#ok i havent edited for like a month BUT IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER

[autisticbokutoenthusiast]

fandom get to know me better

was tagged by @nozunhinged AND @jeffsatyr so i had too

3 ships you like:

ok 3 that im into lately

villaineve- they make me turn into the joker <3

aobpuen - like i feel lik if you get it you get it like... i dont have words for them if i think about them too hard i need to bite something

sakuatsu - ride or dies the great fan artists and fic writers of the world have done such wonderful work

the three that im obsessed with currently (like fundamentally changed me

sandray - if you follow me on here you know. literally the last thing i think about before going to sleep and the first thing i think about when i wake up. they were manufactured in a lab to make me periodically lose my mind actually like, id never watched a thai series or heard of them and the only reason i chose to watch only friends was a ray edit someone made right after episode ONE that felt like it was bat signalling me and here i am 7?? months later a fully changed person..... like they will forever be a part of me now i think ill never be the same

vegaspete - similar to sandray in that i watched kinnporsche because of the vegaspete gifsets on the dash and was surprised to find out the series was not about them having bdsm sex in front of the corpse of a hedgehog like i was led to believe, not that i didnt end enjoying kp anyway. they alone would have been enough to make me obsessed but the things people create about them have changed me, thoroughly, like i am unrecognisable to myself after certain fics and fanart....

bokuaka - they are essential to my lore actually, like i dont post about them or engage with them as much as i used to because they are like my eyelashes like they are just a part of me now. bokuaka fanfic was what got me through high school tbh.

First ship ever: idk because ive wrote fic about characters since i was like 8..... actually im gonna be cringe and say chad and ryan from high school musical cause they were real to me when i was in elementary school <3

Last song you heard: good for what by little simz cause it will always get my pumped no matter what

Favorite childhood book: i read like a book a day when i was a kid but i think my favorite was the box car children even tho it traumatized me...

Currently reading: im always in a state of rereading my poetry collection and its recently been claude mckay but i need good novel recs PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME

Currently watching: at the peak of covid fever i started pit babe and im around halfway? thru now, also 23.5 the series as it comes out, and abbott elementary, and tsukutabe, also want to rewatch iwtv 2022... then theres all the shows my mutuals i posting about that i want to watch (im looking at you dead friends forever and moonlight chicken)

Currently consuming: hamantaschen that are supposed to be for tm but there raspberry jam flavored so im celebrating early 🫡

Currently craving: for food: i havent had cheesecake in like 5 years but i think about her everyday. in life: to try to get into the drag scene

ill tag @le-trash-prince @lilleeboi @jenyifer @kitas-cleaning-supplies @luminouschaotic @bokuto-my-beloved

and whoever wants to!!!

[infizero]

ok thoughts on these: (only putting this as a reply bcuz i wrote too much to fit into the tags)

i think there will ABSOLUTELY be references to fnaf being a video game. at least one

im glad we're all in agreement that if there's any kind of romance between vanessa and mike we'll all kill ourselves. please god no

i would..... definitely assume that if william is here then they will learn he is the killer? lol

horny edits of mike are inevitable. sorry

i dont think any fan songs are LIKELY. but it would be extremely fucking cool and i would scream about it forever and ever

idk about mike ending up as golden freddy somehow....... i wonder if in this CC just possesses golden freddy and maybe thats why abby is able to befriend him? bcuz that's either her dead brother or her older brother's dead brother <- i say that just cause i feel like there's a good chance that mike and abby arent biological siblings and that either mike was adopted or his mom remarried or something. but anyways either way golden freddy and abby being friends would work w mike in him too ig. i just dont rlly see the vision tbh

i feel like the animatronics trying to protect abby is likely

implied romantic fling between henry and william would be INSANE and it will never happen. but if it did i dont think i'd ever be able to recover from laughing

also skipping ahead to the topic of henry. idk if they will touch on him at all or if he even exists in this version of events. but if he does FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!! i mean henry's speech from pizzeria simulator is kind of iconic. so i could definitely see them incorporating him so that later on they could do a version of that scene

bite of 83 OR 87 mention would be freaking awesome. i could see it happening. prolly vanessa telling mike about it or something lol

if mike IS michael (which i still think is extremely likely) then 100% there is gonna be a "mike i am your father" moment

vanessa being a bad guy is VERYYYY likely imo. i know we dont rlly have any evidence so far but i mean. just the fact that she is NAMED VANESSA is reason to suspect her. also im not over this WHY DOES SHE KNOW ABOUT THE ANIMATRONICS BEING POSSESSED!!!!! WHY DOES SHE KNOW THAT!!!!!!! I HIGHLY DOUBT THE POLICE AS A WHOLE ARE AWARE OF THAT FACT. SO WHY DOES SHE KNOW THAT. sus as fuck

platonic co-parenting of abby would be awesome. idk if i'd actually want it to happen but i'd be so down for it if it did

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE PLEASEE HAVE THERE BE A LITTLE REFERENCE TO MIKE BEING AN ARTIST. ANYTHING. I WILL TAKE ANYTHINGGGG. give me a little doodle on a paper on his desk or something. i will literally take anything i just need this ok

sassy/sarcastic mike already seems confirmed just from his lines in the trailer LOL. which im very happy about. i think its funny that ppl are happy over his personality from the games being translated over and then other ppl see them and are like "???? what personality??" <- tch. clearly you havent read the survival logbook........... amateur......

matpat mpreg reference will NOT happen. sorry.

springtrap scene is sooooooooo fucking likely i will literally be flabbergasted if it doesnt happen. we've got william inside of spring bonnie at the function AND at some point its raining hard as fuck. THOSE SPRING LOCKS ARE GOING OFF BABEYYYYY

og jumpscare noise seems very likely. i will go YAYY

PRAYING for matpat/markiplier cameo. at the very least them on the employees of the month thing w the others

if there is an eggs benedict reference/joke. i will giggle maniacally

PLEASEEEEEE let there be a freddy nose honk at some point its tradition cmon

like i said before i think its very likely mike is an afton, and i feel confident that he probably doesnt know his father. which could be the result of various situations. but anyways like i said i think its likely mike was adopted into another family or his mom remarried when he was young. either way he doesnt know/remember his dad

i dont have any opinion on vanessa dying idk

like i said before, i think its very likely that CC/mike's brother possessing golden freddy

oh and uhh my free space is the forest scene they keep showing being a dream sequence i am 100% confident about this

fnaf prediction bingo!

feel free to screenshot and use

[loverdeluxe]

me opening photoshop after years of not editing: so how do i gif

[problemsleuth]

Please it's pride month u legally have to tell us ur midnight crew and problem sleuth gay headcanons

ALKFDSJF MAN WHAT tbh i havent been thinking about them that much this much but i will do it for you buddy

edit: ok now that i'm done im actually all jazzed about ps/intermission again so thank you for this ask anon LOL i had a lot of fun getting to ramble on about stuff and have an excuse to neglect work HAHAHA

guess we'll stay topical and go with like gay awakening headcanons or related. just as a general reminder this is assuming theyre all humans since carapacians probably dont have sexualities defined

Problem Sleuth - I like the whole deal where sleuth assumed he was milquetoast straight for most of his life until he met slick and was like uh oh im bisexual arent i! i think he had other close call moments but sort of mental-gymnastics'ed himself into believing it was just admiration for their hardboiledness or like Friendly Comradery fit with all the intricate rituals to touch another man. fighting and arm over each others shoulders while drinking away at the bar sort of thing. falling in love with slick sort of hit him like a truck, injuries and all. he still sometimes grapples with old habits dying hard though. no i will not elaborate :( sorry.

Hysterical Dame - think she knew for forever she was bi, like i think she had a lot of anime ass moments back when she was in school where a lot of girls would fall for her Roguish Charms and outgoing personality and it was relatively easy for her to explore from there. very much the girl knight in shining armor sort of effect from her willingness to get into fights as well.

