#not bts but just as talented and worthy of love and recognition

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Watching Monsta X perform without WONHO KINDA HURTED THOUGH

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😭🥺🥰😛 MY MANS🔥🔥🔥

(PREVIEW) MONSTA X Kihyun for MAPS (July issue)

[batmaniskpopaf]

WHAT I HAVE LEARNED FROM MX LIVE FROM SEOUL WITH LUV:

SHOWNU IS PERFECTLY HEALTHY BC HE LOVES GARLIC

MINHYUK RESPECTS MY MOMS SLEEP

KIHYUN HAS BEEN WORKING ON A “PART”OF HIS BODY HE CANT SHOW / OFFICIALLY A CAT MAN

HYUNGWON IS EMO AF

WE KNOW HOW JOOHONEY BE 😏😏

I.M DRINKS CHICKEN BREASTS AND IS EXPENSIVE

[salvejoon]

Milestone Celebration (In the style of Love Letters)

Hi everyone! 

As I recently hit a milestone, I wanted to celebrate it with giving you a fic to enjoy and since I’ve done that (I hope you enjoy it), I wanted to do a lil’ something extra. 

So why not write love letters? 

To all my followers: 

First of all, thank you for following me and partake in the craziness, the thirst, the dumb dumb thots and in being a fan of BTS. I truly hope you found me a tap on that follow button worthy. I truly appreciate every single one of you. The amount of love I have for y’all is too big for my smol body sometimes. I never imagined I’d even get above 50 followers but now I’m on the road to 600 and that may seem small to some but to me, that’s a fucking lot and I am still SHOOKETH! 

You are all amazing in your own way. Don’t ever doubt that. You are worth it. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are talented. You are smart. You are capable. You are enough. And remember that I love you to Jin’s moon and back.

Anyway, you are all my lovely beanies. Please know that you can reach out to me anytime. xoxo 

To all my beautiful bastards:

@yeojaa​ Dear Miss Erin. Have I ever told you that you are the best at hyping me up, knowing exactly what to say and when to say it? You are so amazingly talented, damn it. You are gorgeous. You’re always so sweet. You’re my hype Queen and my sister-in-thirst and I love you.

@papillonsgf​ Dear Miss Noor. First of all, how dare you be so lovely, lovely, lovely? So kind and sweet and tooth-rotting fluffy that I fear I get cavities? You’re talented and an amazing human being. I love you bub.

@cremeandsuga​ Dear Miss Kay. You and I, we are two peas in a pot. You’re so fucking funny (not as funny as me though) and I love that you can make me laugh. I love that I can reach out to you when I’m feeling down. I can rely on you to be there, so thank you for that baby. I love you so much. AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!! JUST ACCEPT WHEN I SAY YOU’RE PRETTY BECAUSE YOU FUCKING ARE, YOU DUMBASS!!

@babybinnyboy​ - Dear Miss Dezee. Your thirst is... Immaculate. You are so badass. You fill my every day with such thirst, I cannot deal with it. Beanie gets tired too sometimes. Anyway, D, you are gorgeous through and through and I am so glad that we’re friends. I love you.

@thejooncrew​ Dear Miss Cocksleeve #2 Bucca. What is there to say other than I fucking adore your ass? I mean, you have the greatest taste in men. You religiously thirst over our man every single day and I respect that. You’re so helpful and always call out my ass when making a typo, so thank you for that too. And I love it when you send pics of your birbs. I love you or something...

@ppersonna​ Dear Miss Lindy. My wife. My sister-in-thirst. One of the people I look up to on this hellsite. You’re so talented and I am in awe at every story you gifts us mortals. You’re so sweet and loving and I hope you get everything you wish for in LA, baby. I love you. 

@taetaewonderland​ Dear Mrs. Donna. I’m sure I’ve told you this before but you’re so talented. Like, so talented. I would fight a bitch for you, D, that’s how much I love and respect you. Thank you for bringing a little bit of joy into my everyday with your stories and yourself. I love you.

@xjoonchildx​ Dear Miss Ana. First of all, I shall now admit the massive crush I have on you. I admire you so damn much. I look up to you, ma’am. You’re to talented and amazing and sweet and I just love you, okay? 

@sombreboy​ Dear Mr. Mino. Thank you. For what, you might ask. Well, for being there when I need to talk. For allowing me to ramble about shit. For nerding out with me. For giving me the small push I need once in a while. For talking about anything and everything. I love you. 

@gukniverse​ Dear Miss LenLen. You’re a bright spot on my day, bub. You make me so happy with your cute messages and the pictures of your drawings of my biases. You’re an angel and I love you so much.

@hauntedlilies​ Dear Miss M. The fact that you can create such beautiful artworks while I’m over here, drawing stick men, is amazing. You’re so talented and you deserve all the recognition and love! I adore you and love you.

I wish I could meet all of you and give you a hug and tell you that you’ve made my stay here so much better and I hope we grow closer as time goes by and we can stay in touch even if this one day comes to an end. 

