#okay okay i’m basically like about to list off all the songs lol

[9w1ft]

I know it’s nearly impossible but if you had to pick your fave top 3 songs of the night?

oh my gosh..

well that’s so tough but i think some early standouts for me were illicit affairs, karma, mirrorball… and honestly it was so fun to sing cruel summer with the stadium that was such a cathartic way to open the show

[eazy-peazy54]

ugh THANK YOU for making that will wood fandom post. okay this ask is gonna be super long and i’m really sorry to vent in your inbox but anyway. i heard about will on tumblr several years ago right after the normal album dropped but before he “blew up” (using that term loosely lol) and i’ve steadily watched his fanbase become more and more unbearable. for context i’m in my mid 20s, so unfortunately quite a bit older than a large portion of his current fans.

it’s really disappointing to me to see how strangely and unhealthily young people interact with media they like. i won’t waste time reiterating what you already said very well, but i will add something about the opposite end of the weird fan spectrum. so you basically called out some of the very public manic obsession that his younger fans display, but then there’s the other fans who do literally the opposite (to an obnoxious degree) where they say he’s literally just some guy etc. and like. i’m totally on board with the just some guy movement like yes let’s please acknowledge that artists are just people who happen to create something that you enjoy (especially small artists like will who aren’t even “famous” like he’s a niche indie artist that gained some recognition for a viral song but there are some kids out here treating him like a c-list celebrity like??) HOWEVER i do not understand why they have to act like any sort of emotional attachment to him or his work is toxic fan behavior. there’s absolutely no balance and it’s exhausting.

i personally feel like i and some of his older fans (older in age and duration i.e. mid 20s and/or been a fan since before early-mid 2021? i feel like that’s when he went viral) naturally engage in a more sane way. i personally am incredibly attached to his music, it means a lot to me, i listen to it a ton, and i also enjoy will as a person; i very much admire the brain, the mind, the person behind the art. i think he’s funny, intelligent, interesting, not to mention one of the most talented musicians / artists in general that i’ve ever come across. i like listening to him in interviews and on his podcast. and i think i manage all of that in a healthy and respectful way. i don’t think it’s difficult. but for some reason there are some fans who probably wouldn’t like the second part of that. they take “separate the art from the artist” way too far. “Do Not Have An Opinion About This Human You Perv”. it’s annoying. calling him pretty or attractive or whatever also gets met with some very weird reactions. “HE’S JUST A GUY” yes most of us are, in fact, just a guy™️ (gender neutral). saying he’s cute is not sexual harassment.

another thing that actually pisses me off so much is these fans describing and categorizing him based on their and their mutuals very specific demographic. “white teenage transmasc audhd neurodivergent mentally ill queer etc. etc. etc.” music. that is such a limited and myopic generalization. first of all, he had fans way before you, your age group is not his target demographic, nor is it his core demographic, on top of that he’s explicitly stated he doesn’t want people your age listening to him. he’s not for you. second, it absolutely makes sense that mentally ill people gravitate towards him given that he himself is severely mentally ill, so this part of the description pisses me off the least, but still, he’s also a recovering/recovered alcoholic, but i don’t see people saying he makes music for addicts? idk.

next is the queer bit. yeah gay people like him. i get it. he’s a queer safe space and that’s cool and i appreciate it but i feel like it’s still narrowing the categorization. he also has a lot of neurodivergent fans and i understand why. i think my main issue is just a combination of all of these very specific descriptors you know? like yeah he has fans that fit all of this but when you lump all of it together to describe his music and the entirety of his fandom then it becomes too much. whatever. anyway. the one that makes me the most mad is the white thing. i hate it when music that isn’t inherently racial is divided by race. it’s alienating and divisive and exclusionary and unnecessary. there are plenty of fans of color and there would probably be even more if some of y’all didn’t insist on generalizing his music based on your own limited experience. i think that’s sort of a microcosm of what a lot of poc talk about on here, about being shoved out of fandom spaces? like imagine you’re an adult queer black guy and you keep hearing about this will wood person who makes really cool music so you go to give it a try and find a bunch of 14yos calling him white preteen transmasc music. super off putting. even as someone who actually does fall into a couple (not all) of the demographics they talk about i know i would absolutely not be a fan now if i’d discovered him later than i did. which makes me sad. anyway. sorry this is definitely getting very long and rambly so i’m sorry about that i just have a lot of opinions about this fanbase.

oh my god this put everything i missed into words THANK YOU 😭

I completely agree with everything you just said!!! Honestly the whole big point with my essay was to just say "hey guys, don't be weird about this, and be respectful because there is a real person behind the screen!"

everyone who goes too far with the "HES JUST A GUY" thing isn't helping. its like. yeah, hes just a guy, but that doesn't mean i cant have any sort of attachment to his music whatsoever??? some people's idea of treating people like real people is really just treating them worse than how they were being treated before 😭

The people who are policing the fandom too much aren't helping either, its getting really exhausting to keep seeing posts saying "oh he looks really good in this photo!" and seeing like 200 replies being like "STOP SEXUALIZING YOU CREEP!!!!" (although there are people who actually do sexualize him, (which is really gross and weird) but i digress,)

music based fandoms are usually very,,, eh.. but honestly most of the fandom isn't bad, its just the people who take things to the extremes (in both directions) who are kind of making it a bit more awkward.

i think the fandom, and his music as a whole shouldn't just be narrowed down to "gay neurodivergent weirdo music," but it should just be like. "music for cool people" or hell, just fuckin "music"

[hanjsquokka]

Manaaa I hope you’re having an awesome day and—I’m here for the ask game hihi: - [ ] 7, 9, 13, 16, 22 + 24 (sorry, I couldn’t decide) 💚

hi tan 💚💚 i'm having a good day, how about you? 🫶🏼 also dw aksjsak i loved answering all of these!! ( ask game )

7. as a writer, what do you appreciate the most when someone is reading your work?

i think this is what every author loves, but i absolutely love it whenever someone gushes over tags/comments/reblogs. after reading that, my day just becomes a little more bearable and i will 100% be giggling and blushing like an idiot because you liked my silly little ideas

9. what new genres/tropes would you be open to writing/reading?

fantasy aus! i have no solid idea or plan, but i definitely want to make an skz fantasy au, preferably like ever after high au. i'm not gonna work on that now lol i have other things i should be writing once i cure this writers block 😂 but that! and a horror/apocalypse concept as well (we're not getting all of us are dead s2 anytime soon anyways 🤷‍♀️). as for tropes, i want to write marriage of convenience & sports romance! AND hanahaki trope, that is just 💔 maybe a fic with no happy ending (?) idk, the possibilities are endless but these are the ones i look forward to as of now

13. if you could choose a playlist for your stories or any fics you have read, what would it be? 

i listen to my # superbowl playlist a lot, a bunch of those songs are my faves!!

16. post a line from one of your works. 

"Hi, beautiful,” he greeted, taking your hand in his. “How was your day?” — bed chem : hjs. i was actually blushing when i wrote this line 🙈🙈 i couldn't stop imagining the scene, okay now im blushing again 😭

22. what is a line from a fanfic you have read that has stuck with you?

He was sure there would be no one else like you in this lifetime. & This is our lifetime. — the bucket list : hjs by @pearbunny . i will never stop ranting about this series, it's so 🫶🏼💔💥❤️‍🩹😫🤭 i love it sm AHHHH. the angst us on point and the plot and everything to be honest, an amazing read!!!

24. what good advice would you give for creativity blocks?

currently going through a writers block. i just hid the docs app on my phone so i wouldn't feel pressured to write anything + turned off my notifs for tumblr. i scrolled through instagram for sometime and found some books to read for the next couple of days when i'm free (instead of writing). i also started cleaning my room lol there's so much dust everywhere (i don't even get where it comes from??). basically just reseting for a while. i might write a few texts fics because those are funny (and im scared that no one's going to interact if i don't post a little 💀).

so to sum it up, i think a reset would be nice! don't open docs or any writing apps, turn off notifications that overwhelm you and take some time for yourself! do something you've been wanting to do for a while and don't stress because writing is supposed to be fun, not freaking you out. words always flow better when you're happy and willing to write 🩷

[anjumstar]

anjum’s bkdk recs 19

Ten more (complete) sfw bkdk fic recs. If you read any of these and enjoy them, lmk! And, more importantly, let the authors know with a comment! Plus, send me your recs, and maybe they’ll make the next list!

Legend

hyperlinked title by author | word count

Genre warning(s): where relevant Summary/review

💚🧡 = fave

Recs are under the cut, organized by word count, low to high.

51. Sheets by baku_bean | 2.1k

general A cute little pre-relationship fic with our boys. It’s short, sweet, and simple, but it suits them well.

52. X Marks the Spot by sobashouto (snowandfire) | 3.3k

fluff This feels like the fic that takes place just after the happy ending. And things are still happy! Bkdk have just started dating and Deku gives Baku the gift of some homemade Dynamight merch. The boys are silly and bad at this and them.

53. be loved by bonnia | 5.4k

fluff, hurt/comfort Baku has ptsd after Dabi kidnapped him in the forest training, and Deku helps him work through those struggles with physical touch. Not very angsty, yes very cute.

54. song on a policeman’s radio by ohwickedsoul | 6.6k

angst, drama warning: MCD This was an interesting mixed media fic! It’s an amalgam of article intros, tweets, and court reports. It’s a toughie, don’t miss that MCD tag (like I did, lol), but its unique style captures lots of relationships in a succinct way, and it feels very professional in terms of the court-speak, although, I’m certainly no expert!

55. What Was Missing by Randstad | 8.2k

general, fluff Bakugou gets hit with an honesty quirk, but he has some things he’s not quite ready to be honest about. Yet, being honest feels a bit better than he thought? Lovely prose and a good balance of Baku’s character. Definitely focused on him, but good moments from Deku too.

56. Not All Heroes Wear Capes by vulcanhighblood | 11k

pining, fluff Fake dating…kind of? Deku is suddenly a great subject of interest to the paparazzi and Baku intervenes in many ways and they start spending more time together. Baku is appropriately immature and selfish and selfless and Deku pushes back on and off against Baku’s behavior. It’s fluff that doesn’t just rot your teeth—there’s proper balance.

57. close but not quite by blossomshed | 13.9k

action/adventure, romance Okay, this one had extra special bonus good characterization. It had details from Katsuki that absolutely have canon basis, but that I so rarely see drawn on in fic, and I was floored. This is a classic “Deku gives Baku OFA via kissing” fic, featuring acespec!Katsuki trying to figure out what the heck kissing is about. So much explored in so little. Fantastic.

58. invincible by supercrunch | 20k

action/adventure warning: non-graphic human trafficking An interesting canon-divergence, here! The sludge villain never goes after Katsuki, so Izuku never goes to UA. And he falls into a pit of depression. With only a bit of parental nudging, Katsuki goes to help, and his idea? To start being vigilante partners together. I found it to be a compelling alternate view for them!

59. we will wait and wait in that space by roadtripwithlucifer | 22k 💚🧡

angst warning: MCD, manga spoilers ch367 Okay, only read this one if you’re ready for the real real hurt. Because know that it has an uplifting ending, it is not needless pain, but I, the robot of the bkdk fandom, cried real tears with this one. It twists the most beautiful knife and has some of the best Deku characterization to date. And such gorgeous love. It is worth the pain, but do not read in public!

60. Sink to Swim by cinnabee | 35.7k

angst warning: big torture, constant suffering for our boys. Remember what I said about the real real hurt? Yeah, that one was the big cry one, this one is the big tension, big whump one. As the warning says, this fic has very explicit, repeated torture in it, the game is basically that the boys have been teleported from UA into a torture maze that they’re trying to find their way out of. I, personally, loved the tension and the pacing, but it’s def not for everyone!

✨ Bonus! ✨

perfect by eggstasy | 2.7k

fluff No bkdk in this one, just Bakugou x 3. It’s Bakugou and his parents from when he’s born to when he develops his quirk and them just loving on him as a little baby, despite him still having some of those, hrm, lesser traits that he has as a teenager. So cute.

more recs can be found here 💚🧡

[satoruxx]

satoruxx’s 200 followers event !!

thank you all so so much for 200 followers! this blog is only a month old and i am so overwhelmed by all of the love and support! thank you guys for giving my writing a chance!!

to celebrate i’ve decided to host a lil event for you! i wanna write things for you guys, things that you want!

so here’s the idea:

☽ i will keep 5 slots open (for now, i just wanna make sure i can work at a steady pace). i will open more once i get in the swing of things.

☽ there are two different ways you can send in requests. the first option is short and simple! just send in a character and a quick little prompt of what you’d like, and i’ll write out a short drabble for you!

☽ the second option is song related. you can either send me a character and a song you like (if i haven’t heard the song i will listen to it!) and then i will write you a short piece based on what vibes i get from the song. OR if you don’t have any songs to suggest, give me a number between 1 and 400 and i will pick the corresponding song off my main playlist to write something with the character you choose!

☽ i’m okay with both sfw and nsfw requests (obviously you need to be 18+ to request nsfw)

☽ you guys can request characters from any of the fandoms i write for. for now i’ll just be listing the characters i’m most familiar with, but feel free to send in an ask if a character you want isn’t here. it’s most likely that i’ll be okay to write it, but the characterization may not be as good. i’ll try my best though!

☽ here are the characters and fandoms i’m most confident writing for:

jjk: gojo, geto, toji, sukuna, nanami, itadori, megumi, yuta, choso, and pretty much ANY other character bc i am all caught up with jjk and i’m pretty familiar with everyone!

genshin impact: kaeya, kaveh, diluc, alhaitham, xiao, zhongli, scara, childe, cyno, and again basically ANY other character bc i’m all caught up here too lol

honkai star rail: gepard, dan heng, jing yuan, blade, and ANY other character bc there aren’t that many yet lmao

haikyuu: kuroo, oikawa, bokuto, iwaizumi, kageyama, akaashi, atsumu, and osamu. there are a LOT of characters in haikyuu and i feel pretty confident about most of the major ones but not everyone so send an ask and i’ll let you know!

blue lock: disclaimer! i have not read the manga for bllk yet, so most of my writing will be based on anime only. take that with a grain of salt. that being said i’m dying to write smth for nagi. isagi, bachira, chigiri, kunigami, rin, and a few others are also good with me!

there are other shows i’ve watched that are listed in my about me (aot, jjba, mha, etc.) and i may be ok to write for them but i won’t put them here. if you want someone specific from these fandoms send me an ask!

☽ anyways these are the main rules. again, please don’t hesitate to reach out to me if you have any questions. i’m really excited for this event and i wanna show my appreciation so feel free to send in your requests!

☽ slots filled: 8/10 [added more]

[void-botanist]

Avis & Sorian OTP questions 2/6

From this question list.

There are 60 questions, so I’m doing this in 10-question chunks. #soravis otp will give you all of the parts.

Enjoys these two dumbasses being the best and worst for each other taglist: @vacantgodling

Do either try to hide their emotions if upset? Can the other still tell? Yes and sometimes. In the before times they were much more open with each other, but now both of them are a lot more guarded, and it's going to take time to work that out. Avis won't try to hide her emotions if she's just pissed off. But if she actually feels hurt, she doesn't want to talk about it, even though he's going to want her to if he notices. Sorian tends to shut his hurt in too, but not because he's afraid of vulnerability - he's just worried, based on multiple previous experiences, that the second he shows that vulnerability Avis is going to rip him to shreds. He also doesn't want to seem upset with her in general because he doesn't feel like he's allowed to be, or she doesn't think he's allowed to be, which at the end of the day are the same thing. But Avis would rather he be upset with her because she knows what to do with that.

Do they have many heated arguments? How do they smooth things over? In the before times, they actually didn't really. They definitely argued, but it rarely got heated. Now they're both so on edge it's almost inevitable. They smooth it over first by not talking about it. Then one of them will either be bothered enough to break the ice, or it'll come back up when they've both had a drink and can attempt to approach it like rational adults.

Who’s the bigger tease? Sorian, just because he's more direct and obvious about it.

How do their personalities compliment each other? How do they clash? It's easy to see that they clash because Avis is mean and Sorian is a wet noodle of a person. But it's more complicated than that. They both know each other really well - they were married for almost sixteen years before they separated - and are good at knowing what the other needs or wants. They're both meticulous up to a certain point, a point which almost always comes earlier for Avis because she gets tired of being careful and says to hell with it (I'm thinking about carpentry but this applies to everything basically).

Do they always say 'i love you' before leaving? Hoo boy not with those words. That's what they mean, but they usually sound more like "okay, bye, dumbass" or "I'm going now" or "come back with orange juice or don't come back at all".

Can they stay up all night just talking? They believe they can. They'll be asleep by 1.

Who's more likely to pull the other in by the waist and kiss them passionately? If it's the waist, it's Sorian. Avis generally leverages some higher body part first to bring Sorian closer to her level (she's 5' 3", he's 6' 2").

How likely are they to have fur babies? How many and what kind? Not very. Sorian doesn't super care about having pets, and Avis is allergic to cats. If they ever got a pet it would probably be a hermit crab.

