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casual-eumetazoa · 11 months ago

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hi does anyone have ideas for ways to occupy your brain so that it doesn't blast intrusive thoughts 24/7. activities need to also be not super brain heavy and able to be done in bed if needed. for now I'm playing a lot of mobile games and watching a lot of youtube but it's getting repetitive and starting to lose the effect. thank in advance

#chronic illness #spoonie #intrusive thoughts #disabled #my current list of issues is. uh. its a lot #started with severe autism burnout #which caused EDS and dysautonomia to flare like hell #then it turned out i also have hyperthyroidism and probably need surgery #then it turned out what i always thought was just anxiety is actually OCD #and its also flaring like so bad #i had to go back on the meds i was on when i was 18 which are first gen antipsychotics #just to be able to eat and drink without the intrusive thoughts telling me it will kill me #now I'm on two psychiatric medications at once and its still kinda hard to do anything #half the days im stuck in bed because of dysautonomia/postural hypotension #i can't concentrate on shit because of the thyroid and burnout #so even reading and writing are super hard #but i need to constantly be doing something or the thoughts get overwhelming #so like. any advice is appreciated #its also quite likely i will lose the spot in the PhD program because of this #because there is no system for medical leave for us #so me and partner will lose our only source of income #but for now they're still paying me even though i havent showed up for a whole month #so that's a problem for another day #oh i also need a wisdom tooth removed ......#feels like my life has been repeatedly hit with a hammer

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