#no not every situation requires violence but you need to know which situations DO

[1800-fight-me]

Safety in Your Arms

Logan Howlett x Female!Reader Rating: M (Mature but as always-MINORS DO NOT INTERACT) Warnings: Cursing, threats of violence, stranger danger i.e. stalking but don't worry Logan saves the day Word count: A bit over 2k Synopsis: Logan protects you from the unwanted advances of another man and shows protectiveness and care you didn't know he had for you. Author’s note: I'm thinking this might need a part two, let me know what y'all think- I hope you enjoy! P.S. I do not have a taglist! Instead if you would like to be notified when I post new fics follow my side blog @jo-writes-fanfic and turn your post notifications on! Comments and reblogs make my day! Logan Howlett Masterlist Main Masterlist

There was a cold panic that shot down your spine. Fight or flight, you’d learned the technical term, but now experienced it for yourself. 

The five minute walk between your work and your apartment had never felt so long. It all started with a creepy customer- which was a regular occurrence at your job- but this customer took it far beyond creepy. 

He tried to make too much small talk, stared too much, made a few too many over the line comments, and was entirely too pushy when asking for your phone number. Your one male coworker escorted him out and you thought that was the end of it. 

Hours went by, you assured your coworkers multiple times that you were fine and you were safe, and eventually you were the last one left to close and lock up. 

But only one block away from your workplace, you had the feeling of being watched- of being followed. And it was just your luck that your phone was dead and you’d forgotten your charger at home.

You changed your route, taking one that was a bit longer but also more well lit and populated. With a glance back you confirmed your worry, that it was in fact the same creepy guy from hours before. 

Your heart pounded with terror as you contemplated every option for safety. Your apartment building required a code to enter, so you sped your walk, hoping if you slipped into the building and shut the door behind you that it would be enough. 

“Hey,” the man’s voice called out, but you refused to look back. 

Your apartment building was within sight, but the man’s catcalls and jeers were also getting louder and closer. 

“Hey, c’mere pretty lady! I’ve got somethin’ for ya!” 

Your whole body shuddered in fear. Your next door neighbor stepped outside of the front door of the apartment building and you nearly sobbed in relief. 

“Logan!” you called out. 

He looked up in surprise, but his expression quickly turned to concern as he saw the stress in your entire demeanor. 

You practically ran to him and threw your arms around his torso in a hug he clearly did not expect. He hugged you back, but you felt him stiffen as he looked behind you. 

That was one thing about Logan, he was extremely perceptive and quick to notice any form of danger. 

“Hey bub, what can I do for you?” he said to the man behind you in a gruff tone that was not at all welcoming as he gently maneuvered you so that you stood safely behind him. 

You gripped Logan’s strong bicep as you peered around his shoulder at the stalker. 

“I was just-” 

“Just nothin’. You better leave her alone,” Logan interrupted. 

“C’mon, I was just inviting the pretty lady to have a good time. Does he speak for you?” the creep asked as he made eye contact with you. The malice in his eyes made your heartbeat spike again. 

“Yeah, he’s my boyfriend,” you said nervously. 

He glanced between you and Logan as if uncertain. 

“She just told you, she’s mine- so fuck off,” Logan growled. A different kind of shiver went down your spine. 

“You live here?” the man asked. 

“No,” Logan growled before you could even open your mouth. “But I do, and if I see you around here again it’ll be a problem.” 

The man looked at Logan and finally seemed to take in the gravity of the situation, the danger that the large muscled man protecting you could pose. 

He gulped and nodded, yielded a step back as Logan took a step forward- muscles tense and fist clenched. 

The man turned and scurried away. You took your first full deep breath in several long minutes. 

Logan watched the man until he was completely out of view before he turned to you. He placed a large comforting hand on your shoulder and you looked up at him with tears in your eyes. 

“Princess,” he said in a gentle voice. 

He pulled you into a hug as a tear fell from your eye and made its way down your cheek. You were enveloped in his warmth and woodsy masculine scent and finally felt safe. 

“Thanks for pretending to be my boyfriend,” you said as you pulled back and wiped the tears from your eyes. 

“Anytime,” he said with a smirk. Your breath caught and you bit your lip as you looked up at him and saw such care and concern on his handsome face. 

“Who was that guy?” he asked. 

You shrugged, “Some crazy customer from earlier today, my coworker made him leave, but I guess he came back and waited until I was leaving alone….” 

Logan’s brow furrowed and he gritted his teeth. “That motherfucker,” he growled, “I’m walking you to and from work tomorrow.” 

“You don’t have to-” 

“No, I do. And I’ll do it until I’m sure he isn’t gonna bother you anymore. And if he shows up again…” he trailed off as his claws extended from his fist in an action that seemed involuntary due to his rage. 

A shiver ran down your spine. You had no idea Logan felt so protective over you. 

“Thank you,” you said in a soft voice, “I appreciate it.” 

This was not helping your ridiculous crush on your neighbor. From the minute he moved in with your friend Wade, you had heart eyes for him. 

The Wolverine, he took your breath away without even trying. With his large stature, huge muscles, and handsome face- you were a goner. It didn’t matter that he was older, way out of your league, and generally altogether grumpy. You were head over heels for him, and you were certain he had never noticed you before, that he merely thought you were Wade’s annoying friend. 

But you adored him, you adored the gentle heart you knew he buried under that gruff exterior, and displays of protectiveness such as this only proved what an amazing person you already knew he was. 

“I’m headed to meet Wade at the bar, d’you wanna come?” he offered. 

You nodded eagerly, not wanting to be alone after the stress of the day. 

“Lead the way,” you said with a smile. 

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“Look who I brought,” Logan said as you walked behind him into the bar and approached a booth in the back corner. 

He stepped to the side so your friends could see you. Wade, Vanessa, and Dopinder sat at the table, already laughing and drinking beer. 

Wade gasped dramatically and exclaimed, “Princess Cupcake!” 

You rolled your eyes, but the smile on your lips betrayed you and showed your amusement. 

“Hey Wade,” you replied then greeted the others. 

“What? No comeback? I’m hurt! What’s wrong?” he asked, speaking in that way too fast pattern that was his norm. 

Logan placed a hand on your back and leaned down closer to your ear as he asked quietly, “You wanna sit down? I can get you a drink- what do you want?” 

You smiled and sat down as you were told and told him your drink order. 

Wade wiggled his non-existent eyebrows at you in a rather suggestive manner. 

“What’s up between you and peanut? Did you finally fu-” 

“No,” you interjected quickly. 

“Wade, she’s clearly upset and Logan is helping her,” Vanessa said as she elbowed her boyfriend. 

You sighed and explained the events of your afternoon. During your explanation Logan came back to the table with two drinks and sat next to you. His large form crowded you into the corner of the booth, but you didn’t mind. 

“That motherfucker,” Wade said in anger at the end of your story. Vanessa gave you a look of solidarity, you knew she had experienced plenty of creepy men in her life. 

“That’s what I said,” Logan replied, clearly somewhat amused. 

“We should kill him,” Dopinder said.

“Calm down wannabe-vigilante,” you muttered which caused everyone to chuckle. 

“Don’t worry cupcake, ole honey badger and I will make sure you’re safe,” Wade reassured. 

You nodded and said, “I appreciate it, but I don’t think he’ll return. Logan can be pretty intimidating, it was amazing - I’m sure he scared him off.”

Logan grunted in agreement, although when you looked at him you could’ve sworn there was a tint of pink on his cheeks and the tops of his ears. 

As the evening stretched on, you were thoroughly distracted from your troubles and amused by Wade’s antics and Dopinder’s stories. 

“So, Princess Cupcake, any luck on the dating front?” Wade asked. 

You tugged at the sleeves of your shirt- a nervous habit, and without looking up from the table said, “Nope.” 

Logan let out a soft sigh of what your aching heart could only hope was relief. 

“I’ve never asked, what’s with the nickname?” Dopinder asked. 

You shrugged and gestured to Wade. 

“When Blind Al and I moved into our apartment this sweetie pie here brought us cupcakes!” Wade explained. 

“Good thing it was cupcakes instead of a pie because being constantly called sweetie pie would make me want to die,” you muttered and everyone laughed. 

“What about the princess part though?” Dopinder asked. 

“Just look at her,” Logan mumbled and you and everyone at the table looked over at him in surprise. 

“She’s got that innocent sort of pretty you only see in big bright eyed animated Disney princesses,” Wade said. 

Embarrassed at the attention you changed the subject immediately. Your constant filthy thoughts about Logan proved you were anything but innocent. 

“But why is Logan’s nickname peanut?” you asked quickly. 

Wade shrugged, “Just fits.” 

Logan rolled his eyes. 

You smirked and said, “I bet we could come up with a hundred nicknames for him that would fit better.” 

“Like what?” Wade challenged. 

You glanced over at the large handsome man sitting next to you as your face warmed. 

Daddy was the first word that came to mind. Wade chuckled in a way that made you momentarily worried that mind reading was one of his mutant abilities. 

The silence at the table stretched on, becoming a tad awkward, before you said, “Nevermind I’m not very good with nicknames anyways.” 

“Yeah, it’s probably best to leave choosing nicknames to the professional,” Vanessa said in a joking tone to ease the tension. You shot her a look of gratitude and she winked at you before she effectively changed the subject all together. 

Eventually, after enough drinks and conversation, you declared that it was time for you to go home. 

“C’mon!” Wade protested. “The night has just begun!” 

“I wish I could stay but I’ve got work in the morning.” 

“I’ll walk you home,” Logan said in a soft but firm tone that left no room for argument as he stood and took a step back to give you room to get out of the booth. 

You nodded in agreement and smiled in pleasant surprise as he offered you his arm. You wrapped your arm around his large bicep and linked your elbows as you followed him out into the cold winter air. 

The city glowed in warm orange light that reflected on the wet pavement. Your breath was visible in frostbitten wind, and you shivered slightly which caused you to burrow further into your coat and move closer to Logan and the heat his body provided. 

He then pulled his arm from yours, causing you to momentarily panic, but just as swiftly he wrapped his arm around your shoulder. 

You smiled and filled the short walk with endless chatter, you used to worry that your yapping irritated him, but the small uptick of his lips- the ghost of a smile- showed fond amusement and filled you with warmth enough to make you forget about the cold. 

“What time do you leave for work in the morning?” Logan asked as you reached the door of your apartment- his apartment door only a few steps away. 

“Eight o’clock,” you replied as you unlocked the door.

“But really, you don’t have to-”

“I’ll see you then,” he interrupted in a tone that indicated you would not win this argument. 

Then he did something you didn’t expect at all, he leaned down and gently pressed his lips to your forehead. 

You grinned, your smile wider than probably ever before as you said, “Goodnight Logan, see you bright and bleary eyed tomorrow.” 

He chuckled as he bid you goodnight and you walked into your apartment and shut the door only after he smiled at you again before disappearing behind his own door. 

You shut your door and locked it before leaning against it. You muffled your squeal of excitement with your hand- all too aware how thin the walls are. The stressful events of the day completely forgotten. 

