#one of the other managers is making 10k more than me
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why everything gotta cost money
#i rly want to move into a 1br when my lease ends in september 2025 just to have a little more space#but it is becoming increasingly apparent to me that if the plan is to own a home sometime in the next 4 years#i really need to cut my spending#and the financially smart thing for me to do would be to stay in my current place with my current insanely low rent for as long as i can#rather than move into a unit with higher rent (not to mention all the costs that moving incurs outside of just a change in rent)#bleh#i should probably set aside some time this summer to reassess my storage situation/figure out what i can get rid of#so i can continue to stretch the livability of this place out for a little longer lol#the great sadness#i also really gotta like. stop buying anime plastic for a bit lol.#she says as if she's not going to otakon in like a month#here's hoping that the alleged pay equity audit that our new hr person is allegedly going to conduct at some point#results in a little salary bump#bc i was chatting w some of my colleagues at the bar on wednesday and well let's just say#there is some disparity bw the salaries of ppl at the same tier lol#one of the other managers is making 10k more than me#and was making more than one of the directors until said director found out and negotiated up#anyway
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Um so???
I found out Iâm getting promoted to a project manager lol
I was totally blindsided in a good way, I think this is something I wanted to happen eventually as far as my career path goes but didnât think the opportunity would come so soon (I mean I havenât even been here a year yet this month is 8 months?)
My boss-boss had my own project manager let me know as kinda like the middle man so I have to go to big boss today before I leave and talk specifics and Iâm so nervous even tho they fully approached me wanting to give me this lol ahhhh
#nervous bc I have to ask for some raise or else itâs straight up not worthwhile#my project manager is very cool with me and threw me a little bone on what to ask for based on what she/the other current one makes#allâs to say I donât think itâs going to be toooo much more than what I already started at#maybe $5k#$10k would be incredible and might be what I shoot for and settle for $5k more lol#more than anything tho I just want to be salaried#i think almost everyone else in our office is but me#and I have a good angle#the stores they want to start me with are based out of Arizona#which is like 2 hours behind us#therefore I might need to be checking the computer at home at like 6pm#which Iâm more than willing to do!#just not unpaidâŚ..
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BECOMING MRS. SIM
Title: Becoming Mrs. Sim
Pairing: Boss!jake x F!secretaryreader
Genre: Romance, drama, contract-to-real marriage
Summary: To ensure his position in the company, Jake proposed to you in front of his dad. What started of as a fake marriage, slowly turns into real romance with a bit of drama.
Contents warning: Cursing, mention of 'kys', implied sh, may or may not make you puke due to the fluff, suggestive, mention of third party, a tiny bit of angst (like as big as one virus)
Word Count: 16k
A/n: Ngl, this is the first time I wrote so much for a fanfic. Even I was surprised I managed to go passed 10k lmao. Anyway, I hope you enjoy reading it ^^
Taglist: @sumzysworld @dreamiestay @heeverseblog @originalladymilkshake @bookloversomuch @laurradoesloveu @niniissus
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"We need to find you a wife."Â
There you go - a sentence that Jake has been waiting to hear from his dad.Â
Jake was born with a golden spoon in his mouth. Despite being wealthy, he chose to live just like the others. He would prefer to do a lot of things by himself. He finds satisfaction in it.Â
Sim family is known to have one of the largest businesses in Asia and the examples for others. So, when Jake has finally reached 'the age', it's natural to expect him to become the next successor.Â
Jake has an older brother. However, he chose to venture into different field, leaving Jake as his dad's only hope to take over the company.Â
But, in order for his dad to grant the status to Jake, he has to get married. It was his dad's main condition.
His dad had always been living with the principle of behind every successful man, there is his wife. According to his dad, being married motivates him to be better both personally and career-wise so that he can provide more for his wife and his children.Â
On the contrary, Jake believes in independency. No, it's not that he hates love or relationship. In fact, he was in a relationship back then. Unfortunately, things happened, and they drifted away from each other. Nobody really knows about it and Jake wished to keep it that way.Â
"Is it really necessary, dad," he asked his dad.Â
"Of course. Getting married and loving your wife with all your heart will help you in gaining people's trust better - rather than be single. You will appear more... capable and trustworthy."Â
"But-"Â
Just as Jake was about to say something, his dad cut him off by placing a file on the coffee table between both of them.Â
"This is Kim's eldest daughter. I heard that she graduated from fashion designing with good result. Personally, I think that she is a perfect woman to be your wife."Â
Jake looks at the file and at his dad with a raised brow.Â
"Really? A blind date?"Â
Mr. Sim just shrugs his shoulder. "Well, it's not like you will ever introduce anyone to me, right?"Â
Jake leans his back against the couch and let out a deep sigh. God, one thing he doesn't like is going on a blind date which is arranged by others without his consent.Â
He don't like it when people tell him to do stuff that he doesn't want to do. It makes him feel like he is being force to do things. Last thing he wants is to hurt an innocent woman.Â
As Jake is in deep thought, there's a knock coming from outside Mr. Sim's office.Â
"Come in," his dad said.Â
You turn the knob and enter the room with a tray of coffee cups in your hand. You bow your head slightly at both Jake and Mr. Sim before walking towards the table and place the cups on it.Â
"Is there anything else I can do for you, Mr. Sim?"Â
Jake's dad shakes his head at you. "That's all for now. Thank you, Ms. Y/LN."Â
You bow your head for the second time before walking away from both of them. But just as you were about to turn the knob, Jake calls out your name.Â
"Ms. Y/LN."Â
You turn your head to him.Â
"Yes?"Â
Jake flashes a small smile to you.Â
"Can you come here for a while, please?"Â
Your head tilts slightly but still turning your heels around and walk towards Jake.Â
"Yes, Mr. Sim. May I help you?"Â
A few seconds passed by before Jake looks up at you with a wider smile. He then turns to his dad.Â
"Dad, actually, I'm planning to marry Ms. Y/LN."Â
"WHAT?!"Â
Both you and his dad said in unison. As if on cue, both of you also look at each other with eyes widened.Â
"I-"Â
"Y/n..."Â
Jake cut you off by calling your name softly, making you turn to him with the same widened eyes.Â
"I'm sorry I had to propose to you this way when I already had plan to surprised you. I promise I'll make it up to you, okay."Â
You and Jake are not really strangers. Both of you went to the same high school back then and reunited when you first entered the company as Mr. Sim's - his dad's - secretary.Â
The difference is that both of you barely talk to each other. You only know each other's name, and that's it. So, when Jake suddenly confessed to his dad that he wants to marry you, it makes you dumbstruck.Â
"I never knew you and Jake are dating, Ms. Y/LN."Â
You turn your head to Mr. Sim and open your mouth to say something. But nothing seems to come out.Â
"I asked her to keep it private since it had only been a few months since we got together."Â
Jake told another lie. You turn to Jake to say something. But, before you can do anything, he reaches out to hold your hand and flashing a soft smile to you.Â
"But every time I'm with her, I felt nothing but love, warmth, and comfort. That's how I know she's the one for me."Â
God, if you didn't know any better, you would have said that he's telling the truth. Anyone would coo at how adorable Jake is despite he is telling a lie. That is how good all of this is.Â
To tell the truth, you have always found Jake attractive just like other girls. Although both of you have never talk to one another, you did observe him from time to time.Â
Just like any other schools, there will always be at least a heartthrob - and Jake happened to be one of it during high school along with his other two friends.Â
As much as you would like to mind your own business, you can't help your eyes to look at him from afar. Every time he's around his friends, he will always have that big happy smile that can melt any hearts around him.Â
You find it cute and adorable at the same time. But that was it. He was only your eye candy back in high school.Â
Yet, here you are, in his car as his out-of-nowhere fiancĂŠ.Â
After he - somehow - proposed to you in front of his dad, he asked for Mr. Sim's permission to bring you out for the day, saying that he wants to make it up to you.Â
Of course, being the loving understanding dad, he allowed it without knowing that it was all just a scam.Â
"Where are we going, Mr. Sim?" You asked.Â
"Somewhere other than the office." Jake gave a simple answer.Â
Just like that, both of you are back in the silence. You turn your head to look out the window as Jake continue to focus on his driving. As much you want to say something, you feel like it's best to give each other some space.Â
You don't know how long have passed by but the way the cityscape suddenly changed into beach view proved to you that Jake has brought you somewhere far. Probably an hour or two.Â
Jake slows down the speed as the car reaching to its destination. He pulled the hand brake and turn the gear into 'P'. He let out a deep sigh before unbuckling his seatbelt and open the door.Â
You watch as Jake exits the car and walk towards the sandy area. After a while, you decide to follow him. You open the door and walk towards the man, standing beside him.Â
You were about to speak when suddenly Jake cut you off.Â
"I'm sorry."Â
You just keep quiet, allowing Jake to continue his words.Â
"I'm sorry I pulled you into this mess. I dislike the idea of anyone forcing me to date, let alone get married."Â
"Then, why didn't you say so?"Â
Jake bites his lower lips. "I can't. I know I'm the only heir that my dad has left. If I didn't take over, God knows what will happen to the company."Â
You turn towards Jake. "Then, why me? Am I not being forced to get married with you?"Â
Jake's eyes soften at your words. You're right. He did force you to do something you don't want to when he himself hate when someone did that to him. Â
What a hypocrite.Â
"Y/n. I know we don't really know each other that much. But I need your help. Just this once. After I become the CEO, we will discuss the next step. Is that okay?"Â
You look into Jake's eyes. This is the first time in your whole life have you seen him looking so desperate. His demeanour used to be confident. It's almost as if he got everything under control.Â
But today, today is different. He looks like someone who is willing to do anything just so he could keep his title. Just the thought of it makes you scoff lightly.Â
"Okay, I will help you just this once. You owe me big time, Mr. Sim."Â
You held out your hand for Jake to shake.Â
"You won't be disappointed, Ms. Y/L/N."Â
Flashback:Â
Finally, lunch hour, students' favourite time of the day. As usual, Jake would spend his time with his best friends - Jay and Sunghoon.Â
"Should we go on a trip during summer?"Â Sunghoon asked.Â
"What about Jeju?"Â
"We've been there a lot of times, Jay," Jake said.Â
Jay poked his rice using the spoon as a pout formed on his face.Â
"But I like it there. The view is beautiful."Â
Jake and Sunghoon looked at each other before laughing together.Â
"You're so cute when you're sulking," the youngest among them teased.Â
As Jay and Sunghoon were having their normal banters, Jake's eyes fell upon a girl. A girl in her ponytail, eating her food with her friends around her. From time to time, she would engage with the conversation as well by joining them or simply laughed at her friend's joke.Â
Jake saw her for the first time when he was walking out the infirmary. He was not feeling well that day, so he decided to take a rest. Â
Coincidentally, she was walking towards the infirmary as well. She stopped on her track when she saw him.Â
"Are you okay," she asked.Â
Jake nodded his head at her. "I'm good."Â
She smiled softly at him. "That's a relief. Take a break when you need it. Don't push yourself too much. You deserve some break."Â
She walked away after conveying her message, leaving Jake at the hallway.Â
Ever since then, he would see her almost everywhere at school. Wherever he went to, she would be there as well. It was as if fate was trying to match them together.Â
"You're staring again," Jay said as he nudged Jake's shoulder.Â
"You should really just talk to her at this point."Â
Jake shook his head lightly. "No, I like it like this. It's better like this."Â
Sunghoon let out a sigh and Jay shrugged his shoulder before both of them continue eating their foods.Â
Jay, Sunghoon, and Jake had always been together ever since they were little. Yet, ever since Jake met her, it was as if a new side of Jake appeared right before their eyes. Surprisingly, it only appeared whenever the girl was around. Whenever you were around.Â
Jake claimed that it was him admiring someone. But to Jay and Sunghoon, it was definitely more than that.Â
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âI never knew this day would come.âÂ
You just smile at your dadâs words as you continue to eat your food with Jake beside you.Â
Two weeks after the so-called-proposal that Jake pulled in front of his dad, both of you decided to visit your parents to lay out the message. Well, technically you told Jake to meet your parents. If they approved of him, then youâre good to go.Â
âThank you, uncle and auntie, for allowing me inside this beautiful house of yours.âÂ
Your mom let out a soft laugh. âOur house is small compared to yours. It is our honour that you are willing to come to our house instead.âÂ
True to your momâs words, you were not born with golden spoon. Compared to Jakeâs family, yours are more of in the middle class. Your family didnât gain as much as Simâs family, but it's already more than enough.Â
âHow do you find the foods, Jake?âÂ
Jake looks up to your mom and flashes her a happy grin.
So cute, just like a kid, you thought to yourself.Â
âItâs so delicious. Itâs true what they said. No foods can ever be compared to a motherâs cooking.âÂ
Everyone including you laugh at his words. You missed being in this environment. So warm, so full of love and affections. No, you donât have bad blood with your family. You were just rarely home due to your work. Â
But now that youâre here, you arenât going to miss a chance to spend more time with your family as much as you can.Â
As the night came, your dad and Jake decided to spend their time together at the backyard of your house, giving you a chance to spend time with your mom.Â
Your dad sips on the coffee that he made earlier.Â
âWhy did you choose Y/n?âÂ
Jake turns his head to look at the elder man beside him. With a small smile on his face, Jake lifts his head to the sky.Â
âY/n is a nice woman. She cares for others a lot. She would do anything to make everyone around her happy. She will give her 100% towards something that matters to her.âÂ
Jake lets out a soft sigh, almost dreamily.Â
âBefore I know it, I want to be with her. I want to be there for her. I want to do things for her. I want to care for her. I want to protect her.âÂ
Jake swallows his saliva, trying to maintain his composure in front of his soon-to-be father-in-law.Â
âSo, you want to marry my daughter just because she is nice?âÂ
Your dadâs question makes Jake look at him, who is already looking at Jake. Jake smile to himself before shaking his head.Â
âNo, I did not ask for her hand simply because she is nice. I want to marry her because she makes me better as a human being. Everything seems smooth every time we are together. Before I know it, I canât imagine myself with anyone but her. She is the only woman I want to have a future with. No one else, but y/n.âÂ
Your dad considered his words carefully. He then put his hand on Jakeâs shoulder.Â
âY/n⌠she is our only child. She had always done things by herself. There are times where we would feel worried for her. Well, up until now, we still are. So, when she brought you back home, her mom and I felt better. At least we know that she wonât be alone forever.âÂ
Jake just smiles at your dadâs words. Oh, how would he feel if he knew our marriage is only for a while, he thought.Â
âThank you, Jake, for looking after our angel. She is everything to us. I hope you feel the same as well.âÂ
Jake just nods his head at your dadâs words before both of them drink the coffee from their own cup. Â
Making you as his everything; will Jake be able to do that?Â
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Flashback:Â
Jake had lost count on how many drinks he had tonight. As he tried to reach for another one, Jay hit his hand, making him groaned in pain.Â
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you, Jake? You looked like a mess.âÂ
Jake just scoffed at Jayâs words. He looked up at his friends and gritted his teeth.Â
âEasy for you to say. You didnât go through what I went through. It hurts. It fucking hurts.âÂ
Sunghoon sigh for the nth times for the night. Both him and Jay had been trying to understand Jake's situation. But the only thing Jake revealed was that he broke up with his girlfriend. That was it. He didnât say how nor why. No matter how many times they asked him, he kept his mouth shut.Â
âI really love her, guys. I donât think I can live without her.âÂ
Jay rubbed his forehead, trying to calm himself down from exploding to the drunken man. The words âheâs my friendâ keep on chanting in his head. He was about to open his mouth, but Sunghoon cut him off.Â
âDie then.âÂ
Jake looked up at his friendâs words. His eyes widened, surprised at the sudden reaction.Â
âThe fuck did you just say to me?!âÂ
Sunghoon shrugged his shoulder. âYou said you canât live without her. So, go on and die. Itâs easy.âÂ
Jakeâs eyes that were filled with tears turned into anger. He stood up from his seat and grabbed Sunghoonâs collar, making everyone including Jay surprised.Â
âYou think you are better than me?!âÂ
Sunghoon held Jakeâs hand with his before smirking at him.Â
âI am. Iâm not the drunk one here.âÂ
Jakeâs hand turned into a fist. God, he hated Sunghoon at this moment. He fucking hates the guy in front of him. He was about to punch Sunghoon, but Jay managed to stop it by pushing his fist away and broke off his grip from Sunghoonâs collar.Â
âEnough! Both of you, out!âÂ
They stared at each other angrily before walking out of the premise with Jay following behind. Â
Minutes have passed since they were sitting outside of a convenience store. Not long after, Jay walked out of the store with canned coffees and a water bottle in his hands. He gave one of the coffees to Sunghoon and the water bottle to Jake.Â
The three of them continued to stay in silence before Jake decided to break it first.Â
âSorry. I shouldnât lash out to you.âÂ
Sunghoon pursued his lips. âIâm sorry too. It was immature of me trying to stir you up.âÂ
Jay just looked at both of his friends with a smile. This is the friendship that the three always had. Countless of fights, countless of apologies. Itâs hard sometimes, but this friendship is important to them, and they knew they need each other.Â
âI just⌠I donât know if I can love other person the way I love her.âÂ
Jay reached out to pat his friendâs back.Â
âYou will bro. You will. Trust me.âÂ
Jake just nodded his head, too tired to even say anything at this point. All he knew was that he loved his now ex-girlfriend with all his heart. He gave her everything that he could give. Time, presents, everything.Â
Yet, it still ended this way. Four years of relationship, ended just like that. Jake really thought that she would be his forever. Well, he thought wrong. Maybe itâs time for him to focus on himself. He had been focusing on others for too long. He deserved his own peaceful time.Â
âAh, right. We heard that y/n got into your dadâs company as his secretary.âÂ
Sunghoonâs words interrupted Jake from his own thoughts. Jakeâs brows frowned at the sudden mention of your name.Â
âYeah, why?âÂ
Jay who was silent suddenly sat up straight on his chair and looked at Jake.Â
âReally?! Y/n is working with your dad? The y/n?âÂ
Jake nodded his head slowly.Â
âYeah. Itâs almost a month now if Iâm not mistaken.âÂ
Jay let out a relief sigh before patting Jakeâs shoulder.Â
âThatâs nice. You get to work with the one you admired before.âÂ
Right. You were the woman that he admired up until the end of high school. After both of you graduated, you and Jake parted ways, following your own dream. Itâs not like both of you had special connections anyway. The interactions that you had with him were not enough for both of you to be considered as a friend.Â
But now that Jay and Sunghoon mentioned about it, Jake was reminded of the first day you stepped into the company.Â
He would never admit in front of his friends that he actually got excited when he saw you walking into the office. It had been so long since he last saw you.Â
You looked more mature than when you were in high school. The outfit that you had on was professional, yet it made you look beautiful. As beautiful as Jake remembered.Â
You might slowly lose your teenage features, but you still managed to turn Jakeâs head effortlessly â just like when both of you were in high school.Â
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Three months after the proposal and a day after the wedding ceremony, you found yourself entering an unfamiliar house â Jakeâs house. It's official. You are now Mrs. Sim Y/n.Â
You look around the living room. You did not expect his house to look neat and cozy at the same time. With all the furniture being white in colour, it made the interior looks more spacious than it already is.Â
You never thought of him as a guy who would pay much attention to the interior. He looked like the type of guy that might hire any designer and let them do their magic. Â
"Having fun?"Â
You whip your head to the voice behind you. There he is, standing in all his glory, your - now - husband.Â
"You have good eyes."Â
Your compliment makes Jake's lips curl up into a smile. A smile that you used to see since high school.Â
"Thanks."Â
He walks towards you. Before you could do anything, his hand reaches for yours and he bring it up to his face, enough to look at the ring on your finger.Â
He looks at how it sparkles with a small smile before kissing it softly, a small gasp escapes your lips but not enough to reach Jake's ears.Â
âThank you for marrying me, y/n,â he said sincerely.Â
Your heart soften at his words. Unconsciously, you rub his hand that is holding yours since earlier.Â
âItâs nothing. Besides, it will only be for a while, right?âÂ
Jake just hums softly at your words. Of course, he didnât forget about it. Heck, he was the one who came up with all of these. Contract marriage â and it will last up until he got his title as the CEO.Â
"Just so you know y/n, although it is only for a while, I will still perform my duty as your husband until the end of it."Â
You look into Jake's eyes, trying to see if there is any hidden agenda. But all you can see is honesty and sincerity.Â
Jake is known as a man of his words. He is not someone who would turn away from his promise, let alone lying. Heck, he doesn't even know how to lie.Â
You've seen his attempts to lie during high school and it always ended with him stuttering and his cheeks slowly turning crimson. His lips jutted out into a cute pout, resembling a puppy sulking.Â
Everyone was telling you that âyou're so lucky to have him as your husbandâ, not knowing that this marriage has its own expiry date. Sooner or later, both of you will put this into an end. You know that.Â
And yet, you can't help but feel a little tug on your heart when Jake said the last few words.Â
Refused to let your emotion to get the best of you, you flash him a small smile.Â
"I will do my best as Mrs. Sim as well while it last."Â
Ever since then, Jake and you have done nothing but keep your words.Â
Every morning before going to work, you would prepare him breakfast and eat together with him. Then, both of you would go to the office together. When both of you are done with your job, he would wait for you in the car to go back home together.Â
After youâre done with your shower, you would prepare dinner while waiting for Jake to finish washing up. Then, both of you would sit together and have dinner while having a small talk in between.Â
During the weekends, Jake will ask you if you have any plans. Sometimes you would tell him that you want to go out, sometimes you just want to stay at home.Â
If you chose to go out, he would go with you, spending his time and money for you the entire day. Not gonna lie, you've made countless attempts to pay for yourself. But Jake will always be two steps ahead from you. Guess it's the perks of marrying the Sim Jaeyun.
If you decided to stay at home, he would be there as well. Sometimes he would help you cooking â or more like purposely disturbing you. When you are reading a book, he would join you with cup of teas in hand.Â
Before you know it, you and Jake have become closer and more comfortable with each other. What used to be only standing side-by-side turns into walking together while holding hands. During grocery shopping, he would stand behind you and push the trolley together with you in front of him while walking through aisle by aisle. When you are watching a movie in the living room, he would lay his head on your lap and ask for your attention â just like a puppy would.Â
Everyone with eyes is envious of your relationship. Both of you totally looks like a happy couple. Itâs as if the world belongs to both of you, and only to both of you.Â
Honestly, you would say the same thing to yourself as well. Jake had been nothing but a loving caring husband. He takes good care of you, always be there for you. Heâs really the man of his words.Â
However, there are times where he can be an annoying ass. Such as right now.Â
You are putting on your make up to go out with him and heâs just⌠there, staring at you since God knows when. It was something that he would do every single time youâre getting ready be it to go to the mall or to the office. As you are finishing your touch on your blush, you let out a soft sigh and turn your head to him.Â
âYes, is there anything I can help you with, Mr. Sim?âÂ
Jake just shakes his head lightly. His lips curl up into a small smirk.Â
âNothing. Just admiring my beautiful wife.âÂ
There he goes again, teasing you. These past few weeks, he had been calling you names and giving you compliments. And he would say it with affections. Every time he did that, your heart beat for him.Â
God, am I in love with this man?Â
You roll your eyes, trying to hide the fact that he made you shy. Thanks to your blush as well that he wonât notice that your cheeks turn red because of him.Â
âEnough with that, Jake. Letâs go. Weâll be late.âÂ
Jake bites his lower lips to avoid grinning too widely. Obviously, he knows how he makes you feel. You are not the only one who have been watching him since high school. He also did the same to you. Probably a tad bit more than you did â and you donât need to know that.Â
So, he would know how you look when youâre happy and upset. He knows the difference between your real and fake smile. He knows about it.Â
He might not say it out loud but ever since he told you he would do his part as your husband; he didnât think it will be this far. At first, he thought he would just provide for you and thatâs it.Â
But he was wrong. The more he spends his time with you, the more he knows the real you. The more he talks to you, the more he craves for your affection. He used to sleep on his side the first few days after marriage. Now, he canât imagine not having you in his arms at night. He might not even be able to sleep if you were not there for him to hug.Â
He knew it would be easy to get married to you. You wonât cause him troubles. You wonât stress him out. You know how to take care of yourself. You know how to do things on your own.
But he didnât expect that it would be this easy for him to be himself around you. He didnât know it would be easy for him to accept you into his new life. Most importantly, he didnât know that he could love again like how he used to.Â
Actually, scratch that. He loves you more than he used to love anyone in his life. That speaks volume. If Jay and Sunghoon are here, they would give him the âI told you soâ look.Â
I love y/n. I really love this woman with all my heart.Â
âY/n?âÂ
You and Jake were walking with your arm around his when suddenly a voice called out for you. You turn to your back, and your jaw dropped instantly at your sight. Without second thought, you let go of your husband and run towards the person.Â
âSunoo! What are you doing here?âÂ
You pulled Sunoo into a hug, and he reciprocates by wrapping his arms around your waist. Your husbandâs eyes widened at the sight.Â
Did she forget she has a husband?! Jake thought to himself.Â
You released Sunoo from the hug so that he can reply to you better.Â
âI was just walking around. Didnât expect you to be here as well.âÂ
You nod your head at him. After a few seconds, you turn to Jake and call him using your hand gesture.Â
Jake walks beside you. His eyes shooting hole into Sunooâs face as his jaw tighten.Â
âI know youâve met him before, but this is Jake, my husband.âÂ
You introduced the man to Sunoo and lands your head against your husbandâs shoulder, completely oblivious at how pissed Jake looked right now.Â
Unlike you, Sunoo as a man, can see how jealous the man in front of him is. I mean, which husband wonât be jealous when his wife hugs another guy right in front of his face. Smiling to himself, Sunoo politely held out his hand towards Jake.Â
âHey, we met at the wedding but Iâm Sunoo, y/nâs friend.âÂ
Jake didnât say anything but shakes Sunooâs hand, for the sake of you. He pulls his hand away almost instantly, making the other manâs lips curl into a small smirk.Â
âWell, Iâll leave you two lovebirds behind. Donât want to interrupt the date. See you when I see you, y/n.âÂ
Sunoo pats your arm and give Jake a courtesy nod before walking away, leaving you together with your husband.Â
You were about to say something when Jake beat you to it.Â
âIs it fun being friendly with another guy in front of your husbandâs face?âÂ
You blink your eyes at the sudden burst of jealousy from Jake. You study his face properly. His cheeks are red as a result of him trying to hold back his anger. His lips forming a pout, the same one that youâve witnessed since high school.Â
Jake looks so adorable right now that he makes you snort lightly.Â
âOh? Is my husband jealous?âÂ
Jake squints his eyes at you before turning his head away.Â
âAny husband would hate to see his wife being all over a guy other than him.âÂ
He is jealous, you thought to yourself. You were about to console him, but before you could say anything, Jake decided to walk ahead of you, purposely leaving you as a sign of protest.Â
His action makes you scoff. Despite his height being taller than you and not to mention his status higher than you, he still acts like a kid. You shake your head before chasing after him.Â
âWhere are you going~â you asked him teasingly.Â
âAway from you.âÂ
You let out a soft âoohâ before continuing to chase after him. When you are within the reach, you hold his hand, stopping him from his track. Although his body is facing you, his head is still facing the other side.Â
You bring his hand to your lips and leave a soft kiss against his knuckle. You can feel him stiffen at your sudden action, but he still refuses to face you. You let out a soft sigh before your lips curl up into a smile.Â
Itâs usually the husband you have to persuade his wife, but now, itâs the other way around â and you are not complaining about it.Â
âYou donât have to worry about it, Jake. Iâm not his type.âÂ
Your words manage to make Jake faces you. His brows that were frowning earlier become deeper as he heard your sentences.Â
âWhy? You are beautiful. You are nice. Anyone would want you. How can you not be his ideal type? Does he think that heâs better than y-âÂ
Jakeâs mouth was stopped by your finger against it. If only heâs not upset with you, he might as well kiss it. But his ego got the best of him, so he just stands there silently.Â
âItâs not like that. What I mean to say is⌠women are not his type.âÂ
Your husband nods his head when you explain-Â
âWait. So, Sunoo isâŚâÂ
He doesnât need to complete his sentence when youâre already nodding your head, knowing what he was about to ask. Unconsciously, Jake let out a loud sigh of relief. He thought that someone was about to sweep you off your feet. Â
Well, even if Sunoo did, he knows he will make sure to bring you back into his arms one way or another.Â
Jake looks at you who is now smiling innocently at him.Â
Fuck, how can she look so adorable.Â
Refused to back down, he clears his throat and pinch your nose lightly, making sure it wonât hurt you. You scrunch your nose at him. You were about to pinch his cheek as a revenge, but he managed to stop your hand.Â
He then leans his face close to yours.Â
âBut I still donât like how you left and hug him in front of me. Donât do that again, alright.âÂ
Your lips form a pout, but you nod obediently at his words. Of course, you should know that no matter how close you are with your guy friends, you must remember that you have a husband to take care of.Â
âOkay. Iâm sorry for leaving you and hug him like that.âÂ
Jakeâs lips curl up into a smile, hearing your apologies. He takes your hand that was in his earlier and kiss it lovingly. Your eyes turn to the other side, an attempt to hide away your shyness. Jake just chuckles lightly at your actions before planting another kiss on top of your head.Â
âShall we get going now?âÂ
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Two months later, you and Jake are attending the companyâs annual gala night. However, this gala night is special because it is also the night that Mr. Sim, your father-in-law, will pass down the responsibilities as CEO to his son.Â
Although you are excited for Jake, you canât seem to throw away the thoughts that your marriage will come to an end. Yes, both you and Jake are happy with each other. Happier than you had been in your life. But it still doesnât change the fact that he got married to you just so he could gain the title as his dadâs successor.Â
A tap on your shoulder wakes you up from your thoughts. You look to your side, just to see your husband tilting his head slightly.Â
âWhat is this? Are you thinking about other man than me?âÂ
He squints his eyes at you like how he would usually do. You hiss at him and hit his shoulder lightly.Â
âWhy should I think about other people, when my husband is with me?âÂ
You wrap your arm around his as your other hand rub against the spot that you hit earlier gently. Jake smiles softly at you before pecking your forehead softly, making sure not to ruin your make up and hairdo.Â
You and Jake continue to greet the guests. From time to time, you would join in their conversation but mostly you let Jake do the talking.Â
Suddenly, the hall light shuts down and a spotlight shine at the centre of the stage. There, stand Mr. Sim on the podium, getting ready to deliver his speech. Everyoneâs attention diverts to the man.Â
He clears his throat and run his eyes across the hall.Â
âGood evening to everyone. I would like to thank all of you for your time tonight. I believe we already know the purpose of tonight considering that we did this every year.âÂ
Everyone including you laugh at Mr. Simâs greetings.Â
âAs mentioned, we held the gala night annually without fail. Personally, itâs a way for me to appreciate everyoneâs effort in making this business grow bigger each year.âÂ
The hall is filled with claps.Â
âBut tonight is different than before. Unlike the previous gala night, we are not only here to have fun. It is also the night where I will make an important announcement that will change the company into a better one.âÂ
You look to your side, just to see that Jake is fidgeting and gulping nervously. You smile to yourself before leaning to his ear.Â
âYou will be fine, Jake. Iâm here with you.âÂ
Jake turns to look at you, who is already smiling at him. Just like that, he can feel his anxiousness slowly tone down. Itâs funny how before this Jake is so opposed to getting married just for the title.Â
Now, he understands why his dad said what he said to him before. True to his words, behind every successful man, thereâs his wife. Jake never thought that he will see the day where thereâs a woman behind him.Â
But with you supporting him directly, he believes that he can go through all the challenges and difficulties that he will face in the future. No matter how hard it is, heâs willing to go through it as long as you are with him. Â
Just like that, from this moment, Jake vow to himself that he will never, ever, let you go.Â
âLadies and gentlemen. Without further ado, I present to you, the Simâs new successor, Sim Jaeyun.âÂ
The sound of claps filled the hall once again for the night. A spotlight pointed to Jake. He looks around the hall with a proud smile and bow his head politely. Before he walks up the stage, he turns towards you and hold your hands. Without second thought, he brings your hands and place a long kiss against it, making everyone looks at both of you with awe.Â
You nudge your hand lightly against his lips, making him look up at your crimson red face.Â
âFaster go,â you mouthed at him. He grins widely at you and flash you a wink before letting go of your hands and walks up onto the stage.Â
You just watch the view in front of you with a proud smile. Your husband is hugging your father-in-law so tightly. He is so proud of his own son, just like how he is proud with Jakeâs older brother when he saw how successful he had become.Â
âCongratulations Mrs. Sim for your achievement.âÂ
A voice said beside you, making your head turn to the owner. Turns out the owner of the voice belongs to Sunghoon as he stands next to you.Â
âYou must be so proud of him.âÂ
Another voice said on your other side, and you know it belongs to Jay. You just shake your head lightly at both of their remarks.Â
âOf course Iâm proud of him. But I didnât do anything for you to congratulate me.âÂ
Jay looks at you for a short while before turning back to the stage. Both of his hands are in his pocket as he watches Jake giving his thank you speech.Â
âNo, you deserve the wish as well. In fact, we must thank you for everything that youâve done for Jake.âÂ
You frown slightly at Jayâs words. You donât quite understand what he meant by that. But, as you were about to ask, Sunghoon cut you off.Â
âYeah, heâs a better man now, because of you.âÂ
Despite your confusion, both of the menâs words still manage to soften your heart. Before you know it, tears escaped your cheeks. That was the nicest thing someone has ever tell you. You didnât know that you needed until tonight.Â
Being recognized by Jakeâs best friend just hit a certain spot in you. You made a mental note to ask about it later. But for now, you decide to focus on the manâs speech.Â
â⌠And to my wife, know that I will not be able to do this without you. You have been nothing but my strength and my support. You were there through ups and downs. I thank you so much. You are my woman and will always be my woman.âÂ
Everyone howls at Jakeâs words and the two men besides you whistle proudly. You just shake your head while letting out a chuckle and clap your hands. Jake is so silly. Your husband is so silly â and you will never ask for anything better than this.Â
After the end of the speech, you and Jake continue to talk to the guests with his arm circling around your waist the entire time. They all congratulate both of you for Jakeâs achievements in becoming the new CEO. It is safe to say that the night went smoothly.Â
But nothing in this world is perfect, right?Â
âCongratulations, Jake.âÂ
There, standing in front of you, a beautiful, mesmerizing woman in a gorgeous emerald green dress. She looks so breathtakingly beautiful to the point that your jaw drops slightly at her presence.Â
Unlike you, Jakeâs smile falls upon seeing her. He clenches his jaw and tighten his grips against your waist. He forgot that her parents were invited to the gala by his dad. So naturally, she would be here as well.Â
âThanks, Yunjin.âÂ
The womanâs smile widens at the way Jake called her name. Her eyes then shift to you, who is still lost in her beauty. Yunjin let out a chuckle.Â
âHi, my name is Yunjin, Jakeâs friend.âÂ
Bullshit, he thought.Â
You blink your eyes for a few seconds, trying to wake up from your own daze.Â
âAh, I see. Iâm y/n, Jakeâs wife. He never mentions that he has such a beautiful friend as you.âÂ
Yunjin looks at Jake for a few moments before letting out another chuckle. Her cheeks are now a bit red from your compliment.Â
Her laugh also sounds beautiful like her, you thought to yourself.Â
âPlease don't say that. You are more beautiful, y/n. Besides, itâs been so long since we last met each other as well,â she said before her eyes fall upon Jake once again for the night, just to see that Jake is already looking at her.Â
Your eyes turn to look at Jake and Yunjin back and forth. Jake is staring at her with an expression that you donât quite understand, while Yunjin is looking at him softly, exactly like a woman missing her partner.Â
Thatâs when it clicked in your head. Youâve heard that Jake had a girlfriend the first day you joined the company. If your guess is right, Yunjin is his ex-girlfriend. Saying that she is just a friend is a way of her being considerate of your feelings.Â
You donât know what happened, but deep inside, you know that there are some unfinished businesses. You felt it through the tension that is slowly building up between them. Not even the sharpest knife can cut through it.Â
Before you know it, your gaze drops to the floor. Clearly, you are upset with the situation. But who are you to say anything. They had their own past. It was all just an old story. It was his past.Â
Thatâs what you keep telling yourself.Â
âWell, I better get going. You guys must have a lot of things to do.âÂ
Yunjinâs words manage to pull you into reality.Â
âSee you around, y/n.âÂ
You try your best to smile sincerely, doing your best to show that none of these are affecting you.Â
âSee you around, Yunjin.âÂ
With the same previous smile on her face, she nods her head at you before once again turning to face Jake.Â
âJake.âÂ
She called out his name, but the only thing he did was nods his head towards her as his eyes turns somewhere else, refusing to meet her eyes.Â
Yunjin then walks away from you. You didnât know how long it had been but the sigh that you let out indicating that youâve been holding your breath for quite a while now. Your heart beats so loud as if itâs about to jump out of your body.Â
You swallow your saliva to calm yourself down before excusing yourself from your husband, saying that you need to go to the washroom.Â
Just like that, Jake is left alone in the middle of the hall. He frowns at the situation. Fuck, he said to himself. He should have handled it better.Â
Jake knows that you are upset. Going to the washroom was just a way for you to walk away from the previous commotion. As if meeting his ex-girlfriend is not the worse part of the night, his best friend came to him, probably to lecture him.Â
âWhat happened, Jake,â the older one asked.Â
Jake bites his lower lips.Â
âShe came and greet usâŚâÂ
âAnd?â Sunghoon encouraged Jake to continue his words.Â
âAnd I didnât know how to react to it. I thought that if I said something, I might⌠I mightâŚâÂ
I might lose control and y/n might hate me for it, Jake continued inside his mind.Â
Jay drapes his arm around Jakeâs shoulder, pulling him into a side hug in hopes it can at least comfort him after what just happened.Â
The guys know that itâs not easy for Jake to communicate with his ex, considering that they had a good time together just for it to end all of a sudden. But they canât also invalid your feelings.
As a wife, they knew you must have figured out that they had something going on back then. Itâs understandable that you would be upset over it even though it already ended long time ago.Â
âI donât know whatâs going on between you and Yunjin, but I want you to remember that you have y/n now. One thing I can see from her is that sheâs loyal and sincere. Sheâs a woman, your wife. Whatever you want to do, consider her feelings as well.âÂ
Jake nods his head at Sunghoonâs words. He inhales deeply and exhale, trying to calm himself down. He puffs out his cheeks as he collects his inner thoughts.Â
âDo you think I can be a good husband to y/n?âÂ
Jay and Sunghoon steal a glance to each other before their lips curl up into a smirk.Â
âItâs up to you, man. But I think you have always been waiting for her. Ever since high school, youâve wait for her. Now that sheâs in front of you, why not grab your chance?âÂ
Jake looks up at Jay as the older one encouraged him to move forward. Jay nods his head at Jake.Â
âAnd a little birdie told me that she is also waiting for you at the balcony just outside of the hall,â Sunghoon said as he pointed the place with his face to Jake.Â
Jake scoffs at himself. He canât believe he is down bad for you. The fact that his best friends had been his witnesses made him feel even more dumb than he already is. He then pulls both Jay and Sunghoon into a hug.Â
They hug the man back and their hug last for quite a while. It was at this moment that reminds Jake once again just how important Sunghoon and Jay are in his life. His ride or die. The one who would be there to give him facts, no matter how hurtful it is. The one who would give motivations for him whenever he needs it. And he would gladly do the same to them as well.Â
Jake let go of his friends. With a deep breath, he walks towards the balcony where you are leaning against railing.Â
Although your back is facing him, he canât deny the fact that you look glowing in your white dress. The way your head tilted slightly to the sky, allowing the moon to shine its light to you. You look better than his dreams.Â
With careful steps, he walks towards you.Â
âWhat are you thinking, princess?âÂ
You turn your head slightly at the voice, before facing forwards again.Â
âNothing important.âÂ
âThen, why do you look like a damsel in distress, my lady?âÂ
The closeness of his voice startled you. You didnât realize when it happened, but his arms are already on your side, trapping you against the balcony. Slowly, you turn your back towards him. Your eyes move from down and up to his face.Â
Youâve always thought Jake as a handsome man. But right now, he looks even better than before. His face is so close that you can see the length of his eyelashes. His nose that would occasionally bump into your head and cheeks as he leaves pecks here and there. His lips⌠the same lips that would kiss you everywhere but your lips.Â
The last time you felt it against yours was when you were pronounced as husband and wife. It was a short one, but you can still feel it tingling against yours. You would do anything just to feel that lips once again.Â
However, you know you canât. Not when he was about to divorce you right here, right now. Mustering your courage, you look into his eyes. Although your tears are threatening to escape, youâre trying your best to hold it in by burying your nails into your hand.Â
âJake, congratulations. Youâre finally where you want to be now. Youâve been working so hard to prove that youâre worth it. Now, you got it.âÂ
Jakeâs eyes soften at your words and his grip weakens. You sniff before continuing your words.Â
âThank you for being a husband for me. A real one at that. I didnât know anyone would do anything for me aside from my parents. There is not a single moment where I regret having you as my husband. Thank you for everything that you did for me. I will cherish all the memories until the end of my life.âÂ
As you finished your sentence, the tears that youâve been holding back finally roll down your cheeks. You have said everything that you want to say. Whatever happens after this, you will accept it with all your heart. When Jake decides to stop everything with you, you will have to be ready to let him go.
Jakeâs hands move up to cup your face. You close your eyes at what about to happen.Â
Do it. Iâll be fine. I can take it.Â
You can feel his thumbs brushes your tears away, but then you feel his lips against your forehead. You open your eyes and look up at him, just to see him looking at you with a loving smile. His tears run down his cheeks, mirroring yours. Jake takes a deep breath. He then looks at you again with the same smile.Â
âLetâs end this.âÂ
He said it. He finally said it. The words that you were waiting to hear from him. He said it. You thought that you could handle it, but your reaction proves you wrong.Â
You burst into crying in his hands. Every emotion that youâve been holding back are showing itself. You are not okay. You will never be okay. Call you selfish, but you want to be with him always and forever. You need Jake, even if he didnât need you.Â
Or so you thought.Â
âLetâs stop pretending, and love each other for real.âÂ
His words managed to make you look at him with your eyes widened. The expression of your face clearly shows Jake that it was not what you expected to hear tonight. You thought that he would divorce you. After he got the position as CEO, he would put this to an end. Thatâs how it should be.Â
You try to breath properly. Looking at how difficult it is for you to calm down, he moves one of his hands and rubs your back while his other hand caressing your cheeks softly. Jake inhale and exhale along with you, in hopes for you to follow his breathing pattern.Â
When youâve finally calm down, you blink your tears away from your eyes, trying to see Jake in a clear view.Â
âBut you told me that you would end this marriage after you get the title.âÂ
Jake looks at you for a few seconds before letting out a soft laugh. He didnât miss the pout that is forming on your face, making you look like a little girl crying for her lollipop. He shakes his head.Â
âI may have implied that, and Iâm so sorry.âÂ
Your eyes never leave Jake as you wait for him to continue his words.Â
âI thought that whatever we had between us will merely be another fleeting moment. But the more Iâm with you, the greedier I became. What started of as pretending, I want it to be real. All of the moments that I had with you was everything I could imagine. Hell, it was better than my imaginations. You made it so easy to be with you. To cherish you. To care for you. Before I knew it, I want you all to myself.âÂ
Jakeâs arm that was on your back quickly circles your waist, pulling you close to his body. Slowly, he leans to your face, just enough for his lips to brush against yours.Â
âYou are my lady. You are my woman. You are my wife. You are mine, and Iâm not letting you go, ever.âÂ
You gasp at his words. You canât think straight after what you just heard. Who knows a guy like Jake can also be this romantic towards someone. Even more towards you. You, who just happened to study in the same school and work in the same place as he is. There are thousands of women he could go for, and yet he chose to settle down with you. At this point, you can die happily. Â
âSo, what do you say, Mrs. Sim? Are you in for it, or you want to run away? But just so you know, I will chase you to the end of the world if you choose the latter.âÂ
Your eyes search for his, just to see that heâs already gazing at you with sincerity, passion, and a hint of something youâve never seen before. The guy that youâve been watching and only watching are in front of you with his arm clinging onto your waist protectively.Â
You know that if you try to say anything, your voice will betray you. So, you opt for the easier choice â nodding your head, indicating that youâre saying yes to him.Â
The corner of Jakeâs lips curls up into a small smirk before he claims your lips with his. After holding back for so long, he finally has you in his arms as his one and only. Good things always come to those who wait. Jake might have to study more about the philosophies considering that it had been proven real to him.Â
The kiss that both of you shares are filled with a lot of passion and affections. All the restrains that you and Jake put onto yourself are now broken. His hands are now rubbing on your side as he turns his head to the other side, deepening the kiss. You let Jake lead the kiss as you circle your arms around his neck to prevent you from falling.Â
You are not surprised that his kiss will make you weak at your knees. You have always known he would be a good kisser. But you didnât expect that he will kiss you as if his life depends on it.Â
A moan escapes from you when Jake purposely bites your lower lips. Both of you pull away slightly to take a breath. Looking at Jakeâs expression, you finally understand the meaning behind his gaze earlier.Â
As for Jake, he is staring at you. You look more beautiful than you already are with your lips slightly swollen because of him â and he takes pride in it. He was planning to tease you when he bit you earlier. He didnât know that you would make a sound that could awakened something in him. He knew that he wonât be able to take it if he didnât control himself, so he put your kiss into a halt.Â
Jake brushes his nose gently against yours, making you look up to him. His hand moves up to caress your cheek once again.Â
âAll the time spent of me looking at you from afar back in school, I knew itâs going to be worth it.âÂ
Your cheeks turn bright red at his words, but it didnât fail to make you frown in confusion.Â
âLooking at me? You were looking at me the whole time?! I thought I was the one doing that to you?âÂ
Jake chuckles at your words before placing a soft peck against your nose.Â
âYou werenât the only one who have great eyes.âÂ
He winks at you, making you laugh along with him. You didnât know that he was doing the same thing that you did to him. Maybe you are fated for him, just like he thought when he met you for the first time.Â
âI love you, Mrs. Sim Y/n.âÂ
âI love you too, Mr. Sim Jaeyun.âÂ
Both of you stay in silent, just admiring each other before Jake decided to break it.Â
âSo, shall we go and continue this somewhere else? I donât think I can hold myself longer.âÂ
Your jaw dropped at his words before hitting his chest. He winces in pain and rubs the spot before turning to you and steals a kiss on your lips. He then picks you up bridal style and bring you back home, where you will be spending time with him all night long, skin-to-skin.Â
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It had been months since Jake was announced as the new CEO of the infamous Simâs company. The business starts to grow even more. A lot of international clients are interested to work alongside with Jake. He is compatible, responsible, and most importantly, he knows what he wants, and he knows he will get it.Â
But of course, you were there with him the whole time. Ever since you and Jake confessed to each other, both of you are becoming more and more clingy and loving towards each other. Nevertheless, you know the difference between professionalism and personal, considering that you are now working as your husbandâs secretary.Â
You tried to deny his offer a lot of times before, saying that it will be a talk of the office if she becomes his secretary. But knowing Jake, he wants to make sure that you are with him all the time. Well, he wishes for you to be with him every time.Â
Until he has a business trip to attend to.Â
âAre you sure you donât want to follow me? You can rest there,â Jake tried to persuade you for the nth times to follow him to the trip. His lips keep on placing kisses to yours with his arms around your waist, an attempt to melt your down.Â
âBut you will be working, my love. I donât want to go anywhere without you. It will feel incomplete without you by my side.âÂ
Jake groans softly at your words, but he canât deny it as well. You are telling the truth. He will be working all day and will only come back at night. If he were at your shoes, he would refuse to go as well. Whatâs the point of going on a trip with your spouse if you canât spend time together properly.Â
But it doesnât change the fact that Jake is still sad, thinking about not having you with him for three days straight. Naturally, a pout forms on his face, showing that heâs still upset.Â
You let out a soft sigh as you look at your husband. You then stand on your toe and kiss his pout away.Â
âLetâs put it this way â the sooner you take off, the sooner you will be back with me. Does that sound better to you?âÂ
Jake just nods his head obediently, once again resembling a puppy. He then pulls you into a tight hug.Â
âI love you, Mrs. Sim. Remember that, okay?âÂ
The corner of your lips curls up into a smile as your rub your husbandâs back up and down.Â
âI love you too, Mr. Sim. Always and forever.âÂ
Both of you let go of each other, yet your hands are still intertwined with one another. The sight makes you chuckle a bit.Â
âYou need to go. Donât want you to miss the flight.âÂ
Jake nods his head once again. After leaving kisses on your head, down to your forehead, eyes, nose and lips, he finally walks into the gate, waving his hand at you. You wave back to him with a reassuring smile on your face.Â
Once he is gone from your sight, you start to miss his presence. This is the first time you had to separate with him ever since your marriage. He was always there with you, whether to comfort you, love you, or even annoy the hell out of you.Â
But as his wife, you know he needs your full support for him to move forward and bringing you along with him on this journey. You need to be in your optimum energy to help him achieve his dreams.Â
That is why you are currently in the bakery nearby your house. You canât be energetic if you are hungry. You were scanning through all of the options when someone called your name from behind.Â
âY/n?âÂ
You turn to the owner of the voice, just to see Yunjin, looking effortlessly beautiful like she always does.Â
âI never thought I would bump into you here. Are you alone?âÂ
Her question bothers you a bit, not going to lie. But you remind yourself that it was all in the past. Jake is yours, and only yours.Â
With a genuine smile, you look up at her. âYeah. Jake is on a trip for a few days. Iâm just running a quick errand.âÂ
Yunjin nods her head at you. Her eyes soften at the sight of you.Â
âJake is so lucky to have a wife like you. So beautiful yet so diligent.âÂ
You look down at Yunjinâs sudden compliments. Your cheeks are slowly turning into crimson red. It makes it impossible for Yunjin not to find you adorable.Â
âAh, how about we hang out whenever we have time. Hereâs my number.âÂ
Yunjin holds out her business card. You look at it. Huh Yunjin, the owner of YJ Fashion House. You knew Yunjin is an amazing woman, and her status just increase her level in your head. You take the card and keep it safely in your bag.Â
âSure. Thank you for the offer Yunjin.âÂ
She just nods her head to you. As you were about to bid her goodbye, she put you into a halt.Â
âOh also, can we take a picture together? Iâve been dying to have one with you ever since we met that day.âÂ
Your eyes twinkles at the thought of a brilliant woman such as Yunjin, wanting to take pictures with you, who are just merely a secretary to your husband. You then nod your head at her, giving her your approval.Â
She grins widely, showing how happy she is. Using her phone, she flips the camera so that you and Yunjin can take a few selfies.Â
âI will send the pictures to you later. It was nice meeting you again, y/n.âÂ
âIt was nice meeting you as well, Yunjin.âÂ
Just like that, both of you part your ways to your own destinations, not knowing that a storm will be coming your way soon.Â
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After three full days of dealing with works, Jake finally returns to your arms during the weekends. At first, Jake insists to bring you out. But you donât want him to force himself as he needs rest.Â
So, during the weekends, you decided to just stay inside and pamper Jake to the fullest. Of course, being the clingy needy husband he is, he don't mind it at all. For two days straight you pay attention to him and only him, and he did the same to you.Â
No talking about work. Just small talks from time to time. Most of the time though you spend your time with Jake snuggling and cuddling you. You love the fact that he is not afraid to show his vulnerable side to you. He may look like he got it together in front of people, but with you, heâs still a kid stuck in a grown-up body.Â
But of course, that doesnât last longer. There are times when he wants more than just be close to you â and he did just that. You donât know how you can handle it considering that his drives are quite high.
