#nottynepoetry

[sailortrippingballs]

Pretty in red

I can recall most rainy days before school

The way the fence smelled before climbing it as a short cut

Early morning hanging in the cafeteria

Not the first time I've seen you

The first time I SAW you

Hair curly, lip gloss popping

Cussing out a boy, ive seen flirting with other girls

I said damnnnn, I think ill see this part again

The next few times I saw you

It was a brush

Pretty in red

That had my mind in a rush

Something about a girl and heels

And jeans

& a tshirt, slightly revealing the lusc

Not sure if it was me or it was getting hot

There's one moment in particular

I knew it was a crush

You leaned over me as I talked

Arms up, with every word spoken you stepped closer

Eyes glued in

Deeper than laser focus

My hands were sweating

The wall was holding me up

Out in the hall outside the autoshop

Away from everyone except kids coming from buying cookies

You held the double door's beam

I kinda thought is this a dream

I do indeed remember that picture

As I held your waist

All the wicker

You were always prettiest in red.

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Slip

There's this passion between love and drugs

And it gives in

A whirlwind between wins and the winds

They push, but always come back in thee end

Split, broken, crushed with no hope to mend.

Fuck a rule, they're meant to bend

Never spoke the word heal

The synonymous milk and glass

Spilled or spoiled even expiration dates don't last

If you can keep what you hold

Have a nice firm grasp

Be sure to smile

Whether it be dimples, or all cheeks

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Last one, but not the first.

See the last one

Not really my last

The one before

Who chose to open that door

Left that door open

& just walked away

As in if, it wasn't cracked from our time before

Like the knocker wasn't knocked

To flee to me when im flocked

To unmoore me in a storm

Now im a boat undocked

Drifting away until I find my name

A piece of wood carved so fine

From the finest tree rooted away from natures poverty

Cut from a tree that wasnt uprooted, rerouted and turned to saw dust

My dust will settle

The winds draft will mettle

Not last, but the one before.

[sailortrippingballs]

Not Enough

To me it seems I'm not enough

A tease here

A kiss there

Maybe just enough

You look at me like you THINK you want to fuck

Like I'm great for you

Your soul just thinks I'm good enough

Do you think we could just be best friends?

Itd put your worry some mind to a slow stir and it could rest

Idk what I'm listening to

Is it your left out lips?

The vibe that slips?

Or my heart because I already know the shit isn't catching grip

I'm worth your stories

Arm candy, but boring

I only want you to want what your heart wants

Mind over hearts first jump, could be a front

Why do I question if I'm good enough?

[sailortrippingballs]

Beast

The beast sits on the end of my crumbling edges

Fearing the fall, once commenced and now pledges

Brute, chilly and soaked

The atmosphere, weather and ground

Sweater weather with the loss of love

Although this is the price

The cost has been dug

Dug, so deep you have to scavenge for a breath

The beast wraps you

The power feels good

Eyes covered

Mouth gagged

Hands tied behind your back

Confused by such assertion

Listen with your ears

Inside you is the person

Beast

[sailortrippingballs]

Reflections

My reflections are pain

Tainted with this world's wicked poison

Not the true word

But some quick splif

A way to so-called power

If not right in your eyes then who's

My only deadline when I've reached my end

The only way is to your will I bend

I dont understand a choice

If you want it to be one way then why an option

On earth it's cold as hell

I speak literally

My vein poised with dull uselessness man has twisted

I wish to follow your path

I will follow your path

Why am I so weak?

Beneath this flesh

Lies my soul

For I am learning to forgive myself

Is that not for me to do?

I know only you can do...

I guess I just worry my end

To not feel human I assume my end

Allowing myself to feel pain

I just ask that you come and free my brain

Why am I here

Am I a burden?

I only follow your path

How does man rewrite your words?

Have they been rewritten?

I question myself, never your existence.

[sailortrippingballs]

Shred

Out in the open

I stand here naked

cold.

dirty.

delirious.

unfocused.

yet, focused on you.

this can’t be covered

a smoke curtain and the smoke can’t be smothered

the rain starts to pour

shot of jack N0. 4

If we could speak as fast as we think

we’d stumble receptors

to know and see what i now know, i’d accept more

you with me compares to no floor

No ceilings

I read your eyes and try not to imagnify

something that may not be true, or just my own lie

I just want to grip your soul and never let go

I’m so hot it feels like the breeze that flows

over your pretty face, I see you and I see a sunflower

Beautifully bloomed and growing upward like a tower

your seeds bring joy to life, you’re fruitful..

With out the storm, I would not have found what I once thought was lost

that empty fucking space couldn’t be filled with out cost.

[sailortrippingballs]

In the air

Me sitting here

Her sitting there

Luscious chocolate paradise

A recipe that I could NEVER replicate

Thoughts are thunk to be in empty space

While you're on my mind they levitate

I have highs and lows

My mind fluctuates

I think about your flow

You're this blooming flower

Petals vibrant, like your smile

You don't require 100% sunlight to glow

It enhances that melanin

Trying to get more vitamin you

Through my eyes

I haven't begun to describe my views

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All that is left

All that is left is this beating heart, these words and the ceaseless ocean

my emotions of caring for others

these words are my expressions

speaking my mind

splaying my thoughts

conquering fears; these everlasting fears 

an ocean filled with moments that once were

memories are the mist from the waves, just a blur.

