#not me posting this 5 mins before midnight

[blended-ice]

@viktuuri-week 2024 - Rivals

The tension… 👀

[scrunckled-idiot]

(chat please it took me so long to figure this out)

So uhhg ughm uh-

I got the idea of A survival tf2 horror game based off this post by @the-sound-of-progress (bbg please you haven’t posed in 8 months ☹)

Like my brain is fucked so I like um i- ghuh just hear my idea out please chat-

So the premise of the game is to steal a randomised amount of randomised weapons (min 10 to 15) scattered around the battlefield in 25 or something minuets while giant medic stalks around. Like the game description would be something like:

“what was going to be just a quick and easy heist of stealing some valuable weapons from that freaky base near your town, turns into a deadly game of cat and mouse. as the bases medic has found an interesting way to defend the base at night. Stay out of sight and evade his clutches as you navigate the abandoned battlefield, collect all weapons, and escape back to your vehicle.”

Or something. Like I kept thinking of game mechanics, unique death animations, and achievements for it to. Damn fucking autism. Like firstly how medic would function based on the images.

Medics mechanics and how to counter them:

medic is giant, which means he’ll be slow, right? Makes sense so you could probably outrun him… as long as your sprint meter doesn’t run out. (refillable with MRE packs). In that case, try and take cover in the nearest building.

You’re still not safe yet if you hide in a building. Either medic will wait until you come out (random chance that he will or not), which you can tell he is or not by listening for his breathing or watching for his shadow. Or he’ll try to reach his hand inside and grab you, counter this by pressing against the wall next to the opening.

If you’re atop of a building, he will try to swipe at you or use his bone saw to slash over the roof. Just go further to the middle of the roof to avoid them or just duck.

If he does manage to grab you, time will slow down and you will have a 5 second window to mash the jump button to “wiggle free” or something.

you can bait him to go somewhere else by using walkie talkies. can only use this trick a minimum amount of times before he learns ts a trick.

tid-bits:

At the end of the game it will tell you the total cost of the weapons you stole was, how long it took you, how many MRE packs you ate, and other cool stuff perhaps.

He will hide behind corners of buildings and jump out at you. No counter to this, just a cool jumpscare while he laughs like a fucking madman.

Some Cool and unique death scenes when you’re caught. depending on range:

Long range: shooting a big-ass needle at you from his crossbow, throwing a boulder at you.

Close range: stomped to death, crushed to death, eaten, getting picked up and thunder-cunted into the stratosphere like a baseball, sliced by his bone saw, getting carried away in a comically sized jar.

Player will restart in the spawn rooms or back at the gate if they die.

You’ll know he’s near when the ground starts quaking.

ending cutscene will either have you successfully drive away after stealing the required amount of weapons, or have medic stomp your car while you try to escape if you don't steal the required amounts of weapons. or a secret ending where he follows you home and kills you since you've seen too much (canon ending). not sure what triggers the endings yet.

THERE IS A TIME LIMIT SO YOU CANT CAMP IT OUT PUSSY!!!

Achievements (shitty names tbh someone come up with something better ong):

An apple a day, keeps the doctor away- don’t die once during the whole run

monk diet- don’t eat a single MRE pack during the whole run.

Wiggly woo- escape medics grasp every time you’re caught.

by the skin of your teeth- escape with the good ending.

midnight snack- get the bad ending

you didn't see anything- get the secret ending

Uhhhh… some other ones I cant think of yet. sorry :(

I wanted to do voice lines as well but I couldn’t do it, felt cringe. He’d mostly just use voice lines from the game anyway. Typical laughter and taunts. And Probably some cool things that im not creative enough to think about. Maybe deaths will also have a zestier variant just to awaken something in someone. But ye, just something I came up with within the span of a day. Now wanting this to be real and not fiction :( maybe some kids doing game design in my collage will bring my idea to life? Idk man no promises.

Thank you for listening to me autistically ramble about my tf2 g/t horror game pitch. that is all.

Well, off to hang myself! Watch and lear-

*gak*

[kanmom51]

Hi. I know you've talked a lot about the jikook number theory, and I MAY have found something? Emphasis on the MAY because I was bored and my delulu mind became active for a little while(sorry, not sorry🙇‍♀️).

Anyway, I stumbled onto a k-army's post on twt, according to which, one of the posts made by JM on June 15th at 23:23 about waiting for 2 more hours, meaning the 16th, means it would be 1108 since still with you was released(5th June,2023).

Now, as I said I was bored and it was past midnight here so I checked and it wasn't 1108 days since SWY. 1108 days from that date would me 18th of June, 2023, the day JK posted two selcas on weverse.

But I did find a couple of coincidences and I maybe totally out of my mind, but hear me out for a sec!

1. JM's post on the 15th was at 23:23 KST. It contained something about waiting for just 2 more hours. Which would mean 1:23 KST. (Reference to the infamous 123 jikook theory)

2. JK's selcas on the 18th of June marks 1108 days since still with you and it was posted at 11:39 KST. The numbers are a combination of various things. 11, their speculated anniversary month, 13 JM's birthday and both of their fav number and even JK's birthday can be found.

Was I so bored that I just overanalysed it? Was it all just a coincidence?

I'd honestly love to know your thoughts as well!

Ok, @beardedcolorduck so let's see where we are with this.

JK's Weverse post was posted 18 June 2023 11:39 am KST or 17 June 2023 7:39 pm or 19:39 LA time.

Still with you was released on 4 June 2020 or on June 5 2020.

See, there is a question mark regarding the date of release, or more like difference I am assuming that arises from the difference in time zones.

In any case I can't explain this:

When I share this link the date that shows is 4 June 2020.

When I go into the link the date that shows is 5 June 2020.

I can't explain it, maybe you guys know why (seeing that both of them are me writing from the same IP address in Australia).

Anyway, I digress.

If we count the days from 4 June 2020 to 17 June 2023 or from 5 June 2020 to 18 June 2023 (see, I'm assuming that the differences are due to the time zones) we get this:

Huh.

It works.

Interesting indeed.

Another coincidence do you think?

So yeah, not JM's post, but JK's post the one landing 1108 days after Still with you.

As for the numbers working otherwise, let's see what we can get.

If we look at the date alone as 17.6.23 we get 1+7=8 and 6+2+3=11

8/11

7:39 gives us 7+3+9=19

1/9

The next one is a bit far fetched I think, but then, again, I'm not taking this all too seriously (just to clarify - there are numbers that I do, this specific calculation I don't).

With the 19:39 we ate the 1+9=10 and we have the 3+9=12 bring that down to a one digit which will be 1+3=3

10+3=13

13

Now to your first insight.

JM's 23:23 post telling us to wait another 2 hours. I have to tell you that on the day that one puzzled me. I thought maybe something was coming, an announcement maybe. And when that didn't come I was baffled as to what was JM telling us. Was he waiting a couple of hours for JK to wake up? But then why mention it? JM is very precise as to what he mentions. Super calculated. There is always meaning behind it, even if we don't understand what that meaning is.

His 23:23 comment: Let's hold on for 2 hours. Just 2 hours.

Very specific, and repeating the 2 hours.

What you are suggesting is very interesting, you know?

23:23 plus 2 hours will bring us to 01:23, which is definitely giving us the 123.

The whole thing with the 123 theory is that we think we know where it originated (might have meant something to them way before but that's the first time it's mentioned) - Festa 2014 JM's profile Just one day MV at 1:23 min. represents him best. JK was by his side while filling out that profile. Since then we have had song recommendations ending at 1:23 min., posts timed at 12:30 or 1:23 am, posts on January 23rd etc. We know there is very possibly something going on with that sequence of numbers, but what it is exactly or more so, what it means to them exactly, we don't know.

Anyway, 123 is a very interesting result, and I definitley wouldn't put it past JM that this is what he was aiming for.

Another path with the numbers is:

1:23 16.6

We have the 1 from the time.

