. Days where I think I would be the best mum ever. Days where I think I’d be the worst mum ever. Days where I think that if there’s only one more thing I wanted to do with my life, it would be to bring up a child, whether they’re mine or adopted. Days where I realise that it may never happen. I’m sometimes ok with that. Sometimes not. I’m very grateful for the life that I do have. It is the life that God intends me to have but he doesn’t half make it hard to accept his plan for me and trust that he’s looking after my best interests!

[zekhromss]

the concept of being a harmless/sfw and minors blog only to ""accidentally"" post blatantly horny and NSFW content as a joke has never been nor will ever be funny. as an adult and internet persona who's been around for at least a year you know full well your audience and range given you receive a 10k+ notes on majority of your posts.

and then to play it off as a joke, first as "oopsies wrong blog :3" and then "haha but maybe??" is disgusting beyond words. to disappear to twitter where you're caught following actual legitimate pedophiles and then to act like "oh i'm so silly and sorry pwease let me know if i do anything bad >.< i'm just a little fishy and i'm learning" when you are NINETEEN YEARS OLD is beyond me. stop playing the victim and step up as an adult. mental illness does not excuse you from any of this @i-am-a-fish

fish literally posting about being a fucktoy and then having subsequent reblogs onto it about how "but if anyone's interested haha" is literally sending me into a blind rage. you're 19 and you know your following consists of minors who view you as a positivity/wholesome blog. literally i hope you fucking choke.

[mystic-messenger-scenarios]

Love this new blog! I'm always hunting for them~ As for my first request here, how about a hc with the RFA finding out that MC is pregnant (4-7 months already) while she's in the apartment. She's not dating someone, her boyfriend left town when he found out. Haha this might be a cliché headcanon but what do you think? :D Thank you if you do it~

Thank you! Assuming this isplatonic rfa and they don't have a crush or anything on mc (it’s pretty short sorry (except Zen’s, oopsies), i thought a lot of it depended on how mc was handling it and the personal situation)

Yoosung :

he'd be veryshocked and upset that a man – or anyone for that matter – wouldleave because they don't want to be a parent; he was always taught tobe responsible, especially of his girlfriend

he'd be impressed bymc for being so strong and trying to make it through this reallydifficult time and would do anything he can to help even though hedoesn't know much about pregnancy, he'd still want to be there for mcbecause no one should be left alone in this situation

Zen : 

ready to find theex-boyfriend and beat the shit out of him & quite possibly askhim to take responsibility by giving mc a monthly financial support +pay part of the expenses during pregnancy and after the baby is born.

he'd be disgusted tosee that someone could treat a person, a pregnant woman above all,like this. He never disrespected women even  when he was younger andhe flirted with a lot; he always thought that, if somethingwent wrong and that despite the precautions taken to avoid it, he'dtake care of his girlfriend and the baby if she ended up pregnant –even if he didn't want to be a father

he might get alittle overprotective, seeing mc as a sister and he needs toprotect her and the baby; he'd look after her, make sure she eats andtakes care of herself and if she couldn't live alone or couldn't paythe rent, he'd ask her to come live with him, at least until the babyis born

uncle Zen who sees thebaby as a chance to give them the childhood he never had and whogives the best pep talks ever and is supportive & chill af

Jaehee : 

might karate chopthe ex-bf in the nuts so hard, that he'll give all his money to mc andapologize for a whole month

she'd feel bad thatmc has to go through that and while she thinks there's not much shecan do, she'll offer to have mc stay at her apartment so things canbe less stressful even though she won't be able to offer much companybc of how much she works

Jumin: 

probably tries tosue the ex in order to get half of his pay check to go to mc

is ready to buy ahouse and hire a bunch of maids, cooks and midwives to look after mc andensure the pregnancy will go well

would buy all of thethings for pregnancy + for the baby + for mc; family is important tohim and even though it's not his family, he only wants the child togrow up in the best environnment bc having only one parent might behard to live with – his mother wasn't very present or loving to himand he doesn't want someone else to suffer from that

707 :

hacks the ex'sbank account and gives the money to mc + probably hacks and posts oneach of his social network's accounts what he did (+ he textshis mother to let her know what he's done, yeah have fun with the lecture your mom'sgonna give you)

won't offer to comelive with him since he's not the best company on a daily basis bc ofhis work + with how messy his house is + the lack of food, it's not ideal for a pregnant woman

but, he'll alreadymake a bunch of toys and things he never had when he was a child andwill always check up on mc – he's the best person to call if mc hasa sudden weird craving in the middle of the night since he doesn'tsleep

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Oopsie doopsie, posted this on the wrong blog haha

IAG, ready for Era 3!

Little doodle of an Era 3 design for IAG