#onewaylove

[girltalkcollectives]

Loving Someone Who Doesn't Love You Back

This entry is from an old relationship

Have you ever felt like you're the only one trying in a relationship? Like you're pouring your entire heart into something while they're just... there?

I'm sitting in my car right now, typing this on my phone because I can't be in my apartment. Because he's there, probably not even noticing that I left an hour ago. Probably hasn't even looked up from his game to realize I'm gone. And the worst part? I already know when I go back, I'll act like everything's fine.

It's such a specific type of heartbreak - loving someone who doesn't love you back but stays anyway. Because that's the thing: he stays. He's still here. Still says "goodnight." Still goes through the motions. But that's all they are - motions.

I keep a list in my notes app of all the signs I try to ignore:

How he takes hours to reply to my texts but I can see him active online.

The fact that he hasn't said "I love you" in months, just replies "you too" when I say it.

How he only wants to see me when it's convenient for him.

The way he talks about his future without mentioning me in it.

You know what the worst part is? I'm not even angry at him. I'm angry at myself. For staying. For making excuses. For thinking maybe if I love him hard enough, he'll start loving me back. For becoming the kind of person who checks their boyfriend's likes on Instagram at 3am, looking for signs of what I already know.

Tonight he asked what I wanted for dinner like everything was normal. Like I hadn't spent the whole day crying in my car because he forgot my birthday. Like he hadn't introduced me as his "friend" at last week's party. Like I haven't been dying inside every time he pulls away when I try to hold his hand in public.

My best friend keeps asking why I stay. I wish I had a better answer than "because I love him." But that's the whole stupid truth. I love him. I love him so much it physically hurts. I love him even though I know - I KNOW - he doesn't love me back.

Do you know how pathetic it feels to plan your whole day around someone who probably doesn't think about you at all? To get excited when they text you first, only to realize they just need something? To lie awake at night wondering what she has that you don't? (Because there's always a "she" - the one they like on every post, the one they talk about a little too much, the one they light up around in a way they never do with you.)

The dumbest part is that I keep waiting for some big dramatic moment. Like maybe one day it'll get so bad that leaving will feel like the only option. But it's not big dramatic moments. It's small things. It's a thousand paper cuts of indifference.

It's the way he doesn't ask about my day.

It's the half-hearted hugs.

It's the "maybe next time" when I suggest doing something together.

It's the way he can go weeks without seeing me and it doesn't bother him at all.

It's how he never puts his phone down when we're together.

It's the fact that I can't remember the last time he was excited to see me.

My mom always said you should be with someone who loves you as much as you love them. I used to think that was just something people say. Now I understand. Now I know exactly what she meant. Because this? This isn't it.

But here's the really messed up part - I'm still hoping things will change. Still analyzing every tiny gesture for signs that maybe he's starting to feel something real. Still trying to be the perfect girlfriend, like if I just try hard enough, he'll suddenly realize he loves me too.

I know how this ends. I've read this story before. I'm not stupid. I know he's never going to wake up one day and suddenly love me the way I love him. I know I deserve better than someone who makes me feel like an option.

But knowing you deserve better and actually leaving are two very different things.

So here I am, sitting in my car, writing this post. And in a few minutes, I'll go back upstairs. He won't ask where I've been. I won't tell him I've been crying. We'll go to sleep on opposite sides of the bed, and tomorrow we'll wake up and do it all again.

Because sometimes the hardest part isn't loving someone who doesn't love you back.

It's knowing they don't love you back and staying anyway.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

I once begged someone to love me the way I loved them and that's the saddest thing I've ever done.

[thezodiacmagic-blog]

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[1991movierewind]

In our most recent episode (Episode 89), we discuss E.G. Daily's music career from the 80s up to her audition on The Voice in 2013. Videos: "Say It, Say it" (1985) "One Way Love" in the movie Better Off Dead (1985) "Mind Over Matter" in the movie Summer School (1987) "Breathe" audition on The Voice #egdaily #elizabethdaily #sayitsayit #onewaylove #betteroffdead #mindovermatter #summerschool #breathe #thevoice #tommypickles #buttercup https://www.instagram.com/p/CluHe1rvKzu/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[solojihyo]

FAVORITE RELEASES OF 2022

i was tagged by @wonjinist, @lisanamjoon, and @moonbyulys to share my favorite releases from this year! thank you all for the tag <3

it took me awhile to figure out what to include on this list - there are so many title tracks and bsides i enjoyed this year that aren't on here, but the ones i did include are releases i thoroughly loved. favorite releases of 2022:

smiley by yena // smiley, lxxk 2 u

invu by taeyeon // invu, can't control myself, set myself on fire

oddinary by stray kids // maniac, lonely st., charmer

love dive by ive // love dive, royal

minisode 2: thursday's child by txt // opening sequence, trust fund baby, thursday's child has far to go

face the sun by seventeen // hot, darl+ing, shadow

im nayeon by nayeon // pop!, no problem, love countdown

we need love by stayc // beautiful monster, love, i like it

between 1&2 by twice // talk that talk, brave, basics

antifragile by le sserafim // antifragile, no celestial

honorable mentions (from artists who aren't on this list already):

youth / , (comma) by kihyun

drive by miyeon

underwater by kwon eunbi

loveable by jo yuri

the astronaut by jin

shout out by enhypen

voltage / blah blah blah by itzy

i'm pretty late to doing this, so feel free to ignore if you've already done this / don't want to! tagging: @yoojimz @minghao-s @sahyoz @ddaengddeongz @lserlver @lixblr @pink-vacancy @jeongtokkie @woozi @dokyeomblr @kimsmingyu @soolucky @onewaylover

