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hiiii, I'm K (he/him & she/her) and welcome to my belly kink blog
kinks listed from biggest turn on to mildest enjoyment
pregfat (combining pregnancy and weight gain is THE hottest thing to me)
big pregnancies (it starts becoming hot to me from triplets onwards)
weight gain (funnily enough i don't really care about the feeding part of feedism, just about the wg part)
magical and/or rapid pregnancies and/or weight gain (i don't have any patience, basically)
pear shaped bodies, i cannot stress enough how important fat asses and thighs are to me
unbirth (though i usually go for it without age regression)
hucows, the sacred combination of pregfat and animalistic/monstrous traits
brats, especially bratty men that i can manhandle around
public embarssment (not downright humiliation, but i do like it when someone gets embarassed about the kinky things happening to them, ideally with people around them assurimg them they're fine or thinking it's all normal via reality altering)
tight and unfitting clothes
struggles with mobility (wether i enjoy immobility highly depends on the circumstances, but i love a good 3 or 4 attempts at sitting up scenario)
burping
vore (ive been getting into that lately, but i'm mostly clueless on the ins and outs. can't beat a good ol big tummy though)
painless gore. sometimes i'm into digging through someone's entrails, but this is largely disconnected from my other kinks. i'm not into bursting for example
thick necks (this probably won't come up much here but it does fluster me so i may occasionally bring it up)
bascially i just like it when a body changes drastically and unrealistically in a short amount of time
some important points
i am over 18, and so should you be. blogs under 18 or without ages will immediately be blocked
same goes for proshippers. incest and pedophilia have no place on this blog. those are not kinks, go to therapy
i believe in and advocate for fat liberation. being fat must be accepted by the wider society as something morally neutral, so that anyone who chooses to gain or lose weight does so for their own happiness first and foremost
i'm pro-choice. i firmly believe the best way to enjoy pregnancy is to feel safe in knowing that you can safely terminate it any time you please and for any reason whatsoever, including no reason at all.
this blog runs on a queue, mostly because i hate any of my blogs being inactive for long periods of time. keep in mind that just because I'm posting something horny, doesnt neccesarily mean i'm horny in that moment (the queue is also randomised often. mostly irrelevant but just an fyi)
I respond to asks very slowly. pls be patient with me ๐ฅบ
i draw!! please look at my drawings. pls <3
given that i'm nonbinary it probably won't surprise you that i LOOOVE gender fuckery and fucking with gender presentation and societal notions and all that. i find it hot, but it's not a downright kink, but it WILL show up in a lot of my posts
birthing is a turn-off for me in pregnancy. just to get that out there ๐ง
anything focusing exclusively on breasts is also a turn-off to me
i appreciate anyone who tags these things so that i may block the tags <3
some fantasies i write or reblog go into the realm of coming out of nowhere and being thrust upon the recipient. it always comes around to being thoroughly enjoyed though and i want to do my best to stress the importance of consent. i think it's hotter when people agree to do kinky shit first but MAN is it hard to find fantasies that apply that
being silly is important to me! i want to make jokes i want to have fun i want to be lighthearted in these fantasies, even when being horny! so i make a lot of jokes and often draw or write things that are supposed to be at least a little funny
i don't do rping but i'm absolutely willing to discuss kinky fantasies. talk to me! i may not want a big audience but i love connecting with the audience i have
words tend to fail me when i get horny, mostly because english is not my first language. when i just tag a post with various emojis or <3s then you just have to accept that thats the best my mushy brain can do
i also have coloured heart tags that relate to characters i love and imagine in kinky scenarios. i'm far too embarassed to just say their names most of the time but art of them i draw is also tagged with colour coordinated hearts so you can figure things out from there. two hearts in a tag are for ships
alright its about time i made an actual intro post
#see ive always dreaded making an intro post because i knew it would get this rambly#and i was right#long post#im sorry this is so long im sorry#im like a youtuber who cant stop making multi-hour video essays#once i'm typing i can't stop#edit: oh my god i'm a fucking idiot how could i forget unbirth
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โญ๐๐๐ a wa wa winner! ๐๐๐โญ
i'm running late on getting this out, but i'm still reeling over the results of the @kirbyoctournament! i can't quite believe that starstruck- my pint sized waddle dee- made it all the way to the tippy-top against such intense competition. the roster was full of such an incredible selection of wonderful, loveable, and creative characters!
