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angelsndragons · 3 years ago

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fjord’s feelings for caduceus changed in episodes 98-99

by which i mean, fjord finally realized how special and important he is to caduceus, which in turn set the tone of their relationship for the rest of the campaign. buckle up, this is a long one.

not when fjord threw away his sword and went to caduceus instead of jester. or when caduceus presented him with the star razor. or after the citadel fight when caduceus gave him his holy symbol. i think things changed for fjord in episode 98-99, when caduceus saved his life and removed the orb.

this is going to require some context.

because here’s the thing: fjord’s always looking for the price, waiting for the catch or other shoe to drop. people caring for him because of him with no strings attached is unprecedented. vandren and the world taught fjord that love is conditional, that only if you hide what others would find ugly and make yourself useful to them will they deign to give you a scrap of affection. i don’t think vandren did this maliciously, mind you, it was just part of his worldview and fjord’s life up to and beyond that point supported it. we can see that right up to the end of the show, where fjord is terrified that vandren didn’t remember him or that he didn’t mean nearly as much to the man as vandren did to him.

so we have fjord, who learned to don masks and hide his truest self, including his best and worst aspects. while fjord made the nein into a coherent group, into a force, a crew, a family, even, he still waited for that other shoe to drop. waited for the day that they would reject him because he was no longer useful or because he pushed them too far. you can see this waiting all over the early campaign; he’s not looking for an excuse like caleb to cut and run but he anticipates nearly all the moments that almost fractured the nein, in spite of that low wisdom score. while jester carried the guilt of not being able to save molly, fjord carried the guilt of not protecting the group in that crucial moment. travis confirmed on talks that fjord’s biggest fear when he lost his powers the first time was that he would no longer be useful and be kicked out of the group.

that’s why fjord damn near broke down at the end of 72. the nein, no questions asked, with their standard level of snark, accepted that he was going to be a liability and kept him around anyway. armed him anyway. declared that he was no liability and that they would help him along until he could help himself and them again. this unconditional acceptance caught fjord completely off guard. it always does, really. because caduceus had said for months, an out of game half a year, that he was looking to reforge the sword as a gift for fjord. he said this to fjord’s face. he did not change course when he learned that the sword was a legendary blade forged by acolytes of the wildmother and moonweaver. the blade was still meant for fjord, even if fjord was still chained to uk’otoa. fjord extends his love and protection to the nein but is still not convinced the reverse is true. he was starting to believe it but he wasn’t quite there yet.

caduceus has a high enough wisdom to understand that’s fjord’s hang up even if he doesn’t quite understand the reasoning behind it. that’s why he pulls fjord aside in ep 75 and tells him that he doesn’t have to choose the wildmother, that there are other gods and other ideas out there looking for a champion. fjord, who at this point considers wildmom his only option (travis says she’s the only one who’s shown the slightest interest in fjord and that’s why he’s gunning for her), is befuddled by caduceus and this whole talk, so much so the pair end up talking past each other for the next several episodes.

after fjord officially becomes a paladin, things between him and caduceus become fairly...unsettled compared to their previous interactions. they talk past each other more, they aren’t in sync enough to double team those social interactions they were just starting to get good at. things are just weird for a while. to me, that’s fjord waiting for the catch, waiting for caduceus to call in some favor or something like it. and he keeps getting confused when caduceus doesn’t. so he tries once or twice to follow in caduceus’ footsteps and do as he would instead. and it just makes things weirder. these two don’t have a moment together that doesn’t leave one of them confused or unsatisfied until ep 87, when caduceus gives fjord the holy symbol and inadvertently kicks off the next phase of their relationship. because here, caduceus tries to put them back on equal footing and fjord recognizes it. caduceus rejects framing their relationship as mentor/student and tells fjord he doesn’t need caduceus to give him answers. fjord is “well on his way.”

by defining what they aren’t, mentor/student, our two boys inadvertently ask the question, “so what are we?” honestly, it’s a question that the entire group grapples with in the 90s as they reintegrate yasha, as veth struggles with the question of changing back and whether she can stay with the nein, as beau tries to sacrifice herself for veth, as jester learns some uncomfortable truths about the traveler, as caduceus finds his family again. fjord and caduceus can easily define what they aren’t - not mentor/student, not brothers or cousins- but what they actually are stumps both of them.

their relationship doesn't look like any of their relationships with the others: beau is fjord's bro and first mate, caleb is fjord's complicated mirror and admiree, jester his crush and first person he learned to be vulnerable with, veth his antagonistic sibling. on caduceus' side, caleb is the one he looks to for a fellow project nerd and clear, unvarnished goals, beau and jester are the sisters caduceus misses, yasha the quiet beloved barbarian he understands better than the rest, and veth a mess he wants to help but can't. but fjord and caduceus' relationship is highly undefined at this point. notably undefined, beyond their newly shared connection to melora. at the dinner with essek, we get the stone bomb. and travis and fjord panic. like no, seriously, they spend the next four episodes low key panicking over this revelation. this ties back to fjord waiting for those other shoes to drop but it’s also more than that.

when it comes to destiny, fjord has always been the answer, the self made man, to both caduceus and caleb’s questions about destiny. he makes choices about who he is, who he wants to be, and takes actions towards those goals. he is one of those rare people who can wear many different masks, take on many different roles, while still maintaining his sense of self and becoming a fuller version of who he is. when I say fjord is the answer to destiny, what i mean is that he is what ioun said way back in c1 about Fate: mortals make choices and through those choices, destiny is fulfilled. he is the answer to caduceus' own growth from passive instrument waiting for someone to play him to active communicator in this conversation between gods and mortals. in this sense, fjord is what caduceus learns to be (this is exactly why caduceus rejects a mentor role; he has as much to learn from fjord as vice versa).

so for this coincidence to pop up, this idea that maybe fjord only had the illusion of choice to extend his service to the wildmother, that maybe somehow he was manipulated again, that there was some grand destiny pushing things and fjord had no say in it, yeah, i can see why fjord was low-key terrified. so is this what fjord and caduceus are: just some predestined grand fairy tale partnership neither of them have that much say in? episode 96 resoundingly rejects that label too. for one thing, none of the stones or clays treat fjord's last name as anything amazing or spectacular. for another, this string of episodes gives us caduceus at his most human. the terror of not knowing what happened to his family, the uncertainty of his homecoming, the relief of saving his family and home, the irritation at the way the chaos crew treats the temple, the playful attitude caduceus cultivates after, it's all on display. caduceus drops much of his placid exterior and willingly allows the nein to see sheer depth of emotion he has.

which leads me back to episode 98-99. uk’otoa’s agents come for fjord. and caduceus is pissed. travis and ashley both said on talks that they hadn’t really seen taliesin that pissed, that it was like someone had threatened an actual loved one of his. fjord dies. and comes back to an exhausted, still pissed off firbolg who is five seconds away from snapping archmage vess derogna’s head off for interrupting his prayer of healing. taliesin doesn’t even begin to relax until they start interrogating the dead fish people the next day. once caduceus confirms the ball is still in fjord, notably caduceus and caleb were the two who remembered, fjord starts asking for a way to remove it. he asks caduceus to start a commune with wildmom in tandem with jester’s commune with the traveler. caleb tells fjord that caduceus fought “very hard for you while you were down, i don’t know if he’s up to it.” having heard that, caduceus still tries, with his first divine intervention attempt of the campaign. and when jester figures out that greater restoration will work, caduceus pushes through his exhaustion, takes charge, and goes through a truly terrifying greater restoration with fjord to remove the ball. convulsing, seizing, shuddering, collapsing, etc.

in those moments, and in the quiet after when fjord confirms that he still has his powers, it finally hits him that yes, people can protect, fight, and love him for who he is alone. there is no chain or other shoe waiting to be dropped here. the wildmother is no uk’otoa, to punish or take power at a whim. caduceus will fight with everything he has and then some for fjord because he loves him (not for nothing does fjord only realizes the depths of jester’s feelings when she uses heal on him). who are caduceus and fjord to each other? they are people who will fight for one another and the others as far as they can. fjord says over and over again that he wants to protect the nein and look out for them because he cares for them. he demonstrates it over and over again as well. caduceus says basically the same thing; he wants everyone safe and happily on their way and will stay until they are. he demonstrates this all the time as well. this is, i think, the first time that he demonstrates his dedication so unequivocally, free of the artifice of duty, fully committed through love. fjord recognizes this in caduceus and caduceus does in fjord.

i say this is a turning point because, while they don’t really have another super in depth conversation alone together, these two start clocking each other and openly help and look out for each other. there’s an ease and intimacy to the relationship after this. fjord watching caduceus swim near vokodo’s lair, fjord being ready to hand over his armor to caduceus when it looks like his won’t be ready, fjord, caduceus, and beau plotting behind jester’s back to keep her safe from the traveler, the absolute offense fjord takes to eadwulf after he spoke to caduceus like that, fjord levels up in paladin after caduceus tells him he’s proud to know him, all the way to the end of the show when fjord shelters the clerics and tells them to finish lucien, we get little moments like these from both of them. hell, caduceus is the first person in the campaign to tell fjord directly that he loves him.

#cr #critical role #cr meta #fjorclay #wildbros #fjord #caduceus clay #prim did theirs so i'm doing mine #in b4 the wrap-up #just barely #and ran out of steam at the end #i'll expand on that later #gotta finish my vm v m9 meta #and the cockroach party analysis

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itsallyscorner · 4 years ago

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just like magic with marvel cast, the vibe is----- a perfect song for a lil b*tch with a good heart and a sarcastic mouth

just like magic is the song we ALL need for 2020😌 Start manifesting ya’ll🖤 Also thank you sm for the request I am so so sorry this took so freakin’ long😭 Love u, happy reading🖤🖤 Tried to add my own lil twist to your request:)

(A lil different from the request, but I tried to make the reader have a bit sas.)

💌.

just like magic

Growing up within the Marvel Cinematic Universe was probably one of things you were most grateful for. When you first started out you weren’t that social. You were new to the business, you didn’t know anybody and you were intimidated by every single actor you crossed paths with.

At first you didn’t feel like you fit in. You felt as if you were a burden to everyone else. You barely talked to anyone which made the others approach you out of force by the Russos. Everyone around you was talented while you were just some newcomer who had jack shit as experience. The first few years you were insecure of yourself mentally and physically. You weren’t as pretty or fit as the other women in the MCU nor did your skills live up to theirs. Which led to some unhealthy habits. Plus there were haters and movie critics who would say horrible things about you and your acting.

You had a rocky start unlike Tom Holland and even Lexi Rabe. Until one day when you realized that you had to change how you were thinking. It took you a while but all that negative thinking you were doing was only bringing you negative energy. So when you had a break from filming movies, your number one goal was to improve yourself.

Wake up in my bed, I just wanna have a good day (Mmm, ah)

Think it in my head, then it happens how it should, ayy

Twelve o'clock, I got a team meeting, then a meditation at like 1:30

Then I ride to the studio listening to some shit I wrote (Oh)

You woke up with smile on your face in a sense of calmness. The sun shined bright hues into your room as you got up from your bed. Today was the first day back on set. You guys were finally filming Civil War and you were honestly so excited. As you did your morning routine, you went over how the day would go in your head. You’re genuinely excited to see the entire cast. It has been almost half a year since you’ve seen everyone and you couldn’t wait to be back.

You took one last look at yourself in the mirror. Compared to the previous year, you looked and felt healthy. Your eyes shined and you looked well relaxed. You know like one of those face cleanser commercials? That’s how you felt. You felt like a breath of fresh air.

The ride to the studio took a good 30 minutes but it felt like seconds. You entered the set with a new sense of confidence and pride. The energy was practically radiating off you.

“(Y/n)?” You hear someone call from behind you. You turn around and see Scarlett looking at you.

“Hey!” You greet her as you approach her. You pulled her into a hug, startling her.

“Oh! Hello to you too, honey.” She laughed as she wrapped her arms around you. “How are you?”

“I’m doing great! Life’s been good.” You answer as a toothy grin graces itself on your face. Scarlett’s eyes are filled with shocked. From the previous times she’s talked to you she’s never seen you so loud or open. You were always shy and closed off from everyone on set.

Good karma, my aesthetic (Aesthetic)

Keep my conscience clear, that's why I'm so magnetic

Manifest it (Yeah), I finessed it (I finessed it)

Take my pen and write some love letters to Heaven

Eventually everyone on set caught on to your new attitude. Though they tried to be discreet about their reactions and shocked expressions, you could still see how they were caught off guard by your sudden change of nature.

Anthony watched as you conversed with Elizabeth and Scarlett on the couch in Robert’s “village” . You were probably the most smiliest person in the room beating Evans, who was eating his lunch.

“She’s like different. But in a good way. It’s like she’s bloomed.” Anthony thought out loud to the men beside him. Chris (E) and Sebastian look in your direction.

“Bloomed?” Chris snorted as he swallowed his food.

“Yeah, like she’s growing into a woman.” Anthony hummed proudly as he went back to his own lunch. Sebastian smiled at you, “I think she’s gained some confidence in herself and finally realized how good of a person she is.”

“If she’s finally realized that, I’m glad she did. She’s like a ball of sunshine, it’s adorable.” Chris smiled proudly at you as your hands move around animatedly while explaining some story to the two women in front of you.

