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DESIRDARLING & DESIRYANDERE two terms in one post
TRIGGER WARNING ! mentions of stalking , the "yandere" trope and obsessive behavior.
DESIRDARLING
⸻ a desirdae identity where one desires for any reason to be a darling, or the object of affection / obsession of a yandere. this could be because of trauma, mental illness, enjoyment of the trope in fictional media, or just because the identifier feels happy using the label. ⸻ this label can be transitioned to non-harmfully, but should not be pursued if the identifier is under 18 or if it is not mutually consensual on both sides. this label supports self-inserts and fictional others that align with the "yandere" trope as part of a non-harmful transition.
DESIRYANDERE ⸻ a desirdae identity where one desires for any reason to be a yandere. this could be due to reclaiming the term yandere as a caricature of bpd symptoms, trauma, enjoyment of the trope in fictional media, or just because the identifier feels happy using the label.
⸻ this label can be transitioned to non-harmfully, but should not be pursued if the identifier is under 18 or if it is not mutually consensual on both sides. this label supports self-inserts and fictional others that align with the "yandere" trope as part of a non-harmful transition.
EXTRA ⸻ misc: if these terms already exist, consider it a recoining or an alternate flag! ⸻ tags: @desirdae-archive @radiomogai
#desirdae#tw stalking#tw obsessive behavior#tw obsession#tw yandere#ok that should be all the tws#mogai#mogai coining#mogai flag#mogai term#mogai gender#desirdae coining#flag coining#desirdarling#desiryandere#liom coining#liom#liomogai#mogai friendly#mogai safe#pro desirdae#desirdae community#ok i think thats enough tag spam#i hope you guys like it!#sorry if the formatting isnt mobile friendly#i check it i promise tumblr just hates me#sorry if anyone saw me frantically edit the formatting
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beta kids icons because i just had to
#i swear i was only drawing dave and then it spiraled#homestuck#homestuck kids#dave strider#jade harley#john egbert#june egbert#(secret egbert name nobody would get because System)#rose lalonde#homestuck beta kids#homestuck fanart#digital art#artists on tumblr#ok i think thats enough tag spam#these were mostly for myself but theyre f2u if anyone wants to lol
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this animatic is going to kill me. this has been my artistic experience for the past few days
big things coming
#m.txt#wip spam#<HAVENT SEEN THAT TAG IN A WHILE HUH?#i think theres a setting to alter how dark the onion skinning is and i need to adjust it because its so fucking hard to work with#but i simply cannot be fucked to find it. too much effort#i feel compelled to share this specific frame because everyones drawing fanart of this fucking line. theyre obsessed#and its not fair bc now it looks like i picked this scene to animatic because of this line. becaues everyones obsessed with it#but thats not why i picked it. i picked it because bill is a silly guy </3#gravity falls#ok theres enough tags that this wont show up in there now i think lol#i think this animatic is 1. longer 2. more complicated 3. more animated than the last one. yippee!!#cant really know for sure until its done though. at least on the longer front
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One thing about canto VI is like. I see so many people predicting it'll be about Fighting Evil Wife or Breaking Codependent Toxic Relationship and I just kinda think that would suck? If the major theme isn't grief AND love and the way both are seen as like Kinda Weird/inappropriate in the setting of the city. Then I'll be very sad.
#bell.txt#not putting it in the tag i dont wanna spam but yes limbus posting yes girls will be thinking about mortal regret#LIKE. LIKE. remember the discourse on twt about how like it was bad writing that yi sang didnt mourn dongbaek etc#and like that was the thing right. thsts not a thing you do in the city. that was part of why roland (who takes lots after wh's themes)#was so exceptional. that is the whole thing about the sickness of the city#to say it in comedia literary criticism terms: sins are split between wrongly-directed love and excess of love with sloth (lack of love)#being an outlier. i think heatho and generally og wh is about excess of love and not wrongly-directed love. it is the thing that lasts#all the way to the other side. it is the shared coffin and meeting again in the next life#i think itd be AWFULLY disappointing to get some boring boring 'they make each other worse' take. being APART due to societal pressures#makes them worse and horribly lonely. death makes them worse baby. so in my mind thats it#we get to see cathy die or still be unreachable in some way and then in very roland style we get furioso mode#and then the ending is about recognizing the love that has in fact been there all along and carrying it with u. and hoping to reunite some#where some other time. NO more slander of that awful girl. YES to the comfort of the memories.#me typing over my foscolo notes like i can surely post about heathcliff really fast and not write a novel in the tags (unaware)#i have more thoughts about this in regards to ruina with xiao and some stuff from leviathan but in the meantime. listen to my ramblings boy#ALSO. considering that implication. he feels for her what queequeg feels for ishy. ARGHH. RIPPING MY HAIR OFF#ok actually its been enough hours to not spam ppl I'll tag it now for blog org. i should maybe have a tag for posting specifically#limbus company
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the camera shakes before focusing on a blond man, sitting next to a small campfire. he looks a bit confused for a moment, before realizing the person holding the camera had begun filming, "oh hi.. everyone? i don't know who can see these, i'm assuming its not only the diamond swords watching these anymore! i'm evbo, and the guy behind the camera is ferre- he doesnt like being on these much, but he'll also respond to anything you all have to say! anything else you think we should add, ferre?"
"maybe mention the fact everyone is dead?" a voice, supposedly ferre, behind the camera chimes sarcastically.
"oh yeah," evbo huffs, "so, i came down here alone first, expecting a bunch of tridents and axes to beat me up, yknow? but, when i got here, it was dark out, and there were monsters everywhere. more zombies than you could ever imagine, every other civilization has been turned into zombies!" evbo buries his face in his hands, rubbing his eyes harshly in frustration, "i don't- i don't know if tabi-..."
the camera pans to the ground, and ferre speaks again, "ok, i think thats enough. if tabi is out there, we dont want her to know we've survived the zombies too." evbo agrees with a small 'yeah', and the camera focuses on him again, "now pose for the camera," ferre requests, the smallest bit of playfulness in his tone.
"okay..?"
"hey! turn that filter off, that better not have been on the whole time!"
!!ask rules + art ref under cut!!
hi!! admin evan here! ^^7 this is my first askblog so pls be patient with me!
-this blog does have a plot! it has an end goal but how they get there might be affected by asks!
-magic anons are allowed! zombie anons are highly encouraged!! (characters will be aggressive and attempt to kill zombie anons, but can fail and be injured/die!)
-only art posts will be tagged as pvp civ! the rest will be tagged with "ask zombo", but wont be main tagged to avoid clogging the fandom tags!!
-nsfw is allowed, admin and all characters are adults, unless stated otherwise! all posts with nsfw content will be marked with "nsfw" "suggestive" and "cw suggestive" mute those if you dont want to see that content!! (there will be summaries for any lore that is missed in those asks, so dont worry abt missing anything!) (minors dni with those posts or send nsfw asks, you will be blocked) tutorial on how to mute tags!!
