#one thing is sure is that i am in love with tharn so let's leave it at that

[spicyvampire]

OMG IT'S BLORBO BLEEBUS!!! [insp. x x x]

THE SIGN (2023 - 2024)

[bunnakit]

hellooo i love reading your opinions but im too shy to ask you this off anon so here it is. I’m like you enjoying the sign and loved the direction of the recent ep so I don’t really understand the divisive reactions on tumblr esp since twitter seems to always heap praise on the show. what are your thoughts on how phaya tharn’s relationship has been paced? and how do you think it may be concluded? I saw some people on here being disheartened and expecting a sad ending but I don’t really see that to be the case and I for one have loved their r/s pacing and also the mythology (my main gripe would be some of the way the cases were handled). but what’s your opinion on that and why people here are more divisive about the show? (While all opinions are valid some of the criticism almost feels nitpicky but I would love to hear your thoughts on this!)

QUICK NOTE- ANON SENT THIS BEFORE THIS SATURDAY'S EPISODE, SO THIS ABOUT EPS 1-8 hello love!! sorry it took me a bit to put together my thoughts and feel like my brain was put together and, well, i still haven't accomplished that but i didn't want to leave you on read any longer. also you're ALWAYS welcome to DM me here or discord or wherever! but i totally get being too shy lol despite how i am on the dash i am also very shy

so, i can kind of understand where people are coming from in that there wasn't a lot of courting between phaya and tharn which may make it seem like their relationship was fast tracked. idk, i'm not entirely sure what other people's thoughts are on it, i've kind of just been scrolling past posts that have complained or seemed like they didn't like it. i welcome everyone's opinions but i don't always want to read all of them (and i expect people not to read mine if it's not for them.)

i think it's important to keep in mind that courtship can look different for everyone and while they didn't go on dates, didn't overtly flirt, etc. they've been performing a delicate dance between each other and flirting very much in their own ways (from the hat tugs, the sparring, the attitude.) sometimes flirting is being obnoxious, getting on someone's nerves simply because you know how. half the time my husband flirts with me is my driving me fucking crazy because he's the only person in the world that knows exactly what makes me tick.

i think it also helps to keep in mind the fantasy element here; that wansarut and sakuna live inside tharn and phaya and are drawn towards each other and i think sometimes tharn and phaya's own feelings and attraction have to play catch up. i think some elements of their dynamic were very much both tharn not wanting to get close because of his fears but also not fully realizing the depths of his feelings because they seemingly came out of nowhere (wansarut.)

overall, i've really enjoyed the pacing, enjoyed how they've fallen together through various circumstances, how we've seen tharn's resistance dwindle until he finally had to let himself have the object of his desire. i also think it's a very adult relationship, it's really not all that messy or complicated once you remove the fantasy elements. sometimes desire comes first and love comes later. sometimes things begin physical and end in love.

there is no set roadmap for romance or relationships and to pigeon hole BL couples into a set pattern is a little silly in my opinion. their journey just looks a little different, it doesn't mean they aren't in love. we also have to keep in mind that there's so much going on in this show plot wise that to focus more on romance and courtship would steal time away from other elements that are already struggling to get addressed.

"but doesnt that mean the show is trying to do too much?"

sure, but i'd rather a show strive to do too much than do too little. i love to see the ambition and the passion behind it and even if things aren't concluded perfectly there's so much the sign has done right (addressing that men are also victims of sexual assault, constantly reminding us that tharn - while smaller and seemingly more 'effeminate' - is still every bit as strong and capable as phaya, the continuous reminders that they are a switch partnership, showing us that sex can be goofy and funny with khem and thongtai, etc.) i'd much rather all of this than to watch a show that made me feel nothing at the end of the day and the show has done SO much to educate foreigners on Thai culture. (the copaganda could go tho, we all know i'm an ACAB bitch so i DO have to wear blinders during those scenes lmao)

sorry- i got a wee bit off track. ANYWAY how would i like to see it concluded?

i'm a little torn because there are so many ways i'd be happy. i'd be happy if they finally rid themselves of chalothorn forever and were finally able to be together in peace. (i think everyone's ideal ending)

i'd be happy with a timeline where phaya dies to protect tharn in a reverse parallel of their first life, with a renewed promise.

i'd be happy if they died together and began the cycle once again.

two of these i recognize are HELLA unpopular opinions, but there's really not much this show could do to make me unhappy as long as they stick to the story and the narrative foils they've put in place. i think the only thing i would be unhappy with is if something felt like it came out of left field.

thank you SO much for this ask. i was so flattered i read it out loud to my husband the other day. i'm always SO open to asks like this and really find it so sweet that anyone out there values my opinion at all, i'm just a silly little guy

[life-rewritten]

THE GIANTS OF THAI BL 2020 AKA SHOWS STEALING MY HEART IN NOVEMBER

UPDATE AND UPCOMING ANALYSIS NOVEMBER 2020

It's the moment I've been waiting for since the excruciating silence of Thai BLS during the lockdown. It's November, the month of thanksgivings, the month of pre-Christmas jitters, nanowrimo and the month that has finally made me realise we are so close to ending this godforsaken year. Still, most of all, November means that we are getting buttloads of shows that are about to take my breath away. This year has been such an exciting year for BLS because of the increasingly amount of companies and directors willing to produce and release different types of BLS. In this list, we have awaited sequels, delicious plotlines and shocking comebacks. But most of all we have lots and lots of romance and men. Which of these have you been waiting for? Let me know. Let's squeal about it. November is going to be so great!

Ratings: From 1 to 5 (1 being least excited to watch, 5 being most,) how excited am I to delve into these shows?

Shows already airing

1.I TOLD SUNSET ABOUT YOU/ INTERPRET, MY LOVE, WITH YOUR HEART

Genre/Themes: Romance, Melodrama, Coming of Age, Angst, Drama, Childhood friendship

Country: Thailand

Verdict: So finally I rise from the memories of poorly produced bls, and pains of bad acting, and toxic writings, and traumas of stiff actors and homophobic agendas to finally say that without a doubt. Nadao has produced another masterpiece after my other favourite (Non) BL; Greater Man academy. Nadao stuns me, and for a very long time, I couldn't understand that this was how everyone was feeling, one because I wasn't fully educated or in the know about the company, I only saw tv shows in Thailand that were produced by GMMTV and to be honest I didn't think there was anything else above that standard in shows apart from Lakorns and Movies. (I know Sacrebleu) Getting to know and watch Nadao shows has been an experience, and for BL, I am hooked and ready for what else they have to offer. The only qualms that prevent me from gushing about the show are how international fans are treated. It took me a very long time to forgive ITSAY for its subbing platform (and price range), and that's why I refused to watch it with positive feelings. After episode 2 though, I'd be a fool to hold on to resentment when there is no doubt that this BL (despite not knowing if it's a sad ending. I'd hate if it is but it wouldn't change anything) is the best BL of this year. With ridiculous, incredible production, outstanding breathtaking cinematography, beautiful and talented actors and writing so good it blows me away. Episode 2 left my heart in pieces, but in a good way, I haven't recovered from the angst.

Ratings: 4.5/5 Would have been a 5/5 if the pricing made sense but also I'm terrified about a sad ending which I won't be too happy about.

2. FRIEND FOREVER/ OUR LOVE IS SICK

Genre/Themes: Romance, Music, Coming of Age, Angst, Drama, Childhood friendship, Rich vs poor,  Bullying 

Country: Thailand

Verdict: It's a pity this show is not available for international fans. Because I think people would actually love this show the way I do. It's so precious, reminds me so much of my first ever BL Lovesick (made by the same production team so makes sense) but better. What can I say about this show, really adorable cast, actually so good on the screen, great chemistry, and good storylines that keep me hooked. I am so in love with surprisingly one of my favourite couples this year Tin and Sea. I have such a great time watching this show, and I enjoy also analysing and just piecing together some of the mysteries in the show. It's been so good so far, and I can't wait for more. The first episodes are a little slow-paced, but it gets better as you keep watching it. I'd advise you to watch the director's cut because that has all of the storylines in the episode instead of the tv version which is more censored and has a lot of deleted scenes that mess with the flow of the storyline. Still, one of my favourite Thai shows right now. 

Ratings: 4/5  I think 4/5 is a fair score just because of some confusion when trying to watch it internationally and getting the right version and I do think the story feels like a whiplash between the different styles of writing of the main two couples. Go watch this though if you haven't, dm me and I'll show you how. 

NON-THAI

3. GAYA SA PELIKULA

Genre/Themes: Romance, Drama, Comedy, Angst, LGBTQ+ Education, Contract relationship, Haters to lovers

Country: Philippines 

Verdict: Normally with verdicts, I have so much to say about a show, also when I analyse I can write essays and essays of information. When it comes to this show, I'm speechless. I'm in awe; I'm crying just even trying to explain how great this show is. How great Fridays are because of this show. How upsetting and damaged I am when the end of the episode occurs, I literally mourn waiting for the next episode the next week because it's too long. This show pulls you in, and it never lets you go. I'm mindblown by the writing of this show, mindblown by the acting, by the production, music, but most of all I have become a mess because of this meta in this show. I have cried so much because of how much I care about this show, the characters are all fleshed out, are so powerfully written, and emotionally tugs at your heartstrings whilst still educating and representing LGBTQ community fantastically. I don't know what we did to deserve a show like this. Maybe its because after years of waiting for something to finally show up and just be unproblematic and be so great with no questions, no confusions, no struggle, this show is just that. And I will be forever thankful to the whole team that brought this to us

Ratings: 5/5 I would give this more than 5 if I could. That's how much this show means to me. 

4. CHERRY MAGIC 

Genre/Themes: Romance, Comedy, Supernatural, Office drama, Slice of Life

Country: Japan

Verdict: Kurosawa and Adachi. That's it. That's the reason for the 5/5 stars when it comes to watching this show. First of all, I like Japanese romantic comedy shows, and anime, and manga. So seeing cherry magic come to life as this amazing form of that makes me so happy. Typically with Japanese BL, everything feels so serious sometimes, and then sometimes it feels too crazy and over the top. But Cherry Magic just feels like a warm hug when you watch it; you can't help your self but to smile and giggle at Adachi's adventures realising that he can read minds because he's a virgin at 30 years old. To add to that, he is given Kurosowa this incredible, amazing, wonderful non-toxic man who absolutely adores him and unconditionally is there for him. I just like what? Where do I get my own Kurosawa? Like it just feels so unfair haha. But really cherry magic is full of great acting, fantastic plot and unique as well. Every character is also written well, and all have interesting dynamics. We also have another side couple who is so funny and ridiculous but also just cute and heartwarming. I have a great time watching this show and the fact that it's ending on Christmas day? Already tells you what this show is, a gift and its a great one. 

Ratings: 5/5 I want my own Kurosawa. That's it. That's all I want Universe.

Shows Upcoming

5. THARNTYPE 7 YEARS OF LOVE

Genre/Themes: Romance, Drama, Comedy,  Mature, LGBTQ+ Representation, Internalised homophobia, Sequel

Country: Thailand

Verdict: This is a complicated show to gush about. First of all TharnType, the series in 2019 was one of my favourite shows that brought me back to this BL thing. I absolutely adore all the actors, and I also loved the storyline like I said before there's something about Mame's writing that I appreciate, I think most of her strengths is found in TharnType. Because of this, this sequel is one of my most anticipated show this year. However, I feel conflicted because I hate sequels. I hate couples having to go through the weird-ass, shallow, conflicts that just end up ruining the meaning of their previous show and leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth about the couple I once loved (Looking at you Together with me the next chapter still traumatised honestly). Enough of the negatives, Tharn and Type from the trailer looks like it's going to be a wild ride, I can even see the great chemistry that made me fall for MewGulf, and I'm so excited to see the new couples and characters. I also am so excited to see TECHNO again and laugh with him every Friday. We also know that the awaited wedding between our couple is also going to be in this show. And that's going to make me bawl like a baby. Let's hope we don't have too many toxic or troublesome storylines, let's hope we don't have too many breakups and fights (because that hurts so much seeing Mew cry) and let's hope we finally have a sequel that is better than its predecessor. 

Ratings: 4.5/5  This is how I feel about it, I don't think I can rate it as 5/5 because of all the worry and anxiety at what the storyline entails—still a great show to look forward to. 

6. MANNER OF DEATH

Genre/Themes: Romance, Crime, Mature, Angst, Drama, Mystery, Thriller, Haters to Lovers

Country: Thailand

Verdict: Think about it. Why wouldn't this be number one on everyone's list of upcoming BLS? We have the return of one of the best actors in this genre MaxTul the actual godfathers of Thai BL; we have an incredible team here with a director that has won multiple awards, with a storyline that is unique to Thai BL, we're getting crime, detective, mystery BL with mature characters who are not in university? As if that's not enough, we also have a really incredible plotline about this forensic doctor who falls in love with someone who we are not sure if we should trust because he could be a murderer! Like oooh yes please, the drama, the angst, the thrill?? I'm ready for this; I am so prepared to give my whole heart and attention on this show. I want it to be so good, to defeat the shows of 2019 that came and took our hearts away, to be the best BL ever. It's so difficult not to raise my expectations when it comes to this show when I know we have a great cast, great chemistry, non-stiff acting, and just a really non-toxic author as well. I look forward to this so much. Only issue/question? Where is the trailer? Hello WETV, where is our teaser? Why don't we know the date for when this is coming out? I want it out now. But I'll try and be patient okay? 

Ratings: 5/5 I can't think of how this show won't be good. And that's really worrying. But for now, I'll keep my expectations high and wait.

7. TONHON CHONTALEE 

Genre/Themes: Romance, Coming of Age, Angst, Comedy, Childhood friendship, GMMTV

Country: Thailand

Verdict: Podd and KHAOTHUNG, (my sun, my heart, my favourite person ever) Sorry just gushing over my two faves. GMMTV has shocked me this year with the announcement of this show. First of all, Khao gets to have a show where he's the main lead. I've been waiting for this, and I'm so proud and excited for him. Not only that obviously, but TonTonChontalee looks really good with a vibe of a  comedic spin to one of my favourite shows Theory of love. I am ready to see Podd act so stupid as Ton and at the same time sob when he finally realises that Chon is the one. I'm so ready to see Khao act his socks off, and the show looks so funny, so fun and just like the chemistry between two is definitely a winner. I cannot wait for this next Friday. And it also has Mike and Toptap! What's not to love? Seriously though I'm praying this is successful, and it helps both Podd and Khao to dominate GMMTV. Let's find out next Friday.

Ratings: 5/5 For Podd and Khaothung. Just worth the rating.

8. GEN Y THE SERIES

Genre/Themes: Romance, Drama, Comedy, Angst, 2moons Fanfiction, Haters to Lovers

Country: Thailand

Verdict: First of all 2 MOONS Reunion! What?? Very shocked to see this show tbh one because it's like a direct copy of 2moons the series; the same cast, the weird alternations to the same name, the same kind of plot as well. Channel 3 has finally decided to invest in BLs,  one of the biggest companies in Thailand, so the budget is high, the actors are known and famous, the production is good. This is so exciting to see. Also, 2moons was one of my favourite past BLs the whole time it was airing, and I had a massive affinity for Kimmon and Copter, so it's great to see them play their characters again but with a better budget and now glow up and grown. Their acting seems to have improved, Kit and Ming's storyline being the main focus is also really lovely to see. I also love seeing Bas and the other actors from other Bl series (The Moment actors) and I'm excited to know more about the new cast as well. So yeh this show has a great potential to win my heart as well, and the competition is not easy at all. But with a great company behind them and an exciting premise, this can also be a winner. 

Ratings: 4/5 I'm intrigued by this show, and I look forward to seeing what it brings.

November is such an exciting month for someone like me who just loves watching tv and analysing and just seeing romance bloom. These couples, stories and actors have a great potential to be the best things of 2020 so far, each of these shows holds evidence that they're worth paying attention to and honestly I've missed seeing Thai BLs that make me so excited so much. I've missed these actors, I've loved each and every one of them, and I can't wait to see them this month on my screen. What about you, guys? What do you look forward to? Who are your favourites? What are you worried about when it comes to these comebacks. Let's discuss.

[davinciandwilde]

El-ahrairah and the Black Rabbit of Inle: A Poem

Word traveled around, as these things oft do, and King Darzin found he had been made a fool

“I declare war on El-ahrairah and all he all he loves and his people. Whatever is left will be mine to rule

However they are too clever for me to trick them out of their homes, and so I will wait outside

They will come to eat but I will starve them, he cried

They will come for sunlight and I will chase them back into darkness

They will try but I will rip them of their fur and feast off the carcass!”

El-ahrairah tried every trick in his body, pushed his cunning and wit and charm

But no matter what he tried, or plan devised, it only raised that forsaken brass alarm

There was no solution to be found for King Darzin and finally, he realized

There was only one other now with the power to bring his enemies demise  

Now, The Black Rabbit of Inle is fur and everlasting darkness

When the snare is set, they know where the peg is driven, the grain of the wood, and the hardness

When the weasel dances, the Rabbit watches, induces foolishness and madness and sickness too

Some say they hate rabbits, but they serve Lord Frith and no more than their appointed task do they pursue

To bring about what must be and only by his will, they go by Frith’s promise

Though starless and cold, unyielding and grievous, a rabbit’s life, one way or another, is their providence

And they will protect and avenge any rabbit who may chance to be destroyed without the consent of himself

Though their name invokes fear, they are not of the Thousand, and they may be the last one who can help

All through the night, El-ahrairah thought and thought, and when morning came, to Rabscuttle he confessed

“No rabbit has tried, and my mind may be addled by hunger and fear, but it may have a chance of success

I will seek out the Black Rabbit and offer my own life in return for the safety of my people

If they won’t take it, I will find something else, whichever it may be, no matter how evil

You must bring it back, Rabscuttle, with or without me, to the save this warren.”

And so, they devised a plan; Later than even the last of twilight, the rabbits charged out roaring

The soldiers distracted, El-ahrairah and Rabscuttle flew into the grave-dark ditch and ran

They limped through a bad dream to that terrible place they bound for, where life is all but banned

Where they travel, the sun and moon mean nothing, and winter and summer less

The scrambled over splinters of slate among gray rocks bigger than sheep, upward over a crest

No sound but the trickling of water and sometimes a cry of some great evil bird

The mist got so thick that they couldn’t see and yet had no option but to endure

Above them, the cliffs hung like a dark roof, below a gaping grave that must be what they seek

Waiting still as lichen and cold as stone was the Black Rabbit of Inle, and El-ahrairah for the first time, felt meek

Carved from the mountain with their giant claws, the Black Rabbit’s burrow reflects its monarch

They speak with a voice of water that falls in echoing places in the dark

Their eyes were red with a light that had no light he had ever known

Like shadow, like mist, like stone, they smelled as clean as last year’s bones

“El-ahrairah why have you come? You are a stranger here.” They spoke, soft but regal

“My Sovereign,” he whispered, “I have come to give you my life. My life for my people.”

“Bargains, bargains,” The Black Rabbit drawled, “There is no day or night that I do not listen

To some honest Captain of Owsla for his chief rabbit or a doe offers her life for her kittens

Sometimes it is taken, sometimes it is not. But there is no bargain, for what is is what must be.”

El-ahrairah refused to leave, for if he could trick them into it, he knew the Black Rabbit would remain true

“You are my guest,” The Black Rabbit insisted, “if you refuse all else, at least let me entertain you.

My home is free and I will make you as comfortable as I can. Come let us play Bob Stones.”

“If I win, perhaps you will be as good as to accept my life in return for my people’s safety and home.”

The Black Rabbit paused but nodded. “I will. But If I win, I will have your tail and whiskers.”

So they sat in the cold and silence, and El-ahrairah tried not to flinch as the shadows hesitated and flickered

Under the eyes of the Owsla, even with Rabscuttle trying to ground him, his wits failed, then his spirit

But the Black Rabbit played without sound or change, like falling snow burying the sharp thicket

“You may pay your stakes to the Owsla and they will lead you to a burrow to rest, but remember this

If you are here tomorrow, I will see you, but you are free to leave whenever you wish”

In a hollow stone burrow with an opening to the mountain outside, Rabscuttle urged him to leave,

But El-ahrairah was convinced he could get the promise that he desired, that his people need

Rabscuttle returned and from clematis and ragwort fashioned whiskers and a tail

El-ahrairah returned and sat across from the Black Rabbit, weak in body but resolved to not fail

The Black rabbit sighed through their broad nose, though he could not tell if they were disappointed or scowling

“You must understand. I have no wish to make you suffer. I am not one of the Thousand”

“You may stay or leave as you please” they spoke, shaking their great coat, “But perhaps you might care to share a story.”

