#not new news at all but im thinking aobut them.

[c-kiddo]

the newer (from a while ago) cr character profile art by littleulvar is so elite tier its insane. the tmn ones especially , like theyre so perfect in the style. like you are jesting and you are joking me. look at them

(disclaimer on this, this isnt an official height line up, its just one someone edited together from the separate images)

[optimisticrunawaygalaxy]

Something i realised

[tojiscrack]

okay first of all liar liar is literlaly my favourite thing ive ever laid my eyes on?? its so good and every time you release a n ew chapter i SLURP it up like the details?? the backstories??

like omg just relaese a book atp.. i found liar liar during the tiem i was procrastinating for my english final and i kept reading until like 5 am (im a slow reader) anyways i was supposed to be preparing for my english final oral exam but i DIDNT! i was supposed memorize the 10 minute essay i wrote and present it to my class!!! but i didnt! ur fic was tew good... i ended up just winging it and i didnt do that bad (90) i like to think that it was because my brain vocab capacity epxanded after reading your extremely detailed scenes on mercupine the happiest moment of my life mustve been when i finished reading ch 8 (i think?) and realized there werent any more chapters and got scared u abandoned it (i have ptsd from all those otther authors 😣) and then YOU UPLOADED A NEW CHAPTER LIKE 5 MINUTES AFTER I FINISHE DREADING CH8 ??? ummm i swear it was like magic or smth i pissed tears of joy

i was also part of the readers that got fooled by kamo... i reallhy thought he liked mermaid at first and just thought it was a silly crush and we'd get a silly little scene of megumi being a teeny bit jelly! but then you wer like IMPLYING THAT KAMO LIKES TSUMIKI? so i was like wow what a plot twist didnt see that coming haha! AND THEN YOU REVEALED HE LIKES MERMAID????????????????????/ wow okay um 😱 and then the tutor trope like i love that

what i dont love is how i feel like mermaid might actually like that two banged freak back (im not a kamo hater i just get emotional sometimes 😞 just thinking about them being a thin g makes me worked up) becaues why was she like.. talking to him?? like hwat you should be talking to PORCUPINE. HE'S RIGHT THERE OPEN YOUR EYES.

but honestly cant blame my girl because megumi is suchhh a loser like gosh i love him but like grab your cheeks and MAKE A MOVE. like pls!!! and honestly kamo is such a sweet little thing like aww you really did all that just to be close to ur crush but also like back off and let my mercupine be i just want my two babies to be together like plss!! but also im scared that kamo and mermaid ARE going to end up together bc ummm megumi is NAWT doing anything... and if the do get together im rioting, mercupine has to be endgame.. but um i also love kamo tho and i dont want him to be sad too 😣 my two personalities guys

have you seen ao haru ride/blue spring ride/???? it lowkey reminds me of whats going on rn because WAIT WAIT SPOILER!! im new to tumblr but like KIND OF SPOILER FOR AO HARU RIDE!!!!!! IDK IF THERES LIKE SOME COVER I CAN PUT ON THIS BUT LIKE ITS KINDA A SPOILER SKIP SKIP SKIP IF UR WANTING TO WATCH AO HARU RIDE AND YOU KINDA DONT WANNA SPOILER I MEAN THE SPOOILER IS KINDA OBVIOUS AND ITS LITRO JUST THE PLOT BUT I MEAN LIE JUST SKIP YK

but THIS IS THE SPOILER PART LAST WARNING like basically the main character is kou and futaba and kou is also a nonchalant baddie like my bae megumi.. but hes like such a coward and CANNOT make a move just like someone ik... (hint hint) and then this other guy (i forgot his name, yk the feeling whenever u watch a new anime or kdrama and you know EVERYTHING that happened but not their names? gun to my head i would still forget immidiately) so anyways this other guy also likes futaba cuz shs a baddie (LIKE MERMAID!) and he shoots his shot and lowkey acts like a desperate loser bUT IT WORKS and they end up together but futaba still has feelings for her ONE TRUE LOVE and she admits to her bf that she doesnt like him and lowkey i felt bad for him... i dont want that to happen to kamo too

but like kamo needs to take a hint... BUT ALSO HE'S VERY CRUCIAL SINCE HES THE ONE TO PUSH MEGUMI TO ACTUALLY DO SMTH AOBUT HIS FEELINGS!!! like i loved seeing megumi jealous, but also the way i literally felt like this

when yaga called kamotionless and mermaid LOVEBIRDS?? like my heart ached for porcupine and the way he just said KAMO SHOULD GET BACK ON THE FIELD!! urgh like pls megumi this is ur sign to acc do smth!! atp if he doent so anything he has to take the L when kamo does end up getting the girl..

thats the end of my rant live laugh love liar liar... i will also probably be ranting a lot the next few decades unless i just want to brain rot lik usual and not work out my finges by typing also sorry if its SO LONG and all the spelling and grammar mistakes i just dont want to think while writing iykwim.. im in full winter break mode and my brain has turnd to mush LOVE YOUUU mercupine forever pls be endgame PELASPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLESAESPLEAESEPSELAESPLEASPELASEPLAESPLESAPLESASPLESAEPLSEASPLSEASPLSEASPLSASPLSEASPLSAEASPLSEASPLSEAESPLSEASPLSEASPLSEAESLPSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEASPLSEAEPLSEASEPLSEAPLSEAPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSPALSEAPLSEAPLSEPALSPALPLSEAPLSPEAPSLEAPLSAPLSEAPLSEPALSPEALSPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSAPLSEPALSPEALSPALESPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEALPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPL

HIIII 😋 (a long juicy juicy art, ohh i’m gonna be eating so well rn 😝)

firstly, i’d like to apologise for answering this so late! ik you sent it in a while ago but (unusually) my inbox seems to be getting new asks every day — which i assume is ‘cause of the growth of LL (hooray? 🥳🫶🏽). not complaining at all btw, this ‘problem’ isn’t even a problem, i love hearing from everyone!!

but anyway, let’s get to the good stuff 😼

‘okay first of all liar liar is literally my favourite thing i’ve ever laid my eyes on??’ — it’s 4am rn and i should be sleeping for my law admissions exam tmr but i’m too stressed to even get some shut-eye time and this isn’t helping ‘cause now i’m not sleeping out of excitement 🥴 i wrote LL for my own personal gain but in doing that, i seemed to have attracted attention from you which just so happens to be a plus point, ilysmmm 😭🫶🏽 words can’t explain how glad i am that you’re enjoying the story so far!

‘like omg just relaese a book atp’ — HAHAHA STOP OR I’LL START LEVITATING 🤧 i really did consider being an author at one point in my life and then scrapped the idea, not sure why but what’s done is done lolol

GIRLYPOP WDYM YOU NEGLECTED UR ENGLISH ORAL EXAM?? 😭 i mean, i’m super relieved that you ended up acing it anyway (well done! 🥳) but don’t ever do that in the future 🙁 if my fic is ever the reason of someone failing their exams, i’ll literally dissipate on the spot 😭 but on a separate note, i’m flattered that you say your results were good ‘cause of my detailed scenes of mercupine 🥹 that’s genuinely such a creative way to compliment my writing, i appreciate it ml <3

‘the happiest moment of my life must’ve been when i finished reading ch 8 and realised there weren’t any more chapters and got scared u abandoned it, and then YOU UPLOADED A NEW CHAPTER LIKE 5 MINUTES AFTER’ — omg no wayyy 😭 i have a nasty habit of releasing chapters LATEEE into the night (uk time) ‘cause bonus scenes end up taking a little extra time than i initially expect to write up. it worked in ur favour! genuinely crazy ‘cause i was contemplating going to bed and uploading chapter 9 the next morning instead HAHAHA

‘i was also part of the readers that got fooled by kamo’ — muahahaha 😈 i’ll always react the same way any time someone comes in to lmk that my evil plan worked 😭 i found (and still find) everyone’s reactions to the reveal SO funny, like i sit there on my phone giggling like an idiot, and realise just how dad-like that is of me to be laughing at my own intentional trick 💀

‘what i dont love is how i feel like mermaid might actually like that two banged freak back’ — 👀

i mean, if it makes you feel better, she’s completely unaware of his feelings towards her rn 💀 like she had an INKLING during the tutor session, but that was shut down by her own brain 0.2 seconds after it even came up ‘cause of… reasons tsumiki

‘like what you should be talking to PORCUPINE. HE'S RIGHT THERE OPEN YOUR EYES’ — i can feel ur frustration through the screen LMAOO 🌝 and if this is you now… 👀

‘and honestly kamo is such a sweet little thing like aww you really did all that just to be close to ur crush but also like back off and let my mercupine be i just want my two babies to be together like plss!!’ — ok so this is how i EXPECTED my readers to react when kamo was introduced as the second male lead/love interest/whatever the hell else you wanna call him. but this is what i got from them instead: 🌝

‘(…) bc ummm megumi is NAWT doing anything...’ — now where have i heard that before 🫣

jk guys 😭

‘have you seen ao haru ride/blue spring ride/???? it lowkey reminds me of whats going on rn’ — i have!! i read the manga too, and let me tell you how pissed i was that the anime didn’t continue and they gave us that bland ass, ambiguous, friendship ending thingy 😤 will forever be mad about that

i truly appreciate you putting a spoiler warning before you wanted to say what you needed to say 😊 i’ve already read the manga and watched the anime so it’s not needed, but you didn’t know that so ofc, you decided to be a kissable human being by placing spoiler warnings, i could smooch u rn 🤧 can you tell i got the ending of outerbanks s4 wasted literally JUST as it came out in november on a tt comment section on a post that had NOTHING to fucking do with outerbanks omg i’m raging again

but yes! i’m well aware of who and what scene you’re talking about :) toma the ginger-haired guy, second LI for futaba 😟

LL wasn’t inspired or made from anything to do with ao haru ride so dwww!! the ending’s actually undecided as of now but… i think i have a clear outline of the events that should take place just before it. and a lot of things are influencing my decision rn hahaa 😁

‘thats the end of my rant live laugh love liar liar...’ — live, laugh, love LL indeed 🥹🫶🏽

‘also sorry if its SO LONG and all the spelling and grammar mistakes’ — nooo dw about it! 😭 it wasn’t difficult to read at all and i enjoy long messages! i actually encourage my readers to send them in :D

tysm for popping in and leaving such a wonderful message! the memes you put in for every part of it had me GASPING FOR BREATH, like idk why the reaction pics paired with ur literal reaction towards parts of the story had me dying in my bed 😭😭 i think it’s just the way you literally did not address them throughout the message LMAOOO 💀

you are the sweetest person on the planet. it’s nearly 5am now and i’m so tired but no matter how hard i try, i cannot sleep :( but now i have no hope seeing as i’m gonna be thinking about this for the rest of the day <3333

