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hiiii, I'm Nate (he/him & she/her) and welcome to my belly kink blog
kinks listed from biggest turn on to mildest enjoyment
pregfat (combining pregnancy and weight gain is THE hottest thing to me)
big pregnancies (it starts becoming hot to me from triplets onwards)
weight gain (funnily enough i don't really care about the feeding part of feedism, just about the wg part)
magical and/or rapid pregnancies and/or weight gain (i don't have any patience, basically)
pear shaped bodies, i cannot stress enough how important fat asses and thighs are to me
unbirth (though i usually go for it without age regression)
hucows, the sacred combination of pregfat and animalistic/monstrous traits
brats, especially bratty men that i can manhandle around
public embarssment (not downright humiliation, but i do like it when someone gets embarassed about the kinky things happening to them, ideally with people around them assurimg them they're fine or thinking it's all normal via reality altering)
tight and unfitting clothes
struggles with mobility (wether i enjoy immobility highly depends on the circumstances, but i love a good 3 or 4 attempts at sitting up)
burping
painless gore. sometimes i'm into digging through someone's entrails, but this is largely disconnected from my other kinks. i'm not into bursting for example
vore (occasional indulgence, but I'm not wild abt it)
thick necks (this probably won't come up much here but it does fluster me so i may occasionally bring it up)
bascially i just like it when a body changes drastically and unrealistically in a short amount of time
some important points
i am over 18, and so should you be. blogs under 18 or without ages will immediately be blocked
same goes for proshippers. incest and pedophilia have no place on this blog
i believe in and advocate for fat liberation. being fat must be accepted by the wider society as something morally neutral, so that anyone who chooses to gain or lose weight does so for their own happiness first and foremost
i'm pro-choice. i firmly believe the best way to enjoy pregnancy is to feel safe in knowing that you can safely terminate it any time you please and for any reason whatsoever, including no reason at all.
this blog runs on a queue, mostly because i hate any of my blogs being inactive for long periods of time (the queue is also randomised often. mostly irrelevant but just an fyi)
I respond to asks very slowly. pls be patient with me 🥺
i draw!! please look at my drawings. pls <3
given that i'm nonbinary it probably won't surprise you that i LOOOVE gender fuckery and fucking with gender presentation and societal notions and all that. i find it hot, but it's not a downright kink, but it WILL show up in a lot of my posts
birthing is a turn-off for me in pregnancy. just to get that out there
anything focusing exclusively on breasts (bręast expansion, lâctation on its own) is also a turn-off to me
i appreciate anyone who tags the above kinks so that i may block the tags <3
I'm on the fence about cnc. it's very feast or famine to me, but i do want to stress the importance of consent, at least in my own art and writing
being silly is important to me! i want to make jokes i want to have fun i want to be lighthearted in these fantasies, even when being horny! so i make a lot of jokes and often draw or write things that are supposed to be at least a little funny
i don't do rping but i'm absolutely willing to discuss kinky fantasies. talk to me! i may not want a big audience but i love connecting with the audience i have
words tend to fail me when i get horny, mostly because english is not my first language. when i just tag a post with various emojis or <3s then you just have to accept that thats the best my mushy brain can do
i also have coloured heart tags that relate to characters i love and imagine in kinky scenarios. i'm far too embarassed to just say their names most of the time but art of them i draw is also tagged with colour coordinated hearts so you can figure things out from there. two hearts in a tag are for ships
alright its about time i made an actual intro post
#see ive always dreaded making an intro post because i knew it would get this rambly#and i was right#long post#im sorry this is so long im sorry#im like a youtuber who cant stop making multi-hour video essays#once i'm typing i can't stop
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⭐🎀🏆🎉 a wa wa winner! 🎉🏆🎀⭐
i'm running late on getting this out, but i'm still reeling over the results of the @kirbyoctournament! i can't quite believe that starstruck- my pint sized waddle dee- made it all the way to the tippy-top against such intense competition. the roster was full of such an incredible selection of wonderful, loveable, and creative characters!
it's heart-warming to know that people out there really love my little wanya and her story, and i'll carry that with me always! 🥰💖
i am so grateful to everybody who voted for and supported starstruck (and i!) throughout the tournament, and i'd also like to give my thanks to everybody- moderators, participants, spectators- who made this community event as cool and fun as it was!! i met many new people and learned about so many wonderful new characters!
this piece in particular is dedicated to and features all of starstruck's competitors in the tourney, starting with jakkle doo from round one, right up to valfrey in the final round. it was a fantastic honour to compete against all of your OCs, and i look forward to hopefully seeing them around plenty more in the future!!
thank you again!!
characters are listed from bottom to top; round 1 vs jakkle doo by @ninjakirkki, round 2 vs galacchio by @tatonslice, round 3 vs atlas by @unleashedsonic, round 4 vs mama d by @chibifox2002, round 5 vs parhelion knight by @aseuki, round 6 vs techie by @ivynajspyder, and the round 7 final vs valfrey by @gethoce
#my art#starstruck dee#others ocs#prize of the tourney is of course a fancy ribbon; who'd have guessed! works out perfectly for starstruck; it's in tourney colours!#this was such a wild ride!! can't believe it lasted six months! sorry this art is running almost a full month late#but i really hope you'll love it! thanks again for being my competitors during this event!! i truly love all your ocs!#7 friendly sunbeams- or at the very least folks who can play nice- and then parhelion knight. smooshed as he deserves#i did try but just a heads up that these characters are probably not totally size accurate i'm so sorry! i think atlas esp should be bigger#anyway i gotta stop typing before i get sappy again but once again thank you thank you thank you!!!! this truly means so much to me!! 💖💖💖#giving starstruck a little crown is probably not the best idea; but we'll let it slide this once!#ps: finally drew the oft requested full colour picture of stell with their wings out. at long last. for u aseuki 😘#edit: forgot starstruck's cheek constellations here for an embarrassingly long amount of time. oops. fixed now!
