#on his fiancé and I don’t really know him like that but bruh….

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Miguel O’Hara X Reader story idea

Edit- so I saw the movie yesterday and BRUH!!!! Miguel’s logic is that there IS no logic, bro is PROJECTINGGGGG!!!!

hear me out! (Also keep in mind I haven’t seen the movie yet, just going on all the context I’ve seen goin around)

Reader and Miguel use to date, and they were a very happy couple. However Miguel is ALSO a very indecisive person and is secretly seeing another woman. Does he feel guilty about doing this to them both? 1000000% Does he truly love them both?…..

Sadly, he ends up slowly ghosting the reader when he finds out the other woman (his soon to be wife) is pregnant with his child. Ignoring her calls…..giving one word response texts…..blowing off their dates……

The reader (bless her heart and soul) thinks he’s just busy with work. However…. the reader finds out the truth by running into them and SEES his pregnant fiancé (not his wife yet) she’s absolutely devastated. He sees that she saw them and tried to explain, tried to find some way to tell her, that he’s still in love with her, that he never wanted to hurt her, but reader isn’t having it. “I trusted you! I thought you were different and genuinely cared about me! I saw the signs, but I really REALLY wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt.” He tries to console her and explain everything, but she just slaps his hands away “Don’t you EVER touch me again!” and just leaves as he’s trying to explain.

the guilt continues to eat him up throughout the years, but hey- he’s made his decision…..right?

he still thinks about her and always wonders “what could have been.” Does he actually love this woman or did he just stay with her because she got her pregnant? He definitely loves his daughter, but…..does he truly love his wife? He’s conflicted and doesn’t know, but one day when he and his family are enjoying an outing, he sees the reader!

he gets excited and makes some excuse to his wife and says he’ll be right back; he’s not really thinking about his actions, but then before he could get closer, the reader turns around and he sees that…..she’s pregnant. Not only that, but there’s a pretty little ring on her finger. He then also sees a man coming up with some ice cream and is gushing about how he still can’t believe they’re having their first kid…..oh…..so that’s…..her husband. She looks so……happy…..without him…

he leaves before she sees him and he just feels…..numb. A certain pain that he can’t possibly put into words…..he always thought he made the right decision, but then seeing her again just brought up so many emotions that’s he’s been trying to bury deep inside.

another time skip happens and this could be where Miguel discovers the multiple timelines/universes. He accidentally finds one where….he and the reader are together…. How happy they look. He still has his daughter and the reader has her son. Something must’ve happened in this timeline where he and his wife broke up- same with reader and her husband.

he makes the decision to go to that timeline- but then…..it breaks. Everything is…gone. His wife, his daughter……the reader. All gone right before his eyes. All because he wanted to be selfish, all because he couldn’t make up his mind…..

now here he is in the present day, in the spidey society (or whatever it’s called) hunting down anomalies, depressed, and angry.

until one day…

a glitch happens in the main hall. Like a LITERAL glitch is happening and All the spiders start surrounding, but not getting too close to this….thing. Miguel comes from his quarters and is ready to attack said thing? But then when the glitch finally stops, they’re able to see it’s….it’s a woman? But not just any woman….it’s the reader.

hea in pure shock and has no idea what’s going on.

the spiders get close to her, checking to see if she’s dangerous or not, but they see she’s clearly not a threat. She’s shaking, unconscious, and……still pregnant.

Miguel finally snaps out of it, and tells the others to clear out the way.

He takes you to the medical bay and has the doctors give you a full checkup, once done, he’s left alone with you and his thoughts……

ok that’s all I got, I genuinely want someone to make this a fanfic😭 like PLEASE! The angst is TOO good😭🥹

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Maven Calore was an Effective King, like 66% (Warning long rant and I’m not prepared for possible disagreements)

We all know Maven is a clever, sly boi. Stealing the crown and our hearts just in the first book.

So, I’m going to do what no one asked for and rate his effectiveness (mostly based on his scheming and politicking) on each book.

Red Queen (6/10): I know. Why is it so low? Since this is where Maven pulled the rug under Mare, Farley and Cal in one night. Also creating the most iconic moment that defined the Red Queen series as it is. He promoted himself as the heir to the throne and almost killed those that were a major threat to his claim (Cal, Mare and the Scarlet Guard).

I gave him a 6 cause he was only able to trick Mare because she was at her most naive and inexperienced state. While most of the people close to him underestimated and just didn’t noticed him. Cal being his older brother, of course, he won’t suspected. His father being drunk and neglectful most of the time, did not really care for him that much and his mother being a Whisper that could also manipulate an individual’s autonomy made is easier for him to work in the shadows.

Glass Sword (8/10): Maven was a menace, with his cruelty cranked to a 100. He was a threat to his enemies, even from afar.

He defamed his brother's image making him appear as a traitor to his own blood and a murderer to the masses. He was hands on at making sure that he gets to the other Newbloods, before Mare does.

As his works with his mother, using her skills and connections to get rid of other Silver Elites that were not as easily fooled by their lies.

It was a silent, tense and brutal. Of course, one of the most disturbing moments were done by him: Mare getting branded and later getting captured and placed a collar on her neck to dehumanize her.

King's Cage (8.5/10): Even with the absence of his mother, Maven was still able to make smart, political decisions on his own.

Changing Mare's narrative and demoting her from the Face of the Red Rebellion to a untrustworthy political puppet.

Reaching out to their neighboring kingdoms to strengthen his army and his hold to his throne.

Changing back the age of conscription from 15 to 18, to gain public favor. Even going as far as to ally himself with the Lakelanders through marriage, which ended the 100 year was between Norta and the Lakelands.

He did not, however, got a perfect grade since the lie that him and his mother made was refuted by Mare’s broadcast in GS. Which later caused a civil war, assassination attempts targeted at him and later some Silver Houses joining with Monfort and the Scarlet guard to have him removed from the throne.

War Storm (4/10): Bruh....

Maven was reduced to a angry toddler with a loaded gun and a creepy obsessed stalker (I’m not saying he wasn't but he got layers!)

Before that, let’s go to the positives. He made good use of his alliance with the Lakelanders and Piedmont. A heavy threat at the earlier half of the book.

Also the underground train was useful (Evangeline approved).

That’s it. (I will now angry rant)

Maven was a horrible husband.

Like, we all know by now that Maven wanted Mare to be his queen, and he had a deep, personal hatred towards the Lakelands in relation to Thomas’ death.

The main purpose of his pact with the Lakelands was to unit his resources to defeat a common enemy, i.e. the Scarlet Guard and Monfort.

BUT! That does not mean. YOU TREAT YOUR FREAKING LAKELANDER WIFE, POORLY!

Sending her out on life threatening missions, being sitting-on-your-ex-fiancée’s-bed-then-burning-it creepy and getting all up on her face to intimidate her. Like….dude. Iris could snap your twink ass in half with a teardrop. Don’t at her.

What hurts with his character in War Storm, was the fact that he knew the benefit of being underestimated and overlooked in RQ and he did not hold back when he gets the chance to retaliate. He would go to the extreme to make a point, he was all bite back then, which made others fear him. But here, he was just all intimidation and undermining his wife (who is one of his strongest ally).

AND THE FACT THAT HE WAS EVEN SURPRISED AT HER BETRAYAL...BRUH

Side note: Maven’s spit game is a 2/10. You would expect that he could at least get a few inches close to his target, given the number of times Mare spat at him. Just sad.

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Chapter six: You literally have to be fucking with me

Summary: Y/n and Tendou are deeply in love. Living on the other side of Tokyo now, the Monsters are still up to their old shit. They even opened a few businesses for Tax reasons. Even though it’s been almost three years later, Y/n still has never been able to understand how they have avoided the law several times. When Tendou’s Mother reappears in his life, Y/n is confused as Tendou claimed she is dead. Finding out Tendou is being forced to take over the family business by his Mother, she soon learns the truth behind Tendou’s reason he never gets in legal trouble is his family business. His mother is quick to decline Y/n as his future wife and tries to set up Tendou with someone she sees more fit. What will happen to Y/n and Tendou? What will happen to Tendou’s “family business”? What does this mean for the future of the Monsters?

TW: Swearing, mentions of sex, mentions of stabbing, blood, stiches, death 

AN: SORRY THIS IS SO LATEJIDFBVHKBS I WAS SHOWING MY FRIEND DEATHNOTE NVNJDFK

______________________________________________________________ Third Person Pov - Tuesday Night 

Tendou sat at the table beside Y/n anxiously. She noticed the way he shook his leg against hers. 

“Satori… What’s going on? I have never seen you this way before?” 

“I don’t… I am just… very nervous, the person you will meet is someone to m-” Before he could finish his sentence the front doorbell rang. He shot up from his seat and rushed over to the door. He ripped it open to see his mother in front of him. He rolled his eyes. 

“Well hello to you too Tori.” She said with a laugh. He did not say anything back, only pointed her to the dinning room where y/n sat at the table. 

Y/n stood up extending her arm to the woman now in front of her. 

“Hello I am Tendou’s Fiancé, Y/n.” She said politely. 

“Hello I am Tendou’s mother, Kohaku.” 

“I’m sorry, did you say his mother?” 

“Yes I did. This one isn’t too smart now is she, Tori?” She said as she sat down in Tendou’s seat. 

“Can I talk to you in the kitchen for a minute Satori?” Y/n said, the anger was seeping out into each word. He nodded and followed her in the kitchen. 

Y/n looked out to see the woman just sitting at the table as she was on her phone. 

“What in the absolute fuck is going on here Satori?” She asked, angry. 

“Well, you see my mom’s not dead, and that woman at the table happens to be her.” 

“You literally have to be fucking with me.” 

“I wish I was Y/n. She is the one I am inheriting the business from.” He said as he rubbed the back of his neck. 

“Holy fuck.” She said as she grabbed the counter for support. 

“So not only is she alive but a fucking Yakuza boss???” Y/n asked. 

“Yes.” 

“If I didn’t love you so much I would probably kill you right here.” She said.

“I'm sure the other Monsters would have a problem with that.” Tendou said with a smirk. Y/n laughed at his comment. 

“They can literally eat my ass.” 

“Don’t tell Matsukawa or he might be down. He has seen us have sex three times now.” 

“After your mother leaves, don’t tell them.” 

“Oo? Is this a rough sex on the table kinda night.” Y/n got noticeably flustered as she swat at him. 

“Shut up! Let’s just fucking go back and get this fucking meal over with.” Y/n said before she walked away. 

“Sorry about that, just had an urgent personal matter to discuss.” Y/n said as she sat down at the table. 

“Tori tends to tell people I am dead, but I never expected you to act like such a bitch about it.” Tendou’s mother said so casually. 

Before anyone could say anything else, the food was brought out by some cooks Tendou hired for the night. 

“So Tori, since I am here now, let’s talk business after our meal, in private.”  She said the last part as she shot eye daggers at Y/n. 

“Can’t we just fucking talk over our meal?” He asked. 

“No, you are going to be running shit now so it’s fucking different. Don’t try to act tough to me for your… whatever she is.” She said as she gestured to Y/n. 

“I literally have done nothing and you chose to come in her like some entitled bitch.” Y/n whispered under her breath. 

“I’d watch that tongue if you want to keep it.” Kohaku snapped at Y/n. 

After the meal was finished, Tendou and his mother headed up to his office.

 “Why are you being such a cunt to my fiancé?” He asked as soon as the door slammed shut. 

“Well if you had better taste in women we wouldn’t have an issue, now would we?”

“You can fuck right off. You can fuck with me, you can fuck with my friends, but if you fuck with her, I will be the one to kill you.” He said as he moved right into her face. She pulled back away from him and said; 

“You will have to get in line, the other rogue half has been causing us hell for some time now. After finding out who’s mother I was. I guess a couple of your old classmates are around that part of town now.” 

“Like I give a fuck.” He snapped. 

“You will once they come for what will hurt you the most.” She said.

“The fuck do you mean?” 

“I have seen the way you are around your monsters, I have seen the way you treat me, and I have seen the way you treat Y/n. You have a soft spot so you better fucking fix that, or I will do it for you.” 

“Like fuck you will you dumb bitch!” He shouted as he slammed his hands down on his desk. 

“So which ones of your gang are in?” 

“All of them.” 

“Really? That one guy, well I must say he seems pretty suspicious. I would watch your back if I was you.” She said back to him. 

“None of my friends would betray me, ever.” 

“You think what you want Tori. When the truth comes out, I hope you are prepared to shoot.” She stood up as she approached the office door. 

“I will text you tomorrow with more details about shit when you want to show your boss some respect.” 

“Fuck you.” He said as she left. He stood up and slammed his hands down on the desk. “FUCK!” he screamed out. 

The sound of the door slamming into the downstairs wall alerted him as he got up to see what was happening. He noticed Kenma being carried in by Terushima and Hanamaki. Y/n was rushing them into the dining room as she pushed all the plates off, shattering them. She rushed off to grab something in the distance. They placed kenma down as Shirabu came rushing in with Suna holding first aid kits. 

“What the fuck happened?” He then noticed the red stain on the side of Kenma’s shirt. 

“We were out at the bar and this guy came up, addressed us as the monsters and started a fist fight. We thought we all had someone distracted but one snuck in and stabbed Kenma at the table.” Terushima said. “Mattsun and Mad are still back there I think.” 

Tendou looked around as he noticed everyone had fresh blood splattered on them, even Shirabu. Y/n came rushing back in as she placed a pile of towels on the table. She walked over to Tendou as he pulled her into his chest. 

“Will he be okay?” Y/n asked. 

“Yeah, I may not have been in medical school long, but enough to know this guy sucked at stabbing. A few stitches and he will be as good as new.” Shirabu said. 

“Who the fuck were they?” Tendou asked. 

“We think some fucks from a gang or something trying to get street credit.” Just as Shirabu was finished stitching up Kenma. Kyotani and Maytsukawa walked in. 

“Is he fucking okay?” Kyotani barked up. 

“He is now Mad.” Terushima said.  