[garpond]

ok actually just let me rant for a secodn because ive been thinking abt this ever since it came up in conversation w someone but like. if i ever find this article again ill prob share it but its insane to me that as late as like. early 2000s?? or something we still have an interview w stephen dismissing neils seizures as illegitimate (this time blaming them on like dehydration somehow. how? all of them? hello) even going so far as to like. mock him imitate his voice how he hypothetically sounded when he thought he felt a seizure coming on and got scared. like i know this article is real bc ive discussed it w multiple people who have read it and read the same thing but its like i WISH it wasnt real bc reading it was such an insane experience like . still? we're still doing this?? and the irony of it is that this is in an interview about buffalo springfield ahead of a new box set re-release, and stephen talks very poignantly about meeting with neil, listening to the old stuff, talking over stuff that happened, being open enough about it that they cried and like- so was this just not a part of it? if it was, how was it framed? obviously not fairly, and that makes me feel upset like . like. i dont know how many ppl here have read Special Deluxe (neils second memoir the car themed one) but i just think about this bit in there that gutted me when i first read it where hes talking about his experiences w epilepsy in buffalo springfield (after reading an online piece seemed to give him like. an emotional flashback type experience not that he used that language but like me having regular experience with them i read it and was like holy fuck man) and he talked about like having anxiety so bad that he couldn't tell the difference between an anxiety attack and a seizure aura coming on and how the possibility of having a seizure scared him so bad that he'd just panic and think it was that. but in reference to how the other group members (who took this to be faking when he was wrong, evidently) felt about it theres just like so much self loathing on his end like his direct quotes about it are "it must have been hell to have me in that band" and "i don't know how they put up with me" respectively. even after talking about how he was just fucking Left Behind at a show when having an episode like thats still his takeaway. that amount of guilt. and like idk i have to stop talking aobut this im going to fuckgn explode but yeah have that out of nowhere because i have like barely eaten or slept the past few days due to being sick and i have a screw loose so

[bangzchan]

hey viki how are you? i love how before i could come to you with skam related stuff and now that im more consistently back on tumblr i see you're also back and now i can come to you with kpop related stuff. what an incredible development jdkdkd

anyways,,,, i wanna Know your thoughts on ateez's new album. i really love the concept and theme (and the fact they had this thought out since kingdom????) and im really hoping they drop a video for each song to really go all out with the conceptual album they built so yea ,, opinions, thots, comments? i love knowing what other ppl think aobut these kinds of stuff

omg ksldgmlksdgm hiii!!!! THATS SO WILD i love how some of us ended up here, love that for us sdlkgmmlk its funny because earlier today i had flashbacks to skam bc of the song jinho from ptg covered so that was like. full circle or smth slkdhmlkh

BUT YEAH uh unfortunately i havent really had time to have many thoughts about the whole comeback, i dont really know whats Happening bc im so busy with work and i moved out, i barely have time to even listen to music :( but when i can, i cant stop replaying the album!! THEYRE INSANE all the songs sound so good it burns my brain in the perfect way, hongs parts continue to put me into seconds of coma and i love it..... THEY HAD THIS IDEA INSIDE THEM SINCE KINGDOM?? STOP THEYRE. THE COOLEST???? i also agree with a video for each song omg please i would eat it up or at least a follow up video to the mv??? bc that was so crazy and interesting, i Love when mvs have a plot so now its like. whens ep2 dropping u know. i feel like theres definitely More coming though!! ALSO I LOVE THE CHOREO AND THE SCREAMO IN GUERRILLA! so far this is all i have in my little brain, stay tuned

hope ure doing well btw💞💞

[divinevomit]

hi

october 5'2021 : 2pm

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im backi guess. its been weird. idont remember where i left off. vamps birthday was on the second and me and our frinend (ill call her ghoul) drove him around to a few metaphysical shops and took him out for lunch, then all of us went to a house party to see our friend (ill call them elvis and percilla) play. we all got really drunk. i dont want to talk about it.

i havent heard from luvr in 3 days. im worried and i miss them. i had a dream abut them last nite,, i miss them,,,

i am oh so touchstarved,,,. ive been having dreams of being sweetly kissed and my legs go weakthinking about being held. ive become meloncholy.

apollo told me he loves me. i dont want to talk about it.

i started harming myself again. it makes me feel closer to luvr. i keep them clean but no matter what they wont stop getting infected. ifeel the warmth under my shirt and the sting when i raise my arm. i dont want anyone to see. i dont want anyone to know.

the idea of dying is starting to sound morbidly beautiful again. its in the back ofmy mind often. maybe the portals becoming gradually more open is effecting me more and more. i think ill fast for a week in attempt to gain divine insight. that usually makes me feel better.

i have a new piercing. i want another one. i pierced my belly button and it felt almost liek nothing. i want to pierce my nose again. i cant find the jewerly.

i go back and forth about wishing vamp would move out. i imagine being alone all the time and it makes me long for it, his stuff not littered throughout my room, having more space, more space then ive ever had to myself. maybe ill ask the universe for some solitude. its been helping me a lot lately. the universe has been so nice to me. i need to find more ways to give back. i feel liek im not doing enough again. im trying, i just dont think its enough again, maybe my brain is just soaking in sorrow.

i started looking for ways to make money. ive been texting older men in hopes theyll pay me. apollo is jealous. i dont want to talk aobut it.

[heleizition]

nEW DESigns MEANS NEW ADVENTUREs will they be part of the justice league or are they making a new hero group?? Or are ya making these designs for fun? Either way epic gamer content peep!! Cant wait to see it!

