#not gay or bi because i dont even know what my headcanon is anymore

[eddiediaaz]

can we stop with the smut fics where eddie describes how awful sex with women (shannon, ana, marisol) was compared to sex with buck? like okay i understand the sentiment you're going for, i guess. but in canon we clearly see that he's at least enjoying sex with shannon, and probably marisol as well (pre-nun storyline anyway). it won't make him any less gay/queer if he's enjoyed having sex with women at some point, just so you know. to write that sex with buck, or another man, is better than what he's had is fair, but to say anything he's had before was bad because it was with women is simply not even true if you actually watch the show.

[prettyboypistol]

Stardew Valley Bachelors x Male Reader Relationship Headcanons

Harvey

Super Shy Gay(TM)

I dont CARE if you're married he ASKS TO HOLD YOUR HAND

Kiss him. Kiss him in public. Do it.

If you call him gay he'll get flustered

Can't cook for shit but tries his best. yes, the smoke alarms are going off because he tried to cook bacon.

Harvey is one of those anxious boyfriends that asks you to text him that you made it to a place safe.

"Drive safe, I love you"/"Dear it's been 10 minutes since the ETA are you alright?" hella ass

probably forgets your anniversary ONCE, but then never again when you tell him you were upset.

Elliot

you know the men that forget your anniversary? NOT ANYMORE

you randomly come home to roses all the time.

"Oh hello my love i am writing a book about homosexual pirates wear this to immerse me please"

probably hides gifts around the house with little notes

bad at confrontation but will eventually talk to you about things that bother him like a week of letting it fester.

"BABY CAN WE PLEASE GO TO THE RENAISSANCE FAIR"

Dramatic ass bitch on GOD

probably likes to be choked

Shane

Calls you gay slurs affectionately and expects the same energy back at him.

He can cook like, 2 meal.

Remembers every little anniversary but is embarrassed about it. He remembers the first time you kissed, the first time you said i love you, etc.

Biggest cuddlebug known to man

Feels bad that you're the main breadwinner so he begs to take care of the chickens on your farm.

You WILL find Shane asleep with a baby chick in his arms sometimes i'm sorry homie

Confrontational af, if something happens that he isn't okay with he'll bring it up as soon as situationally possible in a kind way.

Sam

writes you love songs

he's a bit of a messy partner, but if you mention the mess it'll be spotless for like, 3 weeks.

if you get in a fight he'll brood outside with his guitar for a little, but will always get into bed with you at the end of the day happily.

loves surprises and surprising

he's all great when it's casual flirting, but as soon as you two start seriously flirting he gets all flustered.

bi-curious, you're probably the first man he's dated but not the first man he's kissed.

loves to binge TV shows with you

Sebastian

pan ICON

he thinks you're too cool for him, but he is grateful that you enthusiastically love him

calls you a hillbilly if you call him emo

if you ask about a project he's working on he WILL talk for hours

Falls asleep at his desk a lot, but appreciates when you carry him to bed

he loves when you talk to him "while he's sleeping"

Lets you ride with him to TechCons or Comicons, loves going as couple characters

you get invited to the Dungeons and Dragons campaign

likes calling you his boyfriend

Alex

picks you up and does reps with you to flirt

he loves touching your body after a long day of farming, the tan fascinates him.

a surprisingly great cook, always knows what you wanna eat without asking.

has never even looked at a man before you came along, so he's kinda awkward about serious romantic things

bad at confrontation, but great at supporting you

he calls you very masculine things like "superman" or "my man" a lot

Defends Dusty when he steals your spot on the bed, but offers his chest as a substitute.

[j1gsawz]

OKAY GUYS. HERE IT IS…

Xrayshipping / Loganzep headcanons

(this is kinda long so be warned but i beg you to read it i need others to hear me out on this random ship i accidentally created while trying to think of someone to ship logan with)

zep lives au:

so basically i’ve created this au where zep survives because adam wasn’t strong enough to actually bash his head in so zep crawled out of the bathroom (after amanda killed adam or saved adam or whatever you wanna go with) and was able to not get arrested (don’t ask me how because i don’t know. maybe he was able to convince the police he was actually forced to hold alison and diana hostage and come up with a convincing lie that he doesn’t know what happened to detective tapp)

this whole thing could also just be worked into zep just becoming one of john’s apprentices if you ignore that he failed his test. i prefer my interpretation though since i don’t think zep would ever want to be an apprentice.

after his encounter with adam, zep has scars across the side of his face, and there’s very small patches on his head where hair isn’t able to grow anymore. he of course got a severe concussion from the beating too, and he now gets headaches and migraines a lot. (i really don’t know how the scars would look or if the hair thing makes sense and googling “blunt force trauma scars” like my friend suggested… did not work to say the least)

he often wears beanies or has his hood up to try to cover some of the scars. (this later on will lead to logan constantly calling him handsome and beautiful)

obviously zep quits his job at the hospital, and he ends up working at some shitty restaurant in a mall food court where he eventually reunites with logan

zep and logan already vaguely knew each other from working at the same hospital (zep always had a lowkey hallway crush on logan)

logan was shocked to see zep had survived, as john never told him and logan never had any reason to go to the bathroom.

