#omg a non apex post?

[twistednelumbonucifera]

Found a funky looking bug 🦟

Idk what he is but I love him bc he looks like a mence to society. Def the bug to fly to you and have you screaming

[tinypandacakes]

how is your seggs life with your husband? i mean to say, do you guys do what you write in your fanfics? just wondering because i wanted to ask my bf but idk if people do it. much love, 🩷

Short answer: yes! it’s normal to want to try new things or roleplay (from fic or elsewhere) with the understanding that what you read in fic isn’t always safe or realistic. (Use it as inspiration but not a how-to guide) A good partner will not shame you for your interests or desires, but it’s also okay for them to have boundaries/squicks.

Nothing explicit below, but a long answer, a bit personal with some non-detailed post-pregnancy talk.

Prefacing this with: i have zero shame and talk about both fanfic and sex/kink etc as appropriate IRL, but I wasn’t always that way. I used to be really shy and embarrassed about it. Now I’ll yap to almost anyone lmao

Writing fanfic was actually what helped me reconnect with my husband and my own sexuality after having my first baby! I just felt so disconnected from my own body and just soooooo unsexy for the longest time due to general postpartum exhaustion and changes

My first fictional “crush” in forever was Bloodhound from Apex Legends (voice + mask kink hellooooo) and I started writing a story about them. I was super ashamed of it at first like OMG my husband will think I’m some horrible pervert or something XD he’s not into fanfic at all, and I hadn’t been for a long long time until I fell back into it in 2022

But anyway I told him about my story because it was becoming a big hobby of mine and was important to me. I didn’t want to hide anything from my spouse, especially not something that brought me joy! he was totally all for me getting into a hobby and us exploring topics/kinks and trying different scenarios as a couple. It’s been really lovely! (And bonus for him was that my sex drive shot through the roof cause of thinking/writing about sex and kink pretty often)

I think most (good) partners would be happy to explore things that interest you as long as it doesn’t cross any boundaries for them.

I did talk to my husband abt the fact that fic and what I want IRL sometimes intersect but don’t always (some things are hot in fiction to me but a huge nope in real life) so communication has always been key. Some things in fic are not safe or possible — fanfic can be inspiration but isn’t a how-to manual. Sometimes we found out that something we tried wasn’t for us, and that’s okay, too. Some things are just hotter in fiction.

But overall, fic has been amazing for our relationship!

[ultramaga]

It's trivial to see that women don't see all men as beautiful - if anything, psych studies show nearly the opposite, with only a few men regarded as acceptable - the few at the apex. At least, the younger generation and the westerners only - everyone else is getting married and having kids. Feminism - Leftism is ultimately self-defeating because it sabotages the reproduction of members of its own culture, and encourages those who are violently opposed to come over en masse. But imagine if feminists were honest, and they genuinely believed that women were universally beautiful.

All you would have is universal meh. "Mid" exists for a reason. If everyone was actually the same level of attractiveness, there would be no excitement about the beautiful. We adore them BECAUSE they are rare, and because beauty is brief.

The reason Hollywood actresses get paid so much is NOT because they are great at acting - if they are, they can work on stage, and very few can -- no, the reason is because they are beautiful, and for a few hours and the price of a ticket, you can look at someone you will never have, and imagine yourself with them. Women do it too, but the males they fantasise about have to have a ton of other factors, like physical strength, violence, wealth, social status ... Men do not give a shit about all of that. It's very easy to cater to them. Be beautiful. If you can't, and most women can't, then look at having a great personality, being fun to be with, but because feminists are genuinely awful, they can't manage that either. Feminists, mostly, are man-hating heterosexuals who want the dirty hard boys that they despise and worship. Look at Emma Watson, travelling the Earth for cock. What does she select?

Wealth, height, strength, good looking; maybe a few signifiers that he is submissive to Leftism but otherwise can be dominant with her.

Emma burns through them at an incredible rate, never settling down, never having a family, her biological clock whirring and letting out smoke. And she's showing her age, now, maybe because she's a vegan, maybe she does a lot of coke, but she looks older than she is.

