#now im hungry for Thanksgiving sides.....

[coiled-dragon]

Im aussie and got interested in thanksgiving food this year and thought i'd have a crack at making a meal. What are some of your fave thanksgiving dishes and foods?

I love getting this after some of the other asks ive been getting ♥ hello Aussie Anon~!

HMMMM My favorite Thanksgiving dishes... Im a sucker for a good turkey with stuffing tbh!! Im suuuuch a slut for stuffing (which is also called 'dressing'? I dont necessarily know if there is a difference, both are made with bread, broth, aromatics and herbs, my family also would have diced onion and I thiiiink celery? in ours? idk I love it. BEST Savory side dish!!!)

After moving to Texas my in-law family also introduced me to casserole items that... well they're not EXCLUSIVE to Thanksgiving but I really fucking love them... Broccoli Cheddar Casserole (name is deceiving, its primarily rice and cheese with Some Broccoli LMAO) and Green Bean Casserole (green beans, cream of mushroom soup, and topped with french onion crunchie bits OMNOMNOM...)

both are SO SO good,,, raaaaa

.... man im a slut for side dishes!

To recap: Stuffing, Broccoli Cheddar Caasserole, and Green Bean Casserole are my favorites, and yeah some white turkey meat is pretty baller, too!

I'll also tell you an extra I liked, but its from my culture up in French Acadian Territory (aka, Maine and New Brunswick, Canada lol): Sugar Pie or Tarte Au Sucre. If you look specifically for an Acadian recipe, follow it, you will have an amazing sweet desert. Dont cut it into 8 slices, cut it into 16, it is VERY SWEET but its. The epitome of my childhood growing up. It was for Thanksgiving + Christmas, but worth shouting out.

[randomcontentdude]

So it's 2am and ive got to wake up in less than 5 hours now, I guess this is what I get for taking a super long nap in the afternoon. Im super hungry, I shouldve gone with gg blonde to grab a bite after climbing but I will get there eventually.

Today I had one class in the morning and I did not even showered, I just put on a pyjama like outfit and fixed my hair, I went to class but I couldn't focus because I wanted to ask GG blond gif he wants dto come climbing with me tonight, to be fair Im never paying attention in that class anywyas. I asked him and he said he'd had to see because he had a lot of things to do, to which I answered "oh how dumb of me, tonight's thanksgivings", that lead to a small chat about cooking and holidays and kitchens in our city. ultimately, I asked-no, I told- him I would be late because cheesy friend had asked me(actually I asked him) to go see the Christmas lights being turned on. We didn't see them and instead we went to sit in a square and have a drink. Plurinational friend asked how I always have money even when I say I dont, she was actually lecturing me about it, I know how to manage my finances, I have side hustles and ultimately I administer my money in a way that I can do most of what I want without falling into much of a deficit, at some point everything get reseted and im clean. Anyways, by the time we were leaving I got a message from GG blonde saying he was going to the climbing gym, which made me want to rush real hard to get home and back again. I was having a great time with cheesy friend and I should really value these moments more, I dont know if he'll stay in the city in a few months, theres a chance he'll have to move away and that devastates me honestly.

I got to my station and literally ran to my place, changed in Half a second and left again, I was so fast I had forgotten if I even had my keys on me and forgot I had my silver bracelet until I took off my jacket at the gym, if I didn't have noticed I couldve literally split it in half. When running to the gym cause I knew I was late and he'd already be there, all I could think to myself was "what has become of you", running down the streets for someone yk doesn't like you back? what for? to see him for an hour and then just wait until next time? Yes, that is exactly what im doing. We were climbing and going around and stuff and shit and talking and there was this guy with a tee that had the sleeves cut out in a way that half of his body was on exhibit. He dropped a few comments like "I love big legs" and "Its so annoying like, you have muscles we understand, at this point juts take it off...(as a joke) no, please, take it off" to which I answered "Omg you're so thirsty". Ive known for a hot minute now that I am indeed his type, just a skinnier version of it, and smaller overall I guess. I like my body, I like my legs and in proportion to my body they are quite big and lean. I dont have big muscles but I never intended to have them. I like the way that I look now and where im taking my body, I feel confident, I feel like he just drops that type of comments to make me jealous, to hint a change or as a justification, whatever they are, it won't change how I feel about myself. This is where I realise his has never been about how others perceive me, it has always been about how I perceive myself, about how I had always been my biggest critic and now, even when he's got me running down streets like a damsel in distress, I feel the best ive ever felt about myself. We were talking about accents and he said "I was talking to this guy from x place" and at first I got a bit upset but then I rationalised the sentence and I decided to interpret his sentence as literally speaking to someone. He mentioned he was super hungry and that he'd probably order a kebab when he got home, I told him there was a 2x1 on Thursdays(today was Thursday) on a place nearby, and that theres one I liked also near the gym. He asked if I was implying I wanted a kebab, I said I had already taken dinner. I was full and didn't feel like spending money in food I did not want, why am I being like this to him? In retrospect I feel like I should have accepted, but we are nothing, we are mates as much, I wouldn't even go as far as to call him a friend yet, but that was that. At some point I told him "I think thats enough for today" after him trying route multiple times, this is a route that I know strains his arms quite a bit and I didnt want him to get injured, ig he took that literally and sat down and got on a FaceTime call, at first I thought it was urgent but after a bit I just assumed he had interpreted my "enough for today" as a session closer so I just went to get my stuff and said goodbye. He asked me again for the kebab place and I told him I can take him there if he wanted, he said that if I wasn't eating there was no point, I had mentioned I had to wake up early and he brought that up, I just decided not to pressure him into spending more time with me and left. Also, when he seconded my idea leaving, I asked him if he wanted for me to wait for him so we'd leave together, he also refused. I guess out of courtesy but I won't drag myself in the mud for him. Im offering, I dont offer things I dont wanna do, he declined, I have some sense of self worth. That was that, on my walk to the metro I couldn't stop thinking about how I should've stayed but also, he had hopped on a FaceTime, I had no business staying where I was unrequested. I dont have a problem initialising interactions, but there are certain cues I won't just ignore. He's also typically late, but ive noticed today it's not a thing against me personally, I guess it's just something about him. Sometimes I feel like he's interested in me and shows it, sometimes I feel like he wants to trust me

[bittybattybunny]

So he's a hungry noodle but with taste? No wonder Hattie convinced him so fast

*sobs on floor* i had a really nice long response typed out and I’m gonna retype it and hope i get it all---

But yeah!!! He was so sick of rotten fish, hunting and the like (hunting takes a LOT of energy and when you are ALREADY hungry as hell it makes it harder. And he could never hunt enough to feel any sort of full) so when this small child who wasn’t afraid of him in the slightest and mostly sassed him, gave him the option of REAL HUMAN FOOD he took the chance.

He’s also kinda a food snob on certain aspects too

This is a snippet from either 9 or 10 (i say that because Im not sure if i can fit everything that needs to happen before hand into the prior chapters)

he gives Eclipse shit for the raw meat thing a lot; because he never wanted to eat meat raw, while she’s over here doing it on whim

“Makes sense.” He nodded, he was still hungry. He frowned, they didn’t have a lot of eggs. And he really didn’t want to eat all of their food. Well. he could. He didn’t care that much.

“What’s wrong?” Eclipse asked, walking in, placing her plate on the floor on top of hattie’s.

“Is that how you wash dishes?” He asked with a grimace.

“No, just a treat for her if she can have it.” She explained, looking at the carton on the counter and the open bacon. She snagged a piece of the raw meat, eating it without much thought, “looks like we need more eggs.” she grabbed a pen writing it on the fridge list.

“What are you doing?!” Snatcher snapped as he processed what had happened.

“What? Adding to the list?” she asked while chewing on the bacon.

“That’s raw!” He reached to take it from her but she dodged around the counter island. He stumbled, whacking his chin on the counter. Crumpling to the floor he glared up, “Are you trying to die young?!”

“If I was going to die young, I would have done it already!” she laughed, swallowing, “it’s fine, it’s smoked!”

“That doesn’t mean cooked!” Snatcher pulled himself off the floor, “how have you not killed your kid?!”

“Mom doesn’t let me eat it raw. She always heats it in the pan. You’ve had her cooking before.” Hattie pointed out as she grabbed the floor plates to put in the sink.

“You’re mad! Both of you!” He snapped as he leaned on the counter. He rubbed his side from his fall, “Honestly! It shouldn’t take I, the Subcon Snatcher! To tell you to cook your food!”

“You really like announcing that huh?” Eclipse rolled her eyes as she reached for another slice only to get slapped away, “Stingy!” she pouted, rubbing her hand.

“It’s my name!” He frowned, fangs sticking out of his lips, as he curled them back in disgust, “I ate raw, half rotten fish and human corpses for 200 years, I’m not going to watch someone who has the option of actual decent food eat something raw!”

“You know some meat is meant to be raw.” Eclipse laughed loudly. It almost sounded like a bark as she did, “Specifically some fish!” She snickered, “Well then. Let's do that!” She clapped, “We can get sushi for dinner!”

“Ooooo.” Hattie grinned, “I bet he’ll like that!” She clapped with her mother excited, “We should get him extra wasabi!”

Eclipse wrinkled her nose, “Why? It’s so spicy...”

“He liked my hot sauce.” Hattie beamed, “So I think he’ll like wasabi too! Or candied ginger maybe?”

“I just want to taste things again. Strong things.” He couldn’t help a small smile himself, getting caught up in the girls excitement, “So what is sushi? Or wasabi?”

Eclipse grinned, squinting as her mouth pushed her cheeks up as she stuck her tongue out, “If I tell you, you’ll say no. So we’ll wait for dinner.”

Snatcher does most of the cooking for the family as well! He loves having CONTROL over his own food! Because it’s the first time he has been able to really do that. As a Prince he often only got to eat his food once it was cold as it had to be poison tested first. He begged Estelle to teach him to cook so he could have something warm now and then. (that’s why he even knows how to cook) He also finds it super fun to experiment with cooking; and his family’s smiles at his food becomes something he’s proud of! he loves cooking as a fun outlet.

He also loses his mind at Thanksgiving and Xmas because of the sheer volume of food and the fact he’s actually allowed to just. Keep eating as much as he wants. (Snatcher turned human again around mid October) It was one of the first times in a long time he was able to actually feel full. Not to mention the excitement of the whole family being there (DJ and Connie, Connie’s Daughters and spouses, his other grandkids, DJ’s brothers and sisters--) He was exhausted by the end but he was also really happy.

