#not in a creepy way but it's just uncalled for

[chkn-soup]

🎀The Radio Demon🎀

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Warnings: Alastor is bad at affection, Alastor is awkward, Alastor’s dating skills are pathetic…..give him tips please..he sucks….

Syno: silly little Alastor dating headcanons, but I wrote him in character so he’s very…him🤨..

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How you guys start

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-Alastor isn’t really one for romance or catching feelings, but if he were, yoid have to be the most entertaining thing he’s seen in a while.

-I think he’s all up for giddy innocent people, people that smile a lot, people that laugh a lot, people that are carefree, and a joy to be around, even people who are crazy..crazier than him or just crazy. If you are those things then he’d take a great liking to being around you all the time.

-especially if you have dark humor, that makes him really laugh. As soon as you make him laugh the first time, he’d be around you a lot more, if being funny is your thing, he’d follow you around just to laugh again. He’d find you greatly entertaining.

-As soon as he notices that he’s taken a liking to your personality or just your humor, he’d begin to reciprocate, he’d want to make you laugh as well, and he’d often appear out of nowhere to tell you an “old timey pun”. That’s how you get the hint that he likes you..other than him just stalking you around the hotel.

-When he’s surely come to the conclusion of adoring you. Then he’d make the move..it wouldn’t be very..romantic per say? Like he wouldn’t ask you out with sparkles and kisses. It would kinda go like this

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^Alastor waltz into the hotel’s lobby, shadow demon trailing shorty behind him with a big smile on its face, matching the same big one that Alastor is wearing. He finds his way over to you and sneaks up behind you, slightly startling you as he doesn’t make his presence known..you just have to guess he’s there by the chills that present themself down your neck. Once he knows he gotten your attention, he just stand there and smile at you..eerily..

“..How can I help you Alastor..?” You’d have to break the creepy silence, Alastor truly isn’t trying to be weird he just doesn’t know where to start.

“We shall enjoy breakfast together in my room, let’s say..tomorrow.” He doesn’t really question..it’s rather a statement. But of course you just nod a little off put.

“Lovely.” And with that he walks away.

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-the date would go better than him asking you out though, he’s a old class gentleman, so he would come prepared with a bouquet of your favorite flowers..you don’t know how he got that information but he has it.

-He’d also thank you for dining with him at the end of breakfast, and pat your head with his radio cane as a sign of affection.

-the only way you’d know that was considered a date, or that you guys are even dating is if he tells you that it should become a regular thing everyday..that’s his way of asking you to be his partner.

Relationship

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-Like I said, it would probably take a couple of breakfasts together for you to realize you guys are even ‘dating’ because Alastor won’t straight up say it or call you his spouse.

-Even with him being very avoidant on the topic, he’d still be absolutely classy with you, he’d act the same way he did when you guys were just acquaintances but..notched up a little, so he’d plant kisses on your hand on special occasions

-Will compliment you the best of his ability, “Dear, you look absolutely deadly this morning.” ..please don’t take it the wrong way, he’s trying his best. Will most likely say shit like “You’d taste delicious” to compliment you..Will he eat you? Who knows it’s always a surprise with him.

-he will most definitely bite you though, I read it on @/Radioisntdead’s page, (creds to them), and I thought it was so fitting and cute, so yes he would definitely bite you uncalled for as a sign of affection.

-He showers you with flowers and small trinkets from cannibal town.

-You are the only one who gets to see his tail!! Will he let you touch it..maybe..but make him laugh first then you’ll get a two in one deal of touching his ears too.

-Will cook you cultural food from when he was alive, yes that includes Jambalaya, he makes his shit spicy so, if you aren’t into that, have milk on hand or be really nice about telling him to tone it down.

-Or if you don’t like speaking up about things cause you’re a people pleaser like me and will just take the pain of burning taste buds instead of possibly hurting his nonexistent feelings, then he will figure out by the red look on your face and your watery eyes..he finds it funny. But he doesn’t want to put you in pain for too long, so the next time he cooks for you, you can see that he’s toned down the spice a little..he will never tell you that he did it for your sake though.

-your special thing is eating togther because Alastor is a big foodie and will try different foods with you, also if you like cooking, Alastor would adore your food especially if it’s something from your culture.

-Alastor, will not be one for cuddles…what he will do is sit on the couch next to you and wait for you to fall asleep, the he will lay you down on his lap. He won’t ever physically wrap his arms around you or snuggle into you, he’d wait for you to snuggle into him..but then he’d sit perfectly still and not reciprocate.

-Alastor also doesn’t sleep…but when you guys are dating, he won’t have to stand in the corner anymore..cause he knows that would creep you out, so when you sleep in his room or when he goes to your room, he will instead lay on the bed, back against the headboard, but legs relaxed on the bed, and he’d read, while you slept beside him..he’d also be very overprotective and on gaurd for you while you are in such a pathetic state.

-OVERPROTECTIVE BF ALASTOR!!! GRRR!!

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Tell me if I should do NSFW or Argument HC’s next!! Also, I am working on a part two of my Vox smut ‘Photoshoot’, so it should be out soon!!😙😙🫶🏼🎀

[nyxthedeity]

𝓐 𝓫𝓸𝔂𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭 maybe? Part 2

Synopsis: A certain Ravenclaw have been studying like there's not a week left for the assurance of a good result for the upcoming O.W.L.s. After the big wave had hit, she never craved a reward for her hard work than ever! Though it seems like the Golden Boy of the campus already got that covered.

Pairing: Cedric Diggory x Ravenclaw!femreader ---

Whoever is out there definitely didn't heard his wish.

After something finally clicked in his head to go after her after two years of admiring, the opportunities shoots itself out of the window.

She's so close yet so far.

He could cry, in all honesty.

Every time he's so close, someone gotta drag you away.

The examinations is now over, and almost his hopes too. She's only a few tables away yet she always manages to get out of his sight and possibly disappear.

A Hogsmeade weekend is deemed the reward for all fifth year students after such stressful two weeks. And honestly, Cedric isn't that stressed about the exams, he's more stressed in the girl he's trying to reunite with.

Walking in the paths of Hogsmeade, Y/n has Hazel wrapped around her arm. They were not walking straight and was rambling about every little thing they see. The burden of the exams were off their shoulders and the relief they're feeling is a drug that they can get high to. Hazel sang a tune which Y/n recognizes, they sing along and the next thing they knew they were dancing in the middle of it all without a care for all the passing strangers. It's either they can join, or get moving.

The little makeshift embarrassing world they were both in is of course seen by Cedric, who's slowly getting filled with second-hand embarrassment.

