01.31.19
So when Axxxxx found out she was pregnant when we were in Fairbanks in Alaska we got a pregnancy app to chart the baby’s progress.
The baby was due two weeks ago.
I knew the date was coming up and it’s depressing to think about on multiple levels. Remind me to talk about it.
—-
Was supposed to hang with Cxxxxxxx tonite but Kxxxx actually wants to see me and was asking me about it so, I’m gonna have to get out of it with her.
Cxxxxxxxx hit me up on Facebook messenger asking if I still wanted to hang. I haven’t responded yet.
—-
Ive been to this Starbucks so many times that the guy Josh, calls me by my name when he sees me in the camera, and knows my drink here.
I don’t know what to think about that.
It speaks something about my habits of course. In a sense I was happy to hear my name and my drink, but it’s like goddam, is this my life?
—
I need to remind myself not to be the old server.
—
Still need to tell Cxxxxxxxx I need to take a rain check
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Jeff Rosenstock show and how inspiring it was
Not having a baby with Axxxxx instead of having one
“Don’t be the old server”
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Jeff Rosenstock - POST-
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.30.19
I can’t remember what I wanted to be when I grew up; it doesn’t matter because I’m not whatever it was.
This storage space elevator smells like sweaty bodies.
-//
Plugging along on the I-4 westbound. Something up the way is really holding up the traffic. Luckily I have my music.
Aaron Tobin called me to let me know his (and our to an extent) boy Todd, died of a massive heart attack. He was Tobins age, 39 maybe 40.
To be fair this guy was huge his whole life and also on drugs. He had he heart attack in jail from what I understand. He turned himself in for a warrant he had going.
Wild shit. Living long enough for people to be dying around us
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Jeff Rosenstock show and how inspiring it was
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Jeff Rosenstock - POST-
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“ It’s like somebody traded out my skin, for something I could never feel good in” -Jeff Rosenstock
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.29.19
Jeff Rosenstock tonite. I finagled three tickets from a friend online, for me and Danielito and Kristy, but unfortunately they can’t make it.
So I’m going solo. Asked a couple girls on the roster but no luck so far. And it’s that time. So I’ll be forging on alone.
Gotta get earplugs.
—-
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“ we’ll diffuse bombs, run marathons, and take on whatever together” - Grandaddy
“Wizards, stop throwing fruit at me!” - Reggie and the full effect
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.28.19
Monday. I’m off. Had plans with Mxxxx in the morning but she’s taken ill.
I tentatively have plans with Kxxxx tonite, which I need to attempt to solidify tonite. Ok, the text has been sent: “hangs tonite?”
Easy enough.
She already asked about Monday on Sunday morning after Saturday night hangs and bangs.
Waiting on her response. Listening to Mary Hopkin. This shit is my new shit, which is old shit like back in 1969. Produced by Paul McCartney is definitely why I like it.
—-
Of course this is all happening at my storage space. This is where I hang currently. Since I’ve been back to Orlando. I hang here with my shit and wrote and do art and catalogue and attempt to trim down and move shit around to maximize the space.
—
So back to the Kxxxx thing, she’s ill too. Everyone is sick for some reason. I’ve always been a carrier, rarely getting ill myself.
—
Had a conversation with Cxxxxxxxx. She was upset about a week ago when she perceived me to be placing blame on her when she couldn’t hang out spur of the moment.
So I waited almost a week and she didn’t text or message me once.
So I wrote her. She’s pretty much embittered by a lot of previous bull shit that other people have heaped on to the pile.
Now I suffer for the sins of the last person.
To be fair she was super in to me when we met and I sort of nipped the ‘let’s hop into a relationship immediately after she gets out of one’ enthusiasm in the bud.
So, she seems to be indifferent to me, and more broadly, people in general. Hard to say.
I don’t really need to put that much emotional energy into it, as I have other more interested coals in the fire.
But she’s grown on me. So there’s that.
I’m not trying to abandon any of the women I get involved with.
Do I want to commit to any of them fully? At present, no.
And naturally I think of Axxxxx. Always her. She blew my hair back. I blew it with her.
—-
There’s a cute Hispanic girl in this Denny’s right now, sitting alone and watching Futurama. I keep glancing over there to watch.
Also the girl who just came in for her shift at 11:00 has just left hurriedly in tears. I have no damn clue what the hell happened.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Blink-182 enema of the state
Weezer - blue album
Mary Hopkin - post card
Deadmau5 - Polar: Music from the Netflix film
Dream tiger - dream tiger
Lorn - ask the dust
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Reggie and the full effect - songs to not get married to
Reggie and the full effect - promotional copy
Big business - command your weather
Piebald - we are the only friends that we have
Watching:
Step Brothers
Reading:
Eating:
Denny’s mozzarella sticks and coffee
Playing:
Purchases:
Paul McCartney Wings 45s
Record sleeves for 33s and 45s
Packages received:
Jeff rosenstock - POST casette
Wings - silly love songs 45 rpm
Mary hopkin- those were the days 45 rpm
Snow White seven dwarves figs
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Welcome to your life; there’s no turning back” - tears for fears
“ I’m like everybody else; as a shamed of sleep I lie when a phone call wakes me” - WHY?
