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zentanyl · 9 months

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ruienr · 2 months

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from the shadows of the margin of the darkest parts of the fringe of a trauma-born maladaptive daydream- so stark and shrouded in mystere and ambiguous revere, morbid reverence- faintest twinkle alongside raspy snickering breaks the silence, a razorblade through the still and silent air....

"AKROMINON. ELRIEL APOXIS. NURIMAL GRUSEZIK NUR. MEARMARE HUMRATHIAM GRESIZIK- NORIMEVER. ARKARINE."

nonsense. of course you don't understand- it is a jungian symbolic-snip-n-clip, an overlay to the absolutely incomprehensible nature of the higher dimensional substratium from which this.... being... descended from. it is useless to describe or attempt to understand this scenario any further. in this world anew, what might you consider "me" to even be behind this screen? is it but a black mirror, revealing a reflection of any who gazes in..? a piece of each person held within my varied schema? i can humor you as a mirror if you wish... but what of the truest realism? i would much rather keep it as truth-woven as is possible- i like real people, i like to be real also- otherwise i become someone muddled and not me. at the same time, what am i? i often change names, i have none as it stands now, irl they call me "alice" but in my mind i am numb and something unspeakable.

is this an introductory post? i am now not so sure. certainty evades me. i feel less whole. not together. drifter like. i find only solace in my time spent online now, for my whole life until the past 8 years was spent totally isolated, incredibly lonely- i never understood the necessity of social contact until i finally experienced it once more- and felt the weight of my loneliness dissipating like something fluid, i lost pounds of misery that day.

why am i rambling on like this? i have been subjected to such misery in all my life. i shall be silent now. ignore me.

anyways, i am intrex mervore, also lusynth rexis, akrominon, dresxort, and many more- no more terror. no more.

i am a hacker, coder, webmaster, artist, preformer, conversationalist, trickster, creator, philosopher, and prolific online uploader of my ego.

i am also a homeless schizoaffective and bpd drug addict~! uwu

i wish ppl would be more 'online' and open in a non-degradory and non-shameful manner about some of the less common and most stigmatized erm, alternative traits or interests or disabilities or ailments or WHAT HAVE U! sigh// i just tbh wish the world was a less negative and cruel place, instead one focused on love, solidarity, coexistance with both the gays and the murder nazis, and a world where the death of comedy gave way to a comic renaissance instead of the dark ages of social justice and PC culture.

ahem. ccouhg hghh HAUGUHHHGH - cough cok couh he he hoo hah hoh hh hhgnh. *spits*

welcom 2 elriel. 2133. death always lurks, so live fully and with no refrain. embrace the lack of thy comfort zone, anxiety should be a signal to gO GO GO!

acceleration at aell times, costs, and reasons.

three feet on the gas, under a sprimscet noxlit future-fallen sky~

n-mice... i mean nice- to em meet u --- >.<

SOME OF MY MAIN SITES:

[NEOCITIES: NUMBPILLED]

[NEOCITIES: HIDDEN LAYER MEDIA] ~,,~

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numbpilled-online · 5 months

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yep this is the one and only official tumblr companion to the totally unknown and probably not that interesting numbpilled.online

if you are actually here on this page hi hi hi hi hi it is such a glorious day 2 see u here on line together as one <3 read my blog??? ¿¿ ??? watch my art! look at all my stuff and relate to the ambiguous sprawl of near white noise levels of scringe???

of course you are welcome here

ps it’s cool to say hi.

content words to somehow reflect wtf this is all about: meth, fentanyl, sociology, underground journalism, pov of a criminal, definitely totally fiction and Not Reality, fuck off glowies, fuck off f3dz, my life is one continuous one shot act of extreme performance art so yeah how’s that plausible deniability for ya freaks??? ¿¿ ??? jk on the last bit… <.<

hehe welcome to my internet page :3