it's heart-warming to know that people out there really love my little wanya and her story, and i'll carry that with me always! ๐ฅฐ๐
i am so grateful to everybody who voted for and supported starstruck (and i!) throughout the tournament, and i'd also like to give my thanks to everybody- moderators, participants, spectators- who made this community event as cool and fun as it was!! i met many new people and learned about so many wonderful new characters!
this piece in particular is dedicated to and features all of starstruck's competitors in the tourney, starting with jakkle doo from round one, right up to valfrey in the final round. it was a fantastic honour to compete against all of your OCs, and i look forward to hopefully seeing them around plenty more in the future!!
thank you again!!
characters are listed from bottom to top; round 1 vs jakkle doo by @ninjakirkki, round 2 vs galacchio by @tatonslice, round 3 vs atlas by @unleashedsonic, round 4 vs mama d by @chibifox2002, round 5 vs parhelion knight by @aseuki, round 6 vs techie by @ivynajspyder, and the round 7 final vs valfrey by @gethoce
#my art#starstruck dee#others ocs#prize of the tourney is of course a fancy ribbon; who'd have guessed! works out perfectly for starstruck; it's in tourney colours!#this was such a wild ride!! can't believe it lasted six months! sorry this art is running almost a full month late#but i really hope you'll love it! thanks again for being my competitors during this event!! i truly love all your ocs!#7 friendly sunbeams- or at the very least folks who can play nice- and then parhelion knight. smooshed as he deserves#i did try but just a heads up that these characters are probably not totally size accurate i'm so sorry! i think atlas esp should be bigger#anyway i gotta stop typing before i get sappy again but once again thank you thank you thank you!!!! this truly means so much to me!! ๐๐๐#giving starstruck a little crown is probably not the best idea; but we'll let it slide this once!#ps: finally drew the oft requested full colour picture of stell with their wings out. at long last. for u aseuki ๐#edit: forgot starstruck's cheek constellations here for an embarrassingly long amount of time. oops. fixed now!
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Grant Turner and I commission by @lavendelleaf
#๐ย ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐#Grant and I carved pumpkins to look like each other ~#I absolutely ๐๐ข๐ฉ๐ how the pumpkin's designs turned out!! They really match the characters!!!#(เฉญเฅ หฬถอฬ แจ หฬถอฬ)เฉญเฅโพโพ Grant's expression is SOOOOOOO ๐ฆ๐๐๐๐ฌ AND ๐๐จ๐ง๐!! I couldn't stop giggling and laughing when I saw the sketch!!!#CRYING AND SCREAMINF#The commission turned out ๐๐๐ข๐ฅ๐๐๐๐!!! THEY LOOK SO ๐ฆ๐ช๐๐๐ง!!!#Lavendelleaf was ๐๐ฅ๐๐๐ง to work with!! I can't recommend enough checking them out!!!#๐๐๐ป๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐: When asked who would the characters dress as up for Halloween the creator said:#Grant wouldn't dress up for Halloween XD he's more of the type to be like I'm myself for Halloween and that should frighten you.#Which uhhh ๐ช๐ข๐ช ๐ฅด oh my god im going to be ill#i need him immediately#WHy do i find that extremely hot asfjkd;fklanv;. (/โข/ห /โข//ยบ)โก#I'm not positive whether Grant would enjoy carving pumpkins buttttttttt I think I could convince him to try it onceโ#At least my knife is in the pumpkin and not being pointed at him LMAO ( หถแต แต แตหถ )โ๐ช๐#Grant Turner#Unknown#Unknown Visual Novel#UnknownVisualNovel#Self Ship#F/O#Self Shipping#TakenForGranted#Self ship community#Yumeship
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I am always filled with the unshakable urge to put Tails the Fox in liminal spaces
#md original#md rambles#Can't stop thinking about putting Tails in an scp87 type scenario but I can't keep making the same au w a new flavor of paint#I mean I totally could#But I can work this into the first order logic au#What can I say I love putting that 8yr old boy in situations#For the record I'm working on putting Amy in a timeloop and I have that sonic exe/spaghetti code au in the back I'm fleshing out#Once i figure out what to do w knuckles ill have ALL of team sonic in situations ok. Equality.