zep was at first unaware that logan was now john’s apprentice, but eventually he figured it out. it made him really nervous at first, which made logan upset. after many conversations with logan, zep grew to trust him again

in general, zep is a lot more on edge after his test, and is almost constantly anxious unless he’s with logan. he’s always scared lawrence is going to find out he’s alive and hunt him down for what he did to alison and diana. (logan would eventually talk to lawrence about it and make sure it was safe for zep to be around the other apprentices… not that zep even wants to be around them that often)

general / cute relationship stuff:

after logan and zep reunite, they start “hanging out” a lot (they’re basically going on dates but neither of them will admit it)

logan is bi and zep is gay and transmasc (no cis man is named shepherd. btw that is his canon full name according to the script ^_^)

zep has never been in a relationship before, so he’s very inexperienced with everything that comes with being in one (but he’s usually not shy about it. just nervous. i dont want him to be some shy blushing twink because he’s NOT that he is a little weirdo)

logan on the other hand has been in some relationships before, but never anything too intense. or anything with a man. so it’s new for both of them.

zep fell in love first, obviously. he was down bad the moment logan was nice to him. logan fell for zep not long after, although he denied it at first.

i also headcanon zep as being autistic, so I think he’d have a lot of unique ways of showing his affection for logan, who would find all of these absolutely adorable. (he’d do something stupid like point at a crushed monster energy can next to a crushed root beer can on the side of the road and be like “that’s so us” and logan would shed a tear out of pure joy)

logan is very careful and gentle with zep, always making sure he’s comfortable and feels safe.

if is an au where adam survives… logan would absolutely detest him for hurting zep. He wouldn’t harm adam, of course, but he would just glare and stare at him angrily while adam tries to figure out wtf is going on. i don’t think zep would hate adam for what happened; he understands very well the circumstances of john’s games.

zep listens to music like oingo boingo and the cure, but logan is a full on country guy and it drives zep insane. eventually logan gets into better music but still brainrot popular radio stuff like nsync & the backstreet boys.

zep will deny this, but he thinks the scars on logan’s back are very attractive in a way. he is actually so physically attracted to logan it makes him dizzy.

random logan headcanon: i think he is southern and moved to [whatever city saw takes place in] when he got older. sometimes his old accent will peak through in his voice, and boy oh boy did zep immediately start having some interesting thoughts about logan dressed as a cowboy the first time he noticed it.

and that’s it for now!! i really wanted to make this post cuz i’ve been fixated on logan & zep for almost two months now and i’ve been completely alone :’) this is all probably really out of character for them but i dont care i love them so much. if anyone makes content of them (PLEASE DO IM BEGGING YOU) feel free to tag me cuz i would absolutely love to see it!!

bonus playlist:

[noxturnallyevermore]

NOTHING of what you said so far, nor in your posts, has EVER read as "I support him being bi" it LITERALLY reads as you saying Eddie HAS to like women

I dont see you talking about his possible interest in men ANYWHERE, only him liking women and then you use "just say you hate bisexuals" as a coverup

news fucking flash, eddie liking women isn't canon either, it was never stated in the show that eddie liked chrissy

and if you want to bring up that joseph said that eddie possibly had a crush on her, then I'm bringing up how he said the same thing about steve

or if you want to argue his behavior towards chrissy, I'll bring up the same about steve

you come onto MY post, you say that my headcanons won't be canon when I said IN THAT POST that he at least has to be bi, then you say I have to get over the fact that he likes women when I've never said anywhere that I even care if he likes women or not, I literally said several times that my headcanon doesn't fucking matter because they CAN'T use Icarus, a gay icon, for something straight, then you called me biphobic when I called you homophobic because you ARE BEING HOMOPHOBIC

the topic was NEVER about him liking women as much as YOU tried to make it that way

then you go and make a post basically tagging that I'm pressed, literally just fucking tag me you coward ass bitch, when I literally tagged my post as a RANT and the entire time I was upset about ICARUS BEING USED FOR SOMETHING SUPPOSEDLY STRAIGHT, which you fucking ignored

I have said multiple times that I don't care about Eddie's sexual orientation besides him being straight because if he's straight, then that erases Icarus being gay for being associated with the likeness of a straight guy

if your issue is that you don't understand how icarus is a gay icon, fucking research it

do you not understand how hurtful it is for straight people to touch gay culture and make it straight? that's literally the definition of oppression, you dumb ass bitch

it doesn't matter if it's referencing a song because that song is from the 80s and icarus means something differently now than it did then, and EVEN THEN, that song can still be applied to gay themes just because it is about icarus and the sun and being betrayed by his father, which idk if you know this or not, but queer people get disowned all the time for coming out as queer to their parents, it especially happened more back then

so you obviously know WHY I'm pressed and it has nothing to do with Eddie liking women alongside men but rather Icarus being used in association with straight shit

either that or you can't fucking read and I'm starting to opt for the latter

and I'm sorry if English isn't your first language or if you have a reading disability, but you really shouldn't go and start shit like this if you can't read properly, especially if you plan to publicly talk shit about the people you're starting shit with

im tired, im done, im not arguing this anymore because you REALLY don't understand a SINGLE thing im saying and im blocking you

I fucking hate blocking people but you're annoying and talking to you is like talking to a brick wall, so fuck off, do some research, work on your reading skills

i was accused of being homophobic again lmaooooo

[matan4il]

Different anon here but that Abby post made me laugh because I was just thinking how they also accidentally or intentionally created a parallel between Abbys mom and Eddies Christopher. They dont shy away from Christophers needs or the fact that yes there are challenges. But they made it so Buck can step into the situation with him. Not sure if that makes sense. Because sometimes I see people get annoyed I ship them as a family so hard. But for me, Christopher is such a huge dynamic of why they are so rootable. Buck shines so well in those nurturing roles. He really compliments Eddie so much as a father.

