#obsessed with 2 things at once i must combine them

[ouijai]

🎶and you called it madness, ah but I called it love🎶

[burnin0akleaves]

Here's the draw six fanarts meme I decided to participate in 4 years late

In true burnin0akleaves spirit I didn't ask anyone for requests and just went ahead with all of the characters that have been the most impactful/important to me, so there is a high chance you've seen me draw these guys before.

By the way, unlike the rest of the blorbos here Siyra is an original character and belongs to @nineteen-rats!

Close-ups and rambles under the cut because it's my blog

Ohh the Dark Urge. My latest obsession. I love his design so much, I'm a slut for white/red color schemes, but I feel like it's a double edged sword that takes you out of the horrors he's commiting at the same time?

Durge is supposed to be murder incarnate, someone that does every fucked up thing related to death imaginable; but when you see a giant lizard eating babies or humping corpses, it dulls the effect a bit since you automatically view it as an animalistic act. Dragonborns are obviously a fully sentient humanoid race in-universe; but when the violence you're seeing is already toeing the line between horrifying and hilarious, seeing a scalie doing it just pushes it over the line. I still think it works really well most of the time and I'm very glad that this is the default durge we get! It's just funny to me that when you choose to play as the giant lizard, the dark and disgusting horror story turns into the hilariously edgy bloodfest.

Reminding everyone again that Siyra belongs to @nineteen-rats! I love this man so so so much. I am the Siyra fandom. I am the number one Siyra fanartist. He did nothing wrong and I will defend his every decision. I also hope terrible horrors befall him and that his actions keep him awake for the rest of his life. Pookie bear xoxo

COMING IN WITH THE STEEL CHAIR IT'S WILL TREATY

He is on my mind, always. I don't talk about him as much but he's probably still the fictional character who had the most impact on me as a person.

PATROCLUS! PATROCLUS!!! SIR I'M YOUR NUMBER ONE FAN!!

I got into patrochilles and the Illiad in general thanks to "The Song of Achilles". It was one of the first queer books I got to have in real life and the prose captivated me instantly, I still have it on my shelf. After reading the Illiad itself however, I hate that book so much. I'm sorry it's genuinely beautiful and I get why people like it but I can never forgive that horrible Patroclus characterization after seeing what he was originally like. Achilles too for that matter.

Hades swooped me up into its arms like I was a sick baby bird and nursed me back to health with its portrayal of the two though and for that I am forever grateful. I can't wait for Hades 2, death to Chronos.

God Half-Life is such an important series for me. My dad would let me play through a few levels since I was a child, he grew up with the games, but I REALLY played through the entire series one summer shortly before dad moved out. He was there watching me play most of it and getting to enjoy someone actually translate the game's dialogue for him for the first time.

Gordon may not speak once but I like the hints of his personality we get throughout the games, most importantly from the way Alyx talks to/about him. I have my own characterization of him obviously but I do really think you can get a good understanding of the kind of man he is meant to be in-universe just by paying attention to his surroundings. Also another reason the games were so immersive for me is that I'm just as in love with Alyx as Gordon is. I must have let her get hit only once or twice the entire time just out of how protective I was over her. I'd topple the entire Combine empire just for her hand in marriage. I rewatched the ending of Half Life Alyx recently and cried.

I read the entirety of LOTR in one week in 11th grade, carrying that damn brick of a book everyday to school and back. I'm so glad I did honestly. Frodo and Sam are my important little guys and I find myself going back to them when I need something to calm me down in a way no other series except LOTR can. I've read most of Tolkien's work at this point, but nothing captivated me like those two little hobbits. Everytime I read a bad take about their relationship I sketch them making out.

People liked seeing my drawing process before so here's the original sketch and the little notes I wrote to myself trying to set the mood. I followed like half of them.

[raisedbythetv89]

No, but like…FAMOUSLY not just in Buffy, but every universe that has spells and magic, real love CANNOT be manufactured or duplicated by magic. Only twisted obsession/infatuation like what we see in Bewitched, Bothered, and Bewildered.

But in “Something Blue” Buffy literally says once the spell is over and she’s talking to Willow “I loved him, we were betrothed” in a spell whose specifications had only to do with marriage which would only change them from being enemies to allies, which then allowed all their suppressed and ignored feelings to come to the surface that they could NOT act on before when the other person was supposed to bring about their death.

And I’m not saying full deep romantic season 7 and beyond love but they clearly CARE about each other and are extremely attracted to each other, in lust if you will…and must have been for a while. Giving SO MUCH credence to neither of them ever succeeding at killing each other because deep down they genuinely never wanted to. (yeah yeah plot armor but so much of the time when one of them got away it was really WAY too easy like they could have at least made it so both of them were always just BARELY getting away by the skin of their teeth instead of how many times one of them really just lets the other go after exchanging a few punches like 😹 they weren’t even TRYING after a while and to me “Something Blue” proves it’s because they do not want to kill each other because they are crushing SO HARD. Because also in season 2 when they make the truce literally FIVE MINUTES LATER Buffy leaves Spike alone with her mother while she’s on the phone. The amount of trust that demonstrates is actually insane especially when you combine it with the fact that Buffy doesn’t do a disinvite spell after he leaves town OR comes back in season 3 & 4. And plot armor or not, them never killing each other becomes part of the lore and informs the motivation of the characters because that’s just how fiction works! 🤷🏼‍♀️)

I mean just look at these two love sick idiots

I MEAN….Buffy’s face when her immortal and extremely durable vampire just gets tossed across the room?? She goes into slayer overdrive, swiftly taking care of the two demons she was fighting to run over and check on him exactly like she does so many times in season 7 because that’s her vampire!!!

We see them so happy and in love - literally the happiest we’ve ever seen Buffy and then the show tries to tell us “it wasn’t even nice” because what? They bickered?? You mean they actually SAID what was on their minds and talked about it and then comforted the other when they were sad instead of bottling it all up or being evasive of topics that would cause fights and Buffy would tell Spike lovingly to shut up when he was being dumb??? OH NO THE HORROR!!

And what really is the cherry on top for me is the “wind beneath my wings” bit because Buffy blames the spell while her body language and face clearly says it was NOT the spell, that was all Buffy. Which opens the door for us to question just how much was what we saw because of the spell’s influence vs the real Spike and Buffy just completely uninhibited by their status of an engaged couple???

Especially when this supposed engagement to a “bad boy” who was helpful to her watcher, extremely caring and loving towards her in front of all her friends and when xander says something mean spike is SO HURT and he’s like “that’s it! You’re off the usher list!” Like oh yes THE BIG BAD INDEED 💀 but Buffy claims being engaged to a Spike “gets her over her bad boy thing because it wasn’t even nice” ….. GURL you are running for the hills to seemingly “normal” captain cardboard because you LOVED being engaged to the slayer of slayers and that scared the absolute shit out of you and you were like I need to do something to convince myself I’m normal and not the kind of girl who would be into Spike IMMEDIATELY 💀 and then avoids Spike for the next several episodes while Spike is always asking where she is for Buffy to achieve maximum avoidant/suppression of feelings possible 😹😹😹

And the way Spike NEVER teases her about it afterwards like he did with the “wind beneath my wings” bit at the end of the episode to me is so telling of the importance it held for him too that he never used everything he must have learned about her at that time or never even taunted Riley about the fact that the Slayer was all over him when her and Riley had first started dating because let’s be honest that would be SUCH a Spike thing to do. Like???? They have been so into and conflicted about each other for a LONGGG time and I honestly cannot be convinced otherwise 😹

[anonzentimes]

hiya zen ! i'm sorry if this has been asked before but it just seemed like such a fun concept to explore.

on to the question, which of the seven deadly sins do you think fits nagito best ? honestly, he's so complex and putting him into a small box is already difficult enough as it is, but combined with the fact that... pretty much none of them are accurate to his character, it's pretty difficult to tell.

i've seen people (on r/danganronpa, so not too surprising) say he's wrath, which feels ,,, iffy to me. that doesn't feel like it fits him at all. his desire of wanting the very best for others seems to contrast with wrath. honestly, willing to bet those people just went "oh evil person who does bad things bc it's fun ok must be wrath then".

one i have mixed feelings about is envy, which... fits hajime better than nagito imo. sure, his entire worldview is kind of based around talent, but it doesn't feel like jealousy to me. the core of his character is that: due to trauma and the talent-obsessed society around him, he starts to hate himself... and instead of trying to desperately give everything away to change that like hajime , he just... accepts it. he accepts it as a part of himself, or hell, as the entirety of himself, as if that was all there was to him. hell, he even states *twice* that he doesn't envy the ultimates. once in the beginning of chapter 2 during his monologue, where he states that:

"Ah, just so you know, what I feel is different from admiration."

"Admiration is... wishing you could be like the object of your admiration."

"But, what I feel is more... pure. More like a selfless love that wants nothing in return."