OK SO at first i was making them for fun but now im involved. they are def justice league associates in the long term but i think that . all of them changing their identities would stem from an arguments/them snapping against their mentors. like maybe a mix of many things but mostly just how batman can treat tim as a tool and doesnt rly care/see how tired n run down he is and how he keeps distance w the family despite all the weight on his shoulder, the whole mess between kon and clark and also uhhh i think its kara who hates him ? im not exactly sure for bart n cassie but for bart it’d def be about how he’s def treated more like a kid and how wally n him dont rly get along (or at least i dont think they do/didn’t use to idk wahts up in current canon tho)... cassie im not sure but idk i just have this whole idea of cassie just SNAPPING at batman n superman in particular,,, like,,, idk situation where th’yre on a mission together and batman didn’t like how tim strategized the whole thing and he kind of chew him up in front of the rest of the team and cassie jst Snaps and tells him off and then superman is here so shes like AND YOU ! and releases years of slow hot anger toward him about the whole conner situation,,, like conners her friend she has seen him be so upset aobut superman not acknowledging him n stuff ...

so yeah thats how it starts . and when the four of them are alone cassie doesn’t break or panic (but she prob calls cissie and then cissie laughs remembering their yj days when she got mad at superman and was all cool until she hyperventialted when she n cassie were alone !!!! ya) and they all talk and . yea. they need. they need a break from their ~mentors~ , they need to be away and dissociated from them, need to be their own persons that the trinity + the flashes cant yell at like subordinates.

SO i think they’re a bit in between the titans and the outlaws !!!! they’re not toeing the lines with being a rogue or putting a foot in shady stuff, but they def handle things their way, and its not always the most just or correct way to do it (in the trinity’s opinion). but they’re doing amazing and i kinda want them to go en epic adventures that no one actually knows about bc they do their jobs RIGHT... eventually they reconnect w their mentors and their “hero families” (tho i think jason & tim would get on really good because of that event) and are affiliated with the jla. but it’s a ! tense few months . bruce and tim are also rly awkward and like tim knows bruce is trying but man . is he bad at communicating .

[tamersa]

Why I like new She-Ra reboot:  - characters and their development. most of the main cast have their own characteristics developments etc so even if I dont like them I think they are interesting.  - it is colorful. Im so tired of the “gloomy is good” stuff. nah. give me full palette . - people can be hetero or non hetero and everything is natural in this world. two dads? ok. princesses flirting with each other? ok. hetero ship where lady is stronger? yep. all is good.  - Spinnerella - overweighted chara who kick ass and no one is talking aobut her body shape? thats so great  - characters connections - flawed dynamic, woow that is so great  - Hordak. not gonna lie I have soft spot for edgy  non humans with no moral compass because of their  upbringing. but he has the potential to be better. And his relationship with Entrapta. I want them to go to space at the end and fly from planet to planet to discover nev things and be 2 happy nerds together (romantically or platonically I dont care)  - plot is better and better, i think the frame was planned form the start so it is consistent.  - it is still great for kids and adulty adults like me have a fun with it also.

[gyuprint]

tags

rules: Answer the 28 questions and tag twenty other people!

i was tagged by @bubsjinnie thxxxx

ill try to tag 20 people but i doubt i can: @haechancult @nctkun @rcnjun @jaeminiac @honeyjaemiin @bluejspark @wlwjaehyun @jaehyu @wlwnctdream @moomins-world @monteenlovebot @1aechan @daehwintermelon @jenoscats @zerenus @lovezhong @cafechenle @choerry @sunshineboymark @pork-jisungie

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i. nicknames: idk i just get called stupid a lot and a lot of puns about my first name which i hate so in a way noelle is my nickname

ii. zodiac sign: gemini

iii. height: 5′5 1/2 but i normally round up to 5′6 uwu

iv. age: 17

v. time: 7:49 pm

vi. fave bands/artists: nct (all of them but also mainly dream lol) as far as not kpop groups i can't really think of any

vii. song stuck in my head: “Honey Honey” from Mamma Mia 

viii. last movie I saw: It was the new jurassic world and it was actually pretty good!!

ix. last thing I googled: HULU CUZ IM AOBUT TO WATHC B99

x. other blogs: @love-yuta which i need to use more and @chensungfthearts which i need to use more whoops

xi. do I get asks: i mean i guess? i wouldn't say i get a whole lot but i definitely get more than most ???

xii. why I chose my username: because chensung is superior and i was shocked no-one had snagged this username yet

xiii. following: 544 and currently unfollowing more lol

xiv. average amount of sleep: i have insomnia so i couldn't tell ya

xv. lucky number: 5 because of my sports number

xvi. what I’m wearing: an oversized college t-shirt and short shorts cuz I'm not doing shit for the rest of the day

xvii. dream job: this is my current issue

xviii. dream trip: Japan, China, South Korea, and Italy

xix. fave food: chicken lmao

xx. play any instruments: violin, guitar, trumpet, uke, and piano lol

xxi. fave song(s): currently it is If You Wanna Stay by The Griswolds

xxii. play any sports: i played soccer for most of my life and i miss it :( but after my diagnoses it is really hard to do anything 

xxiii. hair colour: i just dyed it bright red

xxiv. eye colour: dark green with orange/brown in the center OR if I'm out in the sun a lot they turn super bright BRIGHT green

xxv. most iconic song: chewing gum chinese version

xxvi. languages I speak/am learning: fluent in English, I know a little bit of Italian and ASL and i took Latin in school, try to study Mandarin

xxvii. random fact: I have a deformed ear lmao

xxviii. describe yourself as aesthetic things: rain falling while it is sunny outside, laughing until it hurts, listen to your friend say something stupid but also thinking its so funny you have to share it with someone else, over sleeping but still making it somewhere on time WHILE ALSO looking presentable

