#none of my actual needs meant anything to her anyways sooooooo

[reverecurrent]

i might do a 10 post story time of my break up and how my ex is actually not the person i thought id met on here just out of pure spite and also catharsis but mostly catharsis cause i know she’d never even hear of it or come into the posts’ vicinity because she’s never had tumblr and never will.

[hamiltonimagines]

He Doesn’t Deserve You

Pairing: Lin x Reader

Request: “Hi! Could you do a Lin x reader where y/n gets cheated on and he comforts her and it’s friends to lovers and super fluffy?🥺🥰👉🏻👈🏻” - @brian-mayonnaise

Word Count: 2.1k

Warnings: Cheating and sooooooo much fluff

“Alright I’ll see you tomorrow. Make sure you actually go home and get some rest” I said. I was currently at the Richard Rogers Theater. We had just finished a show and I was talking to my best friend, Mr.Lin-Manuel Miranda. He had a tendency to work too hard, so I was always bugging him to make sure he had time to rest.

“Thank you for your concern. I promise I’ll get some rest. Just for you” he said giving me a hug. I smiled at him and then left his dressing room.

Lin and I had been friends since In The Heights. He pitched the idea of Hamilton to me and I thought it was brilliant. Then he insisted that I play Maria Reynolds. I could never tell my best friend no, so here we were.

Granted, it was a little weird having to kiss my best friend every night. Especially since I had had a crush on Lin when we first met. I quickly realized it would never happen and then I met my current boyfriend, Ryan. Ryan was a great guy and he was charming, but he would never be Lin.

I unlocked my apartment door and I walked inside. “Babe, I’m home” I called out. I heard some commotion in our bedroom. The door was closed and I panicked thinking someone had broken in to the house.

I grabbed the pepper spray that I kept in my purse. I listened closely trying to hear what was going on. Then the door quickly opened and out came Ryan. He shut the door right behind him. I jumped at how suddenly he came into the room.

“Oh it’s just you” I said, with a soft smile. I put my pepper spray back in my purse. I let out a sigh, thinking about how I’d overreacted. I saw that Ryan was just in a robe. “Oh were about to take a shower? I might have to join you” I said, with a smirk and walking toward him.

Then our bedroom door opened again, and a girl walked out. She was also wearing a robe, my robe. “Is this a friend of yours babe?” The girl asked.

I stood their in shock. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I didn’t know whether I should be angry or sad. “You have to be kidding me. You are such an asshole” I yelled as I ran out the door and slammed it shut behind me.

As soon as the door shut, I felt the tears streaming down my face. I had trusted him, we had dated for a year. And he decided to cheat on me.

My mind raced with questions. How long had this been going on? Was this a one time thing? Were there other girls he had been with?

I decided to run to the one person I knew would always be there for me.

I got to Lin’s apartment door and I knocked. I waited and there was no answer. “Of course, he was still at the theater. He is such a workaholic” I thought to myself. I sat down in the hallway and put my head in my hands.

It was then that I lost control of the tears and I just started balling.

I was so embarrassed that I was so upset about this. Ryan didn’t deserve any reaction from me.

Then I heard someone say “Oh my god Y/N?” and run toward me. I looked up and saw Lin kneeling in front of me, with a concerned look on his face.

“What’s wrong?” He asked me, grabbing ahold of one of my hands to comfort me. “I went home and Ryan was with another girl, Lin. What do I do? Did I do something wrong? Was it my fault?” I asked him.

“I am so sorry Y/N” he said as he pulled me into his arms. “None of this is your fault. If Ryan did that, then he is a moron who doesn’t how lucky he was to have you. He doesn’t deserve you and he never did” Lin assured me, as he rocked me back and forth.

So here I was, sitting on the floor outside Lin’s apartment as I balled in his arms and he comforted me. Once I stopped crying as hard, Lin said “Let’s go inside, I’ll make you some tea”.

He helped me up off the ground, and brought me inside. I sat down on his couch and he brought me a blanket and went to make some tea. I wrapped the blanket around myself.

I decided to check my phone. I saw countless texts from Ryan with phrases like “it wasn’t what it looked like” “please just let me explain” and “you’re the only one”.

I threw my phone onto the floor, I couldn’t stand to read the lies. I couldn’t believe I had wasted a whole year of my life dating him.