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I’m always curious about Kankri being redeemed in any way (maybe because he can become the sufferer). Obviously to do so would be simply punting him to reality and force him to live it, no help from his shoddily-made support structure. But I’m curious how you would go about doing it

Given their role thematically in the story, I'm actually usually not on the train of "fully redeem the dancestors", but I do like giving them some catharsis and reckoning, a place in the fight against LE. One last chance to do something good with their lives/afterlives before the end, and a(n implied) new start as wigglers born into the new universe.

So to that end, in my head, the "turnaround point" for Kankri - the inciting incident that makes him have a mental breakdown that results in him finally taking some accountability for his shitty actions - is having a conversation with Eridan.

In my head, the Dancestor reckoning happens gradually, alongside a series of retcons where the dead trolls are brought back one or two at a time, and deal with their emotional issues a little more with every cast member added back into the party.

The TL;DR series of events is: Terezi asks to bring back Vriska, Vriska asks John to punch out Tavros before she can kill him, Tavros's influence makes Gamzee ask for Equius and Nepeta to be brought back, Equius asks for a redux of Aradiabot, Aradiabot grabs John by the arm and gets him to undo her death and Sollux's fall into depression, Sollux asks for Feferi to be brought back, and then Karkat asks for Eridan.

We know from (Vriska) that the Game Over/Alpha Timeline characters still exist post-Retcon, so those characters would also be continuing their character arcs, just in the afterlife prepping for the LE fight. For example, I think Meenah's reckoning should be delivered by (Karkat) - after having had so long to reflect on his own failures as a leader, he would be perfectly poised to scream at her for hers, which would also serve to make this confrontation a final thesis for Karkat as a whole - what leadership means (caring about your team) - and a conclusion to the Meenah/Karkat dynamic.

So when I say that Kankri needs to talk to Eridan, I mean Eridan and not (Eridan). Full character development, all his teammates are alive, taken full accountability and responsibility for his actions, team good guy Eridan. And as I noted in this essay, Eridan with full character development is actually more annoying than regular Eridan, because he's also the "Devastating: Worst Guy You Know Made An Excellent Point" guy. In bulleted form:

He's still an advocate for murder. Murder is literally what kept his friends alive long enough to play the game, and playing the game itself involves genocide, so he would be the Token Evil Teammate who reminds the team that, hey, murder is an option - and enemies will be considering it. Even at his very best, he's going to struggle with empathy and have an extremely blase view of violence and murder - those were literally just facts of his life through his most formative years.

This also makes him a TOTAL downer, as he's the tempering voice that reminds them that decisions have consequences, and utopia requires sacrifices, and nothing is ever worth fighting for that won't eventually need to be fought for. Like I said, worst guy you know, excellent points. In fact, he's out here volunteering to do the murdering when the situation calls, if nobody else wants to get their fins dirty. He's really good at it.

He's still an idiot who doesn't listen to people. He's perfectly fine at taking orders, but having a conversation with him is still really difficult. I feel like if you make Eridan too smart, mentally flexible, and socially aware, you lose a lot of his Eridan-ness, and I think these characters, fully realized, are more of themselves, not less. I also don't know how you could reasonably expect to fix these traits. He's just Like That.

He drops his fake pro-Empire stuff, because that was basically all just empty posturing in the first place, but...

Now he's a pretentious-ass hipster who judges you for liking Trollor Swift and Troll Marvel. Given that Jake's indiscriminate taste is actually linked to his deficit of Hope (he has little conviction, he's wishy-washy), Eridan coming into full Prince of Hope regalia involves getting even more annoying about his taste in media (shittons of conviction, refusal to budge).

He is also a wizard. He will not shut up about this.

And finally, I think he'd still be out here using slurs. First of all, because it'd be really funny, because he's literally not casteist, but second, because there's two types of "it's equality" - the kind where nobody ever says anything offensive, and the kind where "offensive" stops being a relevant concept because true equality has been achieved. Think of the discourse surrounding the reclamation of slurs IRL, or how the "it's equality" meme gets used - this idea that words can be stripped of power by changing the context of who's saying them, or that objectification/discrimination stop being problems if they're applied evenly across the board, instead of limited to specific groups. I think that this is the exact type of nuanced idea that Homestuck would tackle and its fandom would get incensed about, which is why I think it should stay.

Eridan's role, thus, becomes a sort of "unpleasant truths" kind of character. Violence, both physical and verbal, is unpleasant as hell, and the natural instinct is to avoid it. The problem is, in any true discussion of what society should look like, they're topics that can't be avoided, and are even sometimes necessary not just to recognize, but to utilize (no revolution is bloodless, etc.). Eridan - an extreme personality - is going to represent the uncomfortable extreme of the debate. And by that I mean he's going to be saying slurs and talking about murders and is still going to be unquestionably a force for good.

The reason I'm going so in-depth into this is because Kankri very much represents the opposite: using "polite" language and couching it in the language of courtesy, activism, and liberal ideology, Kankri hides - and worse, spreads - his classist, ableist, misogynistic, puritan beliefs. He enforces the class divide and actively works against his teammates' best interests.

He whines that the lower blood castes should stop complaining about oppression, because others have it worse. He tells the team feminist that misogyny isn't real, then slut shames her. He tells the guy with brain damage that he's making other neurodivergent/TBI people look bad, exacerbates Latula's shame around her inability to smell, and actively guilt trips Cronus into ignoring his epiphany and self-reflection. Kankri is only an activist in that he actively makes everybody worse.

But why does he act like this? Well, it's due to the fact that he was probably culled, and on-sight at that, like Karkat would've been if anyone found out about his mutant blood. Kankri doesn't seem to have a symbol or lusus, either, two thinks Karkat only had because the Signless's followers prepped them for him, so the chances are very high that Kankri was culled since he was hatched. Given the way he discusses culling with Latula, and viciously despises being mothered by Porrim, it's clear he has some really complicated feelings regarding having his agency dismissed. Thus, his work to hamper his team - at least some of which is wilful on his part, as he'll outright cast aspersions on Horuss or Cronus's beliefs for being "imaginary" even as he encourages them to commit to them - is motivated by something quite simple: power, attention, entitlement, and control.

When he goes on his grand lectures, he frequently slips and reveals that he sees himself as a great, unquestionable spiritual leader, often trying to place other characters in subordinate positions to himself - Karkat is his "pupil," and his monologues, I mean, sermons, I mean, diatribes, are spoken as if from a position of authority. He outright tells Meenah that this is what he believes himself to be.

It's a very Seer sort of problem - both that of hubris and that of willful blindness. If you chart out the actual "end goal" of his beliefs, it appears to be a world in which Kankri himself is both the biggest victim and most important voice in the room. He regularly disparages those with actual disadvantages (Damara, Porrim, Mituna) while playing up the false problems of those who don't actually have them (Horuss, Cronus). Those with disadvantages should have their voices amplified - except lowbloods should stop whining and misogyny isn't real. And those with real power should check their privilege - but won't somebody think of the poor highbloods who have ~emotional problems~? Kankri will, and all the highbloods need to do is bend the knee and treat Kankri as their specialest boy.

In short, he's using his intellect, rhetoric, and forceful personality for selfish, emotionally-driven pursuits. The actual substance of his arguments is ephemeral and contradictory because that's the trick - the point is NOT to further equality, but to verbally browbeat his conversation partner into submission. In other words, you can't beat Kankri in a regular debate, because the moment you start trying to actually engage in a debate with him, he wins. The moment you start lunging at his arguments, he's got you in his red-texted labyrinth. The moment you start treating his points like they merit genuine discussion, you're in the pews of Kankri's church, and he's up at the pulpit.

And Eridan is the destroyer of faith. He's also an idiot who doesn't listen to people.

I don't really know exactly how it would play out, but I know in my heart. In the pit of my soul. That Eridan would call Kankri several slurs, (correctly) point out that Kankri's celibacy is stupid because it's clear he has feelings for Cronus and Latula, (correctly) point out that his pro-equality stuff is stupid because he calls violets "Royal-V"s, (incorrectly) accuse Kankri of hitting on him, (correctly) point out that the entire point of a slur is that it hurts and insults the person it's used on, (correctly) call Kankri several more slurs, (correctly) point out that Kankri just wants attention, especially from highbloods, (???) go on an unhinged rant (maybe more) about being a wizard, being a murderer, and being a murderer wizard, (???) insult Kankri's taste in music, and finish it up by (correctly) revealing that Eridan and Karkat are moirails who make out sometimes.

I think Kankri would start crying.

[genderkoolaid]

Do you genuinely believe we can somehow change the hearts and minds of billionaires and politicians in power in for example the USA in a way that will actually result in a radical change in and improvement of conditions for folks currently oppressed under capitalism in the USA and hopefully globally? If so, how?

This is coming from someone who really would like to believe pure nonviolence is possible but who does not see much of an actual way forward for that. That said I do not see those billionaires and politicians as "nonhuman", I don't think that's productive and I think dehumanizing anyone who is factually a human person as a practice is dangerous so I am in agreement with you there. Thanks for your time if you choose to share your thoughts.

What I like about Against the Logic of the Guillotine is that it isn't for pure nonviolence. It breaks down the false binary that our options are "let the streets run red with blood until our every thirst for revenge is slaked" or "punching nazis makes you as bad as them 🥺"

& i think that binary is tempting because it absolves us of a responsibility to think deeply about things. if all revolutionary violence is good and justified, then you don't have to think too hard about the violence, you just see it & condone it. If all violence is bad and morally evil, then you still don't have to think too hard to condemn it. Our options are like, moral baby food.

But if we reject that binary, then there is no easy answer. Its not as easy as "yes leftist violence is always justified" or "any violence ever is always unjustified." You have to ask yourself, what am I doing? Why? What does this accomplish? Who is affected by this? What do they have to say? It makes us look at the actual nature of our violence and pick it apart and see where we have fucked up and where we might fuck up again. Its a lot more messy and also requires that we form relationships with others & genuinely listen to what they have to say. Its much much harder than Violence Good or Violence Bad but its also much more capable of adapting to the needs of people in the complicated situations where we find ourselves.

My opinion is that we will not reach anti-capitalism and anti-imperialism without violence. But more than anything, its because the systems in power will not let us. I think the foundation of the Revolution (in a more abstract sense of the word) must be community. We should focus our efforts most on building local networks of mutual support. If people suddenly find themself in a community that has free public food gardens & a community fridge, where people are already practicing transformative justice, etc. etc. then it will become materially obvious that we don't need to rely on the current system to survive. It will become clear that the current system is more of a hindrance to what we could do if we were not being controlled. And then people will be more likely to support any revolutionary violence that becomes necessary, because they will see their neighbors and know that when the dust settles, they know how to care for each other through shitty situations. Violence should really be the topping on a cake of community & indispensability politics.

Also this line from AtLotG really changed my perspective on "punishing the rich":

The worst punishment anyone could inflict on those who govern and police us today would be to compel them to live in a society in which everything they’ve done is regarded as embarrassing—for them to have to sit in assemblies in which no one listens to them, to go on living among us without any special privileges in full awareness of the harm they have done. If we fantasize about anything, let us fantasize about making our movements so strong that we will hardly have to kill anyone to overthrow the state and abolish capitalism. This is more becoming of our dignity as partisans of liberation.

