#not me remembering I used to write like 15 years ago and now I wanna write but also remember I’m actually a shitty writer I just

[skyburger]

okay the good news is i found the post its real i remembered it correctly and everything. a christmas miracle! the bad news is half an hour ago i was trying to get a screenshot of the post and it was a bit too long to get in one screenshot and i thought ughhhh i dont want to stitch together two screenshots. i have learned a lesson today and that is "don't use the full-screen screenshot on ios safari it's not even a fucking picture its a pdf you have to make INTO a png if you want to crop it and the full fucking image is so stupidly long (its a bit over 14 megabytes) it will be a hassle to crop and when you crop it oh its still gonna be like 1500 pixels wide so you think oh ill scale it down but if you scale it down in ibis the quality goes to shit even if i change the method and im Not manually dragging the corner to size it down and then cropping the canvas (this was a better idea i shouldve listened) so you have this low res screenshot of this post youve been trying to get for half an hour and after all that you think Oh my fucking god i shouldve just stitched two screenshots together."

anyway shoutsout to op of the post... hi 👋

does anyone have the post about someone convincing their friend (possibly op's boyfriend?) that there was a real matt damon movie with some dumbass name and they edited the cover of "the bourne identity" (see image #1) to have the fake title but all i can think of is "the turgle" but im pretty sure im mixing it up with the "who turgled" comic (see image #2). Help!!!!

[elliespuns]

There's this deleted dialogue between Ellie and Dina (video) where all of our theories of how their friendship/relationship started are confirmed. I took the time to write down the whole thing before analyzing the hell out of it.

Dina, is pink. Ellie, is not.

I was asking, if I hadn't come on to you in Jackson, how would you have hit on me? Like I would have hit on you. You totally would've hit on me. How bad could it have gone? You might have rejected me and then what? I'd have to watch you fall for someone else. Okay, worst case, it would be a little awkward and we just move on. There's no way we just move on. Yes, you would have. What if you were grossed out? What if you didn't wanna be around me anymore? Such a pussy. Okay, who was the one that had this blinding urge to kiss me for 4 years and didn't do shit?

Tell me about when you first realized you were into me. Was it my swagger, my overwhelming beauty? I was into from the day we met. Go on. The day we met, you introduced yourself to me and Joel like you were the major or something. Because I thought you were cute. *blushing* shut up! I hate you. No, you don't. Yes, I do. No, you don't. I love you. I love you too.

Okay, so, as Ellie says, she was into Dina from the day they met. Which was when they came to Jackson with Joel. Ellie was still 14 (I guess more likely freshly 15 at the time, actually). Dina is probably like a year older, so she was 16. I mean, now I can't stop imagining 15-year-old Ellie meeting 16-year-old Dina and being all twitterpated by her. Just remember the cuteness when Ellie was shown to be in love with Riley. Imagine this when she's 15 and meets Dina. Just adorable.

Also, quoting Ellie "Okay, who was the one that had this blinding urge to kiss me for 4 years and didn't do shit?"

This means even Dina had a crush on Ellie in the early stages. 4 years ago, Ellie was 15, so that means she either started to like her right away or a little bit later on. The girls were into each other, just tiptoeing around one another not to do anything stupid or ruin their friendship.

This also gives us a pretty clear picture of how things were between Ellie and Cat. She was already in love with Dina at the time she was going out with her, and remembering how Dina always disliked the fact that Ellie was hanging out with Cat only proves that Dina was jealous all along. Her relationship with Jessee must have been something similar to what Ellie had with Cat, although I believe that Dina started dating Jesse a lot sooner and had already been good friends before that.

Ellie seems a little hesitant when it comes to relationships (this whole dialogue confirms it too), so maybe if it wasn't for Cat making first steps, Ellie would have never gotten into any relationship to begin with. It seems to me that she just wanted to explore and wanted to know what it was like, but she didn't really made herself believe that she loved her. She surely cared for her and liked her, but knowing she was in love with Dina at the time, it was probably even the reason why Cat broke up with her (I always thought it was her who ended it). She probably knew all along that Ellie had eyes for her best friend anyway.

I also appreciate how Ellie admits she was insecure about asking Dina out. "What if you were grossed out? What if you didn't wanna be around me anymore?", I love how deep this digs into Ellie's personality and how, even though she is a strong and independent girl, she still struggles with abandonment issues. Now she doesn't feel like this only towards Joel, but towards her best friend too. Like, she is lovely, nice, funny, and beautiful, but she still feels insecure. Help me with this girl, she deserves the world because she'd rather love her friend from afar than ending up without a friend. Under the layer of thick skin and a strong mind, this girl is so fucking sensitive and fragile it physically hurts me.

This gives the dance scene a whole lot of new meaning. It's probably the very first time Dina says to herself, 'Okay, now's the time. It's now or never.' and after all those years of resisting, she makes a move on Ellie, knowing the girl must feel it too. The girl is too quirky and shy to hide it anymore whenever she's around Dina.

And Ellie? She has been loving Dina for too long, probably trying to convince herself she wouldn't have a chance with Dina, thinking she's into guys, not girls, let alone her girl best friend. And there she is, suddenly grabbing Ellie's hand and leading her on the dance floor, wrapping HER ARMS around HER BODY. Ellie's arms around her body. What is happening? Is she just imagining it? Ellie's heart must have missed thousands of beats at this moment. I love how it's shown in her facial expression as Dina whispers in her ear. Ellie is so awestruck that she doesn't even realize all Dina wants to do is something she should've done 4 years ago.

[papermariosuggestion]

So... here's The Situation™

First of all, if you're new here, welcome! Thank-a-you so much-a-for to enjoying my blog.

If you're not new here, and I haven't welcomed you yet, then belated welcome! Thank-a-you so much-a-for to enjoying my blog.

You probably remember a- uh- "brief" period from mid-2020 to mid-2024 where I didn't post very much on here, and I wanna say that I appreciate you sticking around through that. I haven't really explained what happened then, and I think it's important that I do that, especially given what's happening now.

I'm a filmmaker by trade, and I've always (for over 15 years now) wanted to create my own YouTube channel- not for any kind of fame or clout or anything like that, but simply because I enjoy creating videos that matter, that make a positive difference in some way, and despite my profession, that's not something I get the chance to do very often.

Considering that I have a ton to say about the Paper Mario series, it would make sense to create a channel dedicated to that subject. There's only so much that can be said using existing meme formats, and quite frankly, a majority of the formats I've seen since 2020 have been too political, too explicit, too redundant, or otherwise useless for inspiring entertaining, safe-for-work, and meaningful Paper Mario content.

I've been making an effort to start creating Paper Mario videos since 2018, and going far out of my way to eliminate the obstacles standing in my way since 2020, but unfortunately, all these years later, it still seems that I just... can't. It's not for any lack of knowledge or skill, but simply due to my circumstances.

I'm disabled. I won't get into the details, but I have multiple disabilities and several debilitating medical conditions that I can't do much (if anything) about. I've been repeatedly trying to find some kind of treatment and/or management that would enable me to create the kind of content I want, but to no avail. Fifteen years ago, this wouldn't have been as much of a problem, but my situation then doesn't help me now.

I don't want it to seem like I don't enjoy making the kind of content I create for this blog- I do- it's just not sustainable to continue posting as often as I have been, especially when the future (for me and for Paper Mario) is so unclear.