Just like that, the weekends passed by quickly and you are back to being his secretary once again. As usual, you would inform his schedule and relay messages that you received on behalf of Jake while he was away. The files that are in need of his actions had been laid out neatly on his table.Â
âCan I get you anything, Mr. Sim?â You asked after youâve finished conveying everything that he needs to know.Â
Jake hums softly. âCan you tell Mrs. Sim that she looks ravishing today?âÂ
You roll your eyes at his remarks as he flashes an innocent smile at you.Â
âI will let her know, Mr. Sim. If thereâs nothing, I will make my way.âÂ
You bow your head respectfully before sending him a playful wink and walk out of his office. Â
Jake being Jake decides to follow you â specifically your butt â with his eyes until you are out of his sight. This have happened countless times before. If he ignores the professionalism between both of you, he knows he would have you in his office any time he wanted.Â
Without wasting any more time, Jakeâs hands move across the files and papers on his tray. He lets out a soft sigh looking at the amount of works that he needs to review. Well, he did ask for it so he canât say anything about it.Â
But what really catches his attention is a brown envelope, sealed perfectly. The only thing written on the envelope is Jakeâs name. He takes the envelope and turn it. There, he could see the word âprivate and confidentialâ.Â
He tilts his head to the side. He doesnât recall any agreements that he needs to sign that is confidential. With a shrug of his shoulder, he unseals the envelope. He inserts his hand into it and take out what seems to be pictures.Â
His curiosity changed into anger as fast as lightning at the view in front of him. His eyes are brimming with tears, threaten to fall. With shaking hands, he pressed the intercom and called you into his office.Â
He doesnât sound good. Youâve known him long enough to know that he is upset just by his voice through the speaker. Without a second thought, you knock on his door and enter his office when he approves of you.Â
You look at his state with a frown. His face is hidden behind his arms that was connected as he clasps his hand together. If you could make a guess, you would say that he looks miserable. You were about to ask him, but he decided to speak up first.Â
âWhat were you doing when I wasnât around?âÂ
Your frown grows deeper at his question.Â
âI was at the office in the morning and went back home in the evening. I didnât go anywhere except for grocery stores to buy a few stuffs for our home.âÂ
Jake scoffs at your last two words. Our home.Â
âOur home, where you were fucking someone else in our bed?âÂ
Your jaws dropped at his words. This is unfair. Did he really think that low of you? That you would simply having fun with other guys when heâs not around? This is ridiculous.Â
One thing you canât stand is when people falsely blaming you on something that you didnât do. Slowly, you can feel yourself getting fired up.Â
"You, out of people, accused me of cheating on you?"Â
Jake lifts his head up to look at you. His eyes are red from all the crying that he did before you stepped into the office.Â
"Well, explain these then?"Â
Jake threw the pictures in his hands on the table. You bend down to get a better view of it. In those pictures, it was you and a man, tangled to one another in various positions.Â
Your eyes widened at the images in front of you. You knew it wasn't you. Although it was your face in there, but you didn't do all of that. You would never betray the trust of the man in front of you. You didnât even think of betraying him in the first place.Â
But how, how can the woman in the picture looks a lot like you, when you know you have never slept with any man other than him.Â
"I don't know about this Jake, but I swear I have never done all of these. Please, believe me."Â
Your eyes are glistening with tears as you look at him, begging for him to trust you.Â
But you know it was no use. The way he looks at you is no longer like how he used to. It was filled with love and affection ever since the day both of you said, 'I do'. Â
Now, it was as if whatever he felt for you has vanished. The only emotion that he could feel is numbness and emptiness. He thought that you would be different than others. Turns out you're just the same.Â
You're just another woman, staying by his side just for the benefits.Â
Without saying anything, Jake grabs his blazer and walks out of the office, leaving you standing in the room, crying your heart out.Â
This isn't what you imagined how it's going to be. You thought everything would be fine the moment Jake kissed you that day. That you would finally experience your first and true love.Â
You didn't expect for all of these to happen. Your mind suddenly drifts off to the night of the gala. Were you and Jake not supposed to have your happy ending? If only one of you end this marriage like how it should, would any of this still happened?Â
Right, this all happened because of you. You selfishly want to be in this marriage despite knowing that it has to come to an end. You have no one to blame but yourself.Â
You thought that you finally had him for yourself. The man that you have always been attracted to. The man that never fails to make your heart feels full. You were stupid enough to believe that.Â
As you are left alone in the office, you thought to yourself, âI shouldâve let my fairytale remain as a fairytale'.Â
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âHuh, itâs surprising to see that you are not drunk. Guess you really changed.âÂ
Jayâs disclaimer receives a glare from Jake. His expression clearly shows that he is not in the mood for jokes or anything stupid.Â
âAnd what do you mean by that?âÂ
âWhen you broke up last time, you almost got into a fight with me,â Sunghoon answered on behalf of Jay.Â
Jake turns to Sunghoon before letting out a scoff.Â
âIn my defence, you started it.âÂ
Sunghoon raise one of his brows. He decides to ignore the remarks to avoid any arguments... again. He raises his glass to his lips and drink from it.Â
âSo, what is it this time?âÂ
Jake sigh at Jayâs question. He contemplates whether to tell his friends the truth or not. His friends on the other hand, knows him too well.Â
Despite getting hurt or betrayed, Jake had always been selective in giving out details about his personal life. For him, itâs supposed to be kept in minimal. Whatever happened inside the house, stays inside the house.Â
As much as his friends respect him for that, sometimes they wish that Jake could open up just a bit, so that they can help him in any way they feel necessary.Â
âLetâs just say that our marriage is getting too... crowded.âÂ
Jay and Sunghoon look at each other. It wasnât that direct, but itâs not indirect either. Everyone has their own interpretation. In this case, Jake seems to imply that there is a third party involved in their relationship.Â
However, Jay and Sunghoon found it hard to believe because you donât look like someone who would go out there and cheat on a man that truly love you for who you are. But then, they might be wrong as well.Â
âAre you sure y/n would do that to you?âÂ
Jake shrugs his shoulders at Jakeâs question. He lifts his glass to his lips and gulp down the remaining liquid.Â
âAs much as I would like to deny it, Iâm not sure if I can do that with the evidence that I have.âÂ
Sunghoon nods his head in understanding manner. He then pats Jakeâs shoulder and flash him a small smile.Â
âYou do what you got to do man. Weâll be here for you, always.âÂ
Jake replies Sunghoon with a smile. Heâs truly blessed for having such understanding best friends. He might not be lucky in love, but he knows he won lottery with friendship. So, itâs okay.Â
Heâs going to be okay.Â
Heâs going to be okay.Â
I'm going to be okay.Â
When Jake enters the dark room, suddenly everything feels empty. It feels like his life is crumbling down again. The thought that he kept repeating like a mantra before vanished just like that.Â
He knows he canât possibly go back home. Not with his current state. He needs to get away from all of these. He wants to forget about everything.Â
Unconsciously, he walks towards his office desk. The pictures were still scattered like how he left them earlier. The pictures are enough to ignite his anger. He has never felt so deeply disappointed in someone before.Â
He thought that he knows you enough to not be suspicious of you. But he never knew that youâre just another wolf in sheepâs skin.Â
Jake picks up one of the pictures. If only he could get hold onto the man in the picture, he knew he would beat him up until no one could recognize him ever again.Â
Maybe he shouldâve ended their relationship according to the original plan. Jake sighs to himself. He has no one to blame but himself. He trusts you too easily. In the end, he is the one who got fooled.Â
He examines the picture one last time for the night as heâs thinking of a solution to all of this.Â
When he finally found an answer, the corner of his lips curls up into a smirk. Bingo.Â
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Hundreds of calls, thousands of messages, and you still havenât heard anything from Jake.Â
You know that he needs some time to calm down. Yet you canât help but to feel worried for him. The least you want to know is where would he spend the night and if heâs eaten anything.Â
But there is nothing you can do. You must let him be for the night. To be fair, no one would be okay if out of nowhere thereâs a picture of your partner being intimate with another person â let alone tons of pictures of it.Â
Your tears had dried down from all the crying that you did earlier. As soon as Jake stormed out of the office, you made the decision to empty out his schedule for the day, claiming that he was on sick leave.Â
As for you, you requested to take a week leave and informed Mr. Sim â your father-in-law â about it. You didnât say for what but by the look on your face, he could guess there is something going on between you and Jake.Â
âThings are bound to happen. Take a break. I promise you it will be fine. Sooner or later, it will get better.âÂ
You smile at his words. You are not sure if you and Jake will ever be fine after the incident but at least your father-in-law's words managed to bring up your spirit.Â
As much as you are still upset about everything, you want to get everything right. You will make it right again.Â
You are sitting on the couch in the living room with a picture in your hand. You managed to steal one of it from the pile in Jakeâs office earlier.Â
Biting your lower lips, you lift the picture to your face so you can see it more clearly. Thatâs when you notice something different about the picture.Â
Without second thought, you grab your phone and dial a number. After a few rings, the receiver picks up the phone.Â
âHey, can we meet up tomorrow?âÂ
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âSo, what do you think?âÂ
Sunoo hums to himself and look at you. He hands the picture that you gave earlier.Â
âYouâre right. Itâs edited. Most probably AI.âÂ
You tilt your head in confusion.Â
âAI?âÂ
âArtificial Intelligence. It was programmed to help human in various ways â workforce, study, music â you name it.âÂ
You nod your head before a frown form on your face.Â
âBut what does that have to do with my case?âÂ
Sunoo smirks to himself. He pulls out his phone and type something on his phone before showing you a picture. You take his phone and identify it. You donât know why but the picture looks very familiar to you. It was as if you have been there.Â
Thatâs when it clicks in your head. You look at the personâs face closer and you see that the person resembles Sunoo but heâs wearing the outfit that you used to wear back in college.Â
âIsnât this my picture? Why does this look like you?âÂ
Sunoo smiles at your reaction.Â
âThatâs also an AI. I just chose a picture of my face and replaced it with yours. It didnât copy my face 100% but the resemblance is there.âÂ
His smile fades away as he leans forward to you.Â
âThe same thing with your case. Whoever edited it must have your picture as well. Yes, AI can be helpful to us. But some people use it for other purposes â framing, blackmailing, humiliation. At the end of the day, it depends on the personâs intention.âÂ
You think to yourself, trying to figure out the possible suspect. As far as you know, none of the people in your circle is suspicious considering. Thereâs only Sunoo, few of your college friends, and-Â
Your eyes widen at the realization. You look up at Sunoo.Â
âIt couldnât beâŚâÂ
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âJake!âÂ
Jake turns his head towards the owner of the voice. There, stand his ex-girlfriend, looking like how she normally would.Â
âItâs been a long time since we last talk to each other, right,â she said before inviting herself to sit across him.Â
Jake didnât do anything except following her movements with his eyes. Â
âSo, whatâs the sudden occasion? I thought you blocked me already.âÂ
He let out a soft chuckle at Yunjinâs remarks before shaking his head and flashing her a small smile.Â
âNothing. Just thought that it would be nice to meet you again.âÂ
Yunjin bites her lower lips, holding back herself from smiling too widely at the possibility of Jake missing her like how she missed him.Â
âDonât say it like that. If your wife heard you, she would think that we had something going on.âÂ
Jakeâs face fell at the mention of his wife, and Yunjin didnât miss that. Her expression changed to worry when she saw Jake frowns his brows.Â
âHey, did anything happen?âÂ
Jake swallows his saliva, a bit too loud for her liking. He then shakes his head, trying to not make Yunjin ask further questions about it.Â
She sighs softly at Jake. Heâs always so nice. Yunjin was used to this side of Jake. Just like his friends, she too knows that Jake isnât someone who would simply talk about his life to anyone.Â
But looking at his state now, Yunjin wishes nothing but for Jake to at least share a bit of the burden with her. She wishes that she can take care of him, like how she used to back then.Â
Yunjin reaches her hand to Jakeâs on the table, making the guy lifts his face to look at her. She flashes him a soft smile as she caresses his hand.Â
âDonât worry. Iâm here for you, Jake. You donât have to be strong all the time.âÂ
Jake looks down at her hand. Without thinking, he holds her hand and bring it close to his face.Â
Yunjin was stunned at the sudden gesture. She could feel his breath against her skin. Oh, how she missed it. She missed Jake so much. She missed being loved by him. She missed loving him as well. If only he knows that she would do anything to have him back.Â
âI thought you donât like tattoo.âÂ
Jakeâs remarks pull Yunjin out from her daydream. Her eyes then fall onto her inner forefinger where she planted her tattoo. Her lips curl into a soft smile.Â
âI got it after we broke up. I was devastated so I did it.âÂ
Jake nods his head and flashes her a smile before his eyes fall back onto the tattoo.Â
Both of them stay in silent, with Jake still gazing at her tattoo. She thought that it was cute how Jake never seems to take his eyes from it. Not to mention her pride when he notices the small details about her â just like when they used to be together before.Â
Before Yunjin could stop herself, she confessed to Jake.Â
âI miss you, Jake. I always have.âÂ
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It was raining heavily outside. Today, marks the third day of Jake not coming back home. Youâve tried to reach him, but it seems like he has blocked you.Â
You asked Jay and Sunghoon about Jake, yet the only thing that they could say was to give him space and time. Speaking of loyal friends, huh.Â
You miss Jake a lot. You miss Jake so much to the point that you still cooked for him, even though the chance of him coming back home to you is thin. Aside from meeting Sunoo, you didnât go anywhere else.Â
You only wait for Jake, day and night, without fail. You didnât bother to sleep in the bedroom anymore. You just stay in the living room, wanting to greet him whenever he chooses to come back home.Â
Turns out, your effort does not go in vain.Â
As the clock strikes 12 midnight, Jake opens the door and enter the house. He takes off his shoes and put it in the cupboard.Â
âWelcome home, Jake.âÂ
He didnât say anything. Instead, he chooses to ignore you and walk up the stairs. You stand up from the couch and call his name, stopping him on his track.Â
âWhere were you?âÂ
He stays silence.Â
âHave you eaten?âÂ
Again, nothing.Â
âDid you meet Yunjin-âÂ
âItâs none of your business.âÂ
You look at Jake, whose back is facing you before letting out a scoff. Of course, he will only talk to you if you mention her name. The name that he canât seem to let go. The name that used to be his sweetheart for four years.Â
Betrayal and hurt dominates your heart. The softness in you is now gone. You did not just wait in the house, waiting for him to come just to find out that heâs out there with his ex-girlfriend.Â
âI knew it. You canât forget about her, right? After all these years, sheâs still the one in your mind.âÂ
Your eyes slowly tear up.Â
âIâm just the replacement. A woman you used to climb up to your title.âÂ
Thatâs not it.Â
âA woman that you can use as your trophy.âÂ
Thatâs not true.Â
âA woman that you will throw away once youâre done using her to fulfil your needs-âÂ
âEnough!âÂ
You gasp at the sudden scream from Jake. The head that were facing the opposite side is now looking straight at you. His hands form into fist, with his thumbs hiding against his palms. His lips tremble from the anger that build up in him.Â
It was wrong. It was all wrong. Whatever you said about yourself, it was wrong. Jake has never seen you as trophy. He never wants to take advantage of your kindness. He loved you with all his heart and soul.Â
The worst part is, he still does.Â
âJakeâŚâÂ
Jakeâs face softens at the sound of your voice calling his name for the second time tonight. He missed it. He missed you. A lot. He wants to be with you again like how it used to be. He wants to get pampered by you. He wants to give you all the loves and affections that you deserve.Â
But he canât because he promised himself he will end it tomorrow.Â
âDo you still love her?âÂ
His breath hitched at your question. His eyes move to look at you, just to see that your eyes are red from all the crying that you did for the past few days. The thought of you crying for him while he wasnât around makes him sick.Â
He canât help but blame himself for putting you in such situation. You didnât deserve all of these. You deserve to be with a man that can make you happy and showers you with all the things the world could offer.Â
Not with a guy like him who will only make you sad and cry all the time. You shouldnât be here. He didnât deserve you at all.Â
Without any words, Jake turns his head back to the stairs. He continues to walk up the stairs and into the bedroom, leaving you standing in the living room with tears falling down your cheeks.Â
As soon as you hear the door closes, you fall on your knees to the floor. Youâre tired. Youâve reached your limit. You donât think you can keep up with this any longer.Â
Jake doesnât care about you anymore. Youâve been worried sick about him. He didnât come back home. He didnât go to office either. Sunghoon and Jay also said that they didnât know where he is.Â
But he doesnât care. After all these times, the only thing that he spoke to you was in the form of anger.Â
You feel pity for yourself. Youâre worthless. You can feel your body slowly fall on the ground, and you just let it happen. Â
Right at that moment, your eyes fall upon the ring at your hand. The sparkles are still there, as if itâs still new.Â
Will it still look the same if it was on her hand, or will it look better?Â
As your eyes close for the night, you thought to yourself, I will end it tomorrow.Â
It will end tomorrow.Â
âÂ
âDid I make you wait too long?âÂ
Yunjin was drinking from her cup before you appear in front of her. She put down her drink and shakes her head with a smile on her face.Â
âNo, I donât mind. I understand you must have business to attend to.âÂ
Despite looking all innocent, you can sense the sarcasm behind her voice. Your eyebrows lift slightly in amusement.Â
Huh, so this is the real Yunjin.Â
You sit across Yunjin as she picks up her cup and drink from it again.Â
âSo, what do you want to talk about?âÂ
You pursue your lips at her. You think to yourself to decide the method that you want to go for.Â
After a few seconds, your hands move to unzip your bag to take out a picture of âyouâ and the unknown man. Without hesitation, you place the picture on the table and slide it to her.Â
âI will cut to the chaste. That woman⌠itâs you. Am I right?âÂ
Yunjin takes the picture in her hand before letting out a historical laugh, enough to get everyoneâs attention.Â
Humiliation. That is how Yunjin wants to play.Â
âAre you blind? Itâs your face in the picture. Not mine.âÂ
You can hear people starts murmuring about the scene that is about to unfold in front of them. But you pay them no attention. You are determined to end everything today. Right here, right now.Â
âThe face does belong to me. But not the body.âÂ
Yunjinâs eyes twitch at your counter. You tilt your head to the side, studying her reaction.Â
âLook at it properly. That tattoo on the inner side of the finger; it matches yours, right?âÂ
Her face fell when you mention about it. Yunjin bring the picture closer to her and scan the picture. Thatâs when she saw the tattoo.Â
How could she forget to remove it before printing it? How could she be so careless? The fact that you even know the tattoo belongs to her⌠How can it be possible? Youâve only met her twice. Thatâs not enough for anyone to actually notice something as small as this.Â
âIâve always been good in observing people. It doesnât take me long to notice your tattoo considering that itâs on the same hand that you shook mine with back at the gala night.âÂ
Yunjin feels like a huge rock has hit her head. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid!Â
The whispers around you increase more and more as time passed by.Â
IÂ canât believe someone as beautiful as her can be so ugly deep inside.Â
So pathetic. Slept with a guy and blame others for it.Â
Sheâs nothing but a whore.Â
Yunjinâs lips tremble at the words thrown to her. This is not how she planned it to be. She wants to humiliate you, but it went to her instead. It doesnât make sense. If only you didnât marry Jake, none of this would happen and she would still be with him by his side.Â
She is supposed to hold the title of Mrs. Sim. She is much more worthy as his wife. But it all went down because of you.Â
However, she didnât plan to give up. At least not today.Â
Yunjin gathers her composure before leaning her back against her chair.Â
âYou couldâve purposely placed the tattoo in the picture. Isnât it easier that way?âÂ
With only those sentence, the peopleâs opinion suddenly changed.Â
Why canât she leave the woman alone?Â
She must be hungry for attention. Thatâs why she purposely blames the other woman.Â
A woman who betrays its own kind should not be labelled as a woman at all.Â
The corner of Yunjinâs lips curl up into a smirk. People are easily manipulated. All you need to do is to say a few things and they will instantly believe you whether itâs real or fake.Â
She has won. The victory is hers.Â
Unfortunately for her, the success doesnât last long. You knew she would say that which is why youâve been keeping another strong evidence to prove that itâs not you in the picture.Â
As you reach inside your bag, you felt a hand on your shoulder. You look up at the owner of the hand. Your eyes widened at the sight of Jake.Â
You didnât expect him to be here - so does Yunjin. He is not supposed to know youâre here. What is he even doing here? Did he make another appointment with Yunjin?Â
âYou want another proof that itâs not her? Here, I bring the real guy from the picture.âÂ
Jake said to Yunjin before moving to the side slightly, revealing a man named K standing behind him. Her eyes instantly widened at the sight of him. The exact same guy that she paid to frame you. The exact same guy that she slept with, just for the sake of destroying your marriage with Jake.Â
Yunjin shakes his head to herself.Â
âNo. I don't know this guy. I didnât do anything.âÂ
âYou slept with me, and you said you didnât do it? Did you forgot that I also have the original picture?âÂ
Yunjinâs eyes move to K, and she stood up from the chair.Â
âI paid you to keep quiet!âÂ
K scoffs at her.Â
âNo. You paid me to sleep with you. Thatâs it.âÂ
Yunjin bites her lips before letting out a frustrated groan. She turns to Jake and tries to grab his hands, but Jake avoided her advanced towards him.Â
âJake, I have a reason. I did all of this for you. I love you, Jake. I love you so much.âÂ
You donât like the view in front of you. As a woman, you feel pitiful towards Yunjin. One would never think a beauty such as herself would go low just for the sake of love. Refusing to witness how pathetic Yunjin is, you hug yourself and look to your side.Â
Jake on the other hand can read your body language. He knows you want to run away from the commotion. As your husband, he wants nothing more than fulfilling your wish and needs. So, he must end it now.Â
âDo you know why I broke up with you, Yunjin?âÂ
Jakeâs question makes Yunjin frown in confusion. Jake clears his throat, and his lips form a straight line.Â
âThat day, I just got back from studying. When I walked into our room, I saw you sleeping soundly, with another guy next to you. I donât need to know that you both are naked under the blanket considering that clothes were scattered on the floor. You claimed that you love me, but you still had the guts to cheat on me. Thatâs why I broke up with you...âÂ
Jake turns to look at you for a few seconds before facing Yunjin once again.Â
â... Thatâs why I will never ever be with you.âÂ
At that, Jake pulls you up and circles his arm around your waist, before bringing you out of the place, leaving Yunjin faced the humiliation that she created.Â
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As soon as you enter the house, Jake closes the door behind you and bring you to sit down in the living room. He then excuses himself to the kitchen to get two glasses of water. He brings the waters to the living room and put it on the table before sitting down next to you.Â
Both of you stay in silence for a while. You puff your cheeks before grabbing the glass and drink the water.Â
âHow did you know I was there?âÂ
Jake clears his throat. Now, itâs his turn to drink the water before answering your question.Â
âI... followed you?âÂ
You turn to face Jake, blinking your eyes at his words.Â
âReally? You followed me? Since when?âÂ
Jake rubs the back of his neck and flashes you a sheepish smile.Â
âWell, that day when I stormed off from office, I came back later that night. When I wanted to throw away the pictures, I felt something was off. Thatâs when I realized that the face does resembles you, but not totally you. Not to mention the hint of tattoo on the finger...âÂ
His hands move to hold your hand gently. He brings up your hand to his face before smiling to himself.Â
â...Iâve kissed this same hand countless times to know that youâve never had tattoo, my love.âÂ
All emotions come at you at the same time when he called you, my love. Tears brimming at your eyes as you suddenly recalled those nights without Jake in your arms. The way he raised his voice for the first time at you are still fresh in your mind, considering it just happened yesterday.Â
âYou hurt me, Jake. You hurt me so much.âÂ
Jake looks at your teary eyes before leaning his forehead against yours, making you burst into tears as soon as it touches. He had always known that you are a soft person, and you prove him right.Â
He knows that he has hurt you so bad. Although it was only a few days, the pain in your heart will still need time to heal. He wonât blame you for hating him or anything. He deserves it.Â
âI know baby, I know. I left you alone, crying to yourself for days. I am a bad husband, and I am sorry for the way I behave. I shouldâve believed you because you are my wife. My wife will never cheat on me, and I should know better.âÂ
You just nod your head, agreeing to his words as tears still flowing down your cheeks.Â
Jakeâs hands move up to caress your arms to your shoulder and up to your face. His thumbs wipe away your tears, even though a lot are still threatening to fall.Â
âPlease, forgive me. You can take as much time as you need, but please, donât leave me, y/n. I want no one but you to be my wife. You are the only one for me. No one can change that.âÂ
You open your eyes to look at Jake, just to find out that he is quietly sobbing. You canât believe that there will be a day where Jake would cry in front of you. It just shows that he truly cares for you and whatever he said earlier is nothing but the truth.Â
Although a part of you is still upset with him, you canât deny that your heart yearns to love and be loved by him. Just like him, you canât imagine any other man as your lover, let alone your husband. You want him, and only him.Â
Your hand reaches up to cup his face, his eyes are now looking into yours. You could feel his breath against your skin, and thatâs enough to tell you that heâs in front of you.Â
Without wasting time, you lean to Jake, pressing your lips against his, in which he responds with open heart. Both of you could taste each otherâs tears, but you donât care.Â
You and Jake have been spending time away from each other for too long ever since you got married to him. All the pent-up emotion and frustration can be felt with the way you and Jake canât seem to let go of one another.Â
Suddenly, everything feels right all over again. The pieces that were scattered are now together once again. Your life had always been normal. But somehow, being together with Jake makes your life more colourful than it already is.Â
Deep in the heart, you and Jake promise to not leave one another anymore for both of you canât live without each other. Jake needs you as much as you need Jake. No one in the world can ever change that.Â
As you are lost in Jakeâs arms, you thank the universe for shaping you into Jakeâs one and only, Mrs. Sim, forever.Â
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Fantastic Breasts and Where to Find Them
aespa Karina x m!reader
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"What time is it?" Karina asks as she stumbles into the kitchen, a half awaken mess, dark locks all disheveled in a white top and tight shorts. "Jesus, my fucking head..."
"Nearly one."Â
"Shit," Karina hisses. "I had a test in the morning, didn't you hear my alarm go off?"
"You think I can hear anything over you snoring?" you ask, glancing up with a playful smile as Karina sits opposite you at the kitchen table, resting her face in her palms. "You barely made it inside before I had to lug your body onto the couch.â
"Hey, I don't snore," Karina scoffs, giving you a dirty look with bleary eyes as she runs fingers through her messy hair in a feeble attempt to look presentable.
"Oh, of course you don't. Which is why I could hear you all the way upstairs. Pretty sure the entire neighborhood could."Â
"Shut it," she snaps back with as much bite as she can muster, though can't keep that grimace on her features for long before a tired grin escapes. "The last thing I remember is Yizhuo holding my hair up while Iâwell, you don't need to know the rest."
âSounds like you had a fun night.âÂ
"Fantastic," Karina responds with all the sarcasm she can manage. Her gaze immediately turns towards the coffee makerâthe only thing that matters during this hellish hungover state.Â
âCoffee should still be warm,â you say, not missing a beat. âBut take this first, it'll help."
Karina eyes the two painkillers in your hand with a grateful look as she scoots forward and reaches to accept a glass of water, tossing her head back a bit before chugging it all a single gulp.Â
"You're a lifesaver. I'm so embarrassing, you shouldn't have to keep taking care of me. Thank you," she says with a quick smile, gently placing the empty glass down, then heading straight for the coffeepot.
"Don't worry about it. It's what I'm here for."
"You should have been there last night then, maybe could have kept me in check. I'll never drink that much ever again."
Karina cradles a freshly poured mug of hot coffee as she makes her way back to the table, taking a seat ever so carefully, trying not to fall over in the process. She rubs her temple in gentle circles, feeling like absolute hell as she tests the coffee with a sip of uncertainty.
"You've said that the last couple times," you tease, leaning back in your chair as you focus back on your laptop screen and the paper that youâve been working on all day. "You know that's not really my thing. As much as I enjoy watching other people make an idiot out of themselves."
"At least I could have had someone to talk to. The only person I knew was Yizhuo, and she was so busy making out with anyone with a pulse that I didn't say more than three words to her."
"Yizhuo?" you ask.Â
"You've met her, haven't you? She's one of my best friends."Â
"Don't think I have."Â
"Right, wellâshe'll sleep with anyone that so much looks at her," Karina chuckles as she savors the delicious warmth of coffee down her throat. She takes another careful sip and her eyes close, wondering if the throbbing in her head will ever subside.
"She's learned from the best, I suppose."
"Hey!" she says, faux offense laced in her tone, placing down her mug. "Don't compare me to that slut. I've got standards at least."
"Really?"
âI'll have you know, I don't sleep with everyone,â Karina huffs, turning her face away to sip at her coffee some more, but you can't resist the urge to tease her even further in her current state. "Just a few lucky guys. Sometimes two at once. Or three. But nothing crazy, I'm not a slut."
"Wouldn't dare even think of using that word on you, Rina."Â
"See, not like Yizhuo at all, not desperate and willing to suck and ride anything in sight. Besides, it's been like over a month since I've last gotten laid,â she says, out of nowhere. You let out a dry laugh, unable to believe your ears. It's strange, seeing Karina's pale skin so flustered, because clearly even she canât buy that.Â
âIâm serious!âÂ
"The walls say otherwise, you know. You're a terrible liar, Rina." From first hand experience, you know how thin these walls areâbeing able to overhear her muffled cries of ecstasy, every vulgar utterance from Karina's room, each time she sneaks home a stranger who has the absolute honor of getting to pound her senselessly.Â
"W-what, I'm not!" Karina blurts out, face getting even redder, so frazzled with that thought. "Thatâyou were probably just hearing all that porn you keep on your laptop. Donât worry, I wonât tell anyone about the weird, kinky shit youâre into.âÂ
Pausing for a moment, she gives an impish grin, so pleased with herself for trying to turn things around. You could call her bluff, but even better, youâll come up with one of your own, something equally preposterous and absurd.
"Me? I don't even watch porn," you say somehow with a straight face, and it's such a ridiculous statement you can hardly finish getting the words out. Karina puts her mug down and brings her arms over her chest, letting out a small sigh before glaring across the table.
"Is that so? Now who's the terrible liar?"
"Believe what you want. This laptop is for school work only. Nothing else."Â
"Didn't realize I was living with such a prude," Karina says, as a teasing grin slides along her features. "All those times I've brought home a guy to fuck my brains outâI guess I've been making you feel extra uncomfortable."
"No, not at all, Rina. I just focus on my studies instead of how loud I can hear you scream through the walls. Noise-cancelling headphones do wonders," you say, doing your best to keep a stoic expression on your face. But Karina isn't having any of your bullshit. Not when she's sitting across from you with a smug look and trying her damndest to get you to break this facade.
"Look," Karina sighs dramatically, turning her head to face you directly. "Thereâs no fooling me. You don't have to act like you donât enjoy listening to me getting railed. And you'd be lying if you told me you've never been turned on from all that. Just admit you've touched yourself to the sounds of it, and we'll leave this alone."
"Can't say I've done that either."
"Stopâ" Her brow arches in frustration, and she can't even hide the smile beginning to break along her lips. "I get it, you're a better liar than I thought. You donât have to keep pretending."
"I have no idea what you're talking about." You think you deserve an award for not laughing your ass off at this point, but it's an ongoing struggle to keep this going. The best part is that Karina is so insistent on it, completely unwilling to let this go until she gets you to admit that she's caught you. Â
"Oh, come on, you've jerked off at least once or twice while listening to me, don't play dumb. Like you said, the walls are thin. I can hear when you're getting off too, you know."
"You've got a wild imagination, Karina. I've done nothing of the sort. The only thing I care about is getting a good night's sleep and graduating with honors."
"Fuck that, no one can study constantly. If it wasn't for me getting railed on the regular, I wouldn't even survive. I'd probably drop out and become a bartender or something. Getting dicked down does wonders."
"Everyone has their own ways of dealing with stress. Sex obviously isn't mine."
"Stop, you're such a fucking liar," Karina almost yells, frustration bubbling up as her arms cross even tighter, unable to stop the laughter that slips out. "There's no way that you're studying, what, seven days a week, without getting yourself off? Everyone has horny thoughts, especially guys. I know there are hot girls in your classes, there's no way you aren't fantasizing about them."
"Iâm not. Too busy learning about the wonders ofâ"Â
"Shut the fuck up," Karina snaps in the most exaggerated tone, leaning forward, trying her hardest to hide her smile and fight whatever antics you keep coming up with. The longer this goes on, the more she breaks out into giggles. It's rather amusing seeing her get worked up like this, the little scrunched face she pulls and the exasperation that oozes from every word, knowing you aren't telling the truth one bit.
"You're not that studious. I've lived with you long enough to know that you're not the nerdy type. I'm right, I know I've seen you come home late. Don't deny it!"
"There's a really nice coffee shop that's by campus open ratherâ" you begin to say, not exactly sure how you haven't broken down laughing by now.
"Don't you dare tell me you're studying at one in the morning instead of getting your head trapped between some pretty girl's thighs," she interrupts in an instant, gaze piercing right through you. And no longer can you keep a straight face for another second longer, looking away to stop from grinning. But that might be a mistake. As you happen to glance back, Karina gets up out of her seat, this devilish expression as she strides around the table towards you. "If you aren't gonna be honestâmaybe I'll just have to get the truth out of you."
Before you can even react, Karina swipes up your laptop with lightning speed and slams the lid shut, not caring for anything else as she drops her weight in your lap. It takes you by surprise, and by now, she has to know how close you are to breaking, deciding to pull out all the stops to try to win her little game of bullshit. "Oh, so you've suddenly gone mute."
And Karina gets impossibly close, staring into your eyes, enough so you have no other option but to look directly in her deadly gaze. She wraps her arms around the back of your neck, resting her hands there, a smirk curling up her lips as she tries to break your resolve all at once.
The way she looks at you is unbelievably seductive, which might be the reason your heart beats faster, with how gorgeous she is up close. That confident little smirk refuses to leave her lips, the scent of her perfume strong in the air, making everything more difficult to endure. It's impossible for you to hide all your weaknesses. And even more impossible to stash your sudden shyness while Karina traces light patterns upon your neck as she lets out another giggle when you start avoiding her eye contact.
"You're cute when you're nervous," she says, that deep voice dripping with nothing but sin and seduction as she takes your chin, lifting you towards her. It's difficult to look away or hide, with her looking right into your eyesâa sharp, penetrative gaze that you canât flee from, especially not when she gets this close, feeling her warm breath on your skin.Â
âTell meâwhere's that confidence from a few minutes ago gone? A pretty girl sitting on your lap is all it takes for you to break?" Karina purrs against the shell of your ear, lips hovering dangerously close.Â
You stay silent, muscles all tensed up, breathing audibly and wanting nothing more than to pull away. And it only gets worse when her fingers run lightly through your hair, messing it up playfully as her breath lingers. "Hm? Still not talking? When did you ever get shy with me?"
Karina knows she's won.
As she presses up against your chest, drawing ever so slightly nearer, it's in that brief second when the warmth of her body against yours completely overwhelms you. There's no defense left against her little game of interrogation.
"Let's be real, I know you're jerking off every chance you get, especially when I have a dick inside me," she coos with the most angelic smile you've ever seen, eyes brimming with delight, her touch following the path of your body and taking pleasure in seeing all the little reactions she steals from you.
"But there's nothing wrong with that. Hell, I want you to. The thought of you stroking your cock with the image of me naked and getting fucked turns me on. Knowing my loud moans and screams are the perfect inspiration for your orgasmâthat makes it all better, doesn't it?" Karina brushes her lips right into the crook of your neck as she whispers all these obscenities, making damn well sure you hear every single word.
Youâve completely frozen up. Itâs not like you to be so demure, but also this isnât like Karina.Â
"Oh, you wish it was you, don't you?â Karina asks, memorizing every detail in your expression. âPoor thing, being stuck as my roommateâhaving to deal with the fact you aren't fucking me from behind, playing with my tits, and smacking my ass hard until my cheeks sting."Â
Seeing the clear frustration in your expression puts a smirk on her face again, experiencing the thrill of finally having the upper hand on you. Karina knows she has all the leverage, right here, right now.Â
"I know you're not the least bit innocent. Not with the way you looked at me when you saw me in nothing but a towel, fresh out of the shower, my naked tits still wet. I bet that made you jerk off right away, didn't it?"
"R-rinaâ" You finally manage to utter out her name after some considerable struggle, at a complete loss for words. Because this isnât at all how you expected this to go, but she's right about every single detail, and you find it harder and harder to deny it.Â
"What is it, sweetie? Have something you wanna say? Wanna tell me the truth? That you fantasize about me all the time, don't you?" And Karina keeps leaning in closer, getting all the answers she wants before you can speak another word.Â
"Y-yeah, Iâ"
"Use your words. You can do that for me, can't you? Tell me all the things you can't stop thinking about."Â
"Fuck, Karinaâit's the only thing I think about in the mornings. And at night. Every single day. Even when you haven't had anyone over in a while, I just think about fucking you, what that body looks like naked, how those huge tits would look bouncing in my face.âÂ
Youâve cracked. And thereâs no going back now.Â
"Go on, don't stop there, sweetheart. It's too late to be shy now." Karina smiles so pleasantly and cups your face to keep you from looking anywhere else, her tone immediately shifting. "Tell me you wanna fuck me. You want my tight pussy to swallow up your cock until I can't walk properly tomorrow. You've always wanted that, right?"Â
"Y-yes, god yes, that'sâthat's what I want. Wanna bury myself deep inside you, squeeze those perfect tits and fuck you so hard until I unload everything inside."
"See how easy that was? Turns out youâre not very innocent after all, are you?" And Karina seals your confession with a deep kiss, drawing you into a rather warm, heated embrace as she nips at the bottom of your earlobe, giving it the lightest tease before letting go.Â
"Let's give you everything you've ever wanted, sweetie."Â
Karina tears herself from the kiss, just so she can run her tongue along your bottom lip and get another taste for herself. A slight pant, and she doesn't waste another minute getting rid of her shirt, exposing her bare skin and massive tits no fabric can contain.Â
Your pants, they grow tighter in an instant. Those huge tits, the deep cleavageâthey're nothing but hypnotic. Karina watches you stare with wonder for several long moments before unhooking her bra to get the entire picture. You swallow hard, eyes going wide as her breasts spill out from their restraints, pale and so fucking perfect, and god, you can't even think straight from how absolutely delicious they look.
Karina leans back to unveil her bare breasts in full view, and even the slightest movement makes them bounce gently. They're practically begging to be touched, and there's no hope of looking away. "Are they everything you ever imagined?"
A nod comes almost automatically in response, captivated by those enormous mounds with the prettiest nipples you've ever seen. Your roommate takes hold of your wrists and leads you to feel every last inch of her luscious pair, right where she knows your fingers want to go.Â
"Go on, show me exactly what you've always dreamed about, sweetie." Hardly able to believe whatâs happening, you take the plunge as you indulge, these tits soft and supple in the palm of your hands. The full weight of her breasts is everything, Karina exhaling a breathy whimper when you massage them with a perfect grip, lightly squeezing, testing their sensitivity.Â
âYou don't have to be gentle. You've wanted to play with these tits so bad, right? Don't hold back now,â Karina says with such a sweet voice. So you take her permission to heart, getting two full handfuls of creamy flesh to squeeze greedily and grope to your heart's desire.Â
Youâre practically speechless. Nothing could ever match the way they fill your hands when you knead them, fingers digging into all that flesh to press them together, only to release and have them bounce, this recoil that seems almost unreal.Â
"God, these titsâthey're fucking incredible, you know that?"
"Oh these? Iâm sure all those times you'd peek down my top gave me a clue youâd love them. And you haven't even had them in your mouth yet," Karina says as she reaches for the back of your head. In an instant, she shoves your face right into the delicious valley of her pale breasts, suffocating you with all the softness and warmth of her plentiful chest provides. Her huge tits completely consume your vision, and there is no fighting the urge to lick a stripe down that cleavage to take in the first taste.Â
It only gets better as she encourages you, tightening fingers in your hair when you run your tongue around her stiff little nub before closing your lips around it, capturing it to suck softly. A delightful shudder rocks her, gasping loudly, and Karina guides your movements, keeping your attention spread out across both breasts to ensure the other isn't getting left behind.
"Good boy," she hums with all the satisfaction in the world, gripping harder when she presses you back into her chest, helping you indulge in this buffet that's been laid out before you. "Youâve been waiting forever for a chance to suck on these tits, havenât you?"Â
You refuse to answer with words, replying instead with more frantic sucking, the nipple between your greedy lips growing wetter and wetter. But your free hand stays occupied, as you squeeze the other breast not in your mouth not so gently, sinking into the softness even further. Hungrily, you move between them, feasting on those divine tits to satiate all of your desires, and youâll suck on them forever if she'll let you.Â
There's no better treat than the way she feels in your palms and all over your lips. Not nowânot while all this lust floods your veins. Not while she whimpers, your actions gaining speed, faster and faster to keep Karina's sensitive nipples trapped in your lips and suck harder. She lets out her moans, a gorgeous sound that echoes, and you can feel every vibrating sound rippling through her ample chest.
"Jesus, your mouth is amazing," she breathes through all the gasps and the moans, all those noises a pure sign of encouragement that drives you forward, until you need a moment to draw a desperate breath. It doesn't stop there. You resume immediately, introducing a bit of teeth to nibble down into the smooth, pink buds, because like you've been told, there's no need to be gentle. Not when Karina clearly prefers it like that, tugging a fistful of your hair, hoping you'll get the message to apply just a little bit more pressure.
All of this attention you're giving her gets Karina nice and bothered, mouth hanging open as she pants to control her breathing. You could stay here forever, happily settled with a pair of tits stuffed into your mouth. Maybe she lets you. Maybe you spend an eternity exploring that delicious rack, because it can never truly satisfy your craving for them.
"Mmm, feels so fucking good," is how she answers your teeth dragging across those wet nipples, whining when it suddenly leaves, depriving her of your lips just you can stare longingly at the swell of her heavy breasts once again.
You have to admire your work on her sensitive breasts when you pull back, swimming in bliss as you see the sight of them glistening with your saliva, nipples so visibly hard and drenched now. There's no denying how much you love having Karina's huge tits all to yourself, how you just want to drown in all this soft, pale flesh.Â
"Donât tell me youâre done already?" Karina asks, disappointment in her tone while she strokes the back of your head. "I can feel how fucking hard that cock of yours is from just sucking on my titsâŚ"
Once again, you have no response, still lost in a fog of lust as you squeeze those supple mounds, giving another tender lick to those nipples covered in spit to get the smallest gasp from her lips. "I could play with your big fucking tits all day.âÂ
Karina giggles, content to let you do just that. "Well, you've earned that, sweetheart. But I think we should move this to the bedroom, so we can get more comfortable, and maybe you can get me out of these clothes?âÂ
"Yeahâright, bedroom," you repeat, distracted by how tantalizing her perfect tits look still soaked with your spit. She laughs and offers up a hand to help pull you to your feet, taking the chance to sneak another kiss before you get too far apart.
Youâre dragged along up to her room, left to gawk over her body as you follow obediently. Those shorts are just a bit too tight to hide any details of her curvy ass, which sways rhythmically with every last step. The second the bedroom door shuts behind you, Karina pulls you right into another embrace, a hot and needy kiss, your hands finding their place on her slender waist you plan to become familiar with.Â
"Get me naked like you've always fantasized," Karina says the instant your lips separate, heading towards the bed without waiting for your response. You don't have to be told twice, too eager to find out how the rest of her body compares as she bends over, placing her hands on the sheets.Â
The scene in front of you sends a rush of anticipation, and immediately, you reach for those ridiculously tight shorts, pausing a moment only to feel just how firm Karina's butt is under them. This all feels like a dream, one that you hope stays a reality as your eyes aimlessly wander all over this flawless skin.Â
Her huge breasts push into the mattress, so soft and inviting, fighting for your attention from that backside, and this is already so overwhelming, before youâve even seen whatâs underneath here.Â
"Taking your sweet time, hm?" she teases, rolling her hips ever so slightly, hoping to hurry your pace, a hint you gladly take without an ounce of hesitation. Undoing her zipper takes only seconds, and Karina's smooth, pale thighs become more exposed as you gradually peel her shorts down inch by inch. The curve of her ass nearly spills out from the pink thong you've seen for the first time, and this sight is almost as breathtaking as her massive chest.
"Only get to do this for the first time once."Â
âYou poor thing. Guess I canât blame you.â Slipping out of her shorts with ease, Karina makes them drop to the floor where they can be easily forgotten. You're left frozen in awe at the perfection of her full, plump ass that looks far too good in this thong, and those creamy thighs that must feel like heaven wrapped around your head.Â
"Come on, take my panties off too. You want a full view of this all, don't you?" Once you're done admiring her shapely ass, Karina turns her gaze over her shoulder, that smile far too much to deny. And as much as you want to keep staring, your hands already move on their own, desperate to finish what you've started.
Running your fingertips under the waistband, you tug that thin fabric right off, to reveal the fullness of those scrumptious cheeks and that pink, glistening pussy that looks too mouthwatering to resist.Â
Now it all comes together.Â
Karina is flawless, every deadly curve, every inch of milky white skin exposed, giving you yet another reason to stare at that sinful figure. There's no fighting the urge to squeeze what your fingers can sink into, taking a nice handful of her shapely rear that you canât take your eyes off. It's an addiction without a cure, groping those juicy cheeks that are the definition of perfection, and you can't decide which part of her you want to worship the most.Â
"Such a pervert," Karina giggles, and this time you canât say you disagree with that.Â
"Never said I wasn't." There's no point in denying what she clearly already knows, not when you can't look anywhere else. Not after being denied the privilege of her body until this momentâyou've got some time to make up.Â
"The first time you've seen me naked and all you can do is stare?" Karina quirks an eyebrow, putting her hand on her hips, to display that body deserving of all the praise you can give her. She closes the distance between the two of you in just a few short steps, grabbing hold of the collar on your shirt. "How about you show me something too while you're drooling?"
There's no hesitation on your end, knowing whatâs expected as you pull your shirt over your head and drop it on the ground to join her clothes. Karina runs a fingertip along your bare chest, an approving smile spreading over her lips while her eyes glance over you carefully, this newfound hunger in her eyes.Â
"Much better," she says, and now you're the one who's being gawked at, shirtless, under the gaze of your undeniably stunning roommate who can't help herself from exploring your body. You canât say you donât mind the attention at all.Â
She traces the outline of your biceps, grazing along your shoulders, then down to your abdomen, leaving a faint, teasing touch to test the reaction she receives. And then, with no warning, those fingers move lower to palm your growing bulge so blatantly straining through your pants.Â
"You're so fucking hard, it must be painful. But this time, I can help you with that. What do you wanna do with me, sweetheart?"
Where do you even start? Never did you expect to be caught in a moment like this, your roommate fully naked, stroking her hand along the length of your clothed cock, ready to finally do something about this pent-up tension she's caused. The possibilities are endlessâbut when Karina is looking at you like this, her fingers making your cock throb, waiting for you to choose, it's hard to think straight.Â
"Can't decide? I don't blame you. But don't worryâI know just what we can start with." You don't have time to guess as Karina takes the lead and pushes you back towards her bed, patting the mattress. "Be a good boy and sit here, and Iâll take care of you."
Karina drops to her knees ever so slowly and licks her lips. Before you realize what's going on, she's pulling down your pants, boxers falling shortly after, and now she can see exactly what you were hiding underneath, this hard shaft that's been desperate to spring loose.
"Oh my god, your cockâit's gorgeous, sweetie," Karina gasps, staring right at your stiff shaft twitching impatiently just for her.Â
There's barely a chance to process everything happening before she reaches forward, running a curious finger up the underside of your cock and watching the resulting shudder. Those pretty fingers wrap around your aching length, and Karina smiles up at you with pure delight in her eyes as she jerks your cock slowly, discovering all these new reactions you make.Â
"Karina," you gasp out, almost choking, a shiver running down your spine at that light strokeâalmost too fleeting for it to bring any pleasure. She repeats, with more enthusiasm, tightening her grip and using the clear liquid that leaks out to aid the movement of her fingers.
"Look at you, so fucking hard, throbbing so much for me. You like that? My hand wrapped around your cock?"
Karina has this look on her face that has no business being that damn innocent, not with those fingers squeezing you just right, or those huge breasts that shake ever so slightly with each pump of her fist. When she begins to pick up the pace, working you faster, twisting her hand up and down the length of your hard shaft, the urge to do anything but moan becomes near impossible. âYou really do, donât you? Well then, how about thisââ
A string of spit falls onto your cock, smearing over her palm to slicken your shaft. She leans down to part her lips, hot breath hitting your shaft for the first time as she takes the entire head in her mouth and starts to gently suck, tongue working right behind.Â
"Shit, oh my god, KarinaââÂ
Sheâs got you in her sights, and there's nothing to do but surrender completely to the pleasure, eyes locked with her as she keeps those lips sealed tight, the wet warmth of her mouth engulfing you little by little. Karina's response comes in an instant, bobbing her head, slurping down on your shaft so greedily, showing all the appreciation youâve earned.Â
It's when her gaze flickers upwards to see your expression that it really becomes the death of youâthe sight of her staring, with her round doe eyes, sucking and lapping around your shaft so eagerly is just too much to take. And if that wasnât enough, her cheeks hollow out, every long pass making the view even betterâthis filthy slurping and sucking as her drool starts to run down your shaft, spilling from the corner of her lips to create the perfect picture.Â
It's messy and wet, the sounds that accompany this sloppy blowjob only adding to the heat that's building. Her tongue doesn't stay dormant, sliding up and down and flicking around your swollen cockhead as she tastes what her lips aren't currently around.Â
"Your mouth, god, your mouth feels fucking incredibleâ" is about all you can gasp.Â
"Did you expect anything else?" Karina asks as she takes more of your cock, swallowing deep down without warning, bobbing faster and going just a little further to see how many inches you can handle down her throat.Â
Her mouth feels like heaven, so slick and warm, with those luscious lips wrapped so tightly around your throbbing cock. A steady back and forth rhythm keeps up to take more, over and over, until every inch is nestled firmly into the tight grip of her throat. âI've been missing out on sucking this beautiful cock of yoursâmmph."
Her mouth only gets messier as she slurps and swallows you down, resting her palms on your bare thighs, taking down your length with far more vigor than you could hope for. This blowjob is effortless on her end, a routine, and Karina doesn't pause to catch her breath or rest her throatâsheâs driven, determined to keep her spell on you, without a moment where she even looks close to gagging.Â
"How does that mouth feel on your cock, sweetie?" Karina asks. The words come so easy between slurps and sucks on your aching shaft, getting wetter from all the slick saliva that helps keep you buried down her throat.Â
"So fucking good," you groan, tilting your head back, and there isn't anything else you could think of to properly praise this work. That's all Karina wants to hear.
"Then let me make you feel even better,â she tells you, flashing a wicked smile with a gleam in her eye that has your cock pulsing hard between her lips. Before you can question a thing, her mouth releases your slick cock, taking these lazy strokes to keep you nice and stiff. Thereâs a moment where nearly nothing happens, aside from her staring and pumping your cock. The silence lingers. Until finally, she takes your cock, hard as can beâ
Karina guides it directly between her enormous breasts. You can hardly breathe, much less speak, and your jaw practically drops when you feel the soft flesh of her massive chest wrapped snugly around your shaft. Her hands come together, fingers interlocking, pressing those tits tighter against your length and that devilish smirk returns as she looks down at the surprise and joy in your expression.
And you can hardly believe the sight when she begins to rock her chest, trapping you between her tits with no chance to escape. The friction picks up, sliding the entire length of your cock with no intention of slowing down or stopping, and Karina stares right into your eyes, admiring the pleasure written all over your features to make sure you commit this to memory.Â
With her tits wrapped so perfectly around your cock, you wonât last long. But that doesnât matter. Youâll enjoy every second. Every delicate squeeze, every lingering moment her fingers massage the base of your needy, throbbing shaft. And when she spits between her deep cleavage to make the friction even better, a slicker mess for your cock to slide between, thatâs how you start to lose it.Â
âJesus, Karinaâfeels so fucking good, oh my god.â It took so long getting used to the blissful suction from that pretty mouth, but this? There isn't any way to survive these full breasts that keep your entire length enveloped in such perfect warmth.
âDoes it? Love how good your cock looks between my big tits."Â
You canât disagree one bit, because it looks almost as good as it feels. There's no describing how euphoric it all is, the way your shaft vanishes into that perfect valley of pale flesh with Karina squeezing firmly, grinding her chest up and down to let the slippery friction of her soft breasts coax those dizzying groans out of your mouth. "You love fucking my tits, don't you, sweetie?"
"Yeahâso much, this is just, fuck,â you moan, nearly collapsing back against the sheets at the intense sensations that jolt through your body.Â
But Karina doesn't give you a chance to relax, quickening her pace, making your whole shaft throb with need as you continue to watch that massive pair of breasts move and bounce atop your shaft. She's loving this as much as you are, dragging out all these desperate moans that beg for more.
"Look how needy you soundâall because you get to fuck these huge tits," Karina teases you, grinding her upper body harder, massaging your achingly hard cock that looks devastatingly good sandwiched between her breasts like that. Your mouth stays open, but no words spill out, leaving room for more groans and she doesn't hesitate to keep that pleasure building and building with such intensity.
You know this can't last forever, but despite that, you're savoring this mind-numbing pleasure, doing what you can not to succumb and explode too soon. These tits are so soft, so warm, and you're throbbing so much from the friction alone, trying to delay the inevitable when your cock disappears and reappears between Karina's abundant cleavage.Â
"Can't take much moreâ"
Karina smiles, smug and devious all at the same time as she doesn't bother to ease up, your stiff shaft begging to release all over those perfect breasts. There's not another moment to delay this endless bliss driving you mad, your balls tight and throbbing for an orgasm you can't ignore. "Are you going to cum, sweetie? Ready to make a huge fucking mess all over my tits?"
You're practically delirious, finding it harder to breathe, the weakest nod all you can give. But Karina can tell how close you are by how your cock endlessly throbs and leaks. She shifts forward again, squeezing as tight as possible, bringing you closer and closer to a long overdue release. All this delicious friction is too much, bringing that pleasure to the very edge, and when you look down at her again and share the next glance, the encouraging look in her eyes is the last thing that sets you off.Â
"Be a good boy and cum for me. Cum all over these tits like you've always wanted to."Â
That's all it takes.Â
Your whole body tenses and stiffens as your climax swells up and hits you hard. With your cock nestled between her tits, you can see everything as the first blast of sticky, white cum fires up and explodes all over her pale skin, groaning with every spurt that splashes across her breasts and neck, one heavy, thick stream after another that leaves you shaking.Â
Karina doesn't cease for one instant, her tits snugly pressed together as you fill up her cleavage with hot cum, keeping this explosive orgasm going strong. Her full lips part with surprise as your load leaves such a mess, this heavy warmth clinging all over her exposed skin, coating her deep cleavage nicely with that sticky sheen. Her breasts make you cum harder than you think you ever have.Â
And even when it's all over, your load dripping down and oozing out between her huge tits, they stay where they are, squeezing it all out so she can ensure nothing gets wasted. Only when Karina is satisfied that you've been properly drained, your breath all heavy and weak, does she ease off, freeing your cock from her cleavage just to rub your sensitive tip against her hardened nipples to smear the warm mess you made.Â
"Such a huge, thick load for me. You needed that so badly, right? Didnât it feel so good to get it all out over my perfect tits?"
Words fail you, only able to muster a weak tilt of your head as you lean back, spent completely, eyes focused on the glistening mess on Karina's chest, all this cum that she wears proudly to put on a little show to display your work.
"Did I make you cum too hard for you to talk, sweetie? You poor thing, how long has it been since someone got you off like this?"
"D-dunno," you say breathlessly, watching her hand continue to work up and down your drained shaft, still twitching desperately, needing every second of her attention. "Can't rememberâfar too long."
"Oh baby, that's no goodâthis beautiful cock should always be given attention." There's no denying how right she is about that, but before you can even muster a sound in response, Karina is gripping your cock a little tighter in her hand to keep it rigid. While you stare at those beautiful, cum-covered breasts, the lust has hardly faded. "Think you can handle going again? Or does your cock need a little more time to rest?"
There's only one possible answer. As sensitive and sore as your cock might be after shooting a load all over those fabulous tits, your hardness makes its intentions clear when it pulsates with need in her hand. You'd be disappointed if you stopped now.Â
"Need more. Need to be inside you, please," you respond, borderline pleading to finally feel what Karina's heavenly pussy feels likeâhow tight that immaculate grip must be.Â
âThought so. But there's no need to beg, sweetheartânow why don't you lie on the bed so I can ride your cock?"
Youâve never heard a more beautiful set of words.Â
There's no second thought or hesitation. Karina is every bit willing to fulfill all your desires as you climb onto the bed and get comfy on the sheets. She crawls over on her hands and knees, but doesn't settle right into your lap. Instead, she presses her warm body atop your own, your naked flesh crashing together, those heavy breasts squashed tightly up against your bare chest as her lips find your own.
Her skin is so soft when you caress it, and the kisses come so abruptly, as does the hand that snakes down to lazily stroke your cock while she's busy letting her sweet taste linger on your lips.
"Tell me whenever you're ready, and Iâll take you inside me. This is just a nice little warmup," Karina promises in such a dulcet tone that you're tempted to respond immediatelyâbut honestly, you don't know if you'll ever be ready for what she has in store.Â
So you lie there, surrendering to those lips, and let yourself revel in this delightful warmth she presses against you. It's the kind of lackadaisical make-out session that could never end, with no urgent need to rush. Her kisses are slow and steady, lips claiming yours with the same care and attention her fingers give your stiff shaft, jerking you off at a deliberate pace that makes you leak more and more for her.
"Rinaâ"Â
"Yes, baby? What do you need?" Karina responds as she pulls her face away, waiting for that answer, but doesn't dare stop pumping your needy, achingly hard shaft in her delicate fingers. "Need to be inside me, sweetie? Do you wanna know how good my pussy feels?"
"So badly, yeah," you answer with haste, nearly stuttering over the words as Karina pushes herself into a full mount to straddle your lap. She swings her thighs on either side of you, all spread out so you can get a teasing glimpse of her pussy while she gazes down at you with a sweet smile, your shaft aching against your abdomen.Â
"Tell me exactly what you need. Wanna hear it from you, sweetie. Don't get shy on me now."
"Want you to fuck meâwanna be deep inside that beautiful pussy, want you to ride me until you cum. Please." The words tumble right out, and it's all so embarrassing, but that's exactly what she wanted, isn't it?Â
Karina takes your acceptance on her offer with a beaming smile, reaching behind her to grab your aching cock in her palm, keeping a firm grip as she positions herself to guide you inside. The anticipation hits its peak when she lifts her wide hips up, bringing you right against the warm entrance of her slick pussy.Â
"Don't you worry. I'll ride you until we both cum."Â
Before your next breath, Karina lowers herselfâa slow descent onto your cock that spreads her pussy lips apart, sinking into that soaked, wet heat inch after inch. You're coated with all this slickness, and that tight cunt squeezes so goddamn hard as she works you deeper, breath shaky when you hit the deepest parts of her.
"Fuckâit's so big," Karina curses, shifting in your lap for the briefest pause to adjust, bracing herself to take more. âYou still with me, sweetie? Youâve gone quiet again.âÂ
"How can I say anything, when your pussy feels this tight and incredible?"
Karina just laughs. The moment her hips lower again, sheâs already in motion, gyrating on you, adjusting to the tight fit. There's no time to process it all, with that hot cunt sliding up and down your length. She doesn't tease, and her movements arenât the least bit gradual, just the rapid rise and fall of her body.
âYou fill me up so nicely, sweetheart,â Karina says, the praise sending you over the moon as she rests her hands on your chest for support.
It's every bit as mind blowing as you'd hoped it would be. Her wetness makes for an effortless movement of her hips, keeping a steady pace right off the bat that leaves you helpless beneath her. "Does that feel good? Do you like how my wet little pussy grips your big cock?"
You want to reply, but that pussy is so perfect, wet and warm all over your aching length. So all that leaves your lips is a strangled moan that has Karina lifting her hips up with more ferocity. You don't dare close your eyes for one instant as she rides you with that sinfully tight cunt, your shaft vanishing inside her slick entrance, over and over.Â
Nothing surpasses thisâto see Karina so beautiful on top, those luscious tits bouncing whenever she drops back down to fill herself up with your hard cock, only to ride up again and leave you gasping.
"Fuck, love being inside you," you say, trying your best to speak, but it's a challenge when her cunt gets tighter after each wild plunge. Those heavy tits move in motion with her hips, and the sight of her alone has you groaning as she gives it her all, relentless on that cock. "Can't believe how good your pussy feels, fuckâ"
"Yeah? You like how I ride you? How I take your thick cock all the way in with ease?" she says, drawing you right back in.Â
Karina doesn't stop. The pace gets faster with each drop down on your shaft. It's more than you can handle, watching that perfect body move so effortlessly as she takes you balls deep to make you groan beneath her, so utterly drenched and tight around you.Â
You canât take your eyes off her jiggling chest, how hypnotic the bounces of those breasts get, and this is the perfect chance to take them in your hands once more, squeezing and groping the flesh while Karina fucks herself harder on your cock.
"There you go, play with those fucking titsâsqueeze them, smack them, do whatever you'd like." Karina gives the offer, and your fingers are already moving to obey, grabbing a perfect handful of those supple tits that can't even be contained in your palms.Â
It's the distraction you desperately need, and the first slap to one of her pale breasts comes so quickly, the pliant skin rippling so nicely under the impact of your hand.
"Fuck, againâslap those fucking tits, baby, just like that," Karina demands, and who are you to deny her? There's not a thing to hold you back, taking turns to slap those wonderful breasts with enough force that they bounce against each strike, and they get so red under your fingers. Each slap gets harsher than the last, earning the best response from herâa tightening grip around your hard cock and loud whimpers whenever your palm makes contact with that supple flesh, turning her creamy skin a darker shade.
All this treatment leaves your cock dripping wet with Karina's slick juices, every part of you soaked as she keeps bouncing her gorgeous body atop your stiff length.
Her mouth stays open to voice her satisfaction with needy gasps and groans, every inch of her pussy stretched around your girth, keeping you deep. Those continuous smacks against her jiggling tits elicit the sweetest whines, reddened so beautifully from all this attention.Â
Karina loves it all. So needy for your touch, for this sweet punishment she takes with all the desperation as you smack her tits while she rides your cock. Her movements, theyâre hard to handle, hips slamming hard against you as that plump ass bounces on your cock, picking up all this speed. Fucking you harder and harder, those heavy tits never cease bouncing wildly, smacking together when you give a respite to let the sting linger.Â
"Fucking love your cock inside me, sweetieâlove it so fucking much," she tells you, hips rolling faster to keep the pace going strong, all this wetness and heat smothering you.Â
And now you're content to just lie back, taking in the view while Karina rides you, how she takes every inch of your throbbing shaft like it belongs inside her. She keeps a perfect rhythm that buries your cock inside her tight pussy with every impale, so wet and slick when she brings those hips back up to start the entire process again.
"Gonna fucking cum, baby. Gonna fucking cum all over this hard cock. Can you last long enough?" Karina asks with a coy little smirk, not faltering for even an instant as she keeps fucking you, tight pussy clinging so harshly around your length. And to be honest, you don't even know yourselfâbut Karina seems determined to drain your balls, even if it has you finishing way sooner than youâd like.Â
"D-dunno," you answer, knowing that with your hands on her body and those bouncing breasts so mesmerizing, there's only so long before you're pushing past the point of no return. "Probably notâ"
Karina lets out a giggle in response that gets ripped right out when she takes you so unbelievably deep, all of your thick cock filling her up in the right way. She's so fucking tight, pale skin glistening with sweat in the light, adding to the view that could get you off from just the sight of her devilish body. "That's okay, sweetie. This cock feels too fucking good to stop."
The next few breaths are all a blur as this becomes a race to the finish. Your eyes stay glued to Karina, unable to look away as her hips move on autopilot. Amidst each movement, she moves quicker with every passing moment, that delicious wetness sliding along your hard length, bouncing her ass each time those thighs slam down on you. The bed squeaks and shakes beneath the constant, rhythmic impact, and you know this can only end one wayâ
"Shit, sweetheart, gonna fucking cum all over that dick, oh my godâ" Karina falls over the edge first, and that cunt grips harder than ever like a vice, nearly unbearable, overflowing with arousal while she quivers above you. Her lips fall open as she looks down with half-lidded eyes, fingernails digging straight into your chest when it hits, every whimpering cry a lovely symphony for you to listen, to watch as it all happens, clinging for dear life while she climaxes so fucking hard all over your cock.
It's incredible, to see the way she loses herself completely to the pleasure, the mess that drowns your shaft while her tight pussy keeps spasming with every gush, and you have to grit your teeth to hold everything at bay.Â
âYou wanna cum in me, sweetie?" she asks, through ragged breaths, a proud look shining through the bliss on her face, still riding that intense high.Â
A question like that only has one answer.Â
"Y-yeah, so badlyâwanna fucking fill you up," you say, with all the confidence you've ever had. Pushing herself into overdrive, Karina fucks you as fast as her body allows, this mindless, relentless motion of those hips that drives you to the very edge, those big tits bouncing wildly until there's no chance you'll hold backânot a second longer.
And then you fucking spill. You seize her body and keep those hips pinned in place, buried to the hilt as your cock pulsates and throbs inside her warm cunt. Everything fires all at once, flooding right into Karina, thick spurt after thick spurt as she watches the pleasure overtake you. Her walls clench down to milk it straight out of your throbbing shaft as your moans pour out, making sure this huge mess goes where it belongs while you pump her full of cum.
It feels like itâll never endâso unbelievably overwhelming, your balls emptying right inside Karina, the relief of getting to blow your load inside her for the first time that keeps getting better and better. All your hot seed unloads into her warm pussy, filling her to the brim, and her euphoric gaze help your intense climax linger by the second.Â
And when thereâs nothing left in your balls, Karina still wears that blissed-out smile as she remains right on your shaft, the weight of her body coming to rest against yours. She weakly runs her slender fingers through your hair and kisses you tenderly, both sharing this moment of pure euphoria.
"Good boy..."