Plus once they figured out his birthday from him (His birthday is October 31st btw) Eclipse went out of her way to get a big ass cake with multiple flavor tiers and various frostings and toppings (nothing with chocolate though as she wanted to eat some cake too) to figure what kind to get him the next year (they found out his birthday around Hattie’s on January 17th. For the record Eclipse’s birthday is July 8th)

He wound up deciding he really enjoyed the ginger carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. So it becomes the tradition for his birthday.

He also cried when she brought him the big cake, because it was about getting what HE wanted for HIS birthday. It was the first time he was involved in his own birthday choices (and he was 26 when he became a leviathan---) and it wasn’t made to be a big party or something. She and Hattie were just trying to celebrate HIM and making it another year!

he also forms a good bond with C.C. because he feeds her often to keep her from biting him when he’s a leviathan.

Hattie at one point also tried to get him to do a MukBang Channel on youtube because of how much he always eats but he vetoed that fast.

He also has a really bad issue with junk food. it’s easy to eat so he tends to eat a lot of it. Eclipse forces him to do a lot of house chores because it eats the food budget a lot. They aren’t struggling persay but. She’s also a big eater (huge ass wolf stomach in a 5′11″ woman) so having two huge eaters really costs in food. Also he’s always hungry because his body is trying to fight the curse always. When he’s human he slowly gets better because his curse isn’t as strong; and he does semi split his curse later so it gets even lesser. he still eats like no one’s business though.

[freeshavacado]

My thoughts while reading Gone by Michael Grant:

* wait how old is Sam

* He do be liking Astrid doe

* Damn so Sam is a Leader

* Ew Orc is an 8th grader? 🤮

* Ok I googled it Sam is 14

* I like Quinn

* Sam thinks he’s so awkward but he’s actually really chill so far

* THE PAIN THIS GIRL IS GOING THROUGH OH MY GOD

* Poor Mary :(

* Howard’s a bitch

* Cut to Quinn being a racist motherfucker

* I love Edilio

* Sam is WHIPPED for Astrid

* Orc is such a piece of shiiiiiit

* LANAAAAA :(((

* Poor thing is in so much pain

* Patrick her dog is alive so that’s good

* She’s deadass slowly dying

* Thank god her arm is better

* I want to make this into a TV series

* If Sam and Astrid don’t kiss at some point I swear

* Hahahaha Sam do be shirtless rn

* Why isn’t Astrid happy to see Little Pete???

* MARY. IF YOU POUR HOT ASS COFFEE ON A CHILD, DONT JUST STAND THERE AND THEN RUN AWAY. PUT COLD WATER ON THE BURN

* Aw Mary has had bulimia since she was ten :(

* Ok so what she just took her Prozac and then threw up? Wouldn’t the pill go up too? I think your stomach/body needs like 30 minutes to absorb it into the blood stream...

* HELP SAM HES CHOKING

* Bruh my ass would be so exhausted

* Quinn low key an ass tho

* Lol edilio isn’t standing for this bullshit

* Lmaooo Astrid knew 💀

* Omg little Pete has it too

* Wow Quinn is an asshole pt 2

* I feel like Caine is gonna be a villain...like he’s pretty AND nice? Nah bro too good to be true

* Fucking Orc god 😒😒😒

* Caine is up to some shit 🤨

* Lmao hold up

* Diana probably whipped tho

* Sam please only be a simp for Astrid 😩

* I bet Drake is hot

* Aww computer Jack :) DONT YOU TURN ON ME SON

* “The captain is already maintaining” Bullshit 💀

* Are they really gonna call this eighth grader ‘Captain’?

* LMAOOO THE BASTARD CANT EVEN READ OR WRITE 💀💀💀

* Lol making Sam the fire chief because he was brave enough to go into a fire one time, so therefore he is the most qualified

* Bruh that’s like if I gave a kid the Heimlich maneuver bc he was choking on a gummy worm or some shit and they were like “Well because she did that, she should be the head doctor!!!”

* CAINE IS FULL OF SUCH BULLSHIT OML

* PRETENDING TO CRY N SHIT GOD

* I already know that Diana is gonna try and seduce Sam while she’s actually a spy for the private school kids

* Which, btw, of course it’s the private school kids smh

* I feel like maybe Computer Jack will be someone who eventually switches to the Good Side

* ALSO wow jack really be thinking that he’s smarter than Astrid smh 🙄

* Jack is such a smartsass

* Diana is such a fucking bitch oh my god 😒😒😒

* “You don’t look tough, Astrid” STFU SHES THE TOUGHEST OF THEM ALL

* Ok but I bet Diana and Astrid low key have sexual tension. Like obviously nothing’s gonna happen...but still

* Bruh I hate Caine

* Fuckin Diana with her ‘readings’ bullshit smh

* YESSSS LANA 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 so strong

* Literally how do they not know how to make pasta

* “I thought your people ate tortillas,” QUINN YOU RACIST PEICE OF SHIT UGH

* Poor Bette :(

* Orc is a piece of shit, I know we’ve already established this but I wanted to say it again

* I love Edilio so much

* Orc really using a slur against Edilio huh. Imma kill him

* IM SO DONE WITH QUINN. THIS BITCH REALLY JUST SAID “let him have her” LIKE TF????

* Drake is such a bastard oh my god

* If you hate Quinn and you know it clap your hands 👏🏻👏🏻

* No seriously. I fucking hate him.

* Nooooo Bette died :((

* “I can’t kiss you with your little brother watching” AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

* Did they kiss or not wtf

* What the hell is up with this cat

* Ah so they did kiss!!

* Why didn’t I get details 🤨

* No a baby died 😞

* Quinn s u c k s

* How convenient that Sam got there *right* before Emma disappeared

* Those last 6 minutes before Anna disappeared too and was calling out to her sister, and so for what she thought was her last few minutes on earth she held sams hand :(

* Lol Diana sucks

* ‘WoRDs DONT sCArE mE’ shut up Drake

* Okay Computer Jack is definitely going to betray them because they underestimate him and take him for granted

* You’re telling me Caine and Sam could be TWINS???

* Why was the kiss ‘a mistake’ ?

* Okay NOW they’re awkward

* “But it was the first time I meant it” I CANT. ITS SO CHEESY

* I HATE QUINN

* These kids are crazy violent

* Fuck Diana

* Yikes now Sam only has some of his eyebrows left 😬

* Caine is in love with Diana 👀

* Little Pete might be more powerful than Caine 😛

* THESE KIDS ARE CRAZY LIKE CHILL

* Diana: I really dislike you Astrid: of course you dislike me, I make you feel inferior

* ROASTED ^

* Mmmm Quinn is trying to redeem himself

* “Don’t call me brah. I’m not your brother” OHHHHHHHHHHH HE REALLY WENT THERE

* that’s what you get for being a backstabbing asshole

* Poor Astrid :(

* Poor Little Pete :(

* Bro I need this to be a movie

* I love that Sam just punched Quinn like we had no choice but to stan

* Ok drake would definitely shoot up a school

* Fuck Drake

* Lana is so strong. Like she’s been in so much pain physically and mentally, and she almost died. But she saved herself and now even though she thinks she might be the only person left alive on earth, she is still keeping strong.

* What happens if the boat runs out of gas?

* Bruh these coyotes don’t give up

* THE COYOTES AGAIN??

* “Go out” “You’ll kill me,” “Yes. Go out, die fast. Stay, die slow”

* Wowwwwwwwwwww^

* Lmaooo “L.P.”

* Awwww Sam: “...she was still so beautiful that sometimes he had to look away.”

* Okay he a lil’ horny

* Awe Astrid and Sam hugging I’m soft 🥺

* I’m so sick of these damn coyotes

* Bruh these coyotes 😒

* Diana is annoying

* Literally can’t remember who Andrew is, but they’re about to film his passing away like wtf

* Poor Andrew :(

* “You’re a deep sleeper, Jack. Just now, while you were sleeping? I held your pudgy little hand. Probably as close as you’ll ever get to holding hands with a girl. Assuming you even like girls.” FUCK YOU DIANA

* Okay so Diana will protect Jack as long as he ‘belongs’ to her and does what ever she wants? That’s pretty sus

* Sam and Astrid kissed again 😖☺️

* Lmaooo Albert over here running McDonald’s

* Salads disappeared quickly from the McDonald’s menu since this whole thing? Who the hell orders a salad from McDonald’s?

* So Albert kinda whipped for Mary 👀

* I haaaaatttteeee the private school kids

* Y’know what depending on where I was and who I was with in this situation, I might’ve just killed myself

* “Remember who owns you” ew 🤨

* Diana. I hate you

* Bro I feel bad for Andrew

* How is Lana back at the cabin?

* That IS Lana right??

* Okay things are moving fast between Sam and Astrid. Like she’s already saying “I just want you here with me. Safe” like 🤢

* Lana, about Sam: your boyfriend? Astrid: ThAts nOt WhAt iTs AbouT

* LMAOO AFTER SHE SAID THAT SHE SAID IN A LOW VOICE “kind of” WHAT

* Lol Lana be out here like “yeah shits crazy. Get with the program”

* Ew they’re eating pudding with their hands 🤮

* I don’t care how hungry you are, that’s gross

* Like get a spoon or something

* Lana just called Astrid “smart girl Barbie” 🤨

* Part of me is like “lol” but the other part of me is like “bruh stop Astrid did nothing wrong”

* I still hate Quinn but he is kind of funny

* Lana calling Astrid “the blonde” like girl 😑

* Bruh you’re stuck in a house that is literally on fire and getting hotter by the second as it fills with smoke, now is not the time to be kissing Astrid

* Finally the damn coyotes are gone.

* Sam is so angry and he’s disgusted with himself for being so angry, I relate

* Fuck you, Quinn

* Fuck drake

* I would gladly kill Drake

* OOOOOOOOO EDILIO LIKES LANA AHHHHHH

* SIMP

* omg I love it 😩

* Lmaooooo Sams speech wow

* Sam you should NOT forgive Quinn. Especially not that fast. Yikes.

* Orc should feel bad for killing Bette. I have no pity for him rn

* Yes please kill drake.

* I am so happy that his arm is on fire. 100% he deserves to feel that pain

* Aww that’s kinda nice that Albert is planning thanksgiving dinner for everyone

* DAMMIT DRAKE

* I hate drake so much like dude just shut up and leave everyone alone

* Orc oh my god I could not be rolling my eyes harder right now

* Tbh if Orc and his other friends die, I’m okay with that

* What tf is up with this DVD

* Little Pete caused all of this??? 😦

* I’m sooooo sick of this whole darkness and coyote stuff istg

* Where is Patrick?????

* If Patrick is dead imma throw hands

* Diana is such an evil person. Like Drake is a monster, but she’s horrible in a different way.

