#not feeling very creative atm lol

[storfulsten]

Do you think BF would ever be able to convince Whitty to wear one of those cat-ears headband things?

mm well don't see why not lol

have a vaguely related-but-not-really doodle I guess bc why not ha

[seventeendeer]

I do tons of creative stuff that I'm really proud of and love to death, but I never have any good creative tips to share with anyone bc my workflow is literally just "wait until the moment the idea of working on the thing makes you sooooo happys and then do it perfectly on the first try! and if it's not perfect on the first try, give up and do something else :)" like idk maybe I'm built wrong. or maybe it's everyone else in the world who's built wrong. anyway pro tip for making cool stuff all the time for all the artists and writers and whatnot out there: follow every stupid whim that comes over you, don't fuck up ever, and make sure to give up when things don't go your way 👍 it just works

[enchantedephiphany]

Yeah... I probably don't have the mental/emotional fortitude to be any kind of activist, even online. I get easily passionate about things like Freedom, Justice, but in the real world, not just Ideal Land, where everything is nicely clear-cut into good and evil, everything is messy. And people are nasty and resentful and fight even in their own group and I take on all that negative emotion and I have enough of that on my own. No strength enough even for myself in minor things so... not an asset. Same old story.

Best if I'm not involved bc I WILL go crazy esp if overtired from doing almost nothing. So.

Can't deal w conflict. I want to help even if it's just online but even that is too much for me lol. I absorb all the positive emotions which is good but negative as well and I. Can't take it

Yes I probably would die right away in any sort of actual conflict; if it came to having to survive on my own I'd also die. And my Ideals would probably fall away if someone so much as threatened me if I were in any sort of prison/torture situation so. Yes I I'm coward and an idiot and have no right right say anything to anyone. Stay in my own lane (until maybe the country crashes but I'll not be able to handle any sort of hard situation if the trump thing gets real bad... ) and not get involved which means shrinking down into almost nothing (which is me anyway, compared to the heroes in countries with actual awful circumstances who . Don't back down)

[intermundia]

So the fact that I have writer’s block is not a secret lol my ao3 last updated advertises the fact openly, and I’m trying to solve it. There are many reasons for it, mostly related to depression and addiction and other life-sapping problems that I am dealing with, but I know that the problem is also with the story itself. The muses have gone silent on War Drums in a very serious and unprecedented way.

I’ve just been bashing my head against the wall trying to figure out why it feels like that story that is the heart of my creative drive atm is dead in a way that I can’t force back into life. I’ve reluctantly come to the conclusion that the fact that the entire book was extensively and lovingly planned a couple years ago with architectural precision from the outside is actually the problem.

It was extremely fun back then to plan the book, chapter by chapter, planet by planet. That’s why I know we’re 15/45 of the way through that story, and each chapter represents about 3.125% of the total narrative. The character arcs follow beats timed according to percentage of the way through, like at 37% and 62% of the way through there are important conflicts that evolve their relationship, etc. It's solid and settled.

This is a problem because it’s no longer a mystery to write, and so not as fun to write, you know? It’s filling out a form that was outlined in the past, the mere execution of an idea that already exists fully formed in planning documents. I try to find energy to write from excitement about obikin’s relationship evolving, but I already know exactly when and how it happens, and so it just feels rote.

I remember how it felt to write Lex Talionis, and I KNOW that I can successfully write a 187k complete book. The difference with LT was that I felt the shape of that book and vaguely sensed plot points that I needed to happen, but my subconscious did the planning and writing it was more like discovering it. I need that energy back for War Drums if I'm going to finish.

Of course I really really really don’t want to throw away that much planning. It’s comforting to have the entire story on rails, and I can trust the pacing to that outlining structure. BUT I’ve spent the summer slowly coming to the realization though that it simply will never happen, and what I need to do is toss the outline in the bin, reread the beginning, see what threads are there, and dive off into the unknown.

So I don’t know how War Drums is going to end anymore. Or I knew how one version ended, it was satisfying, and maybe after I finish the version I am about to write, I will share the old dense outline. I’m going to make it fresh by making it new, and hopefully that means more story will come this fall. It’s a creative project unlike anything I’ve ever tried before, so we’ll see, but I feel intrigue and a hint of inspiration, so I need to chase it.