[wnjunhui]

2022 by astronautjin

it’s been a year since i got into kpop and created this sideblog and wow, it's been quite the journey. i'm just grateful for the wonderful artists i've discovered in the past months, the new fandoms and specially the wonderful people.

i will mention some specific people, but i shoutout to:

the armys who started following me when i was an exclusively bts blog and stuck around after i became a multi

caratblr for welcoming me into the fandom that i've enjoyed the most in my entire life

content creator, for all your hard work and talent, you're a constant inspiration

now i will mention some mutuals who i enjoy seeing in my dash:

@tomlinsun @eggjinnie @userjungkook97 @userjiminie @literalsunhobi @jinstronaut @leesjieuns @rkivedfiles @nosfelixculpa @lovehui @seunievrse @lesbianlovestay @hansolz @jeongtokkie @raplinenthusiasts @jeonwonwoo @junranghae @hoeranghae @moon-jun @kookjinnies @lgtbz @vampirehannie @kimsmingyu @isdokyeom @coupsnim @akhire @scoups @minghao-s @8junhao @pjmsdior @grvywaren @lovejoshua @usershua @joanwtsn @shuaseok @onewaylover @wonuj @kveom @mingyudk @y2kjungkook (i hope i’m not forgetting anyone, i’m bad with remembering urls 😭)

finally, i want to say that i really appreciate all of you and i hope this new year brings only good things to you. know that my inbox/messages are always open and i love to chat, but i'm shy. you can also follow me on ig where i post a bunch of kpop stuff that my irls are tired of seeing lol 

note: my main is @matchingbees in case you see that blog in your notifications/replies, that’s me lol

[sassycravings]

Tonight i wish you were mine

But tomorrow i'll be fine. 🤞

[melisinspace]

Overthinking.

After all of the time

you were always in my mind..

I tried. I tried to change, tried to forget

 - everything means nothing if i can´t ,,have” you

[thekirakira]

// Yêu một người không yêu mình, tức là quá khứ không ai trân trọng, hiện tại không có quyền can dự, tương lai không thể đón chờ...

Không có quan hệ gì với nhau, mới là sự lựa chọn tốt nhất. //

[chaelin26]

One Way Love ( 너 밖에 몰라 = You only know yourself) [English Version]

Yeah you think I’m selfish That’s what I thought about you You need to get it straight Oh no no so selfish love You’re so selfish boy ye

You decide on what we eat You do whatever you want When we fight and make up, you do it your way My thoughts aren’t that important to you

We still don’t know love You still need to experience it, you need to be in more pain We still don’t know how to break up You’re really a bad boy, you will regret this

You only know yourself, you only know yourself You only know yourself, you only think about you, boy You only know yourself, you only know yourself You only know yourself, stop driving me crazy

One way one way, my love, one way No way no way, stop doing whatever you want One way one way, my love, one way No way no way

You don’t let me meet my friends But you go out drinking all night long You don’t even know how my heart is rotting away But you’re so busy taking care of your friends

We still don’t know love You still need to experience it, you need to be in more pain We still don’t know how to break up You’re really a bad boy, you will regret this

You only know yourself, you only know yourself You only know yourself, you only think about you, boy You only know yourself, you only know yourself You only know yourself, stop driving me crazy

One way one way, my love, one way No way no way, stop doing whatever you want One way one way, my love, one way No way no way

Ok let’s go Are you finished? Every time we decide something You do it on your own without love or care You’re a selfish guy who only thinks about himself I’m a victim, I regret this the more I think about it It’s obvious, I know what you said to your friends about me Why don’t you know that that’s just spitting in your own face? Ask anyone if what you’re doing is love

No no no no~

One way one way, my love, one way No way no way, stop doing whatever you want One way one way, my love, one way No way no way

[tuamigadeconfianza]

-Y aunque pudiera volver atrás no cambiaría nada, porqué gracias a eso soy lo que soy ahora.

[tamaishikayo-art]

「君を守らせて」I want to protect you /2019

[notgoodenough231]

Feel so unappreciated i give my all to the ones i love and i get nothing back 😢 i wish they could see how much i need to be loved in return 😔 💔

[sakurailady]

One Way Love ~ 💖 #nowlistening🎧 #nowplaying▶  #kpop #koreanpop #southkorea🇰🇷 #crossgene #onewaylove https://www.instagram.com/p/CT2o1Z0Mjk6/?utm_medium=tumblr

[clutteredideasinside]

Random Thoughts

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사이터스 II (Cytus II) - Tsukasa - One Way Love COVER https://youtu.be/Bx3riBtTz10 #사이터스II #CytusII #Tsukasa #OneWayLove #COVER https://www.instagram.com/p/CNz0AmclV6N/?igshid=1g17pg1r1t6oj