#okay i’m going to sound totally unhinged i know

[inkykeiji]

(^q^)

[julietsbb]

so pondphuwin legal drama tv show where phuwin is a famous boxer with anger issues and pond is a defence lawyer

brought to you by a) pw being cute and doing silly boxing moves as they were shooting stuff for promoting fancon b) the pictures on pond in specs today and c) ppw in suits (and d) i want more unhinged angry phuwin content HE WOULD DO IT SO WELL and e) I want pond in more three piece suits and glasses and I’m desperate for him to have another role where he gets to sound intelligent/smart)

so Phuwin absolutely loses his shit at some asshole and beats him bloody I don’t care if it was justified or not or betty or righteous doesn’t matter but the dude hits him with an assault charge

And Phuwin can’t go to jail because then he can’t box and that would make him lose his mind because it’s the only way he knows to process his anger so IN COMES DEFENCE LAWYER POND who doesn’t even fucking want this case, he spends his time defending like, actually down on their luck people who deserves an extra chance BUT he’s also working in a corporate word that needs to make money and his boss told him to take the case because he’s friends with phuwin’s agent and pond is the bestest or some such and he owes his boss a favour

Anyways they obviously hate each other because phuwin’s anger at the entire situation keeps going off and makes pond’s job harder etc etc (also both of them are very attractive and they also hate that about each other)

And so it’s the night before the first hearing (they’ve been trying to dig up stuff to discredit the victim somehow) and pond snaps and is like “Jesus Christ if it can stop you from going off in court tomorrow just punch ME and get it out of your system I would prefer that actually” (it’s 2am and he has no filter left)

And pw’s character is like “????? what”

And pond is like “never mind I’m just tired” and pw’s like “no wait punching you sounds good actually could we do that because I’ve been wanting to punch your stupid fucking face with your stupid fucking glasses—“ and pond’s like “well if you’re punching me it’s sure as fuck not on my face because a) I need my glasses and b) it wouldn’t actually help your case if I showed up looking like my client with the assault charge just assaulted me, so it would defeat the purpose of it all” and then pw’s like well where the fuck can I hit you then and pond gives it serious consideration and it becomes, slowly, apparent, that he Knows Things™️ about being hit, saying stuff like “the meat of my thighs if I sit down or my buttocks if I’m lying down somewhere but that would be more awkward. possibly my chest too but let’s avoid my diaphragm and gut area” and like, he gets up and takes off his jacket???? and tie!??? and phuwin’s like “????????” but it also kind of makes him want to hit him more and pond tells him to control his punches so they don’t accidentally hit somewhere they shouldn’t and phuwin laughs in his face because don’t he know he’s talking to a professional boxer actually??

And so they find some way Phu gets to punch him in a way that’s Safe Sane and Consensual and phuwin thinks it’s weird as shit wtf kinda lawyer did they GIVE him but he…… can’t deny he feels better afterwards. And pond gets some MEAN bruises but they’re all covered up by clothes so it’s fine actually as he’d hoped his brain is much clearer after (actually after the first two punches pond has to tell him that he can hit harder than that it’s okay. phuwin hits harder)

Anyways court the next day isn’t a total disaster they haven’t lost YET bought themselves some more time the team celebrates with a beer that evening and they’re the only two left and phuwin’s tongue is loose enough to ask about it and pond’s is loose enough to answer, tell him about how people can enjoy pain in different ways, how it’s something he practises on occasion but has done so for a good long while and Phuwin is like o______o and like… “so it’s not just… punches?” And pond laughs in his face and tells him about how there’s a million different ways and types and personally he would usually prefer a heavy flogger to his back on a normal day but he’s tried this and that.

And phuwin’s char is FASCINATED and his fingers are starting to itch like they usually do for a boxing glove but less familiar and well worn, more new and existing. Exhilarating.

Anyways so Phuwin gets a new way to channel his anger and becomes the calmer for it in the rest of his life and pond guides him through it all very patiently whilst a) having a Great Time but also b) having a very Bad Time because he’s entering into a non-work intimate-but-not-sexual (yet) relationship with Important But Obnoxious Work Client (who really is less obnoxious once his shoulders unclench)

Also phuwin’s character has a cat that’s as aggressive as he is.

(Ps: maybe it turns out the “victim” was actually paid by one of pw’s competitors to deliberately piss him off to sabotage him or something I don’t know but they discover SOMETHING shady and thus there is plot they can bond over)

(Pps: they fall in love your honour)

[elrondsscribe]

Okay so here’s the thing. I freely admit I am Big Stupid. I forget things constantly. The Vampire Chronicles is a layered tale packed with constant retcons and gaps getting filled. Whole chunks of characters’ stories slip my mind on the reg.

So I understand I may be missing something major.

But.

From where I’m standing … I know that Armand was v upset when it happened, and given everything he’d been through to that point he’s absolutely allowed to be upset; but did Marius do wrong by turning Sybelle and Benjamin?

Hear me out: the rule of this universe wrt humans who tango with vampires is there’s only three eventual outcomes: death, madness, or vampirism. Obvs if Armand had his choice at that point in the series he’d have preferred them to have regular human lifespans and eventually die, but 1) given his history with Daniel, who knows if he wouldn’t eventually have changed his mind, and 2) it might not have been what they necessarily wanted for themselves. Cause the way both Sybelle and Benji talk makes it sound like they might’ve actually asked Marius to get vamped??

(And Pandora? Or wtf was Pandora even doing while all this was happening? She was there, what was she doing?)

Because here’s their response to it:

(…) Sybelle rose from the piano, and with her arms out ran to me. And Benji, who had been watching all the while, rushed to me also, and they imprisoned me gently in their tender arms.

“Oh, Armand, don’t be angry, don’t be, don’t be sad,” Sybelle cried softly against my ear. “Oh, my magnificent Armand, don’t be sad, don’t be. Don’t be cross. We’re with you forever.”

“Armand, we are with you! He did the magic,” cried Benji. “We didn’t have to be born from black eggs, you Dybbuk, to tell us such a tale! Armand, we will never die now, we will never be sick, and never hurt and never afraid again.” He jumped up and down with glee and spun in another mirthful circle, astonished and laughing at his new vigor, that he could leap so high and with such grace. “Armand, we are so happy.”

“Oh, yes, please,” cried Sybelle softly in her deeper gentler voice. “I love you so much, Armand, I love you so very very much. We had to do it. We had to. We had to do it, to always and forever be with you.”

Like, in the immediate aftermath, they’re both over the moon about it; they’ve even fed already. Later in the Prince Lestat era, they both seem fine; like I’m not recalling any major fledgling angst.

Claudia was eternally unlucky, and she was intensely lonely. Her relationships with both Lestat and Louis were complicated and strained (to the point that she tried to kill Lestat), she didn’t really have peers, and by the time she finally got a companion Armand was already engineering her death.

Daniel gradually went unhinged for a decade before becoming a vampire, and Armand might’ve blamed himself for Daniel’s full-fledged insanity afterward but it sounds to me like even if he’d somehow survived that horrible night he’d have lost his mind anyway. (By the way, who was it that kept Daniel fed while he was in that madness, huh?)

Benjamin and Sybelle are super lucky, relatively speaking; they have each other as peers, and Armand is somewhere between a peer and a guardian. From what we see in the PL era, they have their pursuits, they have a place in the vampire world — as fledgling vampires go, they seem to have as close to an ideal life as fledgling vampires get.

And like,, they got what they wanted: their Forever With Armand, with the sweet bonus of less physical harm to fear. And in the long run, after the … Veil-induced mania? wears all the way off, it seems like Armand isn’t that unhappy about it either.

So.

As much as Armand is totally allowed to have his feelings about it in the moment, all things considered it doesn’t seem like Marius “ruined” much of anything by turning them. At least not to me.

(Marius and Pandora? Tf was she doing?!)

[wynnyfryd]

from is this your card? pt 2

“Just invite him to play cards with you,” Robin suggests around a massive bite of pizza.

“Shit, Birdy,” he whistles, looking over at her with some mix of awe and alarm. Girl’s gonna choke herself someday. “Thought I was the gremlin in this friendship.”

“Wha’?” She tries to protest; there’s sauce all over her chin.

“Unhinge your jaw like a snake next time, save yourself the trouble.”

She bounces on the lumpy couch cushion, overcome with that specific excitement she gets right before she word-vomits useless trivia. “Did you know a python can open its mouth up to a hundred and eighty degrees?”

Eddie stares at her blankly.

Robin squirms.

“…What about a king cobra?”

“One-thirty-five,” she answers without missing a beat and reaches for a second slice, dropping the uneaten crust back in the box. “And, anyway, I take it back. You’re not allowed to invite Steve over or hang out with him without me because the two of you are going to be a total nightmare for me if you ever manage to get it together and start going out.”

Eddie arranges her abandoned crust beneath two pieces of pepperoni on his paper plate to make a frowny face. “But Robi-i-inn,” he whines, pitching his voice all high and stupid.

“Please tell Mr. Pepperoni that his pouting game needs work and that I am not swayed.”

“Rude.” He discards his plate and flops back on the couch with a put-out groan. Slings an arm over his eyes just to be dramatic. “This would be so much easier if he weren’t so intimidatingly hot. Why does he have to be so hot?”

Robin sucks a lump of cheese off her thumb. “I don’t know. Is he hot?”

“Dude.” Eddie sits back up, eyeing her with a blank stare and considering tossing her ass out of his living room. Is Steve Harrington hot? IS STEVE HARRINGTON HOT? Jesus Christ.

“What? He’s hairy, okay? Point your creepy laser vision somewhere else!”

“Excuse you! My eyes are not creepy! I have it on good authority that they’re pretty.”

“They’re piercing.”

“Whatever. You just can’t appreciate my beauty, Buckley. Or Steve’s, apparently.”

“You think I’m beautiful?”

Robin and Eddie whip around, matching deer-in-headlights expressions at the sound of another voice in the room, and there’s Steve, suddenly, leaning against the door frame (Eddie has no idea how; dude’s a ninja or some shit), looking bashful but quietly pleased with his arms folded across his chest. Eddie desperately wants to bite the ring of freckles blooming on his tanned forearm.

He looks at Robin, and they both turn back to Steve and oh so elegantly bleat out: “Uhhhh…”

Smooth. Good save, Munson, real nice.

Robin pulls it together first, smiles wide and says, “Hi, Steve. Eddie was just being a homophobe as usual.”

“Dude! You have got to stop fucking accusing me of that shit, I’m literally gay!”

“Gay men are not immune to lesbophobia, Edward. It’s honestly a little concerning that you don’t know that.”

“Oh, holy shit, why do I hang out with you?”

Robin licks her teeth in smug delight and kicks at his thigh. “Because you cherish our time together.”

“Jesus Christ.”

“You think I’m an undeniable joy.”

“Steve. Steve, please get her out of my house.”

Eddie puts his head in his hands, but Robin’s picking up steam now, hopping up onto the couch cushion and brandishing a pizza crust like a torch, hoisting it high into the air, exclaiming, “Nay! A light, even! A shining beacon in your sad, dark little life!”

“Steve, I am begging you, man.”

Steve’s a real one because he doesn’t say a word, just crosses the room and chucks Robin over his shoulder like a sack of flour and carries her flailing out onto the front porch.

[ships-to-sail]

Dragging myself through the WIP trenches, waving sadly at my words hoping they return safely from the war, y'all. One of those kinds of weeks. But! Luckily I'm sitting on a few banked rival bakers snippets so until the weary muse returns:

“This does not ‘butter my biscuit’, what are you talking about you absolutely unhinged human being? I don’t even want to know what you mean by ‘it could be worse’.”  “I mean that he could not be a total babe. He could not have forearms that look like they could strangle a snake and then gently pet a newborn puppy. He could have been a total asshole about the fact that you two totally fucked and you couldn’t be bothered to remem—” “ —okay, yes, thank you. I said I didn’t want to know, remember?”  “Seriously though, Alex,” June says as she comes out of the bathroom, one hand twisting her hair off her neck and into a black hair clip. “I’m failing to see what the huge, world-ending, crisis-having, please-drive-back-from-Boston problem is.” “You mean other than the fact that this stupid fucking French bakery is going to put mom and dad out of business?!” It comes out so much harsher than it should, and he sees a sting of pain flash in June’s eyes. It wasn’t her fault, and it wasn’t her responsibility, and Alex knew both of those things. He was just so fucking frustrated, double so because now it was also sprinkled with a light dusting of feeling like a total fucking douche. “I’m sorry,” he says sincerely. “That wasn’t fair, I’m just…UGH,” Alex groans and falls face-first onto the cushion next to the one he’s sitting on. He screams, an animal sound that comes from somewhere deep in his gut. “They’re not even fucking French!”

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[aliasrocket]

I wanted to say something for an anonymous comment about feeling less embarrassed of having feelings for Rocket. I must say I totally understand that.

A month ago, when GOTG VOL 3 was released, I went to see it at the cinema with my mother, I spent the whole movie very excited for Rocket, but right in that scene where he is on the verge of death and he meets Lylla again, SOMETHING INSIDE IT CHANGED ABOUT ME, because when they were hugging I realized I was JEALOUS, and in my mind I thought "OH NO, IT'S HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN", because I always fall for characters that might be unconventional or weird to other people , then I start looking for fics and I realize that there are not many for the same reason, or there are many where it is more platonic and I think "IT IS NOT ENOUGH" And it's more complicated for me because my first language is not English and in my language there is NOTHING. So meeting people who write Rocket the way I imagined really makes me very happy. I'm even thinking about writing some one shots myself but it's hard, I've never written NSFW and I find it kind of funny that I want to start with Rocket.