Like you know when they get married Bucks gonna demand that they honeymoon at the most inclusive resort he can find and of course Chris is coming too!!

Hi Nonnie! Thank you for the ask! ^u^ I’m assuming you’re replying to this?

SO MUCH THIS! I know I addressed it at some point, but I have written so much Buddie meta, I'm now sure anymore where and can't check (if anyone can find it and point it out for me, I would be so grateful! Having Vertigo and having difficulties to read your own words truly sucks).

But it was just screaming so loudly at me, how reluctant Buck was in 109, how much he wanted to run away, until Bobby essentially told him to man up, meaning Buck stepped into the situation with Abby because he was told to. But in contrast in 204, he naturally steps into the situation with Eddie, even though Eddie isn't his bf and Buck has zero obligations, even indirect ones, regarding Chris, no one has to talk him into it, Buck CHOOSES to step into Eddie's mess with him, and he does it without hesitation, without regret, he finds the right solution for Eddie right away, and he only immerses himself further and further in even though he could have introduced Eddie to Carla and be done with it. But no. Because Buck WANTS to be there for the Diaz boys.

And I agree with you! Again, something I said at some point, I think maybe somewhere in my first round of Buddie meta, but what makes Buddie shine as a ship isn't just their dynamic, though that's stellar without a doubt. Buddie are so special because we have almost no slow burn male romances (I'm so close to saying "none outside of soap operas"), and because they're friends first, and because they could be include bi rep (one or both) which is STILL so overlooked even as more and more gay, lesbian and trans characters are included in a lot of shows. But they are ALSO REALLY SPECIAL in that they are a family with Chris. All three of these boys have fully embraced this family unit, and their love when they're together literally shines, just look at that scene at the end of 312!

And I fully agree with your headcanon about the Buddie wedding. In conclusion, the show is insane for this, and they made us insane too, but it's the best insanity ever! Thank you again! xoxox

(I got an influx of asks, I WILL answer all of them, but it might take a sec. If anyone wants to check whether I've already answered theirs or to read my replies, here's my ask tag. Thank you! xoxox)

[ocdhuacheng]

The thing that often bothers me the most with the genderbending (wrt Xie Lian) is that the fandom doesn't acknowledge how (strongly) against adopting a female form XL was when SQX tried to persuade him. Like. It was smth very on the nose. But ppl also don't acknowledge that XL doesn't enjoy cross-dressing, either, it's just smth he doesn't feel bothered by anymore (after centuries of the world beating you down, shame isn't smth you care about) and goes ahead with if he has to for a job (plus: annoying fanservice). So, there is a fundamental lack of wanting to acknowledge that gender isn't part of XL's character arc. At all. (He very much likes being a guy.) It is a little for SQX, only. Hua Cheng has this whole shape-shifting shtick, so a case could be made.

(Similarly, I don't get the rare fem!FengQing... Have ppl read/watched their reaction to possibly dressing up as brides???)

Also, that beefleaf is hailed as this lesbian icon ship when I am pretty sure that He Xuan is never thrilled to be female but only goes along with SQX's pestering... I have seen ppl start tgcf because of lesbian beefleaf only to be disappointed and... not cool.

I have nothing against genderbending myself. Not the biggest fan of it but it can be fun sometimes (like. If ppl were to explore canon stuff with it. I have never seen or read about SQX's relationship with gender; e.g. their feelings about it, feelings about having grown up as a girl, SW's disapproval etc. - there is so much one could do, but ppl water it down or erase the struggles altogether. And don't get me started on the glaring lack of female form HC. If he were the preferred bottom, we'd never see an end of content). It just bothers me how often characterization isn't considered in these cases.

And I think you brought your feelings about it across well! I get what you mean and you are right.

yeah like people can headcanon what they want wrt gender but given that the canon indicates xie lian is completely comfortable as a man and very much NOT comfortable as a woman its very sus that everyone turns to him as the one to be ~turned into a female~ in fanworks and not hua cheng, who canonically shapeshifts into a feminine body sometimes.

one of my mutuals said that the watsonian (within the text) explanation for xie lian constantly crossdressing is legit while the doylist (authors intent) explanation is that mxtx wants to make people think of him simply as a feminine uke or the wife or whatever. and theyre right. which is why if tgcf were written by a gay or bi man i would be completely comfortable with the crossdressing/pretending to be pregnant woman arcs, but its not so whenever i read those sections i get vaguely annoyed at them.

though those arcs were also pretty transmisogynist with how much mxtx kept having to remind us over and over about how "weird" and "degenerate" xie lian looked or whatever. but thats another conversation

also about beefleaf............ saaame. i thought they were lesbians u_u (i mean i knew that mxtx would never write a lesbian because i dont think she knows lesbians exist, BUT you know what i mean) i was so disappointed when mxtx had to specifically say that he xuan did not enjoy being in a feminine body and just went along with it to appease sqx. like that felt like such a slap in the face. whatever. my city now

and it would have been awesome if mxtx had gone into sqx's feelings on gender more..... like even just devoting an extra or two for it. especially after they loose their powers, i want to see their feelings on gender then! because it seems like after they become mortal everyone always just views them as a man by default, and their genderfluidity is never mentioned again!! i want to see sqx, who had become used to being able to change their appearance, have to deal with no longer being able to do that. and to be able to accept that this doesn't make them any less genderfluid/trans, and they can be a woman even if they cant shapeshift anymore. i think that would be a nice little character study to have included.