In general, people seem to be losing interest in Paper Mario, and I don't just mean on Tumblr, or even just on the Internet. The Switch remake of TTYD sold a little over half as well as The Origami King. That might have something to do with TTYD being a remake released toward the entire of the Switch era, but regardless, I highly doubt that sales like that are convincing anyone at Nintendo we need a new Paper Mario game like the first two or three.

As of writing, the latest RPG news we've received is that, surprisingly and fortunately, despite AlphaDream going out of business, we're still getting a new Mario & Luigi game in early November (Mario & Luigi: Brothership). I'm really looking forward to playing it, and if I'm able to, I might do a livestream of it, like I did for the TTYD remake.

Nintendo has also sent out multiple surveys to random My Nintendo users concerning Mario RPGs, which suggests that they intend to make more of them, but aren't sure exactly how they should go about doing so. I would hope that the survey responses push them to create a Paper Mario game more like the first two or three, but looking at the actual sales data, that seems extremely improbable.

TL;DR: I'm gonna be posting less often/more sporadically on here, but I'm not going anywhere, and also, I'm looking forward to Mario & Luigi: Brothership.

[crimetimesteadicam]

ok @morporkian-cryptid tagged me to do this fic author interview so here we go...

if you would like to do this, i am officially tagging you, yes you, right now. tag me back so i can see your answers

1 How many works do you have on AO3?

i got 40

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

1,044,749

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

sorry like none of these are lupin iii. a blight on my lupin iii blog

Wabisabi (991 kudos) - Spirited Away. idk it's short and cute, read it

BONES OF BLACK MARROW (952 kudos) - Homestuck. the infamous cyoa cannibalism sex fic. scrolling through the things people say about it in the bookmarks is always so funny

Cum mortuis in lingua mortua (925 kudos) - Homestuck. no clue why it has so many kudos lol it was like the first long thing i've ever wrote (a whole decade ago??? jesus). it's a d&d/discworld joke

Vanitas vanitatum (914 kudos) - Homestuck. the same d&d/discworld joke except the LI is turbo depressed. notable for being the only fic i ever outlined and edited and that's why it whips

Supermassive Retinol Overdose! (677 kudos) - hey look, a lupin fic made it on here!

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i do when i have something meaningful to say besides "thank you!" i don't have a lot of thoughts about my own work so therefore i tend to not respond if there's not a direct question :( my head is empty. i always respond to every single comment on the last chapter of longfics though because i'm always impressed people read that far lol. genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for reading all that

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

idk uhhhh i wrote a series once where two of the main couples break up at the end, but it wasn't really angsty

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

they all end pretty happily

7. Do you write crossovers?

if i did it was so long ago i don't remember it

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

no but people used to send passive aggressive hate about my art in fics once in a while. hasn't happened in like 2+ years

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes. every kind. EVERY KIND

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

a bot will sometimes scrape my high kudos homestuck fics and plant them on a junk ebook site

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yeah i think like 7 of them got translated into russian and do numbers on ficbook.net

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

in the past me and my friend would sit around a laptop and scream laugh write our way through crack fics

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

right now it's jiglup and fujilup

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

i finish almost all my WIPs because i'm a freak. if i don't finish a WIP it's because some dramatic life event happened. this has only occurred two times

15. What are your writing strengths?

im a funny binch

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

i don't outline or edit or re-read any of my fanfic. i just type it and then eyeball it for typos and then post it. i COULD outline and such to really make the narrative nice and tight, but i don't find it very fun to do (for fanfic) and this is like, my relaxing wind down hobby. i just wanna have fun haha. the only reason my fics like, make sense, is because i write at least one ending scene first thing and always aim for that, and also i write out of order so i kinda know the route of the story

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

it's fine if it makes sense to do it there as a narrative device

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

h-hetalia crack fic.....

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

once i figure out how to draw zenigata it's over for you bitches. luzeni hours on da clock

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

for lupin iii fic, i like Lightkeepers the best

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

So my best friend (F28) and I (F26) have been friends for seven years. We met on an rp site and hit it off right away. After a lot of issues with other people on the sites and the sites themselves (tbh it was a real shit show, they were controlling and excluded others and kinda homophobic) we left and just kept rping ourselves. We mainly do this over whatsapp, instead of writing long posts we just do quick messages and it’s fun like that. Again, this has been going on for SEVEN YEARS, rping with a quickness that was like…. A response every 10 or 15 minutes. Predictably, this made us somewhat… codependent. It’s something we’re aware of and that I’ve spoken about in therapy and that I’ve been trying to work my way through. I’ve recently also been diagnosed with ADHD so I realized that my dependence also partially stems from it being quick dopamine fixes and being very constantly stimulated.

Additionally, the way we rped was not always the healthiest. We’ve recently noticed that at the start of things, we used it to work through a lot of issues that we were having (darker storylines tended to really coincide with moments where one or both of us were having a hard time). It was a both drown or both rise sort of situation, I guess. Recently, we’ve both been doing much better and we noticed our stories tend to be much happier and lighter. Fluffier if you will.

One of the things that bothers me most is that I feel likeI tend to be the one doing the heavy lifting on this friendship. I’m the one that finally got her to go to therapy, I’m the one helping her fix issues in her life and find ways around problems, I’m the one keeping track of storylines and plots, I’m the one checking up on how she’s feeling. Like, I honestly can’t remember a moment where she’s asked me how I’m feeling unprompted by a comment I’ve made.

RECENTLY things have gone to shit. On my end. I noticed some months ago that things started to change. She was going through a hard time with some things and so was I, but while I tried to be supportive and help her while also dealing with my own shit, she never even asked about me. This kept going on for a while but I didn’t want to say anything and sound self centered. However, when I’m going through a hard time, I tend to rely on us doing some RP just to keep my mind occupied and have something nice through the day. It’s not healthy and I try not to say anything, but she knows this anyway. Answering usually takes less than a minute and she’s always on her phone. We used to answer every ten minutes and then suddenly it was taking her four hours to answer. Sometimes even just once a day. So while I was annoyed at this, I was also sort of worried because this had never happened before. It kinda came from two sides. On the one hand, I was really feeling the absence and I started feeling like an afterthought, and on the other hand I was worried about what was keeping her so busy that she hadn’t mentioned. (Full disclosure, whenever we thought we’d take a while to answer we would send a brb or let the other know we were in class or at work etc, so unexplained absences weren’t common). So like I knew she didn’t owe me anything, but a head’s up would be nice. I feel like I would have been less bothered by all of it if she’d just let me know she’d be gone for some days.

Things came to a head about a month ago, I told her I didn’t wanna do rp like this anymore because I honestly got bothered every time and it wasn’t healthy, and that she’s going through a hard time but so am I and that while I’m considerate of her issues she’s never as considerate of mine. She was hurt and apologized and said she’d try to communicate better (and that we’d put the rp on hold which I get and it’s fine, or I want it to be fine) but then… she didn’t. Now, she barely sends me a hi once a week and keeps saying I’m still her best friend she’s just going through stuff and is trying to stay off her phone. But I know she’s texting people because our common friends tell me they’ve spoken to her and I honestly can’t see how hard it is to send a “hi how are you” when I’ve already messaged first to check up on her.

AITA for being upset and angry and wanting clearer communication on this?

What are these acronyms?