Quote of the day:
“This house is a prison! On planet Bullshit!” - Brennan and Dale, Step Brothers
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.27.19
Cold and wet all day today. Truly a day where it rained all day.
Spent the night at Kxxxx’s house. Who’s Kxxxx you ask? She is from the internet dating app OkCupid. I broke one of my own rules and slept over there. And this was last night, which was also the first night i met her in person and also the first time we had sex.
I say the first time assuming there will be more times. She and I definitely get along. It’s weird because she reminds me of Holly D in several ways.
First off Kxxxx body is kind of shaped like Holly’s. She’s taller than I am. Big tits and ass. Back tattoo from what I could gather
01.26.19
I do everything high these days. I’m here at Orlando you and comic con hittin the pen hard. Already smoked before I left the house.
This con is good because it’s smaller and I can make trips back to the car to bring back stuffs I’ve gotten. So I don’t have to roll around with a backpack.
—-
At chipotle now. Had to drive to get here. Just up the road from the mall. I don’t know if I’ll go back to the con. Technically it goes til 7 but idk.
—-
Spent a lot of fucking money today but I knew that was happening
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Basia Bulat - good advice
Weezer - teal album
The octopus project
Peter Adams - the spiral eyes
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
“This is a womanly car” - me taking about Tina Watkins car that I drive around like an asshole.
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.25.19
I put the coins that I had organized fell yesterday into the sheets, I stuck them and the paper money into a three ring binder I got from Office Depot yesterday.
I don’t want to work today but I must.
Until I innovate my way out of this, I have to work for the man. Remember that you asshole, the next time you cry about it.
—-
Chilled at the space and made some room for stuff. Slowly and surely ditching stuff
—-
got called off from work today in a Friday. I haven’t worked all week because reasons. I asked for a couple days off to to the Neil DeGrasse Tyson thing, and the Orlando toy and comic con thing. I didn’t get get the two days off when Yaqeen did the schedule because he’s a Derp and does everything by hand. So I had two other days off, and then got the two off that I needed by dropping the shifts. So I ain’t done shit all week. I’m gonna continue that trend into tomorrow at the con.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Wings - band on the run
Katamari forever OST
Buffalo daughter - captain vapour athletes
Weezer - teal album
Nada surf - the weight is a gift
Basia Bulat - good advice
The Beatles - magic mystery tour
No joy - wait to pleasure
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
“you’re not wide anymore; you’re skinny fat” - Yaqeen talking about me
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.24.19
Been on the pen/flower pretty solid since October when I got back from Alaska. Hell, even Alaska I was on the wax daily.
I guess I’ve been medicating myself.
Working on a sketch. I missed a couple days but I did one last night also:
Ok and here’s today’s:
I’m trying to find my groove with what I want to do with all these sketches. Basically I’m just sketching shit I see.
Sketching? Drawing? I don’t even know what to say here haha.
And I made another
—-
Going to see Neil DeGrasse Tyson tonite. This will be the third time I’ll have seen him.
I was hoping Axxxxx would be in the mix at this point because she was with me the first two times. Now, if I hadn’t have fucked up recently, she probably would be with me tonite. Goddammit me. So, my one and only boy Tobin is gonna come with me.
It’ll be nice because we haven’t seen each other in a hot minute. Ever since he got that girlfriend of his haha. Now they are in that ‘up each other’s ass’ phase.
Update: it would seem Neil will not be speaking tonite after all. Amidst recent allegations in the last few months, he postponed/canceled his shows: https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.orlandoweekly.com/Blogs/archives/2018/12/13/neil-degrasse-tyson-cancels-orlando-appearance-following-sexual-misconduct-accusations%3fmedia=AMP%2bHTML
So that is sad fucking news, especially since I’m finding out today and not a month and a half ago. I mean I knew about the allegations but didn’t think it would come to this.
Another thing that chapped me is that Aaron Tobin fucking bailed on me before I found this out. Granted I only asked him yesterday but damn he seems to let me down a lot when there’s a specific date and time involved.
—/
I put my paper money and coin collection in these plastic inserts
Now the only thing that blows about these inserts is that the tops don’t seal, so this shit has to be flat or upright at all times. This isn’t too bad for the paper money but clearly there could be an issue for the coins. I later got a three ring binder to stick the inserts in.
Also I took pics of all the packages received today. Mostly records.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Weezer - teal album
Veil of Maya - false idol
Black octopus lipstick project - foam party
The octopus project
CSS - Cansei de Ser Sexy
OCEANLANE - crossroad
The Vienna philharmonic - Beethoven’s 5th symphony
No joy & sonic boom - ep
Teddybears - soft machine
Watching:
Rick and Morty season 3 blu ray
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Weezer black album vinyl pre order (2 colors)
Weezer black album cassette pre order
Packages received:
Lots of records from joyful noise
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.23.19
The first Amanda messaged me today accusing me of stealing her loop station. I never took the thing at all. Haven’t even thought of the thing for years. She said she is gonna to file a report and mention my name to the police.
