#not that she's seen hawke

[thewardenisonthecase]

also, when meredith shows up she tells hawke she knows who they are because of the many reports with their name but like did those reports include a physical description or what? If bethany is a circle mage/carver is a templar then i completely understand how she knows just by looking at hawke, but else i'm like did cullen write these reports and decided to say what hawke looked like

[dykedvonte]

One of my mutuals opinions is the "bro code" thing, that Curly is one of those guys who wouldn't care about the victim because the perpetrator is his friend and I'm really banging my head on the wall like that other anon. I've only played through the game once but Curly's behaviour/reactions etc read completely different from the "bro code" thing and I have to wonder if my mutual and I even played the same game.. like the constant digs at him from Jimmy, his body language in his face reveal and so on like you mentioned in your post. While this game is a little different obviously, it kind of reminded of a point in Alice Madness Returns that makes it very clear that Alice's pain blinded her to the abuse of the other children and her failure to act earlier because of it. Curly is guilty of a similar inaction but it doesn't change the fact he was a victim of Jimmy too. I don't think I can look at it any other way because both of these games have really stuck with me.

I genuinely think it really is the idea that people want a simple easy to blame problem and the idea that the only relatable victims of abuse are those that "surpass" it or do a lot to help others. When it comes to victims, especially those that don't fit the typical demographics, who either accidently perpetuate it, enable it or aren't ideal in some way shape or form, people jump to ignore what they went through as it's easier than dealing with those conflicting sentiments.

The bro-code conversation in Mouthwashing stems from a concept I generally dislike that there had to be something about Curly that made him meet or keep being friends with someone like Jimmy. I think people genuinely underestimate how many like decent and good people just know an asshole or are friends with someone who is really bad outside of their view/established dynamics. The game makes it clear none of the inaction against Jimmy is because of a lack of care, it is a lack of understanding from the privaleged postions they have as men to not have to worry about what Anya does/went through and the type of extremes men like Jimmy will go through to cover it up. They are all too preoccupied in their own strifes.

Another thing I see being oversaturated the idea that you have to be a freak, misanthrope or have a disorder to do the thing Jimmy does. The game is an escalation, it's a spiral that I don't see people comment on that Jimmy was not likely having the mood swings and episodes of rage/frustration we were seeing in the game. This is after they all start experiencing the worst moments in their lives that he got THAT openly bad. Of course, this is just my interpretation but much like in real life, people that go to extremes like that usually live mundane lives. It's a pressure cooker affect to where the stress made them pop. It's self inflicted but still the case.

I really think people need to be more willing to acknowledge that not everything needs to be an extreme or in black and white or easy to understand. It doesn't need to be happy or have an answer or solution, especially in the cases where the abused sadly helps perpetuate what they experience. It's not he should've known better from experience or shouldn't he have known what could've happened because victims tend to not like to think in matters of the worst. Not to mention, especially in cases of abuse where it feels so personally directed that you don't expect to happen to someone else.

[jackdaniel69nice]

Does anyone else think the bird jokes are overused and redundant :/

Like people reduce Tokoyami’s whole personality to a single physical trait and I just think it’s weird. In mha canon not a single (good) person makes jokes about tsu, shoji, or Tokoyami’s heteromorph traits. Tokoyami doesn’t even exhibit any bird traits (except the perching), that’s all headcanon. The only one who brings up his avian appearance is hawks. There are only 5 instances I can remember someone saying something about mutant appearances (excluding the direct assault against shoji and ordinary woman)

Mineta calling shoji octopus, which he then apologizes for after finding out how rude that is to say

Jiro saying “that damn bird” when dark shadow blocked her attack. It felt more like a statement of her frustration than an insult.

Bakugo calling tokoyami bird brain, which is normal for him

Dabi calling spinner lizard, and spinner getting offended and yelling at him (I don’t remember if he continues to do it afterwards)

Shoto calling that police chief a mutt, there was no excuse for that, that was just racist

And still I think these are pretty tame compared to how the fandom treats heteromorphs!! The stereotyping of Tokoyami and hawks is absolutely insane. I love when people come up with headcanons for them having more avian traits but when those traits become the butt of the joke it’s extremely distasteful. If I see one more cannibalism joke about eating chicken I’m gonna hurt something. You guys do realize birds eat other birds all the time right???? There is a reason “chicken hawk” is a name. A hawk literally tried to attack my chickens yesterday, they love chicken. That is the reason hawks favorite food is chicken. I can see why tokoyami would want to hide his avian traits because if people in mha are like ours he would have been bullied to hell.

I know people making bird jokes are just having fun, but it’s just really weird to me. It’s important to see the comparison between real life racism and the heteromorph racism in mha. There is a reason horikoshi adds the mutant rally in the final war arc, the lesson there has flown over so many people’s heads. I hope this post gives you more insight to look beyond appearances and actually try to understand these side characters a bit better.