[bihansthot]

My little ham is being extremely cuddly tonight and I am very here for it, I was very sad earlier because I can’t remember what Jäger smells like anymore. I find myself smelling Denny often hoping I won’t forget him too. For some reason I’ve been thinking a lot about Jäger’s final moments lately which prompts trying to remember what he smelled like, what he felt like and I just can’t remember, all of those memories are wrapped up and laced with so much sadness and trauma I just can’t separate them. I don’t know what’s bringing these feelings back up lately, maybe because I haven’t been feeling well and have been unhappy because I feel unwell. I need a nice distraction and neither of the guys I’ve been seeing are providing it. Maybe I need a hobby? Writing seems too constricting lately and not fun. I’ve been thinking about crocheting again but a) I have to learn again which no biggie YouTube taught me when my niece was born 15 years ago, it can teach me again, b) I have no clue what to make? I’d make something for Denny but he has so many clothes lol I guess he can always use more? Maybe cute hats like Good Boy Ollie has? Denny deserves all the cute clothes and hats, he’s such a good baby. I don’t deserve him.

In non depressing dog stuff I made some video game resolutions for the year that I’m not sure I’ll accomplish. If you’ve followed me for a very long time you know I also love Soulsborne games, I’ve beaten DS3 and Elden Ring but my resolution is to beat the DLC for DS3, I want to beat Malenia and Placidusax in Elden Ring and finally play Bloodborne. I’ve never played Bloodborne despite absolutely loving it. The problem is I haven’t touched DS3 since I beat it so I can’t remember how to play it and Elden Ring I’m reasonably confident I can beat Placidusax but Malenia woof waterfowl dance am I right? THB I had enough health to tank most of it if I could avoid at least one but it’s her stage two form scarlet rot dive bomb that killed me. Admittedly I’ve only tried Malenia 2 or 3 times, my partner got Let Me Solo Her themselves to beat Malenia for them. I don’t know where to start though, I have to restart them all from the beginning because I’m on PS5 now, I guess I should go in order? So Bloodborne first? I’m so scared though everything is so fast 😭 I’m a big dumb, clunky over level and use the biggest axe in the game type player and I’m afraid I won’t be able to keep up. I don’t know if I can do the DLC I don’t know if I can beat Lady Maria or the Orphan of Kos but I guess I’ll try. Wish me luck y’all, I’m not embarking back into Soulsborne until I 100% Season of the Cryomancer though and of course this will have no bearing on my MK lust/content or anything, I don’t really have Soulsborne husbandos/waifus though I guess there’s boy Anri and Vicar Amelia (yes I’m a monster fucker, deal with it) oh oh and my precious stingray boyfriend Lorian, I don’t write for any of them or self ship with any of them so there will still be lots of dumb egg jokes. Don’t worry I’m in no way taking a break from MK I’m just indulging in another franchise I love deeply too, multitasking. So I guess just a heads up that there may be an influx of rage posts about Soulsborne bosses lol Or me professing my endless love for Greirat and Boc lol Will I ever go back to Baldur’s Gate 3?? Who knows! Probably not tbh I don’t like anyone other than Gribbo and Scratch not to mention I’ve seen my partner put just hours into it. I’ve seen the game and maybe I’m just bad at it but it’s just not fun for me which is why I’m going back to Soulsborne games lol I’ll tag my posts with “Soulsborne” if you don’t wanna see my rambling about the games though but like I said I promise I will still be all MK all the time after all it’s my true love ❤️

This has been a pointless Sol rambles, thanks for reading 🩵

[oozmium]

Hidden Relics and The Man Who Hid (Them) - Translation

This is a translation of Hallelujah's side story found in the SMTIVA artbook. There used to be a translation floating around for this a couple years ago, although it appears to have been taken down. So I've asked a good friend of mine to translate the story and I looked over it for lore accuracy.

A direct link to the translation hosted on their blog can be found here. But if you'd like to read it on tumblr, click the read more. Please enjoy your read!

One more thing: PLEASE DO NOT REPOST THIS TRANSLATION ANYWHERE ELSE. Instead, link back to either this tumblr post or my friend's blog if you wish to share it.

Hidden Relics and the Man who Hid Them

Original Writer: Mito Yoko

Translator: VerdantGrove

ENG Proofer: Elegy

note: translation notes can be found at the bottom.

— 

A single notebook rests in the man’s hand. That aged notebook is just one of the relics the man found in his former residence…it’s the memoir of a certain woman. The man places his fingers atop the warped cover just as he always does, and sets foot into the world of the memoir…

— 

Feb 12

Hallelujah found a pen and a notebook. He said it was a present for Mama. I used this when I was study-ing¹ with Angel. How long ago was that again? Hallelujah’s four now, so… No, no. I don’t wanna think about it.

Angel complimented my handwriting. He said “it’s not very well done, but repetition is key.”

Writing a diary so he compliments me again.

Feb 13

Three visitors. Ashura Kai came to collect the money, and give us food rashions². A little more than usual, thanks to the work I did. Mama will work hard for Hallelujah.

Feb 14

Zero visitors. Big fire in Shibuya. Scary. 

Humans are scarier than demons. Angel…

Feb 15

Four visitors. Tired.

Feb 16

Visito

May 2

Forgot about the diary. Writing every day is hard.

Jun 13

Ashura Kai came to collect the money. Guy in charge is annoying.

Luckily visitors were nice today.

Jun 15

We got canned food from the guests³. Hallelujah was super happy. But… I didn’t know what to say when he asked me “what’s a backblue⁴?”. If Angel were here, he would have told him. Have to study.

Jun 20th⁵

Hallelujah keeps yelling about wanting to go outside. Even though it’s dangerous up there. Even though I’m doing my best to live down here for him.

Jul 4th

Hallelujah and I talked about Papa. “Samyaza”... I get shy just saying his name. I’ll keep what really happened a secret for now.

He asked me, “why isn’t he with us?”

Why, I wonder?

Jul 15th

Ashura Kai came to collect the money.

Seems grades are good. Oh dear.

August⁶ 15th

The Ashura Kai⁷ came to collect the money. I ranted to a friendly guest, and their response was “poor thing.” They said I was such a poor thing, having to work and take care of a child at the same time.

Am I really a poor thing?

August 16th

Was all guests I hated today. But have to stay strong. For Hallelujah.

Sep 9⁸

Wrong. Something, wrong. Head spinning. Get mad when I look at Hallelujah. How can he laugh when I’m suffering this much? 

But all this suffering is for his sake.

He looks just like me and I hate it. Hate everything.

September 15th

Collected the money.

I’m mad. Can’t even look at Hallelujah.

September 2

September 21st

I hit Hallelujah yesterday.

He kept asking questions about my work, and I said “you know it’s all your fault” and hit him.

I even blurted out “it’s your fault Angel went away too.”

I’m awful.

September 30th

Hallelujah threw up.

While I was cleaning it up, he cried “sorry, sorry.” I said “you’re a lot more serious than you were when you were a baby,” and it made me laugh. 

I felt like that was the first time I’d laughed in a long time.

Then Hallelujah laughed too.

He laughed for me, even though I’d done something so horrible.

For some reason, it made me want to cry.

October 1st

I’m thinking as I watch Hallelujah sleep.

Hallelujah’s name was given to him by Angel.

It means “gratitude.”

I was really happy, so I tried my best to remember how to write it, even though it’s hard to spell⁹.

How the hell did I forget that? I’m such an idiot.

October 3rd

I hit Hallelujah and managed to say “sorry.”

He forgave me with an “it’s all righty.”

He patted me with his tiny little hands.

Sorry. Love you.

October 15th

That guest again. Always telling me I’m a “poor thing,” so annoying.

