#okay yes anyways. with this; gnight

[lavenoon]

Let's have some direct consequences, why don't we, @naffeclipse?

*self insert is not a girl (he/ she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

[kowaindar0u]

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I will try and get to more replies this weekenddddd I'm like replying to them in my mind, with my imagination, but writing ? apparently i don't know her much lately lol

i literally like...thought out Yuichi's reply in the newest yusone thread, like daydreaming (or...5am pre-sleep-dreaming) abt them I guess , and then I open my eyes and I'm like ...oh...typing it ..? too hard... LOL

[msm-tsotmw]

4/28/20XX

So we’re back in the ocean… again. Mauna’s been telling stories about the Dawn of Fire to Toorie and Mondo to keep them from boredom, and I’m just reading my book. I’m just writing here, but the storie’s she’s telling are… interesting, to say the least.

So Are You Saying Some Monsters Lived On CLOUDS ?!

Mhm ! It is true !

hoooooly shit

And some others lived in SPACE .

Oh , Wow !

… What Is Space ?

It is basically where all the stars are , all the way beyond the Monster World .

Is There Anything Else There ?

I … do not know .

oh

anyways uh

is it true that the continent castle was literally bigger than any other castle to ever exist

Yep ! It could hold multiple Monsters that were associated with FIVE ELEMENTS .

Oooh ! I’ve Never Heard Of A Monster With FIVE Elements Before !

ikr thats fucking INSANE

Do They Live Anywhere Here ?

As far as I know , they are on the higher plane of existence .

Oooh ! :O

so like gold island

Yes , like Gold Island .

So how do you even get there?

… Honestly , not even I know .

Well, my cousin Charlie somehow got there. For “college” reasons, apparently.

(yes this is referencing the one [1] Furcorn I have on Gold Island)

Hmm … strange .

Yeah.

Anyways , Do You Remember Anything Else About The Dawn ?

…

… Mauna ? Hello ? Monster World To Mauna !

…Why are her eyes glowing like that?

(Mauna stares off into the distance, completely expressionless. Her eyes are glowing, for some reason.)

what the actual shit

… You Okay ?

The Monsters of the stars speak .

What the fuck do you mean??

We are forever trapped in a century’s slumber . We cannot return to our former glory without aid .

????

Be it adventitious travelers or the ones chosen by the stars , someone must aid us .

Wha-

The Monster World is imperiled . We must awaken .

Huh ?! Imperiled ?!?

What’s with the cryptic shit?!

what the FUCK

…

Mauna?!

… Ow . My head hurts .

Oh , Do You Need Water ?

Oh Wait . Fire Elemental . Riiiiiiiiiiight .

what the fuck just happened

… I … I do not know . This is … I have not had one of these since … well , I do not remember .

Well, ignoring whatever the fuck that was, you should probably get some fuckin’ rest. Nobody who says shot like THAT gets a good amount of sleep.

says the one who hasnt slept in days

Shut the fuck up.

alr

Has Anything Like This Happened On Light Or Tribal ?

Not as far as I can remember .

… Yeah , You Should Get Some Rest .

Alright . Good night , everyone !

gnight

Good Night !

Night.

(As Mauna puts herself to sleep, lulled by the waves, Toorie, Mondo and Sprigg huddle together to talk.)

“Monsters Of The Stars” ??

…I think she meant the Celestials.

wait wait wait wait WAIT

didnt she say they couldnt awaken without aid

…And as far as I know, we’re the only ones heading toward Celestial Island.

…Wait, what the FUCK?!

What ?

The Celestials need OUR HELP?!?

WAIT , HUH ?!

WHAT THE SHIT

I— well, I— oh my Galvana.

Eh .. Eh Heh … Wow ! Us , Helping The Celestials …

When The … When The Monster World Is Apparently In Danger … Ah Hah ! W-wow !

but whats it in danger of

…I don’t know.

whos putting it in danger

…Guess that’s for us to figure out.

(The trio stares at each other for a few minutes, with only the sound of the waves in the background.)

… Maybe We Should Go To Sleep Now .

yea

night guys

Good Night , Mondo ! Tomorrow Might Be Another Busy Day , So We Better Recharge !

Good Night , Sprigg !

…Yeah. Good night.

(As Toorie and Mondo go to sleep, Sprigg just sits there.)

The Monster World…? In danger……?

…Huh.

…

I guess I should just… go to sleep. Now.

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ik this looks like it’s starting to turn into a cliche “Chosen One™” story but I fucking swear it’s not-

the Celestials are just in some uhhhh danger rn and they need whoever the fuck is coming to Celestial Island to help them lol

-Mod Jimmy 🗣️

[ashenworth]

hhhhh y'all ever just spend four fucking hours reading a fic that makes you fall even deeper in love with your f/o bc those are my vibes tonight

[harrylovesmitski]

pre-bedtime thoughts so bare with me but snl opening monologue harry is i think??? the only harry that would have a free pass to do just about anything

[hijirikaww]

We almost got that trio with feather in the hand...but that was eiji rather than kira wasn't it 🥲 we need a shuffle unit with that trio right now!!!

Haha yes you're right, nobody beats hwa in terms of cuteness 💖✨ I guess it's more his stage presence? He really has that elegant (demon) prince vibe....but then off stage he's so sweet 😭 omg and san is my bias wrecker!! So we have the same biases but reversed 😭 that's so interesting!

Yessss I 100% know what you mean!!! Camus is the king of ✨drama✨ it works perfectly 👌 his over the top elegant but dramatic vibes is what I love about him most 😆 aaah I'm so happy to be talking about Camus with someone else who loves him 😭💖

Yeah, San & Masa are different in like every way possible 😂 but that's interesting! It means your tastes are varied! ✨ San is a great role model though, he's amazingly talented, but he's so down to earth and so so lovely 🥺 he's the sweetest!!!! 💖

I was thinking of rewatching the series too! It's so fun 😆✨ hope you can watch it soon!!!!

Take care and have a wonderful day~ 💖✨✨

Awwh thank you!!! I'll try my best to make the most of my day!! 💫

Ya know, I was thinking of EXACTLY that stage with Moose, Masa and Eiji (I so loved that stage, it was BEAUTIFUL!) and thought... wouldn't it be a really cool combo of Camus and Masa's princely, flowing water and ice vibes to meet Kira's seemingly darker ones? Like Kiras stage with his trio with the dark vibes and the lilies (Ren was amazing in that though, left me gobsmacked) would make such a cool combo with them? Like maybe a trio of different kinds of princes trying to win your heart?? Like a triangle love thing (forgot the term HA) it is like.. quadrangle sksjdjjsksksj yep 👌🏻 Also swords and like a knight vibe would fit perfect. Moose canonically riding horseback and sword fighting, if he like teaches the other two - I bet they would get along crazily well!??!?!!!! Somehow I totally see these three having tea with the three of them like, away from the kids for a few hours wahahaha. Moose would totally feel like Masa and Kira are the only other sane mannered people around akskdj poor dude (though his standards are sky high lol).

I 100000% understand you biasing Hwa cuz like... wow. And San wrecking hell yeah hahaha. If you like Hwas stage presence ya gotta appreciate the sheer power Sannie exudes on stage, teehee~ (though srsly the demon line in its entirety is INSANE and then the other members are SO passionate and like- I've never seen such sheer POWER on stage man. Mind blowing.)

Ps omg I just had a thought - hear me out.. ya know that video where TEEZ is jumping to take pics in hats hanging from above??? Anyway Hwa in a wig. Cuz like, if anybody could embody Camooses dramatic 💫FLAIR💫 all while looking drop dead gorgeous in a wig it would me Hwa. Just saying~

Bonus since my brain seems to be up to stuff atm: mamamoose? Masa and Camoose... Mammamoo vibes aksjsj okay gnight

[yuugami-tan]

must release all my thoughts on the dlc cases............