If we take the 2+3+1+6+6=18

1+8=9

You end up with:

1/9

Or the simpler path:

1:23 is just that: 123

And the date: 16.6 which easily is 1+6+6=13

123 and 13

I'm sure there is something I'm missing. Him repeating the 2 hours twice kind of makes me think maybe he was aiming for 3:23 am, but I can't seem to get the math mathing. Or maybe it is? Not sure how legitimate this one is with Karmy, but I'll put it out there anyway:

3:23 16.6.2023

6+2+3=11

1+6+2+2+3+3=17

1+7=8

11/8

Like I said, no idea if this is legitimate mathing, but it's fun and the numbers work.

End of the day, I have zero idea what JM was aiming for. All I am sure of is that he doesn't waste words with his posts, and he was clearly hinting to something.

[riaaanna]

Some PSA and vent about the Sotheby's auction and it's technicalities... longgg post.

(This post is written with about 3 hours to the online Sotheby's auction.)

1) Item/catalogue availability.

If you're aware there are 3 live in-person auctions and 3 online auctions. Online auctions start today (11 Aug) at noon BST so in just about 3 hours ish. They are the "In Love with Japan", "Crazy Little Thing 1", and "Crazy Little Thing 2".

Now, someone on FB last week asked the Sotheby's staff whether the items that are sold in online auction will still be available on the exhibition, which runs 4 Aug - 5 Sept. The staff said that items in the online auction will be removed as soon as they're sold online. So to get to see everything irl, you'll have to be there before the online auctions (which is 11 Aug instead of 4 Aug which I think was the initial date? Iirc anyway).

(I booked a ticket to London for the 11th thanks to this so typing all this rant from the train 💀)

However, someone else asked another staff the same question, and they said everything will be available until 5 Sept regardless. I asked a staff myself yesterday and they gave me that same answer.

It made more sense actually. Removing and rearranging the exhibition every time something sells online is impractical. Besides, I'm not sure how the online auction goes: eBay style (known time limit to bid) or a live but virtual style (because the website does say lots will close at 1 minute intervals).

Afterwards, someone on the forum said that they asked the staff about the online catalogue availability. They said the catalogue will be removed after the sale due to copyright laws.

Thennn I thought. What if what's going to happen is that the online catalogue is going to be removed after each object is sold - starting from the ones in the online auctions? That makes so much more sense and is much more plausible.

All of this occured to me at half midnight. My train to London is at 07:30 AM. Cue waking up at 5 AM desperately mass downloading the HQs from the three online auctions before I catch my train because the sale will start at noon. 💀

So if you're scrolling through this on this lovely, tropical Friday morning, and you have an interest in saving HQs yourself - do it nowww. Honestly I might be wrong in interpreting all this but I'd rather be stupidly wrong than losing the online catalogue this early.

I managed to save all the pictures clothes, shoes, accessories in like 40 mins and I hope I didn't miss any. I cba with them discs, the pdfs should be enough. And speaking of pdf...

2) The book is not the catalogue.

To my observation this is somewhat common knowledge so far but in case it isn't - the £50 Sotheby's book is not equal to the whole catalogue. It's a beautiful book with lovely descriptions and images of higlighted items, you can watch a flip-through here. But it doesn't have every single thing on the website on there.

So if you want a nice gift for yourself then yes it's worth buying (maybe). If you're just archiving, getting it off the website I think is enough. But I'll give it a look myself when I get there and see what it's worth.

You can save the catalogue in PDF by clicking the print button on the website (not ctrl+P). Select all lots and tick all the boxes especially "alternate images". When the print window opens select the A5 paper size. I find that one works best without cropping any of the images. But these are not HQ images by any means, that one still requires some actual work hhh.

You'll also notice there are gaps in the lot numbers because they're not all out yet. Some of them are already in the Sotheby's book iirc, but as actual lots in the online catalogue, the staff said they'll be coming up over the next few days - presumably when the online auction starts, so they'll always have something up for sale. So if you're a completionist you can check every now and then to save them as they come.

3) The actual auction

That sounds like I'm actually gonna bid but no I just wanna be there to boo the bidders...

Jokes aside, I asked and they will be streaming the auction on Sotheby's website, but you need to sign up for an account first (it's free).

But also I am planning to actually go but as a non-bidder and if anyone wants to come with and hold me back from rioting in there hmu so we can get tickets together 🙏

That was so long and for you experienced ones all of these info are probably redundant but I just needed to vent because I'm not ready to actually go see these things like what if I break down but also I am in the train I cannot escape please send good vibes ❤!

[foxes-that-run]

18

18 is the only song Ed Sheeran wrote specifically for One Direction, and only one he wrote from their perspective. To me, it refers to I Wish You Would which Taylor wrote about Harry while on the Red Tour with Ed. Like Tenerife Sea, I think it is about Taylor from Harry's perspective. The Spotify vertical video focuses on Harry and Zayn who primarily sing it:

To Smallzy in September, 2014 Ed said, both that his songs are generally about a specific person and he also talked about writing 18 for One Direction:

"I wasn't gonna do it again because there was lots of ..ah.. basically, my record label got very annoyed that my first #1 was a song that I gave to someone else, and they were kind of like "don't do it. I did Britain's got Talent and basically Simon Cowell invited me up to eat and talk. And he mentioned it and in my head I was like 'I just just want to focus on my stuff' and the next day I was in Copenhagen and I got an idea and I kind of went into the shower room that's big and reverbartive and I wrote it thought that sounds like something for them. It's not something I would use for myself. It was written specifically for them and it's cool" Smallzy asks about Taylor he if he had helped with 1989, Ed "that's all her, all throughout of her doing it I heard little bits of it all throughout. Everything she does is a certain quality, it is going to satisfy any fan of hers."

Simon Cowell tells a similar story. Taylor also told Ryan Seacrest and others she played 1989 to Ed while on the Red Tour together.

The '...ah...' it is interesting, because although Ed and Harry stayed close, Ed did not write a song for Midnight Memories. There is a rumour this is about Don't. Ed did write Tenerife Sea, another song from Harry's perspective about Taylor in 2013 - that's on Ed's Multiply. This helps determine which Britain's got talent appearance he was referring to.

Timeline

Ed was on Britain's Got Talent twice, both were live shows, which narrows down when this song was written to 2 days, the day after:

8 June, 2013, Ed and Taylor performed Everything Has Changed together, or

27 May, 2014, Ed performed Sing.

Either is possible, but I am inclined to focus on 2014, because it's on Four and Ed did not write for Midnight Memories, which June would have made. In May 2014:

24 May 2014 Ed and One Direction both performed on the main stage of the Radio 1 Big Weekend in Glasgow. Harry and Taylor were seemingly back together. 2 squad members, Lorde and Lily Allen, also played. Taylor was in New York that morning then disappeared for 6 days, Harry off 3 of those.

25 & 26 May 2014 - ED & Taylor MIA, 1D have a few days off, Harry is seen in London playing a celebrity football game.

27 May 2014 - Ed performs on Britain's Got Talent in London, Taylor and Harry MIA.

28 May 2014 - Ed said he wrote the song in Copenhagen the next day, he wasn't seen. 1D UK show, Taylor still MIA.

5 June 2014 - Ed seen in London, Simon Cowell said he gave him the song a week after Britain's Got Talent.

Live Performances

Ed has never performed 18, he has performed other songs he gave to other artists, it may be that it was never written for him or it could be that others charted higher. One Direction added 18 to the OTRA setlist with No Control on 13 June 2015, replacing One Thing. It hasn't been on any solo 1D concert setlists. (It's at 33 mins here)

Since we were 16 honey

Harry once said “I have love you since we were 16 honey” after the chorus. Noting the song was only performed June - December 2015 I think Harry is taking the piss of Louis and Larries. 1D met industry people in LA before he turned 17 and Taylor was in town there, and there were times in late 2015 Harry and Taylor were in the UK and seemingly in contact with Colour IG posts and Haylor surprise songs from Taylor, so while Harry did potentially know Taylor at 16 I think this line is trolling .