October 21st

I still have a lot of mixed feelings about Hallelujah.

But I’m not angry at him. Luckily.

Nov 15¹⁰

What am I gonna do? Hallelujah hit the man who collects the money. I got hit, then Hallelujah, he turned into something not human, got scary strong, then that guy, he wouldn’t move. Ashura Kai—no, oh my God, this isn’t what you should write in a diary.

But I want to calm down.

Hallelujah can’t stop shaking even though I’m hugging him tight.

Hallelujah was just helping me. He didn’t do anything wrong. That’s it, Hallelujah didn’t do anything wrong.

Hallelujah did not do anything wrong.

Hallelujah cried himself to sleep. Thank God.

It was hard, but I made up my mind.

We’re going to leave the Underground. I thought I wouldn’t survive if I wasn’t here. But that’s wrong.

I have everything Angel has taught me. It’ll be okay.

Leaving before the stores open is a matter of life or death.

I’ll keep Hallelujah safe.

—

“They sure do change easily, these ‘humans.’”

The man's cold and emotionless words reflect his hardened features as he emerges from the glow of the streetlights. And yet, for some reason he couldn’t place, when his eyes catch sight of these words of determination written in smudged letters, his hand stops. The man had never once thought about why that was.

Just as his hand stopped, he checked his smartphone for new notifications, but… The name which he hoped to see was still not there. Ignoring the many voices seeking out his direction, the man turns his attention to the rest of the memoir.

This memoir tells the tale of a mother and child desperately searching for a way to survive. Silently, the man continues to read…

—

May 19th

Our life on the surface has been going smoothly, thanks to us handing out Reds. I’m less worried about the demons. Hallelujah will be 10 soon. Seems like he’s made a friend called Chiro. I wonder what kind of kid they are?

June 12th

We got canned food as payment for the Reds!

Hallelujah was on the edge of his seat before we even opened it. He looks happy eating the fruit. I’m glad.

June 13th

Hallelujah fell asleep hugging the empty can.

It made him that happy?

June 15th

Studying with Hallelujah. I want to tell him everything Angel taught me.

June 28th

Hallelujah made me mad. It was because he took out that empty can when we were collecting relics. Is that thing his prized possession…?

June 29th

Making up with Hallelujah. I promised I wouldn’t put my hands on him without thinking anymore. Sorry, Hallelujah.

July 10th

I know what Hallelujah’s friend is now. It was a shock.

July 12th

I ran into that guest from our time underground. I wished they’d shut up about wanting me to come back to the city or wanting to look after me. Not to mention they told me how sorry they are for me again. I’m mad.

July 18th

Hallelujah has gotten good at looking for relics.

I told him “you’d be fine doing this on your own at this point” to praise him, but that made him extremely grumpy. Why??

July 20th

That guy’s here again. Ugh.

Even though Hallelujah’s forgotten what happened that day.

July 22nd

Hallelujah doesn’t seem to like studying. He said it was because he was gonna play with his friend, then ran off. Where’d this come from?

If only Angel were here at a time like this…

August 22nd

Had a conversation with a grumpy Hallelujah.

Studying is essential for proper judgment.

It’s essential in order to decide for yourself what’s important to you. Just like how I decided to believe Angel. …I wonder if I got through to him?

September 2nd

I found out why Hallelujah was acting so strange.

That man told him things. Things like “it’s my fault you got driven above ground” and “they want to get rid of me.” What the hell? Sure enough, humans are the worst. Way, way worse than demons!!

I want to explain. But what should I say?

September 5th

That guy has been loitering around us again.

Hallelujah is still feeling down too… Worried.

September 30th

I was debating whether or not to do this, but I’m going to tell Hallelujah.

That Angel really is an angel.

That he’s not human.

And… about what happened that day.

Tomorrow I will tell him. Angel, give me courage.

October 1st

The conversation went awful. “You’ve been giving me special treatment ‘cause I’m not human,” and “I can tell my dad was more important to you.” …I had thought it’d go like that.

October 3rd

Hallelujah’s in his room with Chiro, and he won’t come out.

If I was Angel, what would I do? …Maybe It’s because I’m always like this that it seemed like his dad was more important to me.

I have. To think.

October 4th

I’m rereading through this diary and thinking. I’ve written everything here, whether it’s the things that made me happy or the things that caused me pain. It’s really true that I hated that child. It’s really true that I loved him, too.

All of it. It’s all true.

October 5th

Received a summons from that man. I’m scared, so I’m bringing that weapon I snatched back then. I wonder; can I use it?

I want to talk with Hallelujah when I get home.

I’ve finally settled on what I want to say.

I like Hallelujah.

I love Hallelujah, because he’s Hallelujah!

I didn’t ask for us to make someone I could cherish other than myself just so I could abandon him.

When I had a chance encounter with Angel and was blessed with Hallelujah, I was really, truly happy.

I just wanted to do a good job of getting this happiness across to him, too.

…Can I even get that across to him? I’m an idiot, so I doubt I can.

But I’ll tell him as many times as it takes. Angel told me that repetition is key, after all.

Well, I should head out soon. …I know you probably wouldn’t give me a reply to this, so I’ll write it here.

See you later, Hallelujah.

—

The memoir ends there, and the aged notebook does not speak further. But the man knew. He knew of both the woman’s abrupt and miserable end and of the whereabouts of the child who lost his mother’s protection…

“Mr. Abe, it’s an emergency!!”

The man who was called—Abe, furrowing his brow, would go to respond to the insolent trespasser.

“Understood. The ‘final battle,’ yeah?”

Yes, at last, the curtain has risen on the battle between God’s Chariot and the Demon King. As Acting Chairman, it is his duty to finish this play, and yet…

“...Not a word from him.”

There were still no notifications from the person he longed to see—from Hallelujah.

That made one thing apparent—estrangement.

“Guess ya found yer angel… Eh, Ayako?”

Abe—the fallen angel who was once called an ‘angel’—imagined a future in which he would stand opposite his own son…and laughed.

<Fin>

TL Notes:

Studying is written in katakana here. It shows unfamiliarity with the written word.

Half of the word is written in katakana here, and the other half in kanji. I chose to portray this as a misspelling, as someone new to writing would be just as likely to misspell the word “rations” in English as they would be not to know the first kanji of the word haikyuu (rations) in Japanese.

Mama writes the word okyaku (visitors/guests) in kanji for the first time here. I marked this with a switch from “visitors” (neutral connotation) to “guests” (more respectful connotation of welcomeness).

Hallelujah seems to have flipped the kanji in the word “blueback (fish)”（青魚 lit. blue fish）to 魚青 (lit. fish blue); I had him flip the word “blueback” to “backblue” in the same manner. He likely read it left to right instead of right to left.

Before this date, the days were written in hiragana. This marks the switch to the use of kanji for each day. I decided to portray this by typing the numbers in proper date format (e.g. 20th instead of 20).

Before this date, the months were written in hiragana. This marks the switch to the use of kanji for each month. I decided to portray this by typing the months spelled out instead of abbreviated.

Rather than writing the “Ashura” in “Ashura Kai” entirely in hiragana as she had been doing previously, Mama writes the first kanji in “Ashura” here for the first time. I decided to portray this by using the article “the” to make it a more complete sentence, thus similarly showing a progression of education.

Mama returns to writing the date entirely in hiragana here in her distress.

Referring to it being difficult to write the kanji for gratitude (感謝). I paralleled this to spelling the word.