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Whether algorithmically created (like tiktok, youtube, instagram, etc) or manufactured manually (like tumblr or 4chan), the inescapable nature of online echo chambers and their consequences terrifies and depresses me
#Often think about my old colleague who was the sweetest guy but pipelined into alt right ideologies through podcasts and tiktok#He once showed me a โfun factโ about there existing a soup in china made from infants and it appears he actually genuinely believed it to b#true#took one search to find out that it's a picture made by some contemporary artist and of course it wasn't real#but that's one of many things his algorithm threw at him and with enough bullshit you're not gonna fact check every single thing#Tumblr is also far from innocent tbh#people in here will start a bullying campaign of minors if they draw a fat character not fat enough or something like this and are often to#deep into tumblr thinking to consider that maybe this shit is also wild as fuck#I'm chronically online myself and I'm genuinely terrified of what kind of shit I casually utter in my daily interactions unaware of how#indoctrinated I had become in some type of specific echo chamber way#And what is it you can even do to avoid it#be chronically offline โ yeah that sounds like a tangible possibility#except in today's reality you literally cannot do that as it'll just alienate you both online and offline because we don't live in a vacuum#And you quite literally can't afford to be illiterate about what's happening online for many reasons#I really need to delete this blog god fucking damn it I don't know how else to stop using it
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If you're not nice to Nyon Specter, we can't be friends, I'm sorry.
#ts4#sims 4#nyon specter#nervous subject#nyon's entire existence is fix-it-fic and for once i am HERE for it#i don't like most of sims 4's tweaks and retcons to existing townies#dirk dreamer my boy what did they do to you in get famous#but nyon was a good move#the whole beaker story was unnecessarily sinister even for sims 2#how do you f up a guy's life so bad that his only redeeming quality is being too shy to say the rude thing he's thinking#and knowing never to skip leg day#i used to move him in with a better household age him down and have them teach him better character values#just so he could have a chance at a normal life#and like now we have nyon at a point in life where we can stop his trauma before it starts#also does mans have a faint vitiligo patch on his forehead or am i tripping and that's just a natural part of the tone used?#i'm leaning on the latter bc i can't find it in any skin details categories#ALSO WHERE TF ARE HIS MAIN BOOTS I HAVE EVERY PACK LIKE THE WHALE I AM BUT I CANT FIND THEM IN CAS I WANT TO USE THEM ON OTHER SIMS SO BAD#I TOGGLED FEMALE AND UNISEX CLOTHING AND OTHER FASHION TYPES AND EVERYTHING#kurage's ramblings
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i feel like reading/watching mbf immediately means knowing who i am as a person and... i cannot allow this
#you all know that i can't stand gatekeeping and how that's why i bring up what i like all the time in various contexts#but the surprising thing with mbf for me is that i can't talk about it as freely to people who don't know me#because i can't find a way to translate it without having to offer some crucial segment of myself#i enjoy sharing ideas and thoughts more than anything else but i don't like sharing me the person behind them#because i really cherish my individuality as something important in spite of where it takes me sometimes#i don't want to tarnish it!!!! i don't want even the smallest piece of it to be missing because i wouldn't know what to do anymore#i'll stick to typing out thoughts here and to my mom and to my med textbooks#but i must say it feels strangely refreshing to have something that is only my own this way because i always have to put myself out there#and this way i am not giving anyone the opportunity to twist it into something terrible about me#my spontaneous outbursts might ruin this for me though#letters from stephanie*#i dislike that i can't step outside of my own experiences with this like i usually do because art should be shared#this is suchhh a crazy person post#i think i finally get what my dad means when we fight about how i shouldn't say everything i think all the time#he doesn't want me to filter myself he wants me to preserve who i am from harm because stepping up sometimes won't help#who i'm trying to help but it will ruin me in some way even if it just makes me upset#i think that's how he manages to be calm without betraying himself?#he isn't lying he's just saying what he thinks when it matters and to those that matter#like most of the time i am right to single myself out but there is a particular shade of grey when i shouldn't do it#idk this is literally donna telling the dr YOU CAN STOP NOW.#realistically i just need someone to calm me down when my passions turn against me#overly personal post once again i am sooo sorryyyy look away
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being the friend that's "too woke" fucking sucks because everyone else can talk about their political beliefs just fine, but the moment you say something, the conversation either dies or you get berated for it. god forbid you want to talk about any lesser-acknowledged type of discrimination (E.G. sanism, fatphobia, ageism, etc.)!!