And, once at... the beginning of the OVA i think ??? it's been a long time since i rewatched it so I don't really remember but he says something about how... the star of the show is such a demanding role, and how he'd rather remain as he is or something ???

pride is crossed off for obvious reasons LMFAO.

greed isn't accurate to him either. his only motivations are for others, not for himself. and even then, he wishes for an " absolute hope that can overcome any despair " . he doesn't even wish for an material possessions, if that makes sense. can hope be found through those material possessions ? i mean , probably. but like... what he wishes for is.. not only selfless , but also... so abstract ? i don't think he'd be a big fan of the idea that you could achieve pure hope through something material. he views it as absolute good, an absolute good like that would usually be found in other things than just something so limiting as material possessions. I'm pretty unsure about this part though.

lust is... eh. lust is almost always interpreted in a sexual sense, but it can also work in other contexts, though i'm not sure what definition would be in that case. i guess he's lustful for wanting the best for people LOL ??? that sounds so weird.

the people who say nagito is horny all the time would argue nagito is lustful in the sexual sense, and i mean , maybe but not really ? we know he compares hope to sex in one of the songs written by megumi ogata (which i'll consider canon), but he we also know that he absolutely isn't a sex freak by any means and in the games and anime, is actually pretty chaste. he also views sex as something intimate to share with a person he loves. something to share with a person who loves him enough to be intimate with him as well, and pretty much just... mutual expression of trust and intimacy ? i'd interpret lust to be like.. sex obsessed, pretty much. which, of course, kind of contradicts nagito.

anyway, i briefly considered sloth for him, in the sense that he doesn't want to put in effort to achieve something great for himself. it's all for others. he's never going to put in effort for something if it is self-serving, and... even though he ends up significantly influencing other people's lives, he plays a much more passive role in his own life if that makes any sense ????? oh, and it could also be telling of his luck in a way, in the sense that he's kind of... bound to it and can't escape it ? i have no idea 😭 to be honest, this one is atleast slightly understandable, unlike all the others which are just blatantly inaccurate to his character LMFAO.

i don't know, those are just my thoughts. what do you think ?

I just need you to know what I was giggling and kicking my feet over how much of a Nagito understander you are,,, this is such an interesting question it absolutely has not been asked before!!!

That being said, I’m honestly on the same page as you are. I’m a little stumped since none of them really describe Nagito properly? Sloth is the closest one that you could twist into a way of it fitting him, but otherwise most of the others are blatantly inaccurate to important aspects of his character??? I know that isn’t really helpful, but man is it hard to assign him one when he’s so unique. Nagito and Hajime are different sides of the same coin, and I don’t think Nagito’s selfless love, “envy,” or “admiration,” fits into any of the boxes that are provided. The end result feels like he doesn’t fit any of them, but the goal here is to assign him at least one of them right? So I guess Sloth in this situation is the best option, supposedly reflecting specific aspects of him and how he basically never does anything self serving. I mean, at the end of the day I’d like to have slightly understandable over blatant mischaracterization LMAO. So yeah, I think I would agree with Sloth over the others.

Thank you for your ask, this was so interesting to think about!! It made me so happy to read how thoroughly you thought about this, and how much you understand his character <3

[tmwcs]

S E 7 E N : A S M O D E U S   P A R T   2 W O

Warnings: drying humping, breaking entry, harassment, assault, torturous abuse, blood, gore, groping, and cussing. i think that's it.

“Oh…s-sorry I….I was…I thought you were someone else…someone I wasn’t wanting to see.” You issued back softly, issuing a sense of joy when your pursed lips slightly smiled in a sorrowful yet relieved expression. “Oh? Is someone bothering you?” He inquired as he takes a step closer. Reaching up with his hand, he caressed your face. His attire was very similar to his brothers, just a tad bit more sophisticated as a large black overcoat rested on his shoulders, over his outfit consisting of a black, lightweight blazer, black pants, and a black shirt made of a slinky soft fabric. He had flared a sense of style that would have fashion designers on the edge of their seats and chewing on their fingernails, as the man was an image of glamorous perfection. “You poor thing…you’re too beautiful to be frightened. But I’m here…” his fingers softly drag down from your cheek, neckline, shoulders, and down your arm as he takes your hand in his grasp. “You have nothing to fear now, I’m here. I promise, nothing is going to happen to you.” You nod at his reassurance. “Y/n is your name, correct?” “Yes…” “My brothers were right…you are beautiful…considering you’re mortal.” He smiles as his other hand reaches up to your face, gently tucking the pieces of your hair behind your ear, all the while you adorned the precious earrings Jungwon gave you. “Mortals are never this wondrous…I wonder who you were in your past life…” he states as he studies your hair, his iris shifting all around while you them trace the features of your face. “No wonder he fell in love…even before he saw you…before you were even born.” He smirks out. You gazed at him with a curious expression as he continued. “It was hard to understand, and truth be told, before I came here I still didn’t know the meaning behind his obsession….behind his decision. Yet after seeing you now…well, I guess I too would have held off in killing off humanity.” Your brows slightly furrowed as a look of shock and confusion deepened. “C-can I ask what you mean by that?” You inquired politely and softly. He smirks and chuckles as he lightly taps his finger tip on your nose tip. A trait of affection that he, Jungwon, Jay, and Helel had all displayed. Must be in their blood, considering they’re brothers. “You’ll find out what I mean soon enough. Be patient, and everything will be explained, I promise. We’ll let him express just how much you mean to him.” He smiles. You nod once more as he softly squeezes your hand. “So, I heard that the last two days were some what of an adventure for you. Why don’t we relax and enjoy the day right here? We don’t really need to go out and about.” You nod in response and agreed. You were feeling a little too timid in going out and risk exposing yourself to the regulators, again. Even though you were always protected by these individuals…these men…if you could call them that. You didn’t see it fitting to think of them as demons, since they acted far from it.

The level of protection, affection, tenderness, and love they displayed and showered you with was unlike anything you’ve ever felt before, even with the men you’ve dated in the past, none could reach the level and stamina these boys had when it came to love and soul. It was strange, they seemed angelic…considering the ‘angels’ that descend from the clouds above were nothing like you imagined angels would be, nor did they act like it with their mannerism of carrying out each death sentence. Combined with their shiny, liquid metallic and humanoid form, they looked to be more fitting of the demonic feature than Helel and his brothers. “Have you eaten?” He gently inquires as you snap out of your thought process. “Oh…I had some fruit earlier. Thank you.” “Just some fruit? Oh no, darling, we need to feed you. “ “Um…it’s just…I’ve had a hard time gaining an appetite ever since I found out I’m going to die.” He looks up, and smirks. “You mean you don’t want to die and become my brothers wife?” “Oh no…not that…I meant…when I saw the message with my name….before I met your brother I…I was sentenced to die by the angels.” You returned as you looked down at your hand, held within his palm, his fingers rub your skin in earnest. His face was slightly taken aback as he continued to hold your hand, but his expression changed entirely as he looked confused yet stern and nearly irritated. “You mean…someone had it out for you to have you die by those monsters?” He issues softly.

You looked up confused once more, in which he noted and waved his hand slightly as he shook his hand. “Never mind darling, I’m just speaking my mind aloud….I just don’t understand how any other mortal could desire to do harm to you, when you are above them all.” You only grew more confused as he kept talking, yet before you could inquire, he continues. “Don’t worry. You’re not going to die…not by them. I promise, my brother loves you, therefore we love you. He’s not going to let you go down in a manner like that. Your safety, comfort and pleasure…is everything to him. So much, that he sent me and my brothers to see you.” He smiles. You understood as you nodded. Recalling Jays words, you remembers how he briefly explained how he and his brothers were all sent to “prepare” your mind, body, and soul for when Helel comes for you. Though you still didn’t quite understand the meaning behind the method of preparing you. Just what type of death exists that requires for you to be “prepared”? “Come, sit. Let me prepare us something to eat so we can dine and get to know each other.” He calmly states as he pulls a chair and ushers you to sit. “Oh, thank you….um…what is your name, if I may ask?” “Soooo polite. What a good giiiiirrrrllll…” ‘Just like his brothers…they all like to drag that part out when they call me that.’ You mentally note as both, Jungwon and Jay’s voices echoe in your head. ‘Good giiiiiirrrrllll…’ “I’ll tell you my real name a little later, right now, you can call me…” Reach down as you sit, he takes his overcoat off, and rests it atop your bare skin that the loose straps of your tank top barely rested on, one of which has draped your arm as it fell away from your shoulder. Leaning his head next to your ear, his hand moves your hair away as he whispers…

……..

"Sunoo."

P A R T T H R 3 E

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[kanmom51]

JK live 5 August 1:41 am KST

Part 2

*cr./To the creators of the media used in this post.

For those who missed out on part 1:

Before I start with part 2, brace yourselves. This one is packed with clips that are a MUST to see. Seriously. This was such a long live but it was so enjoyable because of JK's hyper mood at start and his adorable quirkiness throughout the whole live. It was a pleasure to watch and this post has a few lovely moments from the second half of the live. My suggestion is do take your time and watch the clips. I can assure you, you will not regret it.

Did we call part 2 Makguksu blues?

We sure did.

And this, my friends, is why.

JK, right through the second half of this live, is dreaming of eating his dish. Stopping from some music at times, or singing, or pondering, but mainly dreaming of eating. Man is hungry. Stomach growling hungry.

So, at the point we left him he's telling us again that he wants to eat.

And he's really struggling. So much so he's imagining himself making the dish.

First hour obsessing over messing up at the concert.

Next hour (well overlapping too) contemplating and obsessing over making himself something to eat.

Tries to move on with music, going to the bathroom and to refill his drink.

Talking/singing in the background. - a JK usual.

When he comes back he seems a little pensive again.  Nodding head once in a while.

Opens up one of his Spotify gifts – the mic he got, trying to figure out how to connect it.  He puts it away to charge a little.

WE have a few relatively quiet minutes. He’s thinking, not talking.  Music playing, he’s on his laptop, mood kind of feels like it’s a little heavier than before, even if before he was hard on himself most of it was vocal and done with a smile.  Now he becomes more pensive.

Singing to Malibu nights by Lany.  He knows the lyrics off by heart!!

So, remember this?

And this?

And quite the coincidence... song playing at 1:18 hr. of the live. Now that WAS a coincidence. But funny how the universe seems to always align for them, eh?

He asks us if we know a playlist called Life sucks. 

Malibu nights is on that playlist as well.

Definitely in a mood.

It could also be the adrenaline rush just winding down as well... Probably the combination of both.

Convinced himself to eat later in the day (says tomorrow, but it is already tomorrow, lol).

