#not something i’m gonna maintag but while i’m here

[radioactive-mouse]

god. one of these days i’ll write up a post abt martyn and grian and then it’s OVER for y’all

[br0-k3n-sch00lb01]

Aaaaaah what a time to exist

my brain is so empty when it comes to making posts that people actually care about

i wanna change my maintag to something other than charlie rants.. but i’ve been using it for too long to do that…

i guess its cus most of my posts arent rants they are just nonsense that i am spouting to anyone who particularly pays attention to them (aka nobody,,) what even are these posts anymore

im gonna spout about life instead of other things!! Because… i suppose i should talk about my life more.. since i never do

and thats kinda what blogs are for, hm?

I… went to get froyo with my friend… it was fun but it was like 25 bucks for two people…

he has a crush on me, and i… dont know how i feel about him at all.

im not sure really what my sexuality is anymore… i feel like sometimes i’m massively gay because oh my god men… but then other times i think of ever being in a relationship and it grosses me out… so then i think maybe i’m aro…

i finished watching Madoka Magica Rebellion today!!

it was good… though they skipped over parts in the manga that i really liked… its okay though

it was worth 4 dollars to rent…

it’s almost my birthday…

i wonder if people got me what i asked for.?

hopefully somebody got me the Madoka cosplay i wanted…

i don’t think i’ll be able to afford it myself haha

my grandma has me in therapy right now. I don’t really feel like it’s helping me at all…

but she says i have to do it and she won’t let me go out of it until she thinks i’m ready. i don’t think i’m ever getting out of therapy, if that’s the case.

i don’t really like my family situation. I know compared to others, i have life pretty good. But sometimes i feel like all they care about is keeping me alive so that they dont get accused of bad parenting. Or forcing me to get good grades so that the teachers don’t have to talk to them about how awful i am at everything.

not because they care about my future or anything. because they DON’T care about my future. No matter how much they say they do. You can just sort of tell.

i got my Len Kagamine cosplay a little while ago… my grandma said it was an Amazon pick… but it’s not really as good as the one i picked out…

I’ve been thinking about @n3hmof1sh and @ffelix143 a lot lately!!

i talk about Nehmo and Felix constantly to anybody who listens..

or even if they don’t really listen…

my friends haven’t been responding to my texts. I think they’re ignoring me.

i think maybe i’m being too much of a burden on them… annoying them all the time…

i’m sure some of my friends on here understand what i mean… i don’t really do much outside of tumblr, to be honest

i sort of wish there was no real world, and i could live here in tumblr with the people that actually care… people that i would do anything to spend time with off of a screen..

i’ve gotten so attached to my stupid screens that i really don’t know what else to do without them. I’ve lost any sense of worth in real activities.

i think that’s a bad thing.

but that’s okay.

[darkx-the-dragon-kn1ght]

Pokémon Reborn Screenshot Let's Play: Chapter 32

Well, here I am again, now with several less wisdom teeth. But honestly, this chapter didn’t get delayed as much as I was worried it would be. It probably helps that I specifically planned to do the actual play session before the procedure, so that way all I’d have to worry about would be writing and post-making. Which honesty, is was less taxing during recovery compared to actual gameplay stuff and all the strategizing I tend to do during battles.

Another slight delay came in the form of a message I received, in which someone brought to my attention that my method of tagging every post of this Let's Play is kinda clogging up Tumblr's tagging system with regards to Pokémon Reborn? I didn't know, I don't check the Reborn tag in order to avoid spoilers, but I'm glad someone who does check it told me about it, I probably wouldn't have known otherwise. So, I spent a few hours going through the past sections, removing all the tags besides content warnings and Porygon Appreciation™, so if you notice any differences in the tags all of a sudden- that's why. From now on, I'll only be maintagging the actual main chapter posts (like this one)- hopefully that'll clean the tags up.

Anyways, I felt it was especially important to ensure I'm at my best both physically and mentally this time around, because here we are, on our way to deal with yet another PULSE! Yes, it's the culmination of this entire Apophyll Academy story arc, and I have no idea what to expect besides more Team Meteor hijinks. But I do have a feeling it’s gonna be big and dramatic in some way, like- we haven’t had a Rhodochrine Jungle moment in a while, so I feel like we’re due for something like that, right? Am I overthinking stuff?