This is... yep, this is the girl he wants.

This dorky, dancing, intelligent, pretty, one heck of a girl is who he wants.

And he's definitely not waiting anymore.

Marching up like he drank firewhisky, he strides up with purpose, with determination to just not let her slip away again. Cause when did he ever found a girl who's silence is not deafening? When did he ever found a girl who's smile is not to impress him? This girl, who's dancing in the middle of this small town is the most natural people he knows.

Finally clearing his throat, Y/n was quick to notice his presence. She immediately stopped her dancing and tried to fix her already messy hair. Hazel, who sensed her best friend's lack of dancing, also stopped. Looking just a tad bit embarrassed. Now, Cedric may have miscalculated this 'cause now he absolutely don't know what to say. Does he ask if she remembers the first time they met? That's kind of creepy. Does he confess his feelings? It's too soon, he probably shouldn't-

"I like you...?"

Okay, that came out like a question- and very uncalled for.

Y/n tilted her head with lips slightly agape. Her eyes were onto his and with that, Cedric swears he can die now. Is that weird?

"Yeah..." He tried to chuckle it off, appearing to be cool. "I do."

Y/n found her thought and possibly tried to make sense where all of this came from. "You? Like me? Since when?"

"Since third year. On the train. I sat with you in the compartment full of all of the books you read. And... Since then, I don't think I've ever met someone that makes me want to treat them like royalty before... So..."

Cedric feels his world slow down. In a bad way. He blurted out his heart's words without even the assurance of her reciprocating it. He's playing a dangerous game. One that could possibly leave him embarrassed and sad. Though as her eyes is kept on his, something is telling him that maybe... just maybe... Things won't go that way.

"So you remember..." Y/n looked away with a faint smile. "I never thought you'd remember it." She was half-flattered and half happy that he did. He was the first boy who didn't made fun of her from reading so many books. Or gave her a weird look when she started to read a not-so normal book. Those moments were deep in her heart planted by the same boy who managed to dug it back up.

"Of course I do..." The boy, who was overflowing and on edge, can only reply with a profound softness in his voice. "How could I forget?"

This sweet moment was unlike any other. Cedric have always found their first meeting more sweet than anything, but now, thanks to Y/n's reaction to his not-best confession, makes him quite convinced that this moment might replace the first one.

Y/n was no better either. The smile she once wore when she kept glancing at third-year Cedric was back on her face. She's quite happy with that result.

Very sweet moment, yes, very sweet. Until someone cleared their throat.

"I'm still here... If you guys are wondering..." Hazel raises her hand, waving it to emphasize how big of a reminder she is that she's still there.

Y/n and Cedric broke into a fit of laughter. Cheeks pink from the confession, feeling like kids who decided to get married at recess.

Y/n first broke out of her laugh and flashed a warm but shy smile, "Me and Hazel are just about to get some ice cream at Honeydukes, maybe join us?" Cedric feels the soreness in his cheek from all the smiling. "Would you also like a boyfriend, maybe?" His hands motioned to himself like showcasing a good item at a store.

"Hey!" Hazel points a finger, "You guys can't do this with me here."

"Maybe." Her best friend answered, biting onto Cedric's tease.

"Ugh!"

⭐️🫧🌀💛🎐🧿✨💠🌟🐋💫 There it is! My first blog is now complete! Enjoy this one, sweetings! I really do hope you guys liked this, I am very happy to serve you my fanfiction that I have been dreaming to make Feel free to request anything, darlings! Your dearest Author, NyxTheDeity

[ghostingcrows]

Okay because generally I’ve been seeing a lot of fighting a weirdness I wanted to talk about this for a second

Hobie Brown is not an adult

Please stop being weird about him!!

More explanations under the cut

I’ve been complaining about this a lot and for people that don’t understand this situation essentially in an interview one of the directors said that an early concept of Hobie design was that he was supposed to be like the cooler older kid and as the example used for this he stated the ages 19/20

Because of this many people took it as still being canon which has led to a large bit of debate in the community between people about his age

The people who have taken this reference to the early concept as canon have started bashing people who ship Hobie with others in the group (mainly Miles and Pav which is important and which I will come back to later) as well as used this as an excuse to sexualize Hobie because hes an adult

A barely legal one which even if this was true is its own separate issue

However the issue with this specific take is that its wrong

For a variety of reasons

1) For starters people say that since the director said he was 19/20 it must be true however another director/creator of the film has stated that Hobies age is up for interpretation meaning he doesn’t have a specific set age

However, it is very clear based off of everything else that Hobie was still meant to be in the teenager range in terms of age 

For starters the actual movie

Throughout the first half of the movie Hobie is referred to a couple times by both Gwen and Pav and later Miles

Every time he is talked about in this context it is always with the undertoned implication of him and Gwen supposedly having a romantic relationship with both Pav and Gwen treating it as a sort of thing that could potentially cause friction or other issues in regards to Miles and Gwens relationship

If Hobie really were 19/20 this would be, cannot stress this enough, incredibly weird and creepy on the writers part

Unlike Hobie Gwen does have a confirmed age and she IS a minor and the movie imply that she had a relationship with Hobie whether she actual did or not and treating it as a joke would be weird and out of place if he was an adult

Not to mention that a lot of people referred to Gwen, Hobie and Miles dynamic as a love triangle which again weird and gross and uncalled for if Hobie was an adult

2) The art books both in the english and Japanese translation refer to Hobie in a way that either implies hes a kid or outright uses terms that mean hes a child

In the English translation of the book Hobie is referred to as the cool slightly older boy the girls want to date

Meanwhile the Japanese translation literally spells it out

3) I’ve heard a variety of different deflect in regards to all the above mentioned stuff

“Hobie doesn’t look like a kid” people age differently. I’ve met kids in high school who were the same age as or younger than me with full ass beards and mustaches as well as people who are well into there 20 who look like they’re still 15 he simply just has a structured face

“He was bit at 16 in the comics and said he was spider-man for 3 years in the movie” We aren’t in the comics universe though and in this iteration Miles was bit at like 13 and Gwen at like 14 meaning that in actuality the kids are usually bitten really damn early and the actual facts are that we don’t know how old he was when he was bitten and since we very clearly aren’t in the comic universe as these movies are significantly different from the comics you can’t just go off of that