-along that same vein, this isnt a nsfw blog. i wont draw nsfw here, and any spam nsfw asks will not be answered.
-im a very slow artist! please be patient if your ask is taking particularly long, im either busy or drawing it!! (i work extra on weekends so expect slow updates fri-sun)
this ref sheet is mostly just for me bcz i WILL forget every detail of these characters as soon as i go to bed tonight LMAO
more characters will be added as they appear!
#pvp civilization#pvpciv#evbo#ferremc#evbo fanart#ferremc fanart#ask blog#ask zombo#im calling this au zombo bcz zombie civ is too long and i think zombo is cute#evbo isnt a zombie tho#at least not right now#ooc post#im not a ferre viewer i looked at fanart for 2 seconds then ran away so this is what u get my little guy version of him
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Remake (L&D)
Sylus x Black! Reader
I hope this is a better part one. Though my tag says black reader my work is for all. There's just not enough support for my fellow POCs. I have more ideas for fics as well. So when I get the part two out, I will be doing more characters.
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R-I'm here. 8:00 pm
R-Are you coming late? 8:30pm
*Missed call*
R-I told them to wait for you come.
Are you? 8:50 pm
*Missed call*
My leg bounces nervously as I wait for Sylus to respond. Maybe I shouldn't have spammed his messages. I hope it doesn't come off as desperate. I glance at the time on my phone and sigh heavily as I start to feel annoyed. I toy with Sylus's brooch that he gifted in case he wasn't with me. It reminds me of our time together.
R- are you ok? 9:00pm
I stand angrily from the table and I put down a tip for the inconvenience. There has to be a reasonable explanation, he wouldn't just ditch me like this, right? When I step outside I notice that the air feels heavier and smells of rain. I decide to walk the distance to his house. Although dangerous I slightly hope something will happen so I can beat my anger and concern out.
*20 minutes laterrr*
Knock Knock!
I shiver as the rain continuously falls down." Sylus! open up," I plead through the black and heavy door. Shivers wrack through my body as I stand here. I knock again rapidly before hugging myself. I pray to whoever is listening that Sylus is here. My red fiery dress clings to my body as I soak in the rain.
The door swings open and I waste no time coming in. He shuts the door as I turn to face him and check him over. I angrily push him back when I see he's fine," Where the hell were you?" He cocks an eyebrow and then walks past me to his living room. He sits down and manspreads and looks me up and down. I feel my heart picking up speed, something telling me to stop and turn around.
"I had some...business to take care of, kitten," He says coldly and nonchalantly. I feel my eye twitch at his response. Thats all? After I embarrassed myself and sat waited for him. I guess it's not surprising that I waited as that seems to be all I do lately. His uncaring attitude towards the situation breaks my heart slightly. It feels like a pocket knife went through it. '' Did you forget our date? I've been texting you all night! Yet, here you are perfectly fine and no excuse but work," I question him bitterly.
" You know my line of work. These instances can't be helped-" Annoyance comes across his face as I cut him off abruptly.
"Instances, that's what I am to you? A fucking instance! You act like our time together meant nothing," I stalk up closer to him with clenched fists. I feel my eyes water but ill be damned if I allow them to fall. Fuck whatever it is that makes me cry when I'm angry. Fuck my heart for feeling something for this no-good, down dog-
"Did you think something else? I think it's obvious that you're having a... memory problem. From the beginning I said no relationships," he stands from the couch to tower over me. His eyes glow red but I can tell he's holding back. I know that he would never hurt me physically but, I can't say the same for him emotionally. He smirks, "Why don't we just put your anger to good use in the bedroom."
He says one thing but his actions say another. This game of tag or whatever we're playing feels exhausting. When did I become so weak, especially to a man? (Or demon the game doesn't say) Out of everyone to toy with, why me? Why make me fall helplessly in love with your actions, mind, body, and soul. Why give me just enough to keep me here, but not enough to leave. Questions I'll never get an answer to.
" Don't act so dim, Sylus. It's not in your nature," I bite back. Although a weak retort, a retort nonetheless.
"Dim?," he steps closer, and my breath hitches," Dim is you acting like something more than petty fucking is going on. Dim is believing that I would want something more. Dim is you running to me for love when you can't find it in someone else." Scratch the pocket knife, a katana has carved out my heart and chopped it into little pieces.
I step back from him. This beautiful white-haired man with eyes of rubies and, a body sculpted from god himself is truly ugly on the inside. I shake my head in disbelief as the dam in my eyes breaks. I bite my lower lip to keep a sob from coming out. I unpin the brooch on my dress and throw it at his face. He quickly catches it and narrows his eyes at me.
" Ok," I say simply though my voice wavers and I rush out of his house to leave. The rain pours heavy on me but I can't seem to care when the man I love calls me a fool for loving him. Maybe I am. It's always been my nature to love hard and not let go. Maybe I am desperate. For something real, for something genuine, for something... safe. Maybe people like me are destined to be alone.
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I love interacting as well I'm just slow to it.
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Monster Prompt List
Helloooooo friends! Here I drop a list for this year for monster things. Starting off a little early to have enough time to write and embrace the fall mood without cramming it all into one very spooky month. Last year I think I think I kinda burnt out 😔 so extra time for us all this year for spooky (and horny if you so choose)!
Rules: Can be a starter or a drabble. I can send it to you however you want. An @ post, ask, send it to you on disco. You can send your preferences how ever you want. Reblog this, send me an ask, dm. Just pick a monster and a setting! My muse can be the monster or your muse can. Can be NSFW or not. Just be clear af about what you want.
If you want to opt out, totally fine! If you want to avoid being spammed with the list than block the tag #silvers monster list
Muse will be subjected to certain physical changes depending on monster.
Monster List:
Vampire: Pointy teeth, ashen/pale
Werewolf: Human form normal, usually wolf form is big and scary humanoid
Dragon: Usually has a human form with some dragon like aspects if so desired(wings and horns). Or can be totally human with the faint hint like oblong pupils and sharp teef
Incubus/Demon: smol horns and little tail when low level. Big scary horns and long whip like tail when higher level
Merperson/Siren/Oceanid: Dealers Choice if they got the fish tail or are more like the og, which are beautiful human formed nymphs who lure unsuspecting souls to the water
Kitsune: Fox sprites. Known for their mischievous nature and trickery. But they can also be contracted to corrupted souls as a guide/servant of sorts. Usually have fox ears and tail in human form.
Cryptid: idk make them spooky and weird. Mix them with an animal or two into a corrupted form
Oni: big scary ogre monster. One to three horned. Good for size difference stuff.
Dryad/Nymph: human like forest sprites that are tied to nature. Dryad more tied to a certain tree. They’re supposed to be drop dead irresistible and to harm their home would harm them
Fairy: up to you if ur thinking fun sized or not. Some fae/fairy lore has them usually as human like with some odd aura about them and have a trait of some sort. Like dream weaving or influencing the mind
Witch/Wizard: a person of magical abilities
Elf: the sexy kind not the keebler kind. With the long pointy ears and long beautiful lines in their designs.