The weight of those words, they nearly make you blow again.Â
Karina plays with your hair as she takes those sloppy, lazy kisses, with your spent shaft still nestled deep inside her dripping cunt. You don't dare move, or do anything else. She seems quite content to just stay there motionless, your bodies pressed so closely together as your cock stays warm in her pussy. "Didn't think you had that much left in you, sweetie. Fucked it right out of you, huh?"Â
You're much too exhausted to respond, so instead you just lean in for more, letting those lips do what they do best, savoring the taste, the bliss, and all this sweat on your body and hers.Â
It's in that moment the realization hits that your relationship has shifted. No longer do you have to listen to Karina get railed through the wallsâbecause it's you who's in her bed now, naked, covered in sweat, with your cum deep inside her, and her lips feel so good on your bare skin that you donât ever want to leave this position.Â
"Soââ she says, and her voice hardly sounds out of breath in comparison. âDo you wanna shower first orâdo you wanna just go again?âÂ
It's the most absurd thing to hearâas if she didn't just drain you, the evidence still deep between her legs.Â
âBoth."
Not the answer Karina was expecting, but one that leaves her more than pleased as she presses another kiss to your cheek before finally climbing off you. A few careful steps later and she makes her way across the room, your cum slowly trickling down her thighs. Not stopping to clean any of it, she just lets your load drip out as she saunters into the bathroom and leaves the door wide open.Â
"Don't keep me waiting, sweetie."
⌠âŚ
When you next get wrapped up in these sheets, itâs the exact same picture. But youâre the one on top, lips wandering all over Karina, fingers interlocked while she gets all giggly between kisses. The sweat is still there, and so are the handprints, but this time in a different location, imprinted all over her pale buttcheeks.Â
And now youâve learned that the view from behind is almost as impeccable as it is from the front, to see Karina bent over, those ridiculous breasts bouncing freely like there's no controlling them while you ram into her wet pussy. And then you cum, hardâinside her, of course, because how could you not when youâve got both of her jiggly tits in your palms, squeezing that magnificent pair as you unload right into her pussy.Â
With Karina, thereâs no such thing as too much, or too oftenânot with that body. You make her cum on your face twice, and then she returns the favor moments after. This time, itâs all over her face, absolutely covering her, that fucking picture-perfect face that makes it seem like Karina isnât real. But she isâand the way she smiles as your cum drips down her gorgeous features proves it.
No longer do you go to bed horny, but exhausted, with Karina lying beside you. Your own bed becomes neglected as your days and nights become spent in her room, listening to her fall asleep, head resting on those perfect breasts that put any other pillows to shame.Â
Your mornings start with Karina, greeting her with your head buried between her creamy thighs while the coffee gets brewed. But she doesnât need you to look after her when her head spins, because she doesnât get as hungover anymore, with no reason to get drunk off her ass when she has you to help take the edge off whenever she needs it.Â
It isnât a relationship by title, but you certainly have all the benefits, the biggest one being your cum coating those big tits as often as it gets inside her pussyâ
âFuck me again,â she breathes in your ear one morning, seconds after you just finished all over her chest, your cock still painfully hard in between them. Youâve got your hands all over her messy tits when she asks it, fondling the soft flesh slick with cum, making shallow pumps between her deep cleavage, but her greedy little pussy calls to you.Â
But before you slip outâa loud knock on the door interrupts out of nowhere.Â
"Were you expecting someone?" you ask Karina, but her eyes tell you she's just as confused, face covered with sweat and her hair all disheveled from this hot and heavy session.
"No, I wasn't. Were you?" she asks in return, and neither of you pay it any attention. But the knocks continue, more urgent, more frequent. You don't think it's the neighbors coming to complainâthat wouldn't happen this early, and you're mostly surrounded by other students and college grads anyway. "Ugh. Just ignore it. We can continue fuckingâ"
And that's what you both plan to do. It isn't until the knocks turn into full on bangs that Karina sighs and gives up. "God, fuck. This better be important."
You can see the anger and annoyance written all over her face.
Karina doesn't bother to throw a towel over herself before heading to the door in all her glory, naked and beautiful, still covered in your load, all the sticky, white mess dripping down her chest that she couldn't possibly clean in time before the door swings wide openâ
Yizhuo.
It's fucking Yizhuo. Standing there at the doorstep. And there's Karina, all naked, and Yizhuo seems completely unfazed to see her without a shred of clothes.
"Hey," Yizhuo says casually, like this isn't the weirdest thing she could have seen standing in front of her. "Do you usually answer the door naked like this? Was there a fire?"
"When you won't fucking stop knocking and interrupting, yeah. What is it?"Karina sounds so angry that Yizhuo is almost taken back, and you just watch from a distance after slipping your boxers back on.Â
"Well, I haven't heard from you in a while. Came to check how you're doing, you haven't shown up at any of the parties lately. Wanted to make sure you're still alive. You could have sent a message if you're too fucking busy to talkâ"
"What? I'm notâsorry, I've had a lot of assignments, andâyou know," Karina hesitates, stuttering to explain her absence to Yizhuo. She looks at you as if to plead for some support. "I-I'm...fine. Totally fine."
"Assignments, yeah, that's what it looks like you were busy with. Explains why you're all naked and sweaty," Yizhuo says, almost mockingly. But Karina just bites her lip and frantically waves you over.
"What the fuck were you knocking so loudly this early for, then?"Â
"To make sure you weren't dead! That's it," Yizhuo retorts, and it's all too funny how this is turning out. Karina isn't even ashamed to have been caughtâeven more so when you stand at her side, half naked and covered with sweat, just like her.Â
"Oh. Hi there, you must be Karina's new boyfrieâ"
"He's my roommate!"
Yizhuo raises a brow at that, as if to challenge the excuse. "You have a roommate?"
"He moved in last year," Karina clarifies, with an exasperated sigh. But that isn't what Yizhuo cares about right now, or what she even wants to knowâ
"And you fuck him?"
"Yizhuo!"
"That's not a no. He's cuter than the last guy I saw you with. Does he have a name?" Yizhuo asks, turning to you instead, and she's all grins as you finally step forward to meet her. "You got a name, or is that only reserved for Karina to scream?"
"Okay, time to leave, you've seen enough."
Karina's more embarrassed than offended. And Yizhuo seems all too amused, but you don't miss that lingering gaze when she gives you a quick scan up and down, admiring all of youâfrom your bare chest down to your boxers. "Well, I'll let you two get back to fuckingâ"
"Alright! Time for you to goâhave a good day, and text me if you want to meet up, yeah? We'll get something to eat, or have a coffee."
And just like that, the door closes shut behind her, and you can't help but laugh as Karina sighs in defeat and collapses onto the wooden frame.Â
"So, that's Yizhuoâ" you say, trying to keep it together, but she glares back at you as if it's all your fault that this happened.
"Don't," she mutters. "Not a word, sweetie."Â
"She's cute, too."
"What? Oh my god, seriously, do notâ" Karina protests, but she just rolls her eyes and gives this faux look of annoyance as she pulls you closer. "Do you wanna fuck her too?"Â
"I didn't say that," you reply, and without even getting a chance to explain yourself Karina silences you with her lips. It's all tongue and teeth and it's so damn sloppy that it takes a while before either of you can get another word in.
"You can fuck her if you want. I don't mind. If you think she's cute, that is. Go and fuck her. You have my blessing."
You laugh, still finding all this absurd "I don'tâKarina, that's not what I meant. It's fine. I like what I have."Â
"And what is that?" Karina ponders, peppering your face with kisses.
"A hot roommate with amazing tits that lets me cum inside her everyday,â you blurt out, and Karina just turns beet red from embarrassment.Â
"Yeah? Is that all I am to you?" she asks, almost cracking up at the end from her snorting laughter, her arms moving around your waist to tug you closer. "Maybe all you are to me is just a big cock for me to ride.âÂ
"Well, as long as we've got it all figured outâ"
And just like that, your lips crash again in unison.
âBut if you want, I can give you Yizhuoâs number. Pretty sure she would suck you off in the middle of a park if you just asked her for the time."Â
"Jesus," you mutter, incredulous at the words slipping from her lips. "Didn't you say she was your best friend?"
"Oh, she is. But she's also the biggest slut I know." Karina has the widest grin you've ever seen.
You don't even have a word to say to that, but you don't need one when you let those lips overtake yours again. "Weren't we in the middle of something? Weâve still got an hour before I have to shower and get to class, so I better see you fucking me into next week."
And you can't possibly resist that.Â
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ORDINARY THINGS â ě ęľ
đ ordinary things, as long as iâm with you.
after a lost match, jeonggukâs only source of comfort is you.
from the grande series ŕ¨ŕ§
pairings: soccer captain!jk x fem!reader
genre: fluff, established relationship
warnings: lower case intended, i wanna say that i know very little about soccer, even more about what goes on behind the scenes, but of course i had to put jeongguk in bellinghamâs iconic holey socks hehe đť, itâs a bit angsty at first just bc ggukkie is an angsty boy, but then all of it is just fluff really! hints at mental illness, heavy use of the pet name baby, theyâre so funny i love them, theyre also horny! only mentions of sex tho, and sexy kisses and touches keke
word count: 6990
a/n: waaa omg i managed to keep this under 10k words whoâs proud of me! this is so slow but im in love w their domestic dynamic đ
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the piercing whistle cuts through the air.
it marks the official end of the match, sealing the loss of your boyfriendâs team. the sound feels sharp, final, not only to the game.
you knew this was fairly important. it wasnât too decisive on the teamâs position in the ranking, but you knew it mattered to him. like every other game, regardless of stakes.
whether it was a friendly or a tournament, jeongguk had no other mode but all in.
that dedication shows in every tense line of his body now. the weight of defeat begins to sink in, and you can see it on his face, the way it affects him.
you can already sense whatâs swirling around in his mind, behind the quiet exterior. youâre sure of it from how he still stands there, avoids his surroundings, keeps his eyes glued to the ground, the green field suddenly more captivating.
you donât need words to know. heâs retreating inward, locking away his disappointment, and likely taking on more than just the burden of his own loss.
heâs probably thinking of his teammates, feeling like he let them down too. allowing it all to crash on him, the single outcome of this match unraveling everything he worked hard for.
his confidence shatters with the refereeâs whistle, and it shuts down the noise of the crowd, makes him unresponsive to the comforting pats on his back from his friends. itâs all a distant hum to him now.
jeongguk is deliberately slow as he almost mechanically leads his exhausted self out the pitch, body moving without his mindâs consent.
he doesnât care if itâll take him forever to take these steps. if heâs the last one leaving. he just needs a moment to figure out his next move.
but can he? can he face his team without this ugly feeling gnawing at him? can he keep lying, tell them they did well, that theyâll do better next time, while his own mask suffocates him? is he even deserving of the captain title?
he doubts it, his legs moving as if the world has time to offer him, body struggling under the weight of a lifeless feeling creeping in.
your heart clenches painfully. from the sidelines, watching him like this breaks something in you.
you grip the hem of your tennis skirt, fingers twitching as you fight the crazed urge rising in your throat to just run to him.
itâs hard to find your breaths when witnessing your boyfriend destroying himself as if thatâs the only treatment he thinks heâs deserving of. but you also know the last thing you want to do right now is to draw more attention to him when heâs so raw, vulnerable. when every eye in the stadium strips him bare.
and you just want to put his every piece back, cover him in warmth. your mind is made up when you abruptly stand up, hastily making your way toward the locker room before he can get there, offering polite smiles to the players who are already getting inside.
you settle outside the door, waiting.
jeongguk drags behind the others, eyes still casted down. heâs so absorbed in his escape, so lost in the act of avoidance, that youâre certain he wonât notice you, with your beating heart held out to him in your cold hands.
yet, he does find some sort of answer in the ground he keeps staring at, asking for solutions.
amidst the worn, muddied football boots, he spots your shoes. dr. martens platforms, the ones you pair with white socks that ruffle at the top.
the sight is enough to pull him out of his daze, and he looks up.
the door to the locker room closes behind the last player, the heavy thump echoing in the long hallway. it startles you, just as jeonggukâs sudden awareness startles him, and you search for some sort of stability in each otherâs eyes.
his own are glossy with unshed tears, and they glisten under the harsh fluorescent light. it doesnât help the way his vision gets blurrier and pulls you farther from him.
but he needs to see youâ the comfort in your face, the one that he feels as though he canât breathe without.
jeongguk squeezes his eyes shut, the tears slipping free, but the moment he flutters his eyelids open and meets you clearly, he doesnât care.
his wide, tear-filled gaze takes you in. brows drawn up, your expression seems to mirror his. youâve always absorbed peopleâs emotions to an almost extreme degree. when others cry, so do you. and when jeongguk cries, it feels like the whole world is falling apart.
but you canât afford that happening, and youâll hold its full weight on your shoulders to prevent such thing.
this time, you need to be stronger for him. swallowing the lump rising in your throat, you blink back your own tears and take a hesitant step toward him.
jeongguk, so much taller than you, seems to shrink before your eyes. right now, heâs the smallest, most fragile boy.
âbaby,â your voice is a soft whisper, arms stretching open in a subtle invitation, one that he doesnât need to be asked twice.
the moment you speak and break the quiet, the dam heâs been holding up crumbles. he crashes into you, hands wrapping tightly around your waist, his nose buried in the crook of your neck.
the impact makes you stumble slightly, but you hold him just as tight in return, focusing on his sharp breaths against your skin, wet with his tears, body trembling in your embrace.
your arms wrapped around his neck, you squeeze him hard, as if heâs a sponge that youâre trying to empty from all the dirty liquid. all the exhaustion, the anxiety, the guilt.
with the way he downright drops his full weight on you, you guide him to sit on the bench just outside the locker room. he slumps beside you, heavy and limp against you, seeking your warmth and comfort the way an addict seeks for the drug thatâs able to keep them going.
you sit like that for a while, and you think itâs better this way. he has time to let it out against your chest, and you have the time that you need to compose yourself before youâre met with the full extent of his brokenness.
the second you see his tear stricken face, you think all of the effort was useless. youâre so, so weak.
jeongguk hiccups, lifts his face, his wide eyes flitting between yours like one would follow a tennis match at his peak point, searching for something, the smallest indicator of victory.
the tears make his cheeks red, and it adds to the frantic pleading he trips on, âbâbaby, please. i donâtâ iâm tired. wannaâ homeââ
âhey, gguk. ggukie, breathe,â youâre gentle when you cut him off, taking his face between your small palms to try and steady his panic, and mostly yourself. youâre fighting hard to not break too, to try and be the anchor he needs.
you take exaggerated deep breaths, hoping heâll mirror you, and after a few moments his chest rises and falls in sync with yours, warm breath fanning over your lips.
imperceptibly, you feel his panic begin to ebb. his brows relax and his eyelids blink slower, regaining consciousness of his surroundings.
his hands reach up, covering yours as they rest at his jaw, squeezing them, and he exhales shakily, still not fully over his agitation, âiâm sorry. i wanna go home. i donâtâ donât wanna do interviews, donât wanna see anyone. donât wanna talk to coach. i just wanna be with you, please.â
his speech is hushed, pleading, his words slurred as if afraid youâre going to stop him, force him to go through the motions of whatâs expected of him before he can beg further.
you brush his cheek with your thumb in a slow motion, moving him closer to you, your voice as careful as possible, âbut, jeongguk⌠we canât disappear without at least telling the others. coach will want you to answerââ
âplease, love. please,â he cuts you, words trembling, âdonât make me go through this. iâm too weak now. i canât.â
youâve never seen jeongguk like this before.
itâs been over two years since he asked you to be his girlfriend. that night, he scored a goal for you. you knew it the moment the ball hit the net.
even with his teammates swarming him in celebration, his eyes searched for yours, locking on the moment he found you in the stands.
wrapped in your wool scarf, your face almost fully hidden, the way your eyes turned into crescents and your cheekbones so prominent was unmistakable.
the smile that you shared was sheepish, but brimming with meaning. carrying all those emotions you had both been tiptoeing around for so long.
for a while, your feelings had been caught in a slow dance, never fully picking up, but nonetheless comfortable with the motion.
jeongguk always found a reason to have you near, inviting you to practices and matches, because only your presence could give him the strength needed. and you always found a reason to show up.
even more when you easily fell into the routine that followed every encounter, evenings spent at your apartment, on your couch.
it was a schedule you soon came to love, with him making you laugh, an arm draped over your shoulder, your leg casually resting across his lap. the movies you would put on would quickly become background noise as his playful jokes turned into shared glances, quiet giggles, and stolen kisses.
kisses that felt like the ones teenagers share when theyâre crushing on someone for the very first time.
kisses that didnât evolve into anything more until that night, when he scored for you. it was unashamedly sweet, the feeling he gave you.
back at his flat, his face lit up with a grin so big it was infectious. the rush of adrenaline from winning the game and the joy of finally making you his girlfriend radiated from him.
itâs a stark contrast to his expression, now. itâs drawn with helplessness, clouded with a desperation that makes you ache.
he looks tired of fighting, of holding it all together. and itâs not just thatâ thereâs a deep yearning, a frantic search, a needy plea to be understood, to be seen by you.
thereâs nothing that truly comes more innately to you. itâs second nature, caring for him. knowing him. looking after him. tending to his physical and emotional scars. and you donât want him to scrape his skin further.
you try to reason, âwhatâ what about your things, donât you at least want toââ
âiâll ask taehyung to take my bag with him or something,â for the state heâs currently in, he still looks willing to do anything if it means getting out of here. and so, he begs again, âplease. can we go home?â
you know you canât say no to him. thatâs not something that comes as good to you. not in your nature.
âthis is not the way to your house.â
still in his soccer jersey, the uniformâs shorts touching his knees and holey socks high up his calves, muddy boots hurting his feet, jeongguk sits quietly next to you in the backseat of his car.
his chauffeur drives steadily, away from the hurt, and each mile puts more distance between jeongguk and the weight of the loss, the field, the pressure. he feels himself leave fragments of disappointment behind, back there.
itâs been a long time since it was just the two of you in his car. jeongguk would be the one driving, his left hand steady on the wheel, the right one always reaching for yours, a quiet confirmation of his love.
now, someone else takes care of the driving, especially after games, or in moments like these when jeonggukâs mind and body are too exhausted to handle anything more.
ever since the goal that changed everything between you two, jeonggukâs life took off. a big team recognized his potential and signed him, a moment that marked his breakthrough as pro in the football world.
then, it became a whirlwind. constant games, media attention, opportunities flooding in, and money pouring from every direction.
he bought a house â a mansion, really, â just outside the city, the kind of place he dreamed of as a small kid with big ambitions. everything about it is luxurious, grand, all jeongguk thought he wanted.
but thereâs been something left behind, back in the quieter days when he was just a young player fighting for his place on this planet.
you met him before the fame, before his name was on the backs of jerseys and his face on billboards. you fell in love with the boyish version of him, the one who lived in a cramped flat, working tirelessly to make a name for himself.
youâve been there through every step, enough to recognize the struggle in his eyes.
you so easily catch that flicker of awareness in him. the jolting confirmation that all of this is real, his orbs trembling. and when it hits, he retreats into himself, lets anxiety creep in.
he may not voice it, but you know the root of it. the fear of losing himself, of becoming someone else, of forgetting the version of him thatâs grounded in simplicity and love.
jeongguk fears intertwining himself with what he always wanted will inevitably erase what heâs always been, the son of hardworking parents in busan, raised on sacrifice and dreams.
what he always had with you. quiet, uncomplicated. happy with the ordinary things, eating ramen on the floor of his tiny apartment, driving around just to talk about anything and nothing, reading quietly next to each other in the cafè youâve introduced him to, your presence a comfort to him long before he realized he loved you as more than a friend.
jeongguk wants to hold onto that simplicity, and he wants you to be part of that. he wants you to stay by his side, to be the reminder of who he is beneath all the noise. what he wants to keep being.
because youâre his constant, unwavering, never changing. youâve never needed him to be more than who he already is. you never look at him with the kind of judgment or disappointment that seems to follow him after every missed opportunity. thereâs no pressure, no expectations of success.
in your eyes, he is just jeonggukâ the same boy that approached you with a bad pun only to clumsily blame it on his drink. the one you built a familiar rhythm with, ordinariness always just enough for you. for the two of you, together.
you donât need mansions, fancy restaurants, designer clothes. you donât need grandeur. youâll stay the way itâs always been, and the way you both want it to stay.
he quickly scans your face, letting your words register. your brows are furrowed slightly, pouty lips parted as if youâre about to tell the driver that heâs going the wrong way, headed somewhere other than the house he now calls home.
before you can speak, jeongguk interrupts you, his voice soft and suddenly self aware, ���oh, iâ sorry, i gave directions to your apartment. i just really wanted to be there with you.â
you blink at his fragile honesty. he had begged to be home, and now here you were, on the way to your own.
warmth spreads through you, and you canât help but break into a big smile, one that eases the tension in his forehead, and mirrors softly in the grin that tugs at his pierced lips.
leaning in, you place a peck on his cheek, âitâs okay, baby. iâve got so many of your clothes in my closet, there wonât be a problem.â
his low chuckle is comforting, and he scrunches his nose in that familiar way, shuffling closer to nuzzle into your shoulder. for a moment, the world outside fades. youâre hopeful as you think you can feel the weight on his heart lifting.
looking up, a teasing smile spreads across his face, âi wonder why.â
his playful shift surprises you, though you try not to show it. you want him to feel normal, like thereâs nothing you should keep being sad over. your brows raise ever so slightly before you roll your eyes in mock exasperation, the fond amusement clear on your features.
itâs enough for jeonggukâs giggles to fill the car, an arm snaking around your waist, âitâs because you always steal my clothes.â
feigning shock, you gasp dramatically, swatting him lightly. he only laughs more, soft sounds bubbling up again, and you can feel love rushing through you, swarming frantically in your chest.
you play along with him, âno, itâs because you always leave your stuff behind after weâ weâŚâ
you trip on your words and pause when you realize what nearly slipped out, sheepishly averting your gaze to glance at the chauffeur, who seemingly looks too focused on the road to hear what youâre saying.
jeonggukâs eyes light up, his smile widening as his fingers teasingly pinch your sides, âafter we what? say it, baby.â
you flinch at his ticklish touch, breaking into a grin and stubbornly shaking your head no. his laughter mingles with yours, bodies pressing tighter as he leans his weight into you, his nose brushing your jaw.
being this close to him, you inhale his scent. he still smells like adrenaline, mixed with exhaustion, sweat pearling his back. the feeling grounds you.
he hums lowly against your skin, his lips trailing wet pecks along your throat, âi miss doing that.â
your chuckle turns into a frenzied groan, and you steady yourself with your hands on his arm still squeezing around you, feeling your face heat up, âthat was three days ago.â
âtoo long,â he mumbles, kisses slowly becoming more languid, savoring you.
when he pulls away from your neck, he doesnât give you a moment to breathe before his lips find yours. the kiss is simple, sweet, but you can feel each beat of his pulse against your mouth.
you break the contact first, your hand slipping into his damp hair, gently brushing the long strands out of his eyes. you think out loud, admiring his perfectly framed face, âyou need to cut these.â
but jeongguk isnât currently interested in haircuts. he ignores your suggestion, his focus entirely on you, and his whispered words hold a kind of raw vulnerability, âi missed you.â
you hum, threading through his locks, âmissed you too, my boy.â
thatâs all he needs to close the gap between you again. this time, his kiss is more intent, deeper, as if trying to communicate what words canât. his hands pull you closer, your chest arching into him, and in between the wet sounds of your lips meeting he lets a moan escape him.
youâre quick to swallow it, your own quiet noises vibrating against him before you put distance once again, softly tugging at his hair and finding his eyes lovingly, âletâs get home first, yeah?â
but he protests, a childlike groan reverberating in his throat, eyelids fluttering shut as he basks in the feeling of you against his lips. he attacks your cheeks next, trailing down, and down, and down, kissing you through your shirt.
then, itâs his fingers touching you under it, hand traveling up and kneading your breasts through your bra, only to slide around to trace the curve of your spine.
the sudden contact is overwhelmingly pleasuring, head thrown back on the headrest as quiet whimpers leave you. jeongguk is as hungry as ever, seeking for proximity no matter your bodies already molding with one another, his teeth scraping against your most sensitive spots, almost digging, eating, tasting.
and you want to let go, allow him to give you every last thing heâs holding onto, be selfish and take it all for yourself.
but you canât when you know this is just another one of his escapes. heâs using this moment to drown out the chaos in his mind, to run from his pain, to bury his burdens and get high on a dopamine rush.
âbaby, waitââ in between gasps, you manage to get your voice out, but its whisper doesnât seem to reach jeonggukâs ears, his long digits boring holes in the flesh of your bare thighs, prickling with goosebumps at his feverish touch.
in your own daze, you carefully take a hold of his face in your palms, lifting him up from the devoting motion of his lips on the edge of your shoulder, and the look in his eyes is hazed, inhebriated on the the burning of your skin under him, but itâs tinged with desperation.
behind his orbs thereâs no other thought but to chase you, his only refuge, and your sweet smile only aggravates his crazed desire, trying to catch your mouth with his before you open it to speak, âi donât want us to do this while youâ youâre still mentally fragile.â
your worry is laced with love, itâs clear from the way it spills out of you, seeps from your delicate touch on his cheeks. but jeonggukâs eyes still widen in shock and shame, orbs shaking with panic.
his brows furrow in an attempt to conceal his turbulent emotions, but the city lights continuously flashing through the car windows only accentuate the glistening under his eyelids. he stammers, âiâ iâm notâ iâm⌠please. donât reject me.â
the plea is shaky, and it makes your pulse race with agitation, fingers grasping his jaw with more intent as youâre quicker on your words than your own thoughts, âoh, honey, iâm not. look at me, please,â the way he flickers his gaze down only makes more panic flood in your veins, and you frantically search for him.
you manage to sound stable, whispered words fanning over his lips, âi just want whatâs best for you, okay? do you trust me?â
he seems to lean into your touch, looking up at you through his lashes, brows still betraying him with the way theyâre drawn up in sorrow. he hums in agreement.
you smile reassuringly, âperfect. then, iâll tell you what weâre gonna do, hm?â when he nods, you continue, brushing his hair back through your calm words, âwe get to my flat. take a hot shower. i make us something warm to eat. and then, if you still want to, iâm all yours. in our bed. sound good?â
our bed. the flicker in your boyfriendâs face doesnât go missed. itâs fond, it softens his eyes, and it rushes down to his lips, struggling not to break into a grin. he pouts to hide it, and you can see heâs still ashamed by his earlier rush, his response muffled, âokay. i love you. iâm sorry.â
you coo, pulling his head to rest on your chest, drawing comforting strokes along his damp back, âi love you more. you did nothing wrong, baby.â
the both of you stay like that for a while. his cheek is squished against your breasts, lips parting to release quiet huffs, and your soothing motions run down his arm.
the quiet moment is interrupted by jeonggukâs phone ringing once again, loud and persisent, for the nth time in less than half a hour. he doesnât even glance at the device when declining the call, and you catch the name flashing before the screen goes black.
itâs his coach calling. you stay quiet as he shuts off his phone completely, tossing it onto the empty seat next to him.
only a few moments pass before he looks up at you, his expression hesitant, a timid smile trying to mask the uncertainty in his eyes. you return his gaze with quiet confidence, nodding subtly, letting him know that youâre here with himâ no matter what.
right now, all that matters is that jeongguk feels safe in your arms. you donât care about the consequences he might face tomorrow. youâll be there for him, just as you are now, when he needs you the most.
the moment you both step in your apartment, shoes messily discarded at the entrance (youâll make sure to take care of his boots later), he trails after you like a lost puppy. he becomes your shadow, mirroring your every step with big eyes and a natural pout.
âtake your uniform off, baby,â you gently instruct him while letting the water run from the shower head, adjusting the temperature until itâs hot enough for the both of you.
he slumps over on the toilet lid, eyes never leaving you as you move around the bathroom. when he lets them travel down your figure, a low groan escapes him.
you look so good in your skirt, the high socks triggering a weird, primal instinct in him, stirring dark fantasies that have him wishing youâd let him take you right there on the sink.
but he knows better than to mess with the plan you set earlier in his car for the both of you to enjoy the night, so he only allows himself to play with you a little, âcan you do it for me? iâm tired.â
he really does seem tired, the exhaustion visible from the way his hands tremble slightly and his eyelids drop, but the look only adds to the lazy smirk spreading on his pierced lips. he knows what heâs truly asking for.
you narrow your gaze at him only to roll your eyes when he doesnât look like heâs going to surrender any soon, grin only widening, and you pull him up by the jersey.
he complies, brows wiggling in teasing disobedience, looking down at you from his taller stance, âwoah, commanding. i like it.â
âshut up,â you only murmur as you hastily strip off his sweaty uniform, throwing it right in the laundry bin. you leave him in his high socks and boxers, smacking his round ass playfully, âtake these off yourself, mister.â
heâs ready to protest, to demand your touch back on him, but you shoot him a look with your raised eyebrows, âah-ah. câmon, and get in the shower, iâll bring your change.â
before he can respond, you leave the bathroom. he whines childishly, slipping off his underwear along with the uncomfortable socks, adding them to the pile in the basket under the sink. he yells over the sound of running water, âyouâre coming too, right?â
âyes!â you quickly call out from the bedroom, voice raised to reach him over the distance.
you know how difficult your boyfriend can beâ if he hasnât come to drag you in yet, youâre at least hoping heâs taken off the rest of his clothes. you foolishly hope heâs already in the shower, though the chances are slim if heâs not completely sure youâll be joining him.
thatâs why you move fast, grabbing his change of clothes from the drawer where you keep all his left-behind things. in your rush, you take one of his oversized t-shirt and a pair of boxers for yourself, too.
when you return to the bathroom, youâre not surprised to find jeongguk standing in the middle of it, bare and waiting for you. his eyes light up when he sees you, taking the clothes from your hold and placing them on the counter, âi was about to come and get you.â
you scoff lightly, trying to fight the smile tugging at the corners of your mouth, but itâs no use. especially when he reaches out to pull you closer, fingers working at the zip of your skirt and sliding it off with ease, his own grin warm on his expression.
you gently push him toward the shower, pretending to scold him, âi can do this myself, thank you. now get in, silly.â
with a disappointed, and very adorable huff, he finally obeys, stepping under the hot steam of water. you can tell by the subtle way his shoulder relax that the heat soothes him, but the tension doesnât completely ease from his muscles.
he tracks your movements attentively, taking in the way you strip yourself completely bare, and only when you step in the small cabin and close the sliding window door behind you he sighs in relief.
jeongguk engulfs you immediately, positioning you both directly under the cascade of water. it blurs your vision slightly, your bangs flattening on your forehead.
you push them out of the way, your hands then finding his own hair to slick it back, allowing you to see the fondness in his eyes clearly.
you look up at him through wet lashes, chin placed on his toned chest, and his own is dipped low to meet your gaze, take in the smile spreading and making your dimples show.
it grows bigger when he sheepishly scrunches his nose, the love seeping from your orbs suddenly overwhelming, and you press a gentle kiss to his adamâs apple before pulling yourself away, voice a whisper, âlet me take care of you.â
jeongguk doesnât argue, complying when you ask to hand you his shampoo. youâd originally bought it as a joke during one of your grocery runs together, picking it off the shelf with a laugh and pointing out the labelâ johnsonâs baby shampoo, made with honey and wheat extracts, and on sale too. youâd exclaimed how it was so jeongguk, and heâd let you try it on him as soon as you got home.
the joke had stuck, and to your surprise, he ended up liking it more than you did. now, it was the only shampoo you used on him whenever he stayed at your place, a small tradition between the two of you.
as you work it into his damp hair, jeonggukâs eyelids flutter shut. he eases into your touch, body going loose as your fingers massage his scalp with the perfect amount of pressure, the kind that always seems to make him melt, the one that could immediately put him to sleep.
you wash it off and repeat the motion once more, taking your time. only when his hair is thoroughly cleaned do you reach for your vanilla body wash, moving on to carefully lather it over his skin.
tracing every line of his body, you watch the way he softens more with your touch, unconsciously swaying closer.
youâre slow, deliberate in your motions, letting your hands run over his shoulders, down his arms, across his chest. his skin is warm and slick under your palms, and every now and then he lets out a contented sigh.
the sounds get fuller when you finally reach his back. you press a little harder, working out the knots you can feel lingering there. he groans softly, his head falling forward slightly, droplets of water dripping from his hair onto your face.
âfeel good?â you ask quietly, your voice barely audible over the sound of the water.
he nods, his voice low and drowsy. âyeah, feels amazing.â
his moans grow unrestrainedly louder, eyes rolling back, and you would tease him for it if the sight of him like this wasnât having its own effect on you.
biting your lip, you press your fingers deeper into his muscles, and suddenly his hands grip your waist, tight enough to startle you.
it has your mouth opening unconsciously, brows furrowed at the sensitivity. you almost give in when his palms slip further down, resting on the curve of your ass, and for a moment you consider the temptation, but the triumphant smirk on his face immediately pulls you out of your daze. your own fingers work to move his hands to rest at your shoulders.
you manage to sound stable, but you can feel the slight shake in your voice, âhands up here, mister.â
âoh, câmon,â he has the audacity to whine, the sound muffled by his pouty, and so inviting lips.
you almost cave at the sight of him, his eyes wide and pleading. but you know better. if you let him push the boundaries now, things wonât stop here, and the careful rhythm youâve set will be forgotten.
itâs not just him youâre trying to hold backâ itâs yourself too, especially when his gaze almost breaks through your resolve.
you shake your head, trying to gather your composure, suddenly turning off the water and sliding the shower door open.
jeongguk groans in protest at the contrasting cold air hitting his skin, but you promptly step out to reach for your bathrobe and wrap it around him.
pout stubborn on his lips, he follows you out the shower, but instead of arguing further, he surprises you by engulfing you both in the same robe, pressing his chest against your back.
his arms circle you, and he starts rubbing the spongy material of his sleeves against your body, trying to dry you both at once.
you snort, amused by his antics, âwhat are you doing?â
âiâm drying us.â
âthis will take us foreverââ
âno, see? iâm already done,â with ease, he slips out of the robe, laying it over your shoulders and tying the belt snugly around you.
then he casually walks over to grab his change of clothes, pulling the t-shirt over his head despite the fact that his hair is still dripping with water.
you roll your eyes at the sight of it soaking into the fabric and gently push him to sit on the toilet lid, âdonât move. youâre still wet, god.â
âthatâs what she said,â he wiggles his brows, eyes gleaming with immature delight as he grins mischeviously.
you sigh, struggling not to laugh at his pun. instead, you wordlessly grab the hairdryer and start running it through his damp locks.
he obediently leans into you, closing his eyes and resting his head against your chest as your fingers run along his hair. the warmth from the device makes him nuzzle even closer, his posture fully relaxed between your legs.
once his hair is dry and his clothes no longer clinging to his skin, you finally shut off the hairdryer, giving his now fluffy locks a final pat.
the time it took to dry jeongguk allowed the bathrobe to work its magic on you too. you quickly slip into his boxers and one of his many stussy t-shirts you picked randomly, tying a towel around your hair.
you prepare to head out of the bathroom, but before you can his hand gently stops you, gripping your forearm, suddenly towering over you when he stands up, âwhere are you going?â
âto make us dinner.â
âiâll do it. you should dry your hair, or else youâll get a headache.â
âbutââ
âno but. you already did enough, baby. iâm okay, i swear,â his voice softens, and the fond look in his eyes makes it clear he wonât let you argue further. he doesnât even let you respond, stepping out of the room and heading to the kitchen.
a smile tugs at your lips, and you take a deep breath, the comforting scent of vanilla and honey still lingering after he leaves.
youâve always appreciated jeonggukâs attention to detail. he knows how long it takes you to care for your thick, long hair and also remembers the countless nights you complained about your head hurting from leaving it damp. he always listens, even to the smallest things.
twenty minutes later, youâre warm and dry, stepping into the kitchen where the delicious smell of soup greets you. jeongguk is behind the stove, stirring a pot and softly whistling as he tends to another pan on the burner.
when he notices you, his eyes brighten, trailing over your legs and the way his t-shirt sits just above your thighs, revealing glimpses of his boxers. as you approach, he grins, âwhatâs a pretty woman like you doing here, alone?â
youâve been with him long enough to know this is just the start of one of his playful roleplays, so of course you instantly know your line, âi have a boyfriend, actually.â
âoh, really? is he here too? can he fight?â his voice drops lower with every step you take towards him, with the last words coming out as a growl as you stand in front of him, looking up into his eyes.
you snort, âyouâre so dumb.â
he stays in character, raising his eyebrows, âno, tell me. can he?â
you hum thoughtfully, pursuing your lips as you pretend to consider, your eyes wandering before settling on his again, âyes. heâll break your nose.â
he chuckles, feigning surprise, âgod, he sounds tough.â
âhe is.â
with an arm snaking around your waist, he pulls you closer, his lips brushing your ear, nose tickling your lobe, and he whispers, âbut i just want you so bad, young lady. donât tell him, hm?â
his mouth is on yours next, molding together in a sickeningly sweet, lingering kiss, and you let him find your tongue with his own, your front arching against his.
with your arms wrapped around his neck, you part slightly, your eyes jumping on every corner of his face. your voice is thick with pure love, âdo you feel better, big boy?â
jeongguk smiles, presses it against your forehead, âso much better, thanks to you. i love you.â
âi love you more,â you momentarily lose yourself in his expression, and you have to blink harshly to pull yourself out of the daze before you fall too deeply into your emotions and start waxing poetic, letting your heart run as wild as the love in your veins.
you move from his hold, busying yourself with setting the small table in your kitchen, grabbing the usual pink glass for yourself and the yellow one for him.
he chose them himself a long ago, said pink reminded him of the way you blushed at his every action, and the yellow symbolized a sunflower always turning toward its sun, because, âthatâs how iâve felt ever since i met you.â
as you arrange the glasses, you almost forget what you were about to ask, but the faint ring of your phone from the bedroom reminds you, âis your phone still off? coach has been calling me.â
his brows knit slightly, betraying his otherwise calm demeanor, but he doesn't meet your eyes, focusing instead on plating the soup. âcan weâ not talk about it? just for tonight?â
a small gasp escapes you at his quiet plea, and you rush to his side to help him, taking the plates from him and placing them gently on the table, your words hushed, âof course, baby. i was just worried you might want to hear from him. i donât care about all of that, i only care about you.â
a sheepish smile breaks through his composure, his front teeth worrying at his lip piercing. he looks up at you, lets himself be coddled by the warmth of your gaze, and he sounds just as timid as he looks, âhm. thatâs what i wanted to hear.â
you shake your head fondly at his vulnerable side, motioning for him to sit with you, âsilly. come, letâs eat, and then we can get some sleep.â
even after swallowing the burning soup, jeongguk still finds a way to tease, nudging your foot under the table with a mischievous grin.
"youâre not getting any sleep tonight," he quips, his voice low with playful intent. you roll your eyes and kick him lightly, making him yelp in exaggerated shock.
it becomes a game of back and forth, his dirty jokes pushing boundaries just enough to make you question if heâs actually serious. thereâs a part of you that selfishly hopes he means it, but the side of you that knows him inside and out knows better.
sex for jeongguk isnât just a casual thing, especially after a night like this. for the two of you, intimacy is more than physicalâ itâs an act of devotion, a way to connect deeply when words canât express everything.
itâs never about distraction or escape, but about grounding one another, the flicker of something real and tender at the core of it.
tucked under the covers, waiting for him after he convinced you he could handle the dishes himself â arguing that picking a movie was just as much work â youâre not surprised by what he says when he finally enters the room.
âbaby⌠i think iâm happy with just cuddles for tonight. that okay with you?â
you break into a big grin, brimming with unspeakable feelings for the man standing at the foot of your bed, for which you spread your arms open, âof course, sweetheart. come here, you big child.â
he doesnât need to be told twice, instantly burrowing himself against the warm sheets, intertwining his limbs with yours. he nestles his head on your chest, sighing contentedly as if heâs found the safest place, âi love you. have i said that already?â
âa million times. and iâm never sick of it.â
âsay it back.â
you snort at the insistence in his tone, words muffled by the fabric of your shirt, and your fingers unconsciously play with his straight locks as you swing one of your legs around his waist, your voice a whisper above the shuffling, âi love you more.â
he tilts his head up, chin resting on the softness of your breasts, âno, you donât.â
brushing his bangs away from his eyes, you smile fondly, âi do. believe me.â
he huffs in faux protest, narrowing his eyes. but he gives in as quickly as he tried to argue, his cheek settling back to rest just where your heart beats, its steady beat lulling him into calm along with your gentle strokes along his nape.
jeongguk doesnât resist it, doesnât fight your love. accepts it as the purest form of closure he can get for himself, âhm. okay. i love you.â
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Swept Away | Chapter 7: Making Waves
Pairing: sugardaddy!Joel Miller x f!reader
Chapter Summary: Joel receives some exciting news, meanwhile you're having one of the worst nights of your life.
Chapter Warnings: language, sugar daddy/baby dynamics, alcohol and food consumption, jealousy, sexual tension, flirting, physical violence against reader (not Joel), verbal abuse towards reader, blood/bruising related to an injury, feral Joel came to play, anxiety, insecurities, possessive behavior, smut (18+ MDNI), unprotected piv sex
WC: 10K (yikes)
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Everything was the same it always was, but somehow also different.
Admittedly, the morning following the art gallery you awoke terrified Joel would ice you out again. You stayed in bed as long as you could, texting Celine just to avoid the inevitable heartbreak, but much to your surprise you heard a knock on your door around ten in the morning.
"Hey," Joel peeked his head into your room and you dropped your phone to your mattress. "You okay? You don't usually sleep this late."
"Yeah," you replied, voice still thick with sleep so you cleared your throat. "Just, uh, taking it easy and..." you trailed off and dropped your gaze to the floor.
"Avoidin' me?"
Your eyes snapped up just to find him leaning against your doorframe with his arms crossed and a teasing smirk on his face.
"Maybe," you whispered, plucking nervously at your comforter. He pushed off the wall and walked over to your side of the bed, then reached out to tame some of the hair around your ear.
"Gonna give me a taste and take it away, that it?"
Your cheeks felt hot and the butterflies in your stomach stirred to life, but you managed to shake your head and hold his gaze. "N-no. I just thought you might've regretted it again."
He sighed and he stopped playing with your hair so he could cup your cheek. "I never regretted it," he told you softly, then leaned down to press a tender kiss against your lips. "Not then and not now," he added before pulling away, leaving you breathless. "Now c'mon, your breakfast is gettin' cold," he said when he turned to walk out of your room.
And that was all that was ever said on the subject.
Now, a handful of days later, everything was business as usual. You still slept in your separate rooms and you went to restaurants together but the air around you was different. It felt charged whenever you were together. A lingering glance here, a gentle touch there reminded you something had definitely changed. Something that went unlabeled and unspoken and you didn't dare try. As much as you wished to take things further and try to get Joel to open up more, you refrained because you could sense he was growing impatient with Glenn and you didn't want to sour his mood even more.
He was running out of time and Joel told you he needed to step things up. So far, Glenn had avoided talking much business and spent most of the time just getting to know everyone better. Joel never pushed him. He saw how Glenn reacted when Zachary or Harry tried to bring up business and it wasn't good, so he bided his time and waited. But now he was feeling the pressure.
"Can't just spend an entire fuckin' month here for nothin'," he grumbled one afternoon as he paced around the hotel. You watched him from your spot on the sofa, still clad in your bikini from spending time by the pool that morning.
You chewed your lip nervously, his anxious energy transferring to you. "How important is it that you win?"
His eyes flickered over to yours and scoffed. "Real fuckin' important. If I get this spot, The Parador would become a household name. The revenue stream from this spot alone would be higher than all my other hotels combined. It would open up a whole new world of opportunities for my business."
Joel rolled his shoulder like he was trying to work out a tight muscle and you pursed your lips. Maybe you just hadn't given it much thought, but it sounded like a much bigger deal than you originally imagined.
"It's about exclusivity," Joel continued, "there's only so much space on this island. Only the best of the best build here, and the world fuckin' knows it. It's why they want to travel to this particular island - they want to experience a level of comfort and luxury they've never known before in the most beautiful place in the world."
"Well, did he say when he was going to make a decision?"
"Said by the end of the trip but no one's even had a chance to give 'em their sales pitch yet," he said, raking his fingers through his hair.
"Maybe he doesn't need the sales pitch," you said, picking up your phone. He stopped pacing and eyed you up.
"What'dya mean?"
You let your phone hang limply in your hand and you looked back up at him.
"Well, he knows what you're all about. He knows what kind of hotels all of you run and how successful you are. He doesn't care what your vision is or what will make your hotel different. But what he does care about is this island."
Joel frowned and slowly sunk into the couch opposite you.
"What else?"
Your lips turned downward and shrugged. "He cares about this island and its people. He wants to make sure the person he picks for this land will respect it and the people who live here. I mean, think about it. Guy could live anywhere but he built a huge mansion right here. His kids live here. His daughter is dedicating her career to helping local artists find success. He loves it here, Joel. He just wants someone who will love it back."
He stared at you for a moment, his expression unreadable until he abruptly stood and in two long strides, closed the distance between you. He grabbed the sides of your head and pulled you up for a deep kiss, the suddenness of it stopping you from responding right away. Just when your brain caught up and your lips began to massage his, he pulled away with a huge smile.
"You're so fuckin' smart, y'know that? Jesus Christ, why didn't I see that?"
You grinned, trying to hide the pleased look on your face by shaking your head and turning away.
"What can I say? I have my moments," you shrugged when you sat back down on the couch. "Guess you got more than you bargained for with me," you added with a laugh.
"Oh, I knew that already," Joel said with a wink. Your cheeks warmed and you looked down at your phone with a stupid smile stretched across your face. It was moments like those when you heard the voice inside your head scream at you to ask the obvious question: what did you mean to him?
He kissed you like you were his girlfriend, but he never invited you into his bedroom. He had said he wanted more, but had yet to try. Was he waiting for you to make a move? You had been practically throwing yourself at him for the past week, there was no way you were going to do that again.
Joel had dialed someone who worked for him, completely oblivious to the confusion swirling around in your head. Instead, he was excitedly conveying the breakthrough you had about Glenn to the man on the other end and began to talk strategy. Already feeling bored, you decided to get up and go take a shower so you were ready for dinner, but as you were walking back towards your bedroom, you heard Joel say quietly into his phone, "No, I didn't even think of it. My girl did."
My girl.
Oh, you could get used to that.
"Aren't you bored as hell when Joel runs off to hang with the guys?" Zoe asked over dinner. Ironically, you had picked the same restaurant as Lynne and Tammy, who also invited Ian, for dinner. You didn't know Ian very well but from the look of it, he seemed to be caught in the middle. He tossed a few glances your way and gave you each friendly smiles, but Lynne and Tammy ignored you completely. However, based on their body language, you had a strong feeling they were most definitely talking about the two of you.
"Sometimes," you admitted. You shot the waiter a smile when he placed two drinks on the table. You each quickly grabbed them, clinking your glasses together before taking a long sip.
"Well, only one more week and then you'll have him all to yourself again, lucky girl," she said with a flirty wink. You thought you responded but you couldn't be sure because she had unexpectedly knocked you sideways. One more week? Christ, where did the time go? And what would happen between you and Joel when you got back home? Would he really just pay you and disappear from your life forever? The thought made you sick to your stomach and you had to put your drink down.
"You okay?" Zoe asked, furrowing her brows. "You look a little queasy."
"No, I'm fine," you said quickly, waving her off. "Just hungry."
"Sure you're not pregnant?" she teased. You laughed and pointed to your drink.
"Would be a little irresponsible of me, wouldn't it?"
You were so grateful for Zoe. She was a safe place when you were feeling lonely or insecure and it made you sad you wouldn't be able to keep in touch once the trip was over. How could you? If you did, she would eventually figure out you were hired, just like she was, to accompany Joel to the island.
Maybe it was the two devastating reality checks in a row but you had a hard time snapping out of your funk. You tried, you really did, but you couldn't stop thinking about losing Joel and Zoe so soon. It didn't help matters when she got a text from Zachary telling her the night with Glenn on his boat was going long and not to bother staying up.
She sighed with relief and flicked her hair over her shoulder before glancing around the dining room, murmuring to you about how she could use a night off while you just stared down at your phone, waiting for a similar text from Joel.
Nothing.
My girl.
You took a deep breath, trying to tamp down the insecurity, but it was hard. It was so fucking hard. Why was it always so difficult with Joel? Why did it always feel like whenever you took one step forward, you take two steps back? Did he even like you? You thought he did, but maybe you were wrong. Maybe he was just treating you like a sugar baby this whole time and you stupidly thought -
Your phone buzzed on the table and when you saw Joel's name pop up, relief instantly swept through you and all your nagging self-doubt faded away.
Going to be late, sweetheart. I'm sorry but I got a good feeling - finally getting somewhere with Glenn
You smiled, despite not being able to see him the rest of the night, he thought enough to text you and he called you sweetheart.
Right when you were about to reply, he texted you again.
I'll make it up to you ;)
You must have looked flustered because Zoe cleared her throat and quirked an eyebrow at you when you finally tore your eyes away from your phone.
"Do you have something to share with the class?"
You shook your head and tried to hide your smile behind your hand but failed. Still, Zoe peered curiously across the table and read Joel's last text upside down. She gave you a jealous pout and sat back in her chair.
"Not fair. You're so lucky," she sighed. "I think once Zachary and I are done, I'm going to quit."
"What?!" you quietly exclaimed. She nodded and shrugged.
"I'm done with it. It was fun, I got to travel a lot, have nice things and meet cool people but I need to think about my future, you know? And there's, like, a zero percent fucking chance I'll meet the love of my life being a sugar baby."
You nodded, struggling to figure out what to do with a sharp pang in your chest. Was it so impossible to think anything serious could come from a relationship with a sugar daddy? Luckily, Zoe continued.
"I look at you guys and I'm just reminded of what I could have, y'know? All I want is a guy who looks at me the way Joel looks at you."
Jesus Christ, Zoe was shaking you up and she didn't even know it.
"H-how does he look at me?"
Zoe rolled her eyes at you before saying, "C'mon, you know. He can't keep his eyes off you. He's so fucking into you, it's sick."
You laughed at that, a sharp little bark of disbelief, but then quickly corrected yourself. You had to change the subject, your emotions were splintering and you were desperate to talk about something lighter, but before you did, you sent Joel a text.
Can't wait ;)
Shoving your phone back into your purse, you turned your attention back to Zoe, frowning when you saw the sour look on her face as she finished her drink.
"What?"
She leaned across the table and lowered her voice. "Don't turn around but Trevor and Brooks are at the bar."
Your stomach twisted into knots and you took another drink, grateful to see your food arriving if just for the distraction alone.
"Wonder why they aren't on the boat with everyone else," you mumbled before stabbing a piece of pasta with your fork.
"I heard Brooks didn't want to go and Glenn sent Trevor to keep an eye on him," Zoe told you mischievously.
"How the hell do you hear all this gossip?" you asked after you wiped the shocked look off your face. Zoe giggled and swallowed a bite of her salmon.
"I get bored, I eavesdrop."
"Damn, either Joel doesn't hear this stuff or he doesn't care because the only phone calls I hear from him are work calls," you said before offering her a bite of your dish. She eagerly accepted and gave you some salmon in return. "Wonder why Glenn thought Brooks needed a babysitter," you said after another moment.
Zoe put her fork down and gave you a look that told you she knew way more than she should, so you mimicked her and set your fork down as well to give her your full attention.
"I don't think Glenn and Mary trust Brooks to carry on the business once he retires," Zoe said, glancing once over your shoulder at the bar. "I don't know why but that night at Glenn's house, I went to the bathroom and overheard Mary telling Brooks this is your last chance, or something like that."
You raised your eyebrows in surprise and slowly leaned back in your seat. So it wasn't just you who thought something was off about him. Then Joel's comment about drug use slipped back into your brain and you were about to tell her but you decided to bite your tongue at the last minute. You trusted Zoe, but you didn't want to betray Joel. So instead, you kept your mouth shut and played dumb.
"That's... crazy," you said, fumbling for words. It didn't seem to bother Zoe because she just nodded and picked up her fork.
"I know, right? Kind of humbling to know Glenn and Mary don't have the perfect little family we all thought."
When the waiter approached, you assumed he was coming to check on your food, but instead he held in his hand a bottle of champagne. "From Mr. Miller with his sincerest apologies," the waiter had said, making you blush when Zoe gave you an incredulous look. As sweet as it was, you really hoped that's not what he meant by 'making it up to you'. After the champagne was poured and the waiter left, placing the bottle on ice first, she pretended to stab your arm with her fork.
"What the hell, girl? Maybe I need to get a front desk job for some billionaire so I can find my own Joel."
You giggled and took a sip from your glass, the bubbles popping on your tongue. It could have been a three hundred dollar bottle of champagne or a ten dollar bottle, it didn't matter to you. The mere fact Joel figured out where you went for dinner and sent something over was astounding to you and you prayed you were reading the signals right.
"I should thank him," you said, pulling your phone back out to send him a quick text.
You didn't need to do that, but thank you :)
In less than a minute, you got your reply.
No need to thank me, baby - enjoy and I'll see you tomorrow
"Looks like your man's little gift caught someone's eye," Zoe said with a grin. You followed her gaze to Tammy and Lynne's table, catching the nasty look they were sending your way before they turned around and you giggled into your palm.
"She's still pissed with me because I almost pulled all her hair out at the art gallery the other night."
Zoe's eyes went wide and her jaw dropped. "Excuse me?!"
You laughed and stood up from the table, dropping your napkin on your chair before grabbing your purse. "I'll tell you all about it after I use the restroom."
She made a pained squeak, disgruntled you were leaving her hanging, but you just grinned and stepped away.
"You better be quick!" she shouted after you. Fuck, you were really going to miss hanging out with her.
Despite the looming conclusion to your trip, you were feeling pretty good. At least, in that moment, things felt like they were going well with Joel and you were having a nice time at dinner, even though Tammy had just been staring daggers at you.
The one thing you somehow managed to forget about was Brooks, who unfortunately exited the men's bathroom just as you were searching for the women's room.
"Well, look who it is," Brooks said when he spotted you. You tried to give him a polite smile but you weren't sure you succeeded.
"Oh, hi," was all you said when you tried to squeeze past him. Right as you passed, his hand shot out to grab your arm and you swiveled around.
"You ladies having a nice time?" he asked with a toothy smile. His dark eyes bored into you and if you looked close enough, you could see his pupils were like pinpricks. Then his hand casually swiped against his nostrils and you figured out what he had just been doing in the bathroom.
"Yeah, thanks. This place is nice," you said, taking a subtle step backwards before hooking your thumb over your shoulder. "Excuse me," you added, and before he could say anything else you turned on your heel and headed for the women's room a few feet away, relaxing once you heard the door swing closed behind you.
After you used the bathroom and washed your hands, you were fixing your hair and makeup in the mirror, your thoughts back on Joel, mind wandering to what exactly he meant by I'll make it up to you later when the door flung open. You hardly had a chance to process what was happening until Brooks locked the door and turned on you, sending a hot jolt of fear through your entire body.
"Listen, I'm gonna be straight up with you," he said, pinching the tip of his nose. His eyes looked a little red in the bright lighting of the bathroom and you could see beads of sweat collecting at his temples. You tried to create more room but your back was already pressed against the sink: you had nowhere to go.
"I know what your deal is," he told you, his hands fidgeting at his sides. "I know you're only into that old fuck for his money but I can promise you, I'm about to have double what he's got."
You blinked slowly, struggling to keep your breathing even. Your entire body was rigid, muscles tense and straining under your skin, and your heart was pounding so loudly, you could feel it in your ears. How could he possibly know?
"W-what?" you stammered. "I don't know what you're talking about."
Brooks's arm darted up from his side to grip the back of your hair too roughly, making you cry out in surprise and grab onto his forearm.
"C'mon, don't play games with me. I know a gold digger when I see one. And that's perfectly fucking fine. I don't care! Mad respect. What I'm trying to tell you is I could give you so much more than him," Brooks told you, taking a step closer so his hips pinned you against the sink. You whimpered and tugged at his wrist but he wouldn't budge. "I got more money and live in fucking paradise, baby," he said, trying to sound seductive as he leaned forward and tugged your earlobe between his teeth, making you recoil in disgust.
"Get off me!" you shouted, shoving him backwards as hard as you could. It worked. He let go of the back of your head when he stumbled away, but unfortunately it only served to piss him off.
"Are you fucking serious?" he seethed, expression turning stormy as he closed the distance between you and grabbed the back of your neck so suddenly, you were too stunned to react. "Do you even realize what I'm offering you, here?"
"I don't care," you said, scratching frantically at the back of his hand, body writhing as you tried to escape. Your engagement ring caught on his skin, tearing it and making him hiss. "I don't want anything to do with you! Get the fuck away from me!" You tried to push him again but he was ready for it that time. He grabbed your wrists with one big hand and yanked your head backwards so your back was arched over the sink. Your eyes filled with tears as you squirmed and tried to wiggle out of his grasp to no avail.
"Dumb bitch," he snarled. "You could have someone younger with more money. Thousands of women would jump at this chance but you're too fucking stupid, huh?"
Amidst the tears, anger ripped through you and without even thinking twice, you twisted around in his grasp to sink your teeth into his hand. Brooks inhaled sharply and cursed under his breath, dropping your wrists but keeping a firm hold on the back of your neck. You shoved at him again, over and over, trying your hardest to loosen his grip so you could make a run for it, but you just weren't strong enough. And maybe it was the drugs coursing through his veins or his ego took too big of a hit, but you didn't anticipate what happened next:
He let you go.
At first, you thought someone had stepped in, but when your panicked eyes darted around the room, you found you were still alone. The sudden freedom made you hesitate and it probably wouldn't have made a difference anyway, but later you would wonder if maybe you had reacted faster, it would have saved you alot of hurt and pain.
"Stop fucking shoving me, I'm trying to change your miserable little life," he growled, lunging forward to push your chest with all his might. His strength sent you flying backwards but you managed to catch yourself before you hit the back of your head on the porcelain of the sink. As a result, you twisted around and smacked your mouth on the edge of the vanity. Pain instantly bloomed under your lips and you feebly cupped your mouth, whimpering in agony as blood began to trickle through your fingers.
"Look what you did!" Brooks roared, and by now you could hear Trevor's voice in the hallway. Tears streamed down your cheeks, mixing with the blood and dripping onto the white tile floor. You sobbed into your hands and tried to hide under the sink because at that point, you had no idea what he was capable of doing.
You had squeezed your eyes shut and braced for the impact of a fist or a foot but thankfully, none came. Had you the courage to open your eyes, you would have seen him come to the sobering realization of what he just did when he saw your blood on the floor. He swiped his hand anxiously over his mouth, eyes darting around the room while you cowered in fear, and slowly backed away towards the door.
"Brooks! Open the goddamn door!" Trevor's voice came from the hallway, his tone quiet to avoid any attention but still laced with anger. He did as his brother asked, shakily undoing the lock and brushing past him, and Trevor glanced into the room before the door shut. His eyes widened and his jaw fell open when he saw the state you were in and rushed inside.
"Oh, fuck, I'm so sorry," he murmured, crouching down next to you. "What can I do? T-tell me what to do!"
"Get ... Zoe," you choked out between sobs. He nodded and backed away slowly, still unable to believe what he was seeing before he rushed down the hallway.
