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angellurgy2 · 3 months

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i thinkci just ruin everything in my life. i walk around trying my fucking hardest to be the best girl i can be, to communicate my issues, to tell when I feel bad abt them, to try n figure out how to move past them. i try to engage w people on things they like i try to pretend i like things i try to pretend im a person who is able to interact w 'interests' i try to pretend i can take all the fucking abuse and exclusion and forgetfulness on a daily basis but no matter what i do i just ruin everything somehow. ive stopped speaking out loud to anyone at all irl bc i know everythinf that co w out of my mouth will be hated on or taken with the worst assumption possible instead of assuming the best in me which no one has ever done. even my irl gfs never think of me. never even consider what id like. i get to just rot while they run away without ever msging me to go fuck a girl who hate s me. i want a fucjing break from the pain which is why i tried to kms but its not always gonna fuckinf work so im just stuck here n i cant reaaally come online for refuge anymore bc all im reminded of is how much people have fucjing abandoned me and how u all reblog all of their shit so theyre plastered on my dash and i just wanna fucking escape this endless pain that I can never avoid feeling. i want real fucking friends but im just not allowed to have them i guess. at times ive thought 'im glad i didnt die b4 so i could meet my first irl gfs at least' but now i dont. now i just wish that the pain would(ve) stop at all. and sure some of the problem is just that ppl r fucking assholes who refuse to acrually care about their sisters and are lying to everyones faces abt their morality but clearly im a walking fckn problem too. no matter what everytime im around smth gets ruined. what am i even supposed to fucking do when theres no point in trying anything anymore

#no one i know even talks to me anymore #i have 1 fucking person i know who msgs me . ONE. everyones fucjing abandoned me n they act like my friends and yet its been weeks since we #spoke #im a fucking issue i guess

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asurrogateblog · 4 months

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paul will literally claim to have been possessed by george’s ghost before he’ll admit what his songs are actually about

#????????#I don’t even know why I’m surprised anymore #this comes across like george was trying to use divine intervention to get paul to talk about his feelings and it backfired #one step forward two steps back #it’s so funny to me that both paul and john -frequently- displace their own feelings onto george #paul mccartney

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oneday-yourside · 4 months

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Harry's world/Bad end

Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth

#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough #this is the social murder game you guys #i dunno #my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking #disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position #it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be #one drink is all it takes and he is left to die #he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives #he's nothing but an addict to them #reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt #used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore #ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it #its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium #harry du bois #disco elyisum fanart #my art #illustration #also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows #ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME

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puppyeared · 2 months

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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION #listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc #time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our #own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that #and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt #wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal #whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it #i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in #the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time #but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every #day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more #of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts #i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head #than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well #being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own #like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it #and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo #and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience #the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes #no offense krobus #yapping #stardew #stardew valley #puppy plays sdv #sdv #this game has me by the ankles man

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ganondoodle · 3 months

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im watching a (slow) streamer play thorugh elden rings DLC and have barely seen anything more but ... i have seen some vague hints on twitter that theres something up with radahns lore and now im WORRIED/FEAR TM

hes my fav and thought that the lore in the base game was all he would get and i was honestly fine with that (heyo another unpopular(?) one to add to my list of favs lol) and was just happy he was mentioned by name bc that one lady NPC at the start-- BUT NOW??? i dont even know if its true but .............

im not gonna say anything more dw, ... i dont even know more anyway, but feel free to tell me bc the not knowing and then see it get discovered on stream might be worse than any spoiler could be (i dont even care about that much anymore)

#ganondoodles talks #elden ring spoilers #??#it seems like something was made weird #BUT I DONT KNOW IF ITS TRUE OR WHAT #i dont wanna google it either bc while not caring much about spoilers ... knowing every boss would be kinda meh #... how would i even google it #pls dont tell me they ruined yet another one of my favs #... i only have so few but somehow always manage to pick the ones know one remembers or that get ruined by later added lore #like im sorry but i love sooga/supa alot and still do but the added lore thing with koga made me feel weird about the ship #and know im having trouble enjoying it anymore #as one example ... though a tame one #someone ease my mind #cant stop thinking about it

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radioroxx · 14 days

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What do you think Odile does for a living? She feels teacher like to me. What do you think she would do post canon?