Oh my god this was absolutely sweet.

Yes!! Everyone IT IS OKAY TO LIKE UNCONVENTIONAL CHARACTERS. LITERALLY, IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL!! JUST BE YOU!!!

And I’m really sorry there isn’t much fics in your language, but on the bright side I’m really happy that you’re at least able to read and write in english even if it isn’t your first language!

Also, yeah, in my experience, besides sighing the whole goddamn movie (except for the first 10 mins, I will give myself that,) I remember leaving the theatre in a sigh and going on ao3 like “ah shit, here we go again” bc this is the 1982838th time I’ve visited ao3 for some really obscure ship or an x reader fic for a very underrated character.

And about that Rocket smut, I understand how can it be daunting and I’d really love to help you!

Ykw, let me make a quick guide for anyone who’s scared of writing Rocket smut!! But for those of you who wouldn’t wanna read some real ugly/stupid stuff, don’t press the ‘keep reading’ line, haha.

a quick (and definitely unhinged) guide to writing Rocket smut XD

OBVIOUS NSFW WARNING!!! It gets ugly guys please THIS IS YOUR WARNING I’M NOT JOKING!!

If you’re uncomfortable with heavy nsfw please turn away now!!

written by aliasrocket (89P13 on ao3 hehe)

Suitable for any smut involving Rocket! (Looking at you guys, roquill shippers. Don’t worry, I welcome all ships on my blog <3)

This is supposed to be a writing smut guide specifically meant for Rocket so I’m not gonna go into the basics of writing smut, but if you’re a total beginner, here’s some pointers to help :

the genitals, legs, muscles, brain : main places that tend to be the most stimulated, exhausted or absolutely wiped. That being said, you can use these as a starting point for describing the feelings the characters or the reader may feel in the moment.

besides the main thing, you could try to set the mood by maybe mentioning how the moans sounded like, (screams, squeals, cries etc.) and other things the characters were doing to ground them in the moment, like gripping the sheets, gripping the other person’s shoulder or hips, etc.

Okay, so, about Rocket in particular …

Yeah, of course writing smut about a fucking Raccoon isn’t going to be fucking easy. But don’t worry, as someone who has studied all 3 gotg films and slowed down quite possibly every single Rocket clip in existence (enough to know Rocket … is genuinely CANONICALLY is very particular/skilled with his fingers, he knows where he’s putting them and knows EXACTLY which buttons to press on any tech, so … definitely good at using his fingers if you catch my drift) I think I might have gotten the hang of it to help some of you guys out.

So first off, when I write Rocket smut I always imagine he’s his comic height instead of his mcu height (don’t search it up, you’re just gonna be depressed about it trust me) so all you have to know is that if he pressed you up against a wall his head would be around your shoulder blade area. For missionary, he’s probably around your collarbone.

Rocket canonically has sharp and absolutely grown out nails. No, they’re not retractible. I’ve done research on this, but if you’d like to write him fingering someone, Rocket can have his nails trimmed.

It would hurt if Rocket bit you. Like, it would fucking bleed. So I’m sorry to say to those biting kink girlies (those are me hi) but Rocket can only afford to give you or someone else some nibbles on the skin unless you guys want some serious bloodplay on your hands. This is because he has protruding fangs on both his upper and lower row of teeth, his lower ones more prominent than the top.

Rocket can, however, eat you out. Don’t wanna get too into depth with this but basically his tongue can stick out his muzzle pretty well and his nose makes for a good clit-stimulator HAHAHAH

!!! : (this is going to be a description of the average raccoon penis so skip this if you don’t wanna know about this because you can DEFINITELY write Rocket smut without having to know this so please be free) I had to research this for a very specific request (pls ily shameless anon/pos) and I almost cried out of the loss of my sanity but anyway, raccoons have a baculum bone which is basically a bone in their penis that helps with copulation, its average length is about 4 inches but can be longer if you catch my drift. The genital itself is a like a rod with a ‘spiky’ end (it’s not actually spiky but it looks that way) compared to human genitalia, kind of like a cat’s but much longer and it is a very dark shade of brown or just plain black. Feel free to use any of these for a possible description if ever you need it, though I never really talk about it in fics, especially the whole ‘spiky’ thing. That being said, Rocket should not have an issue with size, as the the average human male genitalia is about five inches, meaning he can hit anyone’s g-spot just fine.

I might add more points if I have any more but this is all I got right now. I really hope this somehow encouraged you to write that nsfw fic you wanted, and just know everyone’s got interests, it’s fine if not a lot of people irl are into Rocket that way, because that’s literally what the internet is for!

[franklyimissparis]

Hi sorry if this is a little bit creepy but I noticed your tags on your post about Alex and drugs about your dad being in the music industry and I have so many questions (Totally feel free to ignore this though lol) But uh is he famous? 👀 And it sounds like he knows Alex in some sense? Also if he does know Alex, my Milex heart is very curious if he’s heard anything about them. it must be so cool to hear stuff behind the scenes like that

okay so i’ve gotten variations of this question to some degree before but i ignored them ngl 😭 but anyway i probably won’t talk abt this again unless it’s particularly relevant (or funny tbh) so here we go lads.

my dad isn’t like PROPER famous but he’s well-respected within the industry. i’m a little hesitant to give more detail than that given that this is a music-related blog and some of you may have heard of him and could potentially work it out if given more clues (though i’m sure most of you probably wouldn’t bc again it’s not like he’s a household name or anything mad, thank god tbh 💀) also a little reluctant to discuss too much about things bc though i love my dad, he’s kind of a prick and we have a bit of a difficult relationship. music is quite literally the only thing i have in common w him so the idea of anything i post here (especially my Gay Antics) somehow getting back to him actually makes me feel ill lol.

anyway to answer your questions about alex, i would say “know” is a strong word but yeah they’ve bumped into each other quite a bit over the past like 20 years AM has been on the scene. my dad is also good friends w a few people who have worked closely with him. but i wouldn’t really say they have a direct connection or anything and i deffo wouldn’t want to make it out to be something it isn’t lmao. personally i’ve never met alex or had any special perks or anything at any AM gig (though tbh if my dad would actually ever agree to go w me i probably could have gotten backstage so that’s unfortunate). i did technically have the opportunity to meet him and some others one time in like 2018-2019ish but i got violently fucking ill and couldn’t go 😭😭 little bit glad in hindsight though bc i will say that once the hero illusion breaks it’s significantly less fun to be an unhinged fan of someone.

re: milex, i’ve never straightforwardly asked my dad about it bc i don’t want to hear his thoughts tbh lmao. i know he’s heard rumours abt miles’ sexuality because he brought that up out of nowhere once but to my knowledge it was more along the lines of vague gossip (tho i can speculate of course). he hasn’t mentioned anything to me abt alex’s either way but i’ve also never asked.

[its-raining-cats]

Idk how many of my followers play genshin impact but the 4.0 trailer came out this morning and I Must Scream.

I LOVE UNDERWATER EXPLORATION I LOVE ANCIENT RUINS I LOVE INTRICATE PUZZLES I LOVE BOATS I LOVE AIRSHIPS I LOVE CLOCKWORK AESTHETICS I LOVE MAN VS TECHNOLOGY I LOVE MAN VS AUTHORITY I LOVE PROPHECIES I LOVE UNHINGED WOMEN I LOVE MYSTERIOUS ENTITIES THAT ARENT SUPPOSED TO HAVE CONSCIOUSNESS BUT TOTALLY DO

More ramblings about the special program and trailer under the cut bc I have a lot to say. Seriously this post is LONG.

Trailer thoughts!!

I’ll go into thoughts on the scenery/environments/aesthetics first

As usual, it looks incredible. Genshin really knocks the aesthetics and environments out of the park. The city and the world outside it look beautiful, the underwater is full of life and i know I’m gonna get lost in there for hours. The seal(?) looking things are cute, even though it uh. Looks like one of them might be a ghost. The ruins look super interesting, and i think i spy an oceanid? We’ve been getting quite a lot of lore on them recently, between the Realm of Farakhkert and the most recent event. They’re almost definitely gonna have a part to play in the archon quest. It also showed us what appear to be some of the new world bosses, the crab-looking thing and those dancing robots in the second half.

Before i go into thoughts on the story, I’ll just start by saying that I’m really looking forward to where the story is going. Sumeru’s archon quest was leaps and bounds above Inazuma’s (in my opinion,) so I hope they can keep that momentum going.

Right from the start, they’re presenting quite a few plot threads in the trailer. The prophecy about the people “dissolving into the waters” is certainly foreboding.

There’s also that structure in the stormy water surrounded by ruins that we see twice, and some kind of creature (possibly an oceanid?) that doesn’t know who it is, followed by someone (Lynette, i think) saying “the water is gradually swallowing our memories… it won’t be long until it swallows us.” This is definitely connected to prophecy, and given the memory thing it’s probably related to the possibly-oceanid.

What is the Oratrice? All they give us is that it has a consciousness when it’s probably not supposed to, and it can talk in coherent sentences. I’m guessing it’s related to the clockwork robots in some way, maybe controlling them and causing them to go rogue?

Some clockwork stops, Navia comments on the rain, and Lynette quite literally dissolves into the water. Is the “Oratrice” the one causing the prophecy to come true?

I’m already betting on a Sabzeruz Festival-esque 0 to 100 where everything goes from ‘fun cute having fun experiencing the culture’ to ‘what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck’ real fast.

There’s the secondary conflict, Fontaines fucked up justice system that’s been hinted at for so long! The spectacle of the courtroom, baby. The Gang Becomes Enemies Of The State Part 4.

In the scene where the Traveler and Navia are surrounded by the Gardemeks, Traveler doesn’t seem to be doing so hot. You okay, buddy?

And also Childe. Mister Worldwide is back. Surprise bitch, bet you thought you’d seen the last of me.

As for characters, it sounds like we’re gonna be meeting Focalors pretty early. Still can’t tell if she’s an ally, enemy, or something else entirely.

Looks like Navia will be featured heavily in the early acts! I love her aesthetic, especially the parasol in the overture teaser. She seems to have beef with the way the government/judicial system is running things. I’m considering pulling for her on aesthetic alone, but I already have good Geo units so that might sway me.

Lyney and Lynette are intriguing. Lyney is a 5-star while his siblings are both 4-stars. I was expecting him to be a catalyst unit tbh, the bow is a bit of a surprise. They’ve both got cat motifs, but Lynette is the only one to have actual ears and a tail.

Freminet! If they actually manage to make The Bell good on him… hats off. It’ll be interesting to see what his relationship with his siblings is like. Lyney and Lynette are such a duo, so I’d guess there’s probably gonna be some tension there.

Neuvillette seems to be taking an antagonistic role, but is that just the nature of his career? He’s seen in the audience of Lyney and Lynette’s show, so maybe he’s not a total hard ass when he’s not working, but for better or worse (probably worse, at least early on) he takes his job seriously. Villain or adversary? We’ll see.

Clorinde makes a brief appearance! I’m 90% sure I’m going to pull for her. I love her design and I need a good electro unit. I can’t tell if she’s an antagonist or not, she seems to be fighting Navia and the Traveler, but a few shots later she’s destroying the Gardemeks. We’ll see!

Also Navia using Whiteblind and and Clorinde using Iron Sting hmmmmmmmmmmm 👀 dare I say it.

I also spotted Charlotte a few times, but she didn’t have much of a presence in this trailer.

No Arlecchino, Sigewinne, or Wriothesley yet, but what’s this??? It’s Childe with a steel chair!

All in all, the trailer was really good. It’s got me very excited for the new areas and story, and was just put together really well. They’ve come a long way with their version trailers.

Onto the rest of the program!

I really appreciate that they didn’t put an oxygen/regular stamina bar on underwater swimming, and the fact that they did that specifically so players can explore to their hearts content without having to watch a meter every second is really nice. Just from seeing them talk about it, it’s clear that they’ve put a lot of thought, time, and work into the environment, movement, and pseudo-combat in the interest of keeping the experience fun and user-friendly.

Arkhe… I’ll have to experience it in-game. The lore implications are interesting, but I’m not sure how I feel about it’s supposed effect on gameplay. I guess it encourages players to try out Fontaine characters, but I’m not sold on it just yet.

In that fight with the baton-wielding Meka… I saw that red crossed out plus symbol above the health bar. We are so fucking back. We are SO FUCKING BACK. They laughed at us when the rifthounds came out. They laughed at us when the black serpent knights came out. Who’s laughing now. VIVA LA SHIELDS, MOTHERFUCKER.

So this strange energy source was invented “over 400 years ago”…….. and the fact that it’s called an “annihilation reaction”……… suspicious.

A machine that harvests people’s belief in justice and uses it to power everything in the city…… man there’s no way this could possibly end up leading to corruption in the judicial system.

Praying to every god imaginable that they don’t fumble the morally gray characters.

I won’t go into detail on the state of my wishes at the moment but… hoo boy. These banners are not being very nice to me. My pity is high but I only want the four stars. Pain pain pain.

CLORINDE HAS A ~COMPLICATED~ CONNECTION WITH NAVIA 👀 👀 👀

The Icewind Suite boss looks so cool… I love the figure skating inspiration.