To all of my other moots: 

Do not fret, my darlings. Fore I love you all just the same. You all mean so much to me, even if we don’t interact that much. I love seeing you on my dash. I love reading your stories, seeing your pieces of art, reblogging your amazing gifs. Seeing you interact with your anons and followers and your own moots always brings a smile to my face. I love giving you all the praise and love you deserve because y’all are so talented. 

You all deserve all the happiness in the world. 

Respectfully yours, 

Iggy

[batmaniskpopaf]

HANG IN THERE GUYS WE CAN DO THIS 💫💫💫💫

For anyone who needs them, a selection of group photos in which monsta x are just dumb

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abyss

song: abyss by jin

first experience: as a relatively new song, i remember clearly abyss’ drop. 12/2/2020 - several months into whatever quarantine had come to mean by that point, thanksgiving had just past and christmas was coming up in a matter of weeks. those few weeks between the holidays often pass by in a blur for me. holidays are hard. they’re not the romantic times they always were when i was a child. once again i’d been sitting at home in my tiny studio apartment, freezing, trying to crank through work and school obligations. i can assure you my headspace was less than great, between the cold, the holiday season, the deadlines that had piled up... abyss dropping was the perfect medicine for how i was feeling. 

feelings: when i listen to abyss i can’t help but feel emotional. of course. naturally the accompanying note that came with abyss was heartbreaking enough. but at the same time, the song feels like home. it feels like walking into my apartment after a long day and slipping into my favorite hoodie that desperately needs to be thrown into the wash. the familiar feeling brings about warmth despite the sobering reality that i’m still here, by myself, slipping into my ratty clothing and climbing into bed to disassociate from the self-hatred, stress, obligation, and grief i carry daily. the reality is, listening to abyss is like listening to my inner voice. i’m not saying i understand jin, or any of the shit he’s obviously gone through and dealt with in his very colorful life, but i feel close to him whenever i put the song on. i feel like as i grow older - i grow into myself - i grow into the pain i’ve harbored for years now. while i sometimes feel like i’m drowning in the abyss, at least i have the comfort that my feelings aren’t as alien as they seem. especially for someone who has been fortunate in life in many ways - this song shows me that i’m still *allowed* to hurt. i’m still allowed to carry my pain and feel it flow through me. 

i must also say, that my heart broke many times know that jin feels the emotions that abyss conveys. the self-doubt, the anxiety... how we all must wish we could wash it away. i only hope with all of my heart that he’s been given time, space, and resources to process his emotions fully. i can’t imagine carrying what he’s carrying and having the schedule he has. bless. 

personal connection: as alluded to, i’m not the most stable person. i can post happy photos online, i can breathe my idealism into others, i can love with the full capacity of my heart - but i have plenty of demons. i’m not sure where they came from, i noticed them around the time i became a teenager - that sinking feeling that all aspects of my existence are ugly, undesirable, annoying. these demons have never gone away. no matter how much i strive for my dreams, no matter what i accomplish, the amount of solitude that exists in my life allows for the cracks in my heart to rip open forcefully. 

it’s this very thinking that limits me. i don’t believe in myself. i don’t really believe in anything if i’m being honest. everything feels dark. there’s ups and downs. much how jin describes in the song - i desperately want to be a part of a more vibrant existence. i deeply want to connect with others, but the anxiety, the self doubt, the hatred i harbor, they’re paralyzing. simple tasks - texting a friend to make plans, following through with plans, speaking in a group setting, advocating for myself, they’re all things i’d rather shut the door on. vulnerability? i can’t open myself up for any more pain. in my mind, i’d rather retreat to the darkness, convincing myself i’m not worthy of taking another’s time, space, efforts. and i get overwhelmed, the feelings that jin is describing perfectly - having someone take an interest in me - having someone show me love... it feels false, it takes my breath away, only makes me question more. it makes me wonder how long i’ll indulge them before i push them away and move to my own abyss. 

in abyss jin isn’t even talking about another person. he’s speaking to himself. there’s not a romantic or even friendship he’s speaking of in the song. it’s more about like - is it okay for me to feel happy or hopeful? am i someone who should be allowed to meet happiness? this is something i relate to even more profoundly than the previously mentioned worries over letting new people into my life. ever since i went off to university from my kinda shitty hometown i wondered... is this life something i’m allowed to have for myself? am i worthy of it? did i do anything to deserve the place i’m at? i feel often like my work, my thoughts, my actions -- they’re not enough to place me in some of the places i’ve been lucky enough to have a seat. these doubts can cripple me with inaction and keep me chained to the present, or at the very least held back from progress and moving forward. these feelings were exactly what i was going through in december. do i deserve to be pursuing my phd? am i worthy? i haven’t accomplished near what my peers have, and i probably never will... i’m not as passionate as the others i pass by in the hallways, those i share a floor with at meetings... i’m a shell compared to them. should i retreat to my abyss rather than continue to occupy space where i don’t feel i’m allowed to be? am i allowed to celebrate and feel happiness when i’m not really doing as well as i could be?

