#oh idk if you're sick or that's just a normal check up but get well soon!!

[nikaii-koi]

Noooo he is on top of my favorite jingu bang adaptation list,, stick is number one atm 😩✨️ BECAUSE OF COURSE THEY ARE SWITCHES I LOVE WATCHING MONKEY AND STICK FLUSTERED BY EACH OTHER

HOL UP ARE WE— ARE YOU—

YOU SEEING WHAT IM SEEINGH??? OR IS IT ME SEEING WHAT YOU SEEING????? IM GONNA EXPLODE CUS—

THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED IT, IS THE SAME WITH WHAT I BELIEVE TMK23 IS ABOUT

BECAUSE ITS THE PLOT 😭😭😭😭💖💖 beside lin and monkey's impulsive journey

Basically the dragon WANT/need stick, same as monkey, they believe stick is theirs so they tried to take him away monkey win ofc. BUT how they want stick is different— OH MAN I WANT TO MAKE A LONG POST— short is what you explained above (I love every words on it)

A princess who needs his naked charming knight to save her from the evil king? Ah boy counts me in. A powerful weapon that abusely used eventually find his wielder that understand him and see him not as weapon but friends? Ah girl im sit. An obedient child;wife;roomate and the naughty one that show him the beauty of outside world cus he not allowed to go outside by his parent;husband;roomate and was told to do what he commanded and now he tired of it? Ah darling im paying for dinner.

ENHANCED LOVE HATE TRIANGLE AND ROMANTIC ACTION COMEDY—

Welp, romantic or platonic, monkey and stick can be seen as both, am i right? Cus they are like an ingredient that can't go wrong if cooked in various way... and any resulting dish is bound to be delicious.

ANDDD HELLOOO?? IM ALSO GLAD I FOUND YOU STICKxMONKEY FELLOW

hey uh. why is this the way he looks at stick for their first meeting. huh. why he all fuzzed up and blushed for

[valiantstarlights]

[Dreamling Week Day 6: Sick] In Sickness

It's a fluffy sick fic featuring eldritch goo Dream of the Endless idk what else to tell you

CW: if you're fine with Dream being an eldritch being, then absolutely nothing. 😊 Enjoy! 🖤

Hob stares at the large black puddle of goo that flooded most of the living room. He just got back from work and found Matthew perched on a branch near his flat, looking as frantic as a raven could get.

Said raven is now perched on Hob's shoulder, eyeing the mess on the floor gravely.

Hob had been warned that Dream is 'in a state,' but he didn't exactly expect that 'state' to be liquid.

Because it is Dream on the floor, Hob can see that very clearly. Though the goo simply looks like dark glittery slime poured over the floor to the uninitiated, Hob recognizes a couple of nebulas on its surface. There, by the telly, is the Horsehead Nebula, there by the bookshelf that contained none of Shaxberd's works is the Trifid Nebula, and just by Hob's feet is the Lagoon Nebula.

"Darling?" Hob calls out, unsure if he's going to get an answer. This is his first time encountering Dream like this. "Are you alright?"

No answer.

He looks at Matthew a bit helplessly. "Do I just...scoop him up with my hands?"

Matthew fidgets. "Definitely don't vacuum him."

"Why the hell would I--"

"Well, why are you asking me? I don't know this shit! I was literally a human a year ago!"

Hob pinches his nose. They were like blind drunks stumbling down the street together. "Is he even sentient like this?"

The dark puddle vibrates, and Hob feels Matthew's talons dig into his shoulders from the jumpscare. He himself almost drops his suitcase. "I can hear both of you," the puddle grumbles, "and you are making too much noise for my liking."

"Oh, sorry, love," Hob says, his boyfriend instincts suddenly awakened at Dream's sulky morning voice. "Did we wake you?"

"I want some of your chicken pot pie."

"Chicken pot pie." Hob repeats. His brain is still processing the fact that his boyfriend is a literal puddle of goo on the floor. "Yeah. Okay. Let me just get some ingredients from the shops real quick. Can you get to the bedroom while I'm gone? I don't want to step on you when I return."

--

He leaves Matthew...not in charge, but overseeing goo Dream's long and arduous trek to the bedroom.

He hears the raven mutter something about this being like hell all over again.

Hob ignores that because he has a different set of problems to tackle.

--

Hob's panic sets in as soon as he gets out of the car carrying all the ingredients for chicken pot pie, as well as some other food and drinks good for sick humans.

Once the pie is done cooking and cooling down a bit, how will he feed Dream? Where is his mouth? Does Hob just...pour it on the goo and hope for the best?

What if that were the equivalent of dumping hot soup on his boyfriend's lap?

--

"Any improvement?" he asks Matthew, who has kept an eye on Dream while perched safely on the back of the couch.

Hob checked, and Dream's form is thankfully all contained in the bedroom, still looking like a lake of stars.

"Nope. But he says he wants you to make extra crusts because he likes that. I would also like some extra bits to snack on, if that's alright."

"Sure." Hob goes to do just that. Chicken pot pie for the boyfriend and a lot of extra crusts for the boyfriend and his raven.

No problem. This is all totally normal and fine.

--

"Dream? Darling? The pot pie is done."

The puddle looks a little smaller in size, and Hob can see a couple of hill-like formations near the middle of the mass. He hopes it's a sign that Dream is slowly getting better.

At his words, one of the islands move closer to him, like a shark. Its progress sends ripples throughout the lake.

"Finally," the island nearer to him says. Its peak splits open to reveal the inside of Dream's human mouth. "Feed me."

At this point, Hob isn't even questioning anything anymore. All he knows is how to be a good boyfriend, so he's gonna do just that.

He sits down at the very edge of the lake near the hill with the mouth, and scoops up a portion of the pie, making sure to blow on it before feeding it to Dream.

The hill hums in appreciation.

"Good?"

"Delicious," Dream's mouth says, before opening once more, like a baby bird waiting to be fed. "More. I want a larger portion of the crust this time."

Hob couldn't help the smile that bloomed on his face and obediently gets more of the crust for the next bite.

--

"What kind of juice do you like?" Hob asks, a few hours later. The goo now looks less like a puddle and more like gelatine that didn't set properly. It was on the couch, bundled up in one of Hob's soft knitted blankets, watching an earlier season of Game of Thrones with Matthew.

"What kinds do you have?"

"Uh, orange, apple, and pineapple. Oh, and I still got some banana milk from the Korean grocery store, if you prefer that. Or almond milk."

"All of them."

Hob and Matthew share an alarmed look behind gelatine Dream's back. "What, an equal amount of all those drinks together in a single glass?"

"Yes."

Hob looks heavenwards and prays for a little more sanity before complying.

And just for fun, he goes down to the Inn and gets a blue cocktail umbrella and a heart-shaped drinking straw to put in gelatine Dream's very questionable drink.

Gelatine Dream hums in delight and tells Hob he loves him.

Hob beams and kisses the top of the gelatinous mass, while Matthew chokes, very possibly because the scene on TV is Hodor...doing his thing, and that always gets to Hob.

(Matthew chokes because he is disgusted, he is revolted--)

--

Something thick and long, like an anaconda, slithers into bed with Hob, and it is only through his 600 plus years of living in this world does he calm his frantically beating heart and open his arms so big ass snake Dream can curl up next to him.

"I hate being sick," the snake hisses, its huge dark head tucking itself under Hob's chin. "I can't hug you like this."

'Please don't wrap around me and squeeze me to death,' Hob does not say. "I think you're adorable," he murmurs instead against Dream's coils, and kisses the nearest scaled skin in front of his face.

--

Dream is mostly back in his human form come morning, but he still dripped viscous dark liquid wherever he goes. It reminds Hob of Howl Pendragon from the Howl's Moving Castle Ghibli movie.

"How are you this morning, darling?"

"Wretched," Dream says as he drips onto his fry up. Hob mentioned preparing porridge for him as they got up earlier, only to be informed by Dream that he fucking hates porridge and would hurl it into the sun if he could. And so Hob cooked some fry up instead. "Must you go to work?"

Hob, already running late and in the process of putting on his shoes, stops and looks back at the pathetic picture Dream makes. He is sadly looking down at his perfectly cooked eggs, dripping dark sludge on the sun-yellow yolks.

"I'll call in sick," Hob decides, and takes his phone out to do just that. The department head is going to verbally flay him alive for only giving notice at the last minute, but nothing is more important to him than Dream. Hell, they could fire him over the phone and he'd be fine with it.

Dream hugs him around the middle as Hob puts his briefcase down, ruining his white dress shirt. Hob hugs him back and kisses the top of his head.

It's fine. He'll just buy another shirt, or get another job. But Dream is irreplaceable.

--

"Have I told you that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me?" Dream asks him a couple of days later, when they're both lying in bed after two rounds of fantastic sex, celebrating Dream's full recovery.

Hob kisses him on the nose and cuddles him closer. "Maybe once or twice in the last 24 hours," he says. "But it never hurts to tell me again."

--

Dream shyly hands him an unbreakable ceramic mug made from the sands of the Dreaming. It says, "The best boyfriend across all of time and space," in Dream's handwriting.

It takes Hob a solid month to stop grinning like a fool.

[dutifullyshamelessearthquake]

AAAH Mountain Road is SO PRECIOUS??? oh my heart poor poor nari was going through it! I swear I could feel his frustration!! He wanted to fuss and mother hen but he just…he had no choice but to let his body do whatever it needed 🥺 also I swear he was this close to throwing up on Cyno in that moment omg. Migraines are the WORST and it says so much about him that he’s able to push through it, while still knowing his limits. Honestly I love that about his character both in how you write him and in canon, he is very good at knowing when to push himself and when to ask for help. BUT that doesn’t mean he always likes it when he has to ask for help. He will still have that anxiety or frustration, but he also knows that it won’t get better if he tries to ignore it (something Cyno needs to learn)

also I ADORE cyno and how protective he is!! His guilt over the energy drink tho 😭 also I love how like…safe he seems to make Tighnari feel?? And even when he’s sick (and I’ll get to that) he’s just like..no.. you have a MIGRAINE like he fully understands how bad those are for Nari and would do anything to make sure he’s resting properly. I truly don’t even think he would have minded had he ended up being sick alone cuz in his mind Nari comes first.

I love how low key Cyno is quick to pass out when he’s vomiting?? Or even not feeling well! Like he’s so sturdy normally and maybe it’s cuz he doesn’t vomit easily and when he does it’s such a violent act that he just runs out of air or his blood pressure goes wonky. Idk it’s neat that it’s come up a few times now!! But also very very concerning that he didn’t fight lying down. Granted I know that it’s his go too when unwell but still it really seemed like he was gonna faint for real. And Tighnari clocked that instantly. UHG. They are so in sync I love them

There is something so sweet about them constantly checking in on each other!! Honeslty both characters being sick at once sometimes makes me weirdly anxious? Idk why lol 😂 cuz I still read them anyways and almost always love them! And I LOVED this one!! Them lying in the floor together at the end, nari getting at least a fraction of relief…Cyno… well I’m sure he’ll be fine..eventually lmao. Tighnari i feel like needs to sleep a good 12 hours and Cyno just…idk he had a bad time so I have no idea what he needs 🤣

AHH I'M HAPPY YOU ENJOYED IT!!

Nari deserved all the hugs this fic, I think being stuck on the road is up there with some of the worst places to be stuck in when you're in that much pain. And yes!! He's so strong and determined, and I love that about him. He knows how far he can rationally push his limits and he will do it if that's what the situation calls for. Also yes, he was definitely very close to throwing up all over Cyno 😭

We love protective Cyno. Tighnari definitely feels so safe with him, and Cyno would do absolutely anything for him. I imagine it broke him a little inside that he wasn't up to fussing over and comforting Tighnari ahhh, as you said, he knows how bad they get and he knows just how much pain Nari must be in. He 100% would have settled for being left alone in the bathroom in favour of Tighnari getting some proper rest 😭

YES!! This is one of the examples where things just slowly develop by themselves and I love it, it's definitely become a thing that Cyno gets light-headed easily when he's sick. Adding on to that, I wonder if he has actually blacked out in the past? Because another detail that's come up repeatedly, I think ever since my first Cynari sickfic, is that Cyno has a tendency to just kind of. stand. Like he usually stays standing upright if he's going to throw up, and almost every time without fail, the first thing Tighnari does is gently tug him down until he's kneeling. He knows how dizzy Cyno gets when he throws up.