[sailortrippingballs]

Alienated

As much as I believe in shooting stars

This world will crush all moving parts

Hop in the space craft and move to Mars

No rules

Just boobs and bars.

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To your knees

That keep you up when you're not here

I can sense you when you're near

Smelling the sweet scent of you

I'm still trying to wrap my mind around you

Kisses I could plant all day

Watch them them grow hungrier

Until you say, "I want you"

Although I was already planning to make a move

Like a predator hunts its dinner

For all that I crave I'm a well known sinner

To sin, then sin again,

It's never the wrong time, but I'm not ready to make any amends

The way you feel to me caresses my soul

When you turn me on my eyes grow light

No literally, no sunlight, just a dreamy brown

A golden cusp, will make your world spin round

We're wrapped in golden, velvet spiel

Soft as silk

I'm sure Rumpelstiltskin had a will

See you're a womans daughter and I'm trying to make you mine

[sailortrippingballs]

Do you ever?

Do you ever wish you were in the same space as her?

Do ever feel motivated to feel your heart race for her?

I feel like I'd drive 1000 miles just to be face to face with her

She really doesn't understand

I'm telling her my plans

But maybe she just thinks I'm a dub

I'm trying to connect to her in subtle ways

I see me as a hub

If I have your heart

Girl love is a flood

I hate mind games

But somehow I play yours

Beautiful, crazy, kinky with a hint of freak

Driving my mind, impairing my speech

I'm just thinking fuzzy navel

Girl you're my peach

Do you ever lye awake past midnight thinking of me?

Do you truly believe we will be more than we see?

Something about a pretty as smile that makes me weak

Tall to me dirty while flashing your teeth

Talk to me like you know me

No passion can cease

You keep saying my name like you're about to preach

Holding you in my arms just makes my heart happy

Sitting here picturing the kisses, I just cant get enough

Been starved too long I just want to eat you up

I feel like you change me

It's a thing called the changeling

Do you ever imagine all that we could be?

Do you ever lye awake and think of me?

[sailortrippingballs]

MIND ME

Say whatever comes to mind

I'm looking at a faceless sunshine

Shes so beautiful, even when she's on her grind

To help her relax and pour her a glass of wine

Have you ever just wanted to give someone the happiness they deserve

Diminishing all the pain even at their worst

So much love that it fucking hurts

Easy on the pain

Hard on love

I can only tell, its hard to tell what you're thinking of

I want your sweet kisses, and your whole hugs

When I'm on you, I swear I'm on drugs

Yes high off you, baby dont pull the plug.

Mind me

 whilst I mind our love.

[sailortrippingballs]

Memories of you

Running from these memories we had

Times we shared, beers we grabbed

I keep seeing your face

But this fucking eraser wont erase

Tears burning my eyes like I was sprayed with mace

Wet dreams, I remember your taste

All the nights we went back to my place

Sex at 2 in morning, breakfast in the morning

Sex in the morning

Now you've got me mourning

Wish there was some pressure in rotation

Everytime I open my eyes I see you in circulation

Bounded by a sex appeal

Is this a nightmare or is it really real

These memories of you

Are what I cant shake

Losing my mind

I almost want whatever it takes

Friction from our mistakes

Going nowhere fast

Staring out at the great lakes

A twinkle in a star reminds me of your eyes

Everywhere I go I see you in disguise

Thanks for the token I hated the ride.

[sailortrippingballs]

The Encounter

The wall is holding me up where I stand

Afraid to move, I tilt my shades and glance

There's something that caught my eye

I imagine conversation, but i try not to pry

I take one step out & instantly feel relief

I sit on this stool looking out on the dance floor

I gaze at you and you are steady dancing

A day dream flashes when you look back at me

Just imagine waves crashing

Some courage, i ask you to dance

I put my finger through the loop in your pants

As I pull you closer, I can smell your perfume

Truthfully it makes me want to trEAT you to a wonderful night

You spin around 

and I just love your little cute ass grinding on me

You rock with me and I rock with you

My hands slip down to your waist 

 now on your hips

A heated race when you look me in my face

Biting on your lips

 just a kiss I want a taste

Last song of the night you’d suggest your place

Id ride along just to be cuddled in your space

[sailortrippingballs]

Funny thing

Funny thing is I almost forgot your face

I know your heart

Well i thought I knew

Shit it was twice right before your candle's blew

In the night animates the smoke would seem blue

Some way some how

I couldn't forget thise fucking juicy lips

Like wtf is this

Am I still high

Why tf am I still on your trip

This is the shit right here I don't get

Just plain ol reminisce after reminisce

So if I burn all these letters,

I hope this finally finishes this.