HMMMM THIS IS GOOD QUESTION…

ive seen a lot of people hc her as a teacher / professor so i!! think that suits her pretty well. specifically as someone who studies + specializes in different types of craft (that would be why shes so proficient in multiple craft spells. also how she was able to figure out the loops stuff, AND to find something that could prevent siffrin from looping back).

post canon i am not sure… i am always torn between how the party would handle things post canon. obviously they would keep travelling for a bit, odile alongside her family without the stress of. constant sadness encounters + a king to kill lol. i think maybe she would get to take her time, reeaally get to know vauguardian culture when not within. a crisis. as was her original intention.

eventually. EVENTUALLY. when the family settles down somewhere (i am a “they all get a big house together” believer lol) she would get back into craft stuff. maybe go back into teaching too—surely people would be eager to hire a saviour. especially though i think it would be neat of her to try looking into wish craft etc, as a long forgotten form of craft. to satisfy her own curiosity, for siffrins sake, or just as a way of preserving the countries culture in whatever ways possible.

#asks #ive never gotten to talk about this before #and its a little unrelated to the odile thoughts so im putting it in the tags #but. surely surely. there must be some group out there dedicated to looking into this. suddenly lost island #no one remembers the country ofc. i bet its hard to even think about. probably difficult to dedicate an entire project to #but you also have to imagine. the day the island disappeared. the effect without anyone realizing why #people from the island. vacationers or visiting family etc. going through some sudden spell of amnesia all at once #and their loved ones + family being equally confused #also the fact that? given bambouches (probable) proximity to the island. that many of these cases wouldve popped up there #what did people think was going on. at the time. did they assume it was a disease?? a curse?#and then forget about the entire ordeal a week later #anyway point is. someone mustve found that suspicious. theres gotta be at least one person #which to me means i find it very likely there could be research gone into it. esp esp since the party members knew about. Some island that #isnt there #anyway anyways im rambling way too much #i think odile should look into wish craft. i think siffrin would appreciate it #if not because. it was a piece of him that was Important #but also to impart the actual Dangers of it to. others #am i making sense i dont know #isat spoilers #anyways oops thats not about odile anymore #lol

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lucid-daydreaming-art · 4 months

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this is like the third time ive had to post something like this but you guys need to stop treating unodum like a celebrity or fangirl over him or act like its some sort of gift to be talked to by him or especially treat his friends weirdly because they talk to him regularly. ive gotten word that his friends are being treated as special just because they have connections to him and being asked to like say stuff to him or whatever??? which is legitimately very very gross behavior. cause its not only really uncomfortable for uno but it gets very awkward and uncomfortable for me and his friends. im aware my popularity in the regretevator fandom is largely because im associated with him and in all honesty from the START that concept has made me pretty upset. neither me nor his other friends want to be seen as special just because we’re close to him. its part of why i didnt make much outside of the blog AND why i just abandoned the blog and the fandom altogether. i think a lot of you guys are a younger audience and are still learning internet etiquette and social boundaries, but this needs to be a lesson in how NOT to treat others on the internet, especially content creators. this isnt to say dont attempt to build friendships with people you think are cool and feel like you have things in common with, but you cant go into that with the mindset of “i worship you notice me.” you need to understand that no matter how popular your favorite creator is, theyre literally just a person. thats it. just a person. not a god, not a character, just a person. im really fed up