After a few minutes he’s back to reading comments, reads a comment asking for him to play Winter bear, he’s looking for it and then plays it.

And he starts to interact with the comments again.  Someone tells him their grandmother said he’s so beautiful and he smiles and says thank you, bowing as well.

Asks if he should watch some covers of Seven – good decision to lighten his mood.

So now he’s vibing to Seven. 

And he starts adlibbing – his fave thing to do and something he’s great at (mostly) – and it's about the concert again, lol.

So yeah, still not over it.  Lol.

Ok, and he does this:

Ahhhha, literally.🤣🤣

Doing the Seven cover is good for him. It does lift his mood slightly.

JK again looking at comments around 10 minutes in to listening to seven, and of course,

What in the actual fuck? Again bloody Ian in the comments. And again JK, not amused saying:

JK is literally like :

And with these fans you know:

Goes back to the music. 

Back to the adlibbing for food. Man is damn hungry.

And he's back to the comments.  Asked if he likes cupcakes, says he doesn’t really eat them much, but he tries to say it in English. 

You can see he is really trying with the English. Making the effort!

Comment: Would you like to collaborate with latino artist?

JK: Idk. Didn’t think about it (answers in English again).

JK: Should I go to sleep, I want to go to sleep now.  But then he tells us that if he ends the live now he’ll go make himself makguksu and that’s why he isn’t turning the live off, lol.

I want to eat makguksu so much, giggling.  That’s why he isn’t ending the live.

And did he just say DAYMN?  Like with the accent and all? Lol.

And now telling this to us in English. Because this is the vital piece of information that EVERYONE needs to know. HE WANTS TO EAT MAKGUKSU!!!

Ok, so this is hilarious.  He says, in English I’m HANGRY.  I’m assuming he meant hungry, and that was the translation, but could he have actually meant hangry?  Lol. I mean, with the level of frustration being so DAYMN ravenous, perhaps he is already HANGRY. LMAO.

Ok, so as I was writing these lines, well more like half an hour after (but who's counting?), RM had his live and among other very interesting things he shared with us, he happened to drop this little tidbit:

Is Joon telling us he's the one giving JK English lessons?

I mean, it would make perfect sense.

And explain JK's use of slang words rather than a cleaner English. Words like cause and daymn and hangry.

And if we are already on the subject, do we remember who was also getting English lessons at the surprisingly and very coincidental time as JK?

Let me jog your memory.

A certain someone who happens to live in the same complex that Joon lives in. A certain someone that told us he's getting lessons in English as well. At night. Kind of when JK was getting his. Ooh, coincidences galore.

I wonder if they all sit together in JM's lounge drinking and trying to have conversations in English. Or perhaps drinking and watching Friends without the translations.

Guess it's time to move on...

Next he listens/watches to Boynextdoor cover of seven.

Thinks they are cute and then shows us the signed album he received from them. See? That shelf was his signed debut albums.

He wants to go eat makguksu, again, he needs to go, he is a real soldier hanging on not giving in.

At this point, around the 2 hour mark he’s really had enough, he wants to end the live (has been wanting to end the live for several minutes already), go wash up, but then says he’ll listen to another couple covers.

He tells us he likes the covers that also rearrange the track.

JK: I want to go eat, but I really can’t eat. 

So for the next 20 minutes it’s all about he has to go to sleep and we have to go to sleep, but then he needs to sing with the spotify mic.

Ok, so his reaction with this mic was bloody hilarious. He kept getting a fright from it, and his reactions priceless.

First when turning it on.

🤣

Now that he has the mic it’s like he gets a new wind and he starts another round of karaoke.

He wants to seeing a calm song.  Easy song.

Enjoys making gluk gluk sounds with the mic. Asmr, he loves it, lol.

Sings All of my life – a song he is already familiar with.  He sings it karaoke, quite differently than his cover 5 years ago. 

But before, he needs to go find the lyrics.

This song meant a lot to him back in 2018.  I feel like it’s still emotional, but much has happened since, water under the bridge.  He even sings the last verse, the one about the breakup. The one he made sure not to sing back then. 

He shares with us that he had issue hearing the key (in the song) and that his ears are off since catching the cold.

He then sings Sofa, brings the speaker up closer to hear it better. 

Watch the clip!! This time JK gets a fright from the speaker. His reactions. He is absolutely adorable. Precious.

We are adlibbing again.

And then it’s really time to end.

It’s just “it’s really time to sleep now.”  “bye” and he’s off.  Well, not before he once again has a jump scare from his mic.

And then good night and good morning and bye and he’s gone.

Can’t help wonder if he gave in and went to make himself to eat or went to bed, lol.

So, there we have it,

Almost 2 and a half hour live.

First half – upset about messing up at the concert.

Second half – I want to eat makguksu.

Lots of adlibbing, all about messing up at the concert and wanting to eat makguksu.

That's pretty much it.

Oh, and how could I forget?

I’m done gaming, noo more gaming, no more gaming room, I dismantled it all, and not even doing the live in that room to make sure you understand I am no longer gaming. PERIOT.

Wait, you think that's the end of it?

Hell no.

After JK turned off his Weverse live, the man, who told us he's going to bed, was suddenly curious and decided to go live on TikTok. Again.

This bellow being a link to his first live a couple days back:

And now, after disabling the gift option (and making a point of telling us so in this last live):

Yep, now I'm done!

Woohoo!!!

All up to date on JK's lives.

I'm ready for more lives JK.... Bring them on...

[slaptasticturtle]

Yandere Alphabet for David.

David is my werewolf oc

Warnings:discusses death, unhealthy relationship, stalking, NSFW, mentions of self harm.

A is for Agression (how aggressive will he be)

Likes to avoid being aggressive with others, unless needed. Will never be aggressive with his darling.

B is for Betrothed (would he like to get married)

Absolutely, he would actually like to have 2 weddings. One following his darlings religion and traditions, and the other as a pack wedding. The pack wedding consists of turning his beloved into a werewolf, mating, and creating a nest together.

C is for Cruelty (does he torture his beloved?)

Not on purpose. He might cause some trauma getting them to his den and he may be a bit to rough in bed while in wolf form, but he would never purposefully harm his darling in any way.

D is for Disgust (what kind of things disgust him, what things does he do that might be disgusting.)

He isn't easily disgusted by his darling, he can't see any fault with them, but he is disgusted by others when they have to much perfume or cologne. He prefers the natural scent.

He doesn't shower. At all. He doesn't smell terrible, mainly due to his natural scent not being awful, but if he gets dirt in his fur he will just brush it out.

E is for Ecstatic (what makes him happiest)

When his beloved returns even the smallest amount of affection. He doesn't care if it's fake, real, or a ploy to let his guard down; he is just happy to see you react in a positive way.

F is for Failure (when would he give up)

Almost never. The only thing that would make him give up on getting his darling would be them shutting down mentally or dying. He still wouldn't fully give up, but he would leave his darling alone if they break down and let them reenter society to get some mental help. After a few years he is back. If his darling did die, he is doing everything in his power to bring them back. The only line he wouldn't cross is bringing you back as a shell, he needs your personality and what makes you, you.

G is for Goofy (what is his humor like)

He will laugh at any joke his darling makes, no matter how unfunny it is. The only jokes he won't laugh at are self-depreciation. He doesn't even have to fake his laugh, he genuinely finds them funny.

H is for Hurt (what is the thing be does that hurts his darling the most)

Unlike other yanderes, there isn't to many things that are hurtful. The only things would be the day he kidnapped his love, and the fact he keeps them locked up in a room for a year to wait for the night he can turn them.

I is for impatient (how long is he willing to wait for his darlings affections)

Until he dies. He is one of the most patient yanderes I will write.

J is for jail (how does he lock you up)

He locks you in a room in his den. He fills the room with nice furniture and things you like. Some video games, board games, and things to draw with. He also gets you things for your hobbies, will sneak into your old house to get things you can't replace, etc. He spends most of his free time doing things with you. Once he turns you, you can leave the room and have much more freedom. He will later combine everything in your room into his.

K is for killing (does he kill others)

If you do not know the person he wants to kill personally, then he is more than willing. He is more hesitant and will only do it if necessary if it is someone you like being around. He is killing anyone you even slightly dislike or that has even slightly disrespected you. While he doesn't enjoy killing, he views it as a means to an end. Anyone standing in his way of getting his love is a threat that must be removed.

L is for Love (how obsessed is he)

Beyond obsessed. On a scale of 1 to 10, he is an 11. He will stalk, steal, and sneak his way into his darling life. There isn't a line he won't cross to guarantee his darlings safety. He won't spend a second thinking about anything that has no relation to you.

M is for murder (how does he kill)

Typically using brute force or slashing. He doesn't like to waste time, and prefers killing faster than drawing it out. Time spent killing is time spent away from his darling.

N is for nightmares (how does he respond to his darlings trauma?)

He will do anything to help them forget. Any reminder of so someone he killed? Gone. Bringing up something traumatic? He will change the discussion faster than you can blink. Need medicine? Done. Need therapy? He is kidnapping the best therapist in the country and dragging them to you.

O is for Over (what would he do if darling tried to leave)

Before they turned? Carry you back and recheck the cage. No punishment, you are scared and need time to adjust. He understands.

After you turned? Rough night of mating. Surely you left because you were needy, and how can he blame you? It is definitely his fault for not being more attentive.

P is for patience (will he wait until you are ready before mating)

He might take longer than you. A full year is a long time, and Stockholm syndrome goes hard. He won't until the night he turns you. The turning process makes you ready, as it rewires a lot of emotional responses. It doesn't necessarily change your mentality, more that it changes your needs.

Q is for quiet (does he care about how loud or quiet his darling is?)

Not at all. Very loud? While his ears are sensitive, they seem to be immune to the vocals of his darling. Quiet as a mouse? His ears hone in and can pick up even the tiniest squeaks and whispers. If others have an issue with your volume, he will make sure they never have an issue again.