Pickle Inspector - wow i think he was well aware he was queer from the get-go. he always knew he was weird or whatever because of his grab bag of issues and quirks, so i think him realizing he was attracted to whoever was not really that big of a deal to him. less of a gay awakening more of a gay "oh i accidentally put an extra box of cereal in my shopping cart. ok". i think if he wasn't literally crawling out of his skin with psychosis and anxiety he would enjoy old drag culture a lot. but as it stands now its way too elbow-to-elbow social and young for him to really get into it. and he's much too busy... (excuse)

Nervous Broad - similar to Sleuth surprisingly i think she had a very late sort of deal where she had the classic "wait, you dont act this way when you see cute girl?" moment with her gal pals from uni. HD being very easy to get along with and very direct made it easy for NB to realize she was developing feelings for another woman. i think NB is very much like bi/pan (she doesnt really get or feel strongly about labels) but she has a really strong preference for femmes.

Ace Dick - apologies to ace dick likers who disagree but AD to me is like the Staple Early 1900s Man from the Adverts. he has a lovely wife who he loves so much and a rambunctious boy he plays catch with on the weekends and they sit around the radio to catch the regular mystery hour. he's aware that there's been a few men about town that he'd probably be willing to get to know more personally in another life, but he's fully satisfied with his little city-suburbia Classic Heterosexual Middle Aged Couple dynamic. so basically no salient gay awakening type moments, just in tune with himself to be aware hes probably not classically as straight as people assume him to be. i also like to joke internally that he considered sleuth one of those aforementioned "men about town" before the guy went and opened his mouth, demolishing the thought before it had even finished forming HAHAHA

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now for the midnight crew...

Spades Slick - very much has lived by the code of living dangerously, down to his partners. usually tends to be drawn to the kind of people who give the impression of someone who would not have many qualms about slitting your throat in the middle of a hookup. scarysexual. think thats why in my head he's had a few on and off moments with droog (even though truthfully, droog is a lazy stringbean of a guy, despite the outward reputation that precedes him). its for sure why he's so drawn to Snowman, even though their dynamic from start to finish has never been anything close to a healthy relationship. but they both feel it works for them, so they keep going. (i think this is why him shacking up with sleuth was such a surprise to everyone that knew him well - sleuth's soft, and worse, he's got a working moral compass. that's not slick's typical mark. but he gives as good as he gets all the same, in both fighting and fucking, so slick doesnt think twice about how he's breaking status quo. and thats how he ends up catching feelings along the way). i got off topic. tldr; slicks never really thought about his sexuality so no real gay awakening moment either. more of a whoops caught feelings moment, since that was rarer and later in life.

Diamonds Droog - WORST case of hetero posturing you'll ever encounter ever in your life. kept a lot of Tasteful Female Nudes on and around him to """""accidentally"""" let slip to ascertain YES he is SO HETEROSEXUAL. there is NO DOUBT that he LOVES WOMEN. in reality he's been painfully aware that he's into men since he was practically a teen and has worked to cover that fact as thoroughly as possible since. i like to think that contributed to how he got so good at lying. and also why he's repressed as all get out fuck and extremely extremely private about his sex life. normal relationships whomst? anyways id like to direct everyone to helen's (@jawbonejoe) catholic guilt portion of the droog headcanon corner because that basically sums up a similar idea LOL

Hearts Boxcars - he's like droog where he had his gay awakening in his teen years but he was normal about it. he's just not as obvious to clock because one of his biggest hobbies is indulging in corny romance novels which are (for the most part) hetero, is passively religious, and happens to be very courteous to women as well which paints him a little as a stereotypical southern gentleman. but no hes very much a big gay man who hopes to settle down someday right proper.

Clubs Deuce - kind of a natural airhead sort of charmer, so has naturally had a lot of people of various gender identities approach him for a date or two early on. he also doesn't see the point of saying no as long as he likes them somewhat, and boy he sure does love people! later he finds out there's nifty names for the kind of people you like to date, and they come with fun colored flags - well ain't that just swell? when he gets later into his crew involvement in his early 30's, he gets less people approaching him right off the bat for intimate socializing, and since he's not really the type to reach out himself, he kind of stagnates for a while dating-wise until he hits his middle years. then he becomes Kind Of A Dilf and gets back into the dating scene. so not so much a gay awakening either.

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im zooted atm so apologies if anything is confusing or run-on, but that's basically the 411 on my sexuality headcanons for the team and crew respectively. hope u enjoyed anon!! sorry it's long. i didnt get too much into gender stuff because to be honest, my headcanons on their gender journeys are a lot less solidified in my head. i like to go with whatever headcanons the people around me lean into, since i dont feel strongly about them. this is probably because i dont feel a strong attachment to my own gender. like if gender is a spectrum i am a mote of dust that is floating nearby. generally my defaults tend to be that PI and NB are very much genderfluid and nonbinary, slick is trans (if human - i assume that due to the nature of carapacian production, gender doesnt have the same meaning or impact as it does with humans, and therefore gender identity isnt really something that's needed for them. unless specifically they're formed and prototyped into a universe that is heavily impacted by gender, in which case they can understand it conceptually. otherwise theyre out here presenting however they want down to like re-prototyping their bodies to comfort), DMSG is intersex and identifies as a woman (whoops shes not technically team sleuth but i think about here a lot), and sonhearst likes to identify as transmasc (i like to imagine AD and WH sort of being boomers about the lingo but very much being fully supportive and loving parents about it. heart in the right place sort of comedy vibes).

[sungtaro]

rubs hands hello . . . how do i start this . . this is prob gonna end up weirdly unrelated to the actual game we'll see but ill start by saying that i associate u w allen a lot which is like NOT surprising in theory bc hes ur peng twin n all that(?) but like i do think u tend to talk abt hyeongjun a lot more so like its funny to me that hes not the first eri crab i think of... another thing is like i associate u w all of trsr obviously but if i think individually then only jaehyuk comes to mind which is also funny bc then i hear u talk abt jihoon nd i go oh my god thats right u literally love this guy so bad nd it shows...nd yet?? thennn ik u like to say that sebin was unexpected but i wld actually say that abt wanji... like i keep saying that sebin makes sense Bc of wanji but wanji himself was unexpected i think... i also Know ure not entirely normal abt don but on that topic u havent spoken abt him in a while shld i be concerned.... similarly user chamhwis where is the chamhwi meltdown of the week (month).... i KNOW for a FACT that ure Not normal abt them at All... ever... hmm i also associate lia n jangjun n rano n w1 jihoon nd woo-w..woo-ur poodle son w u!!! (not Exclusively them but mostly) i also keep trying to figure out how to describe the common vibe i can FEEL between many of ur biases but i havent figured it out yet there is an eri vibe tho . maybe the vibe is orange... to think abt more i think,, either way i think they all make sense to a degree, i think u can kinda recreate your vibe by combining them ? if that makes sense ? the kind of comforting but also serotonin boost-y kinda vibe ?

as u know i giggled through this and also was surprised by some of it ... i mean the allen thing does make sense to me i AM obsessed w him even though he insists on his 'ya boy' agenda ... the jae vs jihoon thing also makes sense like if u know u know but i am much more on my jaegenda bc he needs my hype and protection more u know. i'm surprised that wanji was a surprise idk ! he wasn't the most obvious obviously but i feel like it makes a lot of sense bc i love clowns JNDHGJBD but i think also like i see a lot of myself in him but that's not how i feel abt sebin so while i get why u correlate them i don't actually love them for the same reasons like sebin is my boyfriend (completely real) and wanji is like . gestures that's my son he needs attention and so do i . like actually i can get very emo abt wanji whereas seb i'm literally just delusional abt him. DJGNJHD and yeah ok i see why aléks said 4/4 yeppis i'm abnormal that is true i'm sowwy i've been silent on this matter but i'm just very behind on content for them but i never stop thinking abt them they are my literal family. all the other names listed so true <3 we dnt need to censor woonggi here that is forever and always my child my star my baby and no matter where he is what he does etc that will forever be true 💖 orange vibe is v cute ... i do love that for me n all my beloveds

send me your assumptions: bias edition!

