#okay happier tweets i made lol

[marshmallowgoop]

There were a lot of jokes about what the Kill la Kill perfumes would smell like, but, okay, the last note of Satsuki's perfume is officially described as being "warm" and representative of her "compassion for Ryuko." 

Kill la Kill is adorable.

[wigglebox]

hello i am having thoughts TM

and yes, these are cockles thoughts, and yes it’ll probably get a little tinhatty, but i don’t care. we’re doing what we’re doing tonight, aren’t we?

anyway, first of all, a label doesn’t define a relationship. 

okay that’s out of the way. 

onto what i think it’s going on. 

i think... 

that in the course of his marriage and experimentation and all that, over the years, it's mostly been with another women, by vicki's own words in her book. it feels like that was the trend. [...] ETA: i have changed this sentence to take out indications in the book that he may have been with men. i typed it odd and realized i implied that. [...] idk if it ticked enough boxes for him. labels mean different things to different people personally when presented with them. 

time goes by, meets jackles. things hit off. a friend mentioned men in woods sounded tentative, and i agree, and i’m sure plenty of y’all felt that too. i am also one of those little monsters that thinks it’s about jackles, personally. 

like he did not intiate anyhting in that poem. something happened in that poem for it to be included at the end of that section of love, especially when the first poem in that section is about someone else making, i assumed vicki, happier than misha made her feel. i’m free for different interpretations on that, since i’m admittedly not that great with poetry lol.

so the last poem to me, MIW, is about someone who makes him feel happy.

but god as my witness i don't think he thinks a a few trysts as part of a threesome or whatever with a dude over the course of his marriage and then one relationship that's really deep in several kinds of ways with one other man is enough to convince misha he's anything but straight with some fluidity thrown in there.

i think he's been opening up more, however. i and a lot of others, maybe you reading this was thinking that too. that cas and pride month post, wearing pride merch outside of pride month etc etc. 

one thing from his thread that stood out to me was this 

i think he needs to talk about it. Or wants to talk about it even. last week, or so, there was an article published by Natalie Fisher. in there she talked about that little cas essay thing that we always hoped he’d publish. in there he said this:

so i don’t think he thinks he’s queer enough to get a queer label or talk in these spaces. 

before I go on, i just want to preface this by saying i do respect where he wants to land. if he says he’s something, by golly i’ll salute and say ‘yes sir’ because it’s his life and that’s what he wants. but straight doesn’t mean the frat bro down the road who has a massive pick up truck and will constantly tell you that it’s only boobs babes and beer in his brain. like that’s not everything. 

there’s a no mans land between what someone can perceive bisexuality or pansexuality to mean, and what they perceive straight to be. i don’t know his definitions. i don’t know how he looks at these things. but we know he’s been kissed by another man, been on a camping trip with them, skinny dipped in a ‘shallow stream’. we also know his other little quips over the years that have indicated more or less why we thought he’d land in Queerland USA. 

clearly that didn’t happen. and personally, and i’m not saying this to invalidate him, but personally i think what he needed is to talk to people about this. idk maybe he’s doing it IRL and we’re naturally not privvy to it. but again, i go back to this part of his tweet

and how he brought up even bisexuality in a little comment about being introverted or extroverted. he didn’t have to do that. and he didn’t have to make the other comments too. 

i think he wants to discuss it, or wanted to. 

but his quip [adhd is a curse] flew too close to the sun. i absolutely do not think the media would have picked up on it if we weren’t parading it around everywhere. but i also fault the media as well, publishing these articles about him without speaking with him, even getting facts wrong about his personal life. everyone has skin in this horribile game so we may as well own up to it. there’s no different between a reporter assuming what his words meant, and us assuming what his words meant. 

so again, i do think that he wanted to talk about it but it’s been a hard conversation to have. 

and now idk if we’ll ever get it. 

the press got ahold of it and once it hit people magazine, i think this is what happened [warning, tinfoil on!]:

1) he now realized he couldn’t really talk about it anymore. 

2) i truly think those articles were a little scary and was getting out of hand. the articles named his children and his ex wife. he has to make sure they’re okay. his kids are getting older, they’re online now. idk if they have twitter or anything but peers may, and peers may see his name trending and click on it wondering what’s going on. protect the family. 

3) any confirmation that he considers himself slightly off the path of straight now opens up people to pry into his private life. you know what’s just beneath the surface of ‘is misha bi????’

cockles shit. you don’t think the press can find this stuff? someone posted about them living together after that tweet last summer, based off of information they had received [which, unrelated but slightly related, very not cool at all wtf]. you don’t think a journalist won’t find misha’s poly comments? his wife’s book? dig up old gossip on jensen of all people? and i bring him up especially because that man has already had gossip columnists accusing him of being gay since early in his career. there were gossip blogs claiming j2 were a thing so much — why would misha want him to go through that again? takes maybe a night of digging through things and receipts. we documented that shit well. 

so that leads me to 

4) protect friends, but especially jensen. like okay again, very VERY tinhatty, but if we’re taking an objective eye to this, it’s clear that even if they’re just friends, they’re pretty damn good friends. with all the jokes over the years, all of our own receipts and speculation, all of the past context a journalist needs to dig up rumors that jensen is, once again, ~*gaaay! oooohhh!!!*~ that’s not great news. 

and from there that’s how Dee gets roped into it, that’s how THEIR kids get roped into it. they’ve had to deal with these allegations before, and they’re pretty private as a family. don’t want to drag people through that. 

so

if misha decided to yoink a label that he didn’t feel comfortable yoinking in the first place, but decided to yoink a queer label without meaningful discussions with people about his sexuality, like he clearly has on his mind, then that would have opened up family, friends, family OF the friends, his whole life up, others’ whole lives up...

and we know what hollywood does to men when this happens. 

no, i don’t think misha intentionally sabotaged himself in the name of cockles or whatever, but i do think this is a multi-faceted thing. 

he’s straight, by his own definition. but it still doesn’t feel like the whole story. and all we can really do is just keep holding hands with him and hope one day there are things he can tell us.

[stormblessed95]

Can we talk about jm saudi Arabia vlive if we haven't talked it already

Like common it was obvious someone was there with him. And it was 101% a man. All my personal guess goes to Mr jeon.

https://kanmom51.tumblr.com/post/653573386227826688/hlo-i-hope-u-have-seen-jm-saudi-arabia-vlive

I read this by @kanmom and agrees with her.

Also I do think the aha coming towards end was not from jm but man behind whom jm was staring at the moment and his expression changed atm the noise came like keep quiet don't make any noise.

But I would like to hear your opinion also.

Link you sent and added on this ask from @jkandjm that definitely cracked me up. The accuracy of this comparison was uncalled for! Lmao what am I supposed to do now:

I'll add my post over the Jungkook is Jimin's manager theory here too:

And the link for the original vlive:

And the link for the post where @kanmom51 talks about this vlive that you sent me:

The Bangtan Bomb of Jimins birthday surprise that happened at the concert the day before this vlive where he once again talks about how JK was so happy and excited during this surprise and the concert, which made Jimin feel even happier:

Also let's note the lack of honorifics again in the BB from JK, but we will be charitable and excuse it because technically they were speaking in another language here. Lol

I'll also just throw in this tweet here about Jikook staying later than everyone else and rehearsing together longer and then going home to the hotel together the day before SA concert.... soooo, just another piece in the timeline if you so choose:

So wow. This was mostly just a post where I sent everyone here to OTHER sections of the internet with all these links 😂 sorry!

With all these links, I honestly don't have much to add. I know I normally break down what happens in these vlives and cover everything, not just the moment requested. But Kanmom did a decent job of that and while I do think Jiminie is the cutest and everything should be mentioned that he touches on, I'll just tell you to go watch it yourself and enjoy! He is so calming. So instead, I'll direct you to her post and say that I basically agree. I don't think Jimin was thanking someone behind the camera when he looked off camera saying thanks, he truly was thankful to ARMY, and I'm sure JK and the rest of the members got plenty of personalized thank yous from him already. It looked to me like a natural eye flick over when someone in the same room as you is doing something as you try to talk to someone else. It happens. But it does make you think someone WAS in the room.

Now the o-ho sound made. I legit did spend time trying to make that exact noise while slightly smiling like Jimin was without moving my mouth at all. I invite you all to do the same and feel a little silly with me. 😂 I couldn't do it. To make the elongated oo sound, my lips had to move. Maybe Jimin has some ventriloquism skills in his back pocket we don't know about. The more likely scenario would be that the someone in the room made the sound instead. Which also explains what looks like Jimin moving and then shutting the door to his bedroom to say goodbye to ARMY. He kicked the someone out of the room for some peace and quiet because they were not doing a good job at being quiet. Lol

Yes. I think that was someone was JK. Refers you back to my JK is Jimins manager post above. Thanks for the good sum up Kanmom! You basically did the work for me here. 💜

He was so cute and so sweet this whole vlive. Just wanted to share stories and talk to ARMY.

Thanks for the ask! Don't think I added much, but hope it helped anyway! If anything to just compile it all in one spot! Lol

[annab-nana]

Stupid Cupid - Colby Brock

Normally, y/n and Colby spend Valentine’s Day together because they are both single, but this year, y/n has a boyfriend. Her Valentine’s date takes an unexpected turn, ending with her night spent crying in Colby’s arms.

Warnings: some curse words

Word Count: 2.7k+

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"Colby likes skittles, right?" I ask Sam as I hold my phone to my ear with my shoulder. My hands were full of a few stuffed animals and a cute basket that I had found and filled with several kinds of candy. Normally on Valentine's Day, Colby and I both are single, and we stay in, order some food, and go get discount chocolate the next day. This has been our tradition for the past few years, but last March, I started dating Josh and we've been together ever since. I decided to get something together for him since all his best friends have girlfriends and I have a boyfriend. I think it will brighten his day and make him happy.

"Yes, he does. Who doesn't like skittles, y/n?" I hear Sam's laugh bellow through the speaker of my phone. I giggle along with him at myself.

"Leave me alone, Samuel. I just wanted to make sure, so I decided to call his other half. You two are basically married at this point." We chuckled together before I heard a beep on my phone. I sat down my basket before looking at my phone. Josh is calling me.

"I got to go, Sam. Josh is calling me." I say quickly.

"Okay, bye," Sam says before I end the call to answer Josh. I press the green button and place my phone back where it was so that I can grab my basket and continue shopping.

"Hey, babe!" I say excitedly. I haven't talked to him since last night when I fell asleep on him on FaceTime.

"Hey princess, I was just calling to let you know that I am picking you up at six tomorrow for dinner." I heard his sweet voice tell me. A blush rose to my cheeks at the nickname. He calls me that all the time and every time, I feel butterflies.

"Will you please tell me where we're going?" I whine into the phone as I look through the Valentine's Day cards, trying to find one that's perfect for Colby.

"Nope but dress nice." He's been aggravating me all week by not telling me where we're going, but tomorrow night, I will finally find out.

"I hope you know you're annoying," I inform him, and he chuckles in response.

"I know, but you love me anyway." I smile and nod my head, forgetting he can't see me.

"Yes, I do. I do love you." I tell him as I smile like an idiot in the middle of this store.

"I love you too, but I got to go. Jackson needs help getting his Valentine's shit together for Ava. I'll talk to you later, princess." He tells me before we say our goodbyes and hang up.

I love how Josh is always there for Jackson. Those two didn't have the best life growing up, but Josh was always there for Jackson no matter what. Jackson is Josh's younger brother. Jackson is a senior in high school and Ava is his first serious girlfriend, so I know Jackson wants to make it special for her. Ava is a super sweet girl in Jackson's math class. He asked her for help on a problem that he already knew how to do just so he could talk to her. They started studying together and eventually, he asked her out. They are so cute together. I love it.

After a while of looking around, I finally got everything together and checked out at the store. I loaded it all into my car and headed back to my apartment building. I got off the elevator and passed the guys' apartments to get to mine which was right next to Colby's. I quickly ran into my apartment, in case Colby decided to walk out right then. I didn't want him to know it was me. I want to surprise him.

I pulled everything into my office and set the basket up, filling it with all of the little things I got him. Once I was happy with how it looked, I took a picture of it and sent it to Kat.

Y/n: Do you think he will like it?

Kat: Of course, he will y/n! You know he will love anything if it comes from you.

Y/n: I know, I guess I just feel bad because we aren't doing Valentine's together this year 😩

Kat: Yeah but this will really brighten his day. We both know he hates Valentine's Day.

Y/n: He does lol. What are you and Sam doing for Valentine's Day tomorrow?

Kat: Idk, he hasn't asked me to be his valentine yet 😠

Y/n: Really? Valentine's Day is tomorrow. He doesn't have much time left lol. Josh won't tell me what we're doing. He just said dress nicely. Should I wear my black or red dress?

Kat: THE BLACK ONE!!!!!!!! It looks so good on you. And if you wear red lipstick and your red heels with it too, I don't think Josh will be able to resist you.

Y/n: okay 😂 thanks girl!

Kat: you're welcome babe!

...

I walked into my office and grabbed the basket I made for Colby. I tiptoed to his door and sat the basket down. I rang the doorbell and dashed down the hall, so I could watch him open the door. I could see him, but he couldn't see me.

He opened the door and a smile spread across his face. He looked around outside his door and then looked around in the basket for any indication of who left it for him. He pulled out the card, but I didn't write anything in it because I knew he would be able to tell my handwriting. After seeing that there was nothing to give away who sent the secret Valentine's gift, he shrugged and picked up the basket, taking it inside.

I giggled lightly to myself and took the long way to my apartment, in case he was spying through his peephole. As soon as I walked in, I got a twitter notification. Colby had tweeted. It said, "to whoever left a basket of chocolates and teddy bears at my door.. i 🖤 u" A small smile crept its way into my face. I left Twitter and started to play music as I got ready for tonight.

After my hair was curled and makeup was done, I slipped into my black dress and put on my red heels like Kat suggested and let me tell you, she was damn right when she said I looked good in this. I couldn't stop looking at myself. I've never looked this good before. I can already imagine the things that Josh and I will be doing later.

A knock at my door broke me from my thoughts. I hurried to the door and opened it to reveal my handsome man with flowers in his hands.

"Awe Josh, you didn't have to do all this," I told him as he smiled widely.

"Yes, I did. Wanna know why?" He giggled.

"Why?" I question as he hands me the bouquet.

"Because I love you, princess, and there is more where that came from." He tells me as he takes my hand. "Now let's go put those in some water in a vase and then we can go to dinner." I do as he said, and we leave for dinner.

"Hey guys!" I hear and my eyes meet my best friend.

"Hey, Colbs!" I say as I run up to him to hug him. I haven't actually seen him in a few days. We've texted and stuff but that's it. We pulled away from our embrace and I stepped back, grabbing Josh's hand. Seeing Colby made me ten times happier if that was even possible.

"I know this is a weird question, but did you see anyone out here earlier today?" Colby asked me as he leaned against his doorframe. It looked like he was coming back home from somewhere. I couldn't help the sneaky smile that showed up on my face, but I shook my head.

"No, I've been in my place all day. Why? What's up?" I asked. Maybe that would help him not think it was me.