“Y’all think it’s a boy?” Anthony wondered. Sebastian rolled his eyes at his friend. Before he can even respond Anthony is calling you over. You approach the men with a smile and take a seat beside Sebastian.

“What’s up?” You greet them. Chris nods at you as he chews on his sandwich. Sebastian greeting you with a quiet “hey”.

“So who’s the lucky man?” Anthony asks teasingly. Your brows knit together head tilting to the side.

“Man?”

“Yes man, or boy, whatever. Who’s got you feelin’ yourself, (y/n).” Anthony wiggles his brows as he shimmies closer to you. Sebastian, who’s in between you two, cringes at the man to his left.

You didn’t take any offense to the question, knowing that everyone was curious as to why you were so unlike yourself.

You chuckled before smirking at the older man, “Anthony, honey. I don’t need a man to be feelin’ myself. I did this on my own.”

Chris and Sebastian’s mouth drop at your answer. Chris laughed as he pointed out Anthony’s face. Sebastian slung an arm around your shoulder bringing you into a side hug as he laughed with Chris.

“To be fair” Chris began to say but started to laugh, “To be fair, you deserved that.” Anthony’s face went flushed as he nodded to himself. You suddenly felt bad that you put him on the spot.

“Alright, stop laughing at him.” You playfully glare at Chris and Seb. You poke Anthony’s arm, “To answer your question, I’ve just been working on myself. Thinking more positively, I even tried manifestation.”

“You know what, that’s good. You’re taking care of yourself mentally and physically. I’m proud of you for doing this for yourself, we all are.” Anthony tells you as he motions to the two other men.

You look at all three of them, all of them looking at you with pride, “Thanks guys.”

Just like magic (Baby), just like magic (Oh yeah)

Middle finger to my thumb and then I snap it

Just like magic (Yeah), I'm attractive (Oh yeah)

I get everything I want 'cause I attract it (Oh)

As the months passed, the more you evolved into another version of you. You walked with determination, carried yourself with such grace and you’ve gained confidence in your career. You didn’t let your insecurities get to you, instead you faced them and overcame them. You were tired of letting them control you.

Your change in attitude and perspective on life has definitely affected your life in many ways. Manifestation was one of the things that have helped you the most. Writing about your goals and putting that energy out to the world has helped you persevere in your job. You’ve only faced good karma; sending out positive energy and receiving it back from the universe.

So far you’ve been casted in two new projects and have a campaign lined up with Gucci. If you were told a year ago that you’d be working with big time directors and freakin’ Gucci, you wouldn’t have believe them. Life has been unreal ever since you decided to change your life around. But of course you had to thank your Marvel family, without them and their support you probably wouldn’t haven gotten to where you were today.

Looking at my phone, but I'm tryna disconnect it (Oh yeah)

Read a fuckin' book, I be tryna stay connected (Yeah)

Say it's tricky at the top, gotta keep a slim ego for a thick wallet

Losing friends left and right, but I just send 'em love and light (Oh)

As many people recognized your success many people still tried to pull you down. Some fans on social media have noticed your change in behavior and have even praised you for practicing self care. While others still tried to push you off the mountain of success you were currently on and drag you across the ground.

These were the reasons as to why you were barely on your phone anymore. You used to be invested in your phone but after realizing how much negativity it brought you, you’ve decided to slowly disconnect from it. Which led you to becoming more interested into books.

Chris (E) had even brought some of his favorite arts of literature for you to borrow. You were currently on your third book of his, Sapiens A Brief History of Humankind by Yuval Noah Harari. You were sitting outside your trailer in a fold up chair under the shade. Your peacefulness was interrupted by Tom (Holland) who had a worried expression on his face.

“Have you not seen it yet?” He asked you as soon as he was in front of you. Being the two most youngest actors on the current set, you guys were closer to each other than with the adults.

“Seen what, Tommy?” You put a finger in between the pages you were reading to save your spot. Tom pulls his phone out and began to type. He tapped on his screen and turned the screen to you.

“She’s been talking crap about you for days.” You read the article and saw that one of your “friends”, Sabrina has been speaking out about your success and how it’s changed you as a person.

“She’s going off about how the more money you get in your wallet, the more bratty and arrogant you become.” He grumbled as he turned his phone off.

“I could care less, honestly. I know I haven’t done anything to her and if I did I was unaware of it. Plus, she stopped talking to me after I said I couldn’t get her a part in a movie.” You shrugged as you placed a proper bookmark in the book.

“You’re not upset?”

“I mean it’s sad that she’s acting so two faced. But if that’s how she wants to roll, then be my guest. It’s her loss, not everyone has great taste.” You flicked a piece of hair away from your face with your hand.

“You’re not gonna release a statement against her?”

“No, probably just wish her well with her life and move on with my own.” You answered much to Tom’s dismay.

Redesign your brain, we gon' make some new habits

Just like magic (Just like magic), just like magic

Filming has officially ended a few months ago and now you guys were doing press tour for Civil War. Before you were the new and improved version of yourself, you dreaded press tours. Some interviewers were nice and respectful, but there were those who would ask inappropriate questions and were just rude in general. All you could remember during those past tours was wanting to leave those rooms as soon as possible.

The q&a panel at New York had a packed room. There were many journalist crowded in the room shoulder to shoulder. You were sat in between Elizabeth and Scarlett, two of the women who have been guiding you and teaching you about life as a woman in the business. They were also like your older sisters.

The panel had been going smoothly for the first half hour until a man with a snobby face and cocky demeanor approached the mic.

“Hello, I’m Keith and my question’s for (y/n).” He began. You nodded in his direction, motioning for him to continue.

“I think everyone’s noticed how you’ve changed and developed as a person. Obviously something’s changed in your life. So I want to know if you’ve had any intimate relationships with any of the men in the cast?” You were surprised at the man’s question. First it was bold of him to ask such a question and second it was just disrespectful to you and the others on the cast.

“I mean someone’s gotta be fucking you good to make you crawl out your shell.” The man finished shrugging nonchalantly. Robert was about to interject but your mouth was quicker than his. The men of the cast were disgusted at the man while they sat at the edge of their seats.

“Well last time I checked my contract, my job was to act, not sleep around with the men who are part of these movies.” You spoke into the mic. All the attention was on you while the room was at a standstill.

“It’s also very upsetting that you think a girl needs to be fucked in order to be confident in herself. I hate to break it to you but women are completely capable of turning their lives around without the help of men and that says a lot about you, sir. So if I were you, I’d take myself back to my seat and rethink my life because if one of us has to redesign our brains it’s you.” You finished as you placed your mic on your lap. The room was silent until the cast began to clap. This was your first time standing up for yourself, usually Robert or Scarlett would swoop in and save you but this time, you were saving yourself.

You shook your head as you blushed, shoving your head in your hands. You felt some pats on the backs and cheers from your dysfunctional family. You look up and see Scarlett and Elizabeth smiling at you proudly.

“Isn’t she amazing?” Robert asked the crowd as he hugged you. The crowd cheering you on.

Just like magic, your life felt like a dream come true, knowing that you were worth it and enough for the people around you and for yourself.

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groundcontrol21 · 2 years ago

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2 for the ask game! And... could I hear your 7 opinions on Aramis?

2. what in your fiction has turned out differently than you expected when you began? what has always remained the same?

Well, since this came from the general section of the questions, I’ll answer more broadly: I never expected to be writing solely for fun. I started writing as a kid/preteen for fun, yes, but always with the goal of being a published author very firmly in the back (or front) of my mind. When I won my first national contest at 14, that was just enough to make it seem like this goal could actually be a reality, and to ensure that for the next four years, I almost never wrote anything purely for fun again. I tailored everything I wrote to what I thought other people wanted to see, and in large part it worked: I won contest after contest, won money for what I wrote, got pieces published in magazines and even wrote a whole novel that got published through a small indie publisher. But because I was writing purely for external validation, I began to view it as a chore, as something I had to do bc I was “the star writer”, and that’s all.

Now whether you all think any of those accolades were deserved based on the quality of writing I share here is another story 😂 but also please know that I do not share that type of writing here. I agonized over every word and plot point, edited and edited again to the point where many times I was an inch away from deleting the whole thing and starting from scratch. Not all of this obsession with perfection was bad; I learned very valuable techniques and style choices that I still use to this day, but crucially, I can now use them in a way that satisfies me and no one else. Obviously I still plan and edit my work that I share here bc I take pride in it, but the process is so more relaxed. I have found a joy and freedom in creating (both on here and on vanilla fanfic) that I don’t even think I had when I started writing as a wee child.

Maybe one day I’ll write something and have it published again, but I’ve gotten to the point that I can honestly say I’m fine if I never do. That’s what’s changed, and for the better. I take pride in my writing, that part has stayed the same through it all, but the source of it has changed from how others value my work to how I value it.

(oops kinda deep for a snz blog)

7. do you have a favourite scene of theirs in canon, or in your own work? what scene have you always wanted to see or write for them?

Psh, “can you hear my opinions on Aramis”. I will give my opinions on Aramis whether they are prompted or not! (though thank you so much for asking ofc, and hyping up my obsession). So favorites, bc in my mind there are 3 subtly different versions of the guy that I love:

Book: The mf dropped-handkerchief-intro-scene, for obvious reasons (may have a bit of a handkerchief fetish on top of it all) but also since the little verbal sparring match he gets into with D’Artagnan here contains, in my opinion, some of the funniest lines in the book. Also love the part where he gets shot and tries to be brave about it but can’t carry on

Movie musical: the part where he sings and sniffs the damn handkerchief, my god, you absolutely insane man.

BBC show: The absolute whump-filled angst fest that is episode 4, because I am a terrible person.

In terms of my writing, though, I really love him in”A Routine Occurrence”, being a good friend but not being at all happy about it. Especially when he says he thinks he’s getting a fever 😈

In terms of what I’d like to see, though perhaps not write myself bc I’d be so out of my depth, would be what I’ve sort of danced around in my fics: him in bed with his mistress, getting a little spicy only to have to put it all on hold bc he’s dreadfully ill. Or, him picking up a cold from a lady who swears she’s recovered but really isn’t after all (but of course it’s all worth it to him, the daft man).

#thank for asking!!#answered asks

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lovebecomeshim · 3 years ago

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hello! your zutara posting today has finally motivated me to ask this question because I came to atla very late(last year, to be specific) and I Love It Very Much but am 1000% out of the loop as far as why what remains of fandom (at least that I've seen among my friends) is so very strongly zutara. I'm not opposed to it per se I just don't really know what has driven it to apparently be such a popular ship? can you help me understand and maybe convert me a little bit?

Hey!! Your ICON! :D I can try but I’m not sure how coherent I’ll be; however I AM sure someone a lot more competent will be willing to add to this. Either way, I’m glad you asked because my plan was to drag down as many people as possible with me.

*smacks the hood of zutara* this baby can fit so much mutual love and support!

This got so long, I’m so sorry. I don’t know how to put it under a cut on mobile and it already got deleted once so I’m scared to mess with it lol. Moving on.

I’m gonna start this with a disclaimer that im on mobile so formatting is tricky and I’m also really new to atla in that I only completed my first watch through in like 2019??? So some of my info is all just based on what I’ve picked up from Discourse 👀 so anyway the sparknotes version: zutara was wildly popular from the beginning. To the point where the atla crew internally disagreed on which ship should be endgame. (Ex. Bryke [showrunners] asked the writers to rewrite The Southern Raiders to make Zuko seem less ideal for Katara than Aang [which failed, depending on who you ask]; the animation team purposefully created a visual parrallel between Oma and Shu in the Cave of Two Lovers and Zuko and Katara in the catacombs under Ba Sing Se in the Crossroads of Destiny; etc.)

The ship was popular enough that Bryke actually chose to display zk fanart at a con for the sole purpose of mocking the fans, but that’s neither here nor there. The entire episode Ember Island Players, while a love letter to/parody of the whole show, was an opportunity to address zutara’s viability as a canon pairing (while, again, mocking zutaras for romanticizing that catacombs scene). Point is! It’s always been popular but with it not being endgame, there’s got to be something that’s given it staying power.

And that’s honestly got to do with three things: their dynamic, thematic cohesion, and potential.

(You know what... you know what, it’s four things. The fourth is they’re so aesthetically pleasing together and individually. Like, they’re just good looking people [specifically when they’re grown but they’re also cute kids] and that absolutely doesn’t hurt) (but it’s not the Point, it’s just nice to point out sometimes)

The dynamic is hard to get into without also looking at the canon pairings, but I think I can do that without unnecessary bashing. It’s just that part of the magic of zutara is really highlighted by what they give to each other that their other relationships don’t.

First off, it’s classic enemies to (would be) lovers. The absolute truest form of it. It’s not too different from how CS started out: a rogue antagonist with a job to do—but no personal vendetta against the future love interest—who is deeply and emotionally invested in his personal storyline (revenge/redemption) with little regard for how it effects other people after his entire life and genuine good nature are marred by suffering, and a fierce warrior girl with a strong moral compass and her own personal investment in stopping him (protect her family and save the world doing it). Obviously frustration and animosity grew between them by the nature of them being on opposing sides, but that just lends itself to the sweetness of their later reconciliation.