Lin walked in the room with two cups of tea. He handed one to me and I gratefully took it. “Thank you, I know this isn’t how you thought your night would go” I said. “I’m always here for you” he said to me with a smile.

“Speaking of, you can stay here as long as you like. And if you want time off the show, you can have it for as long as you want” he assured me. Lin has always been so thoughtful and caring. It only made my feelings for him stronger.

I guess I didn’t have to suppress those feelings anymore, since I was no longer in a relationship. That didn’t change the fact that Lin definitely didn’t like me though.

“Thank you, truly. I don’t know if I can go do a show tomorrow. I’ll start with one day off and see how I feel” I told him.

“Like a wise woman once said, “you need to get some rest”. So I’m going to bed and I’ll let you get some sleep” he said, kissing my forehead and going to his room.

I set up the couch that folded into a bed and I heard my phone buzzing on the floor. I figured it was Ryan, but I picked it up anyway. I looked at it and saw it was the Hamilton cast groupchat.

Lin had sent a message in the groupchat saying that I would taking a few days off. There were a bunch of responses, mostly saying get better. Everyone was assuming I was sick, because why else would I not show up.

Then I saw a private message from Pippa. It read “Y/N, I saw Lin’s message. I know you would only not do a show if you were deathly ill. So what’s going on? Are you okay?”. I decided I could tell her the truth.

Y/N: Something happened with Ryan

P: Is he sick?

Y/N: He cheated on me Pippa

P: Oh my god I am so sorry Y/N. Is there anything I can do to help?

Y/N: I don’t think so, I’ll be staying with Lin for the next few days

P: Okay, I’m always here to talk if you need it. I love you sis

Y/N: Love you too, goodnight

Pippa was my closest friend besides Lin. Her, Renée, Jas, and I were all like sisters. I knew my secret was safe with Pippa. I didn’t want everyone in the cast to know. Then, they would all just feel bad for me and I didn’t want their pity.

I put my phone down and fell asleep quickly, tired from the day’s events.

For the next three days, I stayed at Lin’s apartment and missed the shows. Pippa had come over once and brought me icecream and we talked for hours. Our cast mates had been becoming more and more worried. I decided that I was going to do the next show.

Both Lin and Pippa made sure I really was okay, and reassured me that I could take as long as I needed. I knew I had to get back in a routine eventually.

So now I was sitting in my dressing room getting my hair and makeup done for the show. I was blocking out anything I could possibly be thinking about. I wasn’t thinking about Ryan, I wasn’t thinking about my feelings for Lin, my mind was blank. I knew I would get too emotional if I thought about anything like that for too long.

I heard a knock at my door. I looked up and saw Lin peeking his head in. “Oh hi, come in” I said with a smile. “How’re you doing sweetheart?” He asked me, concerned. “I’m feeling ready, hoping this time off won’t make me forget the words” I joked, lightening the mood. “You’re going to do great, okay?” Lin said as he gave me a hug. Then he kissed my forehead before leaving.

I was standing in the wing, getting ready to go on stage. Pippa was standing right next to me and gave me the biggest hug before I went onstage.

We started singing Say No to This, I was doing it completely on autopilot. Still trying to block out all those emotions. We got to the middle of the song and it finally dawned that this scene was exactly like what happened to me. I don’t why it took me so long to connect the two. I realized I was playing the other woman.

Then, I starting thinking about Ryan and how he broke my heart. I knew within seconds I was going to breakdown. I locked eyes with Lin and he knew right away what was happening. I could see his mind spinning, thinking about ways to improv and get me off the stage.

I was holding it together and then all of a sudden, I fell apart right on stage. Leslie was on stage with us at that point. He ran over to me and ushered me off the stage with him. I could hear Lin doing improv and it was actually going well.

Pippa was waiting right there in the wings. She pulled me into her arms and Leslie rushed back on to the stage. “Shh it’ll be okay” she said as held me in a hug. She brought me down to my dressing room and I changed out of my costume, so that my understudy could take over. I assured Pippa that I would be okay so she could leave to go finish the show. I was laying on my dressing room couch in sweatpants and a sweatshirt.

I listened to the whole show and when it got to Burn, I was a complete mess. It completely captured how I had been feeling. Somehow I got through the rest of the show. I heard the show end, then within a minute Lin was in my dressing room.