"Someone left something at my door earlier and I was wondering who it was, but I don't know," Colby informed us. By the look on his face, he appeared to be pretty confused.

"Sorry, I haven't seen anything," I tell him. I feel a tug at my hand and look up at Josh. He bends down slightly to reach my ear.

"I hate to break you two up, but we need to hurry." He whispers in my ear and I nod at him.

"Okay Colby, we have to head out, but I'll see you later, okay?" I tell him as I go in for another hug. He smiles and nods before waving at us. We head down the elevator, to the car, and then to the restaurant. When we arrived, we were set off in the back away from everyone else. It was beautiful back here. Little string lights illuminated the place with a soft glow. Nice music played lowly in the background and being here with Josh made it all the better.

We talked about many things as we ate. He told me about helping Jackson yesterday. We talked about old memories of when we first met and started dating. As we laughed, I felt a buzz comes from my phone. I pulled it out to see a text from Colby.

Colbs: it was you wasn't it?

Y/n: maybe 😉

"Who is it?" I looked up at Josh who was looking at me strangely. I could hear a tinge of jealousy in his voice. I don't know why I felt a sudden surge of guilt run through my body, but I felt like I was doing something wrong or that Josh thought I was doing something wrong.

"It's Colby. You know how he said someone left something at his door earlier?" I asked him and he nodded. I explained to him that I got Colby something for Valentine's Day and left it at his door because we weren't doing anything together this year like we always have.

After that awkward moment, we continued to eat and talk until Josh pulled out a cute gift bag and handed it to me.

"Happy Valentine's Day princess!" He said as he gave me the gift. I shot him a huge smile before going through the bag. It was filled with candies, stuffed animals, pictures of us from the last year together, and a card. I opened the card and began to read it out loud.

"Y/n, these past eleven months with you have been amazing and I can't wait to see what our future together holds. As you know, love hasn't been an easy thing for me to acquire, but you have shown me that I am capable of being loved and I can show that I love someone too. I love you princess and I will continue to love you for as long as I can. I want to love you for the rest of my life if you will let me. So, will you let me?" My brows furrowed over my teary eyes and I looked up to where Josh was sitting previously. But he wasn't there. He was beside me, on one knee, with a ring in his hand.

"Y/n, I love you so much so will you do me the honor of marrying me?" He asked me. My tear-filled eyes met his and I don't know why but I hesitated. What should have been an easy question became so hard. I love Josh with all my heart, but I don't know what's stopping me from saying yes. I opened my mouth to say something, but no words came out.

"Princess?" Josh looked at me, worried. He was probably very sure I would say yes too. Damn it, y/n say yes. Just say it. It's not a hard word to say. You probably say it every day. Just say it.

"I- I don't know," I choke out. I regret it instantly when Josh's face falters. He looks so upset.

"It's not that I don't want to. I just don't think I'm ready for that yet baby. I love you. You know I do. It's just I don't think now is a good time." Josh gets up and sits in his seat.

"Are you sure that's the reason? There isn't anything else?" He questions me. What is he getting at?

"I don't know what you mean, J. What do you think it is?" I ask him, kind of pissed at him. Does he not believe that I'm not ready for that yet? That is a pretty big step to take with someone.

"Damn I'm an idiot. I should've seen what was right in front of me. Y/n, you're in love with Colby. I thought I was wrong, but I don't think I am." He confesses.

"I am not. I love you, Josh. I'm just not ready to get married. I'm 21. I don't want to get married now." Anger, sadness, and confusion swirled through my body. I'm not in love with Colby. I love him because he is my best friend but I'm not in love with him. I'm in love with the man sitting in front of me. Maybe I should've just said yes to save all this trouble.

"Y/n, I love you too but something's not right. You love both me and Colby, but something stopped you from saying yes to me. If you were really in love with me, we wouldn't be having a problem right now. I think you are in love with him, whether you see it or not." He seemed upset but I could tell he was speaking exactly what he felt.

"Can you take me home or should I call an Uber?" I say as I stare off through a window in the side of the room. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I want to be at home.

"I'll take you home if you want me to, princess." The nickname that used to make me feel like the best person in the world is now bringing more tears to my eyes. I just looked at him and nodded. We left the restaurant and got back into his car. The ride home was silent and thought-filled. I'm guessing that our relationship is over, but I don't want to lose Josh. I want him to stay in my life. We pull up to the outside of my apartment complex and Josh grabs my hand.

"I want you to know that I still love you princess and I will always be here for you." A few more tears slipped out as we shared one last kiss together. A kiss goodbye.

"I love you too," I whisper before opening the door and walking inside. Once I get on the elevator, the tears I had been holding back for so long came flowing out. I reach the fifth floor and the doors open, revealing my best friend.

"Y/n, what's wrong?" That question broke me, and I fell into his arms, crying. He held me as he pulled me out of the elevator.

"Let's go to my place, okay?" He asked and I nodded. Once we were in his apartment, we sat on his couch and I explained to him all that occurred tonight.

"He thinks you're in love with me?" Colby questioned.

"Yes," I answer quietly.

"What do you think?" He asks me and I look up at him.

"I don't think I'm ready to get married," I tell him.

"Yeah, but if you wanted to marry him, you could be engaged to him for however long you needed until you were ready to get married. I think he's right. You didn't want to marry him."

"You think I'm in love you too?" I ask him, sitting up straighter to get a better view of his answer.

"I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hoping you are. Y/n, you are gorgeous, kind, funny, everything that a guy wants in a girl. And did you see the way you looked tonight? If you were mine and you came out looking like that, we wouldn't have made it to the restaurant. You are beautiful. How could I not want you?" His honesty took me by surprise. I never knew he felt this way.

"Maybe you and Josh are right," I whisper without thinking and Colby's eyes light up.

"Maybe stupid Cupid shot his arrow at the wrong people?" I chuckled at his response but nonetheless agreed.

"Maybe"

[vole-mon-amour]

OTP tag game.

Tagged by @captainjowl. You know for sure than I'm struggling to pick only 10 & fit them in here. But hell, that’s fun, thank you <3

Rules: Choose 10 OTPs BEFORE reading the questions, and then get to answering

1) Harry James Potter & Sirius Orion Black

2) Daniel Le Domas & Grace (Ready or Not 2019)

3) Samuel & Nathan Drake (Uncharted 4)

4) Corvo Attano & The Outsider (+probably Emily Kaldwin; Dishonored series)

5) Steve Grant Rogers & Bucky Buchanan Barnes (Marvel)

6) Tony Edward Stark & Peter Benjamin Parker (Marvel)

7) Handsome Jack & Rhys (Borderlands video game series)

8) Damon Salvatore & Elena Gilbert (TVD Books & a tv show)

9) Batman & Joker (in every universe, really)

10) Adam Jensen x Francis Pritchard (Deus Ex video game series)

1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?

I believe it didn't hit me before Spider-Man: Homecoming. Civil War was about Steve & Bucky for me, but when I saw that growing up Peter with Tony, their dynamic, chemistry. Tom & Robert are really just like that.

2. Have you ever read a fanfic about 2?

Lmao. I've read like 50% of the tag on AO3, I wrote my own & started a few wips on them. They are amazing. Plus, with that shitty canon? We didn't get enough of them & they deserved better, so it's only logical to save yourself with fanfiction.

3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr screen saver?

I was living with The Outsider icon on my twitter & tumblr. That one is still my Google profile picture I believe. Don't remember about having an icon with the two of them. Also had The Outsider as my lockscreen on my smartphone for a while.

4. If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be?

Funny how it fits canon, lmao. Rhys literally tried to erase Jack's AI in TFTBL, so I guess another day on Pandora, nothing new. They torture each other, they kiss each other, they kill other people in the process. It'll be fiiine.

5. Why is 1 so important?

I love them since the first time I met them, which was much more than 10 years ago, I don't even remember when. At some point they were the reason I was waking up & forcing myself to eat just to read more fanfiction & feel something. Even if I was drowning in pain (I was extremely depressed), it was still something. I read every fic I could find at that time. The depression that Harry went through, all these feelings, his love for Sirius. I was living through it, I could relate.

I'm currently drowning in these two again, though in a much healthier & happier state. I see their flaws & I know as much as I can. I see them differently as an adult. They saved me, they keep being my number one, I still consider making a tattoo of Padfoot/Sirius or of both Harry & Sirius together. I have many headcanons, ideas, I write fics about them. They are everything, you see? They were my choice when there was nothing, no one. They are HOME.

6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?

Both. There goes the dynamic of Jack & Rhys: torture, fighting, flirting, a lot of trauma. I'd definitely say that they are wild and comical sometimes, but they are definitely serious. With the Asylum, the mental health issues. There is so much more to it, the complexity of their relationship. The struggle of loving who you probably shouldn't (but hey, when does it work like that?) Thinking about Tettlate's Batman, about Batman: Europa & how Joker was: "You must be crazy, putting me in charge of the plan, letting me decide. Okay, well..."

Nah, they are entertaining, but this is a serious ship.

7. Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?

Are you kidding me? They are all the definition of CHEMISTRY. I'd say 5, but then go 2, 6, 7, 8. Come on. I'm not choosing. Most of they are WILD.

9. How many times have you read/watched the 10’s fandom?

The fandom itself? Idk. I found one of my favourite artists through this fandom. If it's about the characters themselves, I played the first game with the DLC from start to beginning, looking around every corner. Spent more than 60 hours in there. Watched a second game (my laptop can't run the game) and the DLC (obviously), since Francis is in the DLC & not in the main game. I have a tag for them on tumblr, I read fanfiction, I tried to write my own. I still follow Elias & want a third game. Elias liked my tweets about Adam and Jensen being an actual couple a few times. I'd say I interacted with all of this a lot? Still do, actually.

10. Which ship has lasted the longest?

5. Best friends since childhood, fought & died for each other, still found their way back to each other. "It would break your Captain's heart, to see what they did to you." That only the MENTION of Steve can pull Bucky out of this brain washing(ed?) state, distract him in the middle of a fight. When Steve died in the comics because of Sharon & Tony sent Natasha to take Steve's shield from Bucky because even Tony knew how much Steve means to Bucky. And Bucky was like: "Oh, I see what he did. Not happening!" Fought Natasha (that is his ex in the comics) & kept going for Steve's sake.

Well, you see the point, I can go on and on.

11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?

They're not actually canon so none? They had a few fights: In Civil war (the comics), in Homecoming (the movie).  That only means that they’ve got history & love each other.

12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?

As fierce Grace is, they wouldn't stand a chance against Damon & Elena. Those two had to deal with worst thing than brainless stupid zombies. On the other hand, if there were no alive humans to drink their blood... It's either an animal diet that Damon hates so much or I don't know? Still, they're faster & more powerful. Their bodies have advantage of healing the wounds as well.

13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?

From some people, yeah. Don't tell Athena, don't tell Vaughn, don't tell Fiona. Though Rhys wasn't very subtle about it & Jack just doesn't give a fuck. You will probably end up dead if you disagree or bore him, or if you're useless.

"I can take you to the top, but you gotta know where the top is" & Rhys doesn't tell anybody until Jack makes him the President for like whole 20 minutes lol.

Fiona & Sasha: "This can't be happening." Sure it can, darling.

14. Is 4 still together?

I have a headcanon about The Outsider finding Emily & Corvo after Billie frees him from the Void. He doesn't have anybody & they are his only friends aside from a potential friendship with Billie. And if we don't consider TOTO dlc, they definitely are! The Outsider visits them both when they sleep & takes them to the void sometimes. How could he not?

15. Is 10 canon?

Not really but also sort of? Let's say that they really care about each other in canon, despite Adam pushing Francis away because of his trauma & fear that Megan caused him. :/

16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?

Can you imagine wizards fighting extremely powerful vampires? Superheroes with venom in their bodies that make them super strong with people that made a deal with the Devil himself (hi Le Bail)? 5000 y.o. God and his lover that share his powers and an augmented human protecting his tired IT guy? Combine mental health issues to that, Jack and Rhys with Batman and Joker. Corvo & The Outsider would probably slay them all as Corvo and Emily did in both games with entire islands, though it will still be a slaughter anyway.

17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship?

All the fucking time, lmaooo. I’m not even talking about it.

18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?

I feel like I already did with Steve & Bucky after many Marvel movies (we're not even mentioning Endg*me, I fucking died & was dead for full 4-5 months).

19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page?

I used to do that a few years back, but not anymore. There is not much content since the trilogy is finished.

20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink?

1 already went through it & fandom lives, so I'd say maybe 7? Rhys will find a way to bring Jack back & they are both so wild. It’s what happened in canon anyway. Jack kidnapped Lilith & forced her to do Angel's job, so I'd like to see that witch try at first. Jack is an immortal bastard. <3

Now that I think about it, Corvo would also deal with her in seconds as she waits to curse them.

As a conclusion: no one breaks up forever, we're killing the witch.

I tag: @ianmillkovichgallagher​ & @aledbr​

Whoever else wants to join the game, please do.

[daniallricciardo]

If it’s not much to ask, can you talk about the zoom meeting with Melissa!

okok so you and a couple of other anons have asked for this!! (ps @helloninenine here it is)

ok so basically i signed up for that free zoom happy hour that melissa tweeted about yesterday, i didn’t really know what to expect but i don’t have anything else rly to do so i thought why not! it was cute, it was hosted by this wine mansion (which idk what that means) but it had little drinking games and celebrations.  The reason melissa was on it was because one of the hosts went to college with mel and she invited her on!! (it was so sweet they were gushing about crashing in each others’ dorms and mel’s mom cooking food for them, it was adorable!!!)

anyways, melissa came on the zoom for about 15 minutes for a quick interview, and her friend from college asked a couple of questions and then she used a couple of questions from fans.  i forgot a lot of it already but here are some highlights i can remember lol:

- mel said that she’s nursing so she can’t drink too too much but she does have at least one glass of wine per day (and good for her she deserves to unwind)

- they discussed amy’s drunkenness scale and whether we would ever get to see seven drink amy, mel just said that the writers love the scale and that she hopes to see more of it

- they talked about what it means to her to be an advocate and role model for latinas everywhere and mel was trying not to cry, it was beautiful.  to that she basically said that she didn’t realize how much she was always looking for characters on tv that she could interpret as latin and she couldn’t be happier to get to be that person for others

in terms of fan questions, MOST (key word most for those of you who saw my other post) were really cute and respectful and about her life!)