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Say it ain’t so (Patreon)
#My art#Clinical Trial#Lee Smith#Sorry wrong song lol#Clinical Trial set in 2009 my beloved....#Lee being subjected to circa radio - maybe Adri's doing lol - and identifying just a Little too strongly with certain songs hehehe#And even worse as he doesn't like swearing! (Except Angel's hehe)#Listens to it once and is just kind of mildly off-put in front of Adri - trying to get a rise out of him and he won't play#And then like listens to it on the radio on the drive home or something and has a Very tight grip on the steering wheel hehehe#Records it off the radio or buys a CD and can't stop listening to this one track why won't it leave him alone please he's trying to be good#Get rekt idiot ♥#Is he even really trying all That hard to be good doesn't he deserve to be called out a little hehe#He doesn't seem like the type to hum to stim but maybe if he caught Angel singing it to themself#Just explode-implodes simultaneously feels So caught lol#''I swear I didn't mean anything by it I just- I was just- I listened to it a few times and I-'' while Angel is like ''Lee it's a song''#You're so subtle Lee no one will ever notice#I do genuinely love his creepy little tells - what he gets weird about what he puts emphasis on to Totally Normal degree lol#Also had such a weird time drawing this one! :0 Another very very quick one - doing a bit of practice#And it went well! But it felt weird! I have to assume it's just 'cause I'm not quite used to sketching so loosely#How noticeable does it come off in the lineart? I can see it but it's my eye so :P#Also need more practice with Lee - especially digitally - before I'm quite comfy with his (and Angel's :3) design as I'd like to be#More practice moorrreeee#Fun fun fun
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Grant Turner and I commission by @lavendelleaf
#🎃 𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐇𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍 🎃#Grant and I carved pumpkins to look like each other ~#I absolutely 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 how the pumpkin's designs turned out!! They really match the characters!!!#(੭ु ˃̶͈̀ ᗨ ˂̶͈́)੭ु⁾⁾ Grant's expression is SOOOOOOO 𝗦𝗜𝗟𝗟𝗬 AND 𝗖𝗨𝗧𝗘!! I couldn't stop giggling and laughing when I saw the sketch!!!#CRYING AND SCREAMINF#The commission turned out 𝗔𝗗𝗢𝗥𝗔𝗕𝗟𝗘!!! THEY LOOK SO 𝗦𝗪𝗘𝗘𝗧!!!#Lavendelleaf was 𝗚𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧 to work with!! I can't recommend enough checking them out!!!#𝗙𝘂𝗻𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁: When asked who would the characters dress as up for Halloween the creator said:#Grant wouldn't dress up for Halloween XD he's more of the type to be like I'm myself for Halloween and that should frighten you.#Which uhhh 𝗪𝗢𝗪 🥴 oh my god im going to be ill#i need him immediately#WHy do i find that extremely hot asfjkd;fklanv;. (/•/˛ /•//º)♡#I'm not positive whether Grant would enjoy carving pumpkins buttttttttt I think I could convince him to try it once☝#At least my knife is in the pumpkin and not being pointed at him LMAO ( ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ )Ↄ🔪🎃#Grant Turner#Unknown#Unknown Visual Novel#UnknownVisualNovel#Self Ship#F/O#Self Shipping#TakenForGranted#Self ship community#Yumeship
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I fucking hate being traumatized because why am I bawling the hardest I've bawled in god-knows-how-long because someone I didn't even like that much berated Me. gasping wailing trembling and snotting over this for several minutes.
#personal#sanism#abuse mention#child abuse mention#I'm still not entirely done crying really. I'm just trying to stop and calm Myself. not doing well at the moment#because someone on the discord server mentioned trump's inauguration and I basically said 'I don't like trump either#but it's still important to keep pushing for change. who's in office doesn't change that' and he just. immediately escalated the situation#accused Me of not caring about oppression. I explained Myself further but he told Me to go fuck Myself and capped it off with#'you already admitted to being a fucking narcissist so why would i want to be around you' (exact quote BTW)#and I just can't stop sobbing. I don't know if I've cried this much since I was 13. I keep having to pause My typing because I start crying#I didn't hate him but I wasn't attached to him either. it's just that I have so much fucking trauma along these lines#so many instances of My mom putting words in My mouth. getting short-tempered with Me over benign remarks that I didn't understand#because I'm autistic. dismissing My opinions. making Me hide My feelings and issues from her#because she's made it clear that she doesn't trust people like Me#it's made Me have so much trouble handling even friendly social interaction. I've only just learned how to do that#I just can't handle having that same mistreatment forced onto Me by anyone else. especially with so little warning or build-up#and what makes Me break down even worse is the fact that I know I'll have to deal with him again#he wasn't even punished while this was happening. despite the server owner and other mod being online. the owner just said 'stressful day'#and the other mod started talking with a regular user about how it was uncalled for once he had already left the conversation#nobody even checked in on Me. even though I stayed online for a good half-an-hour afterwards. I only just logged off a few minutes ago#because the notifications from unrelated conversations started overstimulating Me#regardless. I don't even want to see him again. I don't want to be in the same server as him I don't want to talk to him I don't want to#but it's not a real formal server. it's a 'friend group.' and they've shown before that they prioritize keeping the peace#over actually punishing hostility. just a week or so ago I told them I wasn't comfortable with them using the R-slur#and someone freaked out over My complaint being 'politically correct' and left. he was brought back just a few days later. and before that#he had already derailed a previous discussion I tried to have about the word by sending gifs featuring it and redirecting the conversation#that sucked but at least it wasn't outright triggering. but I just can't stand the thought of having to be around someone#who treated Me so much like how My abuser has. that's the most I've ever had to relive My trauma because of someone else#that's the most anyone has ever mirrored it to Me. I just can't stand it but I know I'll have to be around him#I don't even know if he's gonna apologize. he's made it clear how little he thinks of Me as a human being. PLUS
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If you're not nice to Nyon Specter, we can't be friends, I'm sorry.