Within seconds, he had enveloped me in a hug. “I knew doing a show would be too much, I should of stopped you” Lin said into my hair as he hugged me. “I thought I could do it” I told him. “That’s okay, no one expects you to be Wonder Woman and not let emotions affect you. You’re human, it’s bound to happen” he reassured me.

We pulled away and I was transfixed staring into Lin’s eyes. Throughout all of this mess, he had been a constant source of support. He meant so much to me, and everyday I spent with him as I stayed at his house, my feelings only grew stronger.

I couldn’t resist, I found myself leaning in toward him. I realized that he was leaning in too, did this mean after all these years that he liked me too?

Eventually, our lips met and it was magical. I poured all the love I had for him over the years into the kiss. It was like we were both trying to make up for lost time. We both pulled away and just smiled at each other.

Then his smiled faded. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t of done that. You’re going through a lot and I took advantage of that” he apologized quickly. “Don’t you get it Lin?” I asked him. He just had a look of confusion. “It’s always been you, since before Ryan. He was just a distraction. But you’ve always been the one I wanted” I confessed.

“Really?” He asked me. I nodded and before I knew it, he was leaning in to kiss me again. This kiss was shorter, but was just as magical.

“Come on let’s go home, I believe lots of cuddling is in order” Lin said as he grabbed my hand and stood up.

[punkscowardschampions]