Zoe sprung into action the moment she saw you in the bathroom and you had never felt so grateful for anyone in your life. She got you out of there before anyone could see and ushered you quickly into the waiting car by the curb. It wouldn't be until later that you discovered it was Trevor who ordered the car on standby while Zoe was doing her best to clean you up before getting you out of there. She must have been rattled because her hands were shaking but you never would have known it by the way she spoke and took control.
By the time you got back to the hotel, the sun had set and the lobby was relatively empty. You kept your tear soaked face tilted towards the floor with a napkin pressed against your mouth to stem the bleeding as Zoe led you to the elevators. Once you were in the safety and privacy of your room, you released a haggard sob that was a mix of relief and frustration.
"Let's get you to the bathroom," she said, taking you by the shoulders after kicking both your shoes off in the foyer.
While you were having a decidedly terrible fucking evening, Joel had been having the exact opposite experience on Glenn's boat. Somewhere tucked inside your purse, which was abandoned on the dining room table next to a handful of bloody tissues, your phone lit up with a text from Joel:
Heading back now - hope you're still up bc Glenn pulled me aside 10 min ago and told me he's giving me the fucking land! We gotta celebrate baby
It was late. You never answered his text so he assumed you were in bed, but fuck... maybe he should wake you up.
He got the fucking land.
Glenn didn't announce it yet, but he planned to soon. Joel finally felt like he could relax and maybe enjoy what little time you had left together. He tried not to think too hard about that last part and just focused on the present, like following through with his promise to you.
As he swiped his card through the reader, he smirked to himself, thinking of all the ways he could make things up to you, then froze when he walked into the foyer and saw an unfamiliar pair of high heels by the door. His gaze traveled up and saw all the lights were still on.
That was unusual.
He took a few tentative steps inside, expecting to maybe see you and Zoe by the pool or in the living room, but he was wrong. And it was way too quiet.
He called out your name as he ventured further into the room and then two things happened at once: right as Zoe emerged from the bathroom with a shaken look on her face, Joel saw the pile of bloody tissues next to your purse on the table.
Something was wrong.
His eyes darted up to Zoe's and she held up her hands, palms out, before shakily saying, "There was an accident-"
"Where is she?" he asked. He could feel his throat closing up and his chest beginning to squeeze tight. Fuck, it was hard to breathe.
"She's okay, but she's got a busted lip and -"
Joel tore past Zoe in the blink of an eye, noticing the light on underneath your closed bathroom door. He knocked urgently, saying, "It's me, open up," but you didn't answer. He could feel the anxiety taking hold and flooding his veins with adrenaline. His hands trembled when he knocked again.
"She's a little shook up," Zoe explained from behind him. He dragged his palms nervously over his face and turned to her.
"What happened?"
Zoe opened and closed her mouth, unsure how to answer. "I only got a little bit out of her, but she was attacked in the women's room at the restaurant."
"Attacked?" Joel repeated incredulously. It was so much worse than he thought.
Zoe nodded right when the bathroom door clicked unlocked. You opened it a crack and went back to curl up in the empty spa bath with the pillow and blanket Zoe had brought for you from the living room.
"I can't get her to go lay down in your bedroom," Zoe explained before Joel nodded and pushed the door open. The first thing he saw was the counter filled with bloodied white washcloths and tissues, the sight more than a little horrifying but when he saw your reflection in the mirror, he swiveled around with a jolt.
"Jesus Christ," he whispered, then rushed to the edge of the tub and fell to his knees. He reached out to cup your face; your puffy, swollen, bruised up face.
His eyes never stopped moving. They darted everywhere, taking in every single detail, but mostly lingering on your split lower lip and the bright purple bruise blooming below your eye. His thumb traced gently over your cheek and he felt a sharp twist in his chest when you winced.
"What happened?" he asked you softly.
You sniffled and shook your head but he pinched your chin and made you look him directly in the eye.
"Baby, what happened?" he asked again, "Someone attacked you? Did you call the cops?"
Again, you shook your head then glanced at Zoe over his shoulder.
"Just tell him, babe," she said encouragingly. You sighed and pulled the blanket tighter around your shoulders.
"Promise me you won't get mad," you began, voice thick and gravelly from crying. Joel pinched his eyebrows together and dropped his hand from your chin.
"I ain't gonna be mad at you, sweetheart," he whispered. You watched him swallow and you took a deep breath.
"Brooks cornered me," you finally admitted, tears stinging your tired eyes. "He followed me into the bathroom and locked the door. He - he said some nasty fucking shit and got mad when I told him to leave."
Joel's nostrils flared, his eyes scorching with rage.
"But I pushed him, Joel. I pushed him and so he pushed me back and then I fell into the sink and -"
"Why'd you push him, honey?" he asked, trying to sound calm but you could hear the anger simmering below the surface.
"Because... he kept grabbing me and wouldn't let go. Like, around my neck and hair. He wanted-"
"I know what he wanted," Joel said darkly, pushing himself up to stand then turned to acknowledge Zoe. "Can you stay with her for an hour?"
Zoe nodded and your eyes went wide.
"Joel-"
"It's alright, sweetheart. I'm gonna take care of it."
He stormed out of the bathroom, fists clenched at his sides, trying desperately to contain his anger but his face felt hot and his jaw already ached from how hard he was grinding his teeth.
You scrambled out of the tub, knocking your knee painfully against the porcelain, and raced after him. "Joel! You can't!"
"I'll be back in an hour," was all he said before snatching his wallet from the table and disappearing out into the hall.
"It'll be okay," Zoe said, appearing at your side to rub your back. "Why don't we try to put ice on your lip again?"
You wiped at your nose with the back of your hand and nodded, allowing her to refresh the washcloth with ice and getting you settled on the couch before stepping away to call Zachary to let him know where she was. She had clicked the button on the fireplace remote before she stepped outside to make her call so you stared blankly into the flames while praying Joel didn't do something incredibly stupid.
Joel was gone more than an hour. Zoe sat with you underneath a shared blanket while you watched some mindless television show and iced your face. The bleeding stopped long ago but the pain was beginning to set in, so she got you some ibuprofen and forced you to drink extra water, assuring you it would help.
By the time Joel finally returned, your eyes were beginning to droop but when you heard the door click open, you got a sudden burst of energy.
Sitting up straight and tugging the blanket around your knees, you craned your neck around, waiting for him to appear. He stepped in from the foyer a little disheveled but otherwise seemed fine, but when he locked eyes with you, you knew something happened.
"Thanks, Zoe. I'm sure Zach's worried 'bout you."
His voice was deep and commanding, eyes never leaving yours. She immediately stood, giving you one more hug and whispering in your ear to call if you needed anything, then gathered her things to leave.
You remained planted on the couch, unable to tear your eyes away from the look on Joel's face. When the front door clicked shut, signifying you were finally alone, his shoulders visibly sagged then he marched over to the couch.
Without a word, he scooped you up in his arms, blanket and all, and took you down the hall towards your bedroom. Now that you were closer, you could see some red marks on his cheek and neck, but you didn't have much time to dwell on it because to your surprise, Joel turned left instead of right, taking you into his room.
You hardly were ever in his room. The door was always closed when you walked by and your memory was hazy but you remembered it was bigger and he had his own bathroom attached. He carefully set you down on his bed, the side that remained untouched, before disappearing into his bathroom. You took a second to look around the now well lived in room. All around you were pieces of Joel: reading glasses, crumpled pieces of paper and a chapstick on his nightstand, a phone charger dangling from the wall next to his bed, a few articles of clothing were scattered around along with discarded shoes. If it didn't hurt to smile, you would have because you finally learned something new about Joel Miller: he was messy.
"Did you disinfect it?" Joel asked when he stepped back into the room with a wet towel. You slowly shook your head. You and Zoe had been more concerned about stopping the bleeding and then worried about damage to your teeth to really think about disinfectant.
He nodded and sat down on the edge of the bed, then beckoned you to come forward. You scooted closer and stretched out your neck, giving him better access to your face. He dabbed carefully at your lip, his eyes stormy while he still fought with the remnants of his adrenaline. When your eyes met, his gaze softened and he slowly dropped his hand to his lap.
"I'm so sorry," he whispered, the emotion in his voice bewildering you.
"It's not your fault," you countered, but he shook his head and dropped his chin to his chest.
"Shoulda been there. Been leavin' you alone too much -"
"That's okay, Joel. That's why we're here, right? You need to do whatever it takes to get that land."
His heart sank and he closed his eyes. You obviously still hadn't checked your phone but he didn't bother telling you the news, anyway, because after what he just did to Brooks, he was certain that land was no longer his.
"You oughta get some rest, darlin'," he said softly while standing to head back into his bathroom. He dropped the washcloth into the tub, glancing briefly at his knuckles now that he had stepped out of the darkness of his bedroom. He did a piss poor job cleaning them up but he didn't care. He was exhausted and just wanted to go to bed.
When he came back into the bedroom, he frowned when he saw you with your hand on the doorknob.
"What're you doin'?"
You turned back to him and when he saw your face again, it felt like all the air got knocked out of him.
It's a miracle Joel didn't kill him.
"I'm... going back to my room," you replied, your voice so small and weak that it broke his heart. He shook his head and pointed back to the bed, right where you were sitting.
"Stay," he said, then softened his voice and added, "please."
Your hand dropped to your side immediately and you looked around. "My pajamas-"
"I'll get 'em," he said, pointing to the bed again. "Rest," he told you when he walked across the room, taking you gently by the shoulders and guiding you towards his bed. You did as you were told while he hurried across the hall for your clothes, then stopped at your bathroom for your toothbrush before returning and shutting the door.
You thanked him softly and disappeared into his bathroom to wash up. Joel nervously paced around his room, tossing his dirty clothes into an ever growing pile near the closet before tugging on a white tshirt and slipping into bed.
Shyly, you stepped out of the bathroom wearing a loose fitting cotton tank top and matching shorts. You looked at him and he ushered you forward in the darkness, so you flicked off the bathroom light and scurried into bed.
He couldn't stop himself. He immediately rolled onto his side and wrapped his arms around your middle, pulling you close, breathing in deep the scent of your shampoo and mint from his toothpaste.
You hummed happily and turned onto your side so his chest pressed against your back. The warmth of his arms surrounding you made you finally feel safe and at peace. But then your hand fell to rest on top of his and you froze, your eyes flying open in the pitch black room.
"Joel?"
"Hm?"
Your thumb gently brushed over the broken skin on his knuckles, then you sought out his other hand to do the same and your heart stopped.
"What did you do?" you whispered with a tremor to your voice.
He swallowed thickly and buried his face in the back of your neck before responding.
"What I had to."
You had a fitful night's sleep. If you weren't dreaming about a dark pair of eyes screaming horrible things at you in a bathroom, then you were dreaming about the aftermath of whatever Joel did to Brooks. Best case scenario, Glenn doesn't choose Joel to purchase the land. Worst case scenario, he gets arrested in the morning.
Both options fucking sucked.
If you were lucky, you got three hours of sleep. You laid in Joel's arms, listening to him softly snore behind you while the sky turned from pitch black to a deep, angry blue through the glass French doors that lead out to the pool.
Everything hurt, but the thing that hurt the most was your heart. You tried, you really did, but Brooks's words got to you. They festered under your skin, burrowed deep down and gnawed away at you until they found a permeant spot in your chest.
Nothing helped. A day ago you would have been thrilled to find yourself in Joel's bed, but as you laid there, all you could hear was gold digger, dumb bitch, look what you did!
Your mind had a vice grip on those words and it made you sick.
You wiggled in Joel's grasp, deciding there was no use in lying there if all you were going to do was work yourself up, but his grip tightened around you protectively and pulled you into his chest. You sighed and shifted around a bit more when his sleep filled voice startled you.
"Quit squirmin'."
You stilled and lifted your chin up. "I can't sleep, I was trying to get up without waking you."
"You ain't goin' anywhere," he grumbled, and for the first time since dinner, you felt the corner of your mouth tug into a careful smile. "Why can't you sleep? You hurtin'?"
You swallowed and dropped your gaze to his hands, which were pressed firm against your stomach. Now that the room was lighter, you could see the extent of the damage and it made you cringe.
"No," you whispered, only partially lying before closing your eyes so you wouldn't look at his knuckles any longer. "Can't stop thinking about -"
You cut yourself off but Joel knew what you were going to say. He sighed and pressed a kiss against your shoulder, surprising you despite the intimate position you had found yourself in all night.
He could feel how tense your muscles were so he gave your shoulder another kiss, but that time he let his lips linger a bit longer than was necessary. He smirked a little when he saw goosebumps flare across your skin, so he did it again.
"My poor girl," he whispered, his voice dropping to sound more seductive. "I'm so sorry you went through all this, baby. You don't deserve it," he added sweetly before brushing his lips over your shoulder and up the back of your neck. His exhale tickled you behind the ear and you felt yourself melt into his hold.
You boldly took one of his hands and dragged it up from where it rested against your stomach to lay flat between your breasts, letting him feel the way your heart raced, all for him.
His breath hitched in his throat, unable to resist brushing his palm experimentally over your hardening nipple, your thin top not providing much of a barrier. Instinctively, your back arched ever so slightly. Your ass pressed into his hips, causing him to groan, so you did it again.
"Christ," he murmured, tightening his grip, fingertips dimpling the soft flesh above your breast. "What're you doin', sweetheart?"
You only whimpered a little when you rolled your hips into him again to feel his erection pressing firmly against your ass. His responding growl sent a shiver down your spine and had your head tilting back so his mouth could suck on a spot behind your ear.
"Joel, please," you breathed. He made a little noise of disapproval in the back of his throat but that didn't stop him from biting gently at your neck.
"Don't think it's a good idea," he murmured into your hair, but the throb of his cock pressed against you said otherwise. "You've been through so much, you need your rest. You gotta heal, honey."
You whined impatiently and twisted around in his arms so you could finally see him. His hair was a mess but his eyes were bright and his skin had a pink tint, giving away his aroused state, as if you didn't already know.
"Please," you begged softly, brushing your lips carefully against his. Your hand slid up to rake through the matted hair on the back of his head while you nipped eagerly at his lower lip. "Please make it feel better, Joel."
His eyelids fluttered for a moment as he felt himself losing the battle. With a deep groan, he rolled over to pin you underneath him. He made a mistake when his instincts took over and he pressed his lips firmly against yours and you whimpered painfully. He immediately drew back and inspected your wounded lip for further injury, guilt flashing in his eyes.
"It's okay, I'm okay," you whispered, pulling him back down but tilting your chin up so he could kiss your neck, instead. You felt his muscles relax, his movements slowing and growing more tender, but kept his hips pressed against your core as a reminder of how hard you made him. "I'm okay," you whispered again, sliding your eyes closed with a soft moan while his mouth dragged up and down the column of your throat and his hand roamed freely underneath the hem of your shirt.
With hardly any effort at all, he lifted your tank above your head and tossed it onto the floor. His mouth immediately latched onto one breast while his hand played with the other. Between his tongue and fingers working steadily over your nipples, it took no time at all before you were a puddle underneath him.
"So beautiful," he murmured into your skin. His hand trailed down your side to play with the drawstring of your shorts, giving you another chance to ask him to stop, but instead you followed his lead and dipped your fingers past the waistband of his boxers. He inhaled sharply against your chest when you wrapped your fist around his cock for the first time and had to remind himself to be gentle when he heard you gasp at his size.
"Y'sure, baby?" he rasped, unable to stop his hips from thrusting lightly into your hand while you stroked him up and down.
"Mhmm," you mumbled, voice getting lost somewhere in your throat. You had never wanted someone as badly as you wanted him. It felt like he was everywhere. His scent, his hands, the pressure of his weight on top of you... you had never been more sure about anything in your life.
You hoped he didn't notice the nervous tremble in your hands when you pushed his boxers down his legs but after he tore off his shirt, he shakily fumbled with your own shorts and you had to hold back the smile that threatened to stretch across your broken lip. Was he nervous, too?
He sat back to drink you all in when you were finally bare before him, his eyes hungrily roaming over your soft curves, making you forget about every little imperfection you ever obsessed over. You only had a moment to admire his broad, tanned chest and thick biceps before he fell back onto his elbows to cage you in.
Your pulse thrummed fast under his gaze, the skin at your jugular twitching with each nervous beat of your heart.
"Wish I could kiss you," he admitted, eyes darting down to your lip.
"Me, too," you murmured before reaching down between your bodies. Your fingers wrapped around his thick length and you spread your legs wider to accommodate him. You guided him to your center, eyes never leaving his, before releasing his cock to wrap your arms around his ribs instead.
"Keep your eyes on me, okay?" he asked, voice a little broken at the request. You nodded and held your breath when you felt his tip breach your entrance. Of course, when his hips shifted to slide halfway inside, your eyes fluttered closed and your arms fell to grab at the sheets, the stretch taking your breath away.
"Baby, c'mon," he begged, nipping at your jaw. With a gasp, your eyes flew open to find his and nodded, wordlessly telling him to continue. One of his hands reached for your wrist and pinned it into the bedding next to your head. His fingers spread wide and found yours, lacing your hands together when he pushed in the rest of the way with a soft grunt.
"O-oh, fuck," you panted, struggling for air as you wiggled your hips, your cunt feeling like it was stretched to the limit. Joel watched you squirm underneath him and he couldn't help the way his chest swelled with pride.
"Yeah, you like that, baby? That feel good?" he muttered, cock throbbing inside you. You nodded, lips parted and eyes glassy, fingers flexing around his. Your fingertips brushed over his now scabbed over knuckles and a wave of your slick soaked his cock, turned on by the physical evidence of what he did to defend you.
And he noticed.
He noticed the way your eyelids drooped and your jaw went slack when you felt his knuckles again. Joel drew his hips back before slowly pushing his way back in, giving you his cock nice and slow.
"Could've killed him," he told you. Your eyes snapped open wide, looking up at him all soft and doe eyed. "Could've killed him for touching you, y'know that?"
You whimpered and wrapped your legs around his waist. Then your bruised, swollen lower lip trembled and his gaze darted down. Very carefully, he grazed his lips over your wound, both of you breathing in deeply as his hips pulled back and rocked into you once again. The stretch was intense, the feeling of him filling you up so perfectly overwhelming your senses.
You murmured his name and nuzzled your nose against his face, growing frustrated you couldn't kiss him. Once he set a slow, yet steady, rhythm, he pulled your hand up above your head, pushing it deep into the pillows, fingers tightening around yours as he plunged inside of you over and over. You could sense his frustration, too, by the way your jaws hung open, hovering over the other, breathing sharp gasps and pants into each other's mouths each time his hips snapped into you, knocking the air from your lungs.
"Wish I could taste you," you whispered against his open mouth. His brows pinched together, your confession rattling him for a second. "Want to know how your cock feels on my tongue. Wonder how much I can take," you continued, enjoying the way he was reacting way too much. Unconsciously, his hips picked up the pace, fucking into you a little harder and pushing you up into the pillows. His face contorted as if he were in pain and he squeezed his eyes shut.
"Can't say shit like that," he groaned, letting his forehead fall to rest on your shoulder. "Gonna make me come. You feel too good, fuck," he whimpered. "Shoulda been fuckin' you since we got here."
You smirked, as much as your lips would allow, anyway, before replying.
"Better make up for lost time, then."
His teeth sunk into the skin stretching across your collarbone and you moaned, slipping your fingers through his curls with your free hand. You held him there against your neck and shoulder, sighing at the trail of licks and kisses he left on your skin while his cock continued to mold a path inside you, your cunt squeezing around him with every sharp thrust.
"Shit, that's my girl," he rasped, tongue flicking out lazily to lick at your sweaty skin. "Takin' everythin' I give you. This pretty pussy just needed my cock, hm? Needed me to make it all better?"
My girl.
Stars exploded behind your eyes when you squeezed them shut, his filth hitting you like a goddamn freight train.
"Yes!" you cried out, tipping your head back into the pillow and tightening your hold on his hand. "Yes, Joel, fuck - feels so good. S-so deep. It's so much," you whined while he sucked another mark into the soft flesh above your left breast.
He soothed you with a reassuring hum before unlocking one of your legs from his waist and hooking it over his shoulder. You gasped, the sharp angle making it feel far more intense than before, dragging you closer and closer to your climax.
"Oh, my god!" you cried out when the tip of his cock nudged against a spot inside you that had your legs shaking and your vision blurring. Joel reared back, your hand falling limply from his hair, so he could fuck you harder. He huffed and panted for air, staring down at you with his jaw clenched tight and sweat trailing down the sides of his face.
The noises you were making should have embarrassed you but you didn't care, especially since Joel appeared to enjoy them so much. You gazed up at him, gasping for air every time his hips slammed into yours. You probably looked like a mess but he didn't seem to mind at all.
"Good?" was all he managed to grunt, entirely fixated on making you come.
"Yes," you whined, "please don't stop. Christ, Joel, I -"
You cut yourself off with a low moan, the relentless pace he set bringing you to the brink of an orgasm so intense, tears were already filling your eyes. He felt your muscles tensing when your breath started to come in jagged little gasps and he quickly cupped your face to tilt it up towards him, eager to watch you fall apart again, but this time promised to be much more satisfying.
With a deep growl, he ground his hips into you, rubbing the coarse hairs that curled at the base of his cock against your clit, soaking up your arousal with each pass.
Your mouth fell open and your face crumpled when you came, a litany of curses spilling from your lips while Joel continued to drag against your clit, drawing out your orgasm as long as possible while he actively fought back his own.
"Fuck, that's pretty," he grunted, still holding your face in his massive hand while the last waves washed over you. You nuzzled blindly into his palm, his other hand still holding yours so tightly, his knuckles began to slowly trickle fresh blood. "So goddamn pretty f'me, baby," he added, voice growing strained. His gaze dropped to where you were connected, watching how your slick had spread all over his cock and stomach, then flicked his eyes back up to you.
"I'm gonna come," he whimpered, cheeks puffing, sweat soaked hair sticking to his forehead, and brown eyes fixed on the now relaxed expression on your face. "Are you - can I -"
"Yes," you said quickly, "yes, Joel. God, yes, please come inside me, please," you pleaded. His eyes rolled to the back of his head when he came, your begging being the last push he needed to fall over the edge with a loud groan.
You watched in a trance, memorizing the look of ecstasy on his face, the little ungh followed by a low hiss each time he thrusted forward, shooting his spend deep inside your used cunt until his arms shook and he finally let go of your hand, leg falling from his shoulder.
"Fuck," he gasped, each of you fighting for air while you waited for your hearts to stop racing. His hands gently braced your hips before he slipped out of your wet clutch, his cock still half hard and covered with your combined release. You made a little noise at the loss, at the sudden feeling of emptiness, but he quickly fell to your side and pulled your back against his chest, soothing you with soft strokes against your hip as you worked through the aftershocks of your orgasm.
"Think you can go to sleep now?" he asked, his voice hoarse and muffled from his face burrowing into your back.
"Yeah," you sighed, wiggling in his hold until you were comfortable. His seed was still dripping out of you but the last thing you wanted to do was clean it up. You wanted to feel him there for as long as possible, even though you knew the ache in your hips would serve as a constant reminder for the next day or two, at least.
"Good," he grumbled as if he were annoyed, but you could feel his lips curving into a smile against your skin.
The last thing you remembered before falling asleep were the little bright red dots that stained his knuckles on the hand that was connected to the arm wedged underneath you, holding you safe and sound.
"French fries for breakfast?" you asked him, shooting Joel a look of surprise. He shrugged and popped another one in his mouth before patting the bed next to him.
"They're my weakness."
You giggled and practically jumped back into bed, your hair dripping from your shower and the soft, white robe caressing your still highly sensitive skin.
"Do you share?" you asked him with a suggestive tone in your voice. He quirked an eyebrow at you before feeding you a fry.
"Food? Yes."
You chewed and hummed as you leaned into his shoulder, eyes drifting to the television. You furrowed your brow as you tried to figure out the movie, but his hand around your shoulder distracted you when he tugged on the soft cotton.
"Women? No," he added before dipping his other hand past the collar, cupping your breast still concealed by the robe. You inhaled sharply, your spine automatically twisting to cater to him, to give him easier access to your body like it was its only function. You wrapped your arms around the back of his neck as he pushed you down into the mattress, movie long forgotten. When he began to suck on your neck, your lips still off limits, you groaned and gave his shoulder a playful shove.
"Look at how many marks you already left on me," you pouted, tugging open your robe with one hand so he could see.
He pulled back so he could admire his handiwork before giving you a sly grin.
"Good," he said before resuming his work on your throat. And if you didn't fucking love it so much, you might have protested a bit more but instead, you craned your neck to give him better access. You sighed and felt your body relax under him, cunt already softening and preparing to take him again when your gaze fell on the clock beside his bed.
"Oh, shit! Joel! It's almost ten!" you exclaimed, tapping on his shoulder to snap him out of his lust filled haze.
"So?"
"So?" you repeated incredulously. "What about work?"
"What 'bout it?" he mumbled, hips digging into the apex of your thighs.
"Don't you have a company to run?"
Joel scoffed against your neck and finally pulled away. He pressed his weight into his forearms, which bracketed your head, and kissed the tip of your nose.
"I'm the boss. Think I can do what I want."
He was skipping work for you? Your heart practically leapt out of your chest and into the palm of his hand. You had to fight back the huge smile that pulled at your face for fear of reopening the cut on your lip, but the way your face went hot and your eyes shyly dropped from his was enough to show how happy you were.
He grinned and leaned back down to graze his teeth along your jaw. As far as either of you were concerned, nothing could touch you in the safety of his room. In your minds, the repercussions of the day before were a problem for another time.
"Well, what do you want to do, then?" you teased, gasping when you felt his already hard cock nudge against the inside of your thigh.
"You," he answered gruffly, then as fast as lightening, his hand flicked open your robe to expose yourself to him.
"Christ, you're perfect," he groaned before descending on your nipple, his teeth pinching at the sensitive bud ever so slightly while you whimpered and writhed under him.
His phone vibrated in the sheets next to you, but he ignored it.
"Joel," you breathed, blinking fast to clear your hazy vision. "Joel, your phone."
He groaned and begrudgingly released your breast but remained on top of you as he fished around for his phone.
"Gotta tell Jeff to fuck off, then -"
He paused as he stared at the screen, the blood draining from his face.
Fear shot through you and you scrambled to sit up.
"What is it?"
He swallowed the lump in his throat as he reread whatever popped up on his screen before dragging his eyes away to look at you.
"It's Glenn. He's in the lobby."
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wrong number | TEASER
FULL RELEASE : Read here
đź pairing : roommate's best friend!jake x reader
đź summary : a mistaken text might not always be a bad mistake.
đź genre : smut, sexting, nudes. angst, degrading, lots of talk ab being stretched out lmao.
đź wc : probs over 10k
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your roommate, sunghoon, had just said goodnight to you as you both headed off to your separate bedrooms for the night. there had been a long awaited movie night for the both of you and somehow both of you had managed to stay up so late, that both of you were going to be exhausted for university tomorrow.Â
as soon as your head touches your pillow and your blanket pulls up to your chin, your phone vibrates from your nightstand. you sigh, wanting to ignore the notification, but the curiosity of who was texting you after midnight intrigued you so much that you just had to reach over and look.Â
unknown : [image.jpg] [12:46]
instantly your jaw drops as you realize what the image was. this was the last thing you had expected from an unknown number.Â
in the picture, was obviously a manâs hand covering his apparent large bulge in his black boxers. you could see the tan skin of his defined abs in the light glow of the room he was in. the picture showed up to his neck, his face being cut off. you wondered briefly if his face would have distracted you more than his bulge.Â
unknown : [i told you i was good at taking pics, vera ;)] [12:47]
vera? you had no idea who vera was but you were definitely not her and this picture was definitely not for you. after debating on what to do about this mistaken text, another one rolled in. unknown : [what? cat got your tongue now?] [12:50]
you sigh but decide to answer, your thumbs moving briskly across the keyboard of your phone. sleep completely leaving your mind now as your eyes keep glancing up at the strangerâs picture.Â
you : [hey, uh, this isnât vera? so sorry] [12:50]
it only took a second after pressing send for the strangerâs texting bubble to pop up, indicating that he was typing. your nervously sat up in bed, brushing your hair out of your face.Â
unknown : [oh my god iâm so sorry] [12:50] unknown : [my idiot friend gave me this number saying it was this girl vera im so sorry] [12:51]
you chuckle to yourself at his texts, feeling his obvious stress through the screen. his excessive apologies were relaxing you, knowing this wouldnât have to be more awkward than it was. until,Â
unknown : [but you mustâve thought i was good at taking pics too, i mean you stared at the pic for so long ;) ] [12:52]
you had no idea who this was but he was so cocky. but he was so right. you couldnât take your eyes off of his picture for more than a minute. the angle it was taken at teased you to want to see more of his body. it felt wrong since the picture was obviously not meant for you. but how could you not look at a picture that made him look this good. still, you cursed yourself for having read receipts on.
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Full thread from Sam on the SAG strike and Dropout!
[ID: A thread from Sam on twitter, as follows: "A thread about the strike and Dropout production: đâ. I stand in complete and utter solidarity with our striking performers. I myself am SAG-AFTRA, as are others on our executive team, having come from the world of working actors. I am nothing but sympathetic to their cause and outraged by the mafia-like behavior of the major streamers and AMPTP. It is harder than ever to make a living in this industry, and that goes even for the lucky few of us who get to work on meaningful projects.
In the meanwhile⌠đ¤ Uber-rich CEOs and shareholders are cashing in like never before đ¸ Major streamers are gambling millions on dubious projects and business models đž Hollywood is hiding profits and playing the victim while drinking champagne aboard their superyachts
Dropout production is right now on hold. Because we aren't associated with the AMPTP, it's possible we may be able to reach an interim agreement with SAG that allows us to continue to produce content during the strike.
But we'll only do that, obviously, if we get the blessing of the union and the buy-in of our performers. If not, we have enough content in the can to last us a little past the end of the year.
I pride myself in that Dropout has always paid above SAG minimums. As the years go on and the company is healthier, we will strive to do even better, and then even better still. Without the talent of our performers, we are zilch. Zero. Nothing."
Attached is an instagram post from an actor reading: "The Netflix show in question is shorter than a traditional half hour. But @ collegehumor and @ dropouttv paid me MORE than that for one of their scripted series. Dropout was a brand new online platform at the time and they still managed to pay their actors more than NETFLIX for scripted short form content."
Thread continues: "Public companies don't do this for the very simple reason that they feel more indebted to their executives and shareholders than they do their workforce. It's why corporations are so often exploitative. Our industry, because our jobs are so desirable, is especially vulnerable to exploitation. Hollywood takes advantage of that by making us feel generally commoditized, cheap, and replaceable âŚwhich is ironic given just how personal our work so often is. That's why unions - and the power of collective bargaining - is so important: because public companies often won't pay their workforce any more than they're forced to.
As for me, I intend to honor my union's position that I not promote SAG productions as a performer -- even if they are produced by me. That means that I won't personally be promoting any of our shows for the time being.
Attached is a screenshot of Sam on Discord responding to the question "given the strike⌠what picket line chant will you be rockin'?" with "i'm a talent / CEO! me says me has got to go!"
Thread continues: "This year, instead of running a FYC campaign for Game Changer, we donated $10k to the Entertainment Community Fund in solidarity with the WGA. Today, in solidarity with SAG-AFTRA, I'm personally matching that donation with another $10,000. If you have any disposable income, I encourage you to donate as well: https://entertainmentcommunity.org. And as soon as I test negative for COVID, I'll see you on the picket line. â"]
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losers | remus lupin
âPlease.â
âPlease?â he says back, mirroring your soft tone. âYou think you need to say please?â His pinky bumps under the waistband of your trousers. There isnât much give. He traces the lining to your zipper, fiddling with the small piece of metal as your eyes darken. âI should be the one saying it.â His voice keeps dropping, an utterance in the shell of your ear, his words for you and you alone. âIâm at your mercy, dove. Donât say please with me. Okay?âÂ
you find remusâ number on an abandoned motorbike. things snowball from there. [10k words]
fem!reader, fluff, first date, smut mdni, implied inexperienced!reader, almost rockstar!remus, mentioned that remus takes painkillers, muggle!au, early 2000âs au
ËĘâĄÉË Thereâs a motorbike outside of the cafe.
Itâs huge. Too heavy for you to move. Technically, you hadnât found it at all, it was left there in the dead of night a few days ago and hasnât budged since. Itâs illegally parked, a fact that your manager won't stop muttering about while sheâs elbow deep in latte foam and coffee cakes.Â
âIâm getting the bastard thing towed,â she grumbles that morning. âLet the police deal with it.â
That seems rather harsh to you. It isnât necessarily in the way, and it looks well loved. Perhaps whoever left it canât remember where they left it, having stumbled home on inebriated footing after one too many at the pub across the street. You think about how much it must cost to get your stuff back after itâs been towed, and though you arenât sure of the specifics, you know it canât be cheap. So, when your manager falls into conversation with a regular and your break begins, you creep outside to do some investigating.Â
Itâs a hulking thing made of more black than silver. There are stickers across the left side of the body, weathered and peeling, though one is newer than the others and immediately draws your eye.Â
A phone number.Â
If lost, please call.Â
You take your phone out of your pocket, a flip phone with one dangling charm in the shape of a star. You click each faded button slowly. You're scared to talk to someone you donât know, but relieved to maybe save the day.Â
It goes for ages.Â
âHello?â
âHey,â you say, dropping your voice into its sweetest tones, though nerves make you too soft, and you worry youâre hard to hear. âHey, um, sorry to bother you. I work at The Mill, itâs aâ a cafe in the city centre⌠Are you missing a bike, by any chance? A motorbike?â
âOh, thank you. Yeah, itâs my friendâs. He can be⌠forgetful.â The voice that speaks is both smooth and gritty, impossibly, like whoever it is thatâs talking smoked half a pack of cigarettes before he answered the phone. He clears his throat. âI hope it hasnât been an imposition for you.â
âActually, uh, my manager wants to have it towed. Like, now. I can try to fend her off but honestly sheâs like, that physics law, um, unstoppable force? Uh,â âyouâre stuttering, making it worse, because his voice is surprisingly handsome and youâre an idiot through and throughâ âyeah, so could you come and get it?â
âYes! Yeah, absolutely, weâre on our way. Thank you.â
âSure. Of course.â
You hear something not meant for you, the tail end of, âSirius, get up. You better call Marl andââ
Phone back in your pocket, you take a quick glance around the street before reaching out to run your finger over the cracked leather of the motorbike seat. Youâve never ridden one before. Youâve never wanted to. The level of fearlessness one needs for it isnât one you possess.Â
Youâre the opposite of fearless.Â
The sun hides behind a wave of clouds. Your skin chills near immediately, your prim slacks and apron a worthless defence against the cold. Itâs an average day here, grey and quiet. Occasionally a couple will pass you, hand in hand as they traverse the worn pavement. You smile at an elderly man and his dog as they shuffle across the street and into the cafe. Your smile fades as you tune into the fierce tones of your manager, demanding to know where youâve gone. If your absence is what distracts her from calling the police, so be it.Â
Youâre considering getting your phone back out to play Snake when a passing car slows beside you. You straighten up and out, feeling your spine click in more places than it should as the passenger door opens and an insanely attractive man throws himself out of it.Â
âMy angel!â he cries, heading straight for you.Â
You take a panicked step backward. The man dives for his motorbike. You flinch, mystified by his enthusiasm and his opposite appearance. Short sleeves reveal arms full of dark tattoos, with one side marred by a brutally long scar from his elbow to the back of a ring-laden hand. You tear your eyes from him as a second door closes across the street, and feel all the air rush from your chest as a second man approaches.Â
Heâs very pretty. It might be redundant to say it to yourself, presented as you are with an undeniable truth, but you think it anyway. Sandy brown hair, pale skin, and in enough layers to make up for his friends lack thereof, the second man ignores any dramatics and meets you head on.Â
âHi,â he says, holding out his hand, âyouâre the one who called?â
Closer now, you can see the scars on his face. They stretch over the ridge of his nose and into his eyebrow. A smaller one tugs as he talks against his top lip.Â
You take his hand and shake it limply. âYeah, that was me.â
If heâs concerned with your nervousness he doesnât show it. His smile doesnât move. âHe wants to say thank you. He will, once he gets over himself.â
âThank you!â the dark-haired man calls. âSheâs my everything. Iâve been sick with worry.â
âHave you?â the man in front of you asks, his voice steady, almost intimidating in its impassiveness.Â
âYes, Moons, I have been⌠not that youâd know.â
âSome of us have real problems,â Moons snips, though he quickly looks at you like heâs embarrassed. âSorry. He brings out the worst in me.â
âYou must be good friends.âÂ
You donât know why you say it. He only smiles.Â
âWe must be.â
The first man stands up from checking over his motorbike and beams at you. You suspect itâs an expression that works in his favour more often than not. âWhat can I give you, doll?âÂ
âNo, nothing. Please. Iâll just be glad to hear the end of it.â
"Are you sure?"Â
"Yeah, really."Â
Your manager calls your name, clear as day despite the thick pane of glass and brick walls separating you.Â
"That's you?" Moons asks.Â
"That's me. Sorry."Â
"No, don't be. Thanks so much for calling."Â
You nod hurriedly, throwing them both a 'nice to meet you, I'm sorry for leaving so fast' kind of smile and head back inside.Â
You take a sneaky look back when you're behind the counter again. Theyâve turned their backs to you, Moons' friend ruffling his hair roughly. After a minute or two, Moons gets back in his car, and the motorbike pulls away like it was never there to begin with.Â
What sort of name is Moons? you ask yourself. It's a question that stays with you for a few days. You find yourself hoping you'll see him again, or that his friend's motorbike will turn up outside of the cafe for a few long days and give you an excuse to call him. His number stays unsaved in your recent calls menu for a while. Eventually, you forget about him altogether; the motorbike, the call, the gentle wave of his hair.Â
You're hard-pressed to forget his voice, though. There'd been something familiar about it.Â
"Nice highscore."Â
You jump hard and wince as the metallic taste of blood hits your taste buds. To make it worse, you slam your phone up into the counter it was hiding under in shock. It makes a fatal crunching sound.Â
You shove it into your pocket and look up. Standing there, in all his handsome weariness, is Moons, sans friend. He's wearing nice clothes, clean and clearly ironed. You're immediately aware of your ratty uniform and your unkempt hair.Â
"Shit," you say, which is so fucking embarrassing, honestly, you could fall through the floor and stay there, "Sorry. What can I get you?"Â
His eyebrows inch up his forehead. "What's the easiest thing to make?"Â
That's not a question you get often. "Uh, regular black coffee, or tea, or, the uhâ the hot chocolate's not that hard. But you should order whatever you like, of course."Â
Moons smiles at you. You're starting to understand the nickname (assuming it is a nickname). He has this odd but enticing presence about him, like that awestruck feeling of looking up at night and seeing all the teeny tiny stars and the moonlight that comes down with them, bright and somewhat daunting.Â
"Sure you don't mind?"Â
"I'm paid not to mind."Â
"Can I get the biggest cup of tea you can make? Milk and two sugars, please."Â
"Absolutely." You sidestep to the register and click a bunch of the wrong buttons. You're unprofessionally flustered. "Uh, three sixty five?"Â
He passes you a five pound note. Your tip cup is for the more generous type, and he has no trouble dropping his palmful of change into it. He barely looks. You're expecting him to take a seat but he stays standing, one arm pressed to the counter, the other held up. He scratches behind his ear absentmindedly, as though he has nowhere else to be.Â
"Are you in a hurry?" you ask, confused.Â
He stays quiet for enough time to shit you up. You're tipping milk over your hand and hoping he hasn't seen it when he says, "No rush. I'm here to see you."Â
You look over your shoulder at him. You can't help it. "To see me."Â
"Yeah."Â
You spin back to his tea. The counter is covered in spills and sugar, cup tops and wooden stirrers. You take them all in with wide eyes. Nobody ever comes to see you. Not your friends, not family (unless they want something). Especially not boys you met once for two minutes.Â
"Is there something wrong?" you ask.Â
You clip the lid onto his big tea and wrap it in napkins so it doesn't burn his hands.Â
"Nothing's wrong," he says kindly. "I wanted to apologise. Your boss was upset with you. It was Sirius' fault. We owe you for it."Â
"You really don't have to say sorry. She wasnât that mad. No harm, no foul."Â
You put his cup of tea down in front of him and try to smile like girls do in the movies. Soft doe eyes, not too bright, not too awkward. You give up after a second and feel it twist into something regrettable.Â
His long silence makes you squirm.
"A thank you, then.â
He offers you an envelope. You take it.Â
The paper is crisp and thick. Your fingers are clumsy, and it takes you too many seconds to fold the envelope's lip and pull out the card stock inside.Â
You look up in shock. "I can'tâ"Â
He's not there. You look to the door, catching what might've been his hand as he walks out of view.Â
He's left you two concert tickets. You don't go to concerts. You might have, when you were younger, and had friends to follow. As it stands he's given you two seated tickets for a show in the Pointer Arena not far from where you work, for a band you've never heard of. The price on each is a solid ÂŁ20, which is way too much repayment for ringing a number from a sticker. Worse, you're not sure you have somebody who can use the second one.Â
You hope he'll come back for clarification alone, and a little to see him, but he doesn't, and soon the date on the ticket matches the date on your calendar and you're standing outside of the venue with no clue how to hold yourself.Â
You stand in line for a while. It's a very long line made up of mostly younger women. You listen for the calling of a reseller and spot a group of young girls trying to haggle with them, reluctantly leaving your place in line.Â
"Hi," you say quietly to the one furthest from the epicentre. "I'm sorry if this is weird. I have an extra ticket tonight, and I was wondering if you'd like it? I know it's seated, but maybe you could use it to get in and then, uh, not sit? Or just sit." You could writhe around on the ground in shame. You hold out the spare ticket. "If you want it."Â
"Are you kidding?"Â
"No, seriously."Â
She takes the ticket and you walk away before she can try and give it back to you. Whether she uses it or not, it's no longer your problem to deal with. The lady who'd been standing behind you lets you back in line, for which you're extremely grateful, and you shiver your way to the front with nerves churning your stomach.Â
You've imagined being turned away twenty times by the time they usher you through the doors. The air is buzzing with excitement, enough of it to ramp up your nerves, and you smile weakly at the people who pass you on the way up to the seating area you've been designated. The Pointer Arena is a smaller venue with much more standing than seating capacity available. The seats are at the sides and back of the second floor, looking down at the pit with a safety barrier in front.Â
You slide into your seat and peer down at the crowd as it fills up one ant of a person at a time. You can't distinguish one person from another after a while. Itâs a moving sea of dark clothes.Â
It takes a long time for the opening act to come on. You're not having much fun. You'd tried to use the computer in the cafe to research the bands playing tonight but the dial up hadn't been working and your manager hates when you take long breaks, so you aren't sure you'll even enjoy yourself. You're not sure why you came here â is it sad, to come here alone? It looks sad, you think, pathetic, but it doesn't feel sad. You're not very good at talking, anyways. It's so difficult. Or maybe you just make it that way.Â
This is why you regret coming. Any time spent by yourself is time to think. You hate thinking, but it's all you seem to be able to do. Think and think and think. Your mind runs in the same circles. Things you've done, things you wish you did, things you want to do so badly it makes you feel sick. You can't stand it.Â
The crowd begins to rise in volume. Cheers echo against the atrium ceiling, and you push yourself to the edge of your seat to see what's making them all so excited.Â
The opening band. They're too far away to see clearly. First on stage is a man with brown skin and a head of black curls, a guitar swinging from his neck, the body barely held as he waves to the masses. Next comes a paler man with hair tied up in a bun who sits down behind the drum kit and doesn't move much after that. A girl practically sprints to centre stage, scooping up a waiting guitar (or bass?) and strumming down the body appreciatively. She has purple hair, bright and choppy, particularly abrasive against the alabaster white of her skin.Â
And last on stage⌠last on stage is Moons.Â
You move forward suddenly, smacking your face against the plexiglass barrier and biting your cheek for the second time in a week. Used to your mistreatment, the poorly healed skin wastes no time splitting, and the metallic taste of blood makes you cringe.Â
That's Moons. There are two huge screens either side of the stage that magnify him. First his hand on the microphone, a scar coiling up from his wrist to his thumb purple against his skin. Then his face. You wouldn't forget what he looks like so soon, not when you've half obsessed over him for days with could-be's because he'd wanted to see you and you have a bad habit of inventing future's with people you don't know, but even if you did it wouldn't matter. You've never met anyone else with three scars as he has across his face, taking centre stage.Â
You hadn't realised the tickets were to see his band. It makes sense, now, why your seat is in such a quiet area, and why the people sitting close by aren't firecracker happy at the sight of them. They must've received their tickets in the same way, gifts or thank yous for small favours.Â
Your mouth dries as they begin to play. It's not what you're expecting. Of course, you haven't really had time to expect anything, and yet you're shocked when they start to play a slow song. He doesn't really look like a rockstar, but a heartthrob? You can see it easily. The long lengths of his lashes, and the dark honey of his eyes. His smile, so small but somehow piercing.Â
His voice is careful. He doesn't sing anything impressive âthere's no belting or high notesâ but you still find yourself wringing your hands together, entranced by his confidence. He dances around the melodies and fills up every space he can find between the beat of the drums and the searing guitar riffs that follow.Â
They only play five songs. By the time they've finished you're feeling sick to your stomach, and you can't get your heart to calm down. You hadn't known a word of the lyrics, but you'd felt them.Â
They're good.Â
Like, too good to be openers for long.Â
The crowd echoes your sentiment. They clap and scream and wolf whistle. The noise vibrates in the depth of your stomach. The cheering doubles when the headlining bandâs techies emerge. The lights go down. Equipment begins to roll out.Â
You scrounge through your purse for a lip balm and think about heading downstairs to the concession stands for an overpriced bottle of water to wash away the unfortunate tang of blood. It aches to pay, but if you don't soon you might get nauseous, and that would be a real disaster, throwing up here of all places.Â
You hear his voice before you see him. He's laughing, talking to somebody about the set.Â
"It was great!" compliments a feminine voice. "I don't know what you were so worried about, Remus, you're really great. And if you weren't, Marl would've saved the day anyways with her gorgeous showmanship."Â
"Thanks, baby," says a second voice. Marl.Â
"Thanks, Mary," Moons says.Â
What had Mary called him? Remus? Odd, not quite as strange as Moons.Â
You try not to tense as footsteps approach.Â
"Can I sit?" he asks.Â
You look up too fast. He's a little damp, the hair closest to his face curled with it, but he smells good as he sits down. He must've washed up.Â
"Iâ I've been calling you Moons in my head," you admit, not sure what to say.Â
He's intimidating. You don't imagine he knows it. He sits in the chair without any fanfare, setting his forearm on the rest between your two seats and turning his face to you completely, a small smile playing at the corners of his mouth, almost like he doesn't want to smile but can't help himself. His eyes are the slightest bit lidded, emphasising the brilliance (and unfairness) of his lashes, so thick and dark you wonder if he's wearing makeup.Â
"You can call me whatever you want to, but my name's Remus. I should've told you that before. I was⌠distracted."Â
He isn't being coy, you realise. He easily could be if he wanted to, but he was genuinely lost for words for a second.
"I didn't really tell you mine," you say, hoping to ease his gentle confusion.Â
He says your name like it's easy. Like he enjoys the sound of it. "Y/N. Do you like music?"Â
Is that a trick question? His eyes trace up to your eyebrows as they pinch together, but he doesn't amend his question. Not a trick, then.Â
"I like music,â you say.
"I realise it's brave to ask someone to come and see you on stage. And that I look like a tosser sometimes with the stage lights and makeup."Â
"No," you say quickly, "you don't. You looked just fine. You looked good. I bet it's hard getting on stage like that, and in front of this many people. And singing. You have a really nice voice."Â
His eyes soften. "Thank you. Do you wanna go get a drink with me? There's a bar. It's quiet."Â
Your elbow brushes against his long sleeve. "Yeah." You're not breathless enough to embarrass yourself, but it's a close call.Â
Remus leads you up and out of the seats. The venue is large in that it has just as many hallways and back rooms as it has places to watch the show. Remusâ warm hand catches your elbow, a friendly touch that guides you around the barrier and through a dimly lit hallway that takes you to the bar.Â
The bar overlooks the stage, but the sound of the band and the crowd is dampened severely, making for a sorely needed respite. VIP's mill around the room on plush leather sofas and cushy bar stools sipping from sweating glass bottles. Remus' hand moves up to your shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze as a familiar face waves you over.Â
"Hey, it's you!"Â
You smile at Remus' motorbike friend. You're a hundred percent sure his name is Sirius, but you won't say it aloud in case you're wrong. Beside him sits the other man you'd seen on stage with them, the guitarist with brown skin and a head full of thick hair. You look between the three of them in secret shock, wondering if handsome attracts handsome or if it's just dumb luck that they ended up together.Â
"James, this is the babe that found Stacia," Sirius says.
James wrinkles his nose. "Hi," he says, in a voice that sounds deeply apologetic, years of it like the rings of a tree. "How are you?"
"I'm good. Um, and you?"Â
"I'm good! Thanks, I'm good, it's nice of you to come see us. Did you like the show?"Â
"Yeah, I did. I had no idea you guys were musicians."Â
He splits his attention between you and his jacket. He pulls a glasses case out of his pocket, clicks it open, and straightens out a pair of wire frames.Â
"Couldn't tell from our baby boy's general demeanour?" he asks. "Hey, that's better, I can see you now."Â
"Sirius is the youngest," Remus says.Â
"And the handsomest."Â
"No, Marl's clearly the handsome one," James says lightly.Â
Sirius takes the rebuttal in good jest and brandishes his drink toward you like a toast. "Want a beer?"Â
"I'm getting her one," Remus says, "come on, give me a minute here."Â
Everybody laughs. You laugh too, turning your face into your shoulder to smother the sound.Â
"Well, come and sit with us, make yourself comfortable," James says, moving his jacket off of the chair in front of you.
Remus makes a small, apprehensive sound. "Drinks first." He looks to you for confirmation. "Yeah. We'll be back."Â
You follow him to the bar. Your shoes, a pair of dirty converse you wish you'd swapped for heels or something sophisticated, squeal against the hardwood floor. How were you supposed to know you'd see him again tonight? In what world does stuff like this happen to scruffy waitresses? You're starting to think he might be somebody.Â
Not that it matters if he is or isn't.Â
But if he is⌠This is embarrassing, right? Not knowing who he is.Â
There must be a couple thousand people here tonight. Then again, his band were the opening act, so it doesn't necessarily mean they're all famous or anything.Â
"Hey," Remus says softly, stopping your thoughts cold. "Are you okay?"Â
"I'm fine. Sorry. I've never been in here before, anywhere that's like it,â you say.Â
"Venues are all different but the bars don't change," he says. "What do you like?"Â
"I'm not a big drinker."Â
"That's okay. I just wanted an excuse to be alone with you." He doesn't even give you time to recover. "Truth is, I wanted to ask you out. But between shows I couldn't find time, and next week I'm in San Marino."Â
What you mean to say is, you wanted to ask me out? But instead, you choke, "You're going to Italy?"Â
Remus pushes a seat out for you, helping you up with a solid hand, and, while your fingers are still warm from his touch, he says, "San Marino isn't Italy. I didn't know that 'til a few months ago. But pretty much."Â
"What's in San Marino?"Â
"A wedding." He climbs into the seat next to you, smiling.
The tan colour of his long-sleeves contrasts his pale hands. Your eyes flash to his ring finger. Not his wedding.Â
Remus isnât easy to talk to. It's not wholly his fault. He doesn't force conversation, leaving you awkwardly searching for something to say. You're not the best conversationalist either. He clearly doesn't mind it.Â
You're in the midst of a clumsy retelling of a shitty customer service moment when he tips his head to the left just a touch.Â
"Maybe we can go on an actual date when I'm home,â he says.
He says it like he's talking about the weather. You'd be worried he was messing with you, but then he smiles again, flicking his index finger against your wrist mildly. "You don't have to answer me now. Finish telling your story."
"It was pretty much finished. Andâ and I'd like to. Go on a real date. I've never been out of the country, so you'll have to forgive me if I want to know everything about San Marino."Â
He looks at your lips. Says, "Good," and doesn't give any indication that he's noticed how nervous you are. That is, until he covers your trembling hand with his and presses it flat to the bar.Â
"You're really pretty," he murmurs. He takes a moment, and he smiles. "Come with me? If I don't give Sirius some attention soon he'll start showing off."
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James is starting to wonder if he should invite you to San Marino. He's not that stupid; it would be a huge pain if you were standing in the middle of all his wedding photos and you and Remus don't work out. But, while he's certainly and majorly jumping the gun, he has a suspicion heâll be seeing you again.Â
James has never seen Remus like this before.Â
His friend is usually quiet, quipping every now and then perhaps at Sirius' insufferable antagonism but otherwise brooding. He hasn't seen him smile this much, ever.Â
James is under no illusions â he knows Remus loves him very much. He knows Remus is happy, and not always healthy but managing. He knows Remus is pleased with their lives and ecstatic to have their music take off. But he also knows Remus won't let himself have a good thing, not really. Maybe that's why he's asked you out now, when in a week they'll be in San Marino, and a week after that they'll be in Cardiff to officially start the new tour.Â
He knows Remus, sweetheart, kind hearted, miraculous Remus, tends to let people down. He's a stickler for asking people out and cancelling the day before. It's how it always goes. James will ask how the date went and Remus will shake his head and say, "it didnât work out."Â
He knows Remus doesn't mean to hurt anybody. He just⌠can't get close.Â
But he's trying, with you. A glass of cordial in one hand, the other behind your chair, Remus tells you one of his more embarrassing stories about how he'd taken a bad fall and ended up in A&E with half of an eyebrow. He doesn't mention the painkillers that made him woozy.Â
You've relaxed considerably since sitting down. James would be happy to report that you're having a good time. You have your own drink in hand, and your eyes are bright, with a receding space between your face and Remus' as the story goes on. It's like watching two magnets fight to hold themselves apart.
Matter of time, James thinks to himself smugly.Â
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Honesty is important. You admit to yourself that you and Remus aren't exactly a perfect match. Both quiet, both not quite social butterflies, your conversations had occasionally been stilted and slow, but you've only met twice. Things don't have to be perfect, and more than that â there's a spark there. A twinge of a possibility. He'd liked what little he knew about you enough to ask to see you again, and you'd like what little you knew about him in turn to say yes.Â
It doesn't have to be perfect, you insist to yourself, a bundle of nerves. Nothing does.Â
He looks pretty perfect. Base of his palm pressed to the brick wall of the cafe, hand angled down as his fingers grasp the neck of a bouquet whose flowers have been shedding petals onto the damp pavement below. He holds his other hand against his chest, clicking buttons on his phone.Â
You approach from the left and watch him play a game of Snake.Â
"You play Snake?" you ask.
"Doesn't everybody?" he asks back, his smile softening what might otherwise feel like a chastisement. He doesn't look up from his phone.
"Woah, how long have you been out here?" you ask, eyeing his weirdly long snake.
Remus guides the snake into a wall on purpose. It dies, his high score flashes across the screen, and he aims an apologetic look your way. "Sorry, that was rude." He doesn't try to hide that he's looking over your face. "Thanks for coming."Â
He leans in and kisses your cheek. Delighted warmth curls in your stomach, worse when he passes you the bouquet of flowers. They've mostly survived his poor treatment, and there's a lot of them. He's left the price tag on and you're not sure if he's noticed. You pretend not to see it.Â
"Thank youâŚâ You look away from the flowers, all whites and reds and babyâs breath, to ogle him as subtly as you can manage. âWow, you've caught the sun. Was it lovely in San Marino?"Â
"I'll tell you all about it over dinner,â he says. âI thought we'd walk, it's not far." He holds out his hand. You wipe your palm against your side before you take it, worried you'll have clammy hands. He must guess, because he says, "Don't be nervous."Â
"I am," you say hopelessly. "I've never been on a date before."Â
"This is your first date?"Â
You feel a hot flush coming on. "Iâ yeah. That's embarrassing, I shouldn't have told you that."Â
"No, it's a good thing. Now I know it has to be extra special."Â
"It doesn't," you say.Â
"I was hoping it would be." He pulls you down the pavement and further into the city centre toward the main high street. "San Marino. It was beautiful, and I took a couple of photos but I didn't have room on my phone. Well, I could've deleted Snakeâ"Â
"Why would you?" you joke, grinning.Â
He laughs, and squeezes your hand slightly. "Exactly. I have priorities. It's a long flight, and looking over the photos can only take up so much time. No, but it really was⌠it was beautiful. I'd never given much thought to a destination wedding. They make sense, right? It's the best day of your life, why would you have it here?"Â
He tilts his chin toward the grey sky. You look up with him, feeling the cold wind kiss the sides of your face and pull through your hair.Â
"Come on, Remus, it's not that bad. If it's sun you're after, you could just wait for British summer time. You know, the whole three days of it."Â
He laughs â you've made him laugh twice already. This is going okay. Laughing while looking at one another, a bouquet in one hand and his hand in the other, you feel that curl of delight begin to bloom. It fills your insides up, has you smiling until your eyelashes brush in the corners.Â
"It was James' wedding. Do you remember which one that was?"Â
He asks so kindly. You don't doubt for a second that he wouldn't care if you forgot. It's refreshing, even if it's something you'd expect.Â
"I remember. I didn't realise he was getting married."Â
"Don't ever say that in front of him, he'll put himself on the cross." He swings your hand as you turn a corner. The Italian restaurant you'd agreed on winks from a distance.Â
"He's devoted," you guess.Â
"He's insane. He was worse when we were younger. His girlfriendâ his wife," he amends, "Lily, she's really something else. Warm and funny, but she's been keeping him on his toes for years. She has family in San Marino, hence the wedding."Â
You listen to him talk eagerly. His voice is as handsome as his face, and the more he says the less stilted he becomes. There had been a strained quality to it before (strained, or restrained? something he wasn't saying) that's all but disappeared.Â
"It was like a movie. White linen, sand, crying."Â
"Did you cry?" you ask, expecting a puffed up chest.Â
"So much. Too much, maybe. I was half of the best man."Â
"Half?"Â
"We had to share, me and Sirius. They've always beenâŚ" Remus slows his steps. "Am I being boring? I'm talking too much about me."Â
"We have time. I want to hear it. I'd like to hear it," you say.Â
James and Sirius are brothers. Remus sees your surprised look and doesn't condemn you for it. Sirius is unofficially adopted. The Potter's fostered him from ages thirteen until he aged out, and though they tried to adopt him, Sirius was reluctant. Remus doesn't get into the reasons beyond that, and you don't ask. You suspect he's only telling you about it to drive home how much the Potter's love Sirius. How much James does.Â
Remus had been Sirius' friend from their very first year of comprehensive school. Sirius moved in with the Potter's, and, adoring as they were, they let him have friends over whenever he liked. James, Sirius, and Remus spent the next decade together like that, hiding in Sirius' room. Best friends, entirely inseparable, and all fiercely protective of each other.Â
"They've always been like brothers."Â
"But notâŚ"Â
He understands what you're worried to say. "I think it would've been weird⌠I had a candle burning for James. For a long time."Â
Your jaw drops a little. "And you just had to watch him have the most romantic wedding ever," you whisper sympathetically. You're joking: it's clear the candle isn't burning now.Â
"Told you I cried," he says. "No, but you've seen him. He's a supermodel. It's awful."Â
"Remus, I think you might be underestimating how handsome you are," you say. You bite your lip and look at his chin rather than his eyes.Â
He's generous. He gives your wrist a tug and chuckles warmly. "I'm glad you think so. Tonight might have been awkward, otherwise."Â
You duck together inside of the restaurant, hands falling apart as Remus gives his last name for the reservation. Lupin. Your face has a mind of its own.Â
"Charming, isn't it?"Â
"It is," you say emphatically, denying his sarcasm. "I've never heard anything like that. Lupine, like a fox?"Â
"Wolf."