obviously this sounds like whining, it sounds pathetic. and perhaps to someone it is, but it’s the reality of my mind. it’s something i bear and it’s something i’m finally okay sharing with others. i don’t know how to overcome these emotions i harbor - but that feeling of feeling most comfortable in my abyss, in the dark, in the little world i’ve created in my lonely haven... that’s my reality. that’s the feeling that i’ve connected to when i listen to abyss. it’s those moments when you look our your window, at your phone, and you see the outside world moving rapidly in the sunlight, and you can’t help but feel you don’t deserve to be a part of it... you can’t help but know that your true place is in the abyss. the pleasure i receive from escaping reality is unexplainable. and sometimes, it’s pleasure in the fact that i’m punishing myself, putting myself in the dark and ugly place i think i truly belong. that abyss - it’s my haven. it’s my sanctuary. 

song breakdown:

musically: abyss is beautifully understated musically, but not in a way that makes it a stripped vocal song... but instead in a way that highlights the emotion laden in jin’s voice. the piano backing picks up with the song and brings in some effects along the way to highlight the emotional pauses between the heavy lyrics. its the perfect ballad. truly. the incorporation of a steady beat track at the second verse also ads to the emotions of feeling like something is dragging, the monotony of these emotions as one carries through each day. 

the dramatic pauses that lead into the verses and highlight the pure emotion carried in jin’s tone also bring emphasis to the powerful refrain in the chorus - it’s almost reminiscent of personal realizations, personal *epiphanies* one might say. that moment where you draw in a big breath and gulp it down before confronting your demons. while the track keeps it’s steady pace, it does what it should for this piece - highlights the beauty of jin’s voice, and carries the weight of the emotions in the lyrics. 

vocally: honestly, just wow. jin’s voice, is absolutely stunning in this song. completely breathtaking in the best kind of way. i say this with nothing but complete respect - jin’s vocals have done nothing but improve and grow in strength over time to the complete crisp perfection they are today. the amount of emotion he carries in his tone is also perfect to deliver such a profound ballad as abyss. i hope he knows that we can feel every ounce of truth and healing he put into the song. 

we all know jin is the high note king, but he honestly ops for more of a storytelling vibe in this song, keeping within his lower register throughout the verses. it really isn’t until we are mid-chorus that we get the breathtaking high note during the line “ 잠기고 싶어 가보고 싶어.” this is perhaps the most profound lyric of the chorus as well, since it’s the moment in which jin expresses a desire. most of the lyrics up to that point explain a state of being, his emotions, but at this point - he is almost calling out his desire. his painful desire. to stay lost within in his abyss. it’s painful and stunningly beautiful at the same time.

the genius of the entire song was jin delivering abyss in a way that we don’t always hear him sing in BTS songs. the buttery smoothness of his voice is on full display, with no need to stay in his high register for long we can really hear the weight in his tone, the pleading in his voice, the sincerity. it’s sobering, and it’s powerful. and i must say, i can’t wait to get more songs like this from jin in the future. i hope he continues to share his heart, his voice, and his talent with us. 

lyrically: oh man. this one is a deep cut. you can really feel jin’s voice throughout the lyrics of abyss. the accompanying note that he released with the song brings a lot of context and understanding to the lyrics. in the note jin explains feeling inadequate and insecure in light of the amazing accomplishments that BTS had made over the years, specifically highlighting the #1 on Billboard Hot 100. he explains that he felt like his passion and talents were lacking compared to others in music, and felt undeserving of the love, joy, and recognition he received. his emotions seem to be similar to those of imposter syndrome, feeling like he doesn’t belong in a space he inhabits and actually receives accolades for existing within. what’s more telling is in this note jin expresses his apprehension to share these sadder emotions he harbors. this song is so incredibly raw for being a place in which jin finally found a space in which to express his feelings, let them run freely and beautifully without the concern that he needed to stay strong for ARMY.

to jump right into a closer analysis of the lyrics - the song begins with a story like vibe. the first lyric “i hold my breath as i walk into my sea” brings about the image of the speaker (i apologize in advance if i alternate between speaker and jin) beginning their descent into deeper waters of the ocean. the speaker is bracing for this though, as they are the one propelling it forward with enough pacing to prepare and hold their breath. to me, this is alluding to jin knowing that he’s falling into a darker space in his mind, consciously allowing himself to slip into that space. he then moves into describing his state “i face myself who is crying beautifully and sorrowfully.” jin is describing that he’s taking account of his state, speaking to himself and seeing the distraught state that exists within his mind -- seeping into his outer appearance. 

the pre-chorus moves into a different vibe, jin addresses the duality in himself. he recognizes both the parts of himself that are strong - that can shoulder and carry the parts of him that are deeply broken and sad. “myself in that darkness / i’d like to go find him and tell him” this is jin speaking with clarity to his broken self, his rationality coming through to speak to the parts of him that are insecure and hurting. “that i’d like to know more about you today, yeah” perhaps this is jin’s way of saying that he wishes he understood himself better, that he wishes he could more confidently identify the emotions he was feeling and process them fully. the pre-chorus in my mind is jin using some clarity to check in with himself and take inventory of his state when he’s in his darkest moments.