“The first underwater areas you reach are actually shallow seas. Since it’s the travelers first time diving we wanted to make sure the underwater experience is comfortable for players :)” oh I just know they’re gonna send us into the Mariana Trench later on. Wether it’s one update from now or five, it’s gonna happen. And I’m gonna be terrified the whole time.

MULTI LAYER MAP THANK FUCKING GOD. Better late than never.

The 16th… my computer is probably going to be out for repairs then :’) maybe when natlan releases I’ll finally be able to participate in a launch day.

This post went on way longer than I thought it would. If you read all of my ramblings then uh. Thanks I guess? Have a good day.

[futurecorps3]

Hii! Congrats for your 800 followers, I’d like to take part in your celebration event if that’s okay! Could I please request a 🩸 for Grishaverse (so far I’ve only watched the show but I plan on reading the books as well) <3

my pronouns are she/her and I’m asexual biromantic so any gender is fine. I’m an ESFJ and a Gemini. I have green eyes and brown hair, I have a mullet with blue strands. I dress with vintage/fairy grunge clothes, especially long skirts. I wear lots of rings and love to exchange them with others.

I’m the mom friend of the group, always there for everyone and my friends say that I’m really good at comforting people. I’m also calm and responsible, I usually am the one that takes care of other people. I’m very optimistic, I always try to see the good in everything. I love making others laugh to lighten the situation.

I don’t like when people tell me what to do and I’m not afraid to stand up for myself or for someone else. I also dislike when someone is too serious and really can’t take a joke as I tend to use humor as my coping mechanism.

All my friends tell me I’m very smart, I get very good grades and I do well in school. I also try to help my friends with study and school as much as possible. I’m also very ambitious, I always try to achieve my goals.

My love languages are, receiving, physical touch and words of affirmation and giving, quality time and words of affirmation.

I absolutely love listening to music (Lana del Rey and Mitski are my favorite, but I’ll listen to almost everything) it helps me relax and I really like reading, my favorite book has probably been Lord of the flies ever since I read it in school. I also love watching horror movies even though it’s impossible to scare me. I also play Dungeons and Dragons with my friends anytime I can. also, I absolutely love musicals (I listen to musical sound track all the time) and I’m definitely a theatre kid.

Have a great day :)

Thank you angel!<3

It’s giving… Jesper Fahey!

This unhinged mf- YOU’RE MADE FOR EACH OTHER!!! We know he tends to get in his head a lot but with you by his side he’s more confident and relaxed <3 You balance each other quite nicely; he brings crazy to your calmness and you bring calmness to his crazy. Jesper is a theater kid himself so I can totally see you two going to the theater together and singing along to your favorite song’s in the play.

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LO & FRANKIE — THREAD 001.

description :  mostly for my own records bt jst an unhinged text interaction between lo and frankie tht i wanna immortalise on my blog x

featuring : frankie @eclvpses

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

[message deleted] [message deleted]

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

heeeeeeeyyyyy so i came into fannys earlier and i wanted to talk to you because i feel like i haven't seen you since forever ago but you were talking to jules so i didn't wanna bother you or anything but i was also like. i don't know. jealous i guess? i don't know. i don't even know if that's a thing but like. she's really pretty so if you did like her i would totally get it. it's literally so fine if you like her and if you don't even like me like it's whatever like i won't be upset i'd just rather know so i'm not like. wasting my time or whatever you know. not that im wasting my time because, like, every moment i spend with you is treasured regardless of what we are but also like. i don't know i guess some clarity would be nice but like im also so aware of the fact that im doing the thing i do where i just get super intense n scare guys off and im trying not to be clingy but yeah i don't know am i making any sense right now?? whatever i think you're cool and i guess it wouldn't suck if we like. hung out more or whatever.

frankie noel

hi! this whole text made me very happy im not sure what to do with myself jules is like my sister we’re not a thing in the absolute slightest she’s a best friend i like you a lot tho and i want you to be very intense with me we can hang out now if ur not busy

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

aaaaaaaaaaaaah okay sorry for putting 2 and 2 together and getting 12 is it weird if i say im like. kinda glad ur just friends? not to be super "my parents aren't home" but the family im au pairing for are actually vacationing in PR for the holidays so... i have full run of the house while they're gone 👉👈 or we could just get a christmas drink in town? whatever you want, im easy breezy lemon squeezey 🍋

frankie noel

don’t worry about it, people usually assume the same thing she’s very Affectionate and Touchy (said fondly tho) but i’m glad ur glad :) i can come by this evening, i’m just doing some standard christmas hubbub with my aunts first […] i can have them put together a plate for u?? there’s gonna b a lot of leftovers they always make like 1000x more than necessary for fanny’s regulars that don’t have anything to do on christmas i’ll bring my own it can b like a little christmas date 🎄🎅🏻

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

oh. does it bother you that im like super touchy and affectionate? because i can tone that down if you like. guess some people are just built that way hope it's going well!! love suzette and molly so much, like i know they barely know me but if they ever needed a hand i would literally chew my own arm off to give it to them [...] that's so sweet, frankie. like really so sweet, i don't think anyone's ever done anything that kind for me. are you sure?? i mean it's christmas, so i totally get it if you'd rather spend it with family [...] but if you do come you could always like. sleepover or whatever. borrow my pyjamas and have waffles in the morning. if you wanted. [...] sorry, just realised that sounds kinda slutty!! the last thing i wanna do is make you uncomfy! we'll just see how it goes n if it gets late and u do wanna stay we can always reassess the sitch and sleep in separate rooms like victorians if you want! or not! im chill! will just be nice to see you n stuff x

frankie noel

it doesn’t bother me at all, there’d be more affection and touching if i had it my way from u specifically, to clarify, my heart gets warm whenever we’re even in the same room together the touching’s nice they know all about u, they’re gonna b thrilled they have a fan club now 🫡 […] well you feel like family to me and i spend every day with them, we already did gifts the christmas magic is Over now i want to be with you […] packing my overnight bag As We Speak i can totally get down with the victorian style era if that’s your thing but if it’s not i’d much rather share a room and if we’re feeling absolute insane, a bed at that i don’t even snore or anything i’m basically the ideal sleeping buddy unless this is actually bordering on being overly slutty but. i just like you a lot i don’t rly wanna mince my words or anything

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

okay well you don't need to ask twice. when i see you later i'm gonna like. literally pull you so close that my skin n ur skin fuses together n then we'll have to spend the rest of our lives walking around together like those creepy shining twins. or marykate and ashley when u think about it, marykate and ashley are kinda shining twins adjacent. if i was them i would so do that for a halloween costume sorry. not trying to deflect. my heart gets warm too. all about me? frankie even you don't know all about me yet. it's kinda fun tho. like there's still so much we dont know about each other [...] i've never really had like. a proper family. so yeah that means a lot

i wanna be with you too. idk i was kinda scared to admit it bcos that usually results in me getting exiled for being a needy little cunt but now that you've said it i feel better. and this house is super nice. they have a jacuzzi! no no no we can share a bed. i'd actually really like that. i just didn't want you to feel pressured. oh me too. except sometimes i sleep talk about my dreams. you can be slutty with me!!  i want you to feel like you can be slutty with me. fair warning i might latch onto you and not let go all night. i'd probably sleep with you inside me if you let me.

frankie noel

i think u should know i’m trying to be very normal cuz i tend to freak ppl out with how intense i get its a common theme but ur kinda perfect ur offensively attractive and saying all the right things […] […] if things went my way i’d like take u to city hall tmrw LMFAO […] anyway u can live inside my skin and do wtvr u want to me obviously i’ll be there soon […] i’m rly rly excited to see you 🥰😜👍🏻👀😩

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

you don't have to be normal. i know it's only been a short while but like. there's nothing normal about the way i feel about you. so jot that down 📝 usually guys only tell me i'm attractive when they're trying to get in my pants, and like. sometimes not even then. but i know that's not even your game. are you an air sign? i bet you have a libra placement in your chart. [...] why? what's at city hall? 🙂 [...] you can do whatever you want to me too. i'm not shy. not with you i bet it's such a lovely place to live. if i was really small i would make such a cute house in there, nestled just between ur lungs n ur heart. a real susie homemaker type. and tiny frankie could come home every day n tiny me would be like. i've literally been waiting for u to get home all day? i missed u so bad? n tiny me wld have like. all ur favourite foods ready in my cute 50s housewife dress and apron (in this fantasy i can cook). we'd have separate bedrooms which we decorate in our own styles with a door between like helena bonham carter and tim burton used to. if we slept in the same bed all the time we'd just never sleep n fuck like rabbits probably i dnt know, but i'd be your rabbit if you wanted. you could put me on a leash and walk me round the block and dress me up for easter. [...] sorry i get carried away sometimes. i'm so excited to see you, too 🥺 🥰 😳 can you do a special knock when you come please bcos i just opened the door to some carol singers in my underwear. actually maybe i'll put a dress on

frankie noel

i know nothing about astrology except some ppl i've dated in the past have been horrified by my chart, you make it endearing tho is aquarius an air sign?? what're u?? i bet our signs are compatible or however it works [...] [...] my parents got married at city hall, i heard it was a rather dull affair which sounds pretty lame to be honest, if we got married there i'd make sure it was like something to actually write home about at least [...] i think u might actually b the smartest person i've ever met in my entire life, and i'm not just saying that, idk where u come up with half the stuff u do but it's fun i want to live inside of your brain and just rummage around in there and see what else u can come up with..... also take a sneak peek at wtvr corner i foster in incredibly wrinkly organ of yours it must be a great place to live and i'll be the cook in both your fantasy and irl so u never have to worry about anything :-) [...] NO DRESS!!!!!!! [Sent with Boom Effect] i'm around the corner!!!! i'd run if i was athletic

𝐥𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞.

omgggg!!!!!! omg???? i think we might actually be super compatible air signs are my favourite signs. all of my favourite people are air signs. my best friend siobhan is actually a libra like me which is why we get on so well bt aquarius is also p good. to get the full picture i wld have to know ur place and time of birth so we cld look at ur chart but the internet says we'd make better lovers than friends haha thats so crazy! Image Image Image Image omggggg ignore that last one i have no idea how that got there [...] u wanna take me to the place ur parents got married???? if we got married i would have the biggest dress you could fit my whole family of sylvanian creatures under it. i have loads of sylvanian creatures btw i'll introduce you to them all. i wld probs keep snacks under there for the whole day strapped to my thighs with garters like miss congeniality as weddings are literally so long and if you got tired of interacting with everyone you could just hide under my big skirts and hang out there for a bit. [...] nobody has ever told me i'm the smartest person in the room let alone the smartest person they've met in their entire life 🥺  that actually means a lot. like. i know i'm smart but i think quite a lot it's easy to just underestimate me or whatever bcos i didn't go to college. i think you're super smart too btw but like really emotionally intelligent and so kind. it's so refreshing. omg u cook too?? am i dreaming?? where's the catch?? bad breath in the morning? tiny dick? secret green card sham marriage? think i'd still like u with those things tbh ok gnna do a tit indent against the fogged up glass of the window like a bat signal so u know which house. if ur fast u might even see a flash of nip.

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Holoctober Day 8 - Haunted

The advent girls get roped into a ghost-hunting adventure with Shiori. Mayhem ensues. Another short comedic piece, doing a lot less gore than I expected this year. Buckling down for multiple stories today. Determined to catch back up!

“Thanks for coming with me on my ghost hunting stream guys!” All of advent was driving down the road in a large van full of ghost hunting tech. “Wait, is that what this is?” Nerissa sounded disappointed. “You told me this was a sleepover!”

Fuwawa popped her head over the backseat, “yobai!?”

Mococo appeared beside her “No Fuwawa, no yobai!”

Bijou added “Stop trying to Jaslight us Fuwawa. The Adventrix told us what that word means.” 

Shiori chuckled, “Since your family guards the gates to hell, does that mean you Gaslight, Gatekeep and-”

“Don’t try to distract us from the fact you lied about a sleepover Shiori.” Nerissa interrupted.

“I didn’t lie to anyone. Fuwamoco know exactly where we’re going. Bibou was already passed out here cause she was sleep-deprived after a 12 hour stream and thought it was her bedroom, and I told you it's a sleepover because it is! We’re staying overnight. It's the best kind of sleepover even. The kind that's at a Murder House!” They pulled into the driveway of a decrepit looking old house with a sign in front that designated it simply as “The Murder House.”

“Its called that because of all the people who keep getting murdered here.” Shiori explained as they parked.

Nerissa rolled her eyes. “I never would have guessed. Fuwamoco you knew about this? I thought you hated scary things?” Fuwawa and Mococo’s expressions grew serious. Fuwawa declared, “Its training! We’re gonna show these ghosts how rough and tough demon guard dogs can be!” 

“And if we spend 40 hours total in haunted locations we get our Specter Stopper certification from Cerberus school,” Mococo added. 

They spent a few hours setting up equipment and trying to get a response out of the ghosts. Other than a few temperature dips and one moment where Fuwamoco were taking turns asking questions to a spirit box and Nerissa snuck up on them and whispered “behind you,” which had them huddling in the nearest closet for twenty minutes, almost nothing happened. They gathered in the living room, precisely at midnight. It looked like something out of the 1890s with fragile old rocking chairs and dusty beige carpets bearing archaic patterns. After a fruitless Ouija board session where Nerissa nudged the planchette towards the lewdest answers her rather vivid imagination could think of, Shiori huffed in frustration. “Where are they? They’re being so dull! Since when are murder ghosts shy?” 

