#not depressed I promise
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TW - S/H SCARS AND BULLSHIT. ALBEIT HEALED BUT STILL.
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fucking wish they didn't heal so soon but scissors can only do so much.
#cutt1ng#tw s3lf harm#self h@rm#I'm not even depressed#fuck this#My life is great why do I do this shit#s/h#cuts#self destruction#self destructive behavior#sc@rs#i'm mentally ill#ooooh my god#I don't want to end it#maybe i'm a masochist#the pain does feel good#not depressed I promise#baby cvts
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a non-modernized take on my anthro au! starting with spears and riv :D



#my art#rain world#rain world fanart#sleepys rw anthro au#<- using the same tag srry. i hate it to be cluttered but i don't feel the need to make a separate tag either#rw anthro#rw anthro au#rw rivulet#rw spearmaster#rw fishstick#sorry for the lack of art recently#burnout + depression + other life stuff has been killing me#but i’m back!! i’m working on stuff i promise!!!#just very. slowly#Zzz
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hina... have you ever drawn nanami & yuji. pls i need to see them. my reluctant mentor and ray of sunshine. maybe eating together after a mission
cleaned up this request doodle from a while ago <3
#my art#answered#anonymous#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#nanami kento#yuji itadori#jujutsu kaisen fanart#sorry for getting to this so late anon :'<<<<#also sorry the art technically isnt new shkdg i tried to come up w a different setting fr them#thought abt them going fr ramen or something ? like an izakaya scene#but i wasnt happy w any of my sketches n took the easy way out gomen gjdghjj#i hope u still like the cleaned version!#well . “clean” gjhgssgj yuuji sweetie do u need a napkin#both of these pastries r based off ones we sold at the bakery i used to work at#u know . the one that put me into a 7 month depressed artblock n made me want to kms/srs#and speaking from experience. those filled croissants r not user friendly#crumbs + cream + fruit + syrup drizzle + chocolate...all EVERYWHERE smh#also nanami's looks like a cookie but it's not i promise. it is a raisin danish bc he has th palette of an old man at 27
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Prologue pt. 2
Previous page / next page
#I’m sorry this took so long I ughhhhhh. struggled#dw ravio isn’t going to be this depressing the whole time#promise#altta main story#altta#a link through the ages#loz fancomic#loz#the legend of Zelda#hero of legend#ravio#altta link#altta ravio
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wallpaper I made for myself
(+Other versions under cut)
(This was made to fit a Motorola phone)
#more tf2 stuff soon#Promise#ale13art#digital art#off game#off batter#the batter#off the game#off mortis ghost#off the batter#off rpg#off#wallpaper#Off wallpaper#I think this art block is actually depression it's been too long#Its okay we stay silly
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I was compelled to draw something for the third movie since I drew for the first two so I’ve decided to make myself insane 👍
I was trying really hard to avoid drawing Big Hands and that fuckass glove again, but that one scene robotnik unlaces his hands is crazy work.
Anyways this is how I remember sonic 3 the hedgehog
WIP
#Stobotnik#agent stone#doctor robotnik#WIP#Tony soprano obviously I am prone to depression#I will try not to post as many wips this time I promise#I am but a yapper at heart it is what it is#also I will push back opening comms a little longer I need to finish this or I will actually die irl#trust the process
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Definition of ‘power couple’
I feel bad for drawing the younger version of her because she feels so much more badass when she’s old [and that’s how we actually see her obviously] but I just wanted to draw them together, I hope ya like it !!