"If we fantasize about anything, let us fantasize about making our movements so strong that we will hardly have to kill anyone to overthrow the state and abolish capitalism" really sums it up for me.

[yanpoetry]

Chapter 2: Part 10: Identifying the Type of Darling You Have

When you're in a relationship with a Yandere, it’s essential to understand the dynamics at play. Every Darling is unique, and identifying the type of Darling you have will help you understand how to approach and manage the relationship. Whether they are cooperative or rebellious, each type presents different challenges and rewards. Here’s a guide to help you pinpoint which Darling you're dealing with:

1. Willful and Cooperative Darling This type of Darling is the ideal partner. They are not only willing to submit to the Yandere’s control but actively participate in the relationship with loyalty and devotion. Though they maintain a strong sense of self, their cooperation leads to the best kind of affection and rewards from their Yandere. They are calm, patient, and obedient.

Challenge: The only issue here might be keeping them from becoming too complacent or neglected, but overall, they are the easiest to manage.

2. Broken Darling This type is the hardest to manage. A Broken Darling cannot be rehabilitated and will fight every step of the way. They do not accept rules or submission, constantly trying to escape. They are unyielding and require constant restraint.

Challenge: They’ll never fall in line, no matter how much effort you put in. Constant vigilance is required to keep them under control. They can break free if you aren't careful.

3. Brat Darling Brat Darlings love to test boundaries. They act rebellious for the thrill of it, enjoying the reactions they get from their Yandere. They might push buttons and break rules just to get attention but do so knowing they’ll eventually be controlled again.

Challenge: While they can be difficult, Brat Darlings are still manageable. Recognizing their need for power play helps restore balance.

4. Role Model Darling This Darling is the epitome of devotion. Not only do they serve as an example of perfect submission, but they also encourage others to follow suit. They may even look down on less cooperative Darlings and act as a model for ideal behavior.

Challenge: Their perfection can sometimes distance them emotionally from their Yandere, making the relationship feel more transactional than intimate. They may also become self-righteous if not properly guided.

5. Faker Darling The Faker Darling appears perfect on the surface but hides a deceitful agenda. They’ll play the part of the ideal Darling, pretending to love and obey, but in reality, they are only waiting for the right moment to escape. Their manipulation can be deceiving.

Challenge: You have to stay hyper-vigilant to avoid falling for their act. Trust is key here, but breaking it could cause them to reveal their true intentions.

6. Partner Darling This Darling is more traditional in nature. They are submissive but enjoy some autonomy and interaction with the outside world. They follow the basic rules but resist full captivity. While they may show affection, they are not fully under control at all times.

Challenge: Maintaining strict control can be difficult with a Partner Darling, as their need for freedom often leads to boundary-pushing behavior.

7. BloodLuster Darling BloodLuster Darlings are drawn to violence and brutality. They thrive on the darker aspects of the relationship, encouraging dangerous behavior from the Yandere. They might even find satisfaction in witnessing harm, creating a bond through shared darkness.

Challenge: They are unpredictable and may push the Yandere toward more risky behaviors. Controlling them may become more difficult if their craving for violence grows uncontrollable.

8. Empath Darling Empath Darlings are sensitive and emotionally driven. They empathize with the Yandere’s feelings and might even put themselves at risk to help or "fix" the situation. They want to soothe and heal but may also try to protect others from the Yandere.

Challenge: While an Empath Darling can be emotionally manipulative in their own right, their desire to help may put them at risk of rebellion. Balancing control while respecting their empathy is essential.

9. Suicidal Darling A Suicidal Darling is deeply troubled, often viewing death as an escape from the Yandere’s control. They may harm themselves or attempt suicide in an effort to break free, presenting a constant emotional and physical challenge.

Challenge: They pose a significant emotional burden, and constant vigilance is necessary. Creating a protective environment to ensure their well-being while still managing the relationship can be a delicate balance.

10. Escape Artist Darling This Darling is a master of escape. Whether through intelligence, manipulation, or sheer determination, they can find ways to break free, often more than once. Their ability to outsmart restraints and find weaknesses in control makes them particularly difficult to manage.

Challenge: Keeping them in control requires constant innovation and vigilance. They’re relentless in their attempts to regain freedom, and it's a challenge that can exhaust even the most dedicated Yandere.

11. Comforter Darling Comforter Darlings are emotionally supportive. They offer care and comfort to the Yandere, sacrificing their own needs to attend to the Yandere’s emotional state. They are sensitive to moods and offer soothing words and actions to calm their partner.

Challenge: Over time, this role can be emotionally draining. They may feel neglected or used if their own emotional needs aren’t met.

12. Abusive Darling An Abusive Darling actively resists and fights the Yandere. They may engage in physical or verbal confrontations, causing tension in the relationship. Despite their aggression, they may occasionally submit, creating a volatile and unpredictable dynamic.

Challenge: The Yandere must maintain dominance while not escalating the situation too much. Understanding the underlying causes of their aggression is crucial to preventing emotional fallout.

13. Masochistic Darling Masochistic Darlings find pleasure in pain, punishment, or degradation. They actively seek out and enjoy punishment, often to the point of making demands for more. This Darling thrives on the control and suffering that comes with the relationship.

Challenge: Managing their desire for punishment requires balance. The Yandere must ensure that they don’t push the boundaries of safety while still satisfying their Darling’s emotional needs.

14. Chaser (not a Darling) Chasers are not truly Darlings; they are thrill-seekers who fetishize the Yandere x Darling dynamic. They often cooperate initially but will quickly try to escape once they’ve satisfied their desire for excitement.

Challenge: The Yandere may struggle with the fleeting nature of the Chaser’s interest. These types are often more focused on fantasy than reality, leading to eventual disappointment.

15. Isolated Darling An Isolated Darling prefers solitude and is mostly compliant when they’re left alone. They don’t actively rebel but also aren’t interested in social interaction. They enjoy being in a controlled, solitary environment with minimal distractions.

Challenge: The lack of engagement might make the relationship feel emotionally hollow. They’re easy to control but might not provide the emotional fulfillment a Yandere desires.

16. Degrader Darling Degrader Darlings enjoy belittling and emotionally hurting their Yandere. They may cooperate in the end, but their interactions are often full of insults and taunts. They derive some twisted satisfaction from demeaning their partner.

Challenge: The Yandere must have strong emotional control to handle the constant negativity. However, the cooperation in the end ensures that the relationship remains.

17. Idealist Darling Idealist Darlings believe they should be confined to the most extreme extent possible. They want the Yandere’s control to be unyielding and may even become frustrated if they feel they aren’t locked away or isolated enough.

Challenge: The Yandere must constantly satisfy their Darling’s extreme expectations, pushing for stricter control and higher levels of confinement.

[rorlokiswifey]

Yandere!Loki x reader

My first fanfic so i’m sorry if it’s bad 😔

Warnings: yandere behavior, toxic relationships, obsessive behavior , violence

Being with Loki had it’s ups and downs. He was very sweet and charming, always bringing you gifts and smiling, yet there was something sinister about him. His smile wasn’t one of warmth. It was more obsessive and creepy. But then again, your boyfriend wouldn’t do something like that….right? He’s so sweet and kind! Always gifting you your favorite things! Taking you out on dates and paying attention to you! Sure he often had a little more creepy than happy smile and sometimes smelled like blood but hey, accidents happen…right? After all, the two of you didn’t live together and who knows?

.

.

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Recently, you started a playing a new game which required voice chats, you started off on your own. But soon found yourself making more friends, both men and women. It was nice to interact with friends online, it was very practical, you didn’t need to leave the house. When you told Loki about playing some game he was delighted and happy for you. It meant you wouldn’t leave the house anymore and stay more and more. One of the friends in particular became your mutual and when you didn’t have anything better to do you often called with them. Talking about whatever was on your mind, the game, gossip or the latest thing, soon you found yourself very attached and talked with them every day.

Unfortunately for you, Loki had picked up on your behavior. Always calling with someone, spending more time on your phone or on the game instead of him..he was enraged to say the least. You should he here spending time with him. Not anyone else. Him. And only him. He couldn’t help but feel paranoid. Are you cheating on him? What if you liked someone else other than him? What if you’re going to leave? He won’t allow it. Ever. You won’t see the day light ever again. Who are you to think you could leave him? How ungrateful of you to even think about that! After he did everything for you! After he killed for you, you have the nerve to be close to someone else?! He’ll kill them! All of them!

During one of the faithful days you were playing the game and chatting with your friends, you couldn’t help but feel as if someone was watching you, but sometimes we feel like that don’t we? It’s probably nothing, at least that’s what you told yourself. You shook of the feeling as you listened to the voice of your friends, only to your surprise the connection quickly got cut off and a strong grip could be felt on your shoulder. ‘Who. Is. That.’ A booming voice behind you snarled, you turned your head to see who was talking, well at least tried to before you spotted Loki and his hand tightly crabbed you by the chin. His fingers digging into the skin on your face. ‘Answer me!’ He yelled, gripping your face even harder. Is this really your loving boyfriend? He doesn’t seem like it. Who is this? ‘Loki, stop it! You’re scaring me!’ You cried out, too terrified to actually comprehend the situation you’re in.

‘Scaring you? You should be! How do you think i feel when you talk to others! You’re my girlfriend not theirs! Who do you think you are cheating on me?’ Loki screamed at you anger, he seemed totally blinded by rage and unable to see that you were just talking friends. His hand on your chin moved to grasp your wrist and forcefully pulled you towards him. ‘You’re mine. I will not allow you to see any other person than me. You’re mine. MINE. And i’ll make sure it’ll stay that way…’

[lively-potter]

— nepenthe ; jjk

@lively-potter

— synopsis ;

in which solaris celeste vesper, a sad girl with an unfortunate upbringing meets a man far older than her and, within his presence, her sorrow fades into nothingness.

Also in which jeon jungkook finds the sun he so desperately needed in his life.

— genre ; age gap, they both fall but he falls harder in the beginning, angst, fluff, guaranteed HEA, CEO jungkook, mafia/gang vibes ( kinda/sorta )

— disclaimer ;

2024 © @LivelyPotter

All Rights Reserved

You may not reproduce,

distribute/and or adapt

any part of this work

without my permission

I only own my original characters and the plot.

— warnings ;

violence, blood / gore, descriptive abuse, mature language, mature themes, fluff, angst, age gap. the MFC has been sheltered her entire life — and due to that, keep in mind she will have a slight childlike innocence. She cries a lot in the beginning ( and if you went though all the shit she did, you would too, as I won’t hear any complaints )

— playlist ;

— greedy ; tate mcrae

— yes or no ; jungkook

— closer to you ; jungkook

— somebody ; jungkook

— hate you ; jungkook

— lost ; BTS

— my time ; jungkook

— serendipity ; jimin

— stigma ; taehyung

— MAMA ; j-hope

— please don't change ; jungkook

— fever ; enhyphen

— spring day ; BTS

— love me again ; v

— mmmh ; kai

— after like ; Ive

— blood sweat & tears ; BTS

— lilac ; iu

— extra info ;

started ; January 19th, 2023

posted ; January 21st, 2023 ( on Wattpad )

completed ;

edited / revised ;

— extra info for those not familiar with the academy series by c.l. stone ;

I know I'm gaining more readers, those who aren't familiar with the academy, so I'll do a short explanation of what you'll be seeing from the academy!