Chimera of some kind: idk if muse has a second form or some kind of transformation incorporate something spooky or different to monsterfy it.
Free card: request a monster not on the list. So long as they can still communicate in some way.
Settings:
In universe
Modern
Feudal fantasy
Lab/Containment
Location inspired by said monster like European medieval fantasy or greek mythos
Other medias/Universes
Finally:
Yes you’re totally welcome to hmu where we can talk details if you’re unsure where to start. I’m a monster banger expert 😎
I left it pretty sfw on here just to not spam you a list of porny things but if you want more you know I’m down for more. Any kind of crazy fun thing that comes with monster boinking will be present so let’s hash it out however you want and make it happen baddy!
Just follow my blog rules. Thats the only condition. Go crazy otherwise.
No limited slots or a one and done. If you want a couple of different prompts that’s totally fine too. But to avoid congestion where you request a bunch at the same time and I can’t work down a list of people I would greatly appreciate if you wait until I post your first request before you ask for another. Ok love you.
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boys's dismissal of xxs's safety concerns reflects a broader societal issue of control and dominance. When xxs take steps to protect themselves, boys may mock or undermine their efforts, revealing a desire to keep xxs feeling unsafe. This behavior is rooted in a need to maintain power over xxs, making it difficult for them to assert their autonomy and independence. Most straight people who aren't conservative or terminally online tend to have a 'live and let live' attitude and it's great. They don't think lesbians are bigots for not wanting to suck dick because they understand what a homosexual is. Like that bullshit doesn't even cross their minds. They may misspeak or make stupid assumptions sometimes, but that's infinitely more tolerable than getting talked down to or threatened or sexually harassed by some honey nut queerio who thinks my sexuality isn't 'inclusive' enough. It's so crazy to me when people r like "lets spam terf tags for pride month!!!" and their go-to method is spamming porn??? Or they r like "if a TERF ever tells me to get out of the females's bathroom I'll pee on her!!! Suck my dick TERFs!" because its like ok so ur response to females disagreeing with you is…. sexual harasstransst? Places where xxs are extremely oppressed and are not protected by law (like Afghanistan or South Korea) show that if you give boys power they will use it against you. All of them, yes even your cute boyfriend would stone you to death for cheating on him if it was normalized in your society. Somehow you don't find a 'good man' in those places speaking up for xxs. It never happens. Male behavior is strongly influenced by the power that law allows them to have over you and I'm sure the number of rape and sexual harassboyst cases would go down if you couldn't just pay your way out of serving 10-20+ years by having a good lawyer. the amount of women and girls out here theorycrafting heinously pseudoscientific and delusional copes for why the boys they date act like they don't give a fuck about her makes me want to tear my hair out. i lose 6 months off my life every time i hear about 'anxious attachboyst.' please get realboys's dismissal of xxs's safety concerns reflects a broader societal issue of control and dominance. When xxs take steps to protect themselves, boys may mock or undermine their efforts, revealing a desire to keep xxs feeling unsafe. This behavior is rooted in a need to maintain power over xxs, making it difficult for them to assert their autonomy and independence. the amount of women and girls out here theorycrafting heinously pseudoscientific and delusional copes for why the boys they date act like they don't give a fuck about her makes me want to tear my hair out. i lose 6 months off my life every time i hear about 'anxious attachboyst.' please get real Well, thats just glitchy.
#terfsafe#woke agenda#all trans women are male r@pists#radical feminist safe#gender cult#peak trans#dropthet#rudefem#sex not gender
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➼ chongyun || hiraeth
tw: mention of knives (no violence), kidnapping, explosion _______
you angled your camera to catch your face and upper body correctly and adjusted your blinds for the correct lighting. you put thin pieces of yellow and pink paper over your lamp to give off a sunset lighting sort of aesthetic in your minimalist room. your tiny cacao tree sat in the corner of your room, setting some sort of simple beach vibe.
then, you began to stream.
you watched as majority of your followers came to view as you sat in your rolly gaming chair. the greetings came rushing in and you noticed two of your friends had came along too, xingqiu and chongyun.
"hey gang, it's kingexplosionmurder here with your weekly sunday stream," you smiled and watched as comments came in asking you to notice them. beginning to select randomly, you flicked a short strand of hair behind your ear. "you have been noticed, yourlocalsugardaddy," you blessed them. and you swore you chose randomly.
on the other side of the screen, chongyun's face slightly flushed before eating his popsicle again. yes, that was his username, selected by xingqiu after the guhua heir was somehow able to trick him into selecting so. the situation must've been that he accidentally consumed some jueyun chili's, that was also xingqiu's doing.
he watched you smile as you explained your schedule for this stream, when he noticed you suddenly began laughing. it sounded genuine, he wanted to believe it was genuine, but there was a trace of disappointment in it. he observed your face, noticing you were looking at the chat box. "i agree too, scarymoose."
scarymoose: this streamer's kinda dog shit ngl 😐
by instinct, his fingers grazed over the keyboard as he analyzed the tone. this kid wasn't joking around with himself, he was really out to bring you down. he exhaled, shaking his head, wondering how you would deal in the situation.
yourlocalsugardaddy: miss karen this isn't yelp 🙄
he wasn't content with that yet, things could've gone onto more serious matters, but he knew you liked to keep your chat clean and peaceful. you went to the farther extents to keep that from happening, agreeing with rude comments yourself as a said joke, but actually have it sometimes harming you.
so chongyun tried his best to keep you happy.
redrumreaper: yo moose chill 😳
he recognized his friend xingqiu also trying to calm the situation as you just laughed it off and attempted to continue, sooner enough just beginning to ignore all his comments. some other viewers came up to your defense but in all honesty, you wanted to move on.
"s-so, i found some silk flowers outside of wangshuu inn yesterday, aren't they pretty?" you took a tiny bouquet of the said silk flowers and presented it to your viewers, holding it next to your cheek. the pink tone of the flowers matched the color of your cheeks and made for a nice picture. chongyun would've screenshotted it, but he respected your privacy.
yourlocaldumba$$: yes they're so pretty we love you 😍
13lue13erry: yes ong ong 💕 thiccer than my granny
Straw13erry: don't bring madame ping into this 💀💀
colino: are you sure it's alright to take from someone's legally owned property ?? much less from their garden
Straw13erry: u mean ur neighbors don't harvest ur flowers every day? 🙄 privilege spoke 🤚
yourlocalsugardaddy: vv pretty 😳
redrumreaper: simp 💀
you slightly choked over on your side and xingqiu calling chongyun a simp, for you. quickly clearing your throat, you regained your composure. your viewers could see that your cheeks had been dusted with a darker shade now.