“Just because it was a concept doesn’t mean it was changed it could still have been kept” While it is true that yes sometimes things from first draft concepts are kept a lot of times they aren’t such as Hobies best friend Pavitr who was supposed to be 13 in his concept but very clearly isn’t in the movie (I don’t actually have solid evidence for that claim I just think it would be weird that they make comments about Pavs body and show him shirtless if he was still 13 in the final-) both Pav and Hobie had a shit ton of changes done to them  alongside basically all of the main 4 (Hobie, Pavitr, Gwen and Miles), except for maybe Miles but he was already an established character, so using his concept as hard and fast evidence when he very clearly was changed a lot and everything else points toward him being a kid just doesn’t work

“He mentions going to a pub so he has to be at least 21” first Hobie is British and the legal age in Britain is 18 also you don’t have to be of legal drinking age to go into a pub you just have to be old enough to actual order drinks which doesn’t even account for the fact that this is also Hobie we’re talking about who would not give the slightest fucks about the legal drinking age “But they show him with a beer in his montage and they wouldn’t encourage that in an underage character” Hobies montage is so fast paced and colorful that I genuinely don’t even know if thats true because you can barely comprehend the stuff that happens in that scene the first time you see it and not to mention that he also flips off the cops in that montage so I don’t really think they were too concerned about encouraging certain behaviors or not since half of Hobies speech in that scene was about overthrowing governments saying ACAB

So in conclusion

Hobie doesn’t have a confirmed age but based off off all the information we are given he is probably actually closer to 16/17 as his age

Now as a side tangent something else I want to address is the inherent homophobia and racism undertones that came with the initial spreading of his false age

Because when people initially heard that age they’re first instinct wasn’t to jump at the actual movie for imply a ship with Hobie and Gwen or even on the people make jokes about but was instead to jump on the people shipping Hobie with Pav and Miles

Both other male characters who are also characters of color

Odd that the first though was the (honestly at that time) relatively new and unpopular gay poc ships (Yes I know the ships are more popular now they had BARELY any content at the time of the interview)

Like genuinely the absolute giddy JOY I saw some people have at the idea that people who were minding their own business would have had a ship they liked ruined for them was insane and still is to me

[warmiesstuff]

POV: chucky's dumbass tries to kill you

12:00 AM

Trying to get sleep was what you were planning to do until you heard a loud CRASH coming from the hallway. Now, the thing is you usually wouldn't be startled by the noise, your roommates (the rats) tend to be loud as it is. But the thing is you had bought this creepy ass doll from some dude off the street for your nephew. You slowly climbed out of bed, grabbing the baseball bat behind your door because mama ain't raised no bitches. Every step to the kitchen was like waves of anxiety drowning you. Slowly, you inched your way into the kitchen as you heard some weird voice.

"that bitch is so stupid"

Okay that was just uncalled for. Walking into the living room, you swear you almost just died here and saw Jesus himself because you saw that creepy ass doll, STANDING AND LOOKING AT YOU.

WITH A KNIFE.

"rAuuGhHh"

Suddenly this bro started charging at you. You were scared until- wait.. this bro short as fuck😭 you grabbed your bat and swinged it at the little oompa loompa.

"OW!! YOU BITCH!!"

A rather rude oompa loompa to be exact. Yeah you're not about to deal with this shit. You grabbed the bat and started banging it against his head until unconscious♥️

You taped his hands, legs, eyes, and mouth. (Lol, safety first♥️) and shipped him to the other side of the world.

[youremyheaven]

I second completely what you are saying about Claire Nakti's work, it's so male centered and heteronormative, and she always has to find a way to make it about sexuality or attraction when it frankly is not relevant.

I know that this is a personal thing, but as an ashlesha native I could not finish watching the ashlesha video, I found it so triggering as a person that has been sexually abused before. I found it really disturbing how she, in my opinion, seemed to romanticize abuse scenes or even directly say that it was part of the ashlesha "allure". She didn't criticize the men for being abusive, and placed responsibility on the ashlesha natives. I have absolutely no desire to be dominated or subjugated by a man, and the BDSM connection was just completely uncalled for, as she also ignored the fact that women can also be and are the Dom. Then again, she might have mentioned this but I couldn't finish the video.

Comparatively, I'm also a Purva bhadrapada native, and when I watched the Purva bhadrapada video, I learned a lot thematically yes, but I cant ignore the one dimensional representation she gave the women. Just like I don't have the desire to be dominated by men, I also don't have the desire to ruin their lives for absolutely no reason! 😭 It's cartoonish, a Femme Fatale is just the male version of "the bad boy" archetype but without the grace men are given by women cause they think "uwu he's sad I gotta save him♥️". Archetypes do not represent real women, they are just a way to dumb them down.

I think that part of the problem is using movie and movie characters to represent nakshatra themes, when most of these movies are made by and for straight men. They do not represent the experiences of women or queer people. Also, Movies aren't real life and I feel like it would be more realistic to study the patterns in natives lives and use movies more sparingly.

I've actually heard the same comment from multiple Ashleshas about how uncomfortable they were with how Claire sexualised the whole Ashlesha experience. I haven't watched the whole video either so idk but something I've noticed with Claire's research in general is how she fixates on one or two recurring themes (usually sexual/romantic/somehow involving men) and makes the whole video revolve around that?? she nitpicks examples to further her narrative. whenever she makes videos that are more centred around planetary dominance, its very apparent that the examples she is citing aligns with one nak or two more than the rest. In her Jupiter women video, most of the examples cited where Vishaka with some Punarvasus thrown into the mix and virtually no PBP girlies cited. i think the whole concept of planetary dominance is skewed to say the least because each nak manifests the planet's energies in a way that is unique to them so the qualities we associate with a planet are perhaps actually just the qualities of one single nak that exhibits it the most.

claire's research is also rooted in western esotericism, like kabbalah and whatever Aleister Crowley was teaching folks idek, and those are heavily based on weird sex rituals and male gaze-y teachings which if the rumours of her creepy bf doing the research are true, makes sense

she correlates vedic astrology to "archetypes" so each nak is "femme fatale" or "mother of maya" or whatever but its 1000x more complex than that?? its really really hard to narrow down a nak's energy into just one or two aspects, even when i do research i am acutely aware of how this is just a glimpse that i have into this energy at this moment, i find it very icky how claire will outright claim some nak is a succubus or some other nak is a tantric initiatrix without giving them the complexity they are due??

yeah same i think relying heavily on movies and fictitious works is not reliable because even beyond the fact that men make it for men, all art is the source of imagination. imagination and reality are very different. in my research i found out that many dictators have Jupiter naks, i wouldnt be able to make that connection by looking at movies because Jupiter themes manifest in movies are very different?? (surreal punarvasu, transformation heavy vishaka and chaotic destructive PBP and their mafia movies) what art we make and how we channel our naks through art is different from how these naks affect our personalities and behaviour

[foggy-nelson-archive]

hey!

i just wanted to check in on you. as someone who follows you and has the notifs on for your posts, i hope that's not creepy, i saw some of the asks and posts awhile back about leaving the blog. Obviously, do what's best for you. Always. Regardless of your decision, I just want to emphasize how appreciated you are to us Foggy fans, all five of us.