* Also ughhhhhhhhhh Drake is back 😒😒😒😒😒 so sick of that mf

* “So. When do we go take down Sam Temple?” 🙄🙄🙄 no one likes you Drake

* AHAHAHHSJAHSHSHHSHD

* SAM JUST TOLD ASTRID HE LOVED HER

* AND SHE SAID IT BACK

* IM. S O F T

* (like my brain is still saying “y’all have talked for less than two weeks and you’re 14”)

* But like whatever 😭❤️

* My eyes just rolled into the back of my skull once Diana appeared

* Taylor low key flirting with Sam tho 👀

* When I first met Dekka, I was all: ‘what the hecka?’

* THOSE DAMN COYOTES

* I’m crying because Quinn couldn’t kill Drake because he was scared, and now children are screaming. Ugh I really wanted him to kill Drake but I understand that killing someone is a crazy thing to have on your conscience

* Call me cold hearted, but I would’ve shot him

* This is all in theory of course ^ I bet if I was in that situation though it wouldn’t be as easy as “just shoot him”

* I don’t think I’ve ever been more annoyed with a fictional character than I am with Drake rn

* Yooo I bet Isabella has some animal powers or sumn

* Caine 🙄🙄🙄 like that emoji doesn’t even come close to describing how annoyed I am

* Wait so is Patrick back now or...?

* Caine really just. Kissed Diana. Because she “owed him”????

* THIS IS SOME BULLSHIT

* I literally hate sooooooooo many characters in this book ugh 😒😒😒

* Quinn is watching Drake kill Sam and is doing nothing. I’m so done with this piece of shit

* Ok finally he tried to shoot him

* “You know it always gets me hot when you say ‘apt analogy.’” “Why do you think I do it?”

* Y’all 🥴🥴🥴

* THOSE DAMN COYOTES

* Literally? Imagine being this heartless. Giving up hundreds of kids to coyotes without hesitation. The hate I have for Caine is real

* Once again, Orc feeling bad for what he did to Bette. And honestly? I’m still okay with that

* This kid is an a l c o h o l i c

* Computer Jack is so annoying like dude stop holding on to Sams leg. Literally

* Still hate Diana, but I like that she’s helping out Sam a little bit

* Ew Diana just kissed Sam on the corner of his mouth 🤢

* I TOLD YALL ^^^

* Yay Patrick is alive :)

* “I guess we won,” Sam said. “Yeah,” Edilio agreed. “I’ll get the backhoe. Got a lot of holes to dig.”

* ^im. Depressed

* I cannot for the life of me remember who Cookie is

* “Orc sat with Howard in a corner by themselves. Orc had fought Drake to a standstill. But no one-least of all Orc-had forgotten Bette.”

* ^good.

* Y’all Sam and Astrid flirting I- 🥴🥴

* We love to see it ^

* Awww “we’re going to the beach” y’all Astrid and Sam are so cute

* THOSE DAMN COYOTES

* FUCK. Goddamn this cliffhanger 😡

[thewritingstar]

I would ask you 1-100 but that's a huge request and doubt you'll do it, UNLESS🤔🙃

UNLESS....

1. Name- Deanna or as everyone knows me, Star

2. Nationality- American

3. Age- 19

4. Birthday- April 5th

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign)- Aries

6. Gender- Female 

7. Sexuality- Bi/Pan (im fine with either)

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself)- Dark brown hair, greenish eyes and body of a 12 year old boy

9. What do you/did you study?- Animation

10. What’s your current job like?/What job would you like to have?- I work in an ice cream shop just as a job but i wanna be an animator or writer for shows

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11. Your birth order- Youngest of 2

12. How many siblings do you have?- One

13. Do you have good relations with your family?- for the most part

14. How many friends do you have?- I would say I have about 8 close friends and then just a ton of other friends

15. Your relationship status- single but accepting applications 

16. What do you look for in a SO?- usually a pulse and good hair 

17. Do you have a crush?- kinda but also no

18. When did you have your first kiss?- haven't yet :(

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands?- prob meaningful

20. What are your deal breakers?- smoking and drugs and how they treat others

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21. How was your day?- well i just woke up so i guess good. 

22. Favourite food & drink- Raspberry iced tea/Vanilla Lattes and Chowmein or burgers

23. What position do you sleep in?- either on my side or stomach. Im usually curled up in a ball so prime cuddle position...just saying 

24. What was your last dream about?- I think it was about cake..

25. Your fears- bugs and the overwhelming thought of me being a failure

26. Your dreams- being someone where others can be inspired by 

27. Your goals- to live a life with no regrets (i know typical right?) but also have a successful career. 

28. Any pets?- 2 doggos 

29. What are your hobbies?- drawing, painting, writing, video games, reading 

30. Any cool places in your area?- kinda but you gotta drive to them so not really 

31. What was your last awkward situation?- me stuttering over my words at work

32. What is your last regret?- idk 

33. Language/s you can speak- English and barely any French 

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.)- hell yeah

35. Have any quirks?- i can make a guinea pig noise and can stand on my head for a while. 

36. Your pet peeves- having my neck being touched and mouth breathing

37. Ideal vacation- Any disney park

38. Any scars?- only mentally 

39. What does your last text message say? “Shes being a big girl and taking 5 classes.” 

40. Last 5 things from your search history- im to lazy to check but prob youtube or fics

41. What’s your [device] background?- Phone background is a painting from a museum and my computer is a bunch of Nintendo items

42. What do you daydream about?- being a voice actor or a pirate 

43. Describe your dream home- one that looks like a castle

44. What’s your religion/Your thought about religion- I was raised Catholic but i really dont practice it anymore. I think it its a beautiful thing and alot of good comes from it, however i dont like it when it is used to harm others or defend evil people

45. Your personality type- So i took a test based on the 16 different ones and I am an Advocate type which apparetnly is very rare and less than one percent of the pop are it. https://www.16personalities.com/ heres the link if you wanna take it!

46. The most dangerous thing you’ve done- I used to suck on batteries as a child

47. Are you happy with your current life?- for the most part 

48. Some things you’ve tried in your life- Snorkeling in Hawaii (which i almost died), Crystal Cave tour and donuts which i hate

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49. What does your wardrobe consist of?- hoodies and graphic tees 

50. Favourite colour to wear?- black

51. How would you describe your style?- comfortable and sometimes i look good 

52. Are you happy with your current looks?- ye

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be?- I want blue hair one day 

54. Any tattoos or piercings?- have my ears and now my nose pierced but i do want tattoos in the future

55. Do you get complimented often?- usually for my hair and i find it happens often 

56. Favourite aesthetic?- Gothic and pastel 

57. A popular trend that you dislike- crop tops 

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58. Songs you’re currently obsessed with?- “Good Night Moon” by Go Radio

59. Song you normally wouldn’t admit you like.- My Little Pony and Sofia the First songs slap

60. Favourite genre?- pop punk or pop 

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? -Panic!, Taylor Swift

62. Hated popular songs/artists?- I wouldn’t say hate but im not really a fan of Billie Ellish, maybe i need to sit down and really listen but its just not my jam. I think shes a cool person and i love watching her on tv and what she stands for. By i hate Drake and Chris Brown for sure. 

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5- Head above Water, Happy when im sad, Love bug, Casual affair, I believe. So Avril Lavigne, Jonas Brothers and Panic!

64. Can you sing or play any instruments?- Im not the worst singer but im also not fantastic and i can’t play

65. Do you like karaoke?- sometimes

66. Own any albums?- like cds then yes

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations?- not anymore

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68. Favourite movie/series?- Any disney or pixar 

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc- YA like adventure books 

70. Your fictional crush/es- oh here we go. Juvia and Gray (Fairytail), Catwoman, Danny Phantom, Captain Hook and Regina Mills and Henry (Ouat), Steve (stranger things), Riddler (gotham) and Molly Hooper (Sherlock) and prob more. 

71. Which fictional character is you?- prob a mixture of Momo and Deku from My Hero and Honey from Ouran 

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so. Am I a shipper? ha. aight Gruvia, Nalu, Gajevy, Jerza, Kiribaku, Kacchacko, Todomomo, tododeku, LadyNoir and the love square, Captain Swan, Outlaw Queen, The powerpuff girls and the rowdyruff boys (respected partners) and like five thousand others

73. Favourite greek god?- Hades and Persephone 

74. A legend from where you live that you like- literally nothing from where i live

75. Do you like art? What’s your favourite work or artist?- love art and i cant just pick one

76. Can you share your other social media?- i mean you can follow me on twitter at StarsnShortcake but all thats there is my shitty tweets and interactions with my friends and Voice actors lol

77. Favourite youtubers?- Mikes Mic, Macdoesit, Twamiz, Larri, Dan Howell, Amazing Phil, Jenna Marbles, Shane Dawson, Steph Inc, Garret Watts, and like a ton more

78. Favourite platform?- Tumblr or twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet?- too much

80. What video games have you played? Which one’s your favourite?- I love anything Nintendo

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts)- Kingdom Keepers, Suicide Notes and the Selection Series to name a few

82. Do you play board/card games?- Yes

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema?- nope

84. Favourite holiday- thanksgiving for the food

85. Are you into dramas?- ye

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86. Would you use death note, if you had one?- haha ye

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to?- no racism, sexism, homophobia and legal marriage everywhere. Also that no one goes hungry and everyone has a nice place to live.

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse?- probably 

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be?- a hot demon

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death?- I turn into a goddess

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick?- ooo Celeste is a cool name 

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week?- hmmm Tara Strong 

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo- either the stars or the black heart or the fireworks

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true- Ive never eaten a chicken nugget, I can do the splits and I have cat

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95. Cold or hot?- hot

96. Be a hero or be a villain?- oooooo um im a sucker for villains

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme?- Rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time?- Shape shifting, i could be a plant

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?- bold of you to assume i would wanna live forever

100. ….. or …..?- :0

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HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS ANON CAUSE IT TOOK FOREVER. 

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Chikara: Kanashimi (1/?)

Ellie wheeler's senior year turned out to be one she would never forget. Now in college, leaving behind the life she grew to love, she did anything but thrive.

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Raiting: Mature. Series will contain, violence, death, sexual situations, and bad decisions.

Ellie quietly wandered the halls of Langston, head down, never noticed by anyone and she never spoke to anyone either.  It was just her and her thoughts, her roommate flaked out the first two weeks of fall semester. Not like she ever really talked to the girl. Her day consists of getting up, going to school, homework, dinner, shower, bed. Rinse, lather, repeat, Every day for 6 months.

She tried to keep her mind busy,  she never fully tuned it out. Behind all the math problems and research papers, he was always there like a cancerous tumor sucking the life out of her. she didn't hate it, it was quite the opposite really, she loved it, she needed it to get by the long days and lonely nights.