Flat Whites & JJ

Mia: Mum can take four of us, so three of you are still going to need to find your way there, Dad's away on a Golf weekend 🤷 Grace: I'll ask if any of the fam can take the rest of us 🤞💜 Mia: Aw, thanks so much, babe Mia: so you're cool not coming with us then? Grace: there's like 1000s of them so 🤷🙄 someone'll will totally be talked or bribed into doing it 💅 Grace: oh yeah sure, it's like not even a problem, babes Mia: 😂😂😂 for real, got to have some upsides, yeah? Mia: Great 💗 Mia: the rest of you, you can only bring what you can hold on your laps, Dad took the range so we're in the sports, the boot is like non-existent 💁🙄 Grace: ugh IKR?! 😂😂😂 Grace: at least we can take SO MUCH of the stuff whoever's behind the wheel, you're so welcome huns Mia: Love a helpful queen Mia: Asia, are you even coming with us or are you going to ditch us for your boyfriend, again 💅 Asia: Of course I'm coming!!! Asia: Literally just got my hair done 👌👌✂ Asia: [and a million pics that nobody asked for] Jimmy: 😍😍😍😍😍 Grace: WOW! SO CUTE Mia: Yeah, but are you coming with us or coming with us like Maya's party where you left SO early with him instead of having a good time with your besties Ella: 😏🍵 Hollie: wasn't so early she didn't have a good time with ME tho! 💃💘 views to prove it Asia: UM like isn't it LAW that what happens at parties stays there?! 🤫🤫 Asia: & he doesn't even wanna come with soooooooo Jimmy: 💔 Ella: Oh, so we're your 2nd choice? 🤔🤔 Mia: 💔 is right, so rude Asia: ???!! Asia: not even Mia: We all heard you, you can't deny it Mia: at least own it, babe, omg Asia: you asked if he was coming?? Mia: Literally no one is concerned about him but you 😂 Mia: shame he's not, I might need your seat, actually Mia: but that's cool, yeah? seeing as you've got so many options Asia: ?????????? Mia: 🤫🤫 Grace: Why might you need her seat though? Spill on who you're trying to bring, thank you Mia: I'm not trying to make this convo all about me Mia: so cringe Mia: we're meant to be planning, thank you Jimmy: Go on, we're obvs all DYING to know Mia: Have to wait and 👀 Mia: be a nice surprise for you all Janis: How will we ever bear the suspense? Jimmy: there's only one of you who's getting mouth to mouth if you stop breathing, soz Janis: Things are looking up, Asia 🤞 Jimmy: I'm SO not going if Asia's not going, FYI Janis: 💔 Mia: There'll be room in whatever you're showing up in Mia: assuming she doesn't ditch you too, it's her thing rn Jimmy: put her on my lap ✔ you don't mind, do you, babe? Ella: 🤢 Jimmy: green's right Jimmy: no need to be jealous, El Ella: Don't ever call me that Jimmy: Babe 💔 come on Jimmy: this TENSION between us Ella: Repulsive and delusional, cute 🙄 Ella: Why are you even in this chat, though 👏 it's not nice to make fun of Asia, or helpful rn Jimmy: Bit rude to chuck me out of a chat she started Jimmy: but alright we can plan without her Jimmy: Mia* Mia: You aren't funny, new boy Jimmy: is that @ Asia's boyfriend or? Jimmy: he's got a name Janis: You aren't funny, babe Janis: what's to plan anyway, we have tents, we have lifts, sorted Hollie: Is Asia coming? Mia: Grace, can you please explain to your sister how much more there is left to do Mia: and Asia why are you like making people ask after you??? hello, answer a question, would you, silence ain't cute Grace: Janis does lowkey have a point, babes, it is chill Grace: she doesn't need or want to be involved in our outfit planning, obvs 😂😂 Asia: I LITERALLY SAID I'M COMING Ella: 🔉 Ella: Why are you shouting though Asia: why are you the volume police, Ells?? OH MY GOD Mia: Obviously Mia: but there's actually important stuff still to do, thanks, like who's getting the drink, for one Mia: Asia needs to calm down and find herself a seat, and a whole new tent if she's going to bring everyone down with her attitude??? Mia: don't take your relationship drama out on us tbh Jimmy: The unfunny dickhead with the unflattering fake ID, duh 👋 Jimmy: Love me again now, don't you? Mia: Don't get excited Mia: I want 2 bottles of vodka Jimmy: You gonna put me on a timeout, an' all? Cute Mia: El? Ella: Same Janis: You know it's a weekend Janis: you two don't need 4 bottles between you Janis: and you aren't even meant to have glass anyway Mia: You suddenly care about the rules? Mia: We'll pay you now, chill out 😂😂 Jimmy: I was waiting for the #flex Jimmy: can rest easy and count my 💰 now Mia: 🙄 you wanna pay for us Mia: literally none of us will be impressed Jimmy: and live off bread and water for the foreseeable? You're alright Jimmy: So poor, me, you just put the reminder out yourself Mia: 💔 Mia: like we're all SOOOO rich Jimmy: 🙄 Mia: like, bang on about it more, so not boring Mia: is anyone else going to order or are you just going to keep him waiting forever? Mia: what's wrong with you lots, like are you being shy Hollie: you bringing up Maya's party has me 🤔🤔🤔 maybe we should chill out with the 🍾🍾 idk Mia: You make those little videos sober, don't think you need to worry about being any more cringe, babe Mia: why are we going if to not have fun, come on now Hollie: WOW, ILY too babe Mia: it is what we 💗 about you Mia: so funny Hollie: 👌👌👌 Mia: OMG, this MOOD Mia: you're all stressing me out, actually over this Grace: Vodka is like totally fine for all of us, okay? Just get enough to have fun with, like Mia said Grace: without getting CRAZY like Hollie warned Grace: then we can all just move on Jimmy: 👍 Mia: Yeah, this is so much fun Mia: 🙄 Mia: I'm over this convo Jimmy: 💔 Mia: El, be ready in 15, okay? Grace: Is that everything? Mia: 🤷 Mia: Like I'm doing all the work for what? Mia: You wanna be boring, you'll have to work it out yourselves Grace: I'm literally asking so you don't have to do it all yourself, honey Mia: I said, I'm over it Mia: We're going shopping, you can all do what you want Grace: Ugh Grace: everyone stop Ella: The problem is you're doing nothing though? 💁 Grace: Excuse you? Ella: What? 