Lyrics

I got a heart, and I got a soul Believe me, I will use them both We made a start Be it a false one, I know Baby, I don't want to feel alone

The opening verse is about a relationship that ended (false start) and not wanting to feel alone. To me, this is referring to the events of 2012/2013 and that relationship ending, Ed, being good friends with Harry while on tour with Taylor, hearing 1989 as it was written would have been keenly aware. He wrote Tenerife Sea in that time.

This verse, like the song to me sounds like it is written for Harry's voice. The verse is describing someone close to the narrator that ended. Later, in Olivia Harry sings of being alone "When you go and I'm alone"

So kiss me where I lay down My hands pressed to your cheeks A long way from the playground

The end of this verse 'long way from the playground' tells us this is a love that started when they were young. Taylor uses school and childhood as a metaphor for One Direction and this young love, including in the MV for EHC which Ed co-wrote, and Suburban Legends.

I have loved you since we were 18 Long before we both thought the same thing To be loved and to be in love All I can do is say that these arms Are made for holding you, oh-oh I wanna love like you made me feel When we were 18

The 1D boys all dated people different ages to them, however Harry and Taylor started officially dating when Harry was 18. I think Ed's simplified this to 'we were 18'.

"Long before we both thought the same thing", to me, is referring to I wish you would and the way Taylor described it. IWYW was written 27 May 2013 while on the US Red Tour with Ed who was likely to have heard it then.

The end of the Chorus is telling us this is a relationship that had come back, much like Taylor had written Style a few months earlier.

We took a chance God knows we tried Yet all along, I knew we'd be fine So pour me a drink, oh love And let's split the night wide open And we'll see everything we can Living love in slow motion, motion, motion

This verse is so much like Harry and Taylors later work which makes me think it must be a referring to a conversation or pattern:

Drinking

Delicate: But you can make me a drink

Satellite: We share the last line / Then we drink the wall / 'Til we wanna talk

Fine Line: We'll get the drinks in and I'll get to thinking of her

Time and slow motion

Olivia: And time is irrelevant when I've not been seeing you

Gold Rush: I don’t like slow motion, double vision in rose blush

Midnight Rain: My boy was a montage, a slow motion love potion

“Slut!”: Half asleep, taking your time in the tangerine neon light

So kiss me where I lay down My hands pressed to your cheeks A long way from the playground

Harry's unreleased Lay down also has arms around his muse, without knowing a clear era for Lay Down the inspiration could go either way with those. "Lay down with me (I put my arms around ya)" I am inclined to think Harry referenced Ed.

[burikumu]

Things I did when I was studying for the boards:

Removed distractions. My phone has a mode where I can choose which apps to use for the time being without uninstalling all of them.

Isolated myself. I went to places where no one can order me around. I also concentrate more if it's a bit quiet. So, if not in my room, I went to the school library (I don't want to waste money on cafe foods).

Watched tips on how to study effectively cause I was apparently lacking at that. I tend to day dream whenever I can and nothing retains even if it has been taught before. Pag dating sa mga exams, palagi akong "Ay familiar".

The "schedule"

From the very beginning I actually did NOT wake up very early just to start studying. Before starting though, I freshen up and eat breakfast to have the energy to start.

I set my timer for 4 hours for the 1st subject and started reading (YES, reading. I don't really memorize because my brain just can't???). I DON'T read for 4 hours straight. I take 5-10(max) mins breaks every 20-30 mins of studying. Pomodoro technique is that you 🍅 During those breaks, I stretch, drink some water, or just day dream, sometimes I watch yt shorts but got to have some discipline not to.

Then during the ACTUAL break - lunch and dinner - which is an hour, I don't take a lot of time eating. So, during the free time left, sometimes I do flashcards on quizlet and knowt and organize my study materials. Sometimes I do the blurting method just to recall what I've read so far.

In the schedule, from 7pm - 12 midnight it is allotted for Practice / Summarize. What I do here is flashcards and mind maps by learning in layers (video link on previous post) for summarization. I used the app Concepts: Sketch, Note, Draw because I don't have an ipad, it has a semi-infinite canvas so you can add so much information! For the flashcards, I used knowt because it has spaced repetition, i guess quizlet has it too but you have to pay premium or smthing 👎🏾.

My take

Interleaving actually helped because instead of reading only one subject for days, I have read most of the subjects even if I was not able to finish them all I have covered a lot of the topics.

The mind maps saves a lot of time because it's already a summary of the subjects. If you are a visual learner, I think mind mapping is a good way for you to actually recall because you made it yourself. Like I said, I was not able to finish reading all the subjects, so I also didn't finish mind mapping. I also unfortunately deleted my mind maps ): if only I could share it.

[beazt]

Update, if anyone even sees it: I have spent all day, and I do mean ALL DAY (it is almost midnight now), searching for potential treatment options for me. All the typical sites, all the Google results (pages and pages of Google until no new treatment centers were showing up and everything was repeat listings or tangential results), the sketchiest listing websites of mental health facilities, EVERYWHERE. I contacted everywhere that could even be a LONG SHOT POSSIBILITY, including the treatment center I went to before.

1) The treatment center I went to before no longer offers telehealth for IOP/PHP. As I said in other posts, I cannot drive, and my free transportation I get for appointments has limits. Even if I did get approved transportation, it’s 2.5 hours away, and treatment days last from 8:00ish til 3:30ish, and I very sincerely doubt my ability to physically handle a single day that I leave my house at 5:30am or before and get home at 6:00pm or later, much less 3 days per week. In my current condition.

2) The residential of that treatment center will not admit anyone without a primary eating disorder diagnosis.

3) There is ONE facility I am awaiting to hear back from about insurance, but it doesn’t matter, because I read the reviews for the place on Google and there are hundreds of reviews talking about how they were horrifically abused at this place and did not receive even an ounce of help there. Not even “it was ineffective so it doesn’t count as help” but NO therapeutic help, at ALL, only ABUSE.

4) Every single other place in my state (cannot use my Medicaid out of state) I reached out to either would not admit me period or does not take my Medicaid plan, or both. And there weren’t even a lot of these in any of these 3 categories.

I still have a glimmer of hope that my therapist or psychiatrist will be able to weasel something out that either has no public information available about it (which would be scary, given the nature of other places I read reviews for) or force a deal between a genuine, safe place and my Medicaid provider. Very much a longshot either way.

Otherwise I will be basically on my own (in terms of treatment, I’d get 45 min/week) until it either resolves or I end up in a psych ward. And I read some very alarming articles about the psych wards (themselves and their admission processes) that my Medicaid would cover…

[bylagunabay]

Power of the Miraculous Medal

TESTIMONIALS OF MIRACLES AND HEALINGS

(5-min read)

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑩𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝑽𝒊𝒓𝒈𝒊𝒏 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝑺𝒕. 𝑪𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝑳𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒆: “𝑯𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒖𝒑𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒅𝒆𝒍. 𝑻𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒆𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒆𝒔, 𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒊𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒌. 𝑻𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒅𝒆𝒗𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆, 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒓, 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑴𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒇 𝑮𝒐𝒅. 𝑮𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒅 𝒖𝒑𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒇𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆.”

1 Earlier this year what appears to be a miracle occurred here in Australia. It has been widely reported in the secular and the Catholic media. A three-year-old girl named Claire was accidentally run over by her father’s four tonne family bus. This child should not have survived, but she did. I had the privilege of meeting Claire and her mother and a few of her other siblings, (it is a large family) at a meeting held in the hall at St. Mary’s Cathedral, in Sydney two weeks ago.

At first, I was reluctant to go up and introduce myself, because I realized that this family lives a long distance from the city of Sydney and I thought that perhaps it was a lady who just looked like Claire’s mum, but through seeing pictures of Claire’s mum in magazines, TV and newspapers I concluded that it must be the same person, which happily is the case. Claire’s mum showed me the Miraculous Medal which Claire was wearing at the time of the accident, and which she still wears around her neck. Claire looks great for a person who has gone through such an ordeal. The family credits Our Lady of the Miraculous Medal with Claire’s survival and quick recovery against all the odds.