[wriokitty]

option 2 u know the details

# FAILBOY DAZAI OSAMU

Okay so I haven’t watched bsd since the pandemic and I didn’t even make it that far in the first place so there’s not too much for me to go off here besides what I know from you LOL so bear with me:

As far as writers go I think dazai is pretty into dark content especially yandere and maybe pseudocest. He writes a lot of au’s and comes up with a lot creative lore of his own but he’s pretty fond of just sticking to regular good old canon compliant fics too. He’s pretty versatile like that. But I think the best part is that he is insanely good at writing long, and very chilling dark content fics and it’s excellently planned out and paced and he knows it, too, so he’s insanely cocky about his writing 💀 and I also feel like he’s the type of guy who reads a lot of novels and is low key pretentious about it like “that fic was such a wannabe [ insert book ] but obviously they missed the main focal point that the author was trying to make, which is why their fic is so stale and….” And anyone who dm’s him on discord is like bruh . Be quiet you freak LOL. The only thing is that his smut is not bad at all, but not his strongest suit so that’s the only thing he’s a bit self conscious of as a writer.

But he has EXCELLENT characterization of you. He makes banger hc’s and posts them and reblogs them with a drabble underneath and they do numbers without making it to the main tags bc he just says the juiciest and also objectively correct stuff and it makes everyone feral. But he also reads the tags and clenches his fist like “yeah you guys can agree bc I’m always right but . Don’t agree too hard that’s MY girlfriend” LOLLLL. His masterlist isn’t even “[ Fandom ] Masterlist” it’s “Carina Masterlist” and it’s his only masterlist atm because he only fixates on one character at a time per fandom if he’s a fanfic writer and you’re the only one for god knows how long it’s been so he’s never even made a general fandom masterlist. It’s just you LMAO.

He’s vehemently no sharing. Absolutely doesn’t follow any blogs that are Carina selfshippers, absolutely does not let them follow him either LOL he softblocks or hardblocks depending on his mood. He has mad beef with Fyodor LMAO HE VAGUES HIM ALL THE TIME and the best part is Fyodor is maybe the second most, if not just as popular Carina blog, too, but Fyodor writes the actual smut a bit better and makes BANGER FUNNY SHIT-POSTS and it makes Dazai soooo mad bc I don’t see him as being quiet as funny as Fyodor HAHA. And even better is Fyodor hardly ever acknowledges his vague posts but on a rare occasion he makes one that absolutely GAGS Dazai so he has a full blown meltdown on discord to whoever will listen. It’s so funny.

I think he’s always answering hate asks too. He finds them mainly amusing I don’t think he’s the type to really care that much about what ppl say bc again . He’s objectively very very very talented at writing and he knows it—to an infuriating extent, in fact. He knows that his worldbuilding and prose are very impressive and that even the areas he’s weaker in than others, are better than most fics in the tags so in terms of writers, he’s kind of the fandom’s gold mine. The hate asks mainly come for his personality but he just responds like “yeah? And this personality is exactly her type so go cry about it” and he’s borderline delusional 💀

He gets a decent amount of comms, I think. I think he’s a little less creative about the aesthetical visions of the comms and they’re very pretty bc he comms very expensive and talented artists, but his poses and ideas for any backgrounds and props aren’t the most creative—and then someone reblogs Fyodor���s very clever and creative comm with well thought out outfits, scenery, and poses and it makes him SO MAD™️ lollll. His theme is hideous, too. It’s not even simple or lacking, it’s just straight up bad . He clearly tries to make a good theme because you can tell the attempt was there but …… his eye for aesthetics is just so bad like SO SO SO BAD his pictures are old and outdated and low key cringe and they don’t even rly match in color schemes and his ability to organize things and make them pretty and orderly and also just easy to navigate is terrible. So his blog is hideous. But luckily his layout for fics is just title, warnings, and authors note with a divider so it’s simple and basic enough that it’s not an ugly fic that people swipe past LOL. He doesn’t even bother with making a fic header but occasionally if it’s a super long fic that’s near and dear to his heart he will just get a manga panel of you and crop it and add it 💀 he gets hate asks from Fyodor about his boring comms and ugly aesthetics and then he sends Fyodor hate asks about terrible characterization and “it’s so clear you get your opinions from minors on tik tok and reddit” LOLLLLL. He’s pretty unproblematic for the most part like he makes some highly opinionated posts here and there but he doesn’t lurk other blogs nor does he send anon hate out of pettiness but he does send to Fyodor. That’s his exception. He sends Fyodor so much hate and vice versa but they both know it’s each other so if they answer the asks it’s always them passively aggressively just communicating with each other and low key the whole fandom knows it too HAHA

ANYWAY that’s all I have for now if I think of any random extra tidbits will just message you with them bc blogger dazai actually makes me snort so much he’s soooo chronically online it hurts

TY FOR JOINING MY EVENT and for helping my plan it you are my soulmate 🤞

[legionofpotatoes]