#ts4#sims 4#nyon specter#nervous subject#nyon's entire existence is fix-it-fic and for once i am HERE for it#i don't like most of sims 4's tweaks and retcons to existing townies#dirk dreamer my boy what did they do to you in get famous#but nyon was a good move#the whole beaker story was unnecessarily sinister even for sims 2#how do you f up a guy's life so bad that his only redeeming quality is being too shy to say the rude thing he's thinking#and knowing never to skip leg day#i used to move him in with a better household age him down and have them teach him better character values#just so he could have a chance at a normal life#and like now we have nyon at a point in life where we can stop his trauma before it starts#also does mans have a faint vitiligo patch on his forehead or am i tripping and that's just a natural part of the tone used?#i'm leaning on the latter bc i can't find it in any skin details categories#ALSO WHERE TF ARE HIS MAIN BOOTS I HAVE EVERY PACK LIKE THE WHALE I AM BUT I CANT FIND THEM IN CAS I WANT TO USE THEM ON OTHER SIMS SO BAD#I TOGGLED FEMALE AND UNISEX CLOTHING AND OTHER FASHION TYPES AND EVERYTHING#kurage's ramblings
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hate hate hate that I am no longer used to write on my phone.
#I would write 1000-1500 words at night by simply typing on my phone at 1am#but now I don't feel like I am able to even write a short scene#and I have to wait until I'm home to get to my computer#but it'll be too late (aka 10 pm) when I get there and by 11pm I have to be in bed so I can wake up at 6am again#let me fix these fucking chapters 😭😭 my hands are itchy to fix this awful continuity error#so I can update once a week as I wanted to#if I finish chapter 5 and get to chapter 6 maybe I can post chapter 4 but I need to have chapter 5 completely done#cuz I have Jessica have a silent meltdown at the end of chapter 5 that I'm no longer happy with#cuz it's a bit too convoluted even for me#and I hate how little free time I have#I was supposed to work on it from 6:45pm to 7:30pm on my tablet cuz I bought a keyboard so technically it's like a mini pc#but my uni friends felt the need to keep me company so they invited me to a bar to drink something#and I couldn't tell them that I actually wanted to be alone to write some dumb fanfiction#so I accepted and while I enjoyed it. I couldn't stop thinking about this fic 😭#I can't even read others' ff cuz my mind is just thinking about mine.#I already feel bad about not being able to comment per chapter anymore as I used to#so I have to give it my utmost attention at least#whatever. me rambling.#personal
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If I was helping stuff somebody while they get high and they blew their smoke in my face I would immediately bluescreen 😵💫
#I'm normally not into degrading type scenarios BUT. right now I can't stop thinking about a feedee being a little rude and entitled to me...#my smoking kink comes out to say hi once every 2 or 3 years and then goes back to bed#intox
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I'm not a "new musical theatre style music" person. Never have been.
Even when I was doing voice lessons, I'd steer towards the golden age or jazzy musical theatre songs. My voice teacher would have to drag me kicking and screaming towards adding anything new musical theatre to my repertoire. For a while, the most modern song in my book was I Know The Truth from Aida, and I wouldn't count that as new musical theatre style since I mean more the Pasek&Paul or Joe Iconis type.
And now I have an audition coming up for a small production of a show in that style and I'm supposed to sing a song in a similar style. And I'm looking at all my sheet music like... let me do some Cole Porter... or Gershwin... at least Sondheim please...
#look i do have SOME newer musicals in my book. but like i said. kicking and screaming.#i'm probably gonna end up doing 'I Think That He Likes Me' which is not IN a musical it's just new musical theatre style#as part of a songbook for some writing duo that i can't remember the name of and it's 2:45am so i can't care enough to look it up.#and it's the only one in my sheet music folder that i'm like 'ok. this is TRULY the right style' and i know it's good in my voice#and it's a cute song and i do like it and it definitely fits the overall vibe of the show#and though i haven't sung it in like 4 years i still remember 90% of the words and have time to study it before the audition#but while trying to find that song deep deep in my folder i pass by other songs i just love so much more#and i'm like ahhhhhhhh why#and i'm not even like 'god i hope i get it' (see A Chorus Line. that's more my type) i truly don't care if i'm cast or not#and yes i can technically audition with any song i could ever want it's just suggested to do the same style#but i know the entire creative panel who i'll be auditioning for and the last 2 times i auditioned for them i sang the same song#only because it's a GOOD song that fit both shows i was auditioning for (Can't Stop Talking About Him by Frank Loesser)#(perfect audition song since it's short at like 28 bars and you can pick the tempo and do a lot of character stuff)#(but see this is what i mean. like 1/3 of my entire sheet music folder is golden age musicals. then half is 60s-90s.)#(and then the last chunk are the few new-ish musical theatre and some pop music.)#(if i took performing more seriously i'd have a wider range but this is truly just for fun and just for me. so i do what i like.)#i don't want to go in for a 3rd audition with the same creative team and doing the same song. especially since it doesn't fit this time.#so once again. dragged kicking and screaming. over to new musical theatre territory. unwillingly.#if i get cast we'll have to see if the show itself even grows on me since honestly i think there's maybe 2 songs i like in it.#it's definitely not the worst new musical theatre style show but it's also not one that drew me in.#ok wait while looking through lists of 'new musical theatre' shows to find one i actually like (i think just Legally Blonde sorry guys)#(every other new musical in the last 20 years that i like did something interesting with the music like Come From Away)#i ended up finding out that apparently 13 was adapted into a netflix movie? when did that even happen?#i mean i don't care for that show either but i thought i was at least up to date on movie adaptations.