[alyssumaimatia]

09/08/17

okay lets do a recap of my first week at university bc why not

firST OF ALL wow theres so much walking??? like i knew i was going to be walking a lot but i’ve done a lot more circles and doubling back to walk with people i know than i expected but also its nice bc thats more conversation time and thats more people watching time and i 100% made those reasons up on the spot

secoND even though there are so so SO many options available, it seems like everyone comes and goes at roughly the same times. today i took the bus home and like 60% of the bus were people from my grad class of high school which was an odd, largely unpleasant experience bc wow i never properly spoke to these people or wow i had a rly good reason for not talking to this person for the last few years but now they’re riGHT THERE

none of my profs are bad. one of them is great and hes funny and people laugh a lot in that class and my worst prof is also kind of funny but his teaching style isn’t really for me. but it’s okay so i’m staying there

i take the same bus every morning which is kind of nice but on three days of the week, i get to campus 45 minutes before my first class (rather than 15 minutes the other two days) so i’ve discovered that i can go sit in a coffee shop and ask them to refill my travel mug and they have really really comfy couches

the engineering building has nice tables right next to windows that i can sit at when all of my friends are in class

starting conversations is scary but everyone there is also struggling with the same thing i think so its easier to do

i joined a club thats a relly big club so heres hoping that turns out well bc the first event is next week so we’LL SEE

being a university student is awesome bc there are so many discounts like i wasn’t expecting that much

like there are coupons in the student handbook for places on campus and also this one pizza place really near campus gives uni students 50% off?? like wowowoowowoww and also the club i joined gets a bunch of discounts and at orientation i was given this discount card for restaurants all over the city which is greAT i lOVE IT

I HAVEN’T USED ANY OF THEM BUT I LOVE IT

yesterday after class i took the subway (i guess) up to eden’s (@lunasea) university but she got held up and i was sitting in one of the buildings for over an hour but it was good bc i got to study and we had a good half-hour-ish conversation and we can meet up literally twice every week bc thats how our schedules work out so thats nice edEN DONT FEEL BAD ITS OKAY WE CAN GET BUBBLE TEA OR WHATEVER NEXT WEEK

and tonights the last night of the first week so theres a party thing on campus with beer and music and fireworks so im going to that bc why not?? lets pretend i made new friends when i really didnt thats fine

also the agriculture building has really nice study spots wow

i’m mostly excited aobut the food

and now people are already starting to settle in and walk around less which means that its easier for me to walk around more

um thats all i can think of

i feel like i wrote a lot and i felt like i had a lot fto say and im too lazy to actually journal things

oh yeaH WHEN I WAS AT EDENS UNIVERSITY SOMEONE LITERALLY ASKED ME FOR DIRETIONS AND I WAS LIKE LOL NO I DONT GO HERE SORRY

like its happened on campus and i’m like no sorry idk that side of campus but i literally dont even go to edens school

eden ur school is like an upgraded high school

like you took a high school building, multipled it over a bunch of city blocks and built pedways

thats it

bye

[dovley]

lmao work rant under the cut

i like my job a LOT it’s really the job i wanted out of college but i just thinnk it’s dumb that i havent even GRADUATED YET and i have to teach this new part-timer (Mandy, 2 months at this job so far, 30 years old, minimal TV experience, no news experience) everything that i learned in 4 years for free and she basically gets paid for it. she’s not even an intern. how she’d fucking get this job. 

and she sstill doesn’t get it. she doesn’t understand a newsroom or news stations at all even after being here two months. and i dont know if she’s jsut a slow learner or what but it doesn’t matter because it’s like she doesnt even want to learn?? and yet she’s always touching stuff she’s not supposed to and not staying in her lane bc she’s eager to learn etc and SHE HASN’T LEARNED A THING. so frustrating to finally get a job i really like that’s full time in MY FIELD and out of nowhere this woman w no experience snags a job at the station and essentially ruins the status quo of the morning show by not knowing anything and having minimal TD experience. And it’s not even the right kind of TD experience. and she wasn’t even hired as a TD and yet SHE’S PUSHED HERSELF OVER THERE. GO BACK TO CG MANDY STOP FUCKING UP MY SHOW?? EVERYTHING SHE FUCKS UP REFLECTS BACK ON ME, THE DIRECTOR.

and im trying to be positive about teaching her things (everyone in the control room needs to learn all positions anyway)  but it’s hard. im literally not even graduated and now i gotta teach her everything that took everyone in my class four years to learn??? shooting for news is HARD, commanding an entire control room is HARD, there are classes for a reason and im not exactly qualified to be a teacher. im just a person in college who knows how to do shit. 

and it’s literally not just “this is how we do things at THIS news station” like we have w the interns and other new workers, it’s entirely THIS IS HOW A NEWS STATION WORKS THIS IS HOW NEWS WORKS like she’s a blank slate. what the fuck. why do i get stuck w this kind of junk all the time???????? i have such bad luck. 

we literally had to have one on one meetings w our news director today because of how much tension sh’es been creating in the news room, too. like not only is she hardly absorbing anything, she’s RUDE. all the time. anytime anything goes wrong, she talks back when SHE fucks up. im her director, her only job as a TD is to git gud and listen to my commands and do them. that’s it. that’s the basic TD job. and yet here she is, ignoring me, fucking up the show, getting mad at US when SHE fucks up. we all had meetings w news director Julie bc Julie listened to the control room track from the other day (all convos are recorded, I know this). 