13lue13erry: 👀
Straw13erry: 👀
yourlocaldumba$$: 👀
redrumreaper: 👀
sireluck: 💀
bazinga: 👀
dandelionn: 👀
poetichoe: 👀
"okay- anyways," you pushed that aside, watching the chain of 👀's coming in. you weren't too sure at what they were referring to, but just assumed that they were interested in xingqiu exposing chongyun. but, there was no way chongyun really felt like that, right? it was just a friendly compliment from what you believed. "just a tiny flex but y'all guys, i am so cracked at apex, not gonna lie. for all the new followers out there," you randomly commented. 'and to change the subject.'
"actually, you know what? fuck the schedule, let's go to trolling little eight year old kids posting selfies on instagram. due to certain reasons i'm just not gonna be blurring their usernames out, but please don't spam these people, i don't wanna be cancelled 💗" you sweetly smiled as you pulled up instagram and started streaming on your phone.
of course your sus notifications ruined it 🤡🤡
because xingqiu took advantage of the situation, sending messages to your discord. nothing mentioning your romantic life because he knew better than that, but just trolling. 'HEY GANG. ITS ME, TONY, AND TODAY WE'RE GONNA SEE IF IM FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'TURNS OUT, I AM NOT FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'AN UPDATE, IT HURTS. ALRIGHT. BYE GUYS.' you tried hard to contain your laughter, but certain giggles came out in the end, giggles that made chongyun's heart flutter.
xingqiu just kept spamming without a stop, to the point that you accidentally clicked into the notification instead of someone's username on a selfie post. so now everyone could see your group chat with xingqiu, chongyun, and a few other viewers that were actually your other friends.
13lue13erry: oh no 🤡
Straw13erry: 🗿
yourlocaldumba$$: HAHAHAHA WE'RE EXPOSED 🤡👌
just water support boy 😔: image.png
oh my god he's sending chongyun catboy edits. you made this concerning noise, glad no one really seemed to know who chongyun really was on twitch. you went back to instagram, beginning to dm a random kid, ignoring the situation that had just happened.
chongyun choked, slight heat running to his cheeks. what the fuck was xingqiu doing- how did he even get those pictures? maybe it was that one time xingqiu forced him to go to a furry con, but how did he ever get the time to photograph these? he nervously fidgeted and played with his fingers.
13lue13erry: 🤡
Straw13erry: 🤡
yourlocaldumba$$: 🤡
redrumreaper: 🤡
<— oraoraoraor
kingexplosionmurder: chav check
oraoraoraor: what
kingexplosionmurder: chav: check 😹😹
oraoraoraor: bruh
oraoraoraor: who tf are you
kingexplosionmurder: hope you like baddies cause i'm bad at everything 💗
oraoraoraor: bruh ok i'm blocking
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
oraoraoraor: 😐
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
oraoraoraor: wtf
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
oraoraoraor: wait wait UR that one twitch streamer?
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
oraoraoraor: ig ur fans gonna be so disappointed in you
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
oraoraoraor: hahaha wtf i'm gonna post this and tag you
kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me
afterwards you sent a barrage of really cursed images and left the person on read when they tried to complain and get a reaction out of you. you chuckled, extremely satisfied with yourself. this is what your viewers followed you for. you went on hunting for another user, "GO Y/N GO" filling up your chat.
you were just about to dm this other kid until you heard a ring from your doorbell. "oh what the fuck, i didn't invite anyone. but you know what, i'll pull something up to entertain y'all guys while i'm afk." searching on youtube, you typed in 'banana fish ep. 1' and clicked on the longest video you saw. then you got up from your chair, making your way to the front door.
you didn't mute yourself before because you thought there was really no need to, and you underestimated your mic sensitivity. god did you wish that you could go back and time and do just that.
twisting the doorknob, you opened your door and was met with... a certain, someone.
someone that you recognized and has caused you so much pain, and it was all so fun and games before they had to come along. "bruh. aight what you here for fam?" you played it super chill, though you were really sick and tired of this person's shit.
"(y/n). we need to talk," her stern voice made you flinch as you just stared straight into her eyes. you simply nodded your head and crossed your arms, shifting your weight onto your right leg. "we're thinking of taking you back home."
your froze, your breath hitching as you just stood there, waiting for her to go on. clenching your fists and looking down, you stayed silent for a little moment and questioned, "...why?"
"well, you have a stable income source, right?" she asked, putting her hands on her hips. "you can finally be of use to us," she clasped her hands together, a bright smile on her face. your finger twitched, awaiting an explanation. "you're a streamer, yeah? so you can be a useful asset to our family name."
"...you only want me to come back so i can make you all seem... good?"
and here you thought, just for a second, that you would be accepted back into the place where you really belonged. your shoulders slumped, as small tears began to well up in your eyes. "and for our profitable gain of course, it would be a shame to not acquire that from you."
you composed yourself and looked up. "im afraid my profit can only cover for one person, and it would be myself that i focus to make a suitable and independent living out of. you've kicked me out ever since i've graduated from college and had me fend for myself, now inviting me back once i have a stable job?" you breathed, fiddling with the sleeves of your black hoodie.
"oh, not inviting, dear. taking."
confused by her words, you let your guard down as she suddenly pushed a warm cloth over your mouth as you let out a constrained scream. you tried to break free of her grasp, reaching for the switchblade in your pocket, but the drowsing chemicals from the cloth took control of you and you felt disoriented. "you... bitch..."
your head hit the floor.
》●✿ time ● skip ✿●
silence.
thats all you heard when you awoke.
pure, unfiltered silence that overwhelmed you as you were completely lost. what was happening?
you tried turning to the other side of your childhood bed, the moon casting light shadows into your 'room'. there was a rope around your wrists you noticed, so you brought them up to your lips and starting gnawing on them until it broke apart. (guys we feral its not a furry instinct ok?/ ?? ?)
the material had irritated your skin, but you put that aside for now. escape- thats what you really needed to do. it was fairly dark, but you didn't have a good estimate of time. the analog clock was broken and set to a different time that displayed 11AM. you sat up, your fingers running along the frame of the window next to you.
for a moment, you stopped, thoughts rushing into your head. what if you could start a whole other life here where things could finally be peaceful, what if you didn't have to feel so isolated anymore, what if you could- ...
no. (y/n), get yourself together. what has happened will anyways stay there, and there is no healing scars. ...still, you couldn't shake off the feeling of missing this home so much when you had an amazing childhood, though full of fake actors who had manipulated you.
opening all the cabinets silently, you grabbed things that you assumed would come to your aid. a tiny backpack, which you then stuffed with other things around it. a first aid kit, a spare knife just in case, along with a clean oversized sweater and a couple dollar bills. all that, along with a compass.
you turned towards your window, stepping on your bed.
pushing open the sides of your window, your stepped on, the brown coldness of the frame coming in contact with your feet. you shivered just a little bit before stopping to think. what would you do once you were out of here? you barely knew your way here. and not to mention, your devices were still left at your other house, so there was no way of contact.