All other criticisms of modern Star Wars aside, the thing that gets me the most is how every single story is being written to fit into some Avengers-level grand finale that just isn't laying a solid enough foundation to make it worth the wait. Regardless of whether the individual stories are good or bad, what makes them fall so short, imo, is that there's usually no real payoff within their own runtimes (unless you count cheap callbacks or loose promises of More, which you shouldn't)

Like, I already knew halfway through Ahsoka that we were in for a cliffhanger and it's just like...alright, guess we'll see how this ends in about 5 years? Even Mando, which had a great first season and was poised to stand on its own two feet and ride off on a rootin' tootin' bounty huntin' adventure, has ultimately become yet another dusty path on the road to the current Big Plot with an indeterminate due date. That's not deliciously addictive media, it's a dry-ass carrot on a spindly little stick, lol

Of course, this is a problem that many franchises are happily getting cozy with lately because everybody wants to have their own Infinity War / Endgame moment, but I guess it seems a bit more egregious with Star Wars because, ironically, it used to work best because it had less overall focus. Like, sure, we had concurrent movies, animated series, and games, but they were always happy to do their own things and tell their own stories with definitive conclusions. Now it all has to funnel into the Big New Plot and, man, I honestly just can't bring myself to care when it feels like an endless waiting game

I definitely need to get around to watching Visions at some point because, every time it pops up, it sounds like the lifeblood that Star Wars sorely needs atm

Yeah the setup-and-payoff a-to-b type dramatic clarity that seemed so entrenched into the very bones of cinematic grammar - up to around the emergence of streaming, wink wink nudge nudge - is sorely missed in star wars atm. sure maybe downsized writers rooms fidgeting with limited series formats instead of doing actual seasonal TV has something to do with it, but even that is probably such a small piece of the larger issue that spins all this longform storytelling bullshit ferry wheel around.

Another part is certainly chasing the MCU business model of it all like you said. Carrot on a stick is verbatim how I've often described these things myself, the endless promise of another promise of another promise instead of forming a complete thought with a beginning and an end. servicing the plot before story at all costs. another part still is reverence towards the aesthetic trappings of the source material instead of its themes, trying to nail the exact texture of tatooine's huts and dial in the perfect balance of lightsaber choreography and pay homage to a thousand iconic shots before articulating something true in the text.

And like it's an endless laundry list, this confluence of capital-I Issues both industry-scale and creatively-driven that seem to be flaying the skin off the bones of whatever star wars even "is" nowadays. no one can answer that in the context of billions of dollars made off toys and storylines centering around this one moment in fictional history about sons and fathers and empires and rebellions. so they just keep twisting in the wind filling in any gaps within that period. I don't know nonnie, it's all so bleak. ahsoka and obi wan and even mando tbh. as charming as season 1 was, it truly felt like it coasted on its incredible restraint to avoid muddying its aesthetic with cameos, and lucked into effective storytelling as a result of that utterly unintentional alchemy. that's obviously well and truly gone now as its true optics have reared head.

what star wars is by itself is such a pointless discussion, right? andor argues it's a perfectly functional heightened universe that can support incredibly nuanced and dramatically charged stories of grassroots rebellion and the bureaucratic strain of fascist regimes. visions argues it's a world beholden to the force, an endlessly mutable and elegant metaphor that can support infinite monomyths and fairy tales. both are equally fantastic at executing on their takes, despite being in diametrically opposite extremes of interpreting the source. so it's not really about that at all, why the other stuff sucks this bad.

they're just bad at the craft of it, that's really it. whether it's auteur worship or business decisions rotting that fish down, it still rots all the same. maybe the new writers' guild contracts can shift the winds a little, because I was so securely done with star wars and then the aforementioned 2 shows came and affected me. so, so profoundly that I'm back on the hook again. like a lil sucker!

[blushblushbear]

cashew headcanons please im so so gay for him

TIME FOR DIS NUT aka our darling little bookworm

cut cause I went on for a bit and none of it is important OOPS

okay first off since he's a college boy let's start with the fact that he has zero alcohol tolerance

like none

he'll have 2 sips of a light beer or a half a shot of malibu and he's red in the face sweating and swaying like 'oh wow, I'm really feeling it haha'