“If I tell as good a story as yours, perhaps you will accept my life and grant my people their safety and territory”

The Black Rabbit huffed with a bittersweet smile, “I will, but if not, you will forfeit your ears.”

They told a tale of fear and darkness that froze them where they crouched on the rock

And not even the warmth of Rabscuttle could stop the icy clouds in which his senses were locked

His wits turned, this body tharn, and the blood fled from his cheeks

When at least the Black Rabbit finished his dark and true tale, El-ahrairah was not able to speak

Dashed about like a mouse, twisted like a snare, the cords, the muscles of his neck taut

He awoke to see Rabscuttle weeping over him, shoulders shaking and far past distraught

“What good is this suffering? For the sake of Frith and Green Grass, let me take you home!”

“Nonsense,” he whispered just above his breath, “Two big dock leaves. They will do very well for ears of my own”

“They will wither” implored Rabscuttle, “As I am withered now, like a worm in the nut”

“For what I have to do, I cannot find the way, but I only need them to last long enough”

He kissed Rabscuttle’s tears away before he left through the maw of the cave

El-ahrairah racked his brain for a trick, any way to secure a weapon or the Black Rabbit’s aid

The Black Rabbit of Inle would not accept his life, and there is no wager he can win

Then why inflict these sufferings if they truly feel no ill will? What do they intend?

Why break him? Why not just send him away? Why not make a wager to force him away?

It hit him quite suddenly, for it was as obvious as can be: that was how. That was the way

They would not help him, perhaps could not, would break him if they must

But if he were to find a weapon, could they stop him? The thought was so simple, so blunt

His own consent. Nothing had happened, nothing taken, nothing bartered, without his own consent.  

Except with his own consent, they could not hurt him or sent him away. But could they prevent it?

With two weak dock ears dragging on the floor, he turned towards the narrow runs of the warren

The Owsla watched him crawl but he was past being afraid and finally one did gently caution

“Turn back, El-ahrairah; you have no business in this pit. You are alive and have suffered much already.”

“Not as much as my own people,” He proclaimed. His head felt light but his thoughts were heavy

“Oh, El-ahrairah,” The Owlsa breathed “There is enough suffering here for a thousand warrens

In these holes lie all plagues and diseases –fever, mange, sickness of the bowels, twisting of the organs

Look, They pointed, nearest to you is the White Blindness. Not even the Thousand will touch that body

This is our task, to see all ready for the use of Inle-Rah. For what is is what must be.”

El-ahrairah gave himself no time to think but plunged into the pit faster than a raindrop to the ground

The shadows flickered and gibbered, for except by fear for they had no power to move him from this ground

He did not know how long he lay, only that surely the infection had already began

He would have to be fast, he crawled out, To get to Rabscuttle and begin to plan

How to save his people, how to get home, how to infect the King’s army and his soldiers

He blundered into stone, cool against his burning skin, and it gently his shivering shoulders

“El-ahrairah,” a quiet voice whispered, reaching beyond senses, “where are you going?”

“You said I might go when I wished, my sovereign” He breathed, “so home I am going”

“You have some purpose, El-ahrairah. What is it?”

“I have infected myself with White Blindness, there, in that terrible pit

I knew the price would be my life, one way or another but I must go before I am too wearied”

“El-ahrairah, do you know how the White Blindness is carried?”

Silence

“By the fleas in rabbit’s ears.” The Black Rabbit confessed. “You can neither catch nor carry the White Blindness.”

El-ahrairah broke against their chest, the last of his senses bubbling with tears as a broken sob filled the silence

The Black Rabbit said nothing, held him, their claws gentle against his thin fur despite their appearance

“This is a cold warren. A hard place for the living and no place at all for warm hearts and brave spirits

You are a nuisance here. Go home. I myself will save your people.

Do not have the impertinence to ask me when, for time’s power here is, at best, feeble

“They are already saved, El-ahrairah. They are already saved.”

The moment came when King Darzin and his soldiers were jeering down into the land they razed

The falling darkness crept upon them like twilight, choked them with confusion and terror

From the darkness, red eyes stalked them from the thistles, an idea of a rabbit, but a shape of horror

Too tall and too short, hunched inward and protruding, prey with a predator’s gait

But the sound, the sound, it made a sound no rabbit should be able to make

King Darzin and his soldiers fled. The rabbits, whatever creatures they were, were never seen again

When at least El-ahrairah was able to rise, the Black Rabbit was gone, and Rabscuttle was calling his name

Together they went out those icy mountains, down the stone-rattling gully in the mist, back where they came

Away from the Black Rabbit, away from Inle-Rah’s silent Owsla, away from cold and stone

But El-ahrairah was sick with shock, even Rabscuttle’s muscle and fur were thin where it had once shown

They dug a scrap and laid down for several days, the green grass and dirt ‘neath them a renewed treasure

Later, they lost their way a few times, though they had many adventures,

Of course, El-ahrairah, even with wits and tricks, was still without whisker, tail, or ears, and so Rabscuttle became his all

Together, finally, they made it home, greater and greener than they ever recalled

The warren was bigger, with more holes, more families, and rabbits they could not recognize

When asked, they realized that many years had passed, the war a story told to kittens to terrorize  

They were only legends, him and Rabscuttle. All those they fought for were old or had died.

El-ahrairah sat down under a nut bush, looking out across the red fields in the dying light

“Are you angry, El-ahrairah?” Frith asked softly beside him, knowing they both saw the same bloody sight

“No my lord, I am not angry. I have learned that with creatures one loves,

Suffering is not the only thing for which one may pity them, or rather they have stopped or still run

A rabbit who does not know when a gift has made him safe is poorer than a slug, though he may think himself otherwise”

Frith sighed, knowing what he spoke of, how glamorized and dramatic it all became when truly, one had to only decide

“Wisdom is found on the desolate hillside when none comes to feed

And the stony bank where the rabbit scratches in vain before he will concede.”

But speaking of gifts, I have brought a few trifles for you.” He smiled softly,

“Here is a tail and a set of whiskers too. The ears you will find a bit strange

A bit of starlight in them, though it is quite faint, really a small change

Not near enough to give away a clever thief like you

Is Rabscuttle coming? Could you bring him? I have a gift for him too.

[nevergoinganywherearewe]

Somewhere Only We Know

He’d known coming back would give him what he needed. He’d also readily admit he’d forgotten the particular taste of salt in the air before the drizzle and breeze would give way to stormy seas and angry clouds full of thunder.

This was were he’d always found solace before, though. Almost 20 years later and a good few inches taller, this apparently hadn’t changed.

There, on a secluded part of the island where tourists never treaded and even islanders had limited access to, there was a small little beach house - a cottage really. Old, but sturdy. Small, but charming. A little wooden porch, eroded in some places, looked out over the stretch of beach and rocks the sea lapped against, its waves growing with the tide and a fast approaching storm.

The havoc to come from above was almost laughable in comparison to the one that had wreaked havoc in Type though, before coming to rest on the very steps he hadn’t moved from for hours at this point.

Type went ‘missing’ a few days after an unexpected...episode not quite 5 years into the last bad memory of childhood trauma that had felt fresh with every nightmare. Years into therapy, the trauma (or rather his explosive response to it) had subsided but it had taken incredible effort, much like the waterline fighting for every inch against the tide - it would never be truly gone as it had become a part of Type he’d come to understand made him who he was and that was something he could live with.

Now, all that was left of this fight were annual check-ins with his therapist and the odd dream chased away by a warm circle of arms as well as the occasional video call with Tar later than appropriate if it were anyone else. Of course, it would probably remain an eternal scar but Type was dealing with it as best as he could. 

Granted, the most recent episode hadn’t lasted for long but the impact had been much bigger due to both the intensity as well as the fact that it had been quite a while. This paired with the recent move to their ‘forever home’, as Tharn had affectionately called it, had flared a kind of homesickness in him. Type suspected this longing for home was also instrumental as to why he’d found himself on the steps he’d last seen when he was small enough to need a stool to reach the upper cupboards of the cottage’s small kitchenette. No secret place Khom’s parents had ever hidden sweets in had ever been safe from Type.

So Type had gone back home - the island he grew up on - but not to visit his family home; that would come later. Instead, he’d gone to the only place Type’s parents had never known about. He’d needed to go to a place that connected him to the few things capable of rooting him back to the ground that were not Tharn or, oddly enough,  Tar’s small studio atelier in Paris. So, Khom’s family cottage it was.

With the warm wind in his hair and his eyes closed to lose himself to the song of waves that had accompanied him, a trusted companion, through his childhood. Eyes closed, Type centered himself on the white noise of water rushing against the shore and slowly distanced his thoughts from the chaos he’d dragged with him from Bangkok. The tension in his shoulders unraveled, bit by bit. He fully found back to himself when a hand softly settled onto his shoulder, startling him out of his quiet solitude - opening his eyes, Type’s gaze settled on Khom, who carried a mug in hand, cocoa by the smell of it. Type smiled as memories of skinned knees and soaked clothes accompanied by childish laughter flooded his consciousness. 

Type must have been pretty out of it not to have heard Khom come in the back entrance and roam around in the drawers. But he was grateful it was his old friend. He was not quite surprised Khom was the one who found him either. After all, Khom had given him the only set of spare keys the day he’d left for uni all those years ago, and for this precise reason - a safe heaven to return to. Back then, Type had never thought he would actually make use of it but had nonetheless appreciated the gesture.

Wordlessly, Khom joined Type on the porch and handed over the mug before looking out onto the sea and quietly waiting for Type to speak, his own silence companionable. Khom was one of the few people who knew, come hell or high water, Type in a mood would sooner leave than talk if pressured. So, wait he would.

“Thanks,” came Type’s voice, a scratchy, rough sound from not having used it in a few days, most likely.

“I figured that, if you’d ever make use of the keys, you’d probably appreciate mom’s trusty recipe.”

Sipping slowly, never quite taking off his eyes from the shoreline, another moment passed before Type spoke again.

“How did you find me?”

“Aow, Type...give me some credit. You may have left the island a while ago but I am still your best friend.”

“.......don’t tell No.”

“Oh, he already knows. Trust me. We had a whole drunken thing about it at your last birthday party. He’s one of your best friends, I was simply the first. He’s not mad about it.”

Type looked apprehensive but Khom’s tone was too calm, a subtle note of mirth in it, to spark any real doubt he was lying to reassure Type.

Khom continued, scratching the side of his nose, “Besides, we’re all grown up by now, Type,” and upon Type’s less than convinced look, he added “sure, some more than others but we’re all way past the friend-pulling stage, don’t you think?”

Type was sure there were some people who would never get past that stage, but luckily none of them were people he knew, so he didn’t bother to speak.

Khom watched Type take another sip. At the rate he was going, Type’s cocoa could only be lukewarm by now. Type’s silence marked an end to this particular line of discussion and a peaceful quiet washed over them.

For a while, that was how they stayed: shoulder to shoulder, watching the rain fall, the droplets disappearing in the sea by the thousands without ever making it rise. It was in a deliberately hushed question that Khom broke their silence.

“What happened?”

“The usual. Just...it’s been a while. Took me by surprise.”

Khom nodded to himself and turned his body a fraction closer to monitor Type’s facial expressions a bit better, subtly.

“...Do you...want to talk about it?”

Type took a while to respond. Khom almost thought he hadn’t heard the question over the waves growing more ferocious by the minute but then...

“Honestly? I don’t know what to say...or where to start.”

Khom huffed out a chuckle.

“Well, you know what they say. Maybe start at the beginning?”

It took Type a while to gather his thoughts and even then the words only came out very hesitantly.

Type had been sent to one of the company’s warehouses fairly later than usual, tasked with picking up some important samples. As his visit came mostly unannounced and the guy on closing duty hadn’t noticed someone entering the warehouse after his troupe was done for the day, the guy turned off the lights leaving Type completely blind, surrounded by nothing but pitch black darkness. 

This made the sound of the heavy metal doors slamming shut all the more jarring. It was this unfortunate combination of sounds and environmental impressions that triggered memories of the personal hell of his childhood.

“And suddenly I was back there, Khom. I was eleven again and tied to that chair...or at least it felt like it.”

Khom winced in sympathy but didn’t want to interrupt.

“I couldn’t breathe and when I eventually came to I was just cowering on the ground. I don’t know how long I was in there, honestly...but I eventually started knocking on what I thought was the door. The security guard must have heard me and let me out. I don’t really remember how I got home but next thing I knew I had packed some stuff and was on the ferry.”

The silence between them now was heavy. Khom knew about what had happened to Type, but he still felt at a loss at how he could help.

“Okay...but are you feeling better now?”

“....I’m getting there? I think.”

“Can I help in some way?”

“You are helping already. I’ll be fine, just sitting here is enough.”

Assured by Type’s response, Khom shifted and rested his head carefully and slowly against Type’s shoulder - giving Type an out if prolonged touch still proved too much. Khom’s hair had gotten long enough to tickle Type’s chin, drawing an involuntary smile from him.

“So, your man likes the shaggy look?”

Khom barked out a small laugh and punched Type’s thigh lightly. 

“You know it suits me, don’t deny it, you ass.”

Khom couldn’t see it from his position but he would bet his husband’s whole-ass TikTok account but he only does cover dances of girl groups (and he’s damn good at it too) that Type had his trademark smirk on his face - the idiot.

“Does Tharn know I’m here?”

“Take three guesses who called me for help because a certain someone disappeared without warning and ... well, he knows you, Type.”

Khom felt Type nod slowly and could hear the cogs turning in his head, worry creeping into their crevices.  

“I told him you were safe and I’d call him once you’re ready to be picked up,” Khom added in an attempt to stop Type’s worries from manifesting any further.

“...thanks, really, Khom. I mean it.”

Well ... that just ruined the mood, Khom thought and laughed.

“Love you too, stud.”

“Oh, shut up.”

[whyamistillwatchingtheseshows]

Forgive me this will be a long ass post because A. Trophy husband Fighter and CEO Tutor AU that’s plaguing my existence. Thank you @graveformydarling. B. The post @negrowhat made of the necklace kiss in comparison to Tharntype episode 13 of Type in Tharn’s lap as hands snake up his back...there is similar energy, I concur. However, it got me thinking. Here we go...

Burning question: Who is more dominant? Tharn or Tutor? 

Answer for me: Tutor. 

Sure, Tharn’s found his drive, power, or whatever you want to call it? Just pure “top energy?” It’s there but he wears his heart on his sleeve in many other aspects of life. Tharn seems more delicate than Tutor, and sure it’s been mentioned that Tutor wears a mask, but I still think he has an inner resolve around his emotions? Does this make sense? This emotional vulnerability  Tharn has is also easily soothed by a constant availability of loved ones [a big brother always there] but let’s just say: 

TYPE WOULD GET AWAY WITH OF A LOT MORE THAN FIGHTER EVER COULD?

Does this make sense? There’s dominant energy in Type and that has been there since before Tharn [not meaning his violence towards gay men, just his cocky attitude in general]. Type isn’t soft. Just as Tutor isn’t soft, but the thing is Tutor was actually looking for someone, or rather craved someone to take care of him and for him to do just the same...Here is a thing some of you may not see or agree with: THARN IS THE BIG BABY.  The big baby who well I guess just like Fighter will put on a front, however, there’s still this instinct he’s (forgive me) drilled into himself that he must always be “top.” Tharn merely had the reigns in the beginning because of Type’s apprehension and confusion over his feelings…

Where the fuck am I going with this? Focus. Focus. Tharn and Type may not be as versatile as Fighter and Tutor. Tharn and Type don't have that POWER FLUID feeling just yet. They seem pretty keen on keeping things the way they are...but if one day Type COULD GET WHAT HE WANTS AND IF HE KEEPS IT UP I’M SURE EVENTUALLY HE’D BE ABLE TO TAP THE SWITCH. Just saying. 

When Tutor shifts, I sometimes get this “no mister nice guy” feeling. When Tharn is angling for what he wants it’s more like “baby please, baby please baby please...please please.” HE BEGS. Does Type tease then eventually spoil? Yes. However, Fighter and Tutor CAN DO BOTH of those scenarios. Still feel like Tharn would growl, grasp hips firmly as possible when he has what he wants, but he has to often beg Type. He can’t play the “no mister nice guy” (he couldn’t even do so in that jealous bathroom scene, TYPE played that guy but hasn’t really played that guy like he’s probably imagined...) 

 I mean in the special episode Tharn is picking up Type from practice and they’re talking about family then suddenly somehow sex is in this conversation, “So does that mean we can do it tonight?” So you’ve gone without Tharn? Seems unlikely, but TYPE HOLDING OUT ON HIM, [probably to TEASE him] doesn’t that shift the power/dominance? As @graveformydarling mentioned in a post about Tutor being the one guiding Fight, then when it comes to Tharn and Type who is really guiding who once they found each other? 

Yes, so maybe it’s just that Tharn doesn’t want to switch positions physically, but he doesn’t have the same dominant energy as Tutor? I’m not saying that Tutor can’t be soft. We know he can and will be, but he uses that as a guide as well doesn’t he? To get Fight where he wants, to get what he wants? As the relationship develops for Tharn and Type, Tharn wouldn’t be able to guide much more, besides his guiding was more like prodding [written in some unfortunate ways].... Where’s the shift? Probably that sort of drunk kiss at the bar (ep 5-6?) when Tharn kisses Type (who kisses back so gladly and sort of blissfully unaware) and says, “you’re the friend I want to do this with.” Tharn was asking for more. Type backs away, Tharn pouts like a big baby. Type begrudgingly makes it up to him, step by step first with getting him Sprite as an apology, but then cue a kiss Tharn never thought he’d get and then the ankle kiss of course. Type slowly learned intimacy, but he’s still confused and will stray before he realizes what he truly wants. I just wonder how much control Type has? Type is a character who cannot be just one thing. So when does he FINALLY GET THE SWITCH? Can he convince Tharn of trying it again? Can he convince Tharn by describing the feelings he gets when Tharn holds his hips so tightly, driving inside him? Why wouldn’t Tharn change his mind? It’d be entirely different with Type. Also, this would be an opportunity for Type to make Tharn scream his name instead or frankly, just have more ways to make him more vocal during sex. 

If Type had a chance you don't think he’d jump at the idea of leaving Tharn just as messy as Tutor would leave Fighter? Think about that one. The problem is, Tharn has to learn to let it go, not necessarily find that sub space, but give over control a little bit. There’s something holding Tharn back? Uncomfortable first-time experience…I mean what was it? Can he really not give over,  though, the pouty big baby? He’s so sure of himself that it’s going to remain this way that he has to always top...not to say that Type hasn’t found other ways inside... but it’s just...now, that I’m thinking about it. It irks me a little bit that Tharn is so put off by it, especially when I think Type is so willing and cares so deeply that he’d take time, he’d take care of him before, during, and after, because he doesn’t want to go hard and fast like Tharn can do to him. Not just yet, no, and besides Type had a good teacher? So is Type a power bottom switch? Mind you this character didn’t know what he wants but now that Type knows what he wants and how he wants it and WHO he wants it from, he’s settled in. 

So @negrowhat, it can hit the same, but somehow I feel as if Type *makes whipped sounds* has more POWER over Tharn than we suspect. Never really thought about it, because maybe they would stay in their boats [I did mention once that they might also in comparison to FT]. Power bottom and his top, maybe that’s always TharrnType. Yet when you compared these two scenes by brain went oop. Wait, a second....what if one day Type wasn’t told to dream on? You can’t tell me that wouldn’t flip the switch and Type would be like yes please, baby. I mean…

Type wasn’t sure he heard correctly. “What did you say?” 

“Yes, Type. I want to try.” 

“Are you only doing this as a honeymoon gift or something? I mean I’ve only been asking for years.”

“Maybe. Maybe not.” Tharn shrugged. “I’ve prepped. Brought many of the usual necessities. So yes,” Tharn took a deep breath. “We can try this. Only with you. Forever with you.” 

Clad only in boxer shorts, they stood on a balcony looking towards the night sky. Tharn dipped a chin into Type’s shoulder, nuzzling lips into his neck. Type turned around to firmly grasp his husband’s hips, admiring the ring on his finger. Then he looked back to Tharn, holding his gaze. “Are you sure?” 