The thing is that while they’re wildly different on the surface (he’s a hot-headed prince of a fascist regime who is trying to capture the Avatar to please his father; she’s a nurturing daughter of the chief who is trying to protect and train the Avatar in order to topple his father’s throne) they find out that they have so much more in common both in their experiences and their personalities.

(What follows is an excessive use of the word “both” and I’m sorry about that)(I can edit it. I can do that. That IS an option............)

They both have an innate sense of justice that they are determined to see done (zuko, at the war meeting, sticking up for the Earth Kingdom kid when the guards torment his family, choosing not to steal from the pregnant couple despite his circumstances, abiding by his word to leave the SWT should Aang come willingly, etc.; katara, literally.... at any point). They both have pretty one-track minds at accomplishing certain goals once they’ve put their mind to it, regardless of a lack of support in that endeavor (it goes without saying I guess, but zuko’s entire hunt; katara’s determination to get the earth benders to fight back, her determination to absolutely destroy Pakku until he agrees to teach her, etc.). They both lost their mothers at young ages. Their worlds are war-torn and traumatizing to them both, if in different ways, but that ultimately forces them to grow up too quickly to be wholly independent individuals. They both have issues with their fathers (for WILDLY different reasons, but). They both hold extreme prejudices that they need to learn to overcome (which ties into thematic cohesion)(bit like Lizzie and Darcy in that way but magnified by a million). They’re both extremely emotional and empathetic—which can and often does result in loud outbursts. Katara’s a bit better adjusted and can temper her anger for longer than S1 Zuko can, but they both feel that anger deeply and have no compunctions expressing it (Katara is, usually, more justified, particularly in S1. Again, S1 Zuko is severely maladjusted but at the point when they could’ve feasibly become a couple, he’s so much better off with the way he carries himself). They both struggle with feelings of inferiority in their bending abilities when confronted with prodigal benders like Aang and Azula, but have the work ethic required to double down and become two of the most powerful benders in the three remaining nations. This is a little more minor but it is a parrallel that appeals to some shippers that they both have these alter egos in the Painted Lady (notably fire nation coded) and the Blue Spirit (water tribe coded) that are pretty different from who they are day-to-day and are useful in accomplishing a purpose that they as themselves cannot.

(I’m.... I just realized that this could potentially get very long. Should I have made a slide show with bullet points??????)

Anyway, similar. I know there’s more but there’s literally so much to love about zutara that I’ll drive myself a little crazy trying to compile all the ways they’re similar. (Just gonna say that at this exact moment I went back to add more similarities.... so okay then)

Once they’ve reconciled, we see how all of these things only lend themselves to a deeper intimacy together than they share with literally anyone else. There’s a steady partnership that positions them as the mom/dad of the gaang, while also providing the support necessary to allow the other to not have to carry so much responsibility. A lot of zutaras will point out how zuko is actually depicted doing the more domestic chores that are normally relegated to Katara once he joins the gaang, since the others in the group are two 12-year-olds and sokka. The one that sticks out the most is how he makes tea for the group and then serves them, while Katara is able to just relax with her friends around the fire. Fanon expands upon this a lot to Zuko helping with the laundry or the cooking or whatever else needs doing since he, as a once-refugee, is used to doing his own domestic tasks. Before Zuko joined, Katara was the one mothering everyone, sewing for them, cooking for them, etc. She’s always tending to the needs of the group, and that includes emotionally. She does the emotional labor for the gaang 99% of the time, but when she’s the one falling apart, she’s usually doing it alone and without the comfort that she normally provides for others. Until Zuko. And that’s before they’re even friends.

Which is WHY people romanticize the catacombs of Ba Sing Se so much. Katara is verbally attacking Zuko out of her own righteous anger but also her own prejudice when Zuko, surprisingly, chooses to be vulnerable with her. He’s been on a journey that’s opened his eyes a bit, but he’s never actively chosen to expose the rawest parts of his past to anyone. But for some reason he chooses to do that with Katara of all people. While she’s yelling at him. He sees her humanity, and for once can look past his prejudice and empathize with her. And this time, when she breaks down, she gets to be comforted. Katara normally talks about her mother when she’s trying to explain to someone else that she sees and understands they’re pain, as a form of comfort to them. Here, Zuko uses the exact same tactic. He sees her and he understands. And for zuko? He’s not being shut down. He’s allowed to articulate his pain regarding his mother without being ignored and made to internalize it, and he’s allowed to process how he feels about his scar out loud without being told that he deserved it. And then he lets her touch his scar, something we’ve seen him actively avoid before. He’s completely open to her and she’s completely open to him and all it took was one five minute conversation. She was about to use the little bit of Spirit water that she had, that she was saving for something Important, to heal the scar that still daily causes him pain just because they had, somehow, connected.

Plus there’s the whole parallel to the star-crossed lovers forbidden from one another, a war divides their people—

And then zuko messes up, he regresses, he gets what he wants and he HATES it. And the sense of justice he had as a child has been restored to him against his will and he can’t think of anything he wants to do more than the Right Thing, so he joins team avatar. Before he does that though, we get to see his relationship with Mai, which is where comparison really comes in. And what we see is Zuko, fresh off of his encounter with Katara in the catacombs, trying to be emotionally honest with Mai... and getting shut down and dismissed. Which is just how Mai is and it’s fine, but not for Zuko. Still, he keeps trying, and he keeps getting ignored or scoffed at or yelled at. Which is really a larger symbol for how he doesn’t fit in his old life anymore, but again that’s about thematic cohesion. He tries to articulate his anxieties about returning home, he tries to make romantic gestures, he tries to explain how morally conflicted he’s feeling—and Mai diverts to some kind of physical affection to shut him up and a parting comment that is pretty much always, in essence, “I don’t wanna talk about this.” So they don’t. On the other hand, once zuko and Katara are friends, we see him again emotionally distraught and caught up in his anxieties about facing Iroh, and it’s Katara who comes to him and listens to him and comforts and encourages him.

Similarly, we have Aang clamming up and getting uncomfortable whenever Katara shows any negative emotion, usually resulting in him making excuses or running away. Or, in the case of the Southern Raiders, lecturing her on how she needs to just let go of her anger about her mother’s murder. People have talked this episode to death and usually better than I ever could, so imma... keep it brief. There’s a serious disconnect between Aang and Katara in his ability to empathize with Katara and her needs that has her tamping down her vulnerability and amping up her anger. He tells her that he was able to forgive his people’s genocide and appa’s kidnapping (petnapping? Theft??), which is blatantly not true but also not an entirely equal parrallel to Katara’s situation, and continues making these little remarks throughout the episode. But it’s Zuko that Katara opens up to. It’s with him that she’s able to talk about the most traumatic day of her life, and it’s with him that she’s able to get the closure she needs, cementing their bond as friends and partners. This disagreement between Aang and Katara is then... never resolved. They just never bring it up and hear what the other is saying.

There’s a fic called The Portraits of Ember Island that has a line that so completely sums up the heart of the matter for why people love their dynamic. For context, zuko has woken up early to help Katara with the cooking and they spend the whole time just letting one another talk, and zuko stops to ask why she always just lets him talk. And so she stops to ask why he’s always helping, and it goes as follows:

There’s just... so much mutual support! Trust! Intimacy!! And it just continues like that from the Southern Raiders on, listening to each other, advising each other, watching each other’s backs! And then! Literally saving each other’s lives!! I will never be over the last Agni kai. Not ever. Zuko may have been willing to jump in front of lightning for anyone, but he actually did it for Katara. And in a show, that’s the thing that really matters. It’s a fulfilled trope usually exclusively applied to romantic pairings, and it ended up applying to Zuko and Katara. And then she ran out into the middle of a fight with tunnel vision just to get to him.

Also!! Also Zuko pushing Katara out of the way of the falling rocks at the Western Air Temple!! And Katara catching him as he fell from the war balloon that he fought Azula on!! Before they’re even getting along, they’re the ones reaching for each other. They come to this place of equal ground, as partners, who watch each other’s backs, call each other out but still listen attentively and understand, and provide the support that the other has been sorely lacking up until they knew each other (whether that be from lack of effort or lack of understanding from others, or an unwillingness to accept it for themselves).

Then, trailing along under the surface of this, we see the themes of the show totally embodied by Zuko and Katara as individuals and in their relationship to one another. There’s a YouTuber, sneezyreviews, who has a, like, 2-hour explanation on why she not only loves zutara but also believes that their endgame would’ve actually elevated the writing of atla to new levels particularly because of thematic cohesion and resolved character arcs. It’s the zutara dissertation I never knew I needed, and it’s funny and eloquent and effective, so I’m just going to sum up her section on thematic cohesion to the best of my abilities and then link it for whenever you have the time. And I HIGHLY recommend it, especially if you want a full understanding of what makes zutara so great and gives it such longevity.

Guru pathik has a line that goes something like this: separation is an illusion; things that seem different are just two parts of the same whole. Iroh also tells Zuko something similar: balance and strength are achieved when the different nations come together and influence one another and celebrate what makes them each unique. And this lesson is a massive central arc that both Zuko and Katara go through, moving past a black-and-white, good guys-vs-bad guys, us-vs-them mentality and into a greyer, more nuanced view of the world. Zuko sees the fire nation from an entirely new perspective and while he still loves and hopes for his nations future, he surrenders his blind loyalty to them in exchange for an unflinching loyalty to peace and love. Katara too had to come to terms with the fact that cruel people exist in the earth kingdom and water tribes, while some fire nation citizens are just regular, kind people who also need and deserve to have someone speak on their behalf. And this is honed in directly on how they view each other. They grow in their individual journeys to be open to the humanity in the other and then, once they’ve found that, they’re able to grow more in compassion for others in a beautiful feedback loop. And this is all matched in the symbolism repeatedly and intentionally associated with them in canon: sun and moon, fire and water, yin and yang, Oma and Shu who found love despite their warring nations. Their individual arcs are completed in each other and complement the themes of atla beautifully.

The canon pairs... just don’t. Which, again, is fine. But the very things that give atla longevity and popularity are anchored in zutara. Kat@ang doesn’t accomplish this. They’re... nice. Sweet. Especially when you erase a good portion of their interactions in S3. It could’ve been just a sweet love story. (Personally, the dynamic between toph and aang accomplish the same thing that zutara does, with complementary personalities that fulfill the theme of opposites blending in harmony) M@iko, on the other hand, is less sweet but I think wasn’t even supposed to last. Zuko’s relationship with Mai seems to represent his relationship with his old life as a whole. He can’t be emotionally vulnerable, he’s goaded into abusing his privileges, his agency and opinions aren’t respected. They just don’t have common ground with which to discuss anything that matters, so they don’t. As far as themes, the relationship doesn’t fit with atla. It’s zuko returning to and sticking with what is (on the surface) like him, what’s expected. Fire nation with fire nation. Fluid water bender with the flexible air bender. Like with like, separated from what is different and challenging and complementary.

And all of these things combined of course lead to the potential for the ship. I don’t know how familiar you are with the post-atla canon but... well, miss “I will never turn my back on people who need me”, miss “I don’t want to heal! I want to fight!” ends up living quietly in the SWT as a designated healer who turns a blind eye to the water tribe civil war happening right outside her front door. Which can be fine! People change! Some people just wanna stay inside. I just wanna stay inside! But the potential future for zutara is so much more satisfying, with Katara becoming the most unconventional Fire Lady the uppity old cads who are stuck on the old ways have ever seen. Fanon has her serving as a voice for the other nations within a kingdom at the point of its biggest political upheaval, as a confidante to Zuko who can actually help him while he’s trying to figure out how to move forward and make reparations. They have the opportunity, together, to accomplish what they both have set on their hearts to fight for: positive change that lends itself to harmony and balance. And the steambabies! A popular headcanon is that their firstborn daughter, the crown princess, is actually a waterbender, which causes such an uproar among the people who are adamantly clinging to the old ways. It’s just a future full of potential to be forces for good together, full of trust, intimacy, joy. The exact era of peace and love and balance that zuko announces that he intends to ring in with the start of his reign as Fire Lord is, again, magnified by the very personal zutara relationship. And we love to see it.

tl;dr zutara isn’t for everyone. Some people just don’t vibe with it. Some are nostalgic. Some love the canon they grew up with. Some have been disappointed for years. Some just see themselves in other characters and want their happiness instead. Whatever the reason, that’s fine. But for me, I love the way these two, from the moment they give each other a fair chance, are able to lower their walls and prejudices to see the other for the kindred spirits they are. They see each other’s humanity, and their response is to pour out love and support and compassion. I love that they’re a power couple in battle. I love the symbolism and, honestly, soulmatism that colors their every interaction. I love that they embody the whole storyline of atla in their relationship and how it develops, which is notably why their seasonal arcs always culminate in each finale with how they relate to one another. I love that zuko adopting a waterbending move is what actually saves his life and then katara’s. I love the chemistry! And I love the future they could’ve had, instead of the ones they were given.

So, in conclusion: I just think they’re neat and I hope you do too, at least a little bit. Even if it’s just respectfully from a disinterested distance cause you do you. And now here is the video I mentioned. I’m sorry this post got so long and then I gave you an even longer homework assignment, but I can’t recommend it enough. She says it all better than I can.