...
did your stream ever end? even if it did, had you muted yourself before leaving? no, you didn't, and you could remember in precise detail. someone out there, anyone, would be willing to help, right? you couldn't possibly be here forever, not when you're basically blown up all over your socials?
your friends, yes, your friends! xingqiu and chongyun were watching the stream and had made obvious interaction in doing so, and they'd be willing to protect you. if they just had a lead...
but... what lead was there? all they heard was the woman's voice and, that was probably it, wasn't it? only a voice with no other clear features that could identify her. it looked like you were doing this on your own.
you came in contact with the blades of grass tickling your feet and conveniently found a pair of sneakers outside. it definitely wasn't yours, and it smelled like the scent of your old room. most likely, it belonged to someone from inside your house, lavender and mint, but who inside there was in the age range to wear modern day sneakers..?
brushing that question aside, you unhesitatingly laced them on and they were just a bit too big, but you could manage.
you breathed, inhaling the freedom intertwined air, a much needed factor of bringing you back to your lost sense of happiness. then, the fear struck you once again, because you needed to improvise now. you needed to run, but which direction? you barely knew this place at all.
you dug around your pocket for the compass you had and it was pointing east. you remember that stepping out of your house was facing west, so you were going the right way... but who knows how messy the path was? it couldn't have been an exact pathway, but going directly ahead was your simplest option.
you heard a pair of footsteps coming from inside the house, probably a few seconds away to opening the door. you sucked in your breath and ran, ran as far as your legs could take you. your intimidating speed and played into your advantage, and taking one last look, you saw the lights on, before continuing.
a few minutes into it, you felt some elemental energy. it was a sense you learned to develop since you were young, giving you the upper hand in a variety of situations. you followed the trail of glowing lines, the air starting to get colder and colder. you shuddered, the crisp coldness nipping at your skin.
you sat below a tree, taking your backpack off your shoulder and took out the oversized sweater. you put it on over your black tee and light blue skinny jeans, its nostalgic aroma filling your sense of smell.
it was... warm.
it shouldn't be warm.
the warmth proved as a sign that someone had worn it before, but this size was from what you knew, too small to fit the woman you came across again, and you absolutely did not recall any other beings within the house. it was a small household.
suddenly, you remembered what she said.
we're thinking of taking you back home. you can finally be of use to us.
plural. you should've noticed it before and you shook your head, slightly disappointed in yourself. you didn't remember any other birth siblings. could it be the fact that during the time, they had, in a way, replaced you?
you sat up, then suddenly went drowsy. your eyelids were getting heavy as your back hit the same tree. ah, that clever bitch. you chuckled to yourself, but still unsatisfied how this was gonna end. reaching inside your pocket, you grabbed a bomb that a little kid gave you, and threw it as far as you could. it wasn't as far as you hoped, but it was exceptionally far considered your sleepy state.
in a few couple seconds or so, it was going to explode. you did that to divert the attention of her and slowly ran as far as you could. a few seconds in, you gave in, hoping that your efforts were enough. 》●✿ perspective ● shift ✿●
chongyun heard an explosion.
he raised his head in the direction smoke was coming from, and made a run for it, then stopping to think. no, you're smarter than this. he gathered his shit together and remembered that one day klee gave you a bomb. he deducted that you had used it as a diversion, and began to search around the area.
and finally, he came across your sleeping body. to ensure your living state, he crouched down and let two fingers travel across your neck, searching for a pulse, and was relieved when he found one, pulsing at a normal rate.
he then carried you on his back, picking up the pace since he deducted someone was out for you, would you need a distraction. he remembered some details of the woman, she had ended your stream with your sleeping form in her hands, a dirty smirk coming across her lips. she had dark hair with some natural highlights, but that was all he saw because the rest was concealed by a cloak.
a few minutes, maybe half an hour later, you began to stir. chongyun decided that he ventured far enough to liyue and slowed down for your comfort. he wanted you to get some well deserved rest. but slowly, you woke up, but only the tiniest movement was made. your eyes were still droopy and you wanted to return to sleep.
but the sight of pastel blue hair kept you from doing so.
you felt the familiar silk coming in contact with your arms as he kept on trudging forward at a more consistent and smooth pace. "..chongyun?" you muttered out weakly, earning a small smile from the male. he hummed in response, continuing forward.
your mind was cloudy, unable to interpret the language of the world. but softly, words effortlessly escaped your lips, "... did i do the right... thing?" blinking multiple times, you awaited his answer.
"yes, yes you did," his soft voice reached your ears, making you smile a bit. you nuzzled deeper into his shoulder, clinging onto him tighter, unwilling to let go.
"thank you," you whispered.
he chuckled a bit before responding, "anything for you."
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bro ending is a little off because i'm wrote this at 2:53AM and so my brain has went ⬇️⬇️ also i'm just hungry
copy and pasted from my wattpad,, @ppeachtea_
#chongyun#genshin impact x reader#chongyun x reader#genshin impact fanfiction#genshin impact#genshin impact imagines#genshin impact headcanon#fanfic
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Hi! Please read this post before sending in a request! ❤️
Update: (2021.05.24.)
HC request rules (please check blog title to see if they are open/closed!)
1) MC is GN on this blog ✨ please do not send in requests about a femMC or requests where MC goes in labor, for example. 2) No Romantic Luke X MC On This Blog. I delete these requests automatically. (It is only OK to request something for Luke if it is appropriate for his age! Aging him up doesn’t count.) 3) NSFW is approved and it is kept under a cut after a warning. I also use the tag #not safe for waluigi because I think that is popular enough to be on your block list already. If you need me to tag it differently hmu!! (GN MC applies in these requests as well) 4) Certain topics I’m not comfortable with at all; please do not send in requests entailing rape or vore.❤️ I might add to this list later.
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It is important to send a long request as the longer it is, the better the match will be! You can send it via ask, submit, or chat message. ✨ You can tell me any information you find useful, but keep in mind that I will not base a match on looks or zodiac sign. Talking about your personality, interests, and hobbies will help much more! Please focus on these instead! 💎 Update: (2020.06.02.)
If you send via ask please try to make it at least 2 asks long! But keep in my that if you send me 5 anons in a row Tumblr will not send me anything you send after that for a while. (probably because it thinks it’s spam but dw i like long requests!)
It makes my job easier if you mention what you look for in a partner and what you can offer in a relationship. (it is not something you must write about, but if you can and want to I’m going to appreciate it)
If you mention your favorites I’ll probably try to match you with them if I see a way. It is up to you if that ruins the fun or not, so I’m just saying.