Also absolutely, I think Cyno was on the verge of fainting and barely held it together here. The stress of them both being sick, this being the second violent vomiting spell in a short time, his body was just ready to nope out of that completely if he didn't lie down.

Ahh I get that! If it helps, I will be sure to include it in the warnings when we're going to be dealing with both characters in a fic being sick!

BUT YES, I love the scene of them both just lying there,,, in my head I kind of imagine that they slept there on the floor together for a while. Like maybe an hour or later one of them would stir and find they're both curled up together on the floor. And the next day they'd spend all day in the comfort of the bed, huddled up together and sleeping off their symptoms. Tighnari definitely needs a good marathon sleep. Cyno,,, I think once he's managed to throw up most of what's making him sick, he also needs a good long rest and plenty of hydration 🥺

[wolverineluvr]

I'm sorry for being weak.

(He's prolly a bit ooc, I don't know I to make him if you have some tips it'd be great!)

(Tw: None that I know of!)

You were walking up the stairs in Wangshu inn (tell me if I'm wrong please) bringing almond tofu to Xiao. You would say you're friends but you're trying to get him to be your friend. You finished walking up the stairs and saw him sitting on the fence. (idk if he does that) "Xiao!! I have your food!" You exclaimed as you walked over to him. "Hand it over." He said. "Mhm!" You nodded and gave it to him, and watched him start to eat it. "Why are you looking at me like that, leave."

"Oh, sorry if I made you uncomfortable! I just wanted to know if you liked it!" You say. "It's fine." He said and went back to eating. And you stood there untill he finished. As you picked up the plate you asked. "How was your day?" "Why do you keep asking it was fine." He said in an annoyed tone. "Ah, I'm sorry!" You apologized and started to walk away. "See you tomorrow!" You said as you walked away.

Time skip

When you started walking home it started raining, so when you got home you were reasonably wet. (🤨) You walked to your bedroom and getting out your clothes you sneezed. You shrugged it off and went to take a shower. When you got out you dried your hair (or not) and your body. Then you changed and went to sleep.

When you woke up you had a stuffed nose and felt stuffy yourself. Then it hit you, you were sick. You didn't want to stay home today but you knew Goldet (?) wouldn't let you work. You sighed and got up to get some food, then you went to sleep again.

Timeskip

You woke up and groaned you felt horrible. You looked out a window and realized it's night. You wondered if Xiao was relieved to not have you there, maybe you bothered him. The thought made you sad but you got up and got some food, a drink and a book. Then you sat back down and started to read.

Xiaos pov

Where are they, they're normally here by now.. Was it because of what I said? No they said they would see me today, so where are they?..

Y/ns pov

After reading for a few hours you decide to take a small walk around your house, maybe talk to Goldet. So you put on some warm clothes and a scarf and started walking to Wangshu Inn. After a while of walking you felt weaker, but you kept going because, you were almost there!

When you got there you sighed and started walking up the stairs, after a little you got to where Goldet was. "Ah, Goldet!" You said. "Y/n! Where were you? You didn't show up for work today?" She said. (I'm sorry idk how she acts) "Sorry! I got sick so I couldn't show up.." You said. "Y/n, why are you always so reckless!" She scolded and you bowed your head and apologized again. Once she finished scolding you she spoke again. "I think Xiao might've been waiting for you." She said as she wiggled her eyebrows. (Again sorry if the doesn't act like that) "Really? You think so? But he always acts so annoyed when I'm with him.. Nah he probably wasn't, thank you though!" As you said that she sighed. "Well at least go check up on him!" She said. "No I won't bother him today, well tell him I said hello! Bye Goldet!" You said as she said ok and waved at you.

You speed walked away, down the stairs and back to your house.

2 weeks later

You walk up the stairs and to Xiao. "Xiao! Hey, your foods here!" You say. "Ah thanks." He muttered as you handed him his food, but you still heard him. "You're welcome!" He slightly blushed and started eating and you noticed it started raining, and stood next to him and looked at the rain. "Do you like the food?" You asked. "It's fine" He said and you smiled at him. After awhile you notice it's starting to thunder. So you got up. "I got to go, sorry Xiao." You said and started to walk away. "What's wrong?" Xiao quietly asked. "It's nothing, I just don't wanna get sick again!" You said as you smiled at him and walked away.

When you finished walking down the stairs you sighed as you knew it was going to be hard to sleep tonight. And headed to your house.

48 minutes later

You finally got home, unlocked the door, opened the door and closed the door. You flinched as you heard the thunder get louder. You locked the door and walked to your bedroom and changed clothes. You laid on the bed and wrapped your blanket around you and tried to fall asleep.

Later

You walked up the steps and up to Xiao. It started thundering, you flinched and Xiao saw it. "Hm? What's wrong?" "N-nothing I'm fine!" You said. "You sure?" He asked. "Yea!" You exclaimed. He grabbed your chin. "Don't lie to me." He said. "Okay I'm sorry! I'm scared of thunder.." You said. "Oh." He let go of your chin. "So you're weak." He said. "N-no! I just.." He scoffed as you trailed off and started to walk away. "Wait, I'm sorry don't leave Xiao please!" You said as you fell to your knees.

"Xiao, don't go please I'm sorry.." You muttered. Xiao stood Infront of your sleeping form, as you kept asking him to not leave. He realized you were having a nightmare when you started to cry. He then started to wake you. "Y/n, wake up. Y/n!" He said multiple times and you woke up.

You were confused, what's going on? Why was he here? Then you realized, you must've called him in your sleep. Oh God you're so embarrassed. "Xiao, I'm so sorry!" You said then wiped your tears and got up. "It's ok.." He said as it thundered loudly and you flinched. "What were you dreaming about?" Xiao asked. "Nothing it's fine." You said. "I know it's not fine, just tell me." He asked again. "No, no it's okay!" You smiled and chuckled. "Tell me Y/n." He said. "Okay.. I'm, scared of thunder.." You said quietly not wanting him to leave. "Oh." He said.

"Why didn't you want to tell me?" He asked. "I thought that you'd think I'm weak and pathetic.." You explain. "Y/n, I'd never think that of you." "Really?" You asked him and he nodded. You hugged him. "Thank you.." You said as you sniffle. "Do you wanna go back to sleep?" He asked. "Yes, please.." You said softly and he slowly put you back down and laid in front of you. You put your face in his chest and hugged his waist. You started to fall asleep. "I love you Xiao..." He then put his chin atop your head. "Love you too.."

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(Idk if that was good I apologize if I misspelled anything please do tell me!

Anyways have a great day/night/morning/evening! <33)

[cakejerry]

I need to hear more on why you dropped BTS before

Ok. Tl;dr desperation for american validation beginning in 2017

Pretty normal scope of events actually.

1. Fucking hated spring day when it dropped, snoozer ballad, liked not today better. It doing so well on the charts only made me angrier. I had preordered both versions of the album and it turned out to only be a shitty repackage beating a dead horse (hyyh symbolism) into the ground. Stopped paying attention to their live shows as much but still kept up with the fandom.

2. Then boom they're being invited to billboard for a fake ass popularity stunt and everyone's acting like it's such a big deal. Bitch what the fuck is billboard? I genuinely dgaf. American validation desperation starts. I keep up with their releases even less. They're being cringe as fuck selling out to america and bringing in idiots to the fandom. I start hating the way namjoon is acting, as I look back on those days now he's trying WAY too hard with the aegyo and it's fucking annoying.

3. Bts outcast. I just... So cringe. So, so cringe. And everyone was acting so... Idk. People tweeting about jimin dying and laughing and making it blow up until there were actual billboard articles being written about it. Google it if you dont know what im talking about. Some of my tweets from the period:

4. Love yourself concept teasers drop. There's a bunch of random girls for no reason, giving all of them het plotlines in a story about friendship. Cringe. Someone tweets "dont sexualise their relationship with the girls don't disrespect them like that!" and someone replies "yoongis girl is going to eat his ass i can see it in her eyes" (very important to the narrative). I start feeling disconnected from jimin and start finding jungkook very attractive.

5. Dna teaser drops and im like ohhh this about to be good they're bringing retro back!! Turns out... They're going to be having the debut stage in america. I stay up with a friend all night watching it. Its exciting, but.... I don't care about america. I don't, i dont i dont. I truly dont. Oh yeah THE CHAINSMOKERS are on the album. I fucking hate collabs. I hate americans. But, whatever. The album is good. Like, really good. Serendipity is a jimin solo song, and I still love him despite my best interests. Best of me is good, pied paper is good, bojok is good, dna is GOOD... mic drop is fine, basic people are going to blow it up like they did with baepsae, but its okay. Im STANNING! But then the problems start arising.

6. Mic drop steve aoki. Need i say more. The lyrics... The sound... We get it, you're hardcore. You're embarrassed to promote colourful pop like dna. You're tough boys who misuse aave. Its so cringe. No one says anything about it. Great. The collab... WHO IS STEVE AOKI??? IDGAF!!!

6.5 deliberately leaving this one out just to check if anyone is still reading... The worst betrayal of my life *shiv gif*

7. And then... the american promotions. I stop paying attention completely. I start resenting everything. The way they look, the way they talk. Fans start making fun of a pic of jimin where it looks like he didnt cut his toenails. Rumors start circling that he got his chipped tooth fixed. I... Idk. It's the little things. I can't describe how awful the fandom space was, you just had to be there. The american influx was awful. Burn the stage drops. Another cash grab. People make fun of jungkook being sick. The love yourself concept feels hollow. I go back to wings and realize we have lost the plot.. hoseok is singing about his real life mother and people are creating theories about how it all relates back to the hyyh storyline. Jungkook is singing about how much he loves his hyungs and he didn't even write the words; rap monster did. I hate rap monster. Rap monster changes his name to RM- its less cringe to the americans that way. They change their logo- its minimalist now, to appeal to the americans. They're not the bulletproof boyscouts anymore. They're beyond the scene. Its hybe, not bighit. They're embarrased. They're changing themselves. They write all of their songs. (They really dont.) No but they do! We have to chart. (Inflate those numbers guys!) They're the only kpop group worthy of success. They paved the way! They write their own songs. We can tell! (Stream stream stream). Im completely removed. I only hear about them through 3rd hand sources. Bt21... Merch... Money.. sell... Buy... Book, movie, another repackage album, another movie, a game, another game, buy, sell, money.... I see the video of jimins voice breaking in fake love-- I laugh. Oh they made him show his abs for that comeback... Great. We only love him for his body, anyways. Oh, they're collabing with some random white bitch.... Okay.... Its called boy with luv?... But boy in luv will forever be MY baby. They're BIG now. People talk about them. They don't know them like I do. I don't know them like you do. Idol drops and I catch glimpses of it. Its.. too much. Its awful. Everyone calls it the worst song ever. Hearing snippets on the radio at the gym, im bound to agree. I hear nicki minaj's voice. Shout out to korea. Why is she here? What is going on. Why.. why are they doing this. This isnt bts. I hear dynamite on the radio in the grocery store- i only know its bts because of Jimin's disgusting awful dying cat voice. I post about it. Its funny. I love to hate. The song is shit. The song is being payolad onto the radio in my small ass country because bts fans are genuinely crazy. Steam. Inflate. Buy. Break records. Pave the way. NO multis, ONLY solo. Someone says borahae. I don't know what it means. A japanese group i like covers butter. I cant listen to more than 3 seconds of it- it sounds like shit. Its in english. Why is it all in english? The rhymes sound like a third grader wrote them. Is this what my.. my bts are releasing these days? Are they not embarrassed? They're decked out in gucci and lv.. it looks like shit. They look like shit. Theyre embarrassing themselves. Theyre everything they swore theyd never become. Theyre the people they made fun of. They neglect the korean audience. They stop promoting on music shows- its all special release this, single package that. But lets mass buy it. Lets show our love. Money. Money is love. Money will buy them leopard print and tacky sandals. Are they still the same bts i knew? No... No, they're not.

I remember a jhope fansite dying back in the day. I remember that I had never heard about her before, but I remember feeling devastated. I remember feeling connected to her. As I write this, I am praying that she is well. We all came together and shared our condolences. It wasn't an event- we didn't trend anything. But there was a feeling of remorse that day in the fandom. Of community. I remember huddling around the phone with my friend- I had just gotten a twitter notification from bts. They just finished a concert in their red bullet tour. They post a group photo. It gets 10k likes.