[foolgobi65]

careful man’s careless daughter

@philtstone prompted: Anne/Gilbert babysitter au fake dating prompt #5 let’s go laydees “you have the emotional capacity of a brick. that slate I broke over  your head.” (we’re pretending people still use slates now....american schools have no money...its possible ok) 

k so i was trying to figure out how to work in the babysitter + fake dating and ... like a flash the plot to this old telugu/tamil movie i love missamma/missaimaa came to mind -- its not quite the same because they’re two people pretending to be married so that they can make money as school teachers/live in tutors for a wealthy family’s daughter but it works just enough that i decided to roll with it lol. 

this technically isn’t the actual babysitting, nor the fake dating which I actually turned into a fake marriage lol, but i hope u still like it, even though it is all over the place and a general wreck because i wrote it straight through without any editing or thought towards pacing/characterization bc i havent written in forever lol!! im not even sure what the time period setting is lol, and i dont think my translating of the anne events into a semi modern day even works but w/e lol. 

u are the truest of friends, the light of my life, and have certainly heard more than your share of my mental breakdowns both in the last month and the last few years lol. u deserve all the good things, all the good fic, all the time. 

title is a perversion of a tswift lyric because it came up on youtube. if anyone wants to send in prompts from here

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“You owe him how much?” 

Anne sighs, crossing her legs to hide how uncomfortable she is in this moment -- here she is in the park, fifteen thousand dollars plus interest in medical debt for Marilla’s eye surgery and being hounded by Roy Gardner, ex boyfriend apparently turned loan shark who was on his knees proclaiming both love and loan forgiveness should Anne just accept his proposal. 

Here Gilbert Blythe is, sitting on a park bench after two years without contact, watching the whole thing. 

“Marilla doesn’t have health insurance,” Anne says, eyes on the ground as she uses the toe of her shoe to grind a leaf into the sidewalk cement. “Even when I was teaching, the union plan didn’t let people add parents on as dependents.” She sighs. “With everything happening with the farm, she couldn’t afford to put money towards a plan and so when her eyes got bad....” 

For a moment, there is silence. Anne can almost hear Gilbert’s jaw clench “That’s just wrong.” 

Anne laughs, and because her eyes are averted she doesn’t see Gilbert flinch. “That’s America, Blythe.” 

“Well,” she hears him say, tone just dripping with what Mrs. Rachel would call the Blythe Stubbornness, “It shouldn’t be.” 

She won’t ever admit it, but there’s something Anne has always found deeply compelling about Gilbert when he gets into these moods -- all righteously indignant in a way that Anne feels inside of her own body. Or felt, before Matthew died and left behind debts not even Marilla had known about, and Marilla’s eyes worsened around the the time Anne was let go from her teaching job and even if she had had the job it wouldn’t have mattered, she knows, but still. Beautiful, wonderful, beloved Diana had offered to help, of course she had, but Anne knew that Fred’s business wasn’t yet where it should be and that the parents Barry were still unimpressed with their son in law to be’s financial acumen. So she’d had to go to Roy, who had of course lent his beautiful Anne the money, and of course had arranged for Marilla to be treated at the best hospital in Toronto, of course had set them up in the apartment of a friend of his right in downtown where the rents were a thousand maybe two per month. He’d popped the question for the third time the second Marilla had been released back into Anne’s care. 

Almost as if he can hear her thoughts, Gilbert speaks -- “Gardner shouldn’t be harassing you like this either. Who ever heard of charging interest on a loan to a friend? And what on earth does he think he’s going to take from you if you just don’t pay?” 

Anne burns. This, she hasn’t told Marilla, nor even her darling Diana. For some reason, it seems alright to tell Gilbert. “The farm,” she mumbles.

Gilbert snorts. “I’m sorry, I must have misheard. Are you saying that Roy Gardner, heir to one of the biggest fortunes in Boston and your ex boyfriend, took your home as collateral on a loan for money you needed to pay for your mother’s surgery?” 

Anne says nothing. She still hasn’t looked up at him, hasn’t been able to meet his gaze since she sat down on the bench and told Roy to get up off his knees and wait two months for either his money or her affirmative answer. She blinks, having mercifully forgotten that Gilbert was present for that last bit. She hopes he’s forgotten too. 

“And wait, before he left you said....” No such luck. “Anne!” Anne’s sure her entire head must be flame as she closes her eyes, bringing her knees up on the park bench and burying her face into her own lap. “Anne you said you’d marry him if you couldn’t get the money!” 

“There’s no debt between spouses,” Anne mumbles. “We’d get to keep the farm, and I wouldn’t ever worry about Marilla’s health again.” 

“But you don’t love him!” She doesn’t know if she’s ever heard Gilbert sound so scandalized. 

“I used to!” she tries to retort, but even Anne knows that her voice betrays her when she tries to speak this lie. “I used to think I was,” she amends, “and maybe that’s as close as I’m allowed to get -- he’s rich, handsome, he even loves me! What more could I ask for?” 

“Coercing you into marriage, demanding interest on money that we all know is just pocket change for someone like him...that’s not love,” Gilbert Blythe responds, with all that....that all-knowing Blytheness in his voice that Anne has hated since she was 13 years old and the new kid in a class of people who had always known each other just as easily as they had known themselves. “Love is selfless, Anne, strong and kind. It makes you better for giving away your heart, even if the one you love doesn’t give you theirs in return.” 

Gilbert Blythe, always acting as if he knows something Anne does not. He speaks as if he’s been in love, at some point over the years since he was last in Avonlea and for some reason Anne absolutely burns with that knowledge. Ooh she just hates him, now at 24 just as easily as she had at 13! 

“And what exactly is love worth if it means I just lose the farm trying to pay for Marilla’s surgery, and still have nothing for the next time she’s sick?” Suddenly Anne is on her feet, hands on her hips as she glares at Gilbert looking quite alarmed as he still sits on the bench. The words she has kept locked on the inside, too private to even be written in a diary, come pouring out in one big rush:

“Three of my four parents are already dead, Gilbert Blythe.” Her voice hitches, to her horror, her sudden fury vanishes as she has to blink away the tears she has kept at bay since she and Marilla buried Matthew. Damn Gilbert, for bringing this out of her as well. “I can’t...I couldn’t bear to lose anyone else.” Her lips thin, and with a breath, her voice steadies. “I don’t care what you, or anyone else thinks about my choices if it means that I can take care of Marilla.” 

Gilbert’s eyes have the sheen of his own tears when he stands, his own lips wobbling just slightly. “I...” he swallows. “Of course, Anne.” Something Anne recognizes as self hatred passes briefly over his face, but she doesn’t understand. “I wish I had money like Gardner to give you, I really do.”   

Anne gentles, even if something inside her twists to be the object of the long-old guilt mixed with pity, much less Gilbert Blythe. Since Matthew’s death, every person in Avonlea it seems has sat with Anne and Marilla and offered their deep condolences, their absolute shock at the pair’s financial state of affairs, how much they wish they could help but sadly cannot, what with the way the bank’s collapse has hit their own finances. Only families like the Gardners survive economic crashes with money to burn. 

“I wouldn’t have taken it even if you had,” she offers instead, shrugging casually. 

His eyes flash. “But you took Gardner’s?” 

“I thought he loved me!” Anne closes her eyes, somehow feeling her cheeks flush even deeper. This is why she’s avoided all mention of Gilbert Blythe so strenuously since high school graduation, because more than anyone else he is the one who drags out the words she is always learning to keep inside. Here he is, somehow pulling confessions Anne hadn’t even dreamed of telling Diana, confessions that make her seem small, and stupid, lost in a world so much more complicated and treacherous than she can handle all on her lonesome. 

Well, she thinks, in for a penny -- 

“I thought he loved me,” she says, “and that he had the money to spare. I didn’t realize...” She looks away again, so that she never has to see him react to her folly. 

“Oh Anne,” Gilbert says, for some reason so soft and stricken that Anne’s knees go weak with her sudden desire to fall to the ground and weep. “You deserve so much better.” 