Same as TL note 8.

[thenaiads]

The imbecile blocked me now, they must have seen some of my posts about the stupid situation (Link) and where and with who I stand.

Some time ago I answered one of Nicholas's fans who was spreading misinformation about the difficult situation these days.

I was really mad guys because these people kept saying lies over lies, and even changing the meaning of what "gr00ming" and "pr*dartor really are.

Basically for these people (Dream's Anti) adults talking with people younger than them (minors) are all pr*dators and p*d0philes.

A good example is this post I found in my dash.

This is the link for the link above if you wanna see the context (https://www.reddit.com/r/DreamWasTaken/comments/knp9hq/can_someone_explain_whats_the_context_for_this/) It was the stream where Tommy met Ninja for the first time in the SMP if you remember the video.

I was going to answer directly to the person who made this post, but I decided to create my own and explain some things that I'M NOT OKAY with and I don't think are fair for Dream and any other adult, young adult, and content creator out there.

...................

First of all, I just wanna all of you to know that I'm 31 years old, and I have some friends and acquaintances who are a lot younger than me (both in real life and here on the internet), some of them are kids between the 14 and 15 years old, for some of them the DreamSMP is their first fandom, but I know many others of them since the Undertale, RTOG, Gravity Fall and OTGW fandoms.

I never NEVER lied about my age (and the people who follow me here should know, if they ever read some of my personal posts), and I always made sure that every person that I knew and befriended was okay to be around me, since the world is what it is.

Now...

Knowing this about me, do you think that I'm a pr*dator?

A gr**mer and a p*d0phile?

Do you actually believe that?

If the answer is yes, then please, stay away from me, my blogs, and don't ever interact with me.

If you have an open heart and an open mind, you are welcome to follow me and ask me things if there are some stuff that you don't really understand from what I'm going to write here.

The second point, I know about ALL Dream's drama right now, but I will use primarily Amanda's accusations from 2022 as an example

Let's begin...

For people like the two blogs in the photos above!!!!

You say that every adult out there who "talks" not just to children but, to people younger than a few years are automatically a groomer and p*do...

... Do you realize that by saying so you should put in the same category of Dream even other people like, for example: Philza, Wilbur, Technoblade, and other content creators out there like Bella, Hannah, Puffy, Bad, and even Niki for being sometimes just a little weird in their videos with Tommy, Tubbo, Ranboo, or any other person younger than them?

I remember ALL OF YOU that Wilburn was in his 20s and Philza in his 30s already when they started to interact with Tommy who was 15-16 years old when he met them!!!! And this applies to every older person who ever talked to people younger than them!!!!

But coming back to my question you believe that people who have friendly relationships with children/minors are pedophiles, correct?

It's what you are saying, right?

So this means that since I'm 31 years old, I'm not supposed to talk or have any friendly relationships with people younger than me, no matter the difference of age, if they are 25 years, 18, or even 14 years old?

Do you realize what you are saying? This means that in general, every adult out there is a pedophile and a predator.

This is the same excuse that these days the Fasci are using to describe the LGBT+ community and their allies.

You and other Antis are using the word groomer without knowing what exactly means, and you are using this word as a "Weapon" against everyone that you people simply dislike.

What does "gr00ming" really is and mean? Grooming is a process of manipulation and trust-building that a perpetrator will use to create an atmosphere where they can exploit a CHILD!!!

A CHILD is a young person especially between infancy and puberty.

You can read more here: https://ssaic.ca/learning-resources/child-sexual-abuse-what-is-grooming/

Why I'm saying this? Amanda (the person who accused Dream) wasn't a child, when she wrote that tweet she said that "she was around 17 years old when she started to messaging with Dream", AND she even admitted that she lied about her age saying that she was 18 years old.... This means that SHE WASN'T A CHILD, and consequentially what could have happened between Dream and Amanda WAS NOT GR00MED!!!

And this was the first point...

The second point and most important!!!!

in the link I added above you can read this:

"Once a significant trusting relationship has been created, the perpetrator progressively begins to sexualize the relationship... the perpetrator exploits a child’s natural curiosity, using feelings of stimulation to advance the sexuality of the relationship.".

Now, 17 years old Amanda is Not and will Never be an innocent little girl who doesn't know what sex is!!!!

You can't tell me that a girl or boy of that age doesn't know what sex is, you can't tell me that a person that would actually LIE to their age to have a more mature relationship with someone older than them on the internet is "some poor victim that doesn't know what they are doing"!!!

YOU CAN'T TELL ME THAT!!!!

And to explain better my point I beg you to read this post and learn what actually means for anyone to "lie about their own ages" and what are "adult's boundaries and consent", here is the link: https://thenaiads.tumblr.com/post/734157729246117888/the-final-sif-alright-i-need-to-have-a-chat

Third point

Amanda never showed any proof of sexting, I know because I was there!!! I read her tweets/chat with the person that She said was Dream, but in those chats/tweets there wasn't any sexting, or sexual/p0rn pictures, or anything sexual in general. There was just one picture of her in a bikini on the public beach and a comment saying she was "gorgeous" when she was lying about her age...

Tell to a "Young Woman" she is gorgeous it's NOT gr00ming, it's NOT even Sexual Predatory, Sexual Abuse, Verbal Abuse, or any fancy word you can use.

This means that the only manipulator between Dream and Amanda was and STILL IS Amanda!!!!

And this only if we all believe and have actual proof that the chats and tweets that Amanda posted in October-November 2022 were true and not fake.

And before you start!!!! Anyone on the Internet (who knows how to use a computer or an Art Program) Can create fake pictures of tweets and chats!!! It's the oldest trick I've seen around since I joined Tumblr when I was 14 years old, it's the oldest trick used before AI was created!!! So I know what I'm talking about...

.........

Now why I did say All of this?

Because it wasn't because you dislike Dream, because you think is a horrible human being, and yada yada.

NO! I said all of this because you said and quote "I watched a full forty-minute clip to get full context and he still admits to talking to a minor and that it doesn't matter, those are his words."

Dream actually said that: "He didn't know she (Amanda) was a fan but a smaller content creator. He uses Snapchat for everything and he thought she was 18. Which doesn't matter cause nothing sex related happened"

So basically Dream talked with someone younger than him of just some years and now ALL OF YOU DRANTI (Dream Anti) are going around saying that he is a g**mer, NOT because he could be one... ... but because you all are obsessed with having a justification to hate Dream and make him the local boogieman, that you are okay with twisting the reality of things, spreading lies and misinformation, and labeling every person out there as a horrible person for doing absolutely nothing wrong.

You by doing all of this are putting other people in danger, not just Dream and his family and friends, but everyone!!!!

I repeat myself...

Using a word and taking away its true meaning as a weapon to use to justify your hate against someone is what the Fasci/Nazi always did, and that is doing these days against minority communities such as the LGBT+ or even the Black community.

.......

I really hope one day all of you will grow up and see and understand what you did to yourself and to others. I hope you will open your eyes and see what you did wrong, and decied to say "stop I don't wanna be like this anymore".

I hope this post will help someone, not only fans, to understand better the situation.

If there are things you don't understand or that are grammarly incorrect, I'm sorry but English is not my first language.

See you later I guess.

..........