MAJOR aa5 + aa6 dlc spoilers BEWARE

ok i finished turnabout reclaimed days ago but i haven't been able to get this off my mind like WHY DID MARLON HAVE THE COOLEST BREAKDOWN EVER. LITERALLY THE COOLEST

also that was just in all a really fun and nice case??? all the characters were cool and brought something neat to the table. i'm in love with sasha and dr. crab (WHO WAS A GREAT RED HERRING BTW. I WAS REALLY CONVINCED IT WAS HIM). shoutout to rifle the penguin. AND IT HAD A REALLY REFRESHING RESOLUTION....................it made me happy. ALSO thinking of that one comic of simon begging miles to let him take the case. hmmm it does give me whiplash thinking of this case vs the big reveal in the main game though lol.................especially given That guy's there. who? heheheh.........FIGURE IT OUT

can't really say the same abt turnabout time traveler ALTHOUGH I REALLY LIKED THAT ONE TOO. i'm a sucker for LOVE.....i can see why so many ppl are eh about it though. i think there were too few new characters introduced.......not to say the whole reunion of trilogy characters was bad or anything, i just wish characters like athena and trucy weren't pushed off as comic relief yknow..............we already haven't gotten enough of either of them. GIVE ATHENA HER SPOTLIGHT RARARARHAGRHAGRHGHR she got turnabout storyteller and that was IT.............and even then that was more of a lol funny case. but i digress

as for the new characters that were introduced hmmm.....................i DID like them however i was really annoyed by ellen and sorin just because how long it took for them to finish their animations lol. THEY'RE SO CUTE THOUGH.......queen and king of being Like That. anyway i thought it was pretty cool to learn about sorin's whole thing. seeing him panic was kinda relieving to me honestly? not to say i LIKED it but heh. might i say he just like me. he just like me fr

AS FOR PIERCE.......i think he was okay. definitely very hot and very sad. it was nice to have a character who was so evil coded from the start. HOWEVER........i think in this case, in wouldn't have hurt to make sorin a little more evil-seeming. JUST A LITTLE. cuz even with the reveal about who was driving the car and his disability i just could not be convinced it was anyone other than pierce who did it. i do like pierce though!!! i love a character who makes another character doubt everything they've come to know (see: remember). heh. ON A DIFFERENT NOTE I LOVED HIS BREAKDOWN. very very reminiscent of a trilogy villain breakdown. replaying it in my mind like yes......YES..............pain and suffering for YOU my beautiful tragic man.

anyways that's my little brain dump for the day. week????? idk. i still need to talk abt all my thoughts on aai2. i was thinking of listing off every single character and giving my opinion on them.....yeah i think i'll do that. SOON I WILL.....but for now i must sleep. cries OK GNIGHT THANKS FOR READING

[xnchxntmxnt]

OMG HAPPY 2OO LUV!! ILYSM, AND YOU DEFINITELY DESERVE MORE!! AS EXPECTED I'M HERE FOR THE MATCHUP EVENT AND I'M SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE KSDJFHSDF

1 | name : amie 2 | pronouns : s/her 3 | preferred gender : doesn't really matter 4 | self-description :

— it's ya clown sho <3 anyway, i'm an ambivert but more inclined towards the introvert side. my MBTI is INFJ and i'm a Gemini. i'd describe myself as someone who's very observant? yea, i guess. i'm awkward and you know it. My favorite color is blue, specifically sapphire, but i love all pastel colors. My fav show is Chicago Medical and all the psychological and crime thrillers out there are my favorite ( silent patient is my #1 though ) I love painting, playing piano and basketball!

— what i look in a partner you ask, uh, someone who can tolerate my silence. there are times when i go quiet for a whole day, i'll barely speak, no interaction nothing. i want someone who'd not exactly 'deal with it' but 'understand it.' also, i want someone who i can talk to without any hesitation. i have a hard time opening up so i don't do it but when i do, i spill almost everything. i might cry, might have anxiety attack, i might even shout. i know it's not very healthy but i want someone who can help me with those. plus someone who i can read with please <3 cheating and not having any respect for personal space would be the major deal breaker for me

5 | gen. aesthetic : my fashion sense starts from sweats and ends in sweats. i'm a big fan of those oversized hoodies and shirts, like something really comfy. however, i do have a collection of formal wears like blazers and dress.

6 | color/s to describe myself : red, actually. if not read then blue. it switchers but red 90% of the times.

7 | fav song/s : literally everything by Chase Atlantic and The Neighborhood. However, my absolute favorites are some of the famous classical pieces like Experience by Ludovico Einaudi and Chopin's Ballade No. 1 Op 23.

8 | fav genre of music : classical music ( Beethoven, Einaudi and Chopin own my heart )

Lol this is very lengthy I'm sorry, btw congrats again!

I looked into MBTI, I looked into zodiacs, I went off of what you said

Here he is, the man, Seijoh’s do-it-all guy

HANAMAKI TAKAHIRO ur new boyfriend

There is not enough content for him, anyway

How You Met

Bear with me here

Think about this

Artist!hanamaki

You love painting? Art club.

Idk if youre actually in any art club but shhh

Anyway, it was probably some sort of community thing full of tons of different age artists (bc you’d have basketball or something after school and he had volleyball)

So like once a week on thursday afternoons everyone gets together and does all sorts of artsy stuff

Everyone listens to lo fi music (or you can bring headphones) and chit chat and just paint for a couple hours

Its in the back section of a library (bc the library near me does stuff like this its awesome) so if you want you can go read a book while you wait for things to dry

One day the person that ran it suggested you talked to the new guy

He was about your age, it was his first day, they didn't know what all he was good at, and tbh they thought you two would look cute together

Just the vibes yk

So you set up your canvas and stuff next to him and introduced yourself

And you guys just vibe to the playlist

He’s REALLY good

Compliments you a lot too

Which is fun because he’s cute so it makes you a little flustered

You find out you guys go to the same school and he’s on the VB team

And says he has a (practice) game that weekend and asks you to come if you can

Which you do

And they win! So its fun!

Matsukawa basically asks you out for him though

He’s heard all about you already

“You don't get it issei! She’s so pretty!! God, she touched my hand and I thought I was gonna die!!!!!” “the enthusiasm is new for you” “shut up asshole” (conversation from the night before)

So he walks up to you after the game and is like “Hey so,,, we’re going out to get some lunch, you wanna come?”

Makki thinks HES flirting with you and is pissed off about it

Until you all sit down for lunch and oh, the only open spot for him is next to you (since when is matsukawa willing to sit between iwaizumi and oikawa??)

He asked you out after art club that week (Mattsun threatened not to give him any more monster for the rest of the month if he didn't get the guts to do it)

General Headcanons

You date hanamaki, you're also dating matsukawa

There’s no separating them (good thing ur MBTIs work together too, especially for strong friendships)

This was literally my first thought

So

Good luck with both these trolls

More on that later

Of course he’s going to be worried if you go radio silent for a while, but he'll understand

There are some days he’s not gonna wanna talk either

He’s really supportive on your bad days of course

Expect a random text in the middle of the evening from him

“Hiya sweetheart, just wanted to remind you that you’re beautiful, I love you, and I hope your day is going well.”

When he’s having a bad day, the same thing is all he needs from you to keep moving

He’s a really honest person. If you want to talk to him, be prepared not to get any sugar coating. If you tell him to shut up because you don’t want advice, he will. But if you expect advice from him, expect brutally honest advice. Subtlety is not his strong suit, so when it comes to advice, he’s going to tell it like it is. He's just trying to help, yknow?

However, he’s pretty good with people, so will know how to comfort you when something is bothering you. Tea and cuddles? Gotcha. Dancing at 11pm because neither of you want to sleep yet? On it. You want him to hold you? Perfect.