And now she’s angry again. “What would you know about what I deserve?” Anne spits, “you haven’t even been home since you started med school!” Vaguely, Anne thinks that Gilbert hasn’t been home since she and Roy had gotten serious, serious enough for her to bring him to Green Gables and show him the place that had been her very first love. Coincidences can be so strange. 

“It doesn’t matter,” she says, glaring again at the ground. “None of this matters. I’m just going to go home” Anne clenches her jaw, knowing that when she gets back to Green Gables she will go into her room and play every excruciating part of this conversation back in her head, again and again until she throws up or passes out at dawn from sheer exhaustion. Maybe both, if she’s lucky. She leans back slightly and manages to turn around on her heels, a trick Gilbert Blythe had always pulled at school and had had girls thinking he was so cool.

She’s five minutes away from the park bench when suddenly she hears him call out her name. 

“Anne,” he shouts again much closer, bending at his waist to balance his hands at his knees as he pants. “God, it really has been two years since I was on the university football team.” 

Despite the roiling emotions of five minutes ago, Anne’s lips quirk. “I can’t imagine you all practiced very much to end up near the bottom of your league every year.” 

Gilbert’s eyes widen, and for some reason he flushes. Maybe he’s so out of shape that it’s from exertion? “I didn’t realize you kept up with my matches.”  Ah. Anne, it seems, will experience nothing else but one long sustained flush as long as she is in front of Gilbert Blythe. “You know,” she tries to say casually, “you hear things here and there. Diana told me the village gossip.” 

Gilbert opens his mouth, but then suddenly shakes his head, like a dog trying to dislodge water from its fur. “I have...” he frowns. “I have a proposition for you.”  Anne raises what she hopes is an elegant eyebrow. “Oh?” 

He grimaces. “There’s a boarding school, a Catholic one, that’s asking for teachers over the summer for a few of their select students who want to be coached for college admissions. Essays, standardized tests, everything. They’ve got heaps of money, and are willing to pay salaries up front. Plus, they cover all your expenses while you’re there!” 

Anne blinks, feeling the beginnings of hope gather as kindling at the very dredges of her heart. Once, both Anne and Gilbert had competed so well against each other that they had both gotten into Harvard. Then, Matthew had died, and Anne decided she could just as easily get a teaching degree at the state school and stay closer to Marilla too. Gilbert alone had had the distinction of being the first from Avonlea to reach such heights, and had reached even higher when he had been accepted again to Harvard Medical School. 

But at one point, both Anne and Gilbert had taken their SATs. They’d both written their application essays. They’d both gotten in. Anne, even, had been offered a full ride compared to Gilbert’s only partial scholarship, so there could even be an argument that of the two, Anne had been the one on top. 

And if nothing else, Anne is even better at teaching than she was at taking tests. 

“I’ll do it,” she says firmly. “Where and when do I need to report, and how much money are they offering?”  For a second, a bright, dazzling grin paints Gilbert’s face. “Really? Ten--” he coughs, “Twenty thousand.” Anne frowns. 

“Each?” It sounds like a dream come true. Five thousand more than Anne needs, and paid upfront. She could save the farm, and put away five thousand towards the farm’s debts. “That sounds....exorbitant.”  He nods, suddenly more confident. “Yep! Twenty thousand for sure.” He laughs. “I know Gardner was supposed to be slumming it at state school, but you really can’t be surprised at how much money rich people are willing to throw at a problem.” 

“The problem being...their children.”  Gilbert’s grin turns wicked. “The problem being their children’s SAT scores, and lack of compelling anecdote to base an admission’s essay on, yes.” 

Anne laughs, wicked in this moment as well. She wishes in this moment, fiercely, as she has many times over the last few years, that she had been able to go to university with Gilbert at her side -- as the friends they had slowly begun to be after years of one and two sided enmity, before time and distance had turned them into near strangers. She doesn’t regret staying back, not really, but there is a part of her that no one had ever understood half as well as Gilbert Blythe, who had, after the Harvard interest meeting, drawn and pinned up a schedule for practice SATs that took into account both his and Anne’s often conflicting life schedules. 

“What’s the catch,” she asks, grinning when Gilbert chokes “come on, Blythe, there’s always a catch with offers like this. Is it across from a waste manufacturing plant? Is the principal a pervert?” 

Slowly, Gilbert Blythe is turning red. “Ah,” he says, shuffling like he never did even when he was an errant schoolboy. “Well,” he says, and....is that his voice cracking? 

“Gilbert,” Anne says, trying to reassure him, “I grew up in the foster system, I can handle much worse than bad smells and pervert principals, I promise.” 

He frowns. “It’s not that,” he says slowly, “but basically they’re looking for two teachers, a man and a woman to manage the boys and the girls while the rest of the staff go on vacation.” 

Anne smiles, trying to ignore the jolt of her heart at the thought of an entire summer with Gilbert, studying like they used to but as friends. Her old dreams, finally coming true. “That’s perfect then, you take one job and I’ll take the other! It’ll be like old times, kind of.” 

He smiles faintly, as if, even after locking horns with the best and brightest at Harvard, Anne is still the person he wants to be trading barbs with over the heads of high school students for months on end. “I’d like nothing better, he says, except...” 

“Except?” 

Gilbert inhales. “ExceptTheSchoolWillOnlyHireAMarriedCoupleSoThatTheyDon’tHaveToWorryAboutOutofWedlockSexorTeachersHavingSexWithStudents.” All in a rush, and now Gilbert is the one who can’t apparently handle eye contact.

“What?” 

“The school,” Gilbert says to his shoes, “since it’s Catholic, and also since they’re lazy, only want a married couple so that they don’t have to have anyone watching to make sure the teachers aren’t having sex with the students. Or each other.” 

Anne blinks. “But we’re not married!” 

Gilbert grimaces, opening his mouth, but then just biting his lip. They could be, Anne thinks, only a tad hysterical. Only all of Avonlea was matching them up all the years of high school, and even the years after until she’d met Roy. It would be so easy to get a certificate. They could get a divorce by September, even annul their marriage since they definitely wouldn’t be having sex. 

Twenty thousand dollars. 

“So what you’re saying,” Anne says slowly, her lip curling of its own accord “is that after all that talk about what love is and isn’t, and telling me that I shouldn’t marry Roy for the money he’d give me, your blockheaded solution is instead, for me to marry you?” 

Gilbert looks up. “Well when you put it that way--”  Anne sees red, even as she already sees herself in one of her old white lace dresses, standing with Gilbert at the courtroom and signing. “Gilbert Blythe I don’t believe you! Sometimes, I think that you really do have all the emotional capacity of that slate I broke over your head!” 

“I know,” he says tone heavy with something so sad that Anne’s hearten softens a bit of its own accord. “But you really need the money, and I promise we’ll get a divorce by September.” He smiles, but there’s something bitter at the corners that Anne has never seen before -- she almost raises her hand to rub the strand of emotion off his lips. “And you’re not the only one who needs the money. Will you do it?” 

Twenty thousand dollars. The farm, Marilla, an end to the eternal pity of Avonlea. And also, a small part of her suggests, an opportunity to finally spend time with this new Gilbert Blythe who went off into the world and left her behind. 

She sighs. “I vote that you be the one to tell Mrs. Lynde.” 

[bangtanata-blog]

Misha’s 100+ followers’ follow forever thing ft. Gudetama, a lazy ass 2 min edit done with shaking hands, suggested by Jenny and actually done after a pep talk with Heena.

I can’t really talk about how happy I’ve become after knowing about BTS and actually becoming their fan, bc some of their songs do... help, in a way. Like, 21st Century Girls, So Far Away, 4 O’Clock, Miss Right, etc--they have.... helped me, in going through some days. I just had a bad week, month, whatever, and I was a bit stupid today bc I researched some stuff that probably shouldn’t be researched... So I thought that maybe doing a positive thing will help today after hours of listening to music proven unsuccessful.