“Shit look at you too.” Y/n said as the two were dripped blood on the floor. 

“Don’t worry, it’s not ours.” Matsukawa said with his sadistic smirk. 

“We got you a fucking present in our trunk.” Kyotani said. Kyotani, Tendou, Matsukawa and Y/n walked outside knowing Kenma is going to be okay. 

Matsukawa popped the trunk, there sat a man who was bloody and beat. 

“Who the fuck is this?” Tendou asked. 

“The fuck that stabbed Kenma.” Matsukawa said. 

“And the rest?” 

“Four out of seven fucks escaped .” Kyotani said. 

“And the last two?” Y/n asked. 

“Dead.” Said matsukawa with his sadistic smirk again as he grabbed his bloody bat from the back seat and swung it up on his shoulder. 

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hi lay! could i please get the sfw alphabet for yuri? i love your work!!! have a nice day!! 💕

sfw alphabet. | yuri

-> Pairing: Yuri x GN!Reader

-> Genre: Fluff, SFW Alphabet

-> Warnings: None

-> A/N: i just wanted to say i’m so so so so close to 1.2k followers and i’m so excited i love having so many of y’all supporting me ♡︎

A -> Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

yuri is not affectionate in the beginning. it takes him a long time to warm up and get truly comfortable and fully trusting with you, so he still kind of has his walls up at the beginning of your relationship.

as it progresses, he gets a little more open in private, but there are some days where yuri just doesn’t want affection

B -> Begin (How did the relationship begin?)

you two were flirting MASTERS bruh

the tension in the monastery was unreal from the moment you two met. at first it wasn’t really serious, instead just trying to fluster the other, but eventually you gained some genuine feelings and he did too. yuri never really actually asked you out, it just kind of happened one day

C -> Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How do they cuddle?)

yuri’s kind of temperamental when it comes to cuddling. he doesn’t mean to be, but some days just aren’t cuddling days.

growing up, yuri didn’t get the affection he needed after being adopted. a sudden onslaught of affection and cuddling sometimes gets really overwhelming for him and he just needs to chill for a bit

D -> Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How good are they at cooking and cleaning?)

yuri’s never really thought about settling down. if you don’t want to settle down, he won’t either. if you do, he’ll consider it. to him, his work in the abyss never ends. he doesn’t want to “settle”, because to him, settling down means that his work is done.

E -> Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

unfortunately, yuri would pull some shit out of his ass like he did in the ashen wolves route. he’d come up with some lie as to why he’s breaking up with you and make you hate him so that it’s a little easier for him. newsflash, it’s never easier

F -> Fiancé(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quickly would they want to get married?)

yuri is definitely not going to jump at the chance of marriage, but he’d be willing to sit down and talk with you about it. after you’d been together for a long time, of course

he’s good with commitment, like exceptionally good, which is why i don’t think that he believes marriage is necessary. what’s the point other than earning a new last name? you love him and he loves you, he doesn’t think that there needs to be some big ceremony to know that

but if you’re adamant about it, he won’t be against it. as long as the wedding ceremony isn’t too big

G -> Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

physically, yuri is very gentle. he’s kind of awkward at first, not knowing what to do, so he’s lowkey kind of scared of doing the wrong thing. everything he does is done with precision and care to make sure that you’re comfortable and happy

emotionally, it takes him a while to be a little less... closed off. yuri is blunt and brutally honest, preferring not to sugar coat things or get caught up in sweet pleasantries. he has to realize that sometimes, those things can be taken as mean and the last thing he wants to do is be mean to you. showing you his soft side comes slowly, but it’s worth it when he does.

H -> Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

hugs are reserved for the small, fleeting private moments that the two of you get alone

they’re loose, with his arms draped around your waist and yours resting on his shoulders as he smiles down at you, talking sweet nothings in a hushed voice

I -> I Love You (How fast do they say the L-word?)

yuri’s love language is definitely not words of affirmation

it’s acts of service but that’s not what this letter is about

yuri doesn’t say i love you often. you’re the one to say it first, and even then, it’s a little hard for him to get out. it’s not that he doesn’t love you, because trust me, he does, it’s just that it’s such a vulnerable thing that caught him completely off guard when you said it.

he does say it back, though, muffled into the crown of your hair as he holds you in the middle of the night

J -> Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

to get yuri jealous is to accomplish the impossible

to even consider you as his s/o, yuri has to have an enormous amount of trust in you. he has faith that you won’t ever betray him

but if he does, somehow, get jealous, it’s kind of funny to watch. he’ll just casually walk up to whoever you’re talking to and join in on the conversation, making sure to butt in and interrupt the guy. he just wants to make the dude super duper frustrated, and it works.

K -> Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

super fiery and possessive, and yet unsure at the same time. yuri’s so passionate about you and loves you a lot, but he’s always on the cautious side, making sure that you’re comfy and okay

he love love love loves to kiss the crown of your head, especially as he’s holding you against his chest. it makes him feel like he’s protecting you

kiss his neck and chest!! please! he absolutely melts, even if it’s just cute lil loving sfw kisses

L -> Little Ones (How are they around children?)

yuri is very very good with kids. he’s like a hero to the children in the abyss, so he’s got a lot of practice. he loves to sit with them and tell them stories. his most popular is about a robin hood-esque character who somehow managed to get the most beautiful, sweetest person in the world to fall in love with him. that story makes you blush every time.

M -> Mornings (How are mornings spent with them?)

mornings together aren’t too often, but they’re not as scarce as they would be with felix. yuri’s day starts bright and early and he’d like it if yours did too. he’d love to wake up and spend like five minutes with you, but if you’re not an early bird he’d understand

if you’re still asleep by the time he wakes up, he’ll lay on his side and just admire you for a bit, running his fingers through your hair and just looking at you before giving you a kiss on the forehead and getting up to start his day.

N -> Nights (How are nights spent with them?)

nights with yuri kind of depend on his mood

as said in earlier headcanons, there are times when yuri just doesn’t want to be touched. those nights, you both just lay side by side and talk about different things

on nights that he’s comfortable with cuddling, he often will lay facing you and will hold you to his chest, his chin resting on your head as he rubs small circles into your back, still talking about the day and future plans

O -> Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything at once or wait to reveal things slowly?)

even years into your relationship with yuri, you’re still learning things. it’s usually menial things that he doesn’t deem necessary for someone to know, but you’re still learning.

it’s not that yuri doesn’t trust you, because he does, it’s just that he’s not an open person. he doesn’t find talking about his past beneficial for anyone, so he just doesn’t do it.

he will confide in you about his real name right after you get together, though, asking you to never use it again after that.

P -> Patience (How easily angered are they?)

yuri is very slow to anger. sure, he gets frustrated at times, but he’s never one to show such negative emotions. if someone sees that they’re getting to him, that’s a weakness that he just doesn’t want people to see.

he wouldn’t really ever get mad at you, i wish i could elaborate more on that but yuri’s just really tolerant and you don’t really do anything to make him mad anyways??

Q -> Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

yuri remembers big things like your birthday or other significant facts, but sometimes he has to be reminded of smaller things like your mother’s father’s dog’s cousin’s name. he remembers most things is what i’m trying to say

R -> Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

yuri likes to remember the day he realized that you were the one. he was very stressed that day because the abyssians were getting nervous about rumors of an impending attack from thieves and he was struggling calming them all down

you jumped right into the chaos when you saw what was happening and quickly began soothing the abyssians as well, rallying them up and improving their morale just in case they actually would have to defend their home again

yuri’s heart swelled as he realized that you truly cared about his people and his home as much as he did

S -> Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

yuri’s quite protective, but in a secretive way. he’s not really... out there. he chooses to watch you from the corner of his eye when you’re in the same room or fight close to you when you’re in battle, only swooping in to save the day when you absolutely need it.

that’s how he’d prefer to be “protected” as well, just don’t call it protected because the great yuri leclerc does NOT need protection according to him. don’t be overbearing, let him handle things and only really come in when he absolutely needs it.

T -> Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, etc?)

yuri would definitely try to make special days special, but he wouldn’t do much in terms of physical gifts. instead, he’d make you take a day off from duties and treat you to a tea party or a trip to the sauna and such

U -> Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

yuri will always always always struggle with leaning on you for support. he’s used to being the big, lone wolf leader who doesn’t need anybody and that won’t change easily.

V -> Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks? Do your looks bother them?)

yuri is naturally a beauty, so he doesn’t really try with his looks. even if he doesn’t really think he’s that much of a catch, he doesn’t bother to make himself one either.

your looks don’t bother him at all. he likes you for your personality, loyalty, strength, and all those things. it’s just a plus that you’re exceedingly attractive

W -> Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

i’m sorry, reader, but if he did feel incomplete without you, he sure as hell would be good at showing it. yuri’s spent his life only being close to three other people while everyone else has betrayed or left him. he’s got walls up for a reason and if you left, he’d easily be able to shut those feelings out and put the walls back up again

X -> Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

yuri snorts when he laughs too hard it’s just a proven fact. he gets super embarrassed when he does and makes you swear not to tell anyone, but it’s so cute and funny and makes you both laugh ten times harder

Y -> Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, in general or in a partner?)

if you don’t care about the abyss or are really selfish, that’s a no. yuri has two number one priorities; you and the abyss. he’d appreciate it if you at least just cared a little about it, yk? that’s his home

Z -> Zzz (What’s a sleep habit of theirs? Does it change around a partner?)

in addition to snorting when he laughs, yuri also makes little noises when he sleeps. they’re usually just small hums or little mumbles, but once you had a conversation with him while he was dead asleep

[refinedbuffoonery]

5x12 Thoughts

OH MY GOD THAT EPISODE WAS SO GOOD. 

Let me just say that Monica knows how to write a HEARTBREAKER. I legit teared up a little when Desi first confessed about her ex-fiancé. 

So let’s start with that. First off, shoutout to Levy for wrecking me. I felt Desi’s pain just as much as I felt Riley’s embarrassment two episodes ago. She’s literally perfect. But in all seriousness, this new era is really bringing Desi’s character to life. She’s three-dimensional. She has strengths and flaws, and (now) she’s someone I can root for. The potential for her to blossom has been there since day one, and I am thrilled to see it finally happening. 

Also, since we got to see so much of her and Mac communicating (!!!) in this episode, I can definitively say that it’s Mac who is the shitty communicator in their relationship. Don’t get me wrong, they’re both shitty because they keep secrets, but when it comes to finally talking, Mac doesn’t listen well. His first thought after Desi told him her fiancé was KIA and that she’s not over it was how it affected him. Bruh. That is not “dropping a bomb” on you. That is sharing something deeply traumatic from her past that she hasn’t confronted yet herself. And Mac brushed it off. He eventually said the right thing by saying he’d work through it with her, but his initial reaction doesn’t sit well with me. 

Despite my dislike of Mac’s reaction, if this is how he and Desi were portrayed since the beginning, I would totally ship them. This is the story of two imperfect people trying to make it work. All the signs point to them not working out in the long run, but watching them try (like this) is equally as fulfilling. Why? Because it’s realistic. 

Still on this Desi thread, her friendship with the princess was perfect. I loved everything about it. There’s just something so powerful about female friendship (even temporary ones like this) that I honestly can’t put into words. The women on this show don’t get enough of that on screen, but with a woman now in charge, I think that will finally change. 

While after this episode I’m ready to jump aboard the Desi fan train, my heart still belongs to Riley. I am so proud of her. She’s come so far, and yet she’s still the same stubborn, snarky hacker we met in episode one. Personally, I think paying it forward is one of the most beautiful things a person can do with their life, so seeing Riley do that is wonderful. She’s powerful in a lot of ways, but her ability to make a difference in these girls’ lives, in my opinion, takes the cake. 

Speaking of powerful....Tristin’s acting? Incredible. I deeply admire the way she can convey so much in so few words. Her reaction when Bozer accused her of being shady was perfect, especially the part where she said not everything is a team thing. This is Her Thing. And I respect the hell out of her for it. And, don’t even get me started on the final scene, where she dropped the bag of Chinese food on the table, introduced herself as Artemis, and said “Let’s begin.” I will be thinking about that scene all week. 

One last thing about Riley, before I move on. Her hair. I’ll write up a whole analysis about it later if y’all want, but throughout the show, her hairstyle has implicitly shown where she’s at emotionally, and you can see her change over time through her hairstyle. It’s been most notable this season; as she became more guarded, she started wearing her hair in sleek, tight styles. In the past, in episodes where she’s most vulnerable, her hair is down (but not straitened!). In this episode, obviously there’s a massive weight lifted off her shoulders after talking with Mac last episode. Thus, the loose hair. But, when she went to meet her hackers, she put it back in that sleek bun again. She’s there to help those girls, yes, but she’s also there as Artemis. 

Dudes, I could talk about these badass women all day. (All night? I’m writing this at 2am lmao). 

Okay. Time to move on. Oh wait....more women. I like how the nano tracker plot was woven into this episode, rather than it just jumping from the previous episode to the one after this one with nothing in between. In addition to making the plot more consistent and coherent, it was also a nice opportunity to bring in Parker and show her and Matty working together. Great creative choice. 

And last but not least, Russ. Sofia really pulled one over on him, and he is still a little too trusting of her, in my opinion, despite her explanation. I don’t know why, but she still seems shady to me. Like, she just comes back and is like “Let’s pick up where we left off” and Russ is all “yeah let’s fuck even though I’m on the clock right now.” The man is clearly not thinking with his brain here. Side note: Mac walking in afterward and noticing the rumpled bed and making the classic dudebro “nice” face at Russ was hilarious. 

Oh and one last thing. Bozer is still my MVP. He only got like three minutes of screen time, but between running the whole op, confronting Riley, and his little dance at the end, he’s really out here doing it all. Good for him. 

Just like I’ve rated every other Monica-era episode, this one is a 10/10. 

[script-nef]

Ex-girlfriend | Miya Atsumu

Category: crack, fluff

Warning: profanities

1.4k words; just Miya Atsumu feeding his fans with his “girlfriend”

The link to the “interview” is a ridiculously high-quality cover of Colde singing Nabi Bobet Tau. It’s great, have a listen. The second one is “Lovestruck” also by Colde.