the chorus picks up and delivers a few devastatingly beautiful and sobering lines. “still, i remain with myself / with my voice unable to come out, i just circle around him.” this is where we see the ultimate conclusion of the engagement in the pre-chorus... jin’s insecurity and pain keeps his strength from winning out. the duality in his being still exists, but in this moment it’s the pain, the insecurity, the feelings of inadequacy that have won out. “that dark place, / i’d like to be submerged in it, i’d like to go to it / i’ll be there” jin then places us back into the story he started in the beginning of the song - he’s submerged in the abyss, the darkest and deepest point of the ocean. he speaks to taking the time to really feel the emotions that he is harboring, causing him pain. while this could be a conscious decision he is making to better understand and process his emotions it’s also likely that this desire is rooted in self-loathing, a desire to self-punish for his perceived shortcomings. the pleasure that sometimes one can gain from fully feeling pain that they believe they deserve. the line about being submerged also brings about the image of an anchor in my mind - like these emotions are weighing jin down. while anchors may sink slowly (like slowly taking a breath and walking into the sea) they’re hard to pull back up -- they want to stay seated to the ground, where they belong to do their job. perhaps jin is in some ways alluding to this. either way, the chorus is about a desire to remain in the dark place, where it feels safe, where he feels he deserves to be. the final line is “today as well, i circle around you again.” which brings us back to the pre-chorus dialogue between jin’s duality - the part of him that may rationally understand that he deserves love, that he works hard, that he is worthy... but yet this part can’t seem to gain control over the darker feelings within him... so there’s this idling, this perpetual circle of inaction. 

moving into the second verse this interaction occurring within jin’s inner being continues. “the closer i get to you, the more breathless i become and the father away you feel” while this line is a bit more difficult for me to completely understand what i think he is speaking to is that as he begins to think he understands his emotions, when he thinks he might be regaining his confidence he realizes he is only scratching the surface. he realizes that there’s more to his darker emotions than he’d initially thought. perhaps he thought he was just having a bad day or feeling in funk, but then he realizes that there’s a piece of him that he doesn’t quite understand and perhaps isn’t ready to understand as the word “breathless” invokes a feeling of overwhelm. the second and closing line of the verse is “wouldn’t it be that you went deeper into the sea, yeah” invoking that these darker emotions only continue to grow, evolve, and perhaps overwhelm. he feels like he can’t quite pull himself out of the place he’s in, no matter what he tries. 

the pre-chrous as analyzed above then repeats, although the meaning is somewhat different when following the second verse. this is because the nature of the second verse is more hopeless in nature, therefore while jin would like to be able to regain some control over these darker feelings -- he’s just expressed that as he tries he finds it more overwhelming and difficult. finds himself moving further into the dark emotions. 

the final chorus is different that the previous - the lyrics change and while they continue a deeply sorrowful theme, they also bring about some hope. the first line, “still, i remain with you” is telling. jin is reminding himself that even if he feels consumed by these emotions, the other components of him still exist. he isn’t just the darker feelings that have taken precedence. he can have his confidence when he’s ready, he can maintain his duality. all aspects of jin, even if he’s feeling broken. “with my voice unable to come out, i just circle around him.” even if he feels he can’t gain control of these emotions, he can be patient with himself, he can know that there’s the potential that he can overcome, but also he knows that it’s okay in this moment to just feel. “that dark place / i’d like to be submerged in it, i’d like to go to it” this line is re-emphasizing jin’s desire to stay in the place where he feels comfortable, where he can feel his darker emotions, where he things he truly deserves to be. “today as well, like this, i close my eyes to get to you.” this is the final line of the song and it delivers a sense of comfort. no matter what, jin knows that he can be at peace - he may have these darker emotions, but he can close his eyes, he can rest and carry all aspects of his emotional state. the dark, the light, the highs and the lows. he can take his time in the abyss when he needs to. 

tl;dr? abyss is one of those songs that anyone who has struggled with self-doubt, dabbled or dipped fully into self-hatred can identify with. many people i’m sure have their own abyss. their own place in their mind where they’d like to lock themselves in - a prison of their own design that in one way might be one’s punishment for their perceived shortcomings, but also can be a paradise when a beautiful being seemingly undeserved reality feels like too much to bear. jin’s artistry both in terms of lyrics and vocals are on full display in the song - showing his amazing range and delivering a piece full of emotional tones. abyss is a stunning piece of the man’s mind and heart that i am extremely grateful to be able to experience. 

[batmaniskpopaf]

about 4 years ago I become and Monebe and never looked back

[arreisstorm]

Happy RM Day!!!

