#ofc my first fic here has to be my bias!!

[ot9snumber1]

honey

hirai momo x fem!reader

summary: momo isn't very keen on the idea of loyalty.

warnings: suggestive + light angst, not proofread

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you curse yourself for opening that damn door.

you wonder how you could let this happen again as momo trails wet kisses down your neck.

"momo." you say sternly, trying to push her away but even she can see that you're not doing much to fight back. all you've done is push yourself closer to her.

"momo, i'm serious." you say again, actually pushing her away this time. momo pouts, like you'd just robbed her of something she desperately needed. (which is true, to an extent) "whyyy?" momo whines, wrapping her arms around your waist again.

"i just wanna make you feel good. you weren't complaining like this last night." she says as she kisses your jaw. you groan, but run your fingers through her hair and pull her closer anyway.

"i was complaining. you just weren't listening."

"complaining? all i remember is you saying oh, momo! fuck, don't stop, don't—" you have to kiss her to make her stop talking. momo only grins when you pull away.

there was no winning against her, after all. she had you trapped from the very start. you look at her as if you had a plan to make her stop. as if you had the power to make her feel guilty and leave once and for all.

"you and i both know there's no end to this." she whispers into your ear as she takes your shirt off, leading you to your own room. it's things like this that make you wonder why she even has a boyfriend. why she won't just break up with him and be with you like she so desperately wants.

part of you thinks she enjoys the thrill of keeping you a secret, of pretending like she cares enough about her boyfriend to want to keep his heart safe. another part of you thinks she doesn't care. that you're just someone she can use to fulfill her desires.

but you never ask her, you never get to ask her. all because the feeling of her tongue swirling around your nipple and two of her fingers going in and out of you is just too much for you to form a thought other than i need momo, i need momo, i need momo.

so you let her have her way with you all night long, forgetting about anything else you could have possibly planned for tonight and tomorrow morning (because you know momo's not going home without breakfast.)

it's when she cuddles you from behind, kisses your neck and tells you "love you, goodnight." that you swear you're going to ask her what you two really are next time.

but you already swore that yesterday. and the day before, and last week, and last month. you just conveniently forget to ask whenever she's awake. not this time, though. you swear you're going to get your answer this time, you even turn around to wake her up.

...she looks so peaceful, though. the way her hair is all messy from your hands pulling on it endlessly, the way her lipstick is hardly even seen anymore, the way she pulls you closer subconsciously.

it's enough to make you nuzzle closer and postpone the confrontation to breakfast tomorrow. (it never happens, you completely forget about everything you swore you were going to do when you wake up to momo going down on you.)

[saintescuderia]

pancakes: the recipe!

for the version of pancakes published here, i have tried to make the character as generic as possible in terms of reference (pronouns etc.) however, the one thing i have kept is the last name: tessio.

should you be curious as to find out more about the character, here is some more information which is used for the alternate version of pancakes (linked here: coming soon!)

NOTE: this story has additional fics that are a part of the 'pancakes!universe.' these supplement the overall story arc. also are just a bit of fun, really

+++ ANTINAL // CS55 AKA carlos gets sick in jeddah - complete (read here) +++ LOS BLANCOS // CS55 AKA the first time carlos sees you wearing a real madrid jersey makes him question everything

+++ STOMACHING YOU // MV33 AKA max comes to you after winning abu dhabi 2021 - complete (read here) +++ JUST AN INCHIDENT // MV33 AKA you hurt your wrist - and jos verstappen's face

+++ STUCK ON THE PUZZLE // DR3 AKA how daniel's famed 2018 monaco win was the beginning of the end

+++ HILLBILLES // OP81 (ft. kendrick, keem + tyler) AKA you help increase oscar's street cred by getting him into a music video with a bunch of rappers

+++ SIL16 // CL16 AKA - charles debuts in F1 and almost says i love you

+++ FAST AND FURIOUS // LL40 (ft. LH44) AKA - now that both your calendars line up, you and liam can finally go drifting in japan

FULL NAME: elena marie 'tezza' tessio DOB: 6/3/97 PLACES: born in monaco. raised in australia. lived in america. FAMILIAL SITUATION: auntie nadia is the goat. and just not because her brother is football's Don. GENERAL: gymrat. hip-hop head with far too many shoes. introverted. monolingual. 400mg of caffeine is a guideline. bryan o'connor was a sexual awakening - to boys and cars. burned too many times. protein pancakes are the goated form of breakfast.

a pancakes moodboard

the pancakes 'let him cook bake' playlist

note: there is no correlation where certain songs are for certain scenes. these are just the songs i listened to when i wrote this story.

too many nights - metro boomin

no eres tu (soy yo) - kali uchis

is there someone else? - the weeknd

benthi - khaled + melissa m

avec moi - PLK

ma bansak - zeyne (colours show ver.)

miami - kali uchis ft. bia

self love - metro boomin

in my head- tertia may

no ordinary love - sade

smooth operator remix - sade (ofc)

bonbon - era istrefi

4eva (extended mix) - shygirl

don't forget my love - diplo

slide - HER

bathroom - montell fish

p power - gunna

trance - metro boomin

orange soda - baby keem

realism v idealism - $uicideboy$

shook ones pt. ii - mobb deep

link here

taglist:

@eugene-emt-roe @spookystitchery @vicurious28 @taytaylala12 @c-losur3

@hiireadstuff @samantha-chicago @fionaschicken @casperlikej @bookstore-of-dreams

@itsjustkhaos @sam-is-lost @laneyspaulding19 @formula1mount @bokutos-babyowl

@stampiej @alilcloudy @bingussthirdtoe @lilymurphy03 @inlovewmarlenemckinnon

@charllleclerc @richardniixon @sp1rl @nikfigueiredo @lozzamez3

@butterfliesflyaroundmymind @vellicora @ellen3101 @michelleyw81 @samantha-chicago

@bloodyymaryyy @a-beaverhausen @bokutos-babyowl @tsireyasgf

message me if you would like to be added :)

[tododeku-or-bust]

A fandom situation sharing here…most of the Calypso fanart I've seen sees her either being clearly Black (even her hairstyle!) or at least dark-skinned. Penelope is most often really pale and Circe has some design variety. I can't help but feel uncomfortable that the worst of the three is most likely to be clearly Black or dark-skinned and the one that is seen as the most ideal is most of the time pale…ironically Circe, who is in the middle of spectrum, tends to be more ambiguous (or simply tanned)

And yes I know Penelope is described as pale, but it's not like Calypso is described as Black so I really don't think that argument works. I didn't want to post this on my blog publicly because I don't want people to get upset with me, but I really can't help but find it uncomfortable...It seems like a looooot of coincidence that the more unpleasant the character is, the greater the tendency for a dark-skinned or Black design...

Lmao meanwhile I'm already Black so they'll be mad at me instead huh 🤣 nah don't worry. I don't mind talking about these things.

I mean, on the one hand, I imagine Calypso as Black bc Vanessa Williams played her in the TV show, and Vanessa is a GORGEOUS woman imo. Like, beautiful beautiful. Woulda had me sold, I'll stay on the island. pick MEEEE! Described her like that in fic and all.

BUT! I recognize that that's probably not the intent of the people you're describing! So you're not wrong in wondering if there's an unconscious (or maybe conscious, I've seen racism in the Greek Classics space that goes either unacknowledged or encouraged; makes me not interact in the space) racist and colorist bias in the depiction. Of course the exotic, seductive, oversexualized woman that lures men from their loving wives and forcibly beds them is a Black jezebel Brown woman. I have an entire lesson about it on my sensitivity blog- the stereotypes of Black women in media.

And they might be thinking that oh! She's beautiful! Ofc she looks like this, it's a compliment! But... Penelope could be a light skinned Black woman. Pale doesn't automatically mean white. So... If that's not a standard they hold all of their women characters to....

But no, it's not coincidence. If the first image that comes to their mind when they conceive of drawing Calypso (in comparison to the other women that Odysseus interacts with) is a dark skinned Black woman, and the ONLY Black woman at that... We're likely dealing with some unconscious stereotyping and/or lack of understanding of Black women.

Now, can you do anything about this? Odds are, probably not. Unfortunately, many people enjoy racism in their art and will fight over it. 🤷🏾‍♀️ Might not be worth sacrificing your peace over it. Sorry.

[mochamoth]

Some silly hcs for my silly little rarepair from a random AOSTH episode!! (Scratch x Henrietta hcs!)

(.. I wanted to write a fic but didn't know what to write about exactly plot wise 🥲 anyways this is probably gonna be cringey so you have been warned! And long! Probably long!!)

So these would all take place after they met up again. Scratch wouldn't be with Robotnik probably by this point and is probably recovering from y'know, actual abuse.

The two sorta meet up and Scratch apologizes for the whole amnesia thing (finally giving him a chance to explain) and Henrietta forgives him. So it goes from there (can ya tell idk what to make the story exactly, aa 😭).

Also I do hc Scratch as a trans lesbian. So um y ea. I use he/she for him usually.

Anyways, the two preen eachother like.. Well birds!

Scratch attempts to help Henrietta out on her farm, but he kinda sucks at a lot of the tasks. He's good with the chickens, though.

Also obviously motorcycle/bike rides! I like to think Henrietta has multiple, cuz I find the fact she's both a motorcyclist and a farm girl charming. She likes to speed through random fields near the farm for funsies.

The two probably move out on their own. Not far from Henrietta's parents (obviously) but like, to their own cottage (haha cottagecore).

Scratch is very awkward when it comes to showing affection. Henrietta will be all OVER her, and she won't know what to do because she's simply not used to it. Scratch does try though! She gives random kisses here and there and occasionally cuddles up with Henrietta first. It's not that Scratch doesn't like affection, she adores it. Scratch just doesn't know what to do cuz she's used to abuse and isolation. (Ofc except Grounder, yay siblings!)

The two do eachothers makeup because cute!

Self indulgent as HELL but both are autistic.

And share special interests.

And will rant about them to eachother for hours and hours.

Scratch and Henrietta both wake up at sunrise. As much as Scratch finds it funny to annoy poor Grounder by crowing at the night owl (or uh.. Mole) to wake up, it's a nice change of pace to live with a fellow morning bird. He still crows though!

Scratch will fight anyone who tries to harm Henrietta. Henrietta insists unless one of them is in immediate danger that the fighting isn't necessary, but Scratch sometimes forgets about that.

Pet namess I mean this is already canon. Henrietta has her cute little pet names for Scratch like dear, darling, sweetie, and ect. Scratch isn't very good at coming up with pet names, but she started to mimic her's which Henrietta finds cute.

They share a nest bed. Because I find Scratch's nest bed in the show downright amazing and incredible.

Henrietta gains comfort weight and is chubby, CRY ABOUT IT!!

Henrietta kinda helps Scratch learn about the world from a non-villain perspective. Scratch is still a little "evil" ofc, I'm bias I adore silly little evil guys (team Skull my beloveds). But not legit taking over the world, endangering lives, and abusive evil! Anyways, Henrietta kinda helps Scratch acclimate into a more peaceful life.

Scratch is secretly a bit insecure about how she looks, but Henrietta helps him love herself a little more.

Henrietta helps put Scratch together if he ever breaks. She's no robotics engineer, but she does know how to fix vehicles. So she has a bit of knowledge plus guides and studies on robots.

I'll probably come up with more later, but that's all for now! Sorry if there's any bad grammar or typos, I am so so tired cuz been busy on remodeling my entire room 😭!

[flowerslut]

😂☀️🏅

What’s the funniest comment someone has left on a fic of yours?

this is such a tough one, but half of @volturialice’s comments on call of the night made me laugh so hard that I befriended and then hung out with her. and fast forward five years she has clowned her way into my heart ~irrevocably~ 🥰❤️

honorable mentions go to these specific ones (top one belongs to my wife ofc)

and I wish I could find the tumblr ask that says “thanks for the stories my therapist will know your name” because that one takes the cake.

Has anyone ever left you a comment that made your day? What did it say?

ALL THE TIME ARE YOU JOKING??? most recently I’ve been getting a lot of comments from people telling me about how my version of maria in roots is turning them into maria stans, and every time that happens I twirl my hair and kick my feet like a lovesick idiot 🤩

also a lot of people have left comments on call of the night (and walk in the dark) to tell me about how they binge-read it over a day or two and those are always my favorite because it means I derailed someone’s sleep schedule for at least one night and that delights me every time. but here’s a pair of comments I think of regularly:

because it 1000% summed up the way I wanted everyone to feel during the climax of cotn’ and to see that I stuck the landing? sublime. nothing will ever feel as good as seeing these as the first two comments after I posted that chapter 🥰

What is the fic you’re most proud of?

this is suchhhhhh a hard one so I’m gonna be a cheating little cheat and answer it in three parts. because my personal favorite fic of mine (not the best, per se, but my number 1) is north star. tbh, that fic should have been much trickier to write (empath alice and psychic jasper? how do you even attempt to successfully jam that into canon!verse?) so i’m very proud of myself for cranking it out over the time span that I did. that was the first fic I ever gave to my wife to look-over and make lil edits to, which is something that I had never once done before with any of my writing EVER.

then or course you’ve got call of the night, and just about everyone has heard the story about that fic, but I really am soooo proud of myself for finishing it! 16/17 year old baby shan would have been sooooo happy to know that it was lovingly completed (technically speaking) in my 20s!

but I think I have to nominate roots for ‘fic i’m most proud of’ just due to the sheer size of this project. and maybe it’s that Current Fic Bias talking (since it’s the only fic of mine being updated/worked on rn) but I really did daydream, outline, and draft an entire 200k word fic with multiple alternating povs and so many moving parts that my even readers are making timelines to make sure they don’t miss anything. that’s so cool for me! that’s so fun! roots has swamped my brain for a year and a half, I’ve put my whole pussy into it, and not to sound like a broken record but shoutout to my wife @volturialice for basically being my editor. the fact that she hasn’t killed me for not knowing the difference between “its” and “it’s” or divorced me for my fixation on unnecessary scene blocking isssss miraculous 🥴

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[the-stove-is-divorced]

OHHHH Congratulations for 100 subscribers!!! That's awesome!!❤❤❤

If it's allowed to ask about any of your fics, then what are your plans for all the time in the world or do you already have drafts for future chapters? I'm always fascinated by de-aged!Bruce fics and your foundation for the plot is something I've never seen before!! Would you like to share a quick peek into the future of that storyline?👀👀

Oh yay tysm, genuinely. (´꒳`)♡ And yes ofc!!! I'm happy to!!!