Lmao did you guys see the interview Atsumu did

Okay so I was just chilling on my couch, flicking through channels to see what’s fun and guess who I see. Getting interviewed. With his incredibly red “girlfriend” by his side. (In hindsight it could be because of the winter cold but listening to Atsumu, he’s probably the main cause) And feeding us for the next 2 months while MSBY doesn’t have any interviews or appearances.

Bruh the reporter who had the fortune of randomly meeting them, what’s the power to your luck I want them secrets. I need them secrets.

But honestly, I was in a shitty mood all day and his interview made my mood lift up. If you guys wanna see the interview, it’s here.

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LMAO HE SAID “THIS IS MY EX-GIRLFRIEND” ON LIVE CAMERA SHE LOOKED SO MORTIFIED AND I WAS SCREAMING LIKE “WHAT THE FUCK YOU BROKE UP ATSUMU WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BEG FOR HER TO STAY” THEN HE RAISED HIS HAND UP I SAW THE RING I CAN’T BREATHE

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WHEN SHE SAID “Please stop introducing me to everyone like that” IN THE MOST EMBARRASSED VOICE LIKE BOY NOT GONNA LIE YOU HAD US IN THE FIRST HALF

AND IT WAS SO CUTE HOW SHE WAS SO RED AND HER REACTION WHEN SHE REALISED IT WAS LIVE. IT’S A MEME NOW I CALLED IT

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Did you see her eyes when he started saying all the soft shit they do together? She was staring off into the distance like she gave up everything but she smiled so cutely when he looked back at her like a puppy. This is what I’m talking about. This shit is my life source. I need me an Atsumu. I need me some romance. 

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“What would be different when you’re married?”

“Not much, but now I can use the ‘But I’m your husband’ card whenever I wanna hug!” BOY WHY ARE YOU SO PURE WHEN IT COMES TO HER WHY CAN’T YOU BE LIKE THAT IN YOUR MATCHES THE DUALITY OF THIS MAN

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DUDE HE FUCKING SAID THAT WE STAN THE BIGGEST SIMP PLEASE NEVER BREAK UP I AM BEGGING YOU!! FEED ME WITH THIS SOFT SHIT THIS IS WHAT GETS ME GOING

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They’re so goddamn cute… Are there more clips of them together or anything like that?

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There’s this page where people just dish whenever they see them together outside. It’s basically a massive collection of Atsumu being a lovesick fool for his now-fiancée. Here’s the link. 

Going out

Apparently his girlfriend worked for MSBY and he fell in love with her. But they had some kind of a bullshit “no dating people affiliated with the team” rule or something so he counted down the days until her year-long contract was over.

And everyone was basically rooting for them since they were super obvious and they officially started dating at the small party on her last day. I think there’s like a super grainy video of them hugging for the entire party. And like, she fits into his embrace perfectly like damn what a match I wish my boyfriend hugged me like that.

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SHIT IT’S FIANCÉE NOW I CAN’T BELIEVE BE HAPPY YOU FUCKING CUTIES I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

Café AU

I own a café and Atsumu comes regularly with his girlfriend. She always orders the chocolate waffle combo which is a plateful of waffles topped off with oreo crumbles and chocolate sauce and a milkshake. But Atsumu doesn’t like sweet things so he just watches her the entire time. You know the “chin rested on hand, leaning onto the table and looking at their significant other like the rest of the world doesn’t exist” move? Yeah, imagine that times 2,000. Then square it. And even then you won’t come close to how lovestruck he is for her.

And whenever she looks up from her waffles, he just grins and asks her if it’s nice in the sweetest voice like. You can make those types of voices??? I thought my ears were malfunctioning for a second. 

They’re just really cute and make me happy whenever I see them. I’m pretty sure a lot of my regulars also support them as well. 

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So they’re getting married!! Ugh I swear I’m going to give them extra food as my way of saying congratulations the next time they come around.

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Wait, are you the owner of ChatNoir Café? Like the one Atsumu uploads onto his Insta all the time??

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That’s me! Yeah, thanks to him I’m getting more and more business everyday. You fans are so amazing I even made a deal for you guys. 

Atsumu just uploaded a video of him going through his new house. There is literally nothing in it other than bare essentials lmao. Hopefully they have similar taste in furnitures because I don’t think Atsumu’s going to back down on his decisions.

Insta upload

Atsumu just uploaded a video of him going through his new house. There is literally nothing in it other than bare essentials lmao. Hopefully they have similar taste in furnitures because I don’t think Atsumu’s going to back down on his decisions.

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Nah, man. He’s always going to back down for her. You know how a lot of couples break up during the preparation for the wedding because they realised they’re too stubborn and get into fights? I was fearing that happening for Atsumu but then the match incident happened and I realised. This guy is whipped for her. Properly whipped. He’s never going to break up with her.

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What’s the match incident?

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It’s probably on YouTube, just search “Atsumu kneeling”.

It was a match where he did a spike which bounded off the opponent blocker’s arm and somehow went straight to her face. I was nearby her and my heart literally leapt into my throat when I saw it. She reacted fast enough and blocked it with her hand, but you should really watch the video to hear the sound. It’s somehow still so strong even after hitting the blocker (powerful boi)

Anyway he immediately ran to her to check up on the damage and literally broke down when he saw her skin turning red. He later said she gets bruises easily and that this left one which persisted for like, 3 months. 

She kept saying it was fine and that’s it’s not his fault, but he knelt in front of her to show how sorry he was. In front of everyone. Like, everyone. I couldn’t see one person who wasn’t watching him. And everyone’s jaw was on the floor because holy shit this guy’s kneeling here. I couldn’t believe it and I was standing right there. 

The coach eventually came to take him back and sent her to the infirmary to get the hand checked out, but she said something to Atsumu first which revived him. He never told us what it was but apparently it’s something really good since he got like, 10 services aces after that.

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Lovesick Atsumu for the win

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LOVESICK ATSUMU FOR THE WIN SAY IT LOUDER SO EVERYONE CAN HEAR

Drawing upload

Atsumu has uploaded yet another painting of him done by his fiancée and it is honestly amazing how someone has that much talent. Like, she’s pretty, probably has the patience and kindness of a God because she’s able to deal with Atsumu, artistic and adorable. Lady, what don’t you have??

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I know right??? How are you so amazing please stop being so perfect and live like the rest of us plebeians down on Earth. How will I ever get a girlfriend when you’re everything I dream for??

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I can imagine her painting and decorating the whole house while Atsumu trails behind her like a loyal puppy. Am I weird if I say I can see in front of my eyes how he’ll carry everything around and lean down for head pats while saying he deserves them for being good. Anyone else think this? No? Just me? Alright then.

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YEAHHHH JOIN THE “ATSUMU IS FOREVER WHIPPED AND WE HAVE EVIDENCE” CLUB EVERYONE IS WELCOME!! In my 2 years of following this man I never thought that someone able to control him would appear but here she is. Our goddess. 

My only wish is for them to love each other and grow old. And hopefully update us on bits of their sweet and fluffy lives.

[emsvegetables]

Hello!! first, I wanted to tell you that your med student hcs were literally SO good they really hit home for me. I I was also wondering if I could ask for hcs of Kuroo, Matsukawa, and Hanamaki who are stuck at home with their s/o? Like, who goes insane first? How do they pass time? Also, if they're in college, how many times do they also go to class online? Thank you so much!!!

omg anon this request WAS SO FUN TO WRITE thank you for requesting this :-)!!!!!

Kuroo:

* STUCK IN QUARANTINE WITH THIS MAN???

* That’s my dream lmaoooo

* N E WAYS

* He’s so EXCITED he gets to be in quarantine with you!!!!

* Like, even though the both of you share the apartment and are dating, it’s very hard to actually spend time with you, with the both of you being in different courses in college after all.

* So spending time with you??? He’s so happy.

* Before the quarantine really goes into effect, he’s insisting that the both of you have to go get some groceries.

* BC HE KNOWS THAT YOUR LAZY ASS WONT LEAVE THE HOUSE ONCE THE QUARANTINE STARTS LMAOOOO

* He’s always making breakfast for you in the morning!!!! LIKE???? This man is husband material 10/10.

* If you aren’t awake by the time he’s plated the food, he runs into the room and carries you out.

* There was once he dropped you on the floor but we don’t talk about that.

* When you guys have lessons on???? The both of you are in separate rooms bc you’re too distracting to him.

* But you bet that if you have a call going on and he doesn’t, he’s creeping beside you and saying some weird ass stuff to distract YOU.

* There was one time this asshole came into the room saying,” are you made of Fluorine, Iodine and Neon? Cause you’re F-I-Ne!” while your mike was on.

* BRUH your whole class literally started laughing at you.

* Even the professor GIGGLED.

* At this point Kuroo’s face is the shocked pikachu one.

* BC HE DIDNT KNOW YOUR MIKE WAS ON ORIRIIFIDIFJFJDIOW

* And ofc you get back at him during one of his lessons later on during that day.

* He’s focusing on the teacher and writing down notes onto his notebook when you hear the teacher ask him a question.

* You’re like: ITS GO TIME BABY.

* When Kuroo unmutes himself to answer the question, you’re pressing a quick kiss onto his neck and biting down on it.

* “The answer to the question is—ah shit baby it’s going to be like that?”

* RIRKFKFK THE WHOLE CLASS GOES SILENT THEN.

* Then Kuroo realises what just came out of his mouth and YOU bet this is the first time you’ve seen him so embarrassed.

* HAHAHAHAHA

* His teacher just keeps quiet for a moment; before asking another student the same question and completely ignoring Kuroo for the rest of the call.

* REIOFDO YOU BET HE’S GOING TO TICKLE YOU UNTIL YOU CRY FOR THAT and maybe do something else that’ll make you REALLY CRY.

* Tbh the both of you love each other so much, and there’s never a boring moment with Kuroo in quarantine.

* He keeps you on your toes, and you keep him on his, so you’re actually not bored or tired of him in quarantine!!!!

* But when he sees that you’re getting a little fidgety and tense, he’s immediately suggesting something that the both of you don’t do usually.

* Like BAKING???? He’s happily making cinnamon rolls with you and dancing with you in the kitchen to some weird song.

* Or he’s playing WII with you, and the both of you make so much noise the neighbours come over and ask you politely if you could...”make love a little quieter” DOROFOFIFIFIEIEI

* So none of you go insane because this man just KNOWS how to handle you!!!

Matsukawa:

* AHHH THIS IS PT 2 OF MY DREAM

* ANYWAYS

* This guy??? He’s such a sweet man.

* When he realises quarantine is going to go into effect, he’s dragging you out to buy some essentials for your lockdown.

* He’s making sure to buy at least some healthy snacks and vegetables to make sure you stay healthy during this time period!!!!!

* OKAY LETS BE REAL this guy is the one that takes care of the other in the relationship.

* He’s making sure you go to sleep at the time you should be in bed, and hauls your ass to bed if you refuse to do so.

* But his cuddles are very soothing so you fall asleep VERY quickly.

* But if you really can’t sleep??? He’s staying up to talk to you about anything that comes into your mind.

* He’s also making sure you eat!!!! He’ll make lunch for you if he sees that you overslept and missed breakfast.

* If you want to bake, he’s trying his best to help you, but this man can only give you the ingredients bc for some reason he SUCKS at baking.

* He tries baking cupcakes for you in the middle of your lessons one day and the cupcakes were all droopy and uncooked. SO LESSON LEARNT.

* SPEAKING OF LESSONS:

* Tbh he knows not to distract you in the middle of lessons, so he’s either in another room during your lessons or he’s quietly resting his head on your thighs.

* BUT.

* You’re totally different.

* You make it a point to disrupt his lessons all the time, always asking for cuddles in the middle of his lessons and asking for kisses as well!!!

* He just sighs at you when you come crawling towards him while he’s writing down notes, and just opens his arms to allow you to crawl into his lap.

* THERE WAS ONCE where you were cuddling him and the teacher asked him to answer a question, so he turned on his mike and camera, and then he hears a loud gasp.

* “Matsukawa! What are you doing?”

* YOU WERE SITTING ON HIS LAP AND FACING THE BACK WHAT DID IT LOOK LIKE YOU WERE DOING

* “IM SORRY MISS!”

* DIORIRRIRKRK when he hears you laugh, you bet he’s going to punish you later 👀😎

* But as much as the both of you love to spend time with each other...do you know who goes insane first??

* YOU.

* You need to go outside!!!!!

* Mattsun notices how you’re getting all tense, and he’s trying his best to take your mind out of it.

* He’s asking you to exercise with him, and it often leads to OTHER THINGS HAHAHA

* And he plays some random two player online games with you!!!!!!

* “(Y/N) NO FAIR YOU HIT ME!”

* In other words, being stuck with Mattsun in quarantine is a fun thing!!!

* You go insane but he’s there to perk you up!!!!!

Hanamaki:

* PART THREE OF MY DREAM!!!!

* This man :””)

* Tbh you’re 90% of his impulse control, so when the both of you split up to buy the essentials you need during quarantine, this boy comes back with potato chips and all the unhealthy snacks.

* But you can never say no to him so you buy those in the end :(

* This guy is amazing to be with, but it’s pretty obvious YOU’RE going to be the one taking care of him during quarantine.

* You’ll have to tell him it’s 12am and it’s time to sleep and to stop watching Rosemarie being disgusted with Ed.

* You’ll have to tell him, no, eating potato chips does NOT count as lunch.

* But sometimes he’s so damn convincing he’s pulling you into his lap to continue watching 90 day fiancé, and he’s feeding you the chips with a kiss to your lips.

* He’s trying out all those weird quarantine things that he saw on youtube with you LOLOLOL

* He got so bored that at one point he got into tiktok and made a video that went viral.

* But then he logged out bc he was BORED of Tiktok so...

* N E WAYS

* He goes to sleep late every night, but he somehow wakes up entirely refreshed for his lessons the next morning?????