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#zutara #atla #zutara rant #like really the way the canon relationships were written throughout s3 #it would’ve been more believable for zutara to happen #or at least be hinted at #all of the major issues presented in those relationship were dug up extensively and then... never resolved #and then they just slapped some kisses on a screen and said ‘there all better’#and we just kinda had to say ‘oh ok guess it’s all better then’#this got long I’m sorry #I wrote it all out and then tumblr ate 2/3 of it #which is why it took so long #and what I’ve written now doesn’t even match what I had before #because there’s too much to say about why I love zutara #and the stuff I left out the first time is what came out this time #rip to my original thoughts but this post is different #anyway that’s why this took so long #and I should’ve just made a PowerPoint...#I can do that too if you’d rather not read all of this lol #I won’t be offended #this is incoherent #Alia rambles uselessly #also hoping this doesn’t end up in any wrong tags because I don’t wanna step on toes lol #it’s not anti!! it’s just critical #in a compare/contrast way #I can pinpoint the moment when I started trying to rewrite my points from memory #because everything gets shorter and more succinct #like... I really said all that??? sounds fake and I don’t remember it anyway so here’s the condensed version #with no!! smooth!!! transitions!!!!#also why am I so lazy with proper grammar over text

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utilitycaster · 4 years ago

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Wizard Breakdown Tracker #3, episode 133

Greetings and salutations to the exercise I have set upon myself, which is to say deciding the relative mental stability of Wizard NPCs who have been subjected to the Mighty Nein. My intent is to do this at least until Trent Ikithon has fucked off this mortal coil and/or been thoroughly deposed and humiliated.

As a reminder Caleb Widogast is a member of the Mighty Nein and a PC and therefore excluded from these calculations. Wizards who haven’t been seen or heard from lately and about whom I don’t have anything funny to say about will not get a full blurb, but as they re-enter the main narrative so will they re-enter the list. Currently, this is the Essek Thelyss Show ft. Trent and the Volstruckers with guest appearances by Yussa and Allura.

Currently sidelined: Oremid Hass, Known Gem Wizard Hotsauce Lutefisk (I am going to reuse this stupid joke name for him until it doesn’t make me laugh at my own joke anymore, which will probably be never), Pumat Sol (who I hope is having a great day), Ludinus Da’leth (who I hope is not but in true laissez-faire rat bastard form, probably is).

Vess D wasn’t there/morning time in Eiselcross or at her job or anywhere/they snuck in and took her life/and we noticed that her spellbook’s gone and that she’s covered in red eyes.

Trent Ikithon: Okay with the caveat that it’s been a very long time since I saw the entire movie and our only update is Artagan taking a moment from his busy schedule of traveling the globe in the direction of the sun such that he is always technically day-drinking to tell Jester that Trent’s biding his time, I’m getting real Disney Hunchback of Notre Dame Frollo vibes. Except instead of Catholicism and lust, it’s nationalism and an unquenchable thirst for power and control, and also he does not feel guilty in the slightest. He’s not at Hellfire levels yet but he will get there and I am slightly disappointed that due to the constraints of a D&D game we do not get an even more fucked up version of the song Hellfire.

Conclusion: 6/10. Slowly stepping it up. Also here’s the great thing: while we know Caleb is going to come after him next, he doesn’t, and the Nein didn’t tell any world governments about the threat of the city unless you count the Tal’Dorei Council via Allura, which means for all intents and purposes they just disappeared into Eiselcross...except Trent also knows Caleb disappeared for five or six years once before and reports of his death were greatly exaggerated. If Caleb weren’t dedicated to the noble goal of ending the Volstrucker program ASAP, he could just chill for a year or so and then pull a really stellar Surprise Bitch move and maybe just get Trent’s heart to explode.

Essek Thelyss: He got a good night’s trance and weird physical affection from a giant ape Caleb and he was healed by Caduceus and he had a serious conversation with the first true peer and one of the first friends he’s ever known about how high-level wizardry may not necessarily corrupt absolutely. And, of course, soup. I mean they are about to head into a terrible battle but he’s at full health and spells and he’s a valued member of the team and his friends love him SO MUCH.

Conclusion: 5/10. There is a distinction between a breakdown and being in a very high pressure situation, and he got some nice moments of respite this week. With that said do I think that post-battle, should he survive (HE BETTER) a whole lot of anxiety will come crashing back? Yeah.

Astrid Beck: With Trent in a holding pattern he’s got to be turning up the mind games on her; I have to imagine he suspects and then she suspects that he suspects and it’s a whole mess, but I’ve said that already. But also just like, in general, I think her speech to Caleb back when he first contacted her was genuine in many ways and specifically I think she was likely to have been Trent’s New Golden Child and then suddenly that got yanked out from under her for still more mind games; I think her difference in demeanor between that meeting and the dinner was partially Trent being present, but partially her having realized in the interim that she will likely never have anything to show for two decades of pain and doing terrible things and nonstop bullshit.

Conclusion: still keeping her at 8/10 until further notice but like. Astrid’s having a bad time.

Um actually Eadwulf is the monster? The hero’s name is Grendel: Okay meanwhile here’s my totally unsupported Eadwulf headcanon of this week which is that he meanwhile always knew he was not the favorite and probably never would be and while I doubt he ever had particularly noble goals I would not be surprised if he had an exit strategy. Personally I hope he tries card-counting in that casino in Ank’harel and gets kicked out posthaste and then tries being a wizard/some kind of divine caster multiclass in Vasselheim and also gets kicked out but finally becomes like an old-school hermit figure somewhere in the woods of Issylra and Campaign 3′s party runs into him.

Conclusion: also keeping him at 4/10 until further notice.

Allura Vyesoren: It’s time to acknowledge that this episode covered a span of like...8 hours? And presuming the Nein are sort of trying to keep a normal sleep schedule, maybe, and using a comparison of Eiselcross being at a comparable time zone to say, Nicodranas, and it’s 5 hours into the night for them, and we know that around mid-day for Nicodranas was early morning for Emon...honestly she’s probably relaxing with a glass of wine. Unless Wensforth contacted her.

Conclusion: I’m going to let Allura have a good day. She’s at 2/10 because the threat of Aeor will be in the back of her mind but also she’s seen a bunch of idiots kill dragons and Vecna and they didn’t even have a wizard.

Yussa Errenis: Experiencing a great disturbance in the Astral Sea, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror and then just like, kept doing that.

Conclusion: I decided to really go all out last week on the infinity jokes and left myself nothing to go on, huh. Anyway this breakdown goes to 11 (out of 10).

#me looking at the pitiful handful of non-STEM courses I took in college: is this a potential source of referential internet jokes?#critical role #critical role spoilers #wizard breakdown tracker #your musical references were no body no crime by Taylor Swift ft. Haim and obviously Hellfire from The Hunchback of Notre Dame #which is a weird pairing tbh

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independentzaun · 2 years ago

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3, 8, and/or 9! (Pick and choose to your heart's content.)

3: what sort of things does your muse AVOID in a partner?

Obvious answers are obvious someone that bores him, or is afraid of him or can’t deal with his scars or is constantly going “you need to change because what you do is bad*” and the like. Less obvious answers however… hmmm… apathy. To be clear I don’t mean someone who is beaten down by life, and depressed and can’t see what comes next. In some cases that can create an odd kind of “I wonder who they really are if they came back up out of the deep, and the dark” situation. What I mean is someone who genuinely neither has, nor wants any goals or dreams or anything. They are content to work a 9 to 5, go home with cheap take out, eat, spend some time relaxing and go to sleep and wake up the next day to do it all again with no interest at all in change. If you don’t have some kind of drive, some interest, something to push you forward and make you want something well he just does not understand that at all. It doesn’t even have to be an interest he personally has, but just something that calls to you and you really want to be able to go for.

On a simpler level, liars. He already deals with enough issues worrying about people backstabbing him (be it metaphorically or literally), and he’s not going to deal with a partner that lies. *input as to how he can accomplish his goals without being quite so cruel/single minded is different.

8: does your muse usually take the lead in relationships?

Generally speaking yes. He’s used to power, and control and being in charge. That’s going to bleed over to his relationships so he’s going to have a tendency to want to just pick a restaurant to go to, or an activity or whatever else. With that said he is also well aware different people have different needs and interests, and his attitude is that it’s simpler to encourage that so his partner is happy and he has less drama to deal with. His primary interests are running a criminal empire, revolution, cigars, a bit of men’s fashion, violence, and whiskey most of which doesn’t translate well to dates and time spent together so… if going to that museum with an artist his partner really likes, or an exhibit about a hobby they have or whatever else makes them happy he’s willing to arrange it. With that said it’s probably going to happen on his time, and at his convenience.

9: who are some characters you ship your muse with?

Ooooof that’s a hard one. Most of the canon characters he interacts with I just don’t see them as a ship. To be blunt I head canon Sevika as into women, and don’t see Singed as anything more than a partnership for power. Something with Vander if Vander somehow survived and came back, or set way back in the past maybe could be interesting. I wouldn’t say I ship Silco with Jayce but I could see some interesting lowkey corruption story lines there with Silco teaching Jayce how to use power in a more Zaun style way and less of the smiles and pretty words Piltover way and it’s possible sex gets involved and all. Considering your muse let me say first I am not pushing for anything in anyway, but I could see something interesting with Silco and Viktor. Both driven men with goals and the potential to work together to try to pull Zaun out of the shadow of Piltover. With that said I could also see it just basically being Singed 2.0 and all business so who can say. It really depends on how the interactions go.

I guess TLDR: Is I’m willing to consider a ship between Silco and most characters be it platonic or romantic or whatever else, but I don’t have anything really solid in mind currently. Honestly for me shipping in RP is a lot more about how the writing and interactions go between the versions of characters people are writing then any thing else. I’ve had ships in other fandoms I was really into, but if the writing and stories being told don’t work for that they don’t work… and sometimes I’ve gotten really surprised because a completely unexpected ship happened just from how the writing went.

#munAnswers #justsilcothings

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ribbononline · 4 years ago

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Uuuuuu have PDA doodles so i can make a hc post for admin au!! Mostly for Maxie and Archie, but all admins are there as well

(for a full writeup of how the games play out in their respective AUs, check out this post!)

ok ! so like stated in earlier post the basic gist is that rather then splitting up back in their rocket days one convinced the other to join their team! So in Sapphire, Maxie joined team aqua as admin, and in Ruby archie joined team magma as admin! Depending on which team they’re both on, the other team just does not exist in that version of the AU

They’re still dating and together and (mostly) happy! Archie being with magma helped Maxie never really succumb to stress so he’s a lot more relaxed. Maxie in aqua mainly helped streamline and organise things a lot so they move a bit faster!

While they are happier in the sense that they’re still together and didn’t have to deal with that hell of a breakup, neither admin truly believes in the goals of their teams, making it a little… For Ruby; Archie doesn’t truly believe deep down Magma will be able to help everyone and is afraid it’ll harm ocean pokemon, but he knows Maxie is doing his best to cancel out any negatives and thus decided to put his faith in him and follow him anyhow. (Quite frankly, depression shines trough when he thinks about what their plans would do in the long term considering he still is not super fond of humanity as a whole- so he tries just to…. not think about it)

for Sapphire; Maxie is very convinced Kyogre is just going to flood everything and everyone and brought it up a lot with Archie at the start. Archie never flat up stated his plans are in fact to bring an end to humanity as a whole, but Maxie has his suspicions considering Archie kept dismissing all the concerns he kept bringing up- and eventually started to realise that either he was going to join Aqua working towards a restart of the world, or lose the one good thing he had going for him after Rocket in his relationship with Archie. He decided to be selfish and stuck around with Archie, though guilt is real and it is killing

teams;

Magma admin Archie;

-Sharpedo

-Gabite

-Gastrodon (East)

-Nidoking

-Crobat

-Mightyena

Aqua admin Maxie;

-Numel

-Dragalge

-Crobat

-Mightyena

-Whiscash

-Relicanth

now for a random big ass hc list in no order at all (Putting ‘S:’ at the front if they’re specific to Sapphire version of the AU, ‘R:’ if they’re specific to the Ruby version)

-S: Because he got Numel as a child, Maxie still has it even in the Sapphire version of the AU. However due to being surrounded by water and water types only, it never battles. It’s mostly just there for cuddles and to be spoiled.

-S: Because Maxie lets him wander the Aqua base, the grunts see Numel as almost kind of a mascot for their team. Everyone spoils it. Everyone. It started becoming kind of a problem, because it got a little overweight. Now there are multiple posters troughout the base warning people to ‚Not feed the Numel, no matter how cute it looks at you.’

-S: “Max ya can’t teach every single water Pokémon on your team Scald” “Sounds like the words of a coward too afraid to teach every single water Pokémon on his team Scald”

-R: Archie dabbed once instead of doing the proper magma salute as a joke. Now half of the grunts won’t stop doing it and Maxie is in pain.

-In both versions of the AU, the original proposed plan was to be co-leaders. Archie denied the position in Ruby because “C’mon Max, it’s yer dream, I’m just here to help” and Maxie denied the position in Sapphire because he did not feel comfortable being called leader of a team he fears is going to only bring destruction. He’s honestly not even entirely comfortable with the admin label, but Archie insisted.

