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siblings do not have the same parents
#are you saying i'm unfair?#no mom i'm saying you have favorites#i still have this kudos whoever edited this convo#what should have happened#atla ursa#atla azula#atla zuko#avatar the last airbender#fire hazard siblings
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Not me as somebody who crochets on the reg getting criticisms/unwanted comments about everything I make:
"You always use the same colors" :/
Me: can't help it I'm a thalassophile and therefore I must always use beige, khaki, turquoise, teal, aqua blues, whites of all shades. Let the coastal creations commence!
"Nice bag. You know, that looks perfect to use only for holidays like Easter"
Me: ...my coastal bag is to be used every time I feel like it. What are you talking about.
"Those oceanic colors don't match with your current outfit so don't use it."
Me: it's not about what looks nice TO YOU but what feels right and fun to use FOR ME.
"Why don't you add (whatever) to your creation. It'd look great if you add (whatever). And, how about next time, you actually use a leather bag bottom instead?"
Me: I don't want to.
"You sure can't take a comment or a slight criticism. Why are you like this?" :/
Me: you sure can't mind your business.
"Why are you doing 2 projects at once. Finish one and start the other I don't get it."
Me: oh you sweet summer child ohohoho...you just don't understand the mind of a crocheter do ya?
"You know, if you make something for somebody it sure won't be coastal themed or whatever. You have to try something different."
Me: who said I'm making anyone ANYTHING? They don't want to pay the correct price for a hand-made creation so that won't be happening. Anyway, ONTO THE COASTAL THEMED SCARF!
#crochet#crocheting#knitting#knit#fiber art#fiber arts#yarn#yarn crafts#yarnlove#crochet art#usually those criticisms and comments come from my mother#lol#other people in public while I'm working are shocked that people still crochet#they're all OMG THAT'S A LOST ART EVERYBODY LOOK#mom on the other hand is all wow can't you try to idk do something else like use more pinks and purples#or my favorite: when are you gonna finish your last project#my mom even got mad at me once at one of my projects and said I didn't raise a daughter to look like a clown so#don't make things that won't match with your wardrobe#🤪🤪🤪🤪#family members get weird when they notice your hobbies#btw my mom doesn't have hobbies#she says she doesn't need any#she says Jesus is her hobby#that's fine but Jesus was a carpenter you know#Our Lord and Savior DID stuff on the side y'know 😂
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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i think this was funnier in my head.
#puppy draws#yo-kai watch#katie forester#jibanyan#whisper#whisper ykw#usapyon#hailey anne thomas#as a diagnosed autistic person i can confirm that the autism evaluation results#just being a picture of the autism creature with text saying you have the tism is accurate#i don't even remember how this idea came to me i think i was just overly tired this morning and then this happened#also ignore the fact that i refuse to accept nate as being canon protagonist katie is like way better sorry besties <3#that's like 80% a joke. every main yo-kai watch character is my blorbo and nate is included in that#i just also prefer katie. playing 3 and rewatching the anime + reading the manga did endear me to nate more though#i like how he's average but also totally bisexual. no i will not elaborate#why do my tags always get so derailed. uhhhh back to autism. hailey is so fucking autistic ngl#there's like at least five different instances in 3 of her just completely failing to read the room#she's totally hyperfixated on sailor cuties and next harmeowny#she has adhd vibes too i think but. the tism is very strong#i can't decide my favorite part of this between the “yippee!! you have the tism” image and jibanyan asking what autism is#he doesn't know because he has autism by default through being a cat he didn't need a diagnosis#i feel like all of them are autistic tbh but that's probably just me projecting. i totally gave katie autism in the rewrite though#i wasn't even trying to i just don't know what neurotypicals are like because i got that autistic rizz. and adhd rizz. mostly the adhd#i am definitely also autistic but i think my adhd effects me a lot more in day-to-day life#since i usually just interact with my moms who know i'm autistic and are also both neurodivergent#and people online. most of who are autistic because it's mostly on tumblr and this is the autism website#yo-kai watch more like yo-gay watchtism amirite-#oh also very amused by hailey just poofing into existence in the second picture. as you do
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i would like to stop experiencing the full spectrum of human emotions every day please. putting this out into the universe
#had suchhh a good workday. had hot pot with my roommate where we talked about our quarter life crises#and then came home and had a 3 hour screaming match with both of my parents where i said i was cutting them out of my life#it turns out. my dad still does not understand what the word bi means even tho his fucking wife is bi#he was like 'so you marry someone and six months later you see someone else you like and u go marry them instead?'#like genuinely. truly trying to understand#and that shocked me enough to stop crying#do not reblog please#like in hindsight it is SO funny#and that was the point where i was like. wait is this not malice#this is homophobia but i don't think it's malice#anyways we're all Ok now#we've agreed that i'm going to do what i want#and even if they're unhappy they're still gonna have a relationship with me#and they'll figure out how to adjust#my brother periodically came into the room and also screamed at my parents#i feel bad for them a lil bit. like they're not bad people#after he left my mom told me that a week and a half ago#my brother came into her room and told her that when she died he would bury her in a grave instead#of the traditional last rites (cremation rituals etc etc)#if she wouldn't accept me#and my mom said she was on a bunch of meds cause she's sick so she was so out of it it didn't even register what he was going on about#and then today after that convo she was like WAIT A MIN WHAT THE FUCK DID THIS BOY SAY TO ME#funniest 16 year old u could have on your side#truly he kept coming into the room every 5 min and going HEY HAVE YOU BOTH CONSIDERED NOT BEING HOMOPHOBIC. HAVE YOU.#HEY CAN U TELL YOUR DAUGHTER YOU STILL LOVE HER MAYBE??? THINK??? USE YOUR BRAIN???#this is why i would die for this kid#he's the best#he's such an idiot most of the time but when he's not being an idiot he's my favorite person on earth#don't tell him that tho anyone please#he'll hold it against me forever and ever as siblings do
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hi Jack. sad mom anon here again. i hope i'm not disturbing you, but i'm feeling kinda sad and i just wanted to tell someone who'd care. i actually really need a hug right now. i still live with my dad, but his hugs aren't the same. kind of feel very perfunctory and it hurts. we've never been really close, she was the peace keeper in our house, and it's been really hard without here here.