He’s not like...the most touchy person? There are some things he’s really indifferent on, and other things he’s stubborn as hell with. Whatever you wanna do, though

His weakness though

⚠️this part is slightly little bit suggestive⚠️

He will randomly walk up to you and pull you against him, give you a really deep kiss, smirk and walk away like nothing happened

Like hands in hair probably almost making out and then just

Walk away

Because that’s how he kisses and it’s breathtaking every time

It’s either little temple kisses or forehead or cheek pecks or something

Or that

And probably leaves you flustered and it’s funny (to him) (and to me if I was there with you) (bc that would be funny)

Hmm I’m thinking

I’m thinking hair dye dates

He needs help doing his hair from time to time Y’know (he doesn’t he just likes spending time with you) and he wants to make it pink again

So he teaches you how to do his hair and even offers to dye yours one day

Either just a strand or the ends or everything, up to you

Imagine having twinning hair dye with makki isn’t that cute

I think it’s cute

I said ur platonically dating mattsun right

Yes you are now

He absolutely adores you and loves how much makki loves you

Probably would have asked you out if makki didn’t but he was really pushing for makki to because he was just all over you in the beginning

He wasn’t overly attached to you romantically so being friends? Perfect. Sounds great

You two get along wonderfully though like you act like siblings once you warm up to each other

Again, very brutally honest person, but a little more awkward so doesn’t know what he’s saying might come off as he’s acting like a dick

He doesn’t try to though and he does really care about you

Flat out told makki if he breaks up with you and breaks your heart he’s gonna kick his ass (makki doesn’t know he had the same (less aggressive) conversation with you)

Tbh all of the VBC at seijoh loves you

Oikawa loves talking to you he thinks you’re great for makki

Gets you in on he and makki and mattsun’s antics

Iwa thinks you’re good too he just doesn’t know you as well

I think that kunimi would like you (he was almost a runner up--)

Kindaichi too

The first years just think you’re cool even if they won’t say it out loud

Seijoh VBC loves you

You got mattsun’s approval

And hanamaki loves you with literally everything in his life

So

You’re pretty set with your strawberry baby huh

Date Night!

SLEEPOVERS

I was waiting for some matchup to come along that gave me sleepover vibes

In a perfect world where you could do sleepovers with your bf because most parents would,,,not let that happen

Imagine…

He shows up at like 7:00 after practice, pizza in hand because he picked up dinner

You two eat, chat about your day, he probably scarfs down half the pie bc it’s after practice ofc he’s hungry

So when you guys are done eating you head up to your room

And make pillow fort

It’s mandatory

Different design every time, but there’s a pillow fort nonetheless

And then when there’s just enough room for the both of you to climb in

You get a blanket and a couple pillows and one of your phones or laptops or whatever and watch a movie and cuddle

When the movie is over you guys break out the face masks

You ever wonder why he has such great skin? It’s thanks to you (or if you don’t have masks, he picks them up on the way home from practice)

But anyway you guys talk shit about people for a while and sit with the masks on (it’s usually him talking about how Oikawa is a bitch as much as he loves him) (or about whatever he and Mattsun were talking about lately)

You both get chances to vent while the masks sit on your face and you just vibe with music (usually that you pick) (he listens to like,,,meme songs and like CORPSE yk)

After masks you guys make/get some snacks and munch on those during another movie but this time you’re in comfy jammies and more relaxed Y’know

Less paying attention to the movie you’ve seen a million times and just vibing in each other’s presence and it’s just really sweet

Fall asleep on his chest

Let him fall asleep on yours

Either way, you’ve got him whipped for you he loves you

Not that he doesn’t already but that’s his favorite thing ever so please just let him do that

Always makes sure to tell you he loves you before you sleep too

If you fall asleep first he takes embarrassing pictures of you with your hair being a mess & you best bet he sends them to mattsun because “she’s so cute omfg” “dude” “dude what” “you’re so fuckin stupid” “?” “Whatever—good luck being whipped just tell me when you need to get a ring, k” “you’re such a jackass” “yeah yeah Gnight”

Zodiac/MBTI

Okay so I’m not doing a big long paragraph for all this BUT from what I understand, Gemini/Aquarius are really compatible, and ENTP and INFJ are known as “perfect matches” sO (I had a really hard time deciding between Atsumu and Makki because they're both ENTP)

Psst Gemini + Leo is compatible and so is INTP + INFJ,,,, so, again, asking you to marry me sho 💍💍

Aesthetic/Vibes

Playlist

Prelude and Fugue No. 1 in C major, BWV 846

Linus and Lucy by Vince Guaraldi Trio (meme song)

Sky Full Of Stars by The Piano Guys

Someone To You by The Piano Guys

Shut Up And Dance - Simply Three

Runners Up

Miya Atsumu, Tsukishima Kei

[the-black-birb]

𝐀𝐤𝐚𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐅𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐜𝐡𝐢'𝐬 𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐃𝐚𝐲 (𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟑!)

This fic features Bokuto, Akaashi, Kuroo, Kenma, Futakuchi, and a reader character. There are no explicit romanitc pairings.

Warnings: swearing and poorly attempted humor

Summary: shenanigans

A/N: this is part of a collaborative fic with ellie (@babiekeiji ) for qee's bday!! Happy birthday cutie ilysm

QeeDay Masterlist

Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3

--❤--

[DIRECT MESSAGE]

Saturday, 2:04 PM

tetsubro and futacoochieslayer are online!

futacoochieslayer: how are you and bokuto so good at ice skating

futacoochieslayer: i came here to woo yn but i think you’ve wooed me instead

tetsubro: it’s the bromance

tetsubro: but yn is skating w akaashi rn

testubro: we can make this duo into a trio 

tetsubro: come over ;)

futacoochieslayer: ooh say less

 [DIRECT MESSAGE]

Saturday, 2:28 PM

applepi and captain_daddy are online!

captain_daddy: cmere

applepi: why.

captain_daddy: ur tired

applepi: im exhausted

applepi: what r u gonna do about it?

captain_daddy: i give rly good back massages

applepi: …

applepi: move over so i can sit

 [DIRECT MESSAGES]

Saturday, 2:56 PM

waiyenn and futacoochieslayer are online!

waiyenn: thank you <3

futacoochieslayer: ew why are you thanking me

futacoochieslayer: bring yn back

waiyenn: ik you were wary about letting them come along

waiyenn: but u did anyways

waiyenn: so thank you :)

futacoochieslayer: whatever

futacoochieslayer: they’re not too bad anyways

waiyenn: so 

waieynn: you staring at bokuto’s ass?

futacoochieslayer: i am staring at bokuto’s ass.

 [PARTAYYYYY]

Saturday, 4:20 PM

tetsubro is online!

tetsubro: blaze it

akaashi is online!

akaashi: Did you just drop your phone on the ice just to text that?

 [PARTAYYYYY]

Saturday, 4:28 PM

applepi, futacoochieslayer, and waiyenn are online!

applepi: so are there any good phone stores around here

waiyenn: ??

applepi: kuro cracked his phone

applepi: we want to see if we can find a replacement before we go back to tokyo

applepi: so his dad doesnt find out

waiyenn: oh uh

waiyenn: im not sure i can check google

futacoochieslayer: my dad works for an electronics company

futacoochieslayer: ill drive u guys over once we’re done

waiyenn: aww who knew you could be a decent human being

futacoochieslayer: everyone but you

applepi: i disagree w that statement

futacoochieslayer: walk to the store.