In short, the academy series is a reverse harem/polyamory series set in Charleston, South Carolina.

( so you'll be seeing multiple men date the same women in this book, so don't be shocked lmfaoo ) most of this won’t happen until we are well into the story — but I’d hate to confuse all of you! I’d like every single one of you to enjoy and understand the story completely!

The academy ( that MFC won't be much involved or at all ) is basically a top secret organization that specializes in helping men, women, and children who are in an abusive relationship or homes and help them get out of that — most join the academy to help others in the same situations.

There are teams that work together and are basically a family in all but blood; and "family is a choice".

The men in teams are referred to as "dogs" and the female team members are referred to as "birds".

'Ghosts', whether birds or dogs, are children without much history to their names. They are priceless to the Academy.

The Academy's system works on a series of favor and financial debt. Everyone in the Academy starts out with financial debt. It's the value of the education an Academy student requires to become the best at what he does. If it was a private investigation training class or an eight-week boot camp, or you were starving and needed groceries to get through a human biology class, the Academy took care of it. Your debt can't just be paid off directly, it requires completing various Academy missions. Whatever it is, there is a price tag.

Favors though are the real core of the Academy. Favors are anything that doesn't have a price - usually family problems within the Academy that other members can't handle alone. New members owe ten favors immediately, with the maximum owed being thirty. The value of a task in favors varies depending on the task.

All Academy trials are comprised of the same parties: the whole team, plus five randomly selected members from other teams, presided over by a manager who has collected all the data. There is no age minimum for the randomly selected members, the only requirement is that they had to be past initiation and a full member of the Academy. The ultimate goal at a trial is to keep the family together as much as possible.

Each team has two leads. The first is the main contact for the Academy, they track the jobs the members go on, and let them know what jobs are available. The second is the family lead, who keeps track of all the team members, and makes sure that everything runs smoothly for them - ensuring they have food, bills are paid on time, and everyone that needs a job has one.

Most of this information is from the academy wiki site ( 'cause it's fuckin' complicated to explain it all )

but I want you all to be able to understand it enough to enjoy the story without being confused!

Most of the time, I'll explain through River and my other characters.

I hope this makes sense!

River won't be very involved in the academy, but there will be mentions and most of River's story revolves around, not only Jungkook and Moon, but River's brothers, friends, and family!

Please let me know if there is anything that you'll misunderstand and I'll explain to the best of my ability!

✨ HAPPY READING ✨

— find me on Wattpad at @/LivelyPotter! The first two chapters of Nepenthe are already out!

Also, do any of you mind giving me some pointers on how to post more aesthetic chapters or a master list on here?? I’m so lost and new to this app! 😂😂😭

[anamericangirl]

@sugarplum-sapphic oh I see you’ll “entertain this for a second” but you’ll turn off reblogs to make it harder for people to respond to you lol. I guess to make you feel like you did a better job responding than you actually did.

I don’t really care what you think about my blog to be honest. If seeing someone you disagree with on most things is red flag that says more about you than it does about me. But I get it. Pro-aborts like yourself tend to create echo chambers so you never have to have your ideas challenged. So I understand that seeing someone who has different opinions than you would scare you.

But since you’re “entertaining this” I’ll entertain it too. 😊

I’m curious where you got the idea that the right to life just “doesn’t apply” to this simply because the baby is dependent on their mother. I’m not aware of any documents, legal or otherwise, that state that the right to life is only applied to people who aren’t in a dependent state. So since you’re making the claim that there are some people the right to life just doesn’t apply to as if that’s an objective fact when it contradicts every single law and founding document we have you better have a pretty airtight source and reasoning for that preposterous claim. I am very curious on where you got that idea. What law or founding document did you read that made you think babies don’t have the right to life because they need their mother to maintain their life. You know babies are also dependent on others to maintain their life after being born? So I’m assuming you think it’s ok to kill babies after birth as well. Otherwise you would be inconsistent.

Ah yes. The organ donation argument. You use “classic” to describe it. I like to call it the “overused” and “thoroughly debunked” argument that y’all won’t let die even though it demonstrates that you really don’t understand what abortion is. This is why I ask y’all to actually take some time to learn about abortion before continuing to support it.

Let’s go over all the ways your kidney argument is very bad and does not justify abortion at all.

1. First, the situations are not similar. Not at all. Using a situation that does not match abortion in any way shape or form does not justify abortion. You would have to make up a similar situation in order for this to make sense. This just shows you don’t know what you’re talking about.

2. There is a big difference between not saving the life of a dying person and intentionally killing a healthy person who would have continued to live without your interference, k? Until you can understand that very big difference you are not ready for the abortion debate.

3. Organ donation does not require you to actively kill a person. Do you understand that? The only way to make organ donation comparable to abortion is if you were going to argue that it would be ok for you to then stab the person who needs the kidney after deciding not to donate yours.

4. Abortion is not organ donation. Deciding you don’t want your baby does not give you the right to commit a subsequent act of violence. It does not give you the right to actively and intentionally kill a child.

5. You’re not obligated to save the life of a dying person. You are obligated not to murder someone.

So in short, no you can’t be forced to donate a kidney but you still can’t kill babies. Get it now?

Do you understand there is a difference between dying a natural death and being murdered? It’s important that you understand that. You see, the right to life, which does apply to people even if they are in a dependent state, is not the right not to die, but it does mean other people cannot take it upon themselves to end your life.

You very clearly do not even understand bodily autonomy either. It applies to your body only and it does, in fact, have limitations. Making a decision about what happens to your body does not mean you have the right to harm another person’s body. Your bodily autonomy ends where the baby’s body begins. Because that is a different body that you don’t have bodily autonomy for. Bodily autonomy is not the right to kill. It’s very important that you understand that as well.

You mistakenly think that a sick person dying because no one donated a kidney is the same thing as inducing a heart attack in a baby and then ripping their body apart. That is extremely ignorant and I encourage you to educate yourself on this matter. Feel free to ask me any questions you have. I have a lot of resources I can share that will help you understand abortion, human rights and fetal development a lot better.

[winterchimez]

Forbidden | Ji Changmin

SUMMARY: you have been separated from your childhood best friend, Changmin for years. so when you both finally reunite on a mission together, he is no longer the childhood friend you have once come to know of, and things were going to take a turn for the both of you.

PAIRING: spy Changmin x spy f!reader

GENRE: ex-bffs to lovers au, angst, crime, suggestive

WARNINGS: nc-17, violence, mentions of gambling, mentions of human trafficking, kissing, making out

WORD COUNT: 3,168

A/N: here is the 3rd entry from my 100 followers event, and this was requested by my 妹妹 @sungbeam 💕 the way you chose that specific prompt lmao i knew i had to deliver some ✨good food✨ for you, and i hope it was worthy of your taste miss beam 😮‍💨 (it might be a bit rushed so i humbly apologise i wrote this in one sitting)

“Agent Y/N, reporting in.” 

You knocked at your boss's door and stood there enthusiastically, awaiting your next mission. 

It has been a while since you were deployed on field missions, hence the excitement you felt when you received a code entitled “S-Rank”, which indicated the highest rank of difficulty of missions that only a selected few are allowed to participate in. 

You have been with your current agency for a few years, and through hard work and determination, you rose up to one of the higher-ranking agents in the field. With that, you are mostly deployed on the field, dealing with many missions that are far more gruesome and dangerous, which could eventually cost you your life if you weren’t careful enough. But you were a fighter—a soldier equipped with wits and extraordinary martial arts skills. 

As a result, you have been placed on training duties where you were assigned to train the new recruits to prepare them as they make their official debut on the field. Not that you were entirely mad about it, since martial arts was one of your fortes, but you surely miss being on the field and on an actual mission. 

Hence, you couldn’t contain your excitement for the day, and you couldn’t wait to gear back up and return to your comfort zone. 

Your boss—Director Ji, was pretty pleased with the number of upcoming recruits that were going to officially join the team, as several agents were currently abroad to fulfill their own missions. In other words, your company desperately needs potential ones who could take on field missions. 

This time, however, he hands you a red folder with all the necessary information about the mission. You knew what the red folder exactly meant—ones that could indeed cause a life or death situation, and there is no room for even a single mistake for this one. Usually, these were given to the elites, not even to higher-ranking agents like yourself. 

The Elites are the best of the best, and they excel in every possible scenario or situation that they are in, no matter how brutal the mission may be. They do not engage much with the other agents except for the director himself, as they are often sent away far abroad to handle much more trivial matters at hand. 

If your director has handed you such a folder where it’s not meant for you on a usual basis, that could only mean one thing. You were to step in as a substitute and be paired with at least one of the members from the elites and fulfill the mission as swiftly and hassle-free as possible. 

As you were about to turn back and take your leave, your director stopped you just in time to inform you that this mission requires some more training than usual, and you were to be paired up with one of them to prepare for the big day.

Training with one of the elites? Obviously, how could you ever say no? It is definitely a dream come true for you as you have always admired them from the shadows. Enthusiastically, you nodded and agreed with the offer as you stepped out of the room.

“This is going to be so much fun.”

“I could teach you how to fight, but I wasn’t equipped to take care of you.” 

The brunette shoots you with that cold and blunt statement, and in return, you give the male the biggest frown of the day. 

As much as you were enthusiastic the entire morning as you prepared yourself for whoever would join you for the mission, the excitement immediately died down when the infamous elite member, Ji Changmin, stepped foot into the training room.

Your ex-childhood best friend. 

Both you and Changmin go all the way back to kindergarten, you both were literally neighbours up till high school. You have spent both of your childhood together, to the point that you both knew exactly what were the biggest insecurities each of you had, even knowing how many crushes you had and how you both are hopeless romantics. 

But as Changmin and his family moved away after graduating high school, you both lost contact with one another, never speaking or keeping in touch for many years. 

Until you graduate from university. 

Somehow, you have managed to stumble upon the Director’s Ji company, which he has been operating secretly for many years—thanks to one of your seniors who recommended you to him. He was more than delighted to take you in, knowing how you eventually pursued criminology and eventually keen on the idea of becoming a spy yourself. 

That was when you were reunited with Ji Changmin. You were beyond ecstatic when you first saw him in person again. You wanted to run into him, give him the biggest embrace, and take in all his scent—one you have missed so dearly after all these years.

But the male eventually shut you off before you could do anything. He was nowhere near like the Changmin you used to grow up and love—he was now cold, often very stern, and would work alone instead rather than with others. 

Because of that, you have never gotten the chance to talk things out with him, and you realise that it’s best for you to keep a distance from him now. 

Never in a million years would that day come so soon for you both to reunite on a S-Rank Mission. 

His simple yet cold statement immediately ruined your mood, and you were about to fire back at the male. But he was already prepared with his gear and gloves, waiting for you to join him on the training mat. 

