#oh yeah the poll update tag lol

[goblin-enjoyer]

Ok concept for a homestuck challengey thing.

you know those "googling [INSERT CHARACTER INTERNET IS HORNY ABOUT] until I find r34/porn" videos? ( I know bad opening here, hear me out. ) And have yall ever seen that one dougdoug video of him trying to find something on wikipedia only using the random page feature and links inside the page itself? What if there was a thing of a similar nature where you go onto a random youtube video and try and see how long it takes to find a homestuck profile picture? Perhaps allow for video hopping to try and find one if there are either: not a lot of comments or too many comments to check or even if that video just doesn't seem to have any homestuck pfps in its comment section. Thank you shark tank investors for your time, I am now going to check my little poll i have currently going on. it seems like jade and jake are neck and neck, but kanaya is catching up! dave and karkat are pretty even ( that tracks ) and aradia and jane were just passed for last by sollux! though i doubt he will make a comeback as its like almost i want to say 120 votes in? and he only got one vote last poll so i don't expect him to stay slightly ahead of the other 5 percenters for long. tavros still has a mid ( AS IN MEDIUM AS IN MEDIUM, I DO NOT THINK TAVROS IS MID ) amount of votes that's been consistent all poll, not too much, not too little. man i missed the fun of a good poll, i should do this a wee bit more often.

[jazeswhbhaven]

👻👻Happy Spooky Month Ya'll👻👻

Have yourself a Asmo~

So as with any update of mine for the month, let's get it poppin' with some quick housekeeping rules since I've gained some new faces since the last update!

👻Don't come up in my space with the bullshit, meaning racism/colorism, homophobia, etc.

👻If you have a non-sharing yumeship do yourself a favor and don't follow me as I equally talk about and simp for pretty much the majority of the characters for this game

👻I talk and write cxc content, I always tag it so ya'll can mute it so just fair warning

👻Venting is welcome in my inbox, but no venting about other users in my inbox and using me as a mediator. That's ya'lls beef not mine.

👻Absolutely no minors.

👻Requests are s l o w. Like I still have stuff from weeks/months ago I haven't answered so please be patient with me ;w;

What's going on this month for my blog?

Uh tbh I was supposed to have a WHB OCversary event for myself and well that hasn't been going to well because of outside factors. If ya'll see it before Halloween that would be my ideal goal.

Also I was going to do a Halloween thingie like how I did for my other blog last year but I don't think I will end up getting to it...I might just update with the kings/nobles I didn't include!

Other than that keep an eye out for the following reacts:

👻Asmodeus Selfie 👻Gabriel X-mas Miracle And this is totally dependent on when my friends share the stories with me or if I get them myself. I was supposed to have a react for Levi and Mammon's bath story but I'll probably dish that out for next month instead.

Oh but another thing!

So after some thought, if I get myself together and figure out a sound schedule...and after doing more research I will possibly be opening a Patreon for ficlets/blurbs for other fandoms including this one based on a poll vote. Most of it will be never posted on tumblr so it will be exclusive to my patrons only! The tiers won't be too expensive tho. But this is still a up in the air thought and I'll let ya'll know if it's ever going forward. I'd like to think I'd get support but alas, gotta be realistic sometimes lol

Hey so, Asmodeus....eh? *wink*

yes. Asmodeus has the fandom up in a tizzy and I think that's a given. For LU(Love Unholyc) fans this has been a long time coming seeing him like this, and for folks like me who kinda know OF him or don't know him at all then yeah fucking side swept my ass.

Let me gather my strength to write some stuff about him...I want to I really do...and we shall see if I can get my brain going. There's so much potential with him too. Other than him being fine as fuck.

Anywayssssssss thank you all for following me and my crazy, engaging, and being the lovely folks ya'll are. Let's continue to simp and vibe for the bois~

your lovely admin~ ♡( •ॢ◡-ॢ)✧˖° ♡ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ

[bilightningwhumper]

Happy New Year 2025!!!

Making this post over here rather than on my main blog since most of my goals/plans have to do with my whump writing, lol.

First off, thank you everyone who tagged me in the holiday community posts. I did my best to reply to all of them in the same energy, though I think I missed one or two? Either way, it means a lot that y'all like and appreciate me as much as I do all of you. <3

Gonna be a long post, so it's under the cut

Now, to the plans:

Most of these have to do with "Belonging to Nightmares" so here's the masterlist in case you've either not seen the updates or somehow missed me rambling about it, lol.

-For January, I'm mostly prepping for February writing, so I'll only be posting one or a few drabbles, no schedule planned for when. But they'd be for the Year of the OTP 2025 event. [Poll for February prompts here] for anyone interested! Delaying my previous plans to do the Living Weapon Year of Whump Tropes since I just didn't have enough figured out for it to do them justice.