 [DIRECT MESSAGE]

Saturday, 5:04 PM

captain_daddy and waiyenn are online!

captain_daddy: hey yn

captain_daddy: this is kuroo from bo’s phone

captain_daddy: im sorry skating got cut short bc of me

waiyenn: its all good tetsu

waiyenn: u went down for a good cause

captain_daddy: (￣▽￣)V

waiyenn: but why are you texting me

waiyenn: arent u sitting behind me rn

captain_daddy: bokuto is crushing my windpipe w his beautiful muscular back

captain_daddy: if im going to go, this is the way i want to die

waiyenn: rip

 [DIRECT MESSAGE]

Saturday, 5:47 PM

waiyenn and futacoochieslayer are online!

futacoochieslayer: hey

waiyenn: y are we texting

waiyenn: youre sitting next to me

futacoochieslayer: well i wanna text

waiyenn: we’re the only ones here everyone else is in the phone store

futacoochieslayer: so what?

waiyenn: “whatever happened to having a conversation”

futacoochieslayer: nvm i dont want to talk

 [DIRECT MESSAGE]

Saturday, 5:52 PM

waiyenn and futacoochieslayer are online!

futacoochieslayer: happy birthday

futacoochieslayer: ✧bitch ✧

waiyenn: aww thx

waiyenn: ✧bastard✧

 Saturday, 8:03 PM

captain_daddy changed [PARTAYYYYY] to [SLUMBER PARTAYYYYY]

captain_daddy changed @futacoochieslayer to @futaba

everyone is online!

futaba: why

captain_daddy: its ur initiation

captain_daddy: did i use that word right

akaashi: Yes. 

waiyenn: so bo can change other ppl’s names but not his own

waiyenn: kinda sus (￢з￢)

tetsubro: are you sure it’s okay that we’re staying over yn?

waiyenn: yeah!!

waiyenn: its nice to have company

waiyenn: and now we can celebrate my bday allllll night long o(*>ω<*)o

applepi: and its kinda late to head all the way back to tokyo

waiyenn: mmhmm

waiyenn: you have to stay

akaashi: Thank you, yn

 [SLUMBER PARTAYYYYY]

Sunday, 2:16 AM

everyone is online!

tetsubro: gnight gays

applepi: night

captain_daddy: sweet dreams uwu

akaashi: Good night.

waiyenn: futakuchi you have to say it

waiyenn: ur part of the gang now

futaba: we’re literally dogpiled on top of each other

tetubro: cmon bro

akaashi: I think you should.

futaba: sigh

futaba: goodnight

futaba: to everyone but yn since its not her bday anymore (　＾ڡ＾)

 [SLUMBER PARTAYYYYY]

Sunday, 2:54 AM

waiyenn is online!

waiyenn: thank you guys for today

waiyenn: seriously

waiyenn: i love you guys sososo much you mean the world to me

applepi is online!

applepi: go to sleep yn

applepi: we love you too

waiyenn: <3

waiyenn: night babes

[chiauve]

Aquarius 12

Chris was early every day that week, and every day Wesker cleaned up in the RPD locker room.

Meanwhile Alpha team took great glee in mocking him for this sudden bout of brown nosery, save Jill who noticed Chris’ somber mood.

“Okay, what’s going on?”

“What?”

“You’re here every morning early and your sudden dedication seems to be actually making Wesker...well not happy per se but less annoyed than usual, but every day you look more and more bummed.”

“I’m just tired. Early birding and all.”

“No, you get weird and annoying when you’re tired. You get quiet when you’re upset about something. What’s wrong?”

Chris tapped at the spacebar on his keyboard; there was something satisfying about that little clunk noise. “After we followed Wesker I got kinda worried, so I came in early to make sure he was fine.”

She rolled her eyes at his weird devotion to Wesker but let him continue.

“He showed up early to get cleaned up in the locker room. I figured you were right and he slept out on the beach, but he does it every day.”

“So?”

“Every day? Here? Why doesn’t he get ready at home? He’s so...immaculate and careful but he shows up looking like he just rolled out f bed. He comes to work early and leaves late, and as far as I can tell always heads back to that cove.”

“Wow, did you follow him again?”

“Only a little ways.”

“What are you getting at, Chris?”

He hesitated. The idea was stupid, and yet he couldn’t discount it. “I think Wesker’s living out of his car.”

Sighing, Jill slid her chair over and sat down. “I highly doubt that. He gets paid more than we do and there are some cheap areas around here. I mean unless he’s way more social than we thought and he’s got a hoard of little Weskers all over the place he’s paying for.”

           Chris snort at that, ignored the rising bout of jealousy, and instead chuckled. “Maybe. But he’s got a bad address, never answers his phone, does his morning routine here... I’m just aware of some of the signs.”

“Even if you’re right, what can we do about it? It’s not our business.”

“I think it is. We’re a team, we look out for each other.”

“We do,” she said, her eyes softening, “but unless he actually says something there’s nothing we can do about it. You have a hunch, but Wesker just might prefer being here. Ever think that he actually likes this job and that’s why he’s always around?”

“Maybe.”

“Look, if you’re really worried about it, talk to him.”

That made Chris laugh. “Oh yeah, that’d go over well. He doesn’t talk about himself, never spends time with us outside of work...”

Jill tapped at her lip. “Maybe he doesn’t think he can? I mean, he’s our superior, maybe he ascribes to the ‘never mingle’ school of thought. Have any of us made him think otherwise?”

Chris stared at his now blank screen he’d been hitting the space bar so much. “You’re right. We should invite him when we get together. Get him to open up.”

When the end of Alpha shift finally arrived Chris checked back in his weaponry, signed off on both the patrol boat and its completed post-patrol maintenance and refill, and headed up to the office to type out a few sentences summarizing the day’s events. He’d get the proper report on the drunk teenagers harassing some seals (who in turn ended up harassed) tomorrow.

Barry had already left, along with Joseph. Brad was doing a quick check of the communications equipment but was clearly rushing, eager to leave. Chris printed out his brief daily report but before he could grab it Jill snatched it from the printer and handed them to Wesker as she headed towards the door.

“Chris, wanna grab a drink before we head home?” she asked.

“Sure thing, let me finish up here and I’ll meet you outside the locker room.”

She nodded and left. Her favorite part of the day was discarding her STARS uniform and the necessary mentality with it for a civilian attire and outlook, a small ritual to be performed correctly and so Chris knew he had plenty of time to close up and head down, especially because he tended to just wear his uniform to and from work. He turned off his computer and double-checked that any important documents were locked up for the night before sliding on his jacket.

“Brad, at least buy the console dinner before you get that intimate,” he said as a farewell as he headed for the door. Brad told him to shove it but turned a bright red anyway.

“Gnight, Captain,” Chris added, glancing back at Wesker who only nodded, eyes locked on his paperwork.

Hesitating, Chris couldn’t help but study his captain. Wesker, even sitting, seemed stiff and tightly wound somehow, despite the relaxed way he held his pen or shuffled papers. He was here early and left late every day, then apparently went and spent his time alone. Possibly in a truck. What did the man do for fun, aside from swimming? Was Chris wrong and Wesker had a family somewhere? A home?

He kept himself apart from his team and Chris didn’t like that at all.

“Hey, Wesker?”

Wesker glanced up. “Yes?”

“You’re welcome to join us. The bar’s right next door...”

“I know where it is, and thank you but no. I have to finish this up before I head home.”

Chris shuffled in place. “Well...do you really have to? It’ll still be here in the morning.”

Arching an eyebrow, Wesker regarded Chris a long, uncomfortable moment. “It will, but I’d rather make it go away now so I have a fresh start tomorrow. Maybe another time.”

Brad shut down the communications and beamed at Cris. “I’ll join you for that drink.”

You weren’t invited, it took a lot of Chris’ effort not to snap. But Brad was a teammate too and Chris’ supposed his offer came off as open; why would he ask Wesker specifically, right?

“Cool, I’ll meet you down there,” Chris said, forcing a grin.

Brad grabbed his jacket and left, a smile on his face and Chris felt a pang of regret for his anger. He had a bond with the others but not Brad and he wondered how much the pilot wanted to be more involved with them all outside of work. The man was certainly...skittish...okay no he could be flat out spineless in the face of his superiors or any other major hazard which tended to rankle Chris.

He turned back to Wesker, who was still staring at him with a very unreadable expression. His eyes were pale blue, but somehow as deep as the ocean and Chris felt like he was drowning...

“Well, I guess I better get down there before Brad surprises Jill.”

“I don’t think he’s capable.”

Chris chuckled. “Goodnight, Captain. Don’t work too hard.”

[greennightspider]

Admit it.