[stunt-lads]

Go off about richie ecks. Tell me about Richie Ecks. Gimme the good food, Ecks! Please, I'm starving. 😢

god 

fucking

richie tozier 

i love richie tozier so much lock, i love him to bits 

but that boy is so fucked up and he needs a hug 

lets operate under the assumption that richie is well loved by his family, like in book canon, he’s loved and appreciated 

but like the thing is...they live in Derry 

and we know how things are amplified in Derry, the good becomes bad, the bad becomes worse

and i imagine even good parents are gonna be distant in Derry. because that’s just how Its influence is. and let’s assume his well meaning and loving family is just a typical all American family, happy and healthy, but...richie’s afraid of going missing and that makes sense right? compared to Bill’s ‘deny and repress’ parents and Bev and Eddie’s ‘love is a means of control’ parents...yea richie has it pretty good. even if his parents maybe forget he exists sometimes. maybe wish he was someone else. maybe indulge him but it always feels superficial. 

and that’s Its fault right? lets say yea, thats the reason they’re distant. 

but like i feel like there’s a bigger reason we saw richie’s main fear as the missing poster. i know he said clowns scared him, and like sure, clowns are terrifying. i hate clowns and maybe richie shares that fear with me. idk

but i do know that when a kid like richie, one who has spent his whole life trying to make jokes, to make friends is afraid of something 

its usually a fear of abandonment 

i think richie is afraid of being abandoned because ‘what if they see the real me?’ and ‘if i don’t make jokes and keep them around are they going to want me to leave?’ seem like fitting fears for someone who makes jokes and can’t be serious for more than 10 seconds

and it also makes sense 

for a closeted kid

and 

like i know this is everywhere but like 

heres the thing, we see richie being locked in a room with clowns but that...that’s not the main focus is it?

the main focus is richie’s own dead body in a puppet form right? sure the clowns are scary but, a missing poster?, a puppet that is decaying and rotting?, being told someone knows his secret?

richie is afraid of abandonment for being gay (or bi/pan, i’m going off my own headcanon here for simplicity’s sake) 

and i think abt that a lot in regards to Ch. 2 (which yes ok ive seen 1 Time and i wanna rectify that as soon as my ps3 is unpacked) 

i imagine as an adult, losing the memories of Derry, forgetting abt the crushes he had on a couple of boys, how much his friends meant to him, probably left a lasting mark on his ability to form meaningful relationships 

but specifically friendships 

he makes a joke and expects a retort that never comes from a person who’s name is on the tip of his tongue but he can’t, no matter how much he wracks his brain, remember

or he’ll turn instinctively to make a joke or receive a high five and catch himself because he doesn’t know why that muscle memory is so fucking intense and people see him and think he’s weird (bc hes not famous yet so he can’t be eccentric) and don’t want anything to do with him

and then when he gets his memories back, after mike calls and he goes on stage and just fucking tanks it, those memories, those fears are resurfacing 

no one is going to want me around if i can’t make myself useful 

and he’s right right? i mean it would be nothing for him to just tank and become a meme before disappearing into obscurity. so when he sees his friends, remembers everything they’ve been through, he’s probably overwhelmed and terrified and he goes back to that easy “make stupid jokes to pretend things are fine” mindset

especially when he sees the men he had a crush on. 

and he

can

do

nothing

about it 

because they’re both married.

imagine that.

it’s no wonder he wants to be the center of attention. it’s no wonder that in 27 years his fear hasn’t changed at all 

because while this time he reads an obituary, it’s still the same isn’t it? 

because maybe it wasn’t him going missing that really scared him. maybe it was facing his own death. his own mortality. being forgotten. 

and he doesn’t want that. not even for others 

like he made a point to visit the synagogue even though he didn’t have to when they were trying to find their tokens. he reminisced about stan. did anyone else? 

no.

not while on their own. not really. not the same way richie did. 

and at the quarry, after It is defeated, they all miss eddie, of course they do, but it’s not the same is it? none of them cry about eddie being gone like richie does.

and sure, unrequited love or whatever could play a factor, but richie probably doesn’t want eddie to be forgotten. imagine how terrifying that would be to deal with, living your own fear of being forgotten and forgetting people important to you and then you lose someone you care about and you wonder ‘is this going to disappear again? am i going to forget again?’ as much as richie wants to believe he wants to i dont think he does want to

i think he wants to remember them. all of them. 

WHICH REALLY leads me to the whole heart of it!! 

richie tozier got the worst deal from the whole fucking thing didn’t he?

bill is married, he has a lovely wife, a nice home, a (somewhat) stable career that he doesn't have to worry about when he returns to his life 

mike gets to leave derry, finally, and travel and get away and not have to be the lighthouse for them all anymore

ben and bev get together, they’re childhood sweethearts, they get to ride off into the sunset together, have children maybe, definitely a dog, they get their happily ever after

and what does richie get?

a dead friend and a dead love interest. 

a tanked comedy career (because lets be real, it would be tough (if not impossible by todays standards) to come back from that).

a fear of forgetting the two most important people to him.

and the ever-looming reality that he’s going to die too one day and disappear into obscurity. 