The night they finally took the brotherhood down, was one of the proudest moments she felt. They watched as Jason was hauled off in handcuffs, a tiny sliver of justice for Kaneko. She said goodbye to Toby, Ximena, even Mona, she knew they would move on from the crew. When Logan said goodbye it stung, she cared a great deal for him. He was the first guy she had ever kissed, or even had feelings for but, he wasn't Colt. From the moment they met, he drove her crazy, he annoyed her to no end and he was a complete jerk but she was drawn to him like a moth to a flame.

She had just finished submitting her final paper to her English teacher when she ran to her dorm room, grabbed her bags and headed to the airport. When she left for the summer program at Langston she told her dad she would see him at thanksgiving. She reluctantly left her car behind, a deal her father and her came to for breaks such as Thanksgiving, Christmas and Spring break, In the summer she would drive home. It was finally Thanksgiving and she couldn't wait.  she pressed the imaginary gas pedal on the airplane floor, secretly hoping it would get her there faster.

The sound of a screaming child filled the cabin, Ellie popped her earbuds in, attempting to drown out the noise. Just a little bit longer,  almost there she kept telling herself. Once they landed, she grabbed her luggage and looked for her dad. She seen him standing in the pick up area holding one of those makeshift signs that read Wheeler. "Dad, you're such a dork." She flung her arms around him. "Yeah, the coolest dork you'll ever meet." He retorted.

They got in the car and made the drive to the house, sure she couldn't wait to be home.  She was looking forward to seeing Riya and Darius, having Thanksgiving dinner at her grandparents, but she had more pressing matters to attend to. They pulled into the driveway and Ellie ran into the house,  flinging her luggage on the bed. She had to play it carefully, not to tip her dad off as to her plans. She came down stairs and like clockwork her dad asked if she was hungry. "Sure thing dad." She smirked, knowing after he ate he would want to take a nap.

"So. Any plans with Riya? She's home from Hartfeld this week." Dad asked as he put the dishes in the sink.  "Yeah we actually made some plans to catch up. Speaking of, can I use your car to see if shes home?" Her dad reached in his pocket handing her the keys "Just be careful, I'm going to take a nap."

Ellie ran up to her room, she flung open her suitcase and changed out of her leggings and baggy t shirt into a pair of jeans and a crop top.

She ran to the car, turning the key as the engine roared to life. It wasn't her car, but it would do.

She made the drive into the city, stopping at where the sideshow was, but nothing was there. She pulled down another street and parked in front of the familiar building. Not much had been done with the burned out shell of its former self, it looked as if time stood still. It was boarded up in attempts to keep people out, she walked around the building until she found a loose board and slipped in. The inside was hardly touched, some sorting had been done, she knew Colt had come back the day he gave her the cactus. There wasn't much left of the place, some debris strewn about, some shells of cars that once sat in the bay. It was clear nobody had been here, and the realization that nobody was coming back began to set it.

She thought she needed to come here, that maybe she would find something other then the burnt remains of the place that changed her, or someone.  The tears began to sting her eyes, so many memories in such a short time. Ever since they parted ways, she felt like a part of her was missing. There was a gaping hole in her heart that ached, she grasped her chest as ler legs failed her. For 6 months she kept her phone glued to her, in hopes someone would just reach out, for 6 months she prayed that someone would come for her, that she wasn't alone, and she meant something to them.

She sat alone on the floor of Kaneko's garage in a heap of ash and soot, crying her eyes out.  They were gone, you're just a tourist ringing in her head.  She was in fact alone, they weren't  coming back for her and it was time to try and move on.

She made her way back home, covered head to toe in the black substance that stained the floors of the garage, much like the stains on her heart. After a long cry in the hot shower, Ellie pulled open her closet door and started to hang her clothes inside when she spotted something tucked away behind her prom dress. She couldn't imagine what it might be, it was larger than any of her clothes. Gripping the petal pink fabric she pulled the dress forward,  giving easier access to the mystery item. Her fingers began to tremble, her nerves on edge as she ripped the clothing hanging in front of it off the hangers and tossed them to the floor reaching her goal item.

Ellie staggered backwards, item in hand.  the backs of her knees hitting the mattress causing her to sit. She stared blankly at the jacket in front of her, Colts leather jacket. How did it get there? She didn't think it was there when she packed for Langston, but could she have missed it?

She held the soft leather to her face, the scent of his cologne putting her immediately at ease. This was all she had left of him, that and the few photos and texts she had saved in her phone. Ellie slipped the jacket on, it was over sized but she didn't care. She placed her hands in the pockets pulling it flush to her body as if it were his arms wrapped around her.  Her fingers brushed against something and she pulled it from the pocket.

She stared down at the folded piece of paper, she recognized the stationary, it was one from her desk. Unfolding it slowly, tears began to well on her eyes in anticipation. His penmanship was far better then she anticipated but she knew better then to expect to unexpected when it came to Colt Kaneko.

Ellie,

If you are reading this that means you have found my jacket in your closet. I am risking everything coming here and sneaking in.   I just needed you to have it, to have something of me with you in this cold, unforgiving world.

Im not good with words, and feelings so im going to try my best. I love you Ellie Wheeler, I probably have since the moment I laid eyes on you at the side show, only I couldn't admit it to myself then.

I know you think that I don't care but leaving you, was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I meant what I said, we will see each other again.   

I watched you give your speech at graduation,  It took everything I had in me not to run out there and kiss you. I am so proud of you valedictorian. And just a little while ago when you drove away for College, I just had to see you if only at a distance. Keeping you safe will always be my priority,  and with the fbi breathing down my back, letting you go was the only way.

Live your life to the fullest Elle, don't cry for me im not worth your tears. Have fun in college, make friends, fall in love. You are amazing and you deserve to be happy. I hope that when our paths do cross again, you accomplished everything you set out to. I think your dad may be home so I have to run. Remember I will always Love you Ellie, even if I can't be with you.

Love, Colt.

She closed the letter, tears streaming down her face as she laid down on her bed. He was at her graduation, and when she left for Langston. She was hurting but she knew she had to move on, and now with his jacket she had a piece of him with her.

Two weeks went by in the blink of an eye, before she knew it she was back at Langston.  She drug her luggage down the long hall to her dorm room, she reached for her key, opening her door she walked into a different room then when she left. The opposite side of the room, once empty was decorated in pink, pink as far as the eye could see. Ellie flung her bags onto the bed, collapsing next to them when the sound of the door opening startled her. She sat up, eyes wide staring at the person in front of her. "Hey roomie!"

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[half-bloodcanons]

So im doing a project with a friend that entails me outlining a handful of greek myths and im being a sarcastic asshole because 1. thats how i do work at 4am and 2. we both know the myths so this is really redundant but i need some form of an outline in order to move on. So heres a break down of some of the big myths:

Titanomachy:  Chronus got hungry. Like 6 times. One of them was a rock. Through some bullshit of Chronus is a fucking idiot and possibly drugs he thought the rock was a baby and decided not to persue that matter any more. Decade-somethin later weird dude who strangely looks like chronus shows up and offers him wine and then big C vomits up 5 fully grown children who have never seen sunlight before and then they murder him over 10 years. Some giants in there, 3 asshole draw lots because its a better alternative than strange women lying in ponds.

Prometheus:  Born in cave. Cave dark. Night very scary. Sun not scary. Sun burn. Gods have thing that burn like little sun. Man steal little sun. God angery at man. Man gets his liver picked out on a daily basis for like ever.

Heracles: Its heracles. Hercules for the disney fan. Watch the movie and then pretend Hera is really a raving bitch who wants him dead and Hades is a p chill dude who just wants his dog to go on a walk once in a while. Also zeus got horny. And Herc murdered Meg. And he literally shoveled shit out of a horse pen for a straight 12 hours. And… yah its very different.

Gigantomachy: Backstory: Gaia got pissed at her husband/son so she had her grandkids kill him. Then Gaia got pissed at her grandkids, so she had her great grandkids kill him. Now Gaia is pissed at her great grandkids so she made a whole bunch of new children to kill them. Also cave man here? and Heracles? Like everyone here is an asshole but one of the assholes wants to eat the world so she can sleep so like....same?

Trojan War: Probably best known of the myths? Homer is a jackass like that. Basically Zeus got horny, hera got depressed, a dude named after the capital of france got horny, Eris showed up and did what she does best which is the ancient gods equivalent of politics at thanksgiving. Then all the depressed lady gods go fight over a shiny fruit that they literally can grow a bunch of in their gardens because this fruit aint special to them in any way shape or form other than Eris said pretty. Then the goddess of horny went to french-horny and let him start a war. Also Zeus might have orchestrated this entire thing because the world was so full of people that he couldnt get away with cheating on his wife and that had to stop? Priorities, i guess.

Odyssey:  So man pisses off poseidon because he was cocky. And then takes 20 years to get home when 1. The medeterrainian is very swimable as per modern day man (and Odysseus was fit AF), 2. He had the side of not one but TWO of the most powerful goddesses in olympus. He slept with the pig lady, one dude died for no reason other than comedy purposes, there was a giant who cant see nobody, p sure this is lowkey an ancient greek comedy.

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Low Dose T Updates!

This is for the Month 2 updates!

Month 1/Week 1-4

I’m on .4mgs of 100mg/ml IM injection testosterone.

Month 2, Week 5-7

Sorry I forgot to update for a while! Between Thanksgiving break and finals I’ve been really busy. I realized around week 5 that I’d been giving myself the wrong dose (.9mgs) and have just changed it back for my week 6 injection.

-voice dropped significantly at week 5 and has begun to even out, although still sounds more like I have a cold than anything else. My range has definitely lowered and when I speak higher my throat gets sore easily. I found my voice had become more flat in tone as of the drop, and when I’m excited or happy it spikes up. No voice cracks yet!

-bottom growth has reached about an inch and is slightly less sensitive, although I frequently wake up in the morning more sensitive due to the way my thighs can rub against it. I’ve realized I’m really into the growth and have been having more masc gender thoughts due to it

-the horny levels peaked really bad for a few weeks and didn’t let up. Literally I got horny one night and went to bed to try to get rid of it and it never went away. This is mostly how I realized my dose was messed up. As of Week 7 the horny has finally come down and I can function again, but it was really really bad for a few weeks to the point where I considered going to the doctor for meds

-no male pattern baldness or new hair growth from what I can tell

-I’ve started working out every night/every other night as I’ve noticed muscle gains and fat redistribution beginning. It seems like I’ve been losing mass in my thighs and it’s been going to my stomach, but with the exercise my core and arms have started getting more prominent so the fat is disappearing altogether now. Still super minor though, only things I’d notice

-I think the redistribution and working out has also caused my breasts to shrink. I’m not sure if this is an illusion caused by new muscles on my sides/ribs or if I am losing fat there, but either way they’ve definitely shrunk

-I haven’t experienced an increase in appetite or decrease in energy lately so the hungry/horny/tired triad hasn’t begun yet

-I weighed myself during week 5 and was still 130, the same weight give or take 5 pounds since well before I started T. None of the fat/muscle changes have effected my weight yet

Month 2, Week 8

-for the first time in a while I noticed a drop in T levels a few days before my shot which caused some irritability, but nothing major!