-S: When May first showed up, Maxie didn’t believe she could actually stop Archie- he just thought she’s delay things. At that point the stress of knowing he was working towards genocide was getting too him pretty badly, and the idea of the end of the world seemed pretty relaxing if it meant never having to worry about any of it again. So seeing a child that wouldn’t actually be able to make a difference but could potentially delay things and drag it out even longer— he went as hard as he could trying to stop her. When she did in fact defeat Kyogre at the end of the day, she got some formal apologies and a lot of thank you’s.

-R: When May proved herself capable of holding her own, Archie started dropping hints to their plans so she could keep up with them. He didn’t actively want her to sabotage the operation- didn’t feel like that’d be fair of him to Maxie-, but in case his worst fears were to come true and Maxie wouldn’t be able to control Groudon, he’d rather have her as backup there. In the end he was very glad he did that.

-R: Archie is still in contact with Shelly, who’s still working at Devon here. She doesn’t really approve of team Magma, but Archie keeps telling her it’ll be fine, so she supposes he knows best and let’s it be.

-R: Archie still ends up saving and befriending Matt, but never lets him join the team, figuring it wouldn’t be the best place for Matt. Instead he introduces him to Shelly and helps him become a lifeguard.

-R: After the Groudon incident, Magma disbands. Archie ends up joining a wild Pokémon rescue service, specializing in water Pokémon. Maxie ends up working as a geologist. (Both under strict government watch after the Groudon stunt, but they’re doing their best!)

-R: Deciding Tabitha and Courtney could use some help making friends post Groudon incident, Archie ends up convincing Shelly and Matt to hang out together with them a couple of times. Matt was into the idea from the start, Shelly got more interested once she started talking to Courtney and got along with her.

(Eventually Maxie meets Matt and Shelly too because of the hangout sessions!)

-S: Tabitha still works at Devon, and Courtney works in a flower shop while studying for a major in geology on the side. She’s not super fond of her job, but this one cute Aqua admin girl keeps dropping by, so she figures she’ll stick around. Maxie never meets them until after the Kyogre incident.

-S: Shelly and Courtney met accidentally at Courtney’s job early on in and now talk a lot. Shelly was planning on asking Courtney out after Aqua awakened Kyogre, but once that goes wrong she feels too guilty. Instead Courtney suddenly shows up at the (now ex-) Aqua base to ask her out instead.

-S: Matt ends up becoming a lifeguard after Aqua disbands and Shelly ends up going back to Devon. She meets Tabitha there again and one day when Matt comes pick her up from work they meet as well. One weird conversion and a lot of misunderstandings later, Tabitha accidentally ends up agreeing to come work out with Matt in the gym every week.

-S: Eventually Maxie, Tabitha and Courtney all end up meeting trough Shelly and Matt and befriend eachother fairly fast due to mutual interests in Rocks™

-R: “Gabite is a Sharpedo with legs. Discuss.” “Archie please,”

-S: Maxie’s shirt is actually one of Archie’s shirts. Archie offered to get him one that fit him better, but Maxie liked this better.

-S: Maxie hates any and all field work missions with the team because usually that means water everywhere and the lenses of his glasses being smeared with it 99% of the time.

-S: Maxie still can’t swim. His one way of getting around in water is hanging onto his pokemon and hoping for the best. Only Archie knows.

#Magma Leader Maxie #aqua leader archie #aqua admin shelly #aqua admin matt #magma admin courtney #magma admin tabitha #hardenshipping #alphafemaleshipping #was that it?#and #seamountshipping #i think??#things dont show up in the tags after 5 tags right #i hope so cus seamounts more implied then anything here #it was the intention i just never went too in depth on m #sorry for all the admin tags when i dont have any doodles for m but theyre there in the hcs quite a bit skdhfskjd #i dont actually imagine maxie is big on pda w the p for public BUT i do like to think he appreciates cuddling up together in private so #pda (private display of affection)#u can not and will not stop me from drawing them committing acts of pda together that was my point hre #‚ribbon you cant post multiple times a day‘ I DO WHAT I WANT!!!#my brainworms are strong #ANYWAYS hee hee admin au #mostly cus i like the idea of them being a power couple and working together #but also cus i did like the lowkey angst side of it w them not truly believing in the cause they were working for n their reasons to stick #w it anyhow #archie cus he can put his trust in someone else over his own gut even if it aint easy #maxie cus sometimes one just says fuck it n puts the bf over the rest of the world.#(archie does know abt maxes doubts in sapphire version of the au btw)#(hes v thankful maxie sticks w m anyhow n is v excited to prove maxis doubts wrong once kyogre awakens)#(rip king when that goes wrong. maxie still appreciates the sentiment at least)

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randoimago · 3 years ago

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How about some headcannons with Beau, Yasha and Molly sparring with a monk S/O? No pressure and thanks as always :)

Sparing with a Monk S/O

FANDOM: Critical Role

Character(s): Beauregard Lionette, Mollymauk Tealeaf, Yasha Nydoorin

Type of Request: Headcanons

Word Count: 494

Note(s): Sure thing!!

Beau

Beau is excited, finally someone that can go toe-to-toe with her.

Monks are badass and have all kinds of neat tricks so she’s excited to see what kind of things you have up your sleeve.

She’s not going to pull any punches and you better not pull punches too. She wants to be sore and have bruises tomorrow. Maybe a broken nose too.

Beau won’t use any cheap tricks while fighting, she’ll just use her fists and staff. But if she notices you do something dirty (throwing up dirt or getting her when her back is turned) then she’s absolutely going to retaliate in time.

Honestly sparing with Beau as a fellow monk might be a form of romance to her? Obviously not the typical romance but you both are getting tired and sweaty and hot and she absolutely wants to bathe together after before cuddling.

Molly

Not the strongest individual so going up against a monk S/O? Well he won’t hold back his punches but he can’t promise to fight fair.

If you manage to hit him once then you can stun him and that’s basically game over so he’s absolutely going to use his Blood Hunter bs.

Molly would also flirt with you the whole time. He’ll be a cheeky ass to see if it causes your focus to drop a bit for him to get some advantage.

I can see him making bets with you before the sparing session. Like if you win then you get this thing, if he wins he gets this thing. A lot of the time the winner gets something dumb but now and then it gets really interesting.

Absolutely going to have you bathe with him afterwards. There’s going to be mood lighting and D&D version of bath bombs (hopefully not an actual bomb) and massages cause you two are going to be sore tomorrow and it’s not in the way Molly would have originally wanted.

Yasha

Sparing with Yasha could go very differently depending on what goals she has.

Sometimes she gets too into her head and just needs you to beat her around for her to focus and realize what’s going on. Sometimes she’s just pent up and angry and needs to let that aggression out.

She doesn’t want to hurt you but it’s sparing so it gives her a reason to swing her fists around at least. Let out her aggression that way even if it misses you, it still lets her cool down over time.

Yasha would probably be more focused on the sparing as she tries to plan her next steps. It’s difficult for her to make plans during actual combat with monsters and such so this allows her to have more strategy for her to later use against some monster.

She thanks you every time after a session and makes sure you’re doing okay. Yasha would probably ask Caduceus to make you some tea to help you both relax after the session.

#critical role x reader #mighty nein #mighty nein x reader #beauregard lionett #mollymauk x reader #mollymauk tealeaf #beau x reader #molly x reader #beauregard lionette #yasha nydoorin #yasha nydoorin x reader #yasha x reader #beauregard lionett x reader

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btsslowburnfic · 4 years ago

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The Arrangement Ch 12

Series Summary: Desperately in need of money, you answered the questionable ad. AKA-Arranged marriage AU featuring Y/N and Yoongi.

Chapter Summary: Work work and meeting the lead Fashion designer at BigHit Previous Chapter here You arrived back at 1802 and put away the groceries. True to his word, Yoongi had let you carry all the bags back while he stuffed his cold hands deep into his coat.

“What’s tomorrow’s schedule look like?” He asked, collapsing down onto the couch.

You took out your phone. “You have a meeting with Adora at 10 am. It looks like the conference room on the 24th floor has already been reserved by Jiwoo. Other than that, not much. You have your afternoon blocked out.”

“Cool.” He scrolled through his phone.

You walked over to the refrigerator and pulled out your leftovers. “Do you want anything while I’m in here?” You asked.

“No. I don’t eat a lot.” He responded.

You put your food on a plate and positioned yourself at the barstool. “Do you know the person who is retiring on Saturday?” You asked right before taking a bite of your food.

“Just casually. He’s been here forever. He was BPD’s assistant for a long time and then took a less intense position these past couple of years. I think he works in the gallery as a docent.”

“There’s a gallery? Jesus, this building has everything.” You said amazed.

“It has a lot. I haven’t been. They change the exhibits every few months.”

You took your phone out and researched the gallery a bit. How interesting. You added your meeting with Jimin to your calendar and added a few other personal items for next week.

You got up and rinsed your plate and then set the coffee maker for the morning. “Alright dude, I’ll see you tomorrow. Thanks for the groceries.”

He looked up from his phone. “You’re already going to bed? I thought you were a night owl?”

You shrugged. “ I think I’m making up for years of sleep deprivation honestly. I’m sure I’ll be back to it in no time. Plus you know, mild panic attack earlier.”

“Ah right. Sorry about that again. Good night,” He said.

You gave a small smile and realized about halfway down the hallway that your heart was racing. Hey. Calm down. You’re the one in charge here.

Yoongi got up from the couch. He wouldn’t be tired for hours. He would normally go back to the studio, but after your confession earlier he didn’t want to leave you alone in case Jin’s crazy girlfriend was still around and going to start screaming again. He sighed and went up to the loft area, pulling out his laptop. He could work some from here he supposed.

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You woke up and threw on your robe. Shuffling out to the kitchen you saw that coffee was missing from the pot, indicating that Yoongi had already started his day. You grabbed a mug and headed back to your room to get ready.

When you arrived at your desk you were pleasantly surprised to see some stationary had been left on your desk, as well as a small plant. Huh, cute. You sat down and answered the usual round of emails, confirmed events, and made a list of things you would need to check with Yoongi before answering.

Y/N: Hey! I have some questions I need to ask you before I answer some emails. Are you available? Also do you need me to attend the 10am with you?

Y: come in.

You smiled and walked around the corner to the studio. You tried to turn the handle and it was locked. You smirked and keyed in the code.

"Good morning," you said, closing the door behind you.

"Did you sleep OK?" he asked, not turning around from the computer monitors.

"I did. Thanks. I didn't bring coffee, would you like me to go grab some?"

"No, it’s fine." He responded.

You walked closer and perched yourself on the edge of the couch closest to him. You sat down your pen and paper. He was clearly in the middle of something.

He pushed a few more buttons on the console and hit play, a beat suddenly filled the studio. It sounded good to you, but all you knew about music was that you liked to dance to it. You watched as he listened to it with his entire body. He hit stop.

"Ugh… It's still not right. Fuck." he slid his hands down his jeans

"I can come back later if it's better for you. I didn't want to interrupt."

He spun around in the chair. "No. You're fine. What did you need to ask me?"

“Namjoon sent a list of artists who have expressed an interest in collaborating with you. He wants you to pick your top 3. Here," you handed him the list.

Yoongi took the paper and looked over it boredly. So many people were just interested in collaboration for their own sake; using him to get their music recognized. People always fucking using him. He could feel himself starting to get angry and took a deep breath.

"Hey. We can do this later, ok? What do you need from me for your meeting? Anything?" You could tell this was bothering him but had no idea why.

Yoongi looked up at you. Weren't you also using him? For the money? The idea flashed across his mind for a moment before he told himself to shut up.

He cleared his throat. “Sorry. Here. " He got a pen and circled 3.

You took the paper back. "Oooo Post Malone? That would be sick. I actually haven't really listened to your music yet," you mused as you looked at the other two artists he had circled.

Yoongi felt himself relaxing more as you began to talk. "No?" he made a tch sound, "You'll have to listen sometime."

"Oh yeah?” Your eyes flicked back up to him. “Make me a mixtape. Your ‘best of’."

Yoongi rubbed the back of his neck, suddenly feeling like he was in middle school. "You want me to make you a mixtape?"

"Yep." You smiled. "OK. Your meeting with Adora is in fifteen minutes. What do you need?"

He thought for a few seconds. "I just need my laptop and some headphones. You don't need to come, she and I will just be listening to music. If we end up back down here I'll let you know." Yoongi got up to start collecting his things.

"Alright. Sounds good. I'll see you later." You let yourself out and emailed Namjoon Yoongi's choices. You watched as he walked past you to the elevators.

Yoongi tried to make sure he didn't look at you as he walked past. He didn't want to seem like a creep. But last night, the more he thought about what you had told him, the more upset he got about it. While his family wasn't supportive of his goals, theirs was from a place of concern. And they were never violent or even the type to yell.

Yoongi knew there was nothing he could have done. He didn't even live in the same city as you growing up. He didn't know you when you guys were kids. But he found himself wishing he did. That there could have been a way for him to have protected you from that. He sighed, remembering that this morning the first thing he thought about was you, and if you were safe. What was happening to him? He got on the elevator and headed on up to his meeting.

You responded to Jiwoo's email regarding personalized stationery. You had selected your initials with the Genius Lab logo in the bottom. The sample version you designed made you feel proud. You had asked if Yoongi also had stationary and he did not. So you ordered some for him as well.

Before you knew it, your stomach was growling. As though your mind was being read your phone pinged.

J: There's Food trucks out front. Let's goooo!

YN: what kind?

