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mullermilkshake · 2 days ago

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Seven deadly sins.

Part 1 <- -> Part 2

When you die, you don't go to heaven straight away.

JJK men x reader Tags - Religious undertones, Reverse harem, Seven deadly sins, Death, Sexual undertones, Things are gonna get non-con soon

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The seven deadly sins were a group to be feared during your childhood. Your mother made note and constantly reminded you of the cruel fate of the seven should you ever give into your lesser desires and lose faith.

You found out when you died suddenly, that they were not to be feared in the ways your mother drummed into you. And the afterlife was in no way spectacular either.

No golden gates to shimmer in the sunlight or greener grass on the other side to feel beneath your feet in an absentminded skip down the hill to the glistening stream below, full of beautiful shimmering fish and cawing birds alike.

Just some different looking wall that had seen better days, evenly spaced empty glassless windows around the curvature of the brickwork in a odd consistency. The crawling ivy clung on for dear life under the light breeze that kissed your skin, it all reminded you of the history books you read as a child in school.

Along the polished stone steps, you noticed other people there, waiting in line for something, some anxiously tapping their bare toes and furiously biting fingernails and rough skin while others sat in silence against the brick wall leading inside.

You should have been nervous, anxious or even scared, but you were not. After all, you had done everything your mother told you to and brought you up on.

You even died a virgin.

Proud of yourself for proving to your mother, you wandered through the large cast iron gate into what looked like an old, historical amphitheatre. A lady stood in a lab coat, chewing away looking at her clipboard who looked incredibly out of place.

“Excuse me, where do I go?” You approached her and waited for her to speak.

“Line up, the seven will see you soon.” She didn’t look at you.

“I don’t think I should be here, is there another exit into the afterlife? I did my due diligence in my life and dedicated myself, there aren’t any sins to be noted by the seven I believe.”

She sighed and rubbed her eye, both with incredibly dark circles and puffiness as though she hadn’t slept for a hundred years. A cup of tea would go splendidly to aid sleep. “Everyone sent here lines up, I can check you over, but you’ll still need to go in.”

She pointed to a massive set of sandstone doors at the end of the line that opened and closed in tandem, and equally the line moved with it. “You will be assigned one of the seven and they will deal with you.”

“Alright then.” You climbed in line and waited and you were not in need of a check up as you were dead.

So you waited, and waited and waited, never a nerve out of sight or dropping off with anger at the time it took for you to reach the enormous doors with only one person in front of you.

“Please- please! I don’t want to go, I want to be with my husband, he will be wondering where I am!” An older woman hunched over and winced and pressed her hands flat against the door with an aim of keeping them closed.

The woman with the clipboard huffed. “You killed your husband, remember? You’ve been assigned wrath, it’s the end of the line I’m afraid.” The doors creaked open and from what you could see before you had no choice but to shield your eyes was fire and screaming.

And the woman had vanished.

“Am I going to go in the fire?” Now you were a little anxious, though everything happened for a reason, it was a natural reaction to something that would otherwise burn and hurt,

“No…” She scanned the clipboard and frowned. “You haven’t actually been listed yet, that’s odd. Oh well, it’s fun to find out, right?”

The doors opened again and there was no fire. No nothing, just a bright angelic light. Was this heaven? It was probably the path to passing over peacefully and bask in the warm light for all your dedication, a soft touch and gentle hand to guide you.

But it only took you to another room.

“Well, aren’t you an enigma?”

“Pardon?” You heard the voice, but where it came from was a mystery.

“Aw, isn't she clueless?” Another voice with a deeper baritone octave.

“Excuse me, I’m not really sure where I should be. You see, I haven’t committed sin, my mother made sure.”

“Pride is a sin. Don’t think I couldn’t hear the pride in your heartbeat just now.” Another voice. Just how many people were there?

“No pride, Sir, just a statement. I dedicated my life... But I am still here.” You were talking to thin air, nothing more.

Death was an odd thing, so peaceful without a shred of doubt though you may as well have been suspended off of a high story of a building waiting to see the miniscule people down below walking about their business. No one could hear you, no one would help.

“I beg to differ.” Someone different spoke, his voice gruffer than the others you had already taken note of. “There were plenty of instances where you wanted to get angry in your life… why didn’t you?”

You gasped at that voice, so close to your ear you could have mistaken it for being inside your head. You spun around and let your eyes dart around and look for someone among the seats of the amphitheatre coming into focus in your periphery. There was nothing more to see inside the place you’d been sent to besides dust particles like fire flies and dandelion pappus.

“I… Well I’m a lady, I should act like one and wrath is sinful. I swallow my wrath like I do my pride and every other sin.” Still no one came forward to reveal their intentions.

“Swallowing… isn’t she adorable. So naive to the world and she-” The voice stopped in its tracks. “She what?” Another pause. The man chuckled. “And she died a virgin…”

“What?” A tall white haired man appeared before your eyes like magic. “You’re a virgin?”

“Uh- well; I mean y-yes, naturally. But, who are you? I still don’t know what I have done, how I can atone?”

“Me?” He grinned and pulled his circular rimmed glasses away from his face. “I am Lust, at your service.” He bowed.

“Come now Satoru… Do you really have to pull that everytime we get a special case?” The man was practically the opposite in every way.

The dark hair and violet eyes contrasted the other fluffy cloud hair and sapphire eyes. Both appeared to have a similarly different smile over their lips whilst looking at the other.

So he was called Satoru? Quite the difference to his deity name, Lust. He huffed and sighed, “C’mon Suguru, this is the only fun I get, I wouldn’t have signed up for this if I knew it was gonna be this boring. I hate lookin’ after these brats every day, I only get a break every hundred years or so.”

And his name was Suguru?

A third man entered your space, a noticeably long scar over his lips curved when he smiled with teeth. “Are you still whining? Are you always gonna take everything for yourselves?”

“Piss off, Fushiguro. You hog everything you greedy bastard. Go play your slots or somethin’.” Satoru waved his hand to dismiss him, even going as far as to touch his chest with his index finger. “We all know how you get when there’s a virgin sent to us. I saw her first okay, so just… y’know.”