Same with coffee

anything past a normal strength cup he's VIBRATING

he doesn't have a heart condition like Nimh but give him a shot of espresso and he'll think he does

is constantly waiting for someone to ask him for book recommendations

and when they do he is sponge bob's eager face BOY IS OVER THE MOON

also he doesn't just read good books

he'll literally read anything

he ADORES trashy novels

especially if they're spicy *eyebrow wiggle*

he recognizes they aren't good but they are so wild and out of pocket like

WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE'S SECRETLY HIS EX'S BROTHER AND ALSO HIS STEP MOM'S LOVER AND DATING HIS EVIL SECRET HALF COUSIN WHOSE TRYING TO KILL THEIR UNCLE AND HIS DAD BUT CAUGHT FEELINGS AND IS NOW PLOTTING TO TAKE HIM HOSTAGE ////WHAT?!////

he'd love shows like gossip girl and pretty little liars if they were BOOKS instead

except OOPS they are actually and he'd love to infodump about that little fact to me if I let him (at least I think they both are?? I know pretty little liars is-- THAT PLOT IS /NUTS/)

honestly he loves when things are written well but he also loves when plots are NUTS

the only kind of nuts he can have

well... second kind

he'd be a secret college slut (respectfully and also def not actually a secret) if he wasn't head over heels for you

now he's just in your dms/texts constantly

his family is just as quiet and mousey as he is

everyone is just as nerdy

though his dad doesn't read as much-- he's more tv and movies and games nerd

he gets his love of books from his mom's side

he'd KILL to be a librarian

or work at a bookstore

English major vibes

but not just vibes that actually is his major lol

has def had a crush on 3 different librarians growing up and 1 creative writing teacher

can't math for shit

his favorite parts of campus friends taking him on nights out is him getting to read in little corners he can find and the 3am breakfasts at the local diner

I've talked about this before but him Nimh and Poe are in a book club together

he thinks Nimh is the coolest cause he's a PA for a publisher

can read a harry potter length book series in an afternoon (also hates terfs <3 )

his favorite genres are romance of any kind but he does have a special fondness for the trashier romances, fantasy, and he does love a mystery but mostly cause he can never see the twists coming

the smartest idiot you'll ever meet

or maybe he's the dumbest smart guy???

either way he is both very clever and very simple all at once

also very well meaning

incapable of wrong

only of oops

(a lot of oops actually, he's kinda clumsy)

once went a whole day without eating cause someone recommended a new series and he LIKED IT VERY MUCH

I wish for the life of me I could remember ANY book series atm

I know of a few by like--- vaguely what they're about but I can't remember their names

he could though

he will spend whole dates telling you the plot of a book series in great detail

loves pets

not great with them

also low key allergic to a few

big rip cause he loves cuddles

cries over a cat at a distance while sniffing

also really likes birds

met a few birds as a squirrel and now he knows Poe who was a bird so like--

birds are buds of his

can't say no to something cute

cute eraser, cute pen, cute notebook, cute cookie, cute you

just can't refuse cute

would totally rock a cottage core vibe if he could manage to keep a plant alive

he lost his ficus Marcel and he's still low key getting over it

uses a wallet sized photo of you as a book mark

def has you or a pic of you and him as a lock screen

the home screen is a pic of a page of a book

is very good at those 'name the book this opening line is from' challenge

good omens, both the book and the show, WRECKED HIM

actually good omens was his fav book to screen adaption thus far

he has a few others but he's more excited about good omens

wants to be friends with Aziraphale

I could ramble on forever but I think I'll end it here

loves that hack where you put cheese on ramen

[molar-bear-sims]

hello (again)! 💖

i feel very rusty with this, so you'll have to excuse the awkwardness, but hello! welcome! my name's eleanor and i'm a victim of the simblr resurgence 🙋😔

i blame the wonderfully creative ball of sunshine that is @vool-zam for this entirely because after years of barely touching my game, her presence on my dash not only inspired me to open it up again, but create a whole new save and blog too. she just seems to be having fun with ts4 again and i want to do the same! so thank you sam!! 🥰

anyway, long story short: i used to be @littlemissnellie, and whilst i'm proud of my valiant attempts at sim stories on that blog, on this one i'm just going to be heading back to my roots and posting some fun, legacy gameplay screenshots. because 1. i don't think my academically exhausted brain can handle much more atm lol, and 2. back when i was doing that with my beloved daleys (rip 🪦), right at the start of my blog, before i got caught up in the 'serious, aesthetic-y' side of simblr, that was the most fun i had posting on here. and i'd like to get back into that again!

so yeah, fresh start on a fresh blog - let's see how it goes! i'm so out of the loop with everything though so please recommend me some fun blogs to follow for inspo. and leave me some tips on how to make my blog look a bit prettier, because i seem to have forgotten everything 🥴

[scarefox]

Signed up to watch a 2h speech / presentation I need to attend... BUT it is online via zoom so I don't have to go outside and can sit on my couch in a blanket and drink coffe!