I will preface and admit literally anything I plan for any fic is 110% subject to change, especially if it doesn't feel right anymore or doesn't fit with how the story's progressing since I only write stories as I go. But with that being said, YEAH I OFC I WILL.

So as of this moment, the big plan is to jump around at different points in Bruce's life, around 4-7 different stages so it's not gonna stay stuck to his current rlly young age! (´꒳`)ゞ Bruce should jump in age in about 1-2 chapters, but entirely dependent on how the next chapter goes and that hasn't been finalized yet, much to my own internal agony, bleh. It's been such a pain in the ass to get right and the inner perfectionist in me is not helping, so it's taking longer than I want to. At the same time, I can also admit haven't decided if the next jump should be around 11-13 years old or more compellingly around 17 years old. I also wanna be careful not to make Alfred too perfect? He has the bias of hindsight in his favor, and is the main (and so far only) narrator, so I wanna get some clear contradictions in here.

Oh, and for the story's logic, the magic that de-aged him is unwinding in big ol' chunks, and won't come undone all at once, hence skipping forward! It will be 17 years old, either 18-19, either 20-21, and either 21-22 years old, with maybe an extra 13 years old so the switch from 9 to 17 isn't too jarring, if that makes sense. Plus, debating a bonus point around his late 20's/early 30's. And while I don't have a big ol' plot, as I write as I go, but there are moments I want to include if I'm able!

For example, 21 year old Bruce looks just like how old Bruce was when he took in Dick (but Dick misunderstands, Bruce was 23 when he took in 13 year old Dick), so I want to include a scene where Dick is so relieved there's finally a Bruce he understands is here, but he's still wrong. Dick might go in for a much needed hug, a beaming smile, but Bruce gives Dick a Brucie smile. Dick still a complete and utter stranger to him. The crushing plummet of hope after the first real sign of relief, being teased with the first fleeting glimpse of Bruce he knew to work around, how to behave around, only for him to treat him like a complete stranger and pull out Brucie mask on him? Horrible. I can't wait to write it.

If I'm feeling really angsty (which I probably will be), that late 20's/early 30's is Bruce before Jason died, and he's so much happier. There's a tension not found within him, a kind of wariness that hasn't been ingrained just yet, a joking, lighter tone he's more willing to display so openly. He's excited to see how his sons have grown, he wants to know what college Jason went to, what careers, he wants to know what Dick ended up doing, he's so hopeful he didn't fuck them up trying to raise them like he was so scared he would. They don't have it in their hearts to tell them what happened, I think they lie, or Alfred pointedly won't them say anything. He saw his son grieving once and he wants to savor this joy, this hope, this happiness that was buried when Jason died. He'd be furious if they revealed a damn thing right now.

But I do have chart to keep my idea for my personal understanding of Bruce's development, which I'll share below! It's not complete, and like anything, subject to change, especially at the 7-8, 9-10, and 11-13 yr old marks. But it's a general idea to keep my thoughts in order.

I hope that was satisfactory! Unfortunately, I don't have a finalized version of the next chapter done, so I can't share a sneaky peak of it (currently debating between a POV switch or continuing with Alfred) but I hope all my yapping makes up for it. TYSM for asking and showing interest. Still amazes me people like my stuff. (//▽//)

[izuom]

favorite kpop group(s) tag game!

tagged by : @writingmochi thank you for the tag lissie!! (and ofc for always having me included in these!)

sorry i cuss a lot

who is your favourite kpop group?

oh boy.. i hope i’m able to answer this without having to list down more than 10+ groups all at once (i’m being serious) but if having favs that you’re constantly updated to then : bts, txt, le sserafim, enhypen, nct dream, riize & aespa!

which member sparked your interest first?

i’m having the toughest time now but here we go

bts : JUNGKOOK! who else other than our used one of the main rappers (WE LOST TO RAPPER JUNGKOOK BEFORE 2015 AND IM STILL BITTER but out of honesty that sadnesses washed away the moment when he decided to birth outro : love is not over and let’s just say i’ve never been fine since then) bro has been an all-rounder since day one and to that he was the one that made me to discover bts (touché)

txt : yeonjun (duh) i was once a bts popper so the moment we were getting a new boy group under bh i just knew i had to check them out. i mean yeonjun is literally every moa’s first love so it’s almost understandable for him to be the first member for you to be interested to LOL

le sserafim : huh to the yunjin (are we serious? that woman slayed on her first day job) it’s mesmerising to see that source music *blood coughing* decided to give us a closure…………… but miss it girl yunjin, duh she’s a starstruck i know it’s getting out of the phrase but i’ll always be grateful that she becomes an idol. the world (read kpop) wouldn’t be the same without her existence. 

enhypen : SUNGHOON!!!!! ON AN ICE RINK!!!! SKATING!!!!! LIKE ???? IVE NEVER SEEN AN IDOL WHO WERE AN ICE SKATER BEFORE LIKE ??? THATS THE MOST PUREST BEAUTIFUL FORM SOMEONE COULDVE BE???

nct dream : mark! bc he was one of the members that were introduced first as part of the nct u sub-unit. i first watched him performing the 7th sense debut performance on music bank and was surprised to see him in the other remaining sub-unit under sm (but then i figured it out that nct IS a group that consists few sub-unit) (i was confused, still am)

riize : wonbin. any attractive man with long hair never not makes me HOOKED on a first sight. he’s majestic. AS HELL. he plays the guitar very well too?? 

aespa : karina!! also i think this was everyone’s normal occurrences of having karina as the first member that sparked your interest in aespa bc same. i only know her first in aespa like she’s mentioned in every fic or edit or on stan twt like… she’s everywhere it’s crazy. (the power she holds)

who was your first bias?

INTERESTING

bts : hoseok. man do we need to replay my first love? HE WAS THE MAN OF MY LIFE.

txt : soobin,, ARE WE SURPRISE AGAIN 

le sserafim : chaewon! i think the answer is there.

enhypen : sunghoon (forever will) 

nct dream : jisung. bro when i say that i used to have a serious crush on him? 2018 zu was a jisung’s whipped era.

riize : sungchan! 90s love was a life experience. (man decided to just make a cameo and slay as fuck) i know we are suppose to talk about sungchan in riize but he’s my first bias in riize ONLY because i knew him first alongside with shotaro (sungtaro slay) 

aespa : KIM MINJEONG. YOU CANNOT TALK TO ME ON HER. SHE WAS MY FIRST LOVE??? 

who is your current bias?

basically just the same except for bts & nct dream :D

bts : yoongi (i am a joke)

txt : soobin (salute for being this loyal)

le sserafim : chaewon

enhypen : sunghoon

nct dream : renjun (....... surprise surprise)

riize : sungchan (eventho i highly think this won’t last long….fuck)

aespa : ningning

what makes them your current bias?

bts : I KNOW CRAZY. i’ve been there for hobi since 2014 esp around those times when no one was there to appreciate him truly as one of the members (DARK TIMES FOR ME, we do not talk about that) but then 2017 yoongi came in. it’s just something about yoongi himself that soothes my soul in peace. the way he thought of things in his own perspective without disrespecting anybody and the way he’s just a full walking comfort a person could be for anyone, for me particularly. his godly, incredible amount of times he’d shown off his talent in rap, producing and things he’d done. i can talk about yoongi that people wouldn't be able to understand bc he’s so ?? what a person is supposed to be. is there anything to prove why i decided to change a bias? 

txt : when soobin was introduced as the second member of txt (gurl) when i told you that soobin introduction film was… a first love at sight moment, it was true. soobin has been the love of my fucking life since then. actually no there’s so many things that i love about soobin. so many things, it’s unexplainable. i can confidently say that his voice caught me off-guard on a first listen. i know it’s dramatic as hell (ANYTHING I SAY ABOUT MY BIASES ARE SO QUESTIONABLE BUT I AM BEING SERIOUS) he has the rarest vocal on his falsetto? he’s doing it effortlessly too? if that’s not enough to actually prove my point of him being my bias then idk what is. man is majestic as hell too. (BONUS POINT!)

le sserafim : AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH god chaewon… honestly, i wasn’t a wiz*one bc produce 48 was shitty as hell. (I WATCHED EVERY MNET SURVIVAL SHOW EXCEPT FOR THIS) neither do i like the final debut lineup for iz*one. i just couldn’t pinpoint what was missing but that’s not the point of that rn. well. for me, i think the majority of people would have agreed with me about this but chaewon is better off with le sserafim. (AUDIENCE GASP) i COULD NEVER say that she caught my attention even the tiniest bit when she was in iz*one, but she did ON A FIRST SIGHT OF HER DEBUT IN LE SSERAFIM. the way that she kept on improving and i didn’t even know that she can dance so well???? (this woman is literally everyone’s type and it’s FUCKING understandable) i watched their documentary too and i love her even much more than i should’ve? i think having chaewon as my bias, it’s emotional. i am emotionally attached to her and i don’t want to seek therapy. 

enhypen : *internally crying, hysterically screaming* are we ready to hear the part of me losing almost entirely of my sanity? i was away from home for the first time for my college, and never really bothered to get updated with my kpop life. those days were.. hectic (as everyone did) but long short story i was on tiktok, at my room, at home since for so long, AFTER my hectic first sem and i just so happened to stumble upon a sunghoon edit on an ice rink, skating WITH THE TIMOTHEE TREND SONG (2020 WAS 4 YEARS AGO TOO?? GOD) AND IM LIKE ??? WHO IS THIS? I NEED TO KNOW WHO IS HE. yk i haven’t watched iland yet at that time (and probably shouldn’t so that i wouldn’t have to endure the trauma that show gave me), and only decided to watch it bc of him. I JUST LOVE LOVE skater park sunghoon a lot more than myself (that should be considered as normal btw) and i never regretted checking out on iland bc if i don’t i wouldn’t have known just how unique his talent is? you can ACTUALLY tell he has the most unique way of dancing, as if he’s dancing with every bit of his skating method and combining it to his dancing style and it’s just ?? beautiful… god park sunghoon i love him a lot.

nct dream : crying as i type this, i love renjun a lot. man is so demonically pure. i haven’t been on nct shit for SO LONG until last year (only applicable for nct dream) and i am attached as shit as they wanted me to be. i think re-stanning nct dream (i will say this forever if i’ve to prove how much they mean to me) was the peak of the third quarter of my life last year. but as for renjun, he’s just so easy to love? for me, his own persona to things as a person always never makes me so deeply attached. (like the fucking loser i am) renjun have a lot of things you can say a lot of things to, like his vocals? (ik you can confidently say that sm has the most vocals out of that shitty company) but i LOVE to listen to his voice. he’s singing with his emotions and my soul thaws in silence every time. HES ALSO SO ROMANTIC LIKE??? MAN CASUALLY JUST ASKED HIS TEAMMATES TO HAVE A MATCHING FRIENDSHIP RINGS LIKE? 

riize : as for sungchan, i think i'm still learning about him. I know i’ve seen him a few times (more than 10 times on screen as for the appearance of the inkigayo and being part of nct) but i still have a lot of things to learn before i can list things down. (gurl you’re in love with another member)

aespa : i love everything about ning yizhuo. i honestly have no idea how i changed my bias but i could never say no to people who can sing well. her vocals?? i can listen to her singing on a daily basis. shes a stunner, a mother=my type. well, her whole existence stands out the most when i first discovered aespa. i just love ningning, she’s so loveable, i love her except for she idolized that one problematic rat. 

who is your bias wrecker

bts : i love them all equally. (jungkook)

txt : taehyun. stfu 

le sserafim : kazuha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love my woman a ballerina 

enhypen : jungwon. 

nct dream : zhong chenle (hes so attractive???????????)

riize : eunseok 

aespa : minjeong……………………

which member are you currently obsessing that aren’t your bias/bias wrecker

bts : i’ll skip them (they be on military, i’ve no one to be obsessed to recently)

txt : beomgyu. (DAEGU MEN STAY AWAY FROM ME)

le sserafim : YUNJIN. she needs to stop 

enhypen : heeseung. i think i’ve problems with the 01 liner. 

nct dream : none i guess. (i'm still obsess with renjun)

riize : ….. sohee. i think out of the groups, sohee has the most valid reasons and i'm fully to blame for this. i watched the lee hyori’s red carpet to their sampled track of love 119 (THEIR BEST SONG YET WHAT THE FUCK) which is none other than the infamous emergency room ost AND WHEN I TELL YOU IVE BEEN OBSESSED SINCE. and that obsession didn’t stop there, i decided to check more to his vocals compilation and i stumbled upon his predebut covers… WORSE: his sofa cover has been playing on my mind all day since i first heard of it, it’s unhealthy. i’m gonna k word myself 

aespa : none too. 

when did you first discover the group?

bts : 2014. boy in luv was a superior era. 

txt : 2019…. that guessing the morse code at the end of introduction films of every member's era? good old days

le sserafim : on their debut

enhypen : end month of september 2020! (funfact : enhypen was formed on my birthday) 

nct dream : on their debut (them hoverboard era)

riize : on their debut days

aespa : early year 2022 (embarassing as fuck)

have you ever been to one of their concerts?

bts : gurl, no. they did a tour for the red bullet on june 2015? THAT ONE TIME ONLY. what did you expect from me? to go? i was 13. 

txt : they don’t even know my country exists? so no. 

le sserafim : no. (hybe better put malaysia when they do tour one day or else im burning down the whole building as it should’ve)

enhypen : no. (they skipped us.) 