When I posted this account online a man from Germany recognized for the first time, that his survival in his line of work, which had often brought him into scary life-threatening situations, had to do with the fact that he had been wearing the Miraculous Medal around his neck for the past ten years. He had never understood before how he had not met with death or a serious accident in the dangerous line of work that he is involved in. Our Lady promised St. Catherine Laboure that great graces would be bestowed upon those who wear the Miraculous Medal but especially to those who wear it around their neck.

- Mary Ann @ catholicforum.com

2 On November 9, 1835, Rosalie Ducas from Jauchelette, near Jodoigne (Belgium), suddenly lost her sight. She was only four and a half years old, in perfect health with no signs of illness. Any light or breeze disturbed her to the point of having to cover her face with a cloth folded in four. The pains the child suffered day and night caused everyone much grief.

At this point, a pious person brought a blessed Miraculous Medal. The mother took it and started a novena. She put another medal around the girl’s neck on June 11, 1836 at about 6 o’clock in the evening. By midnight the girl had stopped complaining. On the fourth and fifth day of the novena, her eyes opened. The parents redoubled their supplications to the Most Holy Virgin.

On the ninth day in the afternoon, the girl regained her sight completely to the great surprise of the neighbors and all those who witnessed the event. The parish priest of Jodoigne-la-Soveraine, who had given the medal to the family, went to see the girl who lived only a mile and a half away, and testified that she had recovered her sight completely. No pain whatsoever was left.

- America Needs Fatima

[elftwink]

the kinship between you and the five other classmates who also only submit shit right before the deadline

[citrustan]

lovefool [2/6] (jjk)

pairing: jeon jungkook × reader

genre: angst, fluff (sort of), smut

summary: your boyfriend's pretty girl best friend keeps hogging up your alone time with him.

word count: 2k

warnings: mental illness (ptsd, depression, anxiety), that’s it

note: so, this is a bit underwhelming and I just realised I have written like the worst summary for this story- also I have not edited this bec I’m in a hurry I’m sorrY and let me know if I made any errors and sorry its short BUT I’m planning on posting a little drabble that gives you a background of jk and yuna’s relationship and stuff

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It's hard to ignore feelings of insecurity. Especially when you've always been around people who seemed to effortlessly succeed in whatever they do while you've stayed average. It's the way your parents never showed appreciation or love, barely tried to push you to do better and never actively tried to help you that built your fear of failure. They were absent for most of your life events and you do not have much of a relationship with them. The only thing they gave you that stuck to you is your low self-esteem and PTSD.

Hopefully, you don't ever have to go back to them. Your little time away from them has done you good, with the help of your on-campus psychologist, you're able to fall out of that old routine of self-loathing while you do the bare minimum and adapt to a new life free from dependence on your parents, financially and emotionally.

That's why you feel this time, for you, is a test. All that confidence you had worked so hard to build was slowly deteriorating. Jungkook obviously knew nothing about your past and this relationship is a reminder of it. You didn't feel important enough for him, like an afterthought. You’ve never even considered romantic relationships outside fantasies until you met him. You knew it wasn’t entirely his fault but this was subliminally triggering your depression and PTSD.

Jungkook had called you a few times since last night’s events but you didn't bother getting back to him. If he sent voice messages or texts, you haven't had the energy or even the will really, to look at them.

Last night, you reached home by midnight. Before that, you visited the volunteering centre to pass time. There was always something you could contribute to; this time you helped raise funds for the development of homeless shelters.

You’re ashamed to admit it wasn’t your altruism that made the decision of working late at the centre but your own requirements. Not only would this take your mind off Jungkook and Yuna, but it’d earn you an extra credit or two for college too and you’d feel at least a bit valuable.

Back at Jungkook’s house, he battled with his own thoughts about whether or not he should’ve followed you (he definitely should have). It’s only around 5 a.m. now. Yuna invited herself to a sleepover with him and he couldn’t help but feel mildly disturbed. You were supposed to stay, you had your overnight bag with you and everything.

He lied on his sofa staring at the little glow in the dark plastic stars scattered around on the ceiling. You suggested they make movie nights better because the stars are barely visible in the city with all the pollution. Speaking of movie nights, he doesn’t seem to remember the last time he watched a movie or show of your choice. It’s almost time for him to start showering and packing for his weekend away with his friends.

Yet, he can’t seem to find the will to just get up; it’s not laziness or procrastination. It’s as if he’s forcing himself to go.

Jungkook glances at his phone on the coffee table, you hadn’t even opened his messages.

Suddenly, realising you hadn’t contacted him even once in the past few hours, he snapped out of his daydreaming. Did you even get home safe? That seemed to have woken him up completely.

Communication was not your strongest suit, you found it rather easier to go days without talking to or texting anyone- thanks to your dysfunctional family. Yet, when you realised you were subconsciously trying to distance yourself from the situation, you were adamant to not give in, you needed to be an adult about it- which is why you were currently waiting, at the deserted bus stop, for the first bus to Jungkook’s home street to show up.

You, guilt-ridden, finally check your phone with Jungkook’s numerous unanswered phone calls, text messages and Instagram messages displayed on your notification bar. As soon as the bus arrived, you hop on and send your boyfriend a brief direct message-

_____: hey jk

_____: im sorry i got busy last night

_____: in the bus rn, I’ll be over in 10, im sorry we really need to talk

jeon97: typing…

_____: ik youre probably busy packing up for your weekend getaway but this will barely take 20 mins

jeon97: Don’t say it like that

_____: ?

jeon97: typing…

jeon97: I’m glad you’re okay

jeon97: A simple ‘Im fine jk’ was all I needed, _____.

_____: i got busy

jeon97: I’ll pick you up at the bus stand

_____: okay

The last message remained unopened. You gulped, was it too harsh of you to ignore him? Somewhere, you felt his efforts to contact you just weren’t enough. He should’ve followed you out of his apartment and begged you to stay. He probably wouldn’t even need to beg; he could have demanded you to stay back and you’d agree.

Jungkook left out the part where he had already gotten dressed, fully prepared to sneak into your dormitory, and was currently at the only open bakery near his apartment, it wasn’t your favourite one but it was the only place open at this time of the day, figuring the least he could do after this is bring you a tiramisu or a croissant or two. He winced at how cold he sounded over text. After paying for your food, he rushes to the bus stop.

Dressed in his signature black cargo trousers paired with a bomber jacket, zipped up, with a white shirt underneath, he paced back and forth the seating area.

The bus arrives immediately after his third round and he spots you instantly with your turtleneck sticking out of his oversized sweater.

Jungkook almost lunged at you as soon as you hop off the vehicle, shamelessly wrapping himself around you.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to ignore you…?” You begin but get cut off by your boyfriend, “NO- I deserve it, I mean yeah, it’d have been better if I knew you were, I don’t know, at home? I hate that you’re upset with me and I just want us to be OK again and,” “We’re fine.” You whispered, “But are we really? We can’t not talk about-” “We will.” “Okay, fine.”

He frowns when he notices you refraining from hugging him back and pulls away briefly. Your entire interaction seems forced and awkward.

There’s something adorable about the little, lilac take-away container contrasting his all-black outfit matching the bad boy image.

You felt exhausted from going through all the thoughts and emotions last night and now you would be reliving them all over again if you were going to be honest and talk to him truthfully and uncensored. “You didn’t really have to pick me up, I was going over to your apartment anyway.” “Well, I was actually already up and ready to head over to your place. I even picked up a pineapple pastry and coffee flavoured, supersized macaron for you.” He dangled the box over your head.

Oh?

“Well…” You awkwardly started. Do you thank him for thinking of you? Do you ridicule him and say ‘oh, it’s about time’? You play with the charms on your bracelet, not knowing where to begin. “Can we go home now? Or… are- I don’t know, do you have anything planned? I could help you pack.”

“Actually, I think the flower garden would be open by now? Do you want to go on an impromptu date?”

“I want to talk to you, I don’t want this to count as a date, that’s just- I don’t know, sad? I think I’d rather go back to your place now?” You suggest.