R is for rage (how can his darling make him mad?)

It isn't easy. He flat out can't get mad at his darling. You yelled at him? You just needed to get your emotions out, he understands. You ran away? Well, you are adjusting to your new life. Change is scary, he knows that. He will jelp you through it. You killed everyone else he knows and loves? Well they probably deserved it. You hurt yourself? He will get you the strongest painkillers, and will get you therapy if there is a mental reason why you harmed yourself. He won't hold you to that.

He only truly gets angry when someone else makes you feel bad.

S is for Sex (how is the sex life)

Very animalistic. 9 times out of 10, if he isn't in wolf form at the beginning; he is by the end. He is very passionate and great with aftercare, making sure something cold and hot are ready to eat based on your preference. Will cuddle afterwards, and will whisper sweet nothings all night. Makes sure you fall asleep before he does.

T is for Trauma (how would he respond to anything that troubles his darling? This includes non-trauma related things, such as being blind as that could just be natural. Basically anything mental or physical that can cause even the slightest impairment.)

Any mental health issues like ptsd? He will get you therapy, avoid any triggers, and will avoid talking about the event that caused it like a plague. Bipolar? He reads up on it and learns how to tiptoe around your emotions. Sensory issues? No problem, any texture you don't like is gone. Any food you don't like is gone. Anything causing a noise you dislike is destroyed or dead.

Any physical issues? Blind? He will help guide you. Mute or deaf? No problem, he learned sign language years ago just for you. Missing a limb or paralyzed? He is there to for you. Once you turn those issues disappear anyways, so you won't have to deal with that for much longer anyways.

U is for Urge (does he have any weird urges that others might not have)

During his heat, which only shows up once his beloved is turned, he will be screwing all week long. Luckily the process of turning causes his darling to also go through heat at the exact same time. He has the urge to protect his mate regardless of the threat, even if it is much more dangerous to him than it is to his darling.

V is for violent (what does it take for him to become violent.)

His darling will never cause him to be violent towards them. However if he sees them crying or in danger, all bets are off. He will promptly kill whatever it is that troubled you, out of your sight of course, and then spend as much time as it takes to make you feel better. Other than that, he is a big pacifist. He won't harm anything that doesn't possess a direct threat or need for his darling. He will hunt for food, but even then he prefers to have his pack hunt or just buy it. He doesn't like seeing anything in pain unless it needs to be in pain.

W is for Wrong (does he argue with his darling? If so, what is he willing to argue about?)

Never. He would never argue with his darling unless it was to make them feel better. You think his favorite color is bad? No problem; his new favorite color is whatever yours is. You think his cooking is bad? No problem; he will read a bunch of cook books and ask for your instructions. You find him gross? Yes he is, even if he didn't think he was 2 seconds ago. Do you have any suggestions on how he can be more clean? You think you are gross or ugly? No, you are the best thing on the planet. The universe. He won't stand for anyone making nasty remarks about his beloved, that includes you.

X is for Xenodiagnosis (how does he treat any illness you have?)

Time for a werewolf pharmacy heist. Him and his entire pack are about to rob every nearby store that has any medicine that may help you. Then they are kidnapping the best doctor.

Z is for Zero (what qualities does he lack that other yanderes have)

He has not an ounce of sadism in him. Even if you are a masochist, he will not even pretend or threaten to harm you.

The need to gaslight. He won't gaslight you, infact he hates anyone that lies to you.

The need to isolate you. He is fine with you being with your family once you have turned. He is fine with you going to school, hanging with others, and forming attachments. As long as none of them threaten his love for you, they are fine. The only time he will isolate you is the first year, just to guarantee the night he turns you will go well.

I will be uploading a headcannon list. Send me an ask for questions you want answered, or any requests you have.

[missmirakell]

Hello!! I'm sure you can tell by my name, I am an avid shipper of Eris and Drifter lol XD I wanted to ask you though, being a fellow player of Destiny 2, do you ship them? I would love to know your thoughts and I hope you have an awesome day/night!

Howdy!

I love the Drifter/Eris ship! I may have even bought haykebyr's book for them 🤭

This got long and it's a lot of musing, so more under the cut!

For the two of them, aside from just liking their general dynamic, what I love is that they're both incredibly interesting characters on their own. They're both people have survived the worst, but entirely different situations. Drifter saw the ugliest parts of humanity, living through the Dark Ages, and the turf wars of the War Lords. Eris witnessed the full horrors of the Hive, taking their eyes and making it part of herself, never able to truly forget the hell that she and her fire team want though.

The two of them deal with their trauma in different ways -- Eris is forever tied to the Hive, and she embraces that. Drifter, on the other hand, has never been able to quite settle down. He was always on the move, as the name might suggest. His experiences taught him not to get too attached.

But over the years, they bond. Eris is very blunt with him, and she often sees through Drifter's games, but they still challenge each other's perspectives. They compare notes on things most people would never dream studying/using. They're not afraid to look into the dark, and seize it -- their methods are just a little different.

And how could Drifter not admire Eris Morn? This woman has fought tooth and nail to achieve her goals - she's never run away, never backed down, never wavered in the face of impossible odds! Plus, she makes guns out of enemies! That's cool as hell.

Meanwhile on Eris's side, Drifter's methods are a bit uncouth, yet they often yield results. His relationship to the Light is strained, so he's more than willing to look into and accept whatever she's working on. In fact, he often seems enthusiastic, where as she's often met with concern or outright rejection from others. Where Ikora continues to show worry for Eris during Season of the Witch? Drifter expressed that concern once, but accepts when she tells him she knows what she's doing. He trusts her. He just needs to say it once to let her know he's there for her if it becomes too much. And I'm sure after so many people questioning her methods, and the others around her treating her actions with apprehension, his trust must mean the world to her. In fact, it's in the way she's started reassuring others.

"Trust." Such a simple statement. When Drifter says it in Gambit, there's an air of mystery. A reassurance, but like you're about to get Monkey Paw'd. When Eris says it? It's pure affirmation. Maybe she adopts it because Drifter really hasn't done anything to betray that trust, despite how he says it. And it's really that trust between them that is SO important. Eris has to trust that Drifter has her back, and won't just make an escape when things get hard. Drifter has to trust that Eris knows what she's doing when she uses, frankly, frightening powers. It's really what their relationship comes down to -- they built that trust over years, and they don't back down from each other. They're not afraid to look and see what the other is becoming -- they'll be right there with them

And honestly, the combination of Local Witch and Wandering Redneck is the scariest and most hilarious combination of people imaginable, and I'm obsessed with them.

[otherworldseekers]

Rarepair Week Day 2: Trophy | Lover's Token

A little bit of Severia x Nero writing from the Enemies and Lovers AU.

“Where have you been?”

Nero glanced up from his reports at the sound of the strident voice and the figure that strode uninvited into his office. “Dear Livia, have many times now have I asked you to knock?”

“I am here at my Lord Baelsar’s request,” his junior officer said. 

“And I suppose with thoughts of our magnificent commander on your mind, you quite forgot what courtesy is,” Nero replied. With a sigh he set down the file he had been reading and turned to his insistent visitor. “Very well, what is it?”

“Lord Baelsar demands to know what took you away from your work here for such a long period,” Livia proclaimed. Nero suspected she was even smirking under her helmet. 

“Other work,” Nero answered. “Baelsar is quite aware that I am doing the jobs of three men. If he is so anxious to have his Weapon completed he should find someone else to manage the Frumentarium. Oh, that’s right, there’s no one else with the intelligence required.” He gave her a pointed look. “The least you could do, Livia, if you truly want to see his wishes granted, is to take over some of my busy work.”

He reached across his desk for a messy pile of papers and dropped them on the floor at her feet. “You have said you would do anything for our Lord, have you not?” 

Nero picked up the report she had interrupted and turned away, hiding his smug smile as she fumed beneath her armor. But eventually she gathered the scattered documents and stomped from the room, slamming the door behind her. Nero chuckled to himself. She really was too easy to manage. Her ridiculous obsession with the Legatus was her weakness of course. She would have been far more resilient if only she would give up on him. But she never would. The fool. 

A small metal box that sat on the corner of Nero’s desk caught his eye. His newest trophy. Setting the report down once more, he took up the box and lifted the lid. A familiar fragrance wafted from the container. Gingerly he picked up the somewhat worn cake of soap from the box and held it to his nose. Strawberries and mint, an unusual combination, and only a part of her unique scent. 

Severia Zetsuen. His secret. The true reason he had spent so much time away from the Castrum of late. 

Nero smiled to himself as he recalled their most recent encounter. She had been shy and hesitant at first. Under normal circumstances he found that sort of thing tiresome, but with this woman some answering instinct rose up in him and told him she was worth the care and effort she required. And when the waves of her passion had risen up and crashed over both of them… Well, even with his experience, he had never felt anything quite like it. 

Later, he had taken the opportunity to avail himself of some little token of hers. A cursory search of her pack had revealed the used cake of soap wrapped in oil cloth. Its fragrance wrapped around him, the scent of her skin before their exertions, and he knew he must have it. 

Now, returning the little cake to its hiding place, he wondered if that had been wise. The urge to take it out and breath in its unique perfume was persistent. He found himself wondering when next he might arrange a meeting and considering ways to stall his work further. But he reminded himself it was all part of his grand plan. Nero might take his time and pleasure with her for now, but ultimately she was just another tool in his box. 

Nothing would change that.

[ourladyofmaplemurder]

And the award for "Worst Mother in Riverdale" goes to...

I've already spoken before on the similarities between Betty and Cheryl. Their murderous fathers. Their superhuman abilities within the narrative. Their dead siblings.

But today I want to talk about their mothers.