“Actually Satoru, I saw her first. If we're talking about logistics, I did speak to her first, so really, it’s my win.”

“Hey now, I’m Lust. Me. If anyone has a moment with her, it’s me, I win. So everyone else can suck it.”

They were acting like pure children fighting over a toy they might break if they weren’t too careful. Like you weren’t even there. “Excuse me, if it is not too much trouble, I would really like to atone and pass on into the afterlife.”

“Hold on just a minute, sweetheart.” Satoru lunged for Suguru and they went about rolling on the floor, spouting nonsense.

The guy with the scar folded his arms and sighed. “They’ll be at this for hours, so just relax. You have an eternity to wait, so let's not rush things.”

“Rush things? I am not a toy to be played with- I want to repent my sins and pass over.” You stood there watching two grown men fight on the ground and it still had not answered your burning questions.

Why were you here amongst every sin?

You hoped someone sane enough would tell you and let you move on. Being in a room full of men in an improper way was not becoming of you. But, alas, here you were, in the dark place your mother prayed you would not end up.

Men leering at you.

What a sin.

Especially that man over there in the corner, hair as red and flamboyant as Satoru seemed to be. He was sitting on a throne it looked like with skulls adorning the base of it, how becoming of him, his posture all righteous and mighty. His head leant on his closed fist and studied you like he was hungry.

“You have to deal with all of us first before you go anywhere, woman.” He said, glaring at you like you were a full course meal to be eaten in good faith amongst peers.

Though his eyes spelled out greed in your gut, if you were to move too quickly and spook him, he’d topple you over in a flash without warning. As though you were prey in the lion's den.

Horrifying.

Satoru continued fighting, the man with the scar stood closer to you than you were comfortable with. “The grumpy bastard’s right. You have to confess and go through every single one of us before passing on. Don’t y’get taught this in school or whatever religion it is you practice on earth these days?”

You wanted desperately for some space, to move away just a little bit from the burning eyes which made your cheeks hot. “I must atone only for the sins I have committed.”

He chuckled and fiddled with a strand of your hair, watching the childish men roll about the floor drawing blood and scattering teeth about the ground. “Nope, not all the time. Some people have to go through each sin, no matter how small or insignificant. It’s just the way we do things.”

It instinctively made you recoil away from him. “And how long will that take?”

“As long as you decide-”

He was cut off by the man on the throne. “You’ll leave when we decide it’s appropriate.”

The sentence pulled the breath from your lungs, it sounded inherently predatory despite him making no attempt to move. It made the man with the scar laugh again, he stepped forward and confronted him, hands on his hips like he truly meant business enough to try him on like Satoru had done with Suguru.

“You’re such a glutton to dish out other’s punishments, old man. Fancy goin’ a couple rounds with me seeming as they’re fighting over it too?”

The man on the throne scoffed with so much disinterest, you thought he would turn his back on him completely. “Like I’d even entertain myself with the likes of greed.”

“Well we need to figure out who’s going to fuck her first so we might as well get it over with.”

Excuse me?

“Wha- oh- excuse me! What did you just say?” You moved towards him now, taking a moment to rest your hand on his bicep in an act of desperation to understand what you had just misheard.

The man with the scar looked down at you like you were the most unintelligent person in the world. “That’s how you atone. We fuck you- seriously, did no one tell you this on earth?”

No. No one ever told you that this was the outcome of being faithful to your religion all this time. Not even your mother.

Satoru stopped fighting for a second and laughed. “We need to send another brochure down there and get their teachings updated, we get this every time.”

And then like nothing, he started scrapping again. What were they going to do, pass you around like a parcel in that silly game?

So all your dedication was for naught, the constant drilling from your mother meant nothing.

You were always destined to face the seven deadly sins no matter how much you shied away from them.

Unbelievable.

Part 1 <- -> Part 2

DISCLAIMER - Crossposted from my AO3 - I do not own any of the characters or anything from the anime. This is a work of fan fiction and is absolutely not representative of the views or intentions of the original creator(s).

Also please don’t post any of my work without permission thank you!

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #x reader #gojo x reader #geto x reader #nanami x reader #sukuna x reader #toji x reader #fem reader #reader insert #minors dni #minors do not interact #satoru x reader #kento x reader #suguru x reader #ryomen sukuna #fushiguro x reader

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madamemidnight · 2 days ago

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Excellent points.

Re the possible jealousy tag, it doesn't help that when Buffy tries to make Angel jealous the one she uses is Xander, by literally grinding on him at The Bronze. He immediately notices this and calls her out for it too, nearly ending their friendship. I don't think he ever fully let it go that the only time she paid romantic/intimate attention to him was as a pawn in a game. He wanted her the second he saw her and felt like he was never good enough for her.

For anyone doubting this, he literally hit on her and was shot down. He then tried to rape her in season 1 when possessed by the hyena spirit. There is no doubt that's what he was doing because Buffy tells Willow that Xander attempted "felony sexual assault". He skirts this as lying about not remembering what he did, but we know he does by the cringy relieved face he makes that they seemed to buy what he said after they turn around.

This is why he very hypocritically tries to convince everyone they need to kill Spike for doing the same later, because Spike wasn't possessed and therefore it's his fault, while Xander wasn't responsible for his own actions. To prove this he acts more appalled and angry than everyone over it, including Buffy herself. It's his way of trying to double down on convincing her it wasn't his fault when he tried it by overemphasizing that he knows it is extremely wrong and something that disgusts him to the point of trying to commit murder over it. All to prove that he would never do it. His outrage isn't about what happened to her but rather an opportunity. He uses the sexual assault of someone he claims is his friend as an opportunity to prove himself.