[favoriteliar-archive]

I feel the same way as u do abt the discourse thing but I’m in the opposite situation. Hearing Syd being called a dyke and her feelings around boys vs with Dina really resonates with me. No one is telling u ur a lesbian or that u have comphet, it’s just that Syd does. Syd rlly means a lot to me as a lesbian and I have never felt more represented and to see ppl twisting that makes me feel sick and disgusted with my sexuality. I really feel for you and I have a lot of respect for you

thank you for your words. i think this is a very. difficult situation to say the least. i wish there wasnt as much hate as there is.

even though i dont see her as a lesbian, i dont want to invalidate people's opinions. if you want to headcanon her as a lesbian thats fine! i just cant hear anymore "theres no way shes bisexual" because a lot of times, the arguments sound a lot like "shes too gay to be bi" or "she just doesnt know what she wants" which are very harmful stereotypes of bisexuals being "greedy" or "not gay enough" and whatnot.

i really wish people didnt have to fight for characters to feel represented. i really wish that more positive lgbt characters existed in mainstream media. i hope syd's sexuality, whatever it may be, gets explored more since the show seems to be placing more emphasis on it than the graphic novel, and that she is good representation for whatever she may be.

[decaynow]

ok anon i’m sorry i have some Learning Disorder Shit going on so i’m gonna write my thoughts out so i can like. make sure I’m understanding this i’m sorry. I’ve read this like four times and I’m like “??? wut?”

In the first one you’re saying people think headcanons are fine, but the second anyone actually believes it, they get mad? I’m just clarifying because again I’ve read that a bunch and I only just now realized that’s what you’re saying DHDHDHSH,,

And then in the second ask youre saying... if the source material never flat out says they’re cis, then there’s no reason why they couldn’t be trans, but the moment you say “I hc X as trans!” people get mad at you for it (and you are right, as I have directly seen this, lol) and that most people’s lgbt headcanons for characters are usually for their sexuality and not their gender?

Please let me know if I understood all of that correctly!!! Sorry I’m just terrible at like. Understanding stuff haha. But yeah if that’s all right I agree with you. No one’s really arguing over whether characters are gay or bi anymore, at least not that I (luckily) have to see. But running a trans headcanon blog... ya see it a lot.

And I get it! I get that people maybe want more canon trans men posted, and hoo boy would I love to post them! But I think people are underestimating just how many trans men exist in fiction that are explicitly stated or at least clearly hinted at to be trans or gnc. And headcanons are fun and important, so of course I’ll accept them! Sometimes I see a headcanon I personally don’t agree with. But just because I don’t think that character is trans doesn’t mean I delete the submission or complain in the tags or something. It’s not my place to do that!

If I see something I don’t like, I just move on. People forget that another human (or, in my case, ghoul/hellhound lol) is reading what they’re saying, so they don’t stop to consider that... negativity hurts.

Anyways, I don’t wanna like, totally ramble. I’m just tired of seeing people say they don’t want a character posted because “he isn’t trans” “we see them as a child so we know they aren’t trans” “i dont like trans people, so he isn’t trans” “lmao disgusting [slur] absolutely not” “oh do you think he’s trans because [personal part of the character or something]?” “leave my baby alone he isnt trans” “i dont want gross cis people listed as trans representation”

^^^^^^ those are all real responses (probably not totally verbatim) that I have seen on posts. And it’s... so exhausting. Like we get it. If you don’t like it just block the blog, or the tag, or just keep scrolling. People are convinced their negative opinions matter and they DONT 👏

Ok anyways i’ve talked enough lololol. I’m glad at least one other person out there like... understands that even if you don’t like a headcanon it doesn’t mean you should start attacking the OP for it. i hope u have a good day u funky lil person...

[gaydinobots]

scorponok, flame, and/or stardrive and swoop

im gonna try to answer all of them but im starting out with my fave becasue,,,yeah (everything else will be under a read more)

swoop

sexuality headcanon this giant metal lizard bird is gay and there’s nothing hasbro can do about it 

otpi fucking love swooplock obvs but,,, im very soft towards idw swoopslug (in general polyam dinobots make me soft) 

brotphim and snarl + strafe due to my own hcs but outside of the dinobots? i think hed like the scavs…..rowdy boy meets more rowdy boys (also uhhh brainstorm,,)

notphes not popular enough to get a lot of shitty ships thank god but. aligned shockwave/swoop its unfortunately out there :/ 

first headcanon that pops into my headhe subconsciously does a spiderman perch stance after a while in robot mode and it tends to be more frequent if he happens to be standing on higher ground 

one way in which I relate to this characterim gay and i like seeing drama between ppl if i dont like them even if still wanna be a good person alkdsfj

thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this characterthe fact hes…..genuinely my favourite transformer makes me incredibly embarrassed,,, also his stupid design

cinnamon roll or problematic fave?all the dinobots fall under problematic fave

stardrive! 

sexuality headcanonlesbian / bi w/ a pref for girls! idk much abt her since im. not intending to read the space knight parts anytime soon 

 otpslashdrIVE CUTE,,,, i want them both. to have. Gf

brotpdont know enough to make a Full On Brotp but i want her to have friends!!! she sounds like shes been thru a lot ;___; (maybe another camien? preferably nautica. she’ll probably Never Meet Her but i can dream) 

notpstardrive/starscream i know its out there ive been on the internet too long 

first headcanon that pops into my headOUGH i wish i knew enouogh abt her but seeing that panel w/ her and that plush?? id think shed like to collect memorabilia from planets!!  

one way in which I relate to this character her being lonely and wanting to just have someone to talk too Lma.o

thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this characterNOTHING shes adorable im in love w/ her 

cinnamon roll or problematic fave?cinnamon roll…….