“Good instincts honestly, we are three demons, a rock with emotion lasers and a freaky, unhinged goth with unspecified magic powers.” Nerissa chimed.“

Shiori rolled her eyes. “Nerissa, I’m not going to degrade you in public just because you say something nice about me. I’m not your prom date.” 

Nerissa shivered in place. “Tasukaru.”

“Bibou…do you think you could give them a little burst of anger, stir things up?” Shiori askled.

“Okay!”

“Wait, Bibou!” Fuwamoco and Nerissa screamed together, but it was too late, her gems glowed a bright red and the whole house took on that hue. After a few minutes her gems turned back and the room returned to its normal hue. “Huh, guess that was a dud. Let me hit em again.” Before she could, they all felt a dark presence enter the room, and dozens of knives floated in from the kitchen.

“Why do they have so many knives? Isn’t this place like a tourist trap now?” The knives oriented towards them slowly before launching with incredible speed. Fuwamoco leapt in front of Shior and Nerissa, batting away knives with their claws. “Protect!” 

Bijou was off to the side, several knives flanked around and charged her, but they impacted on her skin with a slight “ting” sound and bounced off, some shattering. She giggled, “stop, that tickles!”

Eventually the onslaught stopped, the ammunition depleted. Fuwamoco turned to the rest of the girls. “We did it! We’re saved!” Mococo cheered. “We did such a good job didn’t we Shiori?” Fuwawa added, and both demon guard dogs angled their heads for headpats, not noticing in the candlelight that Shiori’s eyes had turned to darkest obsidian. She opened her mouth and glowing green ectoplasm sprayed out, drenching the dog-girls. “Shiori’s not here right now!” A voice much deeper than Shiori’s declared. On seeing the state of Fuwamoco Nerissa fell to her knees, crying out “Noooo! That should have been me!”  The twins screamed and ran around in circles looking for something to hide under, but eventually froze, they looked to each other in silent agreement and stalked towards Shiori with grim determination. 

Mococo grabbed Shiori’s collar, lifting her into the air, and started slapping her. “You have to fight it Shiori, don’t let the murder ghost win!” 

Nerissa said, “nooo, that should also be me!” 

Fuwawa grabbed Shiori from Mococo “Moco-chan, can’t you see shes already dead!” She stabbed Shiori with her demon claws, continuously repeating the action. “The ghost is trying to devour her soul! We have to stop him!”

Mococo tackled her to the ground. “Are you crazy. That's our friend!” Fuwawa tried to fight free, “Our friend is dead Moco-chan! Shes never coming back!”

“Actually I’m already back.” Shiori stood back up, dusting herself off.

“Oh.” Fuwawa said. Mococo gave her an I told you so look, and Fuwawa bowed her head towards Shiori. “I’m sorry Shiori, I guess that was a pretty big misunderstanding.”

“Aw, its ok, you were just trying to help.” Shiori patted Fuwawa’s head placatingly. “Besides you kind of did, it could have taken me hours to kick out that hitchhiker but he definitely wasn’t emotionally prepared to be stabbed that many times. Amateur.” 

Nerissa looked at Shiori’s now significantly more porous torso. “Um, Shiorin, is that gonna be ok? You’re human aren’t you?”

Shiori looked down too. “I’m only human-adjacent, but yeah…it could be an issue if I don’t take care of it. Guess the sleepover’s canceled.” They started to walk back to the van. “Maybe the real yobai was the friends we made along the way” Shiori said.

“No!” chorused most of the girls.

“Yobai!” Cheered Fuwawa, tail wagging rapidly.

[multiplicity-positivity]

OK OK, I have a question but it's kind of complicated and I totally understand if you can't answer it because I think you really need a singlets perspective too, but I'll leave it here anyway!

So, sometimes I have some "thoughts", which can come in the form of sentences or other things, which are totally random and meaningless. I thought this was normal (aka common) and called it "intrusive thoughts" because technically it wasn't coming from me.

But, I've been seeing in the last few days some people explaining that intrusive thoughts are actually thoughts that don't agree with your moral values but still appear out of nowhere, which usually causes some level of discomfort. I realized that my ""intrusive thoughts"" didn't fit into this, because I didn't feel uncomfortable and it wasn't anything that contradicted any moral values of mine.

Then I saw some people explaining that what most call "intrusive thoughts" are actually impulsive thoughts, which are basically thoughts that make you want to do something. Again, it doesn't fit my experience because these thoughts are never driving me to do something, it's more like "what is this [specific media I like]?" appearing out of nowhere while I'm thinking and I'm almost immediately starting to explain to an imaginary listener about this media.

I was questioning myself being a system before, and this has made me more prone to questioning, but I wonder if it's something with ADHD hyperactivity or just a common thing, as it doesn't happen to me very often (or at least I don't repair) and I don't remember hearing a response that came from the same place these thoughts come from, so I don't know if it could actually mean I'm plural or it's just... Some quirk.

Well, my question is basically this: Is this a common experience, are there other more plausible explanations, or is it really an important sign that I can be plural and I shouldn't ignore it?

— Angelly

Hiya, Angelly! So having random, unhinged, or unexpected thoughts that seemingly come out of nowhere isn’t actually a sign of plurality in and of itself. I think it’s a common experience for people to be confronted with a thought they weren’t expecting! :3

Have you ever conjured an image in your mind that’s seemingly random? Like a chicken juggling oranges, or a line of tap dancing frogs, or a sentient, pie-throwing, microwave robot (okay that last one is an Adventure Time reference hehe)? Having unexplained, random thoughts is actually completely normal, and is something that even individual alters within our system experience occasionally!

Especially if you have ADHD or are prone to losing focus, it makes sense for you to experience random thoughts fairly regularly. Even in neurotypical singlets, the mind can wander, and thoughts can pop up spontaneously!!

I’m including a link to an article from Cognition Today about random thoughts, daydreams, and how they occur:

Does this sound more like something you’re going through?

We’d say that only you can ultimately determine whether or not you’re plural, or whether having random thoughts makes you plural. But we will say that having random thoughts that aren’t necessarily intrusive, just unexpected, is totally normal for singlets and individual alters alike!! If it is a quirk, it’s a quirk that comes from being human, or at least a sentient, thinking being!!>w<

💚 Ralsei and 🐢 Kip

[d0ntw0rrybehappy]

journallllll 5/21

now that i’m moving out it’s gonna be harder to see my mom cause i’m further away and she’s gonna be sooo sad. i worry about my mom bc inside she is the world’s most lovable sweetest well-meaning person but she has less self-awareness/emotional control than most people so people judge her rly hard. i always want to be like guys just roll your eyes and let it go and let her know she is loved, she just has some weird kind of like, specific mom dementia/brain glitch, and deep down you KNOW this so lay off. there are so few people my mom lets in or will actually listen to. she was this kid runaway who built a life for herself in the art world copping designer clothes and flying to paree like a fucking pirate and then she had me instead of getting married and i’m one of the like MAYBE 3 people she actually likes. lol. nails & teeth metaphor “you’re the only one she’ll listen to” or “you’re the only one who can talk to her.” i miss her friend jaime who was an indubitably brilliant depressive semitic russian translator who never once judged my mom and they had this kind of relationship where they’d lie feet-to-head on a couch and just chat chat chat. she was my favorite of my mom’s friends. she died from cancer and self-neglect basically. bullshit. shauna’s friend alex reminded me of her the last night and i was like ugh i miss jaime. i wish my mom still had jaime!!! what am i gonna do? i have to have my own life but i have to protect my mom. stupid WASPs be like “you can’t take on your moms problems” shut the fuck up WASP you don’t know shit. other kids be rolling their moms around in wheel chairs and don’t complain you piece of individualist propaganda. nails & teeth metaphor the ignominious but resolute fighter (the progeny) lol.

so anyway this isn’t a post about my mom this is a post about henry cuz then i remembered henry lives on the west side like my mom. henry whom i’ve been on two dates with and have a major crush on. not a normal crush, a “oh you’re about to buy a horse son” level crush. and i imagined when i come to the west side, henry joining me for dinner on the days i visit my mom. not because that sounded like oh so much fun to him but because it was a way for us to spend time together. there are ppl who are married who do that kind of stuff for each other. it made me want to cry bc that would mean so much to me. this is fantasy henry not real henry but probably he would. i’ve only been on two dates with him and everyone is like avaaaaa don’t have too many expectations and like I KNOW i know i’m in it like ?? what’s the phrase? in it like jarvin? lol. besides if he dumped me i would DESERVE IT!!! i got fuckin’ KARMA to pay baby i broke more than a couple hearts the past couple years THIS IS WHAT THEY FELT LIKE?!? THEY FELT LIKE THIS?!?!?? wow FUCK

um but yeah obviously i would survive and if we break up it’s cause we’re not a match and there’s nothing *wrong* with me, duh, duhhhhh, totally notttttt a completely unhinged and slightly unhygienic individual, plus now i know what to look for - kind!!! stable!!! people!!! people i have a lot in common with!!! smart!!! part of the same world as me!!! people with a vision, a goal, passions!!! who take care of themselves!!! okay there’s gotta be lots of guys like that. so if it’s not henry FINE. but guyssssss guys i could actually see a future with him wtf was i doing before??? wowww i played so many games without realizing. 

anyway so we’ve only been on 2 dates so far but i am fully smitten with him (with spells of crushing doubt) and if one more person tells me to play it cool and not have expectations i WILL bite bc bitch I KNOW can you give me SOME OTHER KIND OF ADVICE PLS i have obviously not TOLD him any of this so stop putting more pressure on me to act or feel a certain way trust me I GET IT. and i think it’s dumb this is the advice given to women anyway.

also i’m going to europe probably for an entire month and as long as i don’t lose my job i’m gonna have a fucking amazing summer. losing job doesn’t seem that plausible, however, terrifying thought, bc i’m on my own now and need the moolah. and was a little uneven the past few months but that’s just a learning lesson ig. plus there’s always more jobs. right??? right. *sailor moon handhold sparkle fx*

ok thanks for being witnesses to my online diary my friends anxietyposting on here actually kind of helps, really excited for the future, it’s amazing that i’m getting these opportunities and the reason i’m so anxious is bc i care and i have something to lose. !

[laurfilijames]

(I figured it would be more convenient in ask form🥹)

Okay but a scene about The miller brothers training sounds like one of the best ways to go😍❤️‍🔥 (you know I’ll eat up anything you come up with😌)

Omggg that makes me so happy to know because sometimes I’m like what if it wasn’t meant to be a big deal and I just made it into one🙉 or like understood it in the complete opposite way that you were going for 😭

I was worried for a sec thinking my reblog was too aggressive😭 I just want them to be happy so bad😩 but I’m so glad you enjoy reading them!!! It makes the extra time it takes worth it🥹🌸💖✨

I'm telling you that if I write a scene like that, I will die and then you'll get nothing else from me ever again 🤣

That being said, Will has a lot of shit to sort out and maybe sparring with his bro is a good way to cope with things 🥊😏

(I'm totally thinking about Jay now too. fuck.)

And don't second guess any of it because everything you've said has been spot on and exactly what I was hoping I was conveying!! Nor are you too aggressive with your comments!! You could threaten me, scream in all caps, or say the most unhinged things and I'll just be sitting here thrilled because I did my job right 🙂‍↕️

Muah 😘

[suchsaccharine]

Wild how to I went to ēdē twt 3.yrs ago thinking that ēdē tumblr etc had migrated there.

But it’s such a dif experience on there especially since I’m an “elder” in that community now.

And the “being perceived” social media phenomena has gotten to me to me so at least some degree.

So once again I come here for my details entries. No one can judge me. If they do, they prob don’t know me and don’t mean to even see my posts.

I’ve given my tumblr handle to a couple ppl I wouldn’t mind keeping semi contact with at least.

I’ll go there to post one-liners or quick vents but this is where the full story is. Which..ya know if heavily redacted on twt even though it seems unhinged as already. That’s why I have to take my crazy somewhere more secluded lmao.

•~•

Picking my aunt up from work. Popped all six 📶 a few hrs ago.

Headed to the trap soon as this bitch walks out her store. Damn. Hurry up.

Side note: I have a picked back up on posting on my 0hEff accs. And my lenøvo should be fixed before this semester starts so I’ll be back to posting to mv soon.

K brb. Just scooped her up.

•~•

(typing this from the future)

The rest of the day was uneventful but eventful enough that it was fun.

I already lost my license that I had made test day morning..

Bf and I ended up talking for hours and hours about our relationship and how we each feel etc. it was annoyingly long ngl esp with my hips and back doing whatever little painful things it does - but I am really glad that we had it.

I told him once again how I could be completely delusional and he could totally take that and use it to advatage. After a little more talking it came down the classic “projecting abusive parent onto s/o”

Although I am sure that plays more or less of a role that i am consciously aware of, I’m still not entirely.

We did talk more about how like I told him what I want when we got back together and I want to get married and I want a baby.

So he actually sounded serious, like if the next 6-1yr can pass by without it being as tense as it was the last 2 months, then we’d ideally get married. And once I’m off my rx narcøtics he’s willing to do ivf w me.

He alsssoooo said some mildly concerning things like that he is so self sufficient that he is so busy taking care of all of his stuff that any thing “else” is too much and he can’t handle. And emotionally what he has given me is all that he has to offer and that’s it. I can accept it or find someone who less busy their work&hobbies, and who has more time to cater to my emotions.