How do they feel about PDA? Avis would like to be the kind of person who doesn't give a shit, but really you'd be hard-pressed to get her to do more than hold hands or maybe rest her face on his shoulder. Historically she was a little more touchy-feely, and Sorian definitely was, but that was in the before before times when they still lived on Imni (an island on Rade). Sorian will still be a little more touchy even now.

Choose one song that perfectly describes their relationship. Hold The Line by TOTO lol. And not just re: Sorian waiting forever.

[allthingsfook]

hi! if you're still doing ships i would love one! (but if not no worries lol)

im 5'2 and im a ginger. i have brown eyes and i have both my ears triple pierced and i have my nose pierced as well. my favorite past time is hiking. i love being outside and my friends make fun of me because i usually hike barefoot lol. i love listening to music and if im close friends with someone i will be making them a list of songs that make me think of them and sending it to them. i like just about any genre of music and i love discovering new songs and sharing my music with people. i also LOVE to dance. im terrible at it, but it's fun lol. my love language is definitely physical touch - but i usually try not to do it too much unless im really comfortable around someone. i also love to make crafts (crochet and wire jewelry) and i usually make all of my holiday gifts for my friends. im in school to study the classics (greek and latin language and civilization) and ill be working in archeology when im done. im also a martial arts instructor. ive also been told hundreds of times that i have camp councilor/theater kid energy lol. i think i just like to talk and i definitely talk with my hands a lot.

hope this is enough 🫶

Hello lovely!!! I ship you with….

Joshua!

Your whole blurb screams Josh!!!!!! I’ve never been more sure about a ship!!!

Josh would swoon over your style. Outside of his stage outfits, his style has grown to be pretty basic 😬 It looks like he’s getting a little more edgy with the Starcatcher tour coming up, ex: the earrings and cuffs. I see him sneaking into your jewelry box to find just the right earrings for the day.

If josh had more leisure time, I know he’d exist in nature. I think he has such a profound love and connection to it. If there is one person on the earth that wouldn’t judge you for anything, let alone walking barefoot, it would be Josh. If anything, he’d join you.

Josh also seems like someone that curates little music lists for special people. I feel like he prefers to do things like that instead of bought gifts because it’s more sentimental. I definitely think one of Josh’s love languages is gift giving. I don’t exactly know how Josh would adjust with someone who doesn’t identify with physical touch. So that’s great you are okay with that. On a normal day, Josh would be so lovey-dovey with you, but imagine the nights he gets drinking 🤭 He’d have his hands all over you!!

Guess what? Josh is a goofy dancer too! I can see the both of you closing down the bar, blearing the juke box until the bartender cuts you off, and the two of you spinning around the room. Your cheeks would hurt from smiling/laughing so much.

Josh would be one to model the crafts you make. If you made him a necklace or bracelet, he’d never take it off. The most special part of that would be when he’s touring, your see the videos and photos of him still wearing them on stage.

For your collage, I’m definitely going to include photos that give off camp counselor vibes 😆

Let me know what you think!!!

[b3loveless]

Unscripted: Neon Dreams Chapter 3 Main Theme Song & Practicing

[Twitter Thread]

@starboundwhisper

🚨JUST DROPPED! 🚨All 200 contestant pics + stats are up, and I am NOT okay! Who’s ready for #StarboundExpressS3?!? 😍✨ There are some seriously gorgeous faces in the mix… but can we TALK about Mi Sha? Like, his bio is basically blank, and I can’t figure out if that’s on purpose or if they just forgot to fill it in?? 😭

@seraphicmoons

Replying to @starboundwhisper

RIGHT??? It’s like they want him to stay mysterious, but now I’m obsessed with him already! Bet he’s the type to crush it in challenges without breaking a sweat. 5 stars, calling it now.

@cosmiccatcher92

Replying to @starboundwhisper  

Mi Sha is like if mysterious charisma was a person. Those eyes look like they could suck you in! Is it just me, or does he look like he has some serious history 👀? I’m dying to see what he brings to the stage!!

@Lunaris94

Replying to @seraphicmoons

YES! I mean, Mi Sha’s photo alone has me ready to sell my soul to this season. He looks like some perfect AI generated model, and the fact that he’s basically a complete enigma is KILLING me. If he doesn’t end up as a 5-star legend, I’m throwing hands.

@silverwings79

Replying to @cosmiccatcher92  

Same, Mi Sha is giving me such bad boy meets zen master vibes, I can’t handle it 😭 But okay, also, those skill stats though?! His Precision is through the roof! I bet he’s a tactician type.

@orbitfanatic_101

Renato and Ming Kui better end up being best friends OR enemies by episode 2. Look at those smiles! 😇 Definitely both an E person. Also…is it too early to ship Mi Sha and Aimé? Total opposites-to-lovers potential, calling it now. #StarboundExpressS3

@nebulagazer520

Replying to @orbitfanatic_101  

Aimé could melt a stone heart with those bambi eyes, so like, YES, this ship has my full support! 😍 But, Renato? I'm actually shipping him with Rozier 🤭 That guy is clearly born to be dramatic. I’m here for his intensity, lol. Imagine him and Renato paired up? Chaos or romance, either way, I’ll be happy.

@moongalaxie88

Not even a week in, and we’re already drowning in ships 😂 But y’all, let’s talk Augustus’s elegance 🖤 Absolute top-tier. He looks like he could befriend Mi Sha, actually. Cool and calm types, keeping everyone in line!

@cosmosrosebud

I’m so ready to watch Phoenix DESTROY everyone on the stage. Those Vocal stats are 🔥! He’s definitely making top 10. #TeamPhoenix 👏👏

@nyctophilexoxo

Did anyone notice Rory looks like a literal cinnamon roll, yet has INSANE Performance stats? Bet he’s one of those quiet underdogs. 

@starshine_spirit

Personal thought—June’s aesthetic?? SO soft and understated, with that shy smile. I can't believe he's a rapper. Alpha on stage but omega off stage—love that gap moe! 🤤

[Reddit Thread: r/StarboundExpress]

u/galacticdreamer

[Discussion] Starbound Express S3 Contestant Stats & Pics—Early Predictions!  

Alright, y’all, who’s looked through all 200? My predictions: Mi Sha’s definitely a contender for the 5-star rating ASAP. He’s already trending for his near perfect face AND stats—I mean hello? Those Focus and Strategy stats are insane! What’s everyone’s thoughts??

u/stardust_sipper

Totally agree! His profile is so minimal, like they know they don’t even have to try with him because we’re all hooked 😭 Anyone else think we’re getting that ~trauma backstory~ vibe? I mean, that look in his eyes…

u/meteormelody

Lol yes, Mi Sha’s already in everyone’s “dark and mysterious” list! Also though, I need someone to explain Renato and Rozier to me—are they here to steal our hearts or each other’s throats?? Cause their pics say both.

u/solardreaming

Renato/Rozier ship has my FULL support 😍 But also, can we talk about Aimé? He looks like he’d get flustered by a strong breeze. So wholesome compared to the rest of them!! I’ll be devastated if he’s the first to go.

u/horizonsway

Wild theory: Aimé’s gonna play the “shy softie teammate” but then outwit everyone. His stats rank just under Mi Sha's when it comes to being an all-rounder. Bet he’s gonna serve looks AND get the 5-star rating first…

u/shipperqueen: People shipping Renato and Rozier but I’m all in on Phoenix x Mi Sha because y’all, they’re both way too beautiful to stay platonic, just saying. 😏

u/blu3dwarf

Oh, Phoenix and Mi Sha together would be fire and ice! 😍 But I think Mi Sha’s playing the long game; he seems like the quiet strategist who’ll slowly make alliances. I mean, *look at those stats*—if that's not a sign of a boss character then I don't know what is. 

u/constellationkid

Mi Sha looks like he could destroy everyone without blinking, but they all have their strengths. That’s what’s making me nervous/excited to see who’ll actually make it through. My gut says he’ll get the 5-star first, though. Something about him just feels inevitable.

*

The persistent alarm ringtone sounding from his communicator shattered the tranquility of his bedroom in a manner that promised a spectacularly busy day. Mi Sha stretched with a groan of reluctance—gone were the days of waking up whenever he felt like it. As he stared dazedly at the canopy above his bed, he slowly recalled the events of yesterday: being kidnapped and roped into participating in his own idol survival show, receiving the seasons first 5 stars rating, and now rooming with three people he has only just met.

He rubbed his eyes, wondering if he’d dreamt the absurdity, but the quiet noise of the others moving outside his closed bedroom door told him otherwise. Pulling himself out of bed, Mi Sha quickly dressed in something serviceable, a practical and boring black tee over black jeans with the white silk bomber jacket as the only new addition to be added. 

When he finally stumbled out of his room he nearly did a double take. Rozier was seated at the round table on the balcony just outside the common area, sipping tea with such ease and elegance that Mi Sha almost believed he was witnessing a performance rather than a morning ritual.

A porcelain tea set, complete with delicate tea leaves in a separate bowl, sat meticulously arranged in front of Rozier, who was already immaculately dressed in an outfit that looked both effortless and like it had been curated by a professional stylist. Mi Sha watched as Rozier’s fingers danced gracefully over the teapot, pouring a steady, delicate stream into his cup.

“Morning,” Mi Sha greeted, voice rough with sleep. 

Rozier glanced up, then raised an eyebrow in a way that Mi Sha was beginning to think was his signature expression. “You're up late.”

“Yeah. And you’re up early.” Mi Sha tried not to make it sound too much like an accusation.

Rozier quirked his thin lips in a half-smile with all the superiority of someone who’d been awake for hours. “I believe in starting my day with calm and reflection. Tea is essential.”

Mi Sha nodded, trying to keep his expression neutral, but he couldn’t help but remember how each of Rozier’s suitcases had been gently stacked by the footmen last night, their porcelain masked faces hiding any judgment that might have been there. Now he had an inkling why Rozier had packed half a household. He glanced at the tea leaves, the porcelain, and Rozier’s pristine outfit and thought, this guy could turn a survival game into an afternoon tea party. Rozier wasn’t just particular—he was practically living in his own little kingdom. 

With a parting nod, Mi Sha ducked into the bathroom, hoping a splash of water would shake off the haze of sleep that still clung stubbornly to him. It spoke to how peaceful his life had become in the past five years that he wasn't alert at a moment's notice. 

Truly, he had become quite degraded. Human habit was a frightening thing indeed.

But his self-deprecating musings came to a halt as soon as he opened the door. Phoenix and Aimé were already there, each monopolizing a corner of the vast marble counter.

Phoenix stood by the mirror, glossy dark blonde hair falling just above his shoulders, focused on spritzing cologne like he was preparing to attend some fancy event. The sharp scent wafted through the room, its notes smoky and unmistakably dark, making Mi Sha’s usual lack of perfume feel like an oversight. 

Next to him, Aimé dabbed moisturizer along his cheekbones, his face shining with what looked like pure radiance under the bathroom lights. Those natural blue-black curls, framed his face in an artful mess, as if he’d woken up like that. Which, Mi Sha knew, was impossible.

Phoenix gave him a brief nod through the mirror’s reflection. “Good morning.”

Aimé’s smile was softer, still very much shy. “Did you sleep okay?” He finished applying his moisturizer, patting his face gently with practiced care.

“Uh, yeah.” Mi Sha scratched his neck, suddenly conscious of his own reflection staring back at him, distinctly less polished than either of his roommates. He’d thought everyone would be sleepily stumbling to breakfast, not… preparing for a photo-op. But then again, it made sense, they were idols-in-making and this place was literally swarming with hummingbird drones capturing their every move.

While they primped, Mi Sha quickly brushed his teeth, washed his face, and swiped a hand through his hair, considering himself presentable enough. But looking over at Phoenix, whose glossy locks were as lethal as his cologne, and Aimé, who glowed like he had his own spotlight, he wondered privately if maybe he was the outlier here. Maybe he should start carrying his idol baggage more seriously as well? 

Moments later, they made their way down the staircase to the dining hall, an airy space with tall glass windows and a sumptuous spread that looked more like a five-star brunch buffet than the take-out meals Mi Sha was used to. The long tables gleamed with dishes, from plates of fresh fruit and steaming pastries to waffles piled high with whipped cream. 

Phoenix’s eyes lit up as they took in the spread, and even Rozier’s usual stony gaze softened at the sight of eggs benedict and smoked salmon. 

Mi Sha’s stomach rumbled, and he scanned the hall for a good place to start his morning feast. Before he could decide, a figure hovering near the dessert table caught his eye. June Kim, the waifish, doll-like contestant with the deep bass growl who’d barely said a word last night when not rapping, was staring at a tray of delicate pastries with a strange mix of longing and indecision.

“Going for dessert first?” Mi Sha asked, making his way over.

June jumped, caught off guard, and his cheeks flushed. When combined with those startled amber eyes and his pale pink hair, Mi Sha was suddenly reminded of a timid bunny—albeit a large one at his height of 188 cm that was even 4 cm taller than his own. “Uh, well, I… haven’t decided. They just look so... I mean, they’re really fancy, don’t you think?”

Mi Sha smiled. “Fancy’s one way to put it. They look pretty edible to me.”

June blinked, then smiled back tentatively. “True. It’s just… I don’t usually have stuff like this. And… I dunno what to choose first?”

Mi Sha tilted his head thoughtfully, taking in the array of pastries—muffins with golden tops, tarts dusted in powdered sugar, and what he could only describe as small, edible works of art. “If you can't choose, why not try a little bit of everything. It's free food.”

June glanced around, clearly unconvinced, but took a deep breath and reached for a tart. Mi Sha gave him an encouraging nod, then added one to his own plate.

As he went off to join the others at their table, he noticed Rozier was already seated, napkin on his lap, cutting up his smoked salmon breakfast toast with fork and knife in his usual refined way, completely unfazed by the bustling breakfast energy around him. After witnessing Rozier’s posh ways, it was no longer surprising whatever he did now. Mi Sha shook his head in mild befuddlement, but Rozier didn’t seem to notice.

The other contestants gradually filled up the many round tables in the hall, and Mi Sha found himself surrounded by the mix of personalities he was still figuring out. Rozier, taking small but quick meticulous bites with a silver fork; Phoenix, who tucked into his vegetarian breakfast after flashing a mild smile his way; Aimé, buttering his croissant with a serious focus, a glass of organic milk by his hand, thick curled lashes casting shadows on the tops of his cheekbones; and now June, who was trying not to look guilty about his second pastry at a separate table nearby.

Midway through breakfast, a disembodied yet familiar voice echoed through the dining hall. The Baroness’ shrill tones practically oozed enthusiasm, breaking into a cheerful announcement. 

“Good morning, little stars! I hope you’re well-rested, because today’s your first big challenge! But first…” A dramatic pause. “You’ll get to meet the Starbound Express theme song for this season—‘Incandescent Soul’! You’ll hear it every day, every night, and maybe in your dreams! Kekeke~”

Several virtual screens flickered to life near the contestants, and the catchy beat of the theme song began to pulse through the room. It was an electric tune with an infectious rhythm, perfect for setting the tone of the show. The lyrics were bold, celebrating the ambition, passion, and unbridled chaos of the competition.

When the song ended, the Baroness’ voice returned, this time with an edge of glee. “All of you will be learning the special choreography set to this theme. After three days, we’ll be filming it for the season’s official opening montage!” Then her tone took a turn, becoming deeper, almost a conspiratorial whisper, “But before that, we must not forget the very important official ratings. Will you rise or will you fall, my little stars?”

Mi Sha looked around, his eyebrows raised. Aimé no longer seemed to be able to eat another bite of croissant, while Phoenix furrowed his eyes, muttering, “Choreography? I'm not much of a dancer.”

Rozier looked up, dark stormy eyes trained on him in subtle provocation. “Afraid of a little dancing?”

Phoenix’s gaze hardened slightly, but noticing a nearby hummingbird drone he replied lightly. “If that’s all it takes to win over the audience, Rozier, then yes, I’m absolutely terrified.”

Rozier let out a noncommittal hum, thin lips twisting sardonically.

Mi Sha raised an inky eyebrow, leaning back and crossing his arms. “Well then, better get an early start on the practicing, right?” 

A collective murmur of agreement passed around the table as the screens flickered out, leaving the theme song’s catchy beat reverberating in their minds. 

*

As everyone knows, in large-scale idol survival shows, there is usually a group performance involving all or most of the contestants. It's not only the first official appearance of the contestants to the public, but also a major opportunity for contestants who failed the initial rating stage to earn a chance to advance, making it easier for them to be noticed by the audience. 

Everyone was giving it their all for this moment.

The ballroom echoed with the murmurs and steps of the contestants as they filed in after breakfast, some fiddling with their communicator which they’d been allowed to keep, listening to the main theme song recorded on it. “Incandescent Souls” was a high-energy track, layered with rhythmic basslines and syncopated claps, pulsing with a sense of grandiosity, like something made to capture both the thrill of stardom and the cutthroat competition they’d signed up for. 