#personal#fatphobia#sanism mention#<- both mostly in the tags#even in the spaces I'm validated most people will briefly turn on Me if I bring up any political take that they don't want to consider#so RN I'm watching people saying 'oh it's fine for children to be fat but fat adults are just lazy'#KNOWING that nobody is gonna back Me up if I say 'maybe moralizing weight is bad actually'#I remember once calling a character most people consider 'average-looking' fat#in comparison to how a female character considered 'ugly' WITH THE EXACT SAME BODY TYPE is treated and everyone was like#'you stupid fucking SJW he's not fat at all. he's just a bit out-of-shape. stop being stupid.'#I've called out the demonization of antisocial personality TWICE on that forum and both times the thread immediately died forever#the plight of being marginalized is that even the people who like you the most can't be relied upon to defend you#in the face of their moderate discomfort and your violent oppression#moreover. the plight of being multiply marginalized is that even the people who stand with you against one oppression#will turn on you over another#BUT ANYWAY. time to move on. it's honestly best not to waste My energy on people who won't listen to Me anyway#you've gotta focus your efforts on making an actual difference not pleading with the willfully ignorant to change their ways
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If I was helping stuff somebody while they get high and they blew their smoke in my face I would immediately bluescreen ๐ตโ๐ซ
#I'm normally not into degrading type scenarios BUT. right now I can't stop thinking about a feedee being a little rude and entitled to me...#my smoking kink comes out to say hi once every 2 or 3 years and then goes back to bed#intox
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we have been having really poor self esteem and frankly just a poor mental state lately and i don't know how to even approach it like. okay. we got out of those house, we came back home, we're back at university. we should be doing better. but we're not, we're just not. we're using substances to a greater degree than we ever have before, we're pathetically lonely, our self esteem is a flimsy roller coaster. i just feel stuck because we can't tell ourself anymore "just wait until the fall, it'll be fine in the fall" because the fall has come and we are doing badly
#vent#we're kind of in that state where we're not suicidal but also we can't shake the feeling that if we did disappear one day#only a few people would notice and they wouldn't mourn very long. that sort of thing.#we were trying so hard not to cry on the bus earlier because our friend is just so much cooler and more capable than us and it just makes u#think of how autistic and incompetent and stupid we are. and we don't understand what he gets out of being friends with us. we feel like a#stupid dumb sidekick and we're anxious that he's gonna realize that and then we're gonna be even lonelier than we are now.#and the body's dad earlier made a joke about us not having friends and it really stung and he apologized for it once we told him not to mak#those kinds of jokes but i'm crying as i type about it now. we're just so stupidly lonely. and even when we do make friends we can't help#but be the lesser one. the friend that walks behind the other on a crowded sidewalk. the friend that's always thought of second. the one wh#isn't as smart or capable or fun. i don't know why anyone bothers to be friends with us. i think if we didn't reach out to people first the#nobody would do it for us. i think that if we just stopped messaging people one day it would take a while before anyone notices anything#and longer before they did anything about it. if they decided to at all.#we're some stupid kid who needs to be told not to look at strangers yelling in public and whose stupidly naive and optimistic and i don't#know how we ever think anything else of ourselfves.
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I'm not a "new musical theatre style music" person. Never have been.
Even when I was doing voice lessons, I'd steer towards the golden age or jazzy musical theatre songs. My voice teacher would have to drag me kicking and screaming towards adding anything new musical theatre to my repertoire. For a while, the most modern song in my book was I Know The Truth from Aida, and I wouldn't count that as new musical theatre style since I mean more the Pasek&Paul or Joe Iconis type.
