#one page of my diary 📕

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Previše puta sam čula kako nisam realna, kako sam previše optimistična, da previše maštam i da "treba da se spustim na zemlju". Ali meni je zanimljivije ovako, da maštam i da ujedno maštu pretvaram u stvarnost.

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Hello all, hope you’re doing well. I’m so grateful for my library tonight to give me that escape. I’m joining in the #sevenquestions tag which I saw on the lovely @travels.along.my.bookshelf page a while ago. Here we go! 📚 Top 3 books so far this year The Mermaid Of Black Conch by Monique Roffey Brickmakers by Selva Almada Devotion by Hannah Kent This was hard though, I have many MANY more. 🎵 Top 3 songs I know all the words to Groove Is In The Heart by Deee-lite I Knew You Were Waiting by Arethra Franklin and George Michael Part Of Your World by Ariel The Little Mermaid 🧜‍♀️😂 📕 3 things I look for in a cover Eye catching colour or pattern Something generally unusual that screams “pick me up!” If it’s blurbed by one of my favourite authors 📺 3 adaptations that are my comfort film/TV Pride and Prejudice (BBC version with Colin Firth and Jennifer Ehle ONLY 🤣) Sense and Sensibility (version with Emma Thompson, Kate Winslet and Alan Rickman) Bridget Jones Diary 💿 3 of my favourite albums Ladies and Gentlemen - George Michael Any 80’s or 90’s compilation Common People - Pulp 📖 3 books that you remember every detail of and could write an essay on The House At The Corner - Enid Blyton (childhood favourite that fell to pieces, I read it so much!) Pride and Prejudice (Austen fangirl) The Green Mile (shameless Stephen King groupie) 🙋🏼‍♀️ Your bookstagram in 3 emojis 🤪😍🫣 I’d love to know your thoughts on any of my answers. Do we have anything in common? Let’s have a chat in the comments! #bookstagram #scottishbookstagrammer #aboutmenow #austenfangirl #stephenkinggroupie #learnmoreaboutme #themermaidofblackconch #moniqueroffey #brickmakers #selvaalmada #devotion #hannahkent #grooveisintheheart #deeelite #iknewyouwerewaitingforme #arethrafranklin #georgemichael❤️ #partofyourworld #thelittlemermaid #ladiesandgentlemen #commonpeople #senseandsensibility #bridgetjonesdiary #thehouseatthecorner #enidblyton #thegreenmile #bookishfactsaboutme https://www.instagram.com/p/Cix1tDrrjV4/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Bookish asks: 📕, 📗, 📙, 📖, 📕, 📘, 🔖?

📕What book has had the biggest impact on your life, and why? Hmm, that is a difficult question. I might have to go with R. A. Salvatore's Sojourn. I haven't read it in like 15 years, but it was the first book I remember absolutely adoring. I read it like... six times before I went to high school, and it definitely was the one that inspired me to start writing. (I should re-read it, though I can't imagine it holding up)

📗Are you a one-book-at-a-time reader, or do you read multiple books simultaneously?  I usually read between 2 and 4 books. I usually have one book I read at work during lunch that may or may not be the same book I read at home (for example if my home book is a physical book, I read ebooks at work), and usually another book that is more denser non-fiction that I read every now and then. And sometimes just another book that I have picked up for some reason.

📙What’s your favorite genre to read, and do you have any recommendations within that genre?  Already answered!

📖What is your favorite book-to-movie adaptation, and why?  I love love love Who Framed Roger Rabbit? It was one of my favorite movies as a child. The book was very different, and of course there's the nostalgia factor.

📕Who is your all-time favorite author, and what makes their writing so special to you?  Terry Pratchett. I think growing up with his books has definitely had a huge impact on my sense of humor, my curiosity about the world and my morality. His books have been a constant companion and comfort through my life.

📘Are there any book series that you’ve been meaning to start but haven’t gotten around to yet? Which ones are they?  There's this podcast I listen to at work "What Should I Read Next?" where the host recommends books to guests based on what they like. There has been couple of sci-fi series that sound interesting, but I haven't gotten around to checking how easy they would be to get here, like, I would like to get them through the library and in English (if original language). Also I can't remember all of them, cos I am very bad at writing them down. :D One of them was Martha Wells' Murderbot diaries.

🔖Which classic book or author do you think everyone should read at least once in their lifetime, and why? Famously (among my friends at least) my favorite classic author is Dostoyevsky. I adore the Brothers Karamazov, but I'm not sure I want to force anyone to read all 1k pages of it. But I definitely recommend everyone should pick something from the 19th century Russian literature.