nct dream : they did a tour last year in may…… but miss girl decided to only stan them back in june and was obsessed and mentally ill for not attending. (ONLY BC I AM NOT A FAN) i was late to the party, im sorry and now they be skipping us. 

riize : no. 

aespa : ???????? NO

what are some of your favourite songs by this group? 

i’ll list 10 songs!

bts : butterfly / dimple / coffee / love is not over (full length version) / epilogue : young forever / pied piper / outro : do you think it makes sense? / the truth untold ft steve aoki / spring day / hold me tight 

txt : 20cm / dear sputnik / 0X1=lovesong (i know i love you) ft seori / maze in the mirror / ghosting / skipping stones / fairy of shampoo / blue orangeade / farewell, neverland / eternally 

le sserafim : impurities / easy / perfect night / no celestial / antifragile / smart / blue flame / swan song / good parts (when the quality is bad but i am) / sour grapes

enhypen : just a little bit / criminal love / mixed up / chaconne / not for sale / blockbuster ft yeonjun of tomorrow x together / shout out / blind / given-taken / bills

nct dream : dive into you / teddy bear / 7 days / boom / my youth / better than gold / dunk shot / arcade / poison / love again

riize : …. i’ll list from most to least fav (I LOVE ALL OF THEIR SONGS) love 119 / talk saxy / get a guitar / memories  

aespa : lucid dream / dreams come true / drama / thirsty / next level / life’s too short / don’t blink / i’m unhappy / illusion / better things 

tagging : @my313 (no pressure bestie!) / anyone who want

[slytherinshua]

omg zanna!!!

firstly omg babe congrats on 1.5k!!!! youre growing so fast :( secondly the fics you rec-d had me dying (ftom cuteness ofc) amd just omg :( ty and thirdly youre really adorable!!! ofc i look up to you have you seen your blog???? babe your writing has me crying into my pillow at (exactly) 4:02 am. But genuinely the way you write is just so <3!!!! Its really really comforting. Im really envious because anything i write sounds like a first grader write it (in a happy im proud of you way!!) and ofc dw abt it that was def my fault shouldve thought that through but yeah ofc you can call me sprout!!! Also again omg zanna 1.5k!!!! and for the event how many groups do you like (this includes casually stanning too) and omg tws!!!! ( My children :( ](so idk but whenever i stan a new group automatically four positions form in my head: (idk im weird) of theres the two basic, bias and bias wrecker/s and then theres emotionally closest to and special place in my heart so ig my question is for like all or any of your fav kpop groups whod you put where?) Happy valentines day!! Happy carat day!!

-🌱!!!

SPROUT!! i get so happy when i see you in my inbox eskdjks

omg i'm glad you enjoyed them 🥹 i wish i could've gotten some more but my tumblr is always dry except for moot fics and i don't read much nowadays 💔 except for real books damn...

WHAT NO WAY MY WRITING MADE YOU CRY??? 🤨🤨🤨🤨 but thank you :(

i'm sure its much better than you think sprout :( and believe it or not, everyone starts out writing like a first grader, but the more you practice the better you become!!! and you can also put in effort to try to learn techniques and stuff but i'm too lazy for that tho i do def want to improve my writing style so we'll see :D

aww it's okay tho we're on good terms now!!! so don't worry abt that <33

okay how many groups do i like?

okay so txt, verivery, onf, victon, seventeen, astro, skz, the rose, enhypen, mcnd, newjeans, lucy, billlie, sf9, &team, red velvet, ive, bts, the boyz, viviz, n.flying, xdinary heroes, xg, boynextdoor, le sserafim, mamamoo, p1harmony, riize, wei are kinda the groups i can say i stan

got7, ateez, shinee, pentagon, nct (all units), are groups i casually enjoy and know the first 3 esp pretty well for members as well!!

im enjoy a lot of soloists and i would love to get into some other groups that i listen to occasionally as well (cix, oneus, cravity, ace, e'last etc)

i'm also familiar w gidle, itzy, twice, oh my girl, akmu, blackpink, monsta x, aespa, nmixx, exo, zerobaseone, and some more but don't consider them to be on my stanlist yet

so i think i stan 29 groups, 15(ish) soloists, and know 16ish other groups rly well !!

who would you put in the positions bias, bias wrecker, emotionally closest to, and special place in your heart?

ooo that's a rly interesting question!! i'm gonna do it just for my ult groups i think... and maybe svt too skdjks since they were ults

so for txt

bias - taehyun bias wrecker - hueningkai emotionally closest to - soobin or taehyun special place - taehyun... KSJDKS

for onf

bias - yuto, minkyun bias wrecker - seungjun emotionally closest to - minkyun (he rly likes cats what can i say) special place - etion :( i love him so much

for verivery

bias - gyehyeon bias wrecker - yongseung emotionally closest to - hoyoung maybe? special place - minchan

and for svt bonus yayayay

bias - joshua, dk bias wrecker - wonwoo emotionally closest to - woozi special place - jun

happy valentines and carat day to you as well <33 sry i didn't get to answering this yesterday cause i was BUSY WITHOUT DEVICES RIP BUT WE'RE HERE NOW <33

[jungkookstatts]

안녕하세요, 여러분!

[Translation]: Hello, everyone! 

Hah, this makes me shy lol. Please bare with me. 

Anyways, welcome to the blog!

Recently, I’ve been overcome with this gut feeling that I should finally launch this blog. I’ve been writing for years now, but I’ve always been so shy with social media, expressing personal self, and showcasing writings. So, I never really had the courage to post. 

But, as apart of my new years resolution, I will let it all go and express myself like how I wanted to within the last few years. I am excited, nervous, and slightly razzled by the fact that I’m really going through with this. But I am ready. 

A little about what I intend to post:

This will primarily be a BTS blog. Though I love every member, the majority of my writings are y/n scenarios with Namjoon, Yoongi, or Jungkook. I have writings for everyone; however, i tend to feel more confident with my writings with the prior three boys.

I do write 18+ scenarios, so adults only!! My writings will also always be female x male, not because I am against pairings with other genders, but because that is what I am most used to writing and am more familiar with. Still, if you identify as any other, you are always welcome to read. I intend to keep this space as a strict respectful zone to all people.

Another disclaimer: I do not own BTS or anyone else I choose to incorporate in my writings. I write with them in interest as apart of a fictional story — as a face and personality that is unique to them (in real life and in a story) — but never to disrespect, alter, or manipulate to fit my or others standards. Their respect comes with the respect of anyone else.

Now for formatting, here is how I will organize my writings in post:

Title

[picture heading]

Summary: [2-4 sentences]

Theme/Tags: [EX: Highschool!AU, Non-Idol!AU, Yoongi x best friend’s sister!AU, etc.]

Rating/Disclaimer: [18+/A/Smut/S/Mature/M , Fluff/F, Angst, Romance, etc…]

Word Count: [x,xxx words]

Author’s Note: [me blabbling]

A little about me:

Hi!

You can call me Sae, if you’d like.

I am a double-major, third-year university student! I do take Korean there! It has been just about a year and a half since I started learning it, and I love it to the core. It is really such a beautiful language and culture, and I am so glad I went through with taking it. I could talk about it for hours! 

As for BTS, I have been a fan since I was in 8th grade…so 2015-2016? My first ever bias was Taehyung…ofc lol. However, I have been a Yoongi bias since around 2017-ish. Bias wrecker? I bet you can’t guess…Namjoon and Jungkook. Unfortunately or fortunately (however you view it), BTS was the only group I was able to fully get into and know. I love and listen to other groups like TXT, EXO, ATEEZ, Red Velvet, TWICE, etc. But I never got fully into them to the extent I did BTS.

As for other fics or posts you might see around here, I am a hard-core weeb. So, you might see some anime character’s on here. However, with a recent off-the-bandwagon mishap since entering uni, it has been quite a while since I have even watched a show. I intend to get back into it. We will see where life takes me. 

So, yeah! I hope you like what I end up posting! Feedback is always appreciated. If you have any questions, feel free to reach out! 

Again, I do not tolerate hate, disrespect, or anything malicious on my blog. If I suspect or if it is outwardly posted that someone intends on coming after me or anyone else on this blog, you will be reported, blocked, and otherwise removed from my page. Please remember human decency and practice being kind to others!!

Other than that, happy holidays and happy new year! 휴일 잘 즐기고 새해 복 많이 받으세요!

[daisyvisions]

#dont worry there's more where that came from > oh? 🧐

and yeah hyunjae was my main but i’ve been reading a lot of your stuff + sangyeon kept feeding us… i can’t help it!

or maybe its also because i recently discovered those pictures of him taking care of his nephews…..🧍🏻‍♀️ you see the sangyeon thirst has gotten so bad for me that the FIRST thing i think about when i see him being so fatherly is just … breeding kink sangyeon 🙃 him having baby fever and no self control (deadly combo btw)

i cant do this lmao i need to be cured im going crazy like fr

babe sangyeon is my first (and still my 1st bias) but hyunjae... my brainrot for him was sooooo bad to the point now he's my 2nd bias jaksdnasjknd omg is it safe to say that if you stan sangyeon, hyunjae is your bias wrecker and vice versa? I've been noticing that a lot recently HAHAHA

and yes, such is the life of a mango... the breeding kink is a standard I mean look at him asndasjkdn I've yet to write a breeding kink fic of sangyeon but trust me when I say it might turn out nasty asf 😮‍💨 (in the most loving was possible ofc haha)

at this point it's gonna spiral from here and there's sadly no cure for it (you're just gonna have to accept him as a bias now)

If you gotta let it out, you're more than welcome to unleash your brain rots of sangmil here

[juyomiao]

NAURRR I FORGOT TO SCREENSHOT THE NOTIFICATION💔 but tumblr was being saur cute sisbissnks it was like

juyomiao has posted

we noticed they're one if your favorites❤️

or smthn along the lines of that and ACK IT WAS SAUR CUTE PLS JSBKSNSKSKA-

anyways idk if u can answer the first one but it's still cool hshshshs

✩ do you have/ can you give some not-so-spoiler spoilers for o.o? (hahajahs u made me obsessed w this and im not complaining)

★ your mtl biased member in cravity? (just ur preferences, u may put reasoning if u want :] )

✩ fav/recommended tbz songs? (im really planning on stanning they seem fun ajajasjs)

★ *IF* w1 is really pursuing with the greek mythology shit, which god/goddess (there's a possibility) do you think bin is going to be? (and state ur reasons hshs)

omg tumblr being cute (unexpected)

☆ uhhhh idk how to give spoilers without spoiling everything so all i can say is what i alr said : its getting more angsty bc i like being cruel n ruining things 🤭 BUT dw it will have a happy ending and the funny elements of the fic r not going anywhere bc thats still the most important part to me

★ okay omg this is hard wait

disclaimer ofc i love all the members

minhee : he was my bias in x1 too so even when i didnt rlly stan cravity i still considered him my cravity bias lmao hes also the proof i have a 'type' when biasing idols bc . the minhee - younghoon - sunghoon trinity explains a lot abt it

serim : he was the reason i got more interested in cravity bc i was watching a cravity park episode n realized how fine he was so ,, yeah . kind of surprising bc he was one of the two members i didnt rlly know abt before stanning (i knew minhee hyeongjun wonjin n jungmo bc of produce n knew seongmin taeyoung n allen bc ppl talk abt them a lot) but im so insane abt him to the point something i said after seeing one of his pics became an inside joke in my friend group

seongmin : my bbg hes so cute n pretty n soft n i love his voice so much . n lately i've been wanting to eat him too .

hyeongjun : ofc knew him bc of x1/pdx n already loved him back then but now even more . in the nicest way possible hes insane hes not normal but thats exactly why i love him

this is where it gets more complicated bc i cant rlly rank them ? like probably woobin n then jungmo wonjin n allen more or less on the same level ?? like even i would expect jungmo n wonjin to be higher but . heres a fun fact‼️i watched produce without subtitles ! so i remember little to nothing abt it n had no idea what was going on ⅔ of the time !! bc i used to watch it when they livestreamed it on youtube n then was too lazy to go look for the subbed ep ,, then i got more attached to minhee n hyeongjun bc they were in x1 obviously

that was so long im sorry but u cant give me a perfect opportunity to infodump abt my special interest / hyperfixation n . expect me not to do it

☆ OHHHH OKAY so idk what music u like more so this list might be a bit questionable bc i like everything even noise music . but i'll focus on b-sides !!

walkin in time , only one (obviously , the queen who inspired my fic title) , melting heart , l.o.u , text me back , daydream , espionage , shake you down , scar , salty , goodbye , checkmate , shine shine , insanity , prism , kiss me if you can , hush , kingdom come (i'll never get tired of saying it , tbz were robbed on that bitchass show FUCK MNET) drink it , out of control , nightmares , merry bad ending , hypnotized , russian roulette , one dance , sweet , c.o.d.e , survive the night , levitating , awake , savior

tbz's entire discography is honestly perfect have fun stanning them u wont regret it‼️‼️

★ honestly idk😭😭 when i was younger (n we r talking abt 5yo until 14yo so it was . a while) i was sooo obsessed with greek mythology but my brain just . wiped all that information away😭 so i genuinely dont know

[sungbeam]

BFF I’M BACK LITRALLY THE DAY AFTER AND BOY DO I HAVE UPDATES FOR YOU 🤭🤭🤭

1. I STARTED OUTLINING AND DRAFTING MY FIRST FIC EHEHEHE AND SUPER EXCITED TO START WRITING IT 🤭

2. I FINISHED READING [REDACTED] AND I THOUGHT ABT THE MOST HEART WRENCHING, TUMMY CHURNING, EYE BAWLING PLOT AND TBH IF I DO GET SO INCLINED TO STICK WITH IT THEN IT MIGHT COME OUT BEFORE THE FIRST THOUGHT OF FIC LMAO

3. I NEED TO KNOW ABT ‘A STUDY IN MONSTERS’ RIGHT NEOWWWWW 😫🙏 CAUSE I JUST THOUGHT OF LIKE 5 DIFFERENT GENRES BASED OFF THE VIBES/p

Ok time for a more calmer vibe LMAO

For the first fic I genuinely think that any member would be suitable for the ML? And so I decided to let you (my fav author and parasocial bestie) to bequeath which member this fic shall belong to 🤭 (uhhhh spoilers/insight: dream realm(?) but not in a soulmate way, angst, possibly abrupt/open ending but also happy in a way, v fluffy moments at the same time tho, manic pixie dream boy???)