Like I didn’t ask you to quit your fucking job to be my full time psychiatrist… I’m just process *a lot* of trauma that I had blocked out years ago and it’s just all coming back and I just need to know he’s there for me…

And he asked me how long it’s take to get off my meds and I said prob about a year so in a year. He said I/we can start like pr

It ended on an okay note.

He followed me around (into the bathroom) to smoke and hang out w me. We actually hadn’t done that in a while. Then we went to bed and although I fully wanted to fight sleep, I slept for like an hour an 15min lmao. We actually had sex for like, hours, it seems like. And it was good and not routine. Okay I’m getting tired of typing. Thanks for listening byeeee

[punkscowardschampions]

Dolly & Adonis Pt.4 & Adonis & Mattie

Adonis: [‘I could talk to Sekhmet, they already get along, albeit for reasons neither of us understand’ this boy trying to offer sane solutions to an unhinged situation god bless him, I love him]

Dolly: [‘your sister is exactly how mine would like to be’ ‘cos we can tell you that much just from the one meeting]

Adonis: [a shrug ‘regardless of why, your sister doesn’t have to be alone thanks to mine’s current interest in her’ looking at her ‘and there’s only [however long] left of hols anyway’ as if that means it’s totally fine to essentially want to move your gf into this gaff lol]

Dolly: [just looking at him for a while before ‘I don’t know’ as genuinely as you can mean that when it isn’t a brush off because we know damn well your parents have feelings about who we are, however well they hid it earlier ‘he’s gone, anyway’ like that’s this holiday sorted regardless]

Adonis: [‘consider it, no pressure’ because never trying to be like YOU HAVE TO, however much he may want something, likewise genuine and not a brush off or pout like ugh okay then]

Dolly: [‘I will’ again, actually will, even though we think this is a no ‘cos we can handle this holiday that is nearly over]

Adonis: [just smile at her cos it’s obvious she is being serious and not fobbing him off or anything like okay then]

Dolly: [nudge him, feelsy lean vibe ‘stop being perfect, it’ll start being a problem’]

Adonis: [‘you started it and it’s already a huge problem for me’ in french just because, and kissing her obvs in such a feelsy and soft manner]

Dolly: [kiss him back even though you’re shaking your head at the same time for the ‘no, you’ of it all ‘I can’t handle you’]

Adonis: [‘You’ve given me a lot of proof to the contrary’ back to english like soz don’t believe that cos you just did gal and you have this whole day]

Dolly: [do a blushy sort of smirk like well, okay, shhing him like you’re fully embarrassed when you aren’t at all]

Adonis: [kiss her wherever that blush has hit cos gotta]

Dolly: [do a happy sigh and close your eyes ‘Oh, Adonis’ because this boy, we can’t even comprehend this day truly yet]

Adonis: [do your own happy sound that’s like mhmm I know because hard same about how he feels about this gal and this day ‘would you like to go up?’ meaning to his room obvs, cos ruster have not appeared during y’all’s kitchen antics or anything so he figures it’s safe to do]

Dolly: [do a smile, still not opening your eyes just yet ‘if you aren’t opposed to visitors’ like lol imagine if he was like no, you aren’t coming in my room though]

Adonis: [in response just lead her in the direction, I like to imagine her eyes are still closed at least part of the way for the pure trust exercise that is lol, then when you quietly get there, y’all can do the thing where he sits on his bed or wherever and she walks and looks around at all his things and the vibes of his room and he can tell her little stories about things she picks up or gestures to]

Dolly: [don’t fall over girl, that would be so loud lmao and you cannot risk it after the feral way y’all have been behaving, we’ll, again, be kind and say that doesn’t happen and you can get into this room unharmed and undetected; we now know it’s a vibe so you can absolutely do that and lament over your own room, I’m sure you have cool things but the furniture and colour of the walls and whatnot would be dictated by your mother like I’m sure she doesn’t even let you hang things up just to be a cow]

Adonis: [the audacity of Chlo to be such a control freak about these girls bedrooms when she’s barely ever home, thankfully because of boarding school neither are y’all but it’s still so rude and would be so embarrassing to both twins, I love that his room is such a vibe though so it’s such an insight into who he is and there’d be so much to look at and discuss, you could lowkey spend an age doing it and I’m sure you will like how you spent ages getting to know each other on your date + talk about what you think the rooms at uni will be like] 

Dolly: [When everything you do is just to be as nasty as you can be, love that for you, you psycho bitch lmao and 100% the energy we don’t need to script everything you say but we know the vibe, just genuinely having a lovely little time getting to know each other more ‘I bet it’ll be like my dorm room now, just a double bed, perhaps?’ because you already dorm and accommodation is very similar wherever you go but uni is slightly more independence vibes of having a kitchen you share and usually an en-suite if not a bathroom between fewer people than your dorm, no doubt]

Adonis: [when you’re such a narcissistic cow that you don’t view your children as people just as things that belong to and are an extension of you, oh Chlo, can’t wait for you to come back and make their bday all about you hun, for now they are having the loveliest time though, I definitely picture him looking on the uni website rn to see if there are pics like we did and then being like oh there isn’t ‘They’re determined to leave it up to our imaginations’ said like that’s a good thing with a LOOK at her because their imaginations have been popping off in the best ways today so far]

Dolly: [I like to think you’re a fair way across this ridiculously large room so you can be LOOKING back whilst closing some of this space but still not enough that you’re remotely in reach]

Adonis: [‘I can’t wait to spend everyday with you’ no notes, both at uni and at school however much they can see each other he’s buzzing about]

Dolly: [‘Until then, add it to the things you think about every day?’ as a suggestion not a demand]

Adonis: [a nod because ofc he will, not this boy picking up a nearby book and reading something to her aloud that is a vibe like you’ll like this and it sums up how we’re living rn and how I do be feeling, lord knows, but he is a nerd]

Dolly: [go and sit down at the end of his bed to listen to him just casually recite this clearly apt quotation ‘you know, I would think this was an elaborate con if you weren’t so damn earnest’ shaking our head affectionately because does seem like such a move to just have that ready there]

Adonis: [‘I have all my just friends highlighted in different colours’ joking obvs as if it is a set up and he just has quotes ready and waiting for girls and scenarios, a smile as he then gets up to look for a different book that he wants to find and give her to take away and read that the quote clearly reminded him of, I’m sure it’ll take you a second to locate because you have so many but when he do, handing it to her in a clear I want you to have this manner, but not before writing an adorable message to her, in french I’m absolutely certain, in front, saying something feelsy like ‘to my darling Dolly, I promised you this would be our secret, but it appears [the author’s name] is in on it’ like this book also says what I wanna say]

Dolly: [do a lol like oh I see, good for you ‘colour coding is an excellent strategy always’ because so tracks for the sort of nerd you are and we’re amused before you floor us with this beyond perfect romantic gesture that we’re lowkey in shock over because who just does things like this, ever, but especially not to or for us; grabbing onto your cuff when we’re mid reading this dedication so you can’t walk away, full !!]

Adonis: [asking her what her fave colour is as if it’s for the bants of assigning her a highlighter colour for his fuckboy quote con while he’s looking for this book but then using a pen that corresponds to her answer to write this dedication literally in her fave colour as well to make it even more personal, ugh I bet he has such pretty posh boy writing too, rude and unfair, instead of walking away, steering her to his little pew reading nook and getting her comfy there with blankets and stuff, putting on a lamp etc, all while she’s still in shock with the idea that she’s gonna start reading rn immediately because it’s a book she’ll love or else he wouldn’t have done this, I wish I could pick one but I don’t know enough about the kind of shit this boy is reading, I do know though he is the sort to underline stuff and write things in the margins etc so yet another way to get to know him better as she reads this, and it’ll even have little keepsakes in there as bookmarks from when he’s read it before, because a sentimental bitch like your parents I think and so everything he owns just ends up v personal to him in that way]

Dolly: [when you’re going to be far too distracted by your overwhelming and all-encompassing feelings to do reading this book the justice you simply must do it now; attempting to nonetheless, like really trying but you can’t stop looking over this book to look at him and you’re here rereading the same sentence over and over]

Adonis: [when you’ve likewise picked up a book of your own with the intention of the shared intimacy and absolute vibe that is being in the same room doing the same activity close to each other but not together but he’s shamelessly watching her reaction to whatever she does manage to read/looking at her and the book is just open unloved on his lap]

Dolly: [catching his eye one of the times you’ve both looked up and biting your lip in a, you caught me, I’m sorry, type of way because we simply cannot right now, however much of a mood and a moment it is]

Adonis: [come over to her and take the book gently from her hands and put it down on the pew for later, leading her back to his bed so she knows he’s the opposite of mad about it, laying her down on it the way he did the one in the spare room, snuggling her the same]

Dolly: [‘I’ll read it tomorrow, all of it’ as you’re being lead over because don’t want it to appear like we don’t care to when we obviously do but it has been a day ‘every word’ punctuating between those words with a kiss on either cheek]

Adonis: [gotta just kiss her softly but with all the feeling in the world about this because you know she’s serious and therefore as highkey as you still always, have a little makeout sesh]

Dolly: [‘I can’t believe I’m in your bed’ during this makeout because we really can’t]

Adonis: [‘I can’t believe you are either’ because HARD SAME, doing the thing where he’s trying to get her under the covers rather than on top and therefore more in his bed than she already is but he won’t stop making out with her to do it so they’re just getting tangled up and once again cocooned and said covers are almost on the floor as well and it’s just carnage lol]

Dolly: [‘you really act how you look’ just calling you a fairytale prince in looks and behaviour and where’s the lie, absolutely being no help re. This cover situation because we’re likewise too focused on kissing you and pressing our body into yours every which way we can]

Adonis: [‘I act how you compel me to’ literally calling it a compulsion because of how many times today he hasn’t been able to help but do or not do something, it’s how it feels, hence likewise his only real priority here is pressing her into this bed as much as he can and really rolling around so she’s all over it, that’s the vibe]

Dolly: [‘Perhaps I should be more responsible’ like what a responsibility but of course, we’re only acting more irresponsibly if anything, very visibly and physically reacting to what he’s doing because you know you have to try and be quieter but he needs to still know exactly how you feel]

Adonis: [‘you’re too irresistible’ the way this sounds being so indecent when it’s so quiet, impressive sir ‘I can’t be held responsible’ like I literally CANNOT cope with you or any of this, soz not soz]

Dolly: [‘it’s between us and [the author of the book]’ like remember ‘I won’t tell all your friends’ because your other plan for tomorrow which you are of course thinking about]

Adonis: [‘We can blame him for everything’ the way he says everything making it clear he is down to do everything they possibly could in this bed right now immediately ‘I won’t brag to any of my friends, but there are going to be tells’ like soz they are all gonna know because I simply can’t help that either, LOOKING at her like this is an example of one, how I can’t help but LOOK at you]

Dolly: [just nodding so !! because we absolutely agree, we can and we must ‘bragging isn’t your style’ saying you totally could if you were like that but we know you aren’t ‘the way I can’t keep my hands off you is a slight giveaway in and of itself’ demonstrating as much by scratching our nails lightly down your arms] 

Adonis: [SUCH a dramatic shiver about those light scratches as if she just did so much more than that because everything is heightened by the setting of this happening in this room and how much higher the feels are since he gave her that book and the fact tomorrow is getting closer and she’ll meet his friends then, giving her a look that undoubtedly says please keep demonstrating this to me however you want to]

Dolly: [doing the quietest hot lol because more than happy to comply with that, throwing it back to when we were in the car with the ‘can I touch you?’]