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🏞 🎧 📕

🏞 - which location from the show would you most like to visit?

the mystery shack attic, but as it was in the 80s. i've written about how i think it might've been used while ford was living there, but i wanna know. also i'm really curious about the opposite side with the mezzanine

ford apparently had this house built to his exacting specifications, so what was this area used for?? why is there a curtain strung across the windowless lower level?? who would have climbed up that wonky wooden ladder??? ciphord. it's ciphord.

only vaguely related but i also have a hc that most of the shack windows we see in the show are replacements that ford had installed before stan arrived. the originals were fidds' creations & were much more elaborate, intricate & uh,,, triangular

🎧 - are there any songs you associate with the show/characters?

every billford has to listen to this i'm sorry u have to it's ur culty rite of passage

📕 - what are your favorite journal pages?

i remember someone saying that ford writing one more thing about me - i have a secret in the 'my muse' page sounded like a besotted teen writing their diary & that lives in my brain. also i know there's blacklight all over it but i don't have the blacklight copy of journal 3 so all i get is this very eerie little entry with a drawing of trees. a fave

unsurprisingly my other favourite is 'july 29th', or the day fiddleford came. o the dark academia homoeroticism of it all!!!! the way ford writes i am overcome with emotion, the knowledge that fidds left his nuclear family & drove ten hours across the country to live in a little log cabin in the cryptid-infested woods with his old college roommate!!!! the mental image of them falling into each other's arms on the doorstep after seven years apart!!!! help!!!!!

anywaye thank u for asking sweet sweet vera i am tossing flowers at ur feet ( ´◡‿ゝ◡`) 🌼🌷🌸🌹

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Maybe I just ask for too much

Maybe I am too much

But one day too much will be just right

When I achieve all I want

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Toliko sam verovala

I toliko ste me slomili

Svaki atom mog bića

Samo ste mi pokazali

Da moje ružičaste naočare lažu

Da svet nije tako lepo mesto

Ni srećno

Nikad sreću nisam tražila i uzimala od drugih

Nesebično sam je davala svima

Delila sam sreću, radost, smeh

Rame za plakanje

A dobila sam

Dobila sam samo lekcije

Zašto sam trebala da budem sebična

Dobila sam šamare realnosti

Dobila sam tugu, razočarenje i bol

I od toga se nikad nisam oporavila

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rainy friday, tea and sitting on the porch rolled in blanket

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ne želim više nikog

ko dolazi iz prošlosti

prerasla sam vas

preplakala

pustila da budete prošlost

i jedan deo uspomena

pustila da mi budete lekcija

da naučim

da me povredite

pustila sam vas da me naučite

kako da volim sebe

dok gubim vas koje sam volela

više od sebe same

i naučila sam

a mislili ste da neću

naučila sam

i zato su novi ljudi tu

da se pokažu i dokažu

da gledam napred

i stvaram sebe

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Nikad nisam mislila da ću istinski zavoleti ovaj grad, a upravo to se desilo. Zavolela sam ga. Sve što je bilo potrebno je par osoba i nezaboravni trenuci.

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Sećam se

Svih onih mračnih momenata u mojoj sobi

U zagrljaju jastuka

Kako sam plakala i želela da bol nestane

Sećam se

Koliko sam žarko želela da neki ljudi ostanu

Koliko sam sebe krivila

Mislila da nisam dovoljno dobra

Dok mi je jedva čujni glasić šaputao

Da volim sebe više

Da vredim

Da sam posebna

Ni na sekund mu nisam poverovala

Baš ni na sekund

Posle 10 godina sam se potrudila da ga čujem

I bio je u pravu

Posebna sam

Vredim

Ali samo pravi ljudi će to videti.

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Pokazaću ti jednom moj tumblr. Sve moje ljubavi su zabeležene ovde. Skoro svi moji snovi,takođe. Ovo je neka moja verzija digitalnog dnevnika, i ako imam punu fioku pisanih dnevnika (koje si do sad verovatno i pročitao). Ali ovde ćeš pročitati o sebi, dok te još nisam ni znala. Kada si bio samo jedna želja. Pročitaćeš koliko sam te jedva čekala. Upoznaćeš moju dušu na slikovit način.

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hej,dečače sa pogledom u očima koji izbriše svaku moju nesigurnost sa rečima koje otvore najdublje odaje mog srca sa dodirom koji mi stvori najlepša krila jednog dana postaćemo “mi” reći ćemo najsigurnije i najglasnije “da” volećemo se toliko da će ljudi s druge strane ulice osetiti našu ljubav volećemo se toliko da ćemo biti primer drugima volećemo se toliko da neće biti nijedne večeri kada nećemo zaspati zagrljeni a do tada stvaraj svoje snove živi punim plućima voli i budi voljen budi srećan  budi spokojan jer ja te čekam i sve besmisleno će jednog dana imati smisao a do tada čuvaj mi se.   

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10. januar 2022.godine

Ja sam sebi priznala sve, sve ono što me tišti. Priznala sam sebi, oprostila i prihvatila. Jer je sve to deo moje prošlosti, ono što je od mene napravilo osobu kakva sam sad. Osobu kojom se ponosim.

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nije mi žao što sam toliko volela

žao mi je što sam tako bolno prošla