I don’t know what her deal is.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
WHY? - sandollars ep
Marijuana deathsquads - oh my sexy lord
STNNNG - empire inward
Vaz - necessary, pt. 2
Alias & doseone - less is orchestra
The octopus project
Peter Adams - the spiral eyes
Teddy bears - soft machine
Gnarls Barkley - st. Elsewhere
Veil of Maya - false idol
Mary Hopkin - post card
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
FFXIV
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
“Hey if a serial killer/murderer/etc fits the profile exactly but has never killed, what does that make them ?” Me to Mxxxx
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.22.19
Wish I could eat chips and get fat right now.
I went a million places today. The altamonte mall. Starbucks. These two were part of a date with Mxxxx, who I really enjoyed hanging with. She is married and its all legit. Like they both see other people and shit. So this could be good for me.
Then did the white girl tour to tj maxx and Ross. Also before that early in the afternoon after Mxxxx I went to bright light books.
Went a little overboard on buying shit today. Oops.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Fail better heal faster
The octopus project
American football - LP3 pre release song
Wings - wings over America
Status quo - rocking all over the world
Xavier Cugat jungle drums
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Bright light books:
Art toy picture book
Avocado cookbook (for Mxxxx)
Wings: wings over America vinyl record
Omg thrift
These weird soft vinyl Snow White dwarves figures
Clear makeup bag with
Kay Johnson vinyl record (with writing on the cover, a dedication to two ladies named carol and Donna)
Ross
NASA shirt
Super NES controller shirt
Super Mario shirt
TJ MAXX
Vaporwave lookin Tokyo shirt
Vaporwave lookin eyes shirt
Marilyn Monroe skeleton with hair shirt
Black stretch pants 34 inch waist for the first time whoop!
These fake ass sweat pants
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“When I try to be clear with you, I only end up being see through” -American football
Quote of the day:
“When I put my Makeup on, I take so many selfies” - male barista at the Starbucks by the Altamonte mall
“My dad was awesome. He loved pistachios and Star Wars. Only imparted one of those loves onto me. He is no longer with us, but his memory lives on through red pistachios that also no longer exist.” - Mandyism
“The problem with that idea is that I don’t have a penis. I’m sorry. It wouldn’t be a fair game.” - Mandyism
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.21.19
The girl who works here only a couple days a week, Ebony, just took a tour of the inner workings of my storage space. This was her asking if she could look at my stuffs.
Today’s and yesterday’s sketch:
This of course being Buff Monster and Frank Kozik inspired; and my Bose sound speaker I’ve been doing and my Dunkin’ Donuts coffee. Oh and the motorcycle license plate from Alaska. I had a Tupperware full of em mixed, here’s the reference:
And then this was me and my McNugget kick of course. A packet of mayonnaise and a vinyl record, and the remote to the tv
—/
Spent a good chunk of the day chatting with some potential dates. Mostly with a girl named Mxxxx, who is in a consensual non-monogamous marriage. She has kids also. It’s weird because she seems really into me and we are meeting tomorrow at 12:30pm. I’m excited to see what comes of this.
-//
I’m so excited about finding this Picasso print at goodwill today:
Here it is hung up
And here it was right before I stuck it in the car to take it home.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Mineral - one day when we are young
Wizo - uuaarrgh!
Beck - morning phase
MF DOOM - operation doomsday
Tame impala
Sheena Ringo (as suggested by Ebony who works at public storage)
The octopus project
Tame impala - lonerism
Astronautica - Gemini
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
FFXIV:
Did a nice glam on ALC also
Purchases:
Bougie goodwill off Orlando ave in winter park:
Pocahontas toy
Assorted comic books
Picasso framed print
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Steady like a tricycle”
“Hoes get ripped off like Nicorette”
“Every day feels like an off day, with Ferris bueller”
mf doom
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.20.19
In line at Animal Kingdom helping my boy Orlando get in with his family.
I’m parked in giraffe 41-49
It’s way too early for me to be awake.
And I have to work. Aaaand I’m covering some lunch shift for my other boy Tom who has been feeling ill.
—//
Did the animal kingdom thing.
Did the afternoon lunch work thing.
Got called off for dinner because it was slow apparently.
Came home and let the roommate use her own car that I’ve been renting weekly.
—
Still working on cleaning and bagging those 45s my mother left to me by way of Danielito
—
So, I would say it’s time for me to maybe make a shortlist of women I’m dating/working on dating. I’ve got a few hat I’ve closed already and some still in the works so let’s see here:
(shortlist omitted)
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Lying about my age online
Notable places visited:
Animal Kingdom
Listening to:
The octopus project - hello avalanche
Hey Mercedes - ep
Hey Mercedes - everynight fireworks
No doubt - tragic kingdom
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
McNuggets
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.19.19
The last couple nights in a row, Yaqeen has called me and asked specifically what I have done to further the business, Deep Space Ventures. This is good and bad that the has asked me. Bad because I haven’t done jack shit; good because he is holding me accountable. And it is giving me a little hurt to not do anything. So I will have to forge ahead. He is trying to better himself and make me be better too. Good shit.