* And you don’t disrupt him during his lessons, usually just reading quietly beside him or watching the television in the living room.

* But this little shit loves to bother you in the middle of lessons.

* BRUH HE SCARED YOU while you were trying to answer the question the teacher asked.

* You screamed into the mike and the teacher jumped.

* “(Y/N)! I asked you to answer a question, not murder my ears!”

* “Sorry miss!!!!!!”

* And when you hear Makki laugh after you mute yourself again, you instantly formulate a plan to murder him.

* But then, you thought, LETS MESS WITH THIS SHIT.

* So the next time he has lessons, you’re quietly reading beside him, and you casually place a hand on his thigh, which slowly moves up as the lesson goes on.

* He doesn’t notice at first, but when your hands brush dangerously close to where mini Makki is, he’s groaning.

* When the teacher calls Makki to answer a question, you grin.

* ITS YOUR TURN SUCKA

* You’re softly pressing against it when he unmutes himself, and he lets out a low, guttural groan, which the entire class hears.

* “Hanamaki, are you alright?”

* “Yes, Miss—“

* He GROANS again when you press a little harder.

* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SUCK IT.

* Iwaizumi’s in this zoom call, and you know he KNOWS what’s going on, based on the disgusted look on his face.

* Hanamaki somehow manages to answer the question, and when he mutes himself, he’s shooting you a smile and telling you that you’re in trouble.

* YOU REALLY WERE RIFIFIFKRK

* In the end, you’re the one going insane.

* BC YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH MAKKI’s shit every day.

* Not that you don’t love him, but caring for this man who doesn’t know what a healthy sleeping schedule is making you MAD.

* But he’s a GOD in the kitchen, and he’s making you these exquisite meals with the little groceries you have that you ALWAYS forget about how you’re slowly spiraling into insanity whenever you take a bite into the food.

* HES THAT GOOD.

* He makes you forget about all your troubles with a nice massage on the couch while the both of you watch 90 day fiancé together! :)!!!

hope you like, anon!!!!! :-)

[jaefluenza]

Thank you for opening up your request box! Can I request Jaehyun + 7 & 8 (angst)? Maybe you can set it at university? Thank you again!

Hi! Thank you for requesting! I see you made another good request as well! Thank you for the ideas, so I will combine the two into one shot and I hope that will be okay with you <3

And bro i swear angst 7,8 are pretty famous they’re all over my submission box 🥺💚

(Angst)

7. “I’m not her.”

8. “Your parents didn’t fancy the idea of us.”

(Suggestive)

3. “Now I know Aphrodite is real.”

4. “Your dress kinds of making my knees go weak.”

8. “Trust me, baby.”

word count: 2,529 words

“Have you know that the famous Jung Jaehyun is about to get engaged with the also famous Rosèanne Park? Damn, they look good together.”

“I just heard that! But look, I also heard that he already has a girlfriend. But is she truly his girlfriend though?”

“Probably just a hook-up, bruh. There’s no way anyone is as gorgeous as Rosè anyway. She’s probably just one of those girls he fucked every weekend.”

Sigh. This is getting heavy. You knew this would come, anyway. Being Jaehyun’s girlfriend has been a pain in the ass but you still dealt with it anyway. It’s been six months of dating him and you can’t help but falling into his charms more than you did at first.

That Rosèanne girl, you knew her. Well who wouldn’t know her? Known widely as the famous pretty youtuber on college since her high school days, she became the heartthrob for both boys and girls in college. Sometimes, people who don’t come from your university would come just to see her walking around to school or just to follow her around to ask for pictures.

Your boyfriend himself, is unfortunately one of her close friends, and you just found out two weeks ago. But you just didn’t mind. As long as he gives you love and affection like he usually does, you don’t mind.

But the thing is, Jaehyun somehow made an agreement that he will not be known as your boyfriend until he’s ready. And you agreed, you agreed to whatever he’d say. That’s how much you love him, but it somehow ended up you feeling like you’re just being one of the girls that went for his pants.

He always promises you that he will introduce you to everyone one day, but you have no high hopes. Jaehyun is a heartthrob, every girls except the nerds in college would fall into their knees if he looks at them in the eyes. So you just simply think if everybody knows that you’re in a relationship with the famous guy, you would be a dead meat. So staying lowkey was probably a good idea.

But not now. God, it hurts every time you hear them talking about how your boyfriend and that famous girl are good together. It hurts every time they would telling each other information about how they saw the allegedly enganged couple hang together in a cafe. You tried hard to believe that it’s not real, but you’re too afraid to ask him, scared that he will get mad at your trust-issues.

Well, it turns out that it’s true.

“What is this, Jae?” You handed him your phone as the screen shows a news of him, the famous businessman’s son, being engaged to another rich heir, Rosèanne Park.

He looks at it for a minute, and you swear you could see a little bit of horror in his eyes. “Answer me. Oh, do I not deserve an answer?”

“It’s not like that.” He massaged the bridge of his nose, looking frustrated. “So?”

“It’s true that my parents arranged me to date her, so that it will be beneficial for both our company and theirs. I didn’t agree, but I didn’t try hard enough yet.” He looks at you with indescribable look and you just frown in anxiety, starting to scared to lose him.

“No, you won’t lose me. I love you, kay?” As if he can read your mind, he answered nonchalantly, as if they were automatically out of his mouth to reassure you.

“Jaehyun, did you even tell them that you have a girlfriend?” “I did.” “And what did they say?”

“They didn’t care.”

His words stabbed you in the heart. They haven’t even met you yet.

“Your parents didn’t fancy the idea of us.” You uttered with an invisible frown.

“Don’t worry, okay? I’ll take care of this. Will you be strong for me?” He put his hand in yours and give it a tight squeeze, his sweet dimples slightly putting you at ease. You nod, without knowing what would happen in the future.

A week later, Jaehyun informed you that he will be hanging with her more often for clouts and that you don’t have to be jealous because it’s just nothing but something fake. But still, you worry.

Every walk to campus is heavy, as you would stare at him and her with a hint of sadness, unlike everyone who literally rooted for them. None of your friends know that you’re the secret girlfriend of Jung Jaehyun because you committed to him that you both won’t tell anyone about this relationship so your friends also talking about them really hurts you to the core.

And then come the most despicable event for you, the prom night. You simply hate it because the unnecessary euphoria of looking for hot dresses, or girls judging each other’s dress. But that doesn’t mean that you wouldn’t come, anyway.

You came with your friends, after being informed that your boyfriend will come with his alleged fiancée. It hurts, indeed, to see your loved one going with someone who’s not you. But what can you do anyway?

Hugged in a skimpy black dress, bought by the help of your reliable friends, you walked into the huge grand hotel hall with a fake smile.

“There you are, y/n. Looking like a snack!” One of your guy friends exclaimed in excitement, and you just spin around to flex your dress more for the fun and everyone laughed. Everything was fun and games and you forgot your pinch of heartbreak when you mingle with your friend, until a guy comes in your direction.

Nah, he’s not your Jaehyun. But this guy has been frankly declaring his feelings for you, and your friends know that. You can’t just accept him and date him because oh, someone wouldn’t like that obviously. “Hey. You look good tonight,” he smiled at you. You smiled back at him, regretting that his kindness will never get returned, as your feelings only belong to the one and only Jung Jaehyun.

“Thank you. You look nice as well.” Twenty minutes later, he ended up being by your side, getting you food and beverage, until you feel a hot stare directed to you from a distance.

You turn your shoulder to look at the source of the ambiguous vibe, and they turned out to be the pair of eyes you usually see at night. You smiled lightly before tilting your head in confusion when his flat expression didn’t change. ‘What’s wrong?’ You mouthed, and he immediately mouths back in response.

‘Follow me.’

You ended up being in the elevator to his hotel room after following him out of the grand hall.

“Having fun with that guy?” He broke the killing silence while keeping his hand in yours while you both almost reached the floor where his room belongs. “With who?”

“Acting innocent now are we?” You swear his smirk could kill your shaking body right away. “I don’t understand. That Eunwoo guy? He’s nobody.” Your pupils shake in nervousness when he turned at you. “Really? Then why did I find him putting his nasty hand around my girlfriend at the party?”

You rolled your eyes, “He didn’t know I have a boyfriend. Nobody knows.”

“Wow, didn’t know you acting bratty could tingle something in me like this.” He drags you closer by pulling his hands on your waist as you can smell his deadly cologne. “J-jaehyun,” you muttered.

“Your dress kinds of making my knees go weak, baby.” He murmured against your neck. You moan a little when he pressed a wet kiss into your sensitive skin but then the elevator door opened and unfortunately, no one was there.

Jaehyun keeps his body close to you as he pulls you into the second door in the hallway. “Come in, baby. I just want to spend some time alone with you,” he smiled as he takes off his coat and you gladly put your arms around his neck for a kiss.

After making himself half naked just in front of the bathroom door in the huge hotel suite, he drags you to the bed and you immediately squeal in excitement. Before he was able to feel your body more intimately, you asked him a quick question. “Jaehyun, are you having fun with her tonight?”

His face changed from lust into a frown, why would you ask something like this when he was just about to mark you his. “What are we getting at this time?”

“No, I just have to make sure that you’re still all mine tonight despite the amount of attention you both got from everyone.”

Jaehyun smiled slightly at the sound of your desperate phrases before giving your cheek a light kiss as he secures you beneath him, between his muscular arms. “Trust me, baby.”

He played with the end of your dress before confessing a warm and fuzzy sentence, “I’m all yours.”

After spending time on marking each other and giving each other the ultimate love you both thrive for, he spared a few minutes to cuddle you and feel you longer in his arms. He kisses your hair and his mouth continues to trail on your forehead and then your nose and goes to your lips. You giggle at the feeling and somehow the moment makes you feel loved even though you know that this utterly feels just like a dream.

“We have to make it before the announcement, though. I need to know who’s gonna be the king of prom.”

“Of course it’s gonna be you.” You smiled against his lips as he gives you a not-so-last kiss to end the magical moment. He helped you wear your dress before putting on his own outfit. You checked yourself in the mirror for the last time and he only glanced from a distance.

“Now I know Aphrodite is real.”

“And I’m glad you decided not to rip my dress apart, or ruin my make up.” You chuckled. He hugged you from behind, immediately giving your neck some kisses, before murmuring against your skin, “You’re so beautiful.”

“And the prom King of the night is... Jung Jaehyun!” The MC declared and everyone cheer for him loudly. “And we’re also, of course, going to have the prom Queen of the night which is... Rosèanne Park! What a perfect pair!”

Your eyes follow the steps of the crowned prom queen as she walks so gracefully to the stage, going excitedly to your boyfriend’s side. You can’t help but imagine if you’re the one up there, hand linked to him perfectly, everyone rooting for you both, and how he proudly has you by his side, and that bubble of imagination hurts you more than the things that you went through even though you were being intimate with him just about twenty minutes ago.

Eunwoo walked to your side, nudge your blank figure and you came back to earth. “Hm?”

“It’d be really nice if you were the prom queen,” he flashed you his gummy smile and you responded with a bitter smile. I think so too.

“And I’m the king.” He continued coyly. “Oh...” you muttered, not expecting him to actually say that but you can’t really blame him.

A week after the party, you keep reaching out for Jaehyun, but he’s always absent. His presence becomes a dream to you, which something that you think of at night to become a dream, so that you will meet him through the night. His face is everywhere, along with the pretty girl he was engaged with. It hurts, and it hurts even more when you can do nothing about it.

He sees you lesser and lesser every week, he doesn’t even look in your way, his focus stays on her. You want to be confused, but you still believe on everything he had said, that he will take care of this and probably, do something that you expect him to do.

But after becoming a silent for almost eight months of being his girlfriend, you’ve had enough. It almost feels like you’re nothing but a stranger to him. Was he that busy to even text you?

“Jaehyun, we need to talk.” He narrowed his eyes to you when everyone stare at you both, after you boldly approached him in public, gaining attention from everyone who was there. Rosèanne gave him a nod as she knew what’s going on, and leaves his side immediately to walk to her friends.

“What is it?” He gives you a cold look, probably mad because you talk to him out of the agreement, but you just don’t care. “Not here, somewhere private.”

So you ended up being at the back of the library of the campus as he pushed his hair back in frustration. “Why the fuck did you have to pull such a scene like that?! That’s fucking dangerous!”

“What’s dangerous, Jaehyun? I only approached you just like any other human being, not as your actual girlfriend if you forgot already.” He groans, “Yes! But not in front of Rosè and all those people! Are you mad? Did you forget our agreement?” And you laugh bitterly, “Oh, am I the mistress now?”

His face changed when you uttered the mattered fact. “I swear, y/n, that’s not the case.”

“Yes it is, Jaehyun. Unfortunately, I’m not her. I’m not someone who brings you benefits as much as she does. Hell, I can’t even compare myself to her. Don’t you think so, Jae?”

You don’t want it to be cliche by crying in front of him as you tried your best to hold the threatening tears to fall but you failed. You wiped them harshly before Jaehyun even tried to reach out his hand to do it for you. “Never ever I have, Jaehyun, to try to hurt you behind your back. I didn’t expect anything out of you, but at least please clear things up for me.”

Unexpectedly, he spilled his tears. He’s crying, and the sight broke your heart even more.

“Now, I only became the girl you fucked in the weekend, just like what everyone talked about.”

He shakes his head in denial, “No, baby. No, that’s just fucked up wrong. I.. I love you, okay. The night when I first met you, I feel it. I know that it’s fucking real when I want you. P-please.”

“But things change, right? I know you’re gonna do your best in everything, Jaehyun, even without me. That girl is the best choice for you. I’ll be fine on my own, and it’s okay if we can’t be just friends. That will help me to move on real quick.”

Jaehyun watched your back disappeared that day, and from that he never heard about you ever again. He’d watch with heavy heart when you’re around with your friends, even though his fiancée is also around. He regrets everything, but just like you can’t do anything, he’s pretty much the same. Maybe you both were not meant to be, or did he even put up a fight for you and the relationship? He didn’t, and he just realized that.