-one person asked what she has been watching in quarantine, she said she struggles to fit it in with the two babies but that she and david watch like an hour and a half before they pass out to watch stuff, but then she was surprised at how much she was actually able to watch since it started lolol - so anyways she has watched all of schitts creek (which she loves), she watched the new season of outlander, she has been watching the baker and the beauty, and something else that i can’t fully remember rn?? if i remember ill edit this later

-another fan asked whether she plans to travel after quarantine (and that they send love from scotland, hey @captainsantiagos!!!), she said she would love to visit scotland and just to travel more!!! she also said (and i cried) that so far Axel seems like a calm baby and that Enzo is a really good traveller so she hopes she will actually be able to travel, and that she would love to see scotland because she’s never been

-okay now in terms of the andy question it went down so strangely and I was so secondhand embarrassed and entertained - so basically her friend was like “okay so i have one last fan question for you before we have to wrap up, and feel free not to answer it because i know youve been happily married to a lovely man for 13 years now” and at this point melissa was raising her eyebrows and my brain was like “oh no oh no oh no...” then she said it, “is andy samberg a good kisser?” and melissa just laughed and was very polite despite being very uncomfortable because how could you not be and said “well, hes not a bad kisser 😉 haha”... i was just CRINGING and also just TAKING IN the information i had just received lmao... i couldn’t believe that 1) someone submitted it and 2) that the interviewer (and her friend) literally picked it and 3) that i saw it lol

-then what made it so weird was that was LITERALLY how the interview ended... like right after that she was like, well we thank you so much for coming, i miss you tons!... and now onto the next part of our night where we make our weekly quarantini!! and i was still like embarrassed and overwhelmed and like ma’am how but we were already moving lol

anyways it was a sweet experience it was cool to hear her talk w only like 300 others and she was beautiful and perfect and i love her!!! that is all i can remember, hope this was somewhat interesting to read about lol 

[justlightthefirstspark]

Utd vs Reading 02/02/2020

Or, as @danieljamesmufc so eloquently put it, ‘The Battle of The Baes’ (Baes in question obviously being Amy Turner and Angharad James)

Anywho, there isn’t much of a ~detailed~ analysis like other pieces have had. A lot of the plays (and therefore, issues) are the same every game, and I don’t wanna keep repeating myself by making the same points week in and week out. Also, this game was kinda scrappy and not much really happened - until the end but we will get there in due time. I have a LOT of thoughts about the end of this game.

Few small changes in the XI - due to McManus picking up an injury vs Chelsea, Amy came back in at CB which was just

And then I saw Harris at RB 😐 I think I’ve made my feelings about that very clear, and I don’t wanna start hating on Martha for the sake of it, but Smith is the better of the two imo. And I just can’t see why Casey keeps insisting on playing TWO natural RB’s when she has a natural LB sitting on the bench ALL THE TIME, collecting splinters in her arsecheeks. It’s annoying, and I’m kinda sick of it.

Lizzie Arnot dropped out of the XI, in favour of Jane Ross for this one, and everything else was pretty much the same as Wednesday night.

Also, and I would really appreciate some help/info/whatever you’ve all got for this, but I was under the impression that Amy couldn’t (or at least, wasn’t really supposed to) play 3 games in one week? I’m like 90% sure that Casey benched her a few times in the second half of last season for this exact reason? Apparently that’s down to the knee injury she had a few years ago, but I would appreciate some clarification on this if anyone has anything 🧐

Also (I’m being annoying now, sorry) but this commentator was... bad. Mispronuncing players names (who is Jackie Groinen?), not even bothering to try and pronounce others (here’s looking at you, Angharad James), misidentifying players, just not really knowing what was happening a solid 83% of the time... idk who she is but she needs to not commentate on a United game again, I can’t listen to her. Girl had some, interesting, opinions too, and I’m quoting her directly now, “United will think that they’re due a defeat” 🧐 I’m not entirely sure how, or why, that would be the case, but apparently both United and Reading have alternating W/L runs in the league and today was Reading’s turn to win? I was confused. I still kinda am. And I didn’t like it.

First half:

The first 10 mins of this were pretty boring tbh. There was an awful lot of back and forth, misplaced passes, interceptions and the like. I think United were just on top in the opening few minutes, judging by the amount of time they spent in Reading’s half, and their possession.

‘8 - Corner and a free kick for United in quick succession. Nothing came from either (surprise surprise), but there was a lovely bit of ball control in the box from Ross after the FK. Just couldn’t get it to Sigsworth (who probably would have scored but we don’t need to talk about it)

‘13 - Another potential Ross/Sigsworth link up in the box but Ross just swept it straight into the legs of a Reading player, instead of passing to Jess on her left 🤷🏽‍♀️ I thought she was okay today, so I won’t give her too much grief for that mistake

‘16 - decent chance for Sigsworth, ended up launching it straight at *insert Reading player here.* Foreal, I have no idea who it was. Sorry. Groenen and Zelem both had decent opportunities following this, but nothing came of either of those

‘17 - Another corner for Utd, wasn’t a great delivery to be honest. Was played out and worked back in, LJ managed to get a shot off but sent it behind with a deflection so yet more corners followed. With nothing coming from any of them - this is starting to be a problem. We never challenge from set pieces, and I’m genuinely starting to wonder why that is? Does someone else need to take them? Or what?

There was *a lot* of midfield action around this time, more back and forth, a few fouls, and free kicks. None of this was noteworthy, hence the lack of notes.

‘21 - Amy stop backpassing challenge. I gave Abbie SO much shit for this vs City and Chelsea (as well as vs Spurs, oops), so I guess it’s Amy’s turn now. Sidenote: I think ‘Turner & Turner’ is my fave chant, the original at least. No disrespect to Abbie but seeing Turner x2 at CB on the teamsheet has me like

‘28 - Earps’ clearnances need work. Like, a lot of work. I think I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m never fully convinced by the ball that leaves her feet, and I don’t think she is either which is an issue 😬

‘29 - GOAL - United. I was literally just making a note on how boring I was finding this game - my highlight by the 28 minute mark was Amy lashing her boot into Tash Harding’s face. Lol. - when Lauren James appears literally out of nowhere and lashes one home. A gorgeous strike, cutting in from the left. This kid is lethal.

‘38 - Today I learned that we really only have one fast defender - Millie. Martha somehow outpaced Amy back with Reading on the break and I think my jaw hit the floor.

‘41 - United have the ball in the back of the net again. Amy got under a well struck free from Zelem and fired it home, but somehow was ruled offside. Clearly this ref and I have very, very different opinions about what the offisde rule actually constitutes, cause she was very much clearly onside.

Idk if you can see properly in those pics, but no one is offside in any of them. You can see in this video too, that Amy is in fact, NOT offside. I’m not having that one, it should have stood. https://twitter.com/48hours8/status/1223984745413038081?s=21

I just. I’m highkey so annoyed. And I’m definitely dragging this out but like

Moving on. That concluded a pretty uneventful half, aside from the goal and the offside that wasn’t actually offside.

Halftime:

Reading made a pretty interesting change at the half, subbing Haz off for LMKU. Maybe LMKU offers more of a threat going forward, but I thought Haz was pretty solid in the first half? She was certainly a lot better today than she was in the reverse fixture - she was shredded by Galton on every single run but I didn’t see her do anything like that this time? Anyway. (Also I’m lowkey sad Amy never got to slide tackle her into the middle of next week)

Second half:

‘47 - Quality build up work down the left and a gorgeous ball into the box from LJ, I fortune my it just brushed past Sigsworth and Ross in the 6 yard box/penalty area. So close to a second for United.

‘51 - a pretty poor free kick from Zelem, and a pretty poor decision and back pass from James. Sometimes I wonder if people on this team think about what they’re doing before they do it 🤗

‘53 - decent chance for Reading, which ultimately comes off the back post. United very lucky to get away with that one.

‘59 - Harris was very far forward there for a time. Like in the opposition box forward. Hello, anxiety. Also Amy nearly body checked someone around the same time and I was truly living my best life.

‘61 - Zel with a decent free kick, just couldn’t get the dip it needed to hit the back of the net

‘62 - another good strike from LJ, unfortunately just straight at the keeper.

‘63 - Penalty - Reading. Yellow for Amy for pushing Utland (I didn’t catch who it actually was, but according to Reading’s twitter it was LMKU) and conceding the pen.

‘64 - MARY EARPS SAFE HANDS LET’S GOOOO 🗣👏🏽🔥 What a save, my god. I was sure that was going in, but I’ve never been happier to be proven wrong in my life.

‘75 - another great chance for LJ - a lovely strike, think it could have done with a little bit of a chip, and then surely it was going in. Good work from Jess and Jackie in the build up too

‘76 - ‘82. This is where shit got crazy. And I really have no words for what I saw during this 6 minutes. Well, I do have words - I have a lot of them - but most of them aren’t suitable for this platform so I’ll just keep those ones to myself. Never in all my life have I seen such incompetent refereeing. A free kick awarded to Reading on the edge of the box, due to a ‘handball’ (that didn’t happen) by Lauren James, is cleared and HEADED away by Katie Zelem. The ref then proceeds to book Zelem for handball which, unless she suddenly has a third arm growing out of her FACE (I can confirm - she does not), makes absolutely zero sense, and awards Reading another penalty.

Jess also managed to get herself booked for questioning the ref’s decision and defending Katie sjsjsj, and not a single Reading player made a claim for that penalty. Surely, if she had handled the ball, every Reading player in the box would have appealed for it? You can clearly see the ball hit her head in the video linked below, but apparently the arm bone is now connected to the face bone, at least according to this ref anyway. 🙄

https://twitter.com/48hours8/status/1223996019022626821?s=21

I have no more thoughts on whatever happened after that because I had to turn it off before they scored that penalty, otherwise I would have drop kicked my laptop out my window. For what it’s worth, I did think Martha had a decent game today. I still want Smith at RB and Lotta at LB while Amy’s at CB though. You can’t make me change my mind 🤗

This is the third time this week alone that United have been robbed by poor referees, and apparently the ref of the City/Arsenal game today wasn’t much better. I didn’t see that game so I can’t really comment, but I don’t doubt those claims. The standard and quality of refereeing I’ve seen over the past 2 seasons since my introduction to women’s football has been appalling. And it’s not fair, I think this tweet pretty much sums it up.

The FA has pretty much demanded that every team/club in the WSL be full time, it’s about time that they demand the same qualifications and high quality from their officials, because this just isn’t good enough. And not just from the standpoint of a United fan, and in the context of today’s result, but league wide. It’s just not good enough. I’m completley here for literally everybody calling this shambles out for what it is, and the United girls being salty af on the tl.

Sorry that is this kinda long and ranty, but I’m in my feelings about this ref. ✌🏽

[unrestedjade]

Jade (re)watched Yu Yu Hakusho, S1 E1

I figure if I’m going to watch this again, I may as well make some notes. Like live-tweeting but less live!

Spoilers for an anime that came out in 1994 below the cut:

I watched the first ep in both the English dub and Japanese with subs (first time for the latter), and it may be personal bias because I grew up with the dub, but I really prefer the vocal performance of the English actors, along with preferring most of the choices the dub script made over the subtitles. There’s more little flourishes that make it sound natural and like the way working-class teens would talk as opposed to the subs being more...generic? For example the subtitles: “That’s right, I got hit by a car...” vs the dub: “So that’s it? I’m roadkill?”  Or the dubbed paramedic’s muttered “I hate working clean-up” that’s absent from the subs. The dub just has more character to me.

I don’t speak Japanese, so I don’t know how accurate the subtitles are compared to either the original audio or the English dub script, but I found them kind of boring to read. I also think the mixing is better for the dub. Japanese Botan is a little hard to hear over the music, for example.

If you decide to watch, obviously I recommend the dub, but it’s all down to personal preference. I’m glad to know what the original sounded like, anyway. Yusuke’s voice is so much higher in the original! He sounds more like an 18-year-old than a 14-year-old in the dub, lol.

My very serious thoughts on this ep:

* Hey, little boy! How would you like to go for an ambulance ride next to the dead body? You wouldn’t???

* Keiko’s unfortunate pigtails. I’ll admit to being biased against pigtails as a hairstyle on anyone over the age of ten, but I’m glad she ditches these later. Then again, at least she doesn’t look like she starts each day diving headfirst into a can of Crisco like Yusuke, so I’ll allow it.

* Yusuke chav-squatting on the roof of the school doing...what, exactly? In the manga he’d likely be smoking, but the anime cleans him up a little so I guess he’s just up there picking his nose or something until Keiko comes up to give him an admittedly well-deserved clocking for flipping up her skirt because he’s kind of an assbag. Oddly enough some of the comedy in this 30-year-old series hasn’t aged all that well!

* Mr. Takenaka’s so fucking done. I love you, Mr. Takenaka.

* For being all of 20 seconds long, I still love how well Atsuko’s introduction sets up the Urameshis’ home life. Also the contrast between Takenaka wanting to discuss with Yusuke why he’s missing so much school vs his mom blithely telling him to drop out and get a job if he doesn’t want to go anymore.

* Note that at approximately 9:15 my brain falls right out of my head because IT’S KUWABARA TIME, HELLO MY PERFECT ANGELIC WONDERFUL BOY WHO LOOKS LIKE THE LOVECHILD OF JAY LENO AND CARROT TOP. IT’S BEEN SUCH A LONG NINE MINUTES WITHOUT YOU.

* “Zero wins and 156 losses.” Not only is my baby’s curb-stomping a daily occurrence, but his homies are keeping count. It’s okay, Kazuma, you’ll get him one of these days.

* Side note: Between this and JJBA part 4, star-crossed yankii thugs is my 2020 aesthetic, don’t doubt me on this.

* Yusuke being good with little kids is a character detail that simultaneously amuses me and kind of bums me out. What was his childhood like? Is he reaching back to a happier time, or giving that kid the kind of attention he never got himself? THESE ARE MY QUESTIONS.

* 12:16, my brain, which has just finished slithering back into my skull, immediately falls out again because IT’S BOTAN! HI, BOTAN! YOU LOOK GREAT TODAY, BOTAN! MARRY ME, BOTAN! I’d say I’d want her to reap me when I die but she’d probably put me on blast and laugh about it like she does with our boy, destroying my self-esteem for all eternity.

* Yusuke’s “It’s a Wonderful Life” moment is actually so sad. Like this middle school kid is just ‘lol I’m better off dead and no one’ll miss me, this is fine’ without a second thought and then THE WAKE SCENE HAPPENS.

* Keiko and Atsuko ugly crying and Kuwabara causing a huge scene and REACHING FOR THE PHOTO and “you’re supposed to be here” before the guys can drag him away like wtf just rip my heart out, you three. And who took that photo, anyway? I’m assuming Atsuko. If so, how long did she spend trying to get one picture of her kid where he’s not scowling at her?

* Mr. Takenaka being THE ONLY GOOD TEACHER. FUCK EM UP, TAKENAKA!

*Tete-a-tete is a banger in any language. That is all.

[rkwendy]

Five Times Around The Sun: A Rookies Fifth Anniversary Special

Dear Rookies,

First of all, I’d like to wish the roleplay a happy fifth birthday! I’m aware that not many roleplays live to make it this far. For you guys to make it, I’ll bet it’s some sort of achievement. And it’s all because of the work both the mods and the members of the community put into this. Let’s give ourselves a round of applause!

I warn you that this is more than 5,500 words long. So yeah. You are free to just skip over this if you wish!

There’s so much I want to say, but I’ve never been great at expressing my feelings. (Fun fact: my mom and I start laughing whenever one of us starts getting cheesy or emotional.) I never even properly celebrated either muse’s anniversaries despite them being in Rookies for more than two years! Forgive me if this gets too long. I promise I’ll do my best to keep this concise (Wow, big word!)

With this knowledge, please bear with me as I struggle to convey all that I want to say without cringing at myself.