—-
I go to Dunkin’ Donuts just about every day to get a coffee. I stare at these fucking donuts and contemplate ordering a dozen and saying fuck all to my diet.
The moment had already passed.
I have to say I feel like I’m doing ok with this ketogenic diet.
—
Just saw a new white Honda Accord. Or was it a civic? Either way it reminded me of the second Amanda. Miss that chick too.
Remind me to tell you about the second Amanda sometime.
Sketch of the day:
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
The second Amanda
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
The octopus project - hello avalanche
The octopus protect - one ten hundred thousand million
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Action figures
Lyric of the day:
“For all we know, these days are all numbered
But things could get better I know
Cause I'll be the first and the last one to go
Lord it's a cruel, cruel world
For all we know
These days are all numbered
And things will get better I hope
Cause I'll be the first and the last one to go
Lord it's a cruel, cruel world without love”
- further seems forever
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.18.19
Sketch of the day: I was doing laundry at a mat on Mills right there by colonial. The 7-Eleven recently closed down after being there for fucking ever. So I sat there in between the wash and the dry.
I don’t know what I’m hoping to accomplish with these sketches other than practicing. I would like to get to a decent level.
Something to do while I’m alive.
It’ll come in handy when I start making the toys also. Good stuff for cardbacks
—
Donated some more shit. Slowly clearing it out. Gonna list some
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Fail better heal faster
ALL - problematic
Rex Orange County - apricot princess
Mineral - the power of failing
Wings - Venus and Mars
Sparklehorse - it’s a wonderful life
J Dilla - welcome 2 Detroit
JJ DOOM - Key to the kuffs
Duendita - direct line to my creator
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
FFXIV
Purchases:
Packages received:
Mineral 25 years and new single
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Slap my face, just to feel” - Jimmy Eat World
“May all your days be gold my child” - Sparklehorse
“Come my beautiful alien, touch me with your light” - Weezer
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.17.19
Sketch of the day locked in; I did Orko from masters of the universe, from the action figure I found yesterday:
And of course the source material
So I’m on my way to sketching I suppose. Leveling up my art abilities?
—
Minus the bear farewell concert:
My brother and I caught MTB on their farewell tour in Tampa back in November I think it was? I’ll have to check the date.
Anyway it was nice to spend time with him at a concert out and about. It was part of my attempt to stop being a dead beat sibling.
He and I have seen them numerous times over the years.
—
I ReDennised Andrea Zimmerman just now. Remind me to go and append the list. Stuck on I-4 traffic on the way home from her place.
My exit was closed for construction so I had to take a big ass detour. I dint even care but I thought it was notable.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
J Dilla - donuts
Jeff Rosenstock - worry
Quasimoto - the further adventures of lord quas
AJJ - bible 2
Wings - at the speed of sound
Ok go - ok
Trent reznor - bird box original score
Ok go - oh no
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Wheat grass juice powder
Boston market
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.16.19
The fucking stench of fake buttered popcorn. The Altamonte Springs mall. This is my current hip spot to hang out alone at.
Escape as a coping mechanism.
I pretend I’m just this guy who goes through life as an observer. Which I’m not really too far from pretending lately.
—-
You only ever see kids with short haircuts. Short little asshole haircuts.
—/
“Found a couple discounted figs,
Sat in the massage chair with no massage,
Renamed all the restaurants in the food court 'sugar',
Decided I want subscriptions to art and toy themed magazines,
And coffee. “ - excerpt of a text from Cxxxxxxxx asking me how the mall was.
—-
Sketch of the day is done:
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Bomb the music industry - adults
Bomb the music industry - get warmer
The arrogant sons of bitches - The arrogant sons of bitches!
Fail better, heal faster
Deftones - gore
The strokes - is this it
Jaylib - champion sound
In my room Apple Music playlist
Favorites playlist Apple Music
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Kale/spinach/radish/parsley/celery/cucumber/lemon juice/stevia drink also been adding carrot and beet lately
Starbucks venti cold brew with heavy cream and an espresso shot
Chicken nuggets from McDonald’s
Cauliflower Mac and cheese I made
Top shoulder loin
Shrimp on top
Playing:
FFXIV
Purchases:
Super 7 Masters of the universe action figures:
Orko
Evil-Lyn
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Mold and nice and stolen bikes
And a van everyone wants to break in to” - slumlord by bomb the music industry!
“Well I heard that you found somebody else
At first I thought it was a lie” - the 1975
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.15.19
Fake funny depression. Meme depression. People taking some dark shit and slapping an out of context caption and making light of it.
It’s not the worst idea.
Yeah everything is shit sometimes but do I want to off myself because I don’t have a pile of money to sleep on?