And finally after adoring the movie I decided to go read [redacted] and LORD WHY DID IT HURT 39475629 TIMES AS MUCH AS THE MOVIE LIKE

Movie: light work, no reaction

Book: oUUuU, okay, its got a lil kick 😨

But I got an au perfectly inspired by this in a modern retelling typa way ig SPOILER ALERT THERE IS A LOVE CORNER, CHANHEE AND SANGYEON OR YOUNGHOON(???) we WILL be getting a lil Kevin up in here tho TRUST

And tbh it could go in 2 different directions rn but I’ll have to see which one will get a conclusive ending but the vision is definitely there dw

And DAMNNNNNN I didn’t know there were so many WIPs/nm/p like I know I got a lil snippet of 3 in the past but with each drop of a new WIP I get even more excited 😭 just seeing your creative process is motivating to me lolol and the banners AHHHHHHHH IT REALLY DID GIVE “graphic design is my passion 🤭” YUHHH YUHHHH

but wait also looking at the list again I wanna see more into the ‘bones (orig.)’ and ‘bones (remixed)’ 😳

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET TO MENTIONNNNNNN that Spiderman!Sunwoo and Spiderman!Eric did have me REEEEEEELINGGGGG esp since I finally got the chance to watch across the spiderverse PHEWWWW Spiderman!Eric is just so cheeky, so himbo, so smoochable like damn I do think he is capable of wanting to attempt the Toby Maguire upside-down kiss but then getting too nervous/excited/antsy that he lets go of his web and crashes on the ground AJNDJBVINWI

AND SUNWOO AS STARLORD WOULD ALSO WORK CAUSE HE REALLY HAS THAT SELF-DEPRECATING HUMOR THING GOING ON and then his cheesyness too omg I think Sunwoo is perfectly corny to be starlord 😫🤞

AND ALSO MY ATEEZ BIAS ISSSSSSSSSSSSSS -drumroll please- 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

Wooyoung! 🥳🥳🥳

He’s just so sweet and caring and hot and beautiful and hardworking and loving and he’s so, he’s so, he’s so- ☹️☹️☹️☹️

Yeah, I love Woo with my whole being 😔🙏

Kk that’s it for nowwwwww talk to you soon!

- Toodles!, 🌷anon 

HI BEST FRAN WELCOME BACK 🤩✊🏼

OMG THE DRAFTING HAS BEGUN???? LESGO????? I AM SO EXCITED FOR U AND SUPER EXCITED ALSO TO SEE UR JOURNEY AND THE FINAL OUTCOME 👀✨

HELLO WAIT what is [REDACTED] 🤨 i need to know for research purposes and cuz im a nosy mfker and cuz i also scoured thru our prev interactions and don't think we talked abt it previously 🤨

AHHHHSHAHHAHAH A STUDY IN MONSTERS IS COMING RIGHT UP !!

ITS LIKE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST BUT EVERYBODY'S A BEAST ???? well, the main cast is all considered some kind of "monster," but ofc, the real monsters r the humans who have belittled them and villainized them. but reader basically has like,,, medusa powers??? and chanhee has like a demon trapped inside him and younghoon is like fae but THE SCARY fae you feel??? but any who, i've gotten some back story done and it's not meant to become like a 30k one shot or anything; i was trying to aim for it to be kind of like the length of simple gifts, but we'll see where i go w it !!

OKAY BUT WAIT U SHOULD TELL ME WHAT U THOUGHT OF WHEN U SAW THE TITLE CUZ IM VERY CURIOUS !!

okok i have so much to say abt the next part of ur ask 😭😭 1.) BEQUEATH 💀💀💀💀 2.) hello stop that rn flattery will get u everything u desire 🤧😌 3.) MANIC PIXIE DREAM BOY AHAH OMG IM SO HYPED 4.) eric, juyeon sounds abt right ��😻

OKAY BUT LIKE books > their movie adaptations tbh lsnfkenfk there is so much that books can show that movies can't, and also vice versa !! but WTF DYM BY LOVE CORNER (´Д⊂ヽ GIRLIE BESTIE HONEY WHAT IS A LOVE CORNER 😭😭😭 w chanhee sangyeon younghoon AND beloved kevin too???? my /guy/ do u want me to cry 😃 wait don't answer that—💀 omg i feel like i almost never have an idea of what an ending looks like UNTIL I GET THERE LMFAOOOO like i really don't care abt endings cuz i can't get to the ending if there is not story substance, u feel 😭😭😭 but im sure the ✨right ending✨ will appear in ur horizons as u go forth !!

KANDKDNDKN i had to keep quite a few wips off the list 😭💀 it's embarrassing akdnkdnf BUT im so glad that seeing my process motivates u TT that's very cool to hear and i also like talking abt the writing process a lot so thank u for feeding into my self esteem /hj AHHH SHUSH UR GONNA MAKE ME BLUSH I LOVE MAKING BANNERS SO THANK U 😚 im too tech grandma to use canva or photoshop so i feel like a lot of mine r a little simpler and more minimal which isn't bad ofc but yeah, thanks so much :'))) BRO i wish i could go into graphic design skfnkdndk

OHOH the bones orig and remix ver LMAOOO

both versions r meant to be like murder mysteries yk?? and they're both set in time settings where it's not quite the future, but im also not a historian so they're also not completely historically accurate T-T they just take place in the past LMFAO but the original ver is more like dark academia centered where the murder takes place at this elitist academy/boarding school in the middle of nowhere, and reader is like a "charity case" whose uncle took her under his wing after her parents were murdered or something, and changmin is like studying to become a physician and they both get looped into the investigation. i have a some written of that ver but it's not very interesting 💀

AND recently like two days ago 💀 i went back to one of the ideas i had for the banner before i started writing the dark academia one (wow that's such a long sentence). anyways, said idea was to take place in like ,, not a school 🤡 but idk if you've read the stalking jack the ripper series but it's based on that !! AND a little bit of six of crows too 🤡 it's not fantastical or anything, but changmin is like a doctor in the lower end and someone's been out here murdering people and shit. changmin is also kind of inspired by daredevil and kaz brekker, but i'll have to get into that some other time 💀

that was one of my favorite parts lol i think this ver of bones has captured a bit more of my interest than the other ver? tho, i would love to see where the other ver went, just cuz i already put so much thought into the storyline and characters and headcanons and back stories, etc.

AHHHHHH YES I AGREE ABT SPIDEY!ERIC I LOVE SPIDEY ERIC he's just ,, yk Just Some Guy™ LMAO so he's a perf spiderboy !!! he's kind of modeled after tom holland's spiderman and sunwoo after miles morales ofc, but eric would TOTALLY try the upside down kiss and fail miserably 😭😭😭 but i think he's def the type to keep trying UNTIL he gets it down 🤤😋 and just crafting the different earths btwn sunwoo and eric was just so much fun cuz i was trying to figure out what i wanted each universe to have and ksnfkdndkkd ANYWAYS . STAR LORD SUNWOO HAS ME REELING CUZ LIKE AKDNKDMD i NEEDED this man to be w the raccoon it just didn't feel right if he wasn't. like he was either gonna be nova or starlord, and i feel like the only other boy besides sunwoo who can do star lord justice is hyunjae, but he's already IRON MAN lol

OMG UR A WOOYOUNG STAN??? that actually feels so right 😭😭😭 wooyo be snatching up hearts ALL OVER THE PLACE lately 😭🤧 like damn, get it bro 🥂 but i totally agree, he's such a sweetheart and so funny and so talented and just sknfkendn mwah wanna give him a big smooch !

WHEW what a long recap/catch up reply 🤣 but anyways, hope ur doing well as always 😚 love u lots, my honey bunches of pollinated petals 💖

[2baabbies]

TO BEGIN thank you to xian’s anon for submitting this ask, because I’m totally going to steal this prompt for my mooties 🤭

NEXT xian what the HELL, I keep rereading my blurb because… do I want to be interesting, and sexy, and mysterious in my day-to-day life? yes, but bold of you to assume I have any charisma. still, thank you for feeding my delusions of being the most enticing librarian lee felix could dream of. I think if he actually showed up at my work I would become the most pitiful slutty puddle of cringe he ever laid his eyes on, but it’s nice to imagine that he would be swayed by my (nonexistent) charm and fall in love with me on the spot. my ego has eaten good today 🤪

and felix crushing on a librarian has consumed my thoughts for the past 4 hours, so here are some of the things I think he would do (if he was in love with me 😌)

def hovers by the circulation desk and works up the courage to ask you a question just for an excuse to talk to you, even if he’s already asked that question before (“excuse me, do you have a moment to show me where the biographies are?” “again? didn’t I show you last week?” “haha, sorry, I forgot” and then you do it anyway because he’s a babe)

finds you while you’re shelving and grabs a random book off the shelf just so he can come over and ask you what you think of it/if you think he should check it out. backfires when he grabs one on prenatal care for expecting mothers and you’re like: ? congratulations ? because you’re already onto his trick, but he plays it off like “haha, that was just a joke 👀”

in the same vein, will often bring two options up to check out and ask you to pick one because he ‘values your opinion’. really, it just makes him happy because the next time he comes in you always go “hi felix! how was the book?” and then his heart explodes into fireworks because. you! spoke to him!!! anytime you initiate the conversation he’s super happy

if you host a book club, he is in it. maybe that’s how the crush started in the first place? he wandered into a book club meeting and heard you talking so passionately about the assigned book that he just sat down and fell in love on the spot. and of course he reads every book. you’re pleasantly surprised when he keeps coming with something to say during every meeting, but in reality he has to have something to say because he lives for every second you give him your undivided attention

a lot of libraries have staff book displays and I think he would read every book on yours. he doesn’t check them all out at once because he is trying to be inconspicuous, but he definitely snaps a photo of the display and makes it his goal to read a bit of each one. you, again, are onto him but you can’t shield your excitement when he brings them back and you get to talk about your top pics. and felix is all ears, ofc

as a librarian that does a lot of storytimes for daycares, I can’t help but imagine daycare attendant felix. he brings his group of littles and they’re always so curious and kind. and your heart melts at how gentle he is with them and how genuine he is in his interactions. on this topic, I once had one of the regulars from a daycare group tell me he admired how good I was with the kids; and I think if felix said that to me I would combust. so yeah, daycare teacher x children’s librarian is a match made in heaven in my books (esp when it’s felix and me uwu)

AND FINALLY XIAN did you think I wasn’t going make a scenario up for you? tbh, I sometimes forget that felix is your bias because I often remember all the beautiful ways you write hyunjin, and my brain just associates you with hyunjin. but your lix fics are so adorable so I chose an adorable trope to fit the theme!

@forlix and felix are so so so intertwined fates. maybe meeting each other randomly or having a mutual friend, and then you keep running into each other over and over? and it’s always so random, but it’s like destiny. you find each other at the weirdest times in the randomest places, but each time you get a little bit closer and it gets a little harder to say goodbye. it goes until you actually can’t take parting again. you are truly meant to be together, and whatever obstacles you face in your life will always be conquered. the universe simply wants you to be together, and when that happens it is happily ever after 💖

ty for tagging me in this and for giving me a list of more writers to check out as well 🫶🏻 byyye

MOOT GAME: " make up a trope for your moots and their biases. doesn’t need to be romantic. can be crackfic/funny/anything you want ^ㅇ(๑>◡<๑)ㅇ^ "

omg how fun, thank u for sending this in nonnie !!! let me see...

@astraystayyh and hyunjin would have to be some 800k ao3 slow burn about forbidden love between royal families ... the grandest and most poetic of period drama romances that persists through backstabbing and betrayal and trial after tribulation. nothing less for my artistic soulmates

the first tropes to come to mind for @rachalixie and minho are literally just. not even really tropes. established relationship. domestic fluff. slice of life. they're That Couple. nobody remembers when they weren't together. they invite me over for dinner when i've had a bad day. mom and dad

@like-a-diamondinthesky and seungmin are the EPITOME of (fake) enemies to lovers. they're the sweetest, silliest, most sinister people and i just know their dynamic would be a dream come true for each other and a nightmare for everyone else

sue is just her "eighteen" mc in my head so @soobnny and seungmin scream best friends to lovers + college au to me. seung being the best cheerleader for her while she's crazy busy :') also she flusters v easily and i think he'd get a kick out of that (ik i do)

@luvtak and felix are giving childhood friends to lovers! the sort of relationship where they know each other better than they've ever known anything; really just the safest, warmest, and kindest of affections for the safest, warmest, and kindest of people

i'm gonna cheat again and hc @sunboki and chan as a trope from august's mafia au "korea's most wanted"; augs is so creative and badass and SEXY and so is the main couple's dynamic in that fic. chan's a lucky man. DITCH HIM FOR ME 🗣️

@txtxlz and jeongin would be a multipart messy love triangle ft. jealousy and pining and so much chaos bc haz has more biases than i have fingers or toes and i love love the idea of her favorite idols going to war over her. it's what my baby deserves fr

for @2baabbies and felix, i imagine perhaps a barista au or a librarian au (hehehehe) where he finds stupid excuses to come back and pick bae's brain every day because he's utterly enraptured by her. she has that effect on people and lix would NOT be immune

@starsandrqindrops and seungmin are so fwb-coded. think suffocating chemistry every time they interact. could cut the tension with a dull machete. then inevitably complications like Feelings come into play and they dance around each other for ages before finally giving in ... mm yes all that good stuff

last but not least, @hyunnie04 and hyunjin would be so perfect for an art school!au. mira is an incredible artist so i'm picturing these two sketching each other instead of paying attention in class ,,, gallery/museum dates ,,,, maybe a sprinkle of healthy competition who knows ,,,,

[the7thcrow]

daisies

pairing: seonghwa x (fem) reader

summary: one last trip. that was what you wanted. to let yourself dream of your childhood sweetheart one final time, before closing that chapter of your life forever. however, the last thing you expected was for him to actually be there.

word count: 11.0k

genre: summer camp au. childhood friends to lovers. tooth-rotting fluff, like literally so so fluffy. the tiniest itty bitty fragment of angst.

warnings: overwhelming cuteness, adorable childhood flashbacks mixed with present day shenanigans, kissing, wooyoung being a servant of mischief.

rating: good for anyone :)

a/n: hi everyone! here’s my first ever ateez fic, and ofc it had to be for my bias because i’m whipped. i really hope you all enjoy, and as always, please don’t be afraid to send me an ask or message for some feedback if you do! 🥰

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You miss the scent of daisies, even though you’ve long forgotten what they actually smell like. You imagine they are sweet, in the sort’ve way that all flowers seem to be, full of both pollen and growth. The smell is most likely nothing special. Nothing substantial. Certainly not something you should be fantasizing over, those little bright flowers weedling their way into almost all of your daydreams.