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Erik’s groomsmen are panicking because his fiancé is at the door when the room is full of strippers. Little did they know, Erik called her ass there for some pussy.

“Grab that nigga from the room and bring his ass out here!!!!”

Erik’s best man, Monty, yelled to one of the groomsmen to retrieve Erik from his bedroom. Walking up the stairs towards Erik’s master bedroom, his groomsmen takes a swig of liquor straight from the bottle before knocking on the double doors with gold handles leading to his fancy room.

“Yo, E, the strippers are here, bruh.”

They rounded up the best strippers in Cali. A popular stripe club called Heat was a favorite of theirs since they were in their early twenties. The type of strippers didn’t matter. They could be all shapes and sizes, all different shades of brown, but the most important thing was the tricks they did. All of them had to put on a good enough show if they expected some money from them. Erik’s boys had a few stripper poles put in place for the night and even went in for a bar tender and a personal DJ. Erik’s entire entertainment room was turned into stripper paradise.

“E?!!!!” The groomsmen yells, banging on the door. That was a mistake, the minute Erik opened the door, his hands were fisted into the man’s shirt, yanking him up like a damn doll.

“Fuck is you doing banging on my door like that?!!!!” Erik’s eyes were flaming and his lips were turned up in a snarl, eyes glaring down at this man who was a best friend of his. That Henny was like devils nectar whenever Erik drank it.

“Chill out!!! I’m just letting you know about the strippers!” Erik’s friend yanked away from him, “damn, tryna kill me, Killmonger?”

Erik adjusts his silk Versace shirt, all gold jewelry from his neck to his fingers gleaming. Stroking his dreads back, Erik walks back into the large room, grabbing his Hennessy bottle and cell phone.

“Don’t do that shit again, bruh. You know how I get.” Erik takes another sip. Wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, he smirks mischievously at his friend before gripping his shoulder.

“My bad, homie. I ain’t mean to scare you like that.”

Erik’s groomsmen kisses his teeth, jerking away from Erik, “man, whatever.”

Both men leave the room, heading downstairs towards the banger hip hop beat and howling from the horny men.

“Finally!!! Ladies!!! This is Mr. Bachelor himself!!!”

Erik stood at the top of the stairs, arms stretched out wide and a handsome grin on his face. The selection was a good one. Better than good...all they ass was THICK AS FUCK. One couldn’t move with out the other clashing cheeks. Titties all out, bouncing around like they were ready to be sucked on. G strings and crotch-less painties in all different colors.

“Y’all tryna get me in trouble with Y/N, I see what y’all niggas doing,” Erik jokes. The minute he stepped down into the room, two strippers flanked his sides while another steps forward, titties out and a tiny ass lime green thong on. Erik laughs, the stripper in front of him down in a squat now running her hands all over him. She popped her ass while looking him in the eyes, her hands becoming a little too comfortable as they ran over his crotch. Erik grips her wrist, tilting his head down at her with his nostrils flared. He shakes his finger back and forth in front of her face, her lips pouting out like a damn brat.

“That’s for my main bitch, my future wifey.” He looks from her and to the other women on his sides, “Behave if y’all want this fucking money.”

“You here that, it’s for wifey,” The deeply mocha skinned stripper says while sharing sneaky looks with the other two strippers.

“Behave?” One of them, a light skin chick with a mouth full of braces and two pig tails, “How are we supposed to behave when all we wanna do is popped this ass and pussy for you?” She ran her finger along Erik’s cheek, rubbing his dimples with her stiletto nail. Erik clenched his jaw, leaning away from her. This shit was going to be too much. If they kept it up with all this talk and throwing ass on him, like the stripper bitch with the lime green thong was doing, then he would have a hard dick.

Erik thought about his equally thick and more beautiful fiancé, Y/N. He hadn’t seen her in a few days since she was with her brides maids but she was still close enough if he needed her.

Baby, if you need me, I’m only a phone call away

That’s what she had told him on the phone earlier. She knew he would have strippers at his party, she probably had a few herself. Erik wasn’t tripping, that shit didn’t faze him because he knew and SHE KNEW what time it was.

I ain’t worried, ma, we know who that pussy belong to

“Shit,” Erik seated himself on one of his suede couches, watching his friends and future male in-laws go crazy over these half-naked women. Erik was indeed a man, he had eyes. He could see nothing but ass, pussy, and titties. And yes he was officially horny. A cute stripper chick with big doe eyes like his fiancé and long curly hair kept eyes on him while she twerked in front of some of his groomsmen. Her violet g-string held ones to hundreds resting in it, almost falling to the crack of her ass the way she moved. She had those pouty lips like Y/N too. Fuckkkkkk.

“Hi, Mr. Bachelor,” she flirtatiously says, lifting from her position to walk towards him. Erik clenched his jaw, liquor to his lips while this chick dips down low in front of him, popping her ass over his dick. Erik grunts, pulling out his wallet to make it rain on her graciously. She was throwing that shit back on him, a teasing smile on her cute face.

“Go head, touch me. She ain’t gotta know.”

Those challenging words. Erik glared at the young girl, slapping her ass hard as fuck with his stack of crisp hundreds and watching pure ecstasy crowd her face. Erik threw his head back then, his arms thrown over the back of the couch now while this chick decides to put her whole ass in his face. Erik’s friends cheer him on, all of them wishing they were him in that moment. Once she was finished, Erik gave her some more money, her fingers lingering on his chest. She had a look beyond tryna earn her money. She looked like she wanted him to risk it all. Erik wasn’t about to risk a fucking thing on a stripper.

She stands, walking away purposely slow with a sway of her thick caramel hips. Erik pulls out his phone, Y/N’s text thread up. Erik types away, his skin hot and sweaty from lust and dick so hard it felt like the crotch of his pants were about to rip.

Come here. Now.

That’s all he says while drinking his Henny. He couldn’t look around that room without ass being in his face. In his peripheral he could see money raining over a couple strippers who were grinding on eachother.

What’s wrong, Daddy? Everything okay?

She always thought the worse.

Nah. That’s why I need that ass here. now.

Daddy, I’ll be there in 20 minutes, okay?

Erik groans. He couldn’t stand being at his bachelor party with all this ass. He would have never imagined he would be craving his fiancé right now. He always craved her but the fact that strippers threw themselves at him it made him want her to throw her ass back on him. His lips and tongue itched to taste her pussy. His dick twitched to fuck her lights out.

Make it ten, you fucking hearing me?

🥺😩 okay.

Erik’s rage was at its peak. He didn’t feel like waiting.

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Y/N pulls up in front of their luxury home, turning off her car and stepping out into the warm California evening. She was dressed in a white velour track suit, Bride on the back of her form fitting velour hoodie spelled out with rhinestones. The velour skirt clung to her curves dangerously. At the door, keys in her other hand, Y/N opens the door, the loud commotion hitting her full force like a rush of wind.

Ass. Ass. ASS.

She smiles with a shake of her head at the way Erik’s male friends and and future family members gawked at these beautiful women. They acted like they’d never seen a woman in their life. As soon as she made it inside, one of her older cousins caught her eye, making a chain reaction of men look towards her with guilty looks.

“Y/N?!!” They looked hysterical.

“Hey Fellas,” she waves, hands on her hips and an accusatory look in her eyes.

“Girl why are you crashing your man’s bachelor party?! Hell wrong with you,” her older brother, Devin, was really heated about this. The strippers kept doing their thing, earning money and shaking ass. The DJ was mixing a good set too, the entire place lit up.

“Don’t worry about all that,” She says while holding her hand up in his face to shut him up, “where is my man?”

Her brother rolls his eyes, “at the fucking bar getting wasted.”

Y/N gives her brother a kiss on the cheek before walking away and to the bar. Y/N couldn’t keep her eyes off of the strippers either. None of this bothered her. She knows where Erik’s heart resides. Spotting her man looking delicious with his Versace on, white linen pants, Versace slides on his feet and all gold jewelry. He was knocking back shot after shot of Hennessy. Y/N’s knees almost buckled because she knew why she was here. Erik wanted some pussy and the sight of all these stripper women teasing him had him horny and insatiable like always.

“Better have a clear head for the brunch tomorrow, Daddy.”

Her soothing voice made him close his eyes in longing. Placing his shot glass on the counter, Erik turns to meet her big bright eyes, a not so innocent smirk on her pouty lips.

“I’ll be aight,” Erik looks his fiancé over, lips parted slightly, “You look so fucking good, baby.”

Y/N blushes, “and so do you...future husband.”

Biting his lip, Erik pulls Y/N close to him, placing his lips over hers and dominating. Their tongues danced slowly, wet soft lips smacking and Erik’s teeth biting her lower lip from time to time. Taking his thumb, Erik wipes spit from Y/N’s chin.

“You know what time it is, right?”

Y/N nods her head slowly with a bite of her lip.

“You gon’ give me that pussy, wifey?”

“What you think?” She looks Erik up and down, reaching over him to pick up one of his shots, “You ain’t even gotta ask me that, Erik. I’ll do whatever you tell me to do.”

His eyebrows shot up in surprise, “whatever I tell you?” Erik pulls Y/N close to him, grabbing her ass, “You bold, cuz if you do whatever I tell you I’ll have your ass cumming and crying.”

Their lips connected again, the passion more evident. The bar tender had to slip to the other side of the bar to keep it cool from watching them both. Erik rewards Y/N with two slaps to her ass.

“Get yo ass up stairs and pull out them toys you got from your bridal shower.” He whispers with seduction. Y/N chuckles softly before slipping away and up the stairs to their master bedroom. Now in the room, Y/N undresses, walking over to her closet to retrieve her stripper heels that Erik loved and the gift bag filled with vibrators and but plugs. She picked out a 5 inch butt plug colored black with ridges all over it. This was Erik’s favorite because he loved the way his dick fit in her pussy when it’s in her ass. He could feel all the ridges.

Opening her strawberry lube, Y/N puts lube in her ass, tossing the bottle on the bed for Erik to use. She arched her back on the bed, eyes looking up at the ceiling mirror to watch her ass bounce, lubed up ass whole and pussy glistening. She was a little tipsy herself. The Bachelorette party did involve male strippers but Y/N wasn’t impressed. None of them made her want to spend her money but she did play nice and accept a lap dance from the most popular one there. She gave him a few hundred before slipping away to play some drinking games with her girls.

Y/N thrusts her fingers into her pussy, stroking it with an erotic rhythm like she was listening to baby making music. Erik needed to hurry the fuck up and murder her pussy because if she kept this up she would be making herself cum not him. Turning her head to look at her reflection again, she jumps slightly from the sight of Erik standing in the door way with his shirt opened and eyes glazed over with lust. Erik slams both doors shut, the sound echoing down the hallway.

“Bitch, I didn’t tell you to play with that pussy I said get the toys ready, talking bout I’ll do whatever you say.”

His angry voice made Y/N smile. She pushed him further, rubbing her clit now. Erik storms over, grabbing hold of her wrist, stuffing her fingers in his mouth. Her sharp gasp made his dick jump in his linen pants.

“So fucking hard headed,” Erik claps both of her ass cheeks before sinking his fingers inside her pussy. He moves them around, rubbing her sweet spot and walls deliciously.

“Fuckkkkkkk,” Y/N looks back at Erik, eyes crossing. He was really digging in her pussy, Y/N’s legs shaking and juices running down her thighs.

“SHIT!” She could feel herself squirting. Every thrust Erik made had her squirting in long streams. The entire silk comforter was soaked.

“You squirting all over these fucking sheets!!!!”

Erik pulls his creamy fingers out, sucking on them while grabbing the butt plug and lube. Erik squeezes a generous amount onto the butt plug, his eyes watching the liquid drizzle over the ridges.

“Mmm, this about to have your ass cumming and squirting. I love this shit.”

The minute he pushed that plug inside, Y/N starts hollering. Erik toys with her, pulling the plug in and out making Y/N beg and plead like a damn baby.

“Damn that shit feels so good,” Y/N smiles, an occasional “ha” escaping her mouth while he fucked her tight hole. Erik left it there, watching as Y/N’s tight ass suffocated the toy.

“Damn,” Erik undresses behind Y/N, “tonight just might be the night I put a baby in you.”

She could feel his dick burrowing deeper and deeper. Her screams of pleasure had her face shining with tears and her voice hoarse. Erik fucked with quick succession, his hips drilling her like he wanted to break her tight walls. She couldn’t even move. His hands held her wrists and at that point Y/N didn’t have a choice but to lay there and take it.

“DAMN, this tight fucking pussy!! This my wifey tight little pussy, gripping daddy dick like you asking for a baby!!! What’s wrong witchu?! I will fill this shit up girl and keep my dick deep!!”

She clenched her pussy, causing him to grown.

“Oh, so you wanna play?” The threat was like venom.

Y/N could feel the pressure from the butt plugs ridges pushing down on Erik’s dick. The added sensation had her saying ooo and ahhh each time she felt it.

“Throw that ass back!!!”

Y/N starts meeting Erik’s strokes.

“Come on, Bride to be,” Erik slaps her ass, “Sexy ass! You listened when I told you to come here right? Like a good bitch...Daddy’s good BITCH!”

That was it. Y/N came hard. So hard she felt dizzy. So hard she felt like the retinas of her eyes were out of focus and she was loosing vision.

“FF-fuckkkkk,” she speaks into the now makeup stained pillow, “E-Erik,”

He just looks at her from the side, dick still deep in her guts. He was craving giving her back shots. All that other shit was just as amazing but something about fucking his fiancé in a home full of strippers, her face down and ass up was a huge turn on.

“You had me wishing you could pop this phat pussy on my dick,” She was zoned out, drooling on the silk sheets with her eyes low and trained on him like she was in some sort of neurological shock.

“Fuck my pussy,” she chokes out in a nasally tone, “Be good to me, fuck my pussy...fuck me daddy, yeah...my pussy.”