Adonis: [stealing her words from pre the car even ‘my skin feels-’ but not able to get hot or anything out because of how his voice caught trying to describe how it feels, making a quiet but !! noise instead ‘where you touched it, and where I’m hoping you will’ cos gotta change the ending to reflect how much touching they’ve done since she said it]

Dolly: [kissing down his arms in the pattern of the scratch marks you made, having to give him a tiny lovebite when he makes the noise, probably not hard enough to mark fully but we could not help it ‘show me’]

Adonis: [when she does her little lovebite moment, telling her he aches, in french, like she did it the car because regardless of whether he knows exactly what it means he understood the vibe at the time and that he’s feeling the same type of way, pulling her over him so her body is covering his as fully as it can to show her that he just wants her everywhere ‘I need you all over me’ in english for that one]

Dolly: [stifling a moan on the skin of his arm lest we bite you again but you repeating our french has us feeling a type of way, lying on him with our full body weight, letting him feel all of us, before slipping a hand between y’alls bodies to touch him, barely being able to move due to the proximity so it’s very slow and tortured]

Adonis: [doing a moan of his own about all of this, quiet so he doesn’t have to stifle it at all because gotta let her hear it fully ‘Are you still obsessing?’ as he switches up their positions so he’s on top of her pinning her as absolutely to this bed because remembered what she said in the car about not being able to meet ruster because she’s obsessing about him fucking her in his bed in this exact manner, not that he is yet but we all know it’s where it’s headed]

Dolly: [‘obsession seems like the only suitable word’ as we are making the most INTENSE eye contact, now from under him, feeling like our body is humming from the tension and anticipation of it all]

Adonis: [‘Unless we’re allowing more than one, in which case [the french for filthy whore that she also used in the car when she was losing it] could be most suitable’ holding this EYE CONTACT like remember that’s what you said I deserved]

Dolly: [‘how do you want me to prove my devotion?’ in french with such urgency like yes I do and it’s true and I need to prove that’s me right now]

Adonis: [‘What’s something you haven’t done with any of your exes?’ like give me some kind of sexual first here, whatever that may be]

Dolly: [‘there’s lots’ because not saying either of those were sexually adventurous relationships because not for their own separate reasons ‘what you want to do to me from that list is another question’]

Adonis: [‘I want to do the entire list’ hasn’t even heard what’s on said list yet but here he is, so highkey ‘if not tonight, over the next 10 years’ because he promised her a decade we all remember]

Dolly: [‘you could… did you like calling me a filthy whore?’ because our head is swimming with all the things we could do and it feels like it really could take a lifetime]

Adonis: [when he doesn’t even blush because he CLEARLY did like it and he also blatantly likes the fact she’s giving him the green light to do it all, STARING down at her with eyes full of the most desire ever ‘None of my friends speak French, I’ll be able to call you anything you like in front of them’ just putting that idea out into the world for them both to THINK about]

Dolly: [LOOKING up with the most pleading eyes because we want every part of this ‘talk about how wet I am and how much I’m obsessing over when I’ll next have your cock inside of me’]

Adonis: [trying that out, in a few different ways, like he’s gotta get the french absolutely perfect before tomorrow and doesn’t just wanna be saying it rn]

Dolly: [essentially just panting because it feels safer than letting ourselves moan ‘and tell them all about how we’ve been fucking since the second you got me alone’]

Adonis: [again doing this, trying out every single word for fucking he knows, to see which one has the best reaction, she definitely can add her own because she’d know so much more slang than him especially saucy or swearing sorts, pop off and really wind each other up with this lil vocab lesson and exchange]

Dolly: [not even a joke how turned on and erratic you’ve got yourself feeling here with this ‘I want you to tie me to this bed’ ‘cos you’ve got the perfect bed for that and we can’t get the idea out of our addled brain ‘I want you to have all the control’]

Adonis: [we all know there’s 0 hesitation about this, you’ve got dressing gown cords within reach you can use so tie her wrists with those, I feel like too gently at first because you’ve never done it before and don’t wanna go too hard and hurt her is the concern despite how !! you both are, so you’ll have to adjust it when she tests it and they aren’t tight enough but that’s okay, and you can go get your old school tie you aren’t gonna need any more soon to tie her ankle too because that’s symbolic, I doubt you have two for school unless rich people are different, I definitely did not, but if you don’t you’ll have one that isn’t for school you can utilise, love that you have to leave her lying there while you go and get them]

Dolly: [just here, entirely exposed again and could not be happier, we are gonna have to do a whimper at you using your school tie because we can’t cope with it, watching him from our position, desperate to see what he’s going to do]

Adonis: [me like I know damn well your sentimental ass is gonna give her that school tie to keep when this sesh is over so it’s a good job ruster are gonna let you go to hers, boy, soz that he’ll be accidentally torturing her by just STARING at her for what feels like forever when she’s fully tied to this bed because never seen anything like it and we’ll never be over it so really gotta take it in before we go feral]

Dolly: [god bless, truly; the way you’d feel like your entire body was red at this point but the vulnerability is killing you in the best way ‘you could film me, gag me-’ cutting yourself off as you try to shrug but can’t, obviously, we mean very literally that you could do anything right now ‘-anything’]

Adonis: [probably do find something to gag her with, purely practically if nothing else, knowing how loud she’ll want to be and how close your parents are compared to before, give her the book to bite down on because you’ll both lose your minds if there is a lasting memento of her teeth marks in it so simply must]

Dolly: [the strangled sounds that only he’ll be able to hear as all of this plays through our head and we dutifully bite down as hard as we can, looking at him for confirmation we’re doing this all how he wants so far]

Adonis: [how hard she bit down on that book will SEND him even more than he thought it would, so take it out of her mouth so !! and give her a condom wrapper to open with her teeth before then kissing her as hard as he ever has and finally putting the book back so he can put said condom on and they can go at this]

Dolly: [do this so frantically and breathlessly, spitting the torn part of said wrapper wherever it may land just to do it and show him how little fucks you give about anything else right now, having this book so far in your mouth you are uncontrollably drooling and can’t do anything to stop it]

Adonis: [how little fucks they give about anything else rn is exactly it, don’t you alert your parents with your lack of gag sir because they keep getting more feral and this is going to be their most !! hookup yet, y’all would definitely break this bed if it wasn’t such a sturdy and expensive antique]

Dolly: [the noises and sights you would be witnessing from her gag and the way she’s fighting against these ties just to confirm they’re strong enough would be enough to kill anyone, boy, be careful]

Adonis: [honestly, your mouth is gonna be a bloody mess from biting the inside of it pretty much immediately, proud of you that he manages to deliberately whisper when he asks her if she likes how he’s fucking her, fucking in french using whatever their fave word for it ended up being, though hun, do it for the fact you love to be in her ear, just try not to do a mike tyson while you’re there please, keep it soft in contrast for the sake of her earlobe and only be hardcore with how you’re breathing into her ear and on all over her nearby skin + how insanely you’re trying to fuck her through this bed]

Dolly: [the attempt at the scream of a yes despite how much you’re incapable because your tongue is pinned to the back of your throat, doing more than you ever have with your eyes, LOOKING down to where you’re fucking like you can hear how wet that is, so can your parents if they’re awake]

Adonis: [not to mention the sounds this bed is making from her trying to break free but not really and how he’s probably pushing it into the wall, ruster better be asleep because that’s unmistakable as far as late night noises go, plus he can’t help but make what are essentially grunting sounds at how much he’s physically putting into this, however quietly he’s trying to do them and clenching his jaw about trying to stop them being loud, nevertheless because he’s that sort of bear, when he can, talking in french about how wet she is again, as he also watches, like earlier when they were talking about tomorrow but with so much more !! because losing it here and now]

Dolly: [the entirely incoherent yet unmistakable way we’re begging you to fuck us, not stop, cum, everything we can think of but not express with words or our body beyond the way it reacts to you beyond our control, also calling him every name you have yet to dare to when you might actually be understood]

Adonis: [when you’ve gotta yank the book out of her mouth and lowkey throw it to the floor because you know she’s saying things you haven’t heard before and you wanna hear them more coherently, dangerous but he can’t bring himself to care atm ‘tell me’ the absolutely indecent way his voice sounds at the anticipation of what she might say]

Dolly: [the ridiculous widening of your eyes as that book is thrown aside ‘cos truly feel like you could easily scream the place down and it’s only biting your cheek in the manner he does until your mouth is bloody that stops that happening ‘I want to call you sir and master and daddy, all the names that indicate how you own me without the need for physical ties, at all times’]

Adonis: [excuse him using her hair as his own personal gag for a second here because the moan he’s gotta do about it, just losing it at actually hearing her say the kinds of things you’d only imagined as you were throwing that book aside, and then doing another moan about the reality of what you’re doing with her hair because how hot of you]

Dolly: [‘clean me with it’ so weakly in contrast to how HARD we’re staring at how hot that reaction was, because our face is a total mess and so is our hair now]

Adonis: [he’s gotta kiss her messy face first and make it even worse as well as have a little makeout sesh so you both know how bloody your mouths mutually are, but then doing it as instructed, as well as rubbing his own head and thus hair all over her like it’s purely practical to clean up and not just a way to be more feral, cos the different sensations of your two different hair types for her]

Dolly: [being completely overwhelmed by tasting his blood and opening your mouth for more, filling it with his hair whilst he does this, any part of him you can claim with just your tongue ‘will you find a way to claim me in front of your friends?’]

Adonis: [giving her such an enthusiastic yes in answer to that question it’s thankfully almost silent in that way he goes speechless in times of great !! ‘How do you think I should do that?’ when he can speak, so they can both THINK about all the possible ways]

Dolly: [‘I’ll wear your tie’ as an equally somehow quiet shout, all the !! in how the words are being said, not the volume ‘they can imagine all the uses we’ve put it to before joining them, my love’]

Adonis: [‘it’s yours, I want you to keep it’ because he do, as he unties that wrist from the bed and then puts the tie on her by tying it as a normal tie like she’ll be wearing it tomorrow but obvs as tight as he can to make a point of it being without actually choking her out, so gently massaging the now free wrist afterwards in contrast and kissing it indecently but softly, literally pressing on her pulse with his tongue ‘my love’ with emphasis on the my like no, you]

Dolly: [the gasp that we take in but try for as long as we can to not let out, only furthering how the tight tie is pressing against the pulse point in our neck, attempting to grab him with our now free hand to express the !! pressure that won’t stop building inside of us]

Adonis: [putting that hand of hers in his curls so she can grab them because always gonna love that, kissing her again until it’ll make her lightheaded purely for reasons of shhing himself not thinking about her lack of oxygen until it’s clearly a thing and an added bonus like oh okay]

Dolly: [‘I want to wake up to you cumming, in me, all over me, anything’ accidentally leaving out the first part of that sentence due to how difficult it is to think, never mind speak in our current situation but we clearly mean do not stop if I pass out thanks]

Adonis: [I have faith in you to get that for rn despite how difficult it also is to think therefore you might also take it to mean she’s also giving you consent to be feral at any point for the rest of the night including if y’all ever go to sleep ‘I’m so close’ because you are but you also feel like you have been since the second this hookup began]

Dolly: [nodding ‘til your head could fall off and you’ve probably headbutted him several times accidentally because hard same ‘where, master?’]

Adonis: [when the possibilities of where you could are SENDING you because not something you’ve done yet and that’s apparent with both his thinking face and his more frantic involuntary movements as he thinks, pick the part of her body other than her face that is the most freckly rn given that it is winter, and tell her, as you also touch it]

Dolly: [moving that part of your body as well as you can given you’re mostly still bound, pressing it into his touch harder ‘please, darling, I’m begging’]

Adonis: [hitting her with the en francais trick again, as he touches wherever it is harder too, purely to get to hear her beg a bit more because you’re both into it]

Dolly: [‘cover me in your cum so I look like the filthy whore I am, take me to your mirror and make me look at how much I love you degrading me, how ruined I am by you, dearest daddy’ just going in ‘cos the freedom of french meaning you can]

Adonis: [he’ll love that, regardless of how much he does or doesn’t understand the vibes are clear, hence pulling out of her and pushing himself into her free hand so she can take this condom off because why do it yourself when she do have a free hand now, and then obvs rubbing himself over whatever body part he chose until it does make him cum, then you can untie her and take her to the mirror over the fireplace, cos clearly got the word for mirror, and let her see it]

Dolly: [having to get on your tiptoes to get right into this mirror, spinning to see from all angles, your whole body shaking ‘I love it’ in french and also so dangerously close to an ily because truly, clumsily but enthusiastically throwing yourself back at him, getting on your knees so you can put him in your mouth how you did in the car]

Adonis: [he could pick her up to help her look but he couldn’t because he’s too dead from having to cum that hard as quietly as he just did, like lowkey surprised you didn’t have a nosebleed sir, and also too busy watching her and every reaction she’s having to seeing herself ‘I love having you here’ in english and in every sense of the word, like literally right here in this position but also in his room and in his house in general and in his life]

Dolly: [y’all are doing amazing considering huns, keep testing yourselves, like lmao, raising a brow and taking him further into your mouth as if to say here?’]

Adonis: [the hottest and most breathless hot lol anyone has ever done quietly as he nods because yes shamelessly ‘yes, but I also mean, I’m glad you’re mine’]

Dolly: [beaming at him, dangerous considering, be careful girl, kissing his dick and swirling your tongue around the tip like whoops, soz ‘yours and yours alone’]

Adonis: [the GASP he’s gotta do about all of that, meanwhile I just realised I fucked up because I said the tie was around her ankle and then I said she had a wrist free, but oh well, it’s gotta be her wrist so pretend I didn’t, thank you so much, that’s my bad, he though do be lying her down in front of this fireplace because why not light it, it’s late af but I doubt y’all are going to sleep that soon plus you’re rich and could be wasteful like that if y’all did, and it is december so]

Dolly: [it fine, just swap it and we’re sorted, here and now we’re watching you make this fire up, yet again being domestic and hot ‘how am I meant to let you go about life looking like that?’ and gesturing at his crotch like full pouty come back vibes]

Adonis: [do come back when the fire is going, bringing with him a leaf that has randomly fallen off one of his many plants, just tickling her bare skin with it not at all casually]

Dolly: [your own hot lols that are mainly comprised of gasps and being unable to catch your breath yet again, his name coming out in three distinct syllables with the effort it takes to speak]

Adonis: [don’t mind him lying in front of this fireplace with her doing the absolute most to touch and tickle her everywhere with this leaf until she’s as DEAD as he feels after that hookup ending how it did with that amazing first and absolutely loving the way she’s saying his name like that ‘you look beautiful’ almost to himself like a reminder of how beautiful he’s already said she is before and thinks she is as he’s intently watching her react to this ‘perfect’ as he’s moving somewhere else ‘flawless’ keeping going ‘I’m in awe of you’ a new one he hasn’t said yet @ her this time to go with those he has and was addressing to himself more]

Dolly: [just continue to be killed and lose it more, thankfully so because if you could address what you can barely hear over the sensation of being tickled that is crowding your head then you might legitimately cry about it ‘I can’t believe this is my life’ as the only sentence you do manage to get out in this entire exchange]