Really, the work you must do to compile the posts, the dedication to posting so often, and the fact you are running a blog for a "small" character in the Marvel universe at all, should be acknowledged.

The hateful messages you receive are extremely uncalled for. You have the right to exist and enjoy the character you love in peace. I applaud how you handled those messages with grace and more patience than I would have. I wanted to rush to your defense at the time. I even ranted to my poor unsuspecting irl friend about the situation, but I didn't actually come on here at the time (due to irl issues), so I still apologize. I've been annoyed at those anonymous messages and concerned for you ever since.

All this to say, I hope you're doing well, protecting yourself, and enjoying Foggy Nelson in whatever capacity you can.

-Arden x

I kept reading your ask with a smile on my face and teary eyes. You know when Karen brought that old equipment from the auction to their old office, and Foggy was staring at it lost in memory because he always wanted an office with a fax machine...

That's how I read your ask.

Well, I'm just like Foggy; I cry easily, I get emotional easily, I care too much and I'm generally left behind.

That's why I relate to him so much. (And also with Elden, but that's a topic for another day, who knows)

Your ask made me very emotional, my dear. Because it's so true. We Foggy fans are small, but we are amazing!

And you're right. I still want to delete this blog. There's no point staying and trying when things are getting messy. I know when it's my time to go and I know I'm going to feel sicker when Born Again comes out.

I want to delete it and just disappear and maybe stop drawing (I only started drawing again because of Daredevil). I want to delete this blog, but there are so many little memories here; it's a little piece of me, so I don't know what to do...

Being a Foggy enthusiast is an amazing job and a way of life. But it's so lonely most of the time. There is no one to share absolutely anything with. There is no one to cry with. There is no comfort. There are not thousands of those lovely edits. Hell, people tirelessly share even edits with Jon and Wilson (even the stars of the series seem to appreciate them most), but no one shares anything about Elden and his Foggy at all. I feel sad that he is left aside as if his work was worthless. I'm terribly upset because Foggy is such a rich and interesting character, but he doesn't have "that Marvel's appeal". I hope I'm wrong and that he has a chance in the future, but I'm not confident.

The fandom has become a terrible place, especially for Live!Foggy fans.

Messages like:

"Karen is better than him. Matt doesn't need him. Foggy should die, and Karen deserves to live. Foggy is useless. Karen is the co-protagonist. Born again will be better without him"... etc...

And not to mention the messages I receive about how Elden and his family deserved to die. Body shaming him, etc.

Some fans are just as greedy as their idols, and when I think about it, I'm glad Elden isn't like them. I'm also happy because even though I feel alone here, my heart is not heavy with hate.

Rare are the people who value Foggy, not only because he is Matt's best friend, but mainly because he has his own story and importance.

Unfortunately, Marvel seems to have forgotten about this, and recent issues and Born Again are, little by little, erasing him.

I hope one day they reconsider this. And maybe one day I'll watch this series (this will be the first time I refuse to watch something Elden is in) and maybe one day I'll see fan posts again and feel proud and happy again. But for now, I just feel sad.

Thank you very much for your concern for me. My intention with this blog was to bring a little joy, and I also believe Foggy and Elden deserve more recognition.

And I had so many interesting things to share, but there's no use. Most Daredevil fans don't deserve them.

Well, I'm exhausted, jaded. November sucks for me and it's been a really tough year, so thank you for your kind words.

You are one of the few (five) who are worth it

And please, please take care of yourself. 💚

~michely

(I may have messed up my words, and I kept talking too much... gosh...I hope you understand me, English is not my first language)

[fandoomrants]

Tua, s4, ep 5 thoughts!

Spoilers!

-Five and Lila travelling for years?! Omg!

-Also them fighting, laughing, and bonding!

-Pls no one make this weird and sexual! That was finally them bonding and showing trust, taking care of each other. Him, helping put the glass out of her leg, and her shaving him and leaning on him. That's just trust!

-Klaus is gonna spend some time in that coffin, wouldn't he?

-Can he potentially die due to lack of oxygen and food, and be reborn over and over again for eternity?!

-I knew he's gonna set sth on fire....

-That was indeed uncalled for!

-I feel that the same thing with Klaus trusting Reginald and then being stabbed in the back by him is repeating again...

-Ok, Ben's mind is really hijacked...

-Yep. Viktor's name is indeed spelled with a K. I knew that, not sure why I started spelling it with a C.

-Can't believe for once Luther is reasonable, and Diego's not. Well, they both usually are but I've always thought Luther is more oblivious.

-Wherever Five and Lila are, the time must be passing differently.

-OMG, dog ghost!! Cute!!!

-Claire was picking up Klaus 🥹

-Allison can just try to rumour the guy.....

-Caire to the rescue!

-Can't believe Allison did that in front of her daughter....

-Aw, Diego learned another language to be able to communicate with Lila's family?!? Cute!

-The place Five and Lila are at is kinda nice.

-..... Thoo, I did say their bond was nice and shouldn't be seen as something romantic in the beginning but ngl, they give me a bit odd vibes....

-Nooooo! 🫣🫣 This shouldn't have happened!

-BOTH OF YOU STOP BEING WEIRD!!!! WTFFF?!

-Ughhh, finee! I get it, I can't read people's relationships right! Every time I decide "oh, what a cute platonic bond", and ha! Nope! Not so platonic!

-I'll be forever mad about that!

-Sidenote (I wanna forget the prev scene!) but where is Gene kinda familiar from? 🤔🤔 Been trying to decide that for 5 episodes now.

-Luther actually trying to bullshit his way out of a situation, lol.

-...And gets in trouble for being nosy.

-Ok, the others got in trouble.

-Not the pants 💀😂

-Yay, fighting to music!

-Why are clothes being ripped? 💀💀

-And a random cat!

-"The moneymaker" 💀💀💀💀

-I was gonna say how are they gonna explain this to Five but Five has things to explain on his own...

-No, really, noo, I don't want this thing with Lila and Five 😭😭 Why is it happening?! It's literally proving Diego was right. Is like, something wrong with them? Like, are their brains messed? I suppose, 6 years is a long time...