Thats it, go wild! ❤️
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honesly? fuck that anon FUCK them i love painting i love drawing i love doodling i LOVE my ocs they make me happy and they make me feel like i ha ve purpose in life bc i keep creating EVEN THO most of my drawings are boring looking!!!!!! and even though they usually get 40 notes tops its okay bc then its still like at least 20 LIVING souls who think “ok this is fine” AND even thou my art is not revolutionary in any way i STILL love epxploring my artstyle in a subtle way eg. changing the medium (from digital to watercolors recently) or changing the color palettes and THATS OKAY!!!!!! I CANT BE DEFINED BY THE NUMBER OF NOTES MY ART IS GETTING!!!!! IM SO HAPPY THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY THOUGHT “OH THIS MERCY DRAWING IS KINDA NICE I THINK ITS OK TO PUT IT ON MY BLOG” AND!!!!! THEY REALLY DID!!! AND I WANNA CRY THINING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I CANT BELIEVE IM LUCKY ENOUGH TO HAVE PEOPLE TELL ME NICE THINGS COMPLETELY SELFELSSY SUCH AS @pfhatek AND @slavicafire AND @soniagiris AND @boy-ishe AND @punkgemini AND SO MANY OTHERS WHO IM NOT SURE IF I CAN TAG BC I DONT WANNA SPAM THEIR NOTIFICATIONS BUT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND OH MY GOD
#IM GONA CRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH#i DONT derverve this much support if not for all of u my folowers and mutuals i would be like GONE from this wesbsite i would be all SAD and
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Joe has been good help about spreading about blm ( sorry english isnt my first language idk if the words i used are correct) he is like super active and which he rarely is and- people fucking semand him to donate. they spam him with tags on insta and twitter and theyre like " ok now ipen ur wallet" thats so fucking rude. they dont know that maybe joe did donate. i want to know what u think
I mean -- do they expect him to show his receipts? lol. I just -- people expect a lot out of celebrities when it comes to social media and how they use it.
I’m older than many folks in the fandom, and I grew up in an era where there was no social media. In my day there were telethons when tragedies would happen, and they’d get celebrities to make appearances on live TV, make speeches, or answer phones on camera to take donations. So like this whole notion of Dacre needs to say something, it’s 3 days, in, why hasn’t Dacre said anything feels very, very foreign to me.
I can see, though, that for someone like Joe who has 7million followers on Insta, that it’s good and right for him to speak out. Of course it’s easy and only takes a short amount of time to speak out, so good on him if he does.
But -- I also am not like livid or even upset if Joe’s not posting how much he donated. I really don’t care, tbh. He linked for places to donate and other helpful stuff, so. That’s good enough for me.
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@bokutokoutarou omfg i just saw this now hello thank you for tagging me?? i love you so much yes uh i’m a huge WET SIMP (i literally have my username as wetsimp for games n shit its cursed) for iwa, so. yeah- sorry lev. iwa came first 😌
iwaizumi x jazmyn ❤️ ❤️
how we met
i feel like i was just straight up vibing outside of aobajohsai, just roaming around waiting for someone to pick me up???
i hear the squeaky squeaky in the gym and i go 👀
of course this bitch goes inside, because i’m very C U R I O US. yessir, yessir.
first thing i see. IWA. JUICY HUNK OF A MAN, IWA.
i wouldnt know his name because 1. my memory is shit, and 2. my memory is shit.
you just hear me screaming “YEAHHHH GO NUMBER 4!!! LETS GOOOOO WORK IT!”
after their practice, he’d kinda look at me weird but i think i’d be the first one to ask his name, while at the same time my face is kinda blushy blushy.. i mean my knees would just buckle when i stand up in front of him- i’d kind of regret it (because secretly im so fucking nervous omg), but not really.
even though i seem so extroverted- hell no am i going to ask for his number first- holy shit i’m gonna have to wait for him to give me his, i will literally be so scared of messing up what i have with him because i dont want to lose our little playful arguments we have.
100% whenever i’m with iwaizumi just hanging out in the halls and i see oikawa, i’d definitely just mention how great of a person he is, and that i’m his #1 fan just to make him jealous :)))
i’d definitely annoy him during the classes we have together.. for example: breaking a pencil in half and throwing it at him.. ripping pieces of paper from my notebook and throwing it at him.. eraser shavings.. etc.
while we date
im now a mess.
he teases me because when we first met i was a literally a bully to him, but now he knows EVERYTHING. i cant hide the fact that i actually wanna hug him like my own personal 5′10 teddy bear.
he probably calls me a tsundere (like all my other friends 💀) and i would not stop messing with him for the entire day. i’d probably yell in the halls, “IWAIZUMI HAS A SMALL DICK, I REPEAT, IWAIZUMI HAS A SMALL DICK! ITS A MICROPENIS!” when school is over, you’d catch me BOOKING IT.
i’d spam him weird ass tik toks, cursed images and memes every 5 minutes. probably ask if he wants to exchange thigh pics too.. 😏
YOU’D LITERALLY CATCH ME LACKING PLAYING SIMS AND MAKING HIM AND ME FUCK IN IT AHGHAHFHA
i already see him telling me to go to sleep when its 4am, and i’d OBVIOUSLY continue to stay up until 8am. whenever he tells me to go to sleep, i’d reply with “make me” just to see what he’ll do.. like pin me against a wall and whisper sweet nothings into my ear
i secretly love it whenever he mentions my height.. (uhithinkihaveasizekinkhelp) because he’s just so.. HOT. i love his arms. his legs. his thighs. his calves. his chest. his face. his ears. his- EVERYTHING
i’d always offer if he wants anything. “do you want me to cook for you?” “do you want me to get you cereal?” “want something to drink?” “want me to get you a blanket?” because i will do ANYTHING for this man. and i’m not even a good cook, so thats saying something.
i’d take his hoodies without him knowing until last minute and he’d just smirk at me.. yknow??? and that smirk will make me die, honestly.
practically forcing him to watch a horror movie with me at a cinema, since he’ll probably mention that i get really scared and cry when i watch them but its ok, because i’ll be holding onto him the entire time!!!
AMUSEMENT PARK DATES. YES. GET ME A BIG TEDDY BEAR. i’m pretty sure he’d repeatedly be saying.. “are you sure you’re tall enough for that ride?” 😶
no cap i could literally go on and on about iwaizumi so imma just stop myself before i write a whole story about my weird fantasies i have whenever i go to sleep 😇
#alex thank you so much for tagging me lfmaof#sorry i got off topic a lot and got really into it dsfjnmgmm help
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I am so annoyed at going to Ada Wong tag and seeing Ada and Aeon hate too it's no use to block tags because people are just gonna tag any tag possible, look i don't wanna sound shady but cl-n has no basis and is not even a ship (like it has no content) and Aeon always has been there but all of this makes me annoyed at the fandom I know theres ships but why tag Ada? after all these years Leon still loves her its explicit why all this hate on Ada? I am findin this very depressin and weird... idk
ughn i just wanna enjoy my tag and its hard to be okay with all this hate specially when they compare with a ship thats a NOtp idk... It is just being upsetting seeing Ada receiving all this hate all the time since the re2 remake has been released i hope we get even more aeon its the only ship w leon that exists but yet i feel people are being so blinded and biased Ada is not 1% of what they made in their delusional and mistaken heads ANYWAY sorry i know im venting in ur blog and its not fair
Character hate is definitely one of those things I do not enjoy about fandom. I completely agree with what you say, anon, and I’m sorry this is making your fandom experience less enjoyable. In my opinion, this is one of the problems Tumblr has with its tag system, instead of letting people create communities. You can get hate there too, but it’s more difficult to join a community to spread hate than just tagging your post about hating a character.