In fact, the initial rating evaluation has its own nuances, which the contestants have more or less researched before the competition.

Apart from the over-the-top dramatic storylines like "a contestant who fails the initial rating and receives a one-star, leading all the one-stars to rise and challenge th five-stars," or "a dark horse who surprises everyone and snatches a spot among the five-stars," the five-star players generally fall into three categories—those with exceptional dance skills who aren't tone-deaf, those with outstanding singing ability and those with a unique asset that set them apart such as rapping or songwriting skills.

Most of the strong contestants who lack dancing ability, but are destined to be lead vocalists, are given four-stars. Likewise, those with excellent stage presence and performance abilities but possessed only passable vocal and dance ability were also put in this category.

Mi Sha stood among the contestants, watching the young men around him. Phoenix stood next to him while Rozier and Aimé also lingered near. Mi Sha could see the familiar bright golden head of Renato chatting with the contestants surrounding him as cheerful as ever, while June was by himself off to one side, quietly tapping his fingers against his leg as he tried to internalize the rhythm.

At precisely 7:00 a.m., the grand double doors swung open, and in glided the two judges they’d briefly seen yesterday. The woman moved with the grace of a butterfly, her pink gown fluttering around her like rosy wings. Her porcelain mask gleamed under the ballroom lights, and those sapphire-encrusted eyes seemed to glint with a cold, measured intensity. Beside her, the gentleman in a plum pinstripe suit tapped his crystal-knobbed cane against the marble floor, the painted mustache on his mask giving him a whimsical but stern appearance. They stopped in front of the crowd, regarding each contestant with an air of detached curiosity.

“You may call me Lady,” the woman’s voice emerged like a delicate, high chime. She fluttered her ostrich-feather fan as if each of them had been graced by her mere presence. “I will be your vocal mentor, ensuring that each of you produces nothing less than art.”

“And I am Monsieur or Sir to you all,” the man in plum added, his voice a smooth baritone with a distinct snap. “I will guide you all in dance. I suggest you give it everything you have—because we will be watching every detail.”

With a flick of her fan, the Lady gestured towards a towering virtual screen that shimmered into existence behind her, displaying the lyrics, moves, and expressions expected for the show’s theme song. The screen pulsed along with the beat, and as the music picked up, a hologram appeared, performing the choreography in perfect synchronicity with the lyrics.

Mi Sha tilted his head as he studied the moves, memorizing the rhythm with an efficiency that came from years of surviving high-stakes challenges. Next to him, he could hear Phoenix muttering under his breath as he attempted the steps with clumsy jerks, his brows furrowing tighter with each misstep.

"Now," the Monsieur clapped his hands. "Split into your respective groups and head to the practice rooms in the west wing of the second floor. We will be by shortly to make the rounds. Five-star contestants—let's see if you live up to your rating. Four-stars, consider this your chance to rise. The rest of you, show us something surprising."

Without another word, Mi Sha joined Rozier and Phoenix, moving toward the door that would lead them up the grand staircase. Aimé shot them an uncertain smile as he branched off to the room for four-stars. In truth, Aimé should have gotten a higher rating but unfortunately he made an error due to nerves and the judges gleefully slapped four-stars on him instead. Mi Sha offered him a brief nod in response, just enough to encourage him before they parted.

The practice rooms for the five-stars was a polished, high-ceilinged space with floor-to-ceiling mirrors and warm lighting that spilled over the polished wood floor. Music filled the room as soon as they entered, invisible speakers embedded seamlessly in the walls pulsing with the beat of the theme song. Mi Sha took up position in one corner of the room, Rozier and Phoenix moving beside him as they spread out to practice. There was plenty of room as there were only 17 five-stars in total.

The choreography wasn’t particularly difficult—at least, not for someone who’d spent years analyzing the movements of enemies in a life-or-death setting. Mi Sha mirrored the hologram’s movements with a focus so intense that the beat seemed to sync with his heartbeat, each move flowing seamlessly to the next. He twisted, leapt, and shifted his weight, each step precise.

Rozier was quick to pick up the movements too, his background in ballroom training easily helping him translate the movements of the choreography. However his movements, though elegant, lacked the sharpness of the jazz style, something that came naturally to Mi Sha, who’d trained himself to move with lethal efficiency. Phoenix, however, was another matter entirely.

Phoenix exhaled sharply after his third stumble, running a hand through his hair in frustration and dislodging the half-ponytail it was in. His expression exasperated, his lips pulling into a thin line as he eyed the screen. “I feel and look like a rusty and defective automaton.”

Mi Sha paused, taking note of Phoenix’s frustration. It wasn’t just a matter of understanding the steps—Phoenix was tense, his movements rigid and aggressive, more suited for a fight than the rhythmic fluidity required here.

“Phoenix,” Mi Sha said quietly, approaching him. “You’re treating the steps like an attack. Relax your shoulders; think of it like water. Flow with the music instead of fighting it.”

Violet eyes peered back at him in skepticism but after a moment’s hesitation, he rolled his shoulders and gave it another try. This time, his movements were smoother, less sharp-edged, but he still struggled with the rhythm.

“Better,” Mi Sha encouraged, moving beside him and guiding him through the steps one by one. “Focus on breathing with the beat—it’s like syncing with someone’s pulse.”

It took a few tries, but eventually, Phoenix found a rhythm, his previous frustration melting into something closer to concentration. Mi Sha stepped back, watching as Phoenix finally fell into sync with the music.

Just as Phoenix managed a full run-through of the choreography without stumbling, a finger suddenly tapped Mi Sha on the shoulder. Mi Sha followed it to its owner, a four-star contestant with a head of tousled honey blonde hair and an infectious grin.

Renato.

“Mind if I crash?” he asked, his eyes sparkling with eager charm.

Rozier's dark gray eyes swept over in displeasure, but Mi Sha nodded.

“Not at all,” he replied, moving to restart the music. As Renato took his place beside them, Mi Sha noticed that he carried himself with an easy grace. Each step, however, was marred by a slight hesitation, like someone half-forgetting the moves as he performed them.

Mi Sha stepped closer to him. “You’re hesitating between moves,” he noted. “If you’re second-guessing, you’ll throw yourself off balance.”

Renato glanced at him with a smirk. “Not everyone’s a born machine, Mi Sha,” he teased, his tone one of good natured humor. “But since you’ve obviously got it down—think you could give me a few pointers?”

The request, even laced with a coquettish wheedle, was an admission of sorts—a small allowance of vulnerability. Mi Sha regarded him with surprise before offering a nod.

“It’s all about breaking down the rhythm,” Mi Sha explained. “Watch.” He demonstrated the first few steps, pausing between them to show Renato how each move connected. “Focus on the connections. Treat each motion like a pathway to the next, not an isolated step.”

Renato tried again, this time following Mi Sha’s lead. Slowly, the hesitation began to fade, his steps becoming smoother as he adapted to the flow of the routine. Mi Sha fell into step beside him, guiding him through the trickier parts, and within minutes, Renato was moving with a newfound confidence.

“Better,” Mi Sha commented once Renato completed a run-through without stumbling. “Now just keep at it until it feels natural.”

Renato gave him a low whistle of appreciation. “I owe you one. Guess I underestimated the difficulty of all this.” He shot Mi Sha a sidelong glance, his expression curious. “How did you learn to move like that? Did you have formal training?”

Mi Sha’s gaze flickered but it was too fast to notice. “Not really? I'm more of a boxing and close combat kind of guy.”

There was a beat of silence, and Renato’s smile widened, “That's so cool! I bet you would be the type to do all the stunts yourselves if you were to act in an action movie, huh?”

But before Mi Sha could reply, Rozier clapped his hands.

“If you're quite finished with the bonding, gentlemen,” Rozier drawled, his tone cool and indifferent, though the annoyance was unmistakable. “Can we perhaps get back to practicing in peace?”

Renato flashed him a sticky sweet smile, “The last time I've become jealous about a friend being stolen by another was back in kindergarten.”

Rozier's eyes narrowed, the dark gray becoming slivers of slate.

Mi Sha looked at Phoenix, not understanding what was happening. At the other's shrug, Mi Sha decidedly wrote it off as those two possessing clashing magnetic fields.

As the music started up again, they all fell into formation, each of them finding their place within the rhythm. Phoenix’s movements grew sharper, his confidence restored, clearly a fast learner. Renato matched Mi Sha’s pace, his natural charisma now shining through with each step. Rozier, as usual, added a touch of flair, his movements more theatrical than practical.

By the end of the hour, they were all drenched in sweat, but the routine had become second nature to them. It was only then that the Lady and the Monsieur made their rounds back to the five-stars group, watching the contestants practice from their place by the door.

The Lady clapped her gloved hands delicately. “Impressive, five-stars. Perhaps there’s hope for you all yet.”

The Monsieur simply nodded in approval, his fingers tracing the crystal knob of his cane in an inscrutable manner. “I see some of you have chosen to focus on the dance first. If there are any questions you may step over one at a time, likewise for vocal related questions. On a side note, I ask the interloper to kindly return back to where he came from.”

Putting on an expression of playful chagrin, Renato glanced at Mi Sha, that seraphic smile of his increasing in another degree of sweetness. “Thanks for the help back there. You’re full of surprises, Misha. See you around?”

Noticing the different pronunciation of his name, Mi Sha raised an eyebrow but only nodded in reply, giving him a slight smile. He was not the only surprising one here. He knew all too well that surprises were part of the game—especially when the stakes were this high.

[magnificentnuggets]

Right, basically more recently I’ve been working on some kind of persona game. It’s basically an idea for Persona 6 except created by a person who is horrible with thinking about creating tightly-knit narratives or themes so yeah. And at the end of a few of the character’s sections will be a song that I kinda got inspired by their character over (yes my music taste is impeccable what do you mean?). Also if there are general mistakes and such then my apologies, I’m shocking at spelling sorry lol.

(Oh yeah, there are trigger warnings to list off because what’s an oc if something horrible and traumatic didn't happen to them right? EDs, domestic abuse, grooming, SA. So yeah, please don't trigger yourself just to read some random person’s shit ideas. I’d rather you be okay really lol)

I have literally hardly anything thing outside of the characters for it and that’s:

- The levels will be called districts

- The main theme of the shadows and districts will be about a person’s deepest fear and the idea of giving into them

- The supernatural thingymabob (Like the TV world, The Dark Hour and the Metaverse app) will be an elevator in the basement an old hotel

- The Velvet Room is a bar with the whole theme of running from a person’s fears with alcohol, fusing personas would be mixing drinks

- The main colour is green (creative ik) mainly cause I associate green with fear but also green could relate to nature and calming oneself

- The theme of the character’s personas will be characters from plays

- I want to have a proper human antagonist to be the mastermind behind everything with it maybe being either a mentor to the MC or a twin (the only thing with that is worrying about it being similar to Joker and Akechi’s symbolism) that gave into their fear of every action being pointless

- The shadows and districts would be more so mocking and satirising these people’s fears with the whole idea being how fears can be irrational and all that

- The method that the party members (Including the MC in their second awakening, yes I will get onto that) would acquire their persona would be to rip out their shadow’s “heart” essentially. The “heart” would only be a reflection of their vulnerability. This whole ripping out their heart thing would also be how they summon their persona in battle and such

- The romance options will be more concise and make actual sense legally (So not P5 lmao), also they can date whatever gender cause there are two MCs again (huzzah for FemC) so basically anyone can feel closer in a relationship (straight, lesbian, gay, bi etc…well actually that covers it mostly) and it means that the harem scene can be even fucking funnier than it already is

- The bosses in the levels would be the shadow enveloping the person and fuse with them (Except the MC’s shadow)

- The shadows of the characters will also represent their reversed arcana

And with that here is some basic shit about these buffoons I’ve made (There’s gonna be around 9 hopefully if I can be bothered to think of more) so Y’know, critique them or whatever you’d like to do. Although one request would be to just throw out ideas to add to this really. I’ll have the *Very* unfinished basic character sheet then info on the district then all the bullshit notes I have. Some will have way less than others mostly because I write them first and haven’t got around to revising them yet. Also side note I kinda wrote a few of them here based on songs that gave me ideas for them so that’s your daily fun fact (I’ll probably put the songs with their profile). Also, I’m missing two districts I haven’t planned from this list so don’t worry, I can count.

M/C: (Doesn't have a canon name yet or maybe at all lol)

Age: 16

Gender: M / F

Occupation: Student

Arcana: Fool

Appearance:

Personality:

Shadow’s Personality (Cause yes they have one): Kinda hardly has one really as their shadow is more a manifestation of summing (idk yet) and so its voice is different from the MC’s voice lines with the shadow’s voicelines being more a collective of voices. Also when it transforms into its boss form it absorbs a shit ton of other people’s shadows as the MC’s dungeon is kinda like Mementos in a way with it being the collective fear in society of nothing truly mattering in the end with everything eventually vanishing

Shadow’s Appearance: It would basically look like a sort of stereotypical circus performer

Weapon:

Family:

Friends:

History: All I have is that they used to be in a travelling circus that disbanded

Extra Notes:

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name:

Gender: M / F (Possibly Gender Neutral)

Appearance:

Arcana: Fool

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender: M / F (Possibly Gender Neutral)

Appearance:

Arcana: Fool

Inspiration:

Reflects:

Absorbs:

Resists:

Weakness:

District: (Haven't named it lol but it's a big top circus)

Basically, it will be themed around the MC but be more of a collective rather than directly poking fun at the character like every other district would. It all would end with the MC getting a second awakening for the last district though with their shadow splitting off from the horde of shadows and letting the MC rip out its heart. Also, this is like the penultimate district and I’ve put it first lmao

Hopkins:

Age: N/A

Gender: Male

Occupation: Bellhop

Arcana:

Appearance: Rabbit in a bellhop outfit

Personality:

Weapon:

Family:

Friends:

History:

Extra Notes:

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana:

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana:

Inspiration:

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Weakness:

Akita Tatsuaki:

Age: 16

Gender: Male

Occupation: Student

Arcana: Hanged Man

Appearance:

Personality: Fills the ‘best friend’ archetype in the game and acts like an older brother to the rest of the team. He isn’t the brightest bulb granted but he does try to show that he does care whether with touch or basic ass stuff like “that’s rough bud” he would have more initiative in understanding what it’s like to be a human in a rough patch though even if he doesn’t fully understand their traumas. He’s generally the most optimistic of the group and has his moments of having to pull everyone else’s shit together to carry on their mission. Also he generally listens more than talks. He’s the golden retriever of the group but still having an uncertainty about his life weighing him down. He puts on this facade in general, making it seem like he’s actually pretty put together and confident in himself, but in reality, he’s really struggling with himself, and the confidence he has for himself is only in sports.

Shadow’s Personality: All in gambler, absolute reckless abandon, loud and abrasive

Shadow’s Appearance: Wears American 1930s-style clothing with a long pinstriped coat and having slicked-back hair. Another note to do with the shadow is the chips that he’s betting have inscriptions of houses on them as he’s just throwing away any chance of a stable life

Weapon:

Family: ….Well dead

Friends:

History: He moved to (Whatever I end up calling this town) from the countryside after his family home burnt down and absolutely refuses to allow this change to happen. He continuously runs from any foster home he’s placed in and essentially becomes homeless

Extra Notes: In his social link he opens up a bit more and admits how he’s struggling with himself, how he’s insecure about how he sees the world, and how that affects his perception of his self-worth. The more he opens up, the more he’s able to let go of that facade and actually be himself.

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name: Hamlet

Gender: Male

Appearance:

Arcana: Hanged Man

Inspiration: The namesake of Shakespeare’s play “Hamlet”

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists: Ice

Weakness: Fire

(Lv 5 stats)

Strength: 7

Magic: 10

Endurance: 4

Agility: 6

Luck: 3

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Hanged Man

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

District: “House’s Bet”

More of a mini-district to introduce some of the mechanics surrounding them like bosses and mini-bosses. His ultimate fear is simply losing this excuse for his own behaviour with his trauma of being ripped from his old home and brought to this new town. The whole level will be a giant mockery of him, reminding him of stuff like he has “no-balls” and other such insults. Akito’s dungeon is a casino in reference to the phrase “The house always wins” basically poking fun at him for basically being homeless and the casino thing plays into the randomness of his life. This district cracking down on this boy the hardest as he is being actively fed opportunities to get past his trauma but he’s the one going against that himself over and over so the district mocking him constantly is basically himself making fun of how he is ruining his chance at a normal household.

Emi Yukio:

Age: 17

Gender: Female

Occupation: Student, Ballet Dancer

Arcana: Chariot

Appearance:

Personality:

Shadow’s Personality:

Shadow’s Appearance: The shadow would have more plague doctor attire with two halves of a frilly dress at her hips. The shadow also has a small top hat cause it’s fun. She’s basically always doing a little jig and looking as slender thin and pale as the regular Emi. Her shadow would also be based on the black swan from Swan Lake to show this is her darker thoughts and she’s a ballet dancer. Also, it could tie into the story of the Ugly Duckling as her main issue is about her appearance

Weapon: Ballet Shoes

Family:

Friends:

History: She is a ballet dancer and daughter of a fairly well-off family. She believes she is never enough, not thin enough and not graceful enough (but more focusing on the former). She always skips meals and throws them up when she does eat them.