Now every time I listen to a bts song in public this flashes in my mind.

I hate bts.

[royallygray]

YES. YES. AND YES.

it's so fucking important to me that when I write, I spend enough time exploring platonic/familial relationships, with a sprinkle of romance because I enjoy writing that.

but omg. why can't people like. write good romance? just. idk. I haven't actually read a book in so long, but I remember I tried to read Throne of Glass and??? I realized I fucking hate love triangles (there is a love triangle in there right. I'm not just hallucinating that she was in love with two men at once).

And just. There's a bunch of things where there's the MOST SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT TEEN ROMANCE SHIT EVER. AND FOR LITERAL YEARS I HAVE BEEN LIKE: "PLEASE JUST TALK YOU'RE FUCKING UP THIS MISSION WITH YOUR SHITTY ASS COMMUNICATION SKILLS."

And I thought that was normal. In hindsight, it might be because I'm aromantic, but I cannot understand how allos might not get sick of the constant communication issues and tension that's not even like. good.

I'm targeting a series rn. I haven't even finished it because I got so incredibly irritated with one of the books because their inability to communicate was genuinely hindering their mission. Also why do crushes sound like they make you feel ill. Just.

I'm ace spec (aegosexual) and aro spec (probably cupiobiromantic), and I'm okay with smut and romance (if they fucking do it right/well holy shit) but also? ROMANCE IS NOT A REQUIREMENT TO PUBLISH A BOOK. Shouldn't your plot be enough? Can't you LET everyone be friends without having crushes on each other?

Like. KotLC? (okay I haven't read stellarlune yet but shh) Jesus FUCK I need Sophie to have braincells for TWO SECONDS AND STOP OBSESSING OVER HER CRUSHES HOLY SHIT LIKE. I never understood how she was so infatuated with two boys at once. Or any of them at all.

It always bewildered me. I was like: "Oh. She's twelve. I'm like *checks watch* twelve. How does she like this guy so much? I don't have any crushes :("

And then I was like: "Oh she's 15 now. Will I get a crush when I'm fifteen?" The answer is no. I did not have any crushes at 15. Keeper of the Lost Cities LIED TO ME--

That was a joke. I'm not actually mad about that part.

Just. Goddamnit. Y'know?

Anyways I was part of the dsmp fandom for AGES and that fandom has more general fics than any other fandom. Hang on. Let me fact check that.

Okay so I lied. But I'm pretty sure it's one of the only fandoms where there are more Gen fics than shipping ones. Ayy it has the 4th, 5th, 6th, and 8th most common Gen pairings. But I've been a part of that for so long that now it's weird not being able to find generally platonic fics.

I don't know what I'm saying anymore.

It's just irritating to not be able to find major relationships that I relate to in books, especially as I graduated from more elementary reading.

Anyways.

Signing into orbit.

My (late) contribution for Make A Terrible Comic Day! I've been going to the library more often lately so this has been coming up a lot, cause I want something to read but have had trouble finding anything that I'm comfortable with.

If anyone has recommendations please please let me know because I am struggling.

[dragoninahumancostume]

This is about CSI: Vegas, season 10, episode 17, just in case y'all want to know what the hell im complaining about this time

Not to pretend I know better because I'm dumb and I'd do the same maybe and also I've only seen one of the later seasons so idk the character well enough at all. But how the fuck did Ray think IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO GO ALONE OUT THERE AND LIKE. I have no reason to pretend I'm sure that I'm right BUT I ANGRY ALRIGHT. Like I had to pace around my room for like the last ten minutes to chill the fuck down

like seriously you've been doing this shit for YEARS. it's not even a "can't blame them, they don't know what genre they're in" Yes they fucking know they work solving murders and when you work in solving murders you always have the chance to be one of those murders your workmates need to solve. Do not fucking go alone running behind a suspect who clearly can fucking kill you and do it in a very specific way GODAMMIT. get back up. Get someone to be there. ISTG RAY LANG-WHATEVER-YOUR-LAST-NAME-IS IF YOU ARE DO THAT SHIT AGAIN I'M PERSONALLY GOING THROUGH MY SCREEN DO PUNCH YOU FOR BEING A DUMBASS.

AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON NOT NOTICING THE THIRD ROOM??? IF YOU'RE IN A HOSPITAL AND YOU SEE TWO PEOPLE WITH DOCTORS IN THE FIRST TWO ROOMS YOU GO THROUGH BUT OH SURPRISE THERE'S A THIRD ROOM IN WHICH THERE'S NO DOCTOR BUT THERE'S A BIG ASS BUMP IN THE BLANKET OR WHATEVER IT WAS WHICH IS PROBABLY A PERSON. NOW THAT'S NOT THE MORGUE MAN THERE SHOULD BE NO DEAD PEOPLE THERE SO THAT GUY SHOULD BE ALIVE SO WHY THE HELL IS THAT GUY UNDER THE GODAMN BLANKET HUH. WHAT ELSE COULD HE BE DOING THERE HUH. THAT'S LITERALLY THE SAME POSITION I USED TO USE TO HIDE UNDER MY BLANKET AS A KID WHEN IT WAS LATE AND MY PARENTS CAME TO CHECK UP ON ME AND I WAS STILL AWAKE LIKE PAST MIDNIGHT. SERIOUSLY MAN.

Like seriously. HOW do you not see like. If you're at the say red paint buckets shelf. And then you see a red pain bucket, then another red paint bucket, but oh what's that, a PINK paint bucket, do you think "Hm. Yep. Totally normal to me" no you dum-dum you think "Huh that's not the same shade as the other while technically still seemingly being the same color from a certain angle" and shit like that. If you're at the sick-but-living people building, and you see one sick but living person in a room, then another sick but living person in a room, and in the third room you see a weirdly human shaped bump under the blanket of the hospital bed that idk maybe could suffocate the patient and also there was no doctor nearby and also the bump had nothing connected to it like IV or respiratory device or smth then what the hell could be the problem with the bump if it's seemingly fine. Like the other two were like unconscious or taking a nap WITH THEIR FACE UNCOVERED yk probably just in case TO AVOID THEM FROM SUFFOCATING WITH A BLANKET. Or some shit I wouldn't know I'm no doctor. But seriously man I KNOW you can do better like I trust you'd do better if you can like recognize bullets by looking at em and stuff like that I'm sure you're experienced enough to think "weird. Pillows don't have that shape. And there's no doctor there. Or nurse. Or someone laying down.

[hussyknee]

I called the Infectious Diseases Hospital to ask about the first dose of the vaccine and the dude there went off at me, that we were on the third booster shot and what the hell I was doing all last year. Tried to tell him I had an autoimmune condition that had me ill for months last year and had a letter from my doctor about it, but he wouldn't listen, demanding how I could have been ill that long and calling me irresponsible. Fucker wasn't even a doctor, but government servants act like they wield the power of God and it gives them the right to treat people however the fuck they want. I'm supposed give and defend my entire medical history to every rando.

This is the general attitude towards the unvaccinated now. We're responsible for the downfall of civilization along with the anti-vaxxers, even though there's zero support for people with limited mobility and the disabled in general. The CMC vaccination program has a protocol for autoimmune conditions, but there's absolutely zero understanding of the lived experiences of chronic illness even among specialists. They expect deterioration and persistent symptoms only of the elderly, and even that due to not resting enough, eating well or being upbeat. If you're younger, they expect you to "fall sick frequently" but be fully functional when you're "well".

Doctors are now becoming aware of long covid but Idk how well this will translate into under-researched chronic conditions in general. Western hospitals are now becoming more familiar with MCAS, POTS and CFS/ME but our backwater assheads won't catch up for a lot longer.

I staggered myself to my doctor yesterday and asked him whether anything can be done to mitigate a flare from the vaccine or booster (almost guaranteed) and he said, I quote "then you have to take a paracetamol". Also said that "fatigue isn't such a big symptom of IBD outside of a real flare. It's probably the depression".

I've been dealing with bipolar depression for fourteen years now (ten of which were undiagnosed). I know what that feels like. Exercise, fresh air and getting out of the house helps. This fatigue gets worse. It wipes me out completely whenever I so much as play with my dogs or climb too many stairs or run errands. My joints ache, my back hurts all the time and I'm never well rested no matter how much I sleep.

It wasn't till I pointed out pointed out that my inflammation markers have never been normal even while in remission and maybe prolonged inflammation for fucking years might be causing escalating complications that the asshole went "oh". I have arthritis. Normal C-Reative Protein is supposed to be less than 3, mine has never been less than 6, normal Erythrocyte Sedimentation Rate is 0 - 29; mine has always hovered around 40. My platelet count has always been flagged as slightly high. These are the markers of someone recovering from a flu, except they never go all the way down. Imagine feeling like you're recovering from a flu every single day of your life for years. Somehow my doctor, a specialist, did not connect this to chronic fatigue. A rheumatologist might have one, but it's apparently out of a hepatologist's wheelhouse, and he didn't think to refer me to the former.

This is the real issue with living in a poorer developing country. Our medical complex is garbage. We're consistently behind the current research, cross-disciplinary knowledge is nil, and the system is glutted with sexist, ableist old coots who graduated medical school in '85. And they all have the same god complexes.

Even if I wasn't physically disabled, I'm still dealing with goddamn bipolar depression which is a debilitating condition by itself. I've been belly crawling over rubble just to shower and eat at least twice a day for the last 8 months. Literally zero level of care living with my Mum. I get house room and regular meals prepared by her helper that I don't have to pay for, but that's it. No one checks up on me or makes the slightest acknowledgement that I'm ill. Last time I asked my Mum to take me to the hospital for an emergency IV she refused and wanted to pray for me instead. If I asked my Mum for help getting vaccinated now she wouldn't be any better than the IDH guy. "So I told you twice to come with me and get it!" Gee, why didn't I think of that! All I had to do was hitch a ride instead of calling an uber. Flare, pain, dizziness, fatigue, months-long disassociation and depression be damned. Even though she's responsible for most of it.

When the world has been trying to kill you for long enough, at some point you feel like giving it what it wants.

[kimnjss]

groupie love | jhs

⤑  series: groupie love

⤑ genre: angst, rapper!hoseok x youtuber!reader, idol au.

⤑ rating: pg13.

⤑ word count: 3.1K

⤑ warnings: unresolved problems with a very simple solution.

⤑ A/N: first, hi :( you guuys, there’s only one more update left until the end of this! (this was a mini series, idk if i said that) but oomg, i can’t believe it! im also a tad bit female sick (monthly) so my brain has been all over the place, so real sorry if this chapter follows that example :/ - either way, let me know what you think!! x

A full week had passed since you last spoke to Hoseok. To be completely honest, you had stopped being upset with him... all it really took was for Jimin to make you realize that you were being a tad bit irrational and should've given him a chance to speak. You couldn't see that at the moment, too wrapped in the thought of him leaving for six months right when things were starting to get good between the two of you.

 A relationship barely started and now you were going to put it to the long-distance test? A test that many couples... who have been together longer than the two of you have, did not survive. No matter how much fun he thought it would be, going along with him wasn't an option either.

 Joining him on tour meant abandoning your responsibilities here to trail behind some guy so he could achieve his dream. The fact that he even asked you to do something like that put a sour taste in your mouth... until you were quickly realizing that wasn't his intention at all.

 In realizing that you were quickly seeing that you didn't know him as much as you thought you did. Relationship still so new, there were many things that were left in the dark when it came to each other's personalities and thought processes. So whisking off behind him on a tour... for six months... when you barely knew him?? definitely off the table.

 Long-distance would have been your best bet because there was no way you were going to throw away the whole relationship. Hoseok was different from the other guys that approached you. He saw you in ways you had never imagined and made you feel comfortable being yourself... no way were you going to just give that up. You two haven't even got to the good part yet.

 So, yeah you weren't mad at him anymore... stopped being mad at him literally a few hours after hanging up the call. Why then did a whole week pass since the two of you had last spoken? You had expected him to call you back after you cut the call short, he didn't. And at the moment you didn't want him to.

 But when the anger was disappearing, you were kinda hoping he'd fall into the chase. Give you a call and try to calm you – not as you needed it. Good thing too, because it never came. Chopping it up to him being busy, you went to bed... hoping to wake up to a missed something from him. And when morning came, the only thing lighting up your screen were emails from past subscriptions you always ignored.