[thisisaname-whatahappyname]

LMAOOO

[rooolt]

I do think Sam was waiting for any excuse to be #1 hawk hater again, like the minute demetri is like “yeah he’s being a dick” she’s hunting that boy for sport

[mohntilyet]

really wish varric survived because if there was anyone who would have defended tyche for lying about all that for several months straight it would have been him. it's a coping mechanism. he'd understand <3

[tuxedo-rabbit]

I like the idea of Merrill rescuing Hawke by having to make some kind of deal with the Nightmare demon.

What sort of deal I haven't quite figured out. But something where she outsmarts the demon and gets Hawke back, in the style of old folk tales or The Devil Went Down to Georgia.

I just think it would fit well with her character.

[mjrtaurus]

There's been a lot of times when Crocodile has had to comfort his sons from nightmares, but he never expects it to be the other way around. And why on earth should he? He's the parent, Gabe and Gryphon are the children.

So to say he's caught off guard when his dreams are being terrorized by pretty much any event from the shitshow that is his life and he wakes up to find Gabriel wiping at his eyes and saying "It's okay, Baba. You're safe." while Gryphon is piling stuffed animals around Crocodile with as much silent dignity as he can muster, is a vast understatement.

Crocodile has the particular sort of disordered sleeping that a few nights awake in a row will end with him in an exhausted, nightmare infested midday crash. And sometimes it isn’t only nightmares that get triggered by this setup.

Night terrors are horrific things. Parasomnia just in general is a horrific thing. You are awake, speaking, talking, moving, but your mind is still in that hallucinogenic state that dreams are. And it doesn’t just “switch off”, either. Night terrors- like most fits of parasomnia- end in a near seamless bleed into the waking world, and it shakes your sense of reality to the core.

It’s sleepwalking while fully conscious.

So when the boys “wake” him, he scoops them up in a bear-hug, shaking like a leaf while the dead man with violet eyes watches from the doorway.

[dailytraingirl]

i have a feeling

a terrible fear encroaching

that ill never love a boy

the way i love the ocean

[allmightyscroll-swag]

I know I'm in deep with the disco elysium hyperfixation because I'm contemplating drawing the cast with wings. No changes to the plot whatsoever, (or character design really), they just have wings plastered on their backs poorly. It's my love language. I need to make my favorite guys into stereotypical they-wouldnt-get-off-the-ground 1/4 bird people.

(In my mind Harry would have really broad ones. And yeah logically he'd have, well, harrier wings but I think it'd be funnier if they were a cockatoos or a seagulls (or even pigeons for maximum dumpster man) and Kim's would be small and compact. He couldn't fly well with his eyesight anyway.) Don't have a set bird in mind for him though.)

[hawkeyedflame]

being a lesbian sucks because i go to a lindsey stirling show and i am blown away by her athleticism, physique and skill born of years of incredibly hard work, and i cannot tell if i want her body or if i want her body 🙄

[defira85]

Thedas Tuesday

Yes I'm going to keep doing these. Do I have enough characters to make it through to the launch? Not quite. I'll elaborate on some of them in more detail closer to the date

Micaela "Hawke" Gottschalk

Presenting Micaela "Hawke" Gottschalk, cousin to the Champion of Kirkwall Josefina Hawke. Bubbly blood mage and junior member of the Veiled Brotherhood. I have a fairly extensive background plotted out for my Hawke that included giving Malcolm a family and explaining why he was familiar with the Grey Wardens and knew ancient blood magic rituals, which created House Gottschalk of Nevarra, a powerful noble house dedicated to being demon hunters. The Veiled Brotherhood was the name of the organisation they founded at around the time of the First Blight, and Jo made the decision to come out of hiding during Inquisition and align the Brotherhood with the Inquisition and share their immense libraries and knowledge regarding strengthening the Veil and fighting demons

Micaela looks a lot like my Bethany Hawke (and Mallorie Hawke owned by @apocalyptichero who is ALSO a Hawke cousin), and she was so mad that nobody thought she was old enough to go off and help with the Inquisition when that disaster happened. In the interim, she moved from the ancient family estate on the border with Tevinter to Nevarra City to study, and found that necromancy was a fine match for her given her family's history with blood magic. She joined the Mourn Watch, as her talents with the Veil were quite well suited to helping maintain the Grand Necropolis, and has spent the better part of the last seven years serving in Nevarra City

She's been a canon character of mine for a long time - she was mentioned in passing in one of Jo's fics, and I really wanted to bring my Veiled Brotherhood headcanon faction in to work with the Veilguard. She'd be in her late 20s at the time Veilguard is set, so it worked out perfectly!