Without makeup and filters, she looks forty. Fifty is not far away. She looks ... mid. If she wasn't a child star with decades of makeup and dressing by professionals, I don't think she'd ever get a gig as an actress now. Her looks are wilting. They weren't going to last forever. She's nearly done. And that's the thing about Feminists. They all see themselves as a ten, and men as worthless scummmm - except for the few they obsessively thirst about. It's funny to see the same misandrous feminists here will post KILL ALL MEN and then OMG I WANT THIS CELEB TO DESTROY MY PUSSY AND MY ASS. They aren't self-aware. There are turnips with more consciousness.

So for the non-feminists, here's some advice.

Beauty fades. It's important, sure, but it's not going to last. But shared experiences, terrific adventures, old photographs - those are the things that make for long term marriages, and the frantic lust of youth is replaced by a mature contentment. I knew a couple who met late in life. Their partners had died, and he knew he only had so much time. So they did things, sometimes little things. He would help pay for things she couldn't afford on her pension, she would make him breakfast once per week. Just a humble bacon and eggs on toast, with a cup of tea. And it made them happy. He felt useful, she felt appreciated. And when he died, she mourned him bitterly. Because there's not enough time, not ever. Feminists burn away all the time they have, screeching with rage that men should have made it all better, but doing nothing to help others. And when they die, no-one will mourn them. They don't have deep relationships, they alienate their own families, and they despise children. Don't be like them.

Go out and find someone to share a life with.

meninist

[esximo]

I was tagged by @green--tea--rex

Thank you for the tag!! (and for the opportunity to procrastinate for a bit) ^^

Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better!

A - AGE: 21

B - BIRTHPLACE: Gold Coast, QLD

C - CURRENT TIME: 1:24pm

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAS: Water coz im boring but trying to stay hydrated

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: honestly my dog, does she count? (imma keep ur answer coz honestly same)

F - FAVOURITE SONG: Dont do this to me omg ummm... idkkk ‘What’s Up’ by 4 Non Blondes coz it’s stuck in my head rn???

G - GROSSEST MEMORY: A time that involved a lot of thowing up.. I drank way too much vodka and cider and got fuckt up. Probably the most i’ve ever vomited in my whole life tbh and I’ve hated vodka ever since lmao

H - HORROR YES OR NO: Oh hell yEAH.

I - IN LOVE: I feel too dead to think about it. I just want to go back to bed and take a nap.. maybe im in love w/ my bed or sleep or both :0

J - JEALOUS OF PEOPLE: sometimes

K - KILLED SOMEONE: IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I SWEAR (but no i haven’t)

L - LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR SHOULD I WALK AGAIN: what (keeping ur answer here again coz yeah what)

M - MIDDLE NAME: Skye

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: an older brother and an older sister

O - ONE WISH: to have many more wishes :)

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My ma

Q - QUESTION YOU ARE ALWAYS ASKED: usually how old i am. Either that or someone asking about a scar? idk

R - REASON TO SMILE: puppies exist and flowers are beautiful

S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: Absolutely Everybody - by Vanessa Amorosi

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 5:30am coz i wanted to start studying early. It was a mistake

U - UNDERWEAR COLOUR: um odd question but okay black and purple

V - VACATION DESTINATION: well hopefully going to the Gold Coast during my break. Or are is the question for my ideal vacay destination? Coz that would be either europe or japan

W - WORST HABIT: idkkk i have many habits... maybe picking at my nails is the worst one?? or biting my lip / chewing the inside of my cheek when im anxious, stressed, or nervous???? though Im getting a little better at not doing that a lot..

X - X-RAYS: I think my ankle/foot? I can’t really remember.. maybe i didnt get one but i swear I have tho

Y - YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD: Omg no fuck favourites man I have too many! Hot chips + gravy, pizza, pasta, lasagna, fish & chips, mashed potatoes/hashbrowns/potato gems (basically anything potato)

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: LEO

I tag these cool humans:

@dontsaythe-j-word @aesthra @binch-sup @katie-apex @tremoro @thecommunistavenger @skyeria @princess-commander-hollstein @spionkopite @markspit

I’m too tired to tag the rest of the 20.. And obvs u don’t need to do this, like no pressure at all! ^^

[sleepymarmot]

MEA liveblog #7

Spoilers!