JK: I'm stuck at a shoot, grab me something and bring it to the 11th floor and I'll love you forever

YN: Is this a group chat?

J: welcooooome. Meet me in the lobby!

YN: Ok.

You took the elevator down and saw Jimin’s beautiful blonde locks from across the lobby.

"Happy Friday, gorgeous!" he greeted you. "On Fridays food trucks sometimes park along this street." He explained, gesturing through the glass windows to several food trucks waiting.

"Oh my God. Is that a crepe truck?" you asked.

"Yep. Let's get a few different things and share. V just texted and he's saving us a seat in the cafeteria."

All of a sudden you wanted to cry. You had friends that texted you and wanted to eat with you? This was too good to be true. What was the catch? You found yourself wondering.

"Hey. YN. Are you ok? Here, we can use the company card if you're worried since you just started here." Jimin tried to guess what might be bothering you.

"What?" you asked, confused for a minute. "No. I'm sorry. I'm just so happy you guys included me, I was frozen with happiness."

Jimin laughed. "You are too cute. I don't know why Namjoon thinks you're secretly a dominatrix". He walked over towards the exit.

"Wait what? Your boss called me that?" you chased after him.

Jimin kept laughing "No no. Just how he's glad someone's finally whipping Yoongi into shape. I added the dominatrix part." The two of you lined up for crepes.

You felt a little annoyed. You weren’t making Yoongi do anything. "Pshhh, whatever. I'm just nice to him. I ask him nicely to do things and he does them if he wants to."

"Sure, sure." Jimin teased. "Hey let's split up so we can get food twice as fast."

"Sounds good," you agreed.

You felt your phone vibrate and you took it out.

Y: Hey. Still in the meeting. We won't be breaking for lunch and I don't want you to wait on me. Not that you would. But just in case.

Aww how nice of him.

YN:OK, thanks! Make sure to eat something this afternoon. You didn't eat dinner last night.

Y: k

You ordered several crepes and waited for Jimin to meet you back by the lobby entrance. He had gone to a kimchi truck , ordering many different food items as well. You made your way to the 3rd floor, home to the cafeteria and gym. It seemed so evil to have these two on the same floor you thought.

You guys walked in with Jimin looking around for V. Having found him, the two of you walked over. He already had a sizeable amount of food on the table.

“Hey guys.” He smiled, reaching out to take some of the food from your hands.

“This one is for Yoongi,” You said as you sat down and placed one of the containers next to you, away from the center.

“That’s so sweet of you.” V said.

“It’s nothing. Oh, aren’t you supposed to take food to your other friend?” You asked Jimin who had just returned from grabbing napkins and chopsticks.

“Yeah, he’s still in the shoot. We’ll just take him a few bites from each dish. You haven’t met Jungkook yet have you?”

The three of you started divvying up food onto bowls and plates. “No. I’ve seen pictures of him in magazines and stuff, but I haven’t had the honor yet.”

“He’s a good kid.” V said.

“He’s a grown ass man.” Jimin retorted.

V rolled his eyes. “The point remains. He’s coming to the party on Saturday so I’m sure you’ll meet him then.”

Silence filled the table as you all started to shovel food into your faces.

“So what dorm did they put you in?” Jimin asked through bites of food.

Shit. You did not want to tell them that you were living with Yoongi. For so many reasons. But you didn’t want to lie to your new friends.

“I’m in a private room. I think since Yoongi keeps unconventional hours they wanted me to not bother the other girls.” You said and then stuffed a crepe into your mouth.

“That makes sense. A lot of the models are also in private smaller apartments too since we have to fly in and out of the country at strange hours,” V said. “Jimin and I live across the hall from each other on the 20th floor.”

“That’s how we became such good friends. We kept running into each other on the way to the gym and cafe. It was…” Jimin took a deep breath and dramatically paused, “DESTINY.” He reached out his hand. V laughed and the linked pinkies for a split second.

“Alright, I have to get back to work. I’ll see you later Jimin. See you tomorrow Y/N.” Tae said as he gathered up some of this trash and stood up.

“Later.” You waved.

Jimin packed up the rest of the food and some utensils to deliver to JK. “Alright, let’s go deliver some lunches.”

The two of you exited the cafeteria. “Ugh. Why is the gym next to the cafeteria.” You lamented once more.

“I know. In the morning they make bread and it’s all I can smell when I work out. I hate it.” Jimin stepped onto the elevator with you following. “What did you get Yoongi?”

“Kimchi crepe. I had one as well. It was good. If he doesn’t want it, I’ll eat it.”

The elevator arrived at the 11th floor. “Alright babe, see you in a little while.”

“Thanks again for the lunch invite.” You smiled as the doors closed. You sighed and took out your phone.

YN: I grabbed you some food from the food trucks. I’m getting ready to put it in the break room unless you want it somewhere else. I have a 2pm meeting but will be available by text.

You dropped the food off and stopped by your desk. You answered more emails and soon it was almost time to go meet Jimin again. You went back to the apartment and changed into leggings and a tank top. You threw a sweater on over it and headed down to the 6th floor.

The first thing you noticed about the 6th floor looked like a rainbow vomited all over it. The colors were all over the place, you looked around for Jimin and not seeing him you sat down on a large orange sofa under a large graffiti-style painting that said JHOPE FASHION.

You heard the clack of heels a few seconds later.

"Yoongi's assistant! " A voice happily shouted, belonging to the man who had escorted you to your apartment a few nights ago. Today he was dressed in an immaculate pinstripe suit that looked normal, save for the psychedelic dress shirt poking out from under his jacket and the lime green socks you could barely see.

You stood up, "Hey. Nice to see you again."

"I'm so sorry. I forgot your name." He said.

"Ah. Same actually. I'm YN."

" Hoseok. Jimin is running a bit late but he told me you would be stopping by Come along." he quickly turned and headed down the bright hallway.

You followed him down the kaleidoscope-inspired hallway and entered a bright open room. There were several other people in there. The room was lined with mirrors and pedestals. People who you could only assume were models were having alterations done.

You followed Hoseok over to one of the empty pedestals where he stopped to turn and look at you.

"Alright, do you have other clothes? Because I can not see your figure with that sweater on." He got straight to the point.

"Oh. Yes of course." You awkwardly removed your garment. He took the sweater from you and sat it on a small purple chair.

"Stand." He gestured to a small pedestal and offered you his hand

You climbed up on the raised platform while Hoseok studied your body. It felt invasive and awkward, but at the same time, normal because everyone else in the room was having the same thing done. You felt almost like a model for a few seconds.

"Hey girl. You're getting the full JHope experience today I see." You heard a familiar voice. You turned your head and saw Jimin walking over holding some Boba tea.

He handed one to Hoseok. He looked up at you, "Sorry. No drinks near the merch."

"She's not getting the full JHope experience, I would never do that with Yoongi's assistant." Hoseok teased Jimin. You weren't quite sure what he was talking about, but you could take a guess.

He continued his lap around you, eyeing you predatorily. He paused for a moment, staring at your backside more intently.

" Hey, get away from my ass." You scolded. Jimin lost his shit and started cackling.

Suddenly very serious, Hoseok remarked, "I have to figure out which cut of jeans will look the best in that ass so I'm going to look at it. If you want me to style you, you have to be prepared, Y/N."

"Sorry, he's a little intense. But he also just said he's not going to try to sleep with you, so your ass is safe." Jimin said, having regained some of his composure.

You scowled. "Oh yea? Is that what the full experience is?"

"You two need to quiet yourselves." Hoseok was back to looking at you.

You blinked for a second, suddenly putting two and two together.

"You're THE JHope of JHOPE fashion house."

Hosoek’s eyes flicked up to you. "One and the same."

JHope fashion was known for its mixture of traditional clothing with bold and colorful patterns.

"Well then, please sir. Look at my ass." You teased.

To your surprise, he started to laugh and clapped his hands. "You are funny. OK. Step down. You and Soojin are about the same body type. Let me pull her wardrobe and see what we have." He walked back towards a bright green door and disappeared behind it.

Jimin smiled while looking around the room. “So. What do you think?”

“I feel like I’m in a Kdrama to be honest.” You responded. “Small town girl moves to big city. Boy feels bad for her and gives her clothes. Girl begins new life. You know the genre.”

“Haha yeah. Are you from a small town?”

“No. I’m from Busan and I’ve lived in Seoul for the past 7 years.”

Hoseok walked out the door carrying a few clothing items. “Here. I don’t have time to do alterations or anything but take these home and try them on. There are samples of different styles of clothes: jeans, different styles of skirts and dresses, shirts, jackets. For Saturday try on some of the printed dresses. It’s a barbecue restaurant so if you spill sauce you want it to be on a pattern so it blends in better and doesn’t stand out.”

“Ok, thanks.” you stepped down and took the hangers from him. “When should I return these by?”

“These are marked as trash. So if they don’t fit you, you can donate them. If they fit you, keep them.”

“Really?” You asked, still in disbelief. “Like. For free. Just take these?”

“Yep.” Hoeseok said. “Just don’t go around telling everyone in the building. We get a tax write off for defects so we can’t have all of the clothing walking off. This is because Jimin said you’re cool.”

You looked over at Jimin who was blushing slightly. “Thanks Jimin.”

“It’s nothing. Hey, do you have my clothes ready?” He asked, seeming to remember that he also came here for something.

“No. JK’s shoot went over. He’s been working out too much and he busted out of one of his shirts. We had to remake one on the fly and it took my free time. I’ll bring it by tonight.”

Your eyes bugged out slightly and you tried to not imagine the model who you had only seen photos of busting out of a shirt. It didn’t work though.

“You're so lucky.” Jimin pouted.

“I was too busy being annoyed to appreciate his physique.” Hoseok retorted. “Anyways, I need to get back to work. I’ll see you two tomorrow. Now shoo.” He gestured over to the door.

You grabbed your sweater off the chair and headed back towards the elevators with your new stash in tow. Next stop: your closet. NEXT CHAPTER @lidda @anpanman-sonyeondan @firefairy1 @cuteipat @sugaslittlekookies @janeelizabeth1216 @deeepvibes @gxldenhunny

#suga x you #yoongi imagine #bts yoongi x reader #bts suga x you #suga x reader #bts fic #bts writing #bts fanfic #bts fanfction #suga x y/n #yoongi x y/n #yoongi x reader

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originalhybridloverfics · 3 years ago

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CH 8 I Can't Let Her Die.

A/N: This chapter isn't very long but hey, it's better than nothing.

I want to take a moment to thank everyone who is still reading this.

Felicity stared at Oliver wide-eyed. “Are you serious?”

“C’mon,” Oliver mounted the bike and held the helmet out to her. “I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

Felicity was still hesitant.

”Do you trust me?” Oliver asked his eye intently on her.

“Yes,” there was no hesitation in her answer. Of course, she trusted him. That shouldn’t even be a question.

“Then trust me,” he held his hand out to her.

Felicity thankful that she was wearing jeans today placed her hand in Oliver’s.

His hand tightened around hers and he gave it a little tug.

She stepped forward placing her hands on his shoulders, she swung her leg over the back of the bike, sliding in behind him. “How close do I need to be for this?”

“Close enough for you to wrap your arms around me. You’re gonna need to hold onto me.”

“I always dreamed about you saying that to me,” Felicity said.

“Yeah? In what context?” Oliver looked over his shoulder at her.

Felicity flushed in embarrassment. “I can’t believe I said that out loud.”

“That doesn’t answer my question,” Oliver replied, his eyes on hers. “What context?”

“It definitely wasn’t platonic,” Felicity confessed.

She gasped when she suddenly felt Oliver’s hands on her thighs pulling her forward until her front was flushed against his back, her thighs pressed against his.

“Good,” Oliver said, he moved his hands to her arms and pulled them around him. “Hold on tight.”

Felicity nodded, unable to speak with Oliver’s perfect muscular body in between her legs, feeling his abs beneath her hands and the heat of his body seeping into hers.

“You want to know something? Something that I never said out loud to anyone?” Oliver said, a glint in his eye.

“What?” Felicity asked, she leaned closer instinctively, feeling like they were sharing a secret.

“I’ve imagined telling you that in so many different ways. Not a single one of them was platonic.” Oliver’s voice was low.

Felicity’s breath hitched and she bit down on her lip, unable to believe what she just heard him say.

Oliver’s eyes flickered down to her lips, he wanted so bad to kiss her but he wasn’t sure it would be right.

What would his Felicity think?

He turned around and made sure Felicity’s grip on him was tight before starting the bike and started their journey to Big Belly Burger.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Oliver grabbed them a booth while Felicity went up to the counter to make their order. He didn’t want to but he knew it was important not to crowd her, still, he remained vigil, watching anyone who so much as looked at her.

He was only able to relax once she slid in the seat across from him.

“It should only be ten minutes or so,” Felicity said. “Then we can head back to the others.”

“I am in no rush to get back to a crowded foundry,” Oliver said.

“Are you saying that because you can’t get along with yourself?”

“Well, yes, and I just want to have lunch with you and no one else,” Oliver answered honestly.

“You keep saying sweet things like that I might actually believe them to be true,” Felicity said with a nervous smile.

“I mean every word I say to you,” Oliver said.

Felicity couldn’t fight back a smile, she ducked her head then looked back at him, pushing her glasses up her nose. There was this light feeling in her chest.