Well, regardless of if I’m overthinking future plot developments or not, I still need to recap what happened last time to give proper context to how we got here. So, let’s take care of that!

Thanks to the tip from Lettie, Xera takes Amaria’s boat to Azurine Island, a swampy island in the middle of Azurine Lake, in order to investigate Team Meteor’s activities there.

Shortly after arrival, Xera finds an earring in a puddle- one belonging to the still-missing Cain, an indicator of his presence on the island.

While exploring the island, Xera is ambushed by Aster and Eclipse. After confirming Cain is held captive on the island, Eclipse remarks that Xera is on her own to deal with the two of them for once, and is eager for the opportunity to take care of the trespasser.

Despite being outnumbered 2 to 1, Xera is able to defeat Aster and Eclipse. At this moment, Aster lets it slip that Team Meteor has a secret lab on the island, to Eclipse’s chagrin.

Eclipse soon admits she feels sympathetic to the plight of Apophyll Academy. She knows about Kiki’s terminal illness and hates the idea of “kicking someone while they’re down”, given her own father’s issues. However, there is little she can do as a Team Meteor Private, so she instead gives Xera a hint to the lab’s location before retreating with Aster.

Xera is able to locate the secret lab inside an innocuous building at the heart of the island. Inside, Xera finds Taka contacting someone as well as Cain and a Camerupt inside prison cells.

According to Taka, Azurine Island used to be the center of the effort to breed Pokémon and repopulate the Reborn region- before Team Meteor shut down the project. Additionally, the Camerupt is the key to Team Meteor’s plans for Apophyll: they will use a PULSE on it to allow it to amplify enough reactive energy to erupt Pyrous Mountain, thus wiping out Apophyll Academy.

After informing Xera of this plan, Taka sends out his Pokémon to battle her- a challenge that Xera accepts.

Xera defeats Taka, who takes the loss in stride, not-so-subtly implying Xera should come to Pyrous Mountain to stop Team Meteor. Taka and his Grunts retreat with the Camerupt, leaving Xera free to open Cain’s cell.

Cain is initially eager to return to Apophyll to stop the eruption, only to realize the Grunts left something behind: a seemingly important package meant to be given to Commander Sirius. Cain opens the package, seeing nothing but a brooch with an emerald gem; with no clue as to its significance, he takes the item, just so Team Meteor doesn’t have it.

With Cain freed and the mysterious Emerald Brooch in their possession, he and Xera quickly take the boat back to Apophyll Academy. There, they join up with Victoria and quickly make their way to Pyrous Mountain to put a stop to Team Meteor’s plans.

So yeah, Chekhov’s Volcano is real and it’s about to blow up right on top of Apophyll Academy! And we can’t have that! Team Meteor’s done enough damage with just plants and water, you really think we’re gonna let them- hey wait. The PULSE Tangrowths messed with plants, PULSE Muk messed with water, and now PULSE Camerupt is gonna mess with a volcano- fire. Grass, water, fire…like the three starter types. Was that intentional?

Uuuuh…that tangent aside, let’s get started here! Let’s climb that volcano at long last!

*CW: minor gore, death

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

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Part 8

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Part 10

Part 11

Part 12

Part 13*

Part 14

Part 15

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Part 17

Part 18

Part 19

[blockgamepirate]

Here you go.

To make matters worse (or funnier) it is under an animatic of Techno mocking 5 years old philosophy majors for calling Syndicate a government.

Oh boy, I honestly don't even know what to say to that lol

I mean... okay so this person seems to have figured out that the thing anarchists care about is coercive power / power over others, but what they haven't seem to have figured out is that not every form of power or influence constitutes a "government". Governments are a SPECIFIC form of coercive power. Big name fans, Twitch mods and such aren't "governments".

Also I mean.. I guess this is an interesting topic for a debate but I don't actually know if any of these really count since having lots of followers, while it does undeniably give you power and influence, I don't know if it's actually the kind of power and influence that could reasonably be abolished. Or even if it should be, because while it IS often harmful and should be critiqued, I don't think it's actually comparable to systemic power.