It's about new AI laws and legally save AI software... I need to know this as graphics designer 😔

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lol started with a AI animated avatar / deepfake of himself that totally looked AI because the hand movements didn't match what he said.

Oh no, he is a Zuckerberg fanboy.

This is going to be fun. (probably will get pissed along the way tho)

But they have some lawyers there to answer questions. Yay Christian Solmecke is there too (popular german media lawyer on yt)

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so far: unlike human made work, AI generated artwork or designs are not copyrighted (in germany) AND if the AI piece is based on an existing human made work and it's still visible in the AI piece you need to get the copyright from the original owner / creator (includes designs, logos, images, text and music)

Copyright owner can opt-out and sue if it's still gets used for AI training / generation (american laws aren't finished yet but also will go into that direction)

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They test different AI software to give out a little comic scenario. And oh boy as a graphic designer with knowledge about typography the text is triggering me so hard. It's so bad. SEE alone typography is an area that can't be made by a machine because even tho it is based on design laws it's still an intuitive human-eye based way of design. There is a difference between mathematical-centered and optical-centered.

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Man they are all so horny for AI and reduction of jobs and costs.... But no matter how good an AI could generate an image or video... it will never give you the raw files where you can do individual changes afterwards.

Besides that I still think humanity isn't ready yet for the power and options AI is giving us. (at least one of the very high quality AI builders isn't selling it atm because they are afraid that it will get misused for fake news and stuff, so they try to find a way to prevent that before they bring it on the market)

So many creative jobs and professions that will die out just for us to get 100% digital made "creative" content and advertisements :/ (so far even the most high quality AI still has some small uncanny vibe). Like even actors will be replaced in the future... all they need to do is allow companies to use their face / body.... there is literally a Black Mirror episode about that.

Reminds me of that one AI kpop idol project I have seen last year on tiktok.... absolutely creepy and wrong. I know some of us are simping over anime, game or vocaloid characters but... man idk, do yall want to simp over uncanny digital kpop idols who don't even exist nor actually work for their skills and talent? 💀 Being into an idol is not just about the visuals and songs, it's about their personality and individuality.... for me at least.... (but of course the kpop industry is one of the first trying this). I do like Taemin for example beacuse he's breaking out of the industry norms. AI dude could never be on his level.

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"Amazing. In a company in the US a CEO told us that with the use of an AI they could remove 700 jobs and save so much money!"

.... yeah cool. Maybe we should remove ALL jobs on this earth and let AI do it, so we humans don't do anything at all anymore. Oh wait, no, of course we still have to do hard repetitive labor like some work drones because it's cheaper than to build and maintain actual robots for these jobs.

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BRUH of course the event is mainly to sell an AI class from the hosting company. For the cheap price of 4900€ FOR THE LAST TIME because the next class will be over 6000€

I feel like AI bros always hype each other up to blow it all up artificially. Just like NFT and the mobile game market.

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DID HE JUST SAY that there aren't enough graphic designer and programmer on the market and that they will profit from the support of AI?? (it's actually oversaturated and therefore jobs are hard to get) AI bros really live in a secluded bubble hu? Of course none of these dudes in this event are from the creative industry but lawyers and CEOs

[brezelzeit]

OC info post! **completely nonpolitical, the time period this character is from and what he's associated with I do not endorse, but this should go without saying (ironically tho this character sorta ends up working against the bad things associated with that anyway tho lol)** Name: Tobias Schnur Born: September 28th, 1895, near Freiburg am Breisgau, Baden-Württemberg, Germany Occupation: Gestapo officer (rank: Kriminalrat (Major)) Height: 5'8" Gender: Male Physical description: Average build but slightly chubby, upturned nose, small beady eyes, soft in the face and belly, balding receding hairline on the sides, small silver vintage style wire frame round glasses Hair: Dark brown Eyes: Blue Clothing: Black suit, black fedora, red, black, and white striped tie, and occasionally a leather trench coat, although he does wear other suits and coats from time to time