Xander 100% has a "good guy" complex and partially stayed friends with Buffy hoping he'd eventually have his turn, something many people do (mostly men). Which is in fact not friendship but manipulation and the behavior of a predator that waits for easy, already weakened prey, much like a hyena. They show empathy, kindness, and compassion as ways to prove they're worthy of being with, not as sincere shows of humanity and friendship. And when they don't receive what they feel their so-called friendship has entitled them to they get resentful of being "friendzoned". They won't leave the "friendship" though, because it fuels their ego story when the other person leaves due to finally having enough of the toxicity in the dynamic. It feeds into the "poor me who is so unappreciated despite being such a good guy" mentality. I say person because men don't only do this to people who identify as female.

He also never approves of anyone she dates throughout the entire series. He is her only "friend" that never supports her love life and consistently tries to break her relationships up by telling her all the ways those guys are wrong for her and latching onto any little thing they do to complain about. Again this is the behavior of a person that wants you, not a friend that wants what's best for you.

Point is, I think what no one talks enough about is that Xander resents Buffy for a lot of things but stays in her life long after it's obvious she will never want him because being a Scooby and fighting monsters is the only thing that helps him feel marginally less insignificant. Which is another thing he resents her for because he's the type that would have rathered remained oblivious and had a boring life with next to nothing expected of him.

Ironically, his Attraction to Buffy is reflected in the fact that he uses Cordelia and is a colossal prick to her the entire time they're dating because she's not Buffy and therefore not good enough. When he cheats on her with Willow, he doesn't even want her either. With both of them he is trying to make Buffy jealous, the way she used him to do to someone else, despite knowing how shitty that felt. His unfaithfulness is the last straw for Cordelia and that's how Anya gets involved with any of them. As a vengeance demon she is drawn to Cordie's pain and what does Cordelia wish for when asked what she'd want in order to get revenge against him? For Buffy Summers to have never come to Sunnydale, because deep down she knows he wants her.

Anya is then swayed by the goodness she sees in them and gives up the revenge business. We know it was ultimately a choice because it becomes clear she could have gone back at any time after being defeated. And then, Anya, a woman who was once so slighted by a man it turned her into a demon that helps others like her punish shitty men for centuries, falls in love with Xander because she mistakes his heroic acts as him being honorable and mature. Excusing his past behavior with Cordelia as a child's mistake. What does he do with the relationship he has with her? That's right, he fucks it up on purpose, just like his only other relationship. Why? Because this time it becomes an adult relationship with the expectation that he stops making excuses and becomes a husband and maybe one day a father, aka a person with responsibilities. He stands her up at the fucking altar because he knows a conversation about it won't change the fact that he doesn't want to be an adult who is responsible for himself and helps share household responsibilities with someone else, and because he doesn't respect her enough to tell her so directly, despite knowing for a while leading up to the wedding.

Xander uses being a Scooby to justify/excuse why he doesn't go to college or successfully hold down a job and lives in his parent's basement well into adulthood. He would have likely still done everything the same without being a Scooby because he's lazy, entitled, and never wants to work for anything without bemoaning and begrudging effort while expecting high praise for the bare minimum. Helping Buffy doesn't prevent him from being a functioning adult, it's just the excuse he likes to hide behind and blame while desperately holding onto it as the only thing that gives his life meaning and for all of that he resents her.

the version of btvs where jesse actually haunts the narrative is soooo good

like imagine if the show used xander killing jesse as a motivator for him throughout the show. part of why he throws himself into the supernatural world so hard is because he wants to avenge his friend. he hates vampires because he sees them as the things that took one of his closest friends away from him. he rationalizes killing jesse by choosing to firmly believe that vampires are all unambiguous monsters that have to be killed. he resents angel because he has a soul, which allows him to live. what if he had been able to get jesse a soul? he resents spike because, despite being soulless, he is full of humanity. would jesse have been like that if xander and buffy had allowed him to live? hell, what if they had been able to put a chip in jesse's head?

does buffy feel guilty about not having been able to save him? does she feel conflicted about having to kill him? does she feel sorry that it was xander (rather than her) that had to kill him?

jesse's name never comes up again and i think that's a shame.

#btvs #xander harris #anyanka #anya btvs #btvs discussion #fandom thoughts

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bonedo-enthusiast · 24 hours ago

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my greatest desire (mjh)

tags: sub!jaehyun, overstim, handjob, p-in-v, toy use, nipple play, jaehyun worships reader, perv!jaehyun, slight angst, plot twist(?) ending

wc: 665

“i love you. i love–you, iloveyou.” he said it in whimpers, the syllables running together like he couldn’t get the words out fast enough. the blindfold he wore was damp from his tears, tears he shed for everything you were not giving him. his fist wasn’t enough, not nearly so when he knew your touch would be ten times better.

“aww, you’re getting yourself all worked up, aren’t you?”

jaehyun nodded feverishly, his hips bucking against his fist. “fuck, y/n… need you…”

“mm yeah? why don’t you beg?”

he felt his body get hotter, convulsing slightly, as he jerked himself off faster. “please… love you so much, need to be in you… i c-can make you feel so good.”

a short giggle, followed by the feeling of his nipple being squeezed, causing him to whine. “you sound so pathetic. so cute and needy, all for me.”

“all for you.” jaehyun echoed, his eyes squeezing tightly shut. “g-gonna cum soon…”

“well, since you’ve been so good… wanna be inside?”

“yes, god, yes.” he practically shouted, trembling with excitement. he gripped the bedsheet with his left hand, bracing himself for your tight cunt. “need you so bad.”

a few seconds later, jaehyun felt your walls envelop his cock. “oh, f-fuck, y/n.” he let out a long groan ending in a high whine when his dick hit the back of your cunt. a lewd squelching sound filled the room. god, jaehyun was wet. he could practically feel his cock leaking inside of you, painting your walls with precum.

“does that feel good, baby?”

“so good.” jaehyun whimpered. “n-not gonna last long.” he never did once he was inside of you.

“wanna cum for me?”

he nodded, his whimpers and pants filling the room as he bucked his hips up. jaehyun saw stars behind his eyes as he came hard, ropes of cum filling you up. he kept fucking up into you until he began feeling sensitive and overstimulated, then stilled his hips to catch his breath.