-Umm.... Isn't Five a bit afraid of the train...

-Why is he hiding it?! Ughhh....

-Ok, kinda actually really happy Klaus decided to fight his way out.

-Tho, I expected that Allison and Claire would get there then.

-Aw, cute reunion!

-Why is Lila suddenly not worried about her kids, btw?

-But hey, good thing Five gave her the notebook!

-Ok, I kinda get why he's like that but like, he's been through apocalypse and all, he needs a break. But Lila is right, this isn't real.

-Ok, she remembered her children...

-Nah, Viktor, let them shoot him.

-See, bad idea. You got shoot, and he's bitching about his suit!

-I'm not buying the old man's nice words.

-Ouch! That was unexpected!

-But I suppose I guessed right for Reginald's wife?

-Omg, that skin thing is creepy!

-Is she an alien too?

-I think Jean isn't buying it...

[nevesmose]

When I was a kid, there was a hill overlooking our little town with a mysterious concrete structure at the top. To get there you had to go over the old canal, through the abandoned quarry filled with unidentifiable rusted-out equipment scattered around, and then past the creepy broken-down barn where some comedy genius had written "INSERT DICK HERE" next to a suspiciously-positioned hole in the wall.

The whole place was forested over thickly enough to muffle most sounds, and every so often you'd tread hollowly on discarded shotgun cartridges from farmers and/or farmers' mums sneaking out to shoot rabbits at night.

It was also haunted by the ghost of a drunk horseman, but being drunk we decided his actual ability to inflict harm on us would be fairly limited.

In any case, having avoided tetanus, gunshot wounds and catastrophic dick chafing, you'd reach a small sunlit clearing right at the top of the hill. The views were truly spectacular - to the north, fields. To the east, fields. To the south, fields. To the west, fields. The benefits of a rural childhood.

Right in the middle of the clearing was a kind of rectangular metal hatchway set low into the ground. Looking at it you could tell it had been opened up and filled in with concrete at some stage, and needless to say our little minds ran rampant trying to guess what was down there. For about fifteen minutes anyway, and then we'd wander off and smack the shit out of each other with tree branches - we were only kids after all.

The main theory, settled on with all the gravitas and judiciousness we could muster, was that it was some kind of Cold War era nuclear bunker. Not that we really knew much of what that meant, all being members of the first post-Soviet generation who didn't have to grow up with ideas like the four-minute warning or Protect & Survive knocking about inside our heads.

Somebody remembered seeing War Games on Channel 4 one weekend afternoon so we based our mental image on that and conjured up a miniature Scottish version of NORAD sitting empty under our feet, all big maps and flashing lights drowned forever in grey concrete.

And then we grew up a bit and thought, nahh, there's no way it was a bunker. It was a radio tower platform or a power substation or something, right?

But it was a bunker though. I looked it up years later and it was a two-person Royal Observer Corps fallout monitoring station to be used for keeping track of the devastation of our closest city, about 20 miles away. The entirety of the UK is hoaching with these things and I can guarantee you if you grew up anywhere in Britain you were much, much closer to them than you might expect.

Not just close to the bunkers but to the people who would have crewed them in the event of armageddon. That's the thing about the ROC, as I've found out since - it was a voluntary service operated by people living nearby.

So who, I wonder, were the unsung unknown uncalled-upon heroes who'd be there when the end came? Who in my sleepy little village with one school, one church and one main street would have had to leave their families to their fate and spend their next, and probably last, two weeks of life in that tiny concrete cell eating strictly rationed food, breathing strictly filtered air, and working out just how many kilotons had been expended on our little corner of the world?

I have my suspicions, but it's not the kind of thing you can just ask your old neighbour out of nowhere. Would they even have gone if they had to? I wouldn't blame them for a second if they chose to stay home instead. I imagine it was something they all had to decide for themselves and no one, least of all the happy beneficiaries of a better world than the one they lived in, has any right to judge.

I feel as though I'm dragging myself to a Meaningful Conclusion here. Oh boy. The past is always closer than you might think, I suppose. Just around the corner, just out of reach, but always there wherever we happen to be.

This post was mainly motivated by reading the excellent Attack Warning Red: How Britain Prepared for Nuclear War by Julie McDowall, who also does the Atomic Hobo podcast which is well worth a listen if you have any interest in this kind of thing. Don't have nightmares.

[howtoshibainu123]

A little theory and fanfic idea here

The theory:

S.N.T. might have a phantom ruby prototype in her heart so it explains why people like her so much and why she gets what she wants and why she has this charming aura

The fanfic idea:

S.N.T. realises that she has this charm because of this ruby heart and she sees that it affected her 3 good friends Sonic, Shadow and Amy, and gets all sorts of creepy visions of them being all monstrous and shit

She also realises that when her friends are under this spell they can get really hurt by either being dumb or defensive when it comes to S.N.T. getting hurt or in trouble. This obiously fucks her up and gets really angry with herself and the fact that she can't control said charm or cancel the spell.

The solution is not the best one but it goes like this: "if i desire to have my friends around me they get hurt but if i leave and never go back to my friends they'll be fine!" So she packs her socks and ... why does she have a sword oh gOHD OH NO I THOUGHT SHE WOULD JUST IDK LEAVE TO ANOTHER PLACE NOT TO THE AFTER-

Of course everyone (including eggman) stops her from doing that because of course that's a shit idea and because SNT gets really scared because again creepy visions and shit she uh...

When she gets controlled by that ruby (usually the ruby heart takes complete control if S.N.T. is very VERY scared and very upset) she takes the form of this mixture between a fox, a hedgehog and an echidna. And becomes really dangerous, having all sorts of visions where her friends become horrific monsters

That ruby sword is uncalled for, its esentially S.N.T.s weapon of choice that Tails built. And guess what it has? Another fucking ruby prototype motherfu-

The sword has some magic powers but the most important ones are: the power to completely obliterate anything with a slash and the power to esentially do the same thing S.N.T. has, the aura, this power could help to turn the bad bois into good bois or to make them harmless esentially. These two spells both require a lot of courage and fear in the soul of the wielder so ye :))👍

S.N.T. decides to stab her heart with the obliteration spell in order to stop all the madness and save the gang but amy is like "nu-uh" and reverses the spell of obliteration into the spell of S.N.T.s aura. esentially making S.N.T be revived (thank goodness) and the ruby heart is esentially under this very spell

Oh also the girls kiss

But also the ruby heart sees why is it saved: because it pretty much chose the good side as a way to make S.N.T.s desire to be loved a dream come true and sees that it can be used for good.