She was happy. This Oliver had a way of putting her at ease and making her feel like she mattered more than anyone in the world.

It was an amazing feeling.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Felicity never thought she would be at the other end of the famous ‘Oliver Queen’ charm. Yet, here she was as he managed to convince her to stay and eat lunch at the diner.

And he asked her questions that her Oliver never asked her, what it was like growing up in Vegas, about her family, still being just a kid in college. Apologizing for the rumors at QC. Telling her stories about Thea when she was little, the trouble he and Tommy got into that didn’t involve girls, about Raisa and how sometimes she had been more of a parent to him than Moira or Robert ever were.

Felicity felt like in the short time they spent having lunch in the diner, she got to know this version of him more than she did her version of him in the last year.

And while yes, she enjoyed it, she couldn’t help but wonder why things couldn’t be this easy with her Oliver?

“What’s on your mind?” Oliver asked.

“Nothing,” Felicity shook her head.

“Felicity, I know you,” Oliver began. “You are always thinking and you’re doing that thing with your forehead and eyebrow when you’re trying to figure something out.”

“It’s weird that you know about that,” Felicity said.

“It’s not weird. I just pay attention when it’s you.” Oliver told her. “It’s impossible not to. Talk to me,”

“I was just thinking that my Oliver, I mean, the other you, present you, he’s never once asked about my family. We’ve just shared a meal and talked like this, he doesn’t show the same interest in me that you do.”

“He thinks you deserve better than him than us,” Oliver told her. “And he’s not wrong. You’re are the smartest person I’ve ever met, you’re selfless and kind and you care about others with your whole heart. There is not a more beautiful person in the world inside and out than you. You deserve more than a guy incapable of making a long-term relationship work with five years of baggage and a responsibility to fix everything that was wrecked by people with the last name Queen.”

“Oliver,” Felicity’s voice caught with emotion. It wasn’t the first time he praised her with sweet words or the first time he spoke badly about himself but it hurt more for him to be so hard on himself when she can see how changed he is from the man she first met whose only goal was crossing names off a list. “You are so much more than you think. Those five years of baggage have made you who you are and that is someone that inspired me to be more than an IT girl. You showed me how one person can make a difference if given the chance. Your parent’s mistakes are not yours. And as for relationships, I think maybe you just haven’t let yourself reach the point of being happy because you think you deserve to suffer for things that were beyond your control. You have this terrible habit of carrying everything on your shoulders and blaming yourself for everything that goes wrong especially when it’s not your fault. You’re not cursed, you’re not your father or your mom, and contrary to your belief you are not a killer.”

She leaned forward catching his gaze, reaching across the table for his hand.

“Oliver, you are a good man. You’re a hero.”

Oliver exhaled his breath, her words, her belief in him meant more to him than she could ever know. He lifted her hand to his mouth and brushed his lips over her knuckles tenderly.

The touch was so soft and tender it sent a shiver through her entire being.

“I wish I could see myself the way you see me.”

“I’ll remind you every day,” Felicity promised. “And one day you will see yourself for the amazing man you are.”

It was on the tip of Oliver’s tongue to tell her he loves her, he loves her more than he thought he was capable of loving someone but he held the words in.

It wouldn’t be fair to tell her he was in love with her when he would be leaving.

“One day he’s going to see what’s in front of him and I hope he doesn’t make the same mistake I did. He’ll tell you everything and you will be the most important person to him just like you are for me.”

Felicity was speechless. She reached out and tightened her hand around his. Something shifting inside her. She felt like her heart was opening in ways she didn’t know were even possible.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Oliver heard the door and waited, seeing Felicity walked down the stairs with his future self hands clasped in her, their interlaced fingers had his stomach-turning.

His future self leaned in whispering something into her ear and Felicity laughs. A god to honest laugh and it hurt.

He couldn’t remember ever making her laugh like that.

When they reach the bottom of the stairs Felicity turned to smile up at his future self, they were standing so close together they might as well have been breathing each other’s air.

He watched as his eyes flicked to Felicity’s mouth, the way he lifted his hand to cup Felicity's cheek, his thumb moving across her delicate skin.

“What took you so long?” He asked when he saw Felicity lean into the touch.

Felicity jumped back from his future self, blushing, "We ate at the diner."

“Like a date?” Oliver's eyes narrowed.

“Yes,” Future Oliver said at the same time Felicity said, “No,” her voice higher pitched than she intended.

She grabbed the bags from Oliver’s hand and set them on the med bay table. “We got burgers and fries for everyone,”

Future Oliver stepped up behind her, reaching around her body into the bag and setting the food out as John and Roy joined them.

Felicity turned her head toward him, their faces inches apart, and the way they looked into each other's eyes, made anger simmer in his gut and his skin hot.

He didn’t want anyone looking at Felicity with such intensity and he wanted to be the one to make her blue eyes darkened and that flush to crawl across her skin as she smiled.

If they stood any closer they would be plaster against one another, yet Felicity didn't seem bothered by the close proximity,

Oliver watched as his future self, swept his hand down Felicity’s back as he stepped back and Felicity reached out, placing her hand over his chest, a smile dancing on her lips.

Oliver’s stomach turned, he cleared his throat, cutting between them purposely making them take a step back from each other.

He quickly grabbed some food and placed himself between them, he forced a smile Felicity’s way before slowly turning to stare his future self in the eye.

Future Oliver didn’t so much as flinch, meeting his glare head-on. He recognized that look in himself. He was jealous. However, he only had himself to blame.

He hoped that soon he would get his head out of his ass and admit his feelings to Felicity and not make his mistakes.

Felicity stepped back, moving toward her station and his future self followed her like they were two magnets being pulled together.

Again, he watched as his future self found some excuse to touch Felicity, taking her hand in his own and Felicity smiling up at him, so at ease with his touch.

There was a closeness between them that wasn’t there before. He didn’t like it.

It left him feeling like he was looking at a possibility for himself and Felicity if he could only get past the fear of losing another person he loved.

But the life he led only put the people around him in danger.

His future self was fucking living proof of that. He came back here to save her.

It was a lot harder to overcome his fear, knowing that Felicity was supposed to die because of him in just a few weeks.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Concentrate,” Oliver snapped at his future self.

He had jumped at the opportunity to spar with his future self. Really, he just wanted any excuse to hit him.

What he wasn’t expecting was that Felicity’s presence would be that distracting to them.

At least he however was trying, he couldn’t say the same for the Oliver from the future.

“I can’t,” Future Oliver grunted.

Roy had suggested that Felicity get more training than self-defense. This whole ordeal had done a number on him knowing in the not too far in the future Felicity dies to save him.

He wanted to give her all the skills he could to change the outcome of her fate.

She was already one of the most badass women on the planet but this would hopefully help her. It would at least ease his mind a little.

Felicity was dressed in a pair of yoga pants and a workout bra, there was this light sheen of sweat, and God, future Oliver could not concentrate, he could do nothing but watch her every move.

Oliver looked over and he faltered, as he lost his own battle to focus as Digg acted as a combat instructor for Roy and Felicity.

“This is your fault.” Oliver accused his future self. “Why do you have to wave your connection with Felicity in my face, showing me what my future could look like? I was fine living in denial.”

“It’s called enlightenment.” Future Oliver told him. “I see what’s in front of me and you need to do the same preferably before she realizes that she can do so much better.”

Heels sounded across the floor but no one really took notice.

Laurel reached the bottom of the steps, she opened her mouth to call out to Oliver but stopped short, stunned at the sight of Oliver.

“What the hell is going on here!?” she exclaimed.

Everyone stopped to turn and look at her.

“How are there two Oliver’s,” she moved toward the two men in question. “Last I check you didn’t have a twin.”

“It’s complicated,” Felicity said, chancing a look at both Oliver’s coming forward.

“I am more than capable of understanding complicated, Felicity.” Laurel retorted, an edge to her voice. “Just tell me what in the hell is happening?”

A/N: Thanks for reading!

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Diabolik Lovers VANDEAD CARNIVAL ;; Kou Route ー Chapter 2

ー The scene starts on the Carnival’s venue

Kou: Yui, can you walk?

Yui: Yeah, I’m fine.

Kou: I see. Shall we go to our next spot then?

This time I’m gonna tag along to whichever place you like. I’m the only one who had fun at the last shop after all.

The mood got a little dark for a second too, so how about we search for a place with a lively vibe?

Yui: A lively vibe...

( Speaking of which, I only caught a glimpse from afar, but I’m pretty sure I spotted an area which looked like an amusement park on the street we passed by earlier... )

( Guess I’ll suggest that to Kou-kun...! )

Say, Kou-kun? Don’t you think there might be a place which is similar to an amusement park in the human world?

If you’d like, why don’t we go there? I’m sure it’ll be exciting and fun!

Kou: Yeah, good thinking. Which meansー ...That way, I think?

*TIMESKIP*

ー The scene shifts to Saint Nore Park

Yui: Waah...!

( So this is what a Demon World’s version of an amusement park is like! )

( It doesn’t seem that much different from our version. I’m sure I’ll be able to enjoy myself here too. )

( Huh...? At second glance, there seem to be a few things which are foreign to me. )

( It might be a little scary after all... )

Kou: A little horror-esque? I have high hopes for a haunted house now!

Yui: Do you like amusement parks and such?

Kou: Guess I don’t dislike them? However, whenever I go, it’s usually work-related so I’ve never really gotten a chance to just enjoy it to my heart’s content.

Yui: You mean for your job as an idol?

Kou: Yeah. Like as the location for a shoot. It’s still fun and all but it still feels a little different from going in your private time.

Yui: You don’t go out with Ruki-kun and the others?

Kou: With the guys? Hmー...

...Uwah. I just tried imagining it but it turned even more surreal than I expected.

Yui: R-Really?

Kou: I mean, we’d be the group of four guys going to an amusement park together. It could be fun but isn’t it also kind of cringe? (1)

It’d be much better if you were also there with us though. Like an oasis in the desert? (2)

Of course, I wouldn’t mind if it’s just the two of us either! Don’t you think that sounds nice, like a normal date?

Yui: A normal date...

Kou: Yeah, let’s do that! Say, let’s go to one sometime! I’ll make up for what I did earlier too.

Selection

→ I’d rather go somewhere else

Yui: I’d love to go on a date but if possible, I’d prefer another location...

Kou: Eh? Do you not like amusement parks, perhaps?

Yui: No, that’s not it...But I figured things could get troublesome if you go someplace crowded...

Kou: Me? Not really. I surprisingly don’t get recognized that often as long as I just act casual.

If anything, I almost want people to recognize me? It’d be my opportunity to show you off!

Yui: ( Show me off...? Is it really okay to do that...? )

→ I’d rather go with everyone... (☾)

Yui: Hm...Don’t you think it’s better to go with everyone?

Kou: Eeh? Whyー?

Yui: I mean, if we go together and one of your fans spots us, it’d cause trouble for you, right?

Kou: Ahー That’s what you were thinking? So you’re trying to be considerate of my job as an idol.

Fufu, that’s no problem, really. Just let them make a fuss if that’s what they want.

Besides, don’t you think we’d stand out more if the other guys are there too? In more than one way.

Yui: ( He might have a point there... )

Kou: You don’t like the idea of us going to an amusement park together?

Yui: That’s not it. I want to go together too.

Kou: Let’s go then! Once the Carnival is over, just the two of us. Promise?

Yui: ...Yeah!

Kou: So, what will you do? Want to just have some fun here? Or should we try going to some other place?

Yui: No. Let’s go inside for now. It looks fun!

Kou: Okay! Let’s go then!

ー They enter the amusement park

Kou: Heeh. A haunted house and an arcade. Oh, over there’s a ferris wheel.

The atmosphere’s different but the assortment of rides isn’t all that different from a regular amusement park, huh?

Yui: Seems like it.

( The mood is somewhat scary though...However, I kind of got used to it as we walked around. )

Clown A: Hello there, miss~

Yui: Eh!?

Kou: Woah~! It’s a clown!

Yui: ( That scared me...That seems to be a reoccurring trend today. )

Clown A: Good evening! Is this your first time visiting Saint Nore?

Yui: Y-Yes. It is.

Clown A: Same goes for the gentleman over there?

Kou: Yeah, exactly.

Clown A: Two first timers!? In that case, you have to ride this one first!

A magic carpet ride through the sky! Even it’s name is...MAGICAL~~~!!

Yui: A magic carpet ride through the sky...!?

( I wonder if he’s referring to the magic carpets which often show up in fairytales...? )

Kou: It honestly isn’t that uncommon though. Us Vampires can just soar through the sky too. ...However.

Fufu, looks like you want to try it?

Yui: ( Hm...I am really curious... )

I-I can’t?

Kou: No, it’s fine. I will accompany the Princess~

Clown A: Okaay~! In that case, I’ll escort you both to the flying carpet ride~!

ー They enter the ride

Kou: Say, Mr. Clown? Since it’s an ‘attraction’, I assume we’re going to do more than just ride it?

Clown A: Exactly! You will sit on the carpet and collect stars!

Yui: Stars?

Clown A: Mmh! Joining forces, that is!

If the two of you have a strong bond, I’m sure you’ll be able to gather a bunch of stars!

Kou: Heeh. In that case, we definitely have to succeed!

The two of us are so very close after all!