Adonis: [when he’s sufficiently satisfied that she could not possibly be more dead, however many minutes, hours or frankly years that could take in the loved up mood he’s in, bringing her up to look in that fireplace mirror again, making her hold onto the fireplace and standing behind her so y’all can reassure yourselves this is real and remind yourselves how good you look together/of all the mirror mems, standing there for a minute doing all of the above, and then, from where he’s standing, picking another body part he almost picked to cum on but narrowly didn’t for some reason and rubbing himself against her like he did to end the hookup but in reverse, turning himself on again with it this time]

Dolly: [making yourself maintain eye contact via this mirror so you can only feel what he’s doing and experience it purely by that sensation ‘you could do this in front of your friends’ saying this on a particularly shaky exhale, whatever body part it is arching towards this friction]

Adonis: [keeping that eye contact going too, turning it into EYE CONTACT when she says that because !! about the idea, doing the same thing on other parts of her body and at some point wrapping her hair around his hand and dick respectively, using all these antics to see how they both feel about all these different sensations, again like he’s trying stuff out for tomorrow]

Dolly: [having to SQUEEZE your eyes shut along with your legs, lowkey curling up on yourself because he’s being so hot and you can’t cope ‘is it like you expected, the things we’ve done? Did you…’ trailing off because can’t think how to explain what we mean ‘where did the ideas come from?’ like how are we coming up with this, is it both of us or what]

Adonis: [shaking his head and letting her feel rather than see it because of how close he’s staying to her when he’s having to keep her vaguely upright here ‘I didn’t expect any of this, how could I?’ just having his mind blown this entire day, that’s so true besties ‘I don’t know what I’m doing, just that it’s what I want to’]

Dolly: [nodding in contrast but in agreement because hard same, of course ‘I didn’t have any expectations, truly, when I started talking to you’ ‘cos you weren’t scheming although it would and could seem like that now you’ve ended up here ‘divine intervention or inspiration, maybe’ turning around to face him again and kiss him HARD ‘it feels so good’ between said kisses]

Adonis: [doing his own nod like yeah I like that it feels apt ‘divine is the word’ because shamelessly calling her it, yet again coming for his father’s lines, soz not soz, kissing her back with matching intensity in case there was any doubt remotely he was aiming that word at her specifically ‘so I’ll willingly sit in a chapel for you’ because clearly not being made to do that at his old school]

Dolly: [pull him down to join you to be on this floor in front of the fire again because y’all can be on your knees for the praying fantasy moment, just making out ferociously here ‘you’ll learn there’s lots of potential in quiet places’]

Adonis: [I love that for y’all ‘There’s as many definitions of holy’ just calling her/this holy now, excuse him, but I get it and we can all hope shit nan is in her grave or at the very least out of y’all’s lives so it’s fine]

Dolly: [‘you’ with such !! energy, pulling back to LOOK at his entire body and try to take it all in like you need to memorise him ‘I liked when you touched yourself with my hair’ and very tentatively going to try it for yourself ‘that’s very holy’]

Adonis: [WATCHING her do this, as per ‘I feel undeniably blessed’ like yep can’t help but agree with you there gal, it has to be ‘I’d be a fool, therefore, not to call every act a sacred one’]

Dolly: [‘you feel-’ and doing a giant shudder of pleasure about it because we’re so about this and focused on doing the most here ‘I’m the blessed one’]

Adonis: [‘Heaven is where I’ve spent this entire day’ like no ME because how we feel, could not be more buzzing about every second of it]

Dolly: [just here playing with how many different ways we can use our hair, from the whole lot, to just tickling a few strands over him, lowkey tying it and untying, gently smacking it against his skin ‘You can’t get bored of me’ looking up like you seriously mustn’t ‘this is the best sex I’ve ever had’]

Adonis: [A dangerous move given where they are rn but he is nevertheless letting his body react however it wants to because he has totally forgotten where they are thanks to everything she’s doing, soz not soz parentals who I simply must insist are and stay asleep, the way she’d just know he isn’t holding back physically at all or deliberately keeping quiet and every sound is exactly the volume it genuinely is ‘Bored?’ so sincerely like that word has and could never have crossed his mind as a possibility cos it has not ‘don’t make me laugh’ like I will lol and ruin this mood]

Dolly: [we are too turned on ourselves to stop you but let's be honest the house is massive, none of y’all are on top of each other, we can let you live right now; obviously repeating every move that gets a big reaction, watching him like it’s our job ‘I’ll give you everything, Adonis, just take it’]

Adonis: [mhmm, and he isn’t ever screaming the place down anyway however enthusiastic he’s being about this so it’s FINE ‘I have complete and utter faith in that, in you’ because he do]

Dolly: [when you’ve had an idea and you’re like hold up ‘come with me, mr’ and leading him back to the pew and sitting him down ‘practice’ like for chapel but the way we’re looking at you, you know what we mean]

Adonis: [when he would actually have to lead because too turned on to walk even that v short distance lol, bring out your latin and do some praying like this is fully a catholic church moment boy, lord knows what you’re saying because I know you’d be tweaking an actual prayer to make it specific to her but my non church going ass doesn’t have the skills for that, use your imagination boo]

Dolly: [we don’t know but y’all would and this girl has never been so turned on, watching you with the biggest heart eyes, heart eyes doesn’t even cover it we’re actually in awe as we’re shamelessly lowering ourself down into your lap]

Adonis: [me cackling because Ro wishes this was her life ever, sucks to suck honey, maybe if you were less of a flop we’d treat you better, also me, don’t you DARE impregnate this girl rn because y’all have no chill]

Dolly: [lmao maybe if you were nice, god would send you a man who; soz condoms don’t exactly match the vibe and we’ve forgotten where they are or to care, have to sort it in the AM]

Adonis: [we all remember when his dad forgot about it with his mum and that was AFTER he’d impregnated hers so I’m gonna let y’all off, you’ve been v responsible up to now and the point is, with all the will in the world and how hard he’s trying to be better than the people he views as irresponsible messes, he is still a teenage boy, so actually an important and valid thing to happen]

Dolly: [I agree boo, shit happens or nothing ever would baby, and y’all are far too lost in this moment to realistically stop now ‘you could barely walk’ as we’re here doing the most teasing we’ve ever done like so close yet so far]

Adonis: [mhmm, you’re both too carried away here and now, leave it for that post nut clarity to make you realise lol, in this moment his sounds and face are just 1000% 🥺 at being teased like this, cos dying about it, even though he is likewise trying to tease her back/show her exactly why he couldn’t walk with just how hard he is really being pressed against her thighs and her literal opening without going in ‘I can barely-’ not being able to speak or breathe, which is the point he’s trying to make there being made for him without finishing his sentence]

Dolly: [holding his face so you can appreciate every sound and sight as close as humanly possible before you are LOOKING down at this action how you like to do ‘I think you should make it mutual, I don’t want to be able to leave’]

Adonis: [of course that’s all the encouragement he needs because he doesn’t want her to leave, shoving his tongue into her mouth and half way down her throat at the same moment as he finally gets to be inside her, for once not even thinking practically about shhing either or both of them, he just needs to be doing that in sync]

Dolly: [when your moaning is pure unhinged garbled choking and you couldn’t be happier, eyes rolling to the back of your head as you focus purely on how deep you can get him inside you in every way you can]

Adonis: [going at this SO feral because idc how fancy your condoms are this will hit different because of the lack of, desperation levels are higher than the first time or they have ever been in ways y’all aren’t even registering because you’re too here for it and too in love]

Dolly: [the way this pew would be scraping across the floor and hitting the wall because moving as insanely as we can ‘I love it, I love it, daddy please’ again with no holding back because we are not capable]

Adonis: [I’m so sorry everyone but I’m doing an ILY, I have to, even if y’all pretend afterwards he said it too like she did, he absolutely did NOT, but I will do you the good grace of letting you say it in french so there’s even more opportunity to blame it on misspeaking if y’all want to later, but I can’t stop him rn because not capable of holding back either and I gotta show that]

Dolly: [in the moment though, we all know it is killing you and there is no pretending about it, shoving your tongue down his throat how he did you only moments ago, whimpering absolutely insanely about it]

Adonis: [this is going to be an unhinged quickie the likes of your parents goodbye one because everything that is happening is combining to kill you both so hard, like, he is gonna choke about that because never gone that hard about it before and it will be hot as will his surprised but oh so into it noises like OH OKAY]

Dolly: [again holding his face away to look at him like you’re checking he’s okay after you had him shook like that but you just wanna see how into it he was, moving one of his hands to your neck like you can choke me a lil in retaliation if you want]

Adonis: [do because she must still have that tie on, neither of you took it off her even if it’s ended up being there much more loosely since he first put it on, use it to y’all’s advantage again now, and WATCH to make sure you don’t do too much cos of how carried away you both are]

Dolly: [🥺 at him the entire time like it doesn’t have you fucking against him even more needily, winding some of your hair around his neck like you might return the favour]

Adonis: [hitting her with the same ‘okay?’ he did when he was feeding her water in the kitchen and wanted to make sure she didn’t drown, while he’s obvs likewise fucking her the hardest he ever has, pulling her hair so she gets that sensation and he gets it around his neck more than she did it without going in as much as he is with her so she can still be the one to but letting her know he’s down]

Dolly: [nodding so it’s a little tighter, blatantly because we want every part of this right now, scratching circles over and over his chest, running your fingers up his neck again like you might but still aren’t]

Adonis: [‘write me a dedication too’ @ those scratches because shoutout to that feelsy af book moment while y’all are already feral-ing]

Dolly: [‘you’re an incredible boyfriend’ and writing an ily because you don’t think he’ll be able to clock anything currently]

Adonis: [no shade to you sir but you wouldn’t, it’s really hard to and you frankly don’t have the focus rn when all the possibilities of what she could be writing have you losing it and moaning her name the most indecently you ever have]

Dolly: [doing the most dramatic feat of gymnastics you have so far and laying across his lap whilst still keeping him inside you ‘spank me with the book, please’]

Adonis: [of course he will even though y’all will have to do some more gymnastics to find where he threw it earlier, we all know even if you end up on the floor in a heap you won’t care or stop so ‘like this?’ the way he asked her earlier about something else I now can’t remember lol, here and now purely to get encouragement]

Dolly: [saying his name as a yes here because only suitable response to being given exactly what you want, reaching back to try and feel the teethmarks on this book momentarily, as if you’re checking it is THE book and not a random one, as if he would]

Adonis: [taking her hand and putting it over where they are so she can feel them because of course he knows what she’s up to and he would’ve felt them too when he first grabbed it to enjoy those reminders ‘you said please’ like I had no choice but to give you exactly what you want because you were so polite about it]

Dolly: [‘divine inspiration’ like I have no idea where this came from because that is how it feels, like you’re possessed by all of these wants but that’s not to say you aren’t loving every second of it, being dragged along for the ride ‘I had to’]

Adonis: [giving her a look like yeah you do inspire me cos it feels like y’all are living in the best collab ever atm, we all know he’s calling her a good girl for the first time ever, as if y’all aren’t being feral enough here, don’t die lads, like mhmm I know you had to cos you’re such a good girl energy]

Dolly: [🥺 noises and hiding your face in your hands even though you’re already over his lap so not able to make full eye contact anyway ‘please, darling’ in the tiniest but most !! voice as we’re humping against you so desperately]

Adonis: [letting her hands stay where they are but kissing them really softly whilst obvs he hits her with this book harder than he has so far and is somehow managing to keep on fucking her harder too]

Dolly: [fully coming undone here and now in your lap because this is exactly what we want ‘you’re so good, you’re so good’ in response to you hitting us, sounding like a thank you]

Adonis: [‘be good for me’ in response to hers telling her she HAS to cum the way she had to say please before, fully with that be a good girl energy, adding in his own ‘please’ that sounds as desperate as hers did but a moment ago, every movement getting truly frantic]

Dolly: [this isn’t going to be remotely hard to do because this entire time would have been an exercise in holding on, the only risk, that you are too far gone to consider at all, is that completely letting go is going to make you even more feral in your noises and reactions, so welcome we’re not letting you get caught]

Adonis: [y’all are really welcome for that because her being more feral like that, both in how hot it is and how good it feels is gonna KILL him so there’s double the risk of getting caught that we’re letting you get away with here, even though he’s nowhere near as loud as her yet ever]

Dolly: [idk if we’re still managing to be on this pew or we’re already on the floor but either way we need to lie there like we are dead now]

Adonis: [mhmm, I’ll be kind and give you some recovery time too boy before you realise that was an unprotected hookup and start worrying about it]

Dolly: [oh the awkwardness because we aren’t going to try to say anything reassuring but we can tell that’s where your head is just from the vibe change, getting up and gingerly pointing at the door like is that your en-suite there?]

Adonis: [you’re welcome lads that we aren’t gonna do you dirty by making you have an abortion or a child but you don’t know that here and now so just nod at her like yep, even if you’re beyond tempted to do the gentlest wrist grab to pull her back slightly and say something reassuring yourself, I’m sure in this moment you only get as far as the physical action and a look at her that you hope is vaguely reassuring and like don’t worry I will fix this but is actually probably mostly !!]