Personality traits: Shy, quiet, calm, submissive, analytical, loyal, rational, anxious (he is calm but it's mostly a cover for this, fortunately he and/or others take care of this mood for him often), cynical, intimidating (to those he interrogates), mischievous, withdrawn, detached, sweet, caring, distrusting, skeptical, polite, warm, careful, melancholic, insecure, nervous, awkward, helpful, curious, inquisitive, easily embarrassed, thoughtful, sensitive, laid-back, hardworking, sarcastic, disciplined, cowardly, independent, capable, creative, romantic, friendly, playful, modest, cooperative, controlled, composed, inhibited, good mannered, inviting, seductive, passive, pessimistic, uncomfortable, intuitive, a wallflower Orientation: Gay MBTI profile: ISTJ Enneagram profile: 6w5 Likes: being alone with his thoughts, his boyfriend Dieter, daydreaming, creating, reading books, nature, keeping to himself, peace and quiet time, routine; doing things the way he is used to, feeling calm, self-care, his dog Schmutzig, playing accordion, detective work, sleeping, his patience Dislikes: the fact he can be very needy, his insecurities, being unhappy and unhappy people, immature and selfish behavior in others, overprotective behavior, feeling like he is unattractive, not knowing how to solve certain problems, people with attachment issues, his anxiety problems, being sickly, seeing those actually enjoy torture (he has to do it for work but he almost never takes sadistic pleasure in it, unless it's a very rare case that he has a personal conviction/attachment towards- he finds the behavior of some other Gestapo men insanely cruel), being bullied (both the memories from his past as a child and other Gestapo being a jerk to him for not being as cruel), loud noise, people yelling

Hobbies: playing accordion, reading, drawing, cooking, shopping for clothes, golf, soccer, swimming, going to the movie theater, listening to radio shows, collecting stamps Socio-economic status: lower middle class, leaning poor, born and raised on a farm in the off-skirts of a city Afflictions: has an illness- brought about due to a bad reaction to mustard gas in WWI. He tends to sweat profusely, get stomach aches, fatigue, nausea, randomly, although not everyday. Parents' names: Arnold and Beate Schnur. Favorite food: Cheese spaetzle with bacon or ham and onions and asparagus Speech patterns: pauses a lot and tends to interject "hehe" randomly into conversation. Has a breathy, soft, nasal voice; sort of high pitched, can get whispery at times. Here's a post about my main character/main ww2 OC Tobias "Tobi" Schnur! Most of these pics are older art I don't like as much now that I've improved a bit more, but it's all I have that's finished and on hand of him atm. Above is a bunch of basic facts about him!!! He's sort of inspired by/based on Toht from Indiana Jones in looks and clothing and mannerisms, but personality wise is a much better person and a bit more sympathetic. And more human, more 3D. And a heeeeccckkkk of a lot fruitier heheehhehe

[varganardi]

Heyy!

So, university has started again and the first three weeks of it has been... Overwhelming.

I'm finally out of my creative block, and have had the motivation for creative writing and working on my book/the project for school

Buuut...

Now I'm just really overwhelmed instead lmao 🥲

I feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster and I don't feel like myself rn.

Balancing between schoolwork, socializing with friends and posting on social medias is just a crappy combination at the moment

Especially since my interactions have been very low on this account lately :/ Idk if it's the algorhitms or my posts getting lost amongst others but it's making me really anxious atm I'm NOT saying this to sound petty or complain about popularity - it's merely my anxiety talking and discouraging me from posting because of it.

I can't really say I'll be taking a break - because I know damn well I might as well be back in two days once I'm less stressed

I'm usually good at explaining my feeling but I can barely do that right now, so I'm sorry if this makes no sense.

It's just a lot rn and I'm overthinking things.

So yea

If I'm inactive or missing out on my lovely mutuals posts/tags, that's why.

(If you saw the other post I made earlier about this - sorry lol, was gonna edit it but messed up 😭)

Love you all - ☕💟

[zephsthings]

intro post !!!

hi! i'm zeph (a.k.a. zephie//zephania star), i'm 20 and a brit (unfortunately my irish heritage is not strong enough to count as fully irish lol :< UPDATE TURNS OUT I AM ACTUALLY HALF IRISH!!!)

my pronouns are she/they/them, and now also star/astra/starfae !!! i'm a genderfluid/demigirl, (i vibe with both those labels) and a panromantic demisexual :3

these are the fandoms i most like to dip in and out of:

waterparks (the band)

httyd

transformers

b99

psych

the dragon prince

the mentalist

bones (tv)

probably some others i cannot think of atm (will add later haha)

i love to draw, write, read, (i'm an english nerd, sue me - literally studying english lit & creative writing hahaha) and i cannot survive a single day without listening to music :D

more info under the cut ->

i also really really really love space. please send me space stuff. it is my main special interest at the moment - yes, i am autistic !!! there are many other Things Wrong With Me (OCD, ADD, tRaUmA & cPTSD, insomnia, etc... yippee jackpot) chronically ill and disabled girlies rise !!! <3