-at this point I think it’s safe to say my breasts have definitely shrunk in size, whether that’s from working out or redistribution I still don’t know

-been working out and have noticed muscle size, shape, and strength increases as a result! I’m still weak but even working out a little has given my arms definition and made my core and wrists stronger!

-still no new hair growth or appetite increase

-libido spikes with my shot now instead of being 100% all the time! I’ll be horny for a couple days after and then simmer down to a normal amount for the rest of the cycle

-voice sounds perpetually like I have a cold still but has dropped permanently at least an octave from pre-T! Having cold-like symptoms due to it (sore throat, cough, congestion) but no other signs of cold most of the time so I’m pretty sure that’s just side effects of my voice dropping

-been having weird gender identity fluctuations lately. It’s been affirming to have growth downstairs in a way I hadn’t expected. I’ll have to explore this more but I have read that it’s normal to experience gender and sexuality changes once on HRT, since your dysphoria goes down and you can feel more comfortable exploring things

It’s been an interesting and exciting first 2 months on T! I look forward to the future :D

[yawnsleep-blog]

Why do we Yawn?

Are you hungry or are you sleepy?

Here at Yawnsleep.com, we wanted to find out.

Before going into the nitty gritty, here’s our perspective.

I don’t think I’ve ever yawned and thought to myself, “I must be hungry”. I actually have never felt hungry when I yawn. It’s actually quite the opposite. The only times i find myself yawning due to consumption is in one of two cases:

I just ate a huge meal, think having seconds during Thanksgiving

When I have been drinking alcohol

I actually find that drinking alcohol causes me to yawn a lot more than having a huge meal. It could be that i'm getting older and my tolerance is super low now lol. In those cases I do yawn because Im sleepy. Same goes with heavy meals, but just to a lesser degree.

So let’s rule out yawning due to hunger or alcohol.

On a side note,  I also wear contacts and towards the end of the night they tend to get more dry, my eyes begin to shut little by little, and my vision gets more blurry. At times, this causes me to yawn. My theory is that this is a natural reaction of the body because I find that yawning causes my eyes to water and hence it lubricates my eyes and contacts so i can see clearly again.

But enough of the personal opinion. Let’s see what science has to say about the correlation between yawning and sleepiness.

Let us first define what Yawning is.

Yawning is a mostly involuntary process of opening the mouth and breathing in deeply, filling the lungs with air. It’s a very natural response to being tired. In fact, yawning is usually triggered by sleepiness or fatigue. It is  followed by a slow expiration, associated with a feeling of comfort. The average duration of the yawn is 5 s.

What we have found through research are three possible reasons why we yawn:

An low energy environment that is lacking arousal

A physiological response of the body to cool down our brain

A sleep disorder

Now lets dive a little further into each of these.

Yawning can often be linked with a boring environment/situation in which there isn’t much interaction happening. Examples of this are driving, watching television, sitting in a lecture or studying. More frequent yawning has been associated with viewing uninteresting repetitive stimuli.

A few  studies have indicated an increase in arousal level after yawning. This was measured by an increase in heart rate lasting up to 15 seconds after the peak of the yawn.

Additionally, a caffeine study showed comparable skin conductance between caffeine intake and yawning. A group of 18 college students were given a single oral dose of caffeine and the results were an increase in skin conductance and frequency of alpha waves. Similar results were found in yawning subjects by other researchers. Since caffeine is a well-known stimulant of the nervous system, it was argued that yawning, like caffeine, might also play a role in arousal reflex of the brain.

Essentially, a yawn is the body’s natural way of keeping our homeostasis, i.e. keeping us awake.

Now let’s look into the second reason. A 2013 study published in the International Journal of Applied and Basic Medical Research suggests that yawning may help cool the temperature of the brain.

There’s a few things to suggest this like tearing of the eyes which could be releasing heat from the skull, breathing in cool air which reduces the temperature of the blood vessels in our lungs, and the relaxation and contraction of our facial muscles which increases the facial blood flow which subsequently aids in dissipation of heat through our  veins.

Lastly, excessive yawning could also be a sign of a deeper underlying problem like bleeding around the heart, sleep disorders like sleep apnea or narcolepsy, or the inability of the body to regulate its temperature.

Before considering if you have an underlying issue, evaluate your sleep patterns. If they are irregular and inconstient, that may be the cause. Otherwise you may want to contact your doctor.

If excessive yawning is occuring due to a sleep disorder, consider trying our Yawn Deep Sleep aid. It is an all natural formula for a better more restful sleep that can help treat sleep disorders like insomnia and sleep apnea.

[lovemesomesurveys]

Does anyone call you babe/baby? No. What was the last thing you watched on the TV? Currently, I Love Lucy is on. Where were you going when you were in the car last? I was coming home from Walmart. Was anyone else in the car with you? If so, who? My mom, she drove me. I don’t drive. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7 other then body jewelery? Nope.

Do you have any peircings or tattoos? I only have my earlobes pierced. Are you cold, hot, or just right? I’m hot. Is anything bothering you right now? Yes. When was the last time you did laundry? I personally don’t do it, my mom helps me with that, but anyway she did it a couple days ago. Who was your last IM from? It was probably from one of my former friends. She and I used to Facebook chat all the time. Do you miss anyone right now? A few someones. Are you single/taken/married/or complicated? Very much single. What is your myspace song? Who is someone you trust 100%? My mom. I know I can tell her anything and I know she always has my back and my best interest at heart. And my doggo, of course. (: Do you get any snow where you live? No. :( Who was the last person you held hands with? My doggo, ha. Do you like any real life shows? If so, what shows do you like? Reality shows? Yeah, I watch a few different ones. Are you one of those people who LOVES the Hills? I don’t LOVE it, but I did watch it and I watched the reboot that just finished its 1st season last week. What kind of music to you generally listen to? I like variety, stuff from the 60s to now, rock, classic rock, oldies, alternative, rap, r&b, hip hop, country, pop... When was the last time you were agitated? Currently and all weekend, really. Do you like yellow, green, or red apples better? I don’t really have a preference I don’t think. Honestly, I haven’t had an apple in years and I didn’t eat them all that often to know the difference between the 3.  Would you ever go vegetarian? No. Who was the last person you talked to in person? My brother. Do you know anyone who does drugs/did drugs? Yeah. Are you more of a dog or cat person? Dog. What was the last thing you spent money on? 3 packs of letter beads. Is there anything your looking forward to in the next six months? Fall, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmastimeeee. Do you believe demons exist? Yes. Have you ever donated to a cause? Yeah. Where was your default picture taken on myspace? Myspace died a long time ago, but my avatar on here was taken in a hotel room. Do you get junk mail in your e-mail often? I haven’t checked the junk mail folder in awhile. What time do you normally go to bed at night? Between 2 and 3, usually, but it’s 3:08AM now and here we are. Do you love someone, other then family? No. Have you learned anything new today? Not so far. Honestly, when was the last time you took a shower? Saturday. What is your favorite food? Eggs, bologna sandwiches (with sharp cheddar cheese, mayo, mustard, spinach, and olive oil with this Italian Herb mix seasoning mixed in on the side for dipping), and pork flavored ramen. Do you have any siblings? If so, what are their names and how old are they? I have 2 brothers.  What was the last family function you went to? It’s been like 3 or 4 years since the last one... I’ve missed out on a few these past few years. Do you have a job? If so, where do you work? No. What berry is your favorite? Strawberry. What is your dream car? I don’t have one. What is your dream house? A beach house is my ultimate dream home, but that’s likely to never happen. I would like then for a 3 or 4 bedroom house with wooden floors spacious enough for 4 adults and a doggo with big backyard for my doggo and perhaps another doggo and a nice backyard patio or deck. What color looks best on you? Black. Who can you count on no matter what? My family. What was the reason in you crying last? Frustrations.  Have you ever kissed anyone with the name starting with L, R, B, or T? No. Do you like to lick the spoon after making cookies or cake? I used to as a kid. Especially brownie mix. I do still like to lick the knife after frosting the cake, ha. How’s the weather today? It’s supposed to be in the 80s (F) today, which is cooler than it was over the weekend when it was triple digits. Still too hot for me, though. Do you have anyone that you dislike/hate? No. Do you like the taste of fish? Noooo. Has anyone ever picked a fight with you? Verbal fights, yeah. When was the last time you were somewhere other then your house? This past Thursday. Do you like Starbucks coffee? Yeah. Have you ever talked to your neighbors? Just a “hi” now and then. What are you wearing today? Black leggings and a black Avengers:Endgame shirt. Is there any movies in the theater that you’d like to see? I want to see It Chapter 2 again. Do you have anyone on your myspace list that you don’t talk to? On Facebook I don’t talk to anyone except for a “like” on a post or things they share.  Are you outgoing or soft spoken? Soft spoken.  You have a plane for a week; Where are you going and who is coming? Wow. I’d take my family and we’d each pick a place, staying a couple days each place. Do you have any bruises? If so, where did they come from? No. How long is your hair? It’s down to my butt. Are you hungry at the moment? Yeah, a bit. Have you ever bought anything on the internet? Tons of things. I do a lot of online shopping for myself, as well as gift shopping. I did all my Christmas online the past couple years. Do you have an account at a bank? Yeah.

[theemakingsofmi]

26 is definitely still growing on me. Literally 2 weeks I have been 26 and I'm having a time adjusting to it. From my features to my body, personality, everything about this number leaves an awkward feeling in my conscious that refuses to leave.

I'm anxious af and can't put a pin point on why. My anxiety has been on for weeks now and won't seem to turn off. At first I thought it was just my caffeine intake but after coffee and pop a rest for a few days I've realized the caffeine is only making it worse. I think I'm more so nervous because I can't predict my future right now. Social media (Facebook) irks my last nerve but itsy only alternative right now to keepe occupied. I'm always hungry and as of today I feel as though I've been getting too much sleep.

The level of isolation I'm on is causing conflict with some of my associates (not on my end) and it's getting pretty old. Idk why people feel that they are entitled to my personal space. It's weird really. I've absorbed enough enough energy these past 26 years of my life, mostly negative need I say, so these days I just want to be alone... Enjoy the company of those who actually mean me good.