P.S: I said before and I will say it again, if you by any chance see this post and think that an adult or young adult shouldn't have any friendly relationship with people younger than them (minors or not), then please stay away from me and my blogs, block me if you must, I don't wanna have anything to do with people like you 😠😠😠🖕🖕🖕

[toomanystoriessolittletime]

✨ twenty questions for fic writers ✨

Thank you for tagging me @whatsnewalycat 💞

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

219

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

655,428

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently (almost) every character of Pedro Pascal. But I used to write for Loki, all of Keanu Reeves Characters, all of Henry Cavill's characters, Daredevil, The Punisher, The Batman, Sandman, House of the dragon....

4. Top five fics by kudos

Patience (Bruce Wayne)

Equals (Din Djarin)

His Favorit (Daemon Targaryen)

The safest place in the world (Daemon Targaryen)

My Girl (Din Djarin)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes. Even more so since I can answer comments on Tumblr from this account instead of my main account.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Unfaithful (though I can not remember a really angsty ending tbh)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think "Time"

8. Do you get hate on fics?

occasionally

9. Do you write smut?

Yupppp

10. Craziest crossover?

The Punisher x The last of us?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I had some requests to translate them but I don't feel comfortable with it

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Back in the day (like.... 84 years ago) I started out only co writing with a friend of mine I have no contact with anymore for the Vampire Diaries. But the closest I came to co writing anything in the last years was Dieter and his therapist. with @chaoticgeminate 💞 Though I would love to work on a Christmas fic with someone. Anyone. TEXT ME

14. All time favorite ship?

Joel Miller x sleep 💜

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Right now I wanna say every single one of my WiPs though the one I most likely will never finish is Nirvana.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Good question. I like to think my dialogues are good. Otherwise no clue

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

freaking out about random English words. freaking out about where all the limbs go while writing smut. writing smut. writingggggg

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I'm German so all my dialogue is another language. LOL

19. First fandom you wrote in?

The Vampire Diaries or Supernatural. I am not sure anymore LOL

20. Favorite fic you've written?

One blink

No pressure tags: @the-scandalorian @undercoverpena @lavendertales @whiskeynwriting @gasolinerainbowpuddles @littlemisspascal @psychedelic-ink

[olivieraa]

actually, y'know, idek when was the last time I talked about ygo abridged

like if I happen to be on tumblr when an ep comes out I'm like *O* and I'll post about it cause to me tumblr was always a "get your feelings out in the moment" site so in those moments I'm like aaaah new ep!

but never like talk talked about it, last time would be over 10 years ago defo

honestly? its special to me. Ive a great memory but I defo struggle with this not knowing the order, so it was either a) I decided to finally watch AN ANIME for the first time ever and put on inuyasha, THEN got curious about returning to yugioh and discovered season 0 and THEN watched the abridged or b) I randomly remembered I'd never seen the end of ygo and so looked up amvs of it on youtube thus discovering ygo season 0 came first and then found the abridged through that and THEN realised I wanted to welcome anime into my life and so I started Inuyasha and sooooo on down I went, the anime road from then on

so, ygo abridged is at the beginning of that journey

at that time in my life, I was heavily struggling with ocd. and I was ditching school a lot. if I wasn't hiding in the town library for 6 hours, I was at a friends who decided to ditch with me. I had my two reliables. and we always watched the abridged together. quoted it non-stop. eventually I was dating a lad for a month, and when we broke up (he had the same friends as me), HE started quoting the abridged with them as well cause they showed it to him. made me MAD! lmao

it was also something I watched every time we went on a ride to look at houses during the recession in 2009-2010. those long drives. abridged kept me and my brother sane lol

and then cut to being online with online friends, and tumblr, we all shared the abridged love with each other.

it was just unfortunate the episodes were rarer at that point but definitely... more frequent than they are now. they were coming out prob around 4.... times a year. maybe? whereas they used to be weekly. so that was a big change.

and now they're once a year. you're lucky if there's 2.

but here's the thing.

yeah its a parody. but idk... the fact that you can just pick up where you left off every time and not be a confused mess makes me happy. the fact that the characters are so distinctive and you never forget their personality traits is amazing to me.

I'm just proud of LK bc he could have dropped it a long time ago. I've seen youtube channels have their hype years and then fans disappear CONSTANTLY. video views going from 2.5 mill to maybe 30k. it happens.

but a good chunk of people who have been watching the abridged now for 15 years now or more still get excited when a new once a year ep drops. you just pick it up, have a giggle fest, wipe away a tear and then move on. never sitting there in anticipation for the next cause you know it'll be a while. just... happy to go on youtube and see one randomly there on a random day when you're not looking for it.

it fills me with joy.

my ONLY con here is that, bruh, season 5 to me is the best ygo arc. I been wanting to see that shit abridged for soooooooooo fucking long. there's so many scenes that I wanna know what he does with. I want to see Bakura without Marik, cause LK's flaw with Bakura was that he knew how to write Marik on his own but not Bakura on his own. so I wanna see that more. I wanna see what he does with Set and Kisara, what direction he goes. I love Joey's ghost moments in the main show so I I'm hyped for that.

the sad thing about it is being hyped for something I prob wont see till.......................... 2028? 2030?

probably.

but I'll still be watching. if he makes it that far anyway <3

[xcalibxr]

SHIPPING INFO //ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSES SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.

WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)?  

Hello there! As far as I have seen, there's not a bunch of extremely popular ships out there for Drake which means there's so much potential for ships, but my OTPs for Drake are SmoDrake, LawDrake, ZoroDrake, and Drake with @akagamiko's Shanks (I LOVE DRANKS OK!!!!!! NEVER WOULDA THUNK BUT HERE WE ARE!!!) There's also a lot of ships I've never explored, so there may be a new OTP on the horizon!!

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?  

Okay, SO! If you're character is 18-19 and wants to ship with Drake who is 33, it's just not gonna happen. I'm sorry. That's a 15 year age gap, BUT that only bothers me if the character is 18 or 19 years old. 2 years ago they'd be 16-17 and Drake, 31. NO. Please. Just no. Once you hit 20, DO AS YOU PLEASE, but please don't throw your 18 or 19 year old over here and expect Drake to be wooed. I will block you without hesitation.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?  

Once the clothes are off, I'm tagging it NOT SAFE FOR DINOS (nsfd as you may see in the future) !!! Touching, kissing, straight up making out feels pretty suggestive to me and I'll put like a suggestive tag on it, but that's pretty safe for dinos!!!

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?  

I enjoy the build up and everything that happens after. The slowburn is excellent. The yearning. Lingering glances--or touches--secretly when the person is distracted or SLEEPING OR faking it off as swatting a fly or getting something out of their hair---all of THAT.

WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH? 

Other characters who I think would be interesting to pair with Drake would be Killer, Kid, Katakuri, King--damn, that's alotta K's--Hina, O-Kiku (VERY RECENTLY DISCOVERED THIS might work), ROBIN, Nami (ginger couple), IKKAKU (learning of Fossil Fuels through RP). I can also try OCs--I used to write several tbh, and Drake has had a lovely relationship with @bucketfullofocs Aya before I was lured away to Pokemon Fandom and gave Drake a break cause we didn't see him for a long time. I've even dabbed a pinky into Drake and Corazon (a Still Lived Corazon AU I think) and the possibility was surprisingly nice. I guess I'm just a sucker for people bigger than Drake and much smaller than Drake PFFFFF.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU? 

I have no problems with people asking if they can ship with me, but once that happens, lets have a few interactions and see how they mesh! If I've chatted with you and I like you, I think it'd be a bit easier to do.