That damn butt plug was killing her. Y/N felt so full. She was about to explode again only this time it felt worse. Erik’s dick grew in size causing Y/N to tap out.

“Can’t go no more, huh?” She could feel him grabbing her hair, arching her body more. Her eyes looked up at that ceiling mirror, neck hyperextending, mouth wide open and eyes watering. Her hands fought to grab hold of the sheets but each and every time he would thrust into her she would loose balance. This man was demolished her pussy. Y/N could only respond with choked up cries and mumbling incoherent words.

“Got me over here fucking this pussy up girl.”

Erik damn near growled from the way she came on him again, her soul in his hands now. He loved this woman’s pussy so damn much. He loved her period. The fact that he was more turned on with fucking her instead of strippers is growth. He would have never been the type of nigga to tie down, but the moment he met Y/N, the shit was fate.

“Begging me to fuck this tight pussy now I’m about to buss a nut!!!”

“Daddy! Your cumming!” She was finally able to speak.

Shefelt his dick move like a rippling wave, warm cum feeling heavy inside her pussy. Erik kept up with slow delicious strokes because he wants to make sure he smeared all of that cum on her walls, and cervix.

“Watch you end up pregnant,” He grabs hold of her hair, pulling her to against his sweaty chest for yet another searing kiss.

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The One - Part 2

Characters - Dean, Sam, Reader, Nurse White, Derek Shepherd, Doctor Bailey. Word Count -  1106 Warnings - Medical Situations, Angst,  Summary - One phone call is all it took for Dean’s life to come crashing down. He thought he was over her? Think again. A/N -  

Part 1 - Masterlist

As Sam and Dean walked through the hospital doors the sounds and sights of medical emergencies assaulted them. A well-dressed couple who were both battered and bruised asked the nurse treating them about ‘the woman, the poor woman in the car’. Sam’s stomach dropped as he thought of you being the ‘poor woman’.

Sam soon took charge of the situation, grabbing Dean’s elbow pulling him towards a reception desk among all the carnage.

“Hi, my brother got a call from a Nurse White she’s on the Jane Doe case,” Sam informed the nurse as Dean stayed mute, his eyes darting around the room for any sign of you.

“She was here a minute ago, I’ll give her a call and let her know you’re here.” The young blonde smiled at Dean, on any other day Dean would have flirted his way into her bed.

“You must be Dean.” A short woman stood behind Sam.

“Actually, this is Dean, I’m his brother Sam.” He clarified as the nurse looked between the two of them.

“I’m sorry to call you here at such an early hour, just with her having no ID…” The nurse began to walk as she looked back at Sam and Dean. “Follow me. If you do know her it’s vital we get her medical information, such as allergies and medical history.” Nurse White continued to lead Sam and Dean past many trauma rooms before stopping at one with a dozen medical staff frantically working over the woman lying lifeless on the bed. Sam stayed by the door as Nurse White hurried into the room to assist.

Sam pulled his eyes from the woman to see Dean had moved further towards a window closer to a view of your face. Dean’s face lost all colour as Sam reached his side.

“Oh God, oh my God.” Sam’s eyes grew wide with fear for you, the woman who had flatlined multiple times, the woman being pumped full of drugs, the woman fighting so hard to stay alive. The only woman Dean ever loved.

Nurse White reappeared, her gaze following Dean’s. “I’m sorry you shouldn’t have seen that. She’s stable. You know her.” She stated taking in Dean’s colour and expression.

“She’s Y/N Y/L/N. She’s 29. No allergies and no health issues that we know of.” Sam spoke for Dean.

“Wait? Y/N Y/L/N?” She echoed.

“Yes.”

She took off at a run towards the reception desk leaving Sam and Dean alone in the corridor. Another Nurse showed up only to tell the boys to move to the waiting room down the hall.

10 minutes later Sam and Dean sipped on coffee a Doctor complete with white coat and stethoscope ran past them “Where is she? Why wasn’t I paged?” His voice booming through the halls before he slipped into the trauma room the boys had left 10 minutes prior.

Sam and Dean were hot on the concerned Doctor’s tail as they flew into the trauma room.

“You’re not supposed to be in here!” A Doctor began to usher them out of the room.

“NO! Is she okay? Is she going to be okay?” Dean questioned the Doctor forcing them from the room as he fought to stay. Dean’s question went unanswered as the focus was on you and the Doctor.

“Doctor Shepherd you can’t be on this case.” Another Doctor ordered Doctor Shepherd.

“You paged for a Neuro consult, Neuro’s here.” Doctor Shepherd barked back at the Doctor.

“Derek! Out! Now!.” A second Doctor shouted as he pointed to the door. “You two out too!” He pointed to a nurse and then to Sam and Dean. “Derek you’re not working for the rest of the day.”

All three men stood outside of the room. “Doctor, Is she going to be okay?” Sam asked as he watched Derek pace up and down the hall.

“Who are you?” He questioned bluntly.

“Old friends of Y/N’s, Sam and Dean.” Sam introduced as they both watched Derek get more nervous.

“I don’t know they won’t show me her head CT.” He growled in pure frustration as he walked away from Sam and Dean.

“You think this is it? What’s going to kill her? After years of hunting? All the near deaths and a damn car crash is what’s going to take her? She was out, normal.” Dean spoke as he slumped against the wall outside the trauma room.

“No, she’s going to be okay, she’s a fighter.” Sam half-heartedly reassured Dean. “Come on let’s go sit down.” Sam ushered as he attempted to pull Dean away from the wall and to his feet.

Sam and Dean sat in the waiting room, the table next to them littered with empty coffee cups.

“Sam? Dean?” Nurse White returned to the waiting room. “She’s stable, yet still unconscious. Would you like to see her?” She asked.

“Yes.” Dean practically lept up at the opportunity, he wasn’t sure if this was the coffee or the anticipation of seeing you.

They followed Nurse White as she lead them past the trauma rooms which housed you hours earlier. Eventually, they arrived at a room packed full of machines. Wires and tubes ran into every part of your body, a symphony of beeps filled the room.

“What happened in the crash?” Sam asked as he watched Dean sit in a chair close to you, Sam settled in the chair next to him.

“A drunk driver hit her head on, it caused a few more cars to hit her car and the drunk guys.” She informed.

“Where’s the driver?” Dean snarled not looking up at the nurse.

“Dead.” She responded bluntly.

“Will she be okay?” Sam asked moving the conversation away from Dean’s centre of anger.

“We have to wait right now.” She smiled as she left the room.

The machines and tubes keeping you alive didn’t bother Sam or Dean at all, Dean reached his hand out to touch your arm but stopped himself when he noticed the engagement ring sparkling on her hand.

“She really did get out.” Dean sighed as he rested his face in his palms.

Doctor Shepherd entered the room, pulling your file from the table and flicking through it. He sighed, a sigh of relief, Sam and Dean instantly relaxed a little.

“Are you her Doctor?” Sam questioned.

“Technically no.” Derek sighed as he settled into a chair on the other side of the bed to Sam and Dean. “I’m her Fiancé.” As the words left Derek’s lips Dean’s heart stopped, here he sat opposite the man he lost the love of his life to.

Part 3 

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[moonlit-mizukage]

Chapter ten: Is he not fucking dead?

Summary: Y/n and Tendou are deeply in love. Living on the other side of Tokyo now, the Monsters are still up to their old shit. They even opened a few businesses for Tax reasons. Even though it’s been almost three years later, Y/n still has never been able to understand how they have avoided the law several times. When Tendou’s Mother reappears in his life, Y/n is confused as Tendou claimed she is dead. Finding out Tendou is being forced to take over the family business by his Mother, she soon learns the truth behind Tendou’s reason he never gets in legal trouble is his family business. His mother is quick to decline Y/n as his future wife and tries to set up Tendou with someone she sees more fit. What will happen to Y/n and Tendou? What will happen to Tendou’s “family business”? What does this mean for the future of the Monsters?

TW: Swearing, mentions of kidnapping, traitor, mentions of past violence. mentions of future manipulation 

An> Sorry I am a mess mbvfhdvbsh I am uploading the last horror chapter from a week ago in a few hours and some more intros soon!! The links will all be fixed by tomorrow at 9pm est as well!! 

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Third person POV (Sugawara and Daichi side)

Arriving back at the headquarters of the north side's base, the two were greeted by the leader's right hand man.

“What the hell happened to you Daichi? You look like you got roughed up.” 

“The fucking monsters found out it was me who ordered the hit on Kenma.” Daichi said.

“What the fuck how?” The man asked in front of them. 

“I think Kenma did, Kageyama.” 

“Is he not fucking dead?” Kageyama slammed his fist into the wall. 

“Guess not. They have a pre-med student on their side so I can only guess he stitched them up.” 

“Fuck we need information and we need it now. With these new members they may actually pose a threat to us. Call Tanaka and Nishinoya and tell them to get the fuck back now. We need to have a group meeting.” With that kageyama stomped away. 

“You have to tell him about the informant Suga.” Daichi said. 

“I want to wait till we are in the meeting. He gave me a run down on the new 8 members besides himself.” 

The two called the others and headed into the main hall where they held their meetings. 

After everyone arrived but the boss and Kageyama, Sugawara looked around. A loud chatter could be heard as Kageyama slammed open the door. 

“Shut the fuck up!” He yelled as he sat down. Right behind him Hinata came into the room and slammed the door shut. 

“Boss you are back. Good to see you again.” Asahi spoke up. 

“How was brazil? Bang any hot chicks sir?” Tanaka asked. 

“Shut up. None of this is important right now. I had to come back early as you can see. The south side Yakuza has become too powerful and has a chance of wiping us out. As you can see I called only the people I trusted to come here only. It seems the leader is stepping down and her son is taking over. Sugawara and Daichi went to high school with a few of them so I want all the information you have on them. Nothing is too small.” 

“Sir, if I may.” Sugawara spoke up. Hinata nodded for him to know it was okay for him to continue. “I have gotten someone to switch over to our side from their close circle.” 

“How do we know they won’t fuck us over you idiot!” Kageyama yelled. 

“Well, I took something that is of importance to him, and he is the one who informed me about Kenma.” 

“So what did you take from him first off and how do you know something like this would even work?” 

“Easy, he already gave me a way to get the leader to crack AND how to go through with it. I took something precious to him, don’t worry about it okay?” Hinata chuckled. 

“You really are not that weak fuck I met two years ago are you?” He laughed again. “So what is your plan after all Sugawara?”

“Tendou is their new leader as we know. He’s the son of the current leader and also the one who was the leader back in high school as well. He runs a money laundering bike shop down on the corner of main street I guess. I found out he has only one week spot and we need to use that against him.” 

“Let me guess his mom?” Tanaka said clearly bored.

“No, it’s definitely not his mom. It’s his Fiancé, Y/n. I was supposed to take her on a date back in their last year of school but they hijacked my date.” 

“Okay but Y/n is dating Tendou, so it’s safe to assume she’s also a little crazy you know?” Asahi spoke up. 

“But that’s where Hinata comes in.” Hinata glared at him, “Sorry I mean boss comes in. He’s still quite new after the death of Ennoshita, may he rest in peace, but Boss has only been seen in Brazil and he does play a good role as a soft sweet guy often. Y/n works at a restaurant so we send Boss and Asahi in as they both play innocent roles almost too well. You befriend her, gain her trust, then we get Tendou to come get her for a price, but we kill her in front of him.” Sugawara said. 

Hinata stood up and walked over to the window to look out dramatically. 

“One day this city will be my kingdom. With police in my pocket over the south we already have a head start. Plus with Tendou’s weakness being put out on the line, well that’s another advantage point for us.” Hinata turned around now looking at the other six men around the room. Daichi, I will need you to find out every bit of information on Y/n as possible from the police system. Sugawara please find out when Y/n works and more specifically where. We start this sting operation in one month. We need to space it out so no one gets suspicious of why two kind strangers want to befriend a student at a random restaurant.” 

“Should I let the informant know our plan then?” Sugawara asked Hinata. 

“No, just in case he crosses us, we keep our side secret, we just want his cooperation right now anyways. If he finds out we are after Y/n and has been feeding us false information, then we will get caught before we start.” 

“He said Tendou’s mom doesn’t seem to fit on y/n being his fiancé.” Hinata gave him a sadistic smirk. 

“Well we can’t have that old hag interrupting our plans now can we?” He let out a deep laugh as Kageyama stood up and marched over to Sugawara. He grabbed his collar as it pulled him from his seat making the chair slam onto the cold floor.

“Who the fuck is your informant? Why are you not telling us?!” He spoke with poison dripping from his words.

“Hanamaki Takahiro.”

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[sprayingdrips]

Week 7: July 4 - July 10

Its 30 minutes passed midnight on a Monday and week 7 was a lot too.

I worked the entirety 4th of July the weekend plus more days. 

I watched more movies and am in the middle of watching Seven Pounds. But what’s crazy I started a 16 episode K-Drama, 16 hours total this drama has and still have not finished it. I like it but I think I figured what I don’t like about it. I think I have three or four episodes left.

The drama is called Abyss and regardless I do actually like it and will continue watching it. What it don’t like about it are typical things in all stories but its the way it’s played out. The male lead is creepy. Not the best way to put it but he’s on this weird crush land crash where he’s definitely been for a while but he got engaged. Not saying this scenario is not possible but it just... not executed well? Male lead always had a crush on the Prosecutor Go but Go introduced him to his now ex-fiancé. The flashbacks we get of him and the fiancé are that they are so in love but also I lowkey got a marrying for money vibe from her and was not mad about that. I think the way the break up was done was well thought out because it sounded suspicious because why would you say that stuff in that way especially if you were in it for the money. And being truly in it for the money, would me she would have the power to maybe manipulate him into getting plastic surgery because he is so in love with her. An ugly face does not stop the majority from chasing a bag. After all that shit that went down in episode 1 we get “ugly” to “handsome” male lead. And the reverse happens to the cocky female lead (Prosecutor Go) because she was cocky. 