feel free to send me asks or just chat to me! i'm very friendly :3 ask me about space, about my interests, music, OR MY BLORBOS !!! i am also always happy to talk about writing, whether that be yours or mine !!! i write both original stuff and fanfic ;)

i don't really have a DNI but if you piss me off best believe i will be using that block button :))) obviously this works both ways ;)))

i do vent a lot. sometimes in writing (poems, stories) sometimes in drawings, sometimes more explicitly. i am in recovery. i go to therapy. i have support, so PLEASE don't worry about me, i am FINE i am just DRAMATIC (it's the tortured poet within me) -- if this is not something u want to see, block me !!! it's okay, no hard feelings - your mental health is important <3

so yeah, that's all for now! have fun on my blog and stay safe online babies love u <3

am i the (gloom) boy you dreamed of?

(( my ramblings are always tagged "zeph just stfu", and friend tags are "[name] shenanigans" <3 ))

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not really a hate comment but this is about the fic 2nd lead 1st choice,

the story was well written, like from the writing perspective, but why is it so unrealistic

it was not a fantasy drama it was based on irl examples and it just felt too unrealistic for me to digest,

no actor goes around asking why someone was casted in the role they were.

it felt like a highschool drama with no meaning

srsly speaking i hated the toxicity it eluded, was absolutely not a good read for me

i genuinely suggest you research your subjects before writing about them

cuz filming is always done in a professional environment and idts actors mix their personal feelings with professional tasks

its a suggestion so do what you want with it

lol ik ik. i was just too caught up with my own thoughts and since i was kinda having writers block atm, i thought i should've added some actual plot without proofreading it over again. and like, i mentioned at the author's note / an at the very bottom of the story; the plot is not plotting. also, i kinda just rushed the ending (cause like i said, i was having writers block for the nth time) which led to the plot downfall and made things difficult.

i only write for fun so researching about it is what i should've done. but what i wanted to do is what i wrote cause that's how my mind works. writing fiction, especially in a setting like this (toxicity), is always going to have a degree of creative liberty. i'm crafting a story to evoke emotion, not replicating an exact documentary. if you didn't like it, you should've checked the warnings where i put a lot of stuffs that included toxicity in it (i even highlighted it). and i might not know much about filming, but i'll keep that in mind. anyways, this is not an argument, it's just me sharing my thoughts as well :]

i'd like to thank anon for calling me out on this one cause honestly, i am well aware of how imperfect / suck at writing am. but hey, one has learned a thing or two and that is not bad at all. thankyou for sharing your thoughts and i'll keep that in mind for other writing purposes. i'll try to tighten certain elements or add some grounding details in the future. i don't really see this as a hate com, though? i think it's nice someone shares their thoughts about my shits and stuffs. and that's why ily <33

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The poll still has some time left, but almost 80% of you voted for the Captain house! So, here’s your ✨dinner✨

I’ll probably update with an arial shot for a clearer floor plan for y’all soon! I want to adjust a few things too, but this is where we’re at for now 🥹 Also please ignore that I forgot to turn off the grid lines in a lot of photos.

Give me your thoughts! <3

Am I aware the front looks bad? Yes. There aren’t enough windows, and I couldn’t figure out where to put more for the life of me, given the layout of the floor plan. I've since learned to place windows and do the exterior first, then work the interior around that. Also, perpetual pride flag for their favorite throuple

The entryway was the first thing I made! Fun fact for everybody: I am not at all creative, outside of writing. I can't pull anything out of thin air. I modeled this part after my best friend's parents' home that I spent a lot of time at over the years.

The living room has to have lots of seating for all of their friends. I'm OBSESSED with the little chairs for Joan and Art. They have lots of soft, warm lighting, and starting off with a darker wall color. I feel like they would prefer darker colors; they're calmer. Their home is very lived in, evidence all over the place that it's a family home and kids live there :) I'll have y'all know that I was DEAD SET on the stairs being in the living room like my childhood home and I built the entire structure and floorplan around that LOL

Formal dining room, self-explanatory. It's off to the left from the living room.

KITCHEN! I love the kitchen, specifically the clutter. They have both a coffee machine and a kettle, for obvious reasons. Mail on the counter, an open cookbook, and the kitchen table is the spot for homework :) Several aprons for messy helpers.

The upstairs hallway! Nothing special except the STINKIN' ADORABLE door art for the kids. Joan's room is the first on the right, Arthur's is the second, the bathroom is across from Arthur's room, then Freyja and Simon's room at the end.

Joanie's room! Listen she's getting older, still a little girl but starting to like big girl stuff.