When it comes to Kim Namjoon the important impact he's had on my life cannot easily be summed up in one word. Neither love or respect fully conveys how much this man means to me. I know it might seem ridiculous to some when people say how band members are their "life" or how it is so easy to profess a unconditional love for them, because I mean, how can you love a complete stranger?! Here you are shouting praise, yet, in most cases, you have never met this person in life and have no idea what he is alike aside from what you see and hear; however, that is exactly how it is for me. I might know him personal, I have no way of knowing what truly happens behind the scenes, but even with that uncertainty, I can still say without a doubt in mind, BTS's leader, AKA: RM, is one of the sweetest, most caring, influential, and highly intellectual human beings alive on this planet right now.

Not only is who a leader for the rest of the a boys, he is both an encouragement and comfort as well. I've heard from numerous interviews that the rest of the group have participated in, that RM is the one they look up to the most and the one they know they can always confide in. When BTS had just debuted,  Jungkook was self-conscious about showing his body so much so that he actually cried a couple time because he felt nervous and anxious towards the action, but once he talked with RM and got the reassurance he needed, Kookie came to self-acceptance that he shows now and is a completely different entity on the stage! Not to mention that Jungkook wouldn't even be with BTS if it wasn't for RM! Thank God he saw the clear talent that was there.

It's not only JK though, RM has helped all of the boys in different ways. From tutoring and teaching Taehyung to better understand English, to having in-depth, personal conversations with Hobi and Jimin, to making sure that Jin gets the support and spotlight that he deserves, RM always knows how to make the boys feel loved. He makes sure that everyone is acknowledged as they deserve to be.

One of my favorite examples though has to do with the period where BTS were still in their training days and there was this special being shot about RM as an artist. The video as a whole was very insightful and well done, but there's this certain part towards the end that showed RM's true colors. Their producer Bang Si-hyuk or Bang PD as he's more commonly known, had just called RM to his office to have a meeting, the topic concerning his future. Now I'll remind you that this was infact a hidden camera show, but because he was not let in on the prank, RM thought it was real. To summarize, basically Bang PD was supposed to get irritated with RM and his behavior and give him the ultimatum of staying with BTS or splitting and going solo. Mind you, RM had already been told that the talent and determination he possessed was already good enough to make a successful career as a solo artist, and as an idol, RM knew that these kinds of opportunities were once in a lifetime chances and did not come easily, so it should have been a no brainer right? Well that's not what RM thought. You see, Yoongi and him, although they hadn't known each other for long, they shared some hardships and trying times that cemented this unbreakable bond and beautiful friendship that was far stronger than promises of fame and fortune, and the same goes for thw rest of the boys. He had built a family with those 6 strangers and so when the deal was offered, "Solo or Bangtan," without a moment of hesitation, RM chose his brothers. Although it might have come with fame, fortune, and even more recognition and credit to his name as a "real rapper" in Korea's hip-hop community, RM knew that in going with the more luxurious option also meant that he would have to leave his best friend, his family behind and turn his back on what they had built together. Being an idol might have been exhausting and there was an insanely, rigorous schedule with countless limitations on what you could or couldn't do, but those thoughts came second in his mind because RM was willing to put in the hard work, long hours, sleepless nights, and criticism from former groups members if it meant that he could stay and share it with the rest of his boys. That is why this is one, of the many reasons, that I have a deep respect for Kim Namjoon, and it is because he values friendship and family over all else that he makes such an amazing and worthy leader.

Here's the video:

This truly one of the best videos, because aside from that prank, you get the honest, stripped-down version of who RM is as an artist and also who Namjoon is as a person.

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As you can see, RM has gone above and beyond for his fellow members, so you're probably wondering what he's done for me right? Well aside from being one of the best rappers I've heard, and having a heart of gold, the most memorable thing I have taken away from this role model is the discovery of self-love and learning to accept all my flaws as just another part of me. Through the use of beautifully crafted lyrics and messages the whole of society can relate to, RM has been the backbone for BTS and has been a huge factor for the direction that they are going now, and that direction is all the way up! Of course I know that all the other boys have also played an equally as important role in the development of one of the best K-pop groups out there, and you can guarantee RM has given them all of the credit more times than I can count.

Link to prove it:

I think it's pretty obvious that having a great leader like this has propelled all seven of these phenomenal boys to heights and boundaries unknown. From the way he unapologetically raps about social issues like injustice or inequality, and then does a complete 180 by singing ballads with his soulful, calming voice, it's impossible not to fall in love with this multitalented man. He is ethereal in mind, body, and soul and his poetic, philosophical  outlook on life is truly that of a genius at work. He can be extremely adorable with his dimples and childlike behavior, but he can also be one of the most rude and seductive persons with his wink and the way he spits fire. Either way he is a jack of all trades and I wouldn't want it any other way.