Here’s what happened: we were in a sports package, and the reporter was still talking. I say, “ready three” AS I ALWAYS DO, and instead of READYING THREE (by putting it in preview, not live) she TAKES TO THREE. and suddneyl the anchors are live and the package is still happening. and i say “go back” and she doesn’t do anything (WHICH IS SUCH A HUGE NO-NO IN A CONTROL ROOM, NOT LISTENING TO YOUR DIRECTOR IS SUCH A BAD THING BECAUSE NOT ONLY ARE YOU GETTING YOURSELF IN DEEP SHIT, BUT YOU FUCK UP THE SHOW FOR ///EVERYONE/// INVOLVED), so louder i say GO BACK and she said “well we’re here now” and that’s not???????? what you fucking say?????????? as a TD, you do NOT decide what’s going on. you do NOT get to decide cameras. you are NOT in control. YOU DO NOT JUST SIT THERE AND DO NOTHING. im completely helpless when that happens because she controls everything that’s live on the TV. i could reach over and do it myself but that’s such a huge other issue.

so i do what we’re supposed to: MOVE ON. i silence the package, cue the anchors, and MOVE ON. Mandy has SUCH AN ISSUE W MOVING ON. she can’t. she gets stuck on one thing. she always has to question my calls during the show, EVEN THOUGH SHE KNOWS NOTHING!! SHE DIDNT CUT ANY VIDEO SHE DIDNT ATTACH IT SHE DOESN’T HAVE A SCRIPT IN FRONT OF HER. she litrally knows NOTHING and yet here she is, questioning MY CALLS. and when she does that, i have to double check to mkae sure that everything is good to go, which takes up valuable time during the show. 

so then, during the show i think or during break?? or SOMETHING, she turns aroudn to the producer, and RUDELY says:

Mandy: hey pete, have you ever TD’d before?

pete: ... yes

mandy: did you mess up

pete: all the time

mandy: OKAY [turns around]

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???????? NOT OKAY AT ALL. our new control room intern said she was uncomfortable because of that. when mandy becomes rude and aggressive, she makes ERVERYONE uncomfortable and she doesn’t even know. she’s so self-centered she doesn’t know she’s making it bad for EVERYONE. 

she always tries to initiate dumb convo during the show. she doesnt know how to sit down shut up move on. 

another example: we had one anchor at camera one, and we had a graphic in the screen behind them. a video the anchor was talking over was live, and we were going to camera three after his voice over, NOT CAMERA ONE. so, this exchange happens:

mandy: can i put x-server in aux 5? (this changes the graphic on the screen in camera 1 from the story we’re talking about to a standard one we use for tosses.)

me: ready cam 3

mandy: ... x-server??

me: no, leave it. ready 3.

mandy: what do you want me to do with the vertical plasma?????

me: nothing, we’re not coming out to it we’re going out to camera three.

mandy: i need to know

me, frantically BECAUSE WE’RE LOSING TIME IN THE V-O AND WE NEED TO BE OUT TO CAMERA THREE: /nothing,/ it’s not important we’re not coming out to cam 1, ready three.

mandy: okay but what aobut the plasma??

me: we’re coming out to CAMERA THREE.

mandy, aggressively: okay, DIRECTOR

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OKAY LIEK WHAT THE FUCK WAS WITH THIS?? WHY WAS SHE SO CAUGHT UP ON SOMETHING WE DIDN’T HAVE TO DEAL WITH AND COULD RESET DURING BREAK IN LITERALLY 1 MINUTE????/ it’s so hard to focus on that and the show im suppsoed to be directing like GOD, LEAVE IT.

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back to learning, i literally had to explain a basic rundown to her for like an hour the other day while we sat down to talk .because i wanted to have a meeting to iron out some things such as her attitude and the show. because she doesn’t understand that nothing in the show is permanent, it’s constantly getting moved around and changed and added to. she doesn’t undestand there isn’t a formula to it. her only job is to listen to me. and when she tries to find a “rhythm” she starts ignoring my calls more and fucking up. it’s so annoying. everything she does that fucsk up live reflects back on Pete and I. also im her fuckening supervisor,,,,,,,,

I had to explain how to shoot news today. she didn’t understand what the anchor wanted from a wide shot, medium, and close up. the most basic of shots. or even how long to stay on a shot. or how the camera worked.

and i know she doesn’t have a degree and i am NOT criticizing her for that - college is hard and expensive and not everyone can do it, but you think she’d at least try?? harder???? try to fit in better????? not be a DICK at a job she wants to “be at for a long time” ?? apparently she told our tech guy that she doesn’t fit in. Julie told me that she feels like she has to prove something to us, that she can do it. well she’s not proving anything. she said we feel “clique-ish” in the news room. we’re literally not. at the end of the day we’re all just coworkers at a job. the difference between her and us is that we all have journalism backgrounds. and i have always tried to include her in everything, i have invited her up to the newsroom SO MANY TIMES, and other things but she never comes. if she wants to see change, she can make it herself. im done trying. i’ve given her so many chances. 