And now I have an audition coming up for a small production of a show in that style and I'm supposed to sing a song in a similar style. And I'm looking at all my sheet music like... let me do some Cole Porter... or Gershwin... at least Sondheim please...
#look i do have SOME newer musicals in my book. but like i said. kicking and screaming.#i'm probably gonna end up doing 'I Think That He Likes Me' which is not IN a musical it's just new musical theatre style#as part of a songbook for some writing duo that i can't remember the name of and it's 2:45am so i can't care enough to look it up.#and it's the only one in my sheet music folder that i'm like 'ok. this is TRULY the right style' and i know it's good in my voice#and it's a cute song and i do like it and it definitely fits the overall vibe of the show#and though i haven't sung it in like 4 years i still remember 90% of the words and have time to study it before the audition#but while trying to find that song deep deep in my folder i pass by other songs i just love so much more#and i'm like ahhhhhhhh why#and i'm not even like 'god i hope i get it' (see A Chorus Line. that's more my type) i truly don't care if i'm cast or not#and yes i can technically audition with any song i could ever want it's just suggested to do the same style#but i know the entire creative panel who i'll be auditioning for and the last 2 times i auditioned for them i sang the same song#only because it's a GOOD song that fit both shows i was auditioning for (Can't Stop Talking About Him by Frank Loesser)#(perfect audition song since it's short at like 28 bars and you can pick the tempo and do a lot of character stuff)#(but see this is what i mean. like 1/3 of my entire sheet music folder is golden age musicals. then half is 60s-90s.)#(and then the last chunk are the few new-ish musical theatre and some pop music.)#(if i took performing more seriously i'd have a wider range but this is truly just for fun and just for me. so i do what i like.)#i don't want to go in for a 3rd audition with the same creative team and doing the same song. especially since it doesn't fit this time.#so once again. dragged kicking and screaming. over to new musical theatre territory. unwillingly.#if i get cast we'll have to see if the show itself even grows on me since honestly i think there's maybe 2 songs i like in it.#it's definitely not the worst new musical theatre style show but it's also not one that drew me in.#ok wait while looking through lists of 'new musical theatre' shows to find one i actually like (i think just Legally Blonde sorry guys)#(every other new musical in the last 20 years that i like did something interesting with the music like Come From Away)#i ended up finding out that apparently 13 was adapted into a netflix movie? when did that even happen?#i mean i don't care for that show either but i thought i was at least up to date on movie adaptations.
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"Haha Jonny's so silly he only knows like 3 names!! Why do all the characters have the same names that's funny, that's weird! There should be more variety!"
Me:
#I don't know really if it was intentional but its a brilliant literary device so it'd kinda be more impressive if it was an accident...#Please don't kill me for being pretentious... I can't unstudy the literature... Once you see you just can't stop!#It is actually a really interesting concept though and if anyone else is nerdy enough to be interested then msg me.. I can send articles...#I do have an essay type post half written on it but I'm too busy to finish it rn#tma#the magnus archives#the magnus institute#jonathan sims#micheal shelley#micheal crew#anna karenina
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okay but was it really necessary for probe to stroke adu du's cheek as he thanked him before he died. was that necessary or does someone on the animation team want me dead
#what is this dead wife beat type shit#I'm normal btw#was rewatching the scene for fic purposes and ngl I was never able to take it too seriously#but that part makes me want to bite something#wondering if it's something probe always wanted to do but it was only in that moment that he knew adu du would allow it#*deranged and exploding*#don't get me started on the dialogue#idc if it's cheesy or whatever it still makes me want to Cry#cube fortress#dinoposting#adu du boboiboy#probe boboiboy#man. I actually can't stop drawing them lolll#but my art kind of sucks so I'd rather not post that stuff. it's okay there are so many fics in the oven#the 5 other enjoyers of them will feast once the time comes#I should probably think of a ship name for them in the meantime#but idk#sorry for the ramble#this is a certified 4am post moment
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Spent this last week tired and in pain and I want to draw about it, but unfortunately aforementioned condition of being tired and in pain makes drawing impossible, so I guess I just have to suffer instead. Why this.