[vaguely-concerned]

I've been trying to figure out a dynamic between neve and rye that I find more compelling, because right now there's not much of anything there for me to sink my little teeth into. but I think I've landed on something delicious with the idea that especially after minrathous gets fucked, rye looks at neve and sees myrna -- someone he feels he keeps letting down horribly no matter how hard he tries not to and can't quite achieve the approval of/connection with that he wishes so it's better to just pull away completely and disengage rather than stay in that unshifting shame. neve is (very understandably) measured and distant with him after what happened, and he's flashing back to his student days of myrna gazing at the perpetually hungover heartbroken heap of a person of him on the other side of her desk every time he missed the deadline of a paper or project like '...can we at least both agree that this is. a bit disappointing. especially considering your potential.' (and him all smudged black eyeshadow and numb ruefulness being like 'sure that's a very kind way to put it myrna thank you'.)

aside from the 'if I let him get too deeply into this he'll go the way of brom and it'll be all my fault (again)' element, neve thinks rye is dismissing her and her city/being a bit callous in the same way he was after varric's death (listen. how fucking wild must rook's reaction to losing a beloved mentor seem to the rest of the crew who aren't seeing the blood magic paper doll ghost varric the whole time, especially those who got to see them interact. you WOULD think 'there's something wrong with this guy. putting the job first is one thing just not seeming to react at all is another this is fucking freaky', wouldn't you, especially after seeing the warmth in that dynamic in action beforehand.) perfect storm of two people who grit their teeth and turn inwards in pain deciding that not talking about it is their best bet (NEWSFLASH: IT ISN'T) lmao

(rye spent his last year of watcher training on a mostly joyless bender and then got it together enough to finish the eternal orb project last moment in a fevered near-sleepless week instead of the half a year that was intended. emmrich is both astounded and distressed to hear this. "a week? but -- but that is an astounding accomplishment rook!! and also why in the maker's good light would you ever do that to yourself?" ("well you see there was no one to stop me from doing it like that but me. and under those conditions these things tend to happen".) rye was working through/looking up stuff around transitioning and doing every kind of OTHER high level watcher research through that whole time, but ultimately he's an excellent watcher and a terrible student, at least under traditional methods. adhd from here to the fucking moon. touched by something akin to divine inspiration in moments of high tension that pulls all the threads into one coherent unbreakable cord, a bit of a frayed mess in most other settings. in our world he'd be dropping out of a masters program at the very last hurdle in this moment maker bless and protect him)

[veatomis]

Thinking abt how for elio meeting varric was having pretty much the dream and hope he had since he was a child realized, that one day someone would come into his life and would treat him like he was a part of his family, without strings attached, without the baggage of the crows, that he could look at someone and know they would be kind and would care for him without being buried six feet beneath carefully crafted layers of pretend disinterest. And how for varric elio was essentially a replacement for adam even down to his nickname, how varric's best years of his life was when he was walking around kirkwall with his best friend, getting to drink at the hanged man every single night with him and how much he missed being able to see adam as regularly as he did back then, and here comes this kid who has such a similar personality, with the same big eyes adam had, almost the same age adam was when he and varric met and theyre also both mages and so, if he tries just a bit hard, if he calls this kid rook (like the bird. not the chess piece) he can for a second pretend he's back in some nasty seedy bar having the time of his life with his best friend hawke.

[halflingkima]

i see so many breakdowns about the tragedy of the champion!hawke (you try to save everyone, you will not; you do everything for the people you love, you will lose them anyway; etc etc) but i've never seen a breakdown about the tragedy of bethany hawke. she has all the tragedy of the champion, all the trauma, on top of being a mage and losing all agency for the majority of the story.

i get that a mage!hawke's storyline is similar, but by nature it cannot be exactly bethany's; her tragedy is borne of being the main character's little sister.

[unreadpoppy]

I was talking about this on twitter but i wanted to talk about it here too that like, for me at least, playing as fem hawke lowkey brought an even bigger sense of dread during all that remains is that added realism of like "this could happen to me".

Like, i'm a woman so I already know this sort of stuff because of the world we live in, but it was really interesting to me to feel that also during a game. It's not a pleasent feeling, mind you, but I think it added a sort of like realism that I wasn't expecting.

I know that Hawke is supposed to look more like their father, but I also like the idea of if Hawke looked more like their mom and that sense of "what if this had happened to me? could it have happened to me?" and that being another added layer of how fucked the world is.

Idk i liked that. It's awful and it's interesting in a gaming perspective. I don't think it was intentional but i don't mind. I like seeing this sort of stuff because like...most of the games I've played, the protagonist was a man, and so I could never really engage with stuff that I felt i could relate to since i'm not a man irl. So it felt interesting for once to see something that definetly lingers on my mind a lot be somewhat shown in games.