Alice Cooper (Smith) & Penelope Blossom

There are quite a few similarities between Alice and Penelope. (Certainly plenty of sexual tension as well.)

They're both controlling and abusive with their daughters. Over and over they torture their daughters with expectations and cruel lies.

In the end though, only one daughter come out on top.

Sure, Penelope Blossom is a homophobic serial killer with a penchant for poison, but Alice is truly the greater monster, I feel.

Penelope is all aggression and thus, Cheryl is able to respond in kind.

Fuck you, mom! Go live in the barn.

By the time we reach the end of the original timeline, Cheryl is independent of her mother. She proves that she is not taking her shit and, because of this, they're able to have a moment of genuine connection before Penelope goes off to the OG Sisters of Quiet Mercy in the Himalayas.

(Though, the veracity of this is in question considering Penelope doesn't do the sign of the cross properly, but that's speculation for another day.)

Alice, on the other hand, is much more insidious. She exerts her control on Betty, but as soon as Betty bites back, Alice plays the victim. She cries. She makes Betty out to be the villain...and Betty falls for it time and time again.

By the time they reach the end of their arc in Season 6, they're still trapped in that endless cycle of lies and tears. At the end of Season 6, Betty is ready to give up on herself and become Archie's little wife. This wouldn't be the worst end for her, but only because Archie is a good guy. The reality of her existence in this timeline would ultimately keep her in Riverdale under the thumb of her mother, settling for a life she actively fought against. Truly, she would become her mother. She would become 'The Mom Next Door'.

I don't see this happening to Cheryl. Sure, she never leaves Thornhill, but she's herself. She possesses her own destiny. Barring the unrelenting obsession with Toni, Cheryl was really starting to move on and grow.

Betty, if anything, was regressing. She is trapped endlessly.

Now, examining their relationships to their mothers in Season 7 is also worth mentioning. What I can say is that Betty and Alice are very much repeating the same cycle. Cheryl and Penelope still have an openly antagonistic relationship, but Penelope is taken off the board before their relationship can really go anywhere.

We can assume things would play out the same way. After all, Riverdale is about cycles, after all.

Alice lied about the body under the table, as revealed in Season 5. This body's existence proves that she at least had reason to suspect Hal as the Black Hood. Yet, she says nothing. We can only assume this was to preserve her "perfect nuclear family" picture as long as possible. Ultimately fruitless, but also deeply selfish.

(Yes, I am well aware that the writers were making things up as they went along and thus, Alice likely had no idea there was a body under her dining room floor back in season 2, but we must examine the facts as we know them now.)

Alice also lied to go under cover for the FBI, never once letting Betty in on the truth to soothe her worries. This pushed her into the arms of her father.

The death of Polly. Ultimately, Alice blamed Betty for this and said it aloud. Even if it was said in a moment of emotion, it was still unbelievably cruel.

So, in the end, I do think that Alice is worse than Penelope and the reason is simple. Penelope's singular aggression allows Cheryl to break away and stand on her own. Alice's cruelty combined with her neediness never allows Betty to breathe long enough to realize that her mother is a monster. She is so deeply selfish.

Cheryl can go toe to toe with Penelope and ultimately grow up. Alice's wounded bird routine breaks Betty's heart and ultimately, keeps her trapped forever.

And thus, the award for "Worst Mom in Riverdale" goes to....ALICE SMITH.

Not really a dissertation, but it is a post. <3

@reclusivedouche @storkmuffin

This one is for you. <3

[emotionallychargedtowel]

Pursuer-distancer roles and attachment style in Utsukushii Kare Part 2: Kiyoi

As you can tell from the title, this is the second part of an exploration of pursuer-distancer themes in Utsukushii Kare. The first post, about Hira, is here. A broader post explaining pursuer and distancer roles, connecting them with the seme/uke trope, and giving some examples from BLs is here.

I’m going to start with something that loops back into the Hira part of things. I mentioned in my last post that just choosing Kiyoi as a love object acted as a way for Hira to avoid intimacy while seeking it at the same time. But something unexpected happened: against what would seem like huge odds, Kiyoi did return Hira’s feelings. Why is that? There are a few reasons. Kiyoi wasn’t just any beautiful, popular boy. He was someone who:

Had a deep (if largely hidden) need to feel loved, combined with a difficulty trusting people who profess to love him. In order to overcome his skepticism and let down his guard, Kiyoi requires something more than your typical adolescent crush—he needs something stronger. The intense, loyal, even obsessive love that Hira offers is thus almost irresistible.

Felt a secret kinship with Hira due to his sexuality. Sidebar: Neither character ever explicitly voices a sexual orientation. Hira’s is a bit ambiguous as Kiyoi is the only person he’s ever felt attracted to. For various reasons I should hold off on getting into here for space reasons, I’m convinced that Kiyoi is gay, self-aware about that fact, and likely was from a comparatively young age. So as I see it, Kiyoi sees Hira as someone with whom he shares a queer identity. Due to his outcast status in high school, Hira seems to act as a kind of shadow self to Kiyoi. Even though Hira’s treatment by peers isn’t due to his sexuality, he could represent what Kiyoi thinks his social status would be if others learned his secret. That connection may also have fueled some of Kiyoi’s (covert) attempts to protect Hira from bullying (while outwardly aligning himself with the bullies).

Ended up being cast out from the popular group for quite some time, creating an opportunity for Hira to bond with him and vice versa.

If Kiyoi had been the person he appeared to be on the surface when Hira first met him—a more boring, average version of himself—he would have been much less likely to be able to return Hira’s feelings. Luckily for Hira, he was much more complex.

Kiyoi is a textbook distancer in some ways, but more complicated in others. The reasons for his distancing strategies are abundantly clear if you give any thought to his backstory. In the S1E5 intro, he describes growing up as a lonely latchkey kid with a single mom, followed by a drastic improvement in his life when his mother remarried, then by feeling abandoned when his younger half-siblings were born and he was (from his perspective, at least) forgotten. The change in his parents’ treatment of him once his half-siblings arrived must have felt like a betrayal. It’s easy to imagine a young Kiyoi blaming himself for having trusted them and resolving not to do so easily in the future. At the same time, his appearance has always brought him attention and made superficial friendships easy to come by. Kiyoi doesn’t trust these sorts of friends and often feels used by them, and these relationships must be rendered even more hollow by the fact that he can’t be open about his identity within them. By the time he gets to know Hira, Kiyoi seems like he’s been waiting to find someone who shares this with him for years. So if you put all of this together, you have someone who:

desperately wants to be loved and connect with others, 

just as desperately wants to believe, and wants others to believe, that he has no need for intimacy,

has an extremely hard time trusting people,

is constantly surrounded by friends he doesn’t trust,

is constantly receiving declarations of love from people who don’t know anything about him, many of them members of a gender category that holds no attraction for him,

and hasn’t experienced much, if any, authentic connection with other people in years.

In some ways, he was even worse off than Hira when they first met.

When I say that Kiyoi wants to believe and for others to believe he doesn’t have a need for intimacy, this is the core of why and how he takes on the role of a distancer. Even without his other challenges, he had to distance himself from others in so many areas of his life in order to keep his sexuality a secret and avoid messy situations with girls. But it’s much deeper than that. His attachment style appears to be dismissing (a.k.a. avoidant). This makes a lot of sense given his upbringing. People with dismissing attachment have had formative experiences in which showing their need for attention and love led to negative outcomes. It’s easy to see how Kiyoi’s history dovetails with this.

In Attachment in Psychotherapy, David Wallin writes that one subgroup of people with dismissing attachment styles have a “devaluing pattern” in which they want to see themselves as special but denigrate others. The quote below is long but it applies so well to Kiyoi that I couldn’t stand to leave any of it out:

[People with this dismissing style] have learned to shield themselves from their unmet needs and angry frustration by thinking too well of themselves and too badly of others. Over time, however, the illusions of specialness that protect and comfort these patients can prove an increasingly hollow substitute for love. Yet genuine intimacy risks exposing the feelings of dependent longing and anger which their parents could not tolerate. Consequently, their response to a potentially intimate relationship is akin to that of a starving man at a banquet who tells himself the food isn’t good enough and therefore refuses to eat.…the self-generated propaganda about their perfection and—still more so—our imperfection provides them with (a very prickly kind of) protection from shame.

Kiyoi definitely seems very motivated by trying to avoid shame. And although he increasingly succeeds at being recognized as special through his profession, it’s also true that he is learning firsthand that this is no substitute for real closeness.

By the way, this attachment style may sound narcissistic. And there’s some similarity there. But I don’t think Kiyoi is a narcissist. While preoccupied with how others see him, he isn’t grandiose. He doesn’t show any of the lack of empathy or exploitative behavior we’d expect of someone with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. It may look that way at times during high school, but he doesn’t initiate bullying. Rather, he created an appearance of friendship with bullies that is largely strategic. Tellingly, he doesn’t engage in the same type of behavior once he leaves that environment. The devaluing pattern described by Wallin is a much better fit. I gave some more thought to Kiyoi’s personality and while he, like most of us, has characteristics of a number of types, my take on his most central type is that he’s actually a depressive type, like Hira, even though they manifest this in very different ways.

In her discussion of depressive clients’ tendencies in therapy, McWilliams writes that they “are subject to the chronic belief that the therapist’s concern and respect would vanish if he or she really knew them.” This seems to be Kiyoi’s fear across all of his relationships. When he fails to win the contest in season 1 and is rejected by his former friends, he says, “The moment they found out I wasn’t special, everyone left me. But…not [Hira].” That phrasing is important (at least, if the translation is accurate). He doesn’t say they think he’s not special, but that they “found out” he isn’t, as if this has always been true.