I'm walking on faith (spending in this case) when it comes to my finances. I literally do not know how I'm going to make it for Christmas and my kids birthdays following 2 and 3 weeks after the holiday BUT I'm trusting in God to provide it for me. Like, Im trying to make school a priority but the way these bills and necessible expenses are rolling in it might have to wait until I can really sit down and save.

Thanksgiving was all love. My son spent with his dad's side but my daughter was home to enjoy the company of mommy's crazy cousins and her uncle's. My baby brother is home from the Navy for a week and from the looks of him he is not a baby anymore. He's bigger than my everybody in my family lol. It just felt good to laugh. Something I haven't done genuinely in a while.

New Year's is approaching and I want to step into it fresh. I plan on getting all of my yearly check ups done before the year end, tying loose ends with unnecessary people and letting go of played out habits. I want a healthier lifestyle in every aspect of my life so if I want to be healthy mentally I have to start physically.

I'm thinking about doing a vision board party for the kids and I. I think that would be something nice to introduce them to. Taking the time to set goals as a family with them rather than setting goals for myself and just including them.

I received some really heartbreaking news the other day that could have really set me back mentally but instead of allowing it to bring back into a black hole, I choose to embrace it and allow it to make me better and stronger. It hurts me to know that people think so low of me sometimes as a person and a mother but I intend to prove them wrong.

I really believe that I am going to go up from here, I think that's the awkward feeling I have but only time will tell so in the meantime I will continue to pray for my day.

✌️♥️

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Anon said:  I think he’s a villain in a different way. He’s power hungry, but doesn’t necessarily need or want to do anything Bad to Arendelle. He wants to be the king, and in order to do that he needs to gain their respect.

If we were shown that throughout the movie that he was power hungry and not good and so on so forth, I’d be more willing to believe him as a villain but,,,, 

we’re not.

and we’re given chances throughout the movie where we see him without anna and elsa, we’re given chances where he could have just as easily sided with the duke and turned on them, but instead, he ....doesnt? 

If Disney wanted him to be a power-hungry guy who still wants to be a good king they had chances to show him being that, but instead, he’s a guy who wants to be a good king who....shows that he’s in love with anna & doesn’t really want the throne? Like, it’s really weird that he still defends anna and elsa even when there is literally no one else around besides him,the duke, and the duke’s guards. 

Now, im not saying disney is bad at writing but ----

The whole “twist” of him being the villain didn’t make sense when i was in theaters watching it the day it came out on thanksgiving in 2013, and it still doesn’t make sense to me now in 2021 

[zoemurph]

to have a friend, chapter 9: $202

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that noise you hear? its me. screaming. college is horrific and im super screwed please write this essay on the decameron for me

im ALMOST done with nano!! (as you can tell from the wordcount) there might not be a chapter update by the end of the month but i will hit my goal! wow magic. little bit of a shorter chapter this time cause uhhhh ive never claimed to be good at this

shoutout to my lovely friends for all their contributions to this fic. particularly thank you to cam for the amazing project name

warnings: anxiety, hints of bad eating habits

enjoy!

Evan pulls off his scarf and hangs it in his locker.

It’s finally snowed.

It snowed a few times before, October is notorious for it’s random snowstorms, but this is the first time this year it’s stuck. It started snowing Sunday morning and almost an inch gathered by mid afternoon. It was pretty light and uneventful, but Evan still made a point to send a picture of a snow dusted tree to Connor. Connor had replied ‘aesthetic’ and sent a picture of a plant Cynthia put in the living room that was mostly just dying.

Evan hangs up his coat and shoves the mittens in the sleeves. November is ending and only now does he really need to wear a coat to school. And take the bus. It’s hell.  

“So this is why you have a locker,” Connor says.

“You have a locker too,” Evan reminds him.

Connor laughs. “No I fucking don’t, not if I can’t tell you which one it is.”

Evan shakes his head. “You’re just lazy.”

“Yes.”

“But if you ever need to hang up a coat you’re welcome to use mine.”

Connor tilts his head. “Ev, what makes you think I’m weak enough to wear a winter coat?”

Evan stares at him. “The fact that tomorrow it’s supposed to be like six degrees out?”

“We die like men,” Connor says simply. He pulls Evan’s spanish textbook out of the locker and hands it to him.

“You die,” Evan says pointedly. “And your hands are freezing.” Evan stuffs the textbook into his bag and zips it shut. “Do you own gloves?”

“Cool fingerless gloves because it fits the aesthetic,” Connor says, wiggling his fingers.

Evan closes the locker. “You’re the worst.”

Connor bumps their shoulders together. “Come on, Ev, admit they’re cool.”

Evan shakes his head. “They really aren’t.”

“Don’t lie to me,” Connor says as he opens the door to the stairwell.

“Do you think I lie to you?” Evan asks, stopping to look Connor in the eye.

Connor stares at him.

Evan holds his breath. He doesn’t lie to Connor. Nothing he does is a lie. The question is will Connor figure that out. And if he does, will he hate him for it.

Connor rolls his eyes. “You just haven’t seen them yet. They’re cool.”

“Whatever you say,” Evan mutters. He starts down the stairs. “Has Jared started yet?”

“Started what?”

Evan opens the door at the bottom of the stairwell and holds it for Connor. “He has your phone number right?”

Connor frowns. “Yeah? Is something horrible about to happen?”

“What’s your definition of horrible?”

“Evan.”

“What?” Evan stops walking. “Don’t you go down?” He nods to the stairs.

Connor shrugs. “Yeah, but I can go the long way with you. What is Jared going to do?”

“Thanksgiving is Thursday,” Evan says slowly.

“Thank god. I don’t know how we’re getting through Wednesday but I’m fucking dying.”

“We have a half day, Connor.” Evan steps closer to him to squeeze past a group of students crowded around a locker.

“Who cares.” Connor looks down at him. “Anyway, what shit is Kleinman up to? And what does Thanksgiving have to do with it?”

“What happens after Thanksgiving?” Evan asks.

“People try to kill each other over jeans?” Connor suggests.

Evan snorts. “I-I mean, yeah, but it’s Christmas—”

“Jared is Jewish,” Connor interrupts. “I’m also Jewish. You’re Jewish.”

Evan glances up at him. “I know. He has this playlist of Christmas songs that he blasts in his car. I don’t know why. But he also has a playlist of Jewish parodies.”

“I’m sorry what?”

Evan sighs. “There’s one that’s called Shalom and he sang it for like a week. Basically, December is Jared’s favorite time of year because he can be an asshole under the guise of being ‘festive’.”

Connor groans. “Please don’t say he’s going to send me links to all these videos.”

“He will. I’m warning you.” Evan pauses. “Uh, this is my stop.” He motions to the classroom to their right.

Connor nods. “Cool. I’ll see you later, I have to go block Jared’s number.”

Evan smiles as Connor walks away and takes a deep breath before he goes into the classroom and sits down.

His pocket is light.

It’s Monday. Connor didn’t pay him today.

Evan rests his chin in his hand and hides his smile.

Maybe Connor just forgot. But it feels nice. Like this is real.

That’s what Evan wants.

—«·»—

“I’ve been talking to Baz,” Alana says, flipping through her notebook as she walks. Evan nods. “I think she might be a good advisor for the club? Students typically feel relatively comfortable talking to her and I know she’s discussed mental health at the beginning of the year before.”

Evan tightens one of the straps of his backpack. “Okay. I, um, we need a name before we talk to her?”

Alana shakes her head. “I think we can just discuss the idea with her, even if we don’t have all the details solidified yet. If she’s against the idea, regardless of the current state of the details, we have to find a new advisor.”

“Oh.” Evan steps away from Alana to let someone pass between them. “Do you… Like… Does it ever feel…not worth it?”

Alana furrows her eyebrows but doesn’t look over to him. “What do you mean?”

“You won’t even be around for the club, n-not really?” Evan shrugs. “It’s…a lot of work for something you won’t be around to see, I guess.”

“Well…” She slows her steps. “I mean, hopefully it’ll start next semester, and if not we can always say we took the step to start a discussion of mental health in the school but…it could help other people?”

Evan’s ears burned. “I didn’t mean—”

“I know you didn’t,” Alana says. “I’ve wondered it myself. There’s no glory in getting the details perfect if you aren’t there to run it, but if we help other people, I think it’s worth it in the end.”

Evan walks up to his locker and puts in the combination. “Y-you’re right, sorry I just— sorry.”

“Don’t be. It’s valid to think about.” Alana taps her nails against her notebook. “Now if only we could come up with a name…”

“A name for what?” Connor asks.

Evan looks up at him in surprise. “Isn’t your next class on the other side of the school?”

Connor shrugs. “Who gives a shit?”

“A name for our club,” Alana says, fixing her glasses. “It has a focus on mental health and starting a conversation about it in our school.”

“This club,” Connor says. He tugs on the strap of his bag. “What are you working with for names?”

Evan and Alana exchange a glance.

“Nothing,” Alana says after a moment. “I was thinking maybe we could have the word ‘project’ in the name, but I haven’t come up with anything that’s stuck. Do you have any suggestions?”

“The Fuck Project,” Connor deadpans.

Evan covers his eyes with a hand.

“We are not calling it the Fuck Project,” Alana says.

“It’ll get people’s attention,” Connor points out.

“Not in a good way,” Evan mutters. He drags his hand down his face and looks at Connor, who’s grinning at him.

“We do need to get this approved by the principal,” Alana adds. “And that name will give people the wrong idea, that is absolutely not what this club is about.”

Connor shrugs a shoulder. “Temporary name, congrats, I helped out.”

“Not really.”

The warning bell rings and Alana glances over her shoulder.

“I should go,” she says, “but I’ll text you about Baz?”

Evan nods. “Y-yeah that’s— okay yeah. I’ll see you later?”

Alana smiles and hurries down the hall.

Connor watches her leave. “Baz?” he asks, raising an eyebrow.

“Um, yeah.” Evan grabs the books he needs and closes the locker with his foot. “We need an advisor and Lana thinks Baz might be willing to help? Have you had her?”

Connor shakes his head. “Baz teaches the CP kids, usually. I’ve been, uh, honors.”

Evan blinks. “Oh yeah, I forgot college prep was a thing. She taught regular english sophomore year.”

“You had her?” Connor asks.

“Uh…kind of?”

Connor furrows his eyebrows. “What do you mean?”

“Bad semester,” Evan mutters. “I, uh… There weren’t a lot of classes I…went to?”

Connor nods. “Got it.”

“Don’t you have class?” Evan asks quickly. His head is starting to spin.

“Yeah, I just.” Connor steps closer and Evan’s heart skips a few beats. “I’m sorry I forgot this earlier.” He presses a bill into Evan’s hand.

Evan closes his eyes.

Right.

Right. Right, of course. Connor just forgot. He didn’t mean anything by it. He’s sticking to the agreement.

Evan feels sick.