The answer is hell to the no.
—-
Yaqeen set it up last night so I didn’t have to work today. Corporate is in town and I’m just avoiding it all haha. Next few days off also. So that’ll take care of that.
What I need to do now is attempt to pick up at Yamasan just to have a couple extra bucks.
Just spoke to tobin briefly; he is definitely up his girlfriends ass haha. I’m ok with it. I suppose it’ll do some good for him seeing as it’s been forever since he’s: a)had a girlfriend b) gotten laid on the reg.
Also spoke to Frank; Microchip passed away very recently. His dog of 13 years or so. Back when Daylight District was still in effect.
Remind me to tell you about when I was in bands.
—-
Naomi Singleton ‘broke up’ with me today. We only met the one time. After months of talking. She didn’t like being deceived by my fake age on Okc. Also she claims she broke out in cold sores after seeing me and kissing me. I’ve never had a single sore anywhere so unless I’m some wild carrier, she is mistaken.
Her perception is her reality however. And I did burn her with the age thing.
I’m considering putting my age to normal age.
—
Made a first sketch today. The storage space wall and the table with some shit on it
So hopefully I can try to do one a day for fun. I went to Michaels as well and picked up a few gel pens.
Remind me to tell you where all my art supplies are. (Spoiler alert; they’re being held hostage by Axxxxx if she hasnt chucked em out. If anything she’s probably assimilated them into her own art shit.
—-
Just saw a hotpot place I’ve never seen before here on kirkman. Instantly thought of going there with Axxxxx. I miss her.
—
Went on a date
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
Spoke to Frank about letting him know what I’ve been up to
To discuss still:
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Ale house in Kirkman for a date
Listening to:
PUP - PUP
PUP - the dream is over
PUP - kids (single off the new record)
Deadmau5 - for lack of a better name deadmau
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Jeff Rosenstock - we cool?
First Astronomical Velocity - galaxy one
NOFX - punk in drublic
NOFX - Pump up the Valiuum
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
THE NEW PUP RECORD!! preorder
A couple books from brightlight books
Van Gogh in Arles
Knuckleheads graphic novel
The 100 best business books of all time
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“The universe is unforgiving and a dick
So we’ll do our best to live” - fail better heal faster
“ You know I’ve never been good at anything
Except for fuckin up and ruining everything” - PUP
“We’re on an ultralight beam
This is a god dream” - Kanye West, life of Pablo
Quote of the day:
“I can turn you into poetry
But I can’t make you love me” - fragment 5, weatheredwritings
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.14.19
Tokyo Elvis, who is one of my best friends, Frank Friend, who I have played in multiple bands with since we were 16-17.
He wants me to undertake the tasks involving getting him booked in town and out.
We’ve decided that the Comic-Con circuit would be a good fit for him. Also it would be for me as well in terms of getting a booth for the paulsstoragespace shit.
So I’ve started the process of emailing various cons in town coming up
—
Just saw a guy throw a rubber hammer at a peacock. A sentence I never thought I would say.
—-
Like dead glow worms falling slowly through oil
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Bomb the music industry - vacation
Fail better, heal faster
Alpha male tea party - droids
Just friends - nothing but love
Just friends - rock 2 the rhythm
Cornelius - point
Walter Ferguson - Babylon
Darwin Deez - 10 songs that happened when you left me with my stupid heart
Jeff Rosenstock - worry
Jeff Rosenstock - we cool?
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Sleeves for paper money
Sleeves for coins
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“In truth, December destroyed me. January crushed me
By February, I was not myself
March rolled in like beatings and rolled out like a bear hug
In April I stared out the window for a fucking month
I don't want October. I don't want November
I don't want to feel those crippling blows
That I can't explain to myself, my friends or you
So I soften them with hours of Nintendo”
-bomb the music industry
“Loving you required ammunition” - Darwin Deez
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.13.19
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Killer Bee - Venus
Steffaloo - heart beats
Lone - reality testing
Fail better, heal faster
Watching:
Ready player one
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
FFXIV
Purchases:
100 record sleeves for 7 inch records
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“I came here with hope and I left with a smoking habit” - fail better, heal faster
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.12.19
Spoke with yaqeen at ihop last night. He is trying to become the assistant general manager at STK. He was speaking to a couple of the top servers and more specifically Rob C, and rob was telling Yaqeen to cut ties with being friends with servers and more specifically me.
Now yaqeen and I are boys at this point. So it ain’t happening. But it does sting a little to hear that I’m not very respected in that sense.