😂 Grace: That's like the opposite of helping Grace: I'm trying to sort everything out Ella: 👌👌👌 Grace: Do you wanna talk to Asia rn? cos I don't think you appreciate how upset she is Grace: That's what I'm doing Ella: Such a saint 🙏 Ella: she's got nothing to be upset about, just like the rest of you, this is such a joke Grace: mhmmm Grace: we all know you wanna call the whole thing off, Ella Grace: but maybe the rest of us wanna go, so like ?? Don't be so rude Ella: That's why me and Mia are the only ones who have made any suggestions in this chat??? Ella: Okay Grace: 4 bottles of vodka isn't a suggestion, it's a shopping list Ella: We all know you can't handle your drink Ella: so why don't you ask for some cocktails in a can and get realistic about it Grace: 🙄🙄🙄 Mia: El, leave it Mia: this chat is so hormonal Grace: Call off your clone please, so over her Ella: Ha, now who's excused Ella: what was that about green? Grace: yeah cos I was so in favour before Grace: okay Grace: I literally don't care, count me out if this is how it's going to be the whole time Ella: The tantrums 😂 Ella: your sister finally invites you to something and this is how you act Grace: my sister isn't the one being a total bitch, you are Grace: eat something, you'll feel better Ella: Seen enough changing room meltdowns to know that's not worked for you, hun 😚 Mia: This is so toxic and we all know why Asia: I don't Mia: 🙄🙄🙄 Mia: God 😂 Mia: she speaks Hollie: stop shading her Mia: And another one Hollie: her and her bf will be done before the tents are set up, like hello? Hollie: it's not worth dragging her over Asia: 😱😱😱 Asia: Hollie! Mia: Wow Mia: it says so much about you that you only pipe up when things get bitchy Mia: both of you, where was this enthusiasm earlier? Damn, say how you really feel, Hols Hollie: I have to do my own dirty work 🤷 Hollie: if Ells had a twin too, I could sit back and get comfy too Mia: No one's asked you to be such a bitch Mia: this is why people don't fuck with you, so uncomfortable 😬 Hollie: yeah cos only you two are allowed, isn't it? Hollie: is it a boy you've invited? Mia: 😂 show me where Hollie: maybe where Ells is about to pull Gracie's weave out? Hollie: or when you uninvited Asia cos you're so salty that she has a bf Mia: Grace is trying to threaten she's not coming and Asia is clearly doing the same since no one uninvited her Mia: like, try to hide your drama behind us some more Mia: we're shopping for outfits, MY mum is driving us, I've paid for my drinks? Mia: sort your lives, honestly Hollie: my drama is you, you're being cringey bitches and I'm so done 👌 Asia: So I can come with you? Ella: Mime to a sad song, you'll feel better Ella: duh, Asia Hollie: I'll feel better when that boy you have a crush on, who I won't name to the entire chat cos I'm not that bitch, slides into my DMs again Hollie: thanks so much though, Ells Ella: It's tragic you think that means anything Ella: as if you've ever made it to the tent being put up Hollie: It's sooooooo funny that you think that's going to get to me Hollie: I don't want a 💍 and you know it Ella: that's lucky Ella: don't think they do engagement rings in man-sized Jimmy: Well I'm fucked then Jimmy: soz babe, the proposal's cancelled Mia: Are you two legit still here? Mia: That's even more pathetic than you three, you're in luck Jimmy: waiting on my shopping invite, no manners, you Mia: You've got your list Jimmy: But how can I join the cult if you don't tell me the dress code Jimmy: Kool-Aid's on order, like Mia: 🦗🦗 Mia: less reaction than your fake proposal bombshell, I am SO sorry, sweetie Jimmy: I proper felt that, you should go to drama school Ella: and Brits are meant to be decent at sarcasm Ella: try harder, new boy Jimmy: What's sarcasm? Please tell us, attack dog #1 Ella: Get Grace to, seeing as she's such a martyr Ella: Asia's stopped blubbing now Grace: Get over yourself and my name out of your mouth, hun Grace: your changing room meltdown atm isn't my problem Ella: OMG, a real-life 👼 Ella: deigning to talk to us commoners for a sec Ella: you wanna talk about names in your mouth, be sure to tell Asia what you said about her after she left Maya's, k 😘 Grace: Jesus loves everyone babes, even you Mia: 💁 so true Mia: make sure your hands are clean before you start pointing the finger, Gracie Grace: Oh please, I was drunk after I left that party cos OBVS I can NEVER handle my drink, DUH Grace: Do we wanna take a moment to talk about what you both said about my sister and her boyfriend after they invited us to this festival or no? Mia: Try on another excuse, see if that one fits Ella: 😏 Ella: doubt it Grace: we for sure don't wanna take any moments to discuss body image, unless of course you really would like to leave the chat and focus on your ootds Ella: 🐢🌵💚 Asia: ??? Asia: what does that even mean?? Ella: She knows Ella: Asia are you at home? Asia: not my home Asia: why? Ella: to pick you up Ella: you still need to get stuff too, right? Asia: OH Asia: I'll get him to drop me off rn Ella: 🙌 we'll wait 💗 Asia: 👌💗 Mia: We'll do nails and tan after, Dad's paying Asia: I can't tan too dark tho it'll clash with 💇 Mia: 'course, babe, that'd be so cringe Mia: you'll look amazing 😘 Asia: 💗💗💗 Mia: k, toodles 👋 Asia: SO excited Ella: Us too 💃🍾 Hollie: 🙄🙄🙄 Ella: Your negative energy is really draining Ella: speak up if you've got a problem, Hols, maybe we can help Hollie: I just can't remember stepping into a time machine and popping out again when we were like 12 tbh Ella: Your backne is acting up again? Ella: Worst timing, the sun will do it wonders though, don't worry Hollie: 😂 Ella: See, that's more like it Ella: positivity, ladies Hollie: Mia, are you really doing this? Mia: Doing what, babe? Hollie: you know Hollie: 🥶🥶🥶🥶 Mia: I really don't, though Mia: sorry 😕 Mia: DM me if you don't want to say it in front of them, yeah Hollie: okay Hollie: be really cool if you could swat Ells off your shoulder first though Hollie: just saying Mia: Why are you being like, jealous Mia: so weird Mia: we're all friends, 'cos we're not 12 😂 Hollie: check your inbox Hollie: you won't be BFFs with her when you read that Ella: Beg an invite harder Hollie: you'll be begging to keep yours, babes Hollie: gonna have to do your own tan, uh oh Ella: You'd know all about that Ella: 🍊🍪😷 Asia: OMG yay! I understood that time Ella: 😂 it'd be hard to miss, right babe Ella: bless Asia: 😂😂