-February, oh dear, I have so much planned, lol

As I've said in other posts, I'll be doing Feveruary 2025, evenly dividing the prompts between Minna and Kyrie. That's all set and planned, though I'm still fiddling with some of the prompts as I made a few accidental repeat plans. But they'll be fully sorted before I start writing!

Febuwhump 2025 releasing their list yesterday also inspired me, probably surprising no one with how much my audhd effects my writing brain, lol. I'll be doing the same as Feveruary in that the prompts are divided between Minna and Kyrie evenly. However, unlike Feveruary where I'm doing all the prompts and alts, Febuwhump will be just the main days and swapping a few of those prompts for alts. (ie, I just can't do "eaten alive" because I'm not one for cannibalism and it also made me think of something else not whump related but that's not relevant to the event, lol) As of last night, I've already finished dividing and sorting the prompts, plus written down relevant notes for them.

In one of my other updates, I mentioned doing some of FluffyFebruary 2025. For anyone that didn't see it buried in an update post, the parallel story for "Belonging to Nightmares" is getting some work. Basically, I'm filling the prompts like this: there will be a drabble a week where I look at prompts 1-7, picking which fit together for my idea, leave the rest out, post drabble on day 7, onto 8-14, pick and choose, and so on and so forth. Since I'm not inspired by 100% of the prompts and multiple can fit in one idea I have for the MCs, that's just how it works best. Still unsure what I'm going to call Sydney, Cyrus, and Dianna's story, but you know, I have a month to figure it out, so there is that.

Then of course there's the Year of the OTP 2025 prompts (poll linked in January section), so a lot to look forward to!

-March, planning on taking a break/taking it slow, similar to January. Mostly because there's an event that happens yearly where I work that gets insanely busy. Like, almost New Year's Eve busy, but less loud music and it lasts for nearly half the month. So, yeah, needless to say, I'm basically only planning on doing Year of the OTP 2025 for that month and that's it.

-After March, I've no idea what I'm doing other than getting chapters and planned drabbles up for "Belonging to Nightmares". I still want to get something up once a week, so I'm doing my best to plan ahead and write whatever notes or bits of scenes I can rather than saying "eh, I can do it later" and then forgetting to do it at all. There'll probably be more events and things I'll want to join in with, so I'll give updates as things go on.

Since there's no taglist for "Belonging to Nightmares" yet, I'm mostly just writing it for myself and sharing it into the void and just being happy at the few likes and reblogs I've gotten for my pieces so far. I'm sure there's some shy secret fans out there because I was one for others, so just saying right now, thank you and I appreciate you!

Other writing goals:

-Finishing some of those Bingos! I posted Bingo cards I got ages ago but during the October stuff I joined in, all those got put to the side. Luckily since several prompts match some ideas to "Belonging to Nightmares", I think I'll be changing my original plans for the Bingo cards.

-All my other stories are put on hold for now. I'm just not inspired or motivated for them at the moment. And forcing myself to write when I'm not inspired just burns me out and makes me frustrated, so I'm less inclined to even touch it again. Much apologies to anyone who enjoyed them so far. Chances are I'll put up new things for them throughout the year, but I'm not making promises if I'm not sure I can keep them. Though I do plan on at least finishing the Flufftober 2024 prompts I left hanging, hopefully before October comes around again.

-Properly sorting what has been finished, like the AI-less Whumptober 2024 Ao3 collection work and Angstober 2024 Tumblr and Ao3 stuff. A lot of what I have to do for that is staring at a computer screen and doing repetitive back and forth that just gets me tired and bored, but the work has to be done at some point.

Side goals:

-Commenting and sharing more of fellow writers. Sharing things myself and slowly getting to know more of the community has made me appreciate everyone here so much and I want to share the love! Even just a little bit means so much to me, I love making others day just by emoji spamming my emotions in their stories, especially because I genuinely enjoy what's been written and can't wait for them to make more

-Extended off that, making more friends? I have a genuinely hard time reaching out and opening up. Half because of "stranger danger internet" still so ingrained in my mind despite being close to 30. The other half because audhd and poor ability to keep contact since for me, no time passes, but for someone else it's been a month plus. Those things, plus I'm awkward as hell and don't want to intrude or bother anyone, lol. Easier in person because half the way I make friends irl is by sensing or seeing the fellow bookworm/neurodivergent in the room and just sitting next to them for parallel play/interaction. Bit hard to do that online. Gonna try though!

-Reading more of my books. Like, actually reading and finishing them. I used to read a book a day or within a couple days, depending on how big the book is. Now I get distracted, be it because of life or staring at a page for 10+ minutes because I got caught in a daydream of my own characters. But seriously, I set up a reading goal last year on Goodreads to finish 12 books, in theory 1 a month, and I finished 7. 4 of those being in the last half of December. So yeah, no more half finished books that I put to the side to start reading something else or whatever.

