#.helping by not talkinf or doing things w ppl

[enchantedephiphany]

Yeah... I probably don't have the mental/emotional fortitude to be any kind of activist, even online. I get easily passionate about things like Freedom, Justice, but in the real world, not just Ideal Land, where everything is nicely clear-cut into good and evil, everything is messy. And people are nasty and resentful and fight even in their own group and I take on all that negative emotion and I have enough of that on my own. No strength enough even for myself in minor things so... not an asset. Same old story.

Best if I'm not involved bc I WILL go crazy esp if overtired from doing almost nothing. So.

Can't deal w conflict. I want to help even if it's just online but even that is too much for me lol. I absorb all the positive emotions which is good but negative as well and I. Can't take it

Yes I probably would die right away in any sort of actual conflict; if it came to having to survive on my own I'd also die. And my Ideals would probably fall away if someone so much as threatened me if I were in any sort of prison/torture situation so. Yes I I'm coward and an idiot and have no right right say anything to anyone. Stay in my own lane (until maybe the country crashes but I'll not be able to handle any sort of hard situation if the trump thing gets real bad... ) and not get involved which means shrinking down into almost nothing (which is me anyway, compared to the heroes in countries with actual awful circumstances who . Don't back down)

[shoezuki]

If im being honest;; schlatt antis make me uncomfortable

I know hes fucked up but i see so many antis making things. worse? than schlatt does. like one of them sent me intense gore because i said i have a hyperfixation on schlatt. i d. i don't understand peoples thought process

and even more, my ex (who traumatized me greatly- big win for me! i haven't talked to them months) was a schlatt anti and made jokes about.. watching cc! him.. dying? how fucked can people get. Some people only watch his main channel where he puts on an edgy character and dont even look to his 2nd channel where hes not botherinf with his character and publishs videos talkinf about how to help with anxiety and depression,, he even talked about binding and doing it safely once on there.

ack. sorry for ranting. ^^"

yo ya i fuckin feel u n im sorry u got that kinda shit. ppl really like. go so Extreme w these 'problematic' ccs

like. i STILL do watch schlatt n like his shit. n yes he fucked up sometimes most notably the blackface jokes n shit on that One video were. yea wack. but like. i dont get it still? how intensely ppl hate on him

like discomfort and dislike of him as a person n the shit he said? yea i understand that completely n thats valid. but to be so brutal and disgusting to ppl who even mention watching his content? fucking wild

like i dont think the dude is a Bad Dude in any regard. some white guy that fucks up? yep absolutely. if he was so deplorable like ppl seem to think then i doubt even his homies would stick it w him like connor n jus. like. even hasan is friends w him n talks bout him n defends him. but ppl r jus so adamant on hatred for the sake of hatred.

the dudes funny. n i see a number of his side channel videos where hes more open n like. the dude is Human. hes not some inconsolable asshole. to act like its disgusting for ppl to even Watch his videos is. weird.