Clown A: I see, I see! Let us take a look at your bond of love then.

Kou: Let’s try our best, M-neko-chan~!

Yui: ( I’m a little nervous...But Kou-kun’s here to help me out, so I’m sure it’ll be fine...! )

Explanation: The player moves from left to right on their magic carpet to try and collect the stars falling down from above, while avoiding obstacles such as bombs. The goal is to collect as many stars as possible within the time limit.

You can play this game in EASY, NORMAL or HARD mode.

Kou: We did it, M-neko-chan! It says we cleared the game. Also, I’m pretty sure we might have absolutely killed it?

Clown A: Exactly! A magnificent showing! Congratulations!!

Kou: Say, Mr. Clown. Don’t we get a reward now? We did well so shouldn’t we get a prize of some sorts?

Clown A: A reward?

Yui: Kou-kun, they don’t really do that at amusement parks...

Kou: Eeh~? Even though we tried that hard? Isn’t it normal to get rewarded for your efforts?

Clown A: Nn~ You’re not wrong! In that case, guess I’ll give a special reward to you two lovebirds~

Yui: Eh?

Kou: Hooray! Thank you, Mr. Clown~!

...See? You just gotta ask.

Yui: ( Could this have been Kou-kun’s goal all along...? Guess I should have expected it... )

Kou: So, what exactly is this reward?

Clown A: The right to ride on this magic carpet and enjoy the Carnival from up in the sky!

Kou: ...That’s it? Kind of lackluster, don’t you think?

Yui: K-Kou-kun!

Clown A: It’s your own VIP seat where nobody can disrupt you, you know? ...What do you say?

Kou: ...I see. Hehe~ You’re rather considerate, aren’t you?

Clown A: Right? Enjoy a nice ride together.

Kou: Let’s go, Yui. Come on, give me your hand.

*Rustle*

ー The carpet flies up in the air

Yui: Wah...!

Kou: Yui, hold onto me! It’d be bad if you were to fall down after all.

Yui: Y-Yeah...I suppose it is a little scary now that we’re actually outside.

Kou: Are you scared?

Yui: Yeah, just a little...

Kou: It’s because you keep looking down. It won’t be scary if you look up at the sky.

Or actually, why not look at my face? Right in the eyes. Don’t you think it’ll help you relax a little?

Yui: ( A-Actually...That might only make me even more nervous...! )

Kou: Ah! Yui, look! Ruki-kun and the others are walking over there!

Oooi~ Ruki-kuuuun! Yuma-kuuuun! Azusa-kuuuun!

Yui: Ahaha! They all look surprised!

Kou: Ah-aah...Yuma-kun dropped the food in his hand.

Yui: Fufu, you’re right. Pretty sure Ruki-kun will scold him now.

Kou: ...Say, Yui. Are you having fun?

Yui: Yeah! I am!!

Kou: I see...I’m glad.

Yui: ( ...I wonder if Kou-kun is still worried about what happened earlier...? )

...I’m having a blast, Kou-kun.

Kou: Haha. Weirdo. Why did you say it twice?

Yui: Because I really am having fun...!

*TIMESKIP*

Clown A: Thank you for your visit~ Come back any time!

Kou: I was honestly a little skeptical at first, but that was pretty fun.

Yui: Yeah. You don’t get to fly through the sky every day, so it was a rare experience.

Kou: You want to fly through the air?

Yui: Not really but I guess it’s just something you look up to?

Because it’s not something you can do at any time.

Kou: Oh come on. I can grant that wish any time as long as you ask me.

While carrying you in my arms like a princess~ I guess making a journey through the sky like we did earlier doesn’t sound too bad.

Whether it’s the ocean or the sky, when you’re with me, I’d go anywhere.

Yui: Yeah. I can have fun anywhere as long as we’re together too.

Kou: Let’s go to both places then! The sea and the sky! Ah, maybe the mountains as well?

Fufu, we made more date plans. I’m looking forward to when we’re back home.

Yui: ( A date, huh? Speaking of which, we haven’t really gone on a lot of normal dates. )

( I’m kind of looking forward to it now as well. )

Kou: Ahー I guess it’s because we went all out earlier but I’m kind of thirsty now. Say, why don’t we take a little break?

Yui: Good idea. I wonder if there’s a resting area somewhere?

Kou: There’s a cafe over there. Want to go take a look?

ー They walk away.

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

Translation notes

(1) The term むさ苦しい literally means ‘filthy’ or ‘dirty’.

(2) ��一点 or ‘kou itten’ is an expression used to refer to a single woman amongst a group of men.

← RETURN TO CHAPTER 1

→ PROCEED WITH MAIN STORY [CHAPTER 3]

→ SUB-SCENARIO #1 [W/ SHUU]

→ SUB-SCENARIO #2 [W/ SUBARU]

→ SUB-SCENARIO #3 [W/ AZUSA]

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jayflrt · 3 years ago

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here <3

NOO hi alice its been awhile since i've sent an ask IM SORRYYYY

i finally went down to the shop to collect the txt jewel case! its actually similar to hot sauce jewel case! i pulled harley quinn tyun and hyuka as well as the other version's soobin! (i have tyun hyuka for the other ver hehe) AND I WAS SO HAPPY :((

im travelling to malaysia to visit my friend's family for 2 weeks and they're bringing me to different parts of the country / islands! so i think i'll have fun~ i actually only decided to travel (i wasn't going to anym) because i had just recovered from covid and so i can save a few hundreds on the PCR pre-depature test! as i only need to take the normal ART and would save me about a hundred dollars per test (theres 3 i think!)

IDK WHETHER ITS ALLOWED ㅠㅠ i haven't signed any contract or anything but i don't blame my employer because he's trying to talk to his MD about hiring us and he apologized :") but its because i thought my slot was secured (they only informed me the night before i was supposed to start) so i cancelled my other job and now im jobless 🧎🏻‍♀️💀

so far im having an okay week! i just went out with one of my close friends ystd and we were going to put beads in our converse shoe laces so we went to shop for beads (but ran out of time before we could put it in our shoes :( so we're meeting again soon!) and we picked loser lover! we also bought a bunch of yellow themed beads to make a beomgyu theme bracelet (bcs the official metal one is expensive and we decided to just make our own versions!) and both of our biases are beomgyu HAHA

i also found out that a couple of our mutual friends (who were her friends before mine) didn't like me at our first meeting but my friend thought i was cute so she defended me from her own friends 😭 shes a real one 🦾 they thought i was annoying / hated them but she explained its just my humour is vv odd and i was just socially awkward and if they were nicer to me i'd get along well and now we're all friends (though not as close as i am w my friend!)

i'm also starting college (?? idk if it's college but im getting my diploma!) and im honestly so excited for it, i have a friend going to the same school and we've known each other since we were born since our parents are friends but we're really awkward now since we barely meet up and talk / talk in general ㅠㅠ but im making it my goal to try and befriend her because on our last overseas trip together it was REALLY awkward between us and i shared a car with her family and only talked to her mom 💀

I THINK THATS ALL FOR NOW? 😭 i still need to do a bunch of stuff today including searching for my missing 28 pcs 👹 i hope you have an amazing week ahead~ <3 do drink loads of water and take care of yourself well! -🤖

omg it’s okay 🤖 anon you don’t need to apologize !! i’ve been busy myself this week with all these exams 🤧 thankfully i’m at home tho so i’m more relaxed HAHAH

omg you got the jewel case AND pulled harley quinn taehyun and hyuka ?? :oo IM JEALOUS but your collection is thriving 🥰 i’m v excited bc me and my friend are gonna meet up next week and go to a kpop store :o i’m trying to decide which albums i want from there 🤧

omg that does sound fun !! :’)) AND OMG IM GLAD YOUVE MADE A FULL RECOVERY 😭💗 i hope you enjoy your trip to its fullest then and make a lot of memories. take pictures !!! <3 have you made plans of what exactly you’re gonna do? :o

OMG NOOOOO that’s still horrible with the misunderstandings 😭 and you had to cancel your other job PLS i’m so sorry :(( i hope the job search goes well now tho !! you will cop a great job i promise 💗

HAHAH omg you didn’t have time for the actual beading 😭 but that sounds so wholesome and like it’s a lot of fun !!! i hope you can bead the shoelaces soon >:) AND THATS SO CUTE OMG BEOMGYU THEMED 😭😭 i already know it’s going to be etsy level merch ♡

also noooo why did they judge you so quickly :((( i’m guessing maybe they just protected their feelings when they thought you didn’t like them by saying they didn’t like you either 😵‍💫 i’m glad you’re other friend cleared it up tho and hopefully you guys can all get to know each other more and get along !! 🥰💖

and congrats on starting college soon !! that’s gonna be such a good experience :o i hope you have a good time — tell me all ab it when you start >:)) AHAH I HOPE YOU CAN BEFRIEND YOUR CHILDHOOD FRIEND AGAIN 😭 that is awkward but it almost must make her shy to reconnect/talk in front of parents :’)

ALSO MISSING PCS HOWWW 🤧🤧 and omg i just bought svt dicon so i will show u how they are in my next ask when they arrive tomorrow >:)))) and thank you so much !! i hope you have a wonderful week too and take care 🥰🌷

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sometimesrosy · 3 years ago

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Hey Rosy! I can't write. I'm trying to write a story I've had in my head for more than 10 years now, which I've been working on through the years. The story has evolved a lot, and I've already tried writing it several times. Just for you to get an idea, I always get around 150 pages on word before stopping and never coming back to it. Last time I did that was in 2017. I've started rewriting it in 2020 but didn't even come close to that. Now I'm trying again, but for more than a week I've been +

+ I've been stuck in the first chapter. I've written so many versions of it, and I just can't get past it. It feels like it gets worse everytime, from writing 5 pages to not even being able to write a single scene now. It's being super frustrating because this is MY story, I feel the need to write it but just can't. I've thought about skipping the first chapter, but then I don't know how to begin the next even though I know what I want to happen. Any help is appreciated. I'm basically desperate.

PS. I haven't written since before Christmas. Before that, I was writing a different sci-fi story I've had in my head for some years now too. (Guess what? I didn't finish it either. But that's not my problem now, my problem is I can't even start I'm gonna cry lol)

You have to WAY let go.

You have to relax.

You have put so much pressure on yourself that you're frozen and you can't move forward. You've got ten years of investment telling you that THIS is your story and you're ruining it. So every time you open up a document, you've got so much stress and pressure and weight pressing you down that you can't write a damn thing.

I think what you need is a throwaway story.

You have ten years of thinking about this story and you CAN NOT move forward. But you also can't get out of it. You're stuck. Blocked. And you probably are so attached to what you've already written that you can't figure out what is good and what isn't working.

Honestly I think what you really need to do is just finish something. ANYTHING. You need to finish a book, I think, because you're psyching yourself out about not being able to do it.

I don't think you should write THAT book right now. You need distance from it. You need space. And you just need to get writing. HOWEVER you have so much invested in that universe... here's my suggestion to you.

DON'T write *your story.* Put that one aside. That doesn't mean you can't ever get back to it, but just let it rest, like proofing bread. Let it rise. Let it get all yeasty. Let it do it's thing.

And in the meantime, take that universe you're writing in, and instead of *your story* write a different one. Write a prequel, or a sequel a generation down the line. Or take one minor character from *your story* and give them their own story. Or take *your story* and mash it up with another story you love, whether another book or movie, or a new and fancy idea you love that you came up with for yourself. Or change the genre. If you're writing a mystery, make it a romance. If it's fantasy, put that sucker in space. If it's horror, add a gentle coming of age story. Or I don't know whatever. Switch it up. Take what you've beeen working on all this time and twist it so that it's no longer the story you've been doing but something new and fresh.

Throw a new element in there and THEN.

Well then you just sit down and write it.

Whether you are a planner or an intuitive writer or something in the middle. Get all your prework done. Use *your story* as prework. Do an outline or character notes or do a pinterest board or whatever it is you do to prepare yourself.

And then sit down and write EVERY. FREAKING. DAY.

What? No. Are you crazy Rowena? I'm too busy for that. Okay, whatever. I don't want to hear about how you're too busy or depressed or unfocused or whatever it is that's keeping you from writing.

You have to commit to writing, to getting this story down and writing all the way to the end. Commit to an hour a day, or fifteen minutes. Or to one page. Or to one thousand words. Write on the train if you need to. Or before you go to bed. While the kids are napping or while you're waiting for class to start or on your lunch hour or in the car at pickup. I really don't care how you make room in your life for writing, but if you want to write, you have to make room for it, and you have to do it regularly.

If you'd prefer a weekend only time frame, that's just too bad. Because you, personally, need to stop looking for excuses and you just need to commit. Once you get back to writing and you're no longer blocked, then maybe you can have a looser schedule, but not now. Sorry. I'm playing hard ball here.

Oh hey. Are you the kind of person who needs an external deadline? Lots of us do.

Well. Camp nano is starting in July! It's like nanowrimo, but you get to set your own goals, work on any writing project, and have a support system with other writers that they call bunks. Bunks? I can't remember actually. I don't always win camp nano, because well it's not as focused as november nanowrimo, but if you want a bit of impetus to finally sit down and get a book written, this could work for you.

I just really think you need to be working on a project that doesn't have as much anxiety attached to it. You need something new and fun. You need to have FUN.

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