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being the friend that's "too woke" fucking sucks because everyone else can talk about their political beliefs just fine, but the moment you say something, the conversation either dies or you get berated for it. god forbid you want to talk about any lesser-acknowledged type of discrimination (E.G. sanism, fatphobia, ageism, etc.)!!
#personal#fatphobia#sanism mention#<- both mostly in the tags#even in the spaces I'm validated most people will briefly turn on Me if I bring up any political take that they don't want to consider#so RN I'm watching people saying 'oh it's fine for children to be fat but fat adults are just lazy'#KNOWING that nobody is gonna back Me up if I say 'maybe moralizing weight is bad actually'#I remember once calling a character most people consider 'average-looking' fat#in comparison to how a female character considered 'ugly' WITH THE EXACT SAME BODY TYPE is treated and everyone was like#'you stupid fucking SJW he's not fat at all. he's just a bit out-of-shape. stop being stupid.'#I've called out the demonization of antisocial personality TWICE on that forum and both times the thread immediately died forever#the plight of being marginalized is that even the people who like you the most can't be relied upon to defend you#in the face of their moderate discomfort and your violent oppression#moreover. the plight of being multiply marginalized is that even the people who stand with you against one oppression#will turn on you over another#BUT ANYWAY. time to move on. it's honestly best not to waste My energy on people who won't listen to Me anyway#you've gotta focus your efforts on making an actual difference not pleading with the willfully ignorant to change their ways
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hey. hey. hey. hey. hey so in ff16 they give you a flash step that goes forward but when you're a big monster (happens for setpiece boss fights only) they give you a roller skating move that goes sideways instead. but then there's a fight where they give your monster form a forwards flash step too.
and IN THAT SAME BOSS FIGHT, you need to do it Twice in a row to close the distance between "outside the big AOE attack" and "guy you need to punch after he does the AOE" & this sums up basically everything you need to know about how AGGRESSIVELY MEDIOCRE the combat really is in this game.
anybody who tells you it's good is either lying or is remembering 1 of like 2 and a half really nicely-tuned fights, one of which was optional. and the health bars were still too fucking stubborn in all of them.
#this is not a Dark Soul Get Good situation it's a 'okay. okay. okay I get it. okay. OKAY' type of thing#clive can't decide whether to have fun Big Steppy mobility or to be a grounded sword fighterman who has to aim carefully.#every Important Fight lasts 20 goddamn minutes and has MAYBE 10 minutes of material in it.#you can only equip 2x3 elemental attacks at once (WHY!!!) and if you want to mix and match more than 3 elements#you have to spend an INORDINATE NUMBER of skill points to do that.#rando 'ten soldiers' type enemies melt like butter under your fire AOE to the point that they implemented waves#to stop you from trivializing EVERY fight out in the field. yet somehow EVERY BOSS can take like 30 of those and still not DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and if YOU die because you got SO BORED that you STOPPED CARING ENOUGH to NOT DIE#there's no way to restart WITHOUT BONUS HEALS except to quit out to the main menu and load your save.#DESIGN BY COMMITTEE. MMO GRINDSET. WHO PLAYTESTED THIS. I'M GOING TO START BITING.
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I hate to do it but...
I hate to do it because this is definitely not a positive video but it hits the really deep root problem which very few videos I catch do.
Trump is bad. He deserves a huge chunk of the blame for our problems. But this is not a one person disaster.
I say that, even as I'm startled by how much it is simply Trumps fault without that being hyperbole or oversimplification. Trump has literally forced me to reconsider what is even possible for one person to accomplish in the worst way. He actually has managed to counter political arguments I've been making for decades because I didn't think it was possible and then he just fucking did it. Like, sorry, I was just wrong, I didn't think that was possible before he did it but he did it, so yeah, that's possible. Unfortunately.
He is profoundly dangerous in and of himself because of his position, power, and lack of counterbalance.
But that third one is the counterpoint to the admission of just how much of this shitshow is Trump's fault. It's more than I believed possible AND it wouldn't be possible at all without help. Without the support and subservience he has received, he wouldn't even be a random whackadoodle screaming to himself in the park. He'd be in a prison where he belongs.
The list of people who have not merely enabled him but actually given him a leg up in order to make him as existentially dangerous as he is, is long. The correct word for it is probably "huge" in the way you would say it to make fun of the way he speaks. A LOT of people helped and are still helping to make him the threat to the world that he is. It's not even a simple list.
As much as I resent the perennial reliance on Murc's law -
Actually, wait, in case you haven't heard of Murc's law, it is an assumption in US political discourse, conscious and unconscious, that underlies the narrative in the majority of US political argument. It's the principle that only the political left, but primarily only the Democratic party itself has any conscious agency or causal influence over US politics. The Democratic party is generally agreed by all sides to be a poor example of possible leftist politics, even by those on the left, and even by those like myself who are registered Democrats. They either don't execute well enough, don't represent our views well and/or simply don't represent us at all, in the same way that the Republicans and other right wing political factions are acting contrary to our ideologies. At the same time, everyone to the political right of the Democrats are simply acting according to instinct and politicking in reflex to what the Democrats are doing. If they're a swing voter, they're not making an independent conscientious choice to vote Republican or not vote but are instead failed by the Democrats who were supposed to corral them into their support. If they're to the right of that, they're just doing what the Right does. If they're Republican representatives, they're just being Republicans, what else were you stupid enough to expect. They had to do that because that's what the Right does tautologically and/or the Democrats provoked them into doing that. In the end, all problems are put to the fault of the Democrats not being politically ambitious, savvy, and powerful enough to overcome the natural human resistance and obstinacy to their political positions.