By the way, if I were an old-school Freudian I might point out that another word for depressive personality in psychoanalysis is “oral type,” and that it’s tied to oral fixations. An oral fixation isn’t some kind of sex thing (at least, not necessarily). It involves a strong interest not only in sources of oral stimuli, including eating and drinking, but also things that are associated with mothers, babies, boobs, and so forth. Kiyoi’s new habit (as of S2E1) of opening his mouth, baby bird style, to get Hira to feed him is totally consistent with this. It not only involves a nice oral stimulus, it also puts Hira in a motherly role. It’s especially telling that one of these occasions happens outside the bingsoo (?) shop immediatley after Kiyoi overhears some girls talking about how attractive Hira is. That timing is not a coincidence. I’m not an old-school Freudian and I don’t normally put a lot of stock in the “oral fixation” thing, but it’s actually a remarkably good fit here.

Circling back to the pursuer-distancer part of the picture, Hira initially makes it fairly easy for Kiyoi to distance himself. His pursuit of Kiyoi is so strange and oddly passive and makes few demands of him other than tolerating things like his constant stare. At that point, Hira didn’t presume to seek out contact with Kiyoi much. He stayed in the background. But this actually isn’t enough pursuit for Kiyoi. The balance is off. He can’t get his needs met while disavowing his need for intimacy unless Hira pursues harder and/or more effectively. 

This issue gets a lot more clear once Hira and Kiyoi are actually together. The exchange shown below, which happens when Hira hesitates to attend the party full of models and actors, is emblematic of all of this. (It’s also really entertaining, so it’s no wonder it’s been making the rounds on here a lot in screenshot and gif form--speaking of which, thank you to @xnoel for letting me borrow your screenshots!)

This is classic distancer stuff. In essence, the message is, “Ugh, quit chasing me. Wait, where you are going?” When Kiyoi responds by bringing up that Hira used to come to afterparties for his plays and Hira says he did so out of desperation, he says, “Wow, so you’re not desperate now? Since you already have me?” This is almost as overt as if he’d said, “Hira, I need you to pursue me harder while I continue to act like I’m pushing you away,”

A scene that illustrates these dynamics from another angle is the one in which Kiyoi tells a post-makeover Hira that he looks “handsome enough for me to fall in love with all over again.” (I’m rephrasing as Viki’s translation at this point is a bit lacking.) When Hira’s face begins to light up, Kiyoi visibly panics, says he was lying, kicks Hira, and flees. This is comical, of course, but also sad as hell, because Kiyoi’s fear of intimacy and inability to self-regulate when Hira starts to get close to him is on blatant display.

Maybe Kiyoi wouldn’t have let something like that slip out if Hira wasn’t such an ineffective pursuer in some ways. But part of him does still want authentic intimacy with Hira, and not just this king-and-servant thing. Telling Hira he’s handsome and admitting that he’s in love with him is actually a real moment of growth. Or it would be, if he didn’t immediately take it back. Most people would see right through this, but Hira’s negativity bias seems to have made him believe it.

This hilarious-yet-fucked-up aspect is even clearer in some recent posts by @mineonmain​, which are “incorrect quotes” that end up being more correct in some ways that the actual text of the show.

All in all, despite the kicking and sarcasm he aims Hira’s way, I think by the end of S2E1 Kiyoi is showing at least a bit more flexibility and potential for growth than Hira is. The final scene shows this in a really affecting way. 

The next morning, Kiyoi admits, “I went too far yesterday. I’m acting a bit weird....I get weird when it’s about you.” He doesn’t have to take responsibility for this—it’s not like Hira is pressing the issue—but he chooses to. It’s a pretty big deal for him. He ends up putting his head down on Hira’s lap, looking up at him and saying, “Hira, don’t go anywhere,” in a plaintive voice, and then using his arms to both grab onto Hira and cover his face (hardly surprising given showing this much vulnerable emotion is a huge challenge for him).

But here’s what really breaks my heart: Hira is smiling the entire time, from the moment Kiyoi puts his head in his lap. It’s like the only thing that has registered with him is the fact that he’s in physical contact with Kiyoi and is being told some vaguely nice things, things that imply Kiyoi values having him in his life. But he’s really not hearing Kiyoi, or treating him like a person.

As a result, Hira’s affect (the visible manifestation of his emotions) is completely misaligned with Kiyoi’s. Kiyoi is clearly showing fear and sadness and Hira is just sitting there grinning to himself. If a therapist saw an interaction like this in a couples session, they’d be really concerned. Despite Hira’s supposed dedication to Kiyoi and determination to earn his place in Kiyoi’s life, he’s completely failing to be attuned to Kiyoi’s feelings, much less provide some kind of real comfort. I guess it’s for the best that Kiyoi’s eyes are covered at this point, because that way he can’t see Hira’s unintentionally callous smile. 

These issues are clearly being set up as central to the story of season 2 and likely the upcoming movie as well, so hopefully we’ll see some progress from both characters. They have a lot of work to do. That said, they clearly have a very meaningful connection and a lot of motivation to meet each other halfway. Let’s hope they get to where they need to be. 

[ciaossu-imagines]

ohhh thanks for letting me know that the au is already taken. then can i request again for ouran high school host club and battle royale/hunger games (your pick)?

No problem at all, my lovely anon! Though this comes to you very late, I hope you'll enjoy the headcanons for this really fun, if angsty AU!

Okay, but this was actually a really hard AU for me to really decide upon ideas for and in the end, it kind of ended up being a combination of several different kind of battle royale type universes and ideas, mixtures of things influenced by various pop culture hits.

So, I did stick with the one general consensus among most battle royale type medias. This is definitely treated as a game of sorts, a game that is advertised and watched by everyone. it occurs once yearly and the contestants are always teenagers. Once you turn thirteen until the day you hit nineteen, you are eligible to play the game. The game is used to both keep citizens of a very dystopian society in line and under the power of the ruling monarchy and as a sick type of entertainment, the only televised thing other than news broadcasts, emergency bulletins, and daily reminders from the government on the weather and the expected role of each citizen within this dystopian world.

Needless to say, this game is a big deal. Now how are people selected, you might ask? Now, despite not being a huge fan of The Hunger Games (as in, I really don't like the books or the movies at all), I really am a fan of the district set-up, and I decided to incorporate that into this AU. So a champion is selected from each of the twelve districts that make up the world and, much like The Hunger Games, the districts are each responsible for one sole part of the world's economy and each districts champions really come with that specialized knowledge and skills.

The game does offer fame, riches, and good fortune to not only the winner but their entire district so, while you would assume that nobody would volunteer for the game, given that it is literally a life or death situation, a winner-take-all, kill or be killed game, there is always at least one champion who willingly volunteered to play the game each year.

And volunteering - actually a necessity. Each district is required to have someone 'volunteer' each year to be the champion. The government decided, after the first couple games, that randomly picking people made the government look like the bad guys, no matter the outcome, and so they make each district volunteer so that it looks like there's more widespread support for the game than there is. And how can you force someone to volunteer to potentially be slaughtered or to have to commit mass murder to survive? Easy…each district is given 24 hours notice of the selection date and they must, in that time, come up with a volunteer for champion. If the district refuses or cannot come up with a volunteer, the government helps them decide…usually by starting to kill off citizens until a volunteer comes forward. But all that is ever publicized and shown to the other districts is edited footage showing the champion supposedly bravely and confidently volunteering themselves for the game, all a PR spin.

This year's champions? From District 1, which makes luxury items and expensive jewelry, is Tamaki Suoh, who willingly volunteered for the games to prevent any slaughter in the district.

From District 2, which manufactures weapons, comes Mitsukuni Haninozuka, who prefers to be called Honey. Honey is a strong contender and one of the favourites to win the whole thing, especially with his immense strength despite his tiny stature.

From District 3, which manufactures electronics, comes Renge Houshakuji. A hardcore fan of the game, she also willingly volunteered. She has watched the games obsessively throughout her life, studied the strategies and is sure she can win this all.

From District 4, which specializes in fishing, comes Mei Yasumura. Mei was bullied from the time she was a child, rather friendless and very much a loner, despite her brash confidence and outgoing nature. It didn't exactly shock her or her family when she was told she was to volunteer or face death from her own neighbours.

From District 6, specializing in transportation and infrastructure, comes Kyoya Ootori. The son of a well to do family, it's always been expected that he would someday play and win the games, like his brothers had before him, and he has been training for this since he was a child.

From District 7, specializing in lumber, comes Ritsu Kasanoda. Despite his terrifying appearance, Ritsu is scared shitless of the games. He only stepped up and volunteered because he'd heard among the townfolk that his best friend had been decided amongst the district's citizens as this year's volunteer. Ritsu really does love his friend and though he is sure that volunteering will spell his certain death, he's just happy knowing he allowed his friend to have a future.

From District 9, which produces all the grain used, comes Umehito Nekozawa. A strange boy with an aversion to sunlight, he hides under a big cloak and seems to keep his distance from everyone, mostly speaking to a cat like puppet he wears on his hand. If his behaviour in the games is any indication, it's safe to say his district thought he was nuttier than a fruitcake and decided to make him volunteer to be rid of him.

From District 10, which specializes in raising livestock, come Akira Komatsuzawa. Though he knows his future will be decided for him based on where he was born, Akira is jealous of those lucky enough to be born in the most well-off districts and yearns to win the game and get the money and fame and fortune. He definitely volunteered before anyone else could.

From District 11, responsible for agriculture, comes Takashi Morinozuka, who prefers to go by Mori. A quiet and serious boy, Mori tends to disappear into the background of the game, something he does learn to use to his advantage.

From District 12, specializing in coal mining, comes Haruhi Fujioka. Haruhi is vehemently opposed to the games and had no intention of volunteering. Then again, neither did anyone else in her district. It took a full day of the government slaughtering civilians before Haruhi sacrificed herself as a volunteer to make it stop - she would either die in the games or die avoiding volunteering, and by volunteering, she could save many other people. Responsible and determined, she chose the path that aligned most with her moral compass and is walking into the game sure of her decision.