Jungkook doesn’t know why he hesitates to tell you about Yuna staying over. It’s not like it hasn’t happened before, and you know it’s all innocent anyway. “No yeah, that’s okay, let’s go home and talk, babe.” He offers his hand to you and smiles when you lace your fingers together.

You squeeze his hand and it makes him lose his mind a little. Jungkook really likes you.

Your short walk to his apartment was silent, not entirely awkward but somewhat... peaceful. You even stopped midway when Jungkook pointed at a small tuxedo cat sitting on a low wall and played with it as he took pictures of the two of you for his Instagram story.

When you were nearing the rustic elevator gate, you felt him pause several times like he forgot something at the stand. “_____, wait.”

You observed him, tilting your head to the side. “I- So, last night, it was- you know, late. And, you left and Yuna stayed but that was… later. But, she’s still here.” He dumbly stared at you.

Subconsciously, your brows furrowed and Jungkook froze. “She didn’t ask, she just stayed and I did not like tell her to but she just, you know? She stayed. And I slept on the couch.” He looked around at everything but you. Your eyes, however, were fixated on him. Turns out you were rightfully worried. Because your boyfriend cannot keep secrets and if Jungkook hesitates, he’s either lying or maybe he probably figured out how weird it was for a female friend to stay over instead of his girlfriend.

Either way, this was ultimately the kind of situation you had hoped to avoid.

It shouldn't be too big of a deal that the woman you've grown to dislike quite a bit was casually rooming with your boyfriend. Unable to describe your emotions, you decide to let yourself process the new information.

Now, it may seem like an overreaction but this is a woman Jungkook has known for most of his life. Yuna was there when his first kiss happened, hell, she might have even been his first kiss and you can't do anything about it. Yuna was there to bring him soup and nurse him back to health when he fell ill the week before his finals. Yuna has cooked and cleaned for him, she has had Jungkook cook for and clean up after her! She has spent more time with him than you ever will and knows more about him than you do.

This is the woman who had shamelessly joked about your boyfriend's boner in front of you because she can and because she's the best friend. And, you've watched just enough chick flicks to know that the best friend always wins over the insecure, jealous girlfriend. You don't know if you're ready to compete against that.

In your defence, Yuna hasn't been the most welcoming to you either. Even Taehyung had let you into their circle and apparently, he's usually the one who's hard to crack no matter how friendly he may seem. And, you seemed to get along perfectly fine. But, Yuna? The girl introduced you to Jungkook and ever since, she has tried her best to make you uncomfortable. It was all so subtle.

It's hard to be vulnerable and talk about your past no matter how relevant it is to your current circumstance.

You don't want to chase Jungkook away by unloading your two tons of emotional baggage on him.

You don't believe he signed up for that. Maybe you're underestimating Jungkook and misjudging his intentions with you. It's just very uncomfortable. What if he thinks you're too emotional? What if he laughs at your worries?

"Let's just go in, I'll brew you some chamomile tea too," "That's not enough caffeine, it's barely six." You snap.

Jungkook could sense your hesitation and the fact that you ignored the whole Yuna thing didn't settle well in him.

Jungkook pursed his lips together, dragging the elevator door open. It's unbelievably loud, this metal gate. It makes you scrunch your nose and titter. When you're inside the elevator, he leans down and pulls you into a little kiss and you don't object.

You really had no idea what you had walked into. Like, figuratively.

[jungwoniics]

all night long. — OT7

↦ pairing: ot7 / ot7 x reader

↦ synopsis: when you want to pull an all-nighter to revise for your exams

↦ genre: fluff

↦ rating: pg

↦ w/c: 0.7k+

↦ warnings: none

↦ a/n: hellaur ^_^ idt anyone reads the a/n but i apologise for not posting for so long but im back with another headcanon hehe :D dw i'll be updating rumours soon to those who have been waiting ^^ also i have exams coming soon so i will probably be semi ia but i'll be sure to post whenever i can !!

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≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗛𝗘𝗘𝗦𝗘𝗨𝗡𝗚 . ꒱

suddenly calls you while you’re doing your work

“y/n? why are you still awake?” “you called me, though” 🤨🤨

“no but i was expecting you not to answer because that would mean you’re asleep ☹️”

heeseung… ???

“ok point is… you better go to bed within the next 5 mins or i’m going there and tucking you in” 😡😡

heeseung, i would stay up for another 5 mins just so you will come and tuck me in 🤭🤭

no because he’s just worried that you won’t get enough rest before your test tomorrow ☹️🥺

#bestboyfriend #youcouldnever /hj 😆😆

you were already in bed scrolling through your phone when you hear the sound of your window opening 🪟

you quickly drop your phone and closed your eyes, knowing who it was 👁👄👁

you feel his hand caress your hair gently as he kisses your cheek softly

“sweet dreams, baby” ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗝𝗔𝗬 . ꒱

he knew you were going to stay up studying even before you told him #jaysspecialability

comes knocking on your window at 11PM with a box of goodies in his hands 😋😋

“what are you doing here?” you feel guilty that your bf is still up just to accompany you ☹️🥺

“i’m making sure you don’t tire yourself out just before the exam, duh 🤨”

his eyebrow raise will be the death of you ❤️‍🩹

just sits next to you, feeding you while you study 🥺😻😻

occasionally helps you when he can

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗝𝗔𝗞𝗘 . ꒱

would stay up to study with you (1)

he’s knocking on your window as early as 9PM and guess what he brought???

his physics book if you hadn’t guessed 😭😭

you’re lying on your bed while he’s lying on the floor as the both of you study

and you’re listening to the spotify playlist he had created just for occasions like these 🎶❤️‍🔥

who’s the best boyfriend/study partner? jake. 😻😻

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗦𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗛𝗢𝗢𝗡 . ꒱

keeps bothering you (1)

he’s been standing in front of your mirror for the past 5 mins

“i look so handsome” 😆🔫

he sits next to you and watches you do your revision

“y/n, aren’t you tired” “no, hoon”

“y/n, don’t i look handsome” “yes, sunghoon.”

^^ the exact conversation literally happens every few mins 🤭

sunghoon, you are incredibly handsome but please let your s/o do their revision in peace 😭🙏🏼🙏🏼

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗦𝗨𝗡𝗢𝗢 . ꒱

drops by your house at midnight with an entire box of snacks yum 😋😋

BUT WAIT. the snack aren’t for you ☹️

“excuse me? who said i brought them for you 🙄💅🏼”

gosh sunoo, can’t you spare just one packet of crackers ☹️😭💔

will go on a private tour of your room uninvited

stops at your mirror and goes ���gosh, my cuteness and handsomeness is on another level” 😆🔫

sunoo, i agree 💯

you wonder if he’s just here to tease you 😅😅 but he’s really here to keep you company while you study ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗝𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗪𝗢𝗡 . ꒱

would stay up to study with you (2)

you’re both on call with one another since you live quite a distance from each other 📱

“y/n, do you want to play a game” 🤨🤨

“what game” “whoever completes five math problems last has to pay for food on our next date 😏😏”

you’re afraid since your bee eff is really good at math but you accept his terms

and so the ‘game’ begins.

“y/n, what question are you on”

he keeps asking you that while you were busy completing your last two questions 🤭

“OMG IM DONE AHA! 😱😆”

jungwon has the widest grin on his face as he watches you happily celebrating your success 🤓

“well, i guess i’ll be paying on our next date” 🤷‍♂️ he glances at the piece of paper in front of him with his solutions to the 5 questions

yes, he had gone easy on you BUT! to be fair, which gentleman would make their girlfriend pay for their food on a date, right? 🤨

jungwon best bf fr. ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

≡;- ꒰ ° 𝗡𝗜𝗞𝗜 . ꒱

keeps bothering you (2)

“y/n, do you want to play with me?” “sorry riki, i’m busy right now.”

“y/n, are you done studying yet?” “no, not yet.”

“y/n, will you play with me now?”

he gives you puppy eyes as if begging for you to entertain him 🥺🥺

“a couple more minutes, riki 😁☝️☝️”

“fine” his sigh is so loud it makes you laugh 😆🔫

“alright alright, i’ll play with you now” sorry, you couldn’t handle how cute he was being in that moment 😫😫

“YAY 🎉🎉”

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[doueverwonder]

PoLiet day four.