Extra Notes:

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name: Gruoch

Gender: Female

Appearance:

Arcana: Chariot

Inspiration: The first name of Lady Macbeth from Shakespeare’s play Macbeth

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists: Wind

Weakness: Electric

Strength: 7

Magic: 5

Endurance: 5

Agility: 9

Luck: 4

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Chariot

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

District: “Waste-O-Nosos”

The district is a 1600s London (Plague era essentially) themed around generally disgusting stuff like being based around a waste disposal system but being subtle about what’s being disposed of. The whole thing of rats being food will be more symbolic of her greater issues.

Tamaki Sasaki:

Age: 16

Gender: Female

Occupation:

Arcana: Moon

Appearance:

Personality: Literally just Regina George lmao

Shadow’s Personality:

Shadow’s Appearance: Takes on a 1920s flapper appearance (more inspired by Clara Bow) with a cloche hat, fur coat over her shoulders and a cigarette holder

Weapon:

Family:

Friends:

History: She is an older sister to a younger brother who is having a mental health crisis and requires most of her parent’s attention and she becomes a glass child. She also holds a resentment toward her brother for this but thinks she’s disgusting for doing so. Her fear will mostly be that she won't ever get her parent’s love again.

Extra Notes:

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Moon

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Moon

Inspiration:

Reflects:

Absorbs:

Resists:

Weakness:

District: (Haven't done this name yet either lmao)

Her district would be themed around a 1920s Hollywood silent film to symbolise her fear of being obsolete in her parent’s eyes. The story of the district would be about the transition from silent films to talkies and how some people lost their acting jobs and were tossed aside like she unintentionally was by her parents.

Renji Namagusu:

(Navigator)

Age: 16

Gender: Male

Occupation:

Arcana: Hierophant

Appearance:

Personality:

Shadow’s Personality: Think the pope with the energy of a millennial. He would basically be a massive fear-mongering preacher like his father but also more focusing on sexual impurity as that’s the main centre of his father’s abuse. He would have the symbolism of not only never leaving the church in the sky and even having the highest point at the podium in the church to symbolise the “holier than thou” mentality

Shadow’s Appearance: Looks a damn lot like his dad. He’d have basically a typical Catholic outfit that his dad would wear too and would even style his hair the same way. Also he would wear a little necklace with the male and female symbol on it to further push this idea his shadow preaches

Weapon: N/A

Family:

Friends:

History: He’s the son of the town’s Priest and is hardly ever seen. He always has visible bruises and cuts on him but it’s like no one in the town cares or wants to think of the Priest negatively. His dad would always be on tv and spouting off his bullshit, having this grasp on the town and what they think and when they think it.

Extra Notes: Extremely closeted with only his dad knowing about his son’s “impurity”. Also, there will be a sort of scene like in P4G where you see how the characters are and Renji would’ve taken up the mantle of the town’s religious leader but ended up being the opposite of his father and providing support to those in his situation.

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name: Javert

Gender: Male

Appearance: Javert doesn't have a proper body or head as Renji basically wears his persona as armour. The armour is mixed with both the look of Javert and typical angelic properties. It would be shoulder pads and the upper part of a breastplate, it would also have a popped colour. Javert will also have a top hat, with a fleur de lis on the front of the hat, that Renji would wear. The last thing would be that Javert would have a crown-like halo that would go over Renji’s eyes, it would also have three eyes on it (two small and one bigger) more akin to how a seraphim looks

Arcana: Hierphant

Inspiration: The character of Jervert from Les Misérables

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Hierophant

Inspiration:

District - “Parentification: Live”

His district is basically a Garden of Eden theming with a tree centralising the area. The area before the tree would be the town’s library where he meets with Shinsei with the implications there being clear. The area before the ascension of the tree will have TVs all over the place leaking static and puddles of it corrupting his paradise, all symbolising his dad being the extreme preacher on the screens of the town and how it’s ruining his son. At the top of the tree would be a church similar to the one in the town but with Renji’s shadow inside acting just like his father. The church would be hanging from the tree like the apple in the GoE to both show how he’s being conditioned by his dad to lead the same legacy as him (think the snake and Eve) and the phrase “the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree”. The whole naming of the district just mocking both his fears and just how little privacy he has to process his trauma.

(he has two songs, fucking favourite child)

Shinsei Ryosei:

Age: 17

Gender: Male

Occupation:

Arcana: Lovers

Appearance:

Personality:

Shadow’s Personality: His shadow is the pinnacle of sexualising himself to an almost satirical degree. He would constantly be making sexual jokes and gestures and just only being sexual with no real motive or anything to truly embody his fear of only being sexual.

Shadow’s Appearance: He’d basically look the same as the regular version like most shadows but his uniform shirt would be partially undone, he would have some heeled boots on, a pair of garish heart glasses on, a longer pink tongue that is usually hung out his mouth and wearing a pink faux fur scarf.

Weapon:

Family:

Friends:

History: He was constantly sexualised by his mother (think toxic boy mom) and took that with him in life and ended up with him treating his job at a fast food place, that his mother owns, like a brothel. His fear is being nothing more than this sexual image he was forced into.

Extra Notes: Another part of Shinsei would make a part of the big event that is detailed in his social link would be him being honest about his bisexuality and regrets ever telling anyone about it due to how the event between him and his mom’s friend was brushed off because of it. The encounter that he finally admits in his social link is how he was taken advantage of by one of his mom’s friends when he was still a kid. This would explain why the mother would brush this off and how Shinsei would push this over-sexualised part of him to cope and try and take back his sexuality but ultimately throwing it away as he feeds into his mother’s need for this affection and show of intimacy from him. The main tragedy of the whole situation is how easily it was thrown away as he is both a guy and seen as promiscuous already due to having an interest in men. Everyone just assumed he came onto her and she got away with it and never gets in trouble at all in the story. There is sorta a need in his life for this getaway and a freeing part of his social link with a relationship between him and Renji forming. Both of them being extremes of the concept of a person’s sexuality being taken from them in horrific ways.

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name: Earnest

Gender: Male

Appearance:

Arcana: Lovers

Inspiration: The alter ego of Jack in the play “The Importance of Being Earnest”

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists: Fire

Weakness: Ice

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Lovers

Inspiration:

Reflects:

Absorbs:

Resists:

Weakness:

District - “Fillet Up!”

His district is a mix of the fast food place he works at with a typical club with flashy lights and interesting music playing. Basically, it’s satirising it sort of with them still selling gross ass food and being in regular uniforms and roller skates because it’s fun. All the workers are essentially just stand-ins for Ryosei with a mask with a heart on it or whatever to show he’s only seen for his sexuality and also it’s a parallel of how fast food workers are only seen as numbers. It would probably look to be mostly a kind of reflective black vinyl look with the bright flashy pink lights being the main colour. The music could be a little jingle maybe mixed with heavy club music. This all just adds to the satirising of him over-sexualising himself. The cognitive version of his mother would be a pimp in “Fillet up!” having a lot more dramatic irony and making how he gets away with all of the blatant sexual harassment in the restaurant make sense.

Charlotte Niritai:

Age: 15

Gender: Female

Occupation: Internet star

Arcana: Tower

Appearance:

Personality:

Shadow’s Personality: Annoying ass TikTok star

Shadow’s Appearance: It would look like a younger version of herself with a puffy princess dress on with flashy lights and shit on it

Weapon:

Family:

Friends:

History: She would be more of a social media star with her whole fear is basically feeling like she doesn’t belong anywhere as her nationality is sold off by her mother (even down to her mother choosing an American-sounding name to appeal to that audience) and that she doesn’t feel like she belongs outside of Japan as she knows that anyone will only see her as who she is online.

Extra Notes: She can be seen before her arc in the game’s version of a social media app. Also for the whole ending segment where the player sees how they all turned out, she would end up being a baker, enjoying this more dull and traditional life and even deciding to choose a Japanese name for herself

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name:

Gender: Female

Appearance:

Arcana: Tower

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists: Wind

Weakness: Elec

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Tower

Inspiration:

Reflects:

Absorbs:

Resists:

Weakness:

District - “Internet Idolatry”

Her district is a giant hotel with flashy lights and such making it look like a Vocaloid concert. It would have light motifs of spiders with the webs and bugs generally too. The cognitive mother would appear in the level too, becoming a giant spider in the boss fight too with the girl being a fly-like version of herself showing how she’s being preyed upon for her talent. The level will be sort of internet-themed, the spider idea having three bits of symbolism tied to it with the World Wide Web, the mother’s web of lies and manipulation and finally how she’s acting predatory with her kid. Also across the district, there will be things like pop-ups and such. Also, it shows across the district how she’s selling off her nationality (literally in this case).

Kazuki Masato:

Age: 17

Gender: Male

Occupation:

Arcana: Emperor

Appearance:

Personality: He is shown as a more generally rough person but does have a very sensitive side that is also overdramatised in his shadow. He sorta acts like a jaded detective type until you crack him open and he shows that he’s actually a sweetheart and a romantic

Shadow’s Personality: The pinnacle of being apathetic in short.

Shadow’s Appearance: The shadow and the dungeon would adopt more doll-like features and having more effeminate designs. This is an exaggeration of how he is taking on aspects of his younger sister subconsciously and refusing to move on so the shadow would have things like long almost fishnet-looking gloves that look like funeral wear and frills on the shoulders of his clothes but also have a very masculine dress apart from that. Its eyes wouldn’t ever close and it would have fake eyelashes and other small things like that to basically mock this idea of him desperately clinging to the memory of his sister.

Weapon: Gun (pew pew)

Family: Also all dead (Sorry man)

Friends:

History: His story is more focused on grief and the fear of forgetting a person who died. He had a younger sister who died in a rollercoaster accident and he is struggling to deal with it since he’s an orphan already himself and is essentially living at his school. He essentially acted as a guardian to his younger sister and brought her to an amusement park for Girl’s Day with that being the day she ultimately died in that accident.

Extra Notes:

Persona Info:

(First Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Emperor

Inspiration:

Reflects: N/A

Absorbs: N/A

Resists:

Weakness:

Strength:

Magic:

Endurance:

Agility:

Luck:

Skills:

(Second Awakening)

Name:

Gender:

Appearance:

Arcana: Emperor

Inspiration:

Reflects:

Absorbs:

Resists:

Weakness:

District - “Lament of Hinamatsuri”

The district would also be a giant dollhouse mixed with the idea of a funeral, kinda going with the idea of “playing house” as that’s what Kazuki was doing with trying to give his sister a normal life. Also, all the shadows would show up as women in mourning with broken doll faces.

[justshitandanime]

Mahō Tsukai no Yome/ The Ancient Magus Bride – Anime review from an otaku witch.

This is one of these MASTERPIECES that deserve a full 10 stars from now on. As soon I saw the first episode, I end with a merge of euphoria and happiness because YES THIS IS MY SERIE.

It has so many good things that I should make the list:

Characters: WAY TOO GOOD. Even the lady, who seems kinda boring at first, SHE HAVE HER REASONS, and her growth is a delight.

Elias is by far one of my favorite characters EVER from now on, and the fact that he has basically no facial expressions, make it better, because they manage to show you his feels ("feels") and intentions with such a subtle way that you can get a glimpse of his thoughts even when he don't move or say a word. His own persona is a full different aspect. His backstory, his lore, his unknown reason to be. Not even mention that his face is pretty much a witch symbolism, but well, I will touch the witch aspect of this serie in my witch blog lol.

The secondary ones are also amazing, even the ones who basically don't even move. They are made in a way that you feel they NEED to be there, they are not a filling or a decoration.

Music: Great music, especially in some special sad moments, where you can cry your ass off. Lindel’s song (Iruna Etelero) make me cry each single time. And is, by far, one of the best anime’s song to my taste.

Design: This is an anime that is beyond beautiful, it carries so much artistic visual that in some moments, you need to make a pause just to contemplate a single frame. It replaces the "lack of action" (yeah, don't expect a fight each episode because will not happen) with the slow pace of the visuals.

Lore: Okay but now HERE is when the things get GOOD. Besides my otaku side, I'm also a witch, so I can tell you that a huge chunk of the magical lore is ACCURATE. From creatures, myths, material, ingredients, techniques, all. IS WAY TOO ACCURATE, it let me think that the writer has a witch expert near to learn about these shits.

Story: Besides all that, the story is phenomenal, magnificent. The sad parts are SAD AS FUCK, and this serie touch death in so many artistic ways that is almost a thesis of the process of life and death. That also make it fall a little in the dark and horror side, it has some good chunk of dark gore (what can be a little too much if you are not used to that) which play a lot with the light pretty parts, just as life itself, in a mix of tragedy and joy.

Not even mention how, in a subtle way, show us about PTSD, suicide and depression, how slowly heal from traumatic events, how grow and take healthy coping mechanisms; how a person under a traumatic past can get numb to the point that everything seems bland and pointless, about codependency, grief. Is a book about psychology with pretty stuffs in the middle.

A big bad point: A hint of Antisemitism. The main bad character is the Wandering Jew, and one of the “good” ones is a German scientist called Adolf Straud. Meanwhile, IRL existed Adolf Strauss, a German general from the Nazis. Like… * cringes *

Score: 4.7/5 and 9/10 Almost perfect if is not because these bad points, and the serie is dead and apparently the writer too (?), so is a serie that will never end and that make me sad. Nobody who is an even mild otaku can't not watch this short serie. I don't mention the manga because apparently is HUGE and well, no end.

One of the best shits I ever saw.

[hollandsangel]

WIP tag/title game

rules ; post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it

thank you for the tag @luciwritesstuff !! i need to be held accountable for the absurd amount of wips in my docs...i need a gun to my head.

no pressure tags! @ddejavvu @silkscream @sunshinesteviee

please send in an ask if you wanna know more about this stuff!! i need to be intrested in writing again lmao. (was just telling my bsf last night how i miss writing tragci love stories LOL)

steve harrington 

in the midst/to live for the hope of it all (working title) (one shot; angst)

so cliche, we’ve all read it before but the trope is so GOOD. essentially reader is jealous and a little bit concerned about steve’s realtionship with nancy post break up. it’s been months, but they’re so close, and he even admitted that she was the one that changed him. it never used to bother you, you trust steve, he’s an amazing boyfriend. but things start to pile up, and the image of him confessing that she was always the picture of his future is seared into your memory.

but it’s not real (one shot; angst)

okay so this one i actually hastily wrote up a summary for last night at like two am. i haven’t started writing it at all so im just gonna show you what my docs look like half the time and copy paste what i typed up on my phone in the dark...

being in love with bestie steve but it’s unrequited 

basically him driving you home and imagining the whole “you kiss me in your car you’re driving me home whatever” 

BUT ITS NOT REAL AND HIS FEELINGS FOR YOU DON'T EXIST 

so you watch him drive away and stare up at the sky and it starts to rain bc we’re dramatic here at hollandsangel 

slay.

tom holland 

...buckle up

at every table (one shot; fluff, prob some angst, smut)

this one i have started writing, but i’m not the biggest fan of the tone atm so i’m probably gonna switch a bunch of things up. here’s the summary i have at the top of the doc for this fic lol

BARTENDER TOM BUT HES A SINGLE DAD AND YOU MEET HIM ONE NIGHT WHEN YOU GO OUT WITH THE OTHER TEACHERS AND YOU LEARN HIS DAUGHTER IS IN THE OTHER FIRST GRADE CLASS !!1111!!!11!

there’s also this little prompt i have...

tom taking to haz, not knowing what to do bc he has to look after his daughter and put her first “well ofc you do mate, but you’re allowed to be a little selfish sometimes too, maybe this isn’t such a bad thing”

essentially this is my dream story. i’m really obssesed with the concept but i just. can’t. execute it. it’s literally been in my docs for MONTHS, like probably september of last year, i’m losing it.

perfume (one shot; smut with a little plot)

so this one is inspired by del water gap’s song perfume and is another one that’s been in the works since like august. ive started writing it up but it hasn’t really gone anywehre yet. it’s a def a work in progress but im excited bc i love this song. i think i just need to get back into writing for tom bc lately ive been feeling so...lost wiht him? like idk how to write him bc im so out of practice lol. ALL IN DUE TIME.

anyways, so this story is about tom lowkey lusting after friend!reader and when the whole gang goes out one night, he finally makes his move. everything i write is self indulgent. so.

okay, so the next three are literally just titles and have not been written at all. i just have the basic, vauge idea written under them bc i always get little ideas and then froget them whoops. i do plan on writing these...eventually but they’re pretty low on the priorities list.

when in rome (one shot; smut)

basically you’re on a hot couples get away and you get your period, thinking it ruins any chance of you and tom getting down but he proves you wrong

the extra (one shot; fluff)

this one is based off that tweet that all the extras were instructed not to talk to tom and when he went up to someone he told them he was sad no one would speak to him :(( literally sobbed my eyes out he’s the cutest man alive.

i have like two lines of text written for this LOL not even a summary.

the thunder is shaking the floor (one shot; smut)

i came up with this idea one week where it was super rainy in my town and never let go of it. it is rotting in my docs.

plans get ruined while you’re on vacation bc it’s raining. you make up for it. (basically fuck at a cabin resort while it pours outside and the windows are open)

bsf!tom (this one doesn’t have a title yet, but i love it sm, like i literally wish i had something going on in my head bc i’d love to churn this out. one shot; the holy trinity, fluff, angst, smut)

im giving you the unfiltered summary so you can how excited i was when i first came up with this lol

basically you have the worst luck with guys and you and tom get wine drunk to make you feel better and now he’s staying over and waking up with his hand under your boob and peeling himself away even tho he just wants to touch you and next thing you know he’s making love to you the way you deserve 

UGH wait she scooches closer in her sleep and subtly moans his name under her breath

HE SHAKES HER AWAKE GENTLY AND HIS LOOKING OVER HER AND SHE SLOWLY OPENS HER EYES AND HE HUST WHISPERS “you were dreaming, you kept saying my name” AND THE TENSION IS SO THICK AND SHES JUST LIKE “oh..” AND THEN HE HESITATES A LITTLE AND KEANS CLODER THEN STOPS TO RESD GRR FACE THEN KISSES GER

UGH I FORGOT HOW GOOD IT WAS

director!tom (also no title or summary, just vibes. one shot; angst, smut)

remember sweet? very similar idea, might even throw some fake dating in there who knows, im crazy.

bottom of the glass (one shot; angst, fluff?? maybe??)

i dont have a summary written for this, just like two pages of text...it’s another bartender!tom moment (my guilty pleasure) and him and reader get into a fight and it’s all really angsty. i have a bit of dialoug that’s barely coherent but i’ll give it to you anyways,

“if you don’t want to move in with me, just say so! don’t be a fucking coward tom, this is an adult relationship, and i want to be able to talk about conflicts like adults.” your voice cracks a little bit, but you choke back the stubborn tears that threaten to spill over, “i don’t want to feel so stupid that i get wasted at you bar,” you get quieter, sheepish almost, because you know you hadn’t been acting very adult recently either.