Ok, where was I, oh, yeah: As much as I resent Murc's law as a principle and feel it is one of the core problems in US political discourse, the truth is that, YES, Democrats absolutely are, in part, to blame for the shitshow that Trump is putting on. And our part is still going to be there when Trump leaves office. I certainly don't believe we aided him intentionally but that actually makes it harder to fix. The majority of our aid to his power was completely self centered and represents sacrifices we will have to give up. It's not going to be stopping him as much as it is going to be giving up some of our powers to make sure that he, or whoever the next Ameri-fuhrer is, can't have them. A lot of what is enabling Trump to have as much power as he has is based on long protections and delegations of Presidential power that a President should simply not be allowed to have. Which is easy to say when Trump is president. It was a lot harder when it was our guy. And there's the inherent difficulty that this is politics and we're just not all on the same page, no matter our political affiliations.
Probably the best example of that is the filibuster. We have preserved the filibuster over and over again despite the now abundant evidence that it does far more harm than good. And we have preserved it, despite our capability to destroy it, primarily out of the fear that we'll need it and can't live without it, instead of any honest feeling that it is a necessary and good part of our system.
Having said that, Murc's Law, as a critique, is still valid. We have a part in this but it is by no means the lion's share. It is relatively small in comparison to the malignant aggression of the Republican party.
There are no Republican politicians who are not actively complicit in aiding and abetting Trump's tyranny. Every single goddamn one of them has acted as an accomplice in the Right's political machine to elevate Trump to the unchecked level of power he is currently wielding. They didn't fail to STOP him. They succeeded in gaining him power. Even where they turn on him, it is a petty distinction in a particular policy. All of them promote the things that make Trump able to be the existential threat that he is.
This inherently means the problem will not end with Trump. Because Trump is merely the worst expression.

The worst expression so far. We used to think W was bad as it got. And boy howdy were we wrong.
The problem is that Trump can happen because of the Republican machine that works for him. The expression can change. It can get better. It can get worse. That political machine underlies the expression and will continue as long as the current incarnation of the Republican party retains any power. At this point, it's been running since about 1960 and shows no signs of slowing down or weakening. It predates Trump and it will outlast him. An Amerifuhrer remains a threat as long as it endures. Getting rid of Trump will NOT fix it.
But even destroying that would not be enough.
Because of exactly what the video hits at the end.
The other side of Murc's law that bothers me is this idea that it's not just the Republican party, it's the right as a whole, this idea that people are just this way and need managing. I think that's baked in to the majority of US political discourse. The right uses the term Sheeple. But the rest of us are still thinking it. We assume that Republican voters are either brain-washed so they can't think accurately for themselves, stupid so what they think isn't worth a damn you just gotta herd them, and/or naturally just dag nasty evil people so they aren't worth engaging with.
I'll admit I waffle around those positions a lot myself, even when I'm trying to work against Murc's Law.
But I don't realistically believe that 77.3 million people are universally not accountable for their actions and decisions. A large number of them are not first time voters who were fooled. Many of them knew EXACTLY what the hell Trump was:
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While the majority of those are not white supremacists, they are still well aware of the tradeoffs they're making. Regularly. Far beyond just voting for Trump.
They don't go away when Trump does.
Neither can we simply get rid of them. As much as I often wish we could. That's part of what I fundamentally believe society is for and that I see Trump and the Republican machine violating: it is the job of society as a system to protect the people I DON'T like from me and what I want but do NOT deserve.
I can want to kill every Trump voter, all 77.3 million of them, half a dozen times a day in fits of outrage. I can yearn for the slaughter down to my bones. I can absolutely think they are all evil and deserve it and think it is morally justified because they have proven just how evil they are with uttermost conviction. AND that shouldn't be allowed. It is the duty of the state as the conscious mind of a civilization, no matter how on uncivilized, to prevent me from acting on that desire. That I want it is not remotely enough justification for it to be any way tolerable. That I believe it with my whole ass is not remotely enough justification for it to even fall into consideration. It is our collective duty to make sure those kinds of desires are neither acted upon nor even tolerated as legitimate possible policies.
Which is the exact fucking social contract clause that Trump is breaking. He simply does what he wants with no repercussions to himself in spite of the huge deleterious effects to others and is treated as if every crazed moment of verbal diarrhea must be entertained as a plausible course of action because it has been already far too often.
No one deserves what Trump is receiving. No one should be allowed to have that kind of power or influence. It is not permissible for a society to allow because a society cannot endure it without fracturing and self destructing.
The deeper problem is that 77.3 million people have done some kind of similar calculus and decided that Trump DID deserve this kind of power and society SHOULD enable it. In full knowledge of what he had done and what he said he would do. Even if they didn't believe it in full or thought he would be stopped. They did the math in their head and decided it was worth the risk.
They do NOT believe in protecting people from what they want. They quite obviously DO believe they deserved what they thought Trump was offering them.
This isn't MERELY a political problem. It is a fundamental political problem that cannot be excised because of the underlying fundamental MORAL difference it illustrates.
77.3 million people believed Trump's rhetoric and domineering swagger was ok.
I am no stranger to the idea of "holding my nose" and voting for a candidate that I do not see as ideal. I have, at this point, only voted for the same candidate in a primary and general election two times. Both were to re-elect a sitting President who had no particularly meaningful competition in the primary. I generally like people who are a bit more to the left than the people who actually win primaries. And I suspect that trend will continue. I'm simply much closer in political viewpoint to Bernie Sanders than I am to Hillary Clinton. Compared to Sanders, Hillary was definitely holding my nose.
But I wasn't comparing her to Sanders in the general election. Compared to all the other candidates, there was nothing about Clinton that I didn't think was better than any alternative in the general election, and I was willing to live with and accept the costs of what a vote for her would mean. And I did have actual political policy disagreements with her, having nothing to do with her reputation, history, or personality. I was holding my nose in that I was aware she did intend to do things in the banking sector and in foreign policy that I actively disapproved of and that a vote for her was an endorsement of the permissibility of those actions. I was saying that, even if I didn't like them, they were morally permissible. I was willing to make that trade and live with the consequences.