#i mean i know why this it's the hypermobility#but this is a new record for number of joints that hurt at once#hands and in particular thumbs; elbows; shoulders; and feet if i spend too long standing up#i can't currently use my thumbs because the thumb braces are the only thing stopping the pain getting worse#and that means no drawing because i can't hold a pencil#no piano or video games either which are other go-to distractions#i can't hold my phone properly#and i can only type in short bursts with fingers and no thumbs#i hate not being able to use my hands properly#the whole hypermobility thing has been causing me more and more problems lately and it sucks#i really need to get back to the doctor about it#but i'm so damn busy with work this month that i haven't had the time#and being so busy is just making things worse#driving is getting harder and i'm really worried that's going to become a problem#at least the thumb braces help with the pain#and physically prevent me from doing the things that'll make it worse#even if those things include. basically all of my hobbies#fuck this honestly#starting to come to terms with the fact that i am. a bit more physically disabled that previously assumed#happy disability pride month to me i guess :/#personal stuff
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hey. hey. hey. hey. hey so in ff16 they give you a flash step that goes forward but when you're a big monster (happens for setpiece boss fights only) they give you a roller skating move that goes sideways instead. but then there's a fight where they give your monster form a forwards flash step too.
and IN THAT SAME BOSS FIGHT, you need to do it Twice in a row to close the distance between "outside the big AOE attack" and "guy you need to punch after he does the AOE" & this sums up basically everything you need to know about how AGGRESSIVELY MEDIOCRE the combat really is in this game.
anybody who tells you it's good is either lying or is remembering 1 of like 2 and a half really nicely-tuned fights, one of which was optional. and the health bars were still too fucking stubborn in all of them.
#this is not a Dark Soul Get Good situation it's a 'okay. okay. okay I get it. okay. OKAY' type of thing#clive can't decide whether to have fun Big Steppy mobility or to be a grounded sword fighterman who has to aim carefully.#every Important Fight lasts 20 goddamn minutes and has MAYBE 10 minutes of material in it.#you can only equip 2x3 elemental attacks at once (WHY!!!) and if you want to mix and match more than 3 elements#you have to spend an INORDINATE NUMBER of skill points to do that.#rando 'ten soldiers' type enemies melt like butter under your fire AOE to the point that they implemented waves#to stop you from trivializing EVERY fight out in the field. yet somehow EVERY BOSS can take like 30 of those and still not DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and if YOU die because you got SO BORED that you STOPPED CARING ENOUGH to NOT DIE#there's no way to restart WITHOUT BONUS HEALS except to quit out to the main menu and load your save.#DESIGN BY COMMITTEE. MMO GRINDSET. WHO PLAYTESTED THIS. I'M GOING TO START BITING.
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How I learned to write smarter, not harder
(aka, how to write when you're hella ADHD lol)
A reader commented on my current long fic asking how I write so well. I replied with an essay of my honestly pretty non-standard writing advice (that they probably didn't actually want lol) Now I'm gonna share it with you guys and hopefully there's a few of you out there who will benefit from my past mistakes and find some useful advice in here. XD Since I started doing this stuff, which are all pretty easy changes to absorb into your process if you want to try them, I now almost never get writer's block.
The text of the original reply is indented, and I've added some additional commentary to expand upon and clarify some of the concepts.