I guess it’s safest to start sharing the story of why I opted to join Rookies in the first place. Like majority of what happened to me in terms of KRP, it was a complete accident. I have been in KRP since 2011 (if any of you have heard of ADiS, then… yeah… shifty eyes). I kind of stopped roleplaying because a job with a newspaper was difficult af. (I only went home to shower and eat. I was lucky to be able to sleep, lbr here) Anyway, I needed something to do once I resigned from my old job, and my friends got me back into KRP via a Kingsman-themed one, since they wanted someone to RP Infinite with them. I think some of you know which one it is. /cackles/

MOVING ON. This same friend also planned to join the Rookies and wanted a ship for their muse. We both ended up doing applications, but I was the only one who was able to submit because my friend ended up getting a job. Thus, my friend was never able to join the RP and I got accepted.

A little history time! Please bear with me, this is going to be irrelevant to you but I feel like I need to talk about this. Fun fact I probably never told anyone! Wendy was originally meant to be a Krystal muse. However, I had to make a few adjustments because there was either a Krystal reserve or there was a Krystal muse in the RP. I can’t remember which one it was. The muse was loosely inspired by Berry Good’s Johyun and NCT Dream’s Jaemin, who both used to be competitive speed skaters before they became idols. I changed the sport to figure skating because that is the sport I know best. Wendy was also based on several friends of mine, who were all a bunch of somewhat pretty overachievers. (Going to one of the top universities in the country enables you to meet these people, more on that when I talk about Johnny later on.)

I’m not going to lie, this was the first time I was in a directory that was this HUGE. (Not even ADiS was this huge. Min, please correct me if I’m wrong.) It was easy for me to get overwhelmed by the sheer number of people in the directory, along with concerns that my muse was just going to drown among the many way more interesting muses than what I had to offer.

It would have been easier for me to quit, since the reason I joined was gone. However, Jen ( @yujurk ) turned out to be one of my friends from my Indie RP days! Not going to lie, if it wasn’t for Jen, I doubt I’d have stayed in the roleplay at all. Jen helped ease me into the roleplay in all ways imaginable: by plotting with me, introducing me to muns from the same timezone, and answering any questions in case our good mods weren’t online.

As I was navigating and slowly finding my place in the RP, the third season of the MGAs happened! Not going to lie, I wasn’t sure I was ready for Wendy to be signed, but I thought I might as well do it for the lulz. I know I said this a lot, but the MGAs were probably the among the wildest things I ever put a muse through that I swore that I was never putting another muse through it. Despite that, I’m glad I put Wendy through the experience. It taught her a lot about herself, as well as how far she was willing to push in order to achieve her dreams. At this point, I would like to give a shout-out to Team Nova! Wendy and I can’t imagine having any other teammates besides Jungwoo ( @jungwooxrk ), and the former Luhan ( who is still around as @rksoojung and is still one of Wendy’s loves ), Mijoo, and Soyou (RIP muses). Of course, Wendy owes Ricky ( @rkrxcky ) a lot for leading her to where she is today. Thanks you guys.

After the MGAs, Wendy signed with Nova. I’d like to thank everyone in the Nova family, both past and present, for putting up with this tiny girl who claims to be their future CEO. After two years with the company, Wendy has become (hopefully) an even better vocalist and composer. Sure, her dancing and charisma can use more work — scratch that, a lot more work — but we will get her to a level that’s passable. After all, if she intends to inherit the company someday, she has to do well in the department Nova is known for. I never thought Wendy would last this long as a trainee, but here we are. She could have easily left during Royal Survival, but she didn’t. OOC, the event happened when I was taking TOPIK so RIP. IC, the reason was because she believes in whatever plans Nova has for her (if there are any LMAO). Although she’s having second thoughts now, she’s still determined to see it through. She intends to inherit the company from Hyun Bin, so she has to stay. LOL.

To Minju ( @jinkyungxrk ), thank you for being one of the first to welcome Wendy to the company and making it easy for her to adjust to trainee life. Ani ( @rkmiya ), Wendy and Sunmi have made it! Can you all believe it took Wendy TWO FREAKING YEARS to get comfortable enough with Sunmi to call her unni? And can you all believe it took us around that long to actually plot properly? JFC we are both such snails. Matt ( @rksona ), wherever you are, Wendy will always consider Dawon as one of her Nova best friends. After all, they’re both vocalists who signed pretty close to the same time. To my fellow KRP senior citizen MC/Jae ( @sujirk ) (IDK which you prefer so I’ll use both), it’s nice to know there’s someone close to my age who’s still RP-ing too, despite feeling like that Will Smith meme when finding out how YOUNG some of these children are. And here’s to Wendy and Suji getting to know each other and becoming closer. Maddy ( @rkkaeun )… Where do I even begin? Wendy likes Kaeun a lot and is excited to see how Kaeun will grow, and I feel the same about you too. To Chaeyoung mun ( @rkchaeyoung ) (Honestly, I have no idea how you like to be called, so I shall refer to you as Sowon and Chaeyoung mun for now, I’m so sorry!) and Sunny ( @rkmeiqi ), Chaeyoung and Meiqi are special to Wendy because they are simply the first fellow 98-line girls to join Nova. To Neo ( @rkyngsun ), we have yet to talk a lot and plot more, but I’m grateful that you’re okay with Wendy going all Regina George on your girl. This is going to be a slightly slow burn ship before these vocalists become gay for each other in a way. But I just hope we stick together for this crazy ride. And Nana ( @hyunark ), with Hyuna signed to Nova, Wendy’s even happier than ever, despite feeling some occasional salt at their beloved CEO. Here’s to our girls writing more songs together~

To the boys of Nova, thank you all for being the best boys you can possibly be. To Jess ( @rkhuidong ), thank you having Hui be kind of like a dad/older brother to Wendy. Thank you for assuring her that she did the right thing even if she was punished for it. To Chanel, (OMG this is mention number 2, Chanel!) Ricky is Wendy’s coach and kind of mentor, as well as the fourth-wall reality check. To Lex (you better get used to this. I have a feeling you’ll be mentioned A LOT), our kids have gone through so much, haven’t they? The MGAs, surviving Nova, and a lot more. Wendy cares for Jungwoo a lot, and she hopes they can tough this out together. To Joi ( @bambamrk ), Wendy’s always admired how cool and nice he is. She hopes he’s happy. To Fifi  ( @haknyeonrk ), Circe ( @rkmbin ), and Lulu ( @rksxngyeol ), Wendy would love to get to know your boys all so much better. To Rome ( @rkromeo ), (the now-gone) Jinyoung, and (old) Kihyun, you will always be honorary Nova Boys to Wendy, no matter what.

To Roe ( @rkhugo @rkyooa @suhork ), Wendy wouldn’t let me lump Hugo with all the other boys of Nova. After all, Hugo is special. I’m grateful that Roe entrusted Hugo’s heart in Wendy’s inexperienced hands. I’m honored that Roe actually agreed to have Hugo go through a slow-burn ship, especially when I’m aware that she isn’t the most patient of people when it comes to that. Thank you for putting up with both Wendy’s lack of affection and her inexperience when it comes to relationships, and all the things she fears. Thank you again for putting up with my snail’s pace replies, but I want you to know it’s because I want to give Hugo the replies he deserves. The muse for this ship is alive and kicking, and I intend to keep it that way. Both Wendy and I love you and Hugo so much, Roe. LOL I spent so much time talking about Hugo that I forgot to mention how much both Wendy and Johnny also care about Yooa and Suho, but they do.

Now I’m on the topic of thanks to, I think I should also give a special shout-out to the girls of rkredvelet. Though we don’t talk as often as I’d like, I have to admit you were among the first to plot with me when I was new here. You are all Wendy’s best friends for life.

To Rose ( @rkyeri ): I like seeing you tweet about dancing and your takes on things. I also learn a lot from you! Your comments in the KT groupchat crack me up a lot as well. You’re doing amazing, bb! On a muse perspective, Yeri is one of Wendy’s oldest friends, going back from their days in Canada. Wendy just wants Yeri to know that she’s proud of her for being one step closer to her dreams. She’s also asking when she can start printing the Anna slogan.

To Keith ( @rkjxy ): Hoy, bakla. Other than being a ray of sunshine to both Wendy and me, thank you for everything. Just as Wendy and Joy have fun together anytime, anywhere, I like to think it can become something like that for us both. I love our discussions about local stuff and fandom. May mapapagraduate na ako! /cries proud mom tears/

To Kyle ( @seulgirk ): One of the true MVPs of my life. Just as I honestly have no idea where Wendy would be without Seulgi, I don’t want to imagine what would have happened to me if you hadn’t helped me out all those times. Seulgi is practically Wendy’s person. (LBR, if Hugo had to be threatened by anyone, it’s Seulgi.) I also enjoy commiserating over watching winter sports at godforsaken timeslots (one of these days, I’ll understand hockey enough), as well as listening to to you/reading your tweets discussing your muses/muse ideas. And those puns of yours give me so much life.  

Anyway, next up, I’d like to give a shoutout to rkbrosquad!!!! Honestly, having you guys made life a lot more colorful for me, as well as both my muses. I’m not going to lie, this is probably one of the first group chats I was ever in, in terms of KRP. It’s like my muses gained a new family with this insane, but loving bunch. I also like how this chat can also turn into a meme dumpsite, a spazz area, and a tea corner if we need it. Here’s to more adventures with our muses and if distance isn’t an issue, I bet we’d all look for chances to meet.

To Jen, you are one of the reasons we have a squad in the first place. Without you, I bet I wouldn’t have stayed after the first week. Having a familiar face who’s been with the RP for a long time helped me get settled much more easily. It was your helpful self that inspired me to pay it forward for the future muns who’d enter the RP. So if anyone’s grateful that I was friendly to them, please direct your compliments to Jen for setting a good example! Other than that, you and your muses changed my muses’ lives completely. Shoutout goes to her mentor Jieun and one of her closest friends Soyeon.

To Lyn ( @rkavery @rkxsnn ), hoy mumsh. It’s refreshing to able to talk to more people in the same language. Not to mention, your muses always got up to the wildest antics that had both my muses and me laughing. I’m cheering for you both in rp and in real life. Alam mo ‘yan. And muse-wise, thanks for letting your former boy be the James Potter to Johnny’s Sirius Black (or vice versa). Johnny and I will miss your boy loads, but we also welcome your new girls with open arms. And also thanks for shipping with Wendy at some point, even if she ended up broken. (ULOL ang drama!)

To Shinobi ( @rkgray @rkkangjoon ): You are legitimately one of the sweetest people I have ever had the fortune to meet. You’re nice to everyone, get along well with people, and have the most awesome characters ever. Your ideas are just A+++. Gray will also always be the reason Wendy’s standards for men are so high, since in her eyes, Gray is perfect. (Gray will get Johnny’s love in the KT Boyz segment) Meanwhile, Kangjoon will be that handsome brother Wendy will be protective about because she thinks he deserves the best. Johnny will always thank Kangjoon for accidentally smacking him in the butt, which lead him to the best squad ever. #NEVERFORGET

To Nana: OMG! This is your second mention. All those posts of Hyuna and LE to send the group chat into a gay panic are more than welcome. It’s always fun plotting with you and your muses, no matter which one it is. Wendy is proud of Jihoon ( @jihoonrk ) in Convex, as well as looking for a chance to release some hilarious pre-debut shit. As for Hyuna, we all know how much Wendy admires Hyuna and loves her a lot. Here’s to hopefully getting to plot with Younghyun sooner or later!

To Maddy ( @aronrk ): Yes, this is your second mention too. Wendy and Aron have yet to thread together, yeah? LOL. Anyway, Wendy obviously cares a lot about Aron, Kaeun, and Nayoung. And I think it carries over to me caring a lot about you. It’s cool to talk to someone who works in the same industry as I do (rather as I used to) and have the same interests. Bonus points for living in the same timezone! (Aron will get Johnny’s love in the KT Boyz segment)

To Sammi ( @rkxminhee ): You are also one of the nicest people I have ever met. I love learning about girl groups from you, since I’m generally clueless about the ones outside of the Big Three or aren’t as well-known. I’m not going to lie, everytime I see Minhee, I think of you. I remember seeing Minhee post that she was in my country, and the first thing I thought was, “DOES SAMMI KNOW MINHEE IS IN MY COUNTRY?!”

To Em ( @borark ): You’re doing an amazing job as a momma to a cutie pie! Anyway, Bora is one of the coolest girls Wendy has ever known, just as I think you are one of my faves. We need a proper thread ASAP when we’re both not busy T_T

Bet y’all thought that was done, right? Nope. We still have a long way to go. Trust me, if you’re getting tired reading this, I’m even more exhausted writing it. We’ll all just have to deal with it. RIP @ us.

Back in 2016, NCT U, NCT 127, and NCT Dream had debuted. Back then, I was aware that Johnny, the SM Rookie who trained with SM the longest had yet to debut. So as a joke, I thought to myself, I’ll debut him before SM does. He came in a month after Wendy got signed at the MGAs. I figured I could handle two muses so LOL. He started as an NPC friend for Wendy who had a crush on Seulgi, and then I thought I could bring him in.

The first time I knew it was time for Johnny to graduate from NPC to actual muse was when I was watching a local drama called “On the Wings of Love.” One of the characters was a spoken-word artist, and I felt like it was something that suited the Johnny muse I had. I also wanted to bring in a muse who can speak Filipino, so I had an excuse to say PUTANGINA on the dash, as well as spread OPM to Rookies.

From there, Johnny just started becoming more real to me as a muse. Johnny was also based on several college friends of mine, who were all a bunch of insanely intelligent and talented people. He was inspired by a classmate who was actually a MYX VJ (local music TV channel) who was also taking up a pre-med degree. Johnny was also inspired by the guy who became our class valedictorian: a dork who was smart AF and could sing, dance, act, write songs, and was part of the debate team with me. One of my closest friends who I miss a lot was gifted with a superior IQ and an almost flawless memory, and she was also a CF model. All these people inspired me to bring Johnny to life.

Honestly, Johnny brought on a new series of challenges that I never thought was possible. I was less awkward when I brought him in, since I was already somewhat at ease with the community. The challenge was to make him want to be an idol. But somehow, fate let things happen and loh and behold!

From not wanting anything to do with the entertainment industry, Johnny finds himself immersed in it all. He would like to thank the former Jungkook muse (who might make a return as a different FC hint hint) for forging his application for that Samsung modeling casting. That started his interest and curiosity for modeling. However, he got his feet wet only when his teacher told him to go for it. But still, that forgery got him a start.

Then, the life-changing talent show happened. Johnny owes Hugo a huge-ass thank you for signing up him for that Hongdae talent show. He is now proud to be a KT (KermiT) Boy. I still have no clue how Johnny wants to develop from being a genius turned model to becoming the artist he can be. But I guess that’s what we will all have to anticipate.

I hadn’t planned for Johnny to fall in love. In fact, I was planning to make him an asexual hermit. Sure, he’s had crushes on Seulgi and Lisa, but he never dreamed those could amount to anything. He was supposed to be forever alone. (To Roe, that time Yukji tried flirting with Johnny will always be one of the most iconic moments.) However, Ten happened! Yay! Nine asked to plot so nicely, and I figured why the hell not? Okay, fun fact, the reason I planned for Johnny to be a hermit was because I was too scared to be called out for face-chasing. I’m relieved that Nine reached out first. And now they’re the cutest boyfriends. Again, I would like to apologize for my snail’s pace when it comes to replies. I will talk a little more about this later on. I promise.