“good job, baby.”

jaehyun cracked a tired, lazy smile and laid there with your walls still tightly around him. he could stay here all day with you, would go for as many rounds as you wanted. he absolutely adored you and the way you made him feel. he was like putty in your hands, a willing participant in anything you wanted to–

“thank you for watching, and a special thank you to my patreon supporters.”

jaehyun’s eyes popped open, seeing only black until he slid the blindfold down his face. the post-nut clarity hit him in a rush, with tears pricking at his eyes. jaehyun paused the video, studying the girl’s face. she looked nothing like you, but her voice was similar enough that jaehyun could pretend, at least for a little while.

he let out a deep sigh and fell back against his pillow, wincing as he realized his dick was still in the fleshlight. jaehyun slowly pulled it off of him with a pop, and his cum began dripping out of it onto his bedsheets, staining them with a milky white. he wondered how the real thing, yours, would feel. the fleshlight wasn’t warm, wasn’t wet–unless he used lube, but he was sure it couldn’t compare.

jaehyun felt a tear slide down his cheek and he quickly swiped at it with his hand. he was a creep, wasn’t he? you were his best friend, and you were already in a relationship. this was pathetic. he was pathetic. but that still never stopped him. because deep down, he knew you’d fall for him eventually, anyway. you had to. jaehyun wouldn’t accept any other reality.

he felt himself relax with resolve. he could see it: you two looking back on his current antics with you teasing him, asking him if he really wanted you that badly. he did. so badly. he’d do anything for you.

besides, you two had all the time in the world. for now, he could wait.

a/n: hi i'm alive, just been having intense writer's block but i'm back(?) 😀 i'm just gonna accept the fact i won't have a consistent upload schedule </3 anyway see everyone in three more months! 🥳 /hj

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unpretty · 6 months ago

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i swear to god someone had actually posted a compilation of various incarnations of superman flicking people in the chest as the ultimate sign of disrespect but fuck me if i can find it now

#original #my lack of any consistent tagging system fucks me once again #i think it started because he did the thing in the latest show with a superman

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sukimas · 11 hours ago

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"making it a trend to draw [kris in a skirt] and nothing else" means "no other content to the art piece besides their outfit, such as them interacting with another character or concept in the world", not that they are never drawn in their canon outfit! (they often are, even in a couple of the posts that you shared, which is cool!)

i do think that the fact that characters' dark world outfits tend to contain more self-expression than their light world outfits (see susie) is pretty obvious if you view the text as a complete work.

i don't think kris's main goal in chapter 3 was to wear a specific outfit. despite this, they do wear heels (which they don't wear in the light world) and other flamboyant outfits in the TV World, which does seem to indicate that that desire of theirs was fulfilled anyway, whether they consciously wanted it to be or not.

in contrast, in chapter 4's jackenstein fight, the soul assumed to be kris's is forced to wear a skirt against their will and abandons it without any player input during the same turn. which is interesting.

again in chapter 4, susie does in fact find the code at the end of the chapter (the fire extinguisher tells her). she does not see the old man again because she doesn't know the old man enough to recreate him. i'm pretty sure kris knows what a skirt looks like.

the conspiracy thing would make a lot of sense if it weren't for the fact that kris consistently gets to wear outfits that express their personality traits (the dog kigurumi is the big indicator here, since they do dog-like things in the light world when we don't have control and seem to like them) regardless of the fact that their mind was elsewhere.

that's some cool skirt+heels art! i would like to see more art of them in just heels (or perhaps heels and ribbons?), but i think that looks nice. i probably don't check the tag enough, perhaps.

but ultimately, i just don't think any of this diatribe cuts into my actual main point here.

the kris in a dress or a skirt trend does feel a little odd to me i'm not going to lie. they never wear those, even in worlds where their desires define reality (e.g. ch3 dark world), even though their mother seems very supportive of letting them do whatever they would like (...maybe to a fault, given how little she checks in on them). it would be one thing if people were drawing them in those clothes incidentally, as part of other art, uncommented on.

but it does feel that by making it a trend to draw that and nothing else it's making a statement about them. "kris wearing the clothes they wear isn't good enough. they need to wear the clothes i want them to wear, to be proper trans rep."

or, more broadly: "kris existing in the way that they do is just a phase. when we see the real kris, they'll be exactly the way that i want them to be."

they do seem to enjoy high heels! people could draw them in those to show off the fact that they enjoy some feminine things sometimes. but strangely, they don't. i've never seen a piece of kris skirt art with them also in high heels- doesn't mean it doesn't happen, but it's weird, isn't it? the ways kris does perform femininity aren't "correct" because they're not the way you want them to do so. it's just... odd.

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itsapipedream · 2 months ago

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Welcome welcome to my vey messy aftg fic master post *cheers*

Okay okay okay so this will be all my fav fics and then some, I'll be uploading it from time to time with the new things I read <3

Ah also also I will be put the authors' names from AO3 to have some consistency

Series

I Will Always Choose You series by NikNak22 miscommunication, angst, hurt, hurt/comfort

Travelers series by unrise_and_death uncompleted, AU, kind of soulmates

best thing ever writen I'm still crying about it not being finished...

Lessons in cartography series by profenity post-canon, the best characterization of Andreil I've ever read

Shut Up, This is Love series by lady_flash first long part post-canon, LDR, angst, one shots for the rest of the series

Healing series by Lostintheuniverseslies post-canon, Neil goes to therapy, healing, incredible work probably my fav post canon series

New Tricks series by likearecord AU, rommates Kevin-Alli-Neil

on the tip of my tongue (say something) series by Willow_bird post-canon, recovery, selective mutism, ASL, comfort

The Manny series by orphan_account AU, dad Andrew, past character death

progress comes in small steps series by Ominous multiple POV, kind of post-canon, twinyards shenanigans

Branches of Solace series by Lostintheuniverseslies AU, small town, plant store owner Neil, bookstore owner Andrew, PTSD