 The entire day passed without contact and you hoped that maybe in this hour he would message you, call you... check-in to see if you were alright!? Nothing, absolutely nothing and you felt like you were going insane checking your phone every fifteen minutes.

 Why not just contact him, right? That would be so much easier and save a bit of your sanity, but that's not how it was supposed to work. You were the one that was upset, therefore, he had to contact you and apologize that way you could tell him that it was okay and everything could go back to normal. That was how it should work, right? Right!?

 Wrong.

 To pile on to your many mistakes in the past seven days, you kept your dry phone stress from Jimin. Not intentionally, entirely... he was busy too (mostly with Yoongi) and it didn't really slide into conversation well. If you had told him sooner, he would've been able to explain to you why your theory was crazy and you should probably just call the man instead of waiting around for him to make the first move.

 It wasn't until you two were hanging out and he was able to notice your frantic glance each time your phone lit up. “He probably thinks you need space,” Jimin told you, the idea never dawning on you... was Hoseok waiting for you to call him? Checking his phone every fifteen minutes as you had been? Because he thought it was you that was supposed to make the call?

 So you called him, that night after Jimin was leaving. Hummed along to the dial tone as you waited to hear his soft voice on the other line. “Why are you calling?” It wasn't him, your heart sinking into the pits of your stomach at the sound of the woman's voice on the other line.

 Maybe, he wasn't waiting for your call... maybe he had followed your anger charged advice to find a different groupie to take on tour with him. Maybe you didn't mean anything to him at all.

 “Hello?” The woman repeated, growing impatient with your silence. Half a mind to hang up the phone and never talk to him again, but you needed answers. Needed to know who this lady was but refused to hear it from anyone but him.

 “I need to talk to Hoseok,” You replied plainly.

 “Obviously, this is his phone. What do you need?” Wow, this woman was rude. Did Hobi know that she was so sour? Surely, he couldn't be interested in someone with such a d-list personality, it didn't match his happy.

 “Excuse me, but I-,” Your words were being cut off by the words overlapping yours, a breathless Joon speaking into the phone. “Yn!?” Namjoon was there too!? What? And breathless? Were they... all three of them!? “Where's Hoseok?” Ignoring the surprise in his tone when he first answered the tone. Your patience was wearing thin.

 “Studio, he left his phone in the practice room. I'm walking there right now.” He let out a huff of breath and you heard some shuffling on the other end. “So... where you been? Haven't heard from you for a while,”

 Maybe he was waiting for you to contact him first. If he hadn't been, surely his best friend wouldn't be asking you where you've been... right? “Yeah...” You reply lamely not knowing what else to say. Not really feeling like you owe Joon much of an explanation, especially if your boyfriend hadn't even received on yet.

 There's more shuffling, a murmured conversation being had away from the phone so you can barely make out what they're saying – but you don't doubt that they're talking about you. A minute passes before the phone is being handed off and you're finally hearing Hoseok's voice.

 “Hey,” He did not sound happy to hear from you. “You good?”

 A little caught off guard you spare a moment to think over what he's asking you. Were you good? Had you been 'good' at all this week? Was it possible that you were so not good without hearing from him that just the sound of his voice instantly had-

 “If you're good then...” He's trailing off, obviously impatient with your silence. Wouldn't be the first one today. It was like you couldn't find the right words, only now realizing that this was all your fault and you had no idea how to fix it.

 “No, wait,” Your words are rushed with the fear that he's going to hang up the phone any second. “I...I should've called you. Like before now. But, I want to talk? Is it alright if we meet up to talk?” Maybe if you were able to see him in person, it would be easier to explain yourself... you always felt at ease when you were with him.

 “I'm a bit busy right now but-,”

 “Oh, right! Yeah, you probably have a whole bunch of things to do... I guess, then-” A laugh was slipping through his lips, a sound you had no idea you missed so much until this moment.

 “-But, we can meet up tonight. I'll be done around here at like nine.” So sure he had decided that he didn't want to talk and was using being busy as an excuse... you really had to stop interrupting people. Something to work on. Your heart was fluttering though, at the thought of seeing him again. Being able to touch him, kiss him, talk to him, and see that bright smile on his face.

 If you were able to make him smile... you had a lot of things to work through, but you were hopeful. “Okay, yeah. Tonight works, that's good.”

 “Great, I gotta go... working, you know? But I'll stop by tonight.” You're agreeing, saying goodbye quickly before ending the call.

 Not as horrible as you thought, you were going to get to see him and everything was going to work out. With a quick glance at the time, you were just now realizing that nine was only a few hours away. The need to speed clean your house, getting rid of the evidence of a week worth of moping as quickly as you can.

 You tried to think of all you wanted to say as you cleaned, no idea where to even start... all you knew was you missed him and couldn't wait to see him again.

 You tried to act natural, not put as much weight on seeing Hoseok again as you normally would. Wanted to act like you weren't nervous for his reaction, scared to tell him that you were sorry and the reason why... how childish he might think you after explaining you had ghosted him because you had been waiting for him to contact you first.

 Even despite you wanting to keep your cool, that didn't stop you for getting ready for his arrival as if you were about to be whisked away on some magic date night. After a quick cleaning of your house, you spent the rest of the time waiting for him making sure that you looked good for him.

 You had done your makeup the way you knew he liked, wore something that you were positive would grasp his attention. Your hair was even done to his liking, noting how he preferred when you wore it down more than anything. All of this, done in hopes that he'd be so mesmerized by you that he'd forget how stupid you've been acting for the past seven days. One could only hope.

 It wasn't until there was a sharp knock at your front door that you were putting the finishing touches on your look. Might've even stayed in the mirror longer if it wasn't for him showing up at exactly 9:18.

 With a deep breath, you're making your way to the front door. Hoseok stands on the other side, hands shoved in his pockets and teeth nibbling at his lower lip. Just seeing him and all you want to do is wrap your arms around him and pull him close, not realizing how much you had missed him until this moment.

 His eyes are on you the moment you're pulling the door open, a small smile spreading on his lips. “Hi,” His voice is soft and you return his greeting before moving to let him in. He turns to watch you push the door closed and you feel the awkwardness begins to settle in your chest.

 Were you supposed to talk first? Get out an apology before the time rattled on. How were you even supposed to start this? You knew exactly what you wanted to apologize for, wasting the little time the two of you had left with your petty thoughts. How were you to come out and say it, though? It was like the words were stuck in your throat.

 “Look, so... before you say anything,” His voice was breaking you from your thoughts, eyes lifting to look in his direction. He looked nervous like the roles had been reversed. “I wanted to apologize to you... I wasn't thinking when I asked you to come along with me, you know? I just thought it would be fun, but obviously, I offended you with the offer... so I'm sorry,”

 He was apologizing? He felt bad? There was nothing that he needed to apologize for and there he was because you had been too busy with your inner monologue to get on with your apology. Now you had this boy standing in front of you looking sheepish for no reason at all.

 You had to fix this.

 “No, you don't have to apologize, honestly. It bugged me at the moment, but only because I didn't properly think it over. I know why you asked... and I should've thought more about it instead of blowing up on you like that,” You took careful steps in his direction, taking your time with closing the space between the two of you.

 There was confusion riddled in his features as if he couldn't understand why you were the one that needed to say sorry. He had been so focused on how he had made you felt, he didn't even take the time to think that you might've been in the wrong. The blame game wasn't something he liked to play.

 “I'm also sorry for the way I ghosted you... I was ready to talk to you the day we got off of the phone but I had been waiting for you to contact me first... I know it's stupid, but I just felt like you should've? Since I was the one mad at you... I wanted you to check,” It sounded even more stupid when you were saying it out loud.

 Embarrassed tinted your cheeks pink, but Hoseok didn't seem to notice. Even if he had, he was ignoring it. “You wanted me to call you?” You nodded, avoiding his gaze. No doubt he was pinning you with the same furrowed brow look Jimin had given you when you first told him.

 You're caught off by the laugh that leaves his lips. Gaze lifting to find him shaking his head, shoulders shaking as he lets out laughs. Now it's your turn to look confused, face contorted as you stare at him. “What's funny?” You're asking as he takes deep breaths to calm his laughter.

 “I just... I had been waiting for you to call me. Wanted to give you space or whatever and figured you'd call when you weren't mad anymore... you weren't even mad to begin with, though? That's hilarious to me.” You didn't get it, but he was smiling that pretty smile of his so you had no choice but to agree. His laughter is slowly dying down and he's looking at you, reaching out to grasp your hand. “Come here,”

 Hoseok easily pulls you into his chest, arms wrapping around you in a warm hug. He tried to ignore it, but in the week that he couldn't see you – he had realized how much you started to mean to him. Simple things like holding you close, he was yearning for and not much could make up for it.

 “This fight was stupid,” He's declaring, leaning back so he could get a good look at your face. His hand lifts to push the hair from your forehead, pressing his lips against it afterward. “I'm leaving soon... we shouldn't waste time like this,”

 Arms lifting to wrap around his waist, you're nodding your head, cheek resting against his chest. “God, I missed you so much...” He's trailing off, fingers toying with the ends of your hair.

 You had missed him too, and you tell him. Not being able to mask the sadness in your voice. A whole week passed without seeing each other and you were like this. Would you be able to survive six whole months without him? It hadn't even been long, but he had become such a big part of your life.

 “I think I'm gonna miss you too much when you leave...” He's pulling back at the sound of your words, nodding his head as his hand cradle your face. Hoseok stands there looking at you for a while, taking in your sad eyes and tiny pout. The look squeezing his heart but only making him that much more determined to make things work for you.

 “Be my girlfriend,” The words tumble from his lips so smoothly, you're not even sure you hear him right. He's continuing before you have a chance to answer. “I like you a lot, Yn. And I know the next six months are going to be hard... but I think they might be a little easier if I know I have my girlfriend waiting up for me, don't you think?” He's smiling big and you're sure yours matches his.

 Girlfriend. Not fuck buddy. Sidepiece. Groupie. Hoseok's girlfriend. Which came with so much more. Pushed all your insecurities away, solidified things. Just a label, but it came with such security, something that you had no idea you needed so much until you were entering this situation-ship with this man.

 “I'd love to be your girlfriend,” You were grinning hard now, it is covered by his soft lips. His large hands slipping into your hand, tangling in the loose strands as he held your lips to his. Kissing you softly and slowly, as if you two had all the time in the world to enjoy each other.

 You really wished you did.

 He's pulling away all too quickly, but not before leaning down once more to press a gentle peck to your lips. “Things are going to be really hectic these past few days... but we'll make it work.” He sounded hopeful, you were too. “And I cleared my schedule for tomorrow... might set us back, but I wanted to spend the night with you.”

 Despite having zero knowledge of how this conversation would go, Hoseok held a lot of faith in you... in your blossoming relationship. Felt like things would work out for you if the two of you made sure to work together on things. It would be a bit of a learning process for you, he could tell but he was willing to work at it with you.

 “I'd really like that,” You say, leaning up on your toes to press your lips back onto his. Ready to make the most of tonight, no matter what you did. Just wanted to be with him and make up for lost time.

 Stock up on all the smiles, the hugs, the kisses that you could because in a few weeks. Your six-month challenge would be starting, you needed to memorize what his lips felt like while you still could. Ready to cherish every moment until he was getting on that plane.

– he’s ½ of the famous rap duo, the 94′s. when stumbling upon a pretty youtuber, he’s quick to decide he wants to have her. but one night with her just doesn’t seem like enough.

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[purplerose244]

My thoughts on Ninjago the Island!!! 🏝🏝🏝

So, gotta be honest... this is not a Blind reaction thing, I actually watched it in French first so I know most of the stuff already 😅 It's entertaining, it got great animation, but nothing more than that in my opinion 🤷‍♀️

Still there is stuff I liked or I want to point out, and finally I'm seeing the English version so I can actually understand what the HECK they are saying 🤩

Alright, nothing else to say, here we go!

UNCHARTED

I haven't actually seen anything Clutch Powers related before Ninjago, is he always like this? I love that he is a jerk honestly, just wondering 😂

Press F for respect for intern Dwaine (at least he seems to like being... used?)

Clutch: It's just a bunch of rocks! It's not alive!