—
Made cauliflower Mac n cheese. It was pretty tasty for sure. Nice and Keto friendly.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
Emailed a few venues concerning playing:
Herohype:
Emailed on 01.12.19
https://www.herohype.com
Omni fandom expo
Emailed on 1.12.19
http://www.omniexpo.com
MyCon
https://mystic-con.com
Emailed on 01.12.19
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
The presidents of the United States of America - S/t
The presidents of the United States of America - II
The cardigans - first band on the moon
Fail better, heal faster
PUP - the dream is over
Serengeti - Dennis 6E
Ricky eat acid - talk to you soon
Rozwell kid - precious art
Dorothy ashby - Afro harping
Serengeti - kaleidoscope 2 ep
Serengeti - Dennehy
Atmosphere - sad clown bad summer
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Apple cider vinegar shot
wheat grass juice powder
Kale/spinach/radish/parsley/celery/cucumber/lemon juice/stevia drink
McDonalds 20 nuggets and a large Diet Coke ( this is the last time I swear )
Cauliflower ‘man n cheese’ that I made
Playing:
FFXIV - got ALC up to 50, working on getting LTW up to 50 also
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Superstar, I tried to educate your childish heart” - the cardigans
“You said it best when you said I’m a mess” - Rozwell Kid
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.11.19
Sitting here in Disney springs. I got here with an extra fifteen minutes or so; got a coffee and now I’m sitting on a bench watching people and life go by.
Picking out the weirdos and watching them. And the eccentric girls, for some reason they just appeal to me so hard, more so than conventional hot girls.
I need to make a move.
—-
After hours. Waiting on yaqeen to show up at this Ihop. He and I haven’t had one of these in a while. Hopefully he shows up haha. He said his phone was dying and he would meet me inside.
What i did toward the business today:
Listening to Tony Robbins power to influence
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Ihop with yaqeen
Listening to:
Fail better, heal faster
Angelo De Augustine - tomb
Bomb the music industry - vacation
1997 - a better view of the rising moon
Jeff Rosenstock - we cool?
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Tobacco - sweatbox dynasty
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Been on a huge chicken nugget for McDonald’s kick. Large diet cokes also. While they aren’t totally killing the diet, it’s probably not the best.
Tasted the Scallops special from work
Playing:
Purchases:
From fye all 75% off
Star Wars black series - Poe Dameron
Star Wars black series - Constable Zuvio
Pulp Fiction - Butch Coolidge, 8 inch tall approx
Super 7 Alien M.U.S.C.L.E. mini figs
From barnes and noble:
The new issue of Juxtapoz featuring Kaws on the cover
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“I wanna move to Japan
And maybe I’ll understand
What to do with my life” - fail better, heal faster
Quote of the day:
“I don’t want it now, I want it right now” - Robert Davis GM STK
8 ball questions and answers:
“Is Axxxxx gonna come back to me at some point?”
“Yes”
Hashtags:
01.10.19
I’m on fucking autopilot. Just coasting through my days. Get back on track you asshole. Don’t be an old server. Have more than one income. Get some fucking momentum going.
How do I do this? What is my leverage to change? What will happen if I don’t do this?
I need to stir up some hurt within myself.
—-
How to innovate my way out of this? This place gives me no joy and therefore I am not giving it the attention it deserves.
—
I’ve been sent to Starbucks by Greg the manager to get a hot chocolate for a guest. I’m on a party upstairs and I won’t be missed. He gave me his debit card. I flirted with the girl who took my order. She was receptive.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Coheed and Cambria - good Apollo, I’m burning star IV
1997 - a better view of be rising moon
Cashmere cat - 9
Tony Robbins - the power to influence
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
PUP - the dream is over
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.09.19
What i did toward the business today:
Didn’t do a goddamn thing. Need to get on it
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
Worked on the spam email
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Keep Shelly in Athens -
Death cab for cutie - transatlanticism
Weezer - pacific daydream
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Apple cider vinegar shot
Wheat grass juice powder
Kale/spinach/radish/parsley/celery/lemon juice/stevia drink
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“I wish the world was flat like the old days
And I could travel just by folding the map” - death cab for cutie
“This is the sound of settling” - death cab for cutie
“‘Perfect’ always takes so long, because it don’t exist” - Jeff Rosenstock
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.08.19
Last night we had the STK makeup Christmas party for all the day-one-er’s. I almost didn’t go because I feel semi depressed and don’t wanna do shit all.
So we went and it was small but lost of the OG hang was there. Yaqeen of course and the lot.
We all just hung out drinking and roasting the shit out of each other.
Yaqeen and I are the roastmasters. He and I started this shit as a nice way to keep morale in the building at STK. And boy has it worked nicely.
Yaqeen told me the whole time I was away in Alaska that he kept the roasts alive. And my memory as well haha. Those were his words.
So, every day is now an HR nightmare in the building but no one seems to mind at all. I work the raunchiest coolest people ever. I would hang out with any of them outside of work.
So yeah the roast is strong with all of us. I swear if we all quit the restaurant biz and write comedy, we could get famous.
So as roastmasters, Yaqeen and I are the only two who can promote any of these jabronis trying to level up. They gotta be coming correct on the daily with hot roasts. And then when they fire of a real hum dinger of a zinger, based on the laughter of yaq and myself and any audience in attendance, that person will be leveled up immediately.
It’s fun. I love playing games all day every day.
—-
Been burning oil and smoking flower every day since I’ve been back to Orlando.