SW AU series by Punkin_Carcass explicit, sex worker Andrew, porn with plot

Tales From Foxhole Aquarium series by Fortheloveofexy merman Andrew, human Neil

AUs

Fell for a match made in hell by yourinsomnia reality show, strangers to lovers, this was SO GOOD, they also play exy but Neil never went to plameto

under the kitchen lights (you still look like dynamite) by ephemeralsky neighbors, disabled character

in another life by bazookajo94 Neil writes letters to a "fake" person that ends up being Andrew, no exy

quicksand by likearecord no exy

Firelight by sundowne camp, second chances

If You Love Me, Come Clean by sundowne exchange student, soft, FWB

Why do we feel alone? by Leocante writer Andrew, translator Neil, disabled character

i'll be seeing you (wherever i go) by melopeya, TeoMoy musicians, getting back together

does the dog die at the end? by stillmadaboutpetra disabled character, slice of life, fucking fantastic

The Heat is On by NikNak22 A/B/O, alfa Andrew, omega Neil

Flavors of Fall by NikNak22 small town, slice of life

12 Ways to Woo a Minyard by NikNak22 college, all the romantic tropes

Take This Lonely Heart by simonsrosebud highschool, not mafia but Nathan is still a piece of shit, soft Andreil

Such a Fool for Sacrifice by likearecord Author Neil, bodyguard Andrew, canon torture

Andrew's Kill List by sundowne 5+1, friends to lovers, explicit

The Sun Still Rises by mordax Neil has a little brother, follows canon general plot

Dear Advice Guy by fuzzballsheltiepants paramedic Neil, advice column, manic pixie dream girl Andrew

Point Nemo by moonix one shot, disabled character

Odd Eye by tdashshirts one shot, angst, hurt/comfort

Act Of A Life Time by chaoticas_hell actor Andrew, agorapgobic Neil, flufiest shit ever, ansgt, self harm, lots of comfort

Finders keepers by honeyyghostt childhood friends to lovers, the best thing that ever happened to me

Post-canon / canon compliant

never fallen (from quite this high) by crystalcrow THEE Andrew POV of the OG trilogy

Unbiased and Reliable Results by yourinsomnia explicit, roommates

Kiss My Skin (Burn Me Baby) by Ma_Dude one shot

the right words by rwnjun one shot, 5+1

body count by gay_irl one shot, trading truths

knee socks by tamarsilan one shot, smut

if you really love nothing by seasy33 post-canon, angst, secrets, forgiveness

Feverish Minds by Ficswithcloud Sick Andrew

Call Me By Your Name by Fortheloveofexy petnames, explicit

Baltimore Blues by SpangleBangle Andrew's POV Baltimore

eidetic by hitchups explicit, bottom Andrew

deep down (i'm still just a wreck) by hitchups post-canon, trauma, bottom Andrew

Tell Me Where To Touch You by Fortheloveofexy one shot, comfort, shot Andreil, massage

Paint me a picture of you by Ficswithcloud post-canon, healing an injury, injured Neil

Blooming (Only For You) by NikNak22 post-canon, angst, gardening, miscommunication, Andrew's POV

If Only I Were Enough by Lostintheuniverseslies post-canon, long distance relationship, break up, angst with a happy ending

flashes of intimacy by mostly_maudlin post-canon, introspection, intimacy, comfort

No straighter path than to struggle by otatop post-canon, sick character, sick Neil, PTSD, ansgt

Not Nothing by TheRainbowElectric one shot, 5+1, post-canon

i only need the working of my hands by allyasavedtheday post-canon, temporary amnesia

people problems by loveroulettes one shot, post-canon, LDR, angst, miscommunication, OOC

Deep pressure by Kingfluffkinss one shot, post-canon, slef-harm

Muscle Memory by elesary post-canon, amnesia

lazy, fractured pieces by flitwickslittlebrotha post-canon, explicit, emotional hurt/comfort

Got Me All Choked Up by pistolpidge one shot, explicit

Pretty Boy by Justthislazy 5+1, miscommunication, hurt/comfort

#This is by no mean in any order whatsoever #just opened my ao3 history and went with the flow #It is a little mess but it is MY MESS #also yes this are all andreil #what can I say they are THAT couple for me #I don't like angst without a happy ending so you're safe with me #also also I don't touch the major character death at all I like to be happy thank you very much #Oh thank you to all the magnificent authors in this post I love you SO MUCH you deserve the world #last thing the little tags under the titles don't have any consistency at all IM SORRY #aftg #all for the game #aftg fic #aftg fic rec #all for the game fic #neil josten #andrew minyard

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problemnyatic · 2 days ago

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I always worry I show too much frustration when I say this, but there's no better feeling for it when you put love and effort into trying to help someone fight their proverbrial demons and they not only reject it, but assert to you that better things are not possible. Or even just, consistently undermining attempts to introduce nicer ideas to them. Watching people make a cutsey game of self-sabotage like it's a "thing" and not an insult to someone's earnest kindness and effort.

no actually, I'm not laughing with you when you go "whaaat? noooo way that's not reaaal... tee hee!" when I try to offer the possibility that people love you, or care about you, or would be sad to see you unhappy, who would help if they could, that there are people everywhere organizing yo create a better world, that I fucking mean it when I say I care about you. It's not funny to reject that.

it's not easy to have it so readily dismissed, again and again, as if the very notion is laughable or absurd. It's not just you that you affect when you insist that you're the special case who really is beyond saving. That pushes back on the idea for whoever you say that shit to, too. not just for you. That pushes back on the idea for everyone who sees your snarky little tags.

I'm not fucking laughing. In fact, it kind of breaks my heart a little every time. Please be nice to yourself, abuse isn't any more pleasant to watch when it's self-inflicted.

please for the love of god stop fighting your cognative distortions on the side of the distortions yes it feels hopeless yes you feel bad when you take up space yes i get you find it hard to believe that anyone likes you but for god's sake you need to be willing to allow reality to be kinder than the way you see it or you will forever be the warden of your own miserable cage of unrealities that mean more to you in sentiment than they actually serve you in thriving.

Do not and i really fucking mean it DO NOT build your identity around the things that make you miserable or immutable. If you'll lose yourself if you let someone talk you out of believing shit that sets you negatively apart from others then maybe you need to reconsider what you're fighting to protect, because clearly your best interests have stopped being it.