“you know i love you right ? even that was hard to come to terms with-“

“what the fuck is that supposed to mean?”

“that i’ve never done this before! i’ve never been in an ‘adult’ relationship and i’ve never been in love and i’ve never lived with a girl and i’m scared im gonna fuck it all up y/n” he flushes, face red with anger and sadness “so i’m sorry i clammed up, im sorry for what i said, i really didn’t mean it..i just got scared”

“and i know i didn’t make anything better but please just..i love you so much, and i know i’m making mistakes but im trying my best i swear”

feeling exeptionally exposed rn.... but this was fun!! i didn’t realize how many half started fics i had and it makes me feel like i still have good ideas!! hopefully i can get some of these out for you guys soon. let me know which ones you’re most looking forward to!!

[raytorosaurus]

can you pls explain to me what happened on tbp tour? i know the recording was bleak with the haunted manor and all that, but i keep hearing little things about the tour and i can't seem to find any information on google?? like some ppl on here have mentioned some things about frank's health and that he was on pills so idk if it was a drug issue or a chronic illness thing?? i think g and mikey suffered a lot of mental health stuff?? just please gimme the run down?! i love u

okay so this might get a little long so i’m putting it under a cut but basically in summary: they are insane. they’d already put themselves through a lot of emotional pressure writing the album in a haunted mansion where their producer was encouraging psychological warfare among them, and then they threw themselves into a LONG and gruelling tour and honestly made it as difficult for themselves as possible every step of the way. they were dealing with mental and physical illness and they pushed way past the point of exhaustion. they were reaching major life milestones (all of them got engaged at least once, three of them got married) but spending entire years away from home. they became the face of a subculture they didn’t particularly feel like they had anything in common with, and then they got some really bad press that was extremely demoralising because it wasn’t about the music, it was about the actual message of the band, which had been twisted and misinterpreted.

but if you want more detail (cw for sh & sui ments):

so the page for this tour got taken down from wikipedia for some reason but it’s archived here and it’ll give you an impression of just how huge this tour was.  legs kept getting added on to the tour because they thought this was the band’s, like, one big chance to take over the world so they didn’t want to say no to anything because they thought that’s what the album deserved. at the start of it they effectively played two sets a night - the black parade front to back and then some revenge and bullets songs as an extended encore. they did it all in thick, non-breathable wool jackets and trousers, and they did it six nights a week with almost no breaks - basically the only breaks they did get were when they were travelling between continents lol. the wiki page i linked lists the dates of the tour proper, but they were also playing album launch shows in multiple countries in the months before it fully kicked off. the spot that looks like they had a nice long break between july and october was actually almost fully taken up by pro rev LOL.

gerard and ray were actually the only members who made it through the full tour. cortez filled in for both mikey and frank at different times. mikey left fairly early - in april 2007, after getting married to alicia backstage after their show in vegas in march. he left for a honeymoon and didn’t come back until september for the final couple shows of pro rev. he also opened up a bit about how hard 2006 had been on his mental health while they were writing the album, so the break was much-needed. frank left a couple of times for shorter stretches, once because of an illness in his family and once because he had a wisdom tooth complication and couldn’t fly to australia. also, yeah, the constant touring took a toll on his physical health at times and he wouldn’t take breaks when he needed them - i’m sure you’ve seen the pictures of him onstage attached to an oxygen tank. bob was recovering from third-degree burns at first and then had persistent issues with chronic pain in his wrist and had to take a couple of months off playing or risk permanently disabling himself, and for at least most of those dates he was replaced by tucker from thursday. beyond that they did have to cancel several dates in may 2007 because everyone except frank and gerard (including most of their crew and the band muse) got terrible food poisoning from some catering chicken (frank escaped because he’s vegan and gerard because he slept through catering that day lol).

projekt revolution saw the band, like...really fucking exhausted. at that point they’d started getting kind of sick of playing the characters of the black parade. ray in particular talked about feeling disconnected from their audiences because of the uniforms and burned out by the repetition (this article’s pretty interesting because ray doesn’t talk about that aspect of the band very often in public). so for the festival shows they gave up playing parade in full and doing two sets every night for a bit, but now they were playing in extreme heat with a shit tonne of pyrotechnics lol. pro rev was meant to be the end of the tour, but they added a couple of extra shows in mexico to ritualistically kill off the black parade because i would expect no less from this band (that was october 7 2007, which is when the black parade is dead was filmed). and then they added another leg, and another...and they essentially ended up doing what basically amounted to a second full world tour without ever stopping the first one lol. it wasn’t only long but also so over-the-top in terms of theatrics and staging that they barely even broke even financially at the end of it. which is like. crazy. they had five full buses of stage equipment and a sound and lighting system that took five hours to set up and three hours to dismantle every night.

so if you’ve watched the infamous reading & leeds show you’ll recognise the “fuck the daily mail” thing, which is because after tbp came out they published satanic-panic-lite type articles calling mcr a suicide cult that promoted self-harm and stuff. you gotta understand that the emo subculture, whether or not it was connected to mcr, was one of the biggest laughing stocks of the noughties. notably, there were a series of riots and hate-crimes in mexico against “emo” kids (largely due to in actuality to homophobia, of course), and mcr would get asked about it so often that they felt like they were being blamed for it and that they needed to apologise for it. gerard in particular has spoken quite a bit about how much he struggled with feeling like tbp was being misinterpreted and taken out of context when it was such a deeply personal album to him. then things got even worse in may 2008, around the end of the tour, when the daily mail reported on the “emo cult” again, this time explicitly linking the tragic suicide of a 13-year-old girl to mcr. obviously this is, like, the antithesis of everything the band stood for, and they took it really hard. it spiralled even further, with gerard making a public statement about it, fans protesting at the daily mail offices, an inquest into the tragic suicide, and the daily mail doubling down and claiming that mcr should be grateful for the extra “publicity” they were getting from all of this. yeah. there’s a long section detailing all of this in not the life it seems, if you can stomach reading it.

the peak of this kind of aligns with the actual end of the black parade world tour in may 2008 in madison square garden. this is another one of those infamous shows - again, there’s an entire section in not the life it seems dedicated to it. it was a dream come true to play msg, especially for gerard and mikey, but they were completely burned out by that point. apparently the show itself was great and they were full of energy, but gerard was speaking to the crowd like the band was about to break up, and apparently the vibes were not great backstage. frank was so nervous about the show that he took a bunch of pills to get through it and has almost no memory of it. after they left the stage, ray found gerard in a dressing room and advised him to take a break or start another band that nobody knew about so it wouldn’t be the end of mcr for good. apparently gerard wrote boy division in the taxi on the way home after that gig but i can’t remember where i read that now so i might be wrong about that bit.

anyway, then none of them really saw each other for several months. frank started leathermouth because he can’t live without touring (ray played with them once too), but besides that the first time they were together again was for ray’s wedding later that summer. according to himself, brian schechter (their manger up until then) was fired over phone the morning after someone’s wedding so i have to assume it was ray’s given the timing lol (unless it was when gerard and lynz had a little ceremony or whatever, idk when that was).

anyway happy ending at least: they got back in the studio in october 2008 in new york to record desolation row for the watchmen movie and had such an amazing time that ray flew down to la (where gerard had recently moved) and he, gerard, and bob jammed around and wrote four new songs in no time. over the next year or two, the rest of mcr followed gerard to la one by one and started working on conventional weapons and they swore it would be a fun album to write and that they wouldn’t put themselves through the black parade recording process again. anyway then they scrapped it last minute to write danger days instead lol.

but yeah like. i think it’s easy to forget now in 2022 just how huge mcr was during parade era, but how they got completely misinterpreted in bad faith by, like, the media and culture as a whole. it’s probably fairly common for bands like them to be kind of misunderstood in their lifetimes but hailed as visionaries years or decades later, so it’s kind of like really fucking exciting to see mcr actually active again during the time when i feel like they’re finally started to get appreciated for what they really are. which is the greatest band in the world if you ask me but i guess i am a little bit biased <3

[aerimomo-mellon]

Skz as Boyfriends!

Paring~ SKZ x Reader

Genre~ informative lol

A/N~ yep it was requested! Enjoy 친구 <3

warnings? none. (idk mention of bed related things haha)

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시장……..

✿ Bangchan

We all know this guy and you all have read enough of him I think, to know what imma say. (But for special purposes why not..)

This guy is really really serious about relationships and you are probably the one because he just can’t help loving everything about you.

The fact that he is yours even with all the responsibilities and work he has as a leader and idol is a miracle itself. Therefore consider yourself LUCKY to have the most caring and loving man anyone could have.

Dates- He likes movies hence movie nights and date to the theater are often. If not then he likes taking you to a sports event or the beach cause yeah. ( that vibesssssss you know? )

PDA = 3/10 why?, because as mentioned earlier he is responsible for many important things and he doesn’t want to have any misunderstandings about you and dislikes hate in general. That 30% I gave him was because he would only do PDA if really needed.

In Bed things? Umm not often actually but once in a while yes WHILE he would like it I’m sorry I mean LOVE it..

Con? Yep time! Sorry girl but that time you need, it’s hard for him to fulfill every time.

Cute extra info- Doesn’t mention it but secretly likes when you poke his dimple and say he’s cute.

✿ Minho

There are these majority conceptions, as I said majority but not all cause there are stays who know that he is a sweet guy deep deep down.😉

If you’re his s/o he will give every bit of him to you and expects the same for you. I would categorize him as a boyfriend wo acts like a mom lol. It maybe hard to digest that information but trust me this feeling I have from my gut I can say that he is also very caring. Although he might not say things like I will be there whenever you need me or even I miss you, care for you, but he doesn't need to say this anyway. As action speak more than words our Minho is the same.

Dates- He likes to balance it between what you like and what he likes as well. If you are a new couple he straight up asks what you prefer. Plus point he likes to take you to cat café if you like cats too.

PDA = 0.5/10 why? honestly speaking this guy literally hates to express his feelings. That .5 is literally him agreeing that he is yours and that's it. (when someone asks that is)

In Bed things? I personally think it depends on his mood and not yours. Yup. Somedays he wants you a lot and somedays he likes his space. I'm not saying he hates cuddling but more than that on days he is either tired or stressed he likes to keep that little limit to what happens next.

Con? Attention... you would literally take his cats away from him to get his attention.

Cute extra info- likes it when you call him and yourself Appa and Eomma to his cats.

✿ Changbin

Changbin being the puff/ strong guy(sorry that sounded disturbed lol) We all know how babied he likes to be.

Him as a boyfriend is just very natural, I mean from the way he takes you on a fancy date to even putting nail polish on your left hands. Everything is very genuine and he loves it. The Boyfriend to always apologize first.

I find him as someone to take attraction and the next step which is relationship very seriously. ( the person to be very calculative, it can beat Chan honestly..)Knowing that he is afraid to hurt people in any kind of way, to hurt you even as an accident breaks his heart.

Dates- Our Dwaekki loves taking you on dates with loads of food or snacks. A typical Korean restaurant or even food stalls, he loves seeing you eat than to be broken when you might have some kind of sickness due to eating problems.

PDA = 5/10 why? Because he likes your opinion. He is okay with either if you insist on a particular one but slightly leans on less public knowing. Holding hands and probably hugging you wouldn't be a huge problem for him.

In Bed things? he loves it anytime honestly... if he is horney he is getting what he wants and when you are same goes to you.. you'll get what you want..

Cons? Too much aegyo which makes you do things you don’t necessarily want to. (Stay blessed)

Cute extra info- Praise him! (x100) loves it when you say things like " my boyfriend is so strong.." or even " those arms mmm..."

✿ Hyunjin

I mean do I need to say how into he is with this??? Damn this man is the most prepared man a girl could have. The type to know everything about relationships... from trending couple fashion to even special not important but cute couple events..( that he probably found randomly scrolling through google)

He knows your anniversary, birthday, your moms birthday, dads and basically your whole family knows him too. He also keeps track of your monthly cycle too cause he likes being responsible for you..

He is the type to get jealous very easily BUT wont admit it when you ask. Likes to braid your hair while learning from YouTube.. Likes to buy you so many colorful cute hair accessories. (loves your hair..)

Dates- we all know this guy is fancy so he likes fancy dates but he can also be the complete opposite.. Fancy~ maybe to a art restaurant or even on a fancy boat cause why not.. Normally though~ likes to take you to an art museum or at night to take you on the roof for star gazing..

PDA = 2/10 why? I've probably given hints on my fictions with Hyunjin about this in particular. He prefers keeping this in private and that 20% is with his members (barely)

In Bed things? This guy couldn’t be more romantic lol. Loves being prepared for this buys every thing you both need… and yeah loves it.

Cons? He buys Kammi more hair clips than you sorry….

Cute extra info- likes when you get mad when he cut his hair lol. I apologize to all the stays I know he is cute every time but that long hair just hits different….

✿ Jisung

The craziest boyfriend you could have and will only have. You would low key love your relationship with this man I’m telling ya…

You two would have so much fun like toddlers. He is honestly the cutest, funniest, talented etc.. man you get all in one.. ahaha..

Likes to buy you the most stupid things that actually works for a daily living..( that thing he bought to watch on his phone while laying down 😵)

likes to joke around and talk to you a lot.. gurll listen to him he loves it. He likes to value your problems as well so listens to you too.

Dates- likes to watch anime so you two usually have this anime night cuddle sessions but if he were to plan something outside he would prefer to take you to the amusement part lol.

PDA = 8/10 why? honestly he likes showing you off cause he is fond of you. Basically doesn't care what others think... his parents know you, members, friends outside the group, and stays know you exist lol.. 20% i kept for a reason because he doesn't like it when things get out of handle so he wont do anything to the extent..

In bed things? yes he likes it but that turns up into a tickle fight or even a complete cringe but cute moment..

Cons? He might be very sensitive leading to him being upset and you having to apologize...

Cute extra info- loves it when you kiss his cheeks or just play with them in general..

✿ Felix

I had to bring this up at some point lol.. stays probably know the video where he says his clothes are boyfriend material lol...and yes i agree hands down!

A boyfriend material in his own way ahaha.. i mean we all know he loves to be cared for and loved. That Bangchan! spoiled little youngbok.. i personally feel or think two ways. Either he likes being cared for by you or he takes care for you since now he gets to be the older one..

Felix likes speaking in English so if you know English he would speak both languages as well. Likes to give you blowjobs cause he fell in love with you lol..

Dates- Shopping malls, window shopping, UNO on a picnic lol all these are his favs and so are yours .. Personally speaking he likes to take you to places where he can take lots of pictures of you..

PDA = 4/10 why? I don't know haha yup its just a feeling where I'm in between of two opposite thoughts.. I fell like he shows you to his members and family but not more than that.. (Olivia is most likely to love you)

In bed things? Likes being pampered and loves it when you lead.. happens pretty often actually..