A server shows you to your table and hands you two leather covered menus. Leather, not plastic, a sign that tonight is going to be classy. You've dressed for the occasion in a smart blouse and slacks, too terrified of wearing a dress. Remus seems to have done the same as you, reaching for smart but dodging the mark in a button down and a casual jacket. When he takes off his coat, he looks perfect. He fits right in.Â
"Could we get a glass?" he asks the server. "For the flowers? If it's not too much trouble."Â
"No trouble at all."Â
You run your hand across the silken tablecloth and the space between you both feels somehow smaller than when you'd been holding hands. Outside, you could let your gaze drift to the pavement, the fenced in trees, the couples that passed you by. Here, you're forced to watch one another.Â
It's not so bad. It's agonising.Â
"This is weird," you say. You flinch when you hear yourself. "Sorry, not that you're weird! I'm weird. I've never ever done this."Â
"No, I know," he says, almost murmuring, "it's okay."Â
"I just blurted out what I was thinkingâ"Â
"I know." He sits back in his chair. His head tilts down, his eyelashes kissing the skin above his brows as he fixes you with a look. It has the intended effect, tension easing from your rigid spine and tight shoulders. "This is weird. But it's still early. It could get weirder."Â
You like that he says it as if it's a good thing.Â
You order the same thing he does, and you don't turn down his offer to get a bottle of wine, though it feels too grown up. You keep forgetting you're an adult, and that your life isn't on hold. Things can happen to you at any time.Â
"I want to address the elephant in the room," he says.Â
Not promising. "Okay."Â
"Are we having dessert?" Remus leans forward on both forearms. Hair falls in his eyes. He's dressed nicely and he's handsome but there's something homespun about him, something golden. You can't help looking at him and thinking impossibly forward thoughts, cheesy waffle from the films. He's familiar. "Nobody ever wants to get dessert with me. It's actually a real issue for me."Â
"I'll get dessert with you." A smoother you with more confidence, who wore the dress and asked him to go to the Thai restaurant instead, would've said something more suave. We're having whatever you want, handsome.
Remus flips the menu to the very last page and reads the desserts aloud. For himself, it seems, half-muttered and apprehensive. "Chocolate cake from places like this will either be the nicest thing we've ever eaten or burnt in the microwave. And it's childish that I want chocolate cake. I should be spoon feeding you creme brulee. Or whipped cream and strawberries."Â
He tips his head back and rubs his eyes. It's a charade of feigned self loathing that makes you laugh.Â
"I'm a child," he laments, thumb and index finger pressed into his eyes. He checks to see if you're watching before doubling down.Â
"I like cake," you say, and you'd lie if you thought it was what he wanted to hear. Handsome, kind, and funny. Not to mention talented. He needs smart for the sweep.Â
Remus falls out of his dramatics. You mourn the loss, beggy a good look on him, but forget all about it when he slides his chair around the table to share the menu with you, your heads inclined as you read it together again. He smells woody. You hope he likes the jasmine of your perfume.Â
"It all sounds really nice," you confide, afraid to disturb the comfortable hush. "I haven't had gelato since I was a kid. Oh, did they have real gelato in San Marino?"
âThey had a lot of stuff in San Marino⌠I want to hear about you.â
âWhat do you want to hear?â
The questions start and donât stop. Where did you grow up? Thatâs the easy part. What did you study in school? Were you in sports? The art club? And what do you do now, when you arenât working in the cafe? The more he asks, the easier it is to answer. He doesnât slow when the waiter brings a glass for your bouquet, simply stands and places them inside with exceedingly gentle hands, smiling at you from between the stems. You eat slowly when the food arrives â you're busy talking.Â
It feels fucking amazing. To have someone want to know anything about you. And unless heâs an actor of the highest regard, heâs obviously enjoying your conversations, though they wilt and wane and wind around one another. You lose track of time and thread as the night goes on, distracted by the near unnoticeable asymmetry of his smile, and the way he laughs when you laugh, like an echo.Â
You get cake like he wanted. Triple fudge cake with buttercream thick but melting from the heat. It looks straight from the pages of a magazine, glossy and dusted with sugar powder, but he doesnât seem to like it. He takes a couple of bites and leaves it alone. You donât want to look greedy, so you do the same.Â
The date is suddenly over.Â
âCould I walk you home?â he asks, when youâve both put your coats back on, and the damp roots of your flowers are leaving an imprint on your chest.Â
You nod rather than answer.Â
Things are good, not perfect. Thatâs what you keep thinking. Thereâs something he isnât saying. Or, horrifyingly, something he doesnât like about you. Still, the sky is velvet black and the air is crisp. Stars like needlepoints dot the air. Street lights work to hide them, casting a warm yellow glow over the pavements and your meandering shoes.Â
A brisk wind whips past you. You shiver and press your lips together hard, hands quick to rigidity. Remus looks at you sideways, and breaks the quiet. âAre you cold?â
âA little.â No point in lying when he can see you trembling.Â
âDo you want my coat?â
âNo, no, itâs alrightââ You cut off as he steps in front of you, his hand vying for yours.Â
He tucks the flowers under his arm and sandwiches your fingers between his. He has short fingernails, and another scar down one pinky finger. Howâd you get that one? you want to ask. Howâd you get any of them?
His breath clouds the air. âI shouldâve thought about the cold.â
âThis is better,â you say. Than a warm taxi home. His thumbs brushing down the backs of your hands.Â
You walk to your flat building and hesitate at the foyer door. The potential for a kiss goodnight has flayed your thoughts. The image of his hands climbing your arms, holding you still, plays like a flickering film. You have no idea if heâs going to do it.Â
âHow will you get home?â you ask quietly.Â
âI parked by the cafe, it isnât far.â
âOhâŚâ The lights from your building paint him the faintest shade of pink. Your breath fogs out in front of you, as does his, and the warmth of walking will soon fade. âIââ
âHere,â he says, handing you the flowers again.Â
âThank you. Theyâre beautiful.â
âFits the recipient.â
It takes a second for you to get it. Oh, you think. You can hardly feel the cold now. Your heart hurts, and youâre begging him to want to take a step toward you. The silence goes for too long.Â
âIâ Iâd love to see you again,â you say. Love comes out funny. Maybe because you can feel his rejection coming.Â
âI wonât be here next week. Not for a long time. Weâre touring properly, now.â He scratches the side of his face.
âRight. Right, of course you are. Um, good luck with that. And thank you for tonight, for dinner.â You wave your flowers weakly.Â
He looks at you. He takes a half step toward you. You can see his Adamâs apple bob as he swallows.Â
âYou really are pretty,â he says finally. âGoodnight.â
He smiles quick and turns quicker. You watch him walk a few steps but ultimately canât face it, pushing into the foyer of your building with a hardset frown. Your hands shake, minute abstractions of the sharp rejection panging in your chest. Your ears roar and then go quiet. What did I do wrong? you think, shocked and upset and trying to rationalise. He doesnât have to kiss you. He asked you out on a maybe, and now whatever question he had is answered.Â
The door creaks open. You spin on your heel, too wrapped up to think about hiding your expression. Remus stands in the doorway of the porch, his arm pressed to the glass panel, the other held out to you.Â
"Come here," he says quietly. It isn't a question, but he's asking.Â
You step into his reach, letting him pull you by the waist against his chest. He leans down until his nose glances against Ă˝ours, and he starts to say something. You push your chin up in your eagerness and he doesn't try again. He kisses you, once, contrite, and he pulls back and his hand clasps your arm tight as he ducks in for another. His lips are fast to lose the cold of the weather, but his tongue is a hot shock at the seam of your own.Â
You go weak in his arms. The flowers between you crunch and smother themselves. You canât think about it. Your hands are numb. He takes over every one of your senses until youâre more kiss than thought, reciprocating his slow, deep searching. You run out of breath.Â
He eases you backward, cupping the side of your head in his big palm.Â
âI want to see you again,â he says hoarsely. âBut Iâ I donât know when Iâll be back.â His hand adjusts against your cheek, like heâs worried youâre slipping out of his hold. âI donât know what to do.â
âI can wait,â you say.Â
âI couldnât ask you to.â
You rub your buzzing lips together, each heaven of your chest marked by the crinkling sound of cellophane.Â
âDo you want to come upstairs?â you ask.
He strokes the edge of your mouth with his thumb. âAre you sure?â
You kiss him. You donât know if this will work, any of it, the broad stroke or this one night, but you want him.Â
â
Remus doesnât know what heâs doing. He knows how to fuck somebody, that isnât the problem. He doesnât know what heâs doing with you. The same thing that made him walk away had pulled him right back in, had him skipping steps on the staircase up to your flat, drinking in the back of your head and roll of your shoulders as youâd made apologies for the mess inside.
He doesnât feel like himself when heâs with you. He thinks of it like this â what he is, his pain, his wants, thatâs all set in stone. Any change is an erosion, and little by little over the years heâs managed to whittle himself down into the smallest, cleanest version of himself. Then suddenly the bandâs making money, people are listening to his voice on the radio in countries all over the world, and he canât hide anymore. Maybe he hadnât wanted to, after all. What else inspires a performer into the spotlight? The music, he thinks desperately, knowing itâs half a lie.Â
Isnât it why heâd asked you to the show? Come and watch me sing. See me at my most impressive. My most curated.Â
And now heâs following you into your bedroom after one date, about to strip it all away.Â
âYou didnât have too much wine, did you?â he asks. You hadnât really finished your first glass, but it wonât hurt to make sure.Â
You peel your jacket off and drop it over the back of a wide armchair. âI donât think so. Did you?â
âNo.â His head has never been this clear.Â
He thinks about what you said. This is your first date, and heâs not clueless enough to assume that never going on a date means never having sex, but he wants to be careful with you anyway. He wants this to last beyond a dinner date.Â
Which means he has to get out of his head.Â
Beyond all of his own mess, he really does think you're pretty. More than pretty. Youâre beautiful, and your voiceâŚÂ
He wants to see what other sounds you make.Â
Remus gets his hands on you. Soft touches, his hands coasting from your elbows to your warming hands. He squeezes your fingers, leaning in for a quick kiss. He rests his nose against the skin beneath your eye. âTell me if itâs too much?â he asks, a murmur of hot air.Â
âYeah.â
âIâll go slowly.â
âOkay.â Your voice is barely audible.Â
He pulls away to make sure youâre alright, and is surprised to see a glassy sheen in your eyes. He holds your face in both hands and works your lips open against his, guiding you backwards into the plush of your poorly made bed. Heâs all sweet touches and eager kisses, cautious not to hurt you, or let too much of his weight press against your soft torso. His kisses follow to the corner of your mouth, the tip of his nose tender against your cheek. âYouâre so quiet,â he says. He isnât complaining, but he wants to hear your voice.Â
âIâm a bit preoccupied.â
He laughs into your skin, kissing down to your jaw. âYouâre right,â he says, revelling in the goosebumps that rise under his hands.Â
Your shaking inhales cleave a pit in his stomach. He mouths at the side of your neck, half-kisses, tiny warning nips before he thumbs open the first button of your shirt. He meanders, dropping a path crescent moon kisses into your front until the fabric of your bra gets in the way. The soft hill of your breast staggers to a halt beneath him. He can tell that youâre holding deliberately still.Â
Kisses. You need more kisses, an absolution from any lingering nervousness. Your hands thread into his hair gently, your fingers raking wavy strands behind his ears as you give in. You melt into your sheets, your legs parting from the pressure of his hips.Â
Your hands fall from his hair to needle between your two bodies and undo the rest of your buttons. The fabric falls aside, your chest and tummy his to catalogue. He drops his hand against your stomach, smoothing a line down to your slacks. His lips ache against yours as he asks, âCan I?â
âPlease.â
âPlease?â he says back, mirroring your soft tone. âYou think you need to say please?â His pinky bumps under the waistband of your trousers. There isnât much give. He traces the lining to your zipper, fiddling with the small piece of metal as your eyes darken. âI should be the one saying it.â His voice keeps dropping, an utterance in the shell of your ear, his words for you and you alone. âIâm at your mercy, dove. Donât say please with me. Okay?âÂ
He smiles at your daunted expression. âCan I take these off?â he asks you, his fingertip running under the edge of your underwear. âPlease?â he teases.
Your skin is a furnace, hot hot hot everywhere he touches as you nod your permission and Remus undresses you, one piece of clothing at a time. Your trousers, your shirt. Your bra, your underwear. His fingers slip in his ardency as he tears out of his own button down.Â
Your thumb traces a scar.Â
He looks up from your chest, startled, but you arenât giving him anything he doesnât want. Thereâs no pity in your gaze, no curiosity, no sadness. Just lust, your trembling hands pulling his slacks down the lengths of his thighs.Â
He pulls the condom from his wallet in his pocket and lets it fall to the floor.Â
Remus hooks his hands under your arms and urges you back against the headboard, a pillow behind your head, your thighs tipping open as his hand runs down between them. He grabs at them greedily, handfuls of fat that have his mouth dry as a bone.Â
âHas anyone ever done this to you before?â he asks. He needs to know.
You squeeze your eyes closed and shake your head.Â
Fuck. âHey, look at me,â he says, waiting for your eyes to meet before continuing. âI just want to make you feel good. If I donât, you let me know.â
He waits for you to answer aloud. âI will,â you say, your hand behind his back and urging him forward. âPlease.â
âWhat did I say?â he jokes gently, letting his weight bear down on you again.Â
He closes his eyes, his lips in what feels like a new home at the juncture of your neck. His hands skirt dangerously close to your heat.Â
Heâs gentle. He rubs a sweeping line against your cunt with the front of his fingers, heart hammering fast as a mouseâs when he finds the little button of your clit. You shiver and shudder and squirm as he toys with you, your fingers steadfast against the plane of his back while he opens you up. His lips part in tandem, not nearly as kind as his hands. His teeth scratch against your throat.Â
Your soft moans move through him as he hickeys over your pulse, chasing each capering thud of blood. He winds you up. Youâre snug around his fingers, fluttering, and he knows heâs probed something sweet when your breath catches and you whine.Â
âWas that alright?â he asks.Â
You nod, heavy headed, and lick your lips as he tears open the condom and eases it onto his cock, one measured roll at a time.Â
âCan youâ I want you toââ You turn your face from him, the line of your jaw kissed by the lamplight outside, and the rest hidden.Â
He drags you down to lay flat on your back and holds himself over you, nudging his nose against yours until you lift your head. Face to face, he gives himself time to adore the shape and colour of your eyes, the side of his hand brushing along your cheek. âDo you think youâre ready?â he asks sincerely. The slickness between your legs is obvious, but he doesnât want to blindside you. âIt will feelâŚâ
You nod, saving him the explanation. It will feel weird. Good, but foreign. âWill you kiss me again?â you ask feebly.
He canât stop himself. He kisses your lips sore, his hand behind the crook of your knee pushing your leg up toward your stomach as he slides into the space heâs made there. He breaks the kiss to listen to your breathing as he pushes forward.
Remus hadnât been lying â he wants it to feel good. He takes it slow, his thrusting almost languid as you get to grips with the feeling. He pulls his bottom lip between his teeth and bites down hard, struggling to smother the moan that escapes him as he feels you clench around him. You gasp, your arms tightening around his waist, destroying any semblance of space between your sweat-damp bodies as you hold him tight. He murmurs praises in your ear, his forearms tucked beneath your shoulder blades, hands gripping your shoulders a touch too hard. He canât remember the last time he was this close to somebody, canât remember ever feeling so maddeningly lost, like heâs one good push from hurtling over the edge.Â
He kisses your cheek, calling you all the things heâd been too scared to say before. âLovely girl,â he pants, âhowâs that feel?â And, when you answer, âYeah, youâre taking it so well, dove. Think you can take a little more?â
All that nervousness and desperation shrinks down to dust, and the smiling girl heâd been with at dinner comes to the forefront. Thereâs no mistaking it. You giggle something awful and turn your face into his, kissing him between sounds, dizzying him with the tender scratch of your nails down his back as he starts to move.Â
âThere she is,â he says lightly, almost smirking. âFeel good?â
âFeelsâ oh,â âyou shiver violently, filled all the way upâ âfeels good.âÂ
Remus letâs his forehead fall to your chin, his eyes closed in pleasure, his cock to the hilt. Every move he makes evokes a near sinful sound from you, mewling, silvery whimpers and pleased little laughs when he angles his hips right. Heâs a mess, desperate to cum from the second you touched him and running on stolen time as he presses you deep into your mattress. One of your hands flies backward into the pillows and scrunches up into a ball, the look on your face too tempting to ignore.Â
The first time you fuck someone â itâs never timed right. Remus knows he hasnât quite figured you out, but he knows enough to get you where he wants you. He slides his hand between your bodies and your soft cunt to draw circles into your clit, entranced by your twitching lashes as the pleasure builds. You chase him with your hips, and he grabs your hand at the last second to stop you from covering your mouth, holding it above your head as you come apart.Â
He cooes at you. The sound you make â the breathless little cry that leaves you, your hips jutting up to meet him. Heâs at your mercy, just like he said.Â
Remus fucks into the extra tightness, drawing your climax out for as long as he can. Youâre smiling as you shove his arm away, a playful chastisement that wanes when you see the look on his face. âAre you close?â you ask, brushing a curled strand of hair from his eyes.Â
Close? Remus is fucked.Â
âYou can go faster,â you say, ârougher, whatever you want.â
âShit,â he hisses, leaning back.Â
His rutting hips slap the backs of your thighs. He squeezes your waist, his eyes fixed on your cunt as it pulls him in. One last wavering, âOh, fuck,â from you is all it takes for Remus to lose it. White hot pleasure tightens his whole body, his abdomen aflame. You scramble to gather him back into your arms. You kiss him, swallowing his resulting string of moans.Â
He has to catch his breath afterward. You comb the hair back from his face, your eyes droopy with pleasure.
âDid I hurt you?â he asks, voice stringy.
âOf course not.â Youâre quickly losing your confidence. Remus hates it, but he understands. This vulnerability can only stretch so far.Â
âLet me clean you up,â he says.
âYou look like youâre gonna fall over if you stand.â
He strokes your face with the back of his ring finger, his nail ghosting along the highest point of your cheek. âFunny,â he says dryly.Â
He gets confused in your bathroom, and you wonât let him towel you off, but when he lies down beside you with his boxers back in place you donât push him away. You drop your face into his chest and curl up.Â
He drags the quilt over your naked back.Â
Was that okay? he wants to ask. âSore?â he worries instead.Â
âDonât think so.â
He chews his cheek. âYouâre alright?â
You stir, looking up at him through your lashes. He thinks youâre the kind of pretty people might not always see. Youâre clearly beautiful, but thereâs something else to it. The way you move, maybe. The way your eyes smile before your lips can catch up.Â
âIâm fine. Iâm good⌠Can IâŚâ
He hums. âWhat?â
âCould I kiss you again?âÂ
You speak so quietly, he hears the vibration in your throat more than the sound of your voice. Itâs endearingly timid. He feels his attraction for you flare violently.Â
He wants to ask you to come with him to Cardiff. He knows he canât. Itâs yards too soon, but for a second he entertains the thought.Â
âWait for me to come home,â he says. Heâs still asking for more than he should. âI want to see you again. You can kiss me as much as you want, if you say youâll wait.â
You nod immediately. Not a flicker of reluctance to be seen.Â
You lift your chin and kiss him. He tries to make it the kind of kiss worth waiting for. Â
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Griddlehark Fics
I have read an absolutely insane amount of Griddlehark fanfics in the past few months so I figured I could make a like...list of all of my favorites that I bookmarked. I'm not sure if anyone will use this but if anything it will be for my own self-indulgence LOL. Just a heads up, this list WILL contain spoilers up to Nona the Ninth, so proceed with your own discretion. Anyway here we go!
(âĽď¸ = favorite!)
Short (<15k):
"By the Sword" by JeanLuciferGohard (2.6k)
The Reverend Daughter of the Ninth, Necrosaint, Ascended, the greatest bone adept in an Age, does one push-up, and collapses. Harrow does not beg for her cavalier. Harrow rakes her hair back and snarls, âNav, I am going to unzip your cranial sutures. One by one. And zip them up again sideways.â
"Your Necro Questions Answered" by Magichorse (8.8k)
Syndicated columnist "Nav the Cav" offers a sympathetic ear to cavaliers across the galaxy and dispenses practical, no-nonsense, real talk advice on how to properly manage and care for your necromancer.
"A Lesson in Bones" by Magichorse (3.8k)
One of the laboratory trials at Canaan House compels Harrowhark to swap bodies with her cavalier. What will Gideon do with the power of the most talented bone adept in generations at her disposal? Nothing good, probably.
"Visions of Gideon" by tothewillofthepeople (13k)
Oh my god they were roommates...
"true love's kiss, or something equally nauseating" by corpsesoldier (4.6k)
She was where she needed to be. She was going to pull her necro out of this godforsaken tomb, end the game of musical bodies they were playing, and then everything would be all right. Harrow would be alive. And Gideon was going to give her shit for approximately the next myriad for not just taking what sheâd offered and saving them a whole lot of trouble.
"The Big Warm Dark" by decalexas (haelstorm) (2.7k)
Gideon Nav knows how to swing a longsword, brandish a rapier, bridge the gap between life and death, punch the dead in the face, and maybe overthrow an Empire along the way. What she doesn't know how to do is reach for the girl who made all of this possible.
"carrion comfort, despair (not feast on thee)" by NotAFicWriter (5k)
Some time after Alecto wakes, Harrow and Gideon finally have a moment to speak to one another. Hearts are bared. Teeth are bared. Intentions are bared. It all comes at great personal cost (emotional honesty).
"never exhale all the way" by pigflight (1.2k)
Harrowhark paints Gideon's face.
"such an almighty sound" by CountingNothings (10k)âĽď¸
âI need you to marry me,â Harrow says, a propos of absolutely nothing that Gideon can see. And, uh, okay, this is not what childhood best frenemies say to each other upon discovering that both of their graduate programs have weird residence requirements. âWhat,â Gideon asks, âthe fuck?â
"A Handsomely Dangerous Thing" by zoicite (1.5k)
Had Harrow ever looked at Gideon and felt pride before? Surely not. It sat like a tumor in her chest, a cancerous lump that had grown where it did not belong.
"How it didn't happen" by Nary (1.5k)
"How did you lose it?" Coronabeth asked, more softly than her sister's shrill voice. The group assembled at Canaan House barely knew her, and yet here they were, asking the most irritatingly personal questions, and acting as if they were being kind and thoughtful by prying into her secrets. "I dropped my pen into a vat of acid and reached in to grab it without thinking," Harrow said dryly. Coronabeth recoiled, screwing up her pretty nose. Ianthe looked unsure whether to believe her or not. Their meatslab of cavalier just stared blankly. "The Daughter of the Ninth House was blessed in this manner from her birth, as a symbol of her strength and power over the mysteries of necromancy," Ortus interjected. Harrow glared at him. "Oh," Coronabeth said, an expression of disgusting sympathy on her flawless face. "But then you would never have known who your soulmate was!" Harrow's glare intensified. "My soulmate is bones."
"Halcyon Nights" by Morike91 (10k)
It was hard to tell what was worse: feeling the full warmth of those unguarded honey eyes fall on Harrow, or watching them narrow in recognition and contempt, their warmth now hotter with something else. âWhat can I get you?â It has been at least four years since Harrow last heard the voice of Gideon Nav, but it was still as familiar as her right hand.Â
"I completely fucking hate you" by ClaraZorEl (7.5k)
In the coming weeks, Harrowhark learns an unfortunate great deal about Gideon Nav. The kind of porn she likes, the number of bread rolls she can fit into her mouth at once, that she always leans too heavily on her left leg when she fights but can do fifty-seven push-ups in a row without stopping, that her biceps rates 11/10 on the scale of good biceps, that her laugh rumbles like an army of skeletons, and most importantly, that she canât fucking stand her. Gideon Nav is so grating that Harrow has no doubt she will be her undoing. OR Harrowhark Nonagesimus has been invited to Canaan University's ball. But to successfully represent her house, she needs a cavalier, and unfortunately, her only option is her least favourite barista from her least favourite coffee shop.
"A Thousand Teeth, Yours Among Them" by pipistrelle (7k)
"In the end, she poisoned Ortus; so it was Harrow Nova who walked out to the shuttle a half-step behind the Daughter of the Ninth, the chain of Samael Novenary wound about her offhand wrist, the black blade of the Ninth at her side."
"The Only Prayer We Know" by pipistrelle (12k) [Part 2 of "A Thousand Teeth, Yours Among Them"]
It's like a bad joke: two cavaliers (alive) and two necromancers (one dead) walk into a rebel faction of humanity, looking for a new life -- in every sense of the phrase. What they find is each other, and (in some cases) themselves.
"The Flames of Hell Are Warm" by silverapples (7k)
In which Harrow is a repressed evangelical Christian and Gideon performs burlesque in a lesbian nightclub. Feat. nipple pasties, chewing gum, and a steaming mug of gay coffee (wake up and smell it, Harrow).
"Necro Business" by rnanqo (1.6k) âĽď¸
âGideon,â you said carefully, âI will need to examine your mouth. Various structures, primarily the jaw, but also the lingual musclesâthe tongueââ You stopped there. Your cheeks were going red, probably with indignity. âYeah,â I said, a bit too loudly, âyeah, sure. Do it.â
"Holy Cross, Alaska" by softieghost (10k) âĽď¸ âĽď¸ âĽď¸
Harrow meets Gideon. They go through it together.
"my love will be your armor" by TheKnightsWhoSayBook (2.3k)
"The princess has a right to bestow her favor on whoever she wishes to win a match," Gideon tells her. "Are you going to?" "Why would I? I don't want to marry him," Harrow answers bitterly. "Do you want me to win?" Princess Harrow will be engaged to the winner of the tournament, and her only champion is her useless bodyguard Sir Gideon Nav, who isn't going to save her. Unless...?
"The Meaning Of The Word" by pipistrelle (8.4k)
Harrow, along with a good percentage of Canaan University's necromancy students, has the flu. Gideon has a lot of feelings that she is in no way equipped to handle. It's a tough week.
"(i shine only with the light you gave me)" by sashawire (1.7k) âĽď¸
God prods, gently, âEven just starting with their physical description, and we can go from there.â âImagine,â you say, from somewhere outside your body, âthe worst shade of orange youâve ever seen in your life.â * Harrowhark receives her saintly title.
"i will learn to love the shears" by corpsesoldier (4.7k)
The avulsion trial left Harrow's hair in a sorry state and Gideon offers up her expertise with a blade. Or, Gideon gives Harrow a haircut.
"The Titty Texts: A Work of a Stupendous Titty Nature" by EleniaTrexer (3k)
Gideon accidentally sends Harrow boobs. And then just keeps on sending them.
"can we start over?" by breeeliss (10k)
Gideon needs a tutor. Harrow needs someone to get her out of college gym class. All in all, a pretty straightforward arrangement to make with your ex.
"Dark Mode Enabled" by senseoftheday (12k)
Tech Company AU in which a certain Sales bro with no filter decides to ruin Harrow's life (and feature roadmap) by initiating the cross-functional project from hell. At least, Gideon has the decency to work remotely, and Harrow's new office crush makes some pretty great coffee.
"deconsecrated graves" by emotionsandphenomena (4k)
Gideon and Harrow got out of the cult they were raised in. Okay, what's next?
"settle up in heaven" by liesmyth (3k) âĽď¸
âIsnât this arrogance, Harrow?â Kiriona says. âThink you could fix what God couldnât?â
"Quoth the Maiden" by Sarsaparilla (10.9k)
The bold outlaws Nova Hawk and Gideon meet for the first time on a narrow log-bridge. But is it really their first meeting? Or: what if Robin Hood and Little John were both lesbians?
"twice in a blue moon" by sinshine (8.7k) âĽď¸
Gideon snapped out of her depressing reverie and blinked at her. "That's a really good idea." "Obviously," said Harrow, and it was only a little bit condescending. "Step one, sneak out of the party. Step two, acquire the necessary items at a store. Step threeâ" Harrow gestured vaguely at the deer in Gideon's handsâ "And step four, profit." [G&H rush to fix a smashed snow globe that Dulcinea made so that Cam doesn't kill them before the clock strikes midnight at their NYE party. The fact that Gideon is back in her hometown after a long time away and she and Harrow have unresolved romantic tension is secondary and definitely won't be a problem.]
"It Came From Planet Slut" by LockedTombMemes (8k)
Well. Evidently going undercover to an Idan society fling in order to deliver a message to a high-profile BoE agent was a tits-out kind of look.
"Apostate's Yuletide" by sinshine (12.6k)âĽď¸
Gideon raised one eyebrow comically high. She smiled easily, erasing any hint of the anxiety that Harrow might have sensed. "What's with all the questions today?" Harrow huffed indignantly and fidgeted with the blanket draped across her lap, worrying the frayed hem with her fingers. "I thought your ego would appreciate the interest." "Yeah, but it's weird coming from you. I'm used to you monologuing, not playing twenty questions." "Perhaps it's a Christmas miracle," suggested Harrow, with an expression so absolutely devoid of joy that Gideon couldn't help but laugh. [Harrow and Gideon burn down a church on Xmas.]
"when it's over" by Adertily (2.5k)
Harrowhark had sworn to herself to live to see the girl in the locked tomb awaken. Alecto has risen. Now God is dead, along with everyone who had ever been dear to her - and Gideon has returned as a distorted creature. The war is over. Harrow wishes she could be too. Or: A character study based on Harrow's suicidal ideation and Gideon's determination to never run anywhere unless she absolutely has to.
"Supernova Bloom!" by sinshine (13k)
"It's just for a week, and then you never have to see me again," said Gideon. "I don't have time to find anyone else." And, "Please." Slowly, Harrow took her hand off the door and cautiously turned around. Gideon watched a dozen unspoken questions flicker across her face. She voiced none of them, but eventually settled on an expression of grim resignation. "I suppose I could suffer you for a week." [Gideon needs help getting her new flower shop ready for the grand opening. Harrow needs cash.]
"I still need your teeth around my organs" by sinshine (7.8k)
Although she was a beloved Daughter and a talented necromancer, Gideon's greatest vice was that she dearly loved to fuck around and find out. Knowing this, perhaps it shouldn't have been as shocking when she lifted one of Nova's hands, flipped it over, and kissed her palm. [4 times Gideon kisses Harrow, 1 time Harrow kisses Gideon]
"cuckoo, cuckoo" by sashawire (1.2k)
What Wake gives it is not a name. To do so would be a moronic, unnecessary cruelty. But she does deign to give it the microscopic dignity of a title, a goal, a purpose. Bomb. Eighteen years later, in the rubble of a once-sacred home, Harrowhark Nonagesimus reaches up and touches Gideon Navâs grit-covered, blood-rimed face, splits a laugh like the world is ending, and calls her âflower.â * Six times God's unwanted daughter was nicknamed, and once she wasn't.
"my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear" by sashawire (<1k) âĽď¸
Gideon chomps into her tongue as hard as she can convince herself, stifling a very dignified squawk. Her eyes water, Emperorâs left tit that fucking hurts, butâit works. Blood weeps from the bite marks, creeping down the back of her throat, up into her nasal cavity, staining her teeth. Okay. She has blood in her mouth. Blood that, somehow, needs to get into Harrowâs mouth. * Step #6: Consume the flesh.
"fifteen percent concentrated power of will" by surreptitiously (9k)
Teaching someone to do a push-up is a love language, when that person is very annoying.
"GHAZAL WHERE I'M BEGGING YOU TO TOUCH ME" by igneousbitch (12k)
You had your body and I had mine, and it was a miracle. Your hands against my face were a miracle. The rest of your meat attached to your hands was a prayer answered and a promise broken, but we were flush and gasping and alive, and HarrowâI really thought you mightâve kissed me then. But I felt it happen. The way your breath suddenly stilled, and your body locked up beneath mine, remembering. How with splintering gentleness, you pushed me away. âIâm so sorry,â was the second thing you said upon waking. The first thing had been my name. Stranded in a safehouse on an Edenite moon, Gideon and Harrow try to put themselves back together.
"catch you on the flip side, sugar lips" by corpsesoldier (4.9k)
Maybe if Harrow's brain runs enough scenarios, she'll find a way to keep what she's lost.
"hand to heart, I swear" by corpsesoldier (5k)
Gideon has a broken heart, and there's only one necromancer who can fix it.
Medium (15-30k)
"If you're doing it right you'll break their ribs" by almostnectarine (22.4k)
"How do you know Nonagesimus has gone somewhere dangerous?" asked Isaac. "Have you wired some kind of alert system?" "It's, uh. It's on the schedule," said Gideon. "I just... forgot. Because of the bread." Nobody was convinced by this, least of all Gideon. "It's a Ninth House thing," Gideon went on, backing away with increasing desperation. This was a slightly more plausible explanation, if only because nobody wanted to look too closely at what fell under the awful skeletal-ribbed and rotting umbrella of Ninth House things. "Gotta goâ!" And she was out the door, gone. But it wasn't a Ninth House thing, except inasmuch as it was happening to the only two representatives of the noble and decrepit Ninth House on this quite literally godforsaken rock. Gideon knew Harrow had gone somewhere dangerousâknew that Harrow was back in the lab where they had only just completed a horrible trialâbecause she could see it, clear as day: an awful overlay on her vision of that terrible dangerous room and a pair of terrible dangerous hands drawing some kind of ward next to the plinth. The hands were definitely Harrow's. This was definitely a problem.
"If Home Is Where the Heart Is (Then We're All Just Fucked)" by JeanLuciferGohard (17k) âĽď¸
When Gideon Nav gets a call that her ex-girlfriend, who never bothered to change her designated emergency contact, is in the hospital, she goes against her better judgement and responds. Everything after that just gets more complicated.
"blue gray green lavender" by smolranger (29k) âĽď¸
Laser Radial sailor Gideon Nav just wants pass her classes, win a few regattas, and keep her head down. FJ sailor Harrowhark Nonagesimus has grand plans to qualify for the Olympics, preserve her parent's legacy, and save her home town. Despite the ties binding them together, the two have kept their college lives carefully separate for two years. But when Harrow's helm, Ortus, suffers a concussion mid-way through the fall season, their carefully separated lives collide. Harrow needs someone capable of taking Ortus' place for the remainder of the season or her Olympic dreams â and Canaan College's entire sail team â are in peril. And Gideon is her only option.
"Daughters of Hungry Ghosts" by zoicite (24k)
Harrow and Gideon and times they have (and also have not) shared a bed over the years.
"Disney World, Florida" by softieghost (24.6k) [Part 2 of "Holy Cross, Alaska"]
After the events of Alaska, Harrow thanks Gideon the only way she knows how: devotion. -- Chapter 3: The journey concludes. More confessions.
"we've got a good thing goin' " by sinshine (14.6k) âĽď¸
âNot to sound ungrateful, but being here makes me wish that you had left me for dead,â said Harrow. Gideon had been staring hard at the face of the fountainâs statue. She was pretty sure that it was carved in the likeness of Naberius himself, but she didnât want to say it out loud and make it true. She shook her head and turned to Harrow. âLeaving me to live out eternity in your bony sock puppet of a body? Hard pass.â Palamedes and Camilla shared a look. It was the mutual understanding of two people who had been trapped in close quarters with the bickering of Gideon Nav and Harrowhark Nonagesimus for far too long. [Team 69 hide out in Babs's vacation home. Because it's not like he's using it anyway.]
"Cake by the Ocean" by zoicite (15k)âĽď¸
Okay, so the thing was, Gideon had always been shit at plans. She knew that. Everyone knew that, but this--she really didnât think it would be this hard! Gideonâs voice was like the least memorable thing about her. Bargaining her voice for a well-shaped set of human legs--that really should have worked in her favor.
"careful fear and (un)dead devotion" by sinshine (23k)
[Gideon and Harrow wake up back in their own bodies but both of them are missing large parts of their memory. Camilla tries not to kill everyone.]
"who ya gonna call?" by igneousbitch (24k)
âFret not, honeybun.â Gideon shook her red hair out of her eyes, belligerent. âIâm not totally sold on your whole skepticism thing.â âWell,â Harrow said, ignoring the nickname. She turned to the rest of the room, clearing her throat politely before addressing the empty air. âGhosts, if youâre real, give us a sign. Make a noise. Move something. Send a shiver down our backs. Whisper softly into Navâs left earââ âI seriously fucking hate you.â - (Casual sex and paranormal investigation. Not necessarily in that order.) (or: the Buzzfeed Unsolved AU in which Gideon is ready to fight a ghost, and Harrow just wants to be haunted.)
Long(>30k):
"Beneath a Blue and Foreign Sky" by zoicite (35k)
Harrow has a decision to make.
"A Heart Full Of Sutures" by Rohad (40k)
All Gideon wanted was to get outside and ride her motorcycle. No part of that plan had included eight weeks in Canaan Medical Center with a broken Pelvis and the meanest little doctor this side of the eastern seabord.
"Midnight at the Mithraeum" by zoicite (66k) âĽď¸
It'd been two years since Gideon Nav gathered her wine key and her gaming license and escaped The Locked Tomb, a speakeasy-style cocktail bar managed by the hateful Harrowhark Nonagesimus. Now, dealing tables at The Mithraeum Hotel & Casino, things were really looking up. So when Gideon scored a date with the most beautiful showgirl in the Gilded Halls of Ida, the last thing she expected was to wake up married to her old nemesis and former coworker. The story starts the night of Gideon's date and alternates between the events leading up to the wedding and the weeks that follow as Gideon tries to navigate life married to someone who claims to want nothing more than to forget she exists.
"Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea" by pipistrelle (90k)
Being the journal of Reverend Daughter Harrowhark Nonagesimus, chronicling the journey of the Emperor's warship Cenotaph on its hunt to slay an immortal Resurrection Beast. Or: the Moby Dick crossover AU that nobody asked for.
"The Darkest Night, The Brightest Light" by eternaleponine (50k)
Harrowhark has known for a long time that her home's financial situation is dire, and not getting better. She has plans to fix it all, but can't implement them until she turns eighteen in a few months. When her parents announce that the best (perhaps only) way to save Drearburh is to marry off its heir, Harrow realizes the timeline has changed and she needs to take action now to save her home... and herself. Desperate times call for desperate measures, after all. Enter Gideon Nav. Detested foe, and Harrow's only hope.
"putting your fist through a thick sheet of glass (i know you don't want to)" by oretsev (46k)
Harrowhark Nonagesimus and Gideon Nav have always been at each otherâs throats, and the animosity has only intensified since the death of Harrowâs parents. But when a car accident leaves Gideon without any memories of her past, Harrow sees a chance at the clean slate sheâs wanted for years. Becoming involved in Gideonâs recovery assuages some of the guilt, but as she and Gideon become closer and increasingly involved in each other's lives, Harrow worries that some of her secrets may be more than she can atone for.
Ongoing:
"semi-charmed kinda life" by strangedelight (182k+) âĽď¸ âĽď¸ âĽď¸ âĽď¸ âĽď¸ âĽď¸
Gideon asked questions. Harrow surprised her with answers. They reached an agreement; they decided to be smart, to be patient. Gideon made a promise, Harrow gave her one in return. Wait and see. OR the year is 1994, and Gideon and Harrow leave their small town for life in the city. OR team 69 roommates au only this time it's the 90s
"Intern the Sixth" by apocalypticTaco (33k+)
ADDRESSING THE HEIR TO THE NINTH HOUSE, OR PRESUMED EQUIVALENT: PALAMEDES SEXTUS, HEIR TO THE SIXTH HOUSE, PRESENTS HIS COMPLIMENTS TO THE NINTH AND REQUESTS A FORMAL ARRANGEMENT WHEREIN HIS MASTER WARDEN AND CAVALIER APPRENTICESHIP UNDER THE NINTH FOR FOUR YEARS IN EXCHANGE FOR THE SIXTHâS SERVICES. *Details to be discussed. Please turn to back page. Timeframe variable. Services and agreements variable upon the Ninth's request. An internship of this caliber is highly unprecedented and likely unheard of, but any information valuable to the Ninth and into the Tomb will remain undisclosed upon request; Primary experience and study is required as the Master Warden has already decided upon such being his final thesis prior to his end studies. No takebacks, no denials. Pleased to meet you. Palamedes Sextus, Heir to the Sixth and Master Warden and Camilla the Sixth, Cavalier Primary and Warden's Hand of the Library
TO THE MASTER WARDEN: FORMALLY REJECTED.
"What's Eating Gideon Nav?" by labyrinthineRetribution (40k+)
After a miserable fifteen years at Blessed Saint Anastasia's School for Girls, Gideon's luck finally changes.
"We Have Always Lived in the Apartment" by labyrinthineRetribution (171k+)
John looks up from his Jack and Coke in drunken curiosity. "What's with the face, Harrowhark?" he asks, genuinely concerned. "Contrary to popular belief," Gideon butts in, "her face just fuckin' looks like that, bitch." She tends to use "bitch" as liberally as commas when off her ass. "You're piss drunk," you shoot back. "And you, my good bitch, are just as contemptible as the day you clawed your way up from Hell." - It is Harrowhark Nonagesimus' birthday, and it only gets worse from there.
PWP (basically):
"I'll hold in these hands all that remains" by corvidlesbian (6.5k) âĽď¸
âDo you want me to try?â Gideon said. âWhat?â âYou got all hot and bothered without me trying. Do you want me to try?â Their newfound habit of cuddling gets interesting.
"sting of a wasp" by brightbolt, imperfectlyctor (42k) âĽď¸
"Youâre a virgin,â Gideon said, testing it out. "Huh." Harrow didnât like the sound of that huh. She knew Gideonâs noises, and that was a thoughtful, sinister huh. That was the same huh sheâd made before putting canned tuna in Cruxâs work boots. Her eyes narrowed. âWhat.â Gideon cocked her head to the side. âIs there a reason youâre waiting?â There was no judgement in the questionâ only genuine curiosity. Perhaps it was this that made Harrow more inclined to answer. âI donât have the time to look for someone new,â She shrugged. âAnd my available pool is⌠somewhat limited.â âWell,â Gideon said, with just a hint of conspiracy in those glittering golden eyes. âIf you ever want to change that, you have my number.â What? What? Harrow blinked. âWhat?â Or: the five times Gideon and Harrow successfully bone, and the one time they don't.
"Suckle, Honey" by zoicite (7.9k)
âYou crave my juice,â Gideon accused. âI do not crave your juice.â âFuck, you do though. You went off to explore that study alone, without your cavalier, using a key that I nearly gave my life for, and then you snorted some powder that made you crave my juice! Harrow. I never would have let you sniff powder from a ten thousand year old jar.â This was untrue--Gideon probably wouldnât have noticed Harrow breathing in a puff of jar powder until it was too late--but it sounded like something Camilla Hect might say, so Gideon went with it anyway. Camilla definitely would have stopped Palamedes from accidentally sniffing old as fuck Eighth House jarred juice addiction powder.
"Five Times We Hatefucked and One Time We Didn't" by rnanqo (8k)
âFuck you,â you said. âFuck me yourself, you coward.â You ran a hand through my hair, fisted it, and pulled my head up. From here I had a spectacular view of your weird blown-out seething expression, like I was the worst thing youâd ever seen. Also a view up your blood-crusted nostrils. Choice. âMaybe I will, Griddle,â you said. âMaybe I will stop fucking you over and start fucking you." Gideon and Harrow realize, abruptly, that their hatefucking is no longer hatefucking.
"a call to motion" by groundedsaucer (coasterchild) (10k) âĽď¸
Harrow and Gideon watch a porno.
"put her canine teeth in the side of my neck" by stranded_star (8.8k)
Harrowhark Nonagesimus is getting a PhD and a divorce. Against her better judgment, she goes out to the bar to celebrate and meets an incorrigible, absolutely ripped salt-and-paprika butch who takes her home and gives it to her good. To her horror, it's the best night of her life, and she sneaks home with her tail between her legs. Harrow has more important things to worry about - like raising her daughter and building the next stages of her career. But when her daughter's favorite teacher, someone named Griddle, turns about to be the Gideon she met at the bar, she's forced to contend with allowing herself (and her daughter) to find the happy ending she never thought they'd have. Featuring MILF!Harrow, Teacher!Gideon, and a very amused Camilla Hect.
"The Wound That Swallows" by seelieunseelie (7.8k)
Harrow can make out an uncomfortable amount of detail about Gideonâs body beneath. Powerful, strong as ever, yet somehow vulnerable for its supplication below Harrowâs. âAre we gonna get this over with?â Gideon says in a voice softly scratchy. She blushes then when Harrow sits on the edge of the bed. âIt will hurt,â Harrow says. âYeah,â Gideon says. âI think I can handle it.â
#holy shit this is way longer than i thought it would be#uhm i literally gave myself a headache i sat here for like 3 hours doing this#that being said if you have any fic recs lmk LOL#griddlehark#gideon the ninth#harrow the ninth#nona the ninth#the locked tomb#tlt#tlt fic#tlt fanfiction#griddlehark fanfic#rec#long post
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maybe it's not our fault - chapter 01
ââ synopsis: after a nasty breakup thatâs left you completely shattered, youâre set on giving up on love forever. That is until, in a surprising turn of events, your respective best friends start dating and one of their main goals is to restore the peace in your broken relationship. Will their plan succeed? Will they manage to play cupid and get you and your high school sweetheart back together, or will it all backfire and result in the end of their own love story?
There is only one way to find out. If only your belovedâs heart wasnât already broken beyond repairâŚ
â°â⸠â pairing: hyunjin x fem!reader
â°â⸠â content: exes to lovers, angst, mutual pining, fluff, suggestive themes, drama and heartbreak, jock!hyunjin who is captain of the uni's football team + dance major!hyunjin, college au, lack of communication.
â°â⸠â word count: 10k
a/n: it's here!! special thank you to my croissant baby laure @byunfirstlady (this wouldn't be a me story if i didn't mention her somehow fgfdgh) for reading this for me before posting!! since this is the first chapter, things might feel a little slow, but dw, it will all pick up soon! enjoy <33 and do let me know your thoughts after reading <3
âThat is not going to fit!â
He scoffs, already annoyed. âYes, it is! Just move over a little.â
âA little? Iâm already stretched the fuck out! What more do you want from me?â
âSeohyun, I swear to fucking God â â
She yelps, most likely cramping. âJust pull it out, you dumbass â â
âWhat the hell is going on in here?â
You and Chan stop dead in your tracks, confused at the scene currently playing out in front of your very eyes. You were gone downstairs for less than ten minutes to get the rest of your stuff, with you and Chan carrying a box each that held the essentials to ensure this move went smoothly. And in that time frame, your two other best friends have already managed to be at each otherâs throats.
The front door of your apartment was wide open, with dumb and dumber currently looking like two deers caught in headlights on opposite sides, separated by an old armchair whose springs had become a death trap over the years. Last year, when you held parties here, someone was always left standing â it was either the cursed chair or the floor, with most guests picking the latter once they were drunk enough.
âUh, hi?â Jisung greets, forcing a smile onto boyish features that havenât changed much since you met almost seven years ago, in high school.
Bewiled, you set the box down by Chanâs feet and approach. âAre you guys, okay? What happened?â
Whistling, Jisung tries to pretend he has everything under control. He doesnât, he never does, thatâs just the type of guy he was. âDuh, weâre fantastic! Everything is under control, donât even â â
Called it.
âFor the love of god, just shut up and let them help us already!â Seohyun barks from the other side, prompting you to peek in to see her straighten her posture, rubbing her wrists in obvious discomfort. With a sigh and a glare from Jisung who steps back to allow Chan to take his place, she explains. âWe were trying to get this chair out to make room for the new one.â
Chuckling, Chan inspects the door frame while you pass Seohyun one of the boxes right over the ugly, red chair thatâs seen better days. âAnd it got stuck?â
âYes, because Jisung didnât want to listen â â
âOr maybe because you started pushing when I wasnât ready, like an idiot.â He counters instantly, never one to back out from a fight instigated by Seohyun. Not to be fooled, these two were as close as can be, the bickering reflective of their special bond.
You and Chan share a look as they start again, amusement clear in gentle, doe eyes that have comforted you numerous times over the years. Meeting back in the summer before high school, you and Chan have been attached at the hip ever since, clicking as pre-teens and growing up together, maturing down the same path thatâs led you to the same university, and even the same major you also shared with Jisung. Music production has always been a passion of yours, so getting to fulfil that dream with your absolute best friend by your side was a blessing you couldnât be more thankful for.
âAlright.â Chan stops their bickering, one hand landing on Jisungâs shoulder to get his attention. âStand on it.â
âPardon?â Jisung blinks at him, as confused as you and Seohyun were, not sure he heard Chan right.
Smiling, Chan squeezes his shoulder. âSo, you can step on the backrest and make it fall over. It will be easier to move afterwards.â
âYou think so?â He asks, biting down on his bottom lip, not confident in the slightest.
Your best friend nods, giving his bottom an encouraging pat. âPositively. Now go on, I donât want to spend my whole day in this hallway.â
Seohyun scrambles back, unwilling to get caught in between Jisung and the chair, giving him enough room to do what he must to free her exit.
Watching the whole scene unfold has you smiling from ear to ear, struggling to keep your laughter at bay once Jisung realizes the task isnât as dangerous as he expected. Itâs anticlimactic, more than anything, as he gets on top of the chair to step on the backrest, going down slowly without even losing his balance.
He blinks, barely realizing itâs over before making eye contact with Seohyun who bursts out laughing like sheâs been holding it in since the beginning. The three of you join in quickly after, your delight bouncing off the hallway walls and lifting the spirits tremendously.
After all, nobody in existence was ever excited for summer to end and classes to start again, with a new, even more demanding schedule than last year. You were in your third year now and things were bound to get difficult the closer you got to graduating.
This silly moment was exactly what you needed to start the new year right, sure it would become a core memory later down the line when youâd all be working adults, with even more responsibilities and nonexistent free time. The sight of Chan dragging the armchair out, without any difficulty whatsoever as Jisung and Seohyunâs jaws hit the floor, incredulous he didnât struggle like they did, was sure to bring a smile to your face for years to come.
When your only access to the apartment was finally free, the four of you gathered inside with the remaining boxes.
âYou werenât kidding, you do have all of your stuff here.â Seohyun hums, scanning her surroundings, and her new home. The apartment was yours. You moved in just last year and youâve lived by yourself until now, when you welcomed her with open arms and a little too much excitement.
âYeah.â You nod, already moving around to put the scattered things back in their rightful places. âSorry about the mess. I didnât bother cleaning up before leaving.â
The living room was fine â your bedroom was the one that suffered the most, already dreading the thought of having to dig through all the mess to find most of your things.
The apartment was a gift from your parents, after successfully finishing your first year of university living in a dorm. Sure, having your own space was great, but youâd never trade that first year for anything in the world. Thatâs where you meet Seohyun after all, growing closer and closer with every sleepless night you spent together giggling and talking about everything under the sun, not feeling the hours tick by until one of your alarms would ring, signalling the start of a new day.
It was big, too spacious for only one person to live in, with two bedrooms and a bathroom straight out of an interior design magazine. Even though Seohyun didnât move in until now, you were never truly alone with Jisung and Chris living right next door. Someone was always keeping you company, which you were thankful for, in more ways than one.
Already moving about like they owned the place, Chris and Jisung were helping you tidy up, with the latter moving to check for anything rotten in the kitchen. With four pairs of hands on deck, it didnât take more than fifteen minutes for everything to be back to normal, leaving you to take care of the dusting.
âAlright.â Chan stands, carrying two trash bags. âJi, letâs go get the armchair.â
Jisung follows before Seohyun calls after them. âRight, is it in your car?â
âI thought it was in yours?â He turns around, stopping in the doorway while Chan is already busy calling the elevator, further away.
You see her brows furrow, setting the duster down before grabbing her car keys. âNope.â
The ding of the elevator gets your attention, and they share a look before hurrying after Chan, in search of said armchair, the door closing behind them with a quiet thud. You lived high up, on the 10th floor â nobody was ever willing to take the stairs and waste that much time.
And so, in the blink of an eye, you are left alone in the apartment that held so many of your memories, beautiful moments you wouldnât trade even in exchange for forgetting the sad ones.
You feel a little lost, staring around like you couldnât recognize your own home, shoulders slumping with a deep sigh. Your gaze moves towards your closed bedroom door, feet following before your hand twists the doorknob and youâre engulfed in sunlight, blinking rapidly to adjust to the change in lighting.
Inside, the sight that greets you seems frozen in time, transporting you back in June to the last moments spent in this room, where you were running around to pack in a hurry. You donât dare move, just taking it all in as memories flood your mind and make your heart ache in your chest, what still remains of it, anyway.
All of your stuff thrown around haphazardly painted a picture you didnât enjoy, yet couldnât look away from either. Your bed remained unmade, with piles of clothing, bags and random objects occupying all the space. Framed photographs were thrown everywhere around the room, just so they would stop glaring at you from their place on your nightstand, face down and most likely damaged by the broken glass. The vase on your dresser, which used to stand tall with beautiful, healthy flowers seemed to have lost its color, struggling to fulfil its purpose because of the dried, mouldy peonies you didnât bother throwing out before leaving.
But whatâs even worse than the mess is what tipped you over the edge back then, falling to your knees on the fluffy, white carpet as you sobbed uncontrollably â the things he left behind were still here, in the exact same spots, in pristine condition. Your room looked like it barely survived the hurricane that shared your name, yet his red cap was still resting quietly next to the flowers he got you. One of his sketchbooks, still opened on that drawing he never got to finish as he got too busy with school, was on the other nightstand, on his side of the bed. A pair of his dancing shoes were by the door, right next to your comfy slippers. They have been there for so long, that you couldnât enter your room without tripping over them and be reminded of his presence every single time. Hell, you bet if you checked right now, his toothbrush will still be next to yours in the cute holder you bought together, his razor not far away.
There were traces of him everywhere you looked in this apartment, clothes and necessities he left behind on his many visits. Like his football jersey, lucky number 20, youâve worn more times than him, hung in your open closet among empty hangers that barely held on.
It wasnât fair, how you seemed to crumble along with everything around you while he, and his stupid things, remained intact. The world shattered beneath your feet, freefalling to your doom of self-doubts and regrets while he continued with his life like nothing even happened. Like you never happened; like you werenât such a fundamental part in his life in the exact same way he was in yours.
Your ex boyfriend moved on in the blink of an eye, while you were still here, crying at the sight of a stupid toothbrush.
This will never be fair. Why did you always seem to draw the short end of the stick?
New beginnings were usually your favorite. Starting another book, turning a new leaf and switching up your wardrobe for a change, getting the inspiration for another song â these were all activities that brought you joy. Now, returning to campus at the end of summer vacation to begin another school year? For the first time since starting university two years ago, felt like an impossible task, one you werenât ready for in the slightest. Because how could you ever be ready to start your junior year without him?
How could you possibly embark on a new journey without him holding your hand and guiding you through it all, navigating around every hardship with ease like he was the most experienced sailor in existence?
You had no answers, only questions. Too many that were also too loud, bouncing off of the sturdy walls of your mind that were threatening to crumble with every thud, remaining standing only thanks to the unbearable headaches that reminded you to take a break from all the overthinking.
Your mind went quiet as another voice made its presence known, bringing you back to the world outside your bedroom while shooing the dark cloud above your head out the window with ease.
âOh my god, we lost the goddamn chair!â
A wet laugh escaped your lips, more tears rolling down your cheeks as you desperately tried to wipe them all before joining your friends in the living room. You werenât stupid â they were worried. Thatâs why Seohyun was moving in, in the first place. To keep an eye on you at all times, when the other two couldnât be there and provide the much needed support you craved so badly.
Not like they knew you were aware of their little plan, having them figured out from the moment they showed up at Chanâs doorstep in Australia, last month. Theyâve been tiptoeing around you since then, not knowing what emotional state you were in or whatâs changed or hasnât in the two months you spent apart. Sure, Chris might have filled them in, but they were still afraid. Afraid they were going to mess up somehow and have you slipping through their fingers and shatter at any moment, like you were nothing more than a fragile package, all progress lost the second something that reminded you of him jumped into your path.
And, you hate to admit but they were right.
They failed to take into consideration that even though your ex never actually moved in, the apartment was his as much as it was yours, quickly becoming your shared home as you fell into a routine that involved the other at every step.
Your three close friends were the only people present, but all you could see was him, a ghost roaming around and haunting every corner of the house you now despised, his giggles caressing your ears gently every time you moved from one room to the other.
Just being here felt like torture. How were you supposed to spend another two years sleeping in the same bed you shared with the person you thought was going to be your forever?
âSweetheart.â Chanâs gentle voice coaxes you out of the room as you manage to pull yourself together, no sign of crying or distress still present on your features. If anything, they looked worse than you, crestfallen and a little embarrassed.
âWe have something to tell you.â Seohyun steps closer, gently taking your hands into hers and intertwining your fingers loosely.
Jisung nods and is by your side in a second, throwing an arm around your shoulders as he lowers his mouth to your ear. âChris lost your new armchair.â
âWhat the fuck?!â
Your laughter joins theirs, a beat later, as Chris remains the only one standing there, arms crossed over his chest with his words falingl on deaf ears, nobody paying attention as he begins defending himself.
When youâre pulled into a warm embrace, with Jisungâs cologne enveloping all your senses, you canât help but start wondering. Is this a good time to finally reveal you never actually ordered a new chair orâŚ?
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Saturday slipped away into a moment in time, and before you knew it, Sunday was upon you. Your last chance at relaxing before the craziness began, and youâd be thrust into a series of new projects, classes and assignments that were already giving you a headache.
Despite spending the previous night celebrating a new beginning with your best friends, having an intimate pizza party with karaoke and a little too much alcohol, you wake up bright and early to get to a previously made appointment. Usually, you wouldnât go anywhere for the summer, for the first two months anyway. But since you flew out of the country as soon as your exams were over, you didnât get to help the animal shelter you have been volunteering at since your first year. It left a hole in your heart, and youâd be lying if you said you didnât feel guilty for disappearing into thin air, with nothing more than a text sent to the owner to let her know youâll be going away for a while.
Hopefully, theyâre willing to forgive and forget and let you make up for it by spending the next two months as involved as possible.
âGood morning, sweetheart.â Comes Chanâs groggy voice, still husky from all the singing he did last night, stumbling out of your spare bedroom with barely open eyes.
You startle, losing your balance while putting on your other shoe and crashing into the wall by the front door. You were hoping to make a swift escape and return before any of them rose since nobody in their right mind would willingly wake up this early.
He appears from around the corner, tank top slightly raised as heâs trying to scratch at his back. âYou good?â
âYep, everythingâs just peachy.â Regaining your footing, you manage to put your shoe on and turn your back to him to get a jacket, feeling too awkward to make eye contact right now, which Chan would have laughed about if he wasnât so sleepy.