I don’t want to say it unmotivates me because I do get things done, just at a slower pace. I’m on weed time.
—
I’m hanging with Cxxxxxxxx outside of this McDonalds here:
228 S Orlando Ave
Maitland, FL 32751
United States
Called her up randomly to see how she was. Her stomach is tied up in knots over a boy she is also seeing.
You know, I’ve evolved into this person who isn’t jealous and just experiences women/ people as they are. I always say that some of my best relationships are been non-relationships: people I see when I see em, and we are both ok with it.
I don’t know how I got this way but here I am.
Where did I go askew with the way I view relationships? And by that I just mean the non traditional way people view things.
To be discussed later I suppose.
So yeah Cxxxxxxxx is soaring for food from McDonalds.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Where did my weird view on relationships come from?
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Fail Better, heal faster
Weezer - death to false metal
The strokes - room on fire
HUM - you’d prefer an astronaut
Maritime - we the vehicles
Fishbone - give a monkey a brain and hell swear
Living colour
Portishead - third
Watching:
Johnny mnemonic
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“If I am feeling wacky, I think I might
Drink a quart of vodka
Spend the night down in the gutter” - Weezer
“What if the day had stayed in bed?” - Foo Fighters
“All the boys with directionless hair are rough
Languorous girls in undertaker makeup” - maritime
“The busy sisters stunning, won’t she be stunned
By the infinite parade of punk rock t shirts” - maritime
Quote of the day:
“Electrons take up less space, so..” - Cxxxxxxxx’s roommate on digitizing pictures
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.07.19
Becoming awesome.. hmm I still haven’t done that yet. Havent been doing much of shit lately. How do I get back on track?
The answer is to just do the damn thing.
whats my motivation? Good question to ask.
I don’t want to be an old server. And its weird because chronologically I am 38 but I don’t feel like that. A bit odd I suppose to think about.
so, whats the fix? Slowly work on becoming awesome. By the time I know it ,i’ll be there. But this is only going to come about through working every day toward things. I tell people all the time to just get 1% better every day, and here I am not doing that.
I need to implement all the advice I’ve been handing out.
That being said, what can I work on today toward becoming awesome?
What are some things I want to accomplish? Well lemme refer myself to the giant 18 month plan I have set up
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Being a weed head
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Serengeti - kaleidoscope 2 ep
Fail better, heal faster - s/t
Panuccis pizza - don’t tip the delivery boy
Panuccis pizza - All of my friends are familiar and the steps I took to realize this
Tigers Jaw - s/t
Halsey - Badlands
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Apple cider vinegar shot
wheat grass juice powder
Kale/spinach/radish/parsley/celery/lemon juice/stevia drink
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“I fell in love with your face so much, that it behooves me to look away” - Serengeti
“You can take what’s in my head; I don’t want it” - Fail better, heal faster
Quote of the day:
"Vision without execution is hallucination" - Thomas Edison
“Stop selling: start solving and serving” -
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.06.19
I keep trying to order the Downward is Heavenward vinyl reissue but it sells out immediately. Short story is, it’s just the singer from the now defunct band HUM, is releasing the reissue in pieces, cause he’s just one guy.
—-
Bagged up the Star Wars power of the force cardbacks in clear pages for a three ring binder
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Cky - the Phoenix
Ozma - Pasadena
Chrome sparks - goddess ep
HUM - downward is heavenward
Jeff Rosenstock - worry.
Watching:
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“You can’t exist In the world, without being a part of the world, and somehow that’s comforting, when you’re not where you want to be.” -ozma
“And she got me high,
And I barely noticed there were tears in her eyes.
And I miss you less and less every day,
It’s true the whiskeys gone and washed you away” - Margot and the nuclear so and sos
Quote of the day:
8 ball questions and answers:
Hashtags:
01.05.19
So I’ve been in Orlando for a couple months at this point. Back from my 6 month detour to Alaska.
Feels like I never left.
I don’t know if that’s a good statement or a bad one.
—
Bagged up some Buff Monster mini ice cream toys today. Been working on getting everything in plastic bags. Also I will start to labelling shit I want to get rid of with prices.
This is a little momentum toward having a booth at a con somewhere.
The real
Momentum would be to get a list of cons and then start spamming them for Frank and Tokyo Elvis and also for myself
—
Right, so coming back to Orlando. Not bad but it’s just me back in the same groove.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Back to Orlando
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Toadies - rubberneck
Weezer - Pinkerton
Weezer pacific daydream
Queens of the Stone Age - songs for the day
Soundgarden - down on the upside
cky - infiltrtate destroy rebuild
Watching:
The Crow on bluray
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Packages received:
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Lyric of the day:
“Through the ages, we got stupid, and now we must repent” - Toadies
“She never gets wet; she smiles and it’s a rainbow” - Ben folds
“I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat” - death cab for cutie
“These things don’t belong
On my list at all” - cky
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01.04.19
So I’m working last night (At STK if no one has been following) and I get a text from Naomi Singleton (now this is not the same Naomi who is Axxxxx cousin who I was messaging and Axxxxx got wind of it and ended things with me once again)
She was in Disney springs. I work in Disney springs.