“Yes, Type.” The way he hums his name will forever drive him crazy. Type digs his fingers in at the hips and kisses him. Tharn will still take the opportunity to lift his husband towards the bed. There’s no getting around that significant detail. Type would then spend a considerable amount of time making sure Tharn is ready, in fact, maybe too long that the big baby would finally beg for it to happen. 

Ooh, you can’t make me choose. FightTutor. TharnType. Yeah, these two couples hit me something hardcore. It’s just Fighter and Tutor right from the get-go shifting, giving, taking, POWER FLUID, switch, versatile...Tharn and Type have yet to tap that switch, but if and when they could in the healthier ways FT approached the dynamic then…? Well, shit. I’m just going to make myself at home in the gutter.

[occasionally-writing]

In Need Of You

A/N: Hey guys! I’m back again with another Tharntype fanfic! This is for the anon above who asked for a very detailed prompt! Oh and anon! You weren’t asking for too much, I like when people ask with a very detailed prompt, it helps me make the prompt how you like it! So, I really hope you like it anon!

Summary: After Tharn leaves to visit his family for the weekend, Type thinks that he would get a two day relief from his roommate, but soon learns that he doesn’t rest as well without Tharn being there. 

Word Count: 1462

When he learned that Tharn was going away for the weekend, Type couldn’t help but feel a small bit of relief. He knows that he was the one that said he and Tharn could have sex and be...sex friends, but that did not make it easier on his ass whenever Tharn decided it was time for their almost daily routine. Relaxing against his bed as he thought this, Type glanced at Tharn’s empty bed as he began thinking about all the things he could do since his roommate was going to be gone for the whole weekend. Letting out a sigh, Type grabbed his phone and moved to lean against the wall, playing a game on his phone as he tried not to let his mind wander at how silent the room was without Tharn moving around or trying to talk to him. After a bit, Type sighed and closed the game, glancing at his alarm clock to see how late it was. Giving Tharn’s bed another glance, Type rolled his eyes and scooted under his covers, turning off his bedside lamp before he snuggled into his comforter. 

“I don’t need him, I’m glad he’s gone. Now I can have some peace without his horny ass,” Type grumbled, closing his eyes as he fluffed his pillow. Staying still for a moment, Type wiggled around on his bed as he tried to find a comfortable position but failed as he sat up and glared towards Tharn’s bed. Biting his lip, Type sighed and kicked off his covers, moving towards Tharn’s bed before he belly flopped on it, burying his face in his roommate’s pillow as Tharn’s scent covered him in the comfort that Type would never admit to anyone. Squirming under Tharn’s blankets, Type sighed as he finally felt the wave of sleep just beginning to lull him into unconsciousness. “This is the only time I’m doing this. Not again at all…”

Oh, how wrong was he. Throughout the night, Type kept waking up and glancing around, his eyes looking for someone that he knew wasn’t there. If he was counting, Type figured he only got up to four hours of sleep before the sun rose and his phone was going off to someone calling him. Sitting up quickly, Type reached for his phone in a hurry but frowned when he noticed that it was just Techno calling him. Trying to stomp down the disappointment he felt, Type answered it and listened to his friend as he was invited out for breakfast and maybe a game of soccer later on. Letting Techno know that he was going to shower and then meet up with him soon, Type hung up and placed his phone back on the bedside table, letting his hand drift across Tharn’s blankets. 

“What am I doing?” Type questioned himself, shooting off Tharn’s bed before he darted into the shower, knowing that he didn’t have to worry about walking out in a towel since his dumbass roommate wasn’t there. Finishing up with rinsing his hair, Type turned off the water and stepped out, wrapping a towel around his waist before he ruffled another one over his hair. Getting out of the bathroom, Type glanced around before he realized what he was doing and stomped out of the room, quickly drying off while he got dressed. Making his bed, Type peered over at Tharn’s messy bed and sighed, moving to fix it since it was his fault it was messy to begin with. Rubbing his eyes as he yawned, Type pulled on his shoes and grabbed his key, locking the dorm door as he stepped out, heading towards the cafe that he and Techno agreed to meet at. “Why am I not looking forward to this?”

“Type! Over here! How’s life at your dorm since Tharn’s been gone? I bet you’re having the time of your life!” Techno cheered, waving his friend over to the small booth in the far corner of the cafe. Knowing now why he wasn’t looking forward to even stepping out of the dorm, Type growled at the high level of energy Techno seemed to have as he sat down and practically slumped on the table, eyeing the coffee that his friend placed in front of him. Letting his eyes gaze over Type, Techno frowned as he noticed the slight dark bags his friend had under his eyes as he sipped the iced coffee. “Or not...Type? Have you slept at all, I can see the bags under your eyes from here.”

Letting out a sigh as Techno caught his current predicament, Type shoved the coffee away as he sat up more, rubbing his eyes before he glared at the grin Techno was wearing as he calculated why Type was acting more grumpy than usual. Giving him a warning look, Type grumbled and moved his gaze from his smirking friend to the outside of the cafe, watching as people walked back, some on their phones while others were with friends. Watching Type with his smirk disappearing, Techno hummed and pulled his phone out of his pocket, moving to snipe a picture of his friend before he pulled up Tharn’s name, sending the photo along with explaining what was wrong with Type.

“Are you sure you’re up to playing soccer? We can find someone else to help train us...you look like you’re ready to collapse,” Techno asked, pushing the coffee back towards Type before he glanced down at his phone, seeing that Tharn replied. Smiling as he heard that the boy was now heading back from his family’s home, Techno nodded and gazed up at Type, who seemed to be dozing off the longer he stayed still. Rolling his eyes, Techno blew a straw wrapper at his friend, and grinned when his action caused Type to glare at him. At least he had his attention now. “Don’t worry about soccer, Type. Go back to the dorm and try to get some rest.”

“Whatever,” Type grumbled, moving his glare to his unfinished coffee before he stood up, slumping away from the booth as Techno watched. Man, the things he did for his friend. Type definitely owed him for this. Finally getting back to the dorm, Type sighed and leaned against the door, just knowing that even if he tried to lay down, sleep would not come to him. Why was he so dependent on Tharn? And why did he have to leave for the weekend? Well...it was Sunday so he would be back later that night...right? Shaking the thought from his head, Type dug through his pocket for his key before he unlocked the door, stepping in before the sight of Tharn standing in between their beds caught his attention. “Tharn...what? This can’t be real, I’m dreaming…”

“Type? You look terrible…” Tharn sighed, moving to go around the bed before he grunted as Type practically tackled him down on his bed, hugging him tightly around his waist as he buried his flushing face in his chest. Putting his hand on Type’s back, Tharn blinked and squirmed back, pushing the blanket back before he finally got the both of them under the blanket. Squirming closer to Tharn’s warm body, Type buried his nose in Tharn’s neck and sighed when a scent that was just Tharn entered his senses. Wrapping his arms around Type’s shoulders, Tharn rubbed his fingers up and down Type’s back as Type felt his eyes beginning to flutter shut, the promise of sleep finally entering his mind. Noticing this, Tharn chuckled and hugged Type closer, smiling brighter as Type hugged him harder and continued to hide his face. “What’s wrong? Couldn’t sleep without me here?”

“Shut it you ass,” Type sleepily growled, pinching Tharn’s side which made him jerk and chuckle out an apology. Settling back down into Tharn’s chest, Type let out a contented sigh and snuggled his head under Tharn’s chin, letting his eyes slip shut. Smiling brightly as he buried his face in Type’s hair, Tharn pressed a kiss to Type’s head and pulled him closer, letting Type snuggle into him more as his breathing finally evened out and he fell into much needed slumber. “Tharn…”

Hearing Type calling his name in his sleep, Tharn felt his grin fade into a softer smile before he hugged Type harder, letting his head sink into his pillow as he continued to rub a gentle line up and down Type’s spine, keeping the act of love up until he too dozed off, keeping his hand around Type’s waist as he joined him into a needed sleep. Unknown to Type, while Tharn was away, he found he couldn’t sleep as well, so as they slept, both boys were secretly thankful for finally being together.

[im-just-here-for-the-drama]

LGBTQ Characters in Asian dramas: The Good, The Bad, and The Mediocre: 2019 Edition

No one asked, but here it is-all the gay I saw in 2019! 

SPOILERS AHEAD!

The Bad (I’d say don’t waste your time on these, but who am I to tell you what to do?)

Graceful Family: Mo Wan Joon 

The Story: Blah blah blah, revenge or something- at a point it’s revealed that Mo Wan Joon is a trans woman. 

Should you watch?: If you really like revenge melos maybe, but if you’re looking for this show to do something good and offer up some good trans rep? Nope. 

Literally nothing about Mo Wan Joon’s story is watchable. I wasn’t even entirely sure the show even knows what being transgender even means. It comes off as more of a plot twist  to put the family all in a tizzy more than anything else. They don’t really show much of Wan Joon’s struggle or anything poignant or engaging. 

TharnType

TRIGGER WARNING:  Sexual assault/rape

Country: Thailand 

Official Links: https://www.facebook.com/notes/line-tv/tharntypetheseries-line-tvs-official-links-for-international-fans/2525229217761969/

The Story: Type is a homophobe who ends being roommates with the openly gay Tharn. 

Should you watch?:  No. The good you get isn’t worth sitting through the bad. But if you really can’t help yourself, you’ll have to learn to ignore its problematic elements.

Type was molested as a child, and as a result he hates gay people. He’s clearly still traumatized by his experience. He has nightmares and is triggered by Tharn at least once remembering his assault. Type eventually tells Tharn about his assault and it’s pretty much never brought up again. 

Type is shown to be ridiculously homophobic and he equates gay people with pedophiles and is never really corrected in this logic (even though his boyfriend is a whole gay man). Even after Type starts dating Tharn, Type’s homophobia is never really properly put to rest. 

For some reason, the writer of TharnType loves incorporating rape/sexual assault into her shows when it’s clearly a sensitive topic she knows next to nothing about. And it’s clear in this show, because the show take the topic way lighter than it should.  Because of what happened to Type in his childhood, he believes that gay men like forcing themselves onto others without their consent, and then the show proceeds to have Tharn do exactly that to Type multiple times. Also, thankfully, this happens offscreen, but another character pays several men to gang rape another character and that’s too heavy for a show that clearly wasn’t going to address it properly. 

At the beginning of this show, Tharn had a huge issue with knowing what boundaries and consent were, but by the second half, Tharn chilled out and Type stepped up and became ridiculously childish and violent towards Tharn. Clearly these two have no real business being in a relationship with each other if you ask me.

Though there was a lot I hated about this show I did like some of it. I think this writer writes some really nice and sweet scenes between Tharn and Type.  Mew and Gulf have great chemistry. I’ve seen plenty of videos of Gulf and Mew together and they are adorable. They work well together and they come off more natural than some other couples, but the way the relationship is handled  in TharnType and some of the things that are glossed over in this show leave a bad taste in my mouth. 

The Mediocre (These aren’t the best, but they’re watchable.)

Moment at Eighteen: Jung Oh Je

Country: Korea

Official Links: https://www.viki.com/tv/36633c-moment-of-eighteen?q=moment%20of

The Story: Transfer student Jun Woo has no interest in school life, as he is traumatized from being expelled from bullying. Meanwhile, Soo Bin has been watching Jun Woo all this time. She sees a different side to Jun Woo than the one that other people see. Oh Je, is Jun Woo’s best friend who starts to discover his sexuality.

Should you watch?: Hmmm… sure. 

Oh Je has a decent side plot. It was interesting to see him figuring out he liked Hwi Young and coming out to his ex girlfried, Da Young and his friends. I do wish his story was expanded a little more though. There were several things I would have liked to have seen, like coming out to his family, and I thought they wrapped his story up a little too quickly at the end. 

2moons2

Country: Thailand 

Official Links: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLdoEouCtbBvjdNkB5Wl0eYS4V4Zx-1MZY

The Story: Wayo is accepted at the Kantaphat University, in the Faculty of Sciences. Wayo has always been in love with Phana, who studies at the same university. When Wayo has the chance to become the “moon” of his faculty, the two begin to spend time together because Phana himself has been the “moon” of the medical school the previous year and must supervise the freshmen participating in the competition. The two slowly get closer and closer. 

Should you watch?: Yeah. 

Honestly, it’s not super memorable,and not super impressive, but there’s some cute moments, and an easy storyline. We get to see more of the other two couples (MingKit and ForthBeam)  than we saw in the original 2moons. It’s fun and interesting enough. I’ll look forward to the next one. 

Theory of Love

Country: Thailand

Official Links: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLVsizYwoQ6B3LsKmcDDMNtHGXnjG88i4C

The Story: Third is a  filmology major and a member of the Savage Team along with his best friends Two, Bone, and Khai, but he has a secret. Third has been secretly in love with Khai for years. 

For three years he has kept his secret love in his heart, silently supporting and loving Khai while knowing there is absolutely no future between them since Khai is as straight as a streetlight pole and also an absolute player. 

To make matters worse, Khai has a “no dating friends” policy.  How long can Third love Khai silently while watching Khai bring a different girl home every night? Third has tried to see Khai as just a friend.  But has failed time and time again. Because as easy as it is to fall in love, to stop is just as hard.  Maybe even harder.  But when Third finally decides to stop loving Khai, Khai decides to start loving Third.

Should you watch?: It wasn’t my cup of tea but, yeah.

Who knew one of my most anticipated shows of the year would turn out to be one of the most disappointing? The show spent way too much time on Third crying, wallowing, and letting his friend walk all over him, and not nearly enough time on Khai making a believable turnaround. Khai spent at least half the show being a dick of a friend, to the point that I was unsure as to why Third liked him for so long. Then when Khai started to have feelings for Third, I just thought it happened way too quickly and unbelievably to me. But despite all that there were some cute moments in the end that made all of that kind of  okay and kind of worth it. And the side couple was cute. 

Dark Blue Kiss

Country: Thailand 

Official Links: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLdoEouCtbBviEVFNHbg7dKw7Lfd8-6zB1

The Story: Kao and Pete being in a blissful romance, have grown closer. But Kao is closeted, and he fears the thought of others finding out. His mother introduces Non, a son of a colleague, to be tutored by Kao. With Non constantly giving off ‘iffy’ vibes towards Kao, it only fuels Pete’s jealousy. Their relationship is put in strain, but through this, they must ultimately overcome each other’s flaws. 

Whilst Sun pushes his brother Rain to stay away from Mork, the younger man’s uncontrollable behavior brings him in. As his wildness is intriguing, Sun’s seriousness holds Mork down somewhat. Underneath it all, the two start to care for each other. However, with Mork’s dangerous life, he can’t shake who he is. But maybe he can for someone like Sun.

Should you watch?: If you’re a fan of Pete/Kao or a fan of the typical GMM show.  

I wasn’t a huge fan of Pete and Kao from the series they were originally in and this show honestly didn’t really help. Pete and Kao’s relationship is pulled into an annoying direction when an outsider tries to come between the two of them. It’s classic bl tactics and frankly it’s boring and frustrating to watch when it drags on for multiple episodes. I did love Sun and Mork from the beginning, but even the writing for their storyline got annoying towards the end. The huge problem in this series is that none of our leads really communicate with each other. There’s some enjoyable things in this show but it’s ultimately more frustrating than it should be. 

Ossan’s Love: In The Sky

Country: Japan

The Story: Haruta, a 35-year-old single man, has to switch careers and he begins a new career as a cabin attendant in Tenku Peach Airlines. Even though he’s clumsy, he seems to be protected by the Great Captain Kurosawa. One day, he finds drawings of himself in a locker and accidentally discovers tries to figure out who drew them. Haruta discovers that not only is the mechanic Shino in love with him, but Captain is secretly in love with him too. Meanwhile, Haruta takes an interest in the co-pilot Naruse.

Should you watch? Yes, but you might be disappointed by the end. 

I’m a fan of  the original Ossan’s Love and I know what this show usually gives so I expected this show to be silly, ridiculous, fun. And it was for the most part. I always love Haruta. I would literally watch him in any reincarnation of this show and not complain. He’s always a joy to watch and that’s still true here. But this time around, things are a lot more messier than usual. There’s a complicated love triangle, which I hate, but  even that was fine because I enjoyed the other characters. My only complaint was how it ended, because I would have preferred him with someone else rather than who he ends up with. 

Love with Flaws: Won Suk and Ho Dol

Country: Korea

The Story:  Joo Seo Yeon, is a hot-tempered physical education high school teacher who always wears sneakers, jeans and training uniforms.  The death of her parents helped instill a deep sense of compassion, a generous heart and an outspoken objection for anyone who drinks and drives. Living in a house with three wild and very attractive brothers, she loathes flower boys. Her ideal type is someone who is “not handsome.” Won Suk is one of her handsome older brothers.

Won Suk has closed his heart to relationships and love, but he lives his life as an openly gay man. Ho Dol is closeted and lacks confidence. They meet one night at Won Suk’s bar.

Should you watch?: People have been kind enough to condense Won Suk’s and Ho Dol’s  story into parts on YouTube so yeah, go ahead and check it out. 

These two don’t get a whole lot of screen time, but the little they do get is nice. We get to see Won Seok help Ho Dol open up and be more confident with who he is and in turn, Won Seok opens up his heart. 

The Good (These are worth the hours of your life you won’t get back.)

History3: Trapped

Country: Taiwan

Official Links: https://www.viki.com/tv/36410c-history-3-trapped?locale=en

The Story: Shao Fei’s police officer mentor and Tang Yi’s gang leader father were killed in a gunshot attack. No one knows why or what really happened. The only survivor, Tang Yi, stepped up and is now the gang leader. Police officer Shao Fei wants to find out what happened that day and he’s sure that Tang Yi’s hiding the truth. Shao Fei decides that the only way to figure out the truth is to investigate Tang Yi to the fullest and Tang Yi just wants Shao Fei to leave him alone since he’s trying to take the gang in a more legitimate direction, but what happens when the two keep crossing paths and ultimately start to fall for each other? 

Should you watch?: Absolutely. 

I watched this show twice last year and somehow I liked it even better the second time around. The story is fresh-school/university plots get real old real fast (not that I don’t love them though). Instead we get a story about a mob boss and a police officer.  The plot is well written, coherent, interesting, and fun, and doesn’t revolve solely around the romance. And speaking of romance, it’s well integrated into the larger plot that focuses on figuring out what happened to Tang Yi’s father and Shao Fei’s mentor years ago. There’s just the right balance between plot and romance. There’s also a second couple that’s super cute. Both couples have great chemistry. What’s not to like?

He’s Coming To Me

Country: Thailand

The Story: After his death, Mes is a ghost that is consumed by loneliness. That is until he meets a strange boy that can see him. The two bond in a state of happiness and joy as they develop into friends. But what happens when Mes falls for the boy who is alive?

Should you watch?: Of course! 

This is by far, in my opinion one of the most slept on shows of 2019. Who would have thought things could work out between a ghost and human? I went into this show expecting it to be full of sadness and angst and it really surprised me. Of course it does have those things, Mes is ghost so… but  it’s definitely one of the sweetest dramas of the year. The boys forge a strong friendship and bond from the beginning, they’re ridiculously cute, the side characters are enjoyable, the friends are supportive,  and there’s an interesting story of Mes and Thun trying to figure out the mystery behind Mes’ death. You should definitely put it on your list to check out. 

What Did You Eat Yesterday?

Country: Japan

The Story: Kakei Shiro is a 45 year old lawyer who works at a small law firm. He is a good cook and a meticulous and thrifty person who keeps the monthly food budget to 25,000 yen. Shiro’s daily routine is to leave work on time and head to a discount supermarket nearby. His partner Yabuki Kenji is an affable hairdresser in his 40s. The two of them share a two-bedroom apartment and the finer points of two men living together comes up at the dining table every day. Although two of them have been in a relationship for three years and Kakei’s parents know he is gay, Kakei never shares the fact that he is gay or Kenji is his partner to anyone else.

Should you watch? Definitely.

Very slice of life, very sweet, very heartwarming. We get to see two older gay men navigate their lives and society. We see how Shiro struggles with coming out and being open and we see how he deals with his accepting but ignorant parents. We see Kenji struggle with Shiro’s closed-offness and the strain its puts on their relationship when Shiro refuses to let people know they’re together.  Shiro and Kenji interact with other gay couples too, and it’s interesting to see the dynamics between the different couples.  It’s a nice change of pace to the shows I’m used to.  Also, there’s plenty of food to salivate over. 