Every single one of those 77.3 million voters made that choice for Trump. That even where they disagreed, the disagreement was permissible. It was, at minimum, the price they were willing to bet as a risk to take as an alternative to anyone else running for President.
Think of what those risks are. Think of any of those as morally permissible even if repugnant. For any reason. Pick one. Make one up. I don't care. What would make the stench of those something you were willing to endure? What does that say about us?
What it says applies to those 77.3 million. And we have to live with them if we want to keep the US as the US. How do we do that? I dunno. I think we CAN but it's gonna take the kind of work that stretches on a whole lot longer than an election cycle, is difficult in the extreme ways like thanksgiving dinner with your less savory relatives, and will not carry the kind of direct reward that makes it easy to commit to. AND... I don't think we really have a choice. I think it's do or die, so we better do.
But everywhere else in the world... nope.
They don't gotta.
They don't owe us.
They aren't us.
We haven't exactly played nice with the other kids. And that, unfortunately, will probably make it harder not easier. We're the "addict" in this relationship. We don't just get to put it behind us. If we want back in, we're going to have to prove we've changed for the better and can be trusted. Not trusted again but actually trusted for things we have done now to earn it new, to solve the problems that let us get here. Which means solving the problem of 77.3 million people that are ok with being this way.
The second video deals a little with that but it's only for a subsection. And again, it's gonna be hard work. And it STILL takes more than one person to Tango. They have to want to work with it, too. They have to want to change. And that's an entirely different problem. But there, at last, I gotta push back against Murc's Law again.
Some of this really does have to be on them. Those 77.3 Million people should not simply get absolution and putting this behind them. Even those people who have come to their senses and realized something legitimately wrong with how they were making that choice. They need to do the hard work themselves on themselves to make sure this doesn't happen again.
We've already tried it the other way. Admittedly, unwillingly. But that just made it happen again.
None of us deserve a second chance until we start working on our shit.
That's fair.
Forgiveness is great. Absolution is great. But we still have to live with the consequences of our actions. And this is it. These are the natural consequences of what we've done. Sucks to be us. Back to the work.
#politics#rant#WHY can't I shut the fuck up???#Seriously just something short for once#I get task locked - hyper focused - at LEAST twice a day writing some huge bullshit like this#I really kind of hate it#most of them I give up on and put in my drafts#But I'm still writing them#I feel like my drugs should be helping with it but nope#same old same old#I just keep typing#essay vomit#can't stop#ARRGGHH!!!#Youtube
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How I learned to write smarter, not harder
(aka, how to write when you're hella ADHD lol)
A reader commented on my current long fic asking how I write so well. I replied with an essay of my honestly pretty non-standard writing advice (that they probably didn't actually want lol) Now I'm gonna share it with you guys and hopefully there's a few of you out there who will benefit from my past mistakes and find some useful advice in here. XD Since I started doing this stuff, which are all pretty easy changes to absorb into your process if you want to try them, I now almost never get writer's block.
The text of the original reply is indented, and I've added some additional commentary to expand upon and clarify some of the concepts.
As for writing well, I usually attribute it to the fact that I spent roughly four years in my late teens/early 20s writing text roleplay with a friend for hours every single day. Aside from the constant practice that provided, having a live audience immediately reacting to everything I wrote made me think a lot about how to make as many sentences as possible have maximum impact so that I could get that kind of fun reaction. (Which is another reason why comments like yours are so valuable to fanfic writers! <3) The other factors that have improved my writing are thus: 1. Writing nonlinearly. I used to write a whole story in order, from the first sentence onward. If there was a part I was excited to write, I slogged through everything to get there, thinking that it would be my reward once I finished everything that led up to that. It never worked. XD It was miserable. By the time I got to the part I wanted to write, I had beaten the scene to death in my head imagining all the ways I could write it, and it a) no longer interested me and b) could not live up to my expectations because I couldn't remember all my ideas I'd had for writing it. The scene came out mediocre and so did everything leading up to it. Since then, I learned through working on VN writing (I co-own a game studio and we have some visual novels that I write for) that I don't have to write linearly. If I'm inspired to write a scene, I just write it immediately. It usually comes out pretty good even in a first draft! But then I also have it for if I get more ideas for that scene later, and I can just edit them in. The scenes come out MUCH stronger because of this. And you know what else I discovered? Those scenes I slogged through before weren't scenes I had no inspiration for, I just didn't have any inspiration for them in that moment! I can't tell you how many times there was a scene I had no interest in writing, and then a week later I'd get struck by the perfect inspiration for it! Those are scenes I would have done a very mediocre job on, and now they can be some of the most powerful scenes because I gave them time to marinate. Inspiration isn't always linear, so writing doesn't have to be either!
Some people are the type that joyfully write linearly. I have a friend like this--she picks up the characters and just continues playing out the next scene. Her story progresses through the entire day-by-day lives of the characters; it never timeskips more than a few hours. She started writing and posting just eight months ago, she's about an eighth of the way through her planned fic timeline, and the content she has so far posted to AO3 for it is already 450,000 words long. But most of us are normal humans. We're not, for the most part, wired to create linearly. We consume linearly, we experience linearly, so we assume we must also create linearly. But actually, a lot of us really suffer from trying to force ourselves to create this way, and we might not even realize it. If you're the kind of person who thinks you need to carrot-on-a-stick yourself into writing by saving the fun part for when you finally write everything that happens before it: Stop. You're probably not a linear writer. You're making yourself suffer for no reason and your writing is probably suffering for it. At least give nonlinear writing a try before you assume you can't write if you're not baiting or forcing yourself into it!! Remember: Writing is fun. You do this because it's fun, because it's your hobby. If you're miserable 80% of the time you're doing it, you're probably doing it wrong!