You may not remember what they truly smell like, but in your memory, daisies smell of summer. They smell of cabins and canoe rides, of soaked bathing suits and crackling fires.

They smelt of your childhood summer camp, the place in which they grew so fervently. Daisies would spring from every corner imaginable, lacing the forest floor, sneaking out of the cracks in the walking trail. Those little white petals would sometimes find themselves stuck in your hair, or at the bottoms of your shoes.

They are what you think of now, as you gaze out the car window in front of you, the familiar rolling hills and trees flashing by before your eyes. You wonder if they still grow there. You wonder if they still smell the same.

You wonder if they still smell like him.

  ~~~~

Day One.

“Welcome to Camp KQ.”

You look up at the sign you have just finished helping your brother set up, it’s freshly painted lettering slightly sloppy. The sign hangs in front of The Caf, a large building where all of your campers will have their meals and regroup in the mornings.

“You really couldn’t have made it look a little nicer?” You whine, turning to face the culprit of the sloppy handwriting with a frown.

“Oh come on,” Hongjoong, your older brother groans as he motions towards the sign with his hand. “It literally looks fine, you just have to quit being so picky.”

“I swear one of the kids could have done a better job than this,” you continue despite, or perhaps rather in light of his words.

“Well then maybe you should have waited to ask one of them instead,” he huffs, sticking his tongue out at you as he walks towards The Caf’s doors, picking up one of the many estranged boxes. The summer camp officially starts tomorrow morning, and you and the other counselors were already leaps and bounds behind schedule.

“Help me with some of these boxes, would you?” He asks before disappearing through the door.

“I will,” you breathe under your breath, before shifting your attention in the opposite direction, towards the forest. “You’ll just have to give me a minute.”

You jog towards the woods, running along the forest trail with a familiarity that surprises you. It has been years since you’ve been here. Four, to be exact. Yet, your feet practically move by themselves as you make your way towards the clearing you’re searching for.

When you arrive, it’s as if you never left. Sunlight peaks through the forest canopy in beams, sparkling as your fingers dance within them. You can hear a squirrel munching on an acorn in the distance, the faint buzz of bees flying around the many bushes and shrubs.

Most familiar of all, are the daisies.

They flood the meadow, causing the ground to appear far more white than green. An endless sea of peaceful nostalgia.

You pluck one of the flowers from the ground, twiddling it between your fingers and bringing it towards your nose. For a moment you hold it there, wondering if it will smell just as you remember, like the sweet and refreshing rush of summer. Or, then again, maybe it will simply be a flower.

But when you finally do breathe in, all you can smell is him. He who once picked them for you. He who sat with you in this very meadow. He who you’ve never stopped thinking about.

You laugh quietly, shaking your head and staring at your shoes. “This is stupid,” you say quietly, to nobody but yourself. You went here searching for a piece of him, a memory, and now that you have one, you feel nothing but loss.

That is, until you hear a voice call out from behind you.

“I’m sure it is, but I wish I knew what we’re talking about,” the voice says, the speaker's tone playful. You freeze, your entire body tensing at the sound. You know that voice. It’s a little deeper than you remember, slightly more husky with age, but you’d recognize it anywhere.

You turn around, seeing the voice’s owner lounged against a tree, sitting in the plush grass, holding a daisy in his mouth as if it were a strand of wheat. You’d somehow missed him when you’d rushed in.

“Seonghwa?” You breathe. He looks different than four years ago. His hair has grown out longer, a faded champagne colour compared to the jet black it used to be. He rises to his feet, and you can see that he now stands about a foot taller. Back then, you were about the same height as him, but now...

Now, as you run towards him, you have to jump in order to reach his shoulders, throwing your arms around him. He lets out a small “oof” of surprise as you collide into him, before beginning to laugh himself. He picks you up, spinning the two of you around once, entirely giddy.

“I take it, you're happy to see me too?” He asks, setting you down in front of him. His smile is contagious, and you find your own spreading wide across your lips.

“You think?” You laugh, your voice light and playful, laced with joyous disbelief. “I never thought...” You trail off, your mind blanking as you stare at him, completely and utterly shocked.

“You’d see me again.” He finishes for you, knowing exactly what you were going to say next. A small pang of guilt rushes through your chest, thinking about the last time the two of you saw each other. You are given no time to dwell on it however, as Seonghwa has already continued speaking.

“I saw your name on the list of counselors, and since this was always your favorite spot,  I had a feeling you might come here first,” Seonghwa says, motioning to the meadow of daisies in front of you. “I wanted to talk to you. To see you again, before all the busyness of the next week ensues.”

You feel the faintest hint of a blush lace your cheeks, and you hope he doesn’t notice. It’s overwhelming, how all these years have passed, he is still able to make your heartbeat a little too fast, the same way as it did way back when.

Seonghwa is an old friend. An old friend who you may or may not used to have an enormous, perhaps painfully obvious childhood crush on. An immense crush so earth-shattering that in the four years you’ve spent apart, he’s always been hiding away in the back of your mind, waltzing his way into your daydreams.

You’ve always done your best to try and push him back there. To keep him nestled in your mind as nothing but a fond memory of the past.

Recently, however, after moving back to your old hometown, this practice became infinitely more difficult. Everyday you thought about wandering back to your old childhood summer camp, to see if everything was still intact. To see if it was the same way the two of you had left it.

You suppose that’s why you came here, after all. One last glimpse of the past, to revel in your daydreams one final time, before closing a lock on that chapter of your life for good. A hint of long-awaited closure.

When crafting this plan however, you were not expecting for him to actually be there.

And maybe it’s stupid, but for some odd reason, it can’t help but feel like a sign. A sign that maybe, just maybe, you haven’t been simply wasting your time thinking about him all along.

“How have you been?” He asks, his eyes familiar in their warmth. “What have you been doing?”

“I’ve been alright. Listen Seonghwa, I’ve wanted to tell you-” you begin, wanting to explain to him what happened. Wanting him to understand why you never came back to the camp, all those years ago.

“Y/N, are you out here?” A voice calls from further down the path. “What the hell are you even doing? You didn’t help me with any of the stupid box-” Hongjoong stops in his tracks as his eyes settle on both you and Seonghwa, his mouth opening to say something but no words come out.

“H-hwa?” He says, a smile breaking across his shocked expression. “Holy shit, Hwa is that you?”

Your brother runs up to the boy, pulling him into a tight hug. “It’s been forever.”

“It really has,” Seonghwa replies before releasing it.

Hongjoong had also attended the summer camp with you when you were kids. He and Seonghwa, while not as close as the two of you had been, knew each other well.

“You’re taller than me now, what the fuck?” Hongjoong laughs, to which Seonghwa smiles, playfully shrugging his shoulders. You smile at the way your brother's eyes have litten up, his smile enormously wide. You haven’t seen him this thrilled in a long time, and you imagine that you appear the same way.

“Are any of the other guys here too?” Hongjoong asks excitedly.

“A couple,” Seonghwa replies. “I saw San’s name on the list, and I chatted a bit with Wooyoung earlier.”

“Oh yeah?” Hongjoong laughs, raising an eyebrow. “And how’s he?”

“Wooyoung is... still Wooyoung,” Seonghwa sighs, his grin widening as he shakes his head. “He’s probably somewhere by the lake, I told him to make sure all the canoes are clean and prepped.”

“And he actually listened to you?” You ask, surprised. As a kid, Wooyoung was always a bit… unpredictable.

“Fair question, how about we go look and see?” Seonghwa says to you with a smile, beginning to usher both you and Hongjoong back down the forest path, away from the meadow

The three of you make your way down towards the lake, your laughter ringing out in the open air, a welcome sound. You’ve missed this. You’ve missed it so fucking much.

And as you glance over Hongjoong’s shoulder, watching as Seonghwa smiles, that perfect joyous grin, you can only hope he’s missed this just as much as you have.

~~~~

Day Two.

The first day passed in a whirlwind of preparations, as well as missteps. You’re honestly surprised the group of you camp counselors were even able to have everything ready in time.

After misplacing the bin containing all the games, someone stealing half of the previously chopped firewood, and San tumbling off The Caf roof, it was beginning to look like the next five days were going to be a disaster.

Of course, with great strife comes great perseverance. You managed to find the games bin located beneath about a thousand other boxes, Wooyoung drove into town to locate some more firewood, and San somehow magically rose to his feet as if nothing had happened. By the end of the day, Camp KQ was genuinely starting to come together.

Which brings you to now, all the campers having arrived this morning, and you are currently immersed in a particularly intense game of capture the flag. It’s a KQ tradition, a way for the kids to get moving, as well as begin to make some new friends if they haven’t met anyone already.

It is also a part of the tradition for the counselors to get involved as well. Which is why you are currently wading through the forest’s shrubbery, doing your best to be stealthy as you try to spot the opposing team's flag.

You remember back when you were a young camper, how nervous you were that the big, scary counselors were playing too. Now that you’re one of them however, you realize how stupid that was. These little bastards are fast. Which is exactly why you gave up even bothering to try and catch them, and decided to try and scout for them instead.

You see some kids up ahead, surrounding an incredibly suspicious bush that you can only assume has the flag located in it. You turn around, prepared to tell the rest of the campers on your team exactly where it is, when you walk face first into a member of the opposing team's chest.

You groan, rubbing your nose in pain as you shoot the guy a glare. Seonghwa smiles at you, putting a hand on your back. “Gotcha,” he says, a little too smug.

“Damn right you got me,” you mumble, your voice dripping with annoyance. “Could have done it without breaking my nose.”

“Hey, hey,” he chides, still keeping his hand placed on your back as he begins to walk you towards his team's jail. “You ran into me, what was I supposed to do?”

He’s right, but you don’t need to give him the satisfaction of telling him that, so you don’t say anything.

“Hey,” Seonghwa whispers, looking over his shoulder to see if any of the campers are watching. “Since I have to walk you over to the jail anyway, mind if we take a little detour? I want to show you something.”

You raise an eyebrow at him, smirking. “Oh yeah, and what is it you want to show me?”

Seonghwa flushes, before jokingly pushing you away from him, laughing. “Not like that, you perv.”

You laugh, smiling to yourself. It was easy to get comfortable with Seonghwa again, revert back to your old playful dynamic. Like this, you could almost pretend the last four years of distance never happened.

Almost.

You and Seonghwa begin to walk deeper into the forest when you hear a voice call out from behind you. “Hey! Aren’t you supposed to be bringing her to jail?” One of the campers yells. He’s short, with sandy blonde hair and a determined expression on his face. He can’t be any older than 10.

“Uh,” Seonghwa laughs, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. “I’m uh, just taking a secret route. It’s faster.”

The kid’s face lights up with curiosity. “Ooo, can you show me?”

“Maybe, next time,” Seonghwa laughs, before tugging on your arm and beginning to walk a little faster. “You stay there, and make sure to guard that flag! Don’t let anyone get it!”

When the boy disappears, you turn to Seonghwa, smirking. “You’re not being a very good role model for your team, are you?”

“Oh, shush,” he chuckles, rolling his eyes. “This’ll be worth it.”

“What do you want to show me, anyway?” You ask, giving him a sideways glance. Instead of immediately answering, he takes your hand, leading through a few twists and turns of the forest path. You feel a heat rising to your cheeks, doing your best to focus on the trail ahead rather than staring at your interlocked fingers.

“Here.” Seonghwa states, stopping in place. You look around at the… well, the nothing he has brought you to. It looks exactly like any other spot in the forest, and you have no clue what he deems special about it.

“Uh, Hwa?” You say slowly, glancing around. “What am I supposed to be looking at?”

“No, down here,” he says, pointing at something on the ground. You look down to see a large root poking out of the soil, stubbornly twisting itself along the forest path.

At first, you aren’t sure why exactly he finds it so fascinating. Sure, you guess it’s pretty big for a root, but not worth trekking into the forest to find. That’s when you realize.

“Wait,” you say, your eyebrows launching up in surprise. “Is this…”

“Yep!” Seonghwa answers for you, a wide smile spreading across his face. “This is where we first met.”

    ~~~~

7 years ago. 1st year camper.

You were 11 when your parents allowed you to join Hongjoong at the KQ camp during the summer. He’d already been going for a few years, but it wasn’t until that summer that you decided you finally wanted to join him.

Frankly, you were shy as a child, and the thought of being forced to make friends with a bunch of other kids you never met terrified you. It had taken you years to build up that bravery, and as Hongjoong spent the entirety of the year boasting about what a fun time he had, you figured the time had come to give it a shot.

However, now that you were actually there, you were finding that this decision was turning out to be a big mistake.

You were in the middle of playing a game of capture the flag, and Hongjoong had run off with some of his other friends from previous years, leaving you by yourself.

You didn’t mind, or at least you wouldn’t have minded, if you weren’t completely lost in the middle of a giant forest. You’d somehow managed to wander far away from where the game was taking place. So much so that you could no longer hear the laughing or shouts from the other campers. Only a tense, eerie silence that was making you more nervous each passing moment.