âWhere are you going?â He yawns, turning to squint at the clock on the far wall, above the couch. âItâs literally 7 am, too early to even be alive right now.â
For some reason, you hesitate to tell him, too out of it for your, and most definitely his liking. Being here was certainly not doing you any good, the walls closing in every time you tried to breathe and lift all the broken pieces of your stupid heart off of your lungs. It felt suffocating, especially when you were left alone with your thoughts as you zoned out one too many times.
Still, you mumble under your breath, reaching for your keys as silently as possible.
âHuh?â
With a sigh, you finally face him, eyes downcast. âFurry Friends Rescue.â
The smile that stretches across his features as he processes your words is so wide and contagious, it brightens up the whole room like he was somehow related to the sun itself, light radiating off of him in waves. It wakes him up instantly, and before you know it, he slips into a pair of slides left by the door and flies to his apartment.
You look after him, confused, and step into the hallway at the same time he does.
âAlright, letâs go!â He beams, locking his door before reaching for your arm softly. âIâll drive you!â
âWait, are you sure? I can â â
âYes, Iâm sure!â He frowns, shaking his head and pulling you after him with his newfound energy. âYou love it there, and I know you already miss Berry. The least I can do is offer you a ride, are you kidding?â
You canât help but smile at the mention of his puppy, spirits lifted in an instant. She was such a special little lady and you really bonded in these three months youâve spent at his parentsâ house.
Your parents never allowed you to have a pet, with your mom being allergic, so you did what you could to fill the space that remained constantly empty in your heart.
The drive there is full of laughter and even more singing, with Chris bringing back one of the activities you loved doing since he first got his license back in high school. Carpool karaoke has always been a must in his car, and thatâs why you rode with Seohyun on your way back from the airport yesterday. You were a fool because nothing was quite as therapeutic as being silly and singing Disney songs at the top of your lungs with the only person whoâs watched you grow into the adult you are today.
The drive to your destination isnât long, but you still manage to squeeze in five songs before you get off and Chris speeds off. Only after wishing you a good day and making you promise youâll call once youâre done so he can come pick you up, too. He was too kind, willing to do too much for you sometimes, but you were just the same. Youâre afraid you might try moving the moon if he asked, one day.
Your annoying, overprotective brother who wasnât really your brother, whoâd push you into the pool before jumping in to save you in the same breath. He was such a guy.
Approaching with a prep to your step, the shelterâs surroundings have changed drastically since your last visit. The trees in the back have dyed their leaves in warm shades of orange and yellow, scattering some on the ground in hopes of attracting more pet lovers. A beautiful background always pulled people in, just like all pretty things did, and this autumn is particularly beautiful, with sights straight out of famous paintings. Seoul was truly a special city, one thatâs nurtured and taught you the meaning of the word love thatâs being thrown around too casually for your taste, these days. The city you grew up in, where you found your love for writing and composing, and where you met the most amazing people on this planet.
No other city could compare to your birthplace, no matter how pretty or modern it was.
Just as you make to try the door, with your apology speech all ready to go, it suddenly opens and forces you to take a few steps back in surprise.
âIâm sorry, we arenât open yet.â The apology comes from a tall man, whose delicate features would have fooled you into believing he wasnât older than a high schooler. Yet his physique begs to differ, you could tell even from beneath all the layers. Heâs wearing the shelterâs apron with the logo youâve had Jisung design a few years back. A new employee, perhaps? You donât recognize him, so thatâs most likely the case.
Your gaze travels upwards until it meets his brown eyes that fidget at the sudden contact. âSorry, Iâm here to see Mrs. Jeon?â
The stranger shakes his head, bleached blond hair hiding an undercut following his every move. âMrs. Jeon is out of the country.â
You wait for him to continue, provide more details but when he doesnât and only raises a brow that almost asks âwhat are you still doing here?â you sigh and turn to leave. âRight. Will you please tell her Y/n has stopped by?â
âWait, Y/n L/n?â
You turn right on your heel, both of your eyebrows raised as if to challenge his. âDo I know you?â
He brings his hands up, showing he means no harm as a smile finds his rosy lips, one you donât truly grasp the meaning of. âNo! But I know you.â
Alright, now youâre properly creeped out. Noticing the look on your face, the man quickly corrects himself, letting out an awkward laugh as he rubs the back of his head. âIâm sorry, Iâm not good with strangers. Mrs. Jeon does! I was recruited in your place when you didnât come back in June.â
Oh, so he was your replacement. Great. You had no idea youâd entered a race to see how fast people and places you frequented could replace you during the summer. Very motivating and uplifting. You should have stayed home.
âOh.â Despite all the thoughts overlapping each other in your head, you only manage to sigh, properly exhausted.
His eyes widen slightly, and without thinking, he grasps your elbow when you turn around to leave for good. âPlease do come in! Mrs. Jeon has been waiting to hear from you. She left a note.â
âA note?â When he nods, you shake off his hand and accept the invitation, stepping inside filled with curiosity.
All of the furry friends were in the back, in a separate space away from the reception. The place was modern, decorated in warm, pastel colors that seemed to welcome you with a fuzzy hug, the surroundings pristine. Furry Friends Rescue was built from the ground up by Mrs Jeonâs late husband, who passed away a few years back, right after you started volunteering here. To honor his life, she kept this place running, making it her mission to find loving homes for all the animals that were brought in, investing most of her resources into modernizing the place and treating the animals like they deserved to be treated.
The shelter housed a veterinary office and a pet salon, run by other volunteers who were experts in their fields, students alike and even working people who would come by to offer a helping hand whenever they could. Mr Jeon was a vet â he used to treat all of the animals before he fell sick and became unable to work.
Making his way around the reception desk, which truly resembled the entrance of a corporation, even with all the pet pictures plastered on all the walls, and the dog pattern on the couch, the man picks up a note that was next to the bone-shaped phone.
âHere.â
Your fingers brush his as you take the small paper from him, but you donât pay any attention to the slight color that appears on his cheeks.
Dear Y/n,
I hope your precious heart managed to heal during your trip
What fitting words for someone who had no idea why you left in the first place. Guess Mrs. Jeon knew you better than you thought, after all.
If youâre reading this, it means I have not yet returned from visiting my grandbabies. It also means Jaemin is the one looking after the place
Please work together until Iâm back. Heâs a nice kid and I believe youâll get along well
That is if youâre still willing to return. Always put yourself first. If quitting is what you think is best, just know Iâll never hold it against you
With love, grandma J
P.S. thereâs a surprise on the other side đ
Curious, you flip over the page, eyes scanning the familiar handwriting to decipher what has she left you. A giggle escapes you soon after, shaking your head with fondness spilling from your eyes at her antics. Youâre glad that after everything sheâs been through, Mrs. Jeon has never changed.
âIs something funny?â The guy youâve come to learn is named Jaemin asks from the other side of the desk, head tilted slightly in wonder making him resemble an actual puppy.
You dismiss him with a wave of your wrist, pocketing the note. Mrs. Jâs brownie recipe you could never get enough of wouldnât interest him anyway.
âSo, youâre Jaemin?â You finally ask, giving him a once-over. He was tall, wearing a denim-on-denim outfit and smiled a little too brightly for your liking. Still, he did look like a nice guy, so you might as well give him a chance, even if meeting someone knew was the last thing you wanted to do.
As expected, he beams, thrusting a hand forward over the desk. âThatâs me! Nice to meet you, Y/n. Iâve heard a lot about you.â
You give him a small but genuine smile and shake his hand. âIâm a third year at SNU so I usually volunteer here during summer vacation. I hope we get along.â
He nods, listening to your every word. âYeah, Mrs. Jeon mentioned we go to the same university. Iâm a second year majoring in dance! Iâm also a part of the football team so I apologize in advance if I ever end up leaving you here all alone when the season starts.â
Oh, what were the odds?
Your smile drops despite your effort in not reacting, retracting your hand a little too quickly while nodding and trying to act as normal as possible. âCool.â
Turning around, you begin walking in the opposite direction to escape from this awkward situation Mrs. J has unknowingly put you in.
âShall we go see the animals?â
Heâs on your tail soon after, grabbing another apron on the way for you with that ever present sunny smile of his. Jaemin reminded you of a hyperactive puppy, a golden retriever who would do anything to make you happy, pulling silly stunts and stumbling over his own feet.
Turns out, his bright personality isnât the only reason Mrs. J has hired Jaemin. You spend the next four hours together, taking care of the animals and talking, to your surprise. They all seemed to love him already, causing a ruckus at the mere sight of him, excited to be let out and greet you both properly. The puppies especially as theyâd run back and forth from you to him without stopping for a while, barely managing to bottle feed them in their excitement. Jaemin was nice, and easy to talk to, happy to get to know you but also talk your ear off when sensing you might need a laugh, managing to make everything funny. A great pick me up, you ended up agreeing with Mrs Jâs statement â he was a good guy, the best that could have replaced you and helped her and all the staff in your absence.
For some reason, he felt comfortable opening up to you, and in turn, you told him some things about yourself too.
âWhat made you want to volunteer here?â He suddenly asks while cradling a noisy kitten, the sight comical.
You barely think before answering, gaze still trained on the bichon that has fallen asleep in your lap while you were brushing her. âI wasnât allowed to have pets growing up, and Iâve always loved them. I was lucky my best friend had the most adorable puppy in the world right next door, but it wasnât the same as owning one, you know?â
Jaemin nods, finally calming the kitten, eyes on you. âOh, that sucks. I couldnât imagine life without my two babies at home.â
You look up, curious. âYou have dogs?â
âTwo cats.â He throws a peace sign, chuckling when you smile. âIâm from Busan, so I only get to see them on holidays. I thought coming here and helping out four days a week might help me miss them less.â
âAnd? Does it help?â You point to the kitten that has fallen asleep in his arms, head crocked to the side weirdly. Looking down, he laughs and sets her in his lap, using his knuckles to gently pet between her ears, one of his hands as big as her whole body.
âIt does, actually.â He smiles absentmindedly, most likely reminiscing about his fur babies. âBut only momentarily. When Iâm back in my dorm room, I still feel their absence.â
âIâm sorry.â Is all you say, a deep pang of sadness hitting you out of nowhere. You guess this is how Chris and Jisung feel as well, both away from their respective dogs theyâve more or less grown up with.
Jaemin shakes his head, still smiling and not as sad as youâd thought heâd be. âNone of that. I facetime my mom every night just to see them.â
âThatâs cute.â A smile finds its way on your face as you imagine him using the same baby voice he uses with the animals here on the phone with his mom, cooing at his cats.
âYouâre cute.â
An uncharacteristic silence falls upon you as Jaemin searches for your gaze, dying to understand your reaction. It wasnât uncomfortable, just weird, making you feel like you were doing something wrong. Which made no sense. Jisung and Chan called you cute all the time; not out of nowhere, but when the moment was right. Heck, Seohyun would write entire pages praising your beauty whenever you posted on Instagram â you knew you were cute. But this was different, this was someone that meant it romantically, you could tell. He was flirting with you, shooting his shot and seeing where it landed.
That wasnât something you could reciprocate, especially not now.
When he notices the look in your eyes, the storm brewing behind them, he adds. âI was talking about Belle over there.â
You look down at Belle, the fluffy bichon in your lap, who is currently sleeping soundly on her back, tummy up and randomly kicking her feet once in a while, dreamland surely rowdy.
âShut up.â You laugh a moment later, appreciating how fast he took the hint and backed off, leaning over to softly push him on the doggy mats, to which he pretends to fall just for your amusement.
With that out of the way, things return to normal quickly and before you know it, the other volunteers arrive and youâre biding Jaemin goodbye and going on your merry way, back to your apartment.
Itâs afternoon now, hopefully your friends are awake by now.
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They were in fact, not awake. Jisung just moved himself from the spare bedroom he shared with Chris for the night to the living room couch to sleep some more, without having to deal with the otherâs snoring. Seohyun was buried in your blanket, hiding from the world, in the same position she was in when you left that morning.
Like it or not, it seems their bodies were incapable of pulling all-nighters after doing it for so many years without suffering the day after. Hopefully, you all manage to fix your sleep schedules before your classes start properly, not wanting to miss too many and be left behind, confused out of your minds and barely figuring it out by the time exam season rolls around.
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âIâm sleepy.â Seohyun complains, reaching up to rub her eyes before remembering the pretty eyeliner currently gracing her eyelids and stopping at the last second, groaning.
You giggle, full of energy from the coffee Chris made sure got into your system before your first class, swirling the ice in your cup absentmindedly, mind somewhere else.
Busy on his phone, he doesnât even look up as he responds. âYou barely made it to class this morning and youâre still complaining?â
Monday, 10:15 am. Your first class of the day officially ended fifteen minutes ago and as youâve been doing for two years now, your friend group meet up at your favorite location, the diner closest to campus that has become some sort of sanctuary by now.
Seohyun was majoring in communication so she did not share your classes yet somehow, the four of you have started the new school year in the same way â with a boring, way too long 8 am lecture that almost erased your will to live.
She shoots him a dirty look he doesnât notice, but otherwise doesnât respond, too tired to bother with Chris and his top student agenda. Because being popular, good at sports and everyoneâs friend wasnât enough for him; your best friend was the academic weapon every freshman aspired to be, without trying too hard either. Hands down the most gifted and smartest person you know.
âYou did go to bed super late last night.â You reach for her hand across the table, gently massaging her palm in hopes sheâll feel a bit better.
Just then, Jisung returns with your drinks, handing them out one by one like he was a barista himself. When heâs done and you all thank him, he takes his seat across from you and Chris, next to Seohyun. âWhat did I miss?â
âSeohyun was complaining.â Chris responds instantly, fingers typing away. What could be more interesting than spending time with your closest friends?
âOh, so nothing new.â
At the same time, you softly smack the back of Chrisâ head while she smacks Jisung, with a little more force, only the latter reacting loudly.
âStop being mean.â You reprimand, and Chris puts his phone down with a sigh, leaning back in his chair to stretch his arms above his head.
âFor your information, being late was not my fault.â Seohyun chimes in, finally in the mood to explain herself after taking several sips of her coffee. âThis random guy ran straight into me, I was tackled to the ground!â
Concern flashes over your features. âAre you okay?â
She nods. âYeah, donât worry. He helped me up and gathered all of my books while apologizing. Then I met up with Ji and he carried my bag to class.â
Both you and Chris shoot Jisung a curious look, not convinced he went through all of that trouble out of the kindness of his own heart.
âIn my defense,â Jisung shrugs, his arm thrown over the booth behind Seohyunâs head, âI really did not want to come to class.â
Chris chuckles and sips from his strawberry milkshake while you shake your head, smiling and pinching the back of Jisungâs hand that was resting on the table, to which he retaliates by throwing the straw paper in your face.
âTo be honest, I wasnât paying attention either so heâs not entirely to blame here.â She continues like neither of you has said anything, resting her head in her palm with a dreamy look in her eyes. âBesides, he was fucking gorgeous. I swear Iâve never seen such a beautiful man before. And his freckles? Literal constellations right on his cheeks, oh my god.â
âOkay, Juliet, pipe down.â Jisung flicks her forehead and she swats his hand away, glaring.
Amused, you lean closer with interest. âDid you get his name?â
She shakes her head. âNoâ Then, her gaze moves to Chris. âThatâs why, I need you to find him for me.â
Raising a brow, he reaches for your drink to have a taste before responding. âWhat am I, the local newspaper? Youâre the one who bumped into him.â
âYes, but you literally know everyone on campus.â
He makes a face, deeming your drink too bitter for his taste. âSo do you.â
That was true. Seohyun was the definition of a social butterfly, mingling with all cliques and being liked by everyone she came into contact with. However, she was also very perceptive so if someoneâs vibe seemed off, she could come across as cold and aloof, not giving them the time of day.
âPlease?â She continues, resorting to the infamous puppy eyes. âThis guy might be the love of my life, Chris, please help me.â
âWhat about Mark?â Jisung buts in, giving her a questioning look. Immediately, you and Chris signal for him to cut it out, abort the ship and never utter that name for as long as he draws breath.
Seohyunâs gaze drops to her cup, manicured finger moving back and forth on the edge, pretending she didnât hear any of the words that have left Jisungâs mouth. To his credit, Jisung looks a little guilty, arm sliding over her shoulder and squeezing briefly in a silent apology, hoping it will be enough to fix things.
The probability of this mystery guy being the love of her life was low, but Chris seemed to feel bad enough to give in, exhaling deeply. Seohyunâs track record wasnât great â for some reason, she always fell for emotionally unavailable guys, with her latest situationship ending not too long ago once she realized Mark did not want anything serious.
She didnât deserve all that. Seohyun was the sweetest, kindest person you knew, with a heart of gold. If anyone deserved to find true love and grow old with rosy cheeks, still feeling butterflies at the mention of her belovedâs name no matter how many years passed, it was her. And youâd be damned if you didnât try to make that happen.
âLetâs find this pretty boy of yours.â You smile as Chris nods, enjoying the way her face gradually lights up.
âReally?���
âIâd feel like I kicked a puppy while it was down if I didnât, so what the hell. Weâve done crazier things anyways.â Chris adds and she squeals, getting out of the booth to come over and hug him, suddenly excited.
âOh!â She rushes back to her seat, instantly rummaging through her bag. âThis is his. I think it got mixed up with my books when I dropped them. He was in a hurry.â
The three of you huddle together as she places a small notebook on the table, curious about its contents that might reveal the identity of Seohyunâs prospective newâŚsomething. Letâs hope boyfriend, and nobody that treats her less than that.
Chris is the one who dares open it, flipping through the pages in wonder.
âThese areâŚrecipes?â He blinks, drawing a blank as the measurements for the perfect âgooey browniesâ stare him right in the face.
None of you says anything for a moment, the gears in your head turning and working simultaneously before Jisung breaks the silence with an unexpected outburst.
âOh my god, heâs a fucking loser!â
Safe to say, he got smacked a couple more times before your next class of the day. Lovingly, of course.
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With everyone promising to ask around for Seohyunâs prince charming, you go on with your day until your last class, when you established to meet again for a little get together with all of your other friends.
The sun was starting to set, casting a warm, golden hue that extended throughout the whole campus, creating mesmerizing surroundings you could barely look away from. Thankfully by now, youâre outside, enjoying the warm breeze and nice weather that might not return any time soon as the days will only continue to get shorter and shorter as time passes.
Youâre currently near the football field, cutting through near the bleachers to get to the other side where Chris and his swimming team are currently meeting. Seohyun is skipping a few feet in front of you, obviously in good spirits.
âDidnât know Chris needed a chaperone.â She teases, turning to you with a smile as she starts walking backwards.
You chuckle. âWell, he is our ride.â
âWe could have walked.â She stretches her arms as if to prove a point. âItâs such a beautiful day! Itâs a shame we have to miss out on the rest of it, too.â
You were on your way to a bar, a new one that opened all the way in Hongdae. The owner has invited 3racha, Chris and Jisungâs music group personally, so it would be rude to not show up, even if you did share her sentiment. If it were up to you, youâd be in bed, snuggling already, but your friends have made it a point to keep you out of the house as much as possible.
âJust say thank you, Seohyun.â
âThank you, Seohyun, for being the hottest girl around!â
You both laugh, enjoying each otherâs company before she turns back around and resumes her skipping, long, bleached hair flowing freely behind her in the prettiest way. As you reach for your phone to record her for memories, a speck of red gets your attention in an instant.
You keep walking but your eyes are glued to the field now, to the eight or so guys dressed in the white and red uniform of your universityâs American football team. Your heart rate picks up in an instant, scanning their jersey numbers in a hurry.
Relief floods your system when you donât find what youâre looking for, slowing down. These guys looked young, most likely freshmen trying out for a spot in the most famous football team your university has had in years. You didnât know how that worked, your memory failed you as you tried to remember when tryouts took place. It seemed a little too early for all that though, too soon to be looking for new people when the season kicked off somewhere in October, a good month and a half away. You couldnât help but wonder why the hurry.
âY/n! Watch out!â
Seohyunâs screaming startles you out of your thoughts, your eyes coming into focus to see a football flying right in your direction, quickly approaching your head. Before you know it, youâre ducking and running, feeling bad for snoozing and interfering with practice. Of course, this had to happen, you were cursed after all. You could never be near a sports field without something hitting you, no matter how small or insignificant the object, it always had to make contact with your face.
However, you donât make it very far before you come to an abrupt stop as you collide with something or better said, someone, the impact causing you to stumble a few steps back until rough, gloved hands stabilize you by the shoulders.
When you regain your footing and finally look up at your saviour, your heart actually stops.
Because the one looking back, right through you is none other than Hyunjin. Your Hyunjin.
Or actually, he wasnât yours anymore, now, was he?
Hyunjin whoâs written his name across your heart in golden letters, that suddenly lit up at the mere sight of him. Your ex-boyfriend looked almost unrecognizable, his short black hair replaced by long, bleached locks that were pushed back, away from his face in a little ponytail.
You were a fool to think he wouldnât be here. He was the captain after all and the coach was nowhere in sight.
The air wasnât entering your lungs anymore, yet somehow you were still breathing, being kept afloat by his familiar hands on your skin, so overly conscious of his touch that you barely registered the shiver running down your spine.
After three months apart with no communication, Hyunjin was finally looking at you, forced to acknowledge your presence. It felt a little surreal, bumping into him so soon. Sure, you were expecting it, but not on your very first day back to campus, not when you still havenât processed the fact that you werenât together anymore. Everything in you longed for him and all his endearing quirks, even after all this time; even after he broke your heart.
You donât dare look away, and neither does he, enthralled by those beautiful eyes of his that used to watch your every move with so much love and care. Now, you donât see any of these emotions, but there is an intensity to his gaze that you canât quite put your finger on. Time always seemed to come to a stop when you were with him and right now it was no different. All of your surroundings faded, leaving him the sole object of your attention.
There was a new piercing adorning his face, right under his bleached eyebrow. It looked good, like everything he deemed worthy enough to leave a mark on his body. But that wasnât what got your heart beating again, pounding against your ribcage at an alarming pace he was sure to hear even from afar.
Without looking away, his hands slide down your arms slowly, and for a brief moment, you think theyâre going to find solace in yours, just like theyâve done for all these years. By the surprise flickering in his eyes, you believe he thought of the same thing, catching himself at the last second and taking a step back, arms falling to his side heavily.
âYo, what the fuck was that?â A new voice has you both snapping out of it, finally allowing you to look away and escape the staring war neither had the resources to win. Itâs familiar, and as someone stops right by your side, seemingly out of nowhere, thereâs no doubt in your mind about his identity.
âY/n, are you okay?
You blink, and the magic from before finally dissipates completely, almost like the spell Hyunjin has got you under broke the moment he made himself busy by reaching for his helmet on the ground. When you manage to tear your eyes from him, Yeonjun, one of his friends and teammates, comes into view and places a hand on your shoulder in concern. The ball that almost collided with your head is under his other arm, and you notice that heâs not wearing his gloves as he should be.
Eventually, you nod, looking straight into his eyes while mustering your most convincing smile. âYeah, donât worry. Nothing even happened.â
âIt almost did.â He states, glaring towards the group of men who seemed glued on the spot. âIf it werenât for Hyunjin, things might have ended badly.â
You look away, not knowing how to act around them anymore. Hyunjin doesnât respond either, just moves out of the way as Seohyun sprints to your rescue, pulling your body into the tightest hug and putting some distance between you and the two men.
âAre you okay? Youâre not hurt anywhere, right?â Sheâs instantly checking you all over, dusting invisible dirt off your clothes before patting your head lovingly, just like a mother would do to comfort her sobbing child. Truthfully speaking, you werenât far from turning into one, but the mortification of bursting into tears in front of all these people kept your emotions in check. You reckon a football to the face would have hurt less than having Hyunjin treat you like a stranger heâs meeting for the first time, barely reacting to your sudden appearance.
In hindsight, him reacting differently was almost impossible. Especially in the way youâd want him to react. Hyunjin had changed right before your very eyes in the last months before your relationship ended, burying his sweet and sensitive nature so deep down that you feared it might have gotten erased permanently.
Grasping her hands, you nod to calm her racing mind. âIâm fine, mom.â Then, you turn to Yeonjun again. âSorry for interrupting practice like that. I should have been more careful.â
You hear Hyunjin scoff from somewhere behind you, still not brave enough to show his face, while Yeonjun shakes his head vehemently. âNonsense. You did nothing wrong. Those guys though? They did plenty.â
He squeezes your shoulder reassuringly before excusing himself to join said guys, voice loud and annoyed. âWho were you passing that to? Are you fucking blind or just stupid?â
Yeonjun had no authority over them, not like Hyunjin did anyway. But he was still a seasoned player, one thatâs been with the team for two years, so his words carried significant weight. He was a year older than all of you yet only decided to give football a chance in his second year, joining the team at the same time as Hyunjin. Their roles on the team were the opposite of each other â while Hyunjin was on the offensive, Yeonjun was a defensive player in charge of keeping the other team as far away as possible. Yet, they clicked and worked so well together that the probability of SNU losing a game with both of them present was close to none.
Bonding outside the field proved just as easy and before you knew it, Yeonjun became one of Hyunjinâs treasured friends, bringing their envied teamwork to more events than necessary.
For these guys to have a chance before the coach, they first needed to impress these two. And one thing about Hyunjin was that he was very hard to impress, especially in the areas he excelled in.
Your eyes naturally gravitate towards him along with your thoughts, his magnetic field still as strong as always. To your utter surprise, he moved to stand a little further away, facing his potential new teammates.
âWho threw that?â
The sound of his voice alone is enough to overwhelm you, suddenly way too emotional to keep still, to manage to keep your cool and act as nonchalant as he was. You havenât heard that voice in so long, youâre sure youâd have collapsed if he as much as uttered your name.
Your name on his tongue has always been your favorite sound, no other word ever coming close to having that same effect.
Sheepishly, one of the guys steps forward while rubbing the back of their necks, visibly taken aback by the coldness in Hyunjinâs voice.
Hyunjinâs eyes narrow just as Seohyun links her arm through yours and tugs your body closer.
âApologize.â
âYes, captain!â He nods instantly, bowing repeatedly in Hyunjinâs direction to show exactly how sorry he feels for disappointing him. âIâm ââ
âNot to me.â Hyunjin crosses his arms over wide chest, shoulder blade plates making him look even more intimidating as he stands to his full height, rolling his eyes. âTo her.â
Your eyes widen as the guy looks up, searching for you with confusion visible even through his big helmet. Hesitantly, he changes targets, stopping before you and Seohyun.
âHyunjin â â You manage to squeak out, hating the way your voice almost gets caught in your throat, heat rushing to your face.
âLet him apologize.â His gaze travels to you leisurely, impatience clear in usual doe eyes.
But you arenât far behind, a little annoyed by his insistence, managing to pull yourself together to counter. âI donât think thatâs necessary.â
âAnd last I checked, I didnât ask for your opinion.â As quick-witted as always, Hyunjin isnât even looking at you anymore, not bothering to react in any other way, like you werenât even worth getting annoyed at. âHe made a mistake that under normal circumstances, could have cost us the game. He needs to own up to it and apologize not only to you but to his teammates as well.â
Then, the guy seems to get smaller under his sharp gaze, instantly dropping into a deep bow and obeying Hyunjinâs words to a T. âIâm so sorry for throwing the ball in your direction!â In the next second, heâs spinning around and bowing to the other guys as Seohyun struggles to keep in her laughter at his next words. âIâm sorry for being an idiot!â
To his credit, Hyunjin hasnât addressed him as such, always one to keep things professional. Yet, you notice the slight twitch of his mouth, obviously pleased and amused as Yeonjun bursts out laughing.
The guys bow in return, and suddenly theyâre all shouting apologies at each other, owning up to all of the little mistakes theyâve made up until now that mightâve inconvenienced the other in some way, feeling bad for possibly giving anyone a hard time.
Not being able to hold it in anymore, your best friend almost collapses from laughter, needing to walk it off to calm down, only to start again as she locks eyes with Yeonjun a little farther away.
Youâre so taken aback that you donât even know how to react, watching the scene before you as flabbergasted as one could get. It was wholesome to see these kids already acting like a team but a part of you couldnât help but feel bad once it remembered none might actually get to play and represent their university on the field. Hyunjin was trying to instil some discipline into them, but at what cost? What was the point?
Just as youâre contemplating everything that happened, the eight guys suddenly stop and turn to bow in Hyunjinâs direction as well, apologizing at the same time like itâs an activity theyâve rehearsed beforehand. It gets quiet as they wait for an answer, not even daring to raise their heads and see Hyunjinâs reaction, just patiently waiting for the go ahead so they can go back to practice.
Since when was Hyunjin running this team like the fucking marines?
Despite not looking at him, when Hyunjin nods they all stand to their full heights before him, awaiting further instructions. The mood shifts, all tense and serious like they werenât sweet and wholesome just a moment ago.
âSince none of you seem able to handle one of these yet,â he barely finishes his sentence before Yeonjun passes him the ball, catching it with ease to hold up for the others to see. It all happened so quickly and naturally, that the others most likely didnât notice, but you did. Hyunjin isnât using his dominant hand. âyouâll be running laps until the coach gets here. Whoever is not up for it, drop your gears â youâre out.â
Youâre expecting complaints and groans in protest but instead, they all nod and succumb to their miserable fates, doing exactly what Hyunjin has instructed. A little further away, you notice Yeonjun laughing without shame, having a blast at their expense.
âAsshole.â Seohyun murmurs, rolling her eyes, and youâre unsure who sheâs talking about. âLetâs go. Any more time and Chris will send his speedo wearing army out in the wild to look for us.â
You want to laugh, to agree, and turn your back on this incident and leave without a word. But you canât, feet lodged into place like you were standing on the biggest patch of mud around.
Hyunjinâs back was already to you, form cladded in that familiar uniform youâve felt under your fingertips for years. The 20 under his surname written in capital letters on his jersey were almost mocking you, mad for holding their twin hostage in your mess of a closet. It doesnât matter â in a month or so, theyâll be replaced in favour of a new design that comes around every new season. Just like your presence in his life will inevitably be filled by someone else; someone better, capable of loving him at his worst.
You had so much to say, so many words eager to escape and latch onto him, to get his attention and feed from it, growing bolder and more desperate with every second spent by his side. Hyunjin always brought the best out of you â until he broke things off. Then everything just came to a stop. Like someone lifted the stylus off of a vinyl before the song got the chance to come to an end, damaging the record and your ears in the process.
You loved music but suddenly, your life was quiet.
Hyunjin has been your muse for the entirety of your relationship, all of your songs based on him and the love that managed to blossom thanks to your shared effort. The butterflies and the fireworks all faded without a trace, making your music sound bland and meaningless, off-key since the one who inspired it was no longer there.
You wanted to call out his name, get him to stop and not leave you behind again but you didnât know how, unable to without bursting into tears and breaking down for everyone to see. Hyunjin has been a part of your life for so many years, how were you ever supposed to start acting like he never was? Erasing him and the mark he left would surely be impossible without a potion of sorts, some Eternal Sunshine mechanism that will ensure your brain will be tricked into believing he was never here, to begin with.
Seohyun is off to the side, giving you the space needed to put your thoughts in order, for your next move. This was your chance, the moment youâve been waiting for.
But you couldnât do it. You couldnât run after him no matter how loudly your heart was screaming in protest.
So, you turn around and latch onto your best friend as she begins pulling you along, quick to come to your rescue as always. Struggling to keep it together, with tears welling up in your eyes, you miss the way he turns to look in your direction one more time. One last time.
Youâve always believed Hyunjin was the love of your life, the one youâd grow old holding hands with.
Now, your perspective has changed, as did the main character role he has played in your story for the past five years. No longer was he the charming male lead, the prince coming in on a white horse to swoop you off your feet in a grand gesture of romance.
Hyunjin was the loss of your life. The one that managed to get away even with the tight grip youâve tried to keep on his heart.
Hyunjin transformed into a background character that wonât be there for the ride, and wonât get to witness the new developments happening from now on in your life.
You would have rather been the one written off the story if it meant keeping him. Unfortunately, that was not a possibility since without you, there wouldnât be a story to begin with.
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hey girl! i was wondering if i could order a drink? i was thinking a dirty flirtini with Oscar with the prompt "the fastest way to shut me up is to kiss me" - maybe it's the first time oscars been really bold and she's surprised but definitely not complaining - or you can make something new!
also holy shit 10k congrats you deserve it and so much more ily <33
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23. "The fastest way to shut me up is to kiss me."
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Oscar would never consider himself a big drinker, Australian stereotypes be damned.
A big part of that was the fact he never really had a chance to drink or party. Despite what people assumed about the lavish life of a Formula One driver, nine times out of ten, he was too tired to even keep his eyes open on the elevator ride up to his hotel room, let alone go out to a club after the race. He wasnât even sure how some of the other drivers managed to do it.
However, it was the race weekend just before summer break and it seemed like he didnât have much of an excuse but to go out with the rest of the paddockâespecially with Lando threatening to drag him out of his hotel room to do so.Â
And honestly, he hadnât planned to drink much that night. He thought he would nurse a few drinks over a couple of hours, show his face for a decent amount of time and talk to a couple of people before he could sneak off.Â
That plan quickly went down the drain when Oscar noticed you were hanging around the McLaren group for the night and the nerves had him chugging down drinks far faster than he should have.Â
Next thing he knew, he was drunk and giggly and, because the universe was against him, left alone with you.
If he was sober, it wouldnât have been that bad. Oscar had gotten pretty good at hiding his obvious feelings for you, considering he had been doing as much since his first day. He thought it was a fleeting crush, one that would disappear as the season continued.Â
Unfortunately for him, it did not. And even more unfortunately for him, it seemed like drunk Oscar didnât have the same control over the words leaving his lips.
âYou look really pretty today,â was the first thing for him to blurt out.Â
You turned to face him in the booth you both were huddled in. You raised your brows in surprise, but there was a smile on your face which was a good sign for him, at least.Â
âJust today?â You teased.
âNo,â he said, so definitely as he shook his head in response. âYou are pretty every day. I always think it. I just donât say it. Which is stupid because I should tell you but I donât want you thinking I am some weirdo who just stares at you all day. But Lando says I am already.â
âI wouldnât think you are a weirdo, Osc,â you reassured him.Â
âI like the way you say my name, too,â Oscar mumbled out, leaning his head against the back of the booth as he turned to look at you. âLike, so much better than when anyone else says it. I think everyone else should be banned from saying it because it will never sound as pretty as it does when you say it.âÂ
Your grin widened. âYouâre really talkative tonight, Iâve never seen you like this.â
Oscar blinked. âDo you want me to shut up?â
You opened your mouth, but he bet you to it.
âBecause the fastest way to shut me up is to kiss me,â he blurted out. And this time, he at least had the decency to look flustered by his own words.
Your palm felt warm when it landed on his arm. âAnd if I donât want you to shut up?â
âUh,â Oscar cleared his throat. âYou can still kiss me, if you want. I wonât complain. Like, at all. If anything, I would probablyââ
But he never quite got the chance to finish what he was saying. Not that he really remembered, not when you had placed your lips on his and every coherent thought disappeared from his brain.Â
âYeah,â he murmured against your lips. âTold you it would shut me up.â
You laughed, smiling fondly. âI happen to quite like your rambles, Osc. Just as much as your kisses.â
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FINANCE 102 (?). EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE TO MAKE THIS MUCH IN ONLY A YEAR IN PASSIVE INCOME
& this time I even brought receipts.
Apart from the not even subtle flex, this year has easily been one of my most successful financial years yet. When I say passive income we are not counting investment returns (that financial statement isn't out yet and does not matter, it's automatically reinvested. Not even for flexing purposes, there are a few things I need you to understand about me and these numbers:
First, none of this is salary. I work a medium wage job that pays in four figures monthly. It also does not include other income sources that require my involvement. Passive is the key term.
Second, apart from right at the start, I've had no personal involvement in any of these sources. None. Not even calls or texts or emails, fully automated.
Third, it is all tax free. It all belongs to me. One of them is after tax but the rest are 100% what I've made.
These are three completely different streams, and these are between November last year to date. One year.
No it's easy or simple or fast.
(sidenote) I take my financial statements in Nov and plan for the new year bc i don't count dec as even part of a productive year.
My passive income (including investments) is my largest source of income and will always be.
(because I will always bring the receipts)
I am no financial guru so I can not directly give you financial education, but I can tell you what I do and if you get it, good for you.
Soo then, steps I've taken to be able to get to this financial position at 24 (I turn 25 next month btw;) ) from, well, since as far back as I can remember. It's a process.
-> First, Investing heavily in financial education. What has this looked like for me?
I've probably gone to 30+ finance seminars and workshops centered around investment, asset management and wealth distribution. I went to my first at 19 and last in March. If i have to pay I will. If i need to skip town, I will. I go, i listen, I ask questions, I make connections. I make a plan of what I want to learn and focus on that, not haphazardly consuming content as long as it's finance related.
Finance bros (is a gender-neutral term pls). It is a finance bro that told me to buy my first ecommerce business before covid hit. It was a finance bro that got me to buy the business that has made me the last screenshot for less that 10k. It was a finance bro that taught me to work low wage and make my bank in assets so I don't overpay in tax. It was my finance bros to teach me what to invest where and how to keep my banks offshore and to set up my trust fund (plus law girlies ofc mwah) and get my LLC. Finance bros save lives. I'm not good with money. I have people that are good with money.
-> Second, i tied up my loose ends early enough. Loose ends? Yes, the financial vampires that had no return on investment.
First is societal obligation aka giving back to the community. Wrapped that up in mentorship and volunteering (a lot because I'm not giving my money to people that have more than me that's wild.
Second- my family. Shout out and huge fat thank you to my extended family for being extremely sh!tty openly to me and my nuclear family when we were younger so absolutely no one faults me for cutting them off amen. For my nuclear family it is kind of obvious whoever is the most financially advanced provides for the family and that's fine if it means a set amount every month not calling me whenever you want some baby shower or whatever. Loose end. Set up investment accounts for each of them and invested monthly up from my third year of high school to second year of uni (Three- four years) while teaching them how to make money work for you then just- pulled back. No one can say I abandoned them and every four months if I want to instead of sending money home I send it to their accounts. Tied up that loose end bc they can reaally reallllly bankrupt you if you're not careful.
-> third, always focusing on the ROI and what is important to me. If it does not have a higher return on investment what do I even need it for? What does this mean?
It means befriending the kids at Fashion and textile faculty in uni and having them teach me how to work clothes and make up into my body and into achieving the lifestyle i want through them and then finding my ROI.
Having my eyeliner tattooed for <50$ in my home country so I don't need to buy eyeliner and reapply every ten minutes. It means getting my bags made for <50 each in my home country too instead of buying a high quality bag for God knows how much in my Country of residence.
It means buying stocks not bags and dresses because one appreciates and the other depreciates and dresses are not important to me.
It means perfecting my thrift game because i value quality, not price tags.
It means moving to a higher end area although rent is higher because the security, the gym, the people, the amenities, all things that are of value to me.
It means investing in things that I know will give me a high return in investment and using my money to buy value, not things. Before I even touch my money for purchase I am already calculating its value vs my value system vs return on investment.
-> Fourth, Building discipline. I have invested the MOST in this area. I can not even stress this enough - discipline is the highest value skill you can ever learn. According to google discipline is "the practice of training people to obey rules or a code of behavior, using punishment to correct disobedience". And that is exactly how I did it, used punishment to correct myself.First, deciding the rules and code of behavior I wanted to follow. Second, making myself follow it using the nacient learning method, reward and punishment- where reward is normalcy and punishment is just :).
In high school, running for double captainship because that would force me to work and work hard. The pressure of the expectations just one captainship demanded was hell, make that two plus having to keep my scholarship and yeah. One wrong move and I'd be stripped of them both, and that forced me to never make mistakes. And it was really, really hard to not make mistakes.
Knowing my ADHD brain has an extremely hard time being consistent, I learned pretty early I need external help to keep myself in check. Realized that help has to come from someone I respected after trying to make it work with friends and failing. My first mentor cost me a good 5000$ every month (not so high it would paralyze me but high enough i felt the pressure) and when I slipped up i owed them 500$ on the floor. Missed something on my to do list with no good excuse? 500$. Failed my exams? Ate junk? Bought something without considering the ROI? Did not reach my health goals ? 500$. On the spot. No stories no argument no nothing. You mess up six times and the seventh you just automatically cry even before you think of messing up because damn. Reward and punishment. After a while (One year to be exact) it gets so deeply programmed its part of my ADHD.
Accountability partners. Exclusive. High functioning. A pretty 1200$ every month but I don't mind, it's worth it. Extremely high ROI.
-> Heavily investing in myself because I will always give myself the highest ROI.
Blood checks every quarterly because my health is everything. (Chinese herbalists, extremely cheap).
Educating myself heavily in all the fields that are important to me. Communicaton. Languages (Learning my tenth if we count sign language as a language and eleventh if we count braille). Gut health (Filthily educated in this bad boy. PHD level). Psychology and human behavior. Using fashion, beauty and styling to work for me. Violin. Equestrian. Everything I like. Double bachelors and a weird number of accredited certifications.
Therapy. I'm no longer in therapy but this was probably the best thing I ever did. Worth every dime. Went through six therapists until i found my stoic reality-based gem that was not trying to make me feel better but get better and survive the world as is.
My social life and friendships. Not even for social climbing, more for having friends and building my community and tribe. I'm not a lone wolf or sigma I'm a social person that's also part of a social species. Pouring into my friendships and networks has had a super impressive ROI and has been worth the trouble.
My reputation and social / public image. Nothing I guard harder than this, not even my money. I am not an idgafer i will never be. A good name is better than riches. I actually care what people say about me and carefully manipulate them into saying what I want.
Skill amassing especially in areas in consider essential. Home keeping. Sewing. Personal finance. Health and nutrition. Social skills. IT. Music. &c &c.
(will probably add as I remember. will also probably delete there's something really cringy about bringing receipts)
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cinnamon girl - kamo choso
âŠâË.ââžââşâ⧠10k follower event special! âŠâË.ââžââşâ⧠word count: 17.3k warnings: i think none? summary: the brothers who are your neighbors across the hall settle inside of your heart as if there had been a space inside of it left just for them. more info: neighbors to friends to lovers. super cute big brother/little brother choso and yuji dynamic <3
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[ thereâs things i wanna say to you, but iâll just let you live // like if you hold me without hurting me, youâll be the first who ever did // thereâs things i wanna talk about, but better not to give // but if you hold me without hurting me, youâll be the first who ever did ]
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When sheâd first met her neighbors across the hall, (y/n) hadnât known they were her neighbors. At the time sheâd still been new to the building, having only lived there for under a month, and she hadnât quite found the time (or courage) to introduce herself to the other residents on her floor. Going door to door seemed corny, and she figured over time theyâd see each other in passing, but it appeared her floor was rather quiet. Maybe they all worked at odd hours, or from home and never left their apartment, but either way, sheâd barely met anyone in the building. Â
Save for the uppity property manager and a few of the maintenance crew. Neither of which she took much pleasure in interacting with. Neither of which provided much room for forming friendships. Â
Although one of the maintenance guys who fixed her broken dishwasher would have been more than happy to accept her number, as heâd tried multiple times to leave his personal number in the case of any other âemergenciesâ as he called them. Now she tried to DIY her way out of any issue the small apartment gave her, just so she could avoid having him sent to her again.
But a month into her lease, sheâs still a stranger to what feels like the entire complex, and sheâd gone to the mail room to check her mailbox. As usual it was empty, and despite having hoped to make friends when sheâd moved to the area, it was a bit of a relief to not have to talk to anyone right now.
That is, until a small person came running into the room. Or, half running half waddling on his chubby legs. When the child wasnât immediately followed by an adult, (y/n) found herself panicking.
âUh, hello,â She greeted, with painful awkwardness.
So she wasnât that great with kids, sue her. Sheâd never had to interact with small children before, with no kids in her extended family, she didnât exactly have the experience. Nonetheless, the little boy in the footie pajama tiger costume looked up at her with wide eyes and a wider smile.
There still didnât seem to be an adult in the area, and her panic kicked up a few notches.
âIs your mommy or daddy around?â She asked, wondering if she needed to put the mail away and notify the proper authorities of this missing child.
Surely someone was missing him- he was downright adorable. With the brightest brown eyes sheâs ever seen, a toothy smile that displayed his missing front tooth, and the striped tail of his tiger onesie being wrung around in his little hands- (y/n) had never felt baby fever before, but she imagined it had to be akin to the tightening heartstrings in her chest.
âNo,â The boy shakes his head, most of his body following the movement in a small sway. âI donât have themâÂ
Okay, now she was going to have to do a breathing exercise before she called the police, so that she could remain calm until this missing child was returned home safely.
With a slow exhale, she tucks her mail into her purse before kneeling down before him. It takes her a few moments to try and find the right thing to say, this kid looked no older than five and she just wasnât equipped to strike up a conversation with a child so young about where their home was. She tries to speak calmly and slowly.
âAre you lost, little tiger?âÂ
Mentally, she cringes at how awkward her voice sounds when sheâs trying to be approachable. Does it come across as creepy? Fuck, she hopes not.
But the kid giggles, and shakes his head.
âNo, Iâm not lost!â He squeals it out with that adorable little kid delight, as if heâs trying to fight a fit of giggles. âI live here! With Choso-nii!âÂ
So he lived with his brother. That explained the no parents thing⌠sort of. At least enough to calm her racing heart down a bit.
âAnd where is Choso-nii?â She asks next, praying that at any moment this mystery brother would appear and scoop up this kid before she had to strain through much more interaction. Then again, she hoped no other adults would have to witness the embarrassing way she spoke to kids.
âI donât know,â The boy shrugs his shoulders. âWe were playing hide and seek. He hasnât found me yet!âÂ
(y/nâs) eyes widen with alarm before she realizes that she should probably keep her expression as neutral as possible, so as not to worry the child. It settles back into a nervous smile before she nods in slow understanding.
âYou play hide and seek⌠out hereâŚ?â She asks slowly.
The boy holds both of his hands up to his mouth as he giggles. If she wasnât so anxious about him being all alone, she wouldâve melted at the adorable and squeaky sound.
âNooo,â He whines out playfully. âI was trying to find a really good hiding spot!â He declares.
Again, (y/n) nods, and gives him a small laugh.
âWell buddy, the mail room isnât a great spot. Itâs all open, see?â SHe gestures around her to the space theyâre standing in. âHeâs sure to find you right away. Did you leave your apartment?âÂ
The boy nods back at her, but his attention starts to stray as he begins to look around, probably for a better hiding spot.
âDoes your brother know you left?âÂ
This time he shakes his head.
(y/n) huffs, and places her hands on her knees.
âWhatâs your name, kiddo?âÂ
âItadori Yuji!â The boy declares, his attention back on her as a proud grin covers his face. âIâm five!â He adds, holding out his hand with all five fingers stretched out on display. This time when (y/n) giggles, itâs genuine.
âItadori Yuji, Iâm (y/n),â She introduces softly before tilting her head at him. âI live in the building too. Do you think I could take you back to your brother?âÂ
Yuji frowns.
âBut then my turn will be overâÂ
Sheâs quick on her feet to come up with an excuse to take him back home where he belongs.
âWell⌠Iâm sure I could convince your brother to give you a re-do. Since I messed up your game and all,â She suggests. âDo you think then it would be okay?âÂ
Yuji thinks about it for a minute, humming and looking around the mailroom some more. Once he realizes thereâs not a good hiding spot anyways, he gives in, and nods his head.
âOkay!â He agrees, and (y/n) smiles back at him as she stands up again.
âDo you know which apartment is yours, Itadori Yuji?âÂ
âI know which button to push in the elevator!â He tells her, and she figures thatâs a good start for now. If knocking on every door is what it took to get him back to his brother, sheâd have to accept that.
âAlright then, letâs get to itâÂ
As the pair make their way to the elevator, Yuji pulls the hood of his pajamas over his head. Itâs got fluffy little ears to complete the whole costume, and (y/n) canât help the smile that takes over at the adorable sight.
Yujiâs excited about pushing the buttons in the elevator. He expertly pushes the one with the number for his floor- or at least she hopes itâs the right one- before he pushes the one to close the doors.
âChoso-nii always lets me push the buttonsâ He tells her matter of factly.
âI can see why. Youâve practically mastered it,â She teases in response, and he seems to take it as the highest form of compliment. Itâs then that she takes notice of the floor heâd chosen. âI think you and I live on the same floor, Itadori YujiâÂ
âReally?â The boyâs eyes light up as if heâd just learned his best friend lived so close- despite them still being strangers in her book. It makes her chuckle as she nods her head at him.
âReallyâ She affirms.
The first neighbor she meets, and itâs a rowdy five year old boy. Oh well, it couldâve been worse, right?
âThatâs so cool! I canât wait to tell Choso-nii!â Yuji bounces with his giddiness, and it has (y/n) chuckling again.
Even if his brother had lost track of the kid, it was clear that Yuji adored him with how much he brought up his name. (y/n) only hoped that when she returned him, Choso-nii lived up to the first impression his little brother was creating.
âHe doesnât really have any friends,âÂ
Yuji immediately begins to overshare, and now (y/nâs) trying to stifle her laughter as he babbles on about his older brother. Heâs chatty for a five year old sharing an elevator ride with a stranger, but (y/n) didnât mind. The less she had to make awkward small talk, the better.
âBut thatâs just ce-bause he works a lot. He works really late too. Sometimes past my bedtime. But he doesnât get in trouble ce-bause heâs a grown up and Iâm just a kid. But when Iâm a grown up Iâm gonna stay up past my bedtime, too!âÂ
A little chuckle slips past her lips just as the elevator dings, and the doors slide open again. Yuji steps out and happily leads the way down the hall. (y/n) hopes his confidence is based in his memory on where he lives.
âHeâs really nice though. He should have more friends. But he has me!âÂ
âIs that so?â (y/n) giggles softly as Yuji begins to skip down the hall. Â
Theyâve almost approached her apartment, and her panic begins to crawl back in. Does he really live up here? Does he really live in this building? When he finally plants himself in front of a door, she prays to whoeverâs up there that his brother is on the other side.
Glancing behind her to see her own door there, she swallows the lump in her throat. This kid lived right across the hall from her? Her brows are pulled into a pinch, and sheâs debating on scooping Yuji up and calling the police to find his proper address, because what are the odds of that?Â
Maybe she was just paranoid, but sheâs on the brink of reaching out to the boy when the door in front of them swings open.
Oh wow, is the first thought on her mind, and sheâs lucky her throat went too dry for her to accidentally let them slip off her tongue, too.
The man that stood in the doorway couldnât have been more than a couple years older than her- which she wasnât expecting- but more surprisingly, heâs the most handsome man sheâs ever laid her eyes on. Â
With a tall stature and broad shoulders, he nearly took up the entire doorway with his body. He was wearing a hoodie and sweats, but she could tell that he was well built under his clothes. From his size alone, she could conclude that, but there was also a certain aura about him that told her he was strong. Not to mention, with fair skin and dark hair swept into two messy buns, he was just so pretty she couldnât tear her eyes off of him. There was a thin black line tattooed over the bridge of his nose and across his cheekbones that stood out on his pale skin, and she stared at it too long to be deemed appropriate, but she just couldnât help herself. He was the most mesmerizing person sheâs ever seen.
Sheâs stunned so thoroughly that she just stands there with her lips sealed and her eyes blinking wide.
Yuji, on the other hand, is overwhelmingly delighted.
âChoso-nii!â He cheers, leaping towards his brother and clinging onto the hem of his sweatshirt.
âI was just going to come look for you, booger,â Choso finally speaks and (y/nâs) struck with a mixture of relief from the confirmation that this was Yujiâs proper home, and a sudden heat in her chest from hearing his deep voice.
The man places a hand on top of Yujiâs head, smushing down the ears on his hood as he tilts his head back so he could stare down at him sternly.
âYou donât leave the house like that,â He scolds in a gentle voice, clearly more concerned than anything. âYou know thatâÂ
âI was still in the building,â Yuji pouts. âAnd (y/n)-san found me,âÂ
Before Choso can ask who he means, it strikes him that the woman whoâd been at the door with his little brother was still standing there. She throws her hand up in an awkward wave, still too starstruk to speak. Also perhaps a bit intimidated from having to explain herself to the handsome stranger- who happened to be her neighbor.
Before she could properly introduce herself, or find her voice, Yujiâs pulling away from his brother and reaching for (y/nâs) hand. He tugs on it as he stares up at her with pleading eyes.
âCâmon (y/n)-san, tell him, tell him!âÂ
Choso eyes his brother with a peculiar narrow to his eyes, before shifting his gaze upwards, towards the girl whoâs quietly laughing and pulling Yujiâs hand off of her own gently.
âRightâŚâ She murmurs down at him, before turning towards his older brother. âWell, I must request that you give Yuji a re-do on his round of hide and seek,âÂ
Choso blinks, his eyes widening in just the slightest. Enough for (y/n) to realize there was a slight violet hue in the darkness of them. Her heart skips a beat- has she ever seen violet in a personâs eyes before? Certainly not. She has to clear her throat before continuing.
âYou see, I made him end his round early,â She continues, trying to bite back the grin that threatens to take over her features as she takes responsibility for the game being ended so abruptly. âCompletely my faultâÂ
A breath of a laugh escapes him, before his lips part and he smiles between her and his brother and fully laughs.
âI see,â He hums. âYou can have a redo on one conditionâÂ
âAnything!â Yuji wailed out dramaticallyÂ
âThe game stays inside the apartment. Got it?âÂ
âOkay!â Yuji agrees to the rule right away, throwing himself at his brother again to wrap his arms around him in a display of his gratitude. He giggles as he looks up at his beloved big brother. âIâm gonna go scout hiding spots while you talk to (y/n)-san!âÂ
Before anything more could be said, Yujiâs darting back inside the apartment. Even with the footie pajamas, his stomps as he roams around looking for small places he could fit could be heard by the pair at the door.
âScouting is cheating!â Choso hollers behind him, but when heâs met only with Yujiâs giggling, he figures itâs probably a lost cause already, and turns back to where his little brotherâs not-as-little friend is still hovering in the hall. His adamâs apple bobs as he swallowed thickly, trying to cure the dry spell on his throat before he speaks again. âThank you for helping him get back. Iâm, uh, sorry if he was troubleâÂ
âOh, he was no trouble at all,â She says easily, because itâs the truth. She tries not to focus on the purple in his eyes as she jerks her thumb over her shoulder. âI actually live across the hall, so if anything he walked me home like a tiny gentlemanâÂ
She laughs off her nerves as she pulls on the strap of her bag, clutching it close to her chest. Itâs a relief when he quietly chuckles too.
âIâm Kamo Choso, by the wayâ He says, stepping out of the doorway just enough to extend his hand to her. She hesitates before taking it, and he wonders if heâs imagining things or if she really was blushing from the simple handshake.
â(y/l/n) (y/n),â She replies softly. âNice to meet youâÂ
She hadnât thought Choso would take Yuji seriously when he was instructed to talk to her, but to her surprise he leans back against his door frame and takes it upon himself to strike up a conversation. Itâs nothing too exciting, but it was more than she was expecting, and it still has butterflies tickling in her stomach.
âHow long have you been in the building?âÂ
âAbout a month,â She answers. âPretty sure youâre the first person Iâve met that actually counts, thoughâÂ
âThat actually counts?â His brow raises.
âWould you count the landlord and the maintenance crew?â She asks, a slight smirk tugging on the corner of her lips. It draws another chuckle out of him, and he has to nod his head in agreement. âWell, I should let you get back to your game,â She shuffles backward, her hands relaxing on the strap of her bag as she reaches her side of the hall. âIâm glad I met you both, thoughâ She adds in a moment of bravery before sheâs fishing for her key.
âMe too-âÂ
âChoso-nii! Time to cooount!â A little voice hollers from inside his apartment, sending him whirling around to scold Yuji for being too loud when the door is open and all of their neighbors could surely hear his screeching.
(y/nâs) already slipped inside her door and shut it again when he turns back again. Heâs disappointed, even if he didnât know what else to say, he wouldâve liked to talk to her a little bit longer. With a huff, he hopes theyâll cross paths in the hall sometime soon, before he heads after his brother.
âŠâË.ââžââşââ§
After a few more rounds of hide and seek where Choso had to pretend he hadnât seen Yujiâs tail poking out from under the couch, or his padded clawed feet from beneath the swaying curtains, he decides itâs time to make them both lunch.
And in the midst of perfecting his craft at grilled cheeses, he thinks he might as well press his kid brother for some more information about their supposed new neighbor.
âYour new friend seemed pretty niceâ He tested the waters, keeping his focus on the stove while Yuji did a coloring page at the counter across from him.
â(y/n)-san?â He asks, grinning right away. Out of the corner of his eye, Choso can see that he began to kick his feet back and forth. âSheâs really nice! I like her a lotâÂ
âMhmâ Choso hums back, poking the sandwich around with a spatula to test if it was ready to flip yet. Yuji watches his big brother curiously.
âDid you like her too, Choso-nii?âÂ
âI said she seemed niceâ Choso chuckles, glancing over at Yuji for just a moment before focusing on the stove again.
âWell, good. Ce-bause I told her you didnât have friends, so maybe she could be your friendâÂ
Choso nearly chokes on air as he turns to Yuji again, a wince of a smile on his face. Yujiâs grinning, of course, because heâs five and had all the best intentions in making sure his big brother had companionship, but Choso canât help but worry that heâd killed his chances of getting to know her better. She probably thought he was a creepy loner now.
âYou⌠told her I didnât have friends?â He repeats, hoping maybe the context will make things better. Maybe Yuji hadnât said exactly that.
âYep!â The boy responds, popping his lips with certainty before tucking away the green crayon he was using.
Choso tries to hide the curl in his lip as he turns off the stove and plates the grilled cheese. Relying on a five year old to be a decent wingman was too tall of an ask, he realizes. Yujiâs cuteness could only carry him so far⌠if only he wasnât such a blabbermouth.
âWell, hopefully sheâll still like me thenâ He mutters as he sets the plate in front of his brother. Yuji beams as he thanks him, taking a large bite before going back to his coloring sheet.
Unbeknownst to Choso, Yuji held onto that little comment in his memory.
âŠâË.ââžââşââ§
To his luck, he happens to run into (y/n) just a week later.
He and Yuji were waiting at the elevator, with Yuji being a little more whiny than usual. Choso had actually been praying for the doors to open faster so that he could get the two of them out of this building before his younger brother had a meltdown.
It wasnât often that Yuji misbehaved. He was a really good kid, who responded well to rules and structure, and was always polite where he needed to be. He could get rowdy, and maybe he was more chatty with strangers (especially cute ones that live across the hall) than Choso would have liked, but he was a respectful little five year old with a good heart, and he wouldnât ask anything more.
Except for today.
âBut I donât like her house. It stinks. And thereâs too much cat hair!â Yuji whines. Heâs not being loud, but heâd had the whiny voice for the better part of an hour now, and Choso was starting to go a little crazy.
âI thought you loved Adelaine-sanâs catsâ He reminds him gently.