Another reason Johnny has stayed alive for so long was because of all the friends he’s made over the time we’ve been in this RP. Honestly, every single one of these friends have made Johnny’s life more exciting, more colorful, and have taken him in directions he never would have considered if left to his own devices. I guess the long-ass thank you messages are now in order.

To rknctea:

To Nine ( @tenrk ): You go first simply because Johnny asked me to. Besides, I want to thank you and Ten for making Johnny believe that he’s capable of love and sexual feelings. Ten makes Johnny want to be the right person for Ten, and to be a better boyfriend. I don’t know whether I ever mentioned this, but Johnny sees Ten in his future. OOC-wise, I’m thankful that you brought us NCT typists together in the group chat. Not to mention, you make me laugh with all the stuff you link in there. In our DMs, I love how we both get soft together over JohnTen. Whether it’s plots for our boys or IRL JohnTen doing stuff, it’s always great sharing the feels with you.

To Yurim ( @rktaeil ): To one of the people I’ve known longest in RK (outside the brosquad), my experience in Rookies wouldn’t be the same without you. I’m glad you brought in Taeil. Although I reply at a glacial pace now, I’m excited to see what happens to Taeil. I still find it hilarious that you declared your NCT bias will be whose calling card you’ll draw. Anyway, the reason your barrel man has yet to come to you is because I will personally bring it to you when I fly there next year. If you have any other requests, please let me know anytime before I fly. (I will let you know when we’re arriving so we can meet.)

To Hunnie ( @yutark ): We have been through a lot during the time we’ve known each other. You point out things I don’t notice otherwise and work way harder than I do, just as Yuta shows Johnny perspectives that are immensely different from his own. I struggle coming up with ways to ruin my muses’ lives and to just write in general. I don’t know how you do it so religiously and so diligently on top of schoolwork. We also spazz over a lot of different fandoms together, and I’m happy that you’re a lot happier now. Also, welcome to the UAAP life. I’m glad you decided to watch basketball with me and that you’re somehow rekindling your love for the game. Game Two, here we come!

To Min ( @rkjaemin ): You would have gone first but Johnny insisted otherwise. Buwisit siya. We have been together since 2011 and I hope this doesn’t change at all. You knew me from when I was a total noob to the RP world, and have been one of those who saw my writing improve or deteriorate over the years. You are one of the loveliest people I’ve ever met IC or OOC. I’m happy you joined this madhouse called Rookies with me, and I hope this is good healing for you from work. I love you and can we please have dinner with the rest of the girls soon? Just as I will always be rooting for you and will be available to help, please tell your evil spawn of a muse that Johnny’s willing to help him too. Same goes for Wendy and Somi.

To Peach ( @rkhaechan ): When I first told Min to join Rookies, I never thought you two would find each other. But I’m glad you did. You make my girl so happy, and with that, I’m happy too. I will go down with the S.S. PeachMin. I better be invited to that wedding. Anyway, Johnny loves Haechan a lot, especially because he makes evil spawn Jaemin so happy. Haechie may be my new fave of your muses, but Soyou will always be special to me. After all, Wendy wouldn’t have lasted in the MGAs without your girl going all soccer mom on the whole team. Wendy hopes that Jihyun unni is proud of her.

To Jen ( @rkmxrk ): You are honestly one of the most fun people I have ever talked to. We can talk about fandom, winter sports, and just about how our days went. It doesn’t really matter. Long live KKT calls. Not to mention, long live being a professional enabler who convinces the rest of us to spend our hard-earned money on our faves. LMAO. One thing I also learned from you, is to be careful of what I say because you’ll have RECEIPTS. Just as Johnny looks after Mark and wishes for him to succeed, I wish the same for you. And Johnny’s proud that Mark’s finally getting what he’s been trying to say for the last few months.

To Fifi ( @jaehyunrk ), Dayo ( @rkxsicheng ) , Phil ( @rkdoyoung ), Grey ( @rkjeno ), Adri ( @rktaeyxng ): although we don’t talk as much, I’m still thankful that you’re all here. I’d like for us to get to know each other even better, even if I’m either a shy hermit, a lazy egg, or just awake when you’re asleep. But you all bring lots of laughter to the group chat, and I’d like for Johnny to plot with your boys too. (Or in Fifi’s case, Get Johnny and Jaehyun a new thread challenge)

To Lex: Damn it, Lex. I’ve lost track how many times I’ve mentioned you. I hope you’re enjoying your stay in the rknctea group chat. And I hope that somehow, Johnny and Jungwoo find their ways to each other.

To the KT Ent muses and muns:

To Carly ( @taeminrk ) : I was really planning to save this for later when I got to my thank you mods part, but I thought oh well. Anyway, I want to thank you for being one of the best mods to help me get settled when I was new here. As well as answering any questions I had, no matter how stupid they were. I’m glad I got over the initial intimidation of “OMG MOD!” to someone I can actually have fun talking to. I just hope Johnny eventually gets over that “OMG SUNBAE!” vibe Taemin gives out. Johnny always saw Taemin as the senior he has to impress and not disappoint. Trust me, Johnny’s trying but he feels like he’ll never be good enough for Taemin’s standards. LMAO

To Maddy: Johnny always thought of Aron as one of the coolest, happiest, and most talented people he’s ever met. Aron radiates sunshine in Johnny’s opinion, and he wonders how someone can be so bright all the time. Yes, Aron has permission to climb Johnny like a tree and Johnny will enjoy it.

To Shinobi: Johnny will always say Gray is his idol. Hands down. He can give Jongdae a run for his money. He will also go down with the old man ship of Gray and Huidong.

To Lulu ( @minhyukxrk ): Johnny’s rooting for his fellow twin tower and he hopes that Minhyuk will one day be the rich, talented billionaire he knows Minhyuk can be. Tall people unite despite this short revolution!

To Yurim ( @rkxkjd ): If Taemin is the strict dad, then Jongdae is the cool dad Johnny wants to be like when he grows up. After all, Jongdae is probably the muse who’s known Johnny the longest. These two go way back and are both nerds.

To Lex ( @rksungho ): Oh man, I gave up counting how many mentions you got. This is probably going to be the last. Sungho and Johnny are different as they can be, despite a somewhat similar skillset. Not going to lie, Johnny wants to get along with him, despite Sungho just being so angry at everything.

To Cherry ( @rkjimin ): We don’t get to talk as often as I’d like, but I’d like for that to change as soon as we’re both not busy. Jimin is a lovely muse, and Johnny looks forward to getting to know him better in the future~

To Hunnie ( @rksunwoo ): Sunwoo is special to Johnny, because they joined KT at around the same time. There has to be something to be said about two strangers who started a journey at the same time. Johnny wishes he was as talented and talented as Sunwoo. I like to think that Johnny and Sunwoo have a unique bond that only the two of them can understand.

To Shino ( @rkjinjin ): Johnny and Jinwoo, aka big guy and small fry. Just kidding. Though for real, Johnny is always impressed with Jinwoo’s talent and is grateful to learn so much from him. As for you Shino, having you around is lots of fun. I have learned not to say any silly stuff in the group chat unless I wish to be exposed. (Never forget: VORE TAEMIN)

To Hyunjin mun (T_T IDK How you want to be addressed) ( @rkxhyunjin ): You are the only KT Boy Johnny has no thread with. I’d love for us to change that ASAP. Please?

To the females at KT, Johnny loves and respects you a lot. He’d love to get closer with you all. For now, he declares Haseul ( @haseulrk ) and Jennie ( @rkjennie ) as his faves, because he’s closest to them. Johnny never thought he’d be a step-parent to a dog, but Ahyoung  ( @rkxblue ) somehow got him to do it, so she’s special too. He also sees Minji ( @rkariel ) as the older sister you don’t want to disappoint, while Yeri is the younger sister he finds hilarious. He’d also love to get to know Audrey, ( @rkaudrey ), Momo ( @rkxmomo ), Luda ( @rkxluda ), and Chungha ( @rkchungha ) better!

To Carly and Keith, and by some extension, Kate, Johnny has come to see Luna ( @rkluna ) and Jisoo ( @rkjisoo ) (and Eve ( @rkxeve,) by extension) as his lesbian moms. He low-key blames and credits them for being why he is the way he is today. You don’t get raised by two extremely opposite but equally bad-ass women and not be some mix of weird. He doesn’t get to talk to his moms so much, but he wants them to know he loves them a lot.

I can’t leave this without yelling at Lari! Baekhyun ( @rkbyunbaek ) is the best host brother Johnny could ever ask for. Both of us can’t imagine this boy living with anyone else but Baekhyun’s family. Johnny feels bad that they hardly ever see each other anymore, but that doesn’t change how much he loves Baekhyun. Johnny is actually going to be upset when he’ll have to move out of the Byun residence because he’s going to miss this host family a lot.

I’d also like to thank people I have yet to properly thread with (or seldom get to thread with) but talk to frequently OOC, especially on Twitter. There’s way too many of you to be tagged, but you know who you all are. I love how we can talk about anything, ranging from K-Pop to local showbiz, to current events, and more random topics.

Finally, I’d like to thank the mods, each one, having helped me in some shape or form. Kyle, Keith, and Carly, you all got long-ass love letters from me, so I won’t bother repeating myself anymore. To Sera, you truly are hard carry AF. Thank you noticing my hiatus messages and just being there in general. I’ve always told people you are great, and I’m glad my faith isn’t misplaced at all. To Bianca, thank you for answering my stupid AF questions during events. Because I swear even I would roll my eyes at myself for some of the things I ask sometimes. To Mira, you were one of the mods who welcomed me back when I was new. So I’d like to thank you for that. Wendy misses one of her mean girl friends~ To Razel, those graphics are A++++ Here’s to more talking about PH showbiz, food, and to us finally having a proper thread!

I bet I forgot so many people, but this is about how much I can write. Fun fact! I started writing this post at around 11:30am, and I finished writing this at around 6pm. If you made it this far, congratulations!

I’ll spare you all from my rambling, and I’ll just end it here.

My muses and I are cheering for everyone and their muses in their endeavors, whether IC or OOC. I would also like to apologize for the times I have offended you, whether I was aware of it or not. (I’m sure I’ve apologized if I was aware of it, but yeah.) I’m trying to be a better person than I was the day before. I don’t know what the future holds, but I’ll do my best to be a better mun to both Wendy and Johnny, as well as be a better member of this community.

With all my love,

Clara (rkwendy and rkjohnny)

[sketchguk]

Hi your response to Spanish fwb anon made me curious uh, how DO people handle long distance? I'm in a long distance relationship with someone but I don't think this is how it's supposed to work? At first we were talking everyday and when that changed, I thought we're busy so we tone it down a little. But sometimes it feels so forced? And sometimes it feels like it's okay for him not to text me or call everyday? How do people do it??? Do you know any friends in ldrs?? Do they think it's necessary to talk everyday or do they just have a schedule of sorts? Also how they manage to keep up with ldrs 😭 Sometimes i text just to say Hi how are you and after that I don't say anything! But that feels so forced! What even is natural in ldrs??? Ahhhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭

Ahh LDRs seem frustrating and confusing, I'm sorry if you're experiencing any aches :-(

Are you in the type of LDR where you've met online and have never seen one another in person? Or have you been in an irl relationship, and someone has had to move away?

Regardless, I think that lulls in communication are bound to happen at some point. Sometimes we're busy, separated by responsibilities. Time zones also add an extra burden (if that happens to be your case). However, I do believe that couples should rectify that and do their best to text or call once a day (minimum?). Some might say that's excessive. But there are people whom I love, and I talk to them daily ! Especially during the pandemic, communication was more important than anything. So, that kind of energy can be put into relationships too, right? It doesn't have to be a lengthy conversation, but as long as you can express your love and care for one another, it shows that you both are willing to put in the effort. It could be a simple "hey, I was just thinking about you," and that can have such a huge impact. It’s understandable if it doesn’t happen every single day though. And I also get it if either one of you would want to have a thorough conversation because those are so... heartwarming lol

If it feels unnatural to say "hi, how are you?" maybe you can try to open up the conversation in other ways? Like "what did you have for lunch today? I went to this new place, and I wish I could bring you here next time!" or "what's something that made you smile today? I saw a cute dog on my way to work! [insert picture]" And honestly, it's fun to just drop anything that's on your mind. I think most people would welcome it if you were to ask a random question or share a random tidbit from your day. People send me funny tweets or memes, and it makes me smile although it might not seem like much. Whenever I get an animal video in my dms, I'm instantly happier because not only is it cute, but someone thought about me when they saw it ! It's a secret code for: "Teresa would love this! And I want to show her because I love her!" It's the small stuff that matters, ya know?

I don't think a schedule is totally necessary because it feels like pressure. If you were to say "let's call every night at 7pm," it might hurt someone to break that promise if it ever so happened. It might also feel awkward to talk on the phone in public or if you're in the presence of others. So if schedules were to ever change, it might not be possible to follow it so strictly. In a way, it sets up expectations, and it could feel even unnatural

I also find beauty in texting LOL. I talk a little too much about stupid things that don’t matter. I never shut up. I could talk about my neighborhood strays for three hours. One pro about texting is that your partner could reply whenever he's ready or available (and vice versa)! Coming from me, if there's someone I really like (platonically or romantically), I will respond to them, and I will always look forward to speaking with them. You shouldn't have to feel as though you're second guessing yourself when sending your partner a text :/ I hope that's a hurdle that can be overcome

One of my friends is in a long distance relationship. They call all the damn time LOL. She does freelance jobs, so she's not necessarily busy everyday. Her sleep schedule is definitely a little weird because of early and full day shoots. He, however, is getting his PhD in the midwest, so he's one time zone behind. I'm sure he has a lot on his plate, but they've been together for about 7 years, so he really values their relationship. She even made a road trip to visit him the other week. At the same time, that's not to say they're perfect.

During undergrad, they both pursued their studies in California. They had to deal with quite a bit of separation. My friend was going through a transfer of schools, she had to take a leave of absence, and I think she even took a gap semester at some point. She also moved home during the pandemic while he remained in Los Angeles. He studies geology, so he goes on A LOT of trips to study rocks LOL. One summer, he had to leave for another country, and that's when they had to take a "break." My friend didn't want to deal with the pressure of long distance. I don't remember how they resolved it, but I think when they reunited, they talked it out. I have a feeling that their break was a temporary thing that they decided on

I hope you can work something out with your partner ! Hang in there 💛 Sending lots of hugs and kisses

[notsoguiltykpop]

I Taste Salt

Namjoon X Reader

Mermaid AU

Genre: Fluff

Anonymous said: “FISH OUT OF WATER NAMJOON VERSION?????????? PLSSSS??”

Lol okay so this probably isn’t what you had in mind, but I wanted it to be pretty different from Fish Out of Water. Inspired by the saying: “May the two of you be so close that when one cries, the other tastes salt.”