[abdicatedarchive]

Lexi’s House Party || Rose and Marina

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍: pool house @ lexi’s house party // 29th of january.

𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: rose x marina.

𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒: none?

𝐃𝐄𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐒: rose has rolled her ankle and needs her sister’s help.

Rose was sitting down at the bottom of the stairs looking at her ankle while she waited for Marina, "Hey" she whispered, so they wouldn't hear her at the top of the stairs where the two were making out. "Can you get me out of here? I rolled my ankle" the girl whispered again as she put her arms out so her sister could help her up.

Marina had met up with Rose after she got a text from her, noticing her sister sitting down at the bottom of the stairs. "You rolled your ankle? Are you okay?" she asked with raised brows. She already knew their dad would be pissed if he found out about this since competitions were coming up. She went down and put Rose's arm around her shoulders to help her up. 

"Be quiet, people are upstairs getting busy" said Rosemary as she was helped up. She knew her dad would be mad if she tried to walk on it and make it worse, "Just take me to the kitchen please and I will tell you everything" she whispered as she put her arm around her sister and hobbled over to the house. Once they were outside she started talking, "I walked in on Noah and Bliss making out, and then I tripped and fell down to the first landing on the stairs" she explained.

"Yeah, I'm good. I just need some frozen peas or something" said the girl as she got herself onto a chair with the help of her sister. "Dad is going to kill me, but I should be fine by Monday. I can move it" Rosemary added as she moved her foot around to show that she could, even though she winced. "Yeah, I think he saw me kiss Juniper earlier and so our little agreement might be off? I'm not sure" said the girl as she was handed the peas. "Also I kissed Juniper earlier, long story, oh and LONGER story Caleb is coming by to get his necklace on Saturday and I would love it if you would give it to him so I don't ever have to speak to him ever ever again"

Rose put the bag on her ankle, "It's just a small thing, as long as I don't put any weight on it over the weekend I should hopefully be good to go? Maybe benched for one practice? Dad is going to have a cow" she said looking up at the ceiling, just thinking about how upset their dad was going to be. Marina had a lot of questions, probably because Rose had put so much out on the table. "I would appreciate you punching him, but yes okay long story... well long stories, plural. Sooooooo, I hung out with Noah again and it was ... it was hot. I was really into it, and after I suggested that we do the friends with benefits thing but like actually do friends with benefits and not catch feelings like everyone in every movie ever about friends with benefits. So that went well" said Rose, catching her breath as she continued to ramble. "The thing with Juniper is just that we've been hanging out a lot and I dunno, she's just always there and everything and ... I really don't know how to explain it. I mean she's really pretty and everything, but I've been boy crazy since I could breathe? So when I say idk, i mean it" Rose continued on, taking a water bottle from the counter and taking a long sip. "So anyways ... we're on the couch and I'm playing with her hair, again don't ask, and internally I was like you know what would be fun, making out. So I leaned over and kissed her and I was getting into it, did you know that girls have way softer lips than all these gross boys, I'm getting off track." Rosemary took another sip of water before she continued, "Soooooo, I'm pretty sure that Noah saw because I saw him walking away, I think. Not one hundo on that because .. drunk. ANYWAYS, Caleb saw and he was being a total asshole about it because that whole mistake the other day when I slept with him? Well he's coming at me with all this stuff about how I'm not working on our relationship and I'm like ... buddy. I don't have anything to work on I'm not the cheater" said Rose getting huffy about it. "I was already pissed about those garbo disgusting ass tweets about girls in dresses here tonight because he wasn't even talking about me. I'm clearly wearing jeans and a very cute corset top. The disrespect honestly. Like if he was going to thirst tweet, like make it vaguely about me. It's just embarrassing, because everyone can see that and that he's being a pig and he's not even being a pig about me. So yeah, I told him he was wasting my time, that he's been wasting my time, and that he's not allowed to waste my time anymore" Rose finished her statements, "There's more but that is the brief summation, and I'd like to give my time to the chair" she said, referencing how you end your time in a debate.