I'm not saying you need to pull yourself up by your bootstraps but if someone pushes against the beliefs that keep you scared and upset and miserable and you feel compelled to put effort towards a response, please at least put that effort towards considering what they've said, instead of just doubling down because it's all you know.

#problemnyatic rambles #problemnyatic thoughts

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sad-leon · 2 years ago

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They're Tired

Lineart available for download on my patreon if any of yall wanna colour them

KoFi || Patreon

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exdeputysonso · 4 months ago

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sorry for all the incest posting, it will happen again

#white lotus spoilers #m.txt #can't give me two beautiful brothers kissing on a mainstream show and expect me to be chill #it kinda broke down any remaining barriers i had on main #been tired of sideblogs anyhow #i don't like trigger tagging if i don't have to #but i'm amenable to it if mutuals want any specific things tagged #trying to more consistently tag ships at least

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sleepylemoon · 7 months ago

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Boo 🌚

Did you think I died? Well, no ! I almost did, although not literally...– I decided to return a small drawing of our favorite Neighborhood Darling– but uh... it's still a WIP 🌚 that i don't know if I'll finish or start another one ⚰️

I'm glad to be back from the dead for... who knows which consecutive time :] !

Who knows if I will actually be able to draw, or if I will end up taking four-hour 'naps' after the last four months🧍

Anyway, I hope you have been well– drink some water, touch some grass 👁️👁️

Hopefully I'll be able to see you again very soon.

#my art #fanart #welcome home #clownillustrations #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #wally darling #human wally darling #wally darling fanart #I will try to have consistent tags #My previous posts and the disorganized tags give me... something.#I was so afraid that the first thing I would draw would be his profile and not do him justice 😞🗿#I think it turned out decent– for a first time(??#still ! any observations or recommendations are highly appreciated :]

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aliusfrater · 5 months ago

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similar cinematographic choices to portray the same imagery with insanely different circumstantial contexts

#like being tricked into a room and locked off from the outside world with a pitcher of water‚ a waste bucket‚ and an army cot #as you slowly died while experiencing acute mental distress to the point of having a psychogenic seizure at the same time #that people discussed your fate as if it were a decision they had the authority to make (and they DO. unfortunately for you)#vs being tied to chair during which you're in pretty consistent communication and under the care of the person who put you there #and you're narratively given the opportunity to hunt this person down and you even have scenes with hand to hand combat #in which you're able to properly defend yourself. for the other person the idea of your life being in danger is carefully threaded risk #to be taken rather than (as per the previous circumstance described) a decision you have the authority to make #likeee i remember reblogging this post that ssid 'supernatural doesn't really have a concept of jail' but like absolutely yes it does #sam (and even other characters like mary and rowena) are both put in 'jail' as the direct effect to a fault #wrt the winchester familial dynamic and their role. it's one of the main differences here. sam is put in jail‚ dean is not #sam does not have the authority to put him there. it doesn't help that sam is literally pleading as the victim within his scene #while dean is able to victimise sam even as the monstrous body within the 10.03 scene #and the thing is that their identities are being compartmentalised in similar ways here. dean is attempting to save his sammy #from the encroaching (invariable) monstrous sam that which he spends the next season attempting to forgive for the shortcoming #of dean perceiving sam's efforts at independence as abandonment while sam is attempting to save his dean from the encroaching mark of cain #(chosen to be put there yet is still victimised by) and sam spends the rest of the season forgiving him over and over while even #taking misattributed responsibility and blame that which has to be made up for #4.21 #10.03 #se referat #edit: also adding onto chii's tags wrt the differences in capacity for consent regarding demon!dean #it's so interesting to compare demon!dean to soulless!sam in that demon!dean didn't have the capacity to reject competent!dean's consent #while both soulless!sam and 5.22!sam did not consent to be resouled in respectively active and precedingly passive ways #like 6.12 sam is clearly happy and grateful to have been resurrected and he doesn't even have any specific qualms #about dean keeping information relating to his ressurection from him but 5.22 explicitly made his consent‚ or lack thereof‚ regarding #ressurection clear unlike dean in early-s10... and the thing is that the last time sam didn't pursue dean's ressurection #he faced negative consequences for that decision! and yet dean is seen as objectively correct for his actions in s6 #by both the audience and narrative‚ and much of his responsibility regarding sam's psychosis isn't acknowledged as directly related #to his actions vs the pinning of blame to much of early-s10 onto sam esp relating to the guy he had summon a demon‚ who sold his own soul #despite sam's advice‚ whom demon!dean killed

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project-sekai-facts · 2 years ago

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How are we feeling about ensekai’s emu3 translation!!! (I’m mad)

(if you remember the 3 whole posts i made when asahi got de-gayed on EN you'll know i am mad too and that this is probably going to get long)

i don't like to be too cynical but it was so obvious that they were going to change that line, i had a feeling since the event first released on JP and after the incident with Asahi where I went through and tracked down multiple other examples of EN removing queer subtext it became clear to me that in no way shape or form was "emu-chan really loves nene-chan" making it to EN without getting changed. what i didn't expect was them changing Nene's line after Luka's comment, which actually makes this whole situation far worse than many of their other instances of toning down queer subtext.

for anyone who isn't aware of what happened, in chapter 5 of the current Emu event, there's a scene where Nene, Rui and the Virtual Singers are talking about what would cheer Emu up. The vsingers all talk about how much Emu loves spending time with Nene, leading to the following exchange

If you look for them, any fan TL of this scene will be something similar to this:

Luka: ...Fufu. Emu-chan really loves Nene-chan, doesn't she? Nene: Th-that's nothing special...