#these kinds of posts come from me mostly because i am his qpp and feel pretty concerned about his safety and comfort #and you guys reallyyyyyyy test me sometimes!!!!#i dont even like posting all that much anymore because of this #if i dont post something that has to do with knl or uno then nobody cares #i dont feel comfortable riding on his success or just being seen as the person always doing stuff with uno #it was fun when the blog was like a collaborative thing because it felt like both of us were making the content #but more and more i realized the posts that were more drawn by him or in his style were the ones people liked more #and people just also kept assuming he was the only one working on the blog when my username is right fucking yhere at the top #and its just infuriating to see people literally kissing thr ground he walks on #all you guys fucking care about is what unos next move is i swear to god #fucking stalkers all of you #i KNOW some of yall r just gonna say oooh youre just jealous because hes more popular #but dog we have talked multiple times in dms about how hes not cool with this either #thats all whatever this isnt gonna fix anything but what can i do

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bidaryl · 1 year

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admit it. you only came back to atlanta for the hat. don’t tell anybody.

#glenn literally risking his LIFE for the stupid hat. turning back for the HAT #then rick doing the same fucking thing. like. i love them so much #wanna cry over #glenn x rick #like i don't talk about them enough or honestly spiral over them enough but rick and glenns dynamic over the show? i miss it SO bad #twdedit #m #gifs #1.04 #wait also the way the hat also gets passed down to carl then judith like............. i dont even know what im feeling but its feelin STRONG #also beth that one time...................................... something bout the kids of the future somthing about passing things down #somehting bout how even when you're not there anymore.... you're still there #stupid hat. got me emo

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babygirlwolverine · 3 months

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happiness is having someone comment that your writing is beautiful when you’ve been insecure to get back to writing again

#oliver talks #the last year of my life has been full of so much difficulty and pain and struggling #and it’s been so hard to want to do things For Me that make me happy #but i want to find my way back to writing again because it’s such a big part of who i am and what makes me happy #and i know the fandom is quieter now the show has been over for years. i was once a huge blog and now im this nobody screaming into a void #im not even sure anyone is interested in my writing anymore #but i want to write for me. i want to find my passion and excitement again #vet med has been kicking my ass. but something I’ve always had to make me happy is writing #I’ve got some poetry I’d like to share soon #and hopefully more destiel drabbles and maybe even some fics #I’ve been so insecure to start posting writing again… and i know i said im writing for me… but to hear someone say they love what i wrote…#that it was beautiful… that there’s even one person out there still interested in reading my writing… that means everything to me #im so grateful and just so happy #<3

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3416 · 1 year

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anyway. this is maybe my favorite thread i’ve found on twitter the past couple days about why empathy directly translates to being able to enjoy sports regardless of the outcome. we’d all be better off and less bitter if we were willing to embrace the randomness of sport (especially ice hockey) or admit that the people we’re watching are actual people, lol. thank you twitter user himbeaux_on_ice for the logic in a sea of ugliness lkjsdklfjsdkl

#toronto maple leafs #puttin this here bc i know a couple ppl feel similarly tbh #and the thread goes on a couple more tweets talking abt how ppl dont actually want to root for this team. perhaps even actively hate it and #i agree lmfao #its one thing to be frustrated with momentary loss but this martyrdom from leaf fans who make being 'loyal' their only personality trait #while being loyal apparently just means. aggressively railing on ur own team and its players for yrs on end to their own unhappiness for #some weird ass reason #like literally move on #its the least mature thing ive ever seen in my life lkfjdskl like you dont have to watch things that make you actively unhappy #and nobody enjoying it wants you there w the Constant oppressive negativity either i can guarantee.. its like a self-perpetuating cesspool #and it will never be better til the media gets better. or more optimism is injected. or ppl just wise up to the fact that theyre making #themselves unhappy by doing smth that they actually dont enjoy anymore #anyway. kfljsdklfs #hockeymedia #fascinating to me... hockey is truly the most luck dependent sport of them all. at least it feels that way

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pardonmydelays · 3 months

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i have a confession to make: i'm actually doing better than i ever was