Marina nodded her head throughout the whole explanation, looking at her sister with a blank stare. She was still pretty buzzed from all the drinking she did, but she was trying her best to take everything in. "Right... so friends with benefits with Noah, girls have softer lips, Juniper playing with your hair, and Caleb being gross as usual." she said mostly to herself to make sure she remembered everything. "Well Noah shouldn't be upset or anything about you kissing someone else. Isn't he hooking up with someone right now? That was the plan." she nodded as she spoke. "Caleb is a piece of shit. Period. End of story. Moving on from him is the best option. There's just too many bad things about him. Is there anything left of him that's good? Like honestly?" she rolled her eyes as she thought about the boy. Marina used to really like Caleb before, she would have never thought he'd turn out like this. But the moment he disrespected Rose to Marina's face, she decided he was no good for her sister. "But now that he's out of the picture for good, I'm assuming, you can do whatever you want with whoever you want. So everything should be getting better from here on out, right?"

Rose nodded as her sister went through the rundown, "Yeah, I don't think he's mad. It was Caleb who got mad, and yeah Noah is hooking up with Bliss right now, but I walked in on them making out and then I tripped" said Rose shrugging a little, "I'm not jealous or whatever, I was just hoping that he and I might ... ya know, tonight" she added. Rose nodded and looked at the ground as Marina talked about Caleb, "Yeah it's 100% done, I honestly ... I never want to see him ever again" said Rose firmly. She smiled when Marina said she could do whatever she wanted, "Yeah, I guess I can do whatever I want with whoever I want. Everything will be better, and now we can do double dates with ... whoever I want" she said thinking about the question again. She wasn't sure who she wanted, or if she was actually even ready for any of this.

Marina patted Rose's shoulder, "Well there's always tomorrow." she responded with a small smile. Once she heard Rose say that she never wanted to see Caleb again, Marina nodded. "He hurt you a lot, he doesn't deserve you." she told her sister, and she meant it. She was glad that her sister was wanting to move on from her ex, she hoped that this was a step in the right direction. The mention of double dates caused Marina to force a laugh and shake her head, "I'd first need a date to participate in that." she tried to joke to keep the mood light, but her love life wasn't doing so great at the moment.

"He doesn't deserve you, now go chop his dick off!!" said Rose quoting one of their favorite vines. The two loved sitting around and watching vine comps, it was a good way to pass time. When her sister said that she didn't have a date to go on double dates with, she replied "What about tony???" shocked that her sister wasn't all in on it. "Did you two talk about the whole ... he might be gay thing?" she probed, wondering if she should have phrased it better, but she was still a little drunk. There was no way she could have not told Marina, it had to be known.

Marina bursted out into laughter once Rose quoted the vine. "Now go chop his dick off!" she repeated. She held back the urge to quote a random vine right after. If she did, the two would be there all night going back and forth. "Yeah we did. From our talk it seems like he's into guys and girls. He told me I mean the most to him, but I don't know." she crossed her arms and looked down at the floor. "I just thought he wanted to get back together, I thought everything was going to go back to how it was. But I think I got too ahead of myself."

Rose put her hand on her sister's shoulder, "If he hurts you, I will go chop his dick off" she said with a smile, "But I think he meant it when he said you were the most important thing, I know I wasn't there, but you're the most important person to me so he must feel the same way" the girl replied sweetly. Her sister was great, and if Tony was going to ditch her for anyone? That would be a major character flaw. Even if it was Sammy, who she was fond of. But Marina was Marina. 