Prompt: Domestic.

No tw’s

this one is being posted 5 min after midnight Im sorry ;-;

also I listened to “Infinitely Ordinary” by the wrecks on repeat while writing this.

"Good morning" Tolys rolled over seeing his boyfriend half-awake and smiling at him softly. He tried not to get giddy at the simpleness of it, Tolys was–and liked to think Feliks was as well–getting used to this. The normal mornings where they woke up next to each other, The sun still barely over the horizon, the birds singing outside. Nothing special had happened the day before, and nothing special would happen today. There was breakfast to be made, laundry to be done, Feliks had to go meet with his president later; he even thought about the library books that had to be returned. 

There was something so special about it all though, personifications didn't have many ordinary moments it made all of them so much better though. Tolys had decided if he could live days like this on repeat forever he would be content. That wasn't realistic though, so instead he just decided to savor the moments they had like this.

The bed shifted as Feliks sat up stretching, Tolys looked over at the clock slowly registering that they did need to get up. 

"When do you have to go back?" Feliks asked, as he got out of bed, shivering at how cold the floor was. 

"Not for a few more days," Feliks nodded but didn't say anything in response as he went to the bathroom to start getting ready. Tolys thought about how there was probably another email from his boss telling him he needed to get back to Vilnius, he kept making up excuses for why he needed to stay in Poland for diplomatic reasons; seeing a movie with your boyfriend can count as a diplomatic reason right? 

Tolys got out of bed, hearing the shower turn on. He stole another one of Feliks' t-shirts, pulling it on, he was starting to get used to the smell of the detergent his boyfriend used, he was considering switching to it just to keep something with him when he had to leave. 

This had become their routine, wake up, Feliks gets ready to go to the capitol building and sit behind a desk for a few hours. Tolys makes breakfast for both of them and gets ready to sit on the couch with his laptop and answer emails questioning his whereabouts. The joke had become if Feliks were to go back to Vilnius with him it would be the same routine just switched. Neither of them would mind it though, and they knew that. It was simple, it was easy, it was... ordinary. It made them feel more human. 

Put on the coffee pot, make eggs–for himself, Feliks doesn't like eggs–. Feliks would have toast, that in fashion he would grab while rushing out because he took too long getting ready, again. He had told him more than once that he needed to not take so long if he wanted more time to eat; Feliks just told Tolys that before he was here all the time he just didn't eat breakfast. 

Tolys turned hearing footsteps, Felikis came into the kitchen, his hair still wrapped in a towel something Tolys never thought he would see as Feliks was very picky about getting completely ready before even leaving the bathroom. 

Feliks stopped, "Well?" 

Tolys raised his eyebrows confused, "Well...?"

"You didn't tell me good morning!" 

Tolys tried not to roll his eyes at his boyfriend, making his way across the kitchen and pecking him on the lips, "Good morning" 

Feliks looked satisfied and sat down at the kitchen table. Tolys wanted to ask what made him so quick about getting ready this morning, but also found he didn't quite care. He hadn't quite cared when he was taking a long time either. His and Feliks' quality time was in the evening, what happened in the morning didn't quite matter as much. 

"So... what are you doing today, kochanie?" He tried not to blush at the nickname Feliks had started using in the past week or so. He found it silly that he still bushed over being called Love like they were teenagers having a summer romance. 

"Oh you know, nothing special." Tolys meant to end it there but his mouth decided to keep going as he finished breakfast, "Those books you took out need to be returned. I have to wash clothes, answer some work emails. I'll probably go to the grocery store, unless you would prefer to eat out or order in, in which well... I probably still will, we'll need food for tomorrow and..." he trailed off, half-expecting Feliks to not be listening anymore. It was boring to listen to. Yet when he turned Feliks was still all ears, 

"And?" 

"And um, I need a new toothbrush, I don't know where mine went" 

Feliks nodded like it was just as important as anything else. Tolys couldn't lie, he thought he was falling in love with Feliks all over again just because of it.

@polietweek2022

[levisgirll]

what would life with levi be like post 139?

𝐀𝐎𝐓 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 - 𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧(𝟐)

𝙃𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙣 ♡♡♡

warning: mention of some spoilers about levi but not major ones as I wont be going in depth about ch 139.

A lot of really cute fluff that I’m sure will warm your heart-

Thanks for sending a question! I'm glad I got another one and ngl this is actually fun to discuss and share my thoughts and ideas with you all :,) I am guessing you are asking about what life y/n would be with Levi after the war and ch. 139 correct?

To be honest, the first thing that comes to mind is that Levi would be actually more relaxed, soft, and happier especially if he is with y/n. After losing some of his comrades, y/n there being by his side would literally make him sometimes during night go emotional and get really clingy to you and he would be extra affectionate and loving. He wants to feel your presence, wants to know you are still there during the night, and wants to definitely hold you. So y/n living with Levi, expect to have some emotional midnights with him and I feel like it would be really deep and he would share his thoughts or maybe talk it out and then he would go on and say he is thankful you are here, by his side and that he would say "Just remember, you mean a lot to me, Y/N. Don't forget that." He has a hard time trying to find the right words to express how much you mean to him but you would get the message either way from his actions and body language. Also, during those nights, he would want a shoulder to cry on and probably just hold on to you and sob a bit on your shoulder (covering his face) because after the war and he has finished serving his duty, he would think about the past and all the people he cared about and his old close comrades and friends, and since Levi is emotional he would just would want y/n to remind him that you are here and you would make him feel so special just by being by his side! hugging him, letting him speak what is in his mind, accept what has happened, and especially showing him love since this man is a bit hesitant and he would want you to do it.

Another thing I think would be like for y/n living with Levi is that to expect a lot of, sight seeing, exploring new places, he would definitely wake you up so damn early to go for this nice café and that they sell fresh baked pastries and he would get bread with you on the way back, holding your hand and keeping you really close to him. When his legs heals, expect also walking in big open green fields, and even hiking! He would only do this with y/n and if they are there and when you both went there, you realized he was really loving to you, and cared for you through his actions asking if you were okay, if you were having a good time with him and....if you were even happy with him! "Are you....happy staying with someone like me?". It breaks Y/N to hear this from him and I think after the war and everything, he would sometimes look down on himself and probably feel self conscious about his scars on his face and he thinks he is 'uglier'. You are now the one who would shut him up even if he says negative things about himself. "Do you think I-" before he even tried to finish his sentence, y/n would go and cover his mouth with their hand. "If you say it one more time, I'm going to smooch your whole face to shut you up." He would then actually laugh every time you do that and finds you adorable, and proceeds to kiss you on the lips, "I love you." He would say that so sweetly, deep and full of emotions while his eyes looking at you filled with love and lust and he would just say that so suddenly and he has been doing that quite often after you started living your life with Levi after the war and it makes you get butterflies every time (also you both are blushing like hell!) He would ask you when he is self conscious if he still looked attractive to you (this is usually when you recently got close with the other neighbors and they loved you and Levi and he would look at the young man talking to his partner, and seeing his face with no scars. He would think that y/n deserved a more better looking guy sometimes) and he would say that he wished he had his other eye to see you more clearly because you become even more beautiful to him and wants to grasp every time he looks at you really clearly, so when you go out he still thinks of you.

He would have a car and he would be pretty good at driving and he would want to take you to the places he would search up and he would literally plan the day the next day without you knowing. so expect surprise trips too! But, he wouldn't want to use his car to be honest and instead using the train for long rides! That's because, he would want his partner to be near him, let them lay on his shoulder or even lap, prepare some sandwiches for y/n and gives it to them just to see them eating the sandwich happily and he finds it really cute. Basically, he wants every interaction with you no matter what.