That's all I can think of off the top of my head. So, Happy New Year, can't wait to see if it's better than the last!

[officeobject]

YO THE GANG IS BACK (yes I know I say that when literally just 1 more person votes LOL):

Also, validation)! (Because "MY FUCKING ADDICTION" is literally my fucking addiction, except it's not with someone, and also it doesn't technically even involve ME because Lianne, and also I fecking hate it, I just happen to have an addiction, and, like, I'm apothiace - not because of my addiction though - but also that would also be valid - but because I just somehow became apothiace, at, like, le sexual hormone age, aka 15 or something - actually maybe earlier but whatever - my point is that puberty kinda worked opposite for me actually, because, like, I was more teen at 12, and at 12, that's when my ideal boyfriend, Jasric, was, well, a thing, and like, his premise is that he keeps needing to hump something because I'm so smexy or something - I don't know, but at some point I felt like I had some romantic soulmate out there and at some other point I was like "holy shit I don't feel it anymore", so, like, headcanon that he died from blood loss because it went too much to PP or something - regardless, it's validation because it's saying that I lie to myself when I'm in my addiction and having feelings and doing crap, and, like, yeah ... I still like the validation though) -

Also fun fact but I tag mentions of my addiction as "addiction", in case anyone wants to either read all my addiction posts or avoid them, even though I'm pretty sure no one avoids them, along with my vent posts, RIP - and also I avoided - no pun intended because The Void is still a thing - but I avoided falling asleep via my addiction, and, like, I'm becoming faster at it ... or maybe it's because I'm not keeping myself up so much, but WHO KNOWS?!

I don't really think through how funny it is, for people to take my polls only to click "I don't know" - oh and also, update, but, like, they have some random blog they get along with, and they don't really text me first, or maybe not much, and if I think too much about that other person - or even their posts sometimes, my brain will scream and hurt, and also addiction triggers, probably - I don't know, it's being triggered overtly easy, like what the feck?!

Yo people actually read and like those?! Also, Xanderweb or Tumblr, or both, for reading them? Because, like, sometimes I'll just unannounced post a song parody or story to my Xanderweb, in case anyone who has the chance, wants to read or re-read, and no they're not always new - most of the times they're not, but sometimes they are - oh and also, the day this week I was saying I was gonna make a song parody, I wasn't lying, though I've only written the date in the description, but I'm thinking I will make it one day. Also, I have no idea if people choosing "none/other/I don't know" mean "none", but me is just gonna assume that it means I make such great stuff that y'all don't know your favorite or something - also it would be fecking weird to take my polls, if you didn't even like any of the stuff I posted - like I know it was about Xanderverse stuff specifically, but still - oh and also, fun fact (or maybe you remember), but besides maybe Poll Drama showing up a few times as people's recommendation thing, when I made my own tag thing, y'all had to ACTIVELY find Poll Drama, on my account or via the tag or whatever - like, yeah, I think I announced it on my final #poll type of poll, but that would still mean that y'all would have to subscribe to the tag, if we're talking about what y'all had to do, at MINIMUM, and sometimes you just gotta let that sink in (also that person who recommended me to stop posing my polls in #polls had a point but didn't need to be so piece-of-shit-teenager about it, and I did it in fear of people getting mad and the consequences, and also so MORE people like that, would leave me the feck alone - like just IGNORE - people actually aren't good at just ignoring my posts sometimes ... even if they're fecking vents of whose vent contents they then never acknowledge 👍).

Over all: internet, I guess. Also I do have a lawyer but they're only a lawyer against their coworkers and also they're not a real lawyer and also I didn't hire them, and it's just this one dude defending my goofy creepy window-staring behavior (and others), against, like, several coworkers at the office, as I said, because we're homies - I don't have to defend THEM, because no one really believes that they can actually see me and/or intentionally look at me though - to be honest, it'd be harder for me to defend THEM, so, fair enough. I think this might stress them out at times, but whatever. Oh and also for some reason no one has done anything so far and it's been, like, almost a year of them being aware (and HAS been A YEAR, of me staring), so either my "lawyer" is really good, or they just have a lot of power and were like "you better not say shit about the person I clearly favoritize above you", because, like, yeah, they do that too, and it's weird for me to act like they wouldn't try to be as close as possible, if for example I had an internship there - like, would they really not step in and say I should, and then try to talk to me or sit close or something? Well whatever, I don't know what the future holds - though they're probably the reason the cops haven't been called on me and I never got a restraining order (or maybe the fact that to them all, I'm a child, and maybe that'd be going overboard).

I guess the conclusion is that for all legal purposes, I am just innocent child.