However if we've never interacted before and you wanna ship, we DEFINETELY have to see how our characters will mesh with each other.

ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?

I LOVE writing my OTPs because it makes me happy and I enjoy shipping AND considering Drake's backstory, he just honestly feels INCREDIBLY LUCKY that someone actually wants HIM like, this mans hit the jackpot!!!, but I wouldn't say I'm ship-obsessed.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM? 

LawDrake held the top spot then SmoDrake came for my neck, but now since I've seen this incredible artist draw ZoroDrake/DreZo/ZoDre on TWITTER, I have written at least 10 fanworks and it is KING. Seeing them interact on WANO WAS SO. GOOD. DAMNIT. They were just fighting / arguing tho HAHAHAA. Two himbos together is amazing, ok?

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?  

Memes or just send something into my inbox! Just get the ball rolling. Ask about it after some interacts! That's all ya need!

tagging: i dont remember who i grabbed this from BUT DO IT!! perhaps @videcoeur ?

[linabirb]

Lina I need to know more about your mahou shoujo story 👀👀

hi hi aurora!! warning 15 y/o lina's writing ahead

honestly i don't.. remember that story that well? it definitely was very important to me, but i cared about character designs and the mahou shoujo theme more than the actual plot jndksls

so from what i remember, that story didn't just have mahou shoujo elements and mental health theme. so like, you know how magical girls often have some kind of aesthetic they stick to? like animals, space, etc.. SO MY OCS HAD A CHEERLEADER THEME. THIS WAS MOSTLY AN EXCUSE FOR ME TO DRAW THEM IN CUTE CHEERLEADER UNIFORMS. but also it was important to the plot, because the whole story was supposed to be about some kind of game that the male characters were going to play and the girls were supposed to be here to support them or something like that.. i literally don't remember anything about the guys. i found them very boring and while i was able to draw references for all the giirls, with them i was like ". their outfits are so boring i don't wanna draw them" (younger me put her everything into female character designs and when it came to guys she was like "eh. you look fine i guess")

the only guy i remember (not counting the. the main guy) was basically just asahi but a redhead. i do not know why i already was so obsessed with all my original stories having a male character whose whole thing was that he's rich, spoiled and angry all the time, maybe that says smth about me.

the protag was a girl and here's the thing: her team was supposed to have five members, including herself. i remember every single member's mental illness/disorder BUT I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT HER. i remember that other members had anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder and i think adhd? but i don't remember anything about the protag.. all i remember is that she was very silly and goofy and had some memory issues (ironic.)

about the main guy. he was like, kinda supposed to be her love interest (but i also made sure to give her more chemistry with all the other girls instead of him.) BUT. THERE WASN'T JUST ONE MAIN GUY. THERE WERE TWO OF THEM. and the only difference between them was their hair color and that one of them wore glasses. yeah. but also the other main guy was from an enemy team and he was kinda weird and basically was protag's stalker.

the main twist was that the whole thing took place in a virtual reality THAT WAS ACTUALLY VERY IMPORTANT BC IT WASN'T INTRODUCED ONLY IN THIS STORY, IT CONNECTED LIKE AT LEAST FIVE OF MY OC STORIES. AND THERE WAS THIS WHOLE LORE, I EVEN REMEMBER DRAWING A TIMELINE OF EVERYTHING. but anyway her love interest was actually already an adult in real life and he created this virtual reality because the main girl's irl counterpart had committed suicide right in front of him many years ago and he wanted to create a world where she could feel like the main character and could feel loved and appreciated by everyone. i do not remember why his other version (the stalker one) was there too. probably bc the dude had a really bad self-esteem and wanted to make himself the villain?? but he also made himself her love interest. sounds kinda problematic now that i think about it but also i was 15 trust me some of my writing was. a lot worse

but anyway in the end the irl counterpart of the main guy dies while trying to protect his invention from that criminal organization leader from that earlier post of mine (he doesn't succeed btw and that world will be used for some very bad things later). the girl doesn't know about it and continues living there not knowing her world is going to change and not in a good way. the end

[bunni-bun]

15 Questions, 15 People

tagged by the lovely sweetheart @mygwenchan 💖

1) Are you named after anyone?

not my first name but my middle name is after my grandmother!

2) When was the last time you cried?

yesterday because i'm rewatching Kiseki: Dear To Me and the last half of the show makes me bawl my eyes out.

3) Do you have kids?

nope and i'd rather not have any, i'm good lmao

4) What sports do you play/have you played?

i count it as a sport but i did marching for 2 years in high school and a year in college. shit's tougher than people give it credit for and i'm always gonna remember our director telling us that we trained harder than our football team (true lmaoooo)

5) Do you use sarcasm?

now why would you think that? 🤔

6) What's the first thing you notice about people?

eyes! i love people's eyes a lot. that and height because most people are either taller than me or are my friends, who are significantly shorter than me when i think about it.

7) What's your eye color?

[kpop voice] brown eyed girl

8) Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings because i'm not a huge fan of scary movies or horror in general and i'm a sucker for a good ending. people deserve joy.

9) Any talents?

i used to play the flute but for now, i can sew, i make jewelry and flower crowns occasionally, and i can sit really weird because my legs are the longest part of my body.

10) Where were you born?

i'm from upstate NY! unfortunately, i am bound to the confines of Florida and we all know how i feel about that (i hate it here)

11) What are your hobbies?

now i can include watching BL (lmaoooo) but for the most part, i like to read, sew, make jewelry, bullet journal, and sing! also write, on those rare occasions now.

12) Do you have any pets?

i used to have two dogs but one crossed the rainbow bridge from old age a few years ago and the other one ran away and has never been found. i miss my dogs a lot. i'd love to have one again.

13) How tall are you?

i'm 5'3"! so average, by most standards

14) What was your favorite subject in school?

english! it was my best subject always and in college, i adored all of my writing classes. it was a joy to write and a joy to read anything in class!

15) What is your dream job?

i do Not dream of labor but if i had to, i'd want to be a travel writer like those people who write about the places they get to vacation to. i'd get to do the two things i love: traveling and writing. that or like a mattress tester, lmao. i just wanna be paid to take a nap.

i can't think of 15 people but here's some homies: @whileyoureinschoolidothisallday @chalkrevelations @ellieellieoxenfree @kailmursilis @vegussy @therealblessedaffliction @eroshiyda @river-muse @skullswithsunflowers @technicallyverycowboy and anyone who wants to join in the fun 💖

[lovelyraven24]

This is my first time writing fanfiction😊 hope you guys like it!

SAMCRO’s Princess

The radio was blaring as I rounded the curb heading straight into Charming. I never would have thought I’d be back here as I let out a deep breath and pulled into the Teller-Morrow parking lot. I shifted my 1970 Chevelle into park, climbed out and started walking towards the clubhouse. It felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest as I walked through the doors. It had been so long since I was here. I stopped walking when I noticed Jax, he had changed since the last time I saw him. He froze the moment his eyes landed on me.

“Shiloh,” Jax said softly as he walked towards me and pulled me into a tight hug. I smiled as I hugged him back.

“It’s good to see you, Sis,” Jax said as he pulled away from the hug.

“It's good to be home,” I told him as I wiped away my tears.

“Come on, let's go inside, everyone is gonna be happy to see you,” Jax said as I followed him into the clubhouse. Everything was just like I remembered it, not much had changed. Opie was the first to come over, he pulled me into a giant hug as he picked me up off the floor a bit.