It would be a simple, but such a loving, warm-hearted, affectionate and basic romantic life that you both would be sooo loved and really happy together <3 he would want to make you laugh every time and he would start laughing too, would take care of you a lot, mentally, physically too even though you always told him you would do some chores instead but he insists "No love, you did enough. Just rest up for today. let me do it okay? And after this I'm taking you out." Also, he would still worry about you a lot and be protective. SO when you go out, he would still message you and wait for you and he get sad when he can't tag along. Once he didn't reply for 30 mins and he was ready to interrogate everyone to find his partner.

I feel like Levi would brag about you quite often to people he would see and talk to, such as you and Levi's neighbors and he would see them in the supermarket early morning (in some mornings you wont be with him cause you were so tired and he gave up and let you sleep in and went instead). He would be buying a bouquet of flowers (he does that every once a while) for you to surprise you when he is back and he would see his neighbors and he would literally talk so highly of y/n, and say such loving things. "Oh Levi, you actually really love Y/N. They are lucky to have you!" and he would stay slight and think. "It's me who is lucky. my whole life I have been unlucky after everything I went through, but meeting y/n. they changed my life and turned it to a better way. they understand me and love me. I love them so much....I don't want them to leave yet." He would say to them and they would encourage him to say it to you but he is kind of shy. SO! he decided to write it in a letter he was secretly hiding it from you and giving it to you for your next anniversary <3 Would defiantly learn how to bake for you, cook new things every week, buy new books that reminds him of you and read it and then he would talk to you about it for hours while drinking tea with him, would take you to shopping and buy you clothes that you would like. and behind closed doors, he wont miss a chance not to show you love, he would hug your waist from behind for soo long (its his favorite) and keeps his head on your shoulder and breathe in your beautiful scent and kiss your skin gently. "Y/N. please, just stay here for another 5 minutes." That 5 minutes was half an hour of smooching and cuddling in the coach and with some hickeys he would leave you on your shoulder (and he lowkey would want you to give him one too- and he would just give you that look saying as if he would want one right now or he wont let you go. so like I said before, clingy soft man? yes. defiantly after everything and since nothing is in his way he would do this and now you can clearly see his loving and soft side that he gives you daily.) Following that, you both would spend the evening, at the balcony, stargazing and he would look at you instead of the stars, while giving a small smile and placing his hand on the side of his cheek. That's because he really thought you were the star, sunlight and bright flower that blooms beautifully which is filled with love and happiness.

Finally, I feel like he would probably be less grumpy and not showing much of his usual stoic expression but instead, his expression would show he is finally relaxed, calm and actually happy inside because living his life with y/n after the war really helped him and made him realize that this. this is how love and life felt like, living with your true soulmate, the connection, emotions you both would share, feelings understood without being explained much, such strong emotional attraction and you were the perfect person to him. this is what changes him and makes him the most soft man out there that if the people from the survey crops where alive such as Erwin and etc. they would be shocked but extremely proud and happy of him because he really deserves it.

I hope this answered your question and this is what I would guess! Anyways, this really warmed my heart answering this and ahhh just imagine this all like, how beautiful and amazing that is? I just wish we all could give Levi a hug. He really is a great man. please feel free to send another question or anyone out there who has one! I hope you and everyone has a good day and let me know if you liked this by leaving a message anywhere, like or a reblog 🥺 ♡ ♡

[mokuknight]

The masters of putting vehicles where they shouldn't go in Halo

So.. we've done things like shove ghosts in places where they shouldn't be even though that footage is on my old laptop thats all screwed up and takes almost two hours to turn on.. BUT, we did spend fifteen mins to blow up the top of a sniper platform and use it as a boost to get the warthog up a ledge here in Halo 4. We barely made it though because when the top is on for whatever reason it boosts the height then before its broken... which makes sense because.. we did damage it by throwing stickies at it and obliterating it with a turret.. after a while we were actually half way up the ledge so AB ( Angel Baby.. bff who is helping with the RvB webcomic, ) jumped out the passengers side to start to melee the back of it so it could go... IT LITERALLY DID A BACKFLIP! Then after 5 mins we got it and now my old 360 is overheating.. WHY. Btw, I do like being called cheetah ( short for my old username Cheetahlover500 ) but still call me Moku.. ig.. idk.. super unrelated.

Tbh creature out of nowhere just chilling in my brain: YIPPEEEEEEEEEEE

Also, its midnight when I'm posting this so..

Happy Thursday ig

[nordic-language-love]

Language Learning Log 2021 - Week 32 (09.08 - 15.08)

Norwegian

Watched 3x Kveldsnytt broadcasts

Listened to 1x Siri og de gode hjelperne podcast

Read 1x Harry Potter og Mysteriekammeret chapter (partially aloud)

Read 1x article

2x Norwegian lessons (120 mins)

Duolingo

Listened to Det sorte karneval

Norwegian

I’m making an active effort to study Norwegian more, even if it’s just a little bit here and there. I’m used to setting aside hours at a time to study, but I don’t really have hours in a row to study anymore, so I’m trying to learn to use the small breaks I have in my day wisely. Maybe I don’t read a whole chapter of a book or listen to a podcast in one go - maybe I just read a few pages or listen to the first 15 minutes. Maybe I just do a little Duolingo before bed.

Of course, I’m still doing italki lessons, and they’re the highlight of my week. It’s so relaxing, in a way - almost like coming home and putting my feet up with a warm cup of tea. But I feel like my comprehension skills have gone downhill already :( idk though, that might just be because I’m tired. I’m still not quite used to getting up at 5:45am and I have a tendency to do lesson plans until late in the evening, sometimes not going to bed until midnight. Whereas before I was going to bed at like, 23:30 and getting up at 7:30.

On the plus side, Janove finally released his new album on Friday, so I’ve been listening to that a lot. And actually, I don’t feel like I understand it much worse than an English album. Every time I listen to a song, I catch another word or phrase, much like I do with English songs that I passively listen to. And I remember how a few years back I wouldn’t have been able to understand anything at all (I even made a post about it lol) and it makes me feel pretty good about myself.

Other Languages

I’m still learning to balance my time, so I’m focusing on just Norwegian at the moment. Spanish and Japanese, I’ll come back for you, I promise!

[mosshead-lover]

The Snowflake & The Kitten

Shoto x Reader

Summary: It’s your first Christmas with the Icyhot. You know he shows little or no enthusiasm in the holidays. How will it end up after you go against your instincts and decide spend the Eve with him.

A/n: Hey y’all! Hope you had a fabulous Christmas. I wanted to post this in time for Christmas, but my lazy ass was well..busy procrastinating. Any ho, I'm a Lil late, but hope you like the Present :D

It was late evening, and you were strolling through the streets, slower than usual, observing the decorations on the buildings and homes. Christmas sure brightened up your otherwise mundane city. You go back to wondering the same thing that's been in your mind for so long, whether you should get him something and if yes, what should you? It's been almost ten months since you and Shoto started going out. If you had to point out one thing that you not necessarily liked about him(not until recently), it would be how minimal Shoto's reactions or expressions were, almost all the time. It just made it really difficult to gauge his likeness or dislike-ness towards something. It was hardly a problem or something that bothered you until you had to pick a gift for him.

*Buzz Buzz*

You have a new text message.

Jirou: Yo! Coming?

Y/n: Will be there in 5 min.

Jirou always played her gigs to you before she actually performed. This had become a ritual more of. You started walking faster, paying lesser attention to the decorations along the way.

Jirou rocked it, as usual.

"Are you sure you don't want to join?"

You Jirou and few other girls in the class who couldn't go home for the holidays had planned a night out. Jirou still couldn't digest that you were missing it. Her reaction was only normal considering the enthusiasm your boyfriend had towards holidays.

'I want to spend the holidays productively,'

is what he had told the last time holidays came up in one of your conversations.

"Yes." You replied with a hint of uncertainty.

"At least buy a tree and some decorations on the way. Pretty sure he wouldn't have put one up." Jirou sighed.

"You don't know that!" You defended, regretting it a second later.

Jirou shrugged.

Your head was filled with ambiguity. You knew Jirou wasn't the kind who joked around or even talked much. You knew there was weight to whatever she said. You draw the cell phone and type a quick message.

y/n: Hey, I am on the way and stopped by to get a tree. What size do you prefer?