our new intern, Tiffany, who was hired on my recommendation, already knows more things than Mandy just because she follows me around and is present and doesn’t hide in the control room. everyone likes Tiffany because Tiffany comes upstairs and says good morning. our live reporter says that Mandy ignores him when they’re outside smoking. she wants to fit in and be friends w everyone and yet she’s IGNORING EVERYONE. if she was even the least bit personable everyone would be fine w her. but she’s not.

and she told Tiffany that she feels “under appreciated” at the station because she’s working all the time, three jobs etc. guess what. Tiffany and I both have three jobs AND class. Tiffany is even full-time in college. im only part time and finally dropping my two other jobs since i got a promotion at the station, but still. you’re not under appreciated Mandy, you’re just never around. 🙄

she said she would help w camera shots, but when i offer them to her, she says no. she wants to know font times for packages, but never comes upstairs. like????????????????????? MAKE A FUCKING EFFORT. IT’S 3 AM WE’RE ALL TIRED BUT YOU SIT IN THE CONTROL ROOM FOR 40 MINUTES JUST READING BEFORE THE SHOW. YOU HAVE TIME TO LEARN.

and she doesn’t understand how hard it is to direct, produce, or even write for news. you can’t just learn that stuff in a week. i went to college for a reason. it would take me MONTHS to even get her director ready. i slid over into my position immediately upon being offered it, just because i had expereince. if she even tried to direct, it owuld be an absolute disaster. the kids in the basic directing class on campus even struggle a lot. it’s really hard. and producing is so much fucking work. so much. Pete gets there two hours earlier than i do - midnight or 1 am. our show doesn’t start until 5 am. 

and on campus, the basic directing class should be easy. but it’s so much info crammed in, even in a semester. they print out scripts and mark them up with their commands. at the station, i have the rundown+scripts on an ipad and i dont write any commands. i just look at the rundown and instantly know what we’re doing. and i do this for two hours. the new directors on campus cant even go for 3 minutes w/o fucking up. it’s HARD. like i pick up on shit fast but for my first few shows i was struggling HARD. and Mandy is the type of person to jsut give up when it gets too hard, which you absolutely CANNOT do during a live show. you can’t abandon your own show. it fucks up the ENTIRE show. that’s on TV. that people are watching. it affects the anchors, it reflects on the station. it’s going to be hard to teach her. and i think it’s gonig to be frustrating for her to learn because Tiffany at least has a little directing experience and will probably pick up on it faster. 

Mandy apparently once complained during her first month that she was in the “intern chair” when she was working CG. that’s not an intern chair?? we put interns there, sure, but people at the late show have been doing CG for years. it’s just another position. also the thing is is that mandy knows less than an intern so i’d literally rather have an intern anyway lol. 

Mandy has legitimately given me so much anxiety i went home from work crying last week. work was so chill until she showed up. 

this is really long and i have more to say but this is enough. it’s past my bedtime lmao bye 

[the-firebird69]

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKZv9B0nxq8

[fragiilexa]

all the even numbers

100 questions 

OH MY GOD. that was a lot of questions lmao

2. Have you ever faked orgasm?

already answered.

4. Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years?

already answered.

6. Why are you no longer together with your ex? 

already answered.

8. What are your current goals?

already answered.

10. Who was the last person to disappoint you?

already answered.

12. Can you keep a diet?

I don’t really do diets? They’re always usually unhealthy & detrimental to your health so I just try to portion food & stuff, pick healthier choices, I don’t like… do weird diets or anything.

14. Do you work?

Not currently no, I don’t.

16. Would you get a tattoo?

Yes, I would love to get a tattoo, I really want one that says Think Positive but the T in positive is a cross? I’ve seen it somewhere before & I’d love that, then also I want one that says ‘I can’t hear hate when I got so much love.’ I also had this really cute idea for getting a tattoo for each of my pets but idk how that one would pan out yet.

18. Can you drive?

No. Not yet I cant. 

20. What was the last thing you cried for?

I cried watching some youtube videos a few days ago, lmao that was fun…

22. Is life fun?

Yeah. It is kiddo it IS fun, it’s like a fun lil’ roller coaster u know? Sometimes it feels like it’s not fun & you get scared but things are all okay in the end, you know?

24. What’s your dream car?

Mini Coop Countryman. It’s just? Super cute? I mean I’m not really into cars, realistically I’d probably get a jeep ‘cause I’m a lot more comfortable with them but, yanno. 

26. Describe your crush.

Super fuckin’ smart, like doesn’t realize it but incredibly smart & determined. Super strong in every single possible way, also one of the kindest people I have ever met & u know also super attractive & jst cute ndngjodeo i luf and u know i jsut amsuper emoitional aobut it ok byre.

28. What was your last lie?

Probably that I did something that I forgot to do? I can’t remember.

30. Is crying in front of people embarrassing?

Yep. I mean at least for me, less embarrassing with friends though, honestly. With family it’s worse & I feel worse but it’s easier with friends I guess.

32. What’s your favourite cocktail?

I don’t drink so….

34. Do you like small kids?

Yes! I love little kids? They’re adorable & I’m smitten, I mean some of them can be annoying u feel but 90% of the time I’m smitten with little kids ‘cause they’re like human puppies u kno?

36. What would you name your daughter/son?

If I have a son I’m gonna name him Benjamin. I haven’t thought about if I have a girl? I mean honestly I want a girl really bad when the time comes but I have no names planned out besides maybe Lila but that might be a little odd if I get the book written, I dunno. We shall see.