Given his demeanour, you knew that dragging his time would be a fatal mistake right now, and you had no choice but to equip yourself with the necessary items and join him as fast as you could. 

As you make your way to his way, you can’t help but notice his appearance. His hair was parted to the side, and a little scar was situated right on his left cheek. He was wearing a simple black tee, but you couldn’t help but notice how buff he had gotten and how the shirt was clearly a little too tight for him. 

The way his biceps were clearly so toned than ever, and god. The veins— 

“When will you stop ogling and get yourself together?” He shoots you with an unfriendly look. Clearly, his patience is running out. 

“Fine. God, what an impatient man you have become.” You blurted out by accident, eyes widening as you just realised you had let out your frustration and most inner thoughts. You looked up to meet the male face-to-face, only to realise that he was not bothered by that comment at all. 

He has dealt with much worse before, this is nothing to him.

As you finally got into your position, you raised both of your now balled-up fists and stood in a defensive mood, ready for whatever moves the male would lay upon you. Unfortunately, you were a bit too slow to notice the swift movement he had made, and immediately, you were on the ground, groaning as you felt a slight pain upon your lower chin. 

“Just so you know, I won’t go easy on you just because you are a girl. I’ll have you know that the enemies we deal with on S-Rank missions are far more murderous and barbaric than you have ever encountered. They could potentially become your worst nightmare. If this is how you will act on the field, I’m afraid you will lose your life within minutes.” Changmin spat, and boy, did it hurt as hell. 

Angered, you got back up on your feet as you repositioned yourself again, trying your best to keep up with his swift movements this time. 

This training went on for quite a while, and never once did you manage to land a blow on Changmin himself. Instead, you were constantly attacked at your blind spots and always on the ground, trying to find your way back up again. 

God, this is going to be a hell of a ride. 

The intense training with Changmin lasted for a few days, and the amount of bruises you have gotten thanks to him was uncountable. 

Every day, you would return home and find yourself sitting by your bedside, applying an ice pack and ointment to each and every one of them. It has been quite a while since you have felt like this.

Humiliated and defeated.

This only happened when you were still a rookie, as you were training with your superiors then. Ever since you made your debut, you have done nothing but win in all the physical battles you have dealt with, both on and off the field.

“I could teach you how to fight, but I wasn’t equipped to take care of you.” 

His words constantly echo into your mind, and you just can’t seem to get it off as much as you wanted. No matter how cruel they seemed, you knew his words meant well for you. 

This is a S-Rank mission, for goodness sake, Y/N. It is either you defeat the enemy or be defeated yourself. 

Taking in a deep breath as you closed your eyes, you just mentally prayed and hoped that all of the intense training with your ex-childhood best friend has at least done something for you and that you will be well-prepared as you both head into your designated location for tomorrow night. 

Let’s just get this done and over with.

The both of you arrived discreetly at the location, equipped with a radio earpiece to receive necessary transmissions from one another to keep each other in the loop as you both parted ways to scout around the area. 

The target of the mission was to infiltrate one of the largest and most well-known casinos in the heart of Seoul, The Grand Palace, as it is believed that the area itself was used for human trafficking, which explains the sudden disappearance of a handful of women in their early 20s over the past few months. 

According to the information you both were given, as written in the red folder, the CEO of the casino, Mr Kim, was the mastermind behind all of this and had his men surrounding the casino at all times to prevent information from spreading while keeping his gambling business on the run.

Both of your mission was to infiltrate the control room—download all of the necessary information that could potentially expose the hidden and true business the casino was making money from. And, of course, to get the girls out of there once and for all. 

Changmin suggested taking on the latter as he knew the area would be armed with more enemies to keep the girls out of reach. It was best suited for him to take on the role of doing the dirty work instead of you potentially. In return, you were to get to the control room and bypass the security, download the necessary data, get out of there, and pass it on to the FBI, who were already armed and ready for your signal. 

So that was precisely what you did, with no room for arguments this time. It was kind of a maze to navigate to the control room, especially when the casino was filled with many individuals and the place was dark as hell. Yet, you had to bypass everyone while being undetected. To the best of your abilities, you eventually reached the destination, and sure enough, you were met with your worst nightmare. 

Tons of red light laser security filled the room way before the entrance to the control room.

You were flexible, to say the least, but there is no way you could bypass all of these on your own. Whenever you were met in such a situation, you always had your superior or partner to figure it out together. But time was ticking, and you had no choice but to do it all alone this time. 

As you slowly bent through each of the lasers and eventually made your way to the last one, you breathed in relief that there was no one around to notice your presence. But your happiness did not last for long, as you missed out on one of the lasers that was situated close to your right ankle. Sure enough, the alarms have begun going off. 

Panicking, you tried your best to figure out an escape route as quickly as possible. But given the room's darkness, it was impossible to notice anything in particular. 

That is until a lightbulb dings in your mind, and you look up to see a slightly ajar air vent. 

It’s now or never. 

With the equipment you were geared up with, you somehow managed to quickly get into the vent right before security guards came pouring into the room, trying to find the culprit behind all of this. 

You began trying to calm your fast-beating heart down, that is, until you felt a pair of warm hands cupped over your mouth. 

“Have they not taught you well how the very first rule of becoming a spy is not to get caught?” 

That voice. It was Changmin. 

You turned behind to find the male looking very displeased, and he was still cupping your mouth, not letting it go as he was convinced your breathing would definitely blow up both of your covers. Frustrated, you tried your best to fight against his grip, loosening yourself from him and yelling back at him silently. 

“Look, laser securities was not my best forte.” 

“That’s not a valid excuse, Y/N. You literally had one job, and you failed at doing so.”

You scoffed. “Really, Changmin? After all these years, you suddenly show up in my life again, only to turn into this cold-blooded spy with zero empathy left inside of him? Has becoming one of the elites affected your ego that much?” 

Then, there was a slight pause. Changmin’s face then darkens as he scooches closer to you. “Don’t you dare say it as if you knew what I have been through over the years that we were separated from one another.” 

Clearly, you were not backing down this time. “Oh yeah, then tell me. All the bullshit you went through made you turn into such a heartless individual.” 

In the blink of an eye, Changmin cups his hands around your mouth once again as he pushes you down on the surface of the vent. He is now crawling up against you, moving in closer to you. 

“You take that back right now, miss Y/N. I swear if I ever hear one more word from you—”

“Then what?” You muffled. 

Then it all happened. Changmin did what he knew was best to shut you up. As swiftly as he often portrays with his martial arts abilities, he removes his hand from your mouth and plants a kiss directly onto your lips. The whole thing was aggressive and messy, as one would say, he was now kissing you messily, trying by all means to keep your mouth shut as the enemies were still down below. 

On the other hand, you were far too taken aback by what happened, and your eyes were now as wide as they could ever be. Somehow, your body did not reject his touch or the kiss, in fact, you actually liked it. 

Was it because you were too deprived of having him close to you? How badly you have missed him so much? 

And how you never got to confess to him that you had feelings for him right before he left all those years ago.

This kiss was a dream come true for you. And you were not planning to let him go anytime soon. Instead, you moved your hands to tangle in his hair as you opened your mouth slightly to allow for more room for the both of you. Changmin then lays one of his hands on the side of your waist while the other travels up to one of your breasts, giving them a light squeeze. Adding to the tension, he then makes way for his tongue to enter your mouth, trying his best to devour up all of the elicit moans that you were letting out to keep this whole make-out session as quiet as possible. 

And god, how much he loved hearing the moans coming out from you. 

Neither of you planned on stopping anytime soon because this all felt so good. It was as if you both had longed for each other and now that you finally had, you were not going to let him go just yet. 

Finally, after minutes, the both of you were gasping for air when Changmin realised that nobody was in the room anymore. The coast was clear, and both of you were safe enough to return and continue the mission. 

Trying your best to steady your breathing again, you decided to shoot the male with a little tease. “You treat all of your ladies like this?” 

“...Shut up.” 

It did not take you both long enough to be able to infiltrate the control room. With your abilities, you both managed to knock out all of the individuals in the room cold while you went to the main system to download all of the information needed to expose the casino. As ordered by Changmin previously, you wasted no time leaving the premises as soon as possible to get help from the FBI. 

While you were doing that, Changmin made his way to where the girls were kept captive and defeated all the guards on standby on his own. He then managed to free them all and escorted them out, where the police and medical assistants were already waiting for them. 

At the end of the day, the mission was a huge success, and the mastermind and his team were eventually placed behind bars, facing life imprisonment as punishment. 

After returning to your headquarters a few days later, you were then promoted to joining the elites by Director Ji himself, as he was pleased with your performance. However, there was one strict rule that these agents were to follow.

Never engage in personal matters with one another. 

Before you could think about it further, your phone buzzed and you exited your agency, feeling slightly excited as you made your way into the black vehicle already waiting for you. 

As soon as you opened the door and entered, you stared at the male with one of his hands on the steering wheel while the other came up to cup your cheek.

“Say, won’t your dad eventually discover all of this?” You questioned with a concerned look on your face. 

Changmin then leans in to give a peck on your lips. 

“Who says he needs to find out about it?”

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[maerossi]

what felt unfinished

severance finale spoilers

I loved it BUT some stuff felt like weirdly hanging threads:

Whole season seems to be leading up to Milchick's rebellion and then he literally just repeats what he did in the last season (dancing...but more! Blocked by a barricaded door...but more!)

Why was Ms Huang in the show? Really felt like her arc was leading somewhere but now she just feels like she was there for Milchick to have another outie to speak to in scenes

No Natalie, Reghabi, Ricken, or Irving

No more of the Board

Still don't know what a revolving is

No follow-up with the doppelgangers

What was the point of the ep 1 claymation video mentioning stuff like pineapple bobbing and the hall of mirrors...

What was the point of us learning about Kier's twin?

Rebec mentioning the holes in her head in the season 1 finale felt like something that would be followed up on, but nothing...

We never found out why Harmony suddenly ran in the parking lot when she saw Drummond

Not sure why the only woman who got to commit violence was a minor character, as opposed to Gemma or Helly. I love the violence we got but it felt like a character arc we didnt need, in place of what could have been a cooler moment with our more main characters. All Gemma does to get out is run down halls, which feels....blah. would have loved some kind of confrontation between her and Milchick, for Milchick to be faced with the outie version of the woman his company kidnapped, for him to see her raw pain and rage and determination and decide to let her go ("on you go now," he rasps, bleeding from where she's wounded him, breathless and collapsing against the door at the end of the hall, using the last of his energy to let her walk free, knowing he'll face corporate soon)

Sorry i gotta go back to ms. Huang. It feels like her scenes broke the chekhovs gun rule. She's there to add to the theme of child exploitation and child labor but we never see her get put in situations that really bring that to the forefront. Neither the innies nor Milchick are required to make ethical decisions regarding eunice huang.