Uhhh don’t look at the tweets too closely they have some mistakes but I’m lazy and don’t want to fix them

You were too close to shore and you knew it. But the things humans dropped into the ocean were too strange to simply leave them there–and too fun, as well. Only last week you’d found what you were fairly sure Humans called a “hoodie”, and while it did you absolutely no good whatsoever, it was a pleasant green color and you were sure wearing it could start a trend. Once other mermaids had an interest in it, you could trade it for something more practical–like a bottle of alcohol, perhaps. 

You hoped to find something equally as fascinating tonight, but nothing could have prepared you for the excitement of finding a phone half-buried in the sand. It was in a protective case, and when you pressed the “on” button experimentally, the screen lit instantly. 

You grinned to yourself. This was perfect! There were many who collected human items that would kill to have something like this! You slipped it into the bag you brought along before continuing your search. 

Later that night, after you’d given up your search and had collected a ridiculous number of bottle caps, you sat in a little cluster of rocks just barely off shore. You loved the spot–it was quiet, safe, warm, and close enough to the beach to listen to the parties going on not far off. 

You wished you could be there in the sunlight, but the risk was far too great–small humans climbed all over these same rocks all day long, and you would undoubtedly be seen. 

You were shaken from your thoughts by the bag at your side vibrating angrily and playing some tune far too loud. It took you only a moment however to remember that the human cellphone was in it, and you pulled it out to look at the screen. Someone by the name of Jungkook was calling.

You bit your lip. You shouldn’t answer, of course. But what other opportunity would you have to speak to a human without the risk of being found? Slowly, as though it might break at any moment, you touched the green button before holding the device up to your ear. You’d seen humans do this enough to have a fairly good idea of how this worked. 

“…Hello?” You said, and there was a pause on the other side.

“Hello?” A voice replied, sounding completely confused. “Hey, Namjoon, someone really did pick up.” This was said to someone other than you, and you heard a slight scuffle.

“Hello?” This was someone else, you were sure. He sounded much happier, and his voice was deeper. 

“Hi.” Was this how all humans greeted each other? With constant “hello’s” back and forth? If that was the case you might as well hang up. You were about to do so when the man began talking again. 

“I forgot my phone on the beach earlier, I honestly didn’t think it would’ve been found before high tide.”

“It wasn’t,” you thought, “it was washed onto the ocean floor.” But you couldn’t tell him that. “Oh.” You said instead. 

“Can I meet you somewhere to get it back?” He asked, though you suspected it wasn’t truly meant as a question. He fully expected to get his phone back at this point, you were sure.

“No.” You replied simply.

There was a pause, and the man who had originally picked up the phone laughed in the background. “No?” The second man repeated. 

“No.” You confirmed. 

“Why not?” 

It was a fair question, you supposed. But not one you could answer truthfully. “I found it. It’s mine.” There was no way you could meet him to give his phone back–even if he was willing to wait at the waters edge.

“Wait a second–” He started, but you hung up before he could finish his sentence. 

You stared at the screen for a moment before it began ringing once more. 

“Okay, very funny.” He said when you answered, sounding far from amused. “But you wouldn’t have answered my phone if you weren’t going to return it.”

You laughed slightly at that. “Oh really?”

“Yeah. Really.” You then heard muffled voices arguing, but you couldn’t make out over what. 

“Namjoon’ll give you fifty bucks if you return it.” It was the voice that originally answered the phone, who you guessed judging by the caller ID was Jungkook. 

“Like hell I will–” Namjoon cut himself short. “Look. I’ve got personal, important stuff on that phone…”

“Stuff you should’ve backed up like a normal person.” Jungkook broke in.

“Stuff that’s irreplaceable. I’m begging you–I’ll even pay you the fifty dollars like Jungkook said! Just give me my phone back?” When you said nothing fora moment, he said a quiet; “Please?”

You felt bad, you really did. But there was nothing to do. “I’m sorry.” You muttered, looking down at your tail. You moved the phone away from your ear so you didn’t hear whatever he said next, but you didn’t miss the desperation in his voice before you hung up a final time. 

Over the next two days, you learned a lot about the man whose phone you’d stolen–except you didn’t consider it stealing because it would have been lost to him whether you picked it up or not. 

The first thing you learned was what he looked like. He didn’t have a lock on his phone, which amused you considering how vehement he was about how important it’s contents was. He took a lot of selfies, which was how you figured out who he was. He was making weird faces in most of them, and you suspected that no one besides himself was supposed to browse through them. Too bad for him, you were having rather a lot of fun scrolling through his pictures. He also took a lot of photos of food, which usually made you hungry. 

Then you discovered Twitter, where he had quite a following. You giggled when you read his bio, which was so lame you physically cringed. 

“DJ, songwriter, philosophy lover… Just your average guy with big dreams.”

His most recent tweet made your smile fade, however.

You didn’t steal it, he left it in the sand! You didn’t appreciate the allegation, and after a moment’s thought, you clicked the compose button.

Almost immediately, the phone lit up with notifications. 

Moments after Jungkook’s reply, Namjoon began tweeting again. First, he insisted that it wasn’t him that’d tweeted the last post. Then he went on to tell Jungkook that it wasn’t funny.

You, however, thought it was hilarious. 

You shook your head at the phone, a smile tugging at your lips.

You waited with bated breath until he replied, half expecting to get kicked off his account as he did the logical thing and changed his password. 

You sat back on the rock you were perched on that was far enough away from shore that you were safe. He really was serious about getting his phone back; too bad that wasn’t even remotely an option. 

The phone started ringing yet again, and you saw the now familiar name of Jungkook. 

“I’m not giving it back.” You said rather than greet the person on the line. 

“I’ll let you keep the phone.” Namjoon replied quickly. “You can have it. Just let me take my files off of it first.”

You snorted. Even if you were keeping it for that reason, there was no reason to believe that he would actually let you keep it after retrieving his files. More likely, he’d show up with the police, ready to press charges. 

“That’s a big no.” You sighed. “I’m sorry about your phone--I know you don’t believe that, but it’s true. If I could give it back...” Your voice trailed off. You would return it, you were sure. “What is it you need off of this thing, anyway?” 

“Everything!” He made a noise of frustration. “That phone--what’s on that phone--is my life.”

“I’ve got it, Namjoon.” Jungkook’s voice interrupted. 

“I suppose you’ll have to live without your life, then.” You said, hanging up yet again. 

You returned to your favorite place on the beach that night, basking in the full moon’s light. You’d figured out what it was Namjoon was so intent on retrieving--he’d saved all of his music onto the phone, an entire albums worth, as well as note after note full of lyrics. Some of them were better than others, but you’d be lying if you said he didn’t have talent. 

But surely if he could write such things once, he could write them again. 

You were just debating whether you should fix his twitter bio to something better when a voice startled you out of your thoughts. 

“I found you!” 

You turned to see a man ankle deep in the water about two feet behind you. You didn’t dare move. From his angle, it was unlikely that he would be able to see your tail, but if he took one step to the right...

After a moment, you saw that it was the man whose phone you held in your hand, Namjoon. He was taller than you’d pictured, and his hair more mussed, but there was no doubting who it was. 

“...How...” You started, and he gave you a sideways smile.

“I had a friend track my phone--though it wasn’t super accurate, it showed you way out in the ocean. I’ve been wondering around on this beach for the last four hours hoping to run into you.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” You said instinctively. 

“Yeah, you do. That,” He pointed over your shoulder at the phone that was still lit up on your hand. “Is my twitter page.”

You could feel panic starting to bubble up, and you did your best to push it back down. Everything would be fine. 

“H-here.” You held the phone out to him, and he took it with a grateful smile. 

“Thank you. Really. And I meant what I said about you keeping the phone--I’ll bring it back here tomorrow night once I get my files off of it, if that works for you.”

You shook your head. “No. I mean, I don’t want it.”

Namjoon tilted his head to the side in thought. “If you don’t want it, why wouldn’t you give it back?” 

“Changed my mind. Now go away.” Namjoon had taken an unconscious step forward, but to your relief the bright moon was temporarily blocked by a cloud. 

“Don’t be embarrassed...” He started, and you shook your head again. “If it wasn’t for you, my phone would be gone forever--and all of its files. So I should at least give you the fifty dollars, right?” 

“Don’t worry about it, really.” You turned a little more to face him at the same time that the moon came out from behind the could. 

You watched as though in slow motion as Namjoon’s jaw dropped, taking in your tail. “Oh... My god.” 

“Don’t freak out--” You started, feeling as though you were frozen to the rock on which you sat. Without a word, Namjoon raised his phone as though in a trance. It wasn’t until the flash went off that you realized what he was doing. 

For a second, the two of you just blinked at each other in astonishment, neither quite sure of what had just happened. Then you lunged at him. 

You managed to knock him over into the shallow water as he let out a cry of fear. “Give. Me. The phone.” You growled, trying to wrestle it from his hand. 

Namjoon just screamed, doing his best to scramble away from you. He had an advantage being able to crawl in the sand, as you had to half drag yourself towards him. 

As a last-ditch effort, you grabbed a hold of his ankle when he stood. He screamed again as he yanked his foot free, leaving you with his boot in your hands.

“Delete that picture!!” You screamed after him. “Or I swear to god--”

But if was too late. He was running at full speed away from you, and you had no hope of chasing him.

A/N Lol I tried something new with this... I’ve seen people do fake texts, so I thought I’d try fake tweets! I think “I need to stop starting new things” is turning into my own personal motto. I’ve been toying with this idea since I got the request, which was like.... a really long time ago... I’m working on The Tenth Floor update, as well as an update for Royals! I’m hoping to update both before the end of Thanksgiving break. Also. I wrote this in like 20 minutes and did not proof read so if there are mistakes I’m sorry but not surprised. Let me know what you think! Do you like it? Would you like to read more? As always thank you so much for reading <3 <3 <3

[greypistacchio]

The AMAZING @rainbowd00dles is going to provide us with some of their incredible AFTG art, and I couldn't be happier! Hopefully no reposting will happen. It's their art, after all, and they literally own it. They made it, and they deserve the credit as much as Michelangelo deserves the credit for the Sixtine Chapel. So please, to whoever comes across this reblog: DO NOT REPOST. Let's make the internet a safe space for artists to publish their content, free from the fear that it will be stolen from them and used without giving them credit. (Or, even worse, saying that you created said content when you didn't)

Many times, people don't give the artist credit because they don't know how important that is. You come across an image you like, and you say, okay, this will make a fine addition to my feed! Kudos to whoever drew it, dunno who it was tho and I'm not gonna bother trying to find out. Okay. You didn't know that that's wrong, but your not knowing doesn't change the fact that it's wrong. So when someone asks to be given credit for their art, don't turn a blind eye.

Some other times, people deliberately steal content and repost it without giving credit to its rightful creator. It may be because they want all the likes and follows the artwork will get, it may be because they don't care about why that's wrong.

Sometimes, even, reposters will say something along the lines "Hey, but they posted it on the internet for everyone to see! When you upload something and make it publicly available to others, you're basically giving it away. If you don't want reposts, then don't post at all lol". It's basically the same crooked reasoning that assumes that a girl wearing a dress, or shorts, or a crop top, is "asking for it". "If she didn't want men to look at her, she wouldn't have dressed that way!" See the point?

When someone decides to show something to the world, it doesn't mean they are giving it away. They are SHOWING something THEY made, felt, created, etc. They are SHARING it. But they are still the creators of that content, and they deserve to be recognised as such. Imagine putting your whole heart and soul in your content, only to see how others go around showing it off without mentioning the fact that you created it. Or, even worse, outright lying by claiming that it was them.

Don't do that to artists. It's basically like being the leech classmate who, when there's a group assignment, does nothing and gets away with the group mark. Only, in this case you're stealing the mark from the other person, leaving them stuck without any mark at all. Don't be the leech classmate, guys. ALWAYS ACKNOWLEDGE THE EFFORT THAT CONTENT CREATORS MAKE BY GIVING THEM CREDIT.

and that's it, that's the tweet, please reblog the hell outta @rainbowd00dles art because they're one of the BEST artists here on Tumblr and they deserve to pull an epic comeback to the AFTG fandom

WIP

i’m making a return to aftg art with a mini comic based on a text post 

all you reposters better not ruin this for me 😖😖

[surveysonfleek]

160.

if you could have sex with any celebrity right now, who would it be? i probably wouldn’t, but if i had to choose, definitely avan jogia. if you had to have sex with one of your best friends who would it be? my boyfriend. ever fallen in love with a friend? technically, yes. did you end up getting together or not? yes, we did.

if yes, how did you end up together? if no, why not? i guess after we became friends we were always in a ‘flirtationship’, then we just ended up developing actual feelings for one another.