And esentially S.N.T. accepts the ruby heart as part of her body and yunno ... the heart won't try to kill itself anymore

Hav art :)))

[udg-fan]

Friendly reminder you can like something and still criticize it!

Spoilers for Danganronpa (one of my special interests) for example: Chihiro was handled in a very poor way that hurt some members of the trans community, same with Genicide Syo and Toko’s DID. The mini game in UDG with Kotoko was EXTREMELY inappropriate and uncalled for. Danganronpa’s anime made Mukoro super weird. All games have a creepy character that’s hyper sexual (Toko but she gets better in udg, Teruteru, Mikan, Miu) but guess what? I still like the games. I love the character designs and character relationships. I love the lore and how the trials go (even if some suck). I just have to realize that it isn’t perfect. And if some people don’t like it because of that it’s fine! For UDG it’s even more valid because that scene was pretty fucked up. It’s important to note what’s wrong with the series and how some may feel about it. It isn’t a personal attack that someone hates it.

[addicted-to-his-knife]

tz is so sus 🤮 I don't blame you for worrying he'll think we're agreeing with him but tbh I think he knows how most people feel about him. with that in mind I try not to tell other adults what to do because of something that happened to me and my boyfriend last year. we're both 25, but I look 15. one day a friend of mine told me that anyone willing to date me must be lowkey sick because I look like a kid and I was like "??? I can't help it?? he's my age??? should he just break up with me and should all the other adults avoid me like the plague just to keep puritans happy?????" like I thought we were done infantilizing women, I'm an adult and I am fucking ALLOWED to date other adults 😭 my friend meant well but that was an example of finding problematic stuff everywhere. tz is actually gross, let's not forget, but that doesn't change that everything will always be problematic to someone. both things can be true at the same time. I hope his shit will catch up with him tho.

Omg I'm so sorry that happened to you!! That is so wrong of your friend on so many levels :(

But to share something personal: I once had a relationship that got the same kind of comment. My bf was about 30 cm taller than me (that's like 1 foot height difference) and someone said something along the lines of "it's looking creepy when you walk hand in hand, like he's going for a walk with his baby sister" and we were also like wtf??

How do you even make this connection, like why and how does this thought get in your head?? This goes for your friend too, btw ... sentences like this tells more about the person saying them than the people they actually talk about, so yeah. That maybe as a general rule one should hear more often.

You say that friend meant well, but to me as a perfect stranger: Nothing about this sounds "well-meant" but simply uncalled for. As you say: there's nothing you can do about it, it's the way you look and that's it. The nerve of some people, sheesh.

Thanks for sharing ♡

[pipebombsabitsuki]

uh.. hello

today I wanted to talk about my most favorite game ever, it's a game that has been by my side for many years and has helped me at my worst times... so it's kind of my comfort zone.

I know it's not the usual, but.. I guess that's just me!

so, I'd like to talk about the first song of the game's soundtrack I ever heard.. even though it's actually the last track in the official playlist,,,, funny that, right?

THE TITLE SCREEN!

I can't really upload the video with the track.. i think, so, I'm going to just link the video. if the link doesn't work or the video is unavailable or something just please please just let me know..

Now, I know, I know... it looks creepy and scary, but it's going to be fine, okay? It won't hurt you, I promise. There aren't any weird sudden imagery or strident sounds.. it's just a quiet, eerie tune...

But! if the imagery is too unnerving I understand! you don't have to force yourself to experience these things if you don't want to. that doesn't make you weak or a coward! if anything, attempting to try new things is a very brave thing to do! and knowing when something isn't for you is a sign of wisdom and maturity. so whatever you do, be proud of yourself!

Now, I'm going to talk about dotflow's title screen for a bit.. would you entertain me?

"Very well, let us ramble on, then, my friend, old sport!"

A warm welcome.....

I am always amazed by how... empty and hollow the music sounds. And it's not just the simplicity of a loop or instruments used, but the sound, the melody and its endless repeating, somehow, when combined together, despite the fact that it's just sort of a remix of Yume Nikki's title theme, deliver a profound blow on consciousness... at least for me it feels that way.

I remember the first time I loaded the game, quite a while ago. It was during one of those times of my life, I was moved to that studio at the seaside town because they said the marine climate would alleviate my skin issue. I had just recovered from anemia and was feeling physically okay, but somehow my time there I felt so.... numb. I didn't know anyone in that fishing town, and the people were very cold and distant.. besides, this was during winter, so instead of a blue sky there were only foggy days and storms... which I kinda liked, actually,,, hehehe :,) I lived there by myself for around three weeks, and during those weeks this tune was just stuck in my head, I couldn't help but feel incredibly lonely, as if I was abandonned at the bottom of a lightless ocean...

Needless to say, the game itself was one hell of a nightmarish fever dream and I enjoyed every bit of it, despite the fear, despite the uneasiness I felt...

And I have to admit it, this game was scary. Not because of creepy and gory imagery (though there was plenty of that) and not because of sudden uncalled jumpscares (there were actually none of this kind) but because of the sheer persistent atmosphere of this... decrepit, defunct, rusted world, that is doomed to corrode and tumble down into oblivion more as the time passes. The decay, the silent unspoken hopelessness were present even in somewhat more colourful and cheerful areas, those little sanctuaries, (probably) representing past memories of Sabitsuki that didn't change the overall dreadful scheme of things one bit. I don't know, maybe the author tried to make their own "edgy dream diary game", because in certain parts it does feel that the game is being extreme for the sake of being extreme, but... I still love it. I keep coming back to it.

I still hear this tune in my head.

[kleiner-ghost-high-on-life]

Bounty Hunter x Kenny soulmates AU where you see your soulmate's body count.

2nd person narrator

Part 1 [next]

"Do you ever feel embarrassed that your soulmate thinks you're a sad virgin?" Your sister had once again made her way into your room, and was playing on your 3ds, in between snarky and uncalled for comments.

You didn't even know where she learned worlds like that, considering she was in middle school.

"I'd be embarrassed if I were them," she continued. "Because they're are like what, in the double digits? I bet they're a senior, a football player, or one of those really hot girls with really firm tits-"

You angrily threw a nearby plushie at her.

"Get out or I'm calling mum." You angrily stated.

"All I'm saying," Lizzie rolled over, eyes still glued to your console, "Is that you should go out more. After some shampoo and a shave, you could get those hot girls too. Or guys. I still don't know who you're into. Which I think is a problem, considering we've lived- Hey!"