Hello? Spring Is Coming

Country: Korea

Official Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnyivXs1rWk

The Story: Every coming out is difficult, but most of all, coming out in front of  family is the hardest.

Should you watch?: We get way too few shows about wlw. And also they’re way too short, and on that note yes you should watch. It’s sweet. 

The Effect

TRIGGER WARNING: Rape, bullying, attempted suicide 

Country: Thailand

Official Links (in the comments): https://mydramalist.com/32424-the-effect

The Story: Shin, a shy and reserved 1st-year university student, admires his senior Keng from afar. Keng is tall, handsome, smart and owns the heart of many girls on campus. But what others don’t see is the pressure to be perfect from his family that weighs on Keng’s shoulders.  Due to Shin’s clumsiness, he becomes acquainted with the handsome senior. As Keng takes a liking to his junior,  jealousy from peers makes the cyber world a breeding ground for hate and nasty rumors. Shin falls victim not only to the strangers online but to Keng as well. Nobody but Shin can overcome the trauma that will be placed upon him. All he needs is for the strangers to listen. Because only then can they understand “the effect” that they have on others. 

Should you watch? Heed the trigger warnings, and if you can handle them, then yes. 

You know those BL shows where one of the characters is forced or coerced into having sex with their love interest and then falls in love with him at the end? This show is thankfully, not that. I wouldn’t even consider this a BL because, well because it’s not. It’s not a love story. It takes a very very different and serious path that most shows in this genre don’t even come close to. This show did a good job of really showing the effects of social media, bullying, and rape, what they could really do to a person, and the support system one needs after a trauma. At a (way too) short 3 episodes, it was super emotional, mostly realistic, and it really left a memorable impression. There were a few things I wish had been explored and fleshed out more and I wished they’d changed the ending from the novel. I would have preferred something more uplifting, less open ended potential tragedy. But on another note, James as Shin was a stand out here with such an emotionally draining role. I’ll definitely be looking forward to his future projects. 

Mood Indigo/Indigo No Kibun

Country: Japan

The Story: The story begins with Shiro Kido’s reunion with a former classmate, Rio Kijima, at a college teacher’s funeral. In the past, when they were students, Kijima used to show talent as a novelist, even earning a big prize. Kido was jealous of Kijima’s success, but after reading his works he became aware of his lack of talent and gave up writing novels and became an editor of erotic novels. However, after reuniting, it became clear to Kido that Kijima was stuck; facing a wall. He had used up all his talent. With Kido also being in a lost state he offers Kijima the opportunity to write pornographic novels.With the intense eroticism and closeness, both men open up and feed into their desire. 

Should you watch?: Yeah. 

As one of the more erotic shows on this list, It was interesting to see the development between Rio and Kido. Their dynamic certainly isn’t anything romantic,cute, or healthy but still very beautiful, passionate, and raw. I wasn’t a huge fan of this shows predecessor Pornographer, but this one really made me appreciate it from another perspective. It helped me realize why Rio was the way he was and how this relationship impacted his later relationship with Kusami.  

Really Lily?

Country: Korea

Official Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=167D6kmuspU

The Story: Are we friends? Or…

Should you watch?: It’s short, sweet, and funny. Absolutely. 

Rural Outcasts

Country: Korea

The Story: Sun Hui moves to a small village where she lives her life as Soon Ho until she can make enough money to become her true self. Dong Ja, a feisty 12 year old, breaks into her house one day.

Should you watch? Yes.

 Found family always makes for a heartwarming story and this one is no different. I loved the bond between Dong Ja and Sun Hui and I loved their mother daughter relationship. Very sweet and heartwarming, but be prepared for some heartbreak too. 

History3: Make Our Days Count 

TRIGGER WARNING: Forced kisses, bullying 

Country: Taiwan

The Story:  At first glance, high schoolers Xiang Hao Ting and Yu Xi Gu appear to be polar opposites: While  Hao Ting is an outgoing, hot-headed extravert and some-time bully,  Xi Gu prefers to keep a low profile and focus on his schoolwork. They seem bound for totally different futures – the bookish Xi Gu looks destined for academic success, while life is just a long popularity contest for Hao Ting. But a quirk of fate – and a crucial intervention by a female schoolmate – results in the two young men’s paths crossing. But there is more to both young men than first meets the eye.  Hao Ting was not always this way. He started out as a perfect student until he discovered the joys of going off the rails.  Xi Gu has a reason for being so aloof and studious: His parents died in a traffic accident while he was younger, and he is being fostered by his aunt. As such, he works hard to get good grades in an effort to win a scholarship and ease the financial burden on his relatives. Xi Gu and Hao Ting find themselves drawn together, and passions ignite. The former notices that he has the unique ability to bring  Xi Gu out of his shell – and becomes intent on melting his cold-as-ice exterior. What will happen when their two worlds collide? And can love be the catalyst that helps bring these two unlikely students together – as their high school days draw to a close?

Sun Bo Xiang is Hao Ting’s friend who has a crush on a man, Lu Zhi Gang who he meets at the gym. Zhi Gang’s runs the shop that Xi Gu works at part time. When Bo Xiang confesses to Zhi Gang, and tells him that he’ll love hm forever, Zhi Gang doesn’t believe it because Zhi Gang is young and overzealous. Also, nothing lasts forever, or does it?

Should You Watch?:  Yes, but it doesn’t end happily so keep that in mind.. 

Given this show’s predecessors it had some big shoes to fill. I expected this show to be good and honestly, it was. The general consensus is that the ending ruined the entire show. And had I had time to sit on this series-if I had watched it over the weeks, I might have felt the same way. But I watched the entire show in one sitting over the course of a day and I just can’t bring myself to hate it completely. The writing was good, the directing was good, and the acting was so good I think a lot of the show was elevated because of it. This show made me feel so many things. The couples are great with natural chemistry, and the side characters fit so well (there’s never a dull moment with Hao Ting’s friends).  I smiled, I laughed, and of course I cried (#heartbroken). I was sad and upset when episode 10 came around. I wasn’t disappointed once the credits rolled because I was still riding the emotional high of the first nine episodes, but after I had time to sit and think about it, the more disappointed and angry I got. Just like grey rainbow and wise prison life- why did you give me everything I ever wanted and then rip it out from under me? But even so, the first nine eps were great. Does it have its flaws? Well obviously, some things in the show are a little iffy (Hao Ting and Sun Bo practice some problematic behavior at the beginning towards their love interests, that’s where the trigger warning comes in)  and the last episode is a glaring misstep. Do I wish things had ended differently? I think they absolutely should have. Even this ending would have been satisfactory with some proper execution and build up. Overall this show could have cemented itself as one of my favorite shows if not for the last episode, but I really don’t regret watching it, because when it was good?  It was gold.

Out of Breath

Country: Taiwan

Official Links: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuUQH5CiOw6n9Z0O5ytuQY2EFuvbF_7DX

The Story: Ha Eun has just broken up with her girlfriend when she meets out and proud Min Seo. 

Should you watch?: Yes! 

It’s a short webseries about coming out and no longer wanting to hide who you are. It’s very sweet and realistic. The ladies are cute and their characters are believable. My only complaint is that I wish the show was longer.

Until We Meet Again

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide

Country: Thailand 

Official Links: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCPXE51seODgcGxLQF_X5jzQ/playlists

The Story:  Thirty years ago, Korn and Intouch were university students in Bangkok. Intouch entered Korn’s life despite knowing that he was the son of one of the most influential people in Bangkok, the mafia. At first, Korn kept pushing Intouch away, but in the end, he couldn’t resist him. However, in a time where homosexuality was unacceptable and having parents that were against their relationship and each other, Korn and In’s love was bound to be doomed. Amidst the chaos, while Intouch kept on fighting for their future, Korn could not deal with all the suffering his lover was facing and decided to give up. That day, two sounds of a gunshot rang through the air. Their story ended with tragedy, but something had already tied itself between them, bounding them together even after they were dead. 

Years later, a freshly returned to Thailand, Pharm who is a  freshman in T- University has grown up always feeling like he is waiting for someone. Being riddled with sad dreams that always left him waking up with a wet face, fear of loud noises, and a birthmark on his temple, the boy has always felt like there is someone he is missing. Dean, the third year swimming club’s president at T- University has also spent his life searching for someone whose face he can not remember. The red thread of fate that had tied them together in their past life once again pulls the two boys back to each other, tying them to each other and a past that might not be worth remembering, but a love that is unforgettable. Because the red thread that binds the two hearts together will always lead one back to the other. Even though it might tangle or stretch, it will never break.

Should you watch?: 100% yes. 

This show isn’t finished yet, so I’ll just talk about what I’ve seen up to this point. I read a few comments about this show before I watched it and although it was one of the shows I was looking forward to the most, I was skeptical about watching it since the reviews were mixed. Lots of people love it, but there was also an overwhelming about of people saying it was boring and average at best. After watching the 12 episodes that are out, I gotta admit that it’s not perfect. It is a little slow in some parts, some times you feel like you’re watching Thailand’s version of the food network, the director needs to learn when a scene is over, the product placement can be distracting, the kisses are more awkward than I’d like them to be, and that sounds like a lot to be bothered by, but honestly- I love this show. I feel like Until We Meet Again is what happens when a production crew cares more about making a good show rather than making something that fuels the typical bl fan’s fantasies. It has an interesting storyline and it’s well acted. There’s great emotional moments filled with sweetness and sadness. It’s funny and there’s loving and supportive family and friends. A lot of the typical bl drama tropes aren’t involved here. There’s no girlfriends, no portrayals of women as evil incarnate, no cheating, no coercion into sexual activities, or the popular I’m just gay for you crap. I saw on Twitter a while back that someone was asking how they could get bl to branch out-how to reach a larger audience because there’s a lot of people that won’t watch it-this is how you do it. 

[pilferingapples]

Episode Four Part One: Cosette Wants to Be Part of That World, No Not That One, The One Without Thenardiers In It

OKAY this is not going to be a proper recap or anything , I am just.  This Show.  This is not gonna be a Happy Recap. 

Episode Four starts with Cosette as a teenager in the convent, and ends pretty much right after the Gorbeau raid. So that’s our ...framing set of events, here, because I have no idea what year it is or how much time any of this is supposed to be taking?  ANYWAY HERE WE GO, under the cut for abuse, domestic abuse, child abuse, sexual abuse, weird incest vibes, discussions of lots of things and me probably cursing a lot!  There is a LOT going on in this one!  So much that I’m actually gonna try cutting it into two parts, a Cosette Recap/Reaction post and a Marius Recap/Reaction post! This is part one, Cosette’s side:

 I am not pretending this is a totally thorough recounting or anything , I’ve only gotten to see it once and I spent most of it reeling; but also given the garbage Davies talked about the women in the novel I am cutting NO slack on his ~~interpretations of their characters, he doesn’t get the benefit of a doubt after calling Cosette nauseating 

that said LET’S GO

Cosette has her friends in the convent, and they all talk about growing up and getting out, which, LEGIT , and then they’re sad when they remember she’s been promised to Be A Nun. Cosette runs to see Valjean afterwards and he hugs her so tight she says he’ll crush her and he goes “oooh are you such a fragile thing, I’m just excited to see you” which is like...such a minor line but so telling in context, because he noticeably does NOT say sorry OR let go right away, she’s gotta go “sometimes you don’t know your own strength” which is WORRYING for a guy who’s kinda Superman!  and anyway then she tries to tell Valjean she isn’t sure about being a nun and she wants to check out the rest of the world first and Valjean argues with her and is like 

--seriously he’s all THE WORLD OUTSIDE IS HORRIBLE, YOU’VE SEEN THE WORLD, THOSE INNKEEPERS IN MONTFERMEIL like  he just goes on about how doesn’t she want to be safe and loved and with him forever?? Doesn’t she know everyone else is EQUIVALENT TO HER VIOLENT ABUSERS, jfc 

so much for the Dawn of Love with Cosette or his time with the nuns teaching Valjean to see any good in the world or any humility in his own righteousness I GUESS but oh well who needs that, He Yell, that’s all a manly man does, you don’t UNDERSTAND he was in PRISON, there is no Character Depth left for him! THE WORLD HAS TAKEN IT AWAY. 

anyway Cosette gets him to let her escape and they head out and we see what is MAYBE the last we’ll get of Simplice? Who knows in this, but she’s like “it’s not like it was before you came in, the streets are full of anger” which like...they are but also it’s early 19C Paris, when are the streets NOT Full of Anger:P  ANYWAY they head out and the streets are INSTANTLY full of nothing but Beggars, Crime, and people passed out in the road; which, probably realistic, but also Cosette is just horrified because being sympathetic and kind is for Nauseating Flimsy Characters :) and Valjean of course WANTS her to hate the world so hey Everything’s Going According to Keikaku then there’s the house on Rue Plumet and it’s Nice (also there’s Toussaint! who is now a gorgeous middle aged woman instead of an old woman. It doesn’t matter, at least not yet, we never see her again, hi Toussaint bye Toussaint) but Cosette gets tired of being cooped up in it after...a week? an afternoon? So she and Valjean go walking in the Luxembourg, and Cosette gets to run around like the kid she still really is, and she sees all the nice outfits (YES that dress really is her Ugly Convent Dress, I’m so glad) so it’s time for Cosette to get a MAKEOVER SEQUENCE and I could not be more glad because that dress is Terrible Unfortunately it’s also time for Valjean to call himself Fauchelevent for...no reason, and to call Cosette his NIECE for NO REASON so when she comes out and calls him Papa the shopclerk is like “...?!? Sweet..?” and Valjean gets a ~~sexy~~ peep between the curtains at Cosette in her underwear and I SEE YOU DAVIES, I SEE WHAT THIS IS BECOMING, DO NOT

Valjean and Cosette go for a walk in the Luxembourg and NOW Cosette is...well the BBC wants us to think she’s well dressed so let’s pretend, and Marius follows her and Valjean drops his handkerchief and Cosette runs back to get it and she and Marius are all “hiiiii” and Marius is like about to sniff the handkerchief and she goes “oh it’s my dad’s “ like WAY TO KILL THE GAG BEFORE IT EVEN STARTS, DAVIES  then she takes the handkerchief back to Valjean and he asks why she was talking to That Young Man and then he frigging DRAGS HER out of the Luxembourg and she’s like “we’re going too fast! You’re hurting my wrist!!” and this Valjean does not care! At all! they just BOOK IT  later on her wrist is still hurting and they have a whole fight and she accuses him of keeping her locked up alone like it’s a prison and he’s like UH CHECK UR PRIVILEGE THIS IS NOT A PRISON, also Young Men Only Want One Thing!!! THE WORLD IS DANGEROUS AND YOU’RE NOT FIT FOR IT

only The Crown is Sex 

ALSO in all this mess, Valjean tell Cosette about Fantine! “oh yeah also I fired your mom (for lying like a liar, be sure you know about that, SHE LIED ) and  she went into desperate poverty, and then I couldn’t save her, and she died from the circumstance I directly put her in, and THAT’S HOW COSETTES ARE FOUND” and it’s 

really something

anyway all that and also the definite memory of Montfermeil are going into all these later scenes okay 

so Valjean takes Cosette out the day after their fight (I GUESS??) to ...see the prison wagons coming into town

because this Valjean isn’t traumatized to the point of dissociating by seeing this, he’s doing it as some kind of Moral Lesson/ Conversation Starter with Cosette 

and Cosette, because now she’s been Fixed and she’s a Strong Female Character, is repulsed by poor people and suffering, so she asks not in innocence but in horror “Are they men” and Valjean is like “yes men like me” and Cosette freaks out and gets a whole “if one of them even looked in my face I’d probably die??” speech and asks Valjean if he’s brought her here to punish her and he’s like “noooo of course not” but honestly YA KIND OF DID, DUDE, you got mad at her and brought her here to show her Your Pain and make her carry your emotional water instead of considering that HEY maybe a kid has a right to grow up and that Two Things Can Both Be Bad and she’s his child and it’s not her job to raise him  

Instead he’s trying to tell her about his Tragic Backstory when Eponine comes running up to them with a letter from Thenardier and COSETTE REMEMBERS MONTFERMEIL and is clearly freaked out, but Valjean gives Eponine money and agrees to go see her family

So after trying to make her carry HIS emotional trauma, Valjean takes Cosette to see the people who are directly responsible for HERS, and talks with Thenardier and all and is...acting like he doesn’t know them?? while Cosette is in the background going tharn because THESE ARE THE EXACT PEOPLE WHO VIOLENTLY ABUSED HER FOR YEARS AND SHE REMEMBERS ALL OF IT, so instead of this scene illustrating Cosette’s growth and healing and kindness we get it showing off her trauma and pain and fear, because that’s how you make a character Strong and Optimistic apparently

Fortunately after this Valjean takes her home and comforts her and reassures her and HAHAHAHAH I’m kidding, he’s going back to the Gorbeau place to give them money and says this will get the Thenardiers out of their lives forever but without any indication at all of HOW 

-- digression: this series keeps making changes in character knowledge and timelines without any apparent thought to how this should affect the actual CHARACTERS and it’s probably responsible for at least a third of how incoherent this episode is?? -- end digression 

Anyway now it’s time to Leave Cosette for a while, but don’t worry! She’ll be waiting, alone and terrified, until the controlling adult who’s the closest thing she has to protection returns, dramatically wounded,  from the encounter with adults who tried to pimp her out as a child!:D  Good thing she’s been made so Strong and Optimistic! 

[misterbitches]

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That's super fucking romantic? Like tragic but in a nice way. i love that shit. i'm a monogamous slut for romance pghiosuag even tho we have to learn to live alone too but it's just like the NOTION is nice?!??! awwww i told my mom that SOPHIE's gf was like "she died taking a picture of the moon" and how it was like idk. the gf was just processing it and she thought it was romantic and my mom was like "wow.....depressing" bc think she thought it was stupid millenial shit i was like no mother doent u see she died in the BEAUTY LMAO but then i told her jessica walter's husband died the year before and then she died and she was like "aw...kind of romantic" LMAOOOO i guess two people have to die. why did i tell this story? i am so sorry. the show ended today right (ep 10?) i didn't realize it was that short. so i hope it was a happy ending? (tell me) i understand why you love the atmos! it's like, not really been done. there's this BL that i hear isn't too great but it does take place in a rural part of thailand and there's way less budget. a lot of ppl seem to like it. ep 6 LW / LW in gen gotta be honest, rushed through it. i knew spoilers from jump cause BL spoilers are just absolutely nothing and sometimes ur just like i need to know. i do not understand the ~silently lookin 4 u~ trope it always backfires and is also DUMB. so happy about tiffy. a girl who likes girls but ends up with a man bc of mommy and also the man is ok....it's me. she's gorgeous and actually [h*lf] gay so it's great. god ok i feel so old again. lmaooo but i was like obsessed with lady gaga for that reason (dont ask...also how i got kinda popular on tumblr way back in the day) and shes just absolutely fucking beautiful and bad ass. (which kind of doesnt helpcos they r all skinnty but that's FINEEEE) right? i mean like i guess cos we knew abt it? i can see why he was so pissed off, too? i mean i'm so fucking like...sensitive to being told what to do so i was angry for him from jump. i guess i was also looking at it different wholetime cos i knew the spoilers? i'm assuming u did too lmao. so we knew hed be pissed and leave. and frankly that's what sib gets. just for you my friend i will watch it and update. i think MANY times in shows in gen but it is something you notice a lot in BL bc they are just absolute novices most times. in this case, gene's actor mostly well (and i like him as a person just cos he was on that thai 3 girls in a car show and used to date on eof them lmao) can act so i will look over that scene to see how sib's actor plays off him. but the pausing in between sentences or for so long even decent actors or actors doing better. kao is not bad, not great so they will talk slowly because dramatic acting but the problem is most times it's too long. even if the person is an adept actor it won't always work and YES THEN THAT MEANS THE EDITOR COMES IN AND SNIP SNIP SNIP! it's too long. and sometimes it just does not work even if you can act. but it is GLARING when they cant or are average (someoe said this about tharntype and my god lmao tharn..is...so...slow...in...talking...the actor idk his name it's one of em, the other one with the nose (type) is....different not better but he certainly does not talk as slow. they arent bad but they are not good so.) also sometimes they are forgetting their lines. some ppl find this charming. clearly we do not lmao. what is their relation? what is going on there? i don't have a problem with stepbrothers as long as they didn't grow up with that sibling bond. many times blended families really have to watch out for that kind of fraternizing but it's always when theyre older and teenagers bc they didnt grow up w/ each other....i mean they have chemistry so i'm whatever. but. hennYYWAYYYS.actually it's bc im an idiot i didn't read it as Mhok (singular) and aey's father. Yes and his sister who i think i may hate? im like bitch okkkkkk but. his name is lhong. and he is a psycho. i mean so is type. so. oooh it could be that he stole! but also i'm pretty sure cos hes gay lol or did they

not make that explicit? the thing is i had to skip through most of that scene too because the drama was WAY too much for me. too much. lmao. the sister thing i got and it made sense and iliked that. oh yea he is gay and they know. that's a big one.