Cons? yes! he like being touchy and so do you but he does it too much which beats ya.. and jealous really easily! and he lets you know that..

cute extra info- compliment him on his freckles and he will blush literally a tomato 🍅..

✿ Seungmin

Sweet really sweet.. he is the typical Korean boyfriend you'll get haha even better than that.

He just likes to talk to you or even look at you all day and keep that puppy smile on him.. The type to sing you a song to sleep or whenever you ask him to. likes to hear you sing too.. attempts to make you laugh but ends up, giving up.

He likes kissing your eyes when they are closed.. or when you just fell asleep after the song likes to give your eyes quick pecks..

Dates- He likes walks and that's why you go on evening walks and return when it's dark.. likes holding your hands. He likes grocery shopping with you, takes you to the rooftop to talk about life and its shitty problems.. Basically effortless things that make your relationship happy for what it is.

PDA = 1/10 why? I mean do I need to tell you this? he is like Minho but just a little bit more obvious.. Prefers to express his love when you two are alone..(that's it)

In bed things? umm yes but no.. i mean he gives in to your begs but I feel like Seungmin is just too into cute cuddling and these things are only when he is very desperate ..

Cons? not much but maybe ignoring you when you ask if he can buy you ice Cream for the fifty-sixth time..(but gives in anyway)

Cute extra info- He likes when he sees you in his clothes.. but doesn't say it and acts like he doesn't..

✿ Jeongin

Baby, baby, Baby..... he is our baby boyyyy but his savage ass towards his Hyungs just breaks it all hahaha…

Jk he is actually really cute, caring, sweet and likes to be protective. It may not suit him but yes he likes scolding people if done wrong to you..

You might be older or younger honestly he doesn’t care.. he is very respectful to you either way. He loves you and is very shy too which you find cute.

Dates- Asks you for your opinion or his Hyungs. He still is very inexperienced so he doesn’t know but sometimes likes it when you two spend time on the swings of some random park with fruit juice 🧃..

PDA = 0/10 why? Cause no no no no not even to his members haha he is just too shy and likes to keep his relationship in its own boundaries.

In bed things? Nope please! I’m sorry stays but I just can’t with Jeongin… (no further details he is just so precious to me)

Cons? He understands very late.. like you trying to say you want to cuddle, kiss etc.. without words he won’t get it. Just fucking be straight forward with our baby.

Cute extra info- honestly everything is cute about him so I can’t fit it here sorry… stays use your imagination here…

끝…

[kimchokejin]

so heather (@wistfulocean) made the mistake of asking my top 5 bts songs of all time and i went a little crazy i think......who would have thought

i decided i literally can’t just pick a top 5 like...i’m incapable. how do you even compare all of these songs that are all so different? like it was hard enough for just those 34 title tracks the other week...so i’m doing 4 lists. group b-sides, unit songs, vocal line solos, and rap line solos. and i’m gonna be more chill on the whole only sound matters thing lol because there are a lot of reasons why i’m attached to some of these songs. i’ll try to explain them but it won’t always be sound related. the only rules i’m using are 1.) the song must be on spotify and 2.) BTS or a member of BTS must be the main artist.

okay...okay...let’s go!

i’m gonna start with unit songs because those were actually easiest to pick?

1. dimple

look i was really truly...choosing between this song and #2 is basically impossible, i would say they’re tied but i’m giving this #1 because it’s the only vocal line song on here lol. but also it’s everything to me, PERFECT pop song, super catchy AND quality, like it sounds amazing and yet it’s about kim namjoon’s very own dimples. like sometimes i forget what it’s about and then it gets to the bridge and i realize they’re being this dramatic about fucking dimples and i start laughing i just can’t believe it. that continues to be a theme here i love songs that make me laugh. although i do understand them being that dramatic about namjoon’s dimples like have you SEEN them? but anyway the BEST thing about this song, and i’m not sure if i have the words to explain this properly, is all the SOUNDS going on all the time. and they’re all on like entirely different rhythms, it doesn’t seem like any of them go together or with the vocals but then they DO. like it’s incredible to me whoever produced this i love you. matthew tishler (i’m SCREAMING actually this guy writes for like disney channel shows idk how to feel about that) and crash cove. i love you both. and you gave us such a satisfying voluptuous bass line. perfect song. strong power. thank you.

2. UGH! 🤬

the feeling i get when i hear the first few notes of UGH! is simply unmatched. like it doesn’t matter what i was doing or how chill i was before then, now it is time to thrash. when rap line says LET’S GO!!! it is time to fucking go okay??? i am always thrown off by the gunshots though, especially at the end. like what’s the point of those my friends

we’re doing notes for this one she deserves it but this is mostly misheard lyrics the romanization does not convey what i hear or feel in my heart

LET’S GOOOOOOOO

yeah mmm

dungdungdung dongnebugi dwae DUNG DUNG DUNG

those beats in namjoon’s verse idk what they’re called but they sound very old school

doing that one random high pitched word thing that i LOVE

ugh (OH!) ugh (OH!)

gah! gah!

btw i do watch the one concert performance in my head it just can’t be helped

hobi’s part is the best part surprise surprise

it’s the way he brings the energy down and starts out so casually and quietly but he builds it back up so perfectly like THAT is how you DO IT

WUH! WUH! WUH! WUH!

and then he brings it back down again! but it’s so SMOOTH. he’s magical

gah! gah!

and then HOBI doing that one random high pitched word thing that i LOVE sounding like a CHICKEN

scoot!

yawa! yawa! (i imagine this with the spongebob imagination rainbow hand movement. you know the one)

IHOP! IHOP! IHOP! IHOP! IHOP IHOP EATIN AT IHOP!

(ultimate favorite misheard lyric ofc it’s a product placement lmao)

like this song is so funny too but i just don’t have time to laugh about it because i gotta RAGE

ugh (OH!) ugh (OH!)

okay i KNOW you guys don’t have experience with automatic weapons yet

anyway

3. All Night (with Juice WRLD) 😜

i was actually going to have another top 5 list with collabs but i thought that would be excessive and this is also a unit song so i’m just putting it here. this song is one my ultimate faves because of the...i don’t even know if i can call it bass it’s more of like a rumble? like it kind of reminds me of a sound they would use in an EDM or dubstep song but like, super chilled out. and you know how the sound you hear is just your tiny little ear bones rattling in your eardrum? i feel like this sound rattles all of them in such a satisfying way like one of those coway massage chairs. like when you have a part of your body that you just KNOW you have to stretch but no matter how much you do it it feels the same but then one day you FINALLY bend it the right way and it stops? is that just a me thing? that is this song for me i gotta feel it in me ear bones every once in a while to be satisfied. and then on TOP of that the synth just reminds me of like, simply having a wonderful christmastime? not at all a similar song but i get a kind of wintery comforting feeling from that. ummm. i never really thought much about the lyrics until now, looks like namgi are talking about their love for their work lol but like...this is a sexy vibe...namjoon saying “come to my studio, magic happens” “seat-belts are fastened” “we keep ridin’ the whole night hold on tight” in THAT voice over THAT instrumental...he knows what he’s doing. i cannot be held responsible for my thoughts about this. and since there’s no performance or mv or anything to play in my head for this song i have NO choice but to imagine sitting on a basement couch with the artist made mikrokosmos mood lamp by jungkook on getting high with namgi and mayhaps we are eating ramen. before we move on VERY quickly i gotta shout out Juice WRLD for “need an ARMY, marching for your love, i’m a sergeant” because that is hiLARIOUS and “if it’s not your name comin’ up on my phone i won’t pick up the call” as someone who also HATES talking on the phone unless i’m super close to a person. like his whole verse is sweet and his voice is so interesting it’s got like a whininess to it that i wouldn’t expect to fit into the song but it does. i should listen to more of his stuff maybe

4. Stay

the PRODUCTION on this thing oh wow wow wow. again not that i know anything about production. but like, to put this in perspective, i’m not really into EDM or club music or whatever i’m supposed to call this. i wasn’t really into that era of pop music or most of the bts songs with that kind of sound but THIS. SONG. it’s really just the way it builds so smoothly from something so simple and ebbs and flows, it is PERFECT. i will definitely be following that producer (arston) and hoping he does more for bts one day. thank you for finishing out the be album with a bang what do you mean there’s another track on the be album. and then on TOP of that, such a sweet song, great vocals from jinkook, and namjoon’s iconic line “we connect to 7g!” i’ve made peace with the fact that they didn’t sing that part during ptd i can only assume the power of the crowd screaming that line would have been dangerous. power would’ve gone out concert over. cell towers fall down now none of us are connecting to 7g. boo

5. BTS Cypher 4

okay so the thing about cypher 4 is it’s all about “i love myself” right but when this comes on i am not myself...i am in the bts rap line. i am on the wings tour cypher 4 stage, i am wearing hobi’s velvety purple jacket and red sunglasses and the DEMONS haters cannot touch me. this was the first cypher i loved <3

notes for cypher 4?? notes for cypher 4 !!!

also nothing like the feeling of the opening notes to cypher 4 but it’s not rage it’s...unbreakable confidence

truly wish i could punch each and every person who’s ever called namjoon ugly in the face disrespectfully get fucked <3

errything errything errything!

dude this is such a good verse

but you! know my! name!

i love the echoey shouts in the chorus

HOBI’S PART. I LOVE THIS GUY

AHHHHH YOU WANNA BE MY LIFE???

du du du du du du!

no-kay no-kay no-kay!

...ah!...ah!...ah!...ah!...wuh!...wuh!...i love my RUUUUuuuUUUUuuule

CHUUUUUUU

wait hobi’s been into kaws since 2016 omg

this is one of my favorite yoongi raps ever

i’m SO high!

oh my ultimate favorite random high pitched words let it OUT bby

i know (i know!) i know (i know!) i know myself! ya player haters you should love yourself BRRP!

honorable mention to cypher 3 every time i listen it’s always better than i remembered it is JAM PACKED and they shouted “you can’t control my shit!” to the government and unnies call hobi beep beep ig? and based on the information we have available on yoongi’s tongue i can only assume its operated by boston dynamics

moving on

i’ll do...vocal line solos next that’s another easy one

1. Serendipity 💗

no one’s surprised right lol. watching him dance during the performance of this song made me a jimin bias. namjoon’s lyrics are beautiful. and i think the sound just really captures the feeling of infatuation (?) so perfectly. it’s ethereal, and i love! jimin’s!! voice!!! god!!!!! like if i ever hear another song like this ever again i’m gonna drop dead the penicillin won’t help me this time

2. Inner Child

ahhh i’m gonna cry...i love this song so much because i read a really good analysis article on it one time, this might be it but i’m not 100% sure i never remember anything. wait i’m reading it now and i’m crying that’s definitely it. oh and this one too that gets kinda technical with how the production and the meaning work together and the PSYCHOLOGY of it all??? gonna let those articles do the talking but this song is v imp*rtant to me

3. My Time

i remember i didn’t love this song at first, it had to grow on me. him saying “finna find my time” over and over again did not help lmao. but his voice sounds really good and the instrumental is very satisfying. i learned what it was about early on but never really looked at the lyrics since so i forgot how much english was in this song? i guess i’m just appreciating the sound i really don’t care what he’s saying lol but it’s super meaningful! i hope he’s catching up on whatever youth he can these days

4. Sweet Night ⛵

tae has REALLY good osts...i loved it’s definitely you and christmas tree but this song is just...especially relatable for me. it’s the longing and the pining and the fear of expressing your feelings and the wondering if you deserve love from certain people and the not knowing what you have til you lose it. that’s MY thing actually he stole it. and aside from that it’s just a gorgeous song, i love the harmonies, this song would have fit in very well with my vast collection of 2010s sad acoustic music

5. Super Tuna 🐟

yup. one minute and eight seconds of pure trot excellence featuring horrible homemade t shirts and dog toys from target that made me (and tiktok maybe?) a jin bias. what can i say i like the songs that go hard. like it’s so fast i don’t even dance to this song it’s more like a head/fist shake marching wringing out a towel thing. also the way he enunciates everything? the force with which he says palttakpalttak?? what else can that mouth do???

honorable mentions to singularity lie and most of jin’s serious solos they are beautiful.

this is too long already. i’m not even drunk this time. okay rap line solos next. these were hard and the order would probably change on any given day but we’re gonna stick with this for now

1. Change

i can’t help but love this song for the message. i am probably biased because it’s in english so i understand the message well but like, these LYRICS. i don’t really have a comment about the sound it just sounds good and i’m happy about that. thank you namjoon, thank you wale

surprise notes i didn’t think i had anything

wait the intro sounds like some kind of comedy tv show/DCOM background music. like a scene where a character is snooping lol

no it’s definitely me i’m the insane baby

don’t ask me what i eat all day that’s a personal question

nothing’s real wale. nothing.

the BEATS

✨hated by alt-rights! and racist police!✨

yeah for a second i was doubting the #1 spot but no it deserves it

now we’re underwater

no but this BRIDGE

i see progress via my daughter’s eyes 😭 shut up that’s BEAUTIFUL

i believe that real friends love you to no limit! (yeah) i believe that real change lies in the mirror! [britney voice]....yeah

2. HANGSANG 🐶

j-hope said bts forever 🥲 yeah i’m gonna be emotional about hangsang i’m a pisces. but like seriously on top of it being fun, and funny, and going SO fucking hard, i love the devotion to his band <3 i do question his use of the word “thug” though...

this one gets notes it’s too good

he might be saying dawg as in friend too but i’m choosing to believe he’s just really obsessed with mickey <3

SMASH ON THE STREET SMASH ON THE STREET AY

EVERY DAY I’M SO TURNED UP WITH MY BOYS! EVERY DAY I’M SO TURNED UP WITH MY DOG! YAH!

eh! uh!

2018 update: hobi is still obsessed with kaws

walking walking walking...

talking talking talking...

HANGSANG, HANGSANG, TURN UP!!!

TURN MY SWAG NOW I’M BALLIN ON THAT WORLDWIDE

all the fake ass?

nado nado nado nado!

haters better COP out. credit card chops like karate chop CHOP

BTS ROCK BOTTOM YEAH THAT’S MY TEAM!

you’re gonna WHAT hoseok?

okay i forgot about the gunshots in this one like he’s actually talking about shooting people too...hope world is truly full of surprises?

3. The Last

i’m sorry the old min yoongi can’t come to the phone right now. why? oh...cause he’s dead! this is one of those songs that’s less of a song and more of an experience. it’s not like a daechwita or a tony montana where you can just play it for funsies and background music. he’s telling you a villain origin story. he’s giving you EVERYTHING. you gotta pay attention. follow him on this journey and don’t let go of his hand. you gotta stick with him to the last second. okay i’ll stop. i think the lyrics speak for themselves, i don’t really have anything to add there. but overall i just love how the song is like a stream of consciousness and starts and stops a lot like he’s building the suspense! and the guiTAR man i sure do love a rap rock combo. and the breathing. i love breathing. would love to do it someday

4. Intro: What Am I to You?

literally. the MOST. underrated namjoon solo AND bts album intro of all time. every time i see people talking about namjoon solos no one mentions this one and it is so very disappointing. sure, maybe not the best idea to start with that j.cole line but when you get PAST that...i mean he really does take you higher tbh it feels like you’re taking off in an airplane the trippy visualizer got it right. and the VIOLINS i love when instruments travel across genres. and the lyrics definitely have a dark and wild theme but i don’t think its war of hormone bad... he’s ~romantically~ frustrated not sexually lol. okay and then finally i love that he’s like shouting by the end i love the passion and energy especially knowing the following years were pretty hard on him and that kinda goes away with his reflection solo and mono

sorry i have notes for this rap line does this to me

also the school bell (skool luv affair?) and all the voices at the beginning i love things like that in songs

baby you should know you change all of my negatives to positives!

i’ll be KISSIN ya all the TIME girl!

he literally called himself a pokemon 💀 i love this man

the violins!!! or maybe another string instrument idk i didn’t do orchestra

well babe what kind of questions are you asking??

sorry i wanna scream at him lol give UP she’s obviously not interested in/ready for a relationship

edgelord but also he is pleading he is desperate there is vulnerability he is so EMO my BABY BOY

and then the anger 😈

5. Intro: Boy Meets Evil

not *quite* as underrated as what am i to you but we still don’t talk about it enough. i don’t think we ever could. i do see flashes of the mv for this in my head when i’m listening but he says and moves so much in just 2 minutes i literally can’t even process it when it’s happening i’m just staring like 😮 i can’t believe it. i’m sorry he went too hard it counts this time. and again the PRODUCTION. i have to say the beginning sounds like...video game music? you’re in a castle-like lair but it’s before the evil people know you’re there to stop them so they tell you secrets and stuff thinking you’re normal to bad. then that’s some good bass right there. i might have a bass problem actually. and i do like the wubby wooby noises (i really don’t know what that’s called i hope you understand) and the vocal effects. he’s just always doing such fun stuff with his voice. it’s not just an instrument to him it’s a toy! he’s a playful fella even when he’s evil. best boy best villain

honorable mentions to airplane seesaw tony montana give it to me and what do you think?

okay finally we have reached...the group b sides...and literally nothing is hitting the same for me rn so i’m making this list just based on what makes me the happiest which means we have also entered the 🔇NO TASTE ZONE🙅‍♀️ #notastetuesday #iwrotethisontuesday #idkwhenimgonnapostit

1. Converse High, Whalien 52

this isn’t a tie or anything these are my babygirls they’re twins actually and they can’t be separated sorry ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ this is my EXACT bts comfort genre okay? very nostalgic, sounds REALLY good, but the lyrics...there are a lot of bts songs with funny cringey lyrics but there is just...something special about these two. they’re very important to me because it shows these boys were willing to sing about ANYTHING. no limits. they weren’t too proud! they left their egos at the door! that is dedication to the craft if i’ve ever seen it.

oh you KNOW i’m doing notes for these suckers

Converse High 👟

yeah...(wassup)...yeah [chuckles] oh yeah...yeah

con! verse! high!

written by quentin tarantino

namjoon i love you you GET IT. fuck a designer brand if i pay more than $50 for a pair of shoes it is with tears in my eyes

hobi said gay rights <3

petition for hobi to do his sound effects for all the hollywood movies

hobi sweetie we can tell namjoon i have two feet hands 😘

soaked into??? lmao

why not converse lows? too much ankle? too slutty?

please help me this is about shoes...it’s about SHOES

fun fact: yoongi hates converse

yoongi being the fashion police in this song is actually the biggest plot twist in history

fun fact: yoongi likes basketball

i can take my own shoes off actually thank you very much...

this song is weirder with all the feet stuff recently sorry

conver-sigh

Whalien 52 🐳

fun fact: namjoon loves whales

yeah

the most lonely creature in the world

(i’m a whale)

do you wanna know my story?