38. Is there some you want to punch in the face right now?

Uh, no? Not that I can think of lmao?

40. What was the last gift you gave?

Pretty sure I gave my Mom something but I can’t remember what it was.

42. Favourite place to shop at?

Shop for what? I dunno Target?

44. How old were you when you first got drunk?

I have yet to get drunk yet. I’ll let u kno when it happens tho ok fam?

46. How old were you when you first had sex?

I MIGHT NOT UPDATE U ON THIS but also I share too much so I probably will. hasn’t happened yet tho lmao

48. Something you want to do until the end of this year?

Have fun? Idk.

50. Post a selfie.

No.

52. Name one thing that terrifies you.

U kno the usual ole’ demons & abandonment.

54. What would you tell your 12 year old self?

People are gonna leave and it’s going to hurt really bad. You’re not gonna know why it was you or what you did, but it’s okay ‘cause it’ll make you smarter & kinder than them.

56. Any bad habits you have?

I’m a nervous eater? Lmao I guess that’s a bad habit.

58. What was the last thing you cried for?

Those youtube videos.

60. Are you in love?

Wot is love ( baby don’t huRT me donT huRT ME NO MORE )

62. How long was your longest relationship?

whAT RELATIONSHIP? My friendships barely last, lmao, relationship lmoa dsgdfre

64. What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex?

Hm, sometimes guy’s can be really pretentious, also they seem to think periods aren’t a big deal that bothers me & probably just the superiority complex thing. Bothers me. 

66. How would you describe your bad side?

Super closed off bitch who really just doesn’t like people & can like, probably hurt a lot of people emotionally if she wanted too. Sort of terrifies me, sort of hate that bit of myself. I try to be nice but yeah it’s hard to not be super bitter sometimes.

68. What are you living for?

jeSUS FAM. I live for Jesus & all the amazing people He’s put into my life who mean the world to me.

70. Do you like your body?

It’s a love / dislike relationship. I’m constantly trying to appreciate it & love it but I also know I could physically be more fit so I wanna work on that & sometimes being like out of shape makes me self conscious but I mean I don’t hate my body I just… dislike it sometimes. 

72. Ever sent nudes?

llokeodgebhrth no. I have no fun ok gtg.

74. Favourite candy?

Pixy sticks or like, sour punch straws? I don’t know.

76. Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game?

Sims. I played WoW for a… while when I was younger & maybe I might get back into that when I have a new computer or something but Sims is my favorite game ‘cause it? It just is??? It’s the best.

78. Are you religious? Does God exist?

I am & He does. He’s gotten me through…. everything, like I don’t think I’d be here without him and I have been in a very rough patch with things lately with him but it’s 100% just me & like, yeah. But it’s not a pretentious thing though, I don’t believe that I’m somehow BETTER than everyone else. I 100% believe God exists, I love Him & He loves me & He loves all of you so it’s okay, you know? 

80. What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism?

To each his own. I mean personally I love chicken too much? Lmao, but like if you’re an adult & you wanna do that feel free. I’m a little iffy when it comes to like, making your kids be vegan just because they’re growing & it’s sometimes hard to supplement the nutrients & stuff that meat would give your kids unless you really know what you’re doing & I’m 100% against it when people make their animals vegan ( like dogs who are not meant to be leaf eaters ) dogs need meat. But like I said, to each his own, as long as you’re maintaining a healthy lifestyle & aren’t depriving yourself of the right nutrients than I’m okay with it.

82. Do you like Chineese food?

No…. I’m super picky fam.. it just, doesn’t appeal to me I guess.

84. Vodka or whiskey?

Someone send me both & let me choose?

86. Ever been out of your province/state/country?

I’ve been out of state a few times but never out of the country.

88. What are you scared of?

Spiders? People leavin’ me? Dyin’? Big bugs? Suffocating? Getting burnt? Car crashes? Driving? There are a lot of things. Trust me.

90. Most traumatic experience ?

I mean… I don’t know, there’s not like a set thing or anything that’s really happened besides like, one of my best friends kind of like, dumping me when I was a kid & that kind of fucked me up but I dunno.

92. Favourite app on your phone?

I don’t have a phone but my favorite app on my ipad is probably weheartit or tumblr.

94. Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?

I don’t watch it as much as I’d like but I love Remi Ashten she’s adorable & one of my favorite Youtubers.

96. What is the meaning of life?

Show people that God loves ‘em no matter what ‘the church’ or ‘religion’ or any one really tells them, like, God loves you & he wants you in his life. It’s really simple. That & like, just trying to make the world better you know? I am a cheese ball but I’m dead serious, I think all of us have a unique way of going through life and the ‘meaning’ of life may be slightly different for each of us but the true meaning of it all is to just show people that despite all of the horrible things in the world that there is good & the good is God and that like, we are not required to be perfect or to fit some kind of mold to be loved or accepted by God. I don’t know I’m just mush and I want everyone to know that God loves them no matter what other people say. That and make a damn good book at some point. That’s the meaning, lmao, I don’t know im 21 why are you asking me this. Ask me in another 21 years.

98. Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?

Sadly yes. Me & My sister found that tumblr post where this kid told his mom that ‘you know there was a point where you picked me up, put me down and never picked me back up again’ and we told that to her, that at one point she’d put us down and never picked us back up again, and she like, instantly started crying and I feLT SO BAD AND I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO IT WAS HORRIBLE. 

100. Can you keep a secret?

Yep. But pinky promises are more solid than just a secret to me, tbh.