WBL

haven’t watched color rush! did you like it? i have seen wyel, parts of mr heart, and ofc to my star :) 

ohhhhhh ok. i get you. yea he definitely wasn’t being ooc cos i think that....what u said. and also like....ugh i cant even think rn. i like sam lin a lot so i like gao shi de but i gotta say. lmao. hm. first of all. yes it is creepy what he did. it’s fucking weird. and sad that his whole life revolves around him. it’s not as fucking weird as LW but still like when he did the door thing. i was like UMMMMMMMMM cos i really didnt want it to be constructed. and when it was i was like imma suspend my disbelief. but if anyone dared...

and so what he did in s2 i think he just couldnt realize that he was loved back which is why it’s good he WAS ALONE for 5 yrs imo. but he gave shu yi 0 choice and for that i am pretty sure i would be even angrier. i do think though that the father’s role is pretty important but i can see how the show is like....letting that go? bc as fucking weird as GSD is, he was still like...20? i guess and shu yi’s dad is like. crazy? i am also like he really had to fucking start a company to get noticed like are u joking? is it also that easy? and also why? lmao i just. ugh. i think that probs bothered me the most...priorities.

i like the show! well idk if i love it but sure. i think it’s decent lmao. i understand what you’re saying. for here it bothers me less but i certainly don’t think it was OOC. immature and stupid but like...that’s.....what they are. i also don’t have a problm with the timing from a technical point.

however, when i started the show? i had NO clue what concept of time it was. and that was very annoying. tehy redeemed it bc of the comedy aspects (the first time shu yi sees shi de is so fucking good, i really loved the shot and editing; it’s hilarious and silly) and i started to go with the flow of the show through that. but the fucking concept of time in the show in general esp with repetitive outfits (i understand that they are more likely to wear multiple outfits as well, it’s just that you have to split it up or it i sconfusing visually and looks like the same scene twice or just a full day of shooting which it could be but then something should change in the clothes. this is just an ex~~*~*) and partof that is they have this already controlled narrative i guess. 

i have to admit as well...i skipped episode 1. and most of 2. i was like i rly dont want to see someone slap a pereson even if they were like. not together. it’s just not cute also not in front of ppl. and then when they were yelling and bla bla i was like listen ladies lets calm down. too much angst in a boring way. what they have now is good. also they should probably like estrange the father but i doubt they will. 

i cannot make up my mind totally now bc i see what ur saying i guess i just don’t feel that way as much but i guess i have to think about it more, too. i do think he was contorlling in getting him or like when he didnt want shu yi to find out whwatshisface liked him. i guess for me it would be if he is still that way in the rship. but even tho he’s at fault for what happened, i’m also like but his dad? but also like...did he try? why did he just stop contacting? but then i guess he emailed everyday? DO U C MY QUANDARY.

alsoi have to say i do not care abt their backdoor being opened lmao like wow business? no thanks

LMAO. did they cry a lot in UWMA? i only know the teamwin parts. which one is fluke the really pale one who died? idk what it is about that kid but i just cant watch him. it’s not his fault it’s mine.

DUDE i still dont understand the husband and wife thing and ive looked into it multiple times. ive kinda just classified it as one of those things that make me uncomfortable but arent problematic lol. it you have any insight about it id love to hear it tho !!

it’s stupid. that’s what it is (husband and wife.) it’s just something they say like many gay couples may use pejoratives in conjunction with them, the f word etc. or even imply something about being a top and a bottom. whatever. but these arent gay spaces or gay storylines. sure gay men may direct them but since BL operates and relies on patriarchy without a doubt and also stereotypes poorly kathoeys or won’t cast trans women in anything substantial and use them as jokes (and see this is one of those things where it’s like...ud never see this in the US tho like our concept of third gender or kathoeys but life stillBOOOOO.) so it’s just useless when they put it into the scripts because it’s for people to consume and lots of girls are. obviously. so the idea that if you are being penetrated and u r the wife and this is used like literally anywhere but not from gay or whatever men is gross. are cis women’s vaginas sieves to them? are trans women not women? do we have to categorize people by PHALLIC OBJECTS IN OUR BODIES SPECIFICALLY A WOMAN? it dont make no sense. plus really most ppl just experiment, there’s more ways than one to have sex, we have lives so most times it’s not just full penetration for hours anyway. it’s just so gross. like oh that’s really funny lol ur the wife cos his dick goes in ur butt XD i get it, same. i say “i’m wife’ whenever there’s a penis in me. fucking kill me. it’s not a big deal but it’s just dumb and gross. if they use it they could try and subvert it too like i like how my engineer has  a whole absurdly stupid episode about it. but in TT the dad says “if ur the wife i wont accept it” and i was like u know what gals? im good. goodbye.

pgojaihousgajigko THAT’S SOOOOOOO OOWIEOFUGHOIJ WEIRD. FANDOM IS REALLY WEIRD. i have read rpf and written it once upon a time but dont do it anymore  uch. i mean it’s weird. no doubt about that. invasive, weird, strange. but very unreal anyway. it is. plus i dont like celebs or fame and think of it as a gross capitalist scheme so i had to stop (also so weird?) but i know very many people like lean in. lean in. LEAN IN. this youtuber i watch did a video on like insanely popular ships (like that 1d one) and their insane fandoms and i just couldnt. it’s so embarrassing? and then they’re so bold????? about it? 

yea it would be cool (more queer men or visibly we should say or like out whatever.) but it doesnt necessarily mean that will be good or beneficial i guess? i mean like. i dont know. so much about the genre is about wish fulfilment for young girls. its literally selling some fantasies because the other thing is for BL (i read a paper on this...) esp for girls in more conservative societies they cna maybe replace themselves in the character? but they may not feel a threat as a woman or like their life will fall apart if they engage in sexual things with anyone really. and that’s where i’m like....for a lot of these are they just writing a story and just replacing two men? bc they also seem to think it owrks like that. and in a way that’s what it is bc of the writing and how they use certain terms. you can tell the piece is about pushing a product and less about the real affects of a story. i think ITSAY is a great example of a really intelligent great piece of work that contains multitudes. and the girl was amazing. it just depends on the goal. and for most of the ppl the goal isnt...to do anything. so i dont know. idk how to talk abt representation anymore. it both is and isnt.

 i really liked tingting from my engineer a lot (idk if u have seen) she’s so fun and unapologetic. i love how much she drinks and if someone tells her to be ladylike she says no. and i appreciate that in the show when girls were rude to her she said nothing about the girls but said “NO IM NOT LUCKY TO HAVE ALL MALE FRIENDS?” i really want to see her more in the next season. obviously tiffy is goat. super excited to see how their rship develops.

[sebeth]

Legion of Super-Heroes #6

Warning, Spoilers Ahead…

Legion of Super-Heroes #6 by Keith Giffen, Tom & Mary Bierbaum, and Al Gordon.

The St. Talbot’s Club, Geneva, Earth: Dirk Morgna meets with Celeste Rockfish, a private investigator. Dirk notes that Circe investigated a paternity suit against him in the previous year.  Dirk hires Celeste to track Roxxas: “As you know, Earthgov wants that butcher Roxxas bad.  I want him bad.  Blok was my teammate.  My friend.”

A Dominator informs Circe that Celeste’s “…investigation must divert all suspicion.  Since the Daily Planet linked Roxxas’s account to Earthgov, we are all vulnerable.”

Circe assures the Dominator “Celeste will conduct a full investigation that’ll reveal nothing.  And if she does find something, she’ll end up too dead to tell anyone.”

Circe fumes to herself: “I’m damn tired of cleaning up after those bumbling goons.  Time to get on to something that matters…like Morgana’s precious little Shvaughn Erin.  He’ll learn not to jelly every time he runs into a sympathizer with a pretty complexion. Damn him, anyway!  Never took me to the St. Talbot’s Club!”

Circe, so jealous!

Tharn: Mordru rants to his probe droid: “Do they come to thank me? Do they come to congratulate me for saving the universe from the Khund menace? Do they come to apologize for all their past affronts? It would never enter their minds! As always, they come to take something that is mine! They come to take her by force when she is staying of her own free will! What sort of universe do we live in?”

Mordru summons Vrykos for a consultation.

The Legionnaires (Rokk, Jo, Reep, Kono) are relaxing before their meeting with Mordru.  

Kono’s bored: “How’s a fem supposed to get into any trouble in a dull, stupid burg like this?”

Reep’s worried about Kono’s shenanigans: “You talk me into bringing along a Sklarian raider and then you turn her loose on this unsuspecting planet?”

Jo’s amused over Kono’s shenanigans and Reep’s freak-out.

Rokk’s contemplating the numerous ways this will blow up in their faces.

The boys discuss strategy.

Rokk: “What are we going to do about Mordru? You know he’s not going to just hand her over.”

Reep: “I wouldn’t be so sure about that, Rokk.  Once I turn on the old Daggle family charm, he won’t know what hit him!  I’ve negotiated against tougher, believe me.”

Jo: “So you just waltz in there and ask him? You’re playing him for a sucker, Cham. Mordru is no sucker.”

Rokk: “If he doesn’t agree, then we do what we came to do…we attack.”

Reep’s negotiation ploy is bound to fail because Mordru is completely insane.  

Rokk’s “attack option” won’t fare much better: Rokk has no powers, Reep’s may not be effective against Mordru, Kono’s powerful but a newbie.  Furball is an unknown. Jo is the only powerhouse veteran on the team.

The Legionnaires are blasted with mystical energy and forced to re-live the worst moments of their past.

Kono recalls when the Science Police boarded the Golden Lady. A five-year old Kono witnessed the multiple rapes and murders of the Sklarian women.  

Kono: “Mama! If I’m not there to save her…Oh, Goddesses!  Don’t you animals – Don’t! I can’t control my powers yet! My powers will kill! Please don’t. No! No! Oh, Goddesses, no!”

Reep remembers his duel with Liggt: “This is…the Bridge of Passage! On Durla! But I won my tribal rights years ago. I survived my duel! What am I doing back here? Who’s challenging me again? No! Liggt! My brother! But you’re dead! I…I…I killed you…” Liggt! I didn’t know any better! We were a bunch of ignorant savages! Please listen to me! The ancient ways are foolish! Barbaric! Liggt! Please listen to me! Nobody has to die!”

Jo discovers he is inside a space dragon: “Bloody Grife!  The Space Dragon!  Sweet Liberty, Jo, you’ve been swallowed by the space dragon!  B – But…I was in a speeder!  Something’s wrong! It wasn’t like this!

Jo stumbles through the Space Dragon and discovers Tinya’s body.

Rokk finds himself at the Venado Bay massacre.  He sees the corpse of Pol, his younger brother: “Oh, God…Oh, God…got to report…must find command base…horrible Imskian weapon…massive casualties…can still aid survivors…got to report…C’mon, Rokk…focus now…must report…must keep going…command must know…troops stationed at Venado Bay decimated…massive casualties…command must – Pol!  Oh God, Pol! My own brother!  It…It can’t be!  Of course not…stupid Mordru…They didn’t kill Magnetic Kid at Venado Bay – they killed Cosmic Boy!  You hear me, Mordru?!  They killed Cosmic Boy!  You went too fat this time, Mordru!  You went too far!”

The next flashback takes place in a medical lab.  A nurse assures an unseen patient: “…That’s it…easy now…no, no there are no androids in the facility…doctor will be here soon…Sedatives seemed to be working fine!...No, no…assure you that wasn’t an android…no androids in the facility…”

Dr. Gym’ll and another doctor arrive to examine the patient: “…radiation he took at Black Dawn…irreversible damage…” “Harrumph!...All Damage reversible!  Just haven’t looked hard enough for a way!”

The nurse reassures the patient: “…was an android, but just visiting…no androids in the facility…”

Another doctor examines the patient: “…so, let’s have a look…oh, dear…hasn’t been quite this severe…I’m afraid we’d better contact his colleagues…they should know…deterioration of Brin Londo has reached severe proportions…hard to believe that used to be Timber Wolf.”

A few notes on the flashbacks:

1)      Poor Kono!  The Golden Lady incident would have definitely re-enforced Kono’s disdain and suspicion of men.  We’re led to assume Kono unleashed her powers and people died as a result – way too much trauma for a five-year old!

2)      Reep’s killing of his brother – How do you even recover from this?  It had to be the reason for Reep’s desire to leave the planet and his culture in the past.  So barbaric.

3)      Jo – Finding yourself swallowed alive by a creature would be terrifying.  Jo’s reaction seems to be more along the lines of “again?” than actual fear.  I’d love to see a flashback to the original incident. I want to see Jo’s reaction when it happens and he doesn’t have the knowledge that he’ll gain powers.  Would this flashback have even had any effect on Jo if Tinya was still alive?

4)      Rokk – We get a brief glimpse of the Venado Bay event.  Both Rokk and Salu are suffering from PTSD in the aftermath of the massacre. Pol’s death had to destroy Rokk. Rokk retired as a Legionnaire during the Levitz run and Pol (the Magnetic Kid) joined the Legion around the same time. Pol later sacrificed himself to help stop the Magic Wars – possibly trying to live up to his big brother’s legacy?  Rokk had to have the same thought.  I’m surprised Rokk didn’t discover his mother’s corpse too.  Rokk’s parents, and a young Pol, moved to Earth shortly after the Legion debuted. Rokk’s mother later died during a terror bombing on earth.  Rokk’s father and Pol were severely injured during the attack.  Another source of guilt for Rokk.

5)      Brin – The Black Dawn incident transformed Timber Wolf into Furrball.  The “no androids” comments are a reference to Brin’s origin.  He believed himself to be an android when he first debuted.  This is the first time Brin’s been shown to be wary around androids.  It’s a nice bit of foreshadowing for the identity reveal at the end of the page.

The Pleasure Gardens, Palace of Mordru:  The Harem complains to Mysa: “It just isn’t fair!  He always shares with you!  Any of us would be thrilled if Mordru confided in us.”

Mordru’s version of sharing consists of mind-linking Mysa with the Legionnaire’s memories.

Mysa isn’t the “White Witch” – She’s lost the white hair, skin, and funky eyebrows.  She still has the all-black eyes but has pink hair.

Chadwick’s, The Most Exclusive Clothier on Korr:  Roxxas shops for the perfect wardrobe and murders the staff of the shop.

Rockfish Detective Agency, Earth: Celeste, embarrassed about her drooling over Dirk, is determined to track Roxxas.  She has one good lead: Trom.  Unfortunately, flights are not allowed to Trom.

Bounty informs Celeste that “The caretaker there…has been known to vaporize all visitors.”

Jan!  He’s not prone to random vaporizations…what changed?

A young man arrives at the front door of the Rockfish Detective Agency.

The intergalactic media heavily reports the murder of Blok, the Chadwick massacre, and Roxxas’ unexplained release from Labyrinth.  The Dominators are melting down over the coverage.  Their solution is to present Celeste McCauley as “Earth’s greatest detective since Wayne”.

Tharn:  Vyrkos is underwhelmed by the Legionnaires.  He orders the group sent to the dungeons “except for Krinn.  The Emperor has taken an interest in him.”

Jezebel, the third moon of Tharn: We see a woman who bears a suspicious resemblance to Supergirl: blonde hair, headband, red cape, blue outfit.  We know it can’t be Kara due to the “no Kryptonian” edict from the Superman office so who is the mysterious woman?

“First Mysa falls under Mordru’s control, then Rond goes in after her and ends up captured himself. Now this…five more of my old teammates at Mordru’s mercy.  If Mordru wasn’t holding all the cards before, he sure is now…all except one…me. And I can’t hold back any longer. Things are getting out of hand. The time for cute little strategies is over.  Time for the direct approach.  Never mind that Mordru has the one power that can threaten me.  Never mind that he’ll snuff out any of their lives at the slightest provocation.  Like it or not, it’s time to roll the dice…and pray for sevens.”

Celeste, Bounty, and Devlin O’Ryan are orbiting Trom courtesy of the Daily Planet.  Celeste believes Jan is the key to capturing Roxxas: “His whole race was killed by this madman.  He must know Roxxas inside and out…or at least want to help us track him down.”

Celeste watches a United Planets video on Trom: “The beautiful star-crossed world of Trom. One of the Gandian worlds, Trom is marked by belts of inhospitable radiation.  Hearty sentry settlers discovered Trom’s unique radiation was imbuing them with the power to transmute the elements.  Aided by those powers, they built a beautiful, deeply spiritual civilization…one that was quickly, suddenly, brought down in ruins when the people refused to submit a ruthless band of space pirates.  The notorious Roxxas had dreamed of using the Trommites’ power to amass great wealth.  When they refused, he annihilated the race.  One Trommite survived the massacre: Jan Arrah, Legionnaire Element Lad. Today the planet lies silent and desolate, its millions of beautiful Tsarin crystals marking the spot where each victim fell.  And the solitary figure of Jan Arrah, once a hero to galaxies, now quietly keeps watch over this eerie cemetery world.”

How did Roxxas annihilate the entire race?  Extremely powerful bombs?  Roxxas forewarned the planet with the “join me or else” gambit.  Trommites are extremely powerful – it boggles my mind that only Jan survived the massacre.  Were the Trommites so spiritual that they were unwilling to defend themselves?  Jan, by himself, neutralized the entire Daxamite race during the Great Darkness Saga.  How did Roxxas massacre the entire race? Where was Jan during the massacre? Did he survive by using his powers to defend himself?  

Celeste, Bounty, and Devlin, encased in transsuits, search for Jan on Trom.

Devlin admires the Tsarin crystals: “Saints above, these crystals are beautiful! Do ya realize what each of these is worth?”

Celeste freaks out: “Devlin – don’t touch it!  He’ll vaporize us all!”

Jan interrupts the duo: “So now I’m vaporizing trespassers, am I?  Sorry to sneak up on you folks, but most of my visitors are looking to scavenge, you know.  Go ahead and touch the monuments, if you like.  Just don’t take any.  I’m a little sensitive about respect for the dead…on Trom, that’s all we have left.”

The issue ends with “The Great Acquiescence: How Mordru Returned To Power On The Sorcerer’s World” special from UP-V Channel Two that aired on January 17, 2993.

Highlights:

1)      “The story might have ended there, if not for the Mystic Wars and the subsequent collapse of the U.P. economy.  Their home world annihilated and their powers decimated, the Sorcerer’s Community relocated to Tharn and braced themselves for whatever the universe might throw at them. Unfortunately, what the universe threw at that sector of space was the Khunds.  So with the tyranny and atrocities of his previous rule still deeply etched in their scarred memories, the Sorcerers’ Community pinned all their hopes on the wizard who had once ruled them as an utter despot.”

2)      Coronation Day, Planet Tharn, July 6, 1992.

3)      Senator Alturny Ansky: “Madame President, I move that this body act immediately and forcefully to declare our outrage at the actions of the Council of Teachers of the Planet Tharn.”

4)      Dr. Al-Zhay Draveed: “We’re talking about a group that was psychically battered by the destruction of their homeworld and the ravaging of their collective powers during the Mystic Wars.  We’re talking about a proud people, who’d previously felt invulnerable to outside threats, now desperately fearful of Khundish domination and the horrors that could bring.  But we’re not talking about a suicidal people.  It’s critical to remember that they’d attempted to purge Mordru’s soul of its darker aspects, and thought they’d succeeded.  He was by this time a benevolent, placid member of the community. His powers were almost gone, he had fallen in love with Mysa.  There was reason to hope the evil in him had been forever snuffed out.  They knew the corrupting nature of the powers they were returning to him.”