I don’t think having more or less and/or canon content makes a ship better or more valid, and Leon/Claire fans have enough interactions to warrant it and the general idea that they’re good friends, so by all means go forth, ship it and enjoy it. But that definitely shouldn’t include hating on Ada (I’m not saying all Cleon fans do this, of course! Sadly the Ada hate comes every corner, but it happens some times when it involves shipping). I’ll admit I didn’t use Tumblr actively before creating this blog, so I was just lurking in my fandom tags - but it seems pretty clear that the fandom etiquette says you should NOT tag your hate. It’s ok to dislike something and rant about it in your own blog, but don’t tag it. It ruins everyone’s time in fandom and it seems clear that kind of people are just looking for a fight.
As you say, most of Ada hate comes from people’s biased vision of what Ada is, sometimes ignoring what the canon has actually established. Again: this doesn’t mean you have to like her. Everyone has their own cup of teas, and maybe the type of character Ada is isn’t yours (or Ada/Leon as a pairing). But investing time on hating things is such a waste of time, I can’t really understand why people do it. This is especially sad here, because Resident Evil fandom is kind of small and when I see something like this come up, it just gives me war flashbacks from other bigger fandoms (like Star Wars and Reylo, for example).
That being said, this is my two cents on how to avoid all the drama and have a good time in fandom: instead of searching the tag, try to follow blogs that share positive Ada content and support Ada/Leon. Muting tags (like cleon and/or leon x claire, if you’re seeing a lot of hate on those) should also do the trick. And finally: block people. If you see they’re spamming the tag, just block them. I know some people feel bad about doing it when they’ve never interacted with said users, but seriously, this is the internet and we don’t owe anyone our time.
I think RE2make has ignited a new spark to the fandom, and definitely to the Ada/Leon ship (I noticed it in how much more content there is in the aeon tag, all my Ada/Leon fics in AO3 are receiving WAY more kudos/comments than ever, and we’re getting more fics as well!). Don’t worry about venting, anon, and I hope I could help you a little bit. Fandom is about having fun and enjoying what you like, so try focusing on that and forget about haters. They’re not worth your time.
Also: let’s spread all the Ada Wong love, because our girl deserves it <3
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How is cas different from ur other girlfriends
akcjwjxia i had to wait like SIX HOURS to answer this bc of a goddamn test i had bUT OH BOY ANON AM I GONNA LOVE DOING IT alfjadjsk i just love talking about my gf i love her so much i wanna gush about her 25/8
the short answer would be basically in every way bUt imma do it part by part.
okay so, in a simplified version i’ve had relationships with people whose personalities worked well with me but who were shitty girlfriends or a good girlfriend who just didnt really fit with my personality. i’ve actually given that so much thought even before i met cass, but the point is that i met her and she was just perfect for me in both ways (technically its more complicated bc theres a bunch of logic into this that im not explaining bc my mind is weird and it would be Way too long but anyways). but ok let get into How she fits me perfectly.
first of all literally no one ever in my entire life has made me laugh as easily and genuinely as she does. im not even exaggerating, like laughing was never really A Thing for me to look for in girls bc it just never happened???? like i had fun conversations and stuff but there was never anyone that made me go “holy shit i have never laughed this much with anyone else” and we have So many inside jokes, which is a thing that i almost never have????? and i always used to wish i did bc everyone would talk about it and i’d feel like i just wasnt funny and That was the problem. and also this is really important bc its one of the things that made me realize that i liked (and eventually, came to love) her. bUT its not the only one so theres also like all these things that we like and we can talk about for HOURS like i remember when i watched infinity war and the first thing i did when i got home was call her and we talked about it for like 2 hours idek but it was great. the point is, we have a bunch of shared interests (which isnt like 100% necessary but its still really nice), wHICH LEADS ME TO: her music taste is amazing and i love that so much bc i love music With My Entire Soul and its the best thing in the fucking world (after cass & my friends and tied with the ocean) but yeah thats great too. AND i think more importantly than the last 2 things is that she is literally so fucking easy to talk to. like ever since the beginning we didnt really have that awkward phase where we run out of things to talk about and the conversation keeps dying like we never had that it just flowed so well and that was such a good feeling. another thing is also how comfortable i feel talking to her.
like i have never felt this way with any of my girlfriends bc i was always scared that i was gonna be annoying or say something Wrong and they’d start to realize i sucked and then break up with me, but shes just so kind and idk she just has this way about her that makes me feel at home and its always been there like i dont believe in love at first sight or anything like that but i swear to god the day after i met her i already felt like i could tell her anything and that was such a comforting thing and i needed that so badly at the time. i dont feel like i was able to describe this aspect very well tbh like im not doing it justice. like, she makes me feel like im not annoying at all, and like i could just randomly start ranting about anything and she would be like super invested in it, and just literally so comfortable in every sense of the word. she is my home, no ifs ands or buts, i just feel it every single time that we talk or that i simply think about her, and i have never felt this so clearly with anyone. and i think this comfort i feel with her is kinda connected with how she has always made me felt so appreciated, in a way that no one has ever done. like, i had like 2 tags about my wants and needs in a relationship, there was “my dream girl” to remind me that i shouldnt settle for anyone after i got out of a rlly bad relationship, and there was “things i wish someone would tell me” after my “first” relationship (i dont really count it bc Officially™ we only dated for a week) because my gf at the time would almost never be affectionate with me and it made me really insecure so i started that tag as a way to vent kinda. anyways my point is that i made those tags bc i would always feel super anxious in my relationships bc i never really felt loved or even wanted (aka the good personalities awful gfs relationships) i just felt like a burden and it was such a big thing for me.
okay now i’ll say that there Kinda was an exception to this before cass, because it would be unfair to say that that relationship was detrimental to my mental health, but it was still different. like, that ex did make me feel wanted most times, but not only did i still have A Lot of insecurities about the whole thing bc of some things she would say and do or not say and not do and i’d get like super uncomfortable or just sad really but also bc whenever the conversation would start to die out i was Absolutely Certain that she was gonna break up with me. it was pretty bad im not even joking. and like ofc my anxiety isnt her fault OR responsibility and like sure i still get anxious about cass sometimes but its not like that its basically just when she doesnt answer for a long time i think that something bad might have happened but even when my rude ass brain does try to tell me that she doesnt love me i KNOW that its not true, and that is a kind of peace that i have never ever had before. but anyways, so that was the good gf whose personality didnt fit mine and its weird now bc that is so obvious but i really didnt wanna believe it at the time even though i knew it wasnt gonna work out, but now its just really weird ngl (but i wont get into the why).