Marina gave her sister a sad smile and nodded her head. She had hurt Antonio many times. It felt more than deserving for her to get hurt back, but she kept the thought to herself . "If I was, he wouldn't have hooked up with someone else." she shrugged her shoulders. "But thanks, you know you're the most important person to me too." she said with a more genuine smile. Marina felt more lonely than ever since she'd been back in town, but she knew she'd always have her sister. "Oh, I know you won't, but he wanted to make sure I told you to not say anything about all of this. He's not ready to be out to everyone."

"Maybe there's just some stuff you don't know about" said Rose, doing her best to be optimistic about everything. It was what they owed each other, her and her sister. Optimism in the face of it all. "I would never out someone" said Rosemary, she had her own thoughts to think about when it came to that. Paola coming out to the family was just accepted immediately, but she just didn't know what she wanted to label herself. "Do you think you're like 100% straight?" she asked, curious to what her sister's answer was. They had always been boy crazy, the two of them. It was always one boy or another.

"Yeah maybe. I think I just need a distraction, a pretty one." Marina suggested as she forced a smile on her face. She had to act like this didn't faze her until it actually didn't. "I know, I'm just telling you just in case he comes to you asking about it." she clarified. Marina knew Rose wasn't like that. "Me? Nah I don't think so." she shook her head. Marina had become pretty laid-back in regards to her sexual orientation, but it was also something she didn't bring up to others too often. "I would always get those 'haha what if we just kissed' thoughts towards some girls during summer camp back then. You know what I mean?" she asked with a small laugh.

Rosemary wiggled her eyebrows, "A tall distraction?" she said with a smile, "Like a very tall brooding awful guy that only has one use?" Rose added as she gave her sister a playful nudge. They were both in agreement that Cody Summers had one purpose on this earth that benefitted anyone. "I mean I kinda get what you mean now, but I've just been ... I don't know. I've liked Caleb since forever, and then I liked Bradley, and then Asher, and then Noah, and I haven't really stopped being like all about them in years" Rose said, thinking out loud a little.

"I think our twin telepathy is growing stronger and stronger every day." Marina tapped on her forehead with a small smirk on her face. She wasn't in a relationship, so if Antonio wanted to go back and forth between hooking up and with her and other people, Marina would try to do the same. "Well I remember just shoving those feelings down when I was younger cause I thought I was just being silly, but I think seeing people like Paola helped me a bit." she tried to explain what she never really said out loud before. "When it comes to people I'm attracted to, I try not to view it by gender. Like yeah, I've been interested in a lot of guys, but they're all just individual people. Maybe the next person I'll be into won't be a guy, who knows?" she raised her shoulders. "But that's just me. I'm not even sure I've found a label I feel completely right with yet. Sexuality is fluid. Everyone's different." she looked at Rose with a small smile. "I don't know if I'm helping you out in any way."

"Oh our twin telepathy has never been stronger. Boo to scientists for thinking just because we're not blood twins does not mean that we do not get all the perks!" she said, the room filling with the sound of her laughter. She listened to her sister explain, and she understood. It was just different. She was worried about how she wasn't ready more than anything, and how she'd been piling on distraction after distraction ... and she felt like she was using people. "I just don't want to use her and lose her, which is kinda what I've been up to with most people" said Rosemary with a shrug, "I don't want her to hate me if I'm not ready, or it turns out I don't want that".

“It was just a kiss, and you’ve been drinking. I don’t think she’ll think too much into it.” Marina told Rose with the shake of her head. “You can’t control how you feel. If you’re into her, go for it. If you’re not, don’t feel bad for that.” she continued to explain. “She’s always seemed pretty understanding to me. Can she really get upset if you’re not ready for something?”

"That's fair enough" said Rosemary, trying to not think about it too much. "Well, don't let me ruin your night, go and have some fun. I'll be here whenever you want to leave. I want to rest it for a bit and also wait until Dad is in bed" Rosemary added.

"Everything's gonna be fine." Marina tried reassuring Rose with a smile on her face. "Antonio said he wanted to meet up for a bit, but I'll text you when I'm ready." she told her sister before looking down at her ankle. "We could always spend the night at Paola's, but we'll figure it out later. Love you." Marina gave Rose a hug before going off to find Antonio. //END