So... here it is, a list of people, both mutuals and non-mutuals. I’m sorry if my mention annoys you or bothers you, especially if we’re not mutuals. But I just want to let you know that by making these mentions, I wanna voice out how your presence in my dash actually help me a whole lot, and that is why I’m still upset that Indonesia has tumblr blocked.

bold - mutuals / normal - non mutuals / the list is not in alphabetical orders. i will mention mutuals first. / all mentioned people have something written for them. i’m sorry if some are too long or too short. jsyk i love you all.

@clairelions​ 💜 chiara 💜 thank you for following me back that day, it made me scream internally and eternally; i was really happy when i found out about it. i really look up to you! not only bc you’re older, but you’re also nice and sweet, not to mention polite, and i really aspire to be as kind as you someday. sometimes i still laugh at my mistake in sending that anon message without clicking the anon button, but it’s really sweet over how you take it so calmly and even still accepts my anonymous messages when you know that it’s me. i love your edits, i love your jikook aus, your hogwarts aus (the hogwarts aus have a special place in my heart... i haven’t forgotten that i want to write a fic for it someday!) and many others. i hope your redbubble stuffs get more purchases, and that you’ll have a great day, don’t forget to stay healthy and hydrated. ilu 💜

@yoonkia​ - So, this is the nice thing I was talking about. I like making people happy, so this is okay, I guess. The gudetama was made in a spur of moment and tbh Gudetama is a Huge Mood but anyway, thank you so much for messaging me. I didn’t think anyone would, and I didn’t even know why I made that post. I only realized I was shaking when I saw your message, thank you. (Also, I’m more eloquent now. This is actually how I talk usually!! dhklslshd i’m sorry you had to see that strange me). I actually really like seeing you on my dash, and I’m??? always happy to know we’re mutuals even tho we barely talked dshjkfjd I hope that we can talk more;; you need to know that i’m usually funny //hEH. again, thank you 💜

@jvnckles - jENNY HAHAHAHAHA I DIDNT END UP USING MY SKETCH OF TAEHYUNG IM SORRY BUT I HOPE YOU LIKE THE GUDETAMA ANYWAY WWWW 💜 Jenny jenny jenny ilu it’s such a happy coincidence when i saw you on Fahreen’s blog and when I found out you’re Indonesian I just have to follow you bc!!!! aaaa!!!! I don’t regret it one bit you’re such an angel and ilu and dont let mean pouty anons get in your way, you’re amazing and lovely and you deserve a lot of good things in this world hun 💜 i wish you the best of luck with the upcoming college days lmao i hope you dont suffer like i do 💜💜 ilu nak stay strong yah wwww

@jungcock - miaAAAAaaaa we don’t talk much but youre!! such!! a blessing!! in my dash your tags are funny your text posts are funny and your fic is great ilu even tho im worried about your health bc you’re high sometimes when i see you on my dash (it’s mostlikely a culture shock-- since we don’t really get high here. it’s basically illegal anyway) but you do you, buddy, just stay healthy and safe ok?? your writing gets me motivated to do some actual writing myself lmao i hope my weakass self can actually update something soon. ilu 💜

@kookieholic - i dont see u a lot in my dash... it’s probably a timezone thing :c but you’re a sweet sweet person and ilu and thank you for existing i hope we can be friends someday 💜

@cyphertaehyungie / @kikiwho - !!!!!! i’m still amazed that you’re... following me, tbh. I love your edits, i love your posts, you sound like such a sweet person and hdsshk yeHA thank you! 💜

@hosehok - 💜💜💜 We havent talked in a few but I always get pleasantly surprised whenever I see you back on my dash. Thank you for existing, I love you.

@kimtaehyungl - You’re a constant presence in my dash; it would seem weird for me if you’re suddenly not there, tbh. I love your posts, I love your contents and your tags and honestly thank you for brightening my day, every day 💜

@taegayhyung - I don’t see you a lot too :c A timezone thing? Mostlikely. I’m sorry we never really talk, but I’m sure you’re a gr8 person 💜

@faenam - I screamed when you followed me back, still scream when I see you on my dash. You’re so... chill sometimes and actually cool but also you’re??/ cute? I don’t know how to say this properly? Am I being creepy??? dhslsgjdks anYWAY thank you for being on my dash, I love you and your contents and I hope we can be friends 💜

@taehyungtrsh - bABY (i dont know why I said that, but oh well?) thank you for following me back and thank you for interacting with me whenever we’re able to! I’m too shy to really send anything else other than asks but you’re honestly very kind and fun and just!!! thank you, you made me feel at home and at ease when I first started this blog and you made me feel like I’ve made friends in this fandom. Thank you 💜

@hobisuki - 💜💜💜 First of all, I wish you the best of luck in your upcoming college years. I’m sure that whatever path you choose you can find something good out of it and that you’ll flourish; it’s okay even if it’s not your first choice, it doesn’t mean you’ve lost your path to a bright future. There are other pathways you can take and it’ll lead you there nevertheless. Tbh wow I can quote something from So Far Away right about now lmao but yeHA goodluck bb i’m sure you can do it!! Thank you for following me and thank you for brightening my dash, ilu 💜

NON-MUTUALS MENTION START HERE

@booptaegi - Hello! First of all, I’m sorry if this mention bothered you or anything; I just want to tell you that I love seeing you on my dash, your contents make me smile and sometimes your tags make me laugh. I love.. the taegi contents..... (I just love all ot7 dynamics but dsjkhd shhhh ilu) I hope that you’ll have an amazing day today; please don’t forget to stay healthy and hydrated, don’t forget to eat! 💜

@jhsmixtape - Hello, I’m sorry if this mention bothered you or anything, but I just want to let you know that sometimes i come in the form of an anon I love seeing you on my dash. You’re funny and your interactions with your mutuals and anons make me laugh everytime! Your tags and your text posts and others are so funny as well, so thank you, thank you, for making me laugh 💜

@yoonseok - hello, I’m sorry if this mention bothered you or anything, but I just want to let you know that I love seeing you on my dash. Your gifs and contents are top notch, and you’re actually nice and p relatable dsjkdfj I’ve seen some mean anons bothering you before, and I want to tell you that whatever they may say about you, please know that I do appreciate you and like seeing you on my dash, and that although you seem awkward and super blunt, you’re actually p sweet :’) Please don’t let the anons drag you down. You’re a kind person and you deserve many good things. Please don’t forget to eat healthy and stay hydrated (as a side note though... make sure never to take too much water again :’D), I hope you’ll have an amazing day!

@jimiyoong - Hello, I’m sorry if this mention bothers you! I want to let you know that you’re a sweet sweet person esp whenever I see your interactions with the anons, how patient and mature you are, etc. I love seeing you on my dash, and as I mentioned above, your presence actually makes me happy sometimes. Thank you 💜 I hope you’ll have a nice day, please don’t forget to stay hydrated!

@vanillalattaes - 💜💜💜💜 Okay you probably already know who I am thanks to my name HJDSGHKSJD aNYWAY yeah I can’t believe this is the Grand Reveal but hey at least it’s not a stray message like how it happened with Chiara dhsklsk Hello, it’s me, Cappuccino, and no pressure over finally knowing who I am (as in you don’t have to follow me back if you don’t want to!!!!). I’m sorry if this mention bothers you, but I just wanna let you know that I’m really really happy to have you as my friend, Fahreen. I can’t stress this enough, I’m so happy to see you on my dash, mostly it’s bc I know then that you’re healthy and safe 💜Thank you for listening to my rants whether that one time on the rabbit site or through the anonymous messages. You’re a genuinely kind person and I’m happy to have you as my friend 💜 You make me happy and feel loved and honestly you’re one of the reasons why I’m so content in staying in this bts blog and in this fandom overall. I love that we both love spicy foods, I love that we can bond over cake. You’re a sweet, sweet person and I hope that you’ll have a nice day. Please don’t forget to eat and stay hydrated! Thank you Fahreen, you’re appreciated!!!