scorponok

sexuality headcanon he’s not straight thats all i know

otpyoure slowly getting me into scorpflame so ill put it here……i cant properly get into it yet but. H

brotpsdfdsfs im sorry i cant actually answer this question 

notpis scorp/grimlock out there??? god i hope its not

first headcanon that pops into my headhe gave himself the ability to glow in UV light to mimic actual scorpions for no reason other than he can. also secretly likes kids? idk

one way in which I relate to this characteri dont think ive ever related to him before oop

thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this characterthe baby

cinnamon roll or problematic fave? he falls closer to problematic face def

flame

sexuality headcanonhmmmmmmmm,, gay! 

otpsee scorponok’s ans! i dont think i have anymore ships w/ them :0

brotphm. i like to think! he kinda gets along w/ the scavs because he knows flywheels!!! also hed get along w/ any chaotic energy science dude 

notpwhats the worst ship he could get?? 

first headcanon that pops into my headsometimes he likes to see his bf glow in the dark its fun. i really have nothing im so sorry

one way in which I relate to this characterH. Gay 

thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this characterok u might snipe me for this rev but for some reason my brain was convinced flame would sound like lightning mcqueen for a month 

cinnamon roll or problematic fave?ok my brain tells me latter but i trust this lil science man so hes neutral

[saints-row-2]

omg thanks for such a good response!! if you want, i'm interested in what you think about johnny coming to terms with his sexuality separately from boss. i really like that & agree

OK SO as far as im concerned Johnny is absolutely a bisexual man and also he is a man who is surrounded constantly by hypermasculinity and the glorification of masculinity and in a lot of ways he exemplifies that and hes comfortable exemplifying that. hes a big, strong dude who loves killin and fighting and he doesnt fucking have time for shit like “feelings”. hes cool guy tough man and he has lots of big guns. what the fuck else do you need.

and as you may well know “being a tough, strong man” and “being gay or bi” are not always ideas that people have balanced very well and i think for most of his life Johnny’s perception of gay people was probably that he didnt care about that shit, but he also had definitely absorbed the stereotype of what a gay man is and thought that that was true. and while i think Johnny also would not have a problem with a guy who is gay and flamboyant or effeminate he also is not that guy which means for a long time Johnny’s logic was NOT THAT = NOT GAY

so i think for most of his life Johnny’s attraction to men (or in my Boss’ case, a person outside the gender binary) is something he just ignores. it is easy to ignore. he can quite happily date women and he does and he has a very long and happy relationship with a woman which would yes say. hes not gay!

but he is bisexual and while i dont think Johnny was ever homophobic he did definitely massively absorb a lot of society’s homophobia and that makes things complicated. because he is attracted to men and i think on a lot of occasions he doesnt really see this. i personally think he had a crush on King, but i dont know if Johnny would have necessarily even realised that his awe of King being So Badass was. attraction.

like Johnny is not an emotional dude. he is either chill and happy or he is annoyed and rarely is he anything else and hes not the kind of person overwhelmingly inclined to be introspective and all that means hes not in touch with whats goingon inside him which means bad shit festers. he doesnt shift out of the fucked up trap of internalised homophobia because he doesnt realise hes in it. thats of no fault of his own but thats how i see it.

so when i say dating Boss was a separate issue; like i said, his relationship with Boss is simple and comes naturally to them both. however the Boss im talking about in this scenario is not a woman. and there in lies the issue because suddenly you cant lay a claim on heterosexuality anymore and maybe you can keep living in comfortably not questioning yourself but other people arent going to let you. other people are going to ask questions and you cant (unfortunately) punch all of them.

i dont think Johnny has had to ever care what people think about him because Johnny is so blisteringly confident in himself that anyone else’s criticisms just melt in the wake of that confidence. he knows he is the coolest fuckin guy around. a lot of the Saints in sr1 criticise him for being what they would consider “a fucking psychopath” but as far as Johnny’s concerned, thats a compliment.

but sexuality is different. i have a lot of headcanons about why Johnny hates what the Saints become in SR3 and you could say this is kind of related to that. in SR3, Johnny hates that the gang have stopped being a gang and have become a corporate empire and ive said before thats because Johnny enjoys being the killer. the bruiser, the tough guy. he doesnt want to sign autographs and play nice at publicity events 24/7. that shit gets boring fast, but its also what the gang is just doing now, which leaves him in an uncomfortable position where his traits arent needed or valued and he isnt being seen how he wants to be seen.

and i think thats an issue yknow. in SR1 people hated him for the same reason they love him in SR2; being an unkillable killing machine. and he wants to be that. like i said before a gay man is seen as a weak man. and thats not an image Johnny wants. but also he is not a heterosexual man and he cant pretend to be any longer.

all this is to say that he gets put in a position where he has to actually start fucking questioning himself and questioning shit around him. which is like. actually not really very easy? and i dont think hes happy about it? but he loves Boss and wants to keep loving Boss.

so the long long long and short of it is; Johnny really lived in denial for a lot of his life and i DO think he definitely had sexual interactions with other men but he brushed them off without thinking about them because it was easy to and no one knew or cared about them. but when hes put in a position where people know and care about his relationships he has to stop being in denial. and that is not a fast or pretty process but its something that he has to do inevitably.

i think ultimately his own view of his sexuality in the end is that it doesnt really affect who he is and he doesnt think anyone should fucking dare try to goddamn push him about it. i dont think hes ever going to be an open person but eventually he finds his own peace of mind and that matters a whole lot more.

christ i hopes that makes sense

[ophexis]

Can you talk a little about being aromantic and how you came to realise you are?