Totem: I'm about to end this man's whole career

Wait, Misako is part of the explorers club? ... that would have come in handy in season 11 to get the scroll of Forbitten Spinjitzu from the club instead of begging uncle Powers for it... *sighs* I don't mind plot holes in Ninjago like most fans I think, but if you wanna make Misako relevant again at least pay attention to the details 😅

Wow, after the end of season 13 I would've thought Wu was going to go through a midlife crisis, not Misako 😂😂

Oww, everytime I hear I get 😢 Bless your soul Kirby, always in our hearts 🖤🖤🖤

Well hello Brian

Always nice to see you 😊

Twitchy Tim must have been pretty interesting to voice 🤔 I like him enough, he's fun and all, maybe not at the level of the characters we got last season

Okay, the place is called the STORM belt, there are LIGHTNINGS, and the sand of the beach is BLUE. Are we gonna address any of these similarities to our Bluebell here or not? 😅

Wait, Tim was giving a hot air balloon tour, does that mean other people where with him? What of them? Are they dead? Did he let them die on the island?... am I reading too much into this? Probably 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Alright, the part of the boats? SO COOL 🤩🤩 I literally can't say anything bad about the animation at this point

Why did they think leaving Kai, Jay and Cole on one boat was going to be a good idea 😂 Also Zane just randomly doing sick tricks on his vehicle, love that nindroid

I'm guessing Nya is keeping her water abilities for her season 🤷‍♀️

Yep, yep, this is why the creators try to keep Pixal out of the adventures, with her everything is way too cool and easy to access to 😎😎

Twitchy Tim: There are statues that become alive!!

Lloyd:... so it's a season 2 stone army ripoff, we've seen worse

It's a cute episode overall ���

THE KEEPERS OF THE AMULET

OKAY THE INTRO IS SO FREAKING COOL 🤩🤩🤩🤩

So Twitchy Tim has temporarily taken over Jay's role of spazzing out and complain about worse case scenarios... in another occasion they might have bonded over this, maybe 😂

Okay, survival position? MOOD

Nya: DRAGOOON 😱

Me: DRAGOOOOOOON 😍😍😍

Why am I not surprised that Jay was the one that named him Zippy? 💙 Also HE'S SO CUTE 💕💕💕 Love how in every adventure, we always get very different types of dragon in this show 👌 I'm a simple person, I see a dragon... 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

Oh-oh, it's the "Lloyd's done with this crap"'s face

This means serious business... am I that used to LEGO characters that this way of crossing arms on the chest looks almost normal to me? 😅

Soooo, Master of the Mountain clearly gave Cole too much development... because now he got demoted to "the one who is always hungry" 🤦‍♀️ I'm all for Cole's endearing love for cakes, which is super relatable, but if you're gonna push it on his fun side, at least be coherent 🙃

Is it just me or it feels like the writing of this special was made by someone different from the one of season 13? Like, it's not bad, just less engaging and witty. For now. Maybe I'm being premature 🤷‍♀️

New way of nerfing powers, we got... weird, sucking power totem thingies... OKAY

My gosh I really can't say anything about the animation, look at that! It's all cinematic with such a light! YES!! 🤩

I'M SORRY

WHY ARE WE LOOKING OVER THIS??? IT LOOKS LIKE COLE'S LAVA PUNCHES BUT THEY ARE JAY LIGHTNING FEET??? IT'S A GREAT IDEA AND I WOULD LOVE TO SEE IT AGAIN??? WHY ARE WE IGNORING THIS??? 💙💙💙💙

So they at least addressed that lightning isn't a Jay's thing only anymore 😅

Alright, Jay having a mental breakdown because of a bridge because it always breaks, that's the Bluebell I know and love 😂😂 Nya telling him to keep moving was cute too 💙❤💙❤

Okay, I'm sorry but this really bothers me, what kind of lightning can instantly knock out the MASTER OF LIGHTNING??? Like, my gosh, really??? I hope they give us an explanation, like it's some sort of special lightning, because this really doesn't sit right with me. Jay is lightning proof, we've seen it in Skybound, we've seen it in Sons of Garmadon, I DON'T BELIEVE HE WOULD JUST BE KNOCKED OUT LIKE THAT 😡😡😡

Soooooo, storm amulet? Being one with the lightning? Is that the reason why Jay got to be the sacrifice? 😅

THE GIFT OF JAY

Alright, I am kinda looking forward for this one, what did Bluebell actually say or do to get him into trouble this time 😂😂

Oh, he just... introduced himself... well that was underwhelming

SENSEI👏YOU👏ARE👏A👏FREAKING👏GOD👏STOP👏GETTING👏KIDNAPPED👏BY👏RANDOM👏VILLAINS👏

Bring ooooon Lloyd Grills 💪

Okay I did like the little speech, definitely resonates with how Lloyd survived this long even though everything wanted him to give up, even his father... I'M NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING 😭

Jay out there making the real questions 😂

Awwww Edna used to call him gift of Jay? I can totally see it, so cute 💙💙 Makes even more sense if Libber actually left Jay at the Walkers' door...

Pff, Jay made the connection I would've done honestly 🤷‍♀️ Like, him being the master of lightning really didn't give these dudes any impression or inspiration? Any cool idea, full Road of El Dorado style? 🙃🙃

Lloyd out there abusing of the animation budget 💚💚💚

Somehow these ninja never actual sneak in, it's always a huge mess everyone knows about beforehand 😂 It's familiar though, I'm used to it and happy with it 👍

I might not be the biggest Misako fan, but you know what I am a fan of?

LEGO HUGS 😍😍😍😍😍

Dang it uncle Powers, you just got here to make a mess did you 😅

Not the first person of the fandom to say this, but Jay looks absolutely lovely with that flower crown 🌺🌺🌺

Oh poor greenie

Lloyd just has the worst luck 😓

Jay: Why would I be the gift?

Kai: Yeah who would want Jay?

Nya: Huh, me?? 😡

Got some very good Jaya for this little special, can't complain 💙❤💙❤

I mean, not matter how big of a snake Wojira might turn out to be, we've already seen the biggest and the second biggest snake of all so 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Whoa, at last... IT WAS THE FIRST SPINJITZU MASTER THAT HAD SOMETHING HE SHOULD'VE TOLD WU A LONG TIME AGO!! 😱 Wu, you got pulled a Wu, how does it feel? 😂

Again, Jay freaking out, kinda my jam it's too funny 💙💙

Wow Kai way to be hominous offscreen 👏👏 I miss talking about my flame babe, this really isn't his time 🤷‍♀️

THE TOOTH OF WOJIRA

So when I first watched this I was genuinely, really excited about knowing the truth behind all this. It turned out very different from what I first thought, but at least in this case it's okay (besides I was pushing with the lightning meaning just to see Libber again 😅😅😅)

I feel like the guys get their powers stolen or blocked so much it takes them a minute to remember "Oh wait I can literally burn my way out" 🤷‍♀️

SPINJITZU YAY 🤩

I... forgot that Misako knows how to fight 😅 She knows how to do spinjitzu too if I remember correctly...

NYA BEING LIKE "OUT OF THE WAY IMMA SAVE MY BOYFRIEND AGAIN" ❤💙❤💙

Gotta love how they were all crazy worried about Jay, like, this is something that never changes through the show. They really care so so much for each other 💕💕💕

Ooohhhh, okay, so Wojira does seem to be the main villain of next season according to the story. I remember Tommy saying that we needed to have faith and this is probably why. The special was okay, nothing too much, and hopefully that too much we will see in Nya's season 😍😍😍

What the- pff, I didn't notice this the first time 😂

At this point I can't tell if that one short with the chicken of the movie carried a hate or a love for chickens in the actual show 😂😂

Nice to see Jay standing up for himself at least for a little while 💪 Also Lloyd being "He's our trouble", aww family 💜

THERE IT IS

MY BRUISE HEART IS SOARING 🖤💙🖤💙

Gotta give props to the voice actors, voicing an explanation while fighting must be pretty hard! WE ARE BLESSED WITH AN AMAZING CAST!!! 🤩🤩🤩

And there he is, our favorite jerk... shaved Ronin 😂 He does look a little weird, but it's fair, new animation and all. Not the weirdest until now 🤷‍♀️

I genuinely had to make a mental check to see where we are with Ronin now, like, he started as a villain, then a partner, he betrayed us, became an ally, he hunted the ninja, then joined them, that timeline was erased, he was around in SoG and... wow this man is chaotic 😂😂

Yaaaay, Twitchy's last minute redemption act! Lloyd is too good at motivational speeches 👏👏

A bit of Lava OTP/BrOTP

Cause it's good for the heart ❤🖤❤🖤

Okay, Scooby doo reference, why not? Also honestly, I'm confident Ronin has seen A LOT of jails and prisons... probably won't stay behind bars for long 😅

Mammatus: sorry for imprisoning you and almost killing your friend

Kai: no biggie, that's how we make friends in this show

Alright the "And Clutch Powers" gag made me chuckle 😂 ... wait where is he- DANG IT UNCLE POWERS

Okay, this is the last time I say it I promise, but I mean. I MEAN

THE ANIMATION GUYS 😍😍😍

Aaaaand sensei you jinxed it 😅 But you apparently awakened Nya's season so I'm gonna forgive you on this one 😉

FINAL THOUGHTS

There are a few little details that bothered me a little, and it wasn't as exciting as I maybe hoped it was going to be, but it was fine. Enjoyable still. These characters make me like the show, even when it got nothing too impactful 🤷‍♀️

But I got triggered about that lightning thing with Jay 😅 I guess I'll just fanfic whatever I had in mind...

Don't have to repeat myself about the animation *chef's kiss*

The writing was really less engaging, a little normal in a way? Idk just a feeling. Nice to see Ronin again though, I really like him. And nice to see Jay freaking out, I really like that too 😂

To be honest I wanted to put down my thoughts on this one because I REALLY wanna do the same with Nya's season 🤩🤩 I already know that Maya is gonna be there and I am so HAPPY already!!! 💙💙💙

So that's it from me! Thank you for reading me ranting, see you next season! 😊

[returnsandreturns]

You should buy vanicream lotion for your tear swollen eye skin! Hope things look up! Oh, and my roommate and I early voted on Wednesday in Texas! It was actually kinda of funny, this girl behind us was trying to talk to us, and idk if she clocked us but she said with a comically thick country accent "I'm down with the gays, my gay friends can think I'm hot," I just lost my shit. Like at least you're trying girl, lots don't try at all lol. If you are up for writing a drabble that would be great!

lol what a good ally 

i wrote a thing:

Realizing that he wanted to do things with Foggy that flew right past the boundaries of a normal guy friendship was difficult for Matt to deal with to begin with; he really didn’t need that realization to come in the middle of a class, watching Foggy debate someone in such a precise and vicious way that they never had a chance. 

Matt doesn’t know if someone being really good at arguing is a kink but he thinks he understands what kinks feel like now. 

“How was I?” Foggy asks, when it’s over and Matt’s thankfully managed to get all his shit in check and also thank God he stole one of Foggy’s hoodies that’s long enough to cover up the very physical reaction he’s still having.

“You were amazing,” Matt says, because he can’t really think of another word.

“I was okay,” Foggy says. 

“You were. . .amazing,” Matt says, firmly. 

He resolved at some point that if Foggy, who is his favorite person in the world, wasn’t going to love himself enough then he would do it for him.

Looking back, he probably should have anticipated the whole. . .sexual part of this.

*

Foggy kills it in every single debate and mock trial that he does and Matt just sits there and tries not to look too much like he’s going to literally faint because he’s been in the middle of a bisexual existential crisis for awhile; that is, until the time finally comes where they have to debate each other. 

Matt considers faking sick but he’s also been killing all of his debates, too, and he might be more competitive than he is shockingly ready to push Foggy up against a wall and just see where it goes.

He wins.

He’s surprised because he basically white-knuckle gripped his podium every time Foggy spoke (he was different because he was debating Matt; no less vicious but funnier, like everything he said was an inside joke just for them) and had a hard time paying attention but apparently the energy of confusing longing translated well.

“Dude, good job,” Foggy says, sounding happy even though he lost, sounding happy because Matt won, and it’s--

Matt wants--

Just to see where it goes. 

“Hey, can you come outside with me for a second?” he asks, plucking uselessly at Foggy’s sleeve.

“Sure,” Foggy says, sounding a little worried now, waiting until they’re in the almost empty hallway before he starts to ask, “Are you upset about some--”

Matt walks him gently backward until Foggy’s back is against the wall and, when Foggy just waits and doesn’t freak out even though his heart speeds up a lot, hesitantly kisses him on the mouth.