[myficsknowwhatyoudidinthedark]

Maxx Danziger x Reader “What Goes Around Comes Around

(SO this fic is for @luvdickgrayson and she/he requested a fic where the reader is a teacher. Im going to say she is a 3rd grade teacher so the kids are so young and cute and with have the same teacher all day everyday. So she/he wants a fic where it is Valentine’s day. I’m going to say that SIO is on tour and they decide to surprise the reader ,Who I will name Lara. Feel free to change that. So not only is he going to surprise her, but he also going to propose with the help of the students and the rest of SIO. I also think I want to add a little bonus a the end so I think I will do a whole youtube video about all she does for the students and all that fun stuff and to make it easier to come up with a last name she is Cody’s sister. SO yeah, I enjoy those videos and I hope you guys enjoy this fanfic! BYEEE!)

(Maxx’s POV) 

      So today is the day I finally do this. Dan is driving and Zach and Cody had set up a camera in the van (This will be when they traveled in the van instead of the bus). Then Cody hits the record button and begins talking. “Hey, whats up everybody. So today is Valentine’s day and we may or may not have lied to Maxx’s girlfriend and said we have tour dates all this week. Cause we purposely left a gap as we have been planning this for months. So Maxx would you like to explain further?” Cody says as he points the camera at me. I smile and nod.

    “So my girlfriend Lara, who is Cody’s sister, is a school teacher. She is known to every parent and student as the best teacher they have ever met. She get’s the student breakfast every morning, lunch every afternoon and she always has snacks. She loves to teach these kids new things and makes sure that everybody understands. She stays late for kids who need extra help with classwork or homework and she always tries to make the class as fun as possible. That’s what makes her the greatest.” I say and the guys all ‘awww’

     “So like Cody was saying, it is Valentine’s day and she is alone this year due to tour. OR SO SHE THOUGHT!” I yell and the guys all go ‘Dun Dun DUNNNN!’

     “So the school wants to show how amazing of a teacher she is and to show everybody how much a teacher can change kids lives. But little does she know, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND! So we called the school last week and asked if they could call Lara or Ms. Carson, out of the class and tell the students that this week they where going to have a nice celebration about there amazing teacher, and the kids apparently are very good with secrets as nobody slipped up. So we have the surprise factor that she isn’t going to get much teaching done, but also that her best friends and boyfriend are going to surprise her and she may get a ring on that finger after almost 4 years. SO YEAH LETS DO THIS!” I yell as i throw my hands up in the air.

     “Maxx, quick question before we cut to the clips of you talking about her. Are You Nervous?” Cody asks as he points the camera at himself then back at me.

     Zach chimes in (WITH A HAVENT YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF! Im so not sorry for that) “WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT! OF COURSE HE’S NERVOUS!” And gets everyone to laugh.

     “Oh no, Im absolutely terrified right now!” I reply as Cody just nods and turn the camera back to himself. Now we shall edit in the whole motage of them, So yeah. We’ll turn this back on when we get there.

(Nobody’s POV for the montage)

     “Hi, This is Maxx from SIO. But, this part of this video isn’t about me. This is going to be about the most amazing woman besides my fam, that I have ever met. Her name is Lara Carson and she is Cody’s sister. Lara is such an amazing person. Her heart is always in the right place and she will do anything for her student or all of us in the band. She is always super calm in situations where all of us would freak out. She always has the most amazing advice. Oh, and did I mention how Amazingly Beautiful and smart she is. Like, the woman could speak one word and your in love and extremely inspired and confident.”

     “Lara and I have been together for 4 years now and we have talked about getting married before. So now that I have finally built up the courage to ask, I decided to do it before I chicken out.” Maxx says as he laughs.

     “This is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am absolutely head over heels for her. She is like, the biggest nerd when it comes to shows, movies and video games, so she is like a female me. She is just so amazing, that it’s hard to describe how much I love her. But, I honestly mean every word I said. I just hope that she says yes.” He says as he chuckles lightly. 

     “I just can’t wait to ask her.” He says and then the video cuts back to the guys making a call in the van.

(Lara’s POV. This is the video the school is shooting into the surprise)

     “So Ms. Carson, what is a class like for you. How do you ensure that they thrive and that nobody feels left out?” The cameraman says.

     “Well, A class should be a fun but focused place. If your strict the kids will feel as though this place won’t be fun. It’s a place for kids. They are still young so the best way to help them learn is to make everything in to a game. They all just make it have so much life and energy” I say

     “But some of the kids have families that are financially struggling.” I start as I begin to tear up. “There parents don’t always have the money for breakfast and lunch. So everyday, I wake up early and I go to a bagel store or the super market and I get them a healthy breakfast, and I pick up food for Lunch and I grab a ton of snacks to make sure that they aren’t  hungry in my class. These kids just mean so much to me. I just want to help them have an amazing childhood ya know, Set them up for there futures, so one day I can look on the news and see one of my students making a difference.” I continue as I begin to cry.

     “How do you inspire them to do what they want to do?”

     “Well, that’s the easy part. You just tell them, that they can do it, as long as they work for it. A lot of my kids say that they want to be Musicians. So I will tell the kids stories about my amazing boyfriend and my best friends and brother. They are in a band. And they worked so hard to get where they are today. You just have to help them understand that they can do absolutely anything that they set there mind to. And when you say that, there whole face will light up. I just want them to be confident in there decisions. I tell them that if they are pushed down by negative people, you tune them out. You get right back up again, brush off the dirt and you try again and again until they can’t deny you.” I answer the question.

     “Well, the kids seem to love you just as much, maybe even more than you love them, if that’s even possible. So the school set this up and a little surprise in your classroom. Why don’t we walk over.” The cameraman says. I get up and use a tissue i was handed to wipe away tears. We walk to my classroom followed by camera’s and such. When I get there, all the students and there parents are there and clap as I enter. I smile and see that people had brought in snack and decorations for the whole classroom. I cover my mouth and begin to tear up again. All the kids run over and begin and giant group hug.

     “Oh my gosh. You guys are the best.” I say as we all break the hug and go to sit. “Wow. This is amazing.” I say to everybody when Brendon raises his hand (Im using band member names because thats easiest.) 

     “Yes Brendon?” I ask and he hold up an envelope and says “We all wrote you letters, so we are going to read them to you at the front of the class. I just smile and wave my hand so he runs up. I move my chair from the front to the side of the desks so everybody can see.

     One by one everybody read there letter. There was a lot of crying and laughing and smiles. It just felt so amazing that these kids could think of all this amazing stuff to write about. Once Sarah reads her letter as she was the last kid, since we went in a circle and she sits in front of Brendon, her letter closes off saying, “We all hope you enjoyed our letters but we still have one last surprise for you. All of us feel that you will enjoy it.” She says and runs to her seat. I stand in front of the class confused when I hear the door open behind me.

(Maxx’s POV)

     We had finished setting up all the decorations and snacks for the class and then say “Ok, so we let the crew know that we are done. We are going to head across the hall, you guys know the rest” Cody says with a smile. “Good job everybody. You all did an amazing job keeping this from my sister, who you all know as Ms. Carson.” He continues as we all wave at them and they say there series of goodbyes as we head across the hall to a deans office. She would be in the classroom and let us know when to go in.

     After what felt like forever, we see her wave is outside and she opens the classroom door. Lara just has a huge smile on her face as she runs over to us and hugs us. The whole classroom claps. “Now Lara. Did you really think I would let the love of my life be alone on Valentine’s day?” I say as I get an individual hug and then a kiss. She just laughs and nods. “You told me you guys had tour dates all week. You lied to me!” She yells and everybody in the class laughs.

     “Well, like she said, we do have a surprise for you.” I say as we turn to the board where the picture compilation was about to play with my message. (You guys know the message. I’ll paste it here again and put it in bold letter so you can skip over it if you want)

     (Lara’s POV)

     “Hi, This is Maxx from SIO. But, this part of this video isn’t about me. This is going to be about the most amazing woman besides my fam, that I have ever met. Her name is Lara Carson and she is Cody’s sister. Lara is such an amazing person. Her heart is always in the right place and she will do anything for her student or all of us in the band. She is always super calm in situations where all of us would freak out. She always has the most amazing advice. Oh, and did I mention how Amazingly Beautiful and smart she is. Like, the woman could speak one word and your in love and extremely inspired and confident.”    