As for writing well, I usually attribute it to the fact that I spent roughly four years in my late teens/early 20s writing text roleplay with a friend for hours every single day. Aside from the constant practice that provided, having a live audience immediately reacting to everything I wrote made me think a lot about how to make as many sentences as possible have maximum impact so that I could get that kind of fun reaction. (Which is another reason why comments like yours are so valuable to fanfic writers! <3) The other factors that have improved my writing are thus: 1. Writing nonlinearly. I used to write a whole story in order, from the first sentence onward. If there was a part I was excited to write, I slogged through everything to get there, thinking that it would be my reward once I finished everything that led up to that. It never worked. XD It was miserable. By the time I got to the part I wanted to write, I had beaten the scene to death in my head imagining all the ways I could write it, and it a) no longer interested me and b) could not live up to my expectations because I couldn't remember all my ideas I'd had for writing it. The scene came out mediocre and so did everything leading up to it. Since then, I learned through working on VN writing (I co-own a game studio and we have some visual novels that I write for) that I don't have to write linearly. If I'm inspired to write a scene, I just write it immediately. It usually comes out pretty good even in a first draft! But then I also have it for if I get more ideas for that scene later, and I can just edit them in. The scenes come out MUCH stronger because of this. And you know what else I discovered? Those scenes I slogged through before weren't scenes I had no inspiration for, I just didn't have any inspiration for them in that moment! I can't tell you how many times there was a scene I had no interest in writing, and then a week later I'd get struck by the perfect inspiration for it! Those are scenes I would have done a very mediocre job on, and now they can be some of the most powerful scenes because I gave them time to marinate. Inspiration isn't always linear, so writing doesn't have to be either!
Some people are the type that joyfully write linearly. I have a friend like this--she picks up the characters and just continues playing out the next scene. Her story progresses through the entire day-by-day lives of the characters; it never timeskips more than a few hours. She started writing and posting just eight months ago, she's about an eighth of the way through her planned fic timeline, and the content she has so far posted to AO3 for it is already 450,000 words long. But most of us are normal humans. We're not, for the most part, wired to create linearly. We consume linearly, we experience linearly, so we assume we must also create linearly. But actually, a lot of us really suffer from trying to force ourselves to create this way, and we might not even realize it. If you're the kind of person who thinks you need to carrot-on-a-stick yourself into writing by saving the fun part for when you finally write everything that happens before it: Stop. You're probably not a linear writer. You're making yourself suffer for no reason and your writing is probably suffering for it. At least give nonlinear writing a try before you assume you can't write if you're not baiting or forcing yourself into it!! Remember: Writing is fun. You do this because it's fun, because it's your hobby. If you're miserable 80% of the time you're doing it, you're probably doing it wrong!
2. Rereading my own work. I used to hate reading my own work. I wouldn't even edit it usually. I would write it and slap it online and try not to look at it again. XD Writing nonlinearly forced me to start rereading because I needed to make sure scenes connected together naturally and it also made it easier to get into the headspace of the story to keep writing and fill in the blanks and get new inspiration. Doing this built the editing process into my writing process--I would read a scene to get back in the headspace, dislike what I had written, and just clean it up on the fly. I still never ever sit down to 'edit' my work. I just reread it to prep for writing and it ends up editing itself. Many many scenes in this fic I have read probably a dozen times or more! (And now, I can actually reread my own work for enjoyment!) Another thing I found from doing this that it became easy to see patterns and themes in my work and strengthen them. Foreshadowing became easy. Setting up for jokes or plot points became easy. I didn't have to plan out my story in advance or write an outline, because the scenes themselves because a sort of living outline on their own. (Yes, despite all the foreshadowing and recurring thematic elements and secret hidden meanings sprinkled throughout this story, it actually never had an outline or a plan for any of that. It's all a natural byproduct of writing nonlinearly and rereading.)
Unpopular writing opinion time: You don't need to make a detailed outline.
Some people thrive on having an outline and planning out every detail before they sit down to write. But I know for a lot of us, we don't know how to write an outline or how to use it once we've written it. The idea of making one is daunting, and the advice that it's the only way to write or beat writer's block is demoralizing. So let me explain how I approach "outlining" which isn't really outlining at all.
I write in a Notion table, where every scene is a separate table entry and the scene is written in the page inside that entry. I do this because it makes writing nonlinearly VASTLY more intuitive and straightforward than writing in a single document. (If you're familiar with Notion, this probably makes perfect sense to you. If you're not, imagine something a little like a more contained Google Sheets, but every row has a title cell that opens into a unique Google Doc when you click on it. And it's not as slow and clunky as the Google suite lol) (Edit from the future: I answered an ask with more explanation on how I use Notion for non-linear writing here.) When I sit down to begin a new fic idea, I make a quick entry in the table for every scene I already know I'll want or need, with the entries titled with a couple words or a sentence that describes what will be in that scene so I'll remember it later. Basically, it's the most absolute bare-bones skeleton of what I vaguely know will probably happen in the story.
