#ok to rb though

[dilfcherricola]

me: "no i dont think growing up in protestant purity culture had that much of an effect on me" my growing list of 'problematic' kinks: 👁👁

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

I hate having OCD its like fucking whack a mole.

The moment I manage to shut up the guy telling me "Ermmm Actually There's Going To Be A Nuclear War Soon And Everyone Will Die And It's The End Times And You Are A Prophet Of God. Source: Trust Me Bro" several more guys telling me "That Bird Is A Drone Spying On You" or "The Smog Is So Thick You Will Get SUPER Lung Cancer And Die" appear

[butchers-broom]

drakengard doodle

[ecto-hazard]

[viewfinder-chernobyl]

GUESS WHO FOUND RAM'S GOLD PAINT

THIS GUYY [my thumbs are pointing at myself]

also i miss the empress. she served cunt then died.

[velavesper]

whats gotten him so angry

[shoujo--rei]

i love ugly sounding songs i love music that isn't supposed to sound nice but is supposed to express emotions i love music that is raw and emotion filled and gutteral i love music that makes you feel every emotion the artist was feeling i love aesthetically displeasing songs i love—

[cabbagecrunt]

moms will say the nastiest most soul crushing shit ever to you and then 3 seconds later be like oh my gosh im so sorry i didn't mean all of that 😥 love you! 😘 🫶 And then they do it again

[dyketubbo]

its insane how surrounding yourself with positivity and actually trying to quit bad habits works out sometimes. like yeah i still have bad episodes im still delusional i still have a hard time overcoming executive dysfunction and i still lock up and cant find the ability to speak when it all gets too much.

but i dont think about suicide or how much i hate myself all the time when i make sure i dont make those kinds of jokes. i can wake up and even when i dont get out of bed i can tell myself ill make it through the day regardless and be alright with just making it. im getting better at talking out my feelings and communicating. im surrounded by friends and people who care about me and by fucking god i will work on showing them that i care about them too despite how irony poisoned ive been my whole life. and i think its going to be okay. maybe it wont be perfect, or excellent, or even great. but itll be okay. and im okay with that

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[screeching-painter-witch]

feeling a lot like stolas at the beginning of helluva boss s1 e7 ozzie's rn

[glitchdollmemoria]

actually. that post about how its important to have weird kinky queer friends. i think the same is true of really every type of ostracized person but in particular i wanna point it out wrt mentally ill people.

if you watch a movie villainizing DID or schizophrenia or something, and you think, "hey, this seems sort of like its based on what my friend has and theyre just a chill person, why are they making my friends condition seem threatening?" thats good.

if you see someone use narcissist as a synonym for abuser and you think, "what, no, im friends with someone who has NPD and i know theyre a kind person, this isnt true at all," thats good.

if you hear politicians try to frame addicts as violent criminals who should be locked up and you think "no, my buddy sam is just sick, their withdrawals are really painful and they dont have a good support system, they shouldnt be locked up for that," thats good.

being able to counter ableist rhetoric with "i know from experience thats not how these people are" is a good thing. like yeah obviously dont make friends with mentally ill people just for brownie points but also try to make the conscious effort to be open to friendship with people who have stigmatized mental health issues. and maybe even more importantly, be someone who makes it clear to others that youre safe to be open about these things with, because chances are youre ALREADY friends with mentally ill people even if you dont realize it, because a lot of us with more demonized conditions try to hide those conditions out of fear, and it helps a lot to know our friends are allies - and then we might feel safe discussing our experiences, IF we want to, and in turn that can help you better understand the realities and diversities of our situations and be less susceptible to ableist rhetoric.

[ninety-smiles-an-hour]

duvet by bôa and waltzing back by the cranberries are like sisters to me

[letmebegaytodd]

[objectlovernonhuman]

mspaint quick stress relief doodle <- my brain is so abnormal right neow thanks march-april setting off the body having more frequentl flashbacks

btw this is drawn by a fictive so if youre weird about this im allowed to maul you to shreds

[identitty-dickruption]

I'm playing around with the idea that constantly not being able to be productive is a sign of needing rest in the same way that constantly thinking about food is a sign of being hungry. as someone who sucks at interpreting my body's signals (and as someone who has a lot of difficulty around feeling lazy all the time!) it can be really hard to know what "tired enough to take a break" looks like. and I think if my brain keeps wandering towards restful activities instead of "productive" activities, that might be a pretty big signal that I need to take a rest

when I first started following the rule that thinking about food = hunger, I felt like I was eating way too much food all the time, and that I maybe shouldn't be listening to my body, but that's evened out over time. it turns out I was just starving myself for a really long time, and my body needed a lot of food!

and I wonder if the same could be true with rest. it feels like I need an absurd amount of rest at the moment, and it's been really really difficult to convince myself that I actually need the rest, and that I'm not just some kind of lazy slob. but you know what? maybe I NEED that rest! maybe I've been working myself to the bone lately, and maybe it'll take a while before I can be Properly Productive again. and that's something I'll just have to be okay with while I figure out what resting enough looks like for me