Multiplayer

This interface is a mess. I move my mouse onto "exit lobby" and it turns into "kick player". Buttons just jump around and transform all the time.

And the APEX mission shit needs to be fixed. When you select a mission to play, don't direct me to lobbies who play the same enemy/map/difficulty but not as the mission! Join lobby, see "custom", exit lobby, select "custom game", re-select mission, join, end up in the same lobby, rinse, repeat...

At least I can end up second when I join on wave 5 as a human vanguard lol

F Human Vanguard card!

Tempest

Non-custom weapons of different rank shouldn't exist as separate items in the inventory! Unlocking a higher rank should upgrade the old item like in ME3! This stupid inventory system exists solely because of crafting! If you need inventory limits so much, let them apply only to the crafted items! I've already complained about rewards being lost with no warning if the inventory is full and it's still bullshit! 

I crafted the N7 chestpiece! 25% shield on kill (of course), 5% damage resistance, 2% shield restoration, 2% health&shield regen speed, 2% max shield. I called it "N7 Slayer X". And turns out, it was dad's armor...

Oh right, it needs a new color scheme!

Havarl

I like this ex-STG, he's talking properly.

I don't like the sound effect from Annihilation -- it's like water in my ears!

Hey Peebs, how do you immediately know where the next piece is as soon as we pick the current one?

Kadara

Here's the bar fight. Animation is not bad but has no energy.

Told the asari dancer that I'm done here and she needs to talk to the dude herself, but the quest still sends me back to him -_-

Tempest

So, Kesh was adopted?

Okay, Kalinda is 100% Marjolaine. Peebee's personal storyline is even more copy-pasted from Leliana than Drack's is copypasted from Wrex.

Aya

So many sidequests again!

The Moshae's words about the definition of victory! That's the smartest thing I've heard in this game in hours.

It's really weird to hear her talk so sweetly to me... When we first met she didn’t seem to like me.

When Vetra said people were staring at her, I couldn't resist suggesting they're just all in love...

I suggested taking people who sold their Aya slots onto the Nexus. That's not even charity -- the same ambassador gave me a task to convince angara to come there anyway! So this would kill two birds with one stone.

For the visitor who wanted contact with his family, I had to reload. The options didn't even seem too different... Got it right for the other two: gave an honest professional answer about health issues, and a confident casual answer about finding work.

Great, now I have to head back into the city to buy stuff... This is literally a fetch quest lol

Eos

Omg, the Architect is in orbit now!

The Roekaar fight in an old settlement was very chaotic and fun with Flamethrower/ED/Lance, though it'd probably be easier to just charge

Tempest

Aaaand Jaal gives me his loyalty mission. It's funny that I'm going to do my own love interest's mission last...

Jaal's LM

I continue to be unimpressed with the Roekaar being pure antagonists. :/

Didn't shoot the guy, told Jaal he was badass.

Why are loyalty missions so short?

BTW Ryder just looks wrong in N7 armor... She's not Shepard, that's not her allegiance or her story.

Tempest

Jaal, just as we're leaving Havarl you decided to invite me for a visit down there?

Turian ark

Avitus has very stylish armor

For fuck's sake, Bioware, why do you hate gay men so much?

I convinced Avitus to take the mantle. It was a very sentimental decision for Ryder -- because her situation is very similar. Her SAM and the connection he had with her father are unique, but she didn't think of that in that moment.

Nexus

"Better to find your wings as you fly" Easy for you to say, Sarissa, your predecessor wasn't a loved one

Tempest

I'd agree with Peebee about relationship and baggage, but of course I felt obligated to take the romantic option

(I don’t think there’s an option to agree with her, though, so it’s only for the best)

Voeld

Liam, Vetra, don't fight!

Whoops, sorry for leaving you to die in the purification field, Vetra

...I liked the old color scheme better. Green light looks more alien, but less pretty.

Nexus

Final memory -- here we go!

My theory was that the Archon was somehow Ellen, but that made so little sense I didn't even write it down :D This is simpler.