ARTHUR'S ROOM, BIG DINOSAUR AND SPACE BOY. I love him <3

The kids' bathroom!

Then at the end of the hall, the master bedroom! A comfy chair for getting babies to sleep, and a cozy dark room.

Then we finish off in the master bath! Not a huge fan of the red but that's how it's gonna stay atm

I cannot emphasize enough how much more clutter there would be in the Riley house if it were available to me in base game. They're busy people and don't really care for having a perfectly spotless house all the time (if ever LMAO)

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Library haul!! :D

I spent like an hour in the library and ended up with a big ol stack. Went down to check out and stared in horror when the screen said “Cannot check out. $167 in fees.” Luckily the librarian noticed my shock and printed out a list of books that needed to be returned and told me that if i brought them back I could bring the new books home. So I walked home, ate a sandwich, found my books, and walked right back to the library. She complimented my Curious George tote bag i brought my books in and we agreed bags should be measured by how many books can fit in them. And then i brought my books home! And also found a printer on the side of the road! Nice!

Now I’m gonna go through my books:

The Snowy Day and the Art of Ezra Jack Keats

I love this illustrator/ author but I didn’t know much about him. I read quite a bit of this one while I was in the library and ended up loving it. He seemed like a very interesting person. Similar to me in a lot of ways. I want to do some studies of his paintings because I absolutely adore the textures, colors, and shapes. The subject matter was also very ahead of its time and it’s fascinating to read about his motivations and upbringing.

The Seven Moons of Maali Almeida

I’ve been wanting to read this one for a while but just haven’t gotten to it until now. Initially what caught my eye was the gorgeous cover, but the synopsis also sounds fascinating and I’m excited to read it!

In the Lives of Puppets

I have to admit something. TJ Klune is my guilty pleasure author. The House in the Cerulean Sea brought me a lot of comfort when I read it in 2020 and it got me back into reading. In a lot of ways his writing style isn’t necessarily groundbreaking, but it is extremely readable and enjoyable. I try to keep my distance from his work because of some ethical issues i have with him but i saw this one on the shelf when I was looking for Ursula K Le Guin and couldn’t help myself. The synopsis sounds extremely interesting and I’ve been enjoying reading about robots and humans recently so I think I’ll enjoy this one.

Find Your Artistic Voice

lol i accidentally typed autistic initially. This one was on a display shelf connected to a local art competition (which I may participate in? Unsure atm) and I was intrigued. I think in a lot of ways Ive recently found my artistic voice and what I want to do, but I’d love to read further and get more insight. Especially with school starting up again soon and my having some artist statements I need to submit for exhibitions, I think this could be helpful for me to put words to my thoughts.

Craft Activism

This is another one that was on a display. I flipped through it and it seems like there’s a lot of artists doing interesting things in it and I’m thinking about how I can further bring activism into my work. That’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot recently. I’m writing a speech about suicide prevention that I might give at a local queer convention so I’ve been thinking a lot about activism in the everyday. As a part of routine instead of as a break from it.

Upcycling

One of my biggest hobbies is zero waste crafting. I love making a little shelf out of cardboard and using plastic wrap and plastic bags to wrap things. I even made a yarn winder out of cardboard, some wire, and a broken paint brush. It feels better to have functional things that I made myself and also to know that I kept something out of the trash. It seems like this book is going to have all sorts of ideas for things I can make and I’m excited!

Steering the Craft

I have a lot of respect for Ursula K Le Guin, so when I saw she wrote a book about writing I had to pick it up. I have a creative writing minor and a lovely professor whose kindness got me back into writing, so i think it could be nice to read more about the craft of it. I don’t have much confidence in my writing, but I do enjoy doing it. It can be a struggle to express nuanced emotions quickly through painting, but I feel that with writing I can put it all out there, whether it’s good or not. Since this is a pretty short read, I’ll probably get through this one this week in between other things I’m doing.

Beatrix Potter’s Gardening Life

This one was next to the Ezra Jack Keats book on the shelf and I was immediately excited by it. I grew up on Beatrix Potter and always loved the illustrations and stories (even if some of them scared the crap out of me.) I think we had a similar book growing up, but this one is more recent. I did a commission of some mice a couple months ago and took a lot of inspiration from Beatrix Potter, so I’d like to do some more reading on her.

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Guys Pls Request Things Lol

Angels! I am back from a crazy, love-bombed semester!

I am feeling a little stuck creatively atm and am not very comfortable with writing smut but I am channeling my inner lover girl to write some romantic/fluffy one shots or fics!

My requests are open and here is my character list :) Happy 2025 y'all btw