That’s when the rustling started. A bush to your right suddenly began to move, it’s leaves shaking violently as something began to move within it.

That was your cue to leave.

Quickly, you began to sprint down the forest path, your mind focused on nothing but the bush behind you. Were you even running in the right direction? You didn’t know, but then again, you also didn’t care. All you wanted was to get as far away from that rattling shrub, and whatever was living inside it, as possible.

Of course, that also didn’t quite go exactly as planned. Instead you tripped, your ankle catching on a giant root that was sticking out of the trail. You came crashing down into the dirt, raspberry coloured scrapes coating both of your arms.

Your mind racing with adrenaline, you attempted to get back on your feet, but couldn’t. Your ankle ached, buckling under you with every failed step. You were stuck. You were trapped.

You were also eleven. Which meant you did the only thing you could think to do.

You cried.

Letting out a wail of pain, screaming at the top of your lungs, you desperately hoped that someone would come rescue you.

And someone did.

A boy appeared on the forest path ahead of you, his eyes widening as he saw your current condition. He looked a little older than you, but only by a year or two at most, appearing around Hongjoong’s age. His dark hair was cut short, his big eyes swimming with concern.

“A-Are you okay?” He asked nervously, taking a few steps towards you.

“Do I look okay?” You sobbed. Even back then, you had as sharp of a tongue as ever. “Of course, I’m not okay! I did something to my ankle… I think- I think it might be broken.”

The boy knelt down beside you. “Is it okay if I touch it?” He asked, to which you slowly nodded.

“Just… please be careful,” you whispered, sniffling slightly. The boy picked up your ankle, to which you winced. He muttered a quiet apology, before examining it in his hands.

“Great news,” he said, softly setting your ankle back down on the ground. “I don’t think it’s broken. Twisted, probably, but definitely not broken.” You didn’t know if that exactly qualified as great news, but you refrained from saying anything.

“Bad news is I’ll probably have to carry you back to camp.”

You flushed at this, staring at the stranger with wide eyes. “I don’t want you to carry me, I don’t even know who you are!”

The boy smiled before shrugging. “Well, my name’s Seonghwa, so now you know. And I don’t think you really have the choice. Unless you think you can get back on your own.”

In a motion of defiance, you attempted to rise to your feet, only to crash back down in the dirt. You feel your eyes beginning to water again, holding back your tears through a quiet sob.

“Hey, hey, hey!” Seonghwa rushed beside you, putting a soothing hand on your shoulder. “I didn’t mean to actually try. Here, come on, I’ll help you up.”

You were no longer in any position to deny him, so you let Seonghwa help steady you on your feet. With a fair amount of struggle, he scooped you up in his arms. The two of you were roughly the same height, after all.

But he managed. He slowly walked along the forest path, and you felt yourself swaying slightly with every step.

“So, what’s your name?” He asked.

“Y/N,” you replied quietly, to which his eyes lit up.

“You’re Joong’s little sister!” He exclaimed, to which you nodded. “He talks about you all the time. Don’t tell him I told you, though. He’d kill me.”

“Really?” You asked, surprised. “All he does is complain about me back home.”

“Well, to be honest, he does a lot of that too,” Seonghwa laughed. You scowled at this, you’d be sure to pay Hongjoong back for that later. “But lot’s of good stuff too. You guys have had a lot of adventures, I hear.”

“I guess so,” you say with a smile, which is quickly broken as you wince slightly from your throbbing ankle.

“Why don’t you tell me about one of them?” Seonghwa said. And so you did. The one where you and Hongjoong ran away from home, and it took your parents all of that day and next to find you. You told him everything. All of the details, big or small.

Looking back, you know he only asked to keep you talking. To keep you from focusing on the pain of your ankle. But it didn’t matter, he listened anyway. A soft smile on his face as he took in every detail.

That was the year you first met Seonghwa.

   ~~~~

Present Day.

“I wish I could go back in time and look in that bush,” you smile, mind giddy with nostalgia. “See if it was worth the twisted ankle.”

“Well now that it’s been eight years,” Seonghwa says, his expression nervous as his eyes dart away from yours. “I guess I can finally tell you… that was actually me.”

You stare at him for a moment, your jaw dropped. “So when I complained about it being a rabbit, or a deer, or a badger for literally years, you just let me?”

“I don’t know,” Seonghwa shrugs helplessly, although you can see the smile he’s attempting to push down, telling you he’s not really all that sorry about it. “You’re scary when you’re mad.”

You give him a playful punch to his shoulder, firm but not enough to actually cause him any pain. “Damn right I am. Just you wait, Hwa. I’m going to get you back for that.”

~~~~

Day Three.

Today is lake day at Camp KQ, which means all of your activities will somehow involve water and the beach. This was always your favourite of the days growing up, the most refreshing against the scorching sun. There was something peaceful about lounging in the sand, or catching tadpoles that had swam their way up to the dock. This was the campers' chance to mostly be able to do their own thing, while the counselors simply supervised.

That is what you are currently doing. You and Seonghwa are both sharing a canoe, making sure that if any of the campers who are on kayaks or paddle boards tip over, you’re close enough to immediately help them back up.

A few other counselors are lounging on the beach. San is helping a little girl with pigtails build a sand castle. Meanwhile, Wooyoung chases the boy with the sandy blonde hair around with a water gun, Hongjoong calling at him to stop and leave the poor kid alone. It’s the perfect day, and you realize there is no other place you’d possibly rather be right now.

You turn to Seonghwa, who is also peacefully watching the shoreline. There’s something about how Hwa views the world that always seems to make something inside of you stir. He looks at everything as if it’s his first time experiencing it, his eyes full of wonder, of pure happiness and joy. It’s admirable, and you must admit, maybe the tiniest bit adorable as well.

You notice the movement of something behind him, your eyes focusing on a group of ducklings and their mother swimming by the reeds.

“Hey,” you whisper quietly. Seonghwa turns to you, a quizzical expression on his face. You point to the ducklings, your heart jumping slightly at the look of joy that flashes in his eyes. “Do you think we could get any closer?” You ask, to which Seonghwa smiles.

“Actually,” he says, reaching into the pocket of his cargo shorts. “I don’t think we’ll have to.”

Seonghwa pulls out a small loaf of bread, most definitely stolen from the kitchen of The Caf. You laugh, shaking your head.

“I thought I told you last time not to do that again,” you chuckle, thinking back to years ago, when he’d done the exact same thing.

“I know,” he laughs. “But who’s here now to catch me?”

   ~~~~

6 years ago. 2nd year camper.

“Hwa, where did you even get that?” You whispered frantically, staring at the loaf of bread in your friend's hand with wide eyes. Breakfast had been a few hours ago, and you knew for a fact that bread loaves had not been on the menu.

“From the kitchen,” Hwa said casually, as if there was nothing wrong with the action of stealing it whatsoever. You stared at him, your eyebrows drawn in and mouth settled into a deep frown.

“You’re going to get us in trouble,” you said, crossing your arms in disapproval. The canoe you were both sitting in shook slightly in protest of your action, causing you to let out a small yelp of surprise.

Seonghwa broke into a fit of laughter, causing one of the counselors to glance over in your direction. You gave Hwa a small slap on the arm, causing him to quiet down.

“You’re being too paranoid, Y/N. It’s fine. Besides, I grabbed it for you,” he said with a grin.

“For me?” You frowned, wondering why the hell Seonghwa thought you would possibly want a crumbly loaf of bread.

“Yeah, look,” he said, pointing to something over your shoulder. You twisted your head around, eyes scanning the lake’s marsh and landing on a paddling of ducks. The little ducklings were following their mother in a line, carelessly quacking away as they paddled after her, and you could swear your heart just about melted. “They’re here every year, I figured you’d want to feed them.”

Seonghwa extended the bread out towards you, a smug expression playing across his face, knowing exactly what choice you’d make. Begrudgingly, you took the loaf, not meeting his eyes as you did so.

“See, I knew you’d come around,” he laughed, before pulling off a piece of the loaf and tossing it into the water. The reaction was immediate, the ducks beginning to swim their way over to the soggy treat.

You threw in another piece, watching as the littlest duckling swam over, so close to your canoe that you could pick it up if you wanted to. You wouldn’t, of course, but still you smiled, throwing him another little piece, chuckling as some of the other ducklings swam over, reader to tussle for anymore if need be.

You and Seonghwa stayed like that for a moment, feeding the ducks in silence. It was a comfortable sort of quiet, no words needed to be said, only the moment to be shared. You shifted your gaze to Hwa, peeking at him from the corner of your eye, hoping he wouldn’t notice you staring.

You’d met the boy only the year before, and in that time, the two of you had become close. It didn’t matter if you hadn’t seen or spoken to one another in the year you’d spent apart, things were the exact same way they had been when you came back.

And things had been nice. Hwa was sweet, a nicer companion than Hongjoong, anyway. He was clever and taught you how to skip a rock across the water, showed you his secret spot in the meadow. You thought he was great, and while you didn’t quite yet understand the feeling, you knew that your heart beat twice as fast whenever he was around.

You knew he could make you smile and laugh. You knew you could be yourself around him, judgement free. You knew he was your favourite person to spend time with in this camp.

Seonghwa glanced over at you, noticing you watching him from the corner of his eye. “Why are you staring at me? Do I have something on my face?”

“Uh,” you spoke quickly, frazzled by the confrontation. “Uh, yeah, you do.”

“Where?” He asked, suddenly serious. Even at thirteen, Seonghwa held great importance over his appearance.

You looked at him blankly, at a loss of what to say, as there so obviously wasn’t anything to point out. “Oh,” you said, glancing away from him and focusing back on the ducks. “Sorry, I guess that’s just what you look like.”

“Hey!” He gasped, his voice high with offence. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Despite your better judgement, you felt yourself beginning to laugh at the expression on his face. His jaw dropped, eyes bulging as stared at you, appalled. “I’m just joking, Hwa. It didn’t mean any-”

Then you were in the lake, swimming upwards until your face broke through the water, letting out a huge gasp for air. It took your brain a second to understand what had just happened, whole seconds passing by before you realized he had just pushed you off the canoe.

“Hwa!” You yelled, glaring upwards at him. You moved some of the wet hair that was sticking to your forehead, blinking some of the lake water out of your eyes. Seonghwa was currently laughing, his face turned upwards to the sky, as if he were exclaiming his joy to the clouds.

“Sorry,” he sighs, looking down at you before extending out the handle of his ore to help you back in. “I just couldn’t resist.”

That was the year you and Seonghwa became best friends.

    ~~~~

Present Day.

Your heart warms slightly at the memory. Later that day, so many years ago, the counselor that had noticed Seonghwa laughing pulled the two of you aside. He told you that he was disappointed, and that bread was supposed to be used to make french toast for everyone tomorrow morning, and now he wasn’t sure if there would be enough.

You had felt immensely guilty, and had made Seonghwa promise to never do that again. He had kept that promise.

Well, until now, apparently.

But now that you are older, and had actually helped prepare and stock the kitchen, you know that there was way more than enough bread for everybody, and the counselor was just trying to make sure you wouldn’t do it again.

You turn to Seonghwa who is currently feeding the ducklings, face lighting up in that same familiar and joyous way, as if he were thirteen again. You suppose you can let it slide.

He peeks at you from the corner of his eye, raising an eyebrow at you. “Why are you staring at me? Do I have something on my face?”

You laugh, full of both delight and surprise. “You remember that?” You ask, smiling as he shyly looks down.

“Of course I do,” he says, and there’s a shift in his tone. It sounds more sincere, thoughtful. Speaking as if there isn’t a moment he has forgotten.

It makes you almost feel bad for what you’re about to do next.

You place your hand on his chest, giving him a strong shove. He tumbles backwards, letting out a yelp of surprise as he flips off the canoe, which shakes violently in protest. You carefully grip both sides, doing your best to keep your balance as you erupt into your own fit of laughter.

Seonghwa's head pops up, spitting out a mouthful of water. You can hear some kids, including both Wooyoung and San giggling from the shore, and it only makes your smile widen.

“What the hell was that for?” He sulks, looking up at you with his lip slightly pouted.

“Six years ago,” you say with a grin, extending out your ore. “Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten?”

~~~~

Day 4.

The day had passed in a messy, chaotic fashion. Games were played, a handful of the campers deciding to pull the not-so-funny prank of playing hide and seek in the forest. This meant that they all suddenly disappeared from the field, forcing the counselors to go desperately searching for them.

They’d earned a rather stern reprimanding, Hongjoong taking the lead as he rather thoroughly explained why this was not an okay thing to do. Going slightly too in detail about what exactly could have happened to them had they gotten lost, stolen, or hurt.

That lecture had earned themselves a rather quiet night. Everyone is currently gathered around a bonfire, talking quietly to one another, casting nervous glances over at Hongjoong. Your brother seems unphased, staring at the fire with a content expression on his face.

Seonghwa turns to you, lowering his voice as he speaks. “I didn’t realize your brother could be so terrifying.”

You snort, lounging backwards on the log the two of you are sitting on. “Oh yeah. Should’ve seen the time I broke his playstation, slept with one eye open for the rest of the week.”

Seonghwa whistles lowly, cringing at the thought. “Yeah, I don’t even want to imagine that.”

“Campers! Look what I brought!” A loud voice rings out from behind you. You turn around to see Wooyoung carrying a few bags of marshmallows, San trailing behind him with his hands full of roasting sticks.

The kids around you cheer, the mood noticeably lightening. You wonder if it’s really such a good idea to load the kids up on sugar right before sending them to their cabins, but how much is a marshmallow or two really going to hurt?

San passes you a stick and a marshmallow, and you mutter a thank you before turning back to the fire. You stare at the flickering flame, a frown on your lips, and you feel Seonghwa watching you. You turn to face him, watching as he gives you a knowing look.

“Do you want me to do it for you?” He asks, to which you nod, smiling as you had the roasting items over to him.