It's a funny story about the champions from District 5, which produces all electricity, and District 8, which produces all textiles. In a 'coincidence' orchestrated by the government, who thought it would make the game even more entertaining, the two champions are not only brothers but twin brothers, Hikaru and Kaoru Hitachiin. Though they are both originally from District 5, Kaoru had been in District 8 at the time of the selection, visiting his father as their parents are divorced and living in separate districts.

The game itself is brutal. But, being the biggest source of entertainment, there's no shortage of funds for it and the champions are decked out in the finest of battle outfits, each representing some aspect of their district, and are provided with the best of weapons fitting their districts. On top of that, each year's game setting is completely different, unique and totally new each year. This year's playing field? It is a secluded area, largely without trees and with no obvious sources of water. It kind of resembles a dystopian city, bleak, desolate, but with lots of buildings to hide in and take shelter, maybe find supplies to keep you going.

In between the deadly game of hide and seek each player must play against the other, four times a day, an alert goes off and one area of the playing field is set for destruction, with everyone in the area only having thirty minutes to escape the area before it is destroyed. Anyone left in the area is almost certainly guaranteed to die.

On top of this, throughout the course of the game, there comes additional 'mini-games', challenges that the players must participate in and beat. These challenges can, of course, be played and won alone, theoretically at least. In actuality, it's far easier to win these games if the players either group up into small groups or all cooperate together to beat the challenge. At the end of each challenge, the group of players must all choose a 'weakest link', the player who was the worst at the challenge or provided little help in beating it. That player will then be executed.

The first player to die in this game was Kaoru. He had immediately partnered up with his twin from the beginning, a strategy that worried Kyoya greatly, especially that early in the game. Single players are far easier to eliminate than groups working together, something all of Kyoya's training for the games had taught him from an early age, and Kyoya pulled some trickery. He pretended to want to form an alliance with the Hitachiin twins, which the twins bought…kind of. The twins are, after all, suspicious of anyone that isn't each other. They did hold Kyoya at arms length, didn't take any food or drinks from him, and held back a lot of their plans and game strategy. What they didn't take into account is how physically exhausting the game would be, especially the terrain, and it was when they needed to take a break that Kyoya attacked, without warning. He had honestly meant to kill both of the twins…however, by the time he had swung the crowbar and hit Kaoru hard enough in the head to kill him, Hikaru had definitely noticed what was going on. Enraged by his brother's sudden and gruesome death, Hikaru went a little crazy and was prepared to taser Kyoya to death. Kyoya proved too quick for the remaining twin though, running away.

Hikaru refused to leave Kaoru's body…to him, it was more a priority that Kaoru's body be given as proper a burial as possible. Kyoya could would and Hikaru swore to himself that he would survive the game long enough to kill the boy who took his brother from him. Kasanoda was the next to die, his quick temper getting him into an altercation with Komatsuzawa, who was itching to prove himself in the game anyway. Komatsuzawa played dirty during the fight, something Kasanoda could not bring himself to do with his strong moral compass and unfortunately, Kasanoda met his maker. His death was quick and painless though, a small blessing considering that Komatsuzawa figured out after that first kill that he rather enjoyed the thrill and rush of murder and that such a short death wasn't really satisfying - he wanted that pleasure to last a little bit longer each time he did it.

Nekozawa is the next to die and not even at the hands of another player. Nekozawa fell victim to his own habit of avoiding people. He had figured it would be safest to hide out and avoid everyone, letting them all kill each other while he and his cat puppet stayed safe, out of sight, and kept each other company. He had honestly had a really good plan, but he wasn't the smartest when he came to picking hiding places. While the building seemed in relatively solid shape, a rotten bunch of floorboards collapsed, sending Nekozawa plummeting down from the fourth level of a building to the basement. He was dead upon impact.

Haruhi is the fourth to die, a lesson in how serious those area alerts are. She died helping evacuate the area, saving Tamaki, Renge, Mei, and Honey's lives by getting them out of the area. Doing so, though she would have regretted not doing so, meant that she left herself no time to escape in the end and was caught and killed in the blast as a preplanted bomb detonated to destroy the block.

Renge kills Komatsuzawa after he attacks and almost butchers and assaults her. She was badly wounded in his attack, brutally so. Akira had not held back, emboldened by his previous kill and wanting so badly to experience that high, but in that desperation he had gotten sloppy and Renge used a piece of jagged, broken glass as a weapon, shoving it up through his eye and into his brain. She, however, bled out from her wounds within a matter of hours, making them the fifth and sixth casualties of the game and bringing the game's participants down to the halfway point.

It was at this point that one of the mini-games happened. To complete the challenge, Tamaki really did manage to convince almost all the players to work together. Mei, Mori, Honey, Hikaru…and supposedly Kyoya. However, Kyoya refused to really work well with the group, sabotaging the others if it meant a chance to weaken them, playing cut-throat and dirty like his father had taught him all his life to do. Kyoya's plan backfired when he found out how very easy it is for a group to vote you the weakest link, though all the other players hated to do so, even with Kyoya's cut-throat strategy. A lot can be forgiven, after all, when you know it's motivated by the desire to live.

Having seen so much death at this point though was starting to really take its turn on everyone and there was definitely some sanity slippage starting for several of them. None more so than Mei though, who reached a point where her mind just could not take anymore. She opted out of the game via suicide, jumping off a very tall building.

Honey and Mori had teamed up from the word go, much like the twins had. They'd also included Tamaki in their group and now the three of them are so close to the end of the game. It's no wonder Hikaru was the next to die - a group of three against one player? Not even the very confident and crafty Hikaru can survive those odds.

Honey is another casualty, much like Haruhi, of the area limits. And exactly like Haruhi, he died protecting someone. In Honey's case, it was his best friend Mori, someone he really loved. The moment was made even more tragic and touching by Honey's last act, putting Honey's prized pink bunny plush into Mori's hands, just as Honey pushed Mori out of the area range before the area was filled with a downpour of sulfuric acid that Honey was unfortunately caught in.

And then it was down to two…but Mori, after Honey's sacrifice, had a little bit more to live for. All he had to do was look at the pink bunny in his hands, after all, and he knew exactly what he had to live for. He had to live to win the game. And once he did? He swore to himself as Honey died that once Mori won the game, he would devote all his remaining life to figuring out a way to overthrow the government and dismantle the game for good.

Tamaki does die, making Mori the winner. Does Mori ever succeed in destroying the game and its legacy?? Who knows?

[jupitcrs]

comic wrap up — august ‘24

this is something new that i’m doing!! i want to start engaging more with others who read comics and putting my thoughts out there.

i’ve been reading comics for a while but i didn’t really do a lot of research when i started so my taste is incredibly sporadic (sorry in advance)

— young justice volume 1: gemworld

i was dying for some conner kent content because i was hyperfixating so bad on him. he was very cutie in this, and of course, him as a farmer was also very cutie.

i was a big fan of the art in this comic, the colors were stunning and the characters looked great.

i enjoyed seeing stephanie brown, even if briefly! her and tim are so cute together. this was my first young justice comic, so i was introduced to some really great characters through this (cassie sandsmark!!!)

also, enjoy this timkon moment

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

— batman: under the red hood

i watched the animated film for this like a year ago? jensen ackles voicing jason todd started my love for the character, what can i say.

the relationship between jason and bruce is so interesting to me. jason’s intense, raw emotion combined with bruce’s moral code oh i was eating up the angst like a four course meal.

i would highly recommend this one to the jason todd lovers out there!

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ .5

— batman, volume 6: bride or burglar?

i jumped back into this run after not reading it for a while, but i needed a bruce fix.

i enjoyed the little snapshots of batcat moments, and selina stealing her own wedding dress is iconic. but, mostly, i loved the side characters that appeared in this. wonder woman looks hot as hell, and harley and ivy had a sweet relationship moment.

it’s nothing special, but it passed the time

☆ ☆ ☆ .5

— fantastic four volume 2: mr. and mrs. grimm

deadpool and wolverine launched me back into my johnny storm obsession eek

this was a cute overview of ben and alicia's relationship, and i liked seeing their origin in the comics. there were also some cute moments between sue and ben and also johnny and ben (i loved the bachelor party issue, johnny and ben's little heart-to heart was so precious).

the main thing i will say is that i am not a fan of reed richards. it may just be this version of him and i'm sure he's better in other comics, but i just don't like him in this. i'm happy to accept recommendations for adaptations in which he's less annoying, i do really want to like him.

☆ ☆ ☆ .5

— jessica jones: alias, volume 1

i was planned to really love this, i am a big fan of the jessica jones show, so i was hoping for something dark and gritty, but it wasn't as dark as i was expecting it to me (this is also probably just a me thing, not a geniune critique of the comic)

there were a lot of aspects of this that i loved. i'm now obsessed with the carol danvers and jessica jones friendship and i need more of it!! jessica is also a fun narrator, i just really love her character.

i definitely want to continue to this series at some point.

☆☆☆☆

— batman: wayne family adventures volume 3

i like to read these to pass the time when i have a minute or two to spare. these little one-shots always have me kicking my feet and giggling.

there were some really cute pairings that i loved in these. ivy and cassandra and stephanie were so such a cute trio. i also really loved the episode about tim and damian's relationship.

if you're a batfamily fan these are a must-read they are so precious!!

☆☆☆☆

bonus: manga!

— attack on titan: junior high volume 1

my feelings on this manga is the same as wayne family adventures. it's cute little moments of the attack on titan characters. it's nice to see them being happy for once.

i always giggle a bit whenever i read this too, especially the way it pokes fun at eren (he's my favorite character i'm allowed to giggle when they make fun of him!!)

also, eren and armin being each other's folk dance partners...absolutely love it

☆☆☆.5

[dronekitty]

Thanks for the reblog!