EN's official translation is this:

So what's the issue? I'll start with Luka's part. In the original text, she uses the word daisuki, which can mean to "like a lot" or "love". It's a word you will see frequently in the idol/idol-adjacent genre of games, due to its ambiguity in that it can be read as either platonic or romantic when used towards a person, and often will be used in ambiguous situations so that it's harder to confirm the writers' intentions either way. so here, fans of the emu/nene ship could view the fact that emu loves spending her time with nene as more on the romantic side, but people who don't like the ship could view it as platonic and move on.

while they didn't translate daisuki directly, Luka's line still works, and still contains the ambiguity that works as ship tease in the original text. it's a perfectly fine localisation that still conveys the original intent. despite that, there is something to be said about EN's consistent refusal to translate daisuki as love in most instances when it's not used on An/Kohane (but then again, EN has literally teased An/Kohane on their twitter account so is it all that surprising?).

Here's some examples:

Aibou no koto ga daisuki de / he loves his partner -> he cares about his partner very much (The Power of Unity chapter 7 when Kaito is comparing Arata to Akito and Toya)

HARUKA-CHAN, DAISUKI DAYOOOO!!! / HARUKA-CHAN, I LOOOOOVEEE YOU!!! -> You're the best!!! (Dear Me, As I Was Back Then chapter 4 when minori is at an ASRUN concert. this one isn't actually that great of a localisation)

Honachan no koto daisuki dakara. Kore de iinda yo. / I love Honachan, so this is fine. -> I want what's best for her. And this is it. (Leo/need main story chapter 14 after Saki tells Honami she won't bother her anymore)

Minna daisuki de - taisetsuna tomodachi na no / I love them all - they're my dearest friends -> They're all amazing, and very dear to me. (Leo/need main story chapter 17. this isn't good either)

What's particularly amusing about that last one is that there's a second official translation for it that I assume was done by JP staff (since EN never promoted doing the Journey to Bloom subs like they did back when they provided subs for Petit SEKAI) that actually keeps the word daisuki as love.

Yeah. I love all my friends - and they mean the world to me.

It's a better localisation than the official EN team one.

Questionable localisation choices aside, Luka's line is fine and is actually in line with the original. The issue with this localisation very much lies with Nene's part, because that is an entirely new line.

In the original text, Nene's "that's just normal" or "that's nothing special" or however you choose to TL it, is meant to be her questioning Luka's statement, since all the things that the other vsingers said that Emu liked were pretty normal things like going shopping and playing video games with nene. To Nene, these things are normal activities for them to do together, so she gets embarrassed by the fact that Luka concludes from that information that Emu loves Nene. When I dissect it like that I think you can really tell what the writers were going for here lol.

"That's just us being friends" does still convey the idea that Nene thinks these activities aren't anything out of the ordinary and she isn't sure why the vsingers are picking these out as some of Emu's favorite things to do, but it's very different from the original line. "But those are just normal things we do together" is something I just came up with on the spot, but it's a lot closer to the original text and still conveys the same meaning. The fact they changed the line to "that's just us being friends" is, honestly, not even subtle that they're covering up queer subtext. The original scene was very clearly written in as ship tease, and EN mentioning "friends" for no reason, especially since the word nor anything close to it was not used in the original, is instantly a red flag because it's like the go-to for queerbaiting and censorship. This was intentional. There was no need for them to specify that the relationship is platonic, Luka's part is ambiguous for a reason so that fans can view it how they like.

Just to top all this off, here's Rin's original line just before that Luka+Nene interaction:

Oh, and! And! She said that playing games with Nene-chan is also super fun!

And here's Rin's line from the official EN translation:

That's not the same thing, but even more weirdly, the incorrect part (super fun->really loves) is a correct translation for the part changed in Luka's line. So, they can do it, they are willing to say "really loves", just not in the right places. Maybe because Rin's part is less personal than Luka's part? It's strange actually, this isn't the first time they've done this either. Off the top of my head I can think of an example from Shiho's Varied Kindness 2* story where they translated the word "suki" as really loves, despite that being much stronger than the original word used (and the fact that daisuki is used a lot in the Leo/need stories and it's incredibly rare if not entirely unknown for them to translate it correctly).

It's not subtle that they're trying to remove implications of the characters possibly being queer, they did it in curtain call and they did it in walk on and on, and multiple times before then too. And considering some of the content in this year's events and the amount of times they say daisuki alone, it's gonna keep happening. honestly i hate the fact that i keep trying to justify the translations in these posts. these translations are intentional. what happened in the curtain call translation back in october says enough. when a character who uses explicitly romantic language towards another guy passes as a straight character in the translation you know they're doing it on purpose.

oh and once again, it's only the EN server that has this issue. The scene in question was translated almost word-for-word on the TW and KR servers.

read fan translations. they're better than what EN gives us and people put a lot of effort into them.

#since the EN translation qualifies as a leak i am scheduling this to post when the event drops #asks #mod talks #i'm going to leave this in the tags because i don't want to make the post any longer #but something that's been really annoying to see recently on twt has been the gradual uptick of players saying that there's no queer #characters/subtext/etc in the game outside mizuki being trans. and i do wonder if EN's consistent habit of toning down #or outright removing moments of heavy subtext and other more ambiguous shiptease moments has anything to do with it.#that or people live under a rock because even EN keeps most of An and Kohane's relationship intact and there's still plenty of #moments that were impossible to edit or tone down due to being plot relevant or being part of longer interactions that wouldn't make sense #if part of it was changed. like the An wedding event.#eh maybe people are just ignorant.#but anyway it does bug me immensely that EN-only players are getting a censored version of the game. it's 2024. staff can do better.#also like i mentioned in the part about rin. they /add in/ things occasionally. so why the hell are they removing so much?

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serpentface · 1 year ago

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Do you conlang? I was wondering if you had naming languages (or possibly even more developed ones) for pulling the words you use. I tried to search your blog but didn't find anything, wouldn't be surprised if the feature is just busted tho. Your worldbuilding is wonderful and I particularly enjoy the anthropological and linguistic elements.