So thank you Namjoon from the bottom of my heart. You have taught me so much in such a short time and your words are like canvassed covered masterpieces. I know you don't always get the recognition or support you deserve, but I'm going to make sure that changes. You have put your everything into BTS and you have given ARMY everything as well, now it's time for us to give a little of that love back. This is just a small gesture, but I wanted to say Happy Birthday and show you how you have successfully reserved a special and irreplaceable home in my heart. We don't deserve such a generous, selfless, instrumental, and warm-hearted person to be our leader and voice but I can't imagine what life would be like without you, so please continue to be that essential presence we all need. 💜

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Some extras if you wish to get to know RM better and fall in love with him like the rest of us:

Thanks for reading! 💜

[plantaetae]

25 Reasons I Love Kim Seokjin

1. His sense of humor. No matter how cringy his dad jokes are, they make people laugh without anyone being hurt. Too many jokes are making fun of others or at other’s expense, but Jin can make us laugh with just a silly dad joke.

2. Speaking of dad jokes “What color is a hamburger? Burgundy! Burgundy!”

3. He’s honestly such ideal husband material. He can sing, cook, play guitar, he’s tall, handsome, and kind. I swear it’s his fault my standards are so high. He’s perfection.

4. I mean, seriously, he carries himself like a fairy tale prince

5. He is the proud father of two suga sugar gliders! And how gentle and caring he is with them, letting them eat yogurt off his fingers and crawl on his shoulder.

6. When ever he does the iconic Flying Hand Kiss and everyone within a five mile radius instantly falls for him.

7. *sobs while eating noodles* (same tho)

8. His fashion! His style! Iconic!

9. I know it’s a stereotype that Jin is The Mom Friend, but please don’t ignore how he does take care of the members. It might not be obvious, but he cares for them in the little things like playing with Jungkook and letting him tease him without getting mad, being silly with Hoseok or quiet with Yoongi. Jin is so much more than just the mom friend, and shouldn’t be reduced to just that, but don’t sleep on how he also selflessly cares for the others.

10. The thing he does when his contacts irritate him where he blinks a few times in rapid succession then once with his whole face and looks adorable while doing it.

11. His windshield wiper laugh, a.k.a the most beautiful sound in the entire world.

12. That time BTS was walking a red carpet and an girl dropped her ARMY bomb and he stopped to pick it up and give it back to her. What a gentleman.

13. His ability to be confident in himself without being arrogant or a narcissist. He’s sure of himself but that doesn’t mean he isn’t humble or hardworking. It’s hard to find that kind of balance i think and i really admire him for it.

14. How hardworking he is. He auditioned to BigHit to be an actor, not a singer, and when they convinced him to join BTS, he had to learn how to sing. You can tell how far he’s come since their debut days, in singing and dancing and a hundred other things and all of that came because of his dedication. Seokjin is undeniably talented, and talent is something that you make bloom through hard work.

15. On top of that, he completed college while being a full time idol. We all know how brutal their schedule is, but did that stop him? Hell no. How many people can do what he did. Respect.

16. His rosy cheeks and sparkling eyes the color of coffee.

17. His enchanting smile that make flowers bloom.

18. “If it tastes good, it’s zero calories.”

19. EatJin!! *takes a bite* [pause] “Yaahhhh!!”

20. Okay, obviously we have talk about his voice. This boy can sing like an angel, it’s clear and strong and full of soul. How well he can portray emotion through his voice his is so incredible that you really don’t need to know or understand the lyrics to know exactly what he’s saying, what he’s feeling and he makes you feel it too. For example, his cover of ‘Mom’. I don’t know what the heck the lyrics are but i do know that i will cry while listening to it.

21. Worldwide handsome!!!

22. Team name: “KIM! SEOK! JIN!”

23. It’s no secret that our Jin has gone through a lot of rough times and doesn’t always get the recognition he deserves, from lack of lines and screen time to not being able to attend his own graduation. He has every reason to be bitter and angry, but, if he is, has he ever once shown it or complained on camera? Honestly, the amount of BS that he puts up with on top of the daily pressures of being an idol and the oldest of the group, is award-worthy. He’s strong. Stronger than he gets credit for.

24. And people always talk about how celebrities aren’t good role models for kids anymore, well if you want someone to aspire to be like, I’d say Kim Seokjin makes a damn good role model.

25. And in conclusion: R. Revolution. E. Evolution. D. Drop in the ocean- DROP IN THE OCEAN~~

[starliters-blog]

[SPOILERS] my thoughts on pd101 + jelpi’s yoon heeseok

aight here’s a lil rant.

i’ll start right off the bat that this is just a personal opinion and one not based off much at the moment. this is just my commentary and criticism of yoon heeseok, jellyfish’s trainee for broduce 101, and an overall opinion of pd101 in general.

long post in lapslock ahead.

i have watched the season 2 ver of pick me, their cute attempt of season 1′s pick me, the raw of episode one, a few of those special clips released before ep1 (all of heeseok’s and a few of samuel’s and daehwi’s) and a few performance evaluations (heeseok’s, samuel’s, fnc’s (sorry), and i think bnm’s) i’m stating this, because i have not watched everything-- this opinion is based on what i have seen, what i speculate may happen, and comparing it to semina.