“Matt,” Foggy breathes.

“Did you want that, too?” Matt asks, because he thought maybe Foggy did from the way that he’s always acted around Matt, like. . .like they’ve always kind of been beyond the normal guy friendship stuff even if they never got here. 

To the kissing part. 

Foggy laughs and it’s the nicest sound that Matt’s ever heard once he follows it with a hand in Matt’s hair and another kiss, a little longer than the first one, saying, “So much,” as soon as he breaks it.

[punkscowardschampions]

Jude & Jac

Jude: are you alright? Jac: Not particularly Jude: talk to me then Jac: No offense Jac: but that really isn't going to make me feel better Jude: so do it to make me feel better Jac: What do you want, Jude? Jude: idk Jude: everyone's talking but they're not saying stuff that makes sense Jac: No one knows what they're talking about Jac: they should try minding their business Jude: bit unlikely Jac: I'm not going to give you anything more to report back Jac: I've said all I know already Jude: oi! I ain't running a story for the school paper or owt like that Jude: I'm about the angle whereby you're my sister and I've known your mates for time Jude: it's personal, like Jac: It happened to Is Jac: not me, not you Jac: we can't sit around making it about us, it's not productive Jude: productive? Jac: Don't start Jude: can we get to a place where you tell me what's going on with Izzy or what? Jac: I don't know Jac: some lad creeped on her at the party last night and now her mum is on a mission about it Jude: she's your best mate, how're you not camped out on her front garden?! Jac: Oh great, make me feel bad Jac: she doesn't want to talk, I'm not going to force my presence upon her to make myself, or any of the rest of you, feel better Jude: she needs you, not her ma, what's that woman gonna do? what does she get about anything? Jac: What do you think I'm gonna do Jac: for goodness sake Jude: fuck all if you ain't there Jac: There's nothing to be done Jac: it's happened Jude: that's cold Jude: there's like comfort you could give her Jude: you could be someone that listens to her, if her ma's on such a mission Jac: Like I said, you know nothing Jac: that's all very well you proposing all these nice ideas but I told you, she doesn't want to talk Jac: so this is a pointless conversation Jude: like you heard me say, why aren't you there waiting on her for when she does? Jac: I'm not sitting outside her door Jac: I don't know what you're getting at, to be honest Jude: she'd do it for you Jude: you know that Jac: You're far too concerned with hypotheticals Jac: Like I said, I'm actually trying to be productive here Jude: nah, you're looking out for yourself Jude: being a shitty mate in the process Jac: Fine Jac: happy now? Jude: yeah that's proper cheered me up Jude: ffs Jac: Frankly, you're the least of my worries right now Jac: and that apparently suits you fine so Jac: if we're done here Jude: are you gonna keep replying like this is a business email? Jac: I've got nothing to say Jac: that I haven't already Jude: you've said nowt to me Jac: ask mum and dad Jac: I've got stuff to do Jude: what stuff? Jac: Talk to Sav, everyone else who was there Jac: see what they know Jude: it was her boyfriend's house, yeah? that bit's true? Jac: Yes Jac: it was just a normal house party Jude: did he invite that lad or did he gatecrash? Jac: He was invited Jac: he went to our school, everyone knows him Jude: do you? Jac: Yeah Jac: obviously Jude: if it's who I heard it was then I reckon I do too Jac: Who did you hear it was? Jude: Carter Murphy Jude: he used to be a massive deal far as winning shit for the basketball team but that's not why I know him Jac: I'm not going to confirm or deny Jac: not going to spread the rumours when it's already running rampant Jude: spreading rumours ain't what I'm about either, tah very much Jac: I just meant I'm not saying either way Jude: And I'm just saying if it was him I never reckoned there was anything that off about him Jude: no more than any other older lad who chats to me at parties Jude: wondering if I should've Jac: I don't know Jac: maybe there isn't Jude: but it's not like he'd be rocking a sign saying 'top at beer pong and banter but might force himself on you' at any rate Jac: Well yeah Jac: there's two sides to every story Jude: hang on, you're saying Izzy is lying? Jac: No, I'm saying it's impossible to ever know for definite in these situations Jude: it shouldn't be impossible to take her word for it, unless you've got a reason not to Jac: its hers against his Jude: why would she say he forced her if he didn't? Jude: her ma ain't THAT strict Jac: She was drunk Jac: you know you can think a thing happened one way that isn't necessarily how it was or how the other person saw it Jude: Yeah Jude: but this is a bit different from me getting pissed off at my mates for none of 'em catching me when I thought I'd told 'em I was gonna jump and I'd never Jac: I can have personal opinions Jac: it's not as if I'm talking to anyone or doing anything with it Jac: if her ma wants to take it legal then that's for her to decide Jude: I dunno, maybe you're right Jude: legally, it is her word against his Jude: add in the drink, even if she didn't have that much, it's bollocks but it's bollocks they'd still use Jac: Everyone knows it's pointless going to the police Jac: regardless if it happened or not Jac: don't need to know exact prosecution rates to know it's a waste of time Jude: poor Izzy Jude: whatever happened, everyone's gonna have a personal opinion Jude: and they'll put it about more than you Jac: It's shit Jac: it'd be a better use of time finding a decent counselor Jude: you could tell her that when she's talking to you again Jac: Yeah well Jac: maybe everyone needs to stop trying to tell her what to do Jude: alright, fair Jude: I didn't need to go off on you either Jude: my bad Jac: You aren't the first Jac: don't worry about it Jude: I am though Jude: I don't wanna go out, I don't want you to go out Jac: Come on, don't be stupid Jac: it's not as if there's a maniac on the loose Jac: a boy pushed his luck at a party, it's nothing new, nothing to be scared of Jude: a lad I reckoned was alright Jude: like I said, nobody's got a sign on Jude: everything's gone weird now Jac: People can't be trusted Jac: if you've been going around thinking they can, you're lucky nothing bad has happened to you Jude: some people Jude: you trust Sav, don't you? Jac: I know her Jac: properly Jac: she isn't some random at parties Jude: you didn't know her from birth, like Jac: nothing is ever airtight Jac: obviously Jac: but if she was anything close to what that lad was, it'd be out by now Jude: but if you knew what that lad was like why did you let Izzy go off with him? Jac: Who said I did? Jac: not trusting people as a default doesn't mean I know they aren't to be Jude: well yeah Jac: If she wants to go off with a lad, it's not my place to stop her Jac: or do a background check before she does Jude: would you let me? Jac: We would never be at the same party Jude: I'd never be at one of Sav's Jude: she's at like a 4/10 at this point Jac: I don't care what you think Jude: bit rude Jac: You are Jac: this conversation has nothing to do with her Jude: why are you being so touchy about her? Jac: because this conversation was already close to pointless so I don't need it to get any further off track Jude: I'm bringing some normality back to it Jac: I don't have time for this, seriously Jude: my bad, AGAIN Jude: come on Jac: I'm sick of it Jac: I don't want to talk about this anymore Jude: I know but it's shit when we don't talk Jac: Well Jac: there's not much else going on with me today so Jude: is there owt I can DO then? Jude: dad's camped by the kettle already, like Jac: Keep them busy Jac: I need to go somewhere Jude: no challenge in that Jude: are you going to see Sav? Jac: Tah Jac: yeah, might take a while Jude: is she alright? Jac: No, she's really upset Jac: and her family are driving her crazy Jude: I have just the thing up my sleeve to keep ours busy for time Jude: on you go Jac: Good Jac: in a bit Jude: later then Jude: [skip skip skip] Jude: is Sav still upset? Jude: cos mum and dad are driving me crazy now Jude: they're FUMING 😡🤬 Jac: It's safe to say we're past the point of you needed to distract them Jude: I've got a good work ethic Jude: if a job's worth doing Jac: Very impressive, like Jude: tah, makes one of us Jude: meant to chuck your phone 🚮 you rookie Jac: I have Jac: check the IP address if you really fancy it Jude: 🤓 Jude: how long you gonna take the piss for? Jac: It's not about that Jude: what's it about then? Jac: having time and space Jude: everyone's saying Sav broke up with her boyfriend cos of what happened to Izzy Jude: if she's chucked her phone too she won't know Jac: She broke up with him before then Jac: you can spread that if you wanna Jude: it's nowt to do with me, just saying in case you wanna warn her Jac: Well she's not there to have to listen Jac: if people are tarring Tyler with the same brush as Carter, it'd be the decent thing to do to put that out there Jude: you can't stay away forever Jude: but alright, cos they're saying bad shit about him and all his mates and I don't fuck with that Jac: People might learn to keep quiet if they realize they could be next Jude: bit unlikely Jac: not really Jac: Ty and his friends are popular Jude: not right now Jac: that's my point Jude: yeah I got that Jude: nobody thinks any of this bollocks is gonna land at their feet, that's mine Jude: everyone wants to be special, untouchable and so on Jude: 👑✨ Jac: well if the ⭐s ain't then no one is Jude: I'm here for that, fuck cliques, this ain't America Jac: Unlikely Jude: 🙄😏 Jac: I'm serious Jac: I don't care what anyone at that school thinks now Jude: you don't, your best mate might Jac: She doesn't Jac: it's way below where our concerns are Jac: or have ever been Jude: he's her well recent ex Jude: everyone knows she loved him Jac: Like I said, you can defend his innocence Jac: She dumped him Jude: alright Jude: you ain't found time or space to be less touchy, I get it Jac: I clearly don't want to talk Jac: take the hint Jude: nah Jac: Jesus Jude: you don't get to just do one so easily, take that hint Jac: well I have Jac: and I can log off any time I want Jude: this isn't how you handle shit, anyone with a clue would put money on me legging it before you Jac: then, again, you'd all be wrong Jude: it was all her idea, yeah? Jude: if her family are that relentless you know they'd let her stay Jude: it doesn't have to be some checked in to heartbreak hotel moment Jac: No, it was mine Jac: I don't want to be there Jac: I don't know how you don't get that Jude: nobody wants any of this to be happening but it is Jude: it was you who told me to face up to the fact, how long ago, like? Jac: And I told you, I had things to do Jac: This has little to nothing to do with Isabelle Jude: ❌ running off into the sunset with Savannah off your list then Jude: you ain't missed a day of school in such a properly long time that my mates had that bet running for ages and all lost, remember? Jude: you're the weirdo that goes in 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮🤧💀👻 Jac: Some things are more important Jude: what's so important you need a room with an expensive view to do it in? Jac: Staying sane Jac: not being around to listen to that bullshit and worse Jude: it'll be here when you have to come back Jude: be my sister and pull the 🩹 off Jude: none of this is Jac behaviour Jac: Maybe you don't know me as well as you thought Jude: if in your own words this has nowt to do with Izzy, it's nowt you can't handle Jude: things were bad when you fell out with Mills, you stayed sane and around for that Jac: She didn't get assaulted by nobody Jude: it wasn't your fault that Izzy did Jac: That's not how it feels Jac: or what everyone will say Jude: nobody's saying it and I'd stop it if they were Jac: I'm sick of being treated like I did something wrong Jude: massive dickheads are the only ones who'd try and 1. I'm not gonna let 'em 2. you don't care what people like that think Jude: you're stronger and braver than their bullshit Jac: It's all of you Jac: asking so many questions Jac: Sav's parents want to lock her up Jude: it's mum and dad's job to worry and lay the law down, like Jude: I could've done better with it, alright, I know Jude: but if you reckon Sav's parents are headcases now, leaving it even longer ain't a decent plan Jude: you're the family genius, come on Jac: You worry them, they start to listen Jac: instead of saying how it is and how it's going to be Jude: you're the oldest, everyone knows what that means Jac: We aren't coming back until this calms down and they're willing to be reasonable Jac: that's that Jude: running away don't calm down anything 💥🔥🌪 Jac: Then we won't be coming back any time soon Jac: they're the adults and that's what they need to be about this Jude: what about school? Jac: It doesn't matter Jac: it's not like we have exams or anything soon Jude: school's what mattered most to you since you started going 🤓 Jac: So, I'm smarter than everyone else Jac: I don't need to worry about falling behind Jude: it IS you! Jude: I'm not just talking to a drifter wearing your skin Jac: 🙄 Jude: 😜 Jac: You're an idiot Jude: you'll miss me when you've had your time and space Jac: Unlikely Jude: 💔🥶 Jude: give Sav my love cos she'll 100% miss me Jac: Hilarious Jude: I'll be here all week 🤣🎤 Jac: Sorry to hear that, like Jude: I'll live, like Jac: Would you like me to 💔? Jude: don't fake owt for me Jude: rarely works out Jac: So I hear Jude: well those of us who ain't in the top % have books to read and not like, doodle all over or make planes out of Jude: ✌️😝 Jude: you know where I'LL be if you need ME, we're only fucked on the vice versa Jac: I'd like to say that was a nice try Jude: me too but Jac: Piss poor is more like it Jude: 🥉 Jude: [skip skip skip again] Jude: I can't knock all night, our dear brother will throw his other 👟 at me Jude: you're scaring me Jude: use some big words I can't get my head round Jac: Leave Jude: Jac Jac: No Jude: what happened? Jac: Nothing Jude: something has cos you weren't this person, like, a day ago Jude: and you said you weren't coming back for ages Jac: Here I am Jude: where's Savannah? Jude: you know I'll ask her Jac: No you won't Jude: use a full sentence then Jac: Do not talk to her Jude: why won't you talk to me? Jude: what could be this bad? Jac: Just go Jac: please Jude: I'll be back tomorrow Jude: 🩹 yeah? Jude: longer you leave it Jac: Don't bother Jude: I ain't about to ignore the state you're in Jude: how did she hurt you? Jac: She didn't do anything Jude: who else did? Jac: No one Jude: Then what? Jac: I'm fine Jude: bollocks! Jac: I am Jude: nah Jude: you came in looking like you'd seen a 👻 Jac: don't want to be here Jude: did you and Sav have a fight or what? cos I don't get why you're back if you don't wanna be Jac: she had to come back Jude: do you want me to give her a ring? get her over? Jac: no Jude: you ARE mad at her then Jac: I'm not Jude: if you ain't 🗨 it's cos you're face-to-face Jude: something's off Jude: don't need to be the family genius, like Jac: she's not done anything Jude: have you? Jac: [does not reply] Jude: you can tell me Jude: I'll help you hide her body Jac: Shut up Jude: you talk and I'll listen Jude: what did you do? Jac: I can't Jude: whatever it is, it won't be as bad as it feels right now Jude: she's your best friend, she'll come back round to that Jude: she just needs to be dramatic for a bit Jac: You have no clue Jude: clue me in then Jac: I don't want to Jac: this is my business Jac: what part of this don't you get, just stop it Jude: alright Jude: you still know where I am Jac: 👍