Summary: Eric and his Dauntless acquaintance have a mutually beneficial sleeping arrangement. But what happens when one of them trips up on the status quo?

Previous Chapters: Hold Me, One Look was all it Took

Eric x Rae-Lynn (Rae for short)

Turns out, Eric’s tactic was to basically starve Rae-Lynn out. Ever since that night he hadn’t been back since. They would train together, eat together, work together, and Eric acted like nothing was out of the ordinary. Which of course pissed off Rae even more.

Rae hated that nights without Eric lying beside her gave her no rest. She found it frustrating that Eric had this… hold on her. Like she needed him to function. She would toss and turn tangled in the sheets, instinctively reaching behind her to find nothing but an empty space and unfulfilled longing. Rae missed the comfort of warm arms around her sides, the sound of another person breathing in the emptiness of her apartment. Hell, she even missed his snoring.

And Rae knew it was affecting him too. Oh no doubt. She saw the bags under his eyes grow darker with every passing day. Rae tried to cover her own with a bit of make-up, not wanting to give Eric the satisfaction of actually seeing his plan take a toll on her.

But in Eric’s mind, he knew she would be the one to break sooner or later, because damn him if he was nothing but disciplined.

Another long day in Dauntless, and Eric had just finished washing the sweat off his hardened body after a particularly grueling training session. The warm water felt good running down his skin, although it was no replacement for the warmth of Rae’s body next to his. Shaking the thoughts from his head he wrapped himself in a towel and headed to his locker. Eric reasoned that if he couldn’t sleep, might as well do something useful, hoping the exhaustion would also help his body and his mind find some rest in his bed. His...bed. Not hers.

This past week had been harder than he thought. His sleep schedule wasn’t great before the arrangement, but without his human hot water bottle snuggling into him at night, sleep came harder to him than it had ever done in the past.

But there was no freakin way he was going to cave in first.

Erica slammed his locker door shut, but when he did he found Rae behind it. One hand on the neighboring locker and other on the belt of her dark grey cargo pants, with her eyes locked to the floor.

“Okay so maybe you did see something.”

“Oh did I.” Eric drawled sarcastically, flipping one of his towels over his shoulder. Rae raised an eyebrow, chalking up the extra flare to the lack of sleep. “And what was that?”

“Look dude, you can’t expect to snuggle up to a girl shirtless every single night without her getting… ideas. I mean look at you!” Rae gestured at him wildly exasperated, to which Eric raised an eyebrow, chalking up her flare to her lack of sleep.

“What about me?”

Rae then slitted her baggy eyes at Eric, trying to pierce through his questioning gaze to discern if he was actually that oblivious or just wanted to embarrass her more. “Oh shut up you know damn well you’ve got a body I could grate cheese on, and most chicks here drool over whenever you’re in the ring, or just EXISTING.”

“Oh do they now?” Eric smirked as you rolled your eyes. Watching Rae fidget uncomfortably running her fingers through her tousled black hair and then around the back of her neck was definitely a win for him. It meant you were on the ropes.

“Yeah and well look a girl’s got needs and you ain’t hideous so….yknw… cant blame it if I get heated once in a while its just biology!” Rae whined with her shoulders slumped, eyes to the ceiling. Oh Eric loved when he got what he wanted.

She grimaced and tried to avoid his face while she scratched her head. “So we cool?”

“Ask me nicely. I wanna hear you say it.” Eric cut through Rae’s smoke and mirror tactics with a knife. After almost a week and a half of beating around the bush he wanted to hear her get to the point.

“…so can you come over or what?” Rae tiredly asked, defeated and slumped.

“Hmmm…” Eric kissed his teeth as he looked at his beaten opponent up and down. “I’ll have go to with or what.”

And with that Eric brushed past Rae who’s mouth was left wide open, Eric more than pleased with his victory.

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“Stupid smartass.” Rae mumbled, slamming the door to her apartment shut, back home late again from another midnight training session. “Thinks he can make me admit shit then walk away like an asshole,” she cursed while throwing her keys at the wall before slamming her bedroom door open.

“Who the fuck he think he is?!” She threw her bag at the wall in a fit of rage, watching it slide down the wall. “Stupid toned ass.”

“Can you keep it the fuck down?”

Rae froze as she turned and finally noticed the figure in her bed, lying on his stomach with a sheet covering his lower half and one pillow half on his face.

“Tryna sleep here.”

Rae stood there like a stunned deer for a minute, watching his bare back rise and fall before shaking herself back into reality. “Thought you said or what.”

“Just get your ass into bed before I drag it in here.”

Without a word Rae took her jacket and socks off, too tired to argue or to play games right now. All she was thinking was that hopefully she could finally get a good night’s sleep with him around.

Rae shifted under the sheet and tried to pull up the blankets and get under his arm, trying to get comfortable, before she felt a hand twitch around her back, feeling her sports bra.

“Nuh-uh, you don’t wear it this time. Take it off.” He pulled the fabric and snapped it back.

Rae gulped. All the other times she slept with Eric she’d always worn a bra, Eric knew this damn well. And he knew she was looking at him with utter contempt but he didn’t care. “You just called me mean names. I feel hurt. It’s the least you could do.”

Rae-Lynn took in an annoyed breath knowing her swearing didn’t mean shit to him. But she did as she was told, sitting up, and taking her bra off. Rae threw it heatedly against the wall, Eric not missing the smack of the battered fabric.

“It’ll just be uncomfortable anyways, I’m just tryna help you.”

Rae rolled your eyes in the darkness as she put her singlet back on and settled back under the sheets. “Sure you are.”

Eric lifted his arm up and turned so he was snuggled against Rae’s back. “See isn’t that better.” He sleepily grumbled, taking Rae’s silence as a reluctant yes.

“You know I would teach you a lesson…” He all but growled, moving his hands dangerously up her torso, making Rae’s breath hitch in surprise when his hands pushed up under her breasts.

“But I’m just too fucking tired. Gnight.”

And before Rae could protest or even react the Dauntless leader was already snoring lightly in her ear. And normally, Rae would have made a fuss, possibly slapped him, or lay awake wondering if that shit was a joke or something else. 

But after a week and a half of almost no sleep, she just didn’t have the energy to even process it. And so, rather than making a fuss Rae decided to leave the sleeping giant be. For now, she was just going to enjoy the fact she had her muscly bedwarmer back.

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[cries-and-sings]

Pienso en ti

so recap of last week...

I missed him like crazy. I missed his quirky butt. But I did not miss his nasty habits. I messaged him to see if he wanted to have dinner, but he was busy. I keep thinking that I can fix him. Whatever that means. That things can be different. That he will clean, shower without me having to tell him. That he will do his laundry. That he will help me clean. Ahhhh. Part of it is that Im baby hungry. A big part of it is also worried that he will not find someone. I felt guilty. 

I keep telling myself that he found a girl he liked. a girl he introduced to his family. I know that it was to mask the pain but still. Here I am from time to time feeling guilty. 

 I haven’t been as interested in dating as of lately, post John lol. I don’t think he liked me, I think he was lonely and horny. It’s okay though because I definitely did not like him but I was most definitely horny too. He was good looking, but goddamn, he made me cringe too much to actually like him. I had a hard time relaxing intimately with him. Cuddling was so awful. It reminded me of me being akward as fuck with Anton back in 2009. 11 years ago damn. I didn’t like him touching me. I guess I just don’t like that in general. And that’s what I missed about JC too. He was so warm and we cuddled perfectly. 

Online dating is too shallow though. Guilty of that myself, I know. But how do I get to know a person just by texting. lol.

Looking back at it he did like me, I think it’s just my insecurities lying to me. 

I’m good though. I’ve been counting my blessings as of lately. It’s not that I was ungrateful or only looked at the negative, I just did not feel good, ah yes that’s the difference. It’s easier to know and feel what you have going for you when you’re not fucking depressed. The bad things, or life in general, feel heavier. I think I’m coming out of it though. 