(yeah)

i never told this to anybody

oh FUCK that!

yoongi pls

lonely lonely lonely whale!

also if you tell me you’ve listened to this song and never tried and failed to hit the whale note in the chorus i’m not gonna trust anything you tell me ever again

(that’s gotta be pitch shifted right...right???)

no more! no more baby! no more! no moooore!

so catchy

these lyrics are so fucking emo i can’t believe

believe in my hertz 💀

namjoon has so much passion!!!

i’m a whalien

i love this so much you don’t even understand i love bts i fucking LOVE bts

where’s the grammy???

2. Miss Right, 24/7=Heaven

oh i know....i know i know i know i know i know. MORE twins?! i was surprised too when i found out. again, these songs sound SO good and nostalgic, but dear lord their lyrics...in a different way than converse high and whalien. again i just love them because they make me laugh

Miss Right 💋

yo

yo girl

i wanna

i wanna tell you this

that you’re my

miss RIGHT

you’re my miss right miss right if i lose you it’s miss right miss right (ALL RIGHT)

you’re my miss right miss right girl you want my kiss right miss right (ALL RIGHT)

poetry

your sexy mind and your sexy body

(and your sexy brain)

namjoon has very specific taste i know what i’m wearing to the comeback concert

MAKES ME WANNA PARTY ON YOUR BODY

want you to be really really real for me

like your mom?

sHe’S nOt LiKe OtHeR gIrLs HELP

YES YOU’RE MY ONLY GIRL

boy with luv: the prequel

new pickup line: wanna...walk together?

sorry this is what yoongi’s verse makes me think of

no makeup on i love that sh-

praise kink?

i think age matters i also think it matters if your child is “hidden” like...where are they.........

SOMEONE HOLD YOONGI’S HAND GODDAMMIT

oh don’t make me think of yoongi as a father wtf??? 😭

Bees? you like jeju jazz?

yo

i told you many qualifications about my miss right

but

why you’re my miss right is

you are

just YOU

like cringey lyrics aside though this is actually so sweet? 

she was written by a man but at least the man was kim namjoon

24/7=Heaven

SHOO BI DOO BOP BOP BAHAAA!

wait these lyrics are so cute actually

sunday sunday sunday monster truck sunday watch the percolator jump over seventeen and a half cars

[aggressive] CAUSE I’M YOUR BOYFRIEND HMM HMM

all night girl...i think about you all night girrrrrl

darling!

new pickup line: if time was a share named you, i’d invest in it

i saw someone say hobi is most likely to do matching couple outfits i think this is proof of that

i don’t wanna say no more! feel like i don’t wanna say more!

3. Your eyes tell 👁️‍🗨️

okay i do have one serious one...these japanese songs man...so GORGEOUS. the vocals in this one are just INSANE and it’s just really fun to sing. and the lyrics 🥺

4. So 4 more/2nd Grade 🎓

this song is...it’s BAD. it’s objectively bad i admit it. they went into the recording booth for this and the producer was like “okay guys for this song you gotta get into the mindset of a second grader” and they really took that to heart. it turns out bts were really annoying second graders. but as someone who identifies as annoying this song only makes me stronger. and my GOD does this song go hard and it’s so fucking funny and the gunshots just don’t bother me as much because i cannot take anything in this song seriously.

notes

oh god this instrumental is insane

oh so they do mention trigger pulling i guess the gunshots are thematic...but at what cost...

STILL EVERY DAY bang it bang it! B̵̨̯̭̬̯̄͒͆͘ͅͅA̡̱̲̣̣̔̒̀͗ͤ̍͜Ṉ̢̱̜̮̹ͥͬͧ̀͛͛G̡̦̳̯̰̠͓͕̀ͥ͐̓ I̞̻̫̞̱̥̘͐͐̏ͮ̇T̲̓́̂̈̐̈̒̂͆͝ͅ B̴̳̟̭̹͍͙̩̐ͮ̐͢Ą̴̷̢̲̹̼̟̪͗̄̔N̪̭̻͚̻͚̎ͣ͂ͦ͛̚Ğ̺̳̥̙̫͊̅̊̚͢͜ Į̴̤̰̻̰ͨ̐̇̏̉͆T̵̷̡͕̮̉̀ͤ̍̌̃͛

burn the stage

like they aren’t singing they’re...i really don’t know what to call it i think they have to invent a new word...they’re like cats fighting or something

me too namjoon i may be short but my heart is tall <3

ahhh shit

[student voice] will there be a test?

me 🤝 namjoon “i do as i like for now, please leave me alone”

work it out! work it out!

burn it up! burn it up!

so many gunshots 🤦‍♀️

fun fact: yoongi is a little brat

TURN UP

this is the start of a new age 💀

what was your thing in second grade yoongi’s was thinking he’s hot shit mine was making paper dinosaur finger puppets ✌️

ummm i promise i love this song lol

5. Hip Hop...Lover...

okay so what i love about THIS song aside from how funny it is is that it’s literally “what i learned at hip hop school is...” because if i remember correctly they were recording this album while they were in LA for american hustle life and it’s like...this is them saying that they really know and appreciate the genre they’re making music in, the history and culture behind it, the artists who came before them, etc. like yeah it’s dramatic and cringey but it was really cool of them to actually do that because i don’t think a ton of hip hop/hip hop inspired artists whose lived experience was far removed from the roots of hip hop do that to my knowledge? idk if that makes sense. but on top of that, the song does sound good! super catchy melody AND you get to laugh

notes

people wonder why we love this h i p h o p...shit...

it was a NEW WORLD

people keep ASKING baby WHY you love that hip hop SHIT

IT’S CAUSE IT’S HIP HOP

me 🤝 namjoon “i was like an old lady”

[teenagers trying way too hard to be sexy voice] i’ll be down for your rap...i’ll be down for your rhythm...

yeah i love this HIP! HOP!

rap dance and singing skills

hope world est. 2014

oh namjoon trying too hard to be sexy too lmao

the drama! the passion! you’re gonna love the arts in philadelphia hip hop

honorable mention to dionysus paradise crystal snow paldogangsan where you from and hold me tight

okay this post was once again ridiculous and if you’ve gotten this far i do feel like i have to give you an all up top 5...so i’ll pick 5 but don’t you DARE ask me to put them in order

dimple

UGH!

Serendipity

Miss Right (but she misses her twin dearly </3)

Boy in Luv

please ignore that boy in luv was #3 on my singles list a couple weeks ago new month new me i’m constantly changing ever evolving growth mindset you know how it is

so to conclude:

my favorite bts songs will make me laugh or make me cry or i just need it in my earholes. if i ever find a song that does all 3 at the same time i’ll let you know

i’ve been told some newer fans don’t really listen to the older bts songs and i just gotta say they’re REALLY missing out

i love my silly little kpop boys <3

oh right i was going to make this a tag game...i’ve never really started a tag game before idk what to do haha. obviously you do NOT have to go as crazy as i did nor would i recommend it BUT if you’d like to give your top 5 bts songs or do lists for the subcategories like i did i will tag @wistfulocean @jiminsproof and @joon-rkive no pressure though just payback bby!!!

anyone else can play too ofc! VERY interested in what other people’s faves are because i refuse to believe the polls they did in that one run episode are accurate

[earlgreytea68]

A Note on Writing Without an “Outline”

I do not plan very heavily what I write. I find it impossible to. And yesterday a perfect example of why happened to me and so I thought I would share it because I think writing process is interesting and I think everyone’s is different and so it’s good to hear about all different ways because there isn’t just one way. And I also think there’s a lot of stuff out there about outlining and plotting and I have never been able to get any of it to work for me, and I’m fine with that, because, well, I’ll tell the story:

Okay, so when I say I don’t “outline” when I write, or “plan very heavily,” that isn’t to say that I write with *nothing.* Usually I start with a vague idea of where a story is going to go. I am not, however, always right about that, and that’s why I don’t consider it much of an outline or plan, because it goes out the window fairly quickly. And that’s why I don’t spend much time thinking about it, because why spend a lot of time on something you’re probably going to switch up immediately? I am nothing if not efficient. So, rather than outline, I just get myself started. I go, “I’m going to write a story about a world where all children have been genetically optimized,” and that’s literally all I have. That, and the first line. Usually, I know it’s time to start writing when the first line of the story comes to me, or the first scene.

So, as I write, I have a growing list of things I want to remember to work into the fic that I throw at the bottom of the document. Some of these are plot points. For instance, in the fic I’m writing now, I have “Pete’s family” written. I have a very vague idea of what I think I’m going to do with Pete’s family, but for now it’s enough that I want to remember that I wanted to deal with them at some point. More often, though, the bits at the bottom of my outline are reminders of inside jokes I’ve written, or, basically, a Chekhov’s gun I’ve put on the shelf, that I want to remember to circle back around on. Frequently, at the bottom is the punchline of a joke I want to make, or a line of dialogue that feels particularly apt to me that I want to make sure I don’t forget to use. When I was writing the Schrodingerverse wedding, for instance, I had “I vow to believe you” written at the end of it, because I write my fics in order from first sentence to last sentence and it was a while until I got to the vows but I didn’t want to forget that I had that vow picked out. I also had “Taylor Swift wedding song” and “fireworks” written at the bottom, too, so that I wouldn’t forget either of those things. So, to the extent that that’s an outline, there you have it. I don’t usually cross things off the list, because I like to leave them as reminders that the characters can keep referencing, and I don’t always hit everything on the list, although I often try.

So, aside from the list, I also have in my head the next few scenes thought through. Not usually in great detail, just like, okay, it’ll be x, y, z. So, to use last night’s example, I had, forty pages earlier, had Patrick send a letter to his sister. I needed Patrick to get a reply to this letter. I also knew vaguely what the letter’s contents would say: He’d invited her to come stay with him and Pete, and she was going to accept the invitation. And then after Patrick got the letter, I was going to write a scene where he and Pete go to the opera, and then they were going to go riding together. (It’s a fic with a lot of action, as you can tell lol.)

So I sat down last night to write the scene where Patrick gets his sister’s reply. And here I should reveal another of my rules when writing: I try to never summarize or paraphrase dialogue. I find that dialogue is where characters reveal the most about themselves, and I would miss out on so much learning about them if I just wrote “They ordered food” instead of really debating how they would order, what they would order. Think about the date scene in “Culmination,” when they go to the Hard Rock Cafe, and they have the whole conversation about vegetables in nachos. Originally, in my head, that scene was just “they have dinner,” but I paused to make myself think about what they would have. It’s easier to just skip over that bit, but when I think back on my stories, I feel like it’s those bits where all the work of the love story happens, it’s that conversation about nachos that really tells you that they’re having a great time with each other. If I don’t feel like writing what they had for dinner, that’s fine, but rather than paraphrasing it, I would just time-skip over it and get myself into the next moment I felt was important enough. I guess, in my view, if it’s so important you can’t skip it, then it’s too important to paraphrase. 

So, I couldn’t just say, “Patrick got a letter from Megan accepting his invitation.” I had to actually sit and write Megan’s letter. And then when I sat and wrote Megan’s letter...it didn’t go at all the way I thought it would go. It ended up telling me something about Megan I hadn’t anticipated, and then that triggered a reaction in Patrick I hadn’t anticipated. And so, just like that, I threw out the window the vague plans I’d had for the scene and what was to come. This is what I mean when I say I can’t outline. I don’t know -- I never learned the skill of -- how to predict how characters are going to react *until I actually write them reacting.* In my head, this was a nothing, throw-away scene, just to get some exposition out of the way before the opera and the next part of the “plot” kicked into gear. And instead now there were all of these unresolved issues I’d uncovered that everyone was going to need to deal with.

So forget the opera. Or rather, push it way back. Because clearly Patrick was going to have to have a conversation with Pete well before the opera. But where was Pete? I hadn’t really given much thought to where Pete was, tbh. So now I had to. Pete, I decided, was in his office with Brendan. A fateful decision because a disagreement between Brendan and Patrick is another loose thread of plot in this story, and so having Patrick go in search of Pete also unexpectedly propelled the Patrick/Brendan storyline forward in a way that I had totally not been anticipating at all.

So then Pete and Patrick had an emotional conversation and at the end of it Pete proposed they go for a ride because he thought they needed to get out of the house. Makes perfect sense, Pete. Good idea. This would flip the timing of the opera / riding scenes, but that doesn’t matter, there was nothing going on in those scenes.

Except.

When Pete proposed they go for a ride, Patrick had to say that first he had to write back to his sister, because he *had* to, given the conversation he’d just had. So Patrick told Pete to go on ahead and he would catch up.

Which suddenly meant that Pete would be out riding by himself instead of with Patrick, which gave me a perfect opportunity to have him run into a particular person I’d been trying to get Pete to talk to and had just assumed I’d eventually just have Pete manufacture a reason to go call on that person. But now, suddenly, I had the perfect opportunity for Pete to encounter that person, *and without Patrick,* which was a vitally important part that I needed for Pete’s conversation with the person. And Pete being without Patrick felt much less contrived than my vague plan which was for Patrick to decide not to go on calls with Pete because he wanted to work on his music or something.

So, this is all to say: I think other people might have been able to figure all that out with an outline, without having to write the scenes out first. But I just would not have been able to. There is no way I would have uncovered all of the character-driven ins and outs of the situation in the abstract. I had to make myself write it. This is why I make myself write *all* of those moments, because I need to reveal to myself what the characters are thinking, and I know no other way to do it. I have never been able to accomplish it without writing it. And then, having written it, I have to trust that the characters know their stories better than I do. And, honestly, that has always been true. I have only ever led myself astray by fighting against them. They have only ever pointed me the right way when I let them.

[babytaes]

The Kickback

summary: What happens when your long-life crush's secret is discovered? In hopes of not wanting him to find out, what do you do... nothing.

pairing: dk x female reader

genre: fluff, slice of life, crack lol.

warnings: profanity

word count: 3k

a/n: today is my birthday and I wanted to share this one that has been in my drafts for so long. this campus life is stressful but I’m finding time to upload here and there. I hope you enjoy and have a great day/night. Much love from Babytaes! :) Also I really didn’t read this over sooo... if it doesn’t make sense. Take it up with corporation. 

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

“Dear diary, I saw my crush today. I saw him in the living room after my brother invited him over with another friend. It's not as if I'm scared of him. I've spoken with him numerous times. I mean, I'm almost fluent in his language, lol. Seeing him and hearing his boisterous laugh was still entertaining. I'm wondering if he'll be at the kickback this weekend; if so, maybe I'll have the bravery to approach him. Okay, goodbye journal, love y/n.”

Your life consisted of short, insignificant interactions with him; however, when you had a crush, life was exciting and unpredictable. Since you're so near to him on a daily basis, your crush increased exponentially as you couldn't control your intrusive thoughts.

Yes, you did think of him, probably 25/8. It's not like you didn't know him, but you only knew the head version of him. And we all know they could be two different people. So the only thing left to do is keep it secret.

It's impossible for your secret to come out when you're the only one who knows about it. Right? Unfortunately, this isn't a movie, and your secret was revealed, and the perpetrator was none other than your arch-nemesis, Boo Seungkwan.

Okay, not quite that far, but you and him frequently collided because you and him could never agree on anything. He's just Boo, and he has his own behavior category.