Ooo hi anon!! ;w;

I put this under a cut cause it’s ended up accidently being a huge wall of text for something that isn’t super interesting to a lot of people but thanks a lot for the ask anon! ;w;

also this is probably not very coherent sorry about that ;w;

(disclaimer: also this is my own personal experiences and does not represent the experience of every single aromantic person on the spectrum)

aromanticism is simply just not feeling or experiencing romantic love.

For me being aromantic is…well nice, cause I didn’t have a word for it before I got in college. It’s also a bit strange. For one a lot of other aromantic people are very into physical intimacy anyway, and I’m….extremely repulsed by the idea of physical intimacy, so even in the aro communities I felt a bit out of place :’D (I eventually stopped looking at aromantic communities completely…it was….i dont really have a word for it aside than alienating)

But it’s also very freeing. I was never really convinced of romance, I went along with the whole ‘someday you’ll find someone’ thing cause….that’s what everybody does right? But nope. I can just be myself, on my own, and live my life to the fullest. No need to force myself to find a guy to spend all my time with, no need to have children….my life is my own, and it will always be. And it’s a nice way to think with how bad my anxiety, social anxiety, lack of self-worth and what everybody tells me is depression making me feel like honestly, I know be a fuckin awful mom. Kids deserve better, and I deserve to live my whole life how I want to. It’s a bit of a selfish way to see things, but I spent most of my childhood basically being owned by my shitty abusive friend who never let me live my life and do my things, and I intend to live for myself from now on. 

It’s also a bit alienating in fandom settings. Ships are the most important aspect of a fandom in most of them, shipping drives most of fandoms. Most shipping stuff makes me pretty uncomfortable, from the very aggressive way people push their romantic ships and ideas, and how you basically don’t exist when you don’t really ship anything, and how you know that nobody will ever really enjoy your aromantic headcanons, because “b-but muh ship”. You have people saying how obvious a ship is, that you’re stupid if you don’t see it, but hell you watched the same serie, played the same game, and….never saw any of the romantic subtext. You saw friends being good friends, and never really realised it could be romantic until you stumble on the fandom. I am so oblivious to what people see as romantic subtext TwT; I feel bad sometimes with how people scream IT’S SO OBVIOUS!! IT’S CANON!! and I’m like….idk man. I basically need the author to spell it out for me before I see anything romantic. It’s not because ‘oh no you hate that ship you big meanie so you say they’re just friends!!’, I just legit never saw anything in it that I’d interpret as romantic actions. I’d be really okay with ships if shipping didn’t turn a lot of fans into rabid animals tbh >3>;; I can easily warm up to ships when I stay away from the fandom. 

i have a few aro headcanons…Shaundi from Saints Row, Y’sthola in ffxiv, Sailor Mars (her manga personality mostly), Peridot and Lapis (people would hate that one), Rey from Star Wars…and all my ocs, unless specified otherwise, tend to be aromantic by default. Yuri is demiromantic. Towering Hound and Pupuri Puri are aro as fuck.

finding out there was a word for it was very liberating and made me feel like all this discomfort about romance and everything related to it wasn’t me being a lonely weirdo but was just something valid that other people experience as well.

And I still love my friends lots. I love my family. I love all of them very deeply and I care for them and wish them the best. I’ll just never love someone in a romantic way and that’s ok.

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and now for boring life story:

I am pretty sure I have always been aromantic (I just never knew that was A Thing before tumblr). It was in a childish way earlier, kinda, but I remember I refused to watch a lot of Disney movies with princesses in them cause I thought they’d just be love stories, and I thought it was boring as heck. I went along with the whole “girls wanna find boyfriends!!” stuff to fit in but I was never really much into the idea?

In high school I never had a crush on anyone, to the exasperation of my friends. My shitty abusive ex friend basically pushed me into the only “romantic” relationship I ever was in, with a guy i met on a Sonic forum (yep). he was a nice dude, but honestly I was never really….like I never felt any different than with a friendship you know? My friends also mocked me endlessly for this relationship so that was eeeeeh…Eventually we fell out of contact and he assumed we weren’t a thing anymore and he went in a relationship with a guy and I kinda found out accidently, it was awkward but then again I was just kinda….”welp i guess that’s that” (also cue my friends mocking me and saying I was such a bad girlfriend I ‘turned him gay’ even tho he was probably bi in the first place anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

I always just thought at that point that I’ll just wait and someday “I’ll find someone” cause that’s what everybody tells you no matter how uninterested you are.

Then in college I joined tumblr at some point. I do not remember who reblogged the picture with various orientations on it, including romantic ones, but thanks so much. I didn’t even know there were romantic orientations!! I saw aromantic, and something clicked. Like “holy shit that exists? That’s a thing??” I felt a bit bad initially to grab the label cause im still just a straight cis girl but I read more into it, and into other aro peep’s experiences, and I realised that yep. That’s me, that’s how I’ve been feeling all my life and it’s totally okay if I wanna remain single all my life, if all this shit makes me uncomfortable its not cause im a weirdo. 

being aro is a bit like standing on the sidelines while a bunch of people are screaming about how great this one thing is but you’re kinda “meh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯“ about it. Or kinda like when you don’t like booze (I don’t like booze) but everytime you’re at a party everybody’s trying to make you try all the booze “It doesn’t even taste like alcohol you’ll like it!” “oh try this one, I’m sure you’ll like this one”. It’s a bit like that. It probably doesn’t sound nice to people who experience lots of romantic love, but its nice and cozy for me if that makes any sense, and I don’t want to try it. I’ve tried it before, I didn’t like it. I’m done. (this statement applies to both romance and booze lmao)

my current life goals is to live in a nice lil cozy appartment with some kitties, on my own.

