#no one understands my pain
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you do not know the epic highs and lows of being a huge fan of my chemical romance
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#i just want them to interact....#troy baker x2#no one understands my pain#if you read my fanfic#just know that these are the two im thinking about#sloppy af gifs but idc#mostly for my own ref#my gifs#i will make you guys see my vision it's my main mission#i don't want to tag this as brujay because i feel like i will get yelled at#telltale bruce wayne#ak jason todd#troy baker#fave boys
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the captive prince series got new illustrated (!!!) covers and while they are beautiful and laurent looks wonderful, i am devastated they made my beefcake damen into a twink
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im not gonna make the other post yet (bc it takes me a lot of time to elaborate it take screenshots etc lol) but i need to post immediately about this part in regards to the "starting over" post i just did because
i find it deeply fascinating that dee tries to get dennis to his senses by saying "it's me". you know, it was me, it was always me. I'm dennis, I've always been dennis. you're still you, you've always been you.
on one side, someone faced with so many lies he wants to end everything.
on the other, someone trying to remind and explain to them that they're still the same person they know.
it's a big risk for dennis to finally be honest about how he feels, because it implies he's been lying the whole time. how can he be trusted to be truthful Now?
idk just thinking
#i really need to sleep lol#parallels#theres more to this.... im just sleep deprived rn and cant be coherent#dennis has always asked. no. demanded mac be truthful to him. stop lying. macday comes to mind. but he never held himself to that standard#somebodys head may get lopped off. and it'll be dennis 100% not even a question tbh. unless the Multiple hints are all red herrings but like#probably not cuz only 3 people on tumblr noticed them lol. it would be more obvious if it was. like the celeb booze speech 😈#anyway. idk im gonna go sleep then work on the dreaded chopping of the head meta when i wake up#which IN ITSELFFF is linked to the LYING/HONESTY thing ugh!!!! because the hair is a lie!!! the chop is only thought to be needed because#of the HAIR!!! AND WOMANS RIGHT TO CHOP HAS HEAVVVYYY HAIR CUTTING PLOT. IT'S LITERALLY DIABOLICAL U DONT UNDERSTAND#no one understands my pain#except the locusts. they do. my sunny meta soulmates.... they get it#metamates?#meta
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why can't "cozy games" have an interesting premise like why do all of them have to just be story of seasons. A cozy game can be dragons and maiming and biting surely
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I’ve never been tortured but I imagine it must feel like finding a really good fic for a fandom that none of your mutuals are in and having to have an emotional meltdown all alone over it
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life is hard being the one Elf Power fan
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all i have left
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuuji#yuuji#megumi#hhhhhhhhh why angsty mood im hurting my me :((((((#go from megumi angst 2 dumb outfits then HARD pivot back 2 angst#u dont understand th clench in my heart i get drawing th sukuna scars on megumi i genuinely hate it so much#theyre such a Part of yuuji's design tht drawing them on megumi feels so viscerally wrong n it just hammers home that nothing is alright#had to listen 2 the cutesiest music possible while drawing this 2 keep myself sane#miku miku beam th pain away :)#real talk tho like. im really not one to b terribly emotionally affected by my own art. or to draw from my Own emotional state at all rly#i tend 2 keep myself pretty distant#but theres smth abt this one man this one pulls at th kokoro :(#suffering from success ig :/#created an emotionally poignant piece n it hurt. 0/10 wld not recommend. am going back to drawing boys shirtless >:c#gna draw something else so i stop feeling genuine human emotion
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"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"
#that “you understand?” kills me everytime...#i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg#hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀#i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀#happy valentines too ig#just roll with it#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#jrwi chip#jay ferin#jrwi fish and chips#my art#i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm#sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah#it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu#-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night#and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my#brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls.....#my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.
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two sides of the same coin
#itadori yuuji#ryomen sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#my art#jujutsu kaisen fanart#brainrot incoming (pls don’t mind me)#one thing sukuna and yuuji have in common is that they’re both absolutely miserable#sukuna is utterly selfish and yet it only made him hollow inside and now he’s just killing time waiting for death to come#yuuji is completely selfless and yet it’s only made him suffer and bc of that he’s been constantly trying to check out of life#and I think the funniest but also the most painful thing about these two is that…#despite that they’re vastly opposite they might be the only people that can understand each other the most#imagine them having a heart to heart lol maybe then they would realise some things about themselves
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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#mine#🍓#another end of the year nears with me listening to sad electronic music#to dance away the sorrows and pains of mellifluous existence#another end of the year comes along like a visit from an old friend#one of these days im gonna learn to touch my body with tenderness#a kindness not akin to anything it has felt before#one of these days im gonna learn to touch my soul with understanding#make a home for it in a place so hostile#anyway#check out my#patreon#thats all thank u#Spotify
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I think you might have been a father to me, once.
You used to be more than just another man who hurt me in my life.
Reference pic!