      “Lara and I have been together for 4 years now and we have talked about getting married before. So now that I have finally built up the courage to ask, I decided to do it before I chicken out.” Maxx says as he laughs.    

     “This is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am absolutely head over heels for her. She is like, the biggest nerd when it comes to shows, movies and video games, so she is like a female me. She is just so amazing, that it’s hard to describe how much I love her. But, I honestly mean every word I said. I just hope that she says yes.” He says as he chuckles lightly.

     “I just can’t wait to ask her.” He says and then the video cuts.

     I am crying at this point and turn around to Maxx on one knee hold a box in his hand. “Lara. Everything I said about you in that video is true. Including the part where I hope you say yes. So Lara Carson, Will you marry me?” He asks and I cry even harder. 

     “Of Course I will Maxx!” I say as I jump up and down and he put the ring on my finger. When he stands up, I envelop him in a huge hug and then we kiss. The whole class claps and Cody is crying and Zach and Dan are just there trying not to cry. All the students run up to us and make our hug and group hug. The rest of SIO joins in as well. “Best Valentine’s Day EVER!” I yell and eveybody laughs. The rest of the day was spent with Maxx and I sitting in the front of the room talking with the kids and parents and exchanging stories. All the kids where asking the boys about the band and what it was like. The boys would gladly tell stories and yell out and run around acting out the stories making the kids laugh.

     Maxx and I just watch and they would occasionally have him join in. I think the kids really liked when Maxx would yell in most of his stories. They even enjoyed the short story of when Dan was deflating the balloon and while it was almost done deflating Maxx screamed with it and kept screaming in the back of the Van after it deflated. I think this will really help the kids understand that even when you work hard you can still have so much fun. And I think a lot more want to be musicians now.

________________________________________________________________     BONUS-

     After Valentine’s day the school gets a week long break from school. The video we shot from the school was on the news and all over social media and everything. And the video SET IT OFF shot to go along with it was also everywhere. Right now though I was blind folded in a car with Maxx holding my hand, Dan driving and Cody and Zach just cracking jokes. So the usual, you know. 

     “Alright! We are here.” Dan yells. Maxx picks me up carrying me into a warm building. The short walk ended with me on a soft couch. Maxx removes my blind fold and i’m in front of a large crowd on Ellen. The crowd the cheered and everyone got to talking.

     “So, the video really touched our hearts. So Shutterfly has given us a few large checks. This one is for you. This is going to help you get all the snacks and food you get for your students. And this one is going to the parents the parents of those students. You said you wanted to help them live out there childhood as worry-free children so that’s what Shutterfly wanted to help make that come true with.” She says as I put my head in my hands and Maxx hugs me. I then get up and hug Ellen and continuously thank her for all she is doing to help them.

     “Thank you all so much, We will be back after the break.” She says as we hug again and say out goodbyes. “Maxx! Oh my god! I can’t believe she did that for them. AHHH IM SO HAPPY!” I yell as I jump into his arms and hug him. He then carries me to wherever we are going. Man... This has been an amazing month so far.

WOW WOW WOW! I DID NOT EXPECT THIS LONG OF A STORY! THIS IS ALL IMPROVISED! ITS SO CRAZY! I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED IT! FEEL FREE TO SEND ME SOME REQUESTS BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY MAXX STORIES PLANNED IN MY HEAD THAT I WANT TO WRITE!!! BYE GUYS!!! MUCH LOVE!

                                                                                       ~Astral

[eludum-a]

500 follower follow forever!

it happened. god knows why so many of you are here, but apparently you like what i do, so... well, thank you! to everyone! but this is a very informal follow forever meant specifically for people i speak to regularly/people i consider my friends/people i feel i owe something to. i haven’t done anything like this since the 100 follower mark, so please bear with me. 

i felt like i needed to do this because, in the wise words of taako the wizard, “it doesn’t always have to be goof goof dildo. i’m traveling around with the boner squad and i never get to say... what i’m feeling! i have emotions!”

if you’re not here, please don’t feel like i don’t appreciate you! i only have the energy for so much love here in my body. if you’ve been inactive/are on hiatus, i might have missed you, and if we haven’t really talked a lot ooc, same thing applies.

(i have been working on this on and off for weeks. im so tired pls just let me be finished with it)

anyway, call outs below the cut!

@unsuspicious: cou, you send me so many baffling and strange images at all hours of the day. i had to lead up with this because where do you even get all those. anyway, you’re definitely the person i talk to the most every day, and it’s weird as shit to think that the last thing in tumblr messenger was me sending you the link to the discord channel. you’re a fantastic roleplayer when you actually roleplay and you’re fun to have around!

@hismalice: raz you are one of my favorite people on this god forsaken hell site and don’t ever forget that. if you need a reminder you can come back here and look at this and see this seal of approval, and also the mental image of me saying “no, fuck you” to your negative thoughts and then punching them in the face heaven slaying dragon fist style. if you ever wanna talk you know where to find me and it’s also ok if you don’t want to!! i’ll still be here regardless.

@cantalazarus: god bless the hinatatas, may they grow strong and powerful this year. amen. on a more real note: this is my official notice that i really appreciate you just... in general, as a person, even if im an asshole who has trouble with, like, Feelings and shit. so there’s that. same as with raz above, you obviously know where to find me whenever you wanna talk. and take as long as you need to recharge your batteries!! no rush

@mxssias: ALEX MY MAN... BOY... GUY! DUDE, PAL, WHATEVER. your naegi is LIT. i love the good good egg boy so much and you do him justice!! you don’t just focus on the lighter aspects of his character, but you recognize his various struggles as well! you’re also just a fun person to talk to and i’d love to do more naenami in the future of COURSE

@ayatsurii the sparkliest of cats! yo, sparkle, thank u for turning me on to pekonami because it’s so good and pure, and thank you also for trying to keep things from burning down in the chat when we get too rowdy (even if you’re not successful... we can’t be tamed). i look forward to future pekonami interactions!

@snappshot: sarah is wonderful at everything she does, sorry i dont make the rules. you’ve been around this blog for what feels like forever now?? first as mahiru (and your mahiru rly captured my heart) but also sayaka and kaede and your persona muses are equally wonderful! idk what i’d have done if you weren’t there to reassure me i was doing a good job. god bless sarah

@anemoia-avenoir / @ongakuvoices: rrrrrrrrIO! you’re lovely and you should know it. i know we don’t really talk much ooc but you definitely deserved a spot in here! your passion for your muses is incredible! your love for them shows in the details of your writing, and i know it can be frustrating sometimes to feel like you’re not good enough (believe me... i have been there many times), but believe me... you’re gonna do amazing things, i just know it.

@malchancevilain YOU STILL OWE ME 15 DOLLARS AND I AIM TO COLLECT, GREG GRIMALDIS. NO MATTER WHERE IN THE MULTIVERSE YOU ARE. ahem. we share a lot of common interests, watchy, and i really do love your luckgami, like, a lot. i love how different his background is without changing who he is fundamentally as a person, aka a snob

@shpionaz: *insert obligatory ‘like a boss’ joke here* ok now that we’ve gotten that over with,,, im so grateful i got a chance to play out the oumanami brotp interactions with you because that was on my wishlist almost as soon as i found out about their sprite similarities and we didn’t even have to try, it just happened. you’re first ouma in my heart forever and i can’t wait to do some things with your oc too!!

@gambogeish: it’s kind of ironic how i didn’t finish twewy until we became friends, when it was first gifted to me by my boyfriend... it’s probably just the difference in maturity/gaming ability from then to now, but ANYWAY: i am so glad to have met you. you’re one of the first people in the community i’ve really connected with, and you’re an awesome person who i’d love to roleplay with regardless of muse. i’ve got a virtual high five right here waiting for you. o/

@pseudxcode syd, god bless your chihiro, honestly. he’s such a sweet little guy and i love his interactions with chiaki! of course i’ve always been a fan of these two together (even when she’s NOT an AI created by him), because their talents complement each other so well! they’re good for each other. i’d love to see more chiaki & chihiro action, especially if it involves chiaki encouraging him and reassuring him that he’s not as weak as he thinks he is.