have you ever been the other woman? nope. never plan to. we all have that one song that gets us pumped, what’s yours? it changes. have you ever been to prom? did you have a good time? yes, and yeah i had a good time. don’t you just hate it when someone is a boring texter? yeah but i just won’t bother making conversation with them via text. ever let someone use you knowing they were using you? yeah. how many people have you slept with (sexually not actually sleeping)? one. how many of them were you actually in love with? one. ever taken someone’s virginity? yes. would you ever want to be with a virgin? if no, why not? it wouldn’t matter to me. favorite song lyrics? I don’t really have any. do you constantly find yourself internet stalking your ex? no. if yes, how many times a day on average do you find yourself doing this? - so like, what’s your zodiac sign? sagittarius. what’s your favorite item of clothing you have & why? probably this grey sweater i have from h&m. it’s so comfortable. do you have anything to hide? nah. are you friends with any of your exes? no. given the chance would you take any of your exes back? no. do you have an addiction? to what? probably smoking. yes, it’s bad, i know. do you like being taken or single more & why? taken. it’s been forever, so i guess i’m just used to it. being loud & obnoxious is fun huh? no. do you feel like you’re sorta split personality? half & half? nope. do you act like your own gender or more like the opposite sex? from society’s standards, more like my own gender. do you have more friends of the same sex or opposite? pretty equal. blunts, bowls or bongs? blunts. favorite sexual position? missionary. 3 traits your dream partner would have? smart, funny and kind. do you really care what people think of you? sometimes. when you have a fight with your partner what do you do? get angry, cry out of frustration. holiday closest to your birthday? christmas. who does the grocery shopping in your house? mum. are your parents still together? if no, do you wish they were? no. idk how different my life would be if they were still together. i feel like we’d all be happier though. have any siblings you know of but don’t actually know personally? no. greatest fear? losing someone i love. something most people fear that you do not fear at all? clowns. don’t you hate getting nice & comfy & then having to pee? yep. what do you think of porn & the people who watch it? i’m indifferent. do you, boo. when your friends mention you in fb statuses & tweets do you get happy? not full ‘happy’ but yeah. how much does it really take to get you mad? not that much. would you date someone that your parents & friends didn’t approve of? yes. i’d give them a chance. i’d also ask my parents and friends exactly what they didn’t like about that person and see if they have a point. do you have any regrets? not really, but if i had a chance there’s some things i would change. are you always the one to apologize even if it’s not your fault? no. ever lost friends because of a certain guy or girl? kinda. i just lost friends naturally. no dramas. ever used a legit sex toy before? no. ever questioned your sexuality? no. ever thought you were pregnant? yes. ever faked being pregnant? no. favorite song at the moment? i don’t have one. ever had a major surgery performed on you? no. do you actually like school lunches? yeah, as in the break time. my lunches were half half. sometimes good,, sometimes shit. do you think you’re a boring person? yeah i’m pretty boring lol. do you think you’re more or less a good person? i’d like to think so. which of the 7 deadly sins are you guilty of? sloth and gluttony. ever made a survey & then taken it yourself? no. do you believe that there’s actually good in EVERYONE? yes. what’s one thing that bothers you that probably wouldn’t bother most people? idk actually. just basic good manners i suppose. do you believe in forever? idk. how many relationships have you been in? one. do you ever want to get married? why or why not? someday! do you believe in divorce? only if the marriage is completely unfixable.  is there a song you can’t listen to without thinking of someone? yep. do you think a lot of the surveys on here are too alike? yessss. a lot of them are the same shit. how are you feeling right now? tired. do you like being called babe, baby, hunnie, etc? it’s okay haha. have you ever thought etc was actually ect? no. do you have any sort of ongoing health problem? i guess. ever lost someone close to you? yes. ever been hit by a motor vehicle? no. can you play a musical instrument? very basic stuff. do you wish you did? i wish i was pro. are you able to speak fluently in more than one language? kinda. ever self harmed in any way? no. do you prefer longer or shorter surveys? shorter. but if the questions are interesting, longer. what is one word you just cannot pronounce? i can’t think of one right now lol. if you could look like any celebrity who would you look like? rihanna. ever wish you were of the opposite sex? no. don’t you just love fun people? yes. is there that one person who you just CAN NOT seem to get over? i guess. so what’s your dream job? hotel/restaurant reviewer. someone you can’t see yourself being able to live without? family and my boyfriend. best & most favorite video game (pc or console) ever? tekken!!!!! and the sims series. oh and watch dogs 1/2 was amazing too. would you ever tattoo someone’s name on you? no. when people sing happy birthday to you do you feel awkward or happy? awkward. favorite thing about being in a relationship? having company. favorite thing about being single? having freedom and not having to spend money on anyone but yourself. ever been hurt by someone you thought would never hurt you? yep. don’t you hate it when people in relationships act single? yes. so is your hair dyed? i haven’t died it in two years but some of the colour is still there. sex is really good isn’t it? yep. ever had a friends with benefits? no. do you like trains :)? noooo. do you think you have a pretty good singing voice? no. how about dancing, are you a good dancer? nooo. is intelligence a turn on for you? yes. but not in an ‘in your face’  manner. i like someone who’s smart but doesn’t act like they’re above you. do you like to feel powerful & in charge? i don’t mind. capricorns are the best aren’t they? ugh, i don’t do horoscopes. are you afraid to stand out? i’m not afraid of it but i’d rather not stand out if that makes sense.

[5hfanfiction]

Say You Won't Let Go - Chapter 2

Camila was loving her time in Texas with Ally. Her family has treated Camila like one of their own. They even went as far as getting a couple Christmas gifts for the younger Latina girl, so she wouldn’t be left out when everyone was opening presents. Camila felt loved and safe around them. A safety she hasn’t felt in a while.

It also helps that she’s been talking to Lauren Jauregui from time to time. Lauren has been so nice, and sweet. Incredibly supportive about the channel. On top of all that, she’s hilarious. Every time they speak Camila has a lasting smile.

It was the day before New Years Eve, Camila and Ally were getting ready to go to the movies. Camila’s mind kept wandering to Lauren. When Lauren first wrote to her on twitter she freaked out. She couldn’t help but to tell Lauren over and over how amazing she was. Her phone started buzzing, and her smile grew.

Lauren: When do I get to see that beautiful face? 😏

KC: lol what makes u think im beautiful?

Lauren: well we’ve been DMing for about 2 weeks, & I conclude that even if ur not physically what the world would deem as beautiful, ur personality shines brighter than anything. Ur so funny, and crazy nice. Ur passion for music is undeniable. Thats beautiful. Thats u.

KC: Ur very charming Lauren. im not sure if that’s a good thing 🤔

Lauren: Its good, trust me. Not everyone gets this side of me. Lol

Lauren: Don’t u think u gotta show ur face eventually?

KC: Maybe, idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

Lauren: What are u going to do?

KC: What do u mean?

Lauren: Like with ur voice? Do u want to be bigger than “youtube star?”

KC: I haven’t thought about it. I never thought I’d be good enough for being anything else really. I never even thought I’d have more than 100 followers if im being honest.

Lauren: lol u really thought that? ur crazy gifted.

KC: I cant with ur compliments.

Lauren: telling the truth darling. ur voice is amazing, I’m sure u r beautiful. Ur chill af, with occasional fan girling, ur modest, ur a dork, ur sweet. Ur what this industry needs. Ur what girls will look up to, & boys would want to bring home to meet mom. The whole package.

KC: ahhh ur killing me. Seriously ur words are unbelievable. All this coming from YOU.

KC: Ur so beautiful.

KC: Not ur looks

KC: I mean, yes ur beautiful like that

KC: Why am I so awkward…

Lauren: lol Relax chicken, breathe.

KC: I mean, ur mind. ur words are kind, and inspiring.

Lauren: lol I’m just being honest dork

KC: atleast I’m a cute talented dork 😄

Lauren: Eh, ur ok

KC: lmao sure jan. do the words “unreasonably obsessed” sound familiar?

Lauren: doesn’t ring a bell

KC: Oh really? K. I guess I’ll be leaving! It was nice talking to u.

Lauren: Wait wait, no no. Don’t go. I’m joking

KC: New phone 📱 who dis?

Lauren: Lmao ur an idiot.

KC: 👋🏻

Lauren: Fine if that’s what u want KC. It was nice talking u. Just wanted to let u know I actually think ur talented. I hope u get everything u want in this world.

KC: Seriously, all jokes aside. Thank u, so much Lauren. It means alot. I’m happy I fan girl less when you hmu. Sometimes I’m like “DID LAUREN JUST SLIDE IN MY DMS?” Cus like You’re YOU, & I’m just me. And You telling me I have a nice voice, it’s like AHHHHH

Lauren: You’re not JUST you…you’re amazing.

KC: Uhhh 🙈 Thank you Laur, but I gotta go, going to the movies.

Lauren: Ok KC, hmu later? I enjoy talking to you. :D have a good night.

KC: Potassium

Lauren: what are u talking about?

KC: Potassium. What’s the periodic symbol?

Lauren: K? ….. OH! Wow, u are really a dork. Wow. Bye now. lol 😂

—————————-

It was around 11pm when Ally and Camila left the movie theater. Ally was hungry and Camila never turned down food, so they decided to stop at the Waffle house. They were browsing the menu when Camila got a twitter notification.

@LaurenJauregui: Yooo @KC_LoveOnly where’s that new cover thooo?

She smiled reading the tweet. She had been done with the video days ago, but she was nervous about uploading it knowing that a specific green eyed pop star would watch it. On top of that she decided to cover one of The Holy Trinity’s songs.

@KC_LoveOnly: Girl, when I know that ur a part of my audience, I GOT to make sure its peeeerrrfffecctt!! @LaurenJauregui

“Ally Brooke? Is that you!?!” Camila heard someone behind her say. Ally squealed hopping up from her seat. When Camila turned around her mouth hit the ground. She saw Ally hugging none other than 1/3 of The Holy Trinity, Normani Kordei.

Ally and Normani were best friends before Normani moved to Miami. They talked for a couple months before losing touch.

“What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be taking over the world with your voice?” Ally asked excitedly.

Normani laughed, “Well we finally got a break for the holidays, my family came here.”

“Are you eating here alone?” Ally asked noticing no one was with Normani.

“I was going to get some food and head home” she replied.

“No! Come sit with us!” Normani looked towards Ally’s table, eyeing Camila.

“Is she going to be okay?” she asked Ally, noticing Camila was stunned and still had her mouth open.

“Oh, that’s my best friend. I guess she might be a little star struck.” Ally snapped her fingers in front of Camila, who shook herself out of the shock she was in.

Normani laughed while sitting down next to Ally. Camila thought Normani’s smile could kill her.

“I’m Normani,” she reached her hand out to shake Camila’s.

“Y-yeah, I know. I mean, how can I not? You’re you!” Camila rambled. “I’m Camila Cabello.” She said shaking Normani’s hand.

“You’re cute Camila. Relax though, I’m not going to bite.” Camila ducked her head down shyly. “You’re lucky you’re not meeting my bandmates, they can be a little…rowdy. They might bite.” Normani joked, trying to put Camila at ease.

Normani and Ally caught up for a bit while they ate. Normani made sure to include Camila into the conversation, not wanting her to feel uncomfortable. Camila was surprised to see how down to earth Normani was.

“Hey, you girls should come over my house for a little. We can continue to catch up!” Normani suggested.

“That would be so much fun!” Ally exclaimed.

“Are you sure it’s okay if I come? I don’t want to intrude on your friendship reconnection. I can just go back to Ally’s,” Camila said timidly.

“Seriously? Talking to Ally and you has made me feel so…normal. I could use some normality. So yes, I’m inviting you to my house. We will talk, watch a movie, just hangout. Pleasssse come!” Normani begged Camila.

“Okay, okay!”

——————————–

When the girls got to Normani’s house she gave them a quick tour. Ally got to see Normani’s parents after years. She was happy that they still recognized her, and they were glad she was doing well.

They reached Normani’s room, and Camila launched herself onto the king-sized bed.

“This is sooooo comfy,” she said while rolling around. “Adopt me Normani.”

Ally and Normani laughed. Ally pushed Camila over to the other side of bed, and made herself comfortable. Normani turned on the TV, and started browsing Netflix sitting between the two girls.

“So how did you two meet?” she asked the girls, focusing on finding something to watch.

“College—Friends!” Camila shouted. “Please put on Friends. I love it.”

Normani chuckled at her and put on a random episode.

“As she was saying,” Ally continued, “We met in college.”

“Cool, so we are all the same age?” Normani said unsure.

“No, she’s almost two years younger than us. I didn’t want to live on campus and my past roommates were all crazy. I couldn’t afford living on my own, Camila had an ad looking for a roommate. I thought it was a good idea to get to know a roommate before having to live with them.” Ally explained.

“She fell in love with my dorky charm,” Camila said still focused on the TV.

“It’s true,” Ally joked, “Unfortunately.”

“Unfortunately?!” Camila threw her hands up, “Without my nerdy clumsiness, we would’ve never been roommates! I wouldn’t have the world’s best friend. I’d be stuck with Shawn. I love him, but he’s NOT you! I wouldn’t be sitting here enjoying Friends.” She exclaimed.

“You’d still be watching Friends somewhere. Relax. I love you, I’m glad we met.” Ally reassured her.

“Hmmph,” Camila folded her arms turning back to the TV.

Normani laughed at the two girls. “You go to Miami University and you didn’t come to see me?”

“Girl, you were touring by that time,” Ally responded. “How did all that happen by the way? The Holy freaking Trinity!”

Normani chuckled, “Ahhhh, where do I start?”

“Well, I know how you all met. We heard your recent interview,” Ally said.

“Oh, keeping tabs on me?” Normani joked.

At the sound of the interview Camila’s head shot up. She didn’t want Ally to tell Normani about KC. She thought it might be odd, and look bad. They mentioned her in an interview, then she somehow manages to bump into one of them.

“Sorry but no. Actually, Mila—”

“I just stumbled on it, and showed her.” Camila cut Ally off, giving her a pleading look. Ally nodded in understanding.

“It’s cool, happy to be in the company of a fan,” Normani winked at Camila. “Well, I don’t know what to add to that. After meeting Demi, the next day she introduced us to Simon Cowell. He was concerned that we were too young. Me and Lauren were 16, and Dinah freaking 15.”

“Was he mean like on TV?” Camila asked.

“Opposite, he so sweet. We are signed to his label now, throughout the whole process he was so helpful. I mean we were just teenagers trying to chase our dream.” Normani said. “Before signing a contract there was a lot of back and forward with our parents, because of school.”

“That’s awesome!” Camila said.

“Yeah!” She paused thinking fondly of the memories. “It took a lot to get where we are, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.”

“That’s really cool, I’m so happy for you.” Ally said, hugging her old friend.

“Thank you, Ally.” Normani smiled into the hug.

After the embrace, the girls continued talking. Normani was elated to reconnect with Ally, but she was happier to get to know Camila. She thought the younger girl was adorable and dorky. Camila reminded Normani of Dinah.

The talking died down after about an hour, and the girls watched Friends. It took Ally about 2 episodes before she fell asleep.

“We should probably get going,” Camila said pointing out a sleeping Ally.

“Don’t be silly, stay the night,” Normani said sleepily. “I’ll get you some clothes to sleep in.”

She rubbed her eyes getting off the bed and rummaged through her draws. She pulled out a muscle tank top, and white shorts, handing them to Camila.

“Thank you, Normani. For everything, for letting a stranger stay here—”

“Stop, it’s all okay.” Normani cut her off, as she placed a reassuring hand on Camila’s shoulder. “You’re chill. A little quirky, but cool. It’s nice hanging out with people who aren’t trying to use me.”

“Thank you,” Camila replied giving her a hug.

When she let go of Normani she went to get changed in the bathroom. By the time she got out, Normani was already sleeping.

Camila shut the TV off and got comfortable in bed. She kept plenty of space between herself and Normani, not wanting to wake the older girl up while she used her phone.

She was on tumblr for about an hour, before she put on her headphones and decided to watch her video one more time before uploading it.

In the middle of her video, she got a text from Kellz. They’ve been talking every day since they exchanged numbers. He’s a nice guy. A bit insane, but she loved how care free he lived.

Kellz🎸: I think I just broke my face dude

Milz🎶: What do you mean?

Kellz🎸: I was just drunk fucking around. Running on cars. Fell smashed my face into the ground.

Milz🎶: Oh what different lives we live.

Kellz🎸: Lmao truu. So I’m playing a show in Miami in a couple weeks, u coming right? U get to see how I live first hand.

Milz🎶: For sure, just don’t let me break my face.

Kellz🎸: No promises Milz.

Milz🎶: Oh godddd

Kellz🎸: Turns out, my face isn’t the only thing I broke. Broke my arm to lol

Milz🎶: I’m rethinking this friendship, I think I’m going to get hurt just by being friends with you

Milz🎶: I’m rethinking this friendship, I think I’m going to get hurt just by being friends with you.

Kellz🎸: Nahhhh, u can’t leave me. We haven’t recorded a song yet!

Milz🎶: I thought we were merely writing a song? Now we are recording one?

Kellz🎸: Hell yeah! I can’t wait to chill with u! Explore that creative cool brain of urs.

Milz🎶: I’m not so sure about cool? Lol

Kellz🎸: Bro, just by the things you say when we text, I can tell ur crazy creative. That’s cool as fuck.

Camila felt the bed vibrating followed by an obnoxiously loud ring. After a couple of rings, she felt Normani shuffle around the bed.

“Girl don’t give me a reason to hate you, pick up that damn phone,” Normani grumbled.

Camila held back a laugh, “It’s not mine, grumpy.”

