#okay bedtime

[firstkil]

i honestly think that katniss and peeta didn't count as real victors. not the definition we know of them, anyway. they were set up for success and came out of the arena less scarred than any other, while other people bared those wounds. and then, their own kind were forced to die for them and their cause. just for a chance of freedom and a new world.

no, i don't think all the victors liked them. i don't believe they all got on. i do believe it took a lot of convincing on haymitch's side to trust and understand them in the empathetic way that he does. i do think that their victor experience is stunted because of the sacrifices others made in order to give them a near-smooth victory. they came out with wounds — that's guaranteed, but they didn't suffer in that proper way until the rebellion. there were times were K&P were both ignorant to the ways of a victor, and played off certain character's behavior and chalked it down to anything but their experiences.

president snow gave katniss a chance to quell the districts. they were allowed to play up the starcrossed lovers angle for as long as they needed to until the rebel plan panned out in full. they would've been eaten alive if not for the war.

[kndrules]

Some fave @kndminorcharacters

[grammatically-incoherent]

[not-poignant]

Hello!

Why do you only answer anon questions?

I recently saw an author note suggesting something like that. Is there any reason why?

Hi anon,

I don't only ever answer anon questions. It just looks that way because I answer most non-anon questions privately. I.e. - Where you can't see the responses.

I actually don't get to all of my asks, both anon and off-anon. So I mostly answer asks (anon or non-anon) when:

a) The social anxiety isn't too bad b) I have time (my priorities for writing go in this order: Writing -> Responding to recent chapter comments -> Editing (that should be before comments but whoops) -> Being active on the Fae Tales Discord -> Doing admin (schedule / Patreon posts / Ream posts / round up / scheduling excerpts / posting excerpts / Tumblr chapter updates) -> Asks (not all, mind, just some. I usually try to go in batches of 3, but sometimes I can't, like now, because it's literally midnight) -> Replies to comments on older works.)

Rest of this going under a Read More because the TL;DR is: I work hard, am pretty sick, and I cannot get to all of my asks, and I also reply to plenty of non-anon asks, just not in a place where you can see them, anon.

c) I'm well enough to even get to all of those things in the first place, which I'm often not, especially since we got a special needs dog who has - it seems - as many health issues as I do. (I'm literally going to bed in about five minutes because I need to be up early so he can go under general anaesthetic for X-rays)

With the addition:

d) I kind of want to have hobbies and stuff. And see loved ones. And look after my garden.

As a result of all of that, I am extremely time poor. When I'm not working, anon, I am usually horizontal, and trying to rest re: chronic illnesses.

It's not that I choose to only answer anon asks, I answer plenty of non-anon asks privately, but I cannot get to all of my asks (I currently have, er, 93, I haven't responded to - I'm so sorry everyone, I'll get to that when the guilt of not having any Palmarosa this month isn't as bad asdlkfjas).

Social anxiety also means I feel terribly guilty if I let an ask go longer than about 1-2 months without me answering, which doesn't help much! Sometimes being a single person trying to get to everyone while doing the main thing that people are here for (the writing) while like, going to the hospital, getting MRIs for myself, X-Rays for my dog and so on just means that... I cannot get to everything the same way I used to. Honestly even back then, my therapists were begging me to do less and work less hard sadlfkjsa (I cannot tell you how often I've found it amusing we've focused less on the CSA in my past and more on how much of a workaholic I am).

It might change when I'm not working on like 8 stories at the same time anymore, but then I'm sure I'll have folks on anon in my inbox, telling me I don't write enough anymore. (That's okay, they'll have old stories to reread asldfkja)

I am doing my absolute best, and very often, I am surpassing my limits whee.

But I definitely don't only answer anon questions, you just don't see them as much on my Tumblr, because I like the opportunity to give more personal responses to people rather than the 'oh you forced me to respond to this in front of an invisible crowd, so now I have to reply like I'm responding to many people, instead of just one.' Whether that means I have to be more educational, or explain more, or make it clearer to folks that it's not personal (because now I'm not just thinking of you, anon, but all the other people who have sent me asks that I haven't been able to reply to, and I'm now having to reply to all of them as well, in case they see this), etc. It's just a different vibe. Sometimes I really enjoy that. Sometimes it's incredibly stressful.

Folks using their account name invariably get private responses, unless they send me lots of asks, and then... I just... alas, have to be really careful with my time.

[cheruv-ii]

Told the gc I was gonna sleep but alas I'm going absolutely insane thinking about Ben finally cracking and telling Lucien he's in love with him pre-relationship. Lucien just goes silent cause hes stunned and poor Ben who was already scared enough is just like "Please say something-" while on the brink of tears because Lucien being silent makes him think thats its not reciprocated and he just fucked up bad. Eventually Lucien is like "Really? Like this isn't a joke right-?" (Lucien, please.) Which kinda frustrates Ben so he snaps all like "Why the fuck would I joke about this, Lucien???" (Poor boy is STRESSED) but Lucien gets blushy n shit and is like "Sorry- sorry- I just, didn't think you felt the same way about me as I feel about you-" and Ben is FLABBERGHASTED but after it finally dawns on him that Lucien loves him back he just gets the softest smile OUUU im unwell guys

[fllagellant]

The funniest way to start a text post during Pride is “ if Obscure wasn’ t gay “ but if Obscure wasn’ t gay I still don’ t think he and Camellia would be a thing . Like even if they have chemistry it comes down to the fact that Camellia does see him as a sort of monster, in the same way she is . But it is Different when it comes to him since his is far more Literal . He is literally born of the Manticore . And while she doesn’ t fear him and all , she still enjoys the fact that he scares most people he interacts with . Like she doesn’ t try to help him learn to humanize himself . She thinks that having people scared of him is power . That he doesn’ t need to hide his intent or his actions because people fear him . Fucked up sort of love here . At most he would be like . A glorified pet if they entered a relationship . As friends it works far better + the fact that . He is in a relationship with someone who humanizes him . Sorry if anyone was in the camellia/obscure fandom I think I bombed it . Obscure is so good at becoming close friends with women who see him as monster as a good thing

[navybluetriangles]

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[wheeloferis]

h,,,haley,,,

[esserisupremi-a]

heads up; anytime a bennett woman uses the term “ bless your heart” it is most certainly an insult .

[snailsnfriends]

even though this thing ended last year in november it still feels so weird that it's over. like yeah we're done. two and a half years and that's it. like I'm not going to finish with my classes at 12:05 because they're all virtual and wait for tommy to go live at 3, I'm not going to liveblog lore streams anymore, I'm not going to put streams in my calendar so I can plan around them, it's over. it's been over and now this is truly it. all on a random monday in april. I feel all old now gross. ctommy was the only thing that mattered on that server aaaaaaaaaaaaand post

[the-better-pokeblr-confessions]

History forgot me, but I haven't forgotten it. One day, I will return with a vengeance, and rebuild my tower in Johto.

#60

[nicollekidman]

kind of a humiliating end for those of us who weathered the lashings and kept watching season three fnfndndndnnxndncnx

[pedrospatch]

it’s midnight and I’m letting my brain demons win for tonight but tomorrow is a new day and I WILL post this fic eventually if it’s the last thing I do 💀

[oldtreeinanalley]

LONG WEEKEND TIME !!!

[shiniestcrow]

Spent the whole day reading a god-tier atla fic and now I have a headache from that and from crying lol

[fates-theysband]

I know what the skin of all the various critters the hearthians have traits of feels like. I’ve touched fish and amphibians. I specifically hc that they feel like stingrays bc stingrays are nice to touch. I have never touched an owl.