“SAMCROW’s Princess has returned,” Opie said as he put me back down.

“It’s good to see you, Ope,” I told him.

“What is going on out here?” I heard Clay say annoyed. He smiled big when he saw me.

“Hi,” I told him as he yanked me into a hug and kissed the top of my head.

“I can't believe it.. We thought you were never coming back” Clay said softly.

“I’m so sorry I left..” I told Clay as he shook his head.

“ You have nothing to be sorry about sweetheart,” Clay said, I was about to speak when I noticed Tig. He looked the same. He walked towards me and stopped right in front of me. “ Shy” Tig said softly as his hand came up to brush the hair away from my eyes. I broke instantly the moment he said my nickname, the nickname only he ever called me. I wrapped my arms around him as he held me close.

“I’m home Tiggy” I said as he pulled away. Tig smiled down at me.

“It’s so good to see you again,” Tig told me.

“It’s good to see you too,” I told him as his thumb came up and wiped away my tears. I’ve always had a soft spot for Tig, he was always there for me when I needed him. I still remember all those times we used to sit on top of the roof of the clubhouse and just talk for hours. I knew it shattered his world when I left.

“I have so many questions, doll,” Tig said as I stared at him for a few moments.

“I wanna tell you everything but just not right now. I’ll tell you in due time” I told him as he nodded. I turned around just in time to see Mom come through the doors.

“My sweet girl,” Mom said as she held my face in her hands.

“You have no idea how much I've missed you,” She said softly.

“I've missed you too mama,” I told her as she led me to the couch and we both sat down.

“Where have you been all these years?” My mother asked me.

“Florida mostly,” I told her, we talked for a little bit before she had to go by the hospital to check on Abel. I had no idea, Jax became a father. I had missed so much since I was away. I regretted leaving all those years ago.

I was sitting outside at the picnic table watching people come and go. I started to reminisce and it took me back.

~Flashback~

Shiloh age 15

Tig age 35

The stars were so bright as I lay and watched the sky above me as I lay on the roof of the clubhouse.

“Shy! Are you up there?” I heard Tig yell from below. I didn't answer as I continued to watch the stars. I heard him climb up.

“What's on your mind doll?” Tig asked as he sat beside me. I looked over at him as I let out a deep sigh.

“Just thinking and watching the stars,” I told him.

“Thinking is dangerous you know,” Tig said as he looked up at the stars as well.

“Do you think my dad suffered when he died?” I asked him softly. Tig looked at me for a moment before he finally answered.

“No doll, he didn't suffer,” Tig told me. I started to cry, Tig pulled me into his arms as he kissed my forehead.

“It's gonna be okay. I’m here for you always” Tig said as he looked up at the stars.

~End Of Flashback~

[armenelols]

I got tagged in this by @eowyntheavenger, thanks! ❤️ I started answering this two weeks ago and then forgot that it's still in my drafts but oh well, here we go :D

1. Are you named after anyone?

Nope

2. When was the last time you cried?

Honestly, I can't remember. Two day ago? Two weeks ago? Two months ago? Two years ago? *shrughs* who knows, certainly not me.

3. Do you have kids?

Nope

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Depending on who I am speaking with, with some people rarely, with some people in every sentence.

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Vibe. I have no eye for details I am literally capable of forgetting hair style or hair colour unless I've met the person at least twice.

6. What's you eye colour?

Hazel

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings my beloved

8. Any special talents?

I have a particular talent for speaking in a way that makes people not understand me. At all. I constantly have to repeat what I said because I just. Skip letters in words by accident and I just sound weird. Woe to all who have to suffer me speaking. Is this a special talent? Not really, but for sure a special annoyance for everyone involved (including me)

9. Where were you born?

Slovakia, still here

10. What are your hobbies?

Reading, listening to music, playing guitar. Also writing but I am incapable with sticking with something after like. 200 words. Help.

11. Any pets?

A turtle, her name is Žofka. I am not gonna explain how to pronounce ž.

12. What sports do you play/have played?

None. I am terrible at sports. You don't want me near sports. I enjoy skiing tho. If that counts.

13. How tall are you?

Uhh... I don't precisely know? Somewhere around 1,59 m and 1,60 m I think, which is around 5'2 or 5'3 if I remember correctly. Short, in conclusion.

14. Favourite subject in school?

In general - History. From the ones I currently have - Pharmacology, although that's less because of the subject and more because of the way it's taught.

15. Dream job?

I think I would enjoy being a teacher a lot, but what I am actually studying for and trying to achieve is pharmacy. It's terrible I hate it it's a lot it's making me wanna throw something out of the window I will kill someone by accident one day. I am too invested to give up now. I am stuck here.

Tagging @theelfmaiden, @tilions, @tarninausta and @yellow-faerie

[egg-emperor]

So, some of the people that judged you badly actually posted some form of similar Eggman content. Sounds like they only want to have the right about it I don't know how to explain this. Like it"s ok for them because they may see theirself as righteous or morally good I don't know so if it's from them it's ok no worries it's all love and peace but if it's from you or someone else it's not because you and others wrote something they don't like and that makes you the 'bad' guys and since they are the good ones they have to stop you regardless of the methods used because hey, they are the good ones they can't be wrong even if they truly did fcked up stuff to you right? Seriously, what the hell?

That sh"t is scary and you're actually right for calling out their behaviour, especially for all the things they did to you and spreading false things so others sided with them, making things worse than what they already were.

Who started that I don't know but no wonder they are full bullies and more.

Yeah it's just hypocrisy. Because while failing to tag something correctly is an issue like I have but always make sure to fix, some act like all my darker creations are wrong for me to make at all, despite having themes just as dark in their works.

I'll respect privacy but a few years ago there was an AU focused Sonic imprisoned in Forces and the tortuous abuse from Eggman. I was interested as someone who explores the concept too. But people tried to call this out and accuse the creators of all kinds of horrible things, just like what happened to me.

One main contributor is with the group that take issue with me and blocked me because of my take on Eggdad and possibly my staregg/eggline concept too. The other person I mentioned who is also involved with them, also blocked me after I interacted with their post where Metal bloodied up Sonic, which is ironic.

And another person in the circle drew "problematic content" years ago that I won't detail but some tried to bring it back and make accusations too. Like me, they even said they didn't like when people caused drama behind their back but proceeded to do the same as they contributed to the spread of the worst accusations I've gotten.

In both times people in that circle were called out, I defended their right to create/how it doesn't represent them as a person. They're not obligated to defend me but all I wanna know is if they can depict an actual 15 year old being abused or attacked with gore, why am I a bad guy for writing ageless AI Sage being manipulated by Eggman and a darker staregg/eggline concept?

The more I reflect on how hypocritical it is, the better I feel. Because I feel like some may only be taking issue with what I create as a reason to hate on me for other things about me that they don't like, or they're just against me because others say they should be and they want to avoid drama like before happening to them again.

A lot of them also seem to express moral righteousness too, so it's confusing and a bit concerning that they're okay with some things but not with others, and punish the others even if what they're okay with can be on the same level as or even worse. I just wish they hadn't fallen into this purity and call out culture and reflect on how we've actually been in the same boat.

And it's very sad for me not just for the horrible things I've been accused of but also because of how I looked up to these creators. Now I can't look at certain art on my blog I reblogged or the IDW cover without sadness and anxiety remembering what they did that hurt me.

But at least now I know to just stay in my little corner doing my own thing because these fandom cliques aren't worth the time when stuff like this happens lol