2. Rereading my own work. I used to hate reading my own work. I wouldn't even edit it usually. I would write it and slap it online and try not to look at it again. XD Writing nonlinearly forced me to start rereading because I needed to make sure scenes connected together naturally and it also made it easier to get into the headspace of the story to keep writing and fill in the blanks and get new inspiration. Doing this built the editing process into my writing process--I would read a scene to get back in the headspace, dislike what I had written, and just clean it up on the fly. I still never ever sit down to 'edit' my work. I just reread it to prep for writing and it ends up editing itself. Many many scenes in this fic I have read probably a dozen times or more! (And now, I can actually reread my own work for enjoyment!) Another thing I found from doing this that it became easy to see patterns and themes in my work and strengthen them. Foreshadowing became easy. Setting up for jokes or plot points became easy. I didn't have to plan out my story in advance or write an outline, because the scenes themselves because a sort of living outline on their own. (Yes, despite all the foreshadowing and recurring thematic elements and secret hidden meanings sprinkled throughout this story, it actually never had an outline or a plan for any of that. It's all a natural byproduct of writing nonlinearly and rereading.)
Unpopular writing opinion time: You don't need to make a detailed outline.
Some people thrive on having an outline and planning out every detail before they sit down to write. But I know for a lot of us, we don't know how to write an outline or how to use it once we've written it. The idea of making one is daunting, and the advice that it's the only way to write or beat writer's block is demoralizing. So let me explain how I approach "outlining" which isn't really outlining at all.
I write in a Notion table, where every scene is a separate table entry and the scene is written in the page inside that entry. I do this because it makes writing nonlinearly VASTLY more intuitive and straightforward than writing in a single document. (If you're familiar with Notion, this probably makes perfect sense to you. If you're not, imagine something a little like a more contained Google Sheets, but every row has a title cell that opens into a unique Google Doc when you click on it. And it's not as slow and clunky as the Google suite lol) (Edit from the future: I answered an ask with more explanation on how I use Notion for non-linear writing here.) When I sit down to begin a new fic idea, I make a quick entry in the table for every scene I already know I'll want or need, with the entries titled with a couple words or a sentence that describes what will be in that scene so I'll remember it later. Basically, it's the most absolute bare-bones skeleton of what I vaguely know will probably happen in the story.
Then I start writing, wherever I want in the list. As I write, ideas for new scenes and new connections and themes will emerge over time, and I'll just slot them in between the original entries wherever they naturally fit, rearranging as necessary, so that I won't forget about them later when I'm ready to write them. As an example, my current long fic started with a list of roughly 35 scenes that I knew I wanted or needed, for a fic that will probably be around 100k words (which I didn't know at the time haha). As of this writing, it has expanded to 129 scenes. And since I write them directly in the page entries for the table, the fic is actually its own outline, without any additional effort on my part. As I said in the comment reply--a living outline!
This also made it easier to let go of the notion that I had to write something exactly right the first time. (People always say you should do this, but how many of us do? It's harder than it sounds! I didn't want to commit to editing later! I didn't want to reread my work! XD) I know I'm going to edit it naturally anyway, so I can feel okay giving myself permission to just write it approximately right and I can fix it later. And what I found from that was that sometimes what I believed was kind of meh when I wrote it was actually totally fine when I read it later! Sometimes the internal critic is actually wrong. 3. Marinating in the headspace of the story. For the first two months I worked on [fic], I did not consume any media other than [fandom the fic is in]. I didn't watch, read, or play anything else. Not even mobile games. (And there wasn't really much fan content for [fandom] to consume either. Still isn't, really. XD) This basically forced me to treat writing my story as my only source of entertainment, and kept me from getting distracted or inspired to write other ideas and abandon this one.
As an aside, I don't think this is a necessary step for writing, but if you really want to be productive in a short burst, I do highly recommend going on a media consumption hiatus. Not forever, obviously! Consuming media is a valuable tool for new inspiration, and reading other's work (both good and bad, as long as you think critically to identify the differences!) is an invaluable resource for improving your writing.
When I write, I usually lay down, close my eyes, and play the scene I'm interested in writing in my head. I even take a ten-minute nap now and then during this process. (I find being in a state of partial drowsiness, but not outright sleepiness, makes writing easier and better. Sleep helps the brain process and make connections!) Then I roll over to the laptop next to me and type up whatever I felt like worked for the scene. This may mean I write half a sentence at a time between intervals of closed-eye-time XD
People always say if you're stuck, you need to outline.
What they actually mean by that (whether they realize it or not) is that if you're stuck, you need to brainstorm. You need to marinate. You don't need to plan what you're doing, you just need to give yourself time to think about it!
What's another framing for brainstorming for your fic? Fantasizing about it! Planning is work, but fantasizing isn't.
You're already fantasizing about it, right? That's why you're writing it. Just direct that effort toward the scenes you're trying to write next! Close your eyes, lay back, and fantasize what the characters do and how they react.
And then quickly note down your inspirations so you don't forget, haha.
And if a scene is so boring to you that even fantasizing about it sucks--it's probably a bad scene.
If it's boring to write, it's going to be boring to read. Ask yourself why you wanted that scene. Is it even necessary? Can you cut it? Can you replace it with a different scene that serves the same purpose but approaches the problem from a different angle? If you can't remove the troublesome scene, what can you change about it that would make it interesting or exciting for you to write?
And I can't write sitting up to save my damn life. It's like my brain just stops working if I have to sit in a chair and stare at a computer screen. I need to be able to lie down, even if I don't use it! Talking walks and swinging in a hammock are also fantastic places to get scene ideas worked out, because the rhythmic motion also helps our brain process. It's just a little harder to work on a laptop in those scenarios. XD
In conclusion: Writing nonlinearly is an amazing tool for kicking writer's block to the curb. There's almost always some scene you'll want to write. If there isn't, you need to re-read or marinate.
Or you need to use the bathroom, eat something, or sleep. XD Seriously, if you're that stuck, assess your current physical condition. You might just be unable to focus because you're uncomfortable and you haven't realized it yet.