Work has been better I think. anyways enough for tonight. 

Gnight. 

[odxrilove]

My iconic emoji 😩☝️ is this “ 🦊 ” i would like to take it thank you very much😏👌

THAT DOES SOUND FUN, IM GLAD YOU HAD FUN :D AND THAT'S GREAT SO VV HAPPY FOR YOU, YES ACE THOSE CLASSES ‼️‼️‼️OOO YES TELL ME WHEN THEY ARRIVE, I WANNA KNOW WHO'S PCS YOU GET >:)) and i wanna buy noeasy, thrilling (tbz) and fever part 3 (ateez) AND dimension dillema for christmas too :(( but i'll have to see if i save up enough.

OOO👀 i'll read some of your writings when i wake up tomorrow 😏👌 OK IMMA ACTUALLY GO TI SLEPE NOW GNIGHT AND ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR EVENING KAJDKSJDHJ💞💞💞💞 sobs in it's already 2am when i send this Ksnkakj😭💀

OKAY THE 🦊 IS FOR YOU <33

YEAH IT WAS SUPER FUN!!! AND I AM VV PROUD OF THAT GRADE HAHA :D OF COURSE ILL TELL YOU DIRECTLYYY I DONT CARE WHO I GET BECAUSE IM JUST SO EXCITED ARGHHH i want to have ateez's albums too!! (we = soulmates) my best friend is a huge fan of them so she's slowly turning me into an atiny :0 and for dimension dilemma,, let me just vent rq,, I WAS SUPPOSED TO PREORDER IT THE FIRST DAY BUT THE SHIPPING PRICE TO FRANCE WAS 30$ SO I WAS LIKE HELL NO AND A WEEK AGO A FRIEND TOLD ME ABOUT THIS ONLINE SHOP AND THEY HAD DIMENSION DILEMMA SO I WANTED TO BUY IT THERE BUT I WASNT ALLOWED AT THAT MOMENT BUT I WAS TODAY SO I DIRECTLY ORDERED IT BUT I FOUND OUT THAT IF I HAD BOUGHT IT YESTERDAY IT WOULD HAVE COUNTED AS A PREORDER AND I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN ALL THE PREORDER BONUSES FHDSHFSKHSFSHDFHFDI OMGGGGGG I HATE THISSSS,,,

anyways moving on- YES DO PLEASE !!! I WANT TO HEAR YOUR OPINION !!! SLEEP WELL BABY AND HAVE A GOOD DAY TMW (sleep now or ill bonk you in the head 🔨)

[blole-hack]

my thoughts on my straight male friend's yaoi recommendation

i love how my straight male friend is the one who's recommending yaoi to me and not the other way around AHAHAHAHAHAHA

he was talking to my female friend about it so i asked whaddup, then he told me the title

then when i checked i was like "okay this is actually interesting because *spoiler spoiler*"

im not into this kind of thing but OH MY GOD THE ROMANCE IS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

I MIGHT BE A LITTLE BIT BLIND BUT ITS SO GOOD

its just, very not for children BUT im immune to that ITS GREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT ITS SO ROMANTIC THE MCS ARE PERFECTLY BALANCED AS ALL THINGS SHOULD BE THEY HAVE THEIR OWN MORALS AND INDEPENDENT THOUGHT

THE SMAYX IS USEFUL TO THE PLOT!! IT ACTUALLY ADVANCES THE RELATIONSHIP!! IT CHARACTERIZES THEM AND THEY TALK ABOUT THINGS DURING IT SO IT'S LIKE YES. LET'S GO PLOT LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOO

they dont talk about plot the entire time of course but like literally their goals, the plot, it's so tied to them personally therefore also tied to their relationship so it's COMPLETELY RELEVANT i mean duh the plot is like that, that's the point of a yaoi,,, i think. as you can see i'm not used to this genre

AND AND THEY LIKE EACH OTHER'S PERSONALITIES AND THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE ICONIC SO IT MAKES SENSEEE AND THE PLOT HAS REALLY GOOD CONFLICT. I REALLY LOVE THE PLOT. THERE'S SOME MORALITY STUFF GOING ON. IM SO EXCITED TO SEE HOW THIS ONE PLAYS OUT DSHAL:J:LADJD

I LOVE THEIR DYNAMIC AND IT'S REALLY AWESOME EVEN IF THEY ENDED UP TOGETHER FAST

AND ITS SO HEALTHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY EVEN IF ITS ABSOLUTE LIKE, CARNAGE FOR SOME PEOPLE OR SOMETHING IDK IF THE FIGURATIVE SPEECH IS RIGHT

OH MY GOD

IT FEELS LIKE IM EATING A SALAAAAAD WHEN I READ IT

I LOVE SALAD

ITS SO HEALTH

HEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALTHD ASD:LSADJLJSAK

ahem anyway it's good i love it it's great. friend has great taste. i told him it was heal he was like "i feel like it's so healthy" and im like DUDE IT SO IS. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IM LOOKING FOR

i wont say what it is yet though because i didnt finish it yet (or at least, i havent finished what's up so far, since it's ongoing)

but yeah HIGHLY RECOMMEND even if whoever's reading cant even know what im recommending hAHAHAHAHAHAA okay bye gnight

[zeoia]

I don’t know if she was handling it poorly or we were handling it poorly, but needless to say, it didn’t go well. 

She was paranoid, I was sleep deprived and then later very distraught because of my own personal health issues. 

Long chatlog under readmore. Again, I don’t know how to interact with someone with borderline personality disorder. I’m not going to pretend to know how it works. I could have been saying all the wrong things. It doesn’t work the same as my depression/anxiety. So I very well could have been the awful person in this scenario. I don’t know. I just know she needed help. 

After everything, I ended up with this in my FB

HER-Yesterday at 11:02 PM

I don't know hwat I've done

I don't know

I don't know

I need to know

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm a terrible person

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

Did you always talk about negative things

That's

HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

She said she didn't mind

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

Not true

HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

that she could handle me

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

Even if people don't mind they can still be tired out by it

HER-Yesterday at 11:03 PM

I don't know what I did

She was going to visit

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

I don't see you as a bad person

HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

I've been saving coins

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

Calm down

HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

NO

I WANT TO KNOW

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

You are jumping to conclusions

HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I DID

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

I will talk to her just calm down

HER-Yesterday at 11:04 PM

What if she removed you too

I didn't meant to upset her

I didn't know I had

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:07 PM

She's not online right now so I can't do much until she shows up. If she does for me. Like you said she might have unfriended me too

HER-Yesterday at 11:07 PM

But why#

Why

She was going to visit

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:08 PM

I don't know

Last I talked to her was in May

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

I don't understand

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

I don't talk to her often enough to know, alright?

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

I  don't  understand

People keep telling me they won't hate me

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

Worrying is not going to help

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

but they do!

THEY IE

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

Stop it

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE LIE

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

Stop

You are jumping to conclusions again

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

No I'm not!

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

Yes you are

HER-Yesterday at 11:09 PM

She just stoped my call

I know she did

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM

?

HER-Yesterday at 11:10 PM

I tried to phone

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM

Did you try to call her on here

HER-Yesterday at 11:10 PM

I called her phone

2 rings

hang up

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:10 PM

Did you think about the fact that maybe it's kinda late to be taking phonecalls

HER-Yesterday at 11:11 PM

9pm

Is that too late?

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:11 PM

For me yeah

After 8 I don't want my phone ringing

Look, she could be busy

HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

She hates me

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

Gimme her phone number and I'll call her in the morning

Stop worrying

HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

I don't know if she'd want her number given out

I don't know

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

Stop saying negative stuff like that

HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

It's true

I know it is

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

Look

HER-Yesterday at 11:12 PM

I've seen it so many times

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:13 PM

If you keep having that mindset

HER-Yesterday at 11:13 PM

I form a connection with someone

They hate me

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:13 PM

If you keep saying those things

You will make them come true

You will push people away

Because of your paranoia it will come off as you not trusting your friends

And nobody wants to be friends with someone if they aren't trusted

Trust in me and [blank] alright?