[randomuser678]

oowada!!

Sorry for taking so long, I was doing some stuff.Anyways, Mondo for that ask thing1: Sexuality headcanonOh well, I’m not really sure, I usually don’t put too much thought into sexuality HCs, I just kind of Hc everyone as gay until they show interest in other gender, then I HC them as bi, and with Oowada it isn’t that different, he mentioned being a train wreck when it comes to talking with girls, which can mean that he isn’t gay but compulsory heterosexuality is a thing so there’s that.I personally like to see him as pan, and I’m pretty sure he isn’t straight 2:otp Ishimondo, obviously. I try to be pretty open abt shipping, but Ishimondo is kind of my all time favorite, also I’ve seen some Gundham x Mondo fanart and I don’t know why but I like that one too, they are like two different versions of the same archetype (y'know, like, the tough edgy guy with a cute soft side to him) so I like that.Naegi x Oowada is also pretty cute, their thing on school mode is nice.3:brotpLike, an ultimate friendship? I think him and Ishimaru, cuz a romantic relationship needs to have a base in a platonic relationship to be healthy, and they are great friends in canon too so that’s a given.Another friendship that seems to be brought up on many of the dr merchandise and stuff is Oowada x Kuwata, for whatever reason (maybe cuz they are both punks, idk, and there’s also that picture so yeah) and Oowada x Fujisaki is also a pretty nice pair.And also there’s that dude from drae, Takemichi Yukimaru, according to the wiki, he’s from Oowada’s gang and he’s kind of Oowada’s right hand man, calmer than Mondo and totally has a crush on him. So yeah him too, even tho I don’t really know anything abt this tiny dude.4:notpWell, I don’t wanna get into some disk horse, but like I don’t like almost all of the pairings with him and a girl. I mean, I don’t think he really had a good relationship with any of the girls in the first game, and he said he gets too nervous to talk with girls, so that can only mean he should just date a dude instead. And also I super ship Ishimondo so I’m not even gonna pretend I’m not biased here.5:First headcanon that pops in my headHe’s furry, his underwear proves it.And also I like to see him with some tiger motifs and Ishi with dragon motifs cuz why not6:favorite line from this characterI couldn’t remember shit, so I went to the wiki and I’m sad now, but I love the comic lines he has when he’s aggressively denying things that nobody acused him of (“I can’t hit girls! It’s not like I’m scared of her or anything! Ya bastard!”). And there’s also the fact that one of his lines that he says when you ask him to hang out that’s like “Idk man, I dont swing that way”, which is something someone who swings that way would say, so love that line.7:one way on which I relate to this characterWell, he’s scared of everything all the time, so that’s relatable, but he reacts with violence and with impulsive decisions, which is the opposite of what I do (I just ignore my fears until they go away), but the most relatable thing abt him is that he does’t know what to do with his life, and he even went to Hope’s peak just so he could like run away from that insecurity, thinking that he would find some answers there, and I can understand those feelings so much (or at least I think I do). In the end his fears and insecurities take him to, y'know, death, and that’s such a beautiful tragic story, or I’m just giving it my interpretation.Also he’s in love with Ishimaru, so that’s even more relatable. 8:thing that gives me second hand embarrassed abt thos character Like, a thing that I don’t like? I’m not really sure. Well, I wanted more to be shown of him, like, I wanted more on his family, his relationship with his gang, and these sort of stuff. On the main storyline you couldn’t really see much of his more soft side, so I think I wanted more of that. And I like to pretend like tough guy with a cute side is the most original idea ever, but I think there isn’t much on him besides that, so I think I really want to see more sides of him, that aren’t just these two sidesAlso, we know what he thinks abt girls multiple times, too many times, so I want more of him with the dudes (not necessarily on the gay way but that would be great too)And finally the Ishimondo thing.Their relationship always was taken as more of a comic thing for the most part (like y'know how they bonded out of nowhere, and their interactions were just them being comically close to eachother and being more of a caricature of a relationship) , and as a result most ppl didn’t get too invested in their potential romance because the game only took it seriously on the trial when Oowada was going to die and Ishimaru was ok with having to sacrifice himself and breaking the rules just so his bf could live. So even tho their bonding was genuine, it wasn’t treated like a big, dramatic, unnecessary romance like most of the straight relationships, and that bothers me, even tho they really gave importance to their later on, like how hopeless Ishi was after Oowada’s death and then he went super sayan like Hinata did.I think that I’m trying to say that I wish his relationship with Ishi wasn’t developed enough, even tho I still loved it. I also wish they had went with a more openly romantic story for them, which would give them more development and grownth as characters.So yeah, I don’t like how underdeveloped their relationship was and how much lost potential there was in it (they could have shown more of them on the anime adaptation or something).9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? I mean, he killed a kid half of his size and tried to get away with it (kind of) so like, IDK???This separation in only two groups of characters based on their actions is stupid.But problematic fave I guess, because he killed a person, punched stuff, and because he’s a 3 dimensional character whose actions have understandable reasons and a characterisation that allows people to see him both as agood person and as a bad person, leaving him on a pretty grey area just like most of the characters on this franchise about high schoolers murdering eachother beacause an evil bear said so.Thank you really much for sending that ask!! Feel free to reblog and stuff, and I hope I get more asks soon!! And also how the fuck do I tag stuff on mobile anymore.