Normani huffed feeling around the bed for her phone. When she found it, she answered annoyed “You better be dying, there is no other reason to be calling at this ungodly hour!” Her toned soften after a moment. “Of course, babe. Do you want to talk about it?” she asked, pausing allowing the other person to talk. “Okay, you know where the spare key is. I love you.” She hung up, and looked at Camila.

“I’m sorry for being grouchy, I don’t like to be woken up. But why are you still awake? Is everything okay?” She said, concerned laced in her voice.

Camila pinched her cheeks, “Care about me already?!” she joked. “I just couldn’t sleep.” Camila yawned, “But I guess I’m getting tired now. Everything okay with your phone call?”

Normani nodded, “Yeah, my best friend is coming in a couple hours. I’m going to head back to sleep until she gets here.” She snuggled up to Ally. “Get some sleep Mila, goodnight.”

“Night Normani.”

Camila posted her video before turning off her phone. She got comfortable and headed to sleep. She was excited to meet one of Normani’s friends, hopefully they were just as chill.

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Lauren was loving every minute of being home. She didn’t realize how much she missed her family. She missed her mother’s forehead kisses, and her father’s bear hugs. She missed hanging out with her siblings, Taylor and Chris. She was happy to see everyone’s faces when they opened Christmas presents from her.

She was more than happy to be talking to KC every so often. She thought the girl was talented, and after talking she liked her dorky personality. She hoped to see her face, but KC won’t let up.

It’s the day before New Year’s Eve, and she was schedule to make a club appearance. She was rummaging through her closet looking for something to wear for tonight when her sister came in and jumped on her bed. “So, what are your plans for tonight?”

“I’m kind of hosting this party at some club. Luckily, it’s not a singing job, just a partying one.” Lauren said, doing a little dance.

“Just don’t party too hard, you know dad doesn’t like your ‘Bad Girl” image. It certainly doesn’t help when you’re actually out there partying.“

Lauren and her dad have had their fair share of arguments about her bad girl tendencies. She’s never been one for rules, even when she was younger. When she went to California for the spring break where she met Dinah, her dad said no but she left anyways. She was grounded until that summer. "Dad will get over it like he always does.” She told Taylor.

Lauren pulled out her phone to listen to KC while she got ready to go. She was bummed when she noticed that KC hasn’t posted a new video since The Holy Trinity interview. Lauren hoped that didn’t scare her away.

@LaurenJauregui: Yooo @KC_LoveOnly where’s that new cover thooo?

Lauren smiled at her phone before locking it and tossing it on her bed. She continued looking through her clothes before picking out a cute black velvet dress.

After she showered, did her makeup, and got into her dress she took a picture for twitter. She was about to post when she got a tweet from K.C

@KC_LoveOnly: Girl, when I know that ur a part of my audience, I GOT to make sure its peeeerrrfffecctt!! @LaurenJauregui

Lauren laughed, and continued to posted her picture.

@LaurenJauregui: We outttttt tonight! 🎉

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It was about 3:30 in the morning and Lauren was stumbling home. While at the club she ran into her old friend Vero. They danced all night and drank way too much.

They made a trip to the bathroom where Vero gave Lauren some coke. It wasn’t her first time doing it, within minutes she was dangerously high.

“Shhhit” Lauren cursed, trying to unlock her front door. She didn’t understand why she had so many keys, but most of all she couldn’t figure out which one opened her door.

“Ahhhhhh, that’s the one!” she said, tip toeing into her living room.

She whispered, “Honey! I’m home,” as she stumbled into an end table knocking over a lamp.

“Shhhhhh! You’re going to wake up papa, you stupid lamp!” she whispered shouted at it, while giggling. She heard someone clear their throat. When she turned around she was met with her fathers disappointed look. “Too late,” she laughed.

“Lauren, if you’re going to come home drunk at 3 in the morning can you at least keep it down. What kind of influence do you think this behavior is on your sister?”

Lauren immediately got angry. She thought she was a great influence on Taylor. She followed her dreams, and became an accomplished artist. Everything she does is for her family.

“I’m a suspectful..susss..successful influence on her.” She stated drunkenly, while her dad looked at her unimpressed, adding to her anger. She tossed her purse onto the sofa, and ran her fingers through her hair.

“Dad whatdoya w-want from me? I’m in what is probably the biggest girl group of this time!” she grinned widely, pleased with her career. “Everyone should be proud and inspired by me” she slurred.

“How can I be proud when I have to sit back and see pictures of my little girl stumbling out of clubs? I just want you to be careful. I don’t want you to do anything stupid Lauren.” Her dad sighed.

“I just go out to blow off steam—”

He cut her off, “What steam? You’re in the biggest girl group!” he mocked.

“Whatever dad. Just let me sssleep this off. Pleasee, yell at me later. You give me a headache” she groaned, rubbing her temples.

He sighed in defeat. “Fine, but here…don’t forget your things.” He picked up her bag to hand it to her. “Listen Mija, I love you and please know I’m proud of –” He stopped when he noticed some things spilling out of the purse. Lauren eyes grew wide when I saw the little baggy of white powder drop in front of his feet.

“Lauren, are you fucking kidding me? You’re stupid enough to bring drugs into my house? Around your siblings?” She looked down, not baring to see the disappointment in his eyes. “You know what! Get the hell out!”

She looked at him shocked, “What do you mean? Where am I supposed to go? It’s practically New Years Eve!”

“I don’t care where you go, but you’re not fucking staying here. I’m not dealing with your bullshit.” He spat. He reached down and grabbed the baggy before walking to the kitchen. “Go with the person who gave you this for all I fucking care.”

Lauren turned around not really knowing what do, she punched the wall until her hand was swollen. She took out her phone about to call the only person she can think of when her brother came downstairs.

“What’s going on Lauren?” Chris asked sleepily rubbing his eyes. She didn’t say anything but bury her face into his chest, as he wrapped his arms around her.

He never seen her this upset before, he didn’t know what to do but he knew not to press the issue.

“Can you take me to the airport?” she mumbled into him. He nodded, releasing her and headed up the stairs to grab his keys. Lauren brought the phone to her ear praying that it doesn’t go to voicemail.

“You better be dying, there is no other reason to be calling at this ungodly hour.”

“Is that offer to go to Texas still available?” Lauren sniffled.

“Of course, babe. Do you want to talk about it?” Normani asked.

“Not really.”

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Lauren was sitting at the airport, she luckily didn’t have to deal with paparazzi being that it was late. She did have to wait for her plane to be ready, due to the late notice. She sobered up as best to her abilities, which meant puking her guts out in the airport bathroom, and drinking water.

She scrolled through tumblr trying to push the thoughts of her argument with her dad out of her mind. She quickly forgot about everything when she got a notification that KC uploaded a new video. She clicked to watch the video:

“Hey pumkins! As promised I’m here to answer a few questions. I took the liberty to write down them down, as well as the answer. Hope you like!” KC said.

She had written down the questions on notecards with the answers on the back, and held them to the camera.

1. What do you look like?

She turned the card over and showed a horrible drawing of a girl stick figure. The answer read, “I look like a person. I have hair, eyes, a mouth, nose. The whole shebang.”

2. Where are you from?

“I grew up in Florida. I’m just around here and there ;)”

3. What inspires you?

“People. Love. Art itself.”

4. Who are some of your favorite musicians?

“I think Ed Sheeran is fantastic. And Taylor Swift influences me to write.”

5. What do you do?

“Well, this. I post videos, but I guess if you’re asking besides this…I go to college.”

“Okay,” she spoke, “I think that’s enough questions. I must keep some mystery to me. It’s a part of my charm, don’t you think?” She joked. “As many of you know a very talented girl group said they liked my channel. One girl specifically, so this next cover is for her.”

She started strumming.

I don’t admit it, I play it cool

But every minute, that I’m with you

I feel the fever, and I won’t lie

I break a sweat.

My body’s telling,

All the secrets I ain’t told you yet.

I struggle to contain,

The love that’s in my veins,

And how it circulates.

If you could take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

If you could feel my heart beat now,

It would hit you like a sledgehammer.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

You just don’t let up, don’t let up.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

But you lift me up, lift me up.

If you take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

So close together, so far apart.

You’re turning me on,

And my fires waiting for your spark.

I struggle to contain,

The love that’s in my veins,

And how it circulates.

If you could take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

If you could feel my heart beat now,

It would hit you like a sledgehammer.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

You just don’t let up, don’t let up.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

But you lift me up, lift me up.

If you take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

The truth is out, no stopping now.

I’m getting closer.

I’ve had enough, undress my love.

I’m coming over.

If you could take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

Ooooh

If you take my pulse right now,

It would feel like a sledgehammer.

Hammer, Hammerrrr

If you take my puuuulse

If you could take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

If you could feel my heart beat now,

It would hit you like a sledgehammer.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

You just don’t let up, don’t let up.

You’re taken over the beat of my body.

But you lift me up, lift me up.

If you take my pulse right now,

It would feel just like a sledgehammer.

She finished strumming, “Well I hope you enjoyed it. Remember, love only.”

Lauren heard a voice clear their throat behind her, “Excuse me, Miss Jauregui the plane is ready.”

“Thank you,” she replied getting up from her seat. She went outside towards the plane, and tweeting something before getting on.

@LaurenJauregui: Listen to @KC_LoveOnly ’s new cover. I’m in love! 😍  I think you’ll like the song choice. She’s amazing, follow her!!

[a-plague-on-both-your-houses]

I'm just gonna rant for a bit

But, for once, it's a good rant. I wanted to write this down somewhere and since I only know like 2 ppl on Tumblr, I thought I'd write it here. It might get a bit long, sorry lol (pls don't waste your time reading this honestly). [rant starts now] I've been REALLY happy lately. Like really really happy. So, I'm going to write about all of the things that make me happy right now. Actually, I'm going to write about all of the things that make up the moments when I'm happiest bc it'll make me even happier for some reason. When I'm happiest, I'm found in my room with the door closed while everyone's asleep/out of the house. It's completely quiet. I'm sitting in front of my beautiful computer (that isn't actually mine rip) and watching some sort of kdrama or anime (basically some sort of cringy shit). I also enjoy watching the daily videos that my favorite youtubers make, they're such great people and they mean the world to me. Meanwhile, I'm eating noodles or cookies with pink lemonade and ice with the perfect texture for munching on. My phone is right next to me and on my phone are the many messages I've received from my loving friends that I've made online. They tell me about their day and their favorite things and we rant about the things we like and we tag each other in funny things and it's so beautiful. I also have messages from my irl friends, who are equally as beautiful (that's a complete lie but some ppl are exceptions (if you know me irl and you're reading this, you're probably one of those exceptions). My 3 friends that I see everyday make me very happy though, and I'd probably go insane if I didn't have them. We don't really hang out though, but I'm really okay with that. Seeing that they're doing well for the most part and knowing that I make some sort of impact on their lives everyday is enough for me. I receive notifications that my favorite kpop groups have tweeted a picture or a funny post, which makes me happy for some reason. I'm glad that they're happy and I enjoy feeding off of their success rip. My skin is clear from a face mask that I just removed (which I've learned to be an amazing feeling). I also feel healthy and happy after learning a new dance, which is hard but fun. My dog has recently learned that he can get me out of my room by scratching on my door, which I find very cute (even though the only times he actually does it is when he wants to go outside or he's trying to find my mom). Another thing that makes me happy is when my friends are livestreaming. It makes me feel like I'm their with them and we have amazing conversations. I especially like the livestreams of my artsy friends, i enjoy drawing at the same time as them and have them give me drawing tips and feedback. The kdrama that I'm currently watching makes me insanely happy. It's very cute and I hope it never ends, I think it's one of the best shows I've ever seen in my life. I'm also happy that I'm not in a relationship and no one is really depending on me. I used to feel so uncomfortable with the fact that I don't have a boyfriend or that I never hang out with my friends. I don't worry about either of those things bc I finally learned how to feel comfortable and happy with being completely alone. I think this is the biggest reason why I'm so happy. I'm trying to make myself more confident so I can try and be alone in public as well. I've never really made a New Years resolution before, but I think being more confident in public is a good one to make. The last thing that makes me happy is not having a stressful time at school. School has always been very stressful to me and to have that weight lifted this year is an incredibly feeling. Ive never ever been this happy before and I hope this feeling never ends. I know my life is going to get turned upside down when I move out and go off to college soon, but I hope that I stay just as happy as I am right now. I think I will though, now that I've gotten to know myself enough to know exactly how to make myself happy. I never really thought that I would get to this point and the funny thing was that I wasn't even trying to. I've been trying to for so long, and then it suddenly started happening on it's own. I can confidently say that I'm excited for what's yet to come

[mstrangebird]

hi, again! it’s been a long time.

just because i don’t post much here doesn’t mean i’m okay. i was just not in a mood to tell the world how mess up my life is. (it is, still)

actually, my desire to write is kinda gone. i suspect it is bcs of some words that i heard few months ago. i don’t even know why this would impact me this way. i used to not care about what people say or think of me, but for that one, i do care.

i lied to myself that i would keep going; that i would keep writing. but then, it turned out like this. this. this stupid behavior.

i had thru much these months. unfortunately, i didn’t tell my journal; i didn’t write them down. such a stupid move, but i did. 

i just wanna have a chatty post with the latest update of myself. it’s not important to you, but then again, i would still stuck to the idea of: i write to express, not to impress. (this is what i believe in and im trying to get back to my track).

as you know, life is always a mess. for everyone in this world, life is always unfair, so is mine.

i was faced with my last choir competition and huge responsibility in it. now, some college thingy called student community service or KKN and this super giant horror called thesis or skripsi. im dead.

not only that, i also have this friend issue. sometimes, it makes me beyond sad because the fact of how scary people change. i mean, i change, but for this guy i didn’t expect that he would go to this way. (my dear you, if you happened to read this, then i wanna tell you that it’s you that stealing you from me and not me that pushing you away and talking behind your back. get back! you’re lost!)

twitter is a thing now, again. i tweet (also whine) a lot, there. tbh, i uninstall tumblr on my phone, so the only escape that i have is twitter (here i link my profile). also, there is a new thing for me: i uninstall instagram and not post a lot every day. i only install when i want to post something. i ever uninstalled my instagram app for a week, and some friends of mine did the same.

here’s what i wanna tell: i wonder why people treat this as a heroic act. it is just uninstalling an app. some people say that they become happier not take care of other people’s life. DUDE! that is wrong. i feel like this kind of people blame the application, the technology when the only problem is themselves. it should be you that control yourself from drowning into virtual world. technology is made to help human, when you can’t use it wisely, then it’s you that become the slave of technology.

....im thinking what i should write.

ah yea, i watch youtube videos a lot now. sometimes, i hang out to some cafe or simply McD and save some videos offline. it makes me happy. i find emma johansson, lindseyrem, rebecca ellie, and other youtuber. i like watching morning or night routine or just whats in my bag video or room tour. lol. it’s not that necessary but it’s fun. let’s just do what makes ourselves happy, huh?

ALSO, I’M SUPER ADDICTED TO SPOTIFY RIGHT NOW! the playlist just uh. maybe, i’ll link it later.

maybe it’s enough. just pray for me that i would keep my promise to keep writing and also pray for my KKN also thesis.

have a nice saturday night!