I really thought either the innies would defend her from Milchick or Milchick would protect her from corporate, but instead she just gets on a bus...

when Milchick got in trouble for using big words, i think both he and the audience thought ms huang had complained about it, but now it seems like Drummond was just a huge racist. Would have loved for that to have been a source of conflict and then forgiveness between milchick and eunice. For her to have touched his leathery heart by using big words just like her mentor, and then he realizes she never reported him to corporate. He decides to protect her and reaches out to natalie for help....natalie refuses...milchick goes on the run with miss huang...he's her dad now, or her godfather returning her to her parents. Ok sorry got carried away let's move on

Seriously im sorry im so disappointed they didn't do more with milchick. That incredible "grow" monologue and then he simply doesnt grow??? Wtf???? Would have loved to see him bash drummond in seriously wtf

the writing was so sleek in season 1. Like every single thing that happens to Dylan in season 1 leads to what he does in the finale. But Dylan at the start of season 2 would have acted exactly as Dylan at the end of season 2 did—i.e., what he went through with his wife doesn't feel that impactful, more like it was just a thing for him to do to pass the time this season in lieu of a more meaningful arc. Idk. Maybe it's all leading somewhere for season 3. Are these clumsy loose plot threads or just promises for future episodes?

[afurtivecake]

The first thing about Riko that explains the kind of person he is is that he's a Moriyama.

You know how Jean has that, "I am a Moreau. This is what I'm for," internal monologue he uses to persuade himself that everything that has happened to him has happened for a reason? To me, Riko has basically the same thing, except his internal monologue says, "I'm a Moriyama. I was born to rule," which he uses to justify everything he does and everything he goes through.

He's been taught from the beginning that being a Moriyama MEANS something. Moriyamas are without equal, born to command respect and rule over man. They wield all that power and so they have certain responsibilities. The biggest responsibility they have is the loyalty and behaviour of those beneath them. It's their responsibility to make sure their subordinates understand their power and know their place.

Riko sees it in how the main family acts and he sees it in how Tetsuji treats Evermore and the Ravens as his personal domain to rule over with absolute power. But the only thing Riko has to rule over is the court, so long as he plays. The only thing Tetsuji allows him to have control over is playing exy. So it's not enough that he be just and exy star; he has to be the best. He has to be unquestionably at the top of the sport and he has to make sure that no one ever even thinks they can threaten his position. That's the only way he can come close to the Moriyama ideal within the tiny puddle he's been given to rule over.

Tetsuji has all of Evermore and every single Raven, Riko included, bow down to him using a combination of brutality, fear and psychological tactics. to exert complete control over them. It's not just his right to do that; it's his responsibility as a Moriyama to solidify his control over his subordinates. Riko, Kevin and Jean have it drilled into them that is their duty to discipline the people they are responsible for and to make sure they know their place.

I imagine Tetsuji impressing upon Riko while he was growing up that, because he is a Moriyama and because Kevin is his responsibility, it's his duty to keep Kevin in line and to punish him when necessary. He might even have harangued Riko about how if Kevin falls behind or steps out of line, it's his fault for being lazy and ineffective with his discipline. (And then he'd beat them both to drive home the message and to show Riko 'how it's really done'.) If he can't even control a single child, how can he consider himself a Moriyama.

As for how he is to gain that control and obedience, well, that's where Riko lucks out in a way. The methods he's learned from his uncle examples are physical and psychological violence and it just so happens that those methods align well with his natural sadistic inclinations. (I mean, I assume it's his natural inclination though it's hard to tell. Heap enough trauma onto someone for long enough and it becomes hard to differentiate which parts of them are caused by trauma and which parts are their personality. I say this because sadism doesn't automatically doom a person to violence.)

So essentially you have a situation where 1) Riko feels he has to prove he is a Moriyama, 2) beating Kevin and Jean into submission is part of what being a Moriyama is about, and 3) it just so happens that hurting people is in his wheelhouse, and is really fun and personally satisfying for him.

Makes for a pretty fucked up person already. But actually, it's not as if Tetsuji went out of his way to make Riko like that. As far as Tetsuji was concerned, all Riko needed to know was how to play exy and how not to be a complete embarrassment for him in front of the main family. He brought Riko up with the Moriyama values he knew. Being a person, an actual human being, just wasn't anywhere on the list of requirements Tetsuji had for him.

You know how Jean has moments where he thinks, "if I'm not a Raven, who am I?" Well, to Riko, if he isn't a Moriyama, then what is he? Riko HAS to be a Moriyama because there is no other option for him. If he isn't a Moriyama, then he is nothing and nobody, with nothing to live for.

[masochist-marmot]

Killua Zoldyck deserves better

I have been watching Hunter x Hunter (2011) alongside the wonderful Media Club Plus podcast (that's 95 episodes and no more, so you can expect spoilers but beyond that point I'm in the dark), and I have thoughts I need to scream into the void.

TW: references to child abuse and canon-typical violence

Killua is the best little murder boi and he deserves so much better. I want to adopt him and show him that he deserves love that isn't dependent on how well he can shut everyone out emotionally (and rip people's hearts out, I guess). The show does such a good job demonstrating how an abusive home will leave its marks on you and undermine everything you do and every relationship you try to have after leaving. As someone who grew up in an emotionally abusive household, I recognise the overwhelming and disproportionate fear response you get when faced with conflict. The inability to defend yourself and even the ones you love is very real, even if I've never been put in mortal danger at the hands of a cat boy. Yet. A girl can dream.

Getting Illumi's pin out could have felt like a cheap cop-out if we hadn't seen Killua struggling with the effects for several arcs and then gruesomely reaching into his own head to remove the physical manifestation of (and allegory for) the trauma response. The fact that he didn't even notice the pin before that moment is also fitting, since you usually become blind to the origin of what your body and mind determines as an incredibly vital survival reflex. Recognising and dealing with it is hard, and it's gruelling, and it usually takes years of therapy and and environment that doesn't require you to uphold your maladaptive reactions. Since this is shounen, we can't have Killua undergo years of therapy to recover, so this emotional character moment was super effective at making me tear up and cheer. It was satisfying. In a true shounen fashion, the power of Killua's love for his best friend has prevailed over his family-induced trauma.

Speaking of best friends, and this may be controversial:

Killua deserves so much better than Gon. Killua is so single-mindedly loyal and devoted to this oblivious boy who takes him for granted at every turn. I choose to read this relationship through a queer lens (Killua is in love with his best friend who barely even thinks about him), but it's not necessary for my point to stand.

So, obviously the friendship is not completely one-sided. Gon quite literally walked into Killua's assassin mountain home to drag him away from his abusive family. (An interesting side point: Killua chose to subject himself to the family's punishment, even though he could have walked away at any point. He had been programmed to believe he deserved it, which is very common in abuse victims.) Killua feels like Gon is the first person who valued him outside of his family, since he hasn't been allowed to make friends. Of course he's going to devote himself mindlessly to him. This is also quite common in abuse victims: you latch yourself onto whoever shows you kindness, because you fear that no one else will ever love you if they leave.

Meanwhile, Gon is completely absorbed with his own goal of finding his dad (who would deserve a rant of his own) and generally doing whatever he finds fun or interesting. He expects Killua to follow him but also seems entirely fine with the idea of parting ways. The fact that he's so blind to Killua's unhealthy devotion to him means that he will keep putting Killua into danger and uncomfortable situations (you know, since he says he's fine with it) without any regard for _why_ Killua is fine with it. I'm pretty sure Killua would be willing to die for his "best friend", and if he does, I swear I'm done with the show. This friendship is not balanced. It's not even codependent, since only one party is dependent on the other.

Now, I'm well aware that these are literal children (and moreover, literal shounen characters) whose emotional and character development is not done. I also love both characters dearly and their relationship makes for some good television. But I stand by my thesis statement: Killua Zoldyck deserves better.

PS. Go listen to Media Club Plus, they're great at delving into themes and characters.

[yanderes-galore]

Hello! I'd like to ask for a Tolkien Black concept, if that's okay? Thank you!

He's one of my favorite characters, of course I will! I had to do some research but it still required me to HC a bit to get a proper yandere behavior. Aged up as usual, AU sometime near the end or after high school.

Note: There is not a lot of personality to him according to my research so I did what I could :( Sorry this took months!

Yandere! Tolkien Black Concept

Pairing: Romantic/Platonic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Manipulation, Obsession, Implied delusional behavior, Corruption of the law probably, Corrupted cop, Dubious relationship, Protective behavior, Social isolation, Stalking, Cameras, Violence mention.

Tolkien is level-headed, calm, logical, and compassionate.

He stands up for himself and fights for what he believes in.

He's also training to be a police officer!

Other than that and him growing up with rich parents... that's about all we know according to my research.

I'd say this makes Tolkien a tame yandere compared to a lot of characters in South Park.

He seems like he'd have a good understanding of what's right and would genuinely care for his darling.

Tolkien would be Manipulative, Protective, Caring, and Calm with his darling.

He can have a temper but something has to piss him off pretty bad for him to snap.

As he's gotten older and undergone police training he's only ever gotten calmer in situations.

Also since he is one for the law he probably has the belief he is doing what is best for his darling.

Even if it requires bending the laws a bit.

He doesn't force you into anything, he wants you to trust him.

Which may be easy due to his job/what he's training for.

Tolkien would be manipulative with his darling as a friend or lover.

He does it with "good intentions" however.

He feels there's no other person you'd be safe with than him due to how well he can handle situations.

Tolkien seems like a character who's easy to follow and trust, which would make he and darling good friends.

If not anything more.

You may not believe he's manipulating based on the way he uses his words.

He's had to learn how to negotiate in the field... so it's a skill he's picked up.

He's easy to talk to and you don't feel you have a need to pick apart every word he says.

Tolkien would probably be on the richer side too and wouldn't mind giving his darling something they like to maintain that trust.

Also because he likes them and wants to see them happy... it's not all a calculated action.

Tolkien comes off as a guy you could tell everything to.

He listens to every word you say intently, making mental notes on important information.

Such as your recent social interactions....

Since he seems like someone you can be vulnerable around, like the good partner he is, you never suspect a thing.

You have no idea he's controlling what you do from behind the scenes.

Tolkien is skilled in gathering info due to his job, actually his job as a cop aids him a lot in his obsession.

It aids him in remembering information, manipulating you, and framing those around you as criminals.

The best part (for him)? He can get away with it!

He can manipulate the law.

Not that he would need to anyways, he doesn't plan on kidnapping or murder.

It's a safety measure for the future.

Tolkien isn't a violent yandere unless he gets pissed at something, which is usually never you.

He's someone who wants to lead his darling on the right path by his side and keep them happy.

In his eyes the way to do that is his protection.

In his eyes, he is the most trustworthy person you know.

By the time his obsession is in full swing he's the ONLY person you know....

He may stalk you but primarily likes to use footage to watch you.

It makes it easier to multi-task... also he gets video for later.

Tolkien tries not to let his obsession dip into illegal territory for the sake of you but sometimes it does.

He cares for you and knows you'd be scared of or hate him if you knew he was betraying your trust.

If he makes it hard to track what he's done... there's nothing to worry about.

Sometimes he knows what he's doing is wrong, but most of the time he feeds himself the very same lie he feeds you.

It's for your own good... a saying that's just a lie to make his actions redeemable in his eyes.