Dolly: [doing a smile back at him trying to convey much the same but it’s fairly tight-lipped and you’re lowkey pulling your arm away wishing you’d opted to go to the bathroom you knew about in the guest room but that would’ve looked weird when this is clearly one right next to you so get in there and lock the door]

Adonis: [I don’t blame you gal for not opting to go for that trek cos imagine if you crossed paths with his parents or siblings in this moment, that doesn’t bear thinking about, meanwhile you sir just stare at the door intensely but otherwise leave her be, I’m sure you’ve never put pjs or loungewear on faster in your life suddenly because feel the need to be the most covered you can be now]

Dolly: [this is already very awkward, that would just make it even worse, at least you can legitimately take a shower and take your time in here because we are mostly hiding but we can make it useful and also not look like that, your robe/your bag with actual clothes or whatever in is not with you though so wrap up in a towel and come out to find your own clothing]

Adonis: [I had that same thought so I’m gonna say that while she was in there he has gone back to the guest room to get her clothes off the en-suite floor she was wearing when she arrived plus her bag which I assumedly has more clothes in it so they are waiting for her right there so she barely has to come out in said towel because he knows damn well she won’t wanna for the same reason he’s put clothes on, he would’ve also left her a similar outfit of his to the one he’s wearing but he’s not expecting her to want to rock that atm]

Dolly: [me like bet you wish you’d brought pyjamas now honey, all fun and games when you’re being saucy but now you’re screwed lmao, the internal debate because clearly you just want to quote-unquote go to sleep now to avoid y’all having to do this, so taking his loungewear makes more sense than putting on your own clothes but you also don’t wanna give off whatever kind of message you’re worrying that does but you definitely can’t just stay naked, improv and put your pants on and hopefully you have some kind of t-shirt that is soft and casual enough to sleep in]

Adonis: [we all know he’s having his own internal debate about whether he should walk her back up to the guest room or whether that’s cold af or whether it’s worse to suggest you want/are okay with her sleeping here and what message that gives off, oh lads, what a pickle, just looking at her trying to somehow telepathically convey all of this so he doesn’t have to say any of it]

Dolly: [Ahh the delicious drama, but ultimately, we’ve slept in more awkward beds is the god honest truth so we are just getting in and accepting our fate because we definitely think it would look rude if we ran to the guest room now ‘what sort of time do your parents get up?’ as you’ve already turned over so you don’t have to also make eye contact, finding your phone like I’ll set an alarm to be upstairs before then]

Adonis: [give her the answer, whatever that may be, I’m sure because you’re both panicking that alarm will be set way way earlier than it remotely needs to be, just in case, but we get it]

Dolly: [set that and show him like there we go, that’s sorted]

Adonis: [take a deep breath at at least that much being so easily sorted because rn it’s something]

Dolly: [me like god you awkward bitch say something but that isn’t who you are so we cannot I’m afraid, y’all better try to actually go to sleep, at least you would be physically exhausted, it might happen regardless of this vibe]

Adonis: [he would want to SO much and 1000% attempt to many times while they are lying here but when it’s beyond clear she doesn’t wanna talk about it he obvs doesn’t wanna force that convo or actually know what to say so here they are in limbo]

Dolly: [we found a way to shut y’all up though, go us haha, me like you should absolutely set another alarm even sneakier early so you can hightail it away because you’re going to want to go to a pharmacy, not go see his friends now, soz]

Adonis: [that’s so real, again I can’t even blame her, soz we ruined your plans but this was too legit for us to not let happen]

Dolly: [it does happen and you gotta deal with it how you do, not you sending him a picture of your pill like proof, when your mother is that untrustworthy]

Adonis: You didn’t have to do that

Dolly: Trust me, it’s much better than you tagging along, they don’t like that

Adonis: Their feelings are the very least of my concerns, trust me

Dolly: no, I mean like, they take the woman away and make sure you aren’t being coerced, which is an bizarre stance to take but I suppose they have to ask

Adonis: I know what you meant, nevertheless I take full responsibility, and I would have by being there, outside or wherever else that would’ve meant waiting

Dolly: You didn’t need to do that, it’s fine

Adonis: It isn’t fine, I didn’t handle any of the situation as I should’ve

Dolly: Everyone forgets, that’s why birth control exists in other forms

Adonis: It isn’t only the forgetting

Adonis: but all I can do now is say I’m sorry and I hope you’re okay, it’s much too late for anything other than that now

Dolly: You don’t have anything to apologize for, it happens, I was as much a contributing factor in it as you

Dolly: I’m totally okay

Adonis: I have plenty to apologise for regarding how I acted after it happened, like I said

Adonis: I let you down, and myself, I’m well aware of it

Dolly: I don’t think so, please don’t punish yourself on my behalf

Adonis: Recognition isn’t punishment

Dolly: You know what I mean, if you consider it vital self-reflection then it’s none of my business but I’m not at all harbouring any ill feelings, how could I

Dolly: I should’ve reminded you

Adonis: I shouldn’t have needed reminding, I know better than to take such unnecessary risks

Adonis: I know what happens when people do, it’s why my extended family is so big

Dolly: I know too

Adonis: I’ve behaved stupidly, let myself get carried away

Dolly: Yes, we both have

Dolly: it’s fine, no harm has been done, we can forget about it 

Adonis: Forgetting about it is the last thing we should do

Dolly: Draw a line under it, then

Dolly: lesson learnt

Adonis: I’m not comfortable learning lessons at what could have been your expense 

Dolly: It’s not

Adonis: Or about the shadow cast over the whole night as a result

Dolly: I understand and I hear you

Adonis: Accept my apology, even if you don’t forgive me

Dolly: I don’t feel as if you owe me one, that’s all

Dolly: but of course

Adonis: Thank you, inadequate as it always is

Dolly: Unavoidably so, it would seem

Adonis: You left your book behind, I’ll arrange to get it to you

Adonis: however suits

Dolly: You don’t have to lend it to me anymore 

Adonis: It was never a loan

Dolly: Yes but

Dolly: we’ve both agreed that circumstances have changed since then

Adonis: My feelings haven’t, it was intended as a gift and it still is, whether or not it’s to be a parting one instead

Dolly: If you’re sure, then it would be rude to refuse

Adonis: I am, but you’re entitled to refuse if that’s what you want, it would be ruder to force an unwanted gift on you, especially when it’s too early for your birthday and belated for Christmas

Dolly: It isn’t unwanted

Adonis: Okay, I’ll make sure the book finds you

Dolly: I hope you have a good day with your friends

Adonis: I hope you manage to salvage your own somehow, however you spend it

Dolly: Thank you

Adonis: [do the french for see you soon or until we meet again, something like that which could be a brush off but is actually feelsy and sincere, which will be written at the back of the book when he really does send it to her, along with the sincerest apology and we all know at not at all casual essay about how he wish he had reacted and what he wishes he had said because he’s just that sort of bear, but that’s all to come cos even if he’s annoying and sends this book with a driver ASAP and makes him leave it for her somewhere it won’t be there yet, especially if he leaves it at her grandparents house so her sister doesn’t find it in case she isn’t at home atm, he’d have to sleuth and find out where her grandparents live first and then they’d have to get in touch with her if she is at home/anywhere that isn’t their gaff like someone left something here for you, what an iconic yet complicated romantic gesture]

Dolly: [God bless boy because we fully took ‘getting carried away’ and ‘learning lessons’ to be about this entire situation aka it was all a mistake so are lowkey expecting to only ever awkwardly see you at joint family functions again]

Adonis: [when he’s literally gonna have to awkwardly either talk to Jay or Mattie like excuse me where do your grandparents live, I hope for your sake boy you pick Mattie because it’d be less like pulling teeth, full shade to Jay lol, and when you say you’ve got something to give this gal but her parents are away and you don’t know if these twins are gonna be in to accept it she’s not stupid and will work out that whatever y’all’s relationship is that said delivery is for Dolly’s eyes only and keep her mouth closed, the way she’s not gonna see his second message until she gets to the end of the book is killing me, read fast hun]

Dolly: [at least they are also their grandparents ‘cos imagine if you had to just ask Lulu, that wouldn’t be worth doing with the drama that would come lmao]

Adonis: [oh god he’d have to leave it where they went on their date or something and have to hope she goes there one day, the drama then, cos what if she never did, at least if I pick Mattie we could do that convo should we want to, Winnie also said we can do one with his mum if you want cos I assume she knows what’s up and if not she’d know that he’s in a very different mood today so]

Dolly: [what would you like to do first lil man]

Adonis: [I’m like, should we do when she’s found that message first so it’s just all y’all in this convo or do some of that shit before and slot it in, hmmmm]

Dolly: [well this is 27 pages so I’ll just post this regardless, we probably need to do those convos inbetween because it will take her some time to read it]

Adonis: [yeah valid, we could probably do the Mattie one now cos I doubt that’s gonna be really long, famous last words, watch it be longer than 3 pages haha]

Dolly: [let’s try lol]

Adonis: Excuse me, I’m aware it’s early in the AM for the hols to be sending you a message, and this is a slightly bizarre request, but I need to know your grandparents’ address

Mattie: Oh, hello Adonis 😊

Mattie: You’re quite alright, as much as people joke about how the only reason anyone goes into teaching is for the holidays, we always like to rebuff said joke with reminding people about the marking and lesson planning 😅 

Mattie: Though, yes, I must admit that is what I would call a bizarre request… did they leave something behind at the party, perhaps?

Adonis: I would have asked Jay, but I’m aware she keeps as bizarre hours at the gym, personally and with clients

Adonis: not that I don’t consider your own time equally as valuable… sorry

Adonis: Allow me to explain, there’s something I promised to give Dolly, but I know her parents are away, and therefore I can’t guarantee she will get it if I take a chance leaving it on her doorstep and she happens to be out

Mattie: If anyone knows how hard to get in contact with Jay it is, it’s me, don’t worry, I certainly wouldn’t send you on that fool’s errand, hols or not 😋

Mattie: Oh, I wasn’t aware you knew Dolly

Mattie: that is to say, any more than we all, regrettably so, barely know each other

Mattie: but if she needs this item before term time, grandma and grandpa are certainly the best safe-keepers, you’re right 

Mattie: [give him this address]

Adonis: Thank you, I think it’s very urgent, hopefully she still agrees with me

Mattie: I’m sure she will, and as I understand it she is as often at their house as she is her own, so she will certainly receive it 

Adonis: That was my understanding too

Adonis: I don’t want to overstep, and perhaps I will by saying this, but I also promised her my discretion whenever we spend time together, meaning I have no choice but to ask for yours as well

Adonis: it’s important to her that her sister doesn’t know we’re friends, for now at least

Mattie: As someone who has a pastoral and a sisterly role in both their lives, I understand what discretion currently means when it comes to the twins

Mattie: It isn’t the easiest being in the middle but

Mattie: as there is no real reason I should know anything about your acquaintanceship, I shall do my best to see it isn’t brought up

Adonis: I appreciate that, I don’t presume to know the half of it but based on the little she has told me about their relationship I don’t doubt she will appreciate it even more

Adonis: and if there’s a way you can subtly check on her today, it would mean a lot to me, resistant as she may be

Mattie: I’m sure I don’t need to tell you how complex sister relationships can be, I have no doubt things will improve between them next year, when they’ve had a chance to strike out on their own paths, enjoy the newfound freedoms and begin to miss each other a little

Mattie: they’ve been very… sheltered, forced together to a degree that this period of separation was inevitable, though it remains difficult, of course

Mattie: As long as you’re not employing subtly when you should be forthright with telling me there’s a reason I should check on her with urgency?

Adonis: Urgency implies an actual emergency, which I swear this isn’t, it’s just that she told me she’s okay in a sense she would say so given our current awkward circumstances, and I’d like to know that she is genuinely, or if she isn’t, there’s someone available in my absence to talk to

Mattie: I see

Mattie: I shall endeavour to check in with her, would you like me to inform you of her current headspace or will you be satisfied merely in the act of my checking being assured to you?

Adonis: The act is enough, until our miscommunication is hopefully fixed, I feel like her headspace has been made pretty clear to me already

Mattie: Well, I hope you can sort things out, she could really use a good friend, she’s been through enough

Adonis: If she decides to give me another chance, I’ll try and be a better friend than I was, not make the same mistake again

Mattie: It isn’t my intention to pry myself, you understand, merely safeguard her, namely in my role as her sister, in this instance

Adonis: I understand

Mattie: You seem like a reasonable boy, I’m not intending for this to seem personal against you, at all

Adonis: But…?

Mattie: No but, just reasserting that her welfare is my main concern 

Adonis: Mine too, we’ve only been friends for a really short while, but I care about her very much

Mattie: That is good to know

Adonis: I’m glad we haven’t gotten off entirely on the wrong foot

Mattie: Of course not, I’m aware fallings out and misunderstandings happen

Mattie: and for me to get too involved would be overstepping my own role 

Adonis: Thank you again

Mattie: No problem 😌 I hope you enjoy the rest of your hols, assuming we have no call to speak or see each other before then

Adonis: The wedding planning shouldn’t give us immediate cause to, possibly Dolly’s birthday will, I’m less sure now than I ever was what’s happening though

Mattie: I’m sure the NYE party will be on as ever but beyond that I am not entirely sure of either twin’s plans atm

Adonis: It is, I was making alternative plans for us but I’m not sure how welcome they are anymore 

Mattie: She’ll let you know before time, I am quite certain, whether it is the answer you want to hear or not

Adonis: Yeah, I don’t doubt an answer of some sort will be forthcoming when she receives her gift

Mattie: I will wish you luck and uphold my end of the bargain

Mattie: I was intending to visit my grandparents at [an afternoon o’clock] if Dolly isn’t there, I will message or visit theirs after

Adonis: I can’t say fairer