Was Mordru’s soul ever truly “purged” of its darker aspects?  Or was he staying under the radar until he could regain his power? Why would the Council think it was a good idea to restore Mordru’s power?  Wouldn’t the saner choice be to increase Mysa’s power?  She was on Tharn and doesn’t need her morality induced by a magical spell.

“The Last Days of Daxam” by K.J. Weber.

Basically a written recap of the earlier Mon-El issue.

1)      Glorith decimated Daxam.

2)      Mon-El led the Conspiracy and nearly died.

3)      Eltro Gand’s personality was dislodged from Mon-El’s psyche.

4)      Mon-El never died.

We receive a retcon of Mon-El and Shady’s marriage.  Shady no longer wed Mon-El when he was comatose, instead “Gar’s close brush with death seems to have also profoundly affected his relationship with Mallor.  After years of apparently waffling on the issue of marriage, they quickly tied the knot during the recovery period”.  

“And when Gar’s health had returned, Mallor finally convinced him to resign from the Legion and at long last fulfill the dream he’d harbored for more than a thousand years – to explore the far reaches of space.  They said their good-byes shortly before the Great Collapse hit, and were last heard from when they disappeared beyond the range of the Lallorian Colonies, plunging deep beyond the unexplored frontiers.”

“Little is known about the fate of the third great survivor of the 20th century, Dev-Em.  He is known to have lived beyond the destruction of Daxam and has long been linked to the Interstellar Counter-Intelligence Corps, but no information on his whereabouts.”

[life-rewritten]

Tharn and Type 7 Years: The duality of TharnType and LeoFiat

Okay, let's crack on to episode 4. This is going to be Looong! Strap in.  Another episode that yes I enjoyed. This show is like returning back to an old love, it feels nostalgic, it's the best thing in the day to end with, you're excited but also scared at the same time because you've become so attached that any issues that ruin this will break your heart into pieces. And I wasn't expecting it, but I became pretty attached real fast, I fell hard again. I am so grateful for this show for bringing back that excitement, and longing because waiting for the episodes is beginning to start to hurt. 

Addressing the Complaints 

In episode 4, fans have said that this episode was another filler episode full of nonsensical scenes and purely another LeoFiat storyline, fans were upset at the lack of screen time apparently for MewGulf (who play TT).  I say apparently because that's rubbish, they still have more screen time than others. Fans also thought the plot had started to be stagnant and nothing was happening. Hmm, I can see how fans may think of the last one, because I too even after watching episode 4, felt the story was on hold; however, I wasn't angry, I was intrigued. I know that the writer of this show leaves clues, information for where her plot is going right now; Tharn and Type are on a roller coaster, everything right now keeps building up, moving up waiting till it reaches that pause before we all fall and lose our minds. Because of the angst and drama. Because it will be painful. On Today's analysis, we're going to break down The dichotomy and duality of our two prominent couples this season in episode 4; LeoFiat (LF) and TharnType (TT)

Now, this is an example of the duality of LeoFiat and TharnType. We get two scenes at the beginning of episode 4, both associated with the making of or eating cake. It's funny when I analyse some shows as sometimes I hate looking deeper into scenes that may not even be planned or aren't actually that deep. But I got irritated because people stated that it was pointless having the cake scene; one because it was censored and we didn't get a kiss from TharnType, and that's what the scene was for to them, two because why the hell is Fiat eating a cake happily so important for TharnType? 

Well, I'm here to tell you that it is essential, every dialogue in these two scenes with cake is needed as much as the shopping scenes and the long focuses on characters doing mundane things. It's actually again telling you and building up the story in subtext. TharnType the show has always been a show that uses subtext to build up the tension and show what's going on secretly below the surface, in season 1 we saw this happen the opposite, we saw the angst and the fights and the pain on the surface, but we realised the depth, the meanings, the actual psychological links of our characters in subtext. In season 2 we have this reversed, we're getting the angst and the conflict being built up in the subtext. On the surface, we see ordinary moments that seem like they hold no meaning.

 Except they do: Take the cake scene, for example, we are again shown the mindset of our characters and behaviours towards the plot of the story: The marriage conflict with TT and the Fiat's interference with TT as the villain of the show. We're shown hints again to their personalities, mindsets and behaviours. 

Let me break it down even further: 

THE MESSY THING ABOUT CAKES

Cake Scene Number 1: Tharn has woken up to make a cake for Type because it's his day off in a while. Tharn isn't a great cook, so he's made a mess of the kitchen, in order to prevent more messes and Tharn getting hurt, Type distracts him with his body and intercourse. Type then proceeds to ask Tharn out for shopping, and a date and they tease each other. 

Cake scene Number 2: Fiat is happily eating cake, Leo shows up and berates him for his messiness, and Fiat pushes it off. Leo continues to complain whilst babying Fiat, Fiat and Leo then discuss Leo's family and how Fiat likes being seen as the favourite son in that family. Fiat then convinces Leo to take him out to go shopping for shoes he wants. Leo says he'd go alone, Fiat disagrees and manipulates him into letting him go by being more baby and cute. 

Tharn and Type: 

Messes and Destruction

So why is this cake scene so important? The dialogue and behaviour! Tharn is shown to be impulsive and rash. This is repeated throughout the whole episode. It's a warning, Tharn is spontaneous; ready to do new things, step out of comfort zones despite the mess and destruction it could cause to him and his safe space. With cooking he does it because he promised Type, it's to make sure Type is comfortable on his day off because he worries about him overworking (this is also repeated for the plot of this episode). However as much as he promised to cook always for Type, we've seen twice with his cooking, that Tharn is prone to making more of a mess than something useful. We even see a pan of the camera to the counter to show how much chaos he had caused. There's a reason for why it panned out. We've seen his battles with the eggs, the first time he hurt himself and Type was over-worried, and this time he messes up and destroys the kitchen to get one egg broken for the cake. It's cute but look at the dynamics:  

Type's Protective and Reactive Nature

Type is more reactive to Tharn's hurt, mess and destruction, and he's protective over what they have and is more on the watch for the damage rather than the gesture. Tharn wanted to be romantic, but he ended up ruining it by rushing, by being impulsive, by not slowing down; the gesture is for Type and to make Type happy, at ease and comfortable but it doesn't end up like that. This is foreshadowing; the cake making is the marriage plot. The reason why Tharn wants them to be married is so he can have a stable and secure relationship with Type, to make them happy and feel safe. Still, Type is more worried about the results of marriage, the 'mess' of their relationship if people get involved with their relationship or if the marriage doesn't work out because of society's laws.  This again shows how much both of them are doing things for each other but not actually not seeing each other and understanding each other. The more Tharn pushes the more Type will be worried and overreact. This was foreshadowing.

Leo and Fiat:

Messes and Obstructions

This is the one everyone said was a waste of plot except it wasn't. Look at the first details, we see Fiat happily and messily eating a cake, he's so happy, peaceful and joyful. This is the first scene we've seen him this way so far we've seen him anxious, mean, grumpy, loud, obnoxious and just overall unstable. The reason? Because Leo wasn't there. His friends mentioned it, he himself said it to Leo in episode 3 that he was losing his mind without him there, but he didn't want to bother him since Italy was so important to him. That one minute of him eating cake and smiling peacefully is there for a reason; its to show him blissful and different, the effect of Leo on Fiat. 

He's not meant to be a devil or evil he's just a kid who is spoilt and bratty.  Fiat knows how he is with Leo, and he appreciates it, he enjoys all that Leo has done for him, and it makes him love Leo. Yes, Love, Leo. He knows about his feelings, but he pushes them down because Leo keeps pushing them aside and seeing them as nothing. I wrote a post previously (here), detailing how both Fiat and Leo have feelings for each other, Fiat has been forced to let go of those feelings because Leo keeps rejecting and sweeping past his feelings because Leo sees his love as fickle or part of his spoilt personality; for example with this scene when he replies to Fiat's confession, 'You always say you love someone to whoever pampers you all the time'. 

Leo doesn't take Fiat's feelings seriously because he thinks Fiat plays too much with people, and he doesn't want to be that to Fiat (just a game to distract him so he won't get bored). Fiat just wants to be with Leo and to be by his side at all times. For Fiat, if being friends is the only way to do so, then it is better to stay friends. That's what this scene is showing you with their dynamic and with their dialogue.

Fiat's spoilt persona

Which brings us to Fiat's childish personality. I said in my previous post, Fiat felt neglected by the people around him; his parents, his friends who see him as an annoying brat and Leo, who didn't take his feelings seriously. We find out this episode that Fiat is close to Leo's family, he's like their son they take care of, but because they live far, he still feels neglected and alone. His actual family definitely don't show him care and emotional support, but they do spoil him with materialistic stuff probably. Hence why Fiat has embraced this spoilt child persona because it gives him what he wants; his parents attention, Leo's family's attention as the favourite 'son' (basically he's babied by them and spoilt by them) and Leo's care and affection.  

In fact, this is the reason why he proceeds to eat messily like a child, he knows Leo will clean it for him, and this is why he proceeds to whine and cry and complain because it gets Leo to baby him. Fiat embraces this childish, immature, spoilt personality because it makes it easy for him to be taken care of by Leo. See the cake scene for example; his mouth got wiped by Leo, Leo brought him water and then proceeded to accept Fiat's wishes to go with him to the mall because of him acting like a baby. 

On the other hand, Fiat just wants to spend as much time as possible with Leo; it's why he was so determined to join him at the mall despite coming up with other reasons. Fiat knows he loves Leo, probably knows what it means, but Leo's constant rejection and blindness make him think it's unrequited and failed.  But one thing most important to this plot, Fiat gets what he wants by being a baby. He doesn't like when he's being neglected, so he becomes manipulative, stubborn and immature whenever he wants something. This is why he becomes our villain. Leo can calm him down, but Leo is also the person who's making Fiat more of our villain because he refuses to accept Fiat's feelings; if he had taken him seriously, we wouldn't get this conflict. Fiat needs Type to distract him from his frustrations with Leo.

Plot: Fiat and Leo have known each other for a long time, are close to each other's families, and Fiat is used to being spoilt and babied. 

IT’S A DATE!

Shopping scene Number 1: It's a date, Tharn and Type eat and Tharn tries to get the marriage conversation in again, and Type becomes a bit possessive when he notices Tharn on his phone, changes the subject and we get Tharn's work philosophy, Type tries to warn Tharn to slow down, but it ends with Tharn proceeding to hint to marriage again, Type smiles whilst rejecting it softly. 

Shopping scene Number 2: Leo is possessive and jealous about Type, he wants to ensure that Type is just a fling to Fiat, Fiat doesn't get why Leo is acting this way and proceeds to say its because he gets what he wants, its a conquest basically, Fiat distracts Leo by complaining about his legs and then Leo continues to put shoes on Fiat as Fiat stares at him lovingly.

Tharn and Type.

Tharn; The hasty and rash

Again we get a repeat of this motif. Tharn wants to rush out some plans for his work, but Type is worried about him not slowing down and waiting to see the results. Again we see this misunderstanding of each other's perspective. Tharn wants to rush work stuff because he wants to make things stable and secure for him and Type fast, so their future is safe. Type doesn't understand why Tharn doesn't focus on the now, and take things slow and be protective of his work more carefully. Tharn's business is a metaphor like the cake for their relationship. Again the reason why he's being impulsive is for Type, and again Type doesn't see the reason for it. 

This is repeated again with the shopping scene, Tharn is rash and likes to spend money without thinking, because he's used to being wealthy and spoilt, (like Fiat). Again Type is protective of finances, he's their financial planner, he thinks of the big picture. He protects their relationship from any potential signs of harm, stress or issue. We actually see him do so this episode once he discovers Nana sneaking around in Tharn's life. It's him being protective and preventive. This date scene dialogue also foreshadows what will finally get Tharn and Type to the end of the conflict; possessiveness, communication and understanding.  These are three things that get Type willing to accept the proposal;

Possessiveness

Because Type finally realises that many people are still trying to ruin him and Tharn and marriage will help him get security and stability. Because the reason why people keep doing this is that they think he and Tharn are single. He realises he needs them to be exposed to the world to avoid these minor issues. 

Communication

It's only after Tharn explains why he rushes his work style for their relationship that Type finally gets his point of view, it makes him understand more why Tharn is more eager and trying to push things, it's for their security and stability, its for Type, so he also starts to feel grateful and happy at the thought of the ring on his finger. Hence the smile. 

Understanding

It's not yet happened but its losing Tharn that would make Type understand why marriage was needed. It's through them finally reaching a breaking point that will eventually push him to accept it despite his fears.

Leo and Fiat:

Leo: The oblivious and the envious 

Fiat basically says again the reason why he acts spoilt is, so that Leo pampers him; he doesn't like the idea of Leo not doing so. Obviously, the shopping scene is vital to the plot, it introduces Leo to Type, and at first, you seem him react uncomfortably because he's guessed it's one of Fiat's 'fake' relationships, people who he flirts with and sleeps with and gets bored of quickly; a quest. He still doesn't notice Fiat asking for his feelings; Fiat asks him if he thinks he's handsome Leo walks away (again pushing his feelings to the side/overlooking them). Fiat also explains why he likes Type; because he's hard to get, and a quest, it excites him, and it makes him determined to win his heart. 

We get even more clues to this when Fiat tells Leo he's always gotten what he wanted, but he had one thing he could never get. If the audience pays attention, you'd see him pause on Leo. Leo's feelings are what he couldn't get and what he had to give up on, but he diverts it to a lie, which he says that it's wanting Leo to stop nagging him. Thing is this shows Fiat's mindset again. Leo's requited feelings are something he's tried to get, but he didn't have a chance according to his perspective. Again Fiat knows he loves Leo, you see it again when he looks at him lovingly as Leo puts the shoe on him. These two aren't seeing each other eye to eye. But yes, shopping for shoes is important to the plot.

Plot: Fiat sees Type and proceeds to be eager and ensure he can keep texting him. Fiat admits he wants to be with Type to Leo. Leo isn't happy. Tharn notices Fiat and worries but gets distracted by Type so forgets about him. 

PHONES, SOCIALS AND PICTURES 

Scene 1; The social media scene: Type and Tharn discuss Tharn's worries for Type's work and how much energy he puts into it. Tharn wants Type to be more comfortable and at ease, and sends a picture on Instagram showcasing his ownership for Tharn. Type feels happy when seeing people's reactions to Tharn until he sees that Nana has liked all of Tharn’s picture, he's worried there's a homewrecker upcoming, and asks Techno for what he knows. Techno reveals he saw Nana and Tharn together. Type becomes possessive, looks through Tharn's phone and proceeds to go confront Nana.

Scene 2: The gym scene: Fiat is happily on the phone texting Type, he sends a picture (just like Tharn) to Type and discusses his behaviours and attitudes since he started getting physical therapy. Leo gets jealous and tries to get Fiat's attention, finally asking Fiat if he sees Type as something serious, Fiat says Yes. Leo loses his cool and becomes upset. Fiat doesn't notice as he's distracted happily texting with Type. 

Tharn and Type:

Possessiveness and Preventiveness:

We see Type again lean towards marriage when he notices how happy he is when Tharn declares his ownership. But also they communicate, and Tharn tells Type he's worried about him overworking, he wants to be the one taking care of Type. Type is happy and grateful, he understands he's Tharn's number one priority. And he likes seeing people react to Tharn as a good boyfriend. But we see his fears come back, because the reason why he hates being exposed to the public, why he keeps refusing to involve people in their relationship is because of people like Nana.

Now I just want to speak about Type and Tharn's possessiveness and irrational jealousy. Obviously, people would say this is the reason for toxicity of TT except if you know the show and understand them it isn't. The way they started their relationship is enough to show you why they are so jealous of people, it wasn't to do with them not trusting each other, or being toxic and controlling. It's not to do with any of that. 

It's to do with Long. Remember him? In Season 1 Type had to go through a lot because of people's interference; San kissing Tharn, (making him finally call Tharn his boyfriend) and Tar returning and chasing after Tharn ( making him also protective and find out Long's interference causing them to break up). Finally Long had been manipulating Tharn for a very long time psychologically, emotionally and physically. Type knows Tharn is easily manipulated and easily attractive to problematic people.

 Nana is one of them, she's a flashback to all these people who tried to ruin what they had, and both TT has shown repeatedly this season are extremely overprotective of their relationship. It's not a surprise Type looks into Tharns phone and answers Nana and goes to her, he's being protective and preventive not toxic. He knows Tharn won't cheat; it's not about him; it's about as I keep repeating preventing measures that could cause harm to their relationship. Same reason why Tharn wants to get married and declare ownership, its to protect and secure their relationship. They have the same goal, just different methods. 

Leo and Fiat: 

Possessiveness and Proclamations

If you guys didn't notice Leo was mirroring Tharn is season 1 episode 2 I think. Type showed attraction to Tharn shirtless and drinking water, and the jealousy seeing him text someone else. We’ve those scenes before because we’ve seen Tharn do all that is S1. First thing to notice is; Leo is confident, he can distract Fiat. This shows you he's been doing it before, he's used to getting Fiat's attention on his body,  and he's used to getting Fiat distracted from other people, this is why he hasn't bothered with others. Because Fiat gets bored and returns back to obsessing and flirting with him. 

The problem here is Leo is too late when it comes to Type; it's his lack of presence in episode 1, 2 and 3 that led Fiat to seek comfort and trust in Type. Fiat finally found someone else to be excited about, someone else to feel inspired by and someone who makes him not bored when Leo isn't around. Fiat likes that about Type, he wants that; he's being distracted from his own feelings for Leo, he doesn't see or understand why Leo is acting out. He's too focused on his quest. And I get it, he finally has a chance to move on from Leo and still keep their friendship intact. Type is the way to do that. 

 The Problem With the Unofficial Label

This is the danger of unofficial relationships. Leo thought his comfort zone was being in this unofficial thing with Fiat. He had feelings, but he also thought Fiat wasn't going anywhere or getting distracted because he always returned back to Leo probably whining and throwing tantrums, he probably also again threw his shot and flirted heavily with Leo.

 Leo was okay keeping what they had this way (like Type was okay with keeping him and Tharn hidden), but it's only when he realises that their relationship isn't stable or secure for him to declare ownership that he reacts, he's learning just a bit too late. Fiat's entire focus has shifted to Type, and it isn't going to change any time soon. Leo has pushed Fiat away too much that now he's going to be regretting it and being hurt because of this. 

To all the people who feel bad for Leo, Fiat isn't manipulative or using Leo, he has no clue about his feelings for him, he gets hints sometimes, but it's always pushed away once Leo rejects his flirtations. If you noticed this episode before Type showed up Fiat was saying how he felt to Leo repeatedly; 

'I love you the most in the world."

"I'm handsome don't you think"'

"If I stop, won't you pamper me anymore?" 

 Each time he got rebuffed by Leo, Leo assumed Fiat was saying I love you to anyone easily as long as he was spoilt by them, he believed it was fickle and interchangeable. He walked away when he was asked if he thought he was handsome because of jealousy, and he failed to see Fiat's fear when he said the last quote. Leo doesn't see Fiat's feelings and Fiat has stopped trying to see his. Hence fixation on Type. Again this is for the plot, Fiat is a villain. After all, he's started to want to win Type's heart because he likes how he feels with him, and he's never lost a quest before. 

Plot: Type is getting closer to the idea of marriage, Nana has come into the picture. Type is determined to prevent her from doing something and goes to confront her. Fiat is also starting to fall harder for Type and has decided to pursue him. Leo, on the other hand, is also getting jealous and losing his control of his feelings and Fiat's attention. 

‘A MUNDANE PLOT AND STAGNANT STORY TELLING’ 

Three scenes with immense depth to character building mirrors from season 1 and more plot building. The plot hasn't stayed still, Tharn is more determined and closer to getting Type to accept his proposal, but he's impulsive, rash and rushes things without giving Type room to think. His brother warned him about this in the episode and its foreshadowing he needs to stop and slow things down. Give Type time! Type is possessive of what he has with Tharn and is also closer to leaning towards marriage, but if rushed, he'll panic and lose his cool. 

Fiat and Leo's plot is building, both have feelings for each other, but because Leo refuses to tell Fiat straight up or take his feelings seriously both think it's unrequited; in response, Fiat finds distraction and excitement with Type and so proceeds to focus on that conquest, he's determined to win Type's heart, but he also likes being with Type because Type seems to understand him and is just like him remember.

 Leo, on the other hand, this episode realises someone has actually taken his place in Fiat's mind and is now panicking and no longer willing to keep their relationship unofficial.