Truthfully, Choso wasnât a fan of Yujiâs current babysitter either. She was nice enough, but she overcharged, and she never seemed to feed Yuji food he actually liked- resulting in Choso having to pick up fast food on the way home every time he picked him up from babysitting. However, she was the closest sitter to them, and she didnât mind keeping Yuji late when Choso worked nights- which was often.
âI do, but thereâs so many Choso-nii,â Yuji pouts up at his big brother. âGets stuck on my clothesâÂ
Despite being irritated with the whiny attitude, Choso canât help but give his kid brother a small smile. What five year old cared about fur sticking to clothes? Yuji was something special.
âWell, you canât come with me to work-âÂ
Finally, the doors opened, but before the brothers could step in, (y/n) was stepping out. With arms full of bags of groceries- almost a comical amount of bags.
â(y/n)-san!â Yuji cheered after seeing his long lost friend. (It had been a week)
Despite her obvious struggling with her things, Yuji threw himself at her, eager for a hug. Choso was quick to grab him by the hood of his truck-themed sweatshirt, reeling him back before he could make the poor girl drop her things.
âLet me help youâ He offered, already reaching for the handles of the bags lower on her wrists.
âOh, you donât have to, I made it this far-â She starts to deny the offer, but Yujiâs piping up before she could finish.
âIâll help too!â Yuuji declared, following his big brotherâs example and taking two bags, one in each hand.
âBe careful with those, Yuji,â Choso says quietly. âThatâs food, you need to be gentle, like how we carry bread, remember?âÂ
Yuji nods affirmatively, already marching back down the hallway towards their doors. Choso hopes he doesnât think he can sneak back home with this little act of service.
âThank you,â (y/n) chuckles as Choso loads his arms up with her bags. âI donât believe in making multiple tripsâÂ
âYeah, I gathered that,â He replies, smirking to himself as he did a quick count of all the bags between them. What the hell did she need all these groceries for? Does she let her pantry run out before she makes a trip? âCaught you at the right time though, huh?âÂ
âYou did,â She muses, digging a free hand into her pocket for her key. Yuji was patiently waiting at her door, and she made sure to greet him with a big smile. âAnd how have you been, Itadori Yuji?â She asks, unlocking the door and pushing it open with her hip. To her amusement, Yuji strolled right into her apartment.
âTerrible, (y/n)-san!â He cries out. Â
âYuji, you canât just walk into peopleâs-âÂ
âItâs alright,â (y/n) giggles before Choso could scold his brother for inviting himself into her home. âPlease, come in. Heâs just trying to help, can I get you boys something to drink?âÂ
âNo, thatâs alright, thank you, I actually-âÂ
Chosoâs interrupted again, but this time by his nosy brother, whoâs set the grocery bags down on the kitchen floor before marching back over to them and putting his hands on his hips.
âHeâs making me go to the babysitter,â He whines to (y/n), who raises her brows as she nods back at him, taking him quite seriously- much to Chosoâs dismay. âI hate the babysitter!âÂ
Choso rolls his eyes as heâs setting his armful of bags on the counter.
âWe donât hate,â He says softly, but Yujiâs pout only worsens, before he gives (y/n) his best puppy dog eyes. Choso sighs as he turns to (y/n). âOn Thursdays and Fridays I work at a bar, so he canât come,â He explains quietly. She nods at him too, giving him the same level of her understanding and attention. If he wasnât starting to run late, he would have reveled in it a little longer, just because it was cute. âHe thinks itâs the end of the world, but itâs not. Itâs only for a few hours-âÂ
âItâs torture, (y/n)-san!â Yuji reaches out to her, and on instinct she finds herself crouching down, returning his dramatic pout.
âOh it sounds like torture!â She cries back. For a moment, Yuji seems taken aback by the behavior, but he just as quickly lights up, and reaches towards her again.
âCan I stay here with you instead!?â He asks, already grinning ear to ear from the idea, before sheâd even given him her approval.
âYuji,â Choso sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. What was it with his little brother and overstepping when it came to her? âIâve already called Adelaine-san, sheâs expecting usâ He says pointedly.Â
Yuji frowns, and this time itâs not like the baby faced pout he made before. Itâs a genuine disappointment in being told he had to go.
âI donât mind,â (y/n) says softly, tilting her head to look up at Choso, waiting for him to decide whether or not he was alright with that. âI can look after him for a while. Then you donât have to make an extra stop on your way home, weâll be right hereâ She suggests.
Yujiâs grinning again in no time, bouncing on his feet before rushing over to his brother and clinging onto his pant leg.
âPlease Choso-nii! Pleeaaase?â He whines, and somehow itâs more irritating than before.
(y/n) chuckles as she stands, stepping a little closer to speak under her breath, while Yuji was still whining and bouncing and not paying attention.
âOnly if youâre okay with it, of course,â She says. âI understand if youâre more comfortable with-âÂ
âYouâd really be alright to take him for tonight?â He asks her, eyes flickering between hers.
She presses her lips together as she nods, trying to will herself not to get lost in his pretty dark eyes.
âJust for a few hours,â He repeats his earlier mention, and she nods again. âYouâre sure?âÂ
âSheâs sure! Sheâs sure!â Yuji screeches, still pulling on Chosoâs leg and waiting for the confirmation that he didnât have to go to the smelly cat house.
âAlright⌠fine,â Choso agrees, and Yujiâs full on jumping now. Choso only hoped he wasted off this excess energy so he was calm and good for (y/n) the rest of the night. âBut you have to be good. If (y/l/n) has any problems sheâll tell me, and then itâs cat hair for the rest of your life, got it booger?âÂ
Yuji nods his head up and down repeatedly, so much so theyâre surprised it doesnât give him a head rush.Â
âIâll be good! Iâll be so good!â He promises. Choso smiles, reaching a hand down to mess up his hair affectionately.
âIâll give you my number, in case you change your mind, or if he⌠breaks something, or somethingâ Choso mutters, pulling his phone out of his pocket.
(y/n) does the same, they swap, each plug in their contact, then swap back with shy smiles.
âIâm sure heâll be lovely,â She tells him. âDonât worry about us, I have a lot of movies. Maybe Iâll make him a big dinner and put him to sleepâÂ
The corner of his mouth tilts into a smirk.
âWorks like a charm every time,â He murmurs. âBut I gotta get going, I donât want to be too lateâÂ
âOf courseâ She nods, headed towards the pile of grocery bags on her kitchen counter.
âIâm usually out around one, but if itâs any later Iâll text you, alright? Or- should I call?â Heâs walking back towards the door, but he hesitates as he waits on her answer.
âEither works,â (y/n) shrugs with a small smile. âHave a good night!âÂ
Itâs stupid, but his face feels warm as he lingers at the door just a few seconds longer, before he nods back at her.
âYou too, (y/l/n). And thank youâÂ
Once he leaves and the door is shut behind him, (y/n) has to shake her head to rid the silly fluttery feeling in her chest. Â
âWell,â She flattens her hands over the front of her pants, smoothing down the nonexistent wrinkles, before she turns to Yuji with a smile. âHow about while I put these groceries away, you let me know if you see anything you like and Iâll get started on that for dinner, hm?âÂ
âDid you get the dinosaur shaped macaroni?â Yuji asked hopefully.
(y/n) winces as she glances over her bags of produce, bread, and regular-shaped pastas.
âI⌠did notâ She admits, and she actually feels a bit bad about being underprepared. Even though sheâd only taken on this babysitting gig five minutes ago.
âThatâs okay,â Yuji shrugs. âI like all sorts of things!âÂ
And heâs not wrong. As she puts away the boundless groceries, Yuji points out all sorts of things he likes. Fruits, veggies, he didnât seem like a picky kid at all. (y/n) actually found herself impressed by his wide palette.
âChoso-nii makes all sorts of stuffâ Is what Yuji says when she compliments him on his taste.
âHeâs a good cook, huh?âÂ
âVery good!â Yuji tells her. âMaybe next time heâs not working you can eat with us, instead!âÂ
The insinuation has her cheeks flaring up with color and heat, but she politely agrees and tells him she would like that.
The rest of the night goes without a hitch. Yuji teaches her how to play crazy 8s- even though the rules were simple and sheâd memorized them when she was his age- and they play that while chatting over everything and nothing for a long while. Yuji tells her all about his best friend Megumi. Then when he runs out of things to say about him he talks about his favorite subjects, his favorite color, and that starts a long conversation about his favorite everything.
Itâs obvious he tires himself out with all his chatting, so itâs not long after that when (y/n) shows him her movie collection and lets him pick one out. It takes him some time, as he treats this task with the utmost importance. He couldnât make a bad choice, of course. (y/n) doesnât mind. Sheâs come to shed the awkward layers and has learned exactly how to talk to Yuji.
Sheâs learned that taking everything he says to be completely serious and dive into a conversation about it as if he were anyone else seemed to do the trick. Yuji liked to talk, and he had plenty to say. Like how squeaky the swing sets were at school, and how he disliked when people used them because of it. He was kind, and he was entertaining. He was certainly the best company sheâd taken up in a while.
When he picks the movie he settles in on her couch, cozying up in the fluffy blanket sheâd grabbed for him, and he tells her that he picked one of his favorites.
The entire first half, Yuji is on the edge of his seat. Both from watching his favorite animated movie, and also from watching (y/nâs) every reaction to it. It started to grow on her, so eventually she really started to do up her reactions to every little scene.
At the halfway point she made him a big bowl of popcorn and only stole a handful of it when he wasnât looking just to get a giggly reaction out of him.
Before she knew it, with a full belly, a cozy blanket, and his favorite movie, Yuji was dozing off on the couch. Â
As quietly as she could, (y/n) got to work cleaning up the kitchen. Although with how much energy Yuji had spent earlier in the night, he was sleeping as hard as a rock.
With nothing but time to spare, she decided now was as good a time as any to catch up on some reading. So once everything was clean again, she settled in on the couch, tucked the blanket around Yuji, and got to reading.
She lost hours until her phone buzzed with a notification.
[ kamo choso ] : just got out, will be by in twenty minutes or soÂ
She liked the message so he knew she was still up and saw it. She kept the chat open for a few more minutes, contemplating sending a message back. sounds good! or he was great, out like a light! But the longer she hesitated the more she felt like too much time had passed, and it would be embarrassing to send a text. So she didnât.
She wasnât able to focus much on reading after that.
Choso knocked on the door not too much later, twenty minutes to be exact, just like he said. She tiptoes her way to the door, and smiles upon finding a very tired looking Choso on the other side. The circles under his eyes look a little bit darker, his hair is starting to fall from his already messy buns, and he looks like heâs struggling to keep his eyes open. Regardless, he lifts his head and gives her a small smile when she opens the door.
âHey,â He hums. âHow was it?âÂ
âIt was fun, actually,â She whispers back, checking over her shoulder to make sure Yuji was still sound asleep. âHeâs a really great kid. You must be doing all sorts of things rightâÂ
Her eyes crinkle when she smiles up at him, and for a moment- and maybe for the first time- Choso nearly forgot about Yuji. Heâs not sure anyoneâs ever looked at him with the soft, sweet look that sheâs looking at him with now. He gets lost for a moment, practically drifting off right before her.
âOh- youâre exhausted, come in,â (y/n) mistakes his look for tiredness, and steps out of the way to let him in. âYujiâs still sleeping on the couch. Heâs a hard sleeper, huh?â
âVery, yeah. Building had a fire drill a few months back while he was having a nap. Slept through the whole thingâÂ
(y/n) giggles to herself as Choso approaches the sofa, smiling at how content his kid brother seemed to be while curled up in the blanket, sound asleep. He was careful as he stooped over to scoop him up. It took some help from (y/nâs) part seeing as one of his hands had an iron grip on the blanket, but eventually he was free of the fluffy restraint, and Choso had him settled against his shoulder with ease. As expected, Yuji remained asleep.
âOh, I canât believe I almost forgot,â Choso shifts Yuji to be held up by one arm so he had a free hand to reach into his pocket. âI definitely owe you for this, what do you think is fair?âÂ
âOh, no,â (y/n) shakes her head back at him. âYou donât have to pay me, it was no trouble at allâ
âYou donât have to say that, really, how much-?âÂ
âI donât have to say it, I mean it,â (y/n) assures him. âReally, he was a perfect kid. Iâd⌠Iâd happily do it again, if you ever needâ She offers, a nervous smile playing on her lips.
âOkay,â He returns the smile, but he still hesitates with his wallet in his hand. âYouâre sure I canât give you something though? At least pay you back for the food?âÂ
âIâm sureâ She has to bite down on her cheek to keep her laughter from ringing out too loudly.
Slowly, she follows him back to the door. Itâs later than sheâs usually up, and sheâs so tired that sheâs sure sheâll pass out as soon as her head hits her pillow, but still she lingers at the door with him, waiting for him to say anything else.
âWell, then I canât thank you enough. I really appreciate it, (y/l/n). Yuji did as well, Iâm sureâÂ
âI think he did. I hope, at least,â She murmurs, smiling fondly at how cozy Yuji seemed to be sleeping on his brother. âAnd you can call me (y/n), by the wayâ She adds, almost as an afterthought.
Choso swallows the lump in his throat, nodding back at her as he waits for his voice to return to him.
âAlright,â He murmurs, finally crossing the threshold of her doorway. âGood night then, (y/n)âÂ
Her heart is racing at a million miles an hour. She fears it might shoot straight out of her chest like a bullet.
âGood nightâ She manages to murmur back as he crosses the hall, and she shuts the door behind him.
A sigh escapes her, and she realizes that sheâd been holding her breath until sheâs alone in her apartment again.
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Things take off after that first time she babysat Yuji.
Occasional drop offs turned into frequent visits. Yuji often wanted to stop by (y/nâs) apartment after Choso picked him up from school, eager to tell her about his day. Whether Megumi brought snacks for lunch again because his caretaker had a sweet tooth, or if he wanted to show her that he learned how to do a cartwheel, there was always something. Yuji was bountiful in excuses to go across the hall.
And to his delight, (y/n) ate it up. She watched him more and more while Choso was at work, or running an errand that Yuji didnât feel like tagging along to because suddenly he wanted to do his homework at (y/nâs) instead. Choso had a habit of always double checking with her beforehand, sending her a quick text to see if she was even free. And it seemed that every time, her door was open. There was never a time where she turned them down.
She became Yujiâs regular babysitter, and after a while it barely even felt like babysitting. His drawings and coloring pages decorated her fridge, heâd often leave a few toys behind, figuring heâd play with them the next time he was over, and he always used the same fluffy blanket when heâd be over late while Choso worked.
It was safe to say Yuji had grown attached to her, and fast. Even when he wasnât at her place, he wouldnât shut up about it at home. Not that Choso minded, he liked hearing about (y/nâs) day through Yujiâs eyes. He got to learn all sorts of cute little things about her that way.
While Yuji had been spending more and more time with their neighbor, Choso couldnât exactly say the same. He chatted with her in passing, usually at dropoff and pickup, and he tried to text her more- funny Yuji-isms he heard throughout the day, memes, offers to leave money for dinner for the two of them- and even though she was always receptive over text, reacting to every image and responding to every message, it just didnât feel like enough.
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âChoso-nii, do you have a crush on (y/n)-san?â Yuji asked him one day, seemingly out of the blue.
Theyâre in the grocery store, where Yujiâs filling up the cart with junk, even from his booster seat in the cart. Choso does a double take at his younger brother, as if the question registered a second late.
âWhat?â Is all he can muster.
Yuji blinks back at him.
âDo you have a crush on her?â He repeated himself, tilting his head and widening his eyes as he studied his big brother.
âWh-why do you ask that?â He stammers over his words, although he wishes he would have reacted a little more coolly. Did she say something? Did he give something away? Where in the world would Yuji pick up on that?
âI dunno,â Yuji shrugs. âCe-bause you shouldâÂ
Choso forgets the cereal boxes he was looking at, turning all of his attention to his little brother, since now he deemed this conversation required all of it.
âI should, huh?â He repeats curiously. âWhatâs that mean, booger?âÂ
âSheâs nice,â Yuji says bluntly, and Choso laughs softly at the reasoning. âAnd funny. And a good cook,âÂ
He continues to list all of his own favorite qualities of (y/n), sure that most of these reasons are perfect enough for his big brother to have romantic feelings for her. At five years old, the most Yuji knew about romance was that the prince kissed the princess and everyone was happy, but it was a decent start. He only wanted that same happiness for his big brother- and (y/n)-san- after all.
âShe has a lot of movies. And sheâs really prettyâÂ
Choso smiles at his brother, finally settling on a brand of cereal and tossing it into the cart behind him.
âThat so?â He asks teasingly. âYou sure you donât have a little crush, booger?âÂ
âNo!â Yuji squeals and begins to giggle. His cheeks are red just from the accusation, and Choso canât help but laugh at the display. âSheâs too old, Choso-nii!â
âRight answer,â Choso remarked, pushing the cart out of the aisle and weaving into the next one. âBut why the sudden interest, hm?âÂ
âWellâŚâ Yuji drawled, glancing around the aisles to avoid his brotherâs eyes. âIf you had a crush on her, and she had a crush on you, then you could live together, and we could get an even bigger house, with more toys, and we could eat all our breakfasts and dinners together, and watch movies together, and get a dog-âÂ
âWoah, woah, woah, youâre laying way too much on me, bud,â Choso chuckles, but he canât deny that his face was starting to feel warm from all the conclusions Yuji was jumping to. They were too wholesome for him to take. âA dog?âÂ
âA puppy!â Yuji declares. Â
To Chosoâs luck, conversation steers in the direction of pets, and he spends the rest of their errand explaining why they werenât getting a dog- or any animal for that matter. Even if Yuji makes a convincing argument about how cute itâd be.
Itâs better, though, because Choso needed some time to recover, and figure out exactly how heâd move out of this crushing stage. If Yuji had taken notice of it- in his own odd way- then surely (y/n) had to feel it to some degree too, right?Â
He just needed to find a good window to ask her out, and take her out properly. Not just a quick coffee in the morning when Yuji wanted to come over for a bit. A real date, outside of the building.
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Choso finds that chance one afternoon after swinging by her apartment so Yuji could tell (y/n) all about his day at school. Sheâs prepared him a snack today, celery sticks with peanut butter smeared down the middle. She offered him the raisins to make the ants, but Yuji politely declined, seeing as he doesnât eat bugs. She doesnât argue, simply pops the raisins into her own mouth as she listens to him ramble on and on.
As Yuji drags on his storytelling as long as he can, Chosoâs sat at the counter, stealing a celery stick or two that Yuji wasnât eating while he rambled away. Heâd grown used to his brotherâs chatty nature, but he was always surprised how (y/n) was able to sit through it with her full attention. She never zoned out, and never missed a detail. In fact, she would ask him more questions to prompt him into talking more. It was so endearing that Choso canât help but smile as he watches her interact with Yuji so wholeheartedly.
It takes a grand total of twenty five minutes before Yujiâs done with all his stories for the day. Choso sends him off to their apartment with his backpack, telling him to get started on his homework, and heâd be over in a few minutes. Yuji doesnât find the instruction odd at all, happy to get started on his worksheet for the night.
(y/n), however, gives Choso a puzzled look as he stays behind in her apartment.
âIs everything alright?â She asks on impulse.
While they had talked many times before, and she wouldnât call him a stranger, this was the first time they were left completely alone, and she was all too aware of that fact.
âYeah, yeah of course,â He chuckles at her knee jerk reaction to worry. âI just⌠wanted to thank you. AgainâÂ
She still has a puzzled look on her face as she leans against the counter, waiting for a better explanation.
âThank me?â She repeats softly. âFor what?âÂ
âFor all your help, with Yuji,â Choso explains. âFor the babysitting, and dinners, and⌠and ants on a log,â He chuckles as his gaze drifts off to the leftover snacks on the counter. âOur mom passed before Yuji could even get to know her, and Iâve⌠been doing this for so long it just sort of feels like itâs always just been the two of us, you know?âÂ
(y/n) hums quietly, keeping her response to a small nod. Chosoâs never opened up about their family history before, and Yuji was only five and never seemed to question his brotherâs custody over him, so it wasnât like (y/n) had ever heard anything like this before.
She wants him to know that sheâs listening, that sheâd always be here to help the both of them, because sheâd grown to care for them both so much.
âBut itâs been nice⌠your help, I mean,â Choso goes on. âYuji likes you a lot, a really lot, he never shuts up about youâÂ
She chuckles at that, the mood lightening again.
âReally?â She asks quietly, as if the boy could hear from across the hall.
âYeah,â Chosoâs eyes widen with the flair. âBut Iâm glad, you know, that he has you. Someone thatâs not me for him to hang out with and talk toâÂ
âI am too,â She replies sweetly, a smile stretching across her face. âHeâs a really special kid, youâre quite luckyâÂ
His heart warms up so much he doesnât think he could take it.
âI know not everyone sees it that way,â He thinks aloud. âMost people tend to look at us and⌠want to leave,âÂ
The smile on her face begins to falter, but (y/n) tries to keep her expression neutral. Sheâd never thought much about what other people thought about Choso and Yuji. Why should she care? She knew them both well enough to know that they were happy, and that Choso was more than capable as his brotherâs guardian.
Then his wording dawns a new thought on her. Did people walk out of his life because of Yuji? The idea makes her sick. It makes her stomach twist and her heartstrings pull tight. Friends? Partners? Was Yuji such a dealbreaker that he couldnât even have companionship?
She feels awful now, crushing on him so immaturely, not taking into account all the possible pasts heâd had with other people that had gone poorly because he had a kid to put to bed at a certain time.
Tears prick the corners of her eyes, but sheâs determined not to let a single one fall.
âAnyways,â Choso clears his throat, laughing nervously as he looks back up at her again. âI just think itâs important that you know how glad I am- that- that we both are- to have you aroundâ He finishes with a small smile, his nerves eating away at his insides.
âOf course,â She mumbles back, her throat tightening up too much for her to speak any louder. âLike I said, Yujiâs a special kid. I want to be good to him,â She says, a smile twitching at the corners of her mouth as she tries to feign joy, even with a heavy heart. Then, she says, âAnd I want to be a good friend to you, tooâÂ
His nerves come crashing down on him in an instant. It piles up and morphs into something else entirely- something worse. Dread.
He hopes that his expression remains neutral as he holds eye contact with her. His mind battles itself as he tries to come up with what to say next. They both sit there for a few painfully silent seconds as Choso weighs his options.
If he were a smoother man, one who was better with his words, he wouldâve taken his chance. He wouldâve articulated all of his thoughts in just the right way and let her know that he was starting to harbor a crush on her that was reaching embarrassing levels. Heâd crack a joke to lighten the mood after the confession, and then invite her out for a drink, or dinner- hell, maybe even both.
Those few seconds seemed to last too long but went by quick all at once. The fact of the matter was that she was good for them. She was good for Yuji, attentive and loving and so, so patient. It was clear that she cared for him, and Yuji never hesitated to voice how much he enjoyed (y/nâs) companionship.
Choso was sure if he were to cross the wrong line now, heâd not only create an awkward tension with his neighbor, but also ruin the good thing that Yuji had going as well. She was some idealized morph of a babysitter and a friend for him, someone he could go to when he needed help with homework, or to show her the toy he picked out with his allowance. And at the end of the day, Choso wouldnât be able to live with himself if he did something to take that away.
So he swallowed whatever he was going to say, gave (y/n) a small smile, and nodded his head back at her.
âYou are a good friendâ He finally answers her with quiet agreement.
She assumes heâs a bit embarrassed to say something so corny, so she lets out a little laugh and begins to clean up the snack dishes off the counter. Choso lingers around her place a little longer until he canât take it anymore, bidding her goodbye with the request that she makes more snacks for their visits.
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Despite Chosoâs adamant attempts at convincing his little brother that he didnât see (y/n) as anything other than a friend, Yuji was never fully convinced. Choso wasnât sure what it was that made Yuji so sure that there was something between them- one sided or otherwise- but he was relentless about it. Any time they saw her in passing, as soon as he was alone with his big brother, Yuji would make some comment or another about it.
In the boyâs defense, the two were spending a lot more time around each other these days. (y/n) had taken Chosoâs words to heart and began preparing an after school snack every day, so when Yuji popped by for his usual visit, Choso was always in tow. No matter what sheâd prepared he was all over it.  A package of fruit snacks or homemade banana muffins, Choso was accepting the snack as if it were a bountiful harvest.
The brothers seemed to stay longer and longer in the passing weeks, and soon these visits became routine. It didnât take long, just under a month before Yuji was committed to making it an everyday occurrence. But what began as a quick visit for a snack and then to jabber on to (y/n) about his day at school soon turned into something else, too.
Yuji would move on, often sitting on the floor at (y/nâs) little coffee table to do his homework, and Choso would hang out in her kitchen for a bit longer so they could catch up on the events Yuji was less than interested in. Her work, his work, and anything that came to mind at all to keep the conversation from ceasing. There were some days Choso overstayed his welcome so much that Yuji would want to go back to their apartment, and Choso would still stay longer at (y/nâs), drinking two more cups of tea than he wouldâve liked, but any excuse to sit with her at the counter a little bit longer.
And then one day, heâd struck gold.
âIâm sorry itâs so hot in here, Iâve got the windows cracked but without a breeze it doesnât really do much,â (y/n) had apologized in passing as she pulled out a few small plates for the snacks sheâd made that afternoon.
Truthfully, Choso hadnât noticed the heat until she brought his attention to it. He was far too enamored with the cute pink apron sheâd tied around herself. She always wore it when sheâd baked something- so he knew that when she opened the door to let him and Yuji in today that they were in for a very good afternoon snack.
âThe ACâs been broken so long I forget Iâm used to it, so itâs alright if you boys want to take your cookies to goâÂ
âCookies!?â Yuji had squealed and raced into the kitchen, savoring the lingering scent of fresh baked cookies before it could evaporate.
Again, Choso almost missed his queue. (y/n) had taken to referring to them as you boys a couple of weeks ago, something heâd picked up on the very first time sheâd said it. It was nothing special, really, it was a casual form of referring to them both, but god the sweet way her voice formed those words he could almost be deluded into believing it was because they were her boys, and the domesticity of it all had him reeling.
Luckily, he came back down to earth soon enough.
âYour ACâs broken?â He furrowed his brow and tilted his head curiously. âHave you told maintenance about it?âÂ
(y/n) makes a face thatâs somewhere between amusement and a wince, before plating up two cookies for Yuji. He thanked her four or five times before he took the plate to the table and began to gobble them away.
âI⌠try not to call them if I donât have to,â She explains to him, side eyeing Yuji at the table to be sure he was too focused on his cookies to eavesdrop. âItâs just the AC anyways, I have a fan in my room and during the day the open windows are no problemâÂ
Chosoâs expression doesnât let up, his confusion getting ahead of him.
âAnd why donât you call maintenance..?â He pushes, knowing that the nervous smile on her face wasnât for nothing.
âEh, well, um, when I first moved in and had some issues I called for them, but one of the guys really wanted my number⌠and then when that didnât work he tried leaving me his, and it was just this⌠whole weird thingâÂ
She shakes her head and keeps her focus on packaging up the leftover cookies in a little tupperware container. Unfortunately, she misses the amused little smirk on his face as he leans into the counter.
âSo youâd rather sweat through the summer than tell a guy youâre not interested?â He asks, and that finally earns her attention. Her eyes narrow at him slightly before she crosses her arms defensively.
âOh, I made it clear that I wasnât interested,â She mutters. âHow does turning down a phone number five times not scream uninterested?âÂ
Choso chuckles at that.
âWant me to take a look at it?âÂ
She looks surprised at first, and heâs not sure if itâs because of the offer itself or if she was genuinely shocked he had a clue what he was doing, but the look wears off into a soft smile.
âReally?â It comes out in an astonished murmur, before her eyes go wide and then sheâs coming around the counter to stand closer to him, apparently still in disbelief that heâd do such a thing. âYouâd do that?âÂ
He laughs again, this time with a creeping smile trying to turn into a full blown grin.
âYeah, of course,â He says, and she only brightens further at the promise. âLeast I can do to repay you for watching Yuji, for freeâ He reminds her, and she gives him a look that tells him what she always swears by- sheâd do it for free as many times as they need- before brightening again.
To her surprise, again, Chosoâs incredibly handy. He told her he didnât mind if she had something else to do, or hang out with Yuji while he was keeping busy in his coloring book, but she couldnât help but watch while he tinkered around with the air conditioning unit. It didnât take him long to solve the issue at all, and when he had it all set up and it kicked into life she was cheering so excitedly Yuji even came over to enjoy the fresh gust of sweet cool air.
He ended up staying the rest of the night, fixing the squeaky vent, and the delayed garbage disposal, until he and Yuji couldnât turn down her offer of dinner. Well, Yuji vehemently agreed, Choso took a little bit of convincing. He was eventually swayed by the gentle âLeast I can do to repay you for fixing up my place, for freeâ that (y/n) uttered.
And just like the afternoon had gotten away from them, the evening soon did too. Once dinner was finished the remainder sat on the table for a good hour as conversation poured out. Yuji was enthusiastic in complimenting her food, only kissing up just a little in order to get an extra cookie with his dessert.
Choso was adamant in helping her clean up, despite her many assurances that she could handle it herself.
âCâmon, help me show Yuji how to be a proper guest,â Heâd muttered, plucking the freshly washed dish out of her hand to dry off. (y/n) made a face, knowing heâd offered just the right excuse to get her to give in. Choso grinned back at her. âThatâs more like itâÂ
It was embarrassing how his smile had her heart racing, but she couldnât deny it, and she certainly couldnât help it. All she could do was keep her head down and her focus on washing the dishes.
âThanks again for dinner,â Choso murmured after a few minutes of diligent dish washing and drying. He peeked a glance over at her, but it was clear that she was avoiding his gaze. âItâs nice to have a home cooked meal. Not that I canât cook! Iâm a great cook actually- I should really repay the favor- I just mean itâs nice to⌠be treated to oneâÂ
No matter how hard she bites down on her lip, (y/n) canât keep herself from giggling at his rambling. While heâs been talking to her a lot more this past month or so, itâs often when prompted, and when heâs the first to speak, she could tell that he kept himself reserved.
It was refreshingly heartwarming to watch him stammer over his words now.
âWell⌠I wouldnât turn that down,â She admits quietly, and it takes all the courage she can muster to glance at him out of the corner of her eye. âBut Yuji told me his favorite meal was chicken nuggets, so Iâm not sure how convinced I am of your cooking abilityâÂ
Choso turns towards her, catching her off guard by their close proximity, but she doesnât shy away under his gaze.
âHeâs five,â He argues with a playful roll of his eyes. (y/n) snickers, hesitating as she turns back to washing up the last plate in the sink. âBut fine. Iâll make him his own dinner, so you and I can enjoy something more refined, if thatâs what you so pleaseâÂ
The idea of just the two of them, eating a dinner heâs cooked, alone, has her cheeks burning up so quickly she canât stand to look at him again. So instead she murmurs out a weak agreement, and quickly excuses herself to check in on Yuji.
Yuji had sort of been playing with his action figures, but heâd mostly watched his brother and (y/n) whisper and laugh between themselves as they did the dishes at an excruciatingly slow pace. He knew he wasnât just seeing things, he knew what the giggling meant. At least, in his own warped and childlike way. He didnât care to think about it too deeply, not because he was five, but because he wanted to accept what he was being shown at itâs face value- his big brother finally making a true friend.
So when it was time for the brothers to go home, Yuji made sure to hug (y/n) extra long. Even when sheâd tried to pull away and stand up, he squeezed his arms tight around her. If he held on long enough, maybe it would be enough for her to understand just how important she was to the both of them. So (y/n) chuckled, returning the favor with an affectionate squeeze and a pat on his back before he finally let her go with the brightest smile on his gap-toothed face.
And then heâs tugging on his brotherâs pant leg gently, before pushing his hand against the back of his knee and sending him stumbling towards (y/n). Yujiâs not a toddler, he very well could have used his words to tell his big brother what he wanted him to do.
Choso catches his footing with ease but itâs his expression he canât cover up. A nervous smile and widened eyes as he silently scolds his little brother for the childish action. Heâs only met with that giant grin before he turns to (y/n).
She has the warmest smile on her face, as if she holds nothing but endearment for the embarrassing display. Heâs lucky at this moment, because sheâs the first to step forward and raise her arms. If it werenât for her, Chosoâs sure he wouldâve fumbled this chance.
Her touch is delicate, as if the frame of his shoulders doesnât double hers, as if sheâs not reaching on the tips of her toes to fully wrap her arms around his neck before squeezing on. Even her embrace is so thoughtfully gentle. He canât help but think itâs all for Yujiâs sake- heâs the one that prompted this little goodbye display, not that Choso is complaining- but he supposes sheâs trying to appease the five year old while not crossing an unspoken boundary with him as well.
Choso overthinks this quick hug down every avenue he can, before realizing that he has to make sure she knows thereâs no boundary in sight, so he circles his arms around her waist, returning the same soft squeeze as best he could. He hoped there was still enough distance between them that she couldnât feel just how seriously his heart took the casual affection, because it was pounding in his ears like it was trying to alert him.
Itâs over in a matter of seconds, but he relishes in the way her hands slide across his shoulder blades before she steps away and drops them to her sides. If he wasnât dead sober and anchored in this moment, he mightâve purred.
It dawns on Choso that he might be the slightest bit touch starved.
Thereâs a pink to her cheeks now paired with her doughy smile, and he could almost stand here and admire how pretty she looks when sheâs being bashful, no matter how embarrassing it would be to let time lapse as he did so.
âWell,â The word comes out of her in a wispy breath, and she smooths her hands over the nonexistent wrinkles in her shirt before continuing, brightening her smile as she glances between her visitors. âIâll see you boys after school tomorrow, yeah?â
Their responses overlap, but couldnât have been more further apart
âOkay!â Yuji says with nothing short of glee.
âOf courseâÂ
Chosoâs voice is quieter than his brotherâs, but itâs filled with such earnestness that it has (y/n) blinking back at him as if heâs just sworn a blood oath to her. Her lips part as her eyes grow round and sheâs at a loss of whatâs normal in saying goodbye to your neighbor who youâre sort of friends with and you sort of have a crush on. Â
All she can manage is a twitchy smile as she leads them to the door. Yuji skips across the hall with delight. Choso lingers for an extra moment and when his eyes meet hers, she finds herself gripping onto the edge of her door with a little more force. Her eyes wander over the length of the black ink adorning his face before meeting his gaze.
âThanks again for dinner,â Heâs still speaking with that same low and steady tone. (y/n) tried to gulp down the lump in her throat as she held his eye contact. âIâll text you about when I owe you one?âÂ
Unable to clear the block in her voice, she gives him a smile and a nod. She hopes he doesnât react awkwardly to her lack of verbal response, and he doesnât. In fact his timid smile turns into a beam. It somehow makes his lips look even more plush and kissable-Â
Her eyes shoot back up to his as she returns the grin and mumbles a pathetic sort of goodbye. When she finally is able to shut the door behind him she heaves out a breath she hadnât known was the source of the lump in her throat.
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Choso started to reach out more, by whatever means necessary. Anything to spend a little more time talking to her.
He texted first more, found excuses to stop by her apartment, and always lingered for too long when dropping off and picking up Yuji. He even started playing the daily Wordle just to have something more to talk to her about.Â
There were moments that he swore she felt what he did. Little things, perhaps in the way she looked at him, or the sweet way she spoke quietly when it was just the two of them. Choso was sure he wasnât imagining things, because why else would she look at him like that? Why else would she always call his name when saying hello or goodbye?
[y/n]: u up? 12:47 a.m.
Even with the progress Choso felt heâd made in getting closer to her, this was completely new territory.
As late as it was, heâd been aimlessly scrolling through his phone, so when that little notification popped up heâd clicked on it right away. He didnât dare start typing- it would be humiliating if he created a bubble in the chat in the same second her message had sent- but he was upright and staring at the screen in disbelief. Â
Soon enough a typing bubble appeared, and he gnawed on the inside of his cheek as he awaited further context.
Would it be âsorry, wrong person!â or was she genuinely reaching out to him at this hour? It had been some time since heâd received one of these tell-tale messages, but his heart still raced with the anticipation.
Finally, her text appeared on his screen.
[y/n]: took a guy home after a date and heâs not taking the hint to leave. mind popping over with an excuse so heâll go? 12:49 a.m.
Chosoâs out of his bed and sliding his feet into his slippers before he even starts typing up his response. Â
But with how quickly heâs out the door he figures thereâs no point in texting back a confirmation, seeing as heâs crossed the hall between their apartments and knocking on her door before the clock ticks to 12:50.
Thereâs the faintest sound of shuffling from inside, and he thinks he can make out that (y/n) is saying something, but heâs not sure what. She opens the door and greets him with a brief second of pure relief and joy upon seeing him.
Only a brief second, however, as her expression morphs as soon as her eyes wander away from his face and nearly bulge out of her head. In his rush to get out the door heâd forgotten to pull on a shirt- or maybe heâd decided it just wasnât a necessity, he wasnât sure himself.
Her mouth moves, but when no words come out, Choso takes it upon himself to deliver his golden, life saving excuse.
âHey, (y/n/n), got any tea?âÂ
Honestly, itâs the first thing he comes up with. Itâs not the greatest lie of all time, but as soon as he asks for it he realizes his throat is a little parched and a warm cup of tea would be perfect for getting him to relax back in bed after this. (y/n) let out the smallest of scoffs, the corner of her mouth tilting upward as she stares back at him as if to ask âa nickname and tea? is that the best you can do?âÂ
He fully grins back at her, and as soon as sheâs stepping out of the doorway heâs inviting himself in and making his way to the kitchen. He doesnât even spare a glance towards the man sitting on the couch, even though heâs blatantly watching Choso like a hawk as he casually rummages through (y/nâs) cabinets. Heâd been over often enough now that he knew where she kept everything heâd need, and he figured the more he made himself at home, the more this loser would feel threatened and leave.
âUh- whoâs this?â The man asked, still gawking at Choso and his naked torso, but the question is clearly directed at (y/n).
âOh, this is Choso,â (y/n) replies sweetly. Sheâs still standing at the door, a bit unsure of what to do with herself. As much as she was hoping he would get her text and come to her rescue, she doesnât know what sheâs supposed to do now. âHeâs my⌠neighborâ
Choso smirks to himself as he sets the kettle on the stove, and then finally turns to give her late night visitor a once over.
Heâs not typically a jealous man, it just wasnât in his nature. However, the feeling heâs flooded with now as he stares down the wincing man who appeared to be half-hiding himself on the couch while Choso stared him down was something akin to jealousy. It was pride. All it took was one look for Choso to know that when this guy left her place, he would never return. He would never see her again. Even if he didnât choose this for the sake of his own good, Choso would make sure of it.
What was she doing with this coward to begin with? He wonders as he watches the man stand from his seat. Piercing violet eyes track his every movement, from the way he stuffs his hands into his pockets, to the bob in his throat when he swallows.
Chosoâs smirk widens, and his gaze softens when itâs casted towards (y/n).
She looks unsure of what to do with herself, but as soon as she meets his eyes she shuffles towards the kitchen, putting more distance between herself and her unnamed visitor.
âYou always have your neighbors over for tea in the middle of the night?â The man asks, perplexed by the entire situation. He already has his doubts that this isnât staged, but his obvious nerves make him lose all credibility.
Choso only chuckles to himself, casually leaning into her kitchen counter, closing some of the distance between himself and (y/n). She casts him a look, and he canât be too sure, but he assumes it means she doesnât know what to say, so he takes over.
âIâm certainly the only one she opens the door for,â Choso responds with a smoothness that surprises even him. He watches the realization sink in on the strangerâs face, before he moves closer to (y/n), poking her in the hip to gain her attention once more. âIsnât that right, sweetheart?âÂ
Her eyes are wide, and set on his in a deadlock. Choso doesnât think she even manages a blink. Sheâs already rendered speechless by the unexpected comment.
But she closes her mouth and nods her head. Not at her date for the evening- no, she doesnât turn to look at him or even peek at him from the corner of her eye. Her gaze is still locked on Chosoâs as she nods back at him in a weak motion. In that moment itâs not even an act for him when he chuckles back at her, his smile growing softer.
âFucking fantasticâ The man mutters, but heâs already grabbing his jacket off itâs hook and was making for the door without further explanation. Â
Chosoâs quite happy with himself, knowing that he made a complete stranger walk out of (y/nâs) apartment without having to be told to. He didnât have to do anything at all, really, all he did was show up and let himself in for a cup of tea. It was only convenience that heâd opted out of a shirt for the whole ordeal.
The door opens and shuts and it takes that entire time for (y/n) to find her voice.
She smacks him on the arm first, though.
âWhat?â Choso chuckles as he rubs the spot in mock pain.
âYou know what,â She hisses back at him, but the undeniable smile on her face makes her sound more playful than threatening. âWhat the hell was that?â She even giggles through the question. If sheâs even trying to come across as scolding, Choso wouldnât be able to take her seriously for even a second. Â
âIt worked, didnât it?â He asks.
(y/n) makes a face at him. A face that says enough. She knows heâs full of shit.
The kettle begins to whistle just in time, and without giving her an answer, Choso turns around to put together his cup of tea. (y/n) has to bring her hand to her mouth, afraid that just one heavier breath and heâd realize that her eyes had been straining to hold eye contact with him.
Of course this was ridiculous, because she knew Choso was a well built man. But having him shirtless and in her kitchen as if he belonged there was making her face heat up faster than she could control it. She pressed the pads of her fingers into her cheek in an attempt to cool down the skin.
âWhat was up with him anyways?â Choso asked, his back still turned to her as he focused on his drink.
(y/n) dodges the question.
âAre you really staying over for tea right now?âÂ
When he turns back to her, mug in hand and the slightest of furrows in his brow, she worries that she just might not be strong enough to handle this one. Dropping her hand from her face, she straightens up her posture.
His hair is down, the thought is like poison, shooting through her train of thought and completely dissolving it. It looks soft. Â
âIt was a nice enough eveningâŚâ She explains slowly, despite telling herself that she didnât owe him any sort of explanation, there was a compulsion to tell him all about it. Choso merely raises a brow before he sips his chamomile. âI thought a few drinks back here would be nice, too. Turns out heâs only got one good story and the rest is⌠boringâÂ
He laughs at that, lips curling into a grin and shoulders shaking just a little bit. (y/n) links her fingers together as she leans into her counter with a sigh.
âThink I couldâve told you that. Iâd have to give the guy credit for one good story. Just running of first impressions, that isâÂ
(y/n) huffs again, this time a pout gracing her lips.
âYeah, well, next time Iâll run it by you thenâ She mutters, and she doesnât really mean it, but Choso takes an interest in the comment anyways.
âYouâll run it by me?â He smirks to himself. âAnd what makes you think Iâm gonna green light any more of these ânice enough eveningsâ, hm?â
âYouâve got a point. What do you know about dating?âÂ
âWhat do you?â He throws the question back at her, and that pout is returning in an instant.
And then sheâs dropping her head in her hands and groaning aloud.
âItâs stupid that youâre right,â She admits, dragging her hands down her face before setting her jaw in her palms. âI donât know what Iâm doing at all. What the hell is wrong with me? The last three dates I tried to go on have been like this. Not terrible. Not great. Certainly not special or memorable- besides the sting of failureâÂ
Chosoâs quiet for a moment, letting it all sink in before he spoke his piece. His lips purse before he sets his mug down and takes a few steps closer. (y/n) watches, but she doesnât lift her head from her defeated position.
âItâs not you,â He says, and sheâs surprised by the serious tone in his voice. âBesides, you managed three dates, yeah? Thatâs somethingâÂ
âThatâs just this weekâ (y/n) mutters.
Choso canât hide the change in expression, and she must notice his shock, because her lips tilt into an amused little smile.
âDid you think I just sat around and waited to play babysitter?â She teased quietly. âNot that I donât love it, but I do have a life, yâknowâÂ
He should say something, backtrack and explain himself before she assumes that heâs never given her free time a second thought. He thought about it too much, really. And had he known sheâd been spending it on useless dates, he wouldâve involved himself sooner.
âDonât be so hard on yourself. Dating just⌠sucksâÂ
Itâs lame advice, Choso knows that as soon as it comes out, but (y/n) nods her head in agreement before leaning off the counter and wrapping her arms around herself.
âIt does suck,â She murmurs back. âBut⌠Iâm scared that if I donât put myself out there now then I wonât haveâŚâ She trails off, and a look of realization flashes over her features before she shakes her head. âItâs late,â She says then. âYou should probably g-âÂ
âWhat were you going to say?âÂ
She blinks back at him, pausing as if to take a second to make sure he really meant it. She chews on the inside of her cheek for an anxious beat before she opens her mouth again.
âWhat if I waste my time and never meet anyone that wants the things that I want and then Iâll be alone and it will all have been for⌠nothingâŚ?âÂ
He smiles, but thereâs a bittersweetness to it. (y/n) seals her lips shut as she waits for his response. She fears sheâs embarrassed herself enough for one night, now it was his turn.
âYouâre not wasting your time,â Choso starts slowly. âYouâre just⌠figuring out what you donât want. Thatâs just as important, donât you think?â
A smile begins to crack in her features, and he feels relief to know that heâs at least sort of helping.
âWell, then so far weâve crossed boring, creep, and loser off the listâ She grumbles, and Choso chuckles to himself.
âWhere does a girl like you find these losers?âÂ
Heâd gotten too comfortable too fast and he realizes it as soon as her eyes widen up at him, not too much, but enough that he notices, and he knows that sheâs caught the choice words of his loose lips. A slight smile pulls on her parted lips as she thinks through just how she wants to call him out on it, but for right now, she relishes in the way his cheeks flush and his own eyes widen in panic.
âA girl like me, huh?â She teases, her soft smile turning into a full blown grin. âAnd what do you mean by that, Choso?â
Again, he thinks she must know what sheâs doing when his name drips from her voice like sweet honey. Nothing else has ever weakened his insides quite like it.
âYou know what I mean,â He tries to play it off casually, but her eyes narrow on him in disbelief. âYouâre super nice, and⌠easy to talk toâÂ
âOh, right, I forget that super nice gets you everywhereâ She exaggerates.
âYou donât need me to stand here and tell you youâre a catch, (y/n),â Choso sighs, and the playful crinkle in her nose dissipates, the rest of her features softening along with it. âYou have to know thatâÂ
Itâs quiet for a moment, and sheâs staring at him with what he worries is disbelief. Was she not taking him seriously? Did she think he was only joking? Well that simply wouldnât do, he couldnât possibly leave her apartment now until he was sure she knew just how wrong she was.
So he ignores the nerves prickling his skin warning him not to cross too many lines at once and he speaks up again.
âCâmon, I mean, obvious stuff aside, anyone would be lucky to score a date with you. Youâre excellent company, I mean, you donât know how often I lose time when Iâm talking with you. Itâs never a dull moment, even when itâs quiet, and I think thatâs just about the most important quality in a person, donât you?â Itâs a rhetorical question, but even if she wanted to answer, Choso gives her no time to do so. âYouâre funny, in the witty way that I canât keep up with and in the silly way that Yujiâs so taken with. Youâre patient, and generous, and kind,â
Her lips part, but thereâs nothing she could possibly say to him right now. Her mind has been wiped blank. All that she can hear now are the words heâs saying, and sheâs not even sure that this isnât all a dream at this moment and sheâs not about to wake up in her bed with a funny feeling. Her heart was beating so hard she feared it would leap right out of her chest and sheâs helpless to stop it. Nonetheless, she wants nothing more than for him to keep going.
âYouâre smart, and capable of anything, and youâre not afraid of chasing the things you want,â Choso goes on, and he doesnât stutter once. Every word is spoken with precision, as though rehearsed. Or maybe it just came to him that naturally. âYuji loves you and thatâs all the more I could ever want. Youâre the first person heâs really attached himself to, you know. He never⌠he never really cared for anyone the way he cares about you,âÂ
Tears have started to well up in her eyes, but itâs still not enough to stop the seamless train of thought heâs spewing out. If he notices this, he doesnât comment on it. He just keeps going.
âBut itâs clear that he loves you and itâs clear as day why. Anyone with eyes and an ounce of a brain would feel the same. And they should. And itâs really a pity that so far no oneâs managed to behave the way you deserve, and treat you the way you deserveâÂ
She thinks heâs finished, only because heâs paused long enough and heâs staring at her now as if everything heâd just said was now being displayed on a teleprompter before him. At first, all she can manage is a small gasp to clear the lump in her throat.
âYou-â She starts, but her voice fails her and she has to shake her head to convince herself to ignore her nerves. âYou really mean all of that?âÂ
Itâs a whisper so soft that even a creak in the floorboards would have overpowered her voice. But the apartment is dead silent. All she can do is stand frozen in place as she watches him and waits for his answer, for the confirmation that he really had just said the kindest, most beautiful things anyone has ever said to her, seemingly out of nowhere.
During his pause, she steps closer, glossy eyes remaining focused on him, as if a single blink could cause her to miss his next words. There had been few moments in her life that sheâd felt worried over missing- but right now if youâd asked her to name them she would probably come up short.
âI⌠donât say things I donât mean,â He tells her in a moment of unfiltered honesty- which he was on a streak with tonight. Â
(y/n) gives him a faint nod in return as she tries to blink away the wetness in her eyes. There wasnât a chance sheâd let herself cry in front of him right now- not at one in the morning after he already had to rescue her from a dead end date.
For all of his forwardness, Chosoâs throat has gone so dry he knows that his next words will come out in a strained out scratch. He feels like thereâs a spotlight on him, even though the lighting in her apartment is so dim thereâs shadows casted over the expanse of her left cheek. It paints her into a silhouette that he believes could be hung in every museum. When he tries to take a gulp to ease the dryness of his throat, itâs faintly audible.
A quiet sound of amusement breezes past her lips before they quirk up into a smile so gentle Choso swears only a soft stroke of a paintbrush could capture it in itâs full essence. He might just have to pick up the hobby of painting if he wishes to fully preserve this image. Honesty strikes him again in his moment of inspiration.
â(y/n) you should know that Iâm starting to have feelings for you,âÂ
Itâs a murmured confession, spoken so genuinely from the bottom of his heart that (y/n) can feel them filling her own heart with a gooey warmth.
âWell, not starting, I- Iâve known about it for a while, actually,âÂ
He seems to stammer and partially mumble over his words as soon as heâd started to speak with certainty, but it doesnât make them any less true. (y/n) knows this, and he can tell in the way her eyes seem to hold stars as she stares at him with pure marvel. It makes him concerned that sheâs never heard these things before.
âBut, yâknow, I didnât want to say anything because of how much Yuuji adored you and I didnât want to do anything to disrupt that,âÂ
Before he knows it, Chosoâs rambling, but (y/nâs) patient and takes in everything he has to say. Sheâs never seen him unload so many thoughts like this, and even with her heart on the brink of beating out of her chest, she takes in everything he has to say.
âIn the past heâs sort of just shut down around anyone Iâve gone out with, or tried to, at least. Itâs just not like him, to be quiet, or shy. I hated seeing him like that. I donât know what it was, why he never got comfortable around anyone, and I didnât know if it would always be like thatâŚâÂ
Choso trails off for a moment, starting to realize just how much oversharing he was doing tonight. Maybe it was the late hour, or maybe it was that look sheâd held in her eyes all night, like she was holding something back as well, but whatever finally pushed him over the edge to spill his every hidden thought was a driving force so strong nothing could have prevented it now.
âBut then he found you and he was just⌠taken,â A quiet laugh falls from his lips as he thinks fondly about the adoration his little brother holds for her. Sheepishly, he finishes his train of thought. âAnd I guess that rubbed off on me, tooâÂ
Her lips are wobbly at first as they form a wider smile, and then sheâs making a short shuffle forward, putting them both toe to toe.
âYou didnât want to tell me you had feelings for me because you thought Yuuji would be upset?â She asks him, like maybe sheâs not sure she understood him right. Choso seals his lips together as he gives a faint nod in return. Her head tilts to the side, her round eyes narrowing as an aura of curiosity settling over her as she gazes up at him. âAnd you think Iâm a catch?â She repeats his earlier statement, and lets out a breathless and short laugh when she watches color flush his face. âSo⌠whatâs so different now that you decided to tell me?âÂ
Her fingers latch around the hem of the shirt sheâs wearing, twisting at the material in short nervous movements. However the clear sign of nervousness is easy to overlook when sheâs staring at him so intensely. His sincerity tonight had been a blessing that she was going to milk for all itâs worth. Once she got a taste for how deeply Choso felt his feelings, she just had to know more, even if it meant pushing him to share more. Although she hoped her eagerness wouldnât drive him out of her home, she hoped heâd stay until she got her fill of all of his thoughts.
âI donât know,â He sighs, and his shoulders fall slightly as he visibly relaxes. It makes her wonder if heâd been tense this whole time, if sheâd put him on edge by standing there while he made confession after confession. The thought makes her swoon just a little bit harder- if possible. âI guess⌠I just couldnât hold it in anymore,âÂ
Her brows cinch together as her expression morphs, into something he worries is pity, so he frowns.
âI did try, just for the recordâ He tells her suddenly. The change in tone makes her chuckle in her confusion.
âTried what?âÂ
âTried telling you,â Choso clarifies, âMonths agoâÂ
âWhat?â She shakes her head in disbelief, a slight frown tugging on her lips as she tries to recall when he was referring to. Surely sheâd remember an attempt of him asking her out, or telling her about his feelings. Yet nothing comes to mind. âYou did no such thingâÂ
âI did,â He insists, laughing humorlessly, but the sound lightens the mood between them and (y/n) finds herself laughing along with him. Although hers holds more amusement than his had. âAnd then you put me in the friend-zone. Or neighbor-zone. Or Yujiâs brother-zoneâÂ
âI absolutely did not!â Her voice cracks as it raises to itâs usual volume, the soft whispers of earlier long gone as another laugh rips out of her chest at his insinuation. âDonât tell me you actually thought thatâÂ
The seriousness in her voice has his heart strings tightening to their fullest extent, straining and quivering on the brink of snapping completely. At this point, Choso thinks that sheâs well aware of the emotional warfare sheâs using against him, but then he catches that glossy look she still held in her eyes and he thinks sheâs just as weakened by her own ardency as he was by his.
âTrust me, had I known different, things would be differentâ He says, raising a hand to drag a finger in the space between them to make the context clear.
Soft surprise adorns her face as heâs the first to surrender in their game of dancing around it, and itâs quiet for a few beats as she waits for her heart to calm down enough where she can speak without a tremble in her words.
âIâm telling you different right now, arenât I?âÂ
The silence of her apartment is deafening. Seconds pass like years as he stares back at her, his eyes shifting between hers as quickly as they possibly could, a sudden desperation in being able to read her expression clear on him. Patience was just a part of Chosoâs nature- it had to be when he alone was raising a five year old like Yuji- but any thought of moving slowly was thrown out the window as soon as he was finally sure of that look in her eyes.
âI want to kiss you,âÂ
He moves forward then, his hands moving as fast as his words as they land on her jaw, and despite their swiftness his touch is gentle. They cup under her face with thoughtful softness, and as soon as heâs touching her, his patience is restored. Suddenly he has all the time in the world, and he lets his gaze slowly trace over every little feature of her face until heâs sure heâs memorized every last inch. (y/nâs) expectant before him, her lashes fluttering as her eyes shift repeatedly between his lips and his own gaze. He wasnât taking the hint, and unfortunately, her voice was caught in her throat. Sheâd seemed to have lost it as soon as the rough pad of his thumb began to trace the length of her jaw to her chin.
After taking his sweet time, he pushes closer, tilting her chin upwards so that his nose could just barely graze past hers.
âCan I kiss you?âÂ
The murmured request is so close to her own lips she can practically feel them moving against her own. Her nod of approval isnât complete before the minimal space left between them is finally closed, and warm lips press against her own with the same gentleness of his hands.
She returns the softness at first, moving her lips against his with an experimental curiosity, but itâs not long before she can stop herself from reaching out to him. His bare chest is warm under her palms, and at first contact all she does is press her hands against it, fingers splayed out to feel every warm inch of skin that she can. Chosoâs fingers flex and tense against her jaw upon the sensation that he hadnât felt in so long it was almost unfamiliar.
But her touch was unlike anything heâd ever felt before. The pads of her fingers were soft as they moved across his skin, slow but sure as they mapped over his chest and around his shoulders, yet the light graze of her nails was just enough sharpness to leave goosebumps in the wake of her path. Even when a sigh is shuddered out of him, she doesnât part from their kiss.
Choso canât help but slide a large hand around the back of her neck, keeping her close to him even as they both begin to gasp for air between kisses. The soft newness of it all is quickly replaced by a hot need to not stop. Itâs evident in the way their touches begin to lose shyness, and soon their grabbing and pulling at one another as their kisses grow messy and uncoordinated.
She presses as close to him as she can get, even with her own body heat reaching uncomfortable peaks, she still desired to feel his warmth. More than that, though, she wanted to card her hands through his hair- and she did just that. Sheâs rewarded with a soft whimper against her lips when her fingers dive into the roots and tug just a little bit before combing through the rest of it.
When she moves to do it again, a pair of hands seize her hips, and their lips are properly parted for the first time since heâd first kissed her as he lifts her up with ease, turning to drop her onto her kitchen counter before pressing close to catch her lips with his again. Sheâs rendered breathless from the movement- after already trying to catch up in her breathing during their sudden makeout session- but thereâs not an ounce of protest in her when Choso pulls her knees apart in order to slot himself between her legs and continue where they left off.
Her arms wind around his neck as she pulls him down the short distance to kiss him properly. The height difference between them now isnât nearly as drastic as when she was standing, but itâs still noticeable even as sheâs perched on the counter.
Her heaving chest only becomes noticeable to Choso once his hands are making their way from her thighs towards her ribs, where he feels them expanding and contracting at an alarming rate. He lets out a chuckle and breaks apart from her, his amusement only furthered when her lips chase after his, despite her panting for air.
â(y/n), sweetheart,â He murmurs affectionately as he catches her chin between his thumb and forefinger to halt her from kissing him again. When her eyes open to meet his, her eyelids hang heavy over her dilated pupils, and Chosoâs so struck with awe at her beauty in this moment heâd nearly forgotten why heâd stopped kissing her in the first place. âWant you to catch your breathâ He mumbles, the pad of his thumb reaching up to drag over the swollen plushness of her bottom lip.
Somehow, they look even more kissable than before. Especially paired with her flushed cheeks and the dreamy look in her eyes as she peers up at him through her heavy and fluttering eyelashes.
She leans forward, but she doesnât try to kiss him again. Sheâs just filled with such a strong desire to stay close to him that she couldnât bear to be the few inches apart that heâd distanced them with. He smiles softly at her as her hand begins to sweetly comb through his hair. Itâs not the same motion as before, it holds a different feeling in the way she moves slowly, and with no grip at all, and yet his chest is filled with the same overwhelming adoration as when sheâd had her hands fisted in it. He decides to let his hair hang loose more often from here on out.
âI canât stay,â He murmurs after a long but comfortable silence between them. âYujiâŚâ He trails off, but she gets the idea, and nods back at him.
âI understand,â She whispers back, followed by a bittersweet smile. âItâs alrightâŚâÂ
âHeâs staying at Megumiâs this weekend, though,â He mentions, his eyes following the movement of his thumb as it grazes over her lip, enamored with the way the plushness of it gave in even under his gentle touch. âWeâll go on a proper date then, hm?â He offers with a hopeful look.