He crumples the bill up in his fist. “It’s fine, don’t worry about it,” he mumbles.

“It won’t happen again,” Connor promises.

Evan’s hand feels like it’s on fire.

—«·»—

Jared tosses his bag onto the couch and disappears into the kitchen. “Have you gotten any better about keeping food in your house?” he shouts.

Evan rolls his eyes. “Why do I need t-to buy food when you do it for me?”

Jared leans out of the doorway. “Fuck off, man, you never buy the chips I like.”  

“Exactly.”

Jared glares at Evan and ducks back into the kitchen. “Hungry?”

“Not really.” Evan reaches into his pocket and grabs the ten dollar bill Connor handed to him earlier. “Meet me up in my room?”

“Sure, stealing this chocolate, B-T-dubs.”

“I can’t stop you,” Evan mutters. “Bring up your bag! Don’t leave it on the couch!”

“Don’t tell me what to do!”

Evan leaves Jared to pull apart the kitchen and heads up to his room. He leaves his backpack on his bed and pulls open his closet, pushing aside sweatshirts to get to a shoebox he’s buried. He pulls the ten out of his pocket and stares at it for a moment before he takes the top off the shoebox and puts it inside. Then he covers it back up with his sweatshirts and closes his closet door.

Now he can pretend it doesn’t exist.

When Jared kicks open the bedroom door with popcorn in one hand and chocolate in the other, Evan is sitting on his bed with his laptop open.

“Wow, lame,” Jared says. Evan glances up at him. “I’m kidding,” Jared says quickly. “That’s exactly what I did yesterday.” He drops down into Evan’s desk chair. “How’d you spend your weekend?”

Evan shrugs. “Same. S-some homework and uh…spent Friday with Connor.”

Jared opens his bag of popcorn. “I’ve been fucking dying to know, what have you spent all that money on? Murphy has to have given you a shit ton at this point.”

Evan stares at his laptop screen, rubbing his hands on his pants. “N-nothing yet it just…it feels weird.” He can feel Jared’s eyes on him and feels a panic build in his chest. “It feels weird! It’s just— it’s in a box in my closet.”

“Sweet.” Jared stands up.

“Jared!”

“Okay, okay, yeah, that was kind of dicky.” Jared falls back down into the chair. “I wasn’t going to take it, I was joking. Your money dude, you earned it with your weird uh…situation.” Evan makes a face. “Don’t fucking do that with your face, you know this is weird.”

“Shut up,” Evan mutters. He could go into a coma right now and that would be fine.

“We can start a list of things you could buy with it.” Jared throws a piece of popcorn into the air and tries to catch it in his mouth. It bounces off his right lense and lands on the floor. “I’ll get that later. Anyway. List.”

Evan glances to his closet.

“One, not shitty sneakers. Two, shirts that aren’t polos. Three, so much candy. Four, a video game. Five, multiple video games even, I don’t know how much money you have. Six, something nice for your mom cause you’re a real momma’s boy. Seven, a fuck ton of yugioh cards—”

“Yugioh cards?” Evan interrupts.

“Yes.” Jared throws a piece of popcorn at Evan. “Let me finish.”

Evan shakes his head. “I think I get it.” He closes his laptop and swings his legs over the side of the bed. “You don’t want the money sitting in my closet.”

“No shit.” Jared tosses Evan the chocolate bar. “You can have half. But yeah, you’ve got money, dude, it’s not gonna fucking collect interest if it’s in the back of your closet or anything. You’re spending all this time doing this bullshit job, why not actually use what you get paid?”

Evan opens the chocolate bar and breaks it in half before handing the half in the packaging back to Jared. “I-I already told you. It feels…weird. I don’t know.”

“You know,” Jared says as he takes the chocolate, “this is kind of a sugar daddy situation.”

Evan immediately goes red. “Oh my god.”  

“Minus the sex stuff,” Jared says casually. “And the age difference, cause I don’t think Murphy is that much older you, is he?”

Evan is ready to melt into the ground. Or die. Or both. Both would be perferrable. “Jared, please—”

“Sugar buddy,” Jared says, snapping his fingers. “Connor is your sugar buddy.”

“This is the worst.”

Jared takes a bite of chocolate. “Do you have a better name for this?”

Friendship? Evan wants to just call it friendship. That’s totally not the case but—

“We can call it platonic prostitution if you want.”

“If you say that again I am kicking you out of my house.”

Jared holds up his hands in surrender. “Valid. That is totally valid.”

Evan starts breaking up his half the chocolate bar into smaller pieces. “I just… I don’t know. It’s weird. It’s a weird situation. But let’s not call it…that.”

“Yeah,” Jared agrees. “Fucking weirdass… Kind of regret helping out with it, honestly. It feels like a trainwreck I can’t look away from.”

“Really comforting there, Jared,” Evan mutters.  

Jared spins in the desk chair. “I’m just saying, what started out as a funny ha ha losers thing has gotten decidedly less funny.”

Evan furrows his eyebrows. “What was this funny?”

“Dude, come on, at least the first week was fucking hilarious,” Jared says with a crooked smile. It seems forced, but it’s still there.

Evan grimaces. “It wasn’t.”

Jared loses the smile. “Okay. It wasn’t funny, my bad.”

Evan makes a strangled sound. “Do you talk to Connor?” Some of the chocolate is starting to melt. He pops a piece of it into his mouth.

Jared snorts. “Hell no. We coexist, are you really going to ask more of us?”

“No,” Evan admits. “But if I tell you something, you won’t tell him?”

Jared gives him a weird look. “Tell him?”

Evan stares at him with wide eyes. “You’re already judging me!”

“No I’m not!”

“Yes you are!”

Jared throws his hands in the air. “I don’t even know what I would be judging you for!”

“I want Connor to stop paying me.”

Jared stares at Evan.

Evan’s hands start to sweat and his heart races. He looks down at the chocolate in the palm of his hand and eats it before it can melt any more. He wipes his hands on his pants. Then he wipes them again.

“Yeah, no shit,” Jared says once the silence is too long and too awkward and too uncomfortable.

Evan groans and collapses on the bed. “I just—”

“Want to be friends?” Jared offers.

“Um…yes, but also—”

Jared sits up straighter. “You didn’t.”

Evan pulls on his fingers. “I…what?”

“You’re in love with him!” Jared shouts.

“No!” Evan almost falls off the bed as he scrambles to his feet. “No, I don’t—”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes! It’s just— it’s just a crush oh my god, Jared.”

Jared raises his eyebrows. “You said crush.”

Evan’s face gets hot. “Uh, yeah I— it-it’s not… I mean… I don’t think… It’s not like a big…deal? Or anything?”  

Jared stares at him. “Evan, it’s a big deal.”

Evan laughs awkwardly. “W-we don’t have to make it one.”

Jared squints. “Okay… I still have to kick your ass in Mario Kart. You ready?”

Evan takes a breath. “You’ve never been able to beat me, Jare. Especially since you keep choosing Rainbow Road.”

Jared jumps out of his seat. “Hell yeah I do, I’m going to mop the floor with your blood.”

Evan smiles. “Okay. If you say so.”

—«·»—

Jared loses. He swears aggressively as he reaches for his wallet to buy dinner.

“I hate you,” he hisses as he shoves a box of mozzarella sticks at Evan.

“Thanks,” Evan says. “Let me know when you want a rematch.”

Jared flips him off and grabs his sandwich off the table.

—«·»—

Heidi comes home as Jared is getting ready to leave. “Jared!” she says in surprise as she puts her bag down on the kitchen table. “I had no idea you were coming over.”

Evan and Jared look up from the television.

“Hey, Heidi, just wanted to steal your TV.” Jared tosses his Wii controller onto the couch.

“Your bag is still in my room,” Evan reminds him.

Jared shoots a fingergun at him. “Thanks.”

“Don’t leave on my account,” Heidi says, pulling her hair out of its ponytail.

“Nah, I have homework,” Jared says. “The moms want me home soon anyway.” He checks his phone and makes a face. “Yeah I should go, but thanks for letting me invade your house.”

“Anytime, Jared,” she says.

Jared grabs his bag from Evan’s room and bumps his shoulder against Evan’s as he goes to leave, wiggling his eyebrows.

Evan rolls his eyes. “Shut up,” he whispers.

Jared mimes zipping his lips. “See you tomorrow in hell.”

When Jared is gone, Evan finds his mom doing the dishes in the kitchen. “Can I help?” he asks.

She holds out a pot. “Dry and put away?”

Evan nods and takes it from her.

“It’s nice that you’re hanging out with Jared again,” Heidi muses. She washes a cup and sets it aside for Evan.

“Hm?” Evan dries off the pot and puts it in the cabinet next to the oven.

“You and Jared. You haven’t really spent a lot of time with him lately.”

“Oh.” Evan grabs the cup. “He’s been over. We…hang out and stuff.”

“That’s great.” She smiles at him. “It’s good that you have a friend.”

“Friends,” Evan corrects quickly, feeling guilt twist his stomach. He should be better at this. This friend thing. He should be making more progress than he has.

Heidi looks at him in surprise. “You’ve never mentioned anyone else before.”  

“Uh, yeah.” Evan keeps his eyes on the dishes he’s drying. “Connor.” He says it and then tries not to think about it. “And um…Alana?”

“Oh!” Heidi puts down the dish soap. “Well that’s great! We should try to have dinner with them sometimes.”

Evan ducks his head. “Mom.”

“I want to meet your friends!”

“I— uh…okay, I’ll um, ask them about it.” Evan decides he should never speak again. He keeps digging his holes deeper and deeper.

Evan talks with Connor by his locker. He walks with Connor in the halls. He smiles and laughs and pretends his chest isn’t constricting.

Connor looks at him and sometimes it feels real.

The ten isn’t in Evan’s pocket anymore, but Evan can still feel it’s presence.

They sit together at lunch and Connor pokes at Evan’s jello with a straw and Evan tries to keep his heartrate under control. Connor rambles on about something that happened in AP Lit — which is apparently the only class he pays attention to in any way — and Evan mostly just nods. Connor keeps looking at him and he kind of feels like dying.

Evan feels like he’s dying and then Connor smiles at him and better and it’s worse and Evan hates every part of his existence.

Connor bumps his shoulder against Evan’s and the butterflies in Evan’s stomach fluttered.

—«·»—

Evan sits at his desk and does homework. He hates it but it gives him something to do. His phone buzzes from where it’s plugged in next to his bed. Evan glances at his Spanish textbook. He gets up and checks his messages.

From: Connor To: Evan      can i call?

Evan’s throat immediately feels like it’s closing him. There’s an anchor wrapped around him and it’s dragging him down. Down down down—

He tries to type out a response but his hands are shaking.