Tolkien is calm and can handle most things in his obsession.

This includes his darling fighting back, someone finding out about his obsession, or even him dealing with rivals.

He's a calm man... too calm.

Calm to the point it gets scary.

Him snapping may be worse as he can get scary when angry too.

Those who harm you or try to take you from him are the ones who see that side...

They are often left in a state that's... questionable afterwards.

When Tolkien isn't meticulously planning all the ways to isolate you, he tries to show you he cares.

He always remembers what you want and offers to buy it for you.

Even if you refuse he may just get it anyways.

He doesn't mind holding you in a friendly greeting or to comfort you.

Hell, with comfort in general he'll listen as he usually does.

Care to namedrop anybody in particular?

If he likes you as a romantic partner then he's encouraging you to live with him and often kisses all over your face in a way to show affection.

He wants to do whatever he can to show you he's there for you.

Although... perhaps it's all to distract you from what he does in the background?

If you look a little deeper... maybe you'll see what he's truly doing to make you his.

Although even if you did find out... what would you do?

There's no way to get help with him as an officer, is there?

[trauma-trove]

God, I just like NEED to vent abt this because it's knocking around in my brain and I can't really tell anyone/don't really have the energy to have a Conversation with anyone about it. I just need to vent.

TW for domestic violence (just yelling), references to feeling unsafe, prolonged covert abuse. Everyone mentioned here is physically safe!!

Within the last week, my brother realized his two roommates of about a year have been really abusive towards him and asked them to leave. They're not paying rent, doing chores, they're not on the lease, etc. They've never been physically violent or yelled at him or anything like that, but what they DID do was like, so weird and kind of insidious?

Like, the roommates would have these "conversations" with my brother, during which they would mostly talk at and lecture him about political issues, social issues, and his own personal flaws. Like, it's okay to have serious conversations with your roommates, but these conversations would last 4-6 HOURS, and they had these conversations almost every single day. That's not normal or healthy communication to begin with, but it was really abusive because if my brother didn't drop everything and have these conversations, they'd accuse him of "putting it off" and "avoiding his serious issues." They wouldn't let him sleep when they were up. They wouldn't let him nap during the day after work. They NEVER let him hang out or voice call or game with me because they were so busy monopolizing his time with these "conversations."

Like, I'm sorry, but if your attempts to "fix someone" requires that level of lecturing and time monopoly almost every single day, give up.

And then I found out most of their problems with him were about him being "emotionally unavailable" and "distancing himself from them" and I'm like. My mans was tired bestie!! All he does is work 6 hour shifts and come home to be politely bitched at with Therapy Words for hours and hours and hours on end. He's allowed to have some alone time. Quit taking it personally. The fact that he WASN'T doing anything really worth criticizing--let alone lecturing him about it so much--is just wild to me.

Anyway, this last week a couple things got thrown out of balance. My brother visited with some normal friends for a few days, and it gave him perspective on the whole situation. His roommates started going on about how they were So Afraid of being kicked out and shit, but my brother reassured them over and over again that he wasn't gonna do that.

Well. Cut to a couple days ago. They were having another one of their "conversations," and the MINUTE my brother tried standing up for himself for ONCE in his life, his roommates immediately blew up on him and then proceeded to scream at him through his bedroom door for 7 hours. SEVEN. HOURS.

They were being so hostile and not letting him speak and cutting him off and calling him a gaslighter and recording parts of their conversation on their phones, all while yelling at him for hours and hours and hours on end just because he told them he did not have the capacity to be their live-in therapist and bestest westest friend in the whole wide world 24/7. Like, I don't care what kind of problem you have with somebody; you can't just scream at your roommate through their door for 7 hours. Like who does that?? Hello??

It's weird to me because I feel like this form of slowburn abuse doesn't get talked about. But I know a LOT of abusers my age (gen z, essentially) who had this specific behavior of "have hours-long, deep conversations almost every single day with no boundaries." I do understand that you can get hooked on deep conversations, and they can even be obsessive-compulsive loops or a form of rumination for people with OCD, ptsd, bpd, and other conditions. But when you cannot appropriately regulate when you have these conversations and for how long, it becomes a problem. And if you have an extreme reaction like all that just because someone disagreed with you or put their foot down in a way you didn't like, it's 100% part of the abuse cycle.

Idk, theres so much more to the situation than that, but I really should save it for journalling and therapy. I've just been so overwhelmed by it. My brothers been giving running updates in the groupchat lol. And it's REALLY impressive that he put his foot down (even kind of going back on his word not to kick them out) just because they got aggressive over a stupid disagreement. My brother's been in one million abusive relationships. Neither of us ever really learned how to be a person. (If you've seen any other posts on this blog, you probably have an idea the kind of shit he went through.) So the fact that he sat on the other side of that door and said "nuh-uh, we don't act like this on barbie dot com. You stop yelling at me and you leave my house" is like. Really relieving to hear, I guess.

[aibidil]

Lots of talk about boundaries lately, and how boundaries can only be about your own behavior/responses, not someone else's. I first learned about this when parenting littles, where it's often referred to as "limits." I think the reason the concept of boundaries is so hard for people to grasp is that, pretty quickly, you realize this means you have to let go of a LOT of control that society has taught you to expect will flow to you through power hierarchies.

So often, people judged my parenting, and I had to explain that I wouldn't set a rule, or even a boundary, that I couldn't follow through on. Which meant that I had to let go of a lot, because I happened to have kids who have never in their lives followed a rule because it exists or to make their parents happy.

With kids, this means letting go of unreasonable (age-inappropriate) expectations for their behavior and telling them "no" 500 times a day, instead child-proofing your home to protect your own shit. It means saying "I won't let you hurt me" (and then not letting them, either by holding them away from you or removing yourself from the room) instead of "no hitting/no biting." It means focusing on problem-solving where every person's needs/wants are taken into account, it means creating a home environment where everyone knows you're a team and on each other's sides. It means a deep acknowledgement of how little control you have over another person's actions, even when that person is your child.

This is hard with parenting, especially early on, but I've found that it's way harder with an adult partner. We have such high expectations of our partners. We believe they're capable of change and being better. We want to be in a relationship with shared values and priorities and we hate seeing evidence that isn't true. But at the end of the day, it really is the same. I fundamentally cannot make you do something you don't want to do, so I should never expect I can. I can decide what kind of behavior I want in my life and leave (temporarily or permanently—that's an option you don't have in parenting) if you clash with that. I can say with words and actions "I won't let you hurt me," but I can't stop another's tendency to violence. I can make sure that my needs are taken into account with the same weight as yours, I can help create a home where chores are problem-solved in an equitable way, taking everyone's situation fully into account. I can model what I believe is good behavior, but I can't force those around me to reciprocate it.

Sometimes we fall into a trap of thinking about what we "deserve" in our relationships of all kinds, but I find that any time the notion of desert comes up, I've already lost. Because I do deserve to be treated with respect and support and acceptance. But that desert doesn't magically change the people around me. All it can do is act as a mental example for me, a reminder not to accept a shitty life for myself out of default behavior.

(For an extreme example, hink also about the incel/mgtow/mra types who talk incessantly about what they “deserve” in a relationship.)

This is why so much of leftist politics quickly requires a radical letting go of all power structures. Because once you decide that punishing/hurting people into behavior isn't acceptable, you have to confront what it means to allow others—everyone—to do things you'd rather they didn't. And at the end of the day, no matter if you believe in the power structures or not, you can't force another person to eat. I couldn't force my son at 2yo into the carseat. I can't force my mom to really learn about ADHD. I can't force my partner not to spend $ on shit I don't care about. But I can make choices about my own behavior, which includes who I surround myself with and how. I can insist that I won’t let you bite me. (Assuming I’m paying attention in time. I should’ve tattooed the bite marks onto my arm as a reminder of this.) I can help create an environment where people care about each other and want to what they can for each other.

(Fwiw, i don’t think this means libertarianism is the way. Because notice that even though my only control is over my own actions, it’s still tied up with others. I can problem-solve solutions that work for everyone, which is more likely to work if everyone in my family knows we’re on the same side. I can figure out better ways of organizing shit with my partner. We can develop systems that fit the problems we have. All of that works better than a “go it alone” hyper-independence. Funny enough, acknowledging that every human is their own person doesn’t necessarily make me raise myself up to a position of importance over everyone else. When you dismantle the power structures, when you see that each person is fundamentally autonomous, you can hope that what it triggers a feeling of smallness in the face of all, rather than a feeling of unhinged importance. Because in the world, like in families, it’s not about getting what you want at the expense of others, it’s about problem-solving in a way that takes everyone’s needs seriously.)

[shrimpella21]

╭ 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 ! ! ! ! ! !

❥ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐒⠀⠀                              

⇝ Due to the nature of my characters I recommend that you be comfortable with general horror at the very least if you interact with me. Many of my characters contain body horror, murderous ideation, or a variety of other mature themes. Please be 18+.

⇝ If I followed you, it's probably bc I want to rp with you or I like your aesthetic/content. There's no pressure to follow me back (I'm open to anyone, mutual or non-mutuals) but it helps me figure out if you're interested too.

⇝ Do not AI my characters. Thank you.

⇝ Have fun! I don't expect much ; just someone that loves their characters as much as I love mine. People who love their little freaks are my favorite <3

⇝ I'm oc and fandom friendly. If you're not sure what I like, feel free to ask! I prommy I'll make a list soon

⇝ I don't reeeeally have an unfollow policy. Idc if you stop posting for weeks or post a lot of ooc. I really only unfollow if you're mean to me LMAO

⇝ Generally, the longer a reply is the longer it will take me to write. Paragraph prompts/threads will not take me as long to write as novella responses will. Try to keep that in mind if you're waiting for something big <3

⇝ I'm super chill! So chill, in fact, that you probably don't even need to read the rest of these 'rules'. There are no trigger requirements or post requirements or passwords, just some things I think is nice for partners to know.

❥ 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘                     

⇝ I am not needy, nor do I require much in terms of timeframe - I'm happy to wait literal months for a response as long as we still interact sometimes. I'm super ghost friendly.

⇝ I am sometimes a slow responder due to my schedule but I promise I always have a to-do list for my replies. If a reply takes me longer than a month to finish I will ask you if you're still interested. If you aren't, feel free to lmk if you want to start something new!

⇝ I LOVE talking ooc! Feel free to message me any time to gossip about characters.

⇝ I prefer to plot in advance, even if it's just a little bit. It's not required but it helps me know when we're both on the same page.

⇝ I will tag all of my triggers accordingly. I myself have no triggers and my threads often contain themes of violence, crime, and other various dark subjects. Despite this I also do 'normal' roleplay (it just means I use a normal!verse for my muse).

⇝ I adore shipping. My threads are very rarely platonic in nature, though I don't mind a slow build-up to romance if the characters need time to get to know each other. I'm also happy to work with pre-established relationships in threads. (Tbh I'll do anything I'm so not picky about freaks in love).

⇝ It is not required for you to use a faceclaim from either of my wishlists (at this point I have them as a formality). I make easier connections with older muses but don't mind characters/faceclaims under 30 in the right circumstances. If you are interested, the masc wishlist is here and the femme wishlist is here.