As for mods, I'm up for debate on this but IMO Twitch chats are the personal property of the streamer and I do think people have the right to have an enforce rules on their personal property, like if the worst punishment is just that you get banned, that's just revoking your access to something that wasn't a public good in the first place. You're not being deprived of anything essential or anything you have a right to. Nobody has the obligation to let other people ruin their chat. That's not to say that mods can't abuse their power or that it's not worth being critical of, but again: not comparable to systemic power. Then again the streamer might exploit mods for labour, because the mods help the streamer gain wealth, but often aren't paid themselves from what I understand?

The wiki stuff I'm not gonna comment on bc I don't think I know enough about that topic.

Oh yeah and fandoms in general are just way too decentralised to be considered in anyway comparable to states with "governments". IMO fandoms are in fact pretty damn anarchic actually. And even when someone tries to take over a fandom it generally doesn't go all that well for them because people resent that kind of thing and if they don't want to engage with a specific fandom community they can always go elsewhere. And while people might be able to control a wiki or a subreddit or whatever, NOBODY can control Tumblr or Twitter lmao

I dunno if I'm making any sense here, I just woke up from a nap and I haven't exactly thought about these topic all that hard. Don't take any of this too seriously. And I'm definitely not maintagging this nonsense lol

[beetlemancy]

I don't understand people who dislikes a character, because of the people who really like that character. I just don't get it.

I understand how constantly seeing content of a character you dislike for personal reasons can exacerbate your dislike for the character, and its super easy to let that color your perception of the fans themselves too. That happens across fandoms and always has - I struggle with this concept myself too, because its normal to feel frustrated when you dislike a thing to not find many people who agree with you or to be constantly bombarded by people who think you are wrong. 

However, the key here is that there usually is something about the character that you disliked /before/ this - whether you were conscious of it or not. So, you have to kind of parse that out for yourself. Like, as an example, I disliked Molly initially before the fandom really got nuts about him because of some boundary issues he portrayed that I personally have experience with in REAL life and it was, while not necessarily a full on trigger, extremely uncomfy for me. So, I have a hard time seeing Molly content to the great and innumerous amounts that its put out. 

But you know how I handle it? By finding the people who agree with me and keeping it to our god damn selves or to our own blogs, untagged. Like, for instance, I’m not gonna maintag this post simply because I mentioned it. 

I’m not about to run up into somebody’s Molly-centric askbox and be like ‘I’m different, I DON’T like that character you like” and pretend like its a revolutionary thought. 

[fiovske]

Re: CR feeling different after the hiatus: we had a lot of time to read/write meta, and it affects our experience of the show. I too thought CR was different after the break, but this week I avoided all discourse and found myself liking the episode a lot more. The same happened when I was catching up on C2 on YouTube. I never even took much notice of some scenes that caused a stir in the comments (bowlgate wtf), and it made my watching experience a lot more enjoyable. Just some food for thought

aah. buddy, glad that's worked for you! I haven't had the kind of luxury to watch a full CR episode in a while but the vibe IS there that things are different. I have been dealing with immense health issues meanwhile where my recovery was terribly unsure so I really haven't had the luxury or the time to read/write metas either and because I had bigger, more tangible problems now in the matter of mortality and had to confront things in my life that are time-sensitive. I realized how short my life is and how grateful I still am that I get to recover at all, that I get to live.

so you can imagine that CR has been reduced to a much much smaller part of my life than it used to be and somehow it gives me the perspective, as a queer woc, to watch some things that I have watched post hiatus and not feel the fear to critique aspects of it insofar how I quickly found the show to become more of a source of anxiety where it once brought me comfort.

it also made me realise a lot about the parasocialness of the fandom and perhaps toxic positivity too, attached to a harmless term. but I'm not here asking for attention. (no self-respecting cast member is gonna be on this hellsite scourging thru my blog but it's a fucking funny image tho) but perhaps aggreiving the loss of something that was once very close to me? and things that I feel are.. off and perhaps intentional in a way it wasn't pre-hiatus. but I am also aware of the lack of impact my little corner of a blog has on the grander scheme of things and how the show is run. which is why I keep these grievances here, mon-maintagged and not for those to find who don't already perhaps share similar grievances in terms of the show feeling ...different since the hiatus.