Also I’m obsessed with designing a whole wardrobe for them, I have SO MANY outfits for her, it’s fucking crazy,,,
#team fortress 2#team fortress 2 fanart#tf2#tf2 fanart#tf2 demoman#tf2 demoman's parents#their left arms look as if they kinda disappear but I promise they're there. it makes sense#this was a bit delayed because my seasonal depression is starting waaa boo hoo
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By @cvnfvse
#sadnees#tw depressing thoughts#depressing shit#i'm sad#tw depressing stuff#depressing life#childhood trauma#quotes#poetic#childhood#mixed art#truamacore#heart break#i hate everything#kill my thoughts#kill my feelings#kill my life#did you go and make promises you can't keep?#toxic parents#i am in pain#are you proud of me#depressiv#i want to diiieeee#digital art#trauma#sad poetry#photoblog#poem#this is a cry for help#cptsd vent
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The first Sonic movie does loneliness and longing so well I’m gonna throw up. The way Sonic gazes at Tom and Maddie before they even know he exists. How am I supposed to be normal about this

The Wachowski home being Sonic’s single source of light in the darkness… I’m ill I’m crazy I’m gnawing on the bars of my enclosure
#I’m rewatching the first movie and oughhhhghghhg#the one bright spot in his depressing life. his hope#i can be so normal about this i promise. don’t look at my blog#sonic movie 1#sonic wachowski#tom wachowski#maddie wachowski#donut dad#pretzel mom
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Blood on your hands.
Idea was made by @baylardo. She provided a little scribble and I messed with it.
#the spiral in the episode night I guess#there arent many characters out there that show true reclusion and depression feedback loops#she cant control people's fates :(#kathryn janeway#im not too happy with this but its just a quick little bit of practice lol#a mashup of my style with baylardo's#burple skivvy my beloved#startrek voyager#st:voy#captain janeway#janeway#art#my art#when ur on ur period (promised i would put that in the tags)#ummm yeah funny cos i feel a little neg about my art and stuff in my life right now IRONIC#i resent that i have to keep up art inbetween other art otherwise my skill rapidly degenerates sad!!!!#star trek voyager
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The soul of Wicked is randomly inventing extremely elaborate relationships between characters who barely interact at all in canon. Also Fiyero is here.
#I am never drawing Fiyero that detail again but I must admit he is slaying#Also double jointed Fiyero feels so obvious but ive never heard anyone else say it#wicked#wicked movie#wicked 2024#wizard of oz#oz books#land of oz#fiyero tigelaar#boq woodsman#wicked boq#general jinjur#art#digital art#fanart#OK so initially the thought was just that Jinjur had Boq basically kidnapped as a court jester for her amusement#I needed to figure out where to put him since Wicked ends so differently from the book and we dont really know where he goes after the movi#And. Ill be honest having him kidnapped by yet another female dictator felt cosmically funny. Man cannot stop getting into situations.#also it felt mildly less depressing then the other option which was him rotting alone in the woods until people found him#At first it was just gonna be like ooooo she treats him bad and yells go white boy go and threatens to rust him into a statue if he doesnt#Which is still basically accurate. But then I read something on her wiki. And I realized. She is a munchkin too.#That combined with the hc that munchkins have big families meant the next step was obvious. I. should make them related.#They are cousins and Boq feels kinda responsible for not saving her like he promised he would even tho he was just a kid#and he kinda didnt have that option when he was running away to Shiz#So like even tho the whole dictator thing is kinda giving him flashbacks he wants to make sure she doesnt become another Nessa 'cause of hi#Also idk if her age was ever actually stated in the book but I was under the impression she was a teenager just a little older than Tip
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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder
╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher
#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies#(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless#shamelessnet#shamelessedit#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#*macygifs#bipolar disorder#hello pals how are we doin#i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags#and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation#that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day#world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder#which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life#while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life#and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines#over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful#i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended#hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles#world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder#and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all#it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen#so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it#i promise#anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder#go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives
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i was born to watch my hero academia but made to read the bible instead the world is so cruel. moses was good until the red sea leviticus was ok but now im on joshua and it’s really fallen off again. mha is still better tho imo
you should try the iliad next
#ask#patrochilles truthers rise up#it's like if bakugou died for realzies and then izuku got so upset he went into a depression and refused to eat and properly mourn#and then Inko came and held him and started basically mourning Izuku because she knew without Katsuki he was basically dead too#and says “killing shigaraki is going to kill you too” and then Izuku goes “okay bet”#and then meets back up and rampages at shigaraki who tries to run but it's no use so shigaraki goes “yo... can we at least pinky promise#“not to desecrate the other's body if we kill them” and Izuku goes “nah I am going to rip your liver out and eat it”#and then kills him and drags his body all around the city in right front of the LOV#blah blah blah other stuff#and then in the spin off (odyssey) we see his ghost and he's like “heyyyyy I'm dead now ahahaha I did Not cope with Kacchan's death At All"#and yeah
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My favourite loser scientist (we are legally married)
Handplates!Gaster by @zarla-s (thank you so much for this AU it has given me life for the past 6 years)
#handplates gaster#gaster#undertale#art#wd gaster#I'm sooo in love with him it's not even funny#anybody who can recognise the formulas on his tie gets points <3#and no they aren't random scribbles >:)#I'm picturing either the goatparents or Alphys gifting him with this stupid science tie#And Gaster was like “Why would I need a tie with basic thermodynamic equations a skeleton of my caliber obviously has them memorized”#(he absolutely does not)#Gaster trying to remember what the equation is for the thermodynamic process of work done by an expanding gas : :/#The tie: hold my threads#Tried to draw him as babygirl in a suit but he just ended up looking cripplingly depressed (as always)#promise i'll make him cuntier next time#my stupid skeleton wife#my favourite is the one on the couch he just looks so cute...gah my heart#gushing hours#I had Ukagaster opened while painting all three and it made my entire life if only you knew bbgirl#my art
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If it’s okay, can you do Alastor x Reader where Alastor catches you relapsing after a fight with him? If it’s too much, you don’t have to do it. Just wanted some comfort for what I’m going through. You’re also a very good writer! Keep up the great work! xx
Hey anon - I hope you are doing well. I couldn't let this one sit too long in my inbox... Whatever you are going through: I hope this will help you with a bit of comfort. (I do hope I didn't misinterpret your ask...) I send you the biggest hug, my dearest! <3 TW:Self Harm,Depression,Angst - Minors DNI - 1.3k words
You were doing so well. So, so well.
Arguments with Alastor occurred from time to time, but you had done so well in not letting them become full-blown fights. His rationale and your restraint had always managed to hold the worst at bay and settle any troubles with a few deep breaths, calm words and a compromise. It was something you were hugely proud of, something you had never been able to do before, and with him - you finally seemed to manage.
But now, after a tirade of harsh words, hurtful remarks and slammed doors you are alone in your room, curled up in a bed that feels much too big and streaks of cold tears on your cheeks. Immediately after you stormed out Alastor's radio tower you regretted your tone, regretted what you said, the way you got irrationally upset and how you provoked him - just to hurt him. You were unfair, cruel even, and the worst part was you didn't mean a single thing you said in the heat of the argument. Of course, Alastor said some choice words to you too, nasty things said in cold calmness, but only in reaction to your emotionally charged onslaught. And it didn't change the fact that you had done him wrong, over a fucking triviality that spun out of control.
It doesn't change the fact that the feelings and thoughts you feared slowly return, thoughts of your inadequacy, your worthlessness, your shortcomings all coming back into your head in one big punch of guilt and insecurity. Spiraling, you feel yourself getting more and more tense, like a pressure cooker without a valve, ready to burst. Your chest hurts - no, everything hurts: Your chest, your arms, your head, your heart.
You had done so well.
But you are desperate, panicked - you've pushed the one person away that was able to ground you, the only one that could make you feel safe and strong enough to withstand this urge, this need to hurt, to release. You bury your nails in your thigh, but it is far from enough. He must hate you now, and could you blame him? No, no you couldn't, and you push yourself off the bed, almost frantic.
Release, release, release - where is it? The shame you hid when you first moved into the hotel, the valve you had used so often to momentarily drain yourself from this burdening pain, the tool you had to use because you weren't reborn in hell with the fortune of sharp talons.
The loose floorboard creaks under your erratic steps. Ah. There. Hidden under your feet, untouched for so long. You start to cry again as you kneel down, lifting the panel. You feel like a failure.
Sorry, I am so sorry, your head chants as you reach for it with trembling hands, please just let it be a little less, just a tiny, little...