You walked over, and unceremoniously lifted up the mattress, making her roll off the bed.

"I don't pry into your private life, so don't pry into mine."

"Hey!" She finally turned her attention away from the game, "I'm sure glad that you don't! I'm 17! It would be really creepy if you went around asking me for mine or my soulmate's. I'd have to call the FBI on you or some shit."

"Oh, but what if they're a hot senior," you smirked, mimicking her earlier tone.

"Eww. Why would I date someone your age? Your generation doesn't even know what 'based' mean. I'm not touching that with a 6 feet pole."

Yeah, you didn't know what that meant in a non-algebric context. But you didn't care either.

"I'm only 5 yeas older than you, you little shit. Now wither shut up or get out."

Lizzie scoffed, before shutting your handheld, and getting up. She stood there for a second, before yanking the plushie you'd thrown at her off the ground, and throwing it at you with the words:

"Think fast!"

When it hit you in the face, she called you a nerd, and didn't bother closing the door behind her.

You clicked your tongue, tidied up your bed, and shut the door, before letting yourself fall among the pillows.

The pause screen of Buck Thunder 1 flashed with pink and blue, as the same 4 seconds of music played on loop.

Lizzie was right, you were a sad virgin. On one hand you desperately wanted to trick yourself in believing that none of this mattered, and that if your soulmate wasn't happy with the kind of life you'd been living than they could go fuck themselves. But on the other you were painfully aware that they, your soulmate, were packing some outstanding game, as they'd slept with over 20 people already.

That was also why Lizzie thought they were a senior. You had the mistake of sharing that number some months ago, and her nagging had never stopped since.

But it wasn't too bad, you lied to yourself. You still had time before the end of your degree to go to some parties and catch up. Well, not catch up to 20, you had no interest in that, but to at least replace the current 0.

Then one morning you woke up and that number had jumped into the tripple digits. Their body count was a nice round 420. It only regularly increased from there on onwards, just like the position of your name on the Buck Thunder leaderboard, and much unlike your own body count.

That day, the 9th or June, you became a full shut-in.

[commaclear]

Hi comma

I'm not a minor, but I know there's a lot of minors in tntblr and I've been on the internet long enough to realize way farther down the line that I've been in very unsafe online environments before.

I guess I'm saying this because of the new information that came out about that cc called kwite. I just keep on thinking about how uncomfortable it sometimes makes me to be in the fandom of such a homoerotic ship and know so many fans are probably only 15 years old. It seems to be really safe so far despite that, and the soap opera you have going on in your inbox is hilarious, but I guess I'm just worried that this could change.

I absolutely wouldn't be surprised if you delete this ask, it's pretty uncalled for. I'm sorry. But I guess I'm sending this ask because I'm still a bit younger than you, and wanted to know if you had advice for staying safe in online communities.

Only if you're okay with answering, of course. I really hope this wasn't too upsetting to read. I love your work, and I really hope you get that surgery you've been waiting on soon. Get well <3

I really do worry abt younger ppl in this fandom bc the internet safety things that were common when I was fifteen are becoming less and less common, so I would actually love to list a few

Do not share personal info, especially in your bio or pinned post and especially if it could be used to track you down irl (e.g. which city you live in, where you go to school, pictures of a local library/coffee shop/restaurant, your birthday, pictures of your face)

Tumblr is different from places like Facebook or Instagram because you are under no obligation to tell anyone your real name or show anyone your real face, you can and should embrace internet anonymity here because it's one of the last major websites where you can do so

Just saying you are a minor is enough (and you don't even have to do that, no one is entitled to know how old you are), you don't have to go out and tell everyone exactly how old you are because that opens the door for weirdos

You will know if something makes you uncomfortable, trust yourself and listen to that instinct. Even if you can't explain why a certain person/fic/art made you feel uncomfortable, listen to that feeling. Trust your gut feelings because they will figure out something is bad long before you figure out if goes against your boundaries in some way. Children are taught to ignore gut feelings like that, "Oh, it's not a big deal, go give your creepy uncle a hug or you're gonna hurt his feelings". But especially on the internet, where you can end up in dangerous or traumatizing territory without even realizing it until it's too late, you need to listen to your first instinct.

Just to harp on the above point a bit, if talking to someone makes you feel anxious, if you ever have to hype yourself up before you go to message a certain friend because sometimes the things they say make you feel weird, if talking to someone ever makes you feel weird about yourself or second guess things, if they ever ask you to do something you're not comfortable with (even if it's not at all sexual!! If you're talking to a mutual, and you mention you broke your foot and they ask to see the cast, if that makes you uncomfortable this still applies) If any of that happens, take a step back. Distance yourself from the person who made you uncomfortable for about a week and reassess how you feel. If there have been other times they've made you feel weird or uncomfortable, block them. It is totally okay and even expected to block people on Tumblr for literally any reason. It is always better safe than sorry. If this is the first time they've made you feel weird, explain the situation to them and establish a boundary. If they break that boundary, then it's blocking time. It might seem harsh, but to cultivate a safe online experience, you have to have safe people around you, and safe people respect boundaries 100% of the time.

tl;dr don't share unnecessary personal information with strangers on the internet, and if anyone makes you uncomfortable for any reason, do not hesitate to block them. You don't owe anyone anything.

And as tntblr's appa, I've gotta put this out there. If you feel unsafe in our online space or you're not sure what to do about something making you uncomfortable, then my dms are an open, judgement-free zone. I will do my best to help you out, and at the very least, I'm a pretty good listener. Sometimes all you need is a sanity sounding board.

[sheriffslop]

Lop’s Shipping Discourse Statement !! ✨ ( TW ; Uncensored Mentions of Gr**ming / P*dophilia )

Just releasing this now, so there is less misconceptions about what I have said due to discourse lately. I’m in no way, calling anyone a predator for their ships, however, we have to understand that sometimes media imported from Japan is problematic in a sense, and I know, I know, I know that sometimes there are characters from various mangas, shows, games, etc. where the characters look young but they are legal adults.

I am a baby faced adult, however, I can fully say with confidence that while you personally aren’t a weird, disgusting creep, that doesn’t mean there aren’t any out there that do get drawn to media, using the reason that the character is legal to be creepy about certain aspects. I personally have been fetishized for looking young, even when I was a minor, and y’all have no idea how frequently I have heard statements such as “ I can’t wait until you’re legal “ - I literally had one of the men that groomed / assaulted me reach out not even two weeks after I turned eighteen, trying to get me to visit him states away without my family, that’s when I realized that it was over all an extremely wrong concept, especially since he still mentioned that I was pretty, asked if I still had braces ( something commonly worn on teenagers ). I don’t know what he was planning, but I know it wasn’t good. He wasn’t the only one to act this way towards myself as well. I’ve even had strange men approach me in public and immediately go with pickup lines talking about how “ young “ and “ innocent “ I look, and I know this sounds extreme and maybe even false, but I just want to explain why I have a stance that I do on this issue.