and now cass. wow okay let me tell you about cass. she is perfection. she is literally everything i have ever wanted AND things i didnt even know i wanted. she is everything no one else ever was and i just remembered that when we started dating in may i said that exact same sentence to abby. its just so true, she really is everything that no one else could be. because theyre not her. i’ve said this a lot of times but i really dont see how i could ever love anyone else after loving her, it just doesnt make sense to me because she really is like,, as good as it gets. there is no one better than her for me. we’re literally meant to be i s2g like when we broke up for a while i would tell everyone i wasnt really trying to move on at all bc i just hoped she would come back to me and i couldnt miss that chance. i knew she was my soulmate, although at some points i lost almost all hope (but never all) and i started thinking that maybe she was the love of my life but i wasnt the love of hers. and thats bc she really is everything ive ever dreamed of like she has all these little things that she does or say that sometimes wouldnt even mean anything to other people but to me they are So important bc theyre things ive dreamed about while my ex girlfriends ignored me akcjsjxn like, i was talking about how comfortable she feels to me and a big part of that comes from little things like the fact that even when we were just friends she would spam me when i was gone for a long time and that not only made me feel missed and appreciated but also it meant i could do that to her and it wouldnt be annoying bc she felt the same!! like, she missed me too! and me knowing that she actually Wanted to talk to me and the fact that she actually showed me she cared was super great when we started dating bc it made me feel like if i was feeling sad or insecure, i could literally just ask her to be a little more affectionate and it wouldnt feel fake bc i actually knew she cared. and you have No idea how much that meant to me bc i literally didnt know it was possible for me to feel that way. like honestly i thought it was an innate aspect of who i am that like if i asked for affection it would be meaningless? bc i’d be lowkey forcing the person to say something? but with her it felt different bc we had enough intimacy for me to feel comfortable enough to do that.
HOWEVER i never actually Had to do that bc i got insecure exactly once (1) on the first night we started dating back in may bc i didnt know how much she liked me and i was like in love with her so i thought she would think i was too much and then i told her i was sad and that i was gonna sleep and the next day when i woke up she said something along the lines of “how are you babe bc i remember you said you were sad last night and i couldnt stop thinking about it bc i want you to feel good all the time” and thats something so small but wow it just meant so much to me bc i would cry and beg any fucking force in the universe to make my last ex do Anything At All to try to make me Not Sad and it would be awful and i would feel so so unloved and then cass just said that and something clicked in me and i never doubted her feelings to an actual Meaningful extent while we’ve been together anymore (like ofc i get insecure sometimes and especially when we broke up, but while we have been dating ive never gotten like actually Sad™ specifically bc i wasnt sure she liked me) but it gets even better because some of the things she does are so so special that i never even imagined them like shes literally unreal, i literally never thought someone like her existed and its just so wild to me that i get to be with her.
and i know im saying a bunch of cliches but i mean it all so much like i remember when i was dating one of my exes i was learning her first language but she didnt try to learn mine and i really wished she would bc i just always loved the idea that someone would do that for me?? (and she was like the good gf so yknow,, just how that relationship literally did Not even compare to cass) and guess what yes cass is learning portuguese and its the cutest thing ever btw bUt the point is she does all the little things ive ever wanted in a partner (i literally have a post with a list of things i appreciate in a partner and she does all of them!! well, the ones that arent like irl or smth) also i literally have a draft in this blog that is a list of cute things cass has done/said that means a lot to me personally but i didnt post it yet ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and like theres just so so many things that i havent talked about, like how im not even sure if i was ever in love with anyone of them anymore because what i feel for cass is just so different and so much more, or like how cass actually makes me want to try to get better, which ive never actually wanted before bc it always seemed to scary, like she literally makes me wanna be not only alive but also happy bc she makes me feel like i deserve it. she has been such a good influence on me and my mental health and thats so important and its the first time someone has been this good for me.
but anyways the point is that cass is right for me in every single way like she really is my other half she literally just is everything that she is and thats how shes different from my ex girlfriends.
#according to my girlfriend i spent over 2 hours writing this#AltHouGh#she DID distract me a few times bc she was being cute#and i love her#wow i love her#i know anon is definitely not gonna read this but my girl will alhajska#mine#answered#anon#luna
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Tagged by: @t-chan
List 10 of your current favorite songs and then tag 10 people.
ooooooooooooo boi another opportunity to SPAM MY NICHE FANDOM MUSIC PLAYLIST riporoo
CLASS::CIEL_NOSURGE; --- Akiko Shikata.
lets start off with my most niche of niche fandoms, and my favorite song from there!!!!! of course, its an absolutely gorgeous song because Shikata, but i also love it because of its narrative purpose in the game its used in - it functions as a plot device to mass-produce [spoilers] and is also used as an ending credits song, which really matches the whole counting motif in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just love that sort of really layered meaning to the song ww
Ec Tisia --- Akiko Shikata.
this song is literal gibberish in its lyrics if you think about it logically, but theres still meaning bc conlangs
also i love it because the whole ar tonelico series is, in part, a giant “fuck you for ruining the environment, please care about the planet” in which the characters in the final game - the one this very song plays in as the ending credits to the best ending - try and succeed in repairing their dying planet, and so this song is officially stated to be the PLANET singing its gratitude and hopes and then theres the montage of all the games’ opening songs at the very end like HOLY SHIT im sO EMOTIONAL fU CK
Ra Ciel Fusor --- Akiko Shikata.
its a needlessly grand sounding song and thats why i love it really riporoo
ok no i also love it bc of the lyrics and its narrative relation to the game it’s featured in aka Ciel Nosurge (yeah) since its a plot device (haha aGAIN) for. literally. destroying the planet and turning it into energy for space travel, i am V SERIOUS
Everything Beneath the Sakura Tree --- Diao ye zong.
ok so all of diao ye zong’s songs, at least on this list, are fairly related to a story or character in the touhou series, which is why some of the lyrics don’t make sense without that context. the other three songs by this circle on this list share the same story background, but this one has a different focus ww
its still pretty af thoooooo
tombstones --- Diao ye zong.
MY FAVORITE!!!!! of diao ye zong’s works so far, at least. idk why, but when i first heard it, i was kinda blown away rip
burial meeting --- Diao ye zong.
its catchy. also i wanna make an art piece based a bit on its lyrics but rip effort
somewhat trustworthy --- Diao ye zong.
man maybe i should link the story to which this and the past two songs are about rip
Soleil feat. ていあら --- ていあら.
i seriously cant get over how ethereal the music is in this song, and the singer too!!!!! like it sounds amazing enough as its original miku vocaloid version, so having this human cover - with the singer being the original producer of the song to begin with - is really neat?? heckie
Tears feat. ていあら --- ていあら.
you know what im just gonna link all of my favorite tiara songs that have human covers (because if i don’t restrict it to that this whole list will be filled with her songs instead rippppp) because god damn it her work is just so pleasant to me riporoooooo
Undefined feat. Kalon --- ていあら.
please look at above riporoo
Tagging: Whoever wants tooooooooooooooooo~~ owo
also in some hindsight i guess my likelihood of liking a song depends on whether it has instrumentals in the background and how long it gets (bc apparently the longer the likelier rippppp). also cool opera vocals too i guess riporooooo
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