Here's a question for ya

If you got dronified or could drone someone what do you prefer

A. Body suit and visor. A classic combo, one to show off every curve your body has. Plus really easy to tell if anything changes with you. Your choice from a semi transparent visor where you can vaguely see the eyes of the victim drone or a full face helmet with a screen!

B. Mechanical suit and helmet

A bit more fun, maybe it was once science equipment now corrupted by an AI to be a prison for a human, forced to be lost in lust as their reprogrammed into the suit to be a servant to their overlord ai. On the outside it looks like a robot, but inside it's a human! Maybe combine it with the body suit for once the reprograming is finished they can be free and someone else can have a turn!

3. Just a visor. Sort of a possession thing like a CRT TV spider thing latches on to someone's head and they try their best to pull it off, but you can see on the screen how far the mind takeover is taking, and the closer the progress bar gets to 100 percent the less the person struggles. Until boom, 100% and a new face appears on the screen, in control of the body now!

Ui, thanks so much for such a detailed Ask (๑/////๑" )

I love all of these options very, very much. I'd honestly take/use all of them, no hesitation.

the short answer: A and 3/C are probably my favorite combined I must say, but maybe I'm just helplessly in love with the concept of progress bars, the slow drain on will and resistance and the bodysuits >////<

A is of course the long term classic, but is generally better off being combined with something else. But a full face helmet is a must for me personally.

And B as a concept I had completely overlooked for a long time until recently, until I started obsessing about Mechs (the Lancer RPG does that to people, I've heard). So yeah, already had something similar in mind with mechs

C/3 is of course one of my favorites, probably because of the possession aspect as well. It's also always nice when the Visor ends up changing or modifying the body to a certain degree, adjusting it to fit the Machine's vision and needs. After all the body is Its now and It gets to do with it what It wants.

I know you didn't mentioned it here, but I feel like Hacking Ports and Cybernetic modifications really deserve an honorable mention, goes well with any method mentioned here. And they are always nice touch, no matter if they were added after the process to make the Unit better suited and adapted or the person had them beforehand and gets them corrupted repurposed in the process.

Writing this entire thing really gave me some ideas, thanks alot again I have some stuff to sketch now ^^

Also what do you mean " If I could drone someone", I already caught 2 Cuties with gasmasks, my world domination plans are fully in motion ¬‿¬ (though this ask gave me some nice inspirations of how to go at it now)

[the-a-archives]

You Must Remember To Die : A Narrative On Obsession

A combined answer to three of @shmockz-blog's questions.

As no one says, the hardest questions call for unmedicated answers.

"You must remember to die."

It was one of the first phrases I had been taught in French at a young age. As if I'd want to live so much that I'd forget to do the inevitable. A testimony to appreciate life because there was so little to be lived, to live in the present because the future isn't promised. Lost in the clippings of the mundane day-to-day activities as I dare to lay my head to rest at night, how dare I not seize every second that is laid out in front of me.

"You must remember to die."

It was a whisper that haunted me as a child, and even more as an adult. A whisper that I carried like a hatchet everywhere I went, perforating the words into the necks of those around me. But as that continued, I've yearned more and more to live as if I was dying tomorrow. An obsession that kept me on my feet, making sleep irrelevant, making me more irritable. In fact, I believe I lived so hard that my current self can only remember it like a car that zips past your passenger window, fleeting.

"You must remember to die."

My uncle had kept that one alive, showing me that to live is to consume knowledge. To consume experiences, yourself, people. I consumed it all, every experience that life had to offer, never shutting anyone down. I was an adolescent saying yes to things that could've had me killed, or had me kill myself on accident just for the pure joy of remembering to live right now. I'm living, right now.

I'm consuming, right now. I've managed to consume almost every media on topics that people cannot understand, I was my own enemy, and therefore I accept the pain I caused myself. Turning it into knowledge for others, allowing them to feed off me like vultures in hopes it will make the next person appreciate life. Except, I've failed that study countless times.

I cannot, get close, to people.

It is not the anxiousness of making friends like you've said, it is a hunger that scares me. A clash with the already altered chemicals of my brain, a hunger that's been medicated out of me since I was ripely 16.

I cannot consume people, as if I would die tomorrow.

It makes me feel as if my brain is being lobotomized, People are such delicate creatures, obsession is no way to care for them. They need air, and connections with others, not solitude. Therefore, I watch from afar, like a raven on a branch. Watching them interact, enjoy the presence of others, my social skills have suffered greatly from this, keeping a conversation merely makes me weak, out of breath-- panicked.

"You must remember to die."

Oh, sometimes I wish my uncle had kept his mouth shut all those years. Such a proclaimed writer with such a fowl, demented mouth. But by that time, I've gotten excited, wreck less, and their eyes are on me. And suddenly, dipping my toes into the sun seems a lot easier than pressing forward. It begins a tango that I am no good at, I am no dancer.

But somehow, I get pulled into the dance anyway.

Connection feels like I am being force-fed everything about a person. My body feels incredibly too close, and they spit their word-vomiting-self-descriptors down my throat like a kiss on the third date. But like most food, once you eat it long enough, some part of your brain convinces you that you enjoy it, and you want to continue to eat it. Eventually, my lips are more relaxed, and I take everything they say about themselves with more meaning than the previous day.

I've recently conducted a study where I've forced myself to be in the presence of multiple people at once. I should, honestly, say multiple studies, for it was one (1) on myself and two (2) on the people I've selected to speak to. It was a study about the game, werewolf. Or, mafia if you're that type of person. These were complete strangers to me, all of them. And for the sake of removing as much bias as possible, I would identify myself in the game as the mediator.

"You must remember to die."

Yes, yes I know. That's why I've hyper-exposed myself to 20-plus people and separated them into control groups. Control group A would be the werewolves/mafia, and their dances were the most violent, pressing. Like claws digging into my hair as they force-fed me every irrelevant thing in their life, trailing off the topic multiple times and leaving me gasping for air by the time the dance was over. I felt equivalent to being ran over by a truck, barely being able to keep up the control group B afterwards.

Control group B was gratefully gentler, except I slipped up and added one... measly bias but it wasn't one that would affect results. So, I kept it. Mostly due to the tango starting almost immediately, it felt as if I was walking away from the stage when my wrist was nearly yanked off my arm. I didn't mind it, just a more embarrassingly chaotic start that I would like to admit to.

"You must remember to die."

Correct, but the study. You see, I've found that while control group A loves the power they hold over people, control group B is indifferent. The kisses of self-description is minimal with this group, and I find myself breathing a lot easier. But I can't consume people, I get incredibly too attached and will devour them whole. I'll sit on the stage with their guts all over my face,

"Oh... A. Have you eaten a friend again?"

I just want to form a connection to someone.

But I get too excited, and I pull them too close,

And suddenly my mouth is open, and my teeth are in their flesh,

I get too excited and I'll,

Eat them.

So please,

Remember you must die,

A.

[s--lag]

Pore cleansing regimen If you want to make pores cleaner, acid is not enough, and mud film is not enough. These three things are important Pore cleaning this matter must be the usual oil control + timing with acid + cleaning export combined effect will be good! The Trinity! One is indispensable! This month insisted, the next month did not engage, blackhead rebound is not strange ~ If you do not clean the pores, it is normal for the pores to be dirty. The accumulation of oil and garbage in the pores may occur as long as your skin is still producing oil. The regular cleaning of the pores is a daily process like cutting nails, washing hair and bathing! Pores are fragile, don't wait for them to be seriously damaged and then regret it, try to be gentle and gentle when cleaning (Don't try hard to squeeze out hard clear, just use two days of acid don't expect the blackhead to disappear immediately, with acid don't go on! Put the mud film on! Let alone obsessive-compulsive disorder can not control directly with the blackhead shovel crazy torture your barrier!) Summary of cleanup steps In the morning and evening wipe the face step, the nose this piece do not apply too greasy things, mainly rub oil control + antioxidant, refreshing texture skin care products. When washing your face every day, gently beat several times around the nose, wash your face with water, but when the nose has too much oil, you can give the nose a gentle cleansing (squeeze your fingers, rub the nose bridge).

② Observe the condition of the nose, and apply acid about twice a week, provided that no peeling or damage is OK Generally put in the evening, when the bridge of the nose is rough and the nose blackhead is particularly many, you can apply it several times, but the amount of each time is not too much, the novice starts with the facial mask, and applies a thin layer after washing the face at night, and washes off after ten minutes

③ Choose 1-2 days a week, it is best to take a bath or after taking a bath, use your favorite clean mud film to do an export work, regularly use acid to loosen the "pore garbage", and then use clean export, do not need to use acid and then use mud film on the same day, mud film cleaning night can be separated with acid night

④ After the mud film cleaning, you can apply mild oil-controlling essence or shrinking water, novice with acid and mud film steps, start with low frequency + a small amount, and try not to make the nose seriously peeling

⑤ Daily oil control antioxidant + acid night+ clean night, these steps have been practiced very skilled and there will be no peeling stimulation of these problems, then consider adding VA or formula more intense pore essence, fierce pore essence and acid do not use on the same day. How do you fit these steps into your daily skincare routine? The following is for reference only (when I use it myself, there are many flexible adjustments, do not copy rigidly)

(daytime) Refreshing oil control antioxidant serum + loose powder, + oil blotting paper once every 2-4 hours (night) Apply acid night (twice or three times a week or so) + clean night (once or twice a week) Or Acid A Pore Essence night (no more than twice a week, no other acids added) + Cleansing night (once a week)

The matching program is not a popular science, but a summary of my personal skin care experience over the years, only for your reference, if you have serious skin problems must consult a doctor