Ok the thing is I had kind of decided I was not going to do any conlanging because I don't feel like I'm equipped to do a good job of it, like was fully like "I'm just going to do JUST enough that it doesn't fail an immediate sniff test and is more thoughtful than just keysmashing and putting in vowels". And then have kinda been conlanging anyway (though not to a very deep and serious extent. I maybe have like....an above average comprehension of how language construction works via willingness to research, but that's not saying much, also I can never remember the meanings of most linguistic terms like 'frictives' or etc off the top of my head. I'm just kinda raw dogging it with a vague conceptualization of what these things mean)

I do at least have a naming language for Wardi (and more basic rules for other established languages) but the rudimentary forms of it were devised with methods much shakier and less linguistically viable than even the most basic naming language schemes, and I only went back over it LONG after I had already made a bunch of words so there's some inconsistencies with consonant presence and usage. (This can at least be justified because it IS a language that would have a lot of loanwords and would be heavily influenced by other language groups- Burri being by far the most significant, Highland-Finnic and Yuroma-Lowlands also being large contributors)

The 'method' I used was:

-Skip basic construction elements and fully move into devising necessary name words, with at least a Vibe of what consonants are going to be common and how pronunciation works -Identify some roots out of the established words and their meanings. Establish an ongoing glossary of known roots/words. -Construct new words based in root words, or as obvious extensions/variants of established words. -Get really involved in how the literal meanings of some words might not translate properly to english, mostly use this to produce a glossary of in-universe slang. -Realize that I probably should have at least some very basic internal consistency at this point. -Google search tutorials on writing a naming language. -Reverse engineer a naming language out of established words, and ascribe all remaining inconsistencies to being loanwords or just the mysteries of life or whatever.

I do at least have some strongly established pronunciation rules and a sense of broad regional dialect/accents.

-'ai' words are almost always pronounced with a long 'aye' sound.

-There is no 'Z' or 'X' sound, a Wardi speaker pronouncing 'zebra' would go for 'tsee-brah', and would attempt 'xylophone' as 'ssye-lohp-hon'

-'V' sounds are nearly absent and occur only in loanwords, and tend to be pronounced with a 'W' sound. 'Virsum' is a Highland word (pronounced 'veer-soom') denoting ancestry, a Wardi speaker would go 'weer-sum'.

-'Ch' spellings almost always imply a soft 'chuh' sound when appearing after an E, I, or O (pelatoche= pel-ah-toh-chey), but a hard 'kh' sound after an A or U (odomache= oh-doh-mah-khe). When at the start of a word, it's usually a soft 'ch' unless followed by an 'i' sound (chin (dog) is pronounced with a hard K 'khiin', cholem (salt) is pronounced with a soft Ch 'cho-lehm')

-Western Wardin has strong Burri cultural and linguistic influence, and a distinct accent- one of the most pronounced differences is use of the ñ sound in 'nn' words. The western city of Ephennos is pronounced 'ey-fey-nyos' by most residents, the southeastern city of Erubinnos is pronounced 'eh-roo-been-nos' by most residents. Palo's surname 'Apolynnon' is pronounced 'A-puh-lee-nyon' in the Burri and western Wardi dialects (which is the 'proper' pronunciation, given that it's a Kos name), but will generally be spoken as 'Ah-poh-leen-non' in the south and east.

-R's are rolled in Highland-Finnic words. Rolling R's is common in far northern rural Wardi dialects but no others. Most urban Wardi speakers consider rolling R's sort of a hick thing, and often think it sounds stupid or at least uneducated. (Brakul's name should be pronounced with a brief rolled 'r', short 'ah' and long 'uul', but is generally being pronounced by his south-southeastern compatriots with a long unrolled 'Brah' sound).

Anyway not really a sturdy construction that will hold up to the scrutiny of someone well equipped for linguistics but not pure bullshit either.

#I actually did just make a post about this on my sideblog LOL I think in spite of my deciding not to conlang this is going to go full #full conlanging at some point #The main issue is that the narrative/dialogue is being written as an english 'translation' (IE the characters are speaking in their actual #tongues and it's being translated to english with accurate meaning but non-literal treatment)#Which you might say like 'Uh Yeah No Shit' but I think approaching it with that mindset at the forefront does have a different effect than #just fully writing in english. Like there's some mindfulness to what they actually might be saying and what literal meanings should be #retained to form a better understanding of the culture and what should be 'translated' non-literally but with accurate meaning #(And what should be not translated at all)#But yeah there's very little motivation for conlanging besides Pure Fun because VERY few Wardi words beyond animal/people/place names #will make it into the actual text. Like the only things I leave 'untranslated' are very key or untranslatable concepts that will be #better understood through implication than attempts to convey the meaning in english #Like the epithet 'ganmachen' is used to compliment positive traits associated with the ox zodiac sign or affectionately tease #negative ones. This idea can be established pretty naturally without exposition dumps because the zodiac signs are of cultural #importance and will come up frequently. The meaning can get across to the reader pretty well if properly set up.#So like leaving it as 'ganmachen' you can get 'oh this is an affectionate reference to an auspicious zodiac sign' but translating #it as the actual meaning of 'ox-faced' is inevitably going to come across as 'you look like a cow' regardless of any zodiac angle #^(pretty much retyped tags from other post)#Another aspect is there's a few characters that have Wardi as a second language and some of whom don't have a solid grasp on it #And I want to convey this in dialogue (which is being written in english) but I don't want it to just be like. Random '''broken''' english #like I want there to be an internal consistency to what parts of the language they have difficulties with (which then has implications for #how each language's grammar/conjugation/etc works). Like Brakul is fairly fluent in Wardi at the time of the story but still struggles #with some of the conjugation (which is inflectional in Wardi) especially future/preterite tense. So he'll sometimes just use the #verb unconjugated or inappropriately in present tense. Though this doesn't come across as starkly in text because it's #written in english. Like his future tense Wardi is depicted as like 'I am to talk with him later' instead of 'I'll talk with him later'#Which sounds unnatural but not like fully incorrect #But it would sound much more Off in Wardi. Spanish might be a better example like it would be like him approaching it with #'Voy a hablar con él más tarde' or maybe 'Hablo con él más tarde' instead of 'Hablaré con él más tarde'#(I THINK. I'm not a fluent spanish speaker sorry if the latter has anything wrong with it too)

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