[janiedean]

Oh? Oh! Now me moved to suicide bait, like we don't know except for a few hate-filled messages and she's telling you she's going to kill herself? Like I don't know, but yelling at random people on the internet isn't going to attract empathy? (And ++ for Bruce Springsteen, can I have some analysis too? Hum... You're a.. Hum.. A bad woman! A very bad woman! And you're Italian! Does it count as anon hate?)

you're a poop head ( this is me trying to get you to give us that sweet bruce springsteen content by sending you hate )

these were two anons but it’s 11 pm and I can’t do two analyses lmao

OKAY GUYS, SINCE ANOTHER ANON ASKED A FEW DAYS AGO, HAVE ONE OF MY FAVORITE UKNOWN BRUCE SONGS!

Shut Out The Light is an outtake from 1984′s Born in the USA, which eventually ended up being the b-side on the BITUSA single 45′, and finally published to everyone’s happiness in the box set Tracks in 1998 but played live in other occasions. It’s from the Nebraska/BITUSA era, and it’s another Bruce songs focusing on the Vietnam war question.

As in BITUSA, we have another veteran coming home, but differently from the previous song, he’s just come back and hasn’t tasted the whole variety of rejections he’ll have from society yet. But, differently from BITUSA as well, it touches on other issues. Let’s get into it!

The runway rushed up at him as he felt the wheels touch downHe stood out on the blacktop and took a taxi into townHe got out down on Main Street and went into a local barHe bought a drink and found a seat in a corner off the dark

So, again we have the cinematic opening - this could be right out of a movie: you can imagine visually the protagonist (who is a he, not an I differently from BITUSA) getting off the airplane and goes back home in the taxi and instead of going home goes to get a drink. Actually, this has a lot of interesting choices because he buys a drink and wants a seat in a corner in the dark, so he tries to not take space and he doesn’t want to be seen, and rather than meeting his family, he goes to have a drink.

Spoilers: our guy has issues. Now, let’s move on:

Well she called up her mama to make sure the kids were out of the houseShe checked herself out in the dining room mirrorAnd undid an extra button on her blouseHe felt her lying next to him, the clock said 4:00 amHe was staring at the ceilingHe couldn't move his hands

Here we moved to presumably the man’s wife. She leaves the children with her mother - because she wants some private time with her man, or because she’s worried about something else? probably the first, though, because then she takes the time to pretty herself up and open the button on her blouse, as in, she’s trying to look more attractive for him after they haven’t presumably seen each other for a long time.

So: they presumably have sex - she’s lying next to him - but he can’t go to sleep, and he’s staring at the clock at four in the morning and then at the ceiling and can’t move his hands, which suggests he might have sleep paralysis or something of the kind, which is also a consequence of trauma, and actually, as we go into the refrain, we have the confirmation:

Oh mama mama mama come quickI've got the shakes and I'm gonna be sickThrow your arms around me in the cold dark nightHey now mama don't shut out the lightDon't you shut out the lightDon't you shut out the lightDon't you shut out the lightDon't you shut out the light

Spoilers: this guy has ptsd. Bad ptsd. Very poetically put, but:

he wants his mother to come to him (calling for your mother is like, your basic instinct because she’s the person you should technically be closest to as the person who brought you up and raised you and birthed you);

he has the shakes and he’s gonna be sick (could be triggered panic attacks, flashbacks, dissociating - obviously it’s not detailed because it’s a song and not the DSM, but the symptoms are there);

he wants his mom to hold him (actually: throw her arms, so doing it almost violently) in the cold dark night (a situation that sounds fairytale-scary);

and he wants her to not shut out the light - ie he doesn’t want to be with the lights turned off because the darkness triggers memories (if you read any vietnam memoir you know that they hated night stake outs because they couldn’t see shit and they could be ambushed at any time).

So: the entire refrain is about how he has bad ptsd and he’s not handling it even if he’s trying to keep it under control, this just after he comes back from Vietnam.

Established that:

Well on his porch they stretched a banner that said "Johnny Welcome Home"Bobby pulled his Ford out of the garage and they polished up the chromeHis mama said "Johnny oh Johnny, I'm so glad to have you back with me"His pa said he was sure they'd give him his job back down at the factory

So: this guy got at least a welcome home party and we know now he’s named Johnny (reference to When Johnny Comes Marching Home? MAAAYBE SO) and that he has a best friend named Bobby who drags the car out of the garage (so he hasn’t driven it since Vietnam and no one else has) and tries to do a nice thing for him by polishing it and they can do something normal. Johnny’s mother - the one he wants at night - is happy to see him and she’s glad he survived, while his father discusses his job (mind it - the mom is worried about him being back at all, the father is worried about Johnny’s employment, as the One Who Things Mostly About Work In The Family as we already see is a recurring theme). And mind: he’s sure Johnny will get back his factory job (so, another unskilled worker who got drafted while poor) which as we know from history and the follow-up songs, Johnny will most likely not get.

Which sounds nice, except that then we go back into the refrain and nothing has changed - welcome party or nor, bff with the car or not, job or not, Johnny still isn’t okay at night and still doesn’t want the light turned off.

After the refrain, we get into the last part:

Well deep in a dark forest, a forest filled with rainBeyond a stretch of Maryland pines there's a river without a nameIn the cold black water Johnson Leneir standsHe stares across the lights of the city and dreams of where he's been

Now we have the name and surname of the guy - Johnson Leneir. He could be with his wife and family (the kids out of the house) but instead where is he? A deep dark forest, filled with rain, as in... a forest that could match Vietnam’s since again, Vietnam is filled of rainy forests and it was where most of those people have to fight. He’s in Maryland, but beyond its stretch there’s a river without a name, so the river in Maryland (if it’s there at all) or the land beyond that stretch of land is a river in Vietnam - a lot of the people there didn’t necessarily know the names of where they were or knew where they were being sent - and the negative association is made by describing the water of that river as cold and black, which are hardly words with positive connotations. Also, he stands in the cold black water as in he walks into the river same as he might have done in Vietnam (there’s a similar scene in Tim O’ Brien’s If I Die In a Combat Zone and idk if Bruce read it but it was published in ‘73 so he could absolutely have), so he can’t detach himself from that experience but at least he’s not risking death by re-interpreting it. 

Then: he stares across the lights of the city - a place he’s cut away from when he should belong there, and that’s to say he’s not belonging even with the bff and the supportive family and the beautiful wife, when instead he can’t help going into the woods and the cold dark river because he can’t leave Vietnam behind, and dreams of where he’s been, as in - as I said: he thinks he’s back in Vietnam or he thinks back about Vietnam and he can’t leave that behind him, and again the refrain doesn’t change -- he still doesn’t want the lights turned off, he still wants his mother, he still has the shakes, he still will be sick at least for the foreseeable future, because the war fucked him up and he’s not well and he won’t be until he gets help.

Will he turn into the guy from BIUSA? Given that this song is its b-side in the single, COULD DEFINITELY BE A POSSIBILITY. Will he get his life straight? We just don’t know, but here we have in three short, simple vignettes a full-on picture of someone who came back from a war traumatized that we can identify with as it concentrates not on his war experience but on things we all can relate to (the wife, the kids, the parents, the best friend with the car, wanting your mother when you’re afraid), which shows that Bruce can write a fucking song even if he wasn’t in the guy’s shoes personally (he got a 4F and GOOD FOR US ALL), and this in an historical moment where people pretended Vietnam never happened. I personally kind of wish he published it properly before 1998 because it’s a gem imo, but it did come to light outside being the single b-side and IT’S A GORGEOUS SONG AND I STAND BY IT.

[clumsyclifford]

oh that sounds great how's samson the cutie doing? and i'm literally so happy for you that you don't have to take math finale i mean holy fuck that's amazing!! also good for you that you had tea. tea is literally the only thing keeping me sane (with slight help from iced coffee) how you survived three months without tea is beyond me.

thank you it's very appreciated & i love you very much as well 💖

had some free time today & used it to listen to a couple more songs of your taking out playlist (again really just my fav lines but maybe they overlap again 🙈)

kids in the dark firstly i fucking love this song and the line that takes me out is "what a shame beautiful scars on critical veins" though i love the whole "standing on the edge" part too

heaven the entire chorus kills me honestly specifically "heaven doesn't want me" but also "make a wish that you'll get a chance to say goodbye before the shots ring out in the dead of night"

life changes what a fucking song. is it normal to cry to this btw? "ain't it funny how life changes you wake up ain't nothing the same and life changes" has nearly always managed to get me to tear up (or well just the entire chorus)

if you're gonna lie tricky one bc amazing lyrics all in all and i think for you the taking out part might be the chorus bc you seem to have a thing for lies. "by loving you, i'm losing me every night" is my fav though

need me well fuck. okay. i love this song so much. entire first verse slaps. "i got peace and i got pain either way it's all the same" or "tell me that you need me will you love me ’til you leave me" i can see as taking out lines, specifically the second one for me bc it has sth so desperate to it i think? idk i just really love this song

speaking of songs i love dear winter ..one line? okay i gotta talk about this song for a sec bc like. why are they allowed to do that. why can they just hurt me like that. i don't even know if i want kids and then comes ajr is like here feel lots of yearning for your non-existent child and also your non-existent partner apropos this needs to go on my yearning playlist. anyway this whole fucking song literally murders me every single time. most of all "i gotta find a girl that doesn't mind that i'm inside my head a lot" bc. yeah. "i hope you talk to girls or boys or anyone you like i just hope you don't stay in every night 'cause i wish i was out tonight" and every variation of the chorus bc great fucking songwriting. i could go on about specific lines but i'd end up just copying the entire song so let's go with the lines i said.

love you very much and wish you a good night though i think it's like midday for you, fiancee

god i KNOWWW to all of that tbh. ive had so much tea since being home i am THRIVING i think i had three cups of tea today i am living my best life

oh okay sick!! let’s go

kids in the dark: yeah it’s “beautiful scars on critical veins” kitd isnt even one of my favorite atl songs but that is one of my FAVORITE lyrics. like of all time i just love it so much

heaven: HEAVEN DOESNT WANT ME ANYMORE!!!!!!! god have i mentioned i love nine. i do

life changes: im not sure it’s NORMAL to cry but i support you for doing it <3 the line is actually “you make your plans and you hear god laughing” because i just really like the energy of that. i think there’s a second one though which is “notebook full of bad songs i was writing” (i mean honestly the entire first verse) because I Sure Can Relate

if you’re gonna lie: HLKSJFG a THING for LIES PLEASE let me live. as a matter of fact the line is “you said you’re out with friends, but you’re with her tonight / i checked your location, good fuckin’ try” because <3 fletcher swearing <3 and i just love the delivery......the honesty.....the bluntness. it’s sexy

need me: YEAH!!! will you love me ‘til you leave me?? FUCKS ME UP. however there’s a bonus one because it’s not exactly about the lyrics so much as how the lyrics interact w the instruments, which is in the first verse where they say “kick drum” and there’s a kick drum at that moment. i fuckin love when music does that kind of thing

dear winter: GODDD I KNOW i fucking LOVE dear winter it makes me feel so much. i love it. and the line is “it really doesn’t seem like there’s anyone for me” i dont know........it’s so defeated man. it’s !!!!!! anyway. the line about finding a girl who doesn’t mind that i’m inside my head a lot also fucks me up

i hope you’re doing well <3

[fandomhavenskittles]

Tag cause ya'll want to know stuff about me for some odd reason

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you're supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you (its gonna be midnight by the time i finish this cause I TAKE FOREVER TO DO THINGS). At the end choose 25 people to tag (im breaking this rule cause i cant even think of 5 people to tag let alone 25)

I was tagged by @wishful-lolita ^^

Last:

Last drink: water

Last phone call:.........