#can you imagine coming to terms with the fact that the one who hurt you might have also been a human?#can you imagine even a monster having their good moments? as fleeting as they might have been?#do those moments even matter? they happened- they were real- but they don’t outweight the pain they caused in contrast#DO YOU THINK STANLEY STILL REMEMBERS FILBRICK AS HIS FATHER???#humanizing abusers is such an interesting concept to me#not a fun one- but interesting#it doesn’t rectify or even justify any of the things they’ve done to their victims#it doesn’t change anything at all- it doesn’t necessarily make us feel pity- understanding- or forgiveness towards the abuser#it might even just make us feel worse about them#but it levels the playing field#that despite both victim and abuser being human- the abuser actively chose to act they way they did#no one was forcing them to inflict pain#it was a conscious choice to make another feel less than human- while]st stripping themselves of their humanity at the same time#they chose to be worse than they had to be#they experienced the same joy- pain- love- and hate as the victims. they shared those feeelings and experiences with the victims#they were human#but it doesn’t really change anything#my art#art#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#filbrick pines#stanley pines#gravity falls stanley#stan pines#artists on tumblr
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Translation notes for Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu / Our Youth ep 2
At first, I tried dipping my feet in just a little. But then the waves swept away the sand beneath my feet and at some point, I was swept away into the open sea.
You... Menthol cigarettes are lame, huh… Maybe I should change to the same stuff you smoke.
By the time I'd realised this, I was already floating close to you.
He's been poisoned/influenced by Hirukawa.
Majima has his own will; it's not all just Hirukawa's fault.
Ahh, that was quite a lot (of homework).
Seriously though, it's better if you don't get close to Hirukawa.
It's better not to get close to anyone.
All he plans to do is (to continue making unprofitable art films).
Don't purposely go and live your life in such an inefficient manner.
I told you not to have anything to do with me, did I not?
After the bookstore, come to my place (for a bit).
What reference book did you buy? Modern literature. That's impressive. Note: The modern literature book that Jin picks up is probably the one that he asked Kento to recommend him while they were studying together.
Ah, but if you put it this way... I can see (that you're his son).
This film affirms all of them.
So in order to prevent the waves of suffering from surging forward towards the person/people who is/are important to him, the protaganist stayed in the sea to stand watch. Note: Haruki uses the same verb (mihatte - to stand watch) when describing his choice in staying with his father instead of leaving with his mother.
I don't want to be like that sorta guy.
Do I look pitiful?
My mum and I are close, but she remarried pretty quickly after leaving my dad.
Your mother is pretty cruel too, huh...
Isn't that too quick (for me to like you)?
Because you said (I wouldn't be able to kiss you), so (I'm doing it).
Even if I try to distance myself, I find myself attracted to him.
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#i don't understand how i hit 30 images multiple times even after combining several lines 🤡🤡🤡#i was already picking certain lines to translate and not some of the other ones but hahaha gaga hahahah#some of the subs were actually completely incorrect#when will i get to ep 5? asking for a friend#miseinen#miseinen: mijukuna oretachi wa bukiyo ni shinkochu#our youth#language my love my pain
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codtwt is going off on brainwashed!soap bc of his new warzone skin and it’s making me think of ghost deliberately getting himself captured by makarov bc he knows he’ll be given to his dog to try and break him; knows he won’t be able to resist the irony, the cruelty of being tortured by the teammate he lost
he doesn’t fight; welcomes the chains around his wrists and ankles, welcomes the hands stripping him of his weapons and gear until he's defenceless
he wouldn't use them anyway
when he stalks into the room, the muzzle, the scars, not even the blank hatred or lack of recognition could make him mistake his eyes
that's his johnny
he doesn't flinch as he digs knives into his skin; would never shy away from his kiss even if it's tinged with rusted steel. doesn't swallow his screams; not when he always loved hearing him, when he spent so long coaxing his voice from the grave
frustration joins the anger in johnny's eyes the longer he goes without giving up information
just jokes; dark and puns alike
just advice when he can't get the jumper cables to spark right
ghost's not trying to escape; not trying to barter his return to the 141
he's right where he wants to be
#ghost letting him be tortured indefinitely if it means being with johnny i am going to eat glass#he doesnt even care if he never gets him back. if the brainwashing is permanent#he still treats him the same. gives him openings to meet a punchline or rib him for something#no matter how long he goes without responding. without giving him any hope of becoming the man he knew#if pain is all he’ll ever get from johnny again he’ll welcome it gratefully with open arms#he got his share of kindness. more than he ever thought he deserved. if pain has to balance it out then so be it#so long as johnny is the one giving it to him#meanwhile soap gets more and more frustrated that he cant break this soldier#that when he becomes more inventive he just meets him with a story about people he doest know but acts like he should#that every day when his master calls him away he leaves with a soft - /loving/ - see you tomorrow johnny echoing in his ears#he doesnt understand#and it just makes him more vicious#but the soldier doesnt care#he still smiles in the face of pain#still calls him johnny#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#soap cod#john soap mactavish#ghost x soap#save post
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Haha, idiot. That's what you get for having human emotions :'((((
And a closer shot on this one cause I LIKE THEM TREES!
#kamen rider#kamen rider blade#aikawa hajime#kenzaki kazuma#fan art#comic#hajime with the banger lines always....#This scene with him and Jin and the one with the spider lilies in my heart forever#killer line on first watch... absolutely BRUTAL thing to revisit on the next ones lmao#first watch i thought about how he probably saw what grief physically looked like from haruka and amane.#observing but maybe not understanding...#second watch was like 'ohhhh brace for impact buddy....'#local heart themed knucklehead painstakingly learns about human emotions to immediately have his stamped into the ground lol#blade was NOT the thing to rewatch while drawing cause now i'm depressed AND distracted lmao!#i'm in so much pain agh#oh yeah and...#blade spoilers#kamen rider blade spoilers#for SURE#scrolling format is kinda fun... but also a pain in the ass lmao#also.... hajime's cute little heart ring rb if you agree
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