@kibcu / @krclowa we only recently started talking but you’re such a welcome addition to thotchat, liz! take that as you will. this one’s probably gonna be a bit short but im looking forward to platonic naenami interactions and ur sonia too! aunty nanami’s gonna babysit the hell out of those naegi kids (aka give them all smartphones and sit back and relax)

@synthxsizxr GOOD IDOL, BEST SISTER, AKI LOVES HER HARU even if she really doesnt understand the idol lifestyle like, at all. chi, you yourself are very sweet and kind, it’s wonderful having you here in this community! i hope you’re having a lot of fun with your talentswap chiaki and i hope 

@relixum / @lxckyclovers: i hope you two don’t mind that i put you together here. i know you’ve been busy with school lately (good luck with that, by the way!!) but i didn’t want you to think i forgot about you! you guys make a mom/dad/parental unit so proud. you’re wonderful writers and i hope you find happiness wherever you go. *bob belcher voice* you’re my family and i love you but you’re terrible, you’re all terrible.

@tcndcrloins levi you’re the other constant presence in thotchat and you’re such a fun person to have around. you’re so welcoming and comfortable in a sense that i never feel like i’m bothering you, and thats a pretty incredibly accomplishment considering how often i convince myself im annoying. get those drafts done, i believe in you!!

@delinqueon avery, you were probably the first person within the community i talked to one on one, and thank god you approached me because at that point i never would have had the courage to speak up! your leon is such a delight to interact with and so are your other characters. one day you’ll get me back for making you read the bee movie script out loud for fifteen minutes.... one day

@betraycd last but not least, first i have to thank fin for my current editing software that i still have yet to figure out even 10% of ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) but i’ll get there! fin, i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: i absolutely adore your souda, all of the time and effort you’ve put into his characterization and how you don’t ignore the uglier parts of his personality. he’s a lovely flawed boy and you really do him justice!

after word:

like any community with more than a few people, there have been ups and downs in the path few months. i wanted to add here as a general shout out that i have never felt so welcome and loved in a community that i originally would have thought would be more disjointed than what you might find on a forum. like, i’ve changed a lot thanks to you guys! i’ve been able to get over some of the hurdles of my social anxiety (i didnt jump over them so much as drag myself across the ground and painfully crawl over them) and i just... i feel good? i feel like people like me? there are still times where my anxiety insists i’m nothing but a useless burden, but i actually... feel like people enjoy having me around? holy shit!

i made some really cool new friends and got to know a different kind of roleplay community. im overall incredibly grateful for this wild and weird journey i’ve been on, and the journey certainly isn’t over by any means! i hope to keep seeing you guys around!

these words really arent even enough to express my gratitude. i havent been to some really dark places, but there for a while i felt like i was almost completely alone. i simply wasn’t connecting with other people like i wanted to. about 3-4 years ago i lost contact with (long story) my roleplay partners of 4 years and it wasn’t an easy thing to recover from, but i’m here now and it’s just... really good! incredible, even!

komussy

[jane-wei]

1. What’s the best thing that happened to you this month? creating a workout schedule, slow and steady for a year

2. What is something you’re tired of? white men, even though i am one, but mainly the ones who think theyre “the shit”, which again could be a subconcious analysis of myself

3. What is something that recently moved you? the surrport from all relgious communities after the christchurch white supremist attack

4. If you could teach one subject in school what would it be? acting or writing

5. What’s your favorite beverage? before 6 a cuppa tea after 6 guiness

6. What’s your favorite cocktail? pina colda, mind you i really havent got that wide of a palet when it comes to alochol, but something with boubon is alway snice

7. What is your favorite birthday cake? carrot cake

8.What is one thing you still have from your childhood? i have many things my parents saved but my favorite are my 2 childhood teddies, they sit atop my collection of stuff

9. What is your favorite movie? star wars

10. What is something you can’t do? run a marathon, yet

11. What is one habit you wish you could break? self sabotaging

12. What makes you laugh no matter what? pheobe waller bridge

13. What does creativity mean to you? expression in whatever way it comes out

14. What are your favorite lyrics of all time? nothing specific but i feel like rap is a terrific way of lyriciting thoughts, feelings and again expression of ones self

15. What is something you’ve always wanted to try but you’ve been too scared to do? going on a date with a man

16. Best advice for your 19 year old self? try to keep an open mind, definatly say no to things, have a look at your situation and whats best for you, make some hard decisions

17. If you could raid one man’s closet who would it be? someone who is big tall and a little chubby so i steal all the suits

18. Must have purse item? my keys

19. What did you want to do with your life at age 12? jedi

20. What is something you will not be doing in ten years? hopfully putting yself down and stopping myself from improving

21. What is an important life lesson for someone to learn? its ok to say no

22. What is one goal you are determined to achieve in your lifetime? set foot on every continant

23. Would you ever live anywhere besides London? new zealand

24. What is your favorite dessert? cookies

25. Is there a dessert you don’t like? panna cotta or anything with caramel

26. It’s brunch! What do you eat? eggs florentine

27. Who is your favorite painter? turner

28. Favorite Disney animal? zazoo

29. What is a book you are planning on reading? i must read Dune

30. What did you read most recently? probably a book on how to direct actors

31. Favorite solo artist? ive just gotten into Elton John

32. What’s your Favorite board game? risk is a new favoruite, a themed edition like lord of the rings or game of thrones would be epic!

33. What’s a city you wish to visit? new york

34. Heels or flats? flats, i have high arching feet so any shoes eed to have heel surrport

35.  Where does one go on a perfect road trip? id think new zealand would be good for that, or norway

36. What do you do on a rainy day? watch movies  or sleep, rain is my white noise for sleep

37. What’s your favorite exercise? ive always enjoyed rowing

38. What was your worst subject in school? maths

39. What is your spirit animal? ive had many results from many tests, i think its probably a bear

40. What do you usually eat for breakfast? fruit or pastries

41. What do you usually eat for dinner? meat 2 veg

42. Cooking or Baking? tough! there is more experiemtntaion in cooking plus its healthier but baking is so homly, cooking

43. Favorite baked good? chocolate chip cookies

44. What is something you wish you could be good at? singing

45. Skiing or Surfing? =id love to try both

46. First celebrity crush? evangeline lilly

47. Most recent celebrity crush? Madeleine Mantock from Charmed

48. What color was your prom dress? didnt go to prom

49. How do you manage stress? prioritise and plan

50. What do you do to relax? cinema

51. Age when you were first kissed? 12

52. Place you were first kissed? school parking lot

53. Favorite fashion trend of all time? not sure about trend but i like aviator jackets

54. Best fashion advice you’ve ever received? wear adult clothes, not so many t shirts and jeans

55. Trend you would like to see disappear forever? not a clue

56. Shoes or Bags? shoes

57. How do you know if you’re in love? if you look inot their eyes and you want to run away because your heart is getting to fuzzy and your smiling like fuck

58. Television show you’ve binged on recently? love, death and robots

59. Who do you turn to when you’re sad? my partner, shes always up for a hug

60. Name one thing you’ve learned the hard way? how to deal with gas lighting

61. If you could make a documentary about anything what would it be? the camming culture

62. What is your Kryptonite? self doubt and chocolate

63. What are you most enchanted by? eyes

64. What is your biggest strength? Empathy

65. What is your biggest weakness? glutoney

66. What are 3 words to describe living in london? Busy, loud, enlightening

67. Cutest thing on planet earth? staffashire bull terriers

68. Most important advice you’d give your future children? your never alone

69. Best first date idea? brunch then a museum or art gallery

70. Favorite type of flower? ones that dont make me sneeze

71. What do you first notice about someone when you meet them? social nature

72. What’s your guilty pleasure? terrible earlys naughies movies, Hugh Jackman in Van Helsing springs to mind

73. Plans for the weekend? im a script supervisor on a short film based on a documentary crew interviewing uk mediums, in the style of what we do in the shadows