OKAY SO TO START THINGS OFF i’m a lil disappointed. i don’t think sending heeseok on his own was a smart move on jelpi, but i think its a) they don’t have enough male trainees, as seen with the recent call for male auditions and b) they’re not here to win it like in season 1

i’ll explain b) a lil more-- when jelpi debuted gugudan, they got a bunch of backlash because “””apparently””” sejeong, mina and even nayoung deserved “”””better”””” more specifically sejeong because her akgae fans are ridiculous. the group is really talented, but judging by the production quality (not the song, because i liked it) of wonderland’s mv, it was super rushed. they could have rode the hype train along with pristin and possibly fantagio girls but they chose to debut in 2016 and jelpi... it wasn’t a smart move. jelpi is probably aware that the backlash is a result of their immense popularity (again, more so sejeong). the best line to tread would be sending a trainee who may not grab everyone’s attention, but company power will allow them to sit comfortably (evident by heeseok’s position of 26th despite barely aNY SCREEN TIME) and allow them to gain exposure and a steady fanbase-- but not to the extent of god sejeong.

there’s also rumours that mnet is forcing companies to join else they would be blocked, so perhaps they sent heeseok for the heck of it. don’t get me wrong, i love heeseok from what i’ve seen in those special clips-- he’s got a beautiful ballad voice, quirky, determined in small things (like makin meringues), a lil sneaky (where in that guess the item game, heeseok grabbed the bottle of soju to his side so his competitor couldn’t touch it) and a lil awkward like hakyeon-- they even look alike. he’s got the visuals and height too. heeseok is the kind of guy who would do well in a group or would compliment another person well in a duo. i just don’t think that sending him on his own was a good idea, even if it was for the reason b. he reminds me a little like kim nayoung-- the full package but just isn’t sure of themselves.

... which is why i still think he’d be a good addition to bro-ioi ahaha.

i’ve seen some people compare him to SeMiNa but you just can’t? all the girls had approximately a year experience, with nayoung at starship (edit: sorry i meant star empire) for more i believe. they absolutely slayed nikki yanofsky’s something new (proud canadian, proud jelpi stan). they even arranged the phrases differently so it would flow better, allowed nayoung’s rasp to come through, mina’s solo dance, and the MICROPHONE PASSING I MEAN fam. indeed, they were most definitely something new. they were on top of their shit. heeseok, however, has 6 months of trainee experience. 6 months, 1 year, it all looks potato potato no? but those 6 months really do make a difference and heeseok choosing chained up as his audition song is endearing but absolutely generic. how many times have you seen people sing their company sunbae’s songs? doesn’t it get boring? moreover, while vixx doesn’t have your typical “hype” choreo like bts and exo, it’s sharp and precise and moves in motion with the song-- and most definitely awkward without a group.

[big spoiler] and thus, baby fish was put into f group. dun dun dunnn.

[another big spoiler] people were disappointed-- i know i was. i was expecting a lot from heeseok, not just as a follow up of SeMiNa, but jellyfish in general is a talented company. not to worry (?) though-- i’ve been looking through the wikipedia page and apparently [here comes dat spoi] heeseok jumped to b group, which is the second or third highest jump in group for season 2? (with vibe’s taedong jumping from f to a and yuehua’s hyeonseop jumping from d to a)

so this just further’s my previous comment about heeseok being hard-working-- it shows here. albeit, i haven’t watched the re-evaluations episode (if it’s even out) and this could be completely wrong, but if its true then this is very... spotlight worthy.

...

how much do you wanna bet that mnet’s barely going to show shit

here comes my rant on how a) how i see things panning out and b) why mnet is the biggest gentleman’s pickle. i can already tell heeseok isn’t going to make it to the final line-up. if we’re lucky, he might survive until the 35 boys 5 concepts episode (though who knows if they might change it to 30, or 25 even) and he gets enough exposure like the s1 cube trainees before being outed. but look: he’s barely got screentime. jellyfish’s intro was short, they didn’t show his whole performance (and somehow is pitting him as a comparison to fnc), i don’t think got a SINGLE solo shot in either pick me version (i saw him once in the s1 retake behind someone else). 

mnet is picking favourites but what else is new.

they’re hyping up the fact nu’est is joining but gave like... one nod to the fact hotshot, topp dogg, and jjcc members are joining, samuel is being touted as the new somi, daehwi as the new yoojung, mnet is using the same ol tropes to rope people in. don’t get me wrong, i’ve been rooting for samuel and nu’est before it starting airing, but this blatant show of favouritism pretty much decides who’s going to be a part of the final line-up.

update: just watched heeseok’s re-evaulation video and yes, [spoiler] he has been bumped to b. was i right about him barely getting any recognition? yeah, kind of.

overall, i just wanted to voice my frustration at jellyfish’s choice in not sending more trainees (though there might be none who wanted to join/in the company atm), why you shouldn’t compare heeseok to SeMiNa and why, despite being a good choice to add to the bro-ioi line up, he’s probably not going to get in.

this is a mess

[wehiran]

MY TOP 10 K-POP GROUPS - MALE

10. U-KISS

The most underrated group on this list which is so FLAW-LESS. I’ve written a whole college-worthy essay about them, so I won’t be repeating myself. You can check it out here.