He shakes his head disapprovingly, however, you don’t miss the way his lips curve upwards. “Are you ever going to learn how to make one of these for yourself?” He asks, to which you shrug.

“Why should I?” You say, smirking. Despite his words, Seonghwa begins to stick your marshmallow onto the skewer. “I’ve always had you to do it for me.”

~~~~

5 years ago. 3rd year camper.

You let out a whine of frustration as your marshmallow was quickly engulfed in flames, pathetically falling into the bonfire. You watched as it melted against one of the logs, the sugar bubbling as it dissipated completely. This was the second one that night, and it had become clear that you hadn’t learned the lesson of patience, even after the first.

“You know, you’re actually not supposed to stick it directly into the fire,” Seonghwa had spoken up from beside you, earning himself a glare.

“Sorry, I didn’t want to spend 10 whole minutes roasting it like you have,” you grumbled, bringing your knees up to your chest and wrapping your arms around them, like a sulking child.

“Well, maybe you should have. Because sadly, I don’t think the counselors are going to give you another extra marshmallow. Not after botching another one, anyway,” Seonghwa stated matter-of-factly, his eyes still focused on his own roasting stick, slowly turning it a good ways away from the core of the flames.

“Maybe you’re right,” you sighed, defeated. Seonghwa smiled smugly, taking his roasting stick away from the fire and holding it out before your eyes.

“Look at that,” he chirped, admiring the golden-brown marshmallow with pride. “In all your years here, have you ever seen a marshmallow this perfectly toasted?”

You looked away from him, instead training your eyes somewhere far off in the forest, your chest panging with something of jealousy. “What do you want, a medal?” You murmured, causing Seonghwa to stop for a moment, turning to face you.

He watched you for a moment while your head was turned, his smile fading into a frown. He reached for the marshmallow, pulling it off the stick before gently tapping you on the shoulder. You turned to face him, although begrudgingly, only for him to extend the treat outwards to you.

“Here,” he said, his eyes sincere. “Take it.”

“What?” You asked, your eyebrows drawing together in confusion. “But it’s yours?”

“Yeah,” he confirmed, shrugging his shoulders carelessly. “But I want you to have it.”

Your eyes scanned him for a moment, narrowing as you searched for any form of insincerity. Was there a bug on it? Was it actually burnt on the flipside. You had learned to be ever so careful about these sorts of things from Hongjoong, who had taken enormous pleasure in training the gullibility out of you.

However, now that you thought about it, perhaps you didn’t have to feel that way around Seonghwa. Ever since you met him two years ago, unless you egged him on, he always treated you kindly. Always did his very best to make you happy, never focusing on himself. Whether it be giving you the last popsicle in the cooler, or running up to grab you an extra muffin during breakfast, you always seemed to come first.

And perhaps that’s what was making your cheeks grow warm.

You carefully took the marshmallow from Seonghwa’s hand, giving him another hesitant glance. “You know they aren’t going to give you another one, right?” You asked, still not putting the treat in your mouth.

“So what?” He said casually, setting the roasting stick down by his feet. “I’ll just have to wait for next year. Now would you eat the thing already? I’m tired of looking at it.”

You finally put the treat in your mouth. It tasted amazing, a true product of what good patience can bring.

“How is it? Good?” He asked, to which you nodded vigorously. He laughed quietly, before returning his gaze back to the bonfire, a quiet settled between the two of you.

You took the time to look at him. Truly look at him. Seonghwa had grown up over the past year, his boyish appearance becoming much more refined and purposeful. His hair was a little longer, ruffled and messy in a way that seemed almost intentional. He’d grown an inch or two, still only slightly taller than you, but you could no longer see the top of his head when you spoke to him.

You couldn’t deny he wasn’t horrible to look at. You couldn’t deny his sweetness. You couldn’t deny how he made your heart warm and cheeks flush pink.

As you watched him stare into the fire, that content expression laying peaceful across his face, you couldn’t deny that you were undoubtedly falling for your best friend.

That was the year you realized you liked Seonghwa.

     ~~~~

Present Day.

“Y/N,” Seonghwa says, abruptly waking you from your daydream. You turn to face him expectantly, shocked when he reaches forward with his hand, cupping your cheek.

You can’t even imagine how red your face is as he swipes his thumb along the corner of your lip. Your thoughts immediately jumbling together in a panic. What the hell is he doing? What the hell is he thinking?

Is he...Is he about to kiss you?

Maybe you should close your eyes, you think, but you can’t bring yourself to. You stare at him, eyes bulging wide, like a deer caught in the headlights. Yet, he makes no effort to lean in. Is he waiting for you to? Should you just go for it?

You move forward a total of two inches before Seonghwa pulls his hand away, stopping you in your tracks. “Sorry,” he says, an oblivious smile dawning his lips. “You had some marshmallow stuck on your lip.”

You look at him for a moment, not able to form any words. You wonder if he knows what you were thinking. You wonder if he can see the disappointment in your eyes.

You wonder if he can see right through you.

You turn away from him, looking back at the fire, doing your best not to let both your sadness and embarrassment show. “Oh,” you say quietly. “Thank you.”

“Hey, Hwa!” Wooyoung suddenly calls as he finishes collecting all of the campers' used roasting sticks before plopping down on the log beside you. “Could you bring these sticks back to The Caf?”

“Why can’t you do it?” Seonghwa says with a frown, taking the sticks from Wooyoung despite his words. He might complain about it first, but you know he’ll end up taking them anyway, because that’s who Seonghwa is. Ever the giver.

“Because I already brought them out for us, and I’m tired,” Wooyoung whines, outstretching the last word in the childish, annoying way that he knows drives Seonghwa crazy.

Seonghwa sighs, standing up from his seat. “Fine,” he says, before giving you a small smile. “I’ll be right back.”

The moment he’s out of sight, Wooyoung runs over and takes the spot he was sitting in. He looks at you with a level of mischievousness that immediately makes you want to leave and run after Seonghwa.

“I saw that, you know,” Wooyoung says, wrapping a hand around your shoulder menacingly. You don’t have any siblings other than Hongjoong, but Wooyoung has always felt like the younger brother you never had nor asked for.

You sigh, shrugging his hand off of you, only for him to put it right back up where it had been. “Saw what?” You mumble, feigning obliviousness.

“How you just tried to kiss Seonghwa,” Wooyoung chirps, and you feel yourself freeze, your eyes darting away from him with guilt.

“I-I did not!” You shout, although it comes out far more like a squeak. Wooyoung laughs, shaking you slightly as he does so.

“Oh, please,” he rolls his eyes, looking at you with a confidence that indicates he can see right through you. “The two of you are so obvious, it’s actually painful to watch.”

You're ready to push him away from you, to tune out that loud, almost condescending laughter of his. However, some of his words stick in your mind, and you find yourself curious. Against your better judgment, you engage.

“What… What do you mean by the two of us?” You say quietly, to which Wooyoung sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose in what you can only recognize as frustration.

“You’re kidding right?” He sighs, throwing his head up in the air, as if begging the gods for help. You think he’s being a tad dramatic, but that’s Wooyoung for you. “You guys are more hopeless than I thought.”

He takes a deep breath, before looking back into your eyes. “Sweetheart, Hwa has been head over heels for you since the first year you came here.”

You look at him for a moment, blinking, before turning away. “Shut up, Woo,” you laugh quietly, shaking your head.

“I’m serious!” Wooyoung says, or more so yells, his voice heightening. “You should have seen him when you and Joong didn’t come back, the guy was a mopey mess the whole week. He didn’t even come back the next year for his last season as a camper.”

You know Wooyoung is trying to make you feel better, to reassure you, but this only makes you feel worse. You’ve been doing your best to forget your guilt, to enjoy your days with Seonghwa while you have them, but that didn’t change the truth of the matter.

That you left him, after you promised you wouldn’t.

It wasn't intentional, of course. Your father had spontaneously secured a job across the country, causing you and Joong to quickly pack up your items and leave. Leave your home, your school, and camp KQ all behind.

You and Seonghwa had never exchanged addresses or phone numbers. Which was intentional, and perhaps what also helped to secure the magic of it all.

How the two of you were separate from each other's main lives, a week of the year dedicated to time with the other, and then eagerly waiting for the months to tick by to have that joy again. Perhaps the two of you wanted to preserve that feeling.

A stupid mistake, as when you moved so far away, there was no means of contacting him. Nothing to tell him what happened.

Nothing to tell him you hadn’t left on purpose.

“Hey,” Seonghwa says, approaching from behind the two of you, putting a hand on Wooyoung’s shoulder. “Get out of my seat.”

Wooyoung laughs, making no motion to move, but rather crosses his legs to make himself more comfortable. “Nah, you got up, it’s mine now.”

“Yeah, to put away your stupid roasting sticks,” Seonghwa rolls his eyes, but despite his protests, sits down where Wooyoung had been sitting previously.

You watch him for a moment, scanning his face to see any sign of sadness, or perhaps even harboured resentment. You can’t find any, however, only a warm smile as he begins talking to San about the activities planned for the next day.

And as you sit there, your guilt building in your chest, you can’t help but wonder if Wooyoung was right. That maybe Seonghwa does and always has felt the same way.

   ~~~~

Day 5:

You’d be lying if you said you hadn’t been slightly avoiding Seonghwa all day. It wasn’t necessarily intentional, it was just that every time you saw him, your anxiousness would begin to spike higher. Your guilt would deepen, and you would begin imagining Seonghwa as Wooyoung had described.

It was painful, the thought of him being so upset the year after you left, wondering where you had gone. Why you never came back, while having no means to contact you. Did he think you’d done it on purpose? Did he think it was your choice?

You hope not, but then again, you know how Seonghwa tends to get in his head. Having had the last 4 years to think about it, you’re almost positive he’s definitely considered it.

You know you should just talk to him about it, but you don’t know how to bring it up. You should’ve done so the moment you saw him in the daisy meadow, but no, you put it off. You assumed that when he never mentioned it, he must’ve been fine.

But he wasn’t, and now you have to make things right.

You’re currently sitting on the dock, your feet gently swaying back and forth, toes dancing along the water. You love this spot, mostly due to the memory attached to it, of course, but the view remains lovely none-the-less.

The sun begins to set before you, it’s bright lights causing the water to shimmer a radiant gold. The tall trees on the opposite side of the lake create a gorgeous landscape, the regions mountains standing tall in the far off distance.

You sigh, thinking back to this time, four long years ago.

     ~~~~

4 years ago. 4th Year Camper.

“This is my favourite place,” Seonghwa said under his breath, as the two of you admired the setting sunset. He was leaning back on his hands, his hair tousled and expression worn from the day.

“At camp? Or in general?” You asked. You were laid down on your stomach, leaning over the dock to trail your hand over the water, appreciating the coolness against your fingertips.

“In general.”

“Hmm,” you hummed softly, looking up to truly take in the landscape. “Fair, but I think mine is still the meadow.”

“Of course,” Seonghwa chuckled. He maneuvered himself next to you, so he was also laying on his front. He reached his hand forward, splashing a few water droplets up at you, causing you to call out in protest. “You never change.”

“Why would I?” You laughed, lounging your head in your arms, looking up at him. “I’m fantastic.”

“This is true,” he said with a smile, to which you blushed. A silence settled between the two of you, as you both turned back to face the water. This had been happening a lot that year, these little moments of quiet. Normally, you’d continue to quip back and forth, but that had settled down slightly. Instead replaced with a sweet comment here, or a warm compliment there.

It was strange, and of course you both were still young, and didn’t quite yet know what to do with it.

“Speaking of the meadow,” Seonghwa said suddenly, reaching into his back pocket, pulling out a daisy. It was far larger than average, with giant white petals and a thicker stem. “Here.”

You take the daisy from his hand, twirling it around in your fingers, a smile breaking through on your lips. He’d made a sudden habit of this, of bringing you the biggest ones he could find.

“Not bad, Hwa,” you said softly. “Although you've given me so many these past few days, I don’t know what I’m going to do with them all.”

He laughs shyly, before motioning to the flower, asking you to give it to him. “You could make a wish,” he suggests, to which you raise your eyebrows quizzically.

“What do you mean?” You asked, to which Seonghwa maneuvered the daisy in front of you.

“So, you come up with a wish, right?” He said, leaning in closer as he explained, resulting in his breath tingling against your cheek. Your heart began to beat a little faster. “Then you pull off the petals one by one, each petal rotating between whether or not the wish itself will come true. Whichever one the last petal lands on, is whatever will happen. Got it?”

“Yeah, I think so,” you said, taking the daisy from his hand and beginning to pull it apart. The little white petals fluttered downwards, landing gracefully against the lake's water, slowly moving towards the shore with the push of each small wave.

You continued until there were no petals left, to which Seonghwa looked at you expectantly. “Well?” He asked. “Will your wish come true?”

“No,” you chuckled lightly. Truthfully, the petals did say it would, but you knew there was no way in hell of that coming true. You wished that you wouldn’t have to go home tomorrow, that you wouldn’t have to go another year without seeing him. But of course, that wouldn’t be the case, it never was.

“Awe, bummer,” he sighed, swirling the petals that hadn’t disappeared yet around in the water. “I guess I’ll just have to keep picking them for you until it works.”

You smiled at this. Suddenly, you felt the prickle of tears beginning to infest your eyes. You tried to stop them, knowing it was stupid. Knowing that this is how it was every year, and that you have always gotten through it. Yet, your eyes didn’t seem to understand this logic, the tears beginning to stubbornly spill down onto your cheeks. You tried to wipe them away before Seonghwa noticed, but it was no use.

“Hey, hey, hey,” Seonghwa said softly as he turned to face you, eyes filling with concern. “What’s wrong?”

“I…” You mumbled, looking away from him, blinking rapidly. “I’m just going to miss you, that’s all.”

“Awe, Y/N,” Seonghwa says, his voice gentle. “I’m really going to miss you too.” That statement certainly hadn’t helped to make your current situation any better, causing you to let out a shuddery breath that only made your tears worsen.