Lost someone special: Yes (fanfics and anime don't count) MY CHILDHOOD DOG IS SOMEONE SPECIAL.

Last text message: My grandma

Last song you listened to: I don't remember;;;

Last time I cried: I have no idea, probably yesterday tbh. I cry often

Have You Ever:

Dated someone twice: Yes- (Fan fiction doesn't count) Nope

Been cheated on: Yes- (fan fiction doesn't count) No

Kissed someone and regretted it: I've never kissed a human. The reason I say this is because my dog licks me a lot. It's gross.

Been depressed: This might surprise some people since I try to keep my blogs (i have multiple) positive, but I have anxiety, and my very dumb fears about the world ending and my confusion as to why living is a thing (i wonder how many days i ruined by saying that) do sometimes get me depressed. But hey, last time I checked it's a normal thing to get depressed over dumb things (one of my cousins was depressed over what he claimed to be a bad hair cut. IT WAS AN INCH SHORTER OF NORMAL. IT LOOKED FINE. But for some odd reason I was the one who was comforting him over it. Not his parents, not his girlfriend, his little cousin who could care less about his hair being an inch shorter than normal), so I don't worry about it.

Been drunk and thrown up: I've been drunk but I've never thrown up (you've never had alcohol in your life) Yeah, but I've taken Nightquil before and I act drunk when I'm on it (...you're on it now, aren't you) Yep HAHAHAHA I HATE BEING SICK.

In the past year you have:

Made a new friend: Yep! A few, actually.

Fallen out of love: Ye- (fan fics don't count) Nope.

Laughed until you cried: Yup, all the time.

Met someone who changed you: ???? Idk

Found out who your true friends are: I mean, I've ways felt like all my friends were my true friends, soooo....

Found out someone was talking about you: Nope, and hopefully I'll never be in a situation like that.

General:

How many people on Tumblr do you know in real life?: One! @muppets-muppets

Do you have any pets?: Yes!I have 3 dogs!

Do you want to change your name?: Nope, I like my name

What time did you wake up this morning?: Idk, somewhere around 8 i think

What were you doing last night: Coughing. THE FLU IS EVIL.

Name something you cannot wait for: There's 3 things I can think of: My birthday, Voltron season 4, and Nabaka season 3. I HEARD THERE WAS A CLIFT HANGER AT THE END AND EVEN THOUGH IDK WHAT IT IS YET I CANT WAIT FOR SEASON 3. Oh, and Christmas break cause that's when I'm planning on playing V's route.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yep, i have a neighbor named Tom. Might as well call me 707

What's getting on your nerves right now: That there's a good chance that my state is going to get hit by hurricane Jose AND ON MY BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LILY, HAVE A HURRICANE AND SEVERAL HUNDRED INJURED PEOPLE. LIKE, CAN MY STATE NOT GET RUINED ON MY BIRTHDAY PLEASE? I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO BE HURT, TEXAS AND FLORIDA WAS ENOUGH (Fun fact, i have family and friends in both of those states. Gotta love freaking out over if your relatives are dead or not)

Blood type: A, i think

Nickname: Lil

Relationship status: Taken- (in real life, not by fictional characters in your mind) Single

Zodiac sign: Virgo

Pronouns: She/her. Or it, I'm fine with people calling me an it.

Favorite TV shows: Want the abbreviated list or the mile long one?

College: Eh, I barley just started high school, give me a few years. Or decades.

Hair color: Brown, but the tips are green from blue hair dye fading out.

Long or short: ???? Da heck does that mean??

Do you have a crush on someone: I think I do, but I haven't seen him in months so I'm not sure anymore.

Firsts:

Surgery: my tonsils

First piercing: My ears, but they closed up.

First best friend: @muppets-muppets I'VE KNOWN HER FOR 9 YEARS SOMEONE SAVE ME (Im kidding. I love ya, dude)

First sport you joined: i dont remember, i tried a bunch of sports and then dropped out of them. Im not a sporty person

First vacation: Great wolf lodge, which is ironic cause im afraid of wolves

First pair of sneakers: i dong remember;;;

Eating: Im not eating anything rn but the last thing J ate were those hello panda cookies (basically a waffer like cookie that looks like a panda with creme inside. The chocolate ones are good)

Drinking: water

Listening to: the ac. Im not listening to music

Want kids: i think so. I have years to decide

Get married: yes

Career: idk, i always change what i want to do.

Which is better:

Eyes or lips: eyes

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Shorter or taller: I mean, im really short soo....

Older or younger: dont really care as long as they're not too young or too old.

Romantic or spontaneous: ??? I dont trust this question for some reason

Sensitive or lou- WHAT IS WITH THESE QUESTIONS , I AM A CHILDS.

Hook up or relationship: relationship

Trouble maker or hesitant:... I dont trust this question, either.

Have you ever:

Kissed a stranger: I am a child and a germophobe, so,no, never

Drank hard liquor: No, but after taking Nightquil it feels like i have.

Lost glasses/contacts:ALL THE DANG TIME, I LOOSE EVERYTHING.

Sex on first dat- NO I AM A CHILD. NOPENOPENOPENOPE

Broken someone's heart:...???

Been arrested: Nope, but I won't be surprised if I do in the future for trespassing cause I didn't,read the huge "no trespassing" sign like the idiot i am

Turned someone down: no

Fallen for,a,friend:...long story that I am too tiered to explain.

Do you believe:

In yourself: HAHAHA im not stupid, of course not.

Love at first sight: sure, why not?

Heaven: yes

Santa Claus: Funny story: when I was about 8 or 9 i was terrified of Santa so I made my parents tell me the truth.

Im sorry but im not tagging anyone cause im really tired and cant think,of people to tag. I hate nightquil.

[littlespoonevan]

Idk if you're taking prompts right now so there's no rush but I really want to hear how even would be if isak got sick with a cold or something? And vice versa for if even caught it? Basically them caring for each other and both being really annoyed by the other person but also not wanting them to ever leave? If that makes sense? I just think you capture them really well and I'd like to hear your interpretation. Thanks xx

oh thank you so much for those kind words, angel!!! they mean so much to me :’))) and god sick!fics are always a weakness of mine i’m surprised i haven’t written this yet tbh?????? here we gooooooooooo

Isak is the biggest gRUMPY BABY when he’s sick

he’s a grumpy baby on a good day

so when he’s sick it’s ten times worse

he’s miserable and tired and achy and he hasn’t slept properly in two days bc he’s too uncomfortable to drift off and he’s only able to breathe through his mouth which keeps waking him up

and normally he doesn’t want anyone near him when he’s sick bc even the littlest touches irritate him

but then Even happens

Even, who is so so gentle with him, who looks so terribly worried about him, and who appears absolutely crestfallen as he says, “i’ll leave you alone if you want? just check up on you every couple of hours and make sure you’re eating?” after he witnesses Isak biting Eskild’s head off over his mothering

and something in Isak cracks a little because he realises with absolute certainty that he doesn’t want Even to leave

Even is so good at taking care of him just in the day to day and  Isak is the type of person to feel a lil overwhelmed when he’s sick???

and the thought of not having Even here with him is just a bit Too Much for him so he curls his fingers in Even’s t-shirt and whispers a tremulous, “don’t go,” voice croaky and throat sore when he swallows 

Even’s eyes soften and he moves to lie back down on the bed, pressing right up against Isak’s back, surrounding him and making him feel so, so safe

but Isak still weakly bats him away, mumbling, “don’t cuddle me either. you’ll get sick too.”

it’s a half-hearted complaint at best, said more out of obligation than because he actually wants Even to leave

“it’s okay,” Even murmurs quietly, voice soothing and breath cool against the back of Isak’s neck. “just let me hold you until you’re able to fall asleep”

Isak feels that distinct urge to cry again

but he manages to ignore his watery eyes and instead slots his fingers with Even’s where his hands rest over his tummy and lets out a relieved breath

he falls asleep after a few minutes, breathing evening out and hands slackening just the slightest bit in Even’s hold

and though he’s loath to let him go, Even can’t stay holding him for too long because Isak still has a bit of a fever and the extra body heat is making his forehead feel too hot so when Isak is in a deep enough sleep Even carefully disentangles himself from him to let him cool down

but he doesn’t move very far

he lies about half a foot away, running a soothing hand over Isak’s back bc he knows how much Isak’s muscles have been aching the past couple of days

he knows it won’t really help but he likes to think Isak feels a little less tense under his hands anyway

he stays like that until Isak wakes up again a couple of hours later and only then does he get up to get Isak’s next dose of medicine and make him some food

“can’t you just ask eskild to do it?” Isak asks and if it were anyone else he’d be embarrassed by how needy he’s being but it’s Even so it’s okay

“come on, you know you like my cooking better,” Even says lowly, teasingly, kissing isak’s cheek before straightening again

“i prefer your cuddles,” Isak mumbles in protest, voice muffled by the pillow

Even grins and brushes Isak’s hair back off his forehead, making Isak lean into the touch and close his eyes. “i promise i’ll be right back.”

true to his word, Even returns after what only feels like a few minutes with a bowl of soup and a glass of water

he sits on the bed and lets Isak lean on him while he eats and even just that little touch - his shoulder overlapping with Even’s, his temple against Even’s - is enough to make Isak return to centre a bit

Even is so good over the next few days 

he dries Isak’s hair for him after he showers, he gives Isak all his hoodies to sleep in bc he knows the smell calms him down, he’s meticulous about making sure Isak eats every few hours and takes his medicine, he gets Isak notes from the classes he’s missing

he does everything and Isak has never been more grateful for him or more in love

so when he starts to feel a bit better and suddenly Even’s eyes are looking a little glassy and his nose is a little sniffly he insists on repaying the favour

“isak, i’m fine. it’s just a cold,” Even swears but Isak won’t hear it

his version of taking care of Even is cuddling him and making him hot chocolate and watching as many of his favourite movies as possible

so even though Even really isn’t that sick he decides to just let Isak take care of him

it feels nice and Isak’s hands never leave his hair and the blanket they’re under makes him feel toasty and warm

“can we kiss now?” Even asks in between movies. “since we’re both sick and can’t infect each other?”

they haven’t kissed on the lips in almost five days because Isak had been far too sick for it to be a good idea but now Even has a cold too so it doesn’t even matter and he just misses Isak’s mouth

Isak smiles his droopy-eyed Even smile and very gently tips their mouths together in a barely there kiss

it’s gentle, just a soft press, but Even feels warmth spreading through him nonetheless

he snuggles back under the covers with Isak once they break apart, letting Isak turn on movie number 3

and maybe being sick isn’t all that bad when they have each other