Another message pops up on the screen.

From: Connor To: Evan      fuck its not bad shit i just realized how that sounds      im home alone and larry just got back and i dont want to talk to him      if im on the phone hell probably leave me alone

Evan takes a deep breathe and presses his palms against his eyes. It’s fine. It really is fine.

He replies as fast as he can, but it still takes him a minute to calm down.

From: Evan To: Connor      YEah fo course sorry for takin g so long to rpely

Connor’s response is almost immediate.

From: Connor To: Evan      you didnt take long at all ev youre fine      sorry if i scared you      gonna call now

Evan stares at the screen of his phone. As soon as ‘Incoming call from Connor’ pops up, he hits answer.

“Hello?” Evan sits down on the edge of his bed and grips the blankets.

“Hey,” Connor says. He sounds kind of tired. “Sorry if I freaked you out, didn’t think before I sent that.”

“It’s fine,” Evan promises. He doesn’t want to think about it anymore. A moment of panic. They can move on. “W-what do you want to, um, to talk about?”

“Don’t really know,” Connor admits. “Nice to talk to you, you sound different over the phone.”

Evan smiles. “So do you.” Connor’s voice sounds a bit deeper. Maybe rougher. “Someone thought I was a dad once when I had to call to cancel an appointment.”

“What?” There’s laughter in Connor’s voice and it makes Evan’s head spin. “How the fuck?”

“I don’t know. I-I just— I was trying to cancel and they were like ‘the patient’ and I was confused but was too scared to ask and then they asked my relation to the patient and were like ‘are you his father?’ and I was just kind of like… Well no, I’m the patient.”

Connor snorts. “Amazing. I’m proud of you for cancelling your son’s appointment.”

Evan leans back on his hands. “N-no they— we sorted it out. I almost threw up afterward but uh…probably could’ve gone worse.”

“Phone calls aren’t your thing, huh?” Connor asks. “Sorry for making you do this. If it’s easier for you we can stop.”

Evan shakes his head and then realizes that Connor can’t see him. “No it’s fine. Really, it’s okay with you. It’s nice.” Whoops that was more than he was supposed to share.   

“Okay, if you’re sure. Let me know if you want to hang up.”

“Of course,” Evan murmurs. “Uh… I asked you this like…three hours ago, but how was your day?”

“Pretty shit,” Connor admits. “Right now I’m uh….eating grapes.”

“Well that’s good. You didn’t eat lunch.”

“I never eat lunch.”

Evan hums. “Okay, that’s true.”

“What about you?” Connor asks. “Have you eaten anything today other than shitty cafeteria food?”

“Uh…no,” Evan says slowly. “I’m not super hungry.”

“Get a drink or something for me.”

Evan smiles. “Are you trying to parent me?”

“Fuck, Zoe’s rubbing off on me, isn’t she? How the fuck?” Evan imagines Connor dragging his hand through his hair.

“Her and your mom,” Evan points out. “They aren’t that similar, you know.”

There’s a slight pause. “I guess you’re right. I don’t notice that shit. Zoe’s just…Zoe. I don’t know.”

“Outsider’s perspective,” Evan suggests. “I also don’t live with them, so I might be wrong.”

“Huh.” There’s a pause. “Okay but hydration.”

“I’m going,” Evan promises. He stands up from his bed and heads down the stairs. “Are you staying hydrated?”

Connor clears his throat. “Uh…” Evan smiles as he hears Connor’s bed squeak as Connor stands up. “Yeah of course.”

“You’re going to get a drink, aren’t you?” Evan asks. He walks into the kitchen and pulls a cup from the cupboard.

“No,” Connor says quickly. “Definitely not.”

“Okay.” Evan fills the cup with water and takes a sip. “So uh…sports?”

Something on Connor’s end shuts. “I’m gay.”

Evan rolls his eyes. “Okay. Then you choose the conversation starter.”

“Okay. Did you know that eggplants are fruits?”

“Yeah.”

“Fuck there goes my fun fact.”

Evan laughs. “I’m sure you can think of something else.”

“Don’t have faith in me, Ev, it’ll end badly. But give me a second.” Evan drinks his water as Connor thinks. “Okay. Want to hear lots of random shit about Ancient Egypt? Zoe and I had a phase.”

Evan sits down in a kitchen chair. “You know I do.”

“Well get comfortable, because this is going to be a while.”

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Kathy Thank You!!! Im going to read it once im home. hehehe. ee thank you for the recommendations! And its almost weekend and im going to work this weekend lmao. I want a day off again hahaha. What are you doing this weekend kathy?? ohhh do u have twitter maybe i can annon follow u there *side eyes emoji* HAHAHAHA! but then again its fun to talk in here so i guess okay dont give me ur twitter.

where do u live now??? e i forgot! we dont celebrate holloween here like we really dont. but have a great weekend bby!!! -suri

You are welcome, I hope you will like them!

Ah poor you, I hope it won’t be too tiring! If you don’t mind me asking, what do you work? I don’t remember you mentioned it before :o I hope rude people won’t come near you this time!

I have a long weekend but plenty of work to do for uni assignments and also I should work on my thesis. But it’s okay since I’m home now, my sisters wouldn’t let me to haul up in my room anyway, so we will make this weekend fun. Oh and I watched the new Run episode yesterday (hence my dog spam hehe) and it’s just sooo cute *-*

I would give you but I don’t have Twitter or any other SNS for that matter, I couldn’t keep up with all of them anyway.

I guess western traditions are not popular everywhere. But do you have a Thanksgiving/Chuseok-like holiday? I live in Europe, a small country called Hungary (joke has it that we are always hungry xd)

Thank you! Take care of yourself and don’t overwork yourself! Enjoy your lunch breaks!

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10/25

Decided to skip Bio and sleep till 11. I hate that class. I don’t even need it for my degree so that’s nice. It’s my hardest class too. I’ve been studying it on my own today and processing the information a bit better. It’s 45 degrees today. We left the windows open. I love dressing comfy around the house and not having to use the AC. My hands are cold though.

I haven’t eaten yet today thankfully. I’m a bit hungry. My throats dry. I’ll probably get a bottle of water soon. I’m bad about drinking water.

I took my B12 vitamin this morning. I cant wait to hold my warm little bowl of pasta later. I keep hiding my hands under my laptop where it’s warm. I’m tempted to have a bowl of ramen for dinner tonight. I havent had that in a long time. When I was thin, I ate a bowl of ramen every other day and tht was it.

It sucks because he only reason I had that level of self control was because my anti depressants killed my appetite. What I wouldn’t give to have them back. 

I remember once I ate half a slice of pizza and was so full I thought I’d burst.

Now I can choke down massive amounts of food like I did in middle school. I’m disgusting.

I slipped my jeans on a little easier this morning. I hadn’t worn them in a week. I’ve lost 3 pounds since last week. Not much but enough to where my thighs slid through the legs of my pants with a tad less resistance. Small Victories.

They’re a size 12, but much tighter than my size 8′s. Clothing sizes suck. I imagine the 12′s are Juniors, but annoying, nonetheless.

I want to tell someone about this blog. Have them read my thoughts. But what would they say? There’s nothing to say.

I’ve failed so many times I doubt anyone takes me seriously.

My best friend has an ED as well, but it;s different from mine. She’s concerned with gaining weight, but has problems with consuming enough food. She’s small and fragile and beautiful and I envy her so much.

I wish I had something that made me nauseous to the point of not wanting to eat.

Aside from disgust, nothing keeps me from eating.

Disgust is easy to maintain, though. I just have to stand in front of a mirror.

I try to stay in touch with my mom, but I feel like I bother her. I send her photography and she doesn’t respond. I try to gossip with her, nothing unless I call and we talk for an hour or so once a week. Which is nice. Im not complaining, but this week she’s seemed distant. I’m not sure why.

I’m debating sleeping more. I’m always so tired.

I feel bad for my fiance. He’s supporting me through college, working this insanely physical job. I feel like a slob compared to him.

I’m glad I’m writing again though. I’m writing, going to school, maintaining my relationship, playing video games, listening to music. All thats missing is being healthy. I guess I’m getting there though. I set another sub-goal for myself.

So here are my goals as they stand now: 11/8 175 lbs (-13 lbs); 12/1 165 lbs (-23 lbs); 12/18 155 lbs (-33)

That sounds like a lot but I think I can do it. 13 pounds in 2 weeks will be my biggest obstacle. As long as I eat 1 bowl of ramen per day, I should be fine. 33 pounds in under 2 months sounds like a dream, but it will happen and it will be worth it.

I have thanksgiving planned out. The week I go to Florida, I’m letting myself eat pretty much whatever, then back to the ramen diet till february-ish. I’ll probably change it up by then to maybe an avocado bagel or different kind of pasta, but I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.

I just need to stop being so obsessed with food. It’s an addiction really. Always thinking about my next meal. Thinking about fast food. I have to remind myself that even though that veggie Chipotle burrito is vegan and nutricious and wonderful, it’ll be there in moderation when I’m thin. Those Gardein chicken tenders, Chickfila fries, Chinese take out, and Taco Bell (Fresco Style) will all be there. I need that to stop being my focus.

I can focus on my bottled water in the morning. I take 3 sips and add some lemon juice. Shake it up. Don’t forget to refill it and refridgerate when I’m done. I can focus on cleaning up my apartment every day. I can focus on writing out my feelings on this blog. I can focus on video games. I can focus on school, my Fiance, planning our wedding, planning our home, our future. TV shows, online income, photography and edit. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON’T FOCUS ON FOOD. My life doesn’t need to revolve around it. I can take 60 minutes to focus on opening the packaging. Putting it in a bowl. Filling that bowl with hot water. Set the microwave for 3 minutes. Find the strainer. Pour. Shift the noodles. Pour back into the bowl. Cut open the seasoning packet. Put the top strip in the noodle bag. Pour seasoning. Put the rest of the packet in the noodle bag. Get a fork. Stir. Stir. Stir. Add black pepper. Stir. Put the bowl on a pot holder. Get fresh water. Drink 3 sips. Add lemon juice. One more sip to test. Bring water and bowl to my seat. Adjust everything comfortably. Eat slowly. Drink often. Finish your food. As it digests, digest the obsession as well.

I need to weigh myself, get water, and find my measuring tape because it’s been missing and haven’t taken measurments since June or July.

Scratch that. 15 lbs in 2 weeks. I can do this.

Above Bust: 40 in Below Bust: 36.5 Waist: 34.5 in Hips (at butt):43.5 in Hips (at lower stomach, stomach relaxed): 42 in Arm (half way between shoulder and elbow, parallel to the ground): 14.75 in Thigh (half way between hip and knee- above tattoo band on outer side, standing): 25.5 in

15 lbs. I can do this.