*Buzz Buzz*

Doki: What tree?

You despised Jirou for a second for being so accurate. Was not bothering Shoto with the pressure of celebrating the best gift you could give? You wondered if it was too late to join the other girls.

Doki: Oh, I see. Whatever works for you.

You picked a tree small enough for you to carry and some decorations along with candy canes. You had forgotten about the Christmas present for him until you came across the headband section with cute cat ears. You bought a white one and read one. At the billing counter, you struggled, You still had time to put it all back. Maybe just have dinner and watch a movie like any other weekend and not bother your not-so-festive boyfriend. But, you made up your mind. There was no turning back now.

--

"Hi, y/n."

Shoto helped you with the shopping bags and the tree. You reluctantly unzipped your bag and took a white sweater out. It matched the one you were wearing. The couple-Christmas-sweaters that you drunk ordered three months ago. Before you could say anything, He checks the time and,

"Hey, the webinar that I was supposed to attend this afternoon? They postponed it to seven. It will take an hour, Hardly, okay? I'm sorry, but I hope you understand."

He rushed through his sentences.

"Oh! This is for me? Thank you"

He grabbed the sweater from your hands, pecked your cheek, and hurried to his room.

You crashed into the couch. He didn't even notice that you were wearing the same sweater. You sulked and buried your face in the couch pillow and let out an inaudible scream. You took a deep breath and reminded yourself why you wanted to do this in the first place. It was your first Christmas together. You had to make it memorable for both of you. Moreover, Shoto never got together with his family to celebrate anything. You couldn't blame him for not getting excited about the festival.

You decided to look at the brighter side of it. You had an hour to make the house Christmas friendly. You went and bought some more lights and bells, set up a tree, put the lights around. You had to go to his room a few times to get the stapler, tape etc., He didn't mind. You had time to modify the cat ears as well. You removed one of the ears and carefully sewed the other color ear to match his hair color. You took one last look at the setup. It wasn't much, but it was a pleasant sight. It was almost ten. He wasn't done yet. You were too hungry to cook, you'd end up eating, and eating without him was the last thing you wanted to do. You decided to stay away from the kitchen. You fired up the TV and started surfing through the channels. Another hour passed. You gave up and went to the kitchen to fix yourself a cup of coffee. You were too sleepy and didn't want to doze off.

Finally, after what seemed like forever, you heard his door open. You set your coffee aside and sat up. He was wearing the sweater. He wore an apologetic face that transformed into a delight when he saw the tree.

"There is .. on your.."

Before you could process what he was implying, he bent down and cleared the foam mustache above your lips with a kiss.

"Coffee? at this hour?"

Shoto spoke up softly as he settled down next to you.

"I had to stay up, so..

”Did you eat?” He sounded tired too.

"No..I.."

He widened his eyes as a mother would, reacting to her kids skipping meals.

'Wait a minute, I am the one who should be mad!' You shouted on the inside.

"That was one heck of a long webinar." You comment, trying to suppress everything that you were feeling.

"I know." He acknowledges and takes you by your arm to make you sit on his lap. You put your legs on either side and sit on him, facing him.

"The fact that you were here, waiting, made it even more difficult for me." he continued as he wrapped his arms around your waist.

The sincerity in his voice was something you could never bypass and stay mad at him even if you wanted to.

"I am sorry."

"You are forgiven," you murmur and begin arranging his bangs. His face was ever charming against the constantly changing TV lights.

You both stayed there for a while, making out. You might have, longer if it wasn't for your grumbling stomach.

"You think that Soba place will still be open?"

You both go out and eat stomach full. Shoto offered to hold your hand on the way back. You were surprised as he never did that before. He always stayed away from PDA.

"It's too cold. I'm just keeping you warm." He justified.

"Besides, this way, there is a higher chance of people noticing that we are twinning."

You felt warmer as his heterochromatic eyes met yours. Your eyes dilated further at the sight of his tender smile. It was almost midnight when you reached home.

"Hey, It's almost Christmas." You squeak. You weren't worried about him being non-festive anymore. He reacts with an equally encouraging smile. As the clock struck twelve, you swing your arms around him and raise your toes, he helps by lifting you a bit, you kiss and wish him a merry Christmas.

"Merry Christmas to you too, y/n" He kisses you back and puts you down, gently.

"Hold on." He said and rushes into his room. He came back with two tiny boxes and placed them under the tree.

"Too Late?" You nod and join him to near the tree.

"Open!" his excitement was palpable. You carefully unwrapped the first box and saw a tiny glass slab covered in transparent resin shaped like a cuboid that was decorated to look like a charm.

On further inspection, you realized what was inside was a slide. You bought it closer to your eyes and tried to make out what was inside.

Shoto handed you a magnifying glass.

"Doki, Is this a ...?"

"Yes." He sounded proud.

"A real ...?"

"Yes."

You were awestruck.

"I didn't know Snowflakes can be preserved like this!"

You finally took your eyes off the charm and looked at him.

"Apparently, we can."He beamed a brighter smile, soaking in every inch of your reaction.

”And this way, an important part of me will always stay close to you."

He meant it. It was obvious from his tone and expression.

The present had exceeded all of your expectations. It was thoughtful, symbolized much more than Christmas. It was perfect. You were left speechless.

Shoto handed you the second box. Your vision blur from teary eyes. You managed to stop the tears and open it. It was a silver snowflake bracelet.

Shoto went on to explain it.

"Since the actual one is quite delicate and I couldn't morph it into a bracelet like I wanted to, I got this too, you know a ..."

You interrupted him the midway with a kiss, followed by another, and another.

He returns all your kisses with equal passion and holds you close.

He reaches out to grab his gift, you push away his hand, and take the present away from the tree. You felt so stupid. You were flustered with embarrassment suddenly.

"Hey, let me see it." He complains.

"No!" You exclaim and hide it behind your back.

"Why not?" He was confused.

"B..B...Because... It’s is not for you!"

"What?" He chuckles.

"Y/n... Are you sheltering someone else here without my knowledge?" He narrowed his eyes to look serious.

"Wh..what...No...I mean.."

Shoto pounced upon you and snatched the gift while you were in a state of confusion. You tried to snatch it back, but it was too late.

"Cat ears?" Shoto turned it back and forth, inspecting the band.

"Looks adorable. Should I put it on?" He asks innocently. You nod, still looking down.

"Like this?" You finally look up, and all your unworthy feeling lifts that just how adorable he looked. He smiles and brings his palms closer to his cheeks, trying to imitate a kitten. You almost had a nose bleed. Your reactions must have been so obvious, for he burst out laughing.

"Here, you try it on."

"No! don't you dare take 'em off!" You warn him.

"There is an extra pair." You beam ear to ear and get the other one. Of course, you had enough time to mend the other set.

After you pet each other, you take a bunch of photos together, you took his solo shots. Near the tree, in the kitchen, in front of the door, in the bedroom. You wanted to take a couple more, but you decided against it, reading the growing annoyance in his face.

Then you both sat by the tree, checking the cards he received. You were honestly a bit shocked to know he never went through them.

"Wow. Isn't this your sister?"

"Yes. and her Boyfriend." he eyes at the photo and gets back to his phone.

"They look so cute together!"

You were a little annoyed he wasn't paying attention to the cards. You snatch the phone to find him looking at the cat-ear pictures of you both.

"I think we look better." He states, unaffected by your barbaric snatching.

”We should use one of these pictures to send out cards”

You ruffle his hair and giggle, not because of the comments he just made. But because he could make such cheesy statements with a straight face.

Suddenly, you couldn't recall why you were worked up the whole day.

”Hey”

Shoto breaks the silence. You were on the couch, sitting between his limbs, as he wrapped his hands around you, warming you up and letting you rest on his chest.

”Um?”

”We should do this every Christmas”

”Do what?”

”You know, the tree, the matching sweaters, the cards...”

You chuckle.

”We will, Doki”

’Oh My baby Kitten, this is how Christmas is supposed to be!’