If she hated you I don't think she would have given you her phone number

HER-Yesterday at 11:15 PM

She gave it before the hate

The hate is recent

I truested [blank]

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:15 PM

Look it's almost midnight here and I'm tired

HER-Yesterday at 11:15 PM

Please don't hate me too

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:16 PM

Give me a log of your last conversation and I'll analyze it and see if there's any reason to doubt [blank]

I want you to stop acting like it's already over

Like I said, if you keep doing stuff like that

Keep saying stuff like that

You will make it come true yourself because you end up deeming yourself unworthy of friends

But you are loved

HER-Yesterday at 11:17 PM

no.. no no.. I don't like doing that

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:17 PM

So stop saying bad things

Stop making it worse

HER-Yesterday at 11:18 PM

It is over tho... I've seen this before

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:18 PM

Try to keep convincing yourself otherwise

I can't keep talking to a brick wall like this. You're unmoving

You really do not want to feel better apparently

HER-Yesterday at 11:19 PM

With Naomi.. with others.. I've tusted they might come back..

I've seen it too often

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:19 PM

Sometimes people grow apart

It's not uncommon

It sucks but it's not the end of the world

HER-Yesterday at 11:20 PM

But we was fine a week ago... I just got worried about the idea of her bringing Bella...

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:20 PM

I had a friend for nine years

And had to break off the friendship

HER-Yesterday at 11:20 PM

Because she's an illigal breed and I also don't trust her destructivness

Zeoia-Yesterday at 11:21 PM

My brother and his best friend stopped being friends last year. Childhood friends.

They grew apart

It happens

It hurts but it happens

Again I don't know what happened w you and [blank] so I can't say either way

Just give me time

Please be patient

It is almost midnight and I am very tired

June 12, 2018

HER-Today at 12:16 AM

... Another friend was back to add friend too... but I was on the phone to her when I noticed so it was confirmed she didn't hate me... and it must've done it its self..

Zeoia-Today at 12:16 AM

So it's a discord error

HER-Today at 12:16 AM

Maybe...

I don't know

Zeoia-Today at 12:17 AM

I told you that you were jumping to conclusions

HER-Today at 12:17 AM

I don't know

Zeoia-Today at 12:17 AM

Technology does weird shit all the time

Eating messages, removing friends, altering settings

It's not uncommon

HER-Today at 12:20 AM

"Your message could not be delivered because you don't share a server with the recipient or you disabled direct messages on your shared server, recipient is only accepting direct messages from friends, or you were blocked by the recipient."

Goes back to panic

Zeoia-Today at 12:23 AM

If it accidentally removed friends for you then it would also have removed you from her list

Anyway I'm sleepy

Gnight

HER-Today at 12:56 AM

I don't know if me and the other person were ever friends or just server buddies now

HER-Today at 5:05 AM

You still show as a mutual friend on her thing... it is clear now she hates me and this is targeted at me.. The worst thing is dreaming about it.. waking up and it's still real.

Zeoia-Today at 5:05 AM

Stop it stop it stop it.

Your negative thinking, your constant pessimist views on everything, they're exhausting, even for the people who still love and care about you.

I got a response from her and she told me herself that she doesn't hate you

But your behavior is extremely upsetting

It's exhausting

HER-Today at 5:08 AM

I don't know what I said

Zeoia-Today at 5:08 AM

I don't know either

HER-Today at 5:08 AM

I didn't know she was getting upset

Zeoia-Today at 5:08 AM

Give me a moment I am on mobile

HER-Today at 5:09 AM

She told me if there was problems she'd tell me first

Zeoia-Today at 5:10 AM

I don't hate her. I am managing okay. I unfriended her for my sanity. I've told her in the past what my problem was and she hasn't done anything to stop. I cut her from my life so I wouldn't keep getting upset. I can't demand her to change. I can't expect her to change. I've told her my problem and hoped she would improve. That never happened. What I can do is remove myself from the situation.

If you want you can reassure her that I'm managing okay, I don't hate her, and I already told her my issue. I am removing myself from the situation so I don't keep getting upset. She should accept that and stop dragging others into her messes.

Directly from [blank] herself.

HER-Today at 5:10 AM

I don't understand

Zeoia-Today at 5:11 AM

ARE YOU READING WHAT I JUST POSTED

look I just woke up to go to the bathroom but I decided to check on you before going back to sleep

Excuse me for being blunt but I'm not sure beating around the bush is going to help.

You need a lot of mental help from a counselor. Your behavior makes people very upset. You are always talking about bad things and are always upset about something.

HER-Today at 5:14 AM

I can't think what promote

Problem

Zeoia-Today at 5:14 AM

I don't hate you. I don't think anyone hates you

LISTEN TO ME.

I am telling you right now

Stop thinking. Stop typing. LISTEN.

HER-Today at 5:15 AM

She told me she was able to handle it better

Zeoia-Today at 5:15 AM

She thought she was

Look

Stop

Stop typing

Do not make any more thoughts with your brain on the subject

[blank] is a strong person. She has been through a lot of shit. But even when people are strong, there are some things that weigh them down and they will wear a smile anyway, even if they are hurting

I'm in a similar situation with someone where I have to limit contact for my fucking sanity

I don't hate them. There wasn't just one instance of a problem

Just overall we don't mix well

Until you get help, you are probably going to end up pushing people away again

I don't want to upset you. I don't want you to think that I hate you

But I have to be honest

You keep saying stuff like "it's going to happen, I know it" and inviting yourself to just fucking fulfill that prophecy

HER-Today at 5:21 AM

She proved it

Zeoia-Today at 5:21 AM

Get. Some. Help.

See a counselor

HER-Today at 5:21 AM

THEY DON'T WANT TO

Zeoia-Today at 5:21 AM

Your friends are not counselors

HER-Today at 5:22 AM

They see me all fine.

Zeoia-Today at 5:22 AM

What kinda fucking bullshit counselors are you seeing that don't see that there's a problem

HER-Today at 5:23 AM

They don't see me on the floor screaming because I've got emotional intensity disorder

Zeoia-Today at 5:23 AM

I DEMAND you to go looking into more counselors

I DEMAND you to show them our chat log from today

Like, save this chat log. Fucking save all of it

I want you to get better because at this rate you are going to believe yourself into a permanent state of"the whole world is against me"

HER-Today at 5:26 AM

I want to talk to [blank]... We was going to do adventures... she told me we'd do adventures... does she think I was being emotionally manipulative.. that was her big issue before..

I'm already there

Zeoia-Today at 5:29 AM

Yeah, you are emotionally manipulative. I'm sorry for being honest but you are literally right here right now, in my direct messages, demanding to know what you did to make [blank] upset. You are extremely clingy from what I can tell, and it is probably because you have abandonment issues.

This behavior probably upsets [blank] a lot more than you think because she just got out of a very toxic relationship with someone. Y'know. The one where she had to move because she was abused

HER-Today at 5:30 AM

I know

But I can't even think when I was doing it

Zeoia-Today at 5:31 AM

I'm aware

That is your problem.

You don't realize when you are upsetting people

You don't know how manipulative you can get. You are tugging at me currently, because [blank] is no longer there for you

I didn't just go through a terrible divorce with a manipulative lying prick so I can handle your manipulative behavior a bit better

But you have to fucking get some help

Do not just give up

Look at it like a video game. Do you get further in a video game just by being all like "oh, the characters told me I can't go this way even though it's the only way to the next area"

You need to get better and the only way you can get better is to demand that someone fucking help you

Who is currently in your life right now? IRL I mean.

HER-Today at 5:35 AM

No. I do give up. I can't do this. I can't do this screaming.. I didn't try to manipulate her into anything. I always told her things were ultimately her choice. Yes I got upset with the dog idea but it was still ultimately up to her. I just might've liked her to stay elsewhere...