 See? Is that not a plot? We get both information and a build-up to Fiat becoming the villain, whilst again making us feel sorry for him. We get the marriage plot still ongoing, there's more manipulation to get Type to say yes, and he's close to it, but if rushed, he'll stop. There's still miscommunication and misunderstanding of each other's perspective when it comes to both our characters. The plot has not paused; it's always moving, everything was needed this episode. So all those people who keep complaining, please for the love of god calm down. 

More Tharn Type Analysis: Masterpost Check under Tharn and Type Here

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Comfort While Touring

A/N: Ayyy, another fic done! This one was very cute to write so I really hope you like it @whatisadecentusername! To everyone else, I hope you guys love it as well! <3

Summary: After Tharn takes Type on a small tour for his band, they both don’t expect the weather change as they practically get snowed into their motel room and have to find a way to make themselves warm from the cold.

Word Count: 1400

“When you said it was probably going to be cold, I didn’t think it would be this fucking cold,” Type grumbled, rubbing his arms so he could try to warm himself as Tharn juggled the items he was carrying before he finally grabbed the key, unlocking the small motel room that his band had decided to stay for the next few days. Shoving himself past his boyfriend, Type blew into his hands as Tharn shut the door and kicked off his shoes, his own body shivering lightly from the chilled outside world. When it was announced that they were going a few hours away for a gig and would be in another city, Tharn thought about Type and since they were just beginning to try to understand how they both feel, Tharn couldn’t be happier that Type took this into consideration and had agreed to come along. What he didn’t know was that it would snow as heavily as it did along with the insane temperature drop and neither him nor Type were dressed properly for the weather. “Did you know it would snow like this? We should’ve brought proper clothing. The last thing we need is for either of us to get sick.”

“I’m sorry, Type. I seriously didn’t know it would snow or get so cold like it’s doing…” Tharn sighed out, throwing his messenger bag on the floor next to his shoes as he entered the room more. Letting out a small huff as he heard Tharn’s answer, Type grunted and moved his eyes around the room, taking in everything around him as Tharn did the same. The room wasn’t that bad if they were being honest. The bed was pretty big for the both of them and the bathroom was a pretty good size as well. Still rubbing his arms, Type turned his back to Tharn as he stared out the window, watching the snowfall, the snow looking like it was huge balled up white blankets. Letting out a soft sigh, Tharn closed in on his boyfriend and wrapped his arms around his waist, burying his face in Type’s neck as he breathed in his scent. Relaxing a bit in Tharn’s hold, Type didn’t say a word as they continued to stare out the window. “I could ask the people in the office if they have any extra blankets if you want? I can only imagine how cold it’s going to get the later it gets into the night.”

Shaking his head slightly, Type leaned back into Tharn’s hold and bumped their heads together gently. Letting the quiet moment they had last for a bit longer, Type eventually squirmed out of Tharn’s embrace and turned, trying to hide the smile that was forcing its way on his lips as Tharn pulled him close, their hips and stomachs pressed up together fully. Pushing his hands up into Tharn’s hair, Type gently scratched as his scalp while Tharn’s thumbs rubbed soothing circles into his hips. Pulling Type closer, Tharn smiled at him before he pressed their lips together, keeping the kiss soft until they both pulled away, keeping their foreheads pressed together as they stared into each other’s eyes. Giving Tharn a shy smile of his own, Type leaned in and pressed another kiss to his lips before he pulled away, scooting out of Tharn’s hold as he headed for the bathroom. 

“I’m taking a shower! Go get us some food because I am starving,” Type called out, pulling out a towel from his bag before he jogged into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him. Letting a huge grin slide onto his face as he stared at the closed door a bit longer, Tharn chuckled and grabbed his wallet from his own bag, slipping on his boots before he exited their shared room, going to do what Type had asked him to do. In the bathroom, Type pressed his back against the door as he heard Tharn leave. Clearing his throat to stop the blush from filling his cheeks more, Type stripped out of his shirt and threw the rest of his clothing on the floor, starting the shower and making sure the water was practically scalding. By the time he was finished washing the shampoo out of his hair, Tharn was back in the room and getting everything ready for them. “Tharn?! I forgot a set of clothes, can you give me some?”

Rolling his eyes with a chuckle, Tharn called back his reply before he dug through his own bag, pulling out one of his own shirts before he raided Type’s bag, pulling out a pair of pajama bottoms. Knocking his knuckles against the door, Tharn watched as it opened and Type peered out with a towel wrapped around his waist. Eyeing him up and down with a smirk, Tharn kept the clothes out of Type reach until Type grumbled and pressed a kiss to Tharn’s cheek, stunning him enough to grab the clothes from his boyfriend’s hand and shut the door again. Rubbing the cheek that Type had kissed, Tharn grinned brightly before he moved away from the bathroom, taking his place at the table as he waited for his boyfriend to get dressed. Shrugging on his pants and glancing over the shirt, Type rolled his eyes when he noticed that he was given one of Tharn’s shirts instead of one of his own. 

“Hurry up, Type. The food is getting cold,” Tharn called out, snapping Type out of his haze before he pulled the shirt on, stepping out of the bathroom quickly as his stomach protested him for not eating. Not saying anything as Type sat down and practically scoffed down his food, Tharn watched him a bit more before he turned his eyes to his own food, digging in as he too was practically starving. Letting his eyes drift up from his food, Type observed as Tharn ate before his fork it the styrofoam container as he finished up his dinner quickly. Placing the fork and spoon into the container, Type closed it and leaned back, trying not to make it obvious that he was still staring at Tharn. Noticing this, of course, Tharn tried to keep the pleased grin off his face as he too finished up, gathering up the empty containers and moving to throw them away as Type stood up. “I’m going to shower, are you getting ready to sleep? We have to get up early tomorrow anyway.”

“Yeah, I’m getting ready for bed. Don’t make too much noise!” Type snarked out, huffing when all it made Tharn do was chuckle and step closer to him, cupping his face as he caressed his cheek softly. Pressing a kiss to Type’s nose, Tharn grinned and stepped away, making his way towards the bathroom while Type watched him leave. Turning around when the door shut, Type stared at their bed and moved around it, taking the right spot as he got under the blankets and snuggled in, practically sighing in comfort at how warm the blankets were on top of him. Closing his eyes, Type let the warmth of the blankets lull him into sleep as he began to doze off, not hearing the shower stop and the bathroom door open as Tharn exited, wearing his usual white muscle tank and a pair of plain grey pajama bottoms. Feeling the bed shift slightly as Tharn climbed in, Type sighed and turned, staring at his boyfriend with tired eyes. “Stop squirming so much. Go to sleep.”

Whispering out his apologies, Tharn reached for the bedside lamp and turned it off, bathing the room into darkness as he settled into bed, pulling the blanket up on him as Type wiggled closer, wrapping his arm around Tharn’s waist as he head settled on his boyfriend’s chest. Wrapping his arms around Type, Tharn cuddled him closer as they both finally settled with Tharn’s face buried in Type’s hair. Pressing a soft kiss to his temple, Tharn closed his eyes as Type snuggled his face into his chest more, letting out similar sighs as they let the warmth of each other and the blankets around them lull them asleep, cuddled firmly together as the snow began to lighten outside and the moon peeked through the clouds, casting a soft light in their room, illuminating the soft smiles the both of them had resting on their lips.

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I’m Not Jealous! (Or Maybe I Am)

A/N: I’M FINALLY DONE!!! I think this is the longest oneshot I have ever made. But I wanted to make it long since I was combining the three prompts from above! I literally worked on this all day so I hope everyone who reads it likes it! I hope all three anons love it as well! Fair warning, there is a nongraphic sex part in it, but like I said, I didn’t put too much detail into it and it’s just brief. Enjoy the fic!!!

Summary: Type tries to convince himself that he doesn’t need Tharn there to feel happy but when he gets to have half of the day alone when Tharn leaves to a bar, Type finds that it’s further from the truth and is secretly happy when Tharn comes back and he can take care of him until the next day where they have a lot of it to just the two of them.

Word Count: 4102

Type had no idea when it started, but he did not like it. Ever since he and Tharn have been having...you know...sex, Type found that whatever he did, he couldn’t stop thinking about Tharn and it was starting to get on his nerves. Staring at his laptop screen as he listened to Tharn moving around in their shared dorm, Type bristled slightly when he felt his said roommate brush up against his back, almost leaning on him entirely. Hearing a snicker, Type turned around in the chair and glared at Tharn, trying not to show how much Tharn being near him was affecting him as his ears burned brightly. Smiling quite smugly, Tharn dodged the kick that was aimed his way and moved towards his bed, slipping on his sneakers. Watching him silently, Type felt the glare he was wearing beginning to dim as his eyes just looked his roommate up and down. Feeling eyes sizing him up, Tharn turned back around and caught Type’s gaze, grinning when Type snapped back to reality and turned away, keeping his back to him.

“I’m going out with some friends to the bar,” Tharn told Type, finishing up with tying his laces before he stood back up, slinging his bag over his shoulder. Blinking as he took in what Tharn told him, Type turned back around in his desk chair and watched as Tharn stepped up to him, close enough to where his waist was touching Type’s shoulder. Keeping his eyes connected to Tharn’s, Type swallowed the growing lump in his throat and stayed still as Tharn leaned down and put their faces close together. “Unless, you want to come with me?”

“Go with you my ass!” Type growled, turning his face away as Tharn began to cackle, pressing his forehead against Type’s hair for a second before he stepped back, walking towards the door. Turning around as he opened the door, Tharn glanced at Type once more before he grinned and stepped out, shutting the door behind him. Finally seeing that Tharn left, Type grumbled and closed his laptop, pushing himself off his desk chair as he crossed the room, hopping on his bed as he took his phone off the charger. Waiting for a game to load up, Type leaned back and glanced at Tharn’s empty bed, feeling a twinge of something that he didn’t like popping up in his head. “Absolutely not! I will not do it…no matter how comfortable it looks!”

Glaring at his game as he died once again, Type grumbled and moved his gaze back to Tharn’s bed, fighting his every want to just give in and do it. Letting out a sigh, Type scooted off his bed and stood up, looking over Tharn’s bed before he huffed and belly flopped on it, burying his face in the comforter as Tharn’s scent filled his nose. Squirming a bit more so he could curl up, Type glared at his game, wanting to scold himself for being weak. There is no way he’s enjoying this! Not one bit! Knowing that he couldn’t focus on his phone now, Type exited the game and put it on sleep mode, placing it on the bedside table as he rolled onto his back, staring up at the ceiling in thought. Tharn said he was going to the bar...was it the one that he brought Type to a couple of days ago? Letting out a hum as he thought, Type glanced out the window and noticed it was just beginning to grow dark. 

“I’m not concerned about him...not at all,” Type grumbled, turning back around as he scooted up and buried his face in Tharn’s pillow. Bunching up the fabric underneath him with his fist, Type pushed the blankets back and got underneath them, letting out a small sigh as the warmth of them put his tensed up body at ease. Not realizing he was dozing off, Type yawned and snuggled deeper into Tharn’s pillow, letting his eyes flutter shut as he finally fell unconscious. It wasn’t long before Tharn finally came back, a little buzzed but still in the right mind to be quiet as he entered the dorm room. Kicking off his shoes, Tharn moved towards his bed but stopped as he noticed Type cuddled into it. Feeling the sound of someone stepping towards him, Type groaned and opened his eyes, noticing Tharn watching him with his eyebrows raised and his arms crossed. “Tharn! T-this is not what it looks like! Stop smiling at me you asshole!”

“Sure, Type...this isn’t what it looks like. I simply walked in and found my roommate in my bed,” Tharn teased, wincing as Type sat up and kicked him in the side. Chuckling as he backed away, Tharn sat down on Type’s bed and continued to smile despite the halfhearted glare he was receiving. Rubbing the back of his neck, Type glanced at the alarm clock Tharn kept on his side of the table and sighed, seeing how late it was. Letting his eyes examine Tharn, who looked ready to pass out on his own two feet, Type got up and grabbed at Tharn’s wrist, pulling him up before he pushed him down on his own bed. Watching as Type dug through his drawers, Tharn lazily caught the clothes that were thrown his way before he watched his roommate nod towards the shower. “I’m too tired to shower…”

Seeing the glare get more intense, Tharn sighed and stood up, wobbling his way towards the shower before he closed the door behind him, effectively cutting off the glare Type was giving him. Letting out a sigh as he heard the shower turn on, Type moved towards his own dresser and pulled out a pair of shorts with a plain grey t-shirt. Throwing off his dirty clothes, Type balled them up and threw them in the hamper. Slipping on his pajamas just as he heard the shower turn off, Type slipped on his shirt in time for the door to open and a half naked Tharn exited, his hair still dripping. Feeling his eye twitch as he noticed this, Type sighed and stomped over to his roommate, grabbing his wrist before he tugged him towards his bed, sitting him down before he pushed Tharn’s legs apart and got in the middle of them, using the towel that was around his neck to ruffle his hair around. Sitting still as Type did this, Tharn yawned and reached out, wrapping his arms around Type’s waist before he buried his face in his stomach, taking in the smell of his laundry soap. 

“Oi, don’t fall asleep like that,” Type scolded softly, not finding in his heart to really be grumpy to Tharn since he could see the dark circles under his tired eyes. Finally growing satisfied with how Tharn’s hair wasn’t dripping anymore, Type tossed the towel into the hamper before he observed Tharn, biting back a smile when he noticed how he was nuzzling his face against his stomach. Brushing his fingers through Tharn’s hair, Type felt when he moved his face up, letting his eyes look into Type’s. Cupping Tharn’s face softly, Type rubbed at the dark circles with his thumbs before he leaned down, pressing a kiss to Tharn’s lip, keeping it brief before he pulled away and played with Tharn’s ears, clearing his throat. “Come on, get to bed. You look ready to pass out against me.”

“Don’t want to move…” Tharn whined softly, burying his face back into Type’s stomach as he tightened the hold he had around him. Rolling his eyes, Type played with the one earring Tharn had in his ear before he slid his hands down his neck and to his shoulders, giving them a squeeze before he gently pushed him off, trying to bite back the smile that threatened to come on his face when he noticed Tharn wearing a very adorable pout on his lips. Pushing him back a bit more, Type pushed the blanket back before arms were around his waist again and he fell forward on top of Tharn. Ready to curse him out, Type pushed himself up but grunted as he was pulled back down and the blanket flew over them. “Sleep here with me.”

Hearing this, Type sighed and stopped fighting his buzzed roommate, squirming around until he was on his side and staring at Tharn, who mirrored the position. Keeping silent as they looked at each other, Tharn scooted closer and wrapped his arm around Type’s waist, trying to pull him closer. Letting himself be pulled, Type curled into Tharn’s body and shyly put his face in his neck, shivering as Tharn’s hand slid up his shirt, rubbing at the bare skin of his lower back. Noticing the shiver, Tharn grinned from where his face was buried in Type’s hair before he pulled it back, pressing their foreheads together as their eyes continued to meet. Swallowing the lump in his throat, Type licked his lips and watched as Tharn observed the movement, his eyes just beginning to darken. Hugging Type closer, Tharn pressed their lips together as his hand swerved around from Type’s back to his stomach, feeling the slight muscle he had there before he lowered his hand, playing with the strings of Type’s shorts. 

“I thought you wanted to s-sleep…” Type grumbled, wiggling as Tharn rubbed his thumb over his belly button before the tips of his fingers entered his shorts. Letting out a hum, Tharn kept his gaze on Type’s face as he lowered his hand more, finally reaching fully inside as Type jerked and bit his lips. Grabbing onto Tharn’s arm that was doing its thing in his pants, Type buried his face in Tharn’s shoulder, hiding the pants and moans that wanted to come out of his mouth. “H-hurry it up! I’m tired…”

Grinning brightly, Tharn nodded and pressed a kiss to Type’s hair and worked harder, taking in the sounds Type was making. It wasn’t so long after he started that Type finished, biting Tharn’s shoulder as he finished. Barely being able to keep his eyes open as Tharn wiped his hand on the sheets, Type couldn’t find it in himself to care as Tharn’s arms wrapped around him and he passed out in the warmth of his chest. Smiling down at Type, Tharn yawned and buried his face in Type’s hair, zonking out as well after the long night he had at the bar. 

“Oof...what the hell is on me,” Type groaned, covering his eyes from the sun that was peeking into the window, the curtains not preventing the rays from hitting his face. Shifting around as he tried to struggle out of whatever was on him, Type rubbed his eyes and glanced down to see Tharn, draped across him and out like a light. Letting out a hiss, Type squirmed out of the hold Tharn had on him and winced as he fell off the bed, landing quite hard on his ass. Getting up, Type rubbed the spot he landed on before he sighed and stared down at Tharn who didn’t even realize that Type was gone from his arms. He was probably too hungover to even be kicked awake like Type did last time. “What time is it...breakfast is still going, good…”

Slipping on his sandals, Type grabbed his keys before he turned and glanced at Tharn one more time, rolling his eyes as he noticed that he had kicked the comforter off his foot during the night. Leaving the dorm, Type glanced around before he made his way down the stairs. It didn’t take that long for him to return to the dorm, carrying a small plastic bag with two cartons of food in it. Unlocking the dorm, Type stepped in and kicked off his sandals, peering over at Tharn and practically groaning when he noticed that his roommate was still passed out. Letting out a heavy sigh, Type walked across the room and placed the bag on the small table, pulling out the two cartons and placing them in their respective spots before he turned towards Tharn, huffing. 

“Hey dumbass, wake up and eat. I got breakfast,” Type called out, stepping towards Tharn’s bed before he kicked it, aiming for Tharn’s legs as he did so. Letting out a muffled whine, Tharn groaned and shifted a bit to see Type, wincing as the sunlight burned his eyes and the slight ache of a hangover stirred in his head. Sitting up slowly, Tharn made a face at how dry his mouth was before he glanced at Type who was getting some water bottles for the both of them to drink. Shifting out of bed, Tharn heaved himself to the table and let out a sigh when the smell of an omelet met his nose. “Don’t just sit there, eat and then go brush your teeth, you smell like a bar.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Tharn grumbled, taking a huge gulp of his water before he grabbed his fork, practically shoveling half the omelet into his mouth. Blinking in shock, Type rolled his eyes and began to eat his own food. Cleaning up once he was done, Tharn moved towards the bathroom and began to brush his teeth, shooting Type a grin that made him flustered. Letting out a growl, Type finished his food before he began to clean up, ignoring the eyes he could feel on his back as he moved to get out of the chair, throwing everything out. Drinking the last of water, Type choked on some as arms wrapped around his waist and Tharn’s chin buried itself in his shoulder, pressing his nose into his neck. “Thanks for breakfast. I need to get going soon, just letting you know.”

“Where are you going?” Type grumbled, not moving from the hold Tharn had him in. Grinning as he noticed this, Tharn hummed and mentioned something about his band getting together for practice. Nodding a bit as he listened, Type shivered when Tharn’s breath fanned over his ear before he finally let him go, moving around Type so he could get his drumsticks and everything else he needed ready. Standing still, Type observed Tharn as he got everything together in less than five minutes before he suddenly started stripping. Flushing heavily, Type turned his back and grumbled something as he heard Tharn’s teasing laughter. Once he was dressed, Tharn threw his clothes in the hamper and pulled on his bag. “Tharn..? Do you think I can c-come too?”

Hearing this, Tharn paused his track to the door, turning around to look at Type, who was too busy staring a hole in the floor. Feeling Tharn staring at him, Type cleared his throat and rose his face, seeing the smile that Tharn was giving him. It was the one that he said was just for him. Rubbing the back of his neck, Type moved his gaze elsewhere when Tharn nodded and waited for Type to get ready. Grabbing his black skinny jeans with holes and a random t-shirt, Type ran into the bathroom and got ready, fixing his hair and brushing his teeth before he stepped out, slipping on his shoes to see Tharn still waiting for him, leaning against the door. Seeing that Type was ready, Tharn stood up and opened the door, letting Type through first before he closed it behind them, locking it. 

“Thanks for coming with me. You’re going to love them, I promise,” Tharn chuckled, clutching the strip of his bag to his chest as he and Type walked side by side down the stairs and out of the dormitory. Making their way across campus, Type gazed around and tried not to let it bother him when he noticed people staring at the both of them walking together. It’s like they were surprised to see them not fighting or something. Shaking the thought from his head as they arrived to a small area in the music faculty, Type glanced around as Tharn walked up the stairs, stopping so Type could follow him. “We’re almost to the practice room. If you want to sit, I’m pretty sure there’s stools in there.”