âSure,â (y/n) smiles, and then playfully purses her lips to peck a light kiss against his thumb. âOr you could just come over for tea again,â She suggests instead, followed by a short giggle.
His cheeks and neck flush with a rosy hue, but he nods back at her in agreement. Â
It was a date.
âŠâË.ââžââşââ§
âSo, does this mean youâll get married?âÂ
Yujiâs blunt question has Choso choking on his drink. Burying her face in his shoulder, (y/n) tries to suppress her laughter, but itâs obvious in the way she snorts and her shoulders shake. Meanwhile, Yujiâs still sat on the floor in front of them, half watching the movie thatâs playing and half checking on the two of them as he awaits an answer.
After a few weeks of going out and ensuring one another that their change in relationship was working, more than working, Choso and (y/n) thought it was the proper time to break the news to the little boy. It wasnât much of a surprise when he was excited to hear it, but the first question that came to his mind wasnât as expected.
âWell, maybe, buddy, letâs just cross that bridge when we get there, yeah?â (y/n) answers him with a kind smile, even though the idea of marriage so early in their relationship as her face burning and her heart beating wildly in her chest.
âOkayâ Yuji accepts the answer and goes back to watching the movie for a bit.
Choso finally clears his throat and settles back into his comfortable position on the couch, (y/n) still tucked under his arm and pressed into his side in just the way he liked, and after a few minutes of mentally calming himself down he really did relax again.
âWeâll still live together and get a dog though, right, Choso-nii?âÂ
(y/n) could feel every muscle in his body tense, but she still canât help but look over at him with a questioning raise in her brow and a purse in her lips as she smiled.
âYou told him we were getting a dog?â She hums curiously, waiting for his explanation of his little brotherâs question.
A nervous, breathless laugh falls from his lips.
âYouâre only focused on the dog part?â He asks, wondering what her thoughts were on the living together part. (y/n) hums, and shrugs a shoulder before she leans into him again, her focus on the movie as she settles against his shoulder comfortably.
âWell, Iâm more of a cat person,â She replies, knowing fully well that wasnât what he was implying. âThen again, a house vote would be fairâÂ
Yuji seems enthusiastic about this compromise, and doesnât seem to have any more questions for his big brother and his new girlfriend as he completely immersed himself in the movie once more.
With the arm he had wrapped around her, Choso tugs (y/n) a little bit closer, until heâs able to drop a kiss on the top of her head, before he leans into her as well and a comfortable silence settles over the room as they all grow sleepy watching a film together.
âŠâË.ââžââşââ§
[ hold me, love me, touch me, honey // be the first who ever did ]Â
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Let the Light In |7|
Tara Carpenter x Fem!Reader
Chapter Seven: Tis' the Damn Season
Summary: After that eventful night at Tara's apartment, you find yourself pondering on a few things, but your banter with Tara never ceases. There is enough on your plate as it is, so when you bump into a familiar face it catches you completely off guard
Warning(s): Swearing, making out, mentions of drinking & intoxication, r has a case of bad communication, chemistry (like the actual subject đŁ), compulsions, & implied anxiety
Notes: I took over a year off to cut you readers some slack, tell a friend to tell a friend - she's baackkk! đ¤ Ik you missed these stubborn little jerks, so did I. Also not this chapter being at like 10k+ words. Even then, there was a bunch more I wanted to add but I figured I'd save it for the next chapter (already plotting) I didn't wanna keep you waiting any longer than I already have
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The box of pizza and plate of wings sat completely abandoned, forgotten, on Charlotteâs coffee table as her hands traveled to your neck. You let your own hands drop to her hips, pulling her in. Her lips felt soft, yet foreign. You ignored that thought and continued to kiss her, slipping in your tongue while she maneuvered her way onto your lap.
Everything felt hot, you could feel your face heat up as she ever so slightly played with the hem of your shirt. When you gave her the silent signal, she slipped a hand under your shirtânot too high of course, but enough to feel your hips. You felt goosebumps at her touch, suddenly feeling nervous. You once again pushed any negative thoughts to the back of your mind, continuing to kiss her.Â
Thatâs when it clicked. Why you got so nervous all of a sudden, your mind was trying to tell you something, warn you.
You separated from her lips. She looked at you, a confused expression on her face. You werenât meeting her eye line, feeling rather timid at the moment. âAre you okay?â She asked you. You barely heard her with your heartbeat drumming so loudly in your ears.Â
âUmâŚâ You cleared your throat, still not meeting her gaze. âYeah⌠I justâsorry.â Charlotteâs expression stayed put as you managed to remove yourself from the couch.Â
âDid I do something?â She asked, moving to also stand up. She looked at you with what you could only describe as confusion and concern. You couldnât blame her one bitâone second youâre all over each other, the next youâre pulling back like she stung you.
âNoâno, no, no,â you shook your head while gesturing with your right hand. âYou did nothing wrong. I um,â you finally looked to meet her gaze, âitâs just been awhile, I guess.â You could only hope she didnât see through your lame excuse, it wasnât completely untrue.Â
âOh,â Charlotte said. ââŚOh,â she then repeated when she realized what you meant. âShit, I didnât push you did I?âÂ
âI promise you didnât do anything wrong. Iâve just been in a weird place âŚfor a while,â you shrugged, not expecting to add that last part, your tone getting lower as you spoke those words.
âI get it,â she mustered an understanding tone.Â
A suffocating silence enveloped the room for a few seconds, causing you to look out the nearby window to be met with pitch darkness.
âItâs actually getting pretty late anyways and Iâve got an early shift in the morningâŚâ You said while slowly getting your jacked that hung from the couch.Â
âOf course. Call me?âÂ
âYeah,â you briefly smiled at her while adjusting the collar of your jacket. âSorry, again, for making things awkward,â you apologized while grabbing the last of your things.
âNo, donât worry about it. Stuff happens,â she waved you off while managing a reassuring tone.Â
You nodded at her before muttering, âthanks,â and finally leaving the apartment. As soon as you walked out into the crisp night air, you exhaled your own pocket of air you didnât even realize you were holding in.
Thatâs when it all came crashing down; the awkwardness, stupidness, and cringyness that came from the situation all because you were scared to let your situationship see your scars.Â
Nice going.
You repeated words like moron, idiot, and dumbass while you walked to your carâthe train of thought never breaking as you drove to your apartment. Manhattanâs late-night traffic didnât exactly ease your frustration. You were in the middle of cursing out the car in front of you when your phone started to ring.
Still feeling ridiculously stupid, you were going to let it just ring out, but that was before you saw the contact name.Â
You answered the phone. âTara?â You immediately asked with furrowed eyebrows. Why on earth is she calling you so late?
âY/NN,â you heard her slur over the phone. Your grip tightened on the steering wheel, immediately realizing what you were about to be in for. Before you could get another word out, she interrupted you. âHave I ever told you youâre so gorgeous it actually hurts?âÂ
Your eyes widened as heat rushed to your face, your hands nearly slipping off the wheel. The tips of your ears suddenly began to feel very warm while your mouth opened and closed a few times before you could get sound to come out.
âIâuh,â you cleared your throat before continuing. âWhere are you right now?â
âHommee. Where else?â Her answer was followed by hiccups.
âIâm coming over,â you said firmly before hanging up. Being distracted any further by her voice was the last thing you needed right now. You silently hoped nothing drastic was waiting for you at her apartment as you changed your route.
When were you going to stop jinxing things?
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It had now been a few weeks since the night at Taraâs apartment took place. Not long after you put her to bed, you gave yourself some time to reflect on her words. And ever since that night, you have been repeating them in your head whenever you were with the Carpenter. It seems as though she was able to move on easily, at least, her silence on the topic made it appear that way. On the outside, you gave the impression that you too had moved on from that night, that it had not affected you whatsoever. But on the inside, you were in emotional turmoil. With replaying your memories, that same tightening feeling in your chest that you felt that night reappeared.
There were so many key points of that night to completely crumble over; for starters, the incident with Charlotte. You are beyond embarrassed thanks to your repulsion for emotional intimacy. You knew if she saw your scars questions would ensue, thus putting you in an uncomfortable position to spill your guts out. The last thing you needed was for that to happen, but that alone had you thinking.
Youâve been on over four dates with Charlotte now and you have no idea where you stand with her. Sheâs just a situation-ship as of right now, and for all you know she could be seeing this as more. But the thought of asking her where you stand with her makes you emotionally grimace and cause your stomach to churn.Â
If you canât even talk to her about your relationship status, should you even continue seeing her? This question had you thinking even further. Maybe you rushed into this relationship, maybe it was far too soon. Was nearly a year too soon?Â
That was the last time you were in a relationship, the last time you allowed yourself any form of emotional intimacy with a partner. But that was the result of almost three years, years of building trust and connection. It was going to take a lot more than just a few dates with someone you donât truly know to recreate that. It was going to take effort.
As for the Tara part of that night, you didnât even know where to begin. Where could you? From her compliments to her insults, the night was certainly an eventful one. And just to think, you had seen her just hours before and there hadnât seemed to be any issues.Â
The coming semester is certainly going to be an interesting one.
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You and Tara were in your apartment, huffing and groaning could be heard throughout your room. She sat cross legged at the edge of your bed while you were leaned up against the headboard. Papers sprawled all over the bed, pens and pencils scatteredâalmost imitating what the inside of your mind currently looked like.
âWas the first sheet you gave meâwas it nine or seven?!â
You let out a huff, mixed with a long sigh, at Taraâs repeated question. After running a hand down your face, you slid closer beside her to get a better look at her paper. âThis is table nine right here,â you emphasized by rapidly tapping your pencil on the spot of the paper you wanted her to focus on.
She rolled her eyes as she mumbled, âOh my godââ She turned her head to looked at you as she huffed, âAnswer my fucking question with a yes or a no; was it a yesâwas it a nine or a seven?â
You muttered a few curses under your breathâcurses you knew she heard because of your close proximityâbefore taking your pencil to her paper once again. âAlright, okay so Iâm gonna circle thisââ
âWhat the fuckâ?!â
âThis isâthis is nine,â you glanced at her for a moment to make sure she was paying attention. All you were met with was a dumbfounded look.
âBut whatâs the top??â
âThatâs table seven.âÂ
There were a few seconds of her just staring at the paper and you looking between her and the paper until she said something.
âWhat?â Her voice indifferent.
âSo Iâm assuming you donât get itâŚâ
She turned her gaze from her paper to you, hitting you with a hard glare. âNo, asshole. I donât get it.â She then threw her pencil to the side and got up from the bed. Her arm brushes against yours as she does so but you choose not to pay any mind.
âIâm so tired of chemistry,â she all but whined before dramatically plopping back down on your bed face first.
âYouâre the one that said you needed help,â you pointed out while curiously flipping through her notebook. âI remember wanting to stick with routine and work on our history project.â Her doodles are cute.
âSo helpful,â she sarcastically remarked, muffled; she was still face planted on your mattress, right beside you.Â
âI try,â you reply in a monotone voice; you were still flipping through her notes as you talked.
Tara rolled over on her back, pushing loose strands of her raven hair away from her face. She exhaled before clearing her throatâwhich didnât get your attention, so she tried again âŚand again, after the third time she just settled for throwing a nearby pillow at your head.
You finally turned to look at her with furrowed eyebrows and a hand to the back of your head. âUm, can I help you?â
��Can we just start on the math now?â
âYou couldnât have asked that without the pillow to my head?â You asked incredulously.
âDo you have this, like, mental illness that prevents you from properly answering âyes or noâ questionsââ
âGet your other notes out before I change my mind.âÂ
Tara scrambled over to the side of the bed, reaching over to grab her bag that sat beside your bed. She quickly wiped off a giddy smile as she took out her needed papers. You were neatly setting her previous papers to the side as she did so.
âAlright, what do you got for me, Carpenter?â You inquired while she scooted back next to you; youâre both sitting side by side, leaning against your bedâs headboard as you looked at the page of notes she was showing you.Â
âThis is basically everything that's going to be on my exam next week,â her stress regarding her exams was evident from her tone. âSome topics Iâm good with, otherâs Iâm okay with, and a few Iâm struggling with.â She turned to look at you, eyes practically burning holes in the side of your head with a pleading look. Pleading for you to help her.
After a moment of silenceâof you intently staring at the paperâyou hummed to yourself, nodding, as you finally returned Taraâs gaze before speaking. âI have highlighters; I want you to circle the ones youâre okay with in orange, and the oneâs youâre struggling with in red,â you told her while reaching into the drawer of your nightstand for the highlighters.Â
All you got was a brief, âMhm,â while you blindly thrashed your hand around for the highlighters. When you finally got the right colors, you handed them to her before getting up from your bed which earned you a confused look from the other girl.
âWhere are you going?â
âBathroom. Donât miss me too much,â you couldn't help but smirk at the girl, leaving before she had the chance to counteract. You werenât sure if you were smirking because of your own remark, or if it was thought Tara was missing you. It definitely left a warm feeling inside of you.
She doesnât miss you. She wants less of you, remember? Your head reminded you, causing that familiar feeling of your chest tightening. Your breathing was still a bit hollow from the feeling as you finished up in the bathroom and walked back to your bedroom.
âYou finished?â You asked Tara while returning to your previous seat beside her.Â
âYes but I have a proposition for you,â Tara responded almost immediately. You stopped your movements, eyeing her with a suspicious look.Â
âLay it on me,â you said.
âWe can continue doing all this,â she gestured to her notes, ââbut instead we can do it in a place with food.â
âIâm gonna need you to elaborate, please.â
âI want to go to the diner nearby, and finish studying there. Iâm tired and starvingâand you havenât gone grocery shopping in weeks so I already know thereâs not much to find in your fridge.â
âWait, how do you know the last time I went shopping?â
Tara ignored your question, instead continuing to look at you with those doe eyes of hers as she continued to plead. âPleeeaaase, Y/N?â
You looked at her, feigning a reluctant look before letting out a sigh. âAlright, letâs go.â
âThank goodness. My stomach was starting to make noises Iâve never heard before,â she said as she was gathering her papers.
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âDone!â Tara announced in a cheery tone. You looked up from your book as she slid over the sheet of loose leaf she was just working on. âI put a star next to number three; I was having trouble with that one the most,â she told you before sipping her half drunken milkshake.Â
You nodded her way as your eyes skimmed her paper. âAll these are correctâincluding number three. Was there a specific reason you didnât fully understand it?â
âMainly the order of the steps,â she answered.
âI see. Well you were correct. But if you continue to have trouble with the memorization stuff, flashcards are great memorization tools. Especially colored ones. I can lend you some of you want,â you offered her while giving her back the piece of paper.
âOhâyeah. Totally,â she chuckled before loudly clearing her throat and practically shoving the straw in her milkshake into her mouth. There was something that washed over herâpossibly embarrassment? You couldnât be too sure. But why would she be embarrassed? Sometimes you wish you could hear her thoughts, just so you could get some insight on what was going through her head during certain moments.
Tara stared down at her straw, subconsciously refusing to pick up her head until she felt less flushed. That was so embarrassing, she kept thinking to herself. ToTalLy! Goodness, Tara, she just offered you some flash cardsânot her hand in marriage. Her cheeks got even warmer at the idea.
âYou good, Tar?â You just had to ask with that painfully soft voice you get when youâre concerned. Oh, and why did you have to call her Tar? She still remembers when you called her Tar for the first timeâyou were hiding away from everyone in her bedroom when she found you. She felt her knees physically grow weak as heat rushed to her ears, and now sheâs found herself in that same predicament due to you opening your stupid, occasionally sweet, mouth.Â
âHm? Great!â
âUm,â you let out a short, awkward, and airy laugh. âOkay, good, yeah.â Your eyes subconsciously took a quick scan around the diner due to Taraâs sudden volume change. âSo anyways, from the looks of those problems, youâre gonna nail your exam. Just try not to overthink your answers too much.â
Tara hummed before returning to her milkshake just to realize she was all out. Guess sheâs going to have to find another thing to distract her eyes from you.
You, on the other hand, were still confused. Did you say something? Why did she seem so timid all of a sudden? Did the flashcards somehow cross a line? If so, in what way did it? Tara was being a little too silent for your liking, which is really saying something considering how much you value your quiet time.Â
You were about to do one of the hardest things you have ever done. Attempt small talk.
You cleared your throat, âSo. Howâsâhow are you and uh Chad?â This finally got Tara to look up. She eyed you with a confused expression. âLike, dating and stuff,â you awkwardly added. Your palms were already growing sweaty as your leg began to bounce.Â
âMe and Chad? Dating?â Thatâs when she bursted out laughing, handing over her mouth and everything. You suddenly felt like a total dumbass but you werenât sure as to why. Were they no longer dating? Well obviously, if you had to take anything from her reaction. But you werenât doing a lot of laughing when you and your ex-girlfriend broke up.
âOhâIâm sorry, let me catch my breath for a second.â She literally wiped away a tear from how hard she was laughing before speaking up again. âY/N, Me and Chad are not together.â
âYouâre not?â
âNope. And we never will be, never ever ever.â
âNever ever?âÂ
âNever ever.â
You couldnât help the sudden wave of relief that washed over you, but you werenât sure where it came from.
âBut I saw you two kissing at a party,â you told her.
âRight âŚthat. Yeah, I try not to think about that night if Iâm being honest. It was honestly super embarrassing; I was completely drunk, so drunk to the point where I thought he was⌠someone else,â her voice grew a little quieter towards the end as she sank a little in her booth.
âOh.â Was all you said. You didnât know what else to say. What could you? That night was a misunderstanding, and judging by Taraâs words and reaction to the accusation of her and Chad datingâthat relationship is long from happening. Yet another feeling of relief washed over you as you had that thought.Â
âYeah,â Tara shrugged. Thatâs when something clicked in her head âŚshe could use this awkward discussion to her advantage. âSince weâre on the topic of dating, how are you and Charlotte? You havenât mentioned her in a while.â And good riddance for that, she silently thought to herself.Â
âI kinda ended that,â you nonchalantly answered before shoving a fry in your mouth.Â
âOh that sucks,â she feigned a sympathetic tone. âIt seemed like you two were really hitting it off.â
âI guess.â
Tara wanted to leave it that, really she did, but she just couldnât help but pry. âSomething happened?â She asked you.
âNope. Just fizzled, I guess. situation-ships do that sometimes, not surprising.â
âWait, âsituation-shipâ? What do you mean by that?â Her question and her tone of interest had you looking at her with raised eyebrows, utterly confused for what felt like the millionth time that night.
âLike, it wasnât serious. I wouldn't call her my girlfriend, doubt sheâd call me hers. Nothing more than a casual relationship,â you responded, for some reason you felt the need to tread lightly.
âDidnât you go on like five dates? If you go on multiple dates, that means youâre dating. Thus the word dating being an extension to date,â she sternly replied.Â
âAlright, I understand the responsibility of a verbâwhy are you getting upset over this?â
âIâm not upset.â The pout she wore as she defensively crossed her arms with slumped shoulders told you otherwise. âI justâI donât know. I want pie.â
âOkay. Iâll get you pie, but could we please switch to a different subject?â
âFine,â she mumbled; her gaze may have been directed toward her napkin, but it threatened to meet you every second.Â
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âI canât believe you finally watched it!â You exclaimed to Tara. The both of you were headed back to your apartment; it was dark out as it lightly snowed. You were holding the bag of leftovers, walking on the street-side of the sidewalk as Tara kept her hands firmly placed in her jacket pockets, protecting them from what felt like sub-zero temperature.
âI only avoided it for so long because of you!â She laughed.
âWow, so youâve been missing out on one of the greatest shows of all time due to pettiness?â
âOkay, okayâI said it was good, not great.â
âAh, but you wanna say great. Itâs that darn pettiness holding you back, once again,â you said as your smile never broke.
âDid you just say âdarnâ?â
âYeah, what?âÂ
Tara only laughed as she shook her head. âNothing.â
âOh! You should watch the extended cutâif you thought it was funny before, you're gonna love the superfan episodes.â
âIâll give them a shot,â she truthfully responded. She would say anything to keep you talking like this. One of the things she loved listening to was you geeking out over something you were passionate about. Maybe it was the sound of your voice, maybe it was how you lit up, maybe it was how animated you were while talking.Â
âDefinitely doââ You were cut off by a body colliding into you, causing you to drop the bag of leftovers you were carrying. You muttered a âsorryâ before crouching down to pick it up. Tara was about to help until your eyes met with the other personâs.
âY/N?â The stranger asked.
âOlivia?â You mirrored a confused look.
What was your highschool sweetheart from Woodsborro doing in the middle of Manhattan?
âOh my goshâit really is you.â Olivia laughed a bit as the realization set in. You couldnât help but laugh a bit too.Â
âYeahâyeah, and itâs you.â You responded before she came in for a hug. Your movement stuttered for a second before welcoming her hug. She was still as warm as the day you met, her dark hair still holding its shine it did since the last time you saw her.
The hug was understandably awkward, but for once you didnât mind awkward. âWhat are you doinâ in New York?â You finally asked her.Â
âIâm here for this documentary thing Iâm working on,â she said.
âThatâs rightâyour documentaries. Iâm glad youâre still at those,â you told her in a genuine tone.
She grew a smile at the words you spoke. âThanks⌠that means a lot.â
âOhâuh, you remember Tara, right?â You turned and briefly pointed at the Carpenter who slightly waved.
âYeah, I do. Hey,â Olivia said with no bitterness. She took a few steps and held out her hand to Tara, which the other girl took.
âHey,â Tara nodded with a tight lipped smile.
âIâm surprised you two are out in public together,â Olivia joked. You and Tara both laughed awkwardly at your dynamic being brought up.
âMe too,â you joked back. âSo uhâyou staying long?â You asked, purposely deflecting to a different topic.
âItâs currently indefinite, Iâm crashing at a friendâs place right now.â There was a glint in your eye that Olivia picked up. âWould you like to grab coffee sometime? Iâd love to catch up.â
âYeah, that sounds cool,â you replied; you were trying your best to hide your eagerness.Â
âAwesome,â she grinned at you. âSo, see you around?â
âSee you around,â you said. You instantly began to cringe at yourself as she started walking away, but she didnât leave without giving you one last look. As soon as she left ear shot, you let out a long awaited sigh.
âGeez.â The sound of Taraâs voice caused you to flinch, you completely forgot she was standing right there. âThat was hard to watch,â she remarked.
âNo one asked,â you said with an eye roll as the two of you began to walk again.Â
âSomeoneâs bitter,â she replied. âHeyââ She put the back of her hand on your chest to stop you from walking as she turned to look at you, âLetâs go to my place instead.â
âWhy?â
âI wanna finish these leftovers on the roof,â she answered.
âMy apartment has a roof,â you told her.
âNot the same.â
âHow is it not the same?â
âIt's just not. Now come on before our food gets even colder and more destroyed.â
âI guess Iâm following you,â you mumbled while trailing behind Tara.
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You and Tara were sitting on white patio chairs; the same ones you recall from the last few times youâve been up on the roof. The wind had calmed down since your walkover, snow still lightly falling from the sky. You were eating your fries as Tara was eating what was left of her pie.Â
âIâm just saying, I could totally take down a bear.â
âNot in a million years, Tara. You, a 5 foot gremlin, versus a big furry thing with claws that could rip you to shreds? Be serious,â you deadpanned.
âFirst of all, Iâm 5 foot 1, second of all, youâre really underestimating me here. If I can take down a sociopath while crippledââ
Tara didnât talk about Woodsboro a whole lot, really the only time sheâs talked about itâwith you at leastâwas the night it happened, the party at Henryâs house, and just now if that even counted. She never seemed to name-drop anyone connected to that night. But you understood. You donât remember the last time you said Deweyâs name out loud.Â
âA sociopath? Yes. But last I checked, the said sociopath didnât have the same physical traits as a bearâtherefore, your argument holds no power.â You shoved a few fries in your mouth before silently offering her some, in which she accepted.
You glanced over at her to see her expressionâshe looked kind of disappointed. You sighed, thinking for a moment, before speaking again. âOkay, Iâm not saying you have no chance. Youâd still do some damageâand I guess itâs not impossible to beat a bear.â You hated the instant flip in your stomach from seeing the way she lit up, it was subtle but youâre grateful you noticed.
She smiled, almost grinning but she resisted. âThatâs what Iâm saying!â
âJump on its back, put it in a headlock,â you added with your own little smile.
âExactly. You get me,â she absentmindedly said right before taking another bite of her pie.
âWhat a mad world we live in,â you joked while reaching beside your chair for your milkshake. Tara wasnât sure what you meant by that, but she just decided to ignore it rather than dwell on itâat least for the moment. She looked over to see you sipping your milkshake and a sly smile appeared on her face as she began to lean closer to you, her elbows resting on her chairâs armrest and expression never faltering.
âYou want something, Tar?âÂ
âThatâs an awfully tasty looking milkshake you have there,â she commented; she feigned an innocent tone.
You glanced at her from your peripheral visionâshe was on your left sideâas you played with the straw in your milkshake. âTaraâŚâ You all but sang. She hummed in response, her position still the same. âWould you like my milkshake?â You asked, but your tone hinted that you already knew what her answer was going to be.
âWell, I guess since youâre offering. Who would I be to pass up a perfectly good milkshake?â
âYouâre a piece of work,â you remarked with a broad smile that Tara could describe as gleaming.Â
âYouâre the sucker who gave me her milkshake,â she sneered before taking a sip from said milkshake.
âIâd watch my tone if I were you, âcause this sucker could easily take it back,â you threatened, lightly laughing along with the other girl.Â
She scoffed and waved her free hand, âYeah right. Iâd like to see you try.âÂ
âOh, yeah?â You get up from your chair, eyes never leaving Tara. âI bet I could take it back from you, no sweat.âÂ
A smirk grew on Taraâs face as she also got up from her chair. âOkay, okay, youâre on then. Winner takes allâall being the milkshake.âÂ
âYou got yourself a deal.â
âOkay then letâs do this, come on bring it,â Taraâs grin was just too strong to fight off as she lifted up her elbows; one, to use as a shield for her milkshake, and two, to use as her weapon.Â
You let out a laugh when you saw a defense mechanism. âThatâs pathetic,â you quipped.
âOh, really?â She said with raised eyebrows. She then shoved her elbows towards you, both of you laughing during all this.Â
âOh!â You took that as a chance to grab her from behind and wrap your arms around her waist, holding her in place as she attempted to break loose; in her defense, it wasnât as easy to do so while she was flushed against you, her face heating up from both the action and her ceaseless laughter.Â
The milkshake dropped to the floor, but neither of you paid any mind. You lifted her up a bit as you spoke, âNot much of a fighter now, huh?â You quipped in a smug tone.Â
âYou are so playing dirty right now!â She said; her shirt rose a little bit and her hands were loosely holding onto your forearms.
âI donât remember seeing a rule book. Just surrender and Iâll put you down,â you told her as if it was the simplest thing ever; for anyone else, it would have been.
âNo way!â At her response you lifted her higher at which she started rapidly patting arm.Â
âYou finally surrender?â
âNever in a bazillion years!â Just as Tara said that, she felt a drop of water on her forehead. She furrowed her eyebrows, glancing up at the night sky. âShitâI think itâs raining.â
âYeah right, you just donât wanna be the one to surrender,â you accused while adjusting your hold on Tara.
âI actually feltââ Before Tara could finish her sentence, a loud grumble could be heard as it started to abruptly pour. âI told you!â
âShit,â you cursed as you put Tara down.
âWe need to get inside.â
âIncredible observation. Thought of being a detective?â You quipped.
âShut up. Itâs freezing, letâs just get inside.â Tara was visibly shivering, wrapping her arms around each other while hugging them close to her torso.Â
âOkay, come on.âÂ
Tara barely let you finish speaking as she started rushing towards the door. âWaitâ! Tara, don't run! You could slip!â You tried to match her speed without breaking your neck in the process. You nearly sighed in relief when she slowed down.Â
She looked at you with an inpatient look as she waited for you to catch up. You were in the process of taking off your jacket as you caught up to her. âIf youâre going to slow me down, at least walk a little faster. Iâm getting drenched, and this outfit isnât exactly water resistantâIâm not water resistant!â
âGeez, alright. Quit complaining.â You caught up to her, trailing behind her as you wrapped your jacket around her. âStop looking at me funny, just open the door,â you said in response to the lost expression she gave you.
She mumbled something incoherent while reaching for the doorâs handle and turning.Â
As soon as you stepped inside, you let out a long exhale while rubbing your hands together. You looked beside you to see Tara attempting to shake off the water she was drenched in; of course, as a result, she ended up spraying you in the process. âDo you have to do that near me?â
âWhere else am I doing it?â She tightened your jacket around her, holding it impossibly close to keep herself warm.
âWhatever, I gotta get home anyway. Picked up a few extra shifts,â you said while double checking your phoneâs dryness.
âI thought the cafe gave you off on Saturdays.â
âUh, yeah. I do. Iâmâcovering for a coworker, I owe them so,â you trailed off with a shrug; you batted your eyes away from Tara, suddenly finding your drenched jeans very interesting. âWell, I should get going. Iâll see you around?â
âYeah, see you,â Tara responded; you made your way down the stairs but not before sparing a small smile.
â
It was the next day, 8:52 am on a Saturday. You had woken up around 4:00 since you had to get in around 7:00 to help set up and open at 8:00. Exhaustion was hitting you back and forth, the only thing that was keeping you awake, barely, was your few hours old coffee you had brought from home. Staying out late with Tara was really biting you in the ass, but you were usually tired these days so it wasnât much of a difference.
Although it was slow since the day had just begun for many, you still found yourself dealing with incompetence so early in the morning. Truly, it was too early for this. If one more person asked about Halloween stuff, Thanksgiving stuffâany other thing they shouldâve gotten months prior, you are going to bash your head into a wall.
Why are people asking their barista about stupid out of season decorations? Itâs simple, the cafe wasnât paying you enough; attending college and living off campus wasnât getting any cheaper and you needed a reliable job. So when you saw that Target was hiring, you applied. Thatâs how you came to balance two jobs and some of the most insufferable customers you have ever had the displeasure of conversing with.
âIâm sorry miss, but we stopped selling that after October. But if youâd like, I can show you to the candy aisleââ
âNo, listen to me, these are what I want,â she snarled while shoving her phone in your face; her phone showed a picture of the Halloween candy she wanted. âI donât want regular sour patch, I don't want regular m&mâs, I donât want regular reeseâs piecesâI want Hal-lo-ween candy.âÂ
âI know that, but missââ
âCan you just go check in the back? Please? My son has been driving me insane and I need to at least do this one thing right,â she begged.
You let out a silent sigh, âOf course. Iâll go check in the back to see if we have anything left.â
âSee, now that wasnât so hard,â she said as you made your way to the storage room. You rolled your eyes, choosing to ignore her statement. It really was too early for this.
You went into the storage and sat down on a nearby box; you just stared at the ceiling, zoning out for about a minute before heading back.
âI apologize, we donât have what you're looking for. Is there anything else I can help with?â
She scoffed at you, clutching her purse as she did so. âNo, I do not need your help because clearly it is no use. Your manager will be hearing from me,â she angrily said before strutting away.
âIâm sure heâll love that,â you remark out loud to yourself. Once sheâs out of your eye line, you let out an aggravated sigh. Working in retail is not for the weak.
You walked back to the end of the aisle and began to restock the shelves again, the thing you were previously doing before being interrupted. You picked up one of the boxes of cereal when your hand accidentally knocked something out of your pocket. It fell by your feet, you glanced at it for a moment before looking back at the shelfâbut thatâs when it registered what it was. You immediately placed down the box then kneeled down to pick up what you dropped.Â
It was a folded piece of paper. You slightly furrowed your eyebrows as you unfolded it before you traded your confusion for a smile. You looked at the doodles that covered the paper, the doodles drawn by Tara. Her name was even signed at the corner; sometimes she draws her name in different fonts to pass the time. Over the years, you noticed her favorite font to draw is graffiti lettering. You were now standing up, still smiling down at the piece of paper. You always admired the way she wroteâ
âSuddenly somebody clears their throat. You jumped, blinking rapidly while attempting to shove the paper back into your pocket. You turn your head around to see your co-worker, Avery, crossing her arms while giving you a look you couldnât quite read. âSecret admirer?â She remarked with a smirk.
âNo, itâs justâitâs nothing. Scraps, really if you could even call it that,â you stammered while trying to nonchalantly lean against the shelves. It wasnât a total failure, you guess. Â
â...Right,â she narrowed her eyes at her, clearly not believing your crappy save, but dropped it nevertheless. âAnyways, me, Vicky and a few of the others are gonna go out for a drink tonight; can I count you in?âÂ
You stopped leaning on the shelves as you thought for a moment. You usually werenât one for going out, but itâs been a long few months. With that thought, everything thatâs happened in the past year flashes through your mind. Itâs been nothing but motion sickness, and maybe you could go for a drink or two.Â
âYou know whatâyeah, Iâm in,â you nodded at her before returning to the boxes of cereals that sat in the cart beside you.Â
âWait, really? You never wanna come to these things âŚdamn it, I owe Vicky like 20 bucks,â Avery silently moped as she walked away. You laughed a bit at her comment as you continued stocking the shelves.
Maybe tonight wouldnât be so bad.
â
When you got home that day, you made sure to take a nap before it was time to leave for the bar. When you got there, you stood at the doorway for a few seconds, honestly not sure what your next move was but luckily you caught Averyâs eye and she waved you over. You walked over to where she and the others sat atâthe barâyou sat down on the stool beside Avery who was sat next to Vicky. You were surprised they werenât sitting on the same stool with how tangled with each other they were.
âYou made it!!â Avery shouted in a cheery voice that made you wince as she pumped her fists in the air. âLook, Vicky! Y/Nâs here!â Vicky nodded at the girl while trying to subtly ground her by rubbing her lower back.
She looked over at you with an apologetic look. âSorry, she gets kinda loud and hyper when sheâs drunk.â
You chuckled a little, giving her a reassuring shake with your head. âDonât worry about it, Iâm a pretty embarrassing drunk anyways so I couldnât talk. Probably why I donât do it much,â you told her while your arms rested on the table.Â
âGosh, I canât wait to see you drunk,â she said while adjusting her arm as Avery was now resting her head on Vickyâs shoulder.
âThatâs never gonna happenâjust a club soda for me. At most Iâll do some watered down beer, but thatâs really it,â you said.Â
âWow.â
âI know, Iâm a party animal,â you quipped with sarcasm laced in your voice.
âTotal rebel,â she added as you both laughed. âSo, other than the fact that youâre a total bad boyâhow are you liking New York?â She asked with Avery still wrapped around her who had snuggled up closer to her.
âItâs fine. Hasnât changed much since the last time I lived here.â
âYeah? Did you live in Manhattan before or someplace else?âÂ
âBrooklyn. I was born there, and lived there until âŚI didnât,â you answered with your train of thought trailing off with your answer. So much has changed since you moved. What if you didnât move? What if you never moved back? What if you lived in Woodsboro first? What ifâ
ââDid your family move around a lot?â She asked another question out of pure curiosity.
âUhâŚâ You picked at the wood surface in front of you, suddenly feeling drained and exhausted. â No. Just one time.âÂ
âCool, my family moved around a few times. Itâs a pretty hard thing to go through, even if itâs just once,â she said in an understanding tone. She looked back to Avery, smiling to herself as she stared admirably at the half-a-sleep girl nuzzled up against her.Â
You glanced over at the adorable site before asking, âHow long have you two been dating?â
âA couple months, but weâve known each other for ten years,â she responded while pushing back loose strands of hair that covered Averyâs eyes.
âThatâs a long time,â was all you could think to say.Â
âYeah, sheâs literally my other half. I donât know what Iâd do without her.â After letting herself stare at Avery for another moment, Vicky turned her gaze back to you. âHow about youâyou seeing anyone?â
âEh.â
âEh?â
âI was uh, sort of seeing someone? But broke that off recently. Too close for comfort,â you elaborated for her while silently deciding if you should drink tonight.
âYour casual relationship get too intimate?â She raised an eyebrow before you responded with a tiny nod, she probably would have missed it if she blinked in the same moment. âYeah, I used to be like that before Avery.âÂ
âGuess I just gotta wait for my Avery,â you half-joked, earning a laugh from Vicky.Â
âI hope you do, sheâs definitely a keeper,â she said fondly. She looked at youâyour head now resting on your folded armsâand saw the distraught expression you wore, it looked as if you were silently having a debate with yourself.Â
âSomething up?â
You did a double-take at her, lifting up your head before sparing her a meek smile. âJust thinking, you know?â
Vicky nodded before adding on. âYou need advice? Iâve always been told I give great advice.â Her voice was kind and held nothing but honesty.
âSureâŚâ You were hesitant to accept but you were also on the verge of digging yourself into a hole just to avoid decision making. To be fair, you often think about barricading yourself to avoid dealing with your problemsâand oftentimes, you have actually done it. âSo last night I bumped into my ex,â you reluctantly began, âand we briefly talked, and she mentioned meeting up sometime to catch up.â
âIâm assuming youâre nervous about the catching up part?âÂ
You confirmed with a hum.
âAre you nervous about being the first to reach out, the catching up part overall, or both?â
âYes.â
She let out a tiny laugh, not unkindly, before telling you that advice she told you about not long ago. âThis was all last night, right? I say, wait a couple more days, then reach out if youâre up to it, and then once you get that part out of the way the rest will build itself.â
âYou really think so?â
âPromise, I really donât think you should stress too much on this. And listen, if youâre really not ready to meet up with her yet, I think sheâd understand. Either way, itâs your choice,â she told you before sipping her drink.
âThatâs⌠really good advice. Thank you,â you complimented.
âYouâre welcome, anytime. I did mention that I give great advice.â
âI said good, not great,â you said in a tone that hinted you were just teasing.
âYeah, okay whatever.â Vicky playfully rolled her eyes as you smiled at your own taunting.
Maybe this was not as bad as you were making it out to be, maybe everything would be okay. Maybe, just maybe, things were finally starting to look up.
â
Things were awful. You could never have been so wrong in your life. It was one thing after another. First with the text; you had to just hope Olivia didnât change her number as you looked for her contactâwhich you had to look for by number since your removed her name and photo right after your breakup out of pure pettinessâand it took you about half an hour to think of the right words to send, and as soon as you sent them you immediately regretted it.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Next was when she actually responded.Â
Y/N (4:42 pm) Hey, itâs Y/N. Catching up sounds cool, so if the offer still stands Iâd love to take you up on it
(XXX) XXX-XXXX (4:56 pm) Hi, yeah offer still stands. Iâm actually free tonight if that works? I know thatâs short notice so I completely understand if youâre unable to
You were in the middle of revising your notes at the kitchen counter when you heard the ding from the couch. Your head immediately shot up, and as soon as it processed what that ding wasâyou ran to it, hopping over the back of the couch and grabbing your phone.Â
You read the message over to yourself exactly seven times before impulsively reacting to her message with a thumbs up. After your response, you got another text from Olivia and the two of you made a decision of when and where to meet.Â
Oh, how deeply you regretted your impulsiveness as you stared at the same outfit over and over again. Thatâs what came right after the communication part; what exactly you were going to wear. You felt ridiculous, youâre usually not like thisâbut that happens to be a reminder of all the different things Olivia brings out in you. Good and bad. It was like you were 17 again.
Eventually you decided on something comfortable, casual, itâs not like you were going someplace fancy. The air in your apartment suddenly grew to be suffocating the closer it got to the time you had to leave. You gathered your belongings; you gathered your wallet, keys, phone, headphones, and lighter, shoving a few of them into your pockets. Just before leaving you stood still for a second.
What could I be missing? There has to be something. There has to be something. Damn it, there has to be something!Â
Your eyes wandered around your apartment for a good minute before you called it in. You patted yourself down while muttering the names of the items you felt in your pockets before finally leaving. You locked up behind you and let out a long sigh as you ran your hand down your face.Â
When you got to the bakery, your heart was beating in your ears and you felt your ears warm up when you made eye contact with Olivia from just a few tables away. She waved at you and you waved back as you subtly gulped. On the way towards the table, you silently hoped she didnât pick up on the urge you had to perish right then and there.
âHey,â you said. You werenât sure if you were supposed to hug her or shake her hand, something, so you just stuck with sending a small but simple smile her way.
âHi,â she responded. She returned your smile as she looked you up and down. âYou look goodâI mean, you look yeah,â she awkwardly laughed, flustered from her stammering.
You returned a short laugh, feeling a tiny bit of the tension beginning to ease but not entirely, âYou look good too,â your smile grew softer as you spoke. You noticed her eyes still wandering. âDidnât get a good look last time?â You quipped in a teasing tone.
She shook her head as she tried to fight off the bright smile that painted her face. âI see you havenât changed much,â she said.
âWell, me and change have never mixed well.â
âOh trust me, I know,â she made her tone less monotone to ease the weight of her words. But that didnât make you oblivious to their meaning.
You cleared your throat, adjusting your posture while you folded your hands and dropped them to your lap. âSo, howâs the documentary going?â
âJust fine,â she said positively. âStill in the early stages, and you know how that can be.â You nodded along to her words. It suddenly became awkwardly quiet.Â
You picked at your cuticles, pressing harder and harder for that sweet sensation you craved, your gaze everywhere but at Olivia. That tension you felt before started to settle in your chest again, and you didnât know how to cope. You just wanted out. You regretted agreeing to this. You wish you never bumped into her. You wish you never agreed to dinner with Tara because then this wouldn't be happening.Â
Of course it goes back to Tara. It always seems to.
âYou still do that thing with your fingers?â She asked out of the blue.
âHuh?â You furrowed your eyebrows, looking down at your lap to where your hands rested.Â
âI donât have to look to know. I've known you for three years, Y/N,â she said.
âOh.â
âAnd I can hear you picking at them from under the table.â
You suddenly felt small, slumping in your chair, and continuing to avoid eye contact with the woman who sat across from you. However, Olivia did not return this treatment. She sat up in her chair, placing her own hands on the table before turning them over to expose her palms. âLet me see your hands.âÂ
âWhat?â
âShow. Me. Your. Hands.â
 It didnât seem like she was asking. There was definitely not a question mark in there. You rolled your eyes, letting out a small sigh that held aggravation. Reluctantly, you complied with her commands. She took your hands in hers and began to examine them, her fingers tracing down and softly rubbing against yoursâyou forgot how soft her hands were. As soon as her hands made contact with yours, you felt your joints grow weak and your cheeks felt too warm. You donât remember the last time you held hands with her but it was certainly having an affect on you.
âHave you been using these as a chew toy?â She rhetorically asked, referring to your fingers whilst still examining them.
âOkay, theyâre not that bad.â
âYes. Yes they are,â she said with no hesitation.
She finally stopped looking at your fingers and instead at you. When you saw the worried expression that painted her face, you knew a line of questioning was approaching. âAre you okay?â She inquired in an unbearably gentle voice.
âIâm fine.â
âWhich means youâre not fine.â
âPutting words into my mouth, as always,â you said in a low tone as you pulled your hands away from her.
âYou really want to go there?â She let out a short exasperated laugh with her question, raising her eyebrows as she spoke.
âWhen I say Iâm fineâIâm fine,â you said while leaning in and emphasizing your words by pressing on the table with your index finger; you leaned back against your chair when you finished speaking.
âOh my God. You are literally so unbelievableâdo you even hear yourself?â She looked at you with pure disbelief which only confused you further.
âWhat are you even talking about? All I said is that when I say Iâm fine, I mean those words. How am I wrong here? I genuinely donât understand,â you expressed in both frustration and genuine confusion.
âAnd what I am trying to say is youâre still the exact same person I was arguing with right before we broke up.â
âWhat?â
âYou never want to talk! Listen, baby, I get youâre grievingâbut you canât just shut me out like this. Itâs apparent that you need help! You donât have to rush into it, but eventuallyââ
âWhether I talk or not is my choice! And Iâm not seeing some stupid grief counselor, okay? Just because I donât wanna talk to you about certain things, doesnât mean Iâm shutting you outâand I donât need help! Iâm fine. Iâm justâdamn it, Iâm just processing. Canât you let me do that at least?â
âYou have been âprocessingâ for months! Itâs time toââ
âTime to what? Move one?â
âThatâs not what I was going to say!â
âBut youâre thinking it. Youâre thinking it just like everyone else is; my mom, my brothers, everyone at schoolâjust leave me alone, all right!â
âY/N, nobody isââ
âNo! Everyone is thinking! Just stop, okay! I donât need your bullshit sweet nothings, I donât need some therapist, I don't need to talk about itâIâm fine!â
You and her could not even go five minutes without your conversation, or lack of, forming into an argument. And it was your fault. You were the problem. You couldnât answer a simple question. Maybe you were hiding behind the fact that you didnât know how to answer that question, or that you're trying to hide the answer from others. Either way, you always find yourself forming emotional barricades around you, no one in and no one out.Â
âHey, come back,â Oliviaâs voice rang. You were pulled from your thoughts, blinking rapidly as if it would wipe away the memories you tried so hard to erase. She leaned in, her irritated expression replaced with a comforting one. âI know how mean that voice in your head can be, I know what it does to youâbut I just want you to be okay.â
You met her gaze, your expression equivalent to the look of a lost puppy. âThank you, Olivia,â you simply said. It was not much, but it still weighed in emotion.Â
 The rest of the night was less intense. She asked about Blackmore and how itâs going, which inevitably opened the door to her questioning you about seeing you with Tara the other night, and you found out more about her documentary. The night was long and tiring, but as much as you hate to admit it, youâre glad you agreed to catch up with Olivia. And you would be a bold faced liar if you said you didnât miss her. The wound is still arguably fresh, but itâs beginning to heal.Â
You walked into the apartment, looking forward to changing into a pair of pajamas and binge watching some TV on the couch until you passed out. You have been studying non-stop for exams for the past four weeks, so why not give yourself a treat? Plus, this upcoming school week, you will officially be exactly one week from exams so you will be locked in. What does that mean? You do what you usually do but multiply that by a million, anyone who has known you long enough knows theyâre going to hear less and less from you the closer you get to exams. Itâs as if you completely shut down from the outsideâactually, thatâs exactly what happens.
As you walked inside, you yawned and rubbed your tired eyes. But as they begin to focus again, you notice a few blobs sitting in your living room. When your eyes are fully focused, thatâs when you see them.
âAre you shitting me,â you expressed in a monotone voice while turning the locks on the door before throwing your keys to the side.
âNoâno whining!â Anika immediately said. âYou knew they were coming over.â
âI thought you canceled,â you said.
âUncanceled.â
âWhat a miracle,â you remarked as you took off your jacket.
âHow come whenever I have people over you have a problem with it as if this isn't a shared apartment?âÂ
âY/N being an inconsiderate jackass? What a revolation,â Tara pitched in with a smirk. You looked over to deadpan at her and she was already staring back at you.
âSays the woman who still owes me a milkshake,â you wiggled a finger at her. You both smiled at each other before you turned back around to kick off your shoes. âYou know what, Nik, itâs fine. Iâm just kind of grumpy right now.â
âItâs okay, Iâm sorry for not giving you an update,â she said, matching your own apoplectic tone. âYou wanna join us? We were gonna play some Uno then watch a movie.â
âUh, I donât knowââ
âYeah, probably 'cause youâre gonna get all embarrassed when I wipe the floor with your ass in Uno,â the younger Carpenter knowingly instigated.
âOh, excuse me? Iâll have you know Iâm the reigning champ in my familyâdonât start something you canât finish, princess,â you instigated back.
âI wouldnât dream of it.â
âAlright,â your gaze stayed on Tara for a moment before switching back to Anika, âIâll join you.â
â
âTara is totally looking at my cards!â Chad shouted while shoving his cards to his chest like an elderly woman clutching her pearls.
âI am not! Youâre the one who keeps leaning on my side!â Tara whined back with just as much passion, if not more.
âOkayâno one looks at anyone's cards!â Anika cut in. âAlright, babe, itâs your turn.â
Mindy wore a devious smirk, slowly picking a card from her deck for dramatic effect.Â
âBoom, suck on that!â Everyone leaned in to look at the plus four Mindy slammed down on the pile of cards. Chad instantly groaned, immediately feeling a sense of regret for wasting his last plus four. He sulked while taking four more cards.
Now it was your turn. Tara was right after you, you had the chance to make her life a living hell. All you had to do was place the three plus four from your deck and you would double Taraâs deck in size and be one more card away from Uno.
You made a decision.
âPlus four,â you gloated regarding the single plus four you placed down.
âDamn it!â Tara made sure to glare at you while she picked up her four cards. âJust wait, youâll see. Iâm going to make my comeback.âÂ
âWhatever you say,â you said in a doubtful tone. As Tara silently cursed to herself while flipping through her deck in frustration, you couldnât help but stare fondly at the girl. She always had a competitiveness to her that you couldnât help but respect. It was kind of cute.
After another seven minutes, it came down to just two people; you and Tara. You sat from across each other, debating your next play while one taunted the other.
âYou know youâre going down, right?â
Tara laughed at your words. âYou have at least ten cards, I just have two more turns and Iâll be following through with wiping the floor with your ass.â
âOh, yeah?â You said, unintentionally with a come hither voice. You leaned in, your voice lowering but the tone still the same as you spoke to her. âYou keep that energy, Carpenter.â
Tara's face suddenly grew warm, her stomach enveloping with butterflies as your voice crashed against her ears. You leaned back against the couch, looking at your own cards as it was Taraâs turn now.Â
Shit, you were in her head now. You totally did that on purpose, you had to. And what a dick you were for that, you knew what you were doingâagain, you had to be aware of your actions. You must know the stupid feeling you give her, the way her stomach flips, how her legs turn to jello when you call for her. No. Focus. Come on, Tara. Lock in. Wipe the floor.
She cleared her throat, blinking down at her cards while processing them. It took a moment for it to click before she tapped back into her competitiveness and slammed down a card. âUno! Plus fourâsuck on that!â Now she had just one card remaining in her hand, just one more turn and she would be victorious.
You smiled at her, your head tilted a bit as your eyes lit at the sign of her celebrating. She calmed herself down, feigning a calm demeanor. âAlright, it's your turn.â
You sighed. Well it was fun while it lasted, you enjoyed playing with Tara. It was entertaining. Itâs nice playing with someone who can handle your competitiveness. âUno, uno out,â you said while putting down your entire deck. You sat in your spot, looking at Tara with a shit-eating smirk with your hands folded together as Tara sat there dumbfounded.
âThatâsâwhat, no, wait,â she furrowed her eyebrows as she rummaged through the cards you just placed. They were all green sevens. All of them. âHowâd youââ
âChin up, honey,â you teased, winking at her
âOh youâre a real piece of work.â She shot up from her seat as she rushed over to a nearby closet. Your eyes followed her movements as you raised your eyebrows at her sudden actions.Â
âYou two finally finished?â Mindy asked but was ignored by the other girl. âWhat are you doing with thatâcan you like stop ignoring me?â Tara returned with a box of Jenga in her hand and the others trailing behind her.Â
âIâm too tired to play Jenga,â Chad said.
âGood thing youâre not.â She now looked to address you, âYou, me, Jengaânow.â
âYes, maâam,â was all you said as she immediately began setting everything up.
âWhatâs this about?â Anika asked you.
âOh, I beat her ass in Unoâgraciously soâand sheâs being petty about it,â you shrugged.
âI am not being petty, I am unsatisfied. Seriouslyâhow do you win with all green sevens?! Ugh, never mind that. Weâre playing this and Iâm going to hold out on my promise.â
âOf wiping the floor with my ass?â
âExactly.â
âWoman of her word,â you say while getting comfortable in your spot.
Mindy, Anika, and Chad watched from the sidelines as you and Tara went at it in Jenga. There were many, many close calls, and few times where the other nearly flipped a table. You both tried to get into the otherâs head while the other was sliding out their pieces, but so far no mistakes. But the tower was growing wobbly, it was getting late, and it was only a matter of time before that tower fell over. Now, it was simply a matter of who would make it come to that.
It was Taraâs turn, and there were not many places left for her to take from so she was forced to resort to an incredibly risky spot. You took this as another opportunity to mess with her. âHey, Tar?â
âKind of busy here,â she saidâthe block just halfway out.Â
âWill you marry me?â You casually inquired.
Taraâs eyes widened and her eyebrows jumped in surprise. Her hand immediately faltered, dropping her piece as the tower came crashing down. Her mouth opened and closed, her stare averting back and forth from you and the fallen tower; she didn't even know where to begin.Â
The others just remained on the sidelines, completely entertained by what was unfolding in front of them.
âIs that⌠a no?â Your eyes were almost pleading as you continued to taunt the girl, your millionth smirk that night threatened to show itself.Â
âIâm going to kill you,â Tara responded as she squeezed her eyes shut, still processing what just happened.
âNot before the honeymoon,â you quipped. Chad, Mindy, and Anika could now be heard laughing, no longer able to hold it in.
âYou canât justââ She shut her mouth out of frustration, settling for narrowing her eyes at you.
âI canât just what, sweetie? Come on, use your words.â Oh, this was fun.Â
Suddenly you got a pillow to the face which only made it funnier, to you at least. âYou owe me a rematch, cheater!âÂ
âExcuse me, I didnât cheat. You messed up on your own devices,â you said while patting down the pillow and putting it to the side.
âYou know what you did,â she said with bitterness laced in her voice.Â
âI donât, so how about you tell me? Tell me how exactly my words affected you; you know, so I can prevent myself from accidentally cheating next time.â You never broke eye contact with Tara; you enjoyed how much she was squirming thanks to you, maybe you enjoyed it a little too much.
âNext time?âÂ
âYou wanna rematch, donât you?â
âYeah. I do.â This whole interaction had Tara blushing; she needed to leave, like right now. âHow about I get back to you in 5-7 business days? Sounds good? Cool. Well, itâs late and Chadâs my ride so we should probably head home, right Chad?â Her words were rushed which made you raise an eyebrow at the sudden change.Â
âHm? Oh sure, Iâll just get my keys and stuff and we can go,â Chad said before going to get his belongings.
âSo, Iâll see you aroundâbuddy,â she awkwardly punched your arm in a playful manner.
âUm, yeah, buddy. See you around,â you chuckled at her awkwardness.
âIâm still expecting an answer though!â You called out as she made her way to the front door.
â5-7 business days!â She repeated back to you.
âIâm holding you to that!â
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A/N: well that escalated, gosh, keep it in your pants R! đŚ
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#let the light in au#tara carpenter#tara x reader#tara carpenter x you#tara carpenter x reader#tara carpenter x y/n#jenna ortega x reader#tara carpenter x female reader#tara carpenter scream#tara carpenter x fem!reader#scream x you#scream x reader#jenna ortega#jenna ortega x you#scream fanfic
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BTS Fic Recs â Tumblr (iii)
These are all available on tumblr as of April 2024. Some are likely crossposted on ao3 as well.
~Ao3 RECS HERE~ ~Recs (i)~ ~Recs (ii)~
Almost all are complete works, those with â+â after WC are incomplete. Most are BTS x (F!)Reader.
Most of these are Mature or Explicit (usually because of smut) ~ mdni ~ italicized titles rated G or T* ~ Please read responsibly~ ~*I don't believe any of the below fics are rated anything other than M or E, Minors save your time and find other lists :}~
If any authors tagged here wish to be removed/untagged, please lmk!
F2L = friends to lovers ; E2L = enemies to lovers ; FE2L = frenemies to lovers ; R2L = rivals to lovers ; BFB = best friend's brother ; BBF = brother's best friend etc
OT7/Multi
â Monster series by @whatifyoulivelikethat | Mafia AU | MYG + JJK | 17k+
â Mafia series by @neonlights92 | Mafia AU, Arranged Marriage AU |
Kim Namjoon
â Ensnared by @jamaisjoons | F2L Cryptid AU | 17k
â Stuttering by @moonlightchildz | Tutor AU, Rapper AU | 11k
â Inside my mind by @jimlingss | High School AU, Mind Reader AU | 19k
Kim Seokjin
â Birthright by @jimilter | S2L Vampire AU | 18k
Min Yoongi
â Sunrises & Liquor series by @aamalaaa | S2F2L Bar AU, 60k
â Three tangerines series by @kithtaehyung/@threetangerines, BBF AU | 253k+
â Lying that you love me by jeonsjiddies | S2F2L Roommates AU, âBad Boyâ AU | 11k
â Dealer series by @borahaerhy | S2L Dealer AU | (ongoing)
â Bad cop chronicles by @minisugakoobies | Cop AU, Parent AU | 12k
â Poison by @sugaflake | S2L Hookup Pw/oP? | 4k
â Seven year itch by @jimlingss | Established Relationship AU | 5k
â The early shift series by @hobidreams | E2L Coffee Shop AU, Coworkers AU | 21k
â One ring to bind them all, or, just a solitary, cranky demon series by @bts-love-sweat-tears | Demon AU, Arranged Marriage AU, Royal AU | 13k+
Jung Hoseok
â The dragonâs princess by @jamaisjoons | Fairytale AU, Dragon AU | 24k
â The bodyguard by @sopejinsunflower | Bodyguard AU, Mafia AU | 19k
Park Jimin
â The princeâs cinderella syndrome by @jimilter | S2L Uni AU, Fantasy/Supernatural AU | 39k
â Headlights by @jeonsjiddies | S2F@L Uni AU, Fboy AU | 15k
Kim Taehyung
â Trip by @daechwitatamic | ?2L Camping AU | 22k
â Always the bridesmaid by @kookingtae | S2F2L Journalist AU | 34k
Jeon Jungkook
â To know you is to love you by @jimilter | S2E2F2L Vampire AU, Supernatural AU | 21k
â The sea and the storm by @jamaisjoons | S2F2L Supernatural AU | 20k
â Jackrabbit by @jamaisjoons | Uni AU, Hybrid AU | 9k
â Ruin you series by @bts-bay-bee | BFF2FWB2L Uni AU | 10k
â Mutual by @seokjxnnie | Bossâs Son AU?? | 3k
â Cable management series by @19pancakes | S2L | ongoing
â Fighter series by @jeon-s-sins | S2F2L Underground Fighter AU | 8k+
â Candles & flames series by @taegularities | E2L Royal AU | 100k
â Reign series by @nochuobsessed | F2L Royal AU, sort of Arranged Marriage AU | 89k
Werewolf Recs (yeah i went through the phase, sue me)
â My Darkness by @missbangtae | Werewolf AU, Uni AU | 10k
â Room 109 by @lavishedinjimin | Werewolf AU, Roommates AU | 7k
â Scent by @rosesxstories | Werewolf AU, Established Relationship AU | 3k
â New beginnings by @gukeobi | E2F2L Werewolf AU | 17k
â Knot today by @kinktae | F2L Werewolf AU, Roommates AU | 6k
â Claws of carnality series by @jjungkooksthighs | Werewolf AU, Soulmate AU | 93k+
Overall Favourite Authors (If I recc'd all their works like I want to/more than I have, I'd have to make this series even longer >.<)
â @1kookâs masterlist
â @jimilterâs masterlist
happy reading!
#bts fic recs#group: bts#type: fic#this is a lil shorter than the other two but i haven't added anything to it in months and I just want this out of my drafts so here ya go
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