What I am saying is that when the age isn’t confirmed, and a lot of media from Japan has banked off of this concept, it’s a very dicey territory. You guys out there saying Yuma is a legal adult is whatever, it’s fine, for the most part, I’ve been joking, however, I can under that might not have seemed clear due to not using tone tags or being more explicit in the way I was speaking, and tone is always extremely hard to get across using text. For this, I apologize and I never wanted to make anyone feel uncomfortable in the fandom or make anyone feel as if I was directly calling them a predator. That was aggressive and uncalled for on my behalf, and I promise, I’m genuinely not a very hateful person, and those actions absolutely contradict with who I am. I want everyone to have fun here, enjoy being a part of the fandom on the internet, however, I also have my own boundaries concerning this sort of stuff, and I would like for us to reach a mutual understanding.

Just for my personal boundaries, I ask that nobody sends any ships involving Yuma and a confirmed adult in my inbox because it makes me uncomfortable personally, considering that I view him as a minor, and the game already puts him in situations and has him having discussions I find to be a bit icky already. This is more so because I have trauma relating to this sort of stuff and I would like my boundaries respected. I apologize again if I have violated or bullied anybody else over their views.

I’m definitely not saying to stop creating content, I still find the memes to be hilarious and everyone!s artwork thus far has been pretty good, and I’m glad to see people creating or consuming content that they enjoy, because that’s what being a fan is all about !! If your interpretation of Yuma is different than my own, then please, see it that way.

My issue isn’t with you, it’s with Kodaka, it’s with loli / shota bait, it’s with the passive sexualization of characterization belonging to minors, because I believe that it passively promotes the idea to objectify a minor in a light they don’t need to be objectified in. I hope you understand, just as I’m trying to be a bit more understanding with you all.

Regardless !! I appreciate the support and the feedback, I’ve had a ton of fun discussions and seen a lot of enjoyable content thus far. I don’t want anyone to give up, because this is basically the birthing stage of a fandom. Enjoy yourself, have fun, create and enjoy to your heart’s content. 💕✨🥂

[an0det0l0ve]

My love,

how do you write a love letter? How do you start something so intimate with nothing but a piece of paper and a pen? How is it possible to capture the emotions in ink without faltering? A part of me thinks I am a fool for not writing you love letters every single day. If anyone deserves to be buried in the sweet contents of love confessions, it is you. And yet here we are, two years later and I am blotting the paper with a string of words in a futile attempt to give you insight on how you make me feel, for the very first time. Well, here goes nothing!

Vincent… My beautiful, remarkable Vincent. Two years, can you believe it? That’s a whole lot of days if you count them, and even more minutes, seconds. And yet, in the greater scheme of things, it is only a tiny little fraction of the eternity that still lies before us. Do you believe in past lives? Do you believe that you and I have already met one another in the past, in another life, another reality we can no longer remember? I’d like to believe that we have. I’d like to believe that every life we lead, only ends when we are reborn in a new one. And of course, if that is true, I would also love to believe that you accompany me in every lifetime. Maybe we might look different, maybe we might even be a whole entire entity or living organism. But regardless of what we are and how we go through life, we are paired together. Sooner or later we find one another and become one, fusing together like we are no longer two separate things. I mean, not in a creepy or cringy way, obviously. Not like those strange couples who always come in pairs and have no private life anymore. I just mean that at the end of the day, when night falls and life goes quiet and the world around us falls asleep, we will be together somewhere, curled up together and inhaling one another’s scent. Yeah, I think I’d like that kind of ongoing reality with you.

There is this thing about life. The fact that there is no certainty and the fact that every reality continuously changes in a way that more often than not affects us. Most changes are unpredictable and uncalled for. Some changes though, the ones you least expect, have a way of changing your life for the better. I believe that when I met you, this is what happened to me. I had not expected to fall for you. I mean, I had seen you around and I had heard a lot about you - OBVIOUSLY - but I am not the type of person to really go and talk to people I don’t know. It often makes me nervous and uncomfortable, as you know. But talking to you was easy, despite the language barrier. To me that has never been a problem, actually. Your energy was lovely, and that made it easy to spend time with you. Knowing the history between Elio and you, it was never at all my intention to get involved with you the way I did. It is the first time I ever fell for the love interest of a friend of mine. So when it did happen, and I knew that I was insanely attracted to you, I knew that it meant something. I am so, so happy that I acted upon my feelings toward you. Imagine I would have neglected them. Imagine I would have been like ‘No, I can’t do this because of the history between Elio and Vincent,’.... NO I DON’T EVEN WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOW. I do remember he was very jealous though….. No idea who he was jealous about, actually, hahaha.

Listen to me closely… I know we have had our issues and struggles. But above all that, we have spent such a beautiful time together. We built memories and lived the most beautiful life up until this point. The best part about this is that it is only the beginning for us. You are stuck with me, sir.

You are loving and caring, truthful, loyal, honest and funny. You are beautiful, you are my best friend, and you love in such a brutally sincere way that at times I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest. There is not a single thing I would change about you; about us. I am in love with you and I am in love with us. I am in love with how perfect we are together, and I am so darn proud I get to spend this life with you (this one and many many many more) If anyone ever asks me about you, I will beam with pride and joy when I tell them about you, and then I’ll pull you closer and shove it in their faces just how amazing you truly are. How does a heart do it, to fall in love daily with the same person? You give me energy and motivate me to become a better person and learn from my mistakes. You do things to me, and you opened up a part of me I thought I had forever closed. Getting hurt and having had my heart broken so many times had left me damaged and incomplete, and yet you found all these little separate parts of me and put them back together. You made me more beautiful.

I can tell you one thing, Vincent, and that is that I never ever want to live a day without you by my side ever again. Even when we fight and there is silence between us, I still want you near. Even when I tell you to fuck off, I actually mean that I want you to wrap your arms around me and reel me closer. When I tell you that I am mad, or that I am tired, or that I had enough, all I am trying to say is ‘Please, never stop loving me.’

You are my personal heaven on earth. My safe haven. (also my puta)

This with you, this life we built together, it is ours. It is everlasting.

I love you with every part of me and I always will.

Casper