“Come on,” he said pleadingly, looking at you with the utmost care. “Please don’t cry. You’re going to make me cry if you keep this up, is that what you want?”

You laughed a little at this, coming out as a shaky, choked sound. “A little,” you say, to which he laughs as well, giving you a small, harmless shove.

Then, to your surprise, he took your hand in his, interlocking your fingers. You expected him to say something, to explain that it didn’t really mean anything, or that he was just trying to make you feel better, but he didn’t. Instead he let his thumb gently rub against your knuckles, the gesture innocent, yet entirely meaningful.

“It’s okay,” he whispered, and you could swear you saw a tear escape the corner of his eye. “We always have next year, right?”

“Right,” you said with a nod, yet next year sounded so painfully far away. Like another lifetime of waiting.

“Promise?” He said while smiling at you, which grew wider as you returned the gesture.

“Promise.” You replied, giving his hand a small squeeze.

That was the year you left Seonghwa behind.

 ~~~~

Present Day.

“I thought I might find you over here,” a familiar voice says from over your shoulder. You don’t turn around as Seonghwa makes his way down the dock, seating himself next to you. His legs are much longer than yours, the water going up to his calves rather than ankles, soaking through the khaki’s he is currently sporting.

“Am I that predictable?” You say, a forced lightness to your voice. Seonghwa notices - of course he does - letting out a deep pained sigh.

“Are you going to tell me why you’ve been acting weird all day, or am I going to have to start badgering you?” Seonghwa says. Even with the frustration in his words, his tone remains tender.

You close your eyes, taking in a deep breath, steadying yourself. This is it. Time to let it all out.

“Can I say something?” You mumble, to which Seonghwa smiles, nodding.

“I think I just asked you to say something, so of course,” he laughs quietly. When you don’t join him, he frowns, as if realizing something is more wrong than he originally thought. “Is everything okay?”

“I didn’t mean to leave you!” You blurt out loudly, to which Seonghwa’s eyebrows shoot up in surprise. “I mean, it wasn’t my decision. Joong and I, our dad got a new job across the country, so we had to leave at the drop of a dime. I wanted to stay. I didn’t mean to break my promise to you. To leave you here alone.” Your words come out rushed and emotional, your voice shaking slightly. It reminds you of when you were last here, four years ago, the same painful tears building in your eyes.

But Seonghwa only smiles, setting his hand on top of yours, causing the skin of your palm to press down slightly into the wood of the dock. He looks off into the distance, an amused expression crossing his face.

“Well, duh,” he says with a chuckle, shifting himself to face you.

You stare at him for a moment, dumb-founded by the lightness of his expression, the warmth in his eyes.

“W-what?” You say, confused by his response. Was he not upset? Did he already know ?

“Y/N, when both you and Joong randomly didn’t come back that year, I assumed something was stopping you. Joong has literally been coming here every year since he was seven, he wouldn’t just stop,” Seonghwa says, that bemused expression growing wider as you continued to stare at him, with wide, un-blinking eyes.

“But Wooyoung said you were crushed-”

“Okay first,” Seonghwa cuts you off, shaking his head in protest. “Never listen to what Wooyoung says, you know this. Secondly, of course I was crushed! I wanted to see you! But it had nothing to do with thinking you didn’t want to come back here, or see me or whatever.”

You’re silent for a moment, taking in his words. Seonghwa lifts your hand up off the deck, entwining your fingers, squeezing tightly against your palm. “But it doesn’t matter, we’re here now, aren’t we?”

“Yeah,” you mutter quietly, the frown plastered on your lips finally cracking, curving into the faintest hint of a smile. “Yeah, I guess that’s true.”

“Besides,” Seonghwa smirks. “It’s kinda on the both of us anyway, for never exchanging numbers.”

You laugh at this, shaking your head at your own childhood stupidity. “Seriously, what was with that? Could’ve saved us from this whole mess,” you say.

You aren’t sure what guides your next move, maybe instinct and nothing else, but you lean your head against Seonghwa’s shoulder. He flinches slightly, at first shocked by the action, before melting into it, letting his own head rest against the top of yours.

For a moment the world shrinks to nothing but the dock. Nothing but your summer camp, and the mountains that lay in the distance. Nothing but each other.

Of course, this feeling cannot last forever, as a voice rings out from somewhere far off behind you.

“Y/N! Hwa! Where are you guys?” Hongjoong calls out. “We need to start setting up the fire!”

You let out a groan, burying your face even deeper into Seonghwa’s shoulder. “I don’t feel like going.”

“Hmm,” Seonghwa hums at your words, glancing behind the two of you. Hongjoong is not yet in sight, still far off by The Caf, but he appears to be slowly making his way towards the lake.

“Do you trust me?” Seonghwa asks, mumbling the words into your ears. You look up at him, not enjoying the glint of mischief shimmering in his eyes.

“Not even a little bit,” you say warily, narrowing your own eyes at him. “Why, what are you plan-”

You aren’t able to finish the thought as Seonghwa gives you a firm push to the back, causing you to tumble into the lake. You let out a sharp yelp on the way in, the cold water tingling against your skin as a burst of adrenaline pulses through you. You feel Seonghwa slip in beside you, peeking open your eyes to see bubbles appearing in the murky water.

You swim upwards, inhaling a sharp gasp of air. Seonghwa does the same, although his breath is not nearly as desperate, as he had of course expected to jump in, after all.

You’re about to yell at him, when he quickly puts a finger to his lips, telling you to keep quiet. Gently, he takes hold of your arm, directing the two of you under the dock.

The perfect hiding spot.

Well, perhaps this was an overstatement. The area between the top of the dock and the lake is minimal, only enough space for your chins to remain above water.

You hear footsteps echo on top of you, as Hongjoong makes his way down the dock. You let out a giggle, and Seonghwa quickly puts a hand over your mouth, doing his best to stifle his own laughter, as well.

You hear Hongjoong let out a deep, exasperated sigh, before turning around and beginning to head back towards the shore. “Where the hell did they go? Maybe that stupid meadow?” He mutters under his breath, before continuing to shout your names as he heads back towards the direction of The Caf.

You and Seonghwa wait until Hongjoong’s voice fades out in the distance, before erupting into your own fit of giggles. Seonghwa releases his hand from your mouth, instead setting it on your shoulder.

“Is it bad that I enjoyed that a little too much?” Seonghwa asks, his voice still shaky with laughter.

“No, no. Me too,” you smile. As your laughter dies out, you feel suddenly aware of how close the two of you are, slightly squished together within the docks narrow build. You can feel his body heat radiating next to you, the warmth his hand provides against your shoulder, noticeable even through the soaked fabric of your camp t-shirt.

“Would’ve been nice if you could’ve just told me we were jumping in though,” you tease, giving him a playful shove from under the water.

“I mean I could’ve, but what's the fun in that?” Seonghwa laughs. “Besides, it was only pay back for the canoe.”

“No, no, no,” you laugh, moving slightly closer to him, the smile wide on your face. “That’s not fair, because the canoe was payback for when you did the exact same thing to me six years ago. Don’t think I don’t remem-”

You’re cut off as he leans forward, your senses suddenly overwhelmed by the feeling of his lips crashing into yours. You remain still, your body not functioning as it takes you a moment to realize what is actually happening, that he is kissing you.

Seonghwa is kissing you.

Kissing you.

Finally.

You realize you should probably start kissing him back.

You meld your lips against his, which are soft and warm. Water splashes around the two of you, but you don’t care, because you’re finally doing what you’ve wanted since you were thirteen.

His lips taste sweet. Like honey and sugar. Like daisies and marshmallows and the sun setting over the horizon. It’s a completely new feeling, yet at the same time, oh so familiar

Seonghwa’s hand slips from your shoulder, searching for your waist in the depth of the water. “I’m sorry,” he mumbles. “I should’ve asked. I just didn’t want to chicken out again.”

You stop at this, peeling away your lips from his own, raising a single eyebrow. “What do you mean again?”

“Oh,” he laughs shyly, the faintest hint of a blush coating his cheeks. “Four years ago, on the dock. I was going to, before we left. Wooyoung even tried talking me up to it, but I couldn’t bring myself to. I was too nervous.”

“Cute,” you say, unable to contain the smitten grin making its way onto your lips.

“And yesterday,” he adds quickly. “At the fire. There… there might have been no marshmallow on your lip.”

You look at him for a moment, before tackling him in the water, giving him a messy kiss on the forehead. “Are you kidding me? Do you know how embarrassed I was? I literally leaned in, why would you possibly chicken out?” You ask, your arms still wrapped around him.

“I don’t know!” He laughs, his voice defensive. “It didn’t feel like the right moment.”

You scoff, rolling your eyes. “What about now? Is now the right moment?”

“Yeah,” he mumbles, leaning in to place his lips on yours again. “Yeah, now is perfect.”

~~~~

Day Six.

The forest floor of the meadow is soft against your back, the daisy’s petals brushing gently against your bare arms and legs. It’s cozy, the beams from the sun warm against your skin. Seonghwa has his head resting against your stomach, his fingers mindlessly playing with a strand of your hair.

Today was the last day of the camp. The morning was spent mostly cleaning, making sure every lost stuffed animal or left shoe was found before the campers parents came to pick them up. It was rushed and messy, but it left you with the rest of the day to do as you pleased.

Of course you picked the meadow. Perhaps Seonghwa was right, and you really were painfully predictable. But it didn’t matter, because there was truly nothing better than this quiet little spot, especially as you shared it with the boy currently laying with you.

There is no particular memory that stands out to you about the meadow. All of your time simply melding together, a hazy timeless fog of mornings spent reading under the tree’s, or making small flower bouquets with the endless supply of little yellow and white flowers.

Perhaps this will become the memory you reflect back on in the years to come, lounging in the summer heat. Peaceful. Sirine. Perfect.

“Not to be cliche or anything,” Seonghwa says softly, his eyes meeting yours, full of affection. “But before we leave, could I maybe get your number?”

You laugh, placing your own hand in his hair, brushing the champagne locks away from his face. “Mmm, I don’t know. Might just have to wait to see me again until next year.”

He scoffs, his grin widening. “Right, like you could handle not seeing me again for that long.”

He rises up from off your stomach, leaning on one of his elbows as he softly kisses you. You kiss him back, smiling gently against his lips. You could really get used to this, you think.

“Hey, can you guys get up off your asses and come help-” Hongjoong calls from down the trail, cringing and covering his eyes the moment he sees the two of you.

“God, you’re both going to be insufferable from now on, aren’t you?” He groans, a look of genuine disgust spreading across his face.

Seonghwa laughs before looking back at you. He picks one of the daisies out of the ground, placing it in the crook of your ear. “Yeah,” he says quietly. “Pretty much.”

This will be the year that you and Seonghwa fall in love.

~~~~

thanks for reading everyone!!

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Monday of Appreciation: Part 60

Hello everyone, Smite here!

Last week, I put in the effort to create another backlog and started compiling fics I want to read, especially newcomers, new stories and ofc my favorite idols. I fear (at least a little bit) that my bias towards certain idols could create a lack of attention to writers that tend to write other idols so pls feel free to send in requests for idols I maybe could read/feature one day!

Update: I have like 4-5 drafts that go pretty well right now. There is still real life however, so don't expect all of them in the next 2 weeks, but some will surely be released soon!

Let's get to the main part: Appreciation!

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@midnightdancingsol: You Only Need a Designated Driver If You're Not Getting Laid ft. Swan, Seeun (Purple Kiss & StayC)

A long title, but not a long wait until these very underrated hotties get at it, in typical fashion of the legendary Sol, in a very unorthodox, yet insanely hot way. A read is always worth your time.

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@usedpidemo: On the other side of dawn ft. Ahn Yujin

The sequel to the excellent, mind-blowing "A lonely night" is not your typical "The second part sucks". Definitely read it to get more, MORE of Yujin, who is so hot... I can't anymore

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@firagaarmor: "Gaeul snippet" (Angst)

@brokennightmares01 is the inspiration for @firagaarmor to make cry :( eyo, unfair (anyways, I want the full thing now kek)

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@bloomenveil: The Grind Never Stops ft. Xiaoting

A debut! This new writer definitely has potential and I am excited to see more, especially Kep1er (they are so hot, wtf). For a first smut, I liked a lot of things, especially the build up.

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@maemisnippets: Dither, Date Her ft. Minju (fluff)

Fluff snippet with a little twist at the end ;) but no, for real, these stories (especially about my ult) make my heart warm, which is why I feature them. Good job, Maemi, and more please <3

Have a good one! Bye :)

[a-lil-bi-furious]

Tagged by @momentofmemory @scintalla and @slice-of-magenta so I’ll play by popular demand 😂 Thank you all 🥰

Rules: Recommend 3 of YOUR fics. 1 that is “most popular” and 2 that are “hidden gems” then tag some folks

It’s a lil tricky because I have only 3 complete works published, but here we go:

Most Popular

These Old Wounds, They Still Speak: In which Scott is shot with fast-acting wolfsbane and Theo has no choice but to get the bullets out. I will admit, it is a Concept™️. The disorientation and trauma and parallels and trust all came together nicely for a tasty angsty treat.

“Hidden Gems”

A Hollow Darkness in Disguise: Look I know it probably does not meet criteria for “hidden” but I do think it’s a gem. It explores Scott’s mental state throughout “Status Asthmaticus” and draws parallels with “Motel California”. This is my favorite fic I’ve written so far, perhaps with some bias because it was my first finished work, but mostly because the idea felt so big and revelatory for me, even if I know now plenty have drawn the same parallels before. It also was my Moment™️ getting into Scott analysis as I really sat with all of his compounded traumas.

I Had A Dream I Got Everything I Wanted: the first part of a Sceo 3+1 that has been in progress for over a year now (sorry spike 😔🙏). It’s bb!theo and bb!scott, need I say more?

I’ve no clue who has already done this, so apologies if you have. Tagging: @rhyslahey @spikeface @capricornsicle @salvatorestjohn @bericas with no pressure to play ofc!