"Darling..."
You freeze. His voice is quiet, tune- and toneless echoing from behind you. It sends a new shiver through your tense, quivering body. Your hand hovers over the small object but you can't move it away, eyes squeezed shut in defeat. Your brain races, thinking of anything to say but coming up empty.
"My sweetling, whatever you're looking for under there...", he continues slowly, softly, each step of his dressing shoes against the parquet resounding painfully loud in your ears. You're so mortified by him catching you in the act that the tight coil in you seems ready to snap. "...will not do you any good."
He halts when when he is next to you, kneeling down. You feel his shoulder brush your back as he lays a clawed hand on yours and gently pulls it away from the hole in the floor. Your shoulders begin to shake with ragged sobs and his tender touch on your cheek prompts you to tilt your head, face hot, and to look him into his eyes that seem both understanding and sad.
"Harming yourself will only make you hate yourself more than you regrettably already do."
You try to breathe, but fail miserably, choking on the air around you. How could you justify what you were about to do, how could you hurt him again like this, with this action, with this thoughts, after everything you both have worked for? You had done so well - Why didn't you have it more under control, like you should?
"I'm sorry, A-Alastor... I'm sorry, s-so sorry, please..."
He pulls you into him, his arms wrapping around you in a tight, steady embrace. One hand comes up, stroking your hair in tender movements, shushing you quietly as he lets you sob into his shoulder. The longer he holds you the easier it gets to draw deep breathes, until you finally manage to draw in the air that your body lacked so much. With each rise and fall of your chest, you feel a tiny bit of the panic fade, as if his soothing static draws it out in humble waves, soft and soothing around and inside you.
"I know, darling...", Alastor murmurs, kissing the top of your head and tightening his hold, "It's all long forgiven already."
A shattered sigh escapes you. How could he do all this for you? Accept you, with all the flaws and mistakes and shortcomings? How can he forgive you with such gentle ease? And still care for you, despite and including it all, why? How?
"Please don't hate me..."
He only loosens his grip when you stop trembling, carefully taking your chin between his claws, prompting you to break the chain of self-degrading thoughts and silencing the whispers in your head as he locks his eyes on yours.
"I could never, darling, even if I tried. But you need to understand: You are fighting the most vicious and cruel enemy there is, my love.", his face is void of the smirk he often wore, the one he doesn't use to tease or ridicule, or mock, it's his serious smile. The one he wears when he's about to be blunt. "Yourself."
A sudden rush of fresh tears cloud your vision. He's right, you know he is - you have always been your own worst enemy. Never giving yourself a fighting chance, the help and care you didn't feel you deserve. It felt so tiring, hopeless, in these moments where you fell victim to your weakness and turned it all onto yourself.
"I'm... so weak."
"We all have our battles. And this happens to be one you exhausted yourself to win on your own. However...", he offers you a sweet smile, taking your hand, "...it's a battle you don't have to fight alone anymore."
He takes your face into one of his large hands - the warmth of his palm is soothing against the rawed skin of your cold cheek as you instinctively lean into it, chasing the gentleness of the touch. The smile he gives you is more serious than you've ever seen before, and he lifts his other hand, waving his fingers for a split second in the corner of your eyes - the loose floorboard squeaks as it magically sets itself back into its place and seals itself with the flooring, eliminating the option of taking it off again. Alastor sighs, tilting his head to recapture your gaze.
"Whatever angry words are exchanged and however vexed we might be with each other... please, my love, let me hold you together in my arms when you threaten to fall apart like this."
How long he held you in his arms that night, settled in your bed instead of his as you usually did - you didn't know. How many soothing touches he planted on your body – you didn't count. All that mattered were the soft kisses that he pressed on your cheeks, the way he held your hand, fingers entwined with yours, and the soothing words he repeated to you, over and over like a mantra.
"You are doing well, my love."
#hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#alastor#alastor x reader#fraugwinskawrites#quickfic#alastor hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanfiction#angst with a happy ending#TW: SH#tw: depressive thoughts#it gets better#i promise - you are not alone
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