BTW there's finally Shepard's gender we had to select in the beginning -- in translated subtitles :D Didn't hear it even once in the audio -- could it be Bioware actually took their foreign audience into consideration? :O

Honestly, it's weird that the Reapers info is so secret... From the OT I got the impression that Shepard was yelling about it to everyone at every opportunity...

Fine, fine, you made me emotional with Liara's message.

Shit, I was expecting this decision...

I feel pretty sad now. That's all?

Peebee's LM

Oh, so that's why she lives in an escape pod :D I thought this was only a characterization thing, not a Chekhov's gun!

I said I wasn't mad, though I was a bit. But I mean Ryder *is* mad but also having the time of her life so...

Shit I just shot Kalinda instinctively lmao

Ok I replayed the entire sequence and Idk. This is really the hardest choice in the game...

I'm tempted to say "Yes, literally" :D

Since it's so hard to reaload, it's fair game to watch videos before deciding for myself. Okay, "Yes, literally" is way too harsh.

Alright, this Ryder is not going to make Peebee sad, but I've already planned a Renegade-ish playthrough with a Ryder who values knowledge over everything, so... :D

(Btw, I love that MEA's brand of a more ruthless protagonist is not "uncontrollable brute" but "intellectual snob". As tedious as this game is, I'm already super eager to play character who has those values & takes urgency of tasks seriously.)

This mission is enjoyable and the choice feels maybe the most meaningful... But it has all the classic Mass Effect problems. Kalinda sends a shitload of people to murder us, we murder them, but when she's helpless and we have a finger on the trigger all of that suddenly doesn't matter. Sidonis all over again. Sure, murdering people begging for help is bad in a lot of ways, but she did just try to kill us, a lot of times... Plus, why the fuck can't Ryder jump over and catch the Remnant thing?! That needed to be a second, Paragon interrupt after the Renegade "shoot her." And Ryder is a goddamn biotic, as is Peebee, as is Kalinda! Peebee, Pull is your first goddamn skill! It'd actually be completely plausible if the artifact had shields and/or armor and therefore immune to Pull or Singularity -- but not giving the characters even an idea to try is just stupid!

Tempest

Inviting Peebee to live with together made me revisit my room and inspired me to make some changes. You know what, I'm going to play music in my quarters and change into the short-sleeved pajamas. It's my own ship, why do I walk around it in street clothes? The jacket is stylish but too much to wear at home. I wish we had a "formal" outift for Nexus/Aya/other hubs in addition to the "casual" clothes we wear on the ship.

Shit I went to read someone's post about Peebee's LM and caught a spoilers about the romance post-LM

Addison is right, getting pregnant in that situation was irresponsible

Ah the continuity in this game. "Found more outposts"? I have every possible outpost and all planets at 100%!

"On hold: Place an outpost" bitch where

Voeld

What, there's still a cold hazard?! What was the point of the vault, then?!

Whoa, so the angara believe exaltation not just kills their people but destroys their immortal souls? Wow! That should have been said by a major character during the main story, not by an easily missed NPC!

Oh great, I died and the game refuses to load the last autosave

Dear game. Why did you create four autosaves for the same second. All glitched. Half hour of gameplay lost... God please let the last manual save work. I was sure I saved in between, but just now my PC decided that we still have daylight savings clock change when we do not, and the timestamps on all recent saves are messed up. This especially sucks because I'm trying to rush Peebee's romance because I don't know when the sex scene comes up but I want to make sure it's not when my mom is home while I play it on her PC lol

Tempest

Fuck, that was cute! And Peebee did tackle Ryder, as promised! :D I wonder what she says through Zap in the platonic version...

Addison please don't say the baby screams "like a banshee". I fucking jumped.

"Before you say anything: no PDAs" :D

Level 50! Time to craft myself a powerful new Dhan. I've been running with rank three all this time...

I love that whenever you ask about Kalinda and then return to the general dialogue tree you say "Let's talk about something else" and Peebee responds "YES. Please."

Voeld

Alright, so: the kett leaders are dissatisfied with the Archon because he hasn't reported to them recently, the communication with the kett homeworld(?) might be disrupted in general and the Scourge might be to blame.