“Whatever...who else is in the band?” Type asked, following Tharn into the building before they came to a room. Opening the door, Tharn led Type in by the small of his back before he shut it behind them, turning on the light as Type stared at all the music instruments strewn about. Noticing a drum set in the corner of the room, Type walked towards it and checked it out. Watching him, Tharn placed his backpack near the door and pulled out his drumsticks. Turning towards Tharn as his roommate walked around him, Type watched as Tharn sat down and fixed the drums, messing with the symbols before he tapped them gently, tuning the sound to where it’s supposed to be. “Well? You didn’t answer my question.”

“Oh..well right now it’s just me and Long, but we’re in the process of finding a new member or something,” Tharn muttered, twirling his drumsticks in his fingers before he tested the drums, chuckling when it made Type jump from how loud it was. Shooting him an apologetic smile, Tharn gestured towards a stool a little ways away from the drumset and watched as Type sat down. Gazing around at the other musical instruments, Type twitched as Tharn started drumming again. Keeping it light, Tharn tested out the way all of them sounded before he glanced back up at Type. “I’m the only one going to be practicing today. While we were on our way here, Long texted me saying he got in trouble and had to stay after class.”

Nodding as he listened to Tharn explain why they were the only ones there, Type closed his eyes as Tharn continued to beat into the drums, making a tune that he never heard before. Letting the sound of Tharn’s drums being the only thing in the room, Type kept quiet and just listened, finding himself beginning to relax as Tharn’s drumming grew soft. He had no idea how long they were there but by the time Tharn finally finished practicing some of the songs Long and him thought up, it was late afternoon and both of them could feel their stomachs protesting in hunger. Steadying the vibrating symbols, before he eased his foot off the bottom drum, pushing himself away from the set as he stood. 

“I’m getting hungry, want to hit the ramen shop?” Tharn asked, lifting up his bag as he put his drumsticks back where they were. Rubbing his stomach as it agreed to what Tharn asked him, Type nodded and pushed himself off the stool, walking over to meet Tharn as he opened the door for him, wearing a bright smile. Huffing slightly, Type shoved Tharn out the door and shut it behind him. Chuckling at the feisty nature Type got when he was hungry, Tharn strolled out of the musical faculty building with Type hot on his heels. “I know just the place. It’s quite small but it has a comfortable atmosphere.”

“Whatever, just take me to the food already,” Type grumbled, keeping on Tharn’s heels as he led him off the campus. Letting out a sigh as he noticed he was leaving the campus yet again, Type moved a bit faster until they were side by side. Observing this, Tharn smiled and bumped their shoulders together, chuckling at the huff it got for the action he made. Finally reaching the place after about ten minutes of walking, Tharn gently ushered Type in and practically drooled as the smell wavered around them as they entered. Feeling his stomach growl again as he smelled the food around them, Type swallowed and glanced at Tharn, looking away with a blush when Tharn smiled at the face he was making. “What are you smiling at, let’s order before I starve.”

Cackling at how dramatic Type was being, Tharn nodded and walked further in, stopping at the pay station and ordering what he wanted, glancing at Type to tell him to order as well. Giving the kind woman his order, Type went to pay but stopped when Tharn tapped his hand and shook his head, taking his own money out. Pouting slightly as his attempt to pay was rejected. All well, he’d just have to pay for more of the snacks and sprite that Tharn liked so much. Moving together to a booth, Type sat down and messed around with the spoons while Tharn sat across from him. Talking about the band some more and how his job was, Tharn smiled softly as Type listened and nodded along, his eyes bright and soft as he stared at Tharn. Noticing a woman coming with their food, Tharn thanked her warmly and with a smile while Type nodded his thanks and stared at his ramen, stirring the noodles around as Tharn observed the fast mood change. 

“Type? Is something wrong with your food?” Tharn whispered, reaching out to Type’s hand, laying his on top lightly. Jerking back from wherever his mind went, Type shook Tharn’s hand off his own and moved to eat, blowing on every bite before he slurped down. Chuckling at the flush that was covering Type’s ears as he ate, Tharn took his own chopsticks and chowed down, drinking the broth slowly since it was still kinda hot. Blowing on his broth, Type gulped down the rest of the soup and let out a contented sigh as he felt his insides warm up instantly. Snickering at the look of bliss on Type’s face, Tharn quickly finished up before he took his and Type’s bowls, putting them on the stand before he turned back around. “You ready to head back to the dorms now?”

“Yeah, it’s getting kind of late and the last thing we both need is for you to ignore your alarm for class again tomorrow,” Type sassed, standing up before he turned towards the door. Thanking the nice woman before they left, Type watched as Tharn gave her another smile before he left, not even knowing that Type was brooding about it. Finally noticing that Type was deep in his thoughts with a sneer on his face, Tharn arched a brow before he jerked back in surprise as Type stepped in front of him and glared. Pausing, Tharn blinked and glanced around, not knowing what Type was thinking or why he was being glared at. “What was that back there? Why would you smile at her like that?”

“Um...smile at who…? Do you mean that nice woman at the restaurant?” Tharn asked, adjusting the bag around his shoulder as he stared at Type, obviously confused. Seeing the nod Type gave him, Tharn hummed and thought about the smile. He was just being polite but seeing the way Type was looking at him, it felt like he was being judged for doing something that everyone would do to be polite. Seeing how confused Tharn was for why he was giving him attitude, Type suddenly blanked out and stepped back, rubbing at his arm as he tried to think of a way to get out of what was most likely about to happen. Meeting Type’s eyes again, Tharn suddenly grinned before he stepped forward and tucked a finger under Type’s chin, raising his face so they were eye to eye. “Type, are you jealous of me smiling at that woman? I was just being polite, remember, my true smile only belongs to you.”

Scoffing slightly as he protested about not being jealous, Type tried to look away but failed as Tharn cupped his face and brought it back, stepping closer to him before he pressed their lips together. Letting out a shocked breath through his nose, Type felt his eyes widen briefly before they fluttered shut, pressing himself closer to Tharn as he started to respond to the kiss. Pulling away with another soft kiss to his lips, Tharn grinned and wrapped his hand gently around Type’s wrist, pulling him towards the dorms again. Allowing himself to be pulled silently, Type gelt himself give into the smiling Tharn as they entered the campus again, making their way towards the dormitory. He knew what was about to happen, but for once, Type couldn’t help but look forward to it as Tharn glanced at him one more time, his eyes almost black as he unlocked their dorm room and gently pulled Type in, shutting the door behind them.

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We’re Soulmates!

A/N: I...am not sure if I am quite proud of this one, but I tried my best. This was my first soulmate kind of fanfic and like I said, I really don’t think it’s too good. I’m sorry if this isn’t too good @whatisadecentusername. This is heavily based of episode six and unless I say so otherwise...I don’t think I should really do anymore soulmates/soulmark fanfics due to how much I struggled with this. I want to make good stuff and I just don’t think I did okay one this. Other than that, I hope you and everyone else likes it.

Summary: To Tharn, sharing a soulmark with Type was hard and Type finally realizes he was wrong and tries to make it up to Tharn by apologizing to him.

Word Count: 2000

Laying his bed with his headphones in, Tharn kept his gaze out the window, examining the night sky as he was left alone in his and Type’s dorm room. The last few days have been disastrous and honestly so depressing that Tharn hasn’t been in the mood for anything. He had been skipping classes and eating his meals was another thing he hasn’t been doing well on. He barely ate anything for breakfast or lunch and he had completely skipped dinner. Shaking the thought of food out of his head, Tharn buried his face in the pillow and stared down at his wrist where a small tattoo like mark of a musical note attached to a soccer ball rested on the inside of his arm. Reaching out, Tharn rubbed at it softly with his thumb as he felt the emotion he was feeling earlier at the bar rise up again. Sniffing softly, Tharn buried his soulmark arm away from his line of sight before he slammed his eyes shut, sealing the tears that were threatening to spill from them inside. Knowing that he wouldn’t be able to get some sleep, Tharn just rested with his eyes closed as he thought about everything that happened earlier within the day. 

“You’re seeing another person, Type! I have a right to be mad! We’re sharing soulmarks for fucks sake!” Tharn growled out, meeting Type head on once he finally got home from being on a date with that girl. Tharn could not believe that he had to hear from Techno that his soul partner was on a date and seeing another girl while they were in a casual relationship and having sex literally almost every night. Hearing the growl that Type let out as they continued to yell and scream at each other, Tharn felt his mind snap as he lost his cool and yelled something he knew he usually wouldn’t say on any circumstance. “You’re my bitch!”

The punch that Type landed right across his face knocked him back to his senses a bit once he realized what he shouted. Listening to Type scream at him about not having a right to demand who he had sex with or who he saw, Tharn tried to keep the tears out of his eyes as he held his face, continuing to listen to Type go off until he finally stopped, panting as he tried to catch his breath while he glared at the silent Tharn. Not saying another word, Tharn moved his teary gaze away from Type and only observed from the corner of his eye as Type gathered his pillow and comforter, leaving the room with the dorm door slamming shut as he left, most likely heading next door to sleep for the night. Feeling his cheek throb under his hand as his tears finally fell, Tharn took a shaky breath in and out as his body began to tremble, letting out everything he was holding back in that moment. It wasn’t long before he finally moved and just collapsed in his bed, burying his face in his pillow so it could muffle the cries and whimpers that were leaking out no matter how hard he tried to conceal them. 

Opening his eyes as the sunlight beamed through the window, Tharn winced as it burned them before he slowly pushed himself up, turning around a bit to glance at Type’s bed. Noticing the pillow and comforter back on the bed, Tharn knew that Type had come back while he was asleep and must’ve left without saying anything to him. There wasn’t even breakfast waiting for him and why would he be surprised after what had happened yesterday? Letting out a shaky sigh, Tharn pushed himself off his bed and moved towards the bathroom, staring hard at himself in the mirror as he noticed a slight bruise developing where Type had punched him along with his red and swollen eyes that must be from him crying in his sleep most of the night. Filling the sink with water, Tharn splashed some of the cool water on his face before he let it drain and he undressed to head into the shower, knowing he couldn’t lay around and mope for the rest of the day. He had classes and he had to show Type that what he said wasn’t going to affect him. 

“You don’t look any better today than you did yesterday...seriously Tharn, what is wrong?” Long sighed, examining his friend as Tharn continued to look out the window. Looking him up and down, Long couldn’t help but notice how his eye bags which were there yesterday were still around and possibly darker than they were the day before as well. He knew that it had something to do with Type but Long had a feeling he wouldn’t be able to really drag it out of Tharn, since his friend usually kept the things that hurt him to himself. Placing his hand on Tharn’s shoulder, Long squeezed it and grinned sadly when he finally got Tharn’s attention. “Tharn, I know it’s not something you’d want to hear but...maybe you should get over Type. I know you guys are soulmark mates and all, but you know not everyone has to have matching soulmarks to be happy. A lot of couples who don’t share one end up happy...maybe you should think about that?”

“Long...I know…” Tharn sighed, feeling another wave of emotion wash over him before he steeled himself, feeling his phone vibrate in his pocket. Taking it out, Tharn brought his attention from his friend to look at the text message, feeling his heart grow cold as he noticed it was from Type and how he listed things that people do in casual relationships. Gritting his teeth as his jaw tensed, Tharn blinked away the tears and shut off his phone, shoving it back in his pocket as he opened his desk, giving Long one look. “I’m leaving and skipping afternoon classes…”

Ignoring his friend’s attempts to keep him there, Tharn stomped out of the classroom and out of his faculty’s building, practically storming past all the people who were giving him nervous looks. Once he finally reached the dormitory, Tharn rode the elevator up and threw open his door, kicking off his shoes harshly before he moved towards the bathroom, wanting to take a shower to cool off before he lost whatever composure he had left. Not noticing the sound of the door to their dorm open, along with shoes being kicked off, Tharn opened the bathroom door and walked out in nothing but a towel, right into Type. Staring each other down for a moment, Tharn swallowed the lump in his throat and moved passed him, walking towards his dresser to get some pajamas out. They had a talk that Tharn desperately wanted to avoid but he held back his feelings and just laid down his bed and listened to Type get ready for his date and leave. 

“Tharn…? Are you awake?” Keeping silent as the door opened to their dorm and Type walked in, Tharn kept his eyes closed as his roommate and soulmark mate entered further in and kicked off his shoes, making his way to his bed before the mattress creaked at the extra weight and an arm wrapped around his waist, holding on tightly as Type snuggled into his back, sounding close to tears. Hearing his apologies, Tharn opened his eyes slightly and moved to take his headphones off, placing them on the bedside table before he turned on his back so he could give Type his attention, despite wanting to sleep and forget everything that happened. “I can’t believe I said those things to you...I’m so sorry, Tharn.”

“Shh...it’s okay. You know I can’t stay mad at you,” Tharn hushed, wrapping his arm around Type so that he could bury his face in his neck, running his fingers through Type’s hair as they cuddled slightly. Keeping silent as Type’s sniffs and hitches of breath finally halted a bit, Tharn closed his eyes as Type pulled away and then pushed himself up, pressing a kiss to his forehead before he pressed another to his cheek before he finally reached his lips, pressing them together softly while Tharn deepened it, brushing their tongues together softly as Type opened up for him. Pulling away once they had to breathe, Tharn kept their foreheads pressed together as they smiled softly at each other. He knew they had a lot to work out but for now, all he wanted to do was sleep with Type in his arms. “Come on, it’s late. Go change so we can sleep.”

The next morning, after a night full of love making, Tharn woke up and moved towards the food he prepared earlier, frowning slightly when he realized it had gone cold. After getting Type up and walking around, Tharn went to shower before they went to class, walking side by side until they left for their different faculties. It was obvious to long that Tharn was feeling a lot better, if his smile did not tell him otherwise. Not saying a word as Tharn paid attention to class, Long egged him on for the notes that he knew he missed while Tharn rolled his eyes and handed his notebook to his friend when the class finally ended. Gathering everything up before he placed it in his messenger bag, Tharn knocked on Long’s desk, pointing towards the door.

“I’m going to head back to my dorm. Just give me back my notes tomorrow before class, okay?” Rolling his eyes at the whine Long gave him, Tharn flicked his forehead before he left the classroom, practically hurrying to leave the faculty as he headed towards the dormitory where he hoped that his, now boyfriend, was waiting for him. Strolling up the stone steps and into the building, Tharn rode the elevator up and as he opened the door to their shared dorm, a grin rose on his face as he noticed Type in his bed, playing around with his phone. Noticing Tharn, Type smiled slightly which made Tharn’s heart bounce around ecstatically in his chest. “I’m back.”

“Welcome back,” Type replied softly, observing as Tharn practically flung his shoes to the wall along with his backpack before he crossed the room, diving into the bed as he wrapped his arms around Type’s waist, bringing his back close to his chest. Rolling his eyes as he was once again cuddled like a teddy bear, Type put his phone down and just leaned into Type, not minding the heat his boyfriend’s body was giving off for once. Talking about their day, Type turned his body so he and Tharn could be face to face while they talked. It was then that he noticed how skinny Tharn seemed, like he lost a lot of weight for some reason. “Did you lose weight? That...was because of me, wasn’t it? I’m really sorry, Tharn.”

Shaking his head softly, Tharn pressed their lips together before he pulled away, keeping their foreheads touching as he intertwined their hands, moving their gazes down to each other’s matching soulmarks. Trailing his fingers down, Type gently swept his thumb around Tharn’s mark before he pulled his hand up and pressed a kiss to the ink like mark. Letting out a gasp at the spark of sensation he got from the kiss, Tharn pulled Type closer and smashed their lips together, deepening the kiss while Type moved his hands into his hair, pulling at it lightly as their tongues danced together. Pulling away to breathe, Type threw his head back as Tharn moved his kisses down to his neck, nibbling at the once fading marks he left earlier. It wasn’t long before their clothes were thrown off onto the floor and the idea of getting dinner left Type’s mind as Tharn once again, showed him the night of his life with their almost endless love making.

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@little-missnaughty does this work? 

“You want to take my little sister to a movie?” Tharn asked Type. They had recently been through the meeting of parents and siblings; Type fell head over heels for little sister Thanya. 

“Yeah, I am sure she’d like Frozen 2. Though, she’s very mature for such a young age, so maybe she wouldn’t.” Type scrunched his nose as if all his plans were defeated. “What now? Let’s take her to that Build a Bear in the mall, wait, no. She probably doesn’t want a stuffed animal.” 

Tharn looked around confused. “Okay, what have you done with my boyfriend?” Tharn was certain (aside from their arguments in the beginning) that his was the most he’s ever heard Type speak. When they had their family dinner, Tharn could barely get Type to utter hi. Also, the top of his thigh showed just how nervous Type had been, because he gripped it so tightly the whole dinner. 

Type didn’t answer him so he plopped onto the couch next to him. “Seriously, what have you done with Type?” 

“Funny. He’s right here,” Type finally responded. “Thanya’s adorable. I want to do something for her. Besides, I feel as if it’s her approval I need more than anything.” Tharn kissed him on the cheek.

“I’ll call Mom and see what we can plan for this weekend.” Type nodded. Tharn made the call. 

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“How was the movie, Thanya?” After, the three of them decided to eat lunch at a restaurant. Type on one side of the booth. Brother and sister across from him. 

“Confusing. Not sure it made sense,” she furrowed her eyebrows. 

“Oh, I’m sorry.” Type mumbled. 

“I still had fun. I get to be with P’Tharn and someone he loves.” Tharn gently nudged her. 

“Leave it to little sisters to blurt out your true feelings,” Tharn jokes.

Type simply smiled. Tharn then decided to be a little shit. So he slipped off a shoe and caressed a foot up Type’s leg. They’d been in a two hour movie with his little sister. Tharn was getting anxious. Type bit his lip, because even a foot wearing a sock still made a point.  

“Do you have enough to eat?” He asked Thanya choosing to ignore his boyfriend.

“Yes, I do, thank you, P’Type.” Hearing her say his name felt like he’d won everything in the world. Ignoring became difficult because everything kept running a foot up and down his leg. Type caught it with one hand. Tharn just gave him a look. Type mouthed, “put your shoe back on.” Tharn pretended he couldn’t read lips and the foot fell into Type’s lap. Type furiously shook his head. 

“Are you finished?” Thanya was thankfully oblivious and busy eating. 

“Yes, I think so. Are you guys?” She looked at her brother and his foot instantly fell to the floor, stuffing back into his shoe. Tharn hoped she was asking about them eating. “Well, if we’re done eating, are you taking me home now?” Thanya broke the silence over the table. Minutes later, they were in the car. 

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Tharn carried a sleeping Thanya into the house. “She fell asleep, Mom!” Tharn called out and headed up stairs to tuck her into her bed.  Type stood with Tharn’s Mom in the living room. 

“Did you have fun?” She asked him, though, Type could see that suspicion behind her eyes. 

“Yes, though, I’m afraid Thanya didn’t care much for the movie. She has such an adult opinion on things.” 

“She does,” Mom agreed. “You seem like a nice guy Type, but this family has seen Tharn heartbroken too many times.” Tharn stopped on the last step. “Please, if your intentions are no good, break it off with him. We can’t stand to see him hurt again.” 

“I have no plans to break it off with him. I can’t see a future in which I do,” Type confidently confessed to his mother. “Tharn came into my life for a reason. A good reason and I plan to see that through in whatever ways that happens.” 

Tharn took a deep breath. His mother put a soft hand on Type’s shoulder. “That’s a very good answer. I’ll keep it in mind. You two get back.” Tharn quietly went half-way up the stairs and then acted as if he were just coming down. 

“Ah, there you are,” his mother said. Tharn felt proud that the charade worked. “I’ll see you soon?” He nodded and gave his mother a kiss on the cheek. 

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The second the condo door opened Tharn shoved Type inside. He picked him up and tossed him over his shoulder. Type knew where he’d land. There’s no other place. Their bed. 

“Whoa! Slow down, Tharn!” Type squared his shoulders as a head fell onto his chest. “What’s this about?” 

“I heard what you told my Mom. Thank you,” Tharn murmured. Type kissed the top of his head. Suddenly, there was no movement. 

“Okay, nap time, I guess.” In response, Tharn squeezed him tighter.