⇝ OP characters make me so sad :( I beat my babes up all the time, don't be afraid to do the same. The more blood, the better.

⇝ Related to my last point - if there's one thing I really dislike in a roleplay, it's having to 'compete' with someone about which character is better. I recognize that my characters are not always going to be the smartest, fastest, or strongest, and I hope you can do the same. It's okay for characters to lose sometimes. If we put them in a win-lose situation I don't mind if my muse loses, as long as they get a win eventually. It's no fun if one character always gets the shit end of the stick, y'know? I like it when my character isn't the only one fucking up.

⇝ I am open to multimuse! But! I have to be interested in every muse. I am happy and willing to play your wanted chars but I will not do so against random femme/masc chars that I have no interest in.

⇝ I will play any genre. I know my characters can be a lot to deal with, so I don't mind toning them down or even swapping them to an alternative verse if their current vibe isn't really your thing. I'm all for changing shit to make them fit <3

❥ 𝐎𝐎𝐂                                

⇝ By default I will write my characters without icons/gifs. If that is a problem for you, let me know and we can discuss options.

⇝ I prefer threads with minor alterations to the text/style. Paragraphs with large+small text and fancy fonts and weird symbols can make it hard for me to read. If that's your default and you don't want to change, it's cool (I can put up with it), but my preference is always going to be 'less is more'.

⇝ This should be a given but I'll say it anyway: I love to roleplay with trans/nb/fluid characters! This is a very lgbtq+ safe space.

⇝ I don't share a lot about myself online. If I get to know you I don't mind chatting/talking about life, but you won't see me post anything publicly about irl on my blog. If you need a name, you can call me Harper.

⇝ I'm happy to edit/cut/format my posts however YOU want. Just tell me if you want something peculiar, please! that way I can ask questions if I need to.

⇝ I'm still figuring out how I want to set up my blog. Eventually I will start reblogging memes/prompts etc. In the meantime, feel free to send random shit to my inbox. I'm always open. I do not care about spam.

❥ 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒                             

⇝ My main muse is Shardik. My main muse will always be Shardik. At some point I may add another main, but for now it's just Shardik. The fact that he is my main does not mean he is the only character I roleplay as - I also have plenty of secondaries to work with. They will come and go depending on how many people interact with them. My dormant/retired muses are the graveyard characters. Fairly unlikely to be brought back from the dead.

⇝ Shardik is flexible. I know not everyone has interest in his type of 'supernatural' character, so I'm happy to use one of his alternative verses or create a new one entirely. This applies to all of my characters.

⇝ Sometimes I'll search for roleplays for a muse before I officially post them. It helps me work out their character if I can write for them.

❥ 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒          

⇝ My starters, memes, and prompts are always going to be open. You can respond to them or send asks at any time. That said, my muse does vary and I may not always have the inspiration to respond to specific asks. If I don't, please don't take it personally! It just means I'm waiting for the right moment. If it's been a while and you want to know what the status of something is you're always welcome to message me.

⇝ I'm still new to all of this. Asks and prompts and memes are something I don't utilize much so it will take some getting used to (but it's def something I'm hoping to work with more <3).

⇝ If I've followed you, interact w/ me whenever you want. Literally. Sometimes I do take a bit of time before I interact with someone after following so don't think I've forgotten about you :)

⇝ Unless you're open to a response from any of my muses (or we've discussed it beforehand), please add in your ask/starter/etcetc who it's meant for.

⇝ Feel free to turn any prompt/meme answer into a thread! You're always free to respond to my answers.

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⇝ Not much to add for this section. If we roleplay through tumblr I probably won't post smut in my threads. If we discuss it through discord I don't mind as long as we can discuss likes/dislikes/etc first. If you don't do any smut period, that's totally fine with me. I default to fade-to-black.

⇝ In reference to my shifter and monster characters: I have a few of these guys. I like were-creatures. In my canon, shifters (even in their animal form) are fully capable of both asserting consent and passing the harkness test. If fucking a bear/shifter/whatever isn't your thing, that's cool! But know that the monster is 100% down if your character shows interest.

⇝ If you do not want to see monsterfucking content (threads, asks, etcetc) I will be tagging it with //the fun zone

[wordsandrobots]

Have I obligated myself to have a ‘take’ on Witch From Mercury? I mean, I’ve posted pieces concerning every main Gundam anime thing I’ve watched except Cucuruz Doan's Island (because I have nothing to *say* about Cucuruz Doan's Island except that hearing Lucian Dodge voice Amuro is a *trip* for an Iron-Blooded Oprhans’ fan, let me tell you). In my own head at least, this creates the completionist urge to note something down now G-Witch is over. And hey, I believe in exorcising nagging thoughts so why not? Spoilers and unfavourable opinions ahead. In fact, I’m going to use a cut because this show seems popular around here and  I’m not monster enough to rain on anyone’s parade about it.

It’d be nice to say, ‘basically fine for what it is but not my thing’. The problem is, I’m not sure I can say that, having found it so unbearably messy to watch. It could be my peculiar brain wiring that makes it frustrating to have a story constantly introduce stuff that neither goes anywhere nor coheres especially well with itself if you stop and think about it for five minutes. But it does feel like this would have been vastly improved by cutting something -- anything -- to make some room for thrust of the main plot.

I have a specific beef with the lack of characterisation for A(Eri)al. We are *told* how much Suletta cares for her and how crucial that relationship is through the first season, and of course it’s vital to the struggles and resolution of season two. But it’s hard to point to an example prior to Suletta’s little vision-quest-slash-being-dumped escapade where they interact in a meaningful fashion. It seems extremely one-sided and I’m not sure how intentional that is. This loops around to a complaint about sloppy world-building (a school is the perfect setting to introduce concepts to be later expanded or subverted and the show resolutely Does Not Do That), but is a more significant matter since we’re talking about emotional beats. You know, the things that actually drive a story along.

And look, anything that gets me saying ‘show don’t tell’ has already stretched my patience thin. But it would have been so simple to have included more moments of Suletta pouring her heart out to her Gundam -- with the interface responding in some inscrutable fashion -- I find it genuinely baffling that didn’t happen in place of, I dunno, the Jeturk family drama.

Oh, speaking of which, second beef: if you are placed in the situation where you need to displace a bunch of ‘traditional Gundam story beats’ on to a pseudo-rival/protagonist character, maybe consider . . . just not hitting those beats? (I know, this is a long-running franchise, this is how it goes, executive meddling etc. That doesn’t make it less irritating to have it all culminate in an out-of-nowhere fencing match in reference to a 40-year-old fight scene when the objectively correct way of resolving a plot about arbitrary and unfair systems of rules is with rock-paper-scissors.)

It’s a shame there’s the germ of a neat idea in that concept of displacement, because Guel feels like the part that could have been most easily jettisoned to create space. The Elans have emotional heft as an explicit parallel to Suletta, Elan-5′s relationship with Norea being a vital example of the ‘love me, flaws and all’ refrain at the heart of the story. But Lauda and Guel having a barney in the middle of finale feels egregious and like it only exists to get an extra Gundam into play (an entirely arbitrary requirement). Though I suppose the fact I barely remembered to mention Shaddiq here also speaks to something else that didn’t really resonate or seem to go anywhere in particular.

Here is where you can fill in for yourself the long list of complaints about the show raising issues it doesn’t care about doing justice to. War-profiteering, the traumatising effects of violence, possibilities of future medical technology, corporate influence on geopolitics, social inequality, refugee crises, yadda yadda yadda. G-Witch doesn’t have anything to say about any of these things. It’s a family drama and that really is fine, if that’s the story it wants to tell. It’s about the doings of the privileged (those literally raised on high) and their tribulations are the focus over and above harm to anyone else. It is what it is. I could whine for days about this stuff, but it’s no worse than you’d find in many pieces of comparable media. Cherish the exceptions.

To say something nice, lest you think all I have are complaints, this show is beautifully animated throughout (I did find the action inside the data-storm hard to follow, owing to the lighting choices, but I think that’s a me thing) and very well directed. The mecha designs are solid, even if we were robbed of more touches like the rocket broomstick. For all my above grouching, Felsi coming out of nowhere with a fire-extinguisher was a fantastic, knowing way to halt Guel and Lauda’s fratricide arc. And I need to stress, the central story about Suleta, Miorine, Eri, Prospera and Delling really is fine. Not my thing and I’m way past the demographic, but on its own terms, it’s fine.

It’s just stuck in the middle of a distracting mess of half-baked concepts, meaningless call-backs and a cast suitable for an anime twice as long. It’s tempting to pin everything on that last part, to hypothesise this was going to be or should have been 50 episodes, not 24. I’m inclined to take the opposite track. I think there is a perfectly functional 24-episode story here that got stuffed with far too many moving parts for its own good.

Right, done. Where does that leave the final ‘in my opinion’ ranking? Starting from the bottom (by the way, I’m now at the ‘I flatly refuse to watch Victory Gundam’ stage so just write that one off entirely):

Mobile Suit Gundam AGE (2011) [The one I actively hate]

Mobile Suit Gundam F91 (1991) [Dull]

Mobile Suit Gundam 0083: Stardust Memory (1991) [Slightly less dull]

Mobile Suit Gundam SEED (2002) [Uninteresting]

Mobile Suit Gundam: Char’s Counterattack (1988) [Mean-spirited]

Mobile Suit Gundam: Hathaway (2021) [I intensely dislike the fight scenes]

Mobile Suit Gundam: Cucuruz Doan's Island (2022) [I honestly forgot to add this]

Mobile Suit Gundam (compilation movies; 1979) [Deserves smarter call-backs]

Mobile Suit Gundam 0080: War in the Pocket (1989) [Good for what it is]

Mobile Suit Gundam Thunderbolt (2015) [Also good for what it is]

Mobile Suit Gundam SEED: Destiny (2004) [Frustrating]

Mobile Suit Gundam 00/Mobile Suit Gundam 00 the Movie: A Wakening of the Trailblazer (2007/2010) [Bonkers, politically aggravating]

Mobile Suit Zeta Gundam (1985) [Interesting]

Mobile Suit Gundam: Unicorn (2010) [Well-made]

Mobile Suit Gundam ZZ (1986) [Fun but janky]

Mobile Suit Gundam the Witch from Mercury (2022) [See above]

Mobile Fighter G Gundam (1994) [Delightfully committed to the bit]

Mobile Suit Gundam Wing/Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz (1995/1997) [big for a reason]

Mobile Suit Gundam: Twilight AXIS (2017) [Nicely done]

Mobile Suit Gundam: The Origin (2015) [Best-case scenario for fannishness]

Mobile Suit Gundam Narrative (2018) [Surprisingly enjoyable]

Mobile Suit Gundam: The 08th MS Team (1996) [Bags of fun]

Gundam Reconguista in G (2014) [Pretty popcorn]

After War Gundam X (1996) [Genuinely a lot cleverer than it looks]

Turn A Gundam (1999) [Deliriously smart]

B

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G

G

A

P

Mobile Suit Gundam: Iron-Blooded Orphans (2015) [Actively excellent]