Tempest

Damn, SAM has a pretty insightful speech about death! The only thing that can't be rationalized after experiencing it, which is why it fascinates. I actually haven't heard it explained this way before.

My movie night quest hasn't progressed since I brought Jaal his device...

Eos

Ryder watching and playing football with two giant guns floating near her hips... omg

Elaaden/Kadara

What? I'm completely confused by all these identical salarians.

I don't understand this choice. He promises to give us the intel if we let him go... what proof do we have besides his word? And how would arresting him stop us from getting intel from his computer etc?

Reloaded to see both options, chose to arrest him

Havarl

I'm not hugging Jaal's mother wtf

Ryder has surprisingly good facial animation when Jaal shows his mementos

In theory Ryder should like Jaal for being such a nerd but the only thing he makes me feel is mild irritation. His interest in "taking things apart" is an informed quality just like his supposed emotional openness. It's not reflected in his dialogue or storyline at all.

And now I'm finished with all quests in the ally category. I wanted to finish the game asap, but now that we know the patch is coming on Thursday, I'll wait for it.

Multiplayer

Extracted from Silver for the first time as Human Vanguard (level 8, rank IV)! It was against Remnant, so Observers and Destroyers were the only problem. Nullifiers are ridiculously easy for a melee character -- like Ravagers, but without acid.

Got Krogan Vanguard from a pack. Will I have to tolerate the Rage overlay?

The first game with Kroguard was going well, he's got a stong melee even though he's slow... and then wave 6/upload/Kett killed us all :(

Completely unrelated to anything, but I just realized that if you pick the romantic option in the escape pod with Peebee, they don't actually have sex. Call me stupid because that's what Peebee's initial condition is, but I thought Ryder's response changed her mind! When Ryder said "Let's not rush things" I interpreted and meant it in the emotional sense, as "It'd be dishonest to hide that I have a crush on you, but you don't owe me anything, and if you don't ready for a Serious Relationship and Grand Romance yet that's fine because I'm not either, so let's just hook up and leave reflection for later" -- which I thought was pretty sweet and interesting? Because this whole relationship to me was built on the fascinating contrast between Peebee's emotional reservations and casual/flirty attitude, and conversely, on Ryder very consciously respecting Peebee's emotional space. Maybe I just fundamentally don't understand sex and romance lmao. But if character A propositions character B, character B says they have feelings for character A, and the scene promptly fades to black, I assume they do the do because that's how these things are filmed? Only in comparison with the other option, which is actually pretty explicit, it became obvious to me that's not what the director meant. I'm pretty disappointed because I thought it was a good subversion of Jack's "either sex or romance" thing in ME2. And it messes with my headcanon/characterization... I guess I'll have to retcon it into one of the two options. I'll probably go with casual, not romantic in that case. But I just read that Peebee will tell you she's glad you said no, so... :/

Multiplayer

Failed a Silver APEX mission agains the Remnant as a human vanguard :(

Got an asari sentinel!

The patch is here, but I can't launch the game now :( This needs some work.

Ugh, I stop playing for two days and have no motivation to pick the game up again...

[sheikahwarriork]

OMG i love your LGBT+ headcanons so much!!!! especially non-binary edelgard, you're so right she fucks a lot with gender! i like also trans!dimitri and transmasc aroace ingrid bc you're right about both of them (dimitri and mercedes supports..... im gonna cry). i think ingrid is just too focused on chivalry to question herself about gender xD

omg a edelthea lover hi!!!! three hopes made me fall in love with monica, but edelthea is a very solid ship which i love as well (i dont remember if i've already told you this :O)

as for the best maps, i agree with you about the battle of the eagle and lion (and the post-time skip version as well), and AM final map!! CF final map is cool too but i cry bc my beloved fhirdiad is in flames çwç and i also like lonato's map a lot tbh. but AM final map is just the best imo. also apex of the world!!!! i love that track SO MUCH. and "a promise"!!!!! i listen to it whenever i feel anxious, it's just so comforting for me. i also go nuts for between earth and heaven, and i love the parallels with the two gronder maps, with blue sky and a battle for the pre ts battle and between earth and heaven for the war, they didnt have to go so hard but THEY DID and i love them for that u.u

my fav class is dark flier, i always make ingrid and annette that class!! but it's dlc, so i'll also say gremory. (and dimitri's unique class- i love it grrr)

yes i love baldur's gate!!!! i only played the 3, but i'm a DnD fan and player since some time, and i really enjoyed it. omg we have so much things in common <3 what's your fav character? mine is karlach!