Zeoia-Today at 5:36 AM

You are too upset all the time

HER-Today at 5:36 AM

It comes with the fucking disorder.

Zeoia-Today at 5:36 AM

I know that

And you need to get more help for it

Don't tell me they won't help

Because I know there's someone out there who can and will help

HER-Today at 5:37 AM

The government has cut their resources so much

Zeoia-Today at 5:38 AM

Okay? I live in shit hole America where we have to pay out the ass just to get a fucking checkup

Use your fucking resources.

HER-Today at 5:38 AM

I'm fucking trying

Zeoia-Today at 5:39 AM

You are on the internet right now

Google shit. Look for local support groups.

Look for meetups..group counseling. Something

I can't do this for you

I'm also mentally ill

My mother is mentally ill

My mom went through abuse and is also manipulative and doesn't always see what she does wrong

HER-Today at 5:41 AM

calls 999

Zeoia-Today at 5:41 AM

But she still has her shit together to the point where she can try to get some fucking help

What city do you live in

I'll Google shit for you but don't depend on me to do everything for you

HER-Today at 5:42 AM

Crawley west sussex

Zeoia-Today at 5:42 AM

Because if I end up having to babysit you, you will in fact end up pushing me away

HER-Today at 5:43 AM

I'm getting a bloody ambulance

Zeoia-Today at 5:45 AM

What is your disorder

I'm going to make our conversation publicly available and ask around for help because I really don't want you suffering like this

HER-Today at 5:46 AM

Boarderline

Zeoia-Today at 5:46 AM

Okay

Borderline personality disorder?

HER-Today at 5:47 AM

Yes

Zeoia-Today at 6:00 AM

I will try to find someone who is also living with borderline personality disorder

But is taking steps to get better

Because it's clear to me that you are not

And I don't know how to handle someone who has the disorder

I made a post but I will try again later. We aren't going to see instant results

This shit takes time

But you yourself need to try to get hel

Help

You have to want to get better

Again, I don't know how to deal with the disorder so I'm probably not the best person to be telling you what to do

But there are plenty of other people out there with the disorder you can talk to and get help from

But I'm not one of those people

I must sleep. I have been getting headaches due to lack of sleep. Good night.

HER-Today at 6:10 AM

I'm in an ambulance being taken to see an emergency psych

It was the only way I could think to get help now

The thing is they take so long to see you I'll be slightly calmer when they talk to me. Then decide I'm ok..

I'm scared of things being public.. they'll think I'm stupid

HER-Today at 9:25 AM

Been given the mental health line number (again) and a thing to calm me down and sent home. No follow up.. but they think my GP should review my medication.(edited)

https://sussexrecoverycollege.org.uk/ Also this..

Zeoia-Today at 12:02 PM

I can't today. Please don't keep messaging me about your problems today. I need help. I'm suffering and hurting and I won't be able to see an affordable doctor for three fucking months. I'm sorry but I just don't have the mental stability to deal with both of our problems. Not right now.

Zeoia-Today at 2:03 PM

I’m not going to be responsible for anyone else’s emotions, actions and behaviors. It’s impossible. I have pointed out the problem previously to her. I will not keep myself in a situation that constantly hurts both of us. I can’t change her but I can change the situation.

I don’t like the statement about being her favorite person. It’s a type of manipulative wording used in the guilt game. I don’t play that game. HER is the only one who can fix this and it is her choice to make and act on. I suggest you don’t try to talk me into ‘fixing things’ because if it’s worded like the above statement I am going to get annoyed.

[blank] told me this. And I told you the same thing. You need to help you.

Anyway do not respond to this. I really don't want to talk about your problems right now because I'm in a super shitty health situation and the last thing I need is something stressing me out to the point of hospitalization.

https://www.westsussexconnecttosupport.org/s4s/WhereILive/Council?pageId=988 Hi - this is a link to information re Mental Health Services in West Sussex, hope it helps. Your friend can call the Samaritans on 116 123. Hope it all works out.

Zeoia-Today at 6:27 PM

"One of doggos turned out to be a professionally trained service dog. Eddie wasn’t a perfect match but he helped me so much. I had to put him down on the 31st of May. I’m trying to train my other doggo (a pittie) to do some of the similar tasks. I mentioned bringing Bella with me when I go to the UK (pitties are banned there). She freaked out and tried to manipulate me into not keeping my doggo with me. I had put down my service doggo the other day and I was hurting so badly. I told her to drop it, that’s my problem. She complained to others who called her out for being selfish. I do my DnD with friends on Friday nights. She tried to call me and tried to get me to drop DnD to calm her down from a meltdown about being called out for being selfish. After that she still didn’t drop it and called Bella an illegal dog. I was so hurt and disappointed. I got livid. I avoided her for over a week because I knew I would lash out and be mean to hurt her. She kept trying to contact me with increasingly manipulative statements until I finally blocked her before I hurt someone. I had talked to her before about my issues with manipulation. I tried to wait and calm down. I am done with that kinda treatment. Now you know what made me so mad."

From [blank] herself.

She tried to explain. And I tried to tell you. But it's like it goes through one ear and out the other. You need serious help from mental health specialists. You can't keep on attaching to people the way you do because it hurts them.

HER-Today at 6:28 PM

I had paranoia about the dog.

Zeoia-Today at 6:29 PM

Drop the thing about the dog.

Stop focusing on the dog.

HER-Today at 6:29 PM

I was struggling myself

Zeoia-Today at 6:29 PM

That is not the only issue.

[blank] has been through too much shit to be able to handle someone with borderline personality disorder.

She literally just got out of a manipulative and abusive relationship and you are here, saying manipulative things. She tried to be patient with you. But she didn't have to. She tried to because she cared. And she still cares.

But your dependence on her was not healthy for either of you. And if you try to depend on me, I guarantee you I will drop you like a hot pan.

I am not here to be manipulated. I am not here to be used. I am not here to be a counselor. I'm trying to offer advice, but I can't help you seek assistance. Especially when I'm trying to figure out how to deal with becoming physically disabled. So stop it. Just. Stop complaining. Stop trying manipulate other people to deal with your problems. Stop depending on others to do shit for you. Keep going to therapy. Going to groups. Looking up resources. It's your life. You have control over what you do. not me.

HER-Today at 6:33 PM

I WASN'T TRYING TO MANIPULATE TTHINGS(edited)

I was nervous about having a dog!

Zeoia-Today at 6:33 PM

Lisa.

Lisa.

It's not about the dog.

HER-Today at 6:33 PM

It clearly fuckiing started it

Zeoia-Today at 6:33 PM

Let me tell you something.

You say sad and upsetting things a lot.

It is very very tiring.

HER-Today at 6:35 PM

I AM NOT MANIPULATING HER

I AM NI

OT

Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM

no you aren't.

because you aren't in touch with her anymore.

HER-Today at 6:35 PM

She is making shit up!!

Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM

nor are you in touch with me. get some help.

HER-Today at 6:35 PM

I DID TODAY

Zeoia-Today at 6:35 PM

NOT JUST TODAY. ALL THE TIME. GET. SOME. HELP.

Goodbye.

[possumcorpse]

Nightly Post

It's 1:41 AM and the tiredness is getting to me.

It's finally winter break, fuck yes! Hooray!

...Simbang Gabi, a lame family party, a longer familly vacation with no one I know, and just having to spend time at home. Ew.

At least I have some time to hang out with friends! I can't wait for this Saturday!

And maybe today I can go to that Blink-182 tribute concert. But it's during the same time as Simbang Gabi....I'm just hoping to go to hear the "Dogs Eating Dogs" and "California" album covers.

It's cold as fuck right now.

I saw Jumanji and it was okay; not the best thing in the world but it was funny. I'm still feeling meh, but I'll leave y'all with a song that's been getting me pumped and stuff lately.

"Gold Steps" by Neckdeep.

Anyways, I hope yall have a fantastic friday! gnight yall

- jedi