Bias: Hoon

Favourite song: Almost impossible, but I’ll stay by Quit Playing. Even though Tick Tock, Believe, Break Up, they’re just all flawless.

9. Seventeen

These guys are as funny as possible, and I know that many ELFs became Carats, because they remind us of Super Junior - they have a strong bond (already!) and there are so many of them, of course. Bias wreckers and mood rescuers. Still rookies, so I wish them all the best!

Bias: Vernon

Favourite song: Ah Yeah (by rap unit)

8. B2ST

I like all B2ST’s songs and they’re a group you should stan if you can’t find anything. They’re usually dark, but not this dark, and very manly. And very good looking. I hope they will kill it under that new label.

Bias: Yoseob

Favourite song: Special, though Shadow is close to the top as well

7. EXO

Oh yes, good ol’ EXO. Many people say they think their songs are plain or good and nothing more, but I really like them. I think they’re easy to listen and I enjoy humming to them. And I love EXO’s MVs, all of them. Missing #OT12 very much ;c

Bias: Sehun

Favourite song: Lightsaber, but I love so many album songs, too, like Machine, Baby Don’t Cry, Black Pearl and many more

WE START WITH THE BEST GROUPS EVER

6. SHINHWA

The absolute legends, kids in males’ bodies, the ‘when your oppa is more of an ahjussi’ feels. Bow to the legends, I really love them, variety shows with them are the biggest entertainment you can get. Other groups are disbanding, losing members, and SHINHWA has stayed strong since debut. WATCH AND LEARN AND BOW TO THE LEGENDS.

Bias: Hyesung

Favourite song: Perfect Man, or This Love, or Brand New (so many good songs to choose froooom)

5. 2PM

It took me just one variety show to fall in love with 2PM completely. I’m addicted to them recently. They have my favourite k-pop album ever and they’re the most masculine group, what I adore. The first group in which I STILL can’t choose a bias. STAN 2PM (I’m really considering joining the fandom). Taecyeon is the most handsome (HANDSOME, not pretty like most of today’s groups) man in a k-pop group I’ve ever laid my eyes on. Junho or Nichkhun’s smile can heal cancer along with Wooyoung and Jun.K’s voices. And Chansung is soooo funny. 

Bias: Taecyeon or Wooyoung or Junho (or the rest of them, like come on)

Favourite song: Oh God either My House or Uneasy, but probably more of Uneasy

TOP 4 GROUPS (MY FANDOMS)

4. VIXX

VIXX’s sharp choreographies and unpredictable concepts are something I can’t get enough of. I’m really happy they’re getting more recognition now. When I ordered VIXX’s album, it was the only time I didn’t have a very specific wish for the photocard, I would be satisfied with all of them, because they’re all awesome. Hongbin’s smile, in my opinion, is the best smile of k-pop.

Bias: N

Favourite song: Super Hero (my favourite song ever)

3. BTS

I’m so happy I decided to join the fandom. It may not have the best reputation, but inside the fandom people are awesome. Endless fun. The boys are talented and good looking and I see no reason not to stan them. I’ve always liked their music and concepts, and I simply love them. I’ve even started a ff about Suga which you can read here.

Bias: Suga always ♥

Favourite song: Not Today (they killed me with that new album)

2. INFINITE

My love for INFINITE is unexplainable. I’ve never got into any group so quickly and I hate myself for getting to know them so late and joining the fandom so late. Sunggyu is my UB, so that’s a first threat. Second - they’re, for me, the best dancing group in k-pop (we all know they are). Third, I love all their songs to the max, no exceptions. Pure perfection - I mean come on, their visuals are no joke. My fangirling when I see them is UNBELIEVABLE. HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEEM.

Bias: Sunggyu (UB)

Favourite song: Impossible to choose, I love Last Romeo, The Chaser, Hysterie, I’m Going To You…

1. Super Junior

The unbeatable, the legends, the group I’ll be loyal to forever, the group that caused me to listen to k-pop. I’ve never even considered putting anyone else on the top. I do not care whatever people say about their music, dancing, MVs, anything, and I won’t argue. For me, they are perfect and will forever hold a special place in my heart. Once an ELF, always an ELF. 

Bias: Kyuhyun (UB along with Sunggyu)

Favourite song: Raining Spell For Love

[batmaniskpopaf]

Wonho : I’m leaving Monsta X

MONBEBE:

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BOYFRIEND KIHYUN ❤️❤️❤️

💝💗💝😭

[batmaniskpopaf]

THIS IS A MONSTA X HOUSEHOLD

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What I say: I’m okay

What I mean: WONHO IS BACK *CRIES IN WENEE* SCREAMS ALONG TO OPEND MIND *CRIES SOME MORE

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