Now there is only so many episodes but they are an hour long each. And as they try to solve crime and hide from a murderer (largely kinda bad at both). The male lead tries to kick it off with Prosecutor Go because his ex fiance is a cheater and liar and he still likes Go. (SHE DID WHAT SHE HAD TO DO. I DONT BLAME HER. ) Which is were the problem lies. A serial killer who is targeting nearly all of yall is on the lose and you still tryna kiss someone who said no. Like she did initiate the first one if I remember correctly but uh idk about continuing it like this. Its some weird forced thing and I just don’t see any chemistry. Maybe if GO’s character was created differently? We mostly get flashbacks about how cocky she is about her looks. I slightly don’t blame her but then it’s more of yeah i’d ignore a group of a bunch of men trying to ask me out everyday. Which makes me wonder how Go and the lead know each other? Like they show them in middle school? together and he knew about a math problem better than her but there’s no explanation to the separation from then to the other flashbacks. Like he’s in the group of men always following her trying to ask her out but then in one episode she's like “nooo i gave you the box of chocolates because I liked you duh. so obvious.” like it really ain’t and the scenario he said is really more believable that hers. The flashbacks line up to what he said. It’s not surprising that Go would get so many boxes of chocolate that she wouldn’t just pass them around for others to have.

Also the lead is..He’s just not smooth about and is so bad at reading the room when its a good idea to do it. Sometimes he does it in front of his ex and it gives off this weird trying to get back at you vibe when it just does not hit because his ex did all of that to protect herself and her mom from a crazy serial killer. Like the serial killer shows up near all of them and he only worries about Go like they’re both so into each other but they’re not. And he does that whole I’m a manly man I protect and it just does not fit him. 

I think most of my problem is that he’s moving on in the weirdest way. Like maybe if went out and partied first instead of having this my-fiance-dumped-me-i-tried-[redacted]-and-say-its-all-of-Go’s-fault-but-I-lived-and-now-im-super-handsome-let-me-try-to-get-back-with-my-fiance-because-something-was-off-about-that-call-and-she-said-she-was-pregs-oh-saw-her-get-hit-buy-a-truck-revived-oh-she-said-where-Go-was-located-and-almost-got-her-killed-im-mad-wtf-and-shes-not-pregs-:(-oh-she-did-all-of-that-bc-of-her-mom-i-guess-ill-help-but-fuck-her-i-still-like-Go??? Can this be a little more healthier please?

Anyways, the plan for this week is to legit stretch everyday. Blender donut or frog. Crochet more clouds. I forgot to mention I crocheted a cloud. I don’t know if I mentioned that last post but I did it on Wednesday during a zoom with my roommates and it was near the end. and make one more palette and post them. my orginal plan was five palettes and post but damn the dishes are still not over. also this collage video idea and more jobs applied to this week than last. Honestly turning in four in one day was a lot with the systems going on.

I have work later today and my first ASL 2 test (bruh already???)

[cremedelacremefanfic]

Crème de la Crème: 36

Ashton

“Y’all think these safe to eat? I ain’t tryna fuck up my whole trip because I decided to fuck with foreign beef?” Aaron thought it was funny but I was dead serious.

We were at this shack that was at the end of the beach. We had planned on meeting the rest of the guys later on but decided to get a bite to eat first.

Sean had already taken a bite of his empanada and was nodding his head. He gave me a thumbs up before taking another. That was all the confirmation I needed to risk it all.

“ASHTON!” My eyes widened at the sound of her voice before looking back to see Evie stomping her way over to where we sat.

“Damn Evie, don’t show out overseas, come on bruh,” Aaron said.

“You shut the hell up!” She hushed him “Kids Ashton? A fucking wedding in the winter time? When the hell did you become my damn fiancé and baby daddy?” She asked tapping her foot angrily.

Sean started choking and Aaron being Aaron couldn’t contain his fit of laughter.

I chuckled nervously, “What you talking about girl?” I asked scratching the back of my neck.

“Oh, so you didn’t tell that man that we have twins at home and that we’ve been together for five years with an upcoming wedding?” Again, she tapped her foot angrily.

“Well nigga, did you?” Sean questioned once he composed himself.

“Yeah, I said it.” I admitted, “But we ain’t come here for no overseas booty call.” I said with a slight attitude.

“Exactly!” Sean co-signed.

“Shit nigga, speak for yourself,” Aaron mumbled.

“Can y'all go?” Evie asked kissing her teeth.

“No, but y'all can get the fuck on with your fake ass marital issues, I paid for my food to sit at this damn table.”

Evie rolled her eyes before turning to look at Sean with an angry expression on her pretty face. “Shut the hell up, Sean,” She said, “You, meet me outside.” She said pointing at me before walking off

“Mhm, you done did it now.” Aaron shook his head.

I walked out of the restaurant towards Evie and looked at her evil ass. She was pacing back and forth as she waited for me. I stood behind her making her stop and look up at me with a frown. 

“Why the fuck would you lie like that? What the hell is wrong with you, huh?” She snapped almost immediately. 

“Why the fuck would you go mess around with a dude that I do business with? All the motherfuckas on this island and you fuck with him?” I questioned.

“Who cares, Ashton! You’re making a big deal out of nothing, you act like I was literally on the beach about have se- wait, why am I explaining myself to you? I don’t owe you anything just like you don’t owe me anything.”

“The hell you don’t.” I grabbed her arm, stopping her from walking away.

She yanked away from me. “I don’t! I could go have sex with Rick right damn now and it wouldn’t matter because of this ringless finger.” She held her left hand up and wiggled her ring finger. “This means I’m a single woman who can do whatever she pleases.” 

“What has that nigga done for you to want you to lay with him, huh? 

“What? And you think you’ve done something worthy of earning me, you haven’t done shit but run game on me since that night.” She snapped back at me.” I couldn’t help but chuckle. 

“You know what I think? I think you’re sabotaging us.”

“Excuse me?” 

“You don’t want us to fucking be great, all you give a fuck about is how I was fucking Adrienne butter face ass. I don’t give a fuc–”

“Nigga, fuck Adrienne! I don’t give a fuck about that bitch! This is about how you wanna play ya fuckin’ games with me. I’m a grown ass woman and I don’t have time for games. You’re used to women fawning over your arrogant ass.” She interjected.

“But, see I don’t do games. You fuckin’ lied to me when you said you weren’t fuckin’ Adrienne airhead ass.” She yelled out.

“I’m not fucking her! She sat on my fuckin’ lap but that was fuckin’ it, Evie. I ain’t fucked that girl since I been fuckin’ with you.”

“I don’t have time for this shit nor do I have time for your petty ass games! You want me? EARN ME! I’m not just another bitch you’re gonna fuck whenever you get horny.”

"Evie, what are you afraid of? Just tell me now so we both can stop playing these stupid little games.” I said.

I knew it had to be some reason why we keep having the same argument and I needed to nip it in the bud, shit was starting to get way too exhausting to deal with.

Had it been any other woman I wouldn’t have dealt with this bullshit and took it as a loss but Evie better be happy I have patience with her ass.

“W-What are you talking about? Just let me go, Ashton.” She tried pushing me off of her but I was letting up on my grip.

“No, let’s settle this now, you and I both know I don’t just want pussy. I don’t need to trick you out of your panties and you know that so what’s up?”

“Do I know that? Do I really fuckin’ believe that you don’t wanna get in my panties? Ashton, there are so many things wrong with our situationship.” She said.

“I’m trying to make it right Eve, on some real ass shit I wanna make the shit right. We’re supposed to be enjoying our vacation not arguing every fuckin’ five minutes! So tell me what the fuck is wrong!” I shouted.

“I don’t trust you!” She yelled “There I fucking said it! I don’t trust no man to be quite fucking honest. After the shit with…you know what forget it.” She turned quickly on her heels and began to walk away.

Quickly, I caught up with her and grabbed her arm and snatching her ass around to me. “The fuck you mean you don’t trust me?” I frowned. I was lowkey heated that she didn’t trust me. 

I wasn’t that much of a fucked up as a person. Despite all the shit we keep going through, I still considered Evie my best friend. Shit, she knew more about me than my own brother. 

I watched her as my once frowned face softened as I thought about all of our conversations and what would make her not wanna trust me. That’s when it hit me, I thought back to our conversations in Malibu. I knew exactly why she didn’t trust me, it was because of him.

“It’s because of him right? Is that what this is about Evie?” She sighed heavily as she looked off to the side to avoid eye contact with me. I stepped forward, closing the gap between us. I gripped her chin, turning her head so that she was looking at me. 

I tilted her head up and looked down into her pretty brown eyes. “It’s him right?” I questioned again. She closed her eyes slowly and nodded her head while biting down on her bottom lip. “Yes.” She whispered.

“What does he have to do with this huh? Why do I remind you of him?” 

“Because I feel like I’m not attractive nor do I feel like I’m fuckin’ good enough for you! There I fuckin’ said it.” She sneered as she tried backing up from me, but I kept her close to me. 

I stared down at her, taken completely aback by her words.

Evie

And there it was, pity. Not only did I see it, I felt it radiating off of him and I hated it.

"Eve… I-”

“No.” I silenced him. “Please don’t try to ease my mind with words you think I want to hear.”

“They would be the truth!”  He argued.

“I don’t believe you!” I cried. “Just let me go, Ashton.”

“Don’t do this, Evie, not now.” He pleaded.

“Please, let me go.” I said figuratively and literally.

His hand slipped from mine as he sighed “This isn’t over.”

Turning my back to him, I wiped my tears as I made my back to the beach where Rick was sitting watching the waves.

“You know, I work so much that I never get the time to come down here and admire the beauty of the waves.” He looked over at me and smiled making me smile back lightly “You work things out with you your fiancé?” He chuckled.

“Rick, I am so sorry. Those guys they’re-

"They’re protective of you, I figured that much the day we met but I would be a fool not to believe that there was some truth to his words”

My face went blank. “I do-I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“You really don’t know what I’m talking about mami?” His eyes found mine as he looked back to where Ashton and the boys were. I followed his eyes, Ashton sat at the table with Sean and Aaron and of course Ashton’s eyes were locked on me. 

“Look, whatever you two have going on, you have to figure it out. I can tell that there is something there between you two. A blind man can see that you two have feelings for each other.” Rick said, sincerely. 

“Rick, there is nothing between Ashton and I. He’s just my boss.” He chuckled lightly. 

“Stop being in denial, Evie. You like him and by the way that he is staring at you, he likes you too. You’re more than an employee to him.” I sighed heavily. “You’re a beautiful woman so I can understand why he feels for you. You’re smart, and sexy and let’s not forget you have a smile that’ll make a man go to war for you.” He leaned over and kissed my cheek. 

“You enjoy the rest of your trip, beautiful.” He stood up and wiped his pants off before walking away. I sighed heavily as I rolled my eyes at Ashton who still had his damn eyes on me. 

This was all his damn fault, I was not supposed to fall for this nigga at all. He’s not who I should be attracted to but here I am ready to give that nigga my all. He was no good for me but he was everything I wanted. 

Because of that fucked up man that raised me, I was running from every man I’ve ever encountered. I always felt as if I wasn’t good enough for them and destroyed every relationship I ever had before they even begun. It seemed like I wasn’t pretty enough and that my body wasn’t perfect enough just because of him. 

He was why I was like this because of the constant and severe verbal abuse I endured from him daily. Did I think that Ashton was like him? No. Did I think Ashton just wanted to fuck? Yes. 

“Want me to beat him up for you, sis?” I looked up at August and chuckled softly. “Rick is the least problems, August.” I sighed

“I wasn’t talking about him,” He said as he sat down beside me and motioned over to where the other guys were.

“Wha- you-, what?”

“We’re not stupid, Evie. We peep a lot of shit but we don’t say nothing to you guys but we know. Well, Sean doesn’t want to accept it.” He did a slight roll of his eyes and sighed.

“So y’all just clique up and talk behind our backs?” I questioned with a scoff

I couldn’t believe this, how many times they’ve smiled in my face and didn’t even hint that they knew about Ashton and me. I guess I didn’t have too much of a right to be mad because they were supposed to be my closest friends and I probably should have told them a long time ago

“I mean… yeah! It’s not like you or Ashton were telling us anything so we had to make an inference on our own and plus Aaron got a big mouth.”

“Of course!” I breathed out

“Evie, this is a dangerous game you’re playing, you sure you ready for that?”

“What do you mean?” I asked even though I already knew what he was hinting at.

“Ashton’s my boy and has been ever since college but he has his ways about him which I’m sure you’ve already seen. And on top of it, that’s your boss, babe,” he said

I nodded “I know and I…” I sighed “I’m not sure if I should even give into him.” I admitted.

“I didn’t say deny yourself of what you want, I’m saying be cautious.”

[cielizzydefencesquad]

A Matter of Affection (Chapter 132)

Honestly people bitching over Chapter 132’s panel where Lizzy got up and rushed over to see if real!Ciel was alright is RIDICULOUS. She’s what, 8 or 9 years old and she just wants to see if her cousin/fiancé is okay after being knocked down by THE Frances Midford (c’mon, a blow like that has GOT to hurt) and suddenly everyone thinks care and consideration are the two greatest sins a person could have. Oh god forbid Lizzy make sure her cousin isn’t injured after he got knocked on his ass and looked like he was gonna pass out after Frances gave him a verbal slap down. (And please bear in mind: RC wasn’t a little shit at this age yet so we are allowed to feel sympathy for this future basket-case.)  

But this ONE scene has suddenly got people claiming our!Ciel was abused, mistreated, and tormented by his family and relatives?? Like BRUH—you are extrapolating nonexistent and implausible data which 1) you should NEVER do in statistics or in life and 2) it makes you look like a biased, headstrong fanatic who is determined to smear the Phantomhive/Midford families. Just because Vincent commented that his second son was sickly does NOT mean he didn’t love OC. Just because Frances pointed out OC had a weak constitution does NOT mean she didn’t love her nephew. And Lizzy rushing to make sure RC was alright does NOT mean she didn’t care for OC. 