So she hits me up asking what I’m doing after work; I say probably heading home, and she goes: orrrr you can hang out with me in Disney springs.
So we met for the first time, right in front of STK, by the bridge.
Very nice chemistry.
So we walked through the springs a little. Hugged and held hands. I sat her down on a bench behind house of blues
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What makes me follow the rules one day and disregard them the next?
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Back to Orlando
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Weezer - Hurley
Foo Fighters - there is nothing left to lose
Local H - as good as dead
Local H - hey, killer
Watching:
22 jump street on bluray
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Lyric of the day:
“Hang on til the break of the day” - Weezer
“I’m falling in love.. what was your name?” - Weezer
“Lately I’ve been feeling better
Wish I could stay sick with you” - Foo Fighters
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01.03.19
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Back to Orlando
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Listening to:
Bombadil - hold on
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01.02.19
Tina Watkins comes back tonite. I hope she’ll let me use her car carte Blanche. She is defiantly motivated by money so an extra hundo a week should do the trick.
So, however long it takes for me to get my income tax money back, I’m getting a vehicle. It blows not having one.
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Taking a break from the space for food and mail and maybe big lots for some shit
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Moved some good stuff around in the space. Those three bookshelves (one of the four didn’t make it) are really helping me maximize the Howard space in there.
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I have to leave to pick Tina up now from the airport. Well, it was nice having the place to myself.
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So I sorted the car out with Tina, I’ll pay her and will use the car as I have been. Once I get that income tax return I’m gonna get a vehicle dammit.
Bagged up what loose Dunnys I had in a Tupperware
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Back to Orlando
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Jason’s deli
Big lots
My storage space of fucking course
Listening to:
Jeff Rosenstock - worry
Cosmo’s midnight - what comes next
Scott pilgrim vs. the world original score
Red animal war - breaking in an angel
Bjork - post
Bjork - debut
Chrome sparks - chrome sparks
Fishbone - gift a monkey a brain and he’ll swear he’s the center of the universe
Watching:
Trainwreck on Blu-ray
Reading:
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Playing:
Purchases:
Sandwich bags for toys
Irving stickers
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Lyric of the day:
“born as a data mine for targeted marketing, no one will listen up until you become a hashtag or a meme” - Jeff Rosenstock
“Let’s just drink and fuckin be alive, not just survive” - NOFX
“Give me something beautiful; I’ll believe your lies” - Red Animal War
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01.01.19
Made out with a girl from my table last night. She was 23 I believe. She was with her parents and already drunk due to New Year’s Eve festivities. She and I were vining to the point where I caught her coming out of the bathroom and asked if she wanted to kiss at 12. She said she was trying to get a kiss right now, and then we did. And it was pretty on all night after that. A few more random stolen makeouts, and then got her number before we left. She was gonna ditch her parents at some point and wait for me after work, but surely she passed out. Let’s hope I hear from her today.
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“I don’t even have an emotional attachment to that particular Nintendo” - me on a garbage Nintendo I just donated.
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Holy shit I’m leaving target and can smell the Pizza Hut style pizza they got going on in there and it’s really making me crave it. This keto shit has been going on for two and a half months at this point. Maybe I organize some manner of cheat meal.
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Seeing Galina at the hospice her father is. It won’t be long for him now.
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Cxxxxxxxx came over tonite. Haven’t seen her since before Christmas. I gave her her birthday present that I picked up for her. We hung out at ale house for a drink and then came back this way.
What i did toward the business today:
What I did toward managing Tokyo Elvis:
To discuss still:
Back to Orlando
Becoming awesome
the ‘roast’ culture Yaqeen and I cultivated to keep morale up
Managing Tokyo Elvis
Escape as a coping mechanism
Minus the bear farewell concert
Sleeping on couches when under emotional distress
“Inventory” night
10 second romance (rearview mirrors at red lights)
Memories created from memory (instead of what actually happened)
Making peace with Al Ruiz (the back story)
Axxxxx reaching out and then me blowing it (again, but not really because I wasn’t trying)
24 hour romance (bumble and tinder and okc)
Notable places visited:
Target haha. Too high and only got a couple random things.
Listening to:
Hum - you’d prefer an astronaut
Swervedriver - mezcal head
Watching:
Scott Pilgrim vs the world
Reading:
Eating:
Playing:
Purchases:
Stranger things action figure on discount
Scott pilgrim on Blu-ray
BAMF score (I had a $75 store credit from trading in some Star Wars shit earlier last week):
Star Wars Han Solo vintage action figure
Ultraman fig
A couple Japanese older model kits
Packages received:
Star Wars power of the force bulk cardback set
eBay obsessions:
Lyric of the day:
“Every color mixed together
Will make another, in my reality” - Basenji
Quote of the day:
“You punched me in the boob; prepare to die obviously” - Scott pilgrim vs the world
8 ball questions and answers:
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