Then I start writing, wherever I want in the list. As I write, ideas for new scenes and new connections and themes will emerge over time, and I'll just slot them in between the original entries wherever they naturally fit, rearranging as necessary, so that I won't forget about them later when I'm ready to write them. As an example, my current long fic started with a list of roughly 35 scenes that I knew I wanted or needed, for a fic that will probably be around 100k words (which I didn't know at the time haha). As of this writing, it has expanded to 129 scenes. And since I write them directly in the page entries for the table, the fic is actually its own outline, without any additional effort on my part. As I said in the comment reply--a living outline!
This also made it easier to let go of the notion that I had to write something exactly right the first time. (People always say you should do this, but how many of us do? It's harder than it sounds! I didn't want to commit to editing later! I didn't want to reread my work! XD) I know I'm going to edit it naturally anyway, so I can feel okay giving myself permission to just write it approximately right and I can fix it later. And what I found from that was that sometimes what I believed was kind of meh when I wrote it was actually totally fine when I read it later! Sometimes the internal critic is actually wrong. 3. Marinating in the headspace of the story. For the first two months I worked on [fic], I did not consume any media other than [fandom the fic is in]. I didn't watch, read, or play anything else. Not even mobile games. (And there wasn't really much fan content for [fandom] to consume either. Still isn't, really. XD) This basically forced me to treat writing my story as my only source of entertainment, and kept me from getting distracted or inspired to write other ideas and abandon this one.
As an aside, I don't think this is a necessary step for writing, but if you really want to be productive in a short burst, I do highly recommend going on a media consumption hiatus. Not forever, obviously! Consuming media is a valuable tool for new inspiration, and reading other's work (both good and bad, as long as you think critically to identify the differences!) is an invaluable resource for improving your writing.
When I write, I usually lay down, close my eyes, and play the scene I'm interested in writing in my head. I even take a ten-minute nap now and then during this process. (I find being in a state of partial drowsiness, but not outright sleepiness, makes writing easier and better. Sleep helps the brain process and make connections!) Then I roll over to the laptop next to me and type up whatever I felt like worked for the scene. This may mean I write half a sentence at a time between intervals of closed-eye-time XD
People always say if you're stuck, you need to outline.
What they actually mean by that (whether they realize it or not) is that if you're stuck, you need to brainstorm. You need to marinate. You don't need to plan what you're doing, you just need to give yourself time to think about it!
What's another framing for brainstorming for your fic? Fantasizing about it! Planning is work, but fantasizing isn't.
You're already fantasizing about it, right? That's why you're writing it. Just direct that effort toward the scenes you're trying to write next! Close your eyes, lay back, and fantasize what the characters do and how they react.
And then quickly note down your inspirations so you don't forget, haha.
And if a scene is so boring to you that even fantasizing about it sucks--it's probably a bad scene.
If it's boring to write, it's going to be boring to read. Ask yourself why you wanted that scene. Is it even necessary? Can you cut it? Can you replace it with a different scene that serves the same purpose but approaches the problem from a different angle? If you can't remove the troublesome scene, what can you change about it that would make it interesting or exciting for you to write?
And I can't write sitting up to save my damn life. It's like my brain just stops working if I have to sit in a chair and stare at a computer screen. I need to be able to lie down, even if I don't use it! Talking walks and swinging in a hammock are also fantastic places to get scene ideas worked out, because the rhythmic motion also helps our brain process. It's just a little harder to work on a laptop in those scenarios. XD
In conclusion: Writing nonlinearly is an amazing tool for kicking writer's block to the curb. There's almost always some scene you'll want to write. If there isn't, you need to re-read or marinate.
Or you need to use the bathroom, eat something, or sleep. XD Seriously, if you're that stuck, assess your current physical condition. You might just be unable to focus because you're uncomfortable and you haven't realized it yet.
Anyway! I hope that was helpful, or at least interesting! XD Sorry again for the text wall. (I think this is the longest comment reply I've ever written!)
And same to you guys on tumblr--I hope this was helpful or at least interesting. XD Reblogs appreciated if so! (Maybe it'll help someone else!)
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