For the last flipping time—OC WAS LOVED. His parents were ready to cancel their boat trip because OC got a fever, remember? Does that sound like an abusive household where child services was desperately needed? NO. And did everyone just happen to forget what Lizzy was doing BEFORE RC was knocked flat on his ass? She was asking OC about his cold and wanting to know if he felt better. Lizzy is a considerate, cheerful, CARING girl by nature so OF COURSE she would want to make sure BOTH her cousins are happy, safe, and healthy.

And (I really must reiterate this again), the twins (plus Lizzy) were only 8 or 9 years old. I don’t think children that age are capable of declaring their undying, complex love and devotion for a person who they’ve basically grown up with and seen mainly as their cousin. To all the readers who believe that Lizzy “chose” RC over OC in this scene…Lizzy hasn’t even hit puberty yet, there is NO WAY she understands the nuances and intricacies of romantic love quite yet. She’s a fucking CHILD. In this scene, it was NOT Lizzy openly deciding to abuse and neglect OC, it was, quite simply, a little girl wanting to make sure her cousin wasn’t hurt after getting humiliated by Frances Midford née Phantomhive.

So please, I IMPLORE YOU, to please settle down and remember: this is a little girl who hasn’t even hit a double digit age number yet and all she’s doing is checking to make sure her cousin is okay.

Side note: please, please, please remember that this was the Victorian era. Children were given a greater degree of independence and expected to conduct themselves with all the maturity their station required of them. Because RC and OC were the sons of an earl, nephews to a marquess, and, on top of all this, members of the Phantomhive family, they were expected to behave with a certain amount of self-awareness. They weren’t going to be coddled forever and adults probably spoke to them like they would converse with other adults—which meant they didn’t hold back the truth (i.e. Diedrich’s comment towards OC that had half the fandom up in arms). Thus, with regard to differences in era and social class, we, as readers, must actively remind ourselves not to judge these characters based on our 21st century values.

Do some of these actions look outdated, patriarchal, and outright infuriating? Yes, they do—but the conditions of adolescence ran in accordance to the average lifespan of the Victorian era. A lifespan considerably shorter than our own. People graduated from universities at the age of 18, had children before they were 20, and probably died their mid to late 50s. Children were expected to grow up, learn fast, and uphold the honor and privilege of the family name. Just because OC isn’t coddled every other page doesn’t mean he was a neglected child whose boyhood was filled with emotional melancholy—it represents two key things:

1) That OC’s parents loved him and took the advice of doctors into account: no extraneous physical exercise for fear of triggering his asthma—hence why OC was kept indoors so often. Vincent and Rachel wanted OC to live. Would it really have been better for them to indulge OC’s whims, let him run around with his brother, and then have him suffer an asthma attack and die? I should think not.

2) They tried their hardest to include OC in whatever activities they did. Vincent took BOTH RC and OC with him to inspect the Phantomhive domain. RC explicitly told OC that he liked spending time with him. Lizzy was concerned over OC’s physical health and made sure to ask if he had recovered from his previous illness.

OC was loved. OC is still loved.

[paniccord-ff]

47.

Swallowing hard, I froze in the position feeling my erection leave me “what are you doing?” Rylee asked me while looking behind her, maybe if I keep going my dick will start to get hard again. Slowly going in and out but it was too late, my erection was gone. It was so gone that it slipped out of her “fuck” I said in a whisper, looking down at my now soft dick “really?” Rylee turned around falling onto her back “it is me isn’t it? I am just not attractive for you anymore” shaking my head “no, never that. It’s not that” Rylee’ lower lip quivered “please don’t cry” holding her arm but she snatched it away from me “fuck you, don’t touch me” she got up from the bed but kicked me right in my crotch “fuck!” falling onto the bed holding my dick “oh my god, why!?” I whined “to think I sucked your dick in my grandma’s house and then you wasn’t man enough to tell me you wasn’t turned on by me!” she spat, all I could feel is pain. Placing my face into the pillow screaming out “asshole” hearing the door slam shut.

Slowly pulling my sweatpants up, sitting down on the edge of the bed. My morning went from bad to worse, we had no Royalty so why not have sex, but my dick would not obey, it’s not even Rylee. It’s me, I just have so much on my mind but if I tell Rylee that then I might as well give away the whole damn surprise. I am not enjoying Barbados, shit is just too hectic for me and I don’t want to say anything. I will feel bad because this is her family’s home but I feel so enclosed, like I can’t go anywhere. People have been in and out of this home, I can’t even relax without pictures being taken. I want to be normal but I can’t, this place has never had a famous person here because they do not know how to act. My unhappiness is affecting my whole performance in bed and this is not good, I just want to go home.

I will now have to put up with Rylee, she will be angry with me but I need to see if Royalty is ok. I don’t want nobody to kidnap her, that is the last thing I need. Reaching the last step and just like clockwork, a house full of people. Turning the corner and seeing Royalty, I feel at peace now. Smiling at her, placing my hand on her head “silly butt” walking off into the kitchen area, walking by some lady “he is awake” she said, this is what I have to hear every morning, I know I am awake. Rylee is sat eating her breakfast “you want some?” Rose asked, shaking my head. I am just going to go out for a blunt, I need it. I have not had a blunt for breakfast in so long, I don’t want to go backwards but I feel it. There is nowhere you can hide here, seeing the gate on the other end of the back yard that leads to the beach, I guess that is where I will have my blunt.

Closing my eyes blowing out the smoke, that feels so good “Chris” I jumped at Harvey’ voice, squinting my eyes looking up at him “can I sit?” nodding my head “no need to put the blunt out, it’s ok” he sat down on the beach next to me “you don’t seem happy? A man with a thousand demons dragging you down, what’s wrong?” I shrugged “I appreciate you have a big family here, your side of family will be big but my side won’t be much at the wedding. Shit is embarrassing, hand on my heart I miss my mom but I love Rylee. I love your daughter so much, I just have a lot on my mind that I don’t feel I am me. I don’t appreciate being stared at, making me sing all the time. Shit is just not cool, I came here because Rylee wanted to come. I don’t want to offend anyone but I don’t want to be here, I want to just get married. You know what, I don’t even know what I want right now” looking over at Harvey, he stared at me not saying a word “you don’t want to marry my daughter?” licking my lips “I don’t know what I want” looking away from Harvey, he got up to go back inside but I hope I haven’t upset him.

I hope Mijo picks up his phone “you lucky I like you” he mumbled down the phone “I need to talk to you bro” I just feel life has been sucked out of me, I feel so enclosed and way out of my depth “I’m listening” sighing out “I want to run away from my shit man” rubbing the top of my head “you did this with Royalty, you can’t run away. Why do you want to run away? You have everything going for you” swallowing hard “I have these thoughts in my mind, I need to just go. I can’t be here, this is not me. I am just not built for this, the only person to know me is my mom and she knows it. She knows I don’t do normal” Mijo let out an oh “does she know you? Bruh, are you relapsing? What is it? If you run then you will be going back to that dark place again, don’t let your mind overrule your heart. Fight it, come on Chris. You need to fight this” I could just walk off right now “I’m having a son” I blurted out “oh wow, really? Congratulations, a mini you” I cringed at that “better than me, won’t be crazy as me anyways” I pray none of my kids have anything I have “so you want to walk away from your daughter, your son and your fiancé? I will not be the person you cry too because I told you so, nigga you will lose everything. You have so much happening and I think you are overwhelmed, just step back. Speak to Rylee” I snorted laughing “she is angry with me because my dick went limp” Mijo busted out laughing “you can’t fuck anyone when you feel like this, your woman is a ride or die nigga. Get speaking, don’t call me” he has a point.

I feel so high, morning blunts always fuck with my mind. Widening my eyes walking into the living area, as always it is so packed. Standing in the corner, leaning my back against the wall. I must have been out there for a while, everyone has eaten and I swear Rose was just starting to make food “what made you want my cousin Chris?” I have had this question so many times “me?” I pointed at myself “who else” her cousin said laughing Blake walked over to me “you’re so fucked right now nigga” Blake nudged me laughing “I’m not, I am really not. I just realised that life might be good” nodding my head smiling “how many did you have?” I shrugged “oh yeah, Rylee hated me I liked it. I think, where is the food though?” I got the munchies.

Watching Chris walk into the kitchen “I think we need to give Chris space, shall we go out” my dad said, what is even Chris’ problem to be doing this with my family here “come on, let’s leave them alone” he couldn’t even get his dick hard, like I did so much to get his dick hard but nothing “go and speak to Chris, go make him some food and speak to him” why is my dad telling me this, Chris can speak for himself “come on, everyone out” getting up from the couch “Royalty, stay here. Don’t take her” I rather I know she is safe with us “Blake did you give him weed?” he shrugged “he is a grown adult, you better go and get him before he hurts himself” I am so annoyed with him, Royalty held my hand “shall we go and help daddy make some food” he has been so weird this whole journey here, he has not been right at all and I am worried now.

Chris ate so much, he didn’t say anything to me besides going to sleep and then said thanks. Now he is asleep, I don’t understand what happened from LA to here. Did I do something, does my family know something that I don’t. I have cleaned the kitchen and now I am just waiting for him to wake up, Royalty and him both fell asleep. I feel like my family know something, does this make me a bad wife that I didn’t know this thing everyone knows, I don’t know. I am so confused now, sitting on the edge of the bed. Touching the side of Chris’ face watching him sleep, I know something is bothering him but he would say everything is fine but he has been so weird with everything. I want to make him feel better, I care about him so much. He is my little baby, I feel so sad now because I must have neglected him but everything is so stressful with a two-year-old around.

Is it weird that I have literally just watched him sleep, I am glad there is some movement from him now. Watching Chris rub his eyes, clearing his throat as he did “Chris” I said lightly “huh” he looked in shock “I want to speak to you, please come down. I have been waiting” getting up from the chair, I will let him gather himself. Making my way down the steps, looking down at my phone seeing Mark’ name. I wonder what he wants, answering the call “hello Mark” making my way to the couch “how is the new face of Burberry?” laughing a little “erm, I am fine. It’s weird but I’m great, how are you?” sitting down on the couch “great, just wondering what Chris is doing with what I have sent him? What do you think to the idea? Pregnancy photoshoot?” my eyes widened in confusion “uhm, he said nothing to me. What shoot? Who for? Who wants a fat mess like me?” is he stupid, Mark laughed aloud “fat mess? I think not, you are so beautiful pregnant. Well tell Chris to hurry up and speak soon” he disconnected the call “hey” Chris said, placing my phone down at the side of me, sitting back in the couch “hey” Chris sat down but away from me.

At least he is not high Chris anyways “I am hungry again” he sat down saying “I will make you some food soon but right now we need to talk, I feel like my family know something I don’t when I should be the one to know you Chris. I am hurting here, hurting to know that something is wrong. Everything seems so off, I ask you and you tell me you’re fine but clearly not so please Chris, please talk to me” if he says he is fine I think I will go crazy “I have just been thinking too much, I am trying to fight this” he mumbled “on your own? You’re not on your own Chris you have me, I told you this. All your life you had to fight this but now you don’t, I care, I want you. I want to be here for you Chris” Chris shuffled off the couch a little, sitting on the edge of the couch “this is meant to be a break away for you, you wanted to come here but I am ruining it” he rubbed his hands together “I did want to come here, come here with you but you’re unhappy and you’re not telling me why” he fell silent staring at his hands, I wish he would just tell me.

He rubbed the side of his head looking away from me shaking his head “I was thinking of running away, I wanted to run away. I don’t think I can do this, any of this. I am not built to be loved, to be a husband. For people to rely on me, you don’t deserve for me to be so bipolar that you don’t know my mood. I wanted to go because my mind wanted that” I felt my heart ache, to hear those words from him “I just felt like walking because I can’t deal” feeling my eyes well up “walk away from me? Is it me?” my voice broke “it’s not you, it’s me. It’s how I work, I run away from shit when I can’t deal. I just wanted to get away, I don’t feel I am me and I wanted to go. I am not running away from you but the situation, the words, the hurt, the feeling. I want it to just stop, I want to be happy but I don’t feel it. So many people just telling me things and I feel like my mind is going to explode if I hear someone say it’s Chris Brown, I know who I am and I hate it. You wanted to know so there is that, I am sorry I am not perfect” flicking the tear that fell.

Sniffling seeing that broken man again, the very same man I saw when she upset him on Christmas “I don’t want you perfect, I just got hurt to know you wanted to walk away from me. You just never speak, I cannot read your mind. I can see your body language had changed but that is it. I am or was annoyed about Vegas, and you still ain’t said anything. And then the whole sex thing really pushed me, but how am I supposed to know, I just felt worthless that was it, have you spoken to your mom? Chris, for you I will bite my tongue and have her around. See the difference with me and her is I will do it for you, if you want me to speak to her then I will” Chris shook his head “I just want to make shit right for you and your birthday, my mom is far gone but I am hurting. I am fighting this and I will soon, just give me time. I promise you Rylee, I promise you that I will love you so much, I just don’t want to disappoint you” shaking my head in disbelief “you don’t disappoint me, I just want you to talk to me. You being this way doesn’t put me off, people want me to give up on you but that would never happen. I am too in love with you” that is the truth “I love you too, I only got you now” smiling at Chris “and I want to make you happy, I want to help you when you are thinking such things. Like you said, I hated you but now I adore you” I don’t want to see him suffer.

Zipping the suitcase “what will your family think if we go?” Chris asked me “then I don’t care, you said you wanted to go so we are Chris. I do not want to see you sad, you mean more to me then what my grandma thinks. It’s too much for you, you have too much on your mind and you don’t need the headache. I understand you baby, it’s fine” Chris and I are staying in a hotel with Roro of course, I do not really care what anyone thinks because he comes first. I may have come here to get away from the mess but he is still thinking of it “pick the suitcase off for me” turning around “Royalty, have you got your things together?” I hope she has anyways “where are you both going?” hearing my grandma say “hotel, we need some space. I don’t care what you say, I need to go” I will eventually get more out of him when we are alone too.