Anyway! I hope that was helpful, or at least interesting! XD Sorry again for the text wall. (I think this is the longest comment reply I've ever written!)
And same to you guys on tumblr--I hope this was helpful or at least interesting. XD Reblogs appreciated if so! (Maybe it'll help someone else!)
#creative writing#writers block#writblr#writers on tumblr#writing#writers and poets#writerscommunity#fanfic writing#writeblr#writing advice
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Temperate Lake Dashboard Simulator

🐦⬛2xcrested_cormorant Follow Going to try and eat this weird fish
♻️🐦⬛2xcrested_cormorant Follow wilmdlife hopital

🐸rana-bufo Follow No one can ever truly understand what BULL4rog's music means to me 😭 this song in particular argrgrgrgrgrg the way he puffs out his vocal sack asdfghjk
BULL4rog: listen here on spotify ♻️🐸rana-bufo Follow I think I huave chytrid

🐟ilikeeatingminnowsFollow I just migrated here from finstagram please be nice

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I have HAD IT with this lake, it’s the third day in a row we’ve had nitrates above 8 ppm and uug the algae, my allergies I can’t do this
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Lol we regularly get nitrates up to 20 ppm in my lake ♻️🦞crawdaddy Follow uhhh you shouldn't be bragging about that, it's really unsafe ♻️🐟carpy-diem Follow suck it you little oligotrophic bitch

🐢snappturt Follow Dear Tumblr, am I the Basshole for the way I catch minnows? I was chatting with some of the guys I bask with and they said the way I catch minnows is problematic; What I do is I sit on the bottom of the lake, I hide myself in the mud and I open my mouth. My tongue looks a lot like a little worm so I wiggle it around- and because of that, minnows swim over and check it out. Once they get close enough, then I bite down and eat them. Some of my rockmates have told me that this is manipulative and toxic behavior- but they also eat minnows...I don't know guys...

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is it just me, or is this super homoerotic???

🐟bigpikexxl Follow liveblogging diving down to the bottom
♻️🐟bigpikexxl Follow dark
♻️🐟bigpikexxl Follow big log
♻️🐟bigpikexxl Follow rock
♻️🐟bigpikexxl Follow kinda cold
♻️🐟bigpikexxl Follow oh hi @deepwatersculpin!!!
♻️🐠deepwatersculpin Follow oh hey @bigpikexxl!!!
never thought i'd seen one of my mutuals irl!!! I didn't even know we lived in the same lake!!!

🐠Shadlad Follow I'm not sorry, and I'm not afraid to say it, if you're an introduced species, go dry yourself out. You're not welcome to eat up all of our resources and live in my ancestral longs and rock crags. These things are for us to relate to and not for you to squander.
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Can't believe this type of fishcourse is still popular on this site, introduced species didn't choose to be introduced and have as much of a right to live as anyone else. Bigotry against introduced species is still bigotry and that's a hill I will dry on. ♻️🐠Shadlad Follow Go ahead, dry yourself out then ;) ♻️🪷nootnootnewt Follow Hey man, I hate invasive species as much as anyone else but please stop telling people to beach themselves for political reasons- yeah that includes inavsives too ♻️🦐typical_scud Follow Did you legit just use the word Invas*ve to describe introduced species? ♻️🦢flatfootswimmer Follow anyone in this thread eat pondweed?

♻️🐟largemouthbASS Follow A colab with my mutual @2xcrested_cormorant after they got released from the wildlife hospital. They haven't been on much since the Fish and Wildlife Service released them in the wrong lake and it took them a while to get back to their colony. We hope this guide will help you avoid accidentally eating/engaging with bait!

#fishblr#fishposting#fake post#dashboard simulator#cw thalassophobia#thalassophobia#ecology#freshwater ecology#wood duck#walleye
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I didn't grow up religiously in the direct sense. It was more like second hand Catholicism .
#it's hard to explain#my grandparents weren't the church on Sunday type#but i was involved in plenty of things related to or adjacent to church events#i attended Catholic high school for all of one semester#i can't remember what denom my grandparents were necessarily (though it probably was some kind of Catholic)#so it's less i had the fear of God and scripture burnt into me and more...#well i don't really know i guess#I've always wanted to stop into a church service on a Sunday though . just to see. since i don't think i actually HAVE been?#i can't remember#we did have mass in Catholic school though. i think that was once a month?#in the morning before classes...#anyway sorry for tags essay I'm on break
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hmmm i want railings on my bed like a hospital bed but most Bed Railings they sell have to be placed under the mattress to stay in place and i have an adjustable base that means my mattress gets folded frequently and cannot keep the rail in place
#i want to be Enclosed i need a little Nest#i want my extra pillows to not fall off my bed when I'm trying to swap them out#bc i need like. four or five different types of pillow depending on the day#so i just. keep them stacked up on the other side of my bed#this is also why i can't use a twin size bed most of my bed is Storage tbh#i prefer a full size king is large enough that i get Nervous lying in it by myself#when i had a king size flattress (it was. so damn thin) on the floor i ended up just piling shit in the corner#just to take up space bc i got very nervous without at least two walls very close to me#i like corners and i hate large rooms! i am the opposite of claustrophobic !#which i was once told was agoraphobic#but from context I've gathered most people use agoraphobia to mean an intense fear of crowds or just other people in general?#which i do have to some degree. but it's really just the super wide open spaces with no wall to my back that gets me#huh super deeply buried memory unlocked. maybe this has to do with how my elementary school would like. as a punishment at recess#have kids stand with their face to the building wall and they're not allowed to talk to anyone#and other kids who were playing at recess would just. throw things at the kids in detention or time out or whatever#and the teachers. wouldn't stop them???#and it wasn't just little pebbles or mulch it was footballs and large rocks#and if we moved out of the way we'd get time added to our wall time bc we weren't supposed to move at all either???????#god that school was a hellhole for the mentally abnormal
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