as for my modern!au fic, i'm very flattered you're so interested!!!! can i DM you about it? (it's not like i dont want to talk about it in public per se, it's just i'm still working on a few plot points so i dont want to "say" things and then end up changing them T_T)

Aww thanks you!! Now I can follow you too, because I'm sorry I tend to be really shy when I use anon ^^"

- Reincarnation AU? I can't wait to see how you're going to deal with the concept :] And it's lovely you included Mercedes/Byleth and Ashe/Dedue friendship. Also, ohhh Angst! I admit I looove hurt/comfort-

- You're right, I've never heard of it ( and I know ship like Kronya/Ignatz! ), but it could be so interesting :0 The enemy to lover, the whole confrontation between Nabateans and Agarthans, and their very particular situation- Also very funny, I'm sure they would bicker a lot :] Also, what do you like about Flayn and Shez? And I've heard of Marianne/Ashe before but it's definitely a rarepair, though a really sweet one. Very uderstandable with Dimileth, respect for sticking with your OTP!!

- I've never heard of Annette with Marianne and Bernadetta! I admit I really love developing platonic relationship and this one sounds so nice :] And to be honest I was kinda excepting the Faerghus four x)

- The Black Eagles girls!! ( With Shamir and Thyrus- ) I'm really happy to hear you like them!

- That's good because I love LGBT headcanons >:] Asexual spectrum Byleth is the finest, especially demi! 

To be fair there's not a single Blue Lions that doesn't have homoromantic subtext in some way- Dedue with Dimitri and Ashe, Annette with Mercedes, all the coding with Ingrid, and I don't think I even need to mention anything for Felix because his ending are some of the most obvious in the whole game. Sylvain is not even just in subtext anymore!! 

As for Sothis there's no way she care about gender anyway- And transfem Arval :0 I really like the story behind the headcanon!

And I'd love to share my thoughts and headcanons!! Though to warnw you I'm very invested in them and I tend to rant :') I have a lot too, is there any specific subject you like?

yayy new friend :3 btw sorry for the late reply, i was busy and then got sick these past days cwc

- yes i have few rarepairs but theyre very weird i know xD i like to think sothisxarval would tease each other all the time, also enemies to lovers!! about flayn and shez, i dont have much ships with shez bc i see them much more as aroace, but flayn's supports with f!shez are very funny and i like to think how seteth would react when hearing the two are dating! his brain first goes "thank the goddess my little daughter sister is not dating an ugly and insolent man" then he realizes flayn is getting laid anyway. eheh

- about annette with marianne and bernie: the idea was born when i first wrote the modern!au, because even if the blue lions are my fav characters, i wanted bernadetta and marianne to be there too since i love them so much!! so in my modern!au, they are all in the gardening club at school, and annie became friends with them bc theyre both shy but also sweet, and annette thought "i want to be friends with them!! they deserve to be happy so i want to see them smile!!!!" (in my au, mercedes and annette havent met yet at the beginning of the story). this is how the "chaotic singer becoming friend with depressed sweetheart and anxious writer" idea was born xD

but enough with my rambling lmao, it's your turn now! 👀 (as you said to me, feel free to respond whenever you can and to whatever you want! also do you prefer my questions to be in your inbox? if so i'll re-write them as an ask to you!)

1) i imagine edelgard is your favourite lord, but which route do you prefer the most?

2) your fav house and characters?

3) what are your OTPs in the game? and rarepairs?

4) i'd like to hear your LGTBQ+ headcanons too!

5) what is your favourite map in the game? and the best class?

6) best track in the game in your opinion?

(i'm having so much fun, thank you!!! <3)