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get u a man who can do both
#mugshot#nthn spks#yall i miss my pink hair#i have more if you wanna see too 👀#kinda wanna redye my hair....kinda wanna shave it all off...
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wait. have i ever posted pics of me w/ pink hair here? bc i was lookin thru photos &. damn i looked good
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yall i decided to pierce my own belly button & it was going pretty ok. i had a panic attack but nbd. anyways, i had the needle in my belly ok, & i realized the needle was 16g & the jewelry was 14g. i was Pissed at my own self
#nthn spks#can u believe#if i hadnt already id stab myself#haha get it#needles#piercings#diy piercing#im dumb. i know. tell me something i didnt already know
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#i have so many emtions trapped inside me rn#im feeling heartbroken & pissed off & sad & suicidal & depressed & guilty & & insecure & just sorry#i cant seem to work thru it any. bc then just new emotions pop up#shit imploded & now stuff just keeps happening in my life that skews everything else#i wish i killed myself years ago#or even months ago#im too fucking tired#i want to die but i dont even have the time or energy to lmao#like idk nothing really feels real to me & im just going thru the motions#if i killed myself it wouldn't really matter anyways#idk#nthn spks#im probs just gonna pass out soon lmao
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sorry ive been so inactive, the days have been running together for me
#suicide in the tags#ive been dissociating or highly suicidal. no in between tbh#but ya know. thats how it be sometimes#on top of my usual Bullshit™ my mom has been making me wanna die like 20 times mkre than usual#but ya know. thats what she is best at huh#nthn spks
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i want my pain to be obvious i want people to see they hurt me & feel bad like they should i want to stop hiding my pain & finally get over it
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i feel im going to die from being too soft. i need to grow a thicker skin or else im going to die from heartbreak, i think
#im a patgetic cry baby & nothing feels right#it feels like my hesrt is shattering but i dont even know why#nothing makes sense nothing is brining me comfort#i will die w/ this ache spreadig through my body wont i? its suffocating & debilitating & god it hurts#i wish i could sleep it away but body bad & i cant sleep#nthn spks
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thre is a difference between being petty & being traumatized. i can stay angry sad/upset for however long i need. dont try to guilt me just bc i still am hurt
#this is a general post so dont think im ''attacking'' anyone#nthn spks#even if you cange all that shit is ingrained in my head#ive fucking tried forgetting it all & blocking it all out#it doesnt work!! it just makes it come up later & it makes me experience it all again lmao#damn if you ever cared youd be sorry for me lmao? but guess it shows just how much i meant to you#im just another person on your list of people who youve hurt huh? nothing special at all
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me: thinks abt some Sad & Bad™ shit
my brain: repeatedly plays the sound from club penguin when you loose a fish in the ice fishing mini game
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i dont think ill ever be comfortable w/ myself or my gender identity & how i express it
#its all 5s fault but whats new#i cant wear anything deemed feminine or she will go on & on abt how girly i look & how it looks so much better on me & shit like that#if i wear anything masculine she says im ugly & i need to stop 'pretending'#i do!!#wanna wesr some typically feminine stuff tho!!#but im confined to my room if i wanna & i cry as soon as i try to lmao#i dont think i will ever be comfy enough to wewr anything that isnt hyper masculine sadly#bc i hate hate hate giving into it? but also its just. safest to me?#its so fucked but! my mom hates me & everything i stand for & she is gonna die trying to make me into this perfect daughter she wishes i was#nthn spks
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i had a dream i drank 17 monsters & it allowed me to dissociate so hard i could see 3rd person in Perfect Detail
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do you feel guilty for all you did to me? do you regret it any? what does it all mean? do you even care you hurt me? or is it another shitty thing you did, added to the list?
#im. allowed to feel torn up abt what you did to me & how you acted#im allowed to hirt & be angry & be sad & heartbroken#you dont get to fucking say im bitching#you are so. out of touch & so far gone#i cant believe i ever loved you. you treated me badly & i gave you endless love#you still are hurting me & you dont fucking care#you dont get to tell me to get over it#ever#fuck you for trying or even thinking you can#nthn spks#13
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#i hate being mentally ill#i hate wanting to die 24/7#but then jt gets! leveled up wanting to die!!#& i feel like im suffocating & cant do anything right or good#ibe been crying & hyperventilating for a whike kn bed & like i have stopped. 3 times just to sit there starting at my wall#& then it!! starts back up & i cant breath & im choking on tears & not being enough or good or worthwhile#i just#really fucking hate being alive lmao#jts all shit & so am i#i wont ever be anyrhing good or do anything good or inspire any good huh#nthn spks
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whomst of my mutuals/followers is curious to see what i look like 👀👀
#ive been debating oosting pictures here for a long while#bc uh. not to boast or anything? but im cute as hell?#& who am i kidding i Love™ attention#but also like! im one of those guys who is curious abt who i interact w/ & what they look like? so idk if anyone else is?#but yeah im. debating it?#uhhh if ur interested maybe. like or reoly or send an anon?#also i feel like if i did? i might get some Thirst Followers™ which i wouldnt mind but yeah??#nthn spks
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oof body bad? since ive been getting more into wheel throwing my back has been hurting? like uuhh feels like my spine is disconnecting from my back muscles lmao? uuhh its probs bc i get so down low to work. rip @ me
#it ouchies#like? for my last 2 class periods i was in Real Bad Pain™ so i popped some ibuprofen lmao?#& when i stood up after trimming for like? 20 minutes maybe? it felt like i was gonna fall over & i blacked out for a sec lmao :^)#why my body suck? i just wanna art?#i wanna make cool shit for my boyf & my friends & for myself & maybe even sell?#nthn spks#ouch
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its literally been 10 days since i got my 3rd lobe, & i already itch to change out the earring
#im. in a constant state of wanting to fuck up my body#the safest & easiest way rn? to! change out my earring way too early!!!!#also yo when the hollos needle i orrdered gets there im. stabbing that bad boy in my ear to even my lobes#im still bitter the piercer messed up the left & i had to take it out :'''''''''''''(#but uh! guess it will work itself out#aka im gonna do the left myself lmao#nthn spks#lms?
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