He was the second-to-last person you wanted to find out about, after your crush, of course. From this point on, your life was not going as planned.

Your secret would never be revealed to Lee Seokmin, and you would do anything to protect it.

“What are you doing?” You leapt to your feet as you hurriedly closed your diary, terrified of prying eyes.

You rolled your eyes and stuffed your journal into a drawer with random papers, saying, "Shit, why don't you ever knock."

“Well, this is my shared dorm, and you're basically free living here,” he chuckled. You gave him a sidelong glance.

He was right.

“Is that a way you treat your twin? Is it now.”

He strolled away, completely oblivious to your yelling, and into the kitchen.

“Shut up, and get your ass out here we have to go shopping for the kickback. If you’re not out in 10 I’m leaving your ass.”

Great sibling love, what more could you ask for.  As much as you know that this is the way he expresses his love, you still got up and started getting ready for the day despite his warning.

Amidst your constant disagreements with him, you still loved him. The only problem was that you had to keep your love interest hidden from him. You could see it now and the big brother trying to protect and all that annoying shit.

You were old enough to take care of yourself and you didn’t want unruly men to ruin something that you wanted for so long.

“Coming, if you leave me, I'll tell Mom.” And I think we can all agree that I am the favorite twin.” As he slammed the fridge door shut, you could hear his huge scoffs.

You hurriedly grabbed your purse and beanie as you dashed for the door, laughing at his tantrums. He had a habit of leaving you behind.

We will not speak of March 5, 2017.

“Hey, wait up,” you said as you ran to his car and jumped in before him, grabbing the aux before him.

He started the car and sped out of the dorm parking lot on his way to the store, saying, "You're such a pain in the ass."

“Oh, don't act as if you don't love me.”

“Whoever said I did must have lied to you. Mingyu laughed as he accelerated through Seoul's crowded streets.

The jokes, the laughter, and the love were all part of the experience of living with one of the biggest Kpop groups.

You wouldn’t have it any other way!

While listening to your playlist, the song "Come to You" perfectly complemented the mood.

You smiled as you passed many streets and watched the busy lives of many different people. You could say you had an imaginative mind.

We arrived at the store a long way down the road, grabbed one of the carts, and proceeded to a separate aisle of the store.

Buying stuff was always expensive with a party of 13 and more friends on the way. Almost everything had to be doubled, and the meat had to be tripled. When throwing a party, everyone is required to provide a dish.

You didn't seem to mind; after all, you weren't paying, so you just chilled on the cart while you watched Mingyu placed the goods in neatly.

You told Mingyu to grab a specific chip as you walked to the chip aisle, and he furrowed his brow.

“What are those? I've never seen them before.

"Dokyeom likes them," you blurted out without a second thought. As you mentally processed what you had said, you stared at him with wide eyes.

Shit.

“When they're not there, Dokyeom and Soonyoung get upset.” You shook your head and scooted by him, tossing two bags into the overflowing shopping cart.

“Oh-okay I guess you can get them.”

As you pushed the cart toward the cashier, you mentally slapped yourself in the face. You were certain that you would not crack.

The ride home was silent as the only noise was the continuous taps from Mingyu's fingers on the wheel.

Mingyu called wonwoo on his phone as he drove up to the dorm and asked him to help with the groceries.

As you heard Mingyu pout over the phone, he refused, and not even minutes after, wonwoo is strolling down the driveway on his way to the car.

“You shouldn't even have picked up I know I wouldn't"  Wonwoo pushed your shoulder and chuckled at your humor. “I know”

“Heyyy I'm right here,” Mingyu began to sulk as he observed his sister speaking without him.

You and wonwoo both chuckled as you gathered your belongings and began walking away from Mingyu.

---

The days went by slowly as you reached the door. It was time to leave the house. You grabbed a jacket and purse. Today, the boys went to Hybe for a quick practice session before heading out for the weekend.

Because you are such a good friend and thoughtful person, you decided to buy them a few drinks as a gift. It wasn't anything special, you didn't want to see anyone, noo.

It took some time to order everything, especially with the large number of 13 items. Since you've known each other for most of your lives, the drinks on the list haven't changed. Ice Americanos and Frappes were the most popular drinks.

As soon as you arrived at the Hybe building, you swiftly grabbed the bag containing the drinks and proceeded to their floor. You finally made it to their practice room after thanking the employees for their assistance.

Slowly pushing the door open, you drew the attention of almost everyone as they turned to face you. As a number of them raced over to you and took the beverages from you, smiles crept across their faces.

As they sipped their drinks, the room was filled with thank yous and hellos.

The voice of an angel said, "Thanks again, y/n." He gave you a short smile before returning to his practice. Oblivious to people around you, words spilled out.

“Fuck, he's so attractive.”

“Whose good looking?” As you slowly turned around, you heard a voice speaking to you from behind you.

Fuck

It's Boo Seungkwan. He smiled at you as he grabbed a drink from your hand. He cocked his head as he sipped it, and his eyes widened.

“Don’t tell me you said dokyeom is good looking, no fucking way.”

As you coughed to relieve the high tension in the air, you started to mentally sweat.

“That's insane, I said the room was in good condition," you said as you slapped his shoulder and shook your head.

Come on, y/n, that didn't even make sense.

“You know you're not going to fool me, y/n?” Afraid that someone would find out, you dragged him into a back room and locked the door behind him

“Shit..shit..shit. If you tell anyone, I swear I'll -

Laughing, before raising his eyebrows after taking a sip of his americano, he cut you off.

"You're right, this is important information. But you already know that I'll keep my mouth shut about the situation. I don’t even know what we’re talking about right now.”

Seungkwan heard dokyeom announce that practice had resumed as the door opened. Before he left, he smiled at you and waved goodbye.

“Y/n and dokyeom in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. As you were about to leap across the couch to silence him, he jumped up and ran out of the door laughing.

All of a sudden, your mind was filled with confusion and paranoia.

It became increasingly difficult to watch them practice as the session progressed. Your thoughts were not positive, and your attitude was slowly deteriorating.

Imagining the worst-case scenario. You paced in the back room when you heard a knock at the door. As you mentally prepared yourself, it caught you off guard. While walking side by side, Hansol and Seungkwan were whispering.

“Did they know?” You didn’t want anyone to find out so you ran, and didn’t stop running. To avoid society, you hurried out the door after saying a quick goodbye to the boys.

The goodbyes were not even heard as you hurried out of the Hybe parking lot without looking back. In a small group, information spreads quickly. And he was bound to find out.

Flushed and worried, you staggered into the dorm room. You knew your secret was going to get out eventually. In the case where Hansol and Seungkwan knew, Joshua is likely to know.

And since Joshua is close to the older boys, Seungcheol and Jeonghan know. The news would then spread to Hoshi, and then the entire performance team would be in the know.

The only remaining candidates are Mingyu and dk. If Mingyu finds out, it's game over for you at that point.

There was no point of living any more. Having completed a full loop of the house, you had come to your room for the final time. You slowly melted to the ground and fell out.

Dokyeon is more likely to know if Mingyu knows.

"What went wrong?" Unable to control yourself as you rolled around the floor, you erupted into a tantrum.

You sat up and shook your head, "I'll just have to leave the country," you said. "Man, you're so smart. Your plan y/n is fantastic."

You ran to your room, grabbed your suitcase from your closet, and began tossing things into.

No need to pack everything since you were only going to be gone for a year. As soon as your adrenaline slowed down, you began packing.

(A few hours later)

You were relieved when your clothes fit into your luggage when you had finally done packing. You were on your way now, and as long as it wasn't here, everything was good.

“Ah, I figured it out; now let's book it.”

When you approached the door, you unlocked it, and we were greeted with a pleasant surprise.

You walked up to the door and opened it, where you were greeted by Mingyu and his gang. Outside the door, you could see him, hao, dk, and wonwoo. They stared at you as they looked you up and down, perplexed as to why you appeared to be departing.

“Um, what is going on and where are you going?” Mingyu reacted with a rejoinder of his own.

Your throat felt as though it was clogging up, and you began sweating furiously under your armpits. Thank god for hoodies.

“Well, I was simply going to visit a friend's house,” you explained.

You knew he wouldn't believe you; he knew most of your friends, and they didn't live that far away for you to be carrying that much.

“First, that's a lie, and second, I need to speak with you, so your "buddy" will have to wait.” You sighed and closed your eyes.

Your escape had to wait.

Mingyu took your suitcase and slid it near the door, while the other members shuffled awkwardly into the room. While the other lads sat in the living room, Wonwoo went to his room.

“Maybe I could escape now?”

“What did you say y/n?” minghao said as he glanced at you.

You waved your hand in front of them and did a walk of shame to your room as you physically and mentally prepared yourself for whatever Mingyu had to say.

So much for your crush now.

Mingyu sat on the edge of your bed, arms crossed, staring at you.

“Sit down, he patted the bed on your side before lightly coughing.

"Some rumors have been going around, so I wanted to clear the air."

Seeing what he was about to say made your heart race, and you couldn't take it any longer. Does anyone else hear their loud banging, could Mingyu hear it?

You leapt to your feet and shouted at him before apologizing on your knees.

What a sight to see, a grown ass woman on her knees apologizing to her twin brother.

“I apologize; I should have told you first, but I was afraid you'd tell him. That's why I kept it a secret and plus dating a member of seventeen. That's dangerous enough-“.

Mingyu's "WHAT" cut you off.

You came to a halt as he got up, slowly staring up at him.

“Wait, weren't we discussing my crush on Dokyeom or something else?” Worries began to creep in as sweat began to accumulate on your brow.

“What the fuck, you have a crush on do-?” you exclaimed as you jumped to your feet and tackled Mingyu to the ground.

“Don't say it so loudly; he'll hear you.” As Mingyu began to pace around the room, as he pushed you off of him.

You could see his anger as he panicked, and his small rage tantrum was truly uncomfortable because he couldn't communicate his ideas to you because he was afraid of his companions' sensitive ears.

He pointed to the door and said, "Wait, so you do have a crush on him." You sighed, shaking your head.

As he walked away from you, he had another outburst.

Everything is now turning to shit, this was your only chance.

“I have to escape” you said as you dashed out the door and to your suitcase. Mingyu was standing behind you, staring at you in terror.

It wasn't in the plan for you to fall on him, but it was still nice. Focus y/n.

“I’m sorry, dokyeom; it was my fault. I didn't realize you were there. “Are you okay?” As you extended your hand to him, you pushed yourself off of him.

“Yeah, I'm OK, are you okay?” he asked. You've had quite a tumble.”

“Yeah I’m good, I live with a clumsily brother so I’m fine”

“Hey!"

You swiftly let go of each other and placed your hands behind your back as you became embarrassed.

“Hey, Seungcheol texted the group chat and said he wants to go out to eat. He said whoever can come.”

The boys instantly got ready as they wanted to eat, food is a great scapegoat. As you saw them exit the dorm, you took a step back and found your way back to your room.

“Is leaving still an option?” you murmured into your pillows, plopping your exhausted body on your bed and overthinking life.

---

You rolled over and looked at the clock, which reads 9:30 a.m.

You turned over in your bed, unable to yell, and trudged to the bathroom to make yourself presentable.

“What have you gotten yourself into, y/n?” You stripped off your clothing and stepped into the hot water after turning on the shower.

You didn't spend much time in the shower, but today you were engrossed in how your plan had devolved into this ordeal.

Resting your head on the tile as the hot water traced down your back, you contemplated on what the HELL you were going to do.

*BANG BANG*

“Y/n hurry up, we have to prepare.”

Hearing Mingyu's voice drew you back to reality as you turned off the water and got out of the shower, unlocking the door and letting him in.

“Hey, no snarky remark?” he said as he watched you walk to your room with your head down. You ignored him as you closed the door and prepared for the party.

It didn't take long for your calm disposition to be noticed, since you were the outspoken one. Even if you tried to fake it, it didn't work out.

You grinned as you walked through the background of Seungcheol and Jeonghan shared housing, looking at the celebration.

There were groups of people near the pool, at the grill, and even by the chairs, as you could see.

“Hey, bring the food inside; I'll take the meat to cheol,” mingyu said, shaking your head as you picked up the bags and headed to the kitchen, where you recognized some familiar faces.

“Y/nnnnnnnnn, heyyyyy, I’ve missed you.” When you saw her, you put the bags on the counter and hugged her, smiling into her embrace.

“It's great to see you again, yeji; how are you and the rest of the group doing?” Are the others here?” As she led you back outside, she interlaced your hands in hers.

You saw dokyeom and a few other people descend the steps before you left, as he waved and gave you a quick glance.

As you reach for a drink from the cooler, your heart begins to race. Something had to be turned off if you wanted to make it through the night, and this was the only way.

You took a sip and coughed loudly as you followed Yeji to the poolside.

It was going to be a long night for you.

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As you and a group of individuals began to dance uncontrollably, the effects of the alcohol in your system began to show as you staggered to the grill.

“HeEeeyyYY, Wheeeere d'ya think yeeeeer goin’?” you slurred, jabbing a finger into seungcheol’s back

The other members laughed as they glanced at you, plainly detecting your intoxication.

“I forgot how drunk you can get, so why don't you take a break,” your overprotective brother says, making you scream within.

He always did this.

Gerroff me!” you said. “I’m ash sober ash ’m gonna git. And nuffink I - wait wait wait - nuffink you can do ‘boutit.” As you ambled back to the kitchen without so much as a hiccup in their direction, they laugh.

As you struggled to reach the door, you fell forward and were grabbed by a hand. As he lifted you from your imminent doom, his hold felt warm. With your eyes enlarged, you focused on the individual and stared at his face.

As you grabbed on to him, your words tumbled out of your mouth, “Ohmygoshimsosorry.” He drew you closer to him by taking your hands in his.

Saying your heart was racing was an understatement, it was literally pounding out of your chest. You were hand in hand with your crush, who you believed was exceptionally attractive and talented, and you wished he knew more about your sentiments or could somehow fill them.

But you know no huge idol like him would go for you. Feeling that made you sober up real fast as you felt your arm being pulled upstairs, you had no idea where you were going but it looked like someone's room.

Dokyeom eased open the door as he sat you on the bed and went to get some water from a little fridge. He handed it to you and sat next to you.

“Thanks”

“No problem, also I've been trying to talk to you all night but you appear to be occupied.”

As you took a sip of water, your heart began to beat faster; “waitttt, we donthavetotalk. Let’s dance! As he chuckled at your erratic movements, you began to wander around the room, pulling your hands into yours.

The alcohol was definitely making its way out of your system.

As he spun you around, his body in tune with the music, the bass of the song could still be heard. Even though this felt like a dream you didn’t quite care at the moment. Was it because you'd finally met the boy from your dreams, or was it because he wanted to meet you in person?

Your connection with him got stronger by the second, as did your heartbeat, which began to rise steadily with it. You couldn't keep stalling any longer; you needed to listen to what he was saying.

“I think I'm sober up for now,” you said as you let go of his hand.

Dokyeom chuckled before tossing his head back, “I didn't realize you could move like that” he said as they sat back on the bed, a little closer than before.

“I guess I learnt a few things along the way when you're friends with the best dancers out here.” As you finished your sentence, he peered into your eyes, making no sound as the room fell silent.

“Soo, what did you want to talk about?” you awkwardly state to relieve some tension in the air.

“I don't know how to explain it, but I kind of heard your "secret" as it passed through the practice room, and I simply wanted to be the first one to tell you about it because-

Your heart stopped pounding as your world came crashing down around you. You didn't want to hear it; the rejection; you'd rather live in your fantasy world, where you don't have to worry about anything. It wasn't true if you didn't hear it.

“Wait, if you can't reconcile those feelings, don't say anything; just let me go.” They're probably curious about our whereabouts anyway.” And with that, you stood up and walked towards the door, but you were pulled back by his hand.

He kissed you as swiftly as his hands linked with yours. You were taken aback at first by his passion, but you regained your calm and reminded yourself of what was going on: he was really kissing you, and you were really kissing him, and the rest of the world was inconsequential.

You were chilling on the outside while shouting for joy at the top of your lungs on the inside, as if your inner child had been set free. You had to be sure if this was a dream or if it was happening in real life.

“Ouch”

“Why did you do that?” Dokyeom asked as he gripped your arm in his.

“I had to double-check that I wasn't dreaming; this isn't the first time something like this has happened to me.”

“So you're saying I've been in your dreams?” he laughed as he cocked his head to the side and placed his hand in yours.”

You smacked your forehead and shook your head, realizing you couldn't get out of this one, and now he knew you fantasize about him. You didn't mind because the lad of your dreams was right in front of your eyes.

AND HE WAS HOLDING YOUR MF HAND. It was clear that your diary needed to be updated.

Stopping at the door, you placed your palm on his chest and worriedly stared at him.

“Wait, how did you find out?” 

“Well, a tiny birdie was chattering loudly about it, his name rhymes with coo,” he said as he grabbed your hand in his and opened the door and began the walk downstairs.

“Fucking Boo Seungkwan”