anyway. i hope you've been having a good week and that things are looking up for you. stay safe and warm.
hi honey 💕 i'm so sorry. i wish i could be there to hug you in person. life really does kick you in the teeth sometimes, doesn't it? one moment you're fine and then the next, your brain/emotions are doing something you 100% did not consent to. i do care and i love you. we'll both just keep hanging in there together, okay? <3
#I don't know if this will help but...#My mom has several favorite blankets and sometimes when I'm cold or sick and she has to work she'll wrap me up in them#and she'll say “there. now it's like I'm hugging you”#so if you have one of your mom's favorite blankets or jackets/hoodies nearby#maybe try wrapping yourself up in it#It's not a hug but... I know for me It definitely makes my mom feel closer when she physically can't be#I hope this doesn't make how you're feeling worse#love you bye <3#jack answers mail
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hey so. childhood friend of mine commited suicide late july and his dad’s trying to fund the money for his funeral service - if people have the money to donate please do the service is in 3 days (august 5th) and he’s very close to the goal but otherwise it’d mean a lot if people spread the link around -> https://gofund.me/f04d9bf0
#gofundme#suicide#donations#idk what else I would tag this with but. yeah#sorry to the people that're gonna get jumpscared by a blocked tag I just felt liek this was important to share#he was like. the one irl friend I had consistently that never bullied me because we were both so different from everyone else#we fell out of touch but I always talk about him fondly and then my mom told me this morning and just. god#I'm really glad I'm gonna have a lot of support and love this month I already know that but what a way to start it huh.#I hope everyone's doing okay. if you're in a hard place right now take this as a sign to do something nice for yourself#talk to a friend go buy some chocolate listen to your favorite song anything#and if it feels like nothing's making you happy#please trust me when I say it will some day#I know everyone says that I know but I've been there I've been through some horrible fucking shit#like anime anti-hero/rival/love interest-to-die levels of trauma#trust me. trust. me.#it will get better. wake up another day. this too shall pass#sorry for the ramble I just feel Very Strongly about this
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really tempted to rewatch both simm and hidden agenda and write up a defense of dunk's acting
#it makes me kinda sad when people bash him :(#does he nail every single moment?? no ofc not#but he's definitely not as bad as i've seen some people say#there are also many things he does beautifully. that have me go yessss!! this is what it's all about!!!!#maybe i should just start a youtube channel#how do i talk about acting in english tho#i'm missing essential words such as spielrichtung‚ anspielen‚ das miteinander‚ sich einlassen auf‚ aufeinander eingehen‚ abnehmen‚ etc#(not my uni profs in my head telling me to go find some parallel texts to solve that vocabulary issue but the thing is!! i'm too lazy kjdfk#having an education in something is a blessing and a curse sigh#airenyah plappert#dunk natachai#adrm#and so what if he doesn't nail everything!! so what if there's room for improvement!!#newsflash: even fandom favorites have their moments that aren't the best of their acting#oh baby i have opinions about [redacted] in [redacted] that you could never even imagine#and the show in question is even one of the only 3 dramas that i have rated a 10/10 on mydramalist#once again i'm thinking about that time the other week where i showed my mom some concert performances#and mentioned how some people were saying dunk is a bad actor#and halfway through the video she went#''also wenn ich mir das so anschau‚ is er hundertmal ein besserer schauspieler als der‚ der so aufgehypet wird''#i refuse to say in public who she's referring to with ''der der so aufgehypet wird'' but trust me it's a beloved fandom favorite 🤭🤭🤭#also the people saying this clearly never watched that one mv they starred in a while back#my boy dunk natachai fucking carried that whole story line
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what hidden truths are revealed when people who are so so different from each other choose to love you in the same way
#i am thinking this week about how my mom just sent me the exact same ~thinking of you~ card that i have also received from my best friend#how different friends send me the same memes or gift me the same books#how close friends and loved ones remember what time i take my meds and remind me if i forget while we're together#when i'm sharing a meal at someone’s home and the person setting the table asks if i want a big fork or a small one#when people send me photos of random cats or bugs or other creatures they encounter in their day-to-day lives#and how last semester my boss found a beautiful moth and brought it to campus to show me and#my current preceptor found an abandoned wasp nest and brought it to the hospital for me#recently a few friends have told me (separately) that they want to spend more time with me bc they haven't really had female friends before#thinking about how many times i’ve had loved ones who were planning their weddings double check that i DON’T want to be a bridesmaid#how partners keep good vegan ice cream in the freezer because that’s my favorite post-coital snack#when people watch strange movies i love so we can talk about them together#thinking about the first time anyone calls me to say ‘i just wanted to hear your voice’#there is so much love in the world#how do i know if i’m giving enough back? how do i know if i’m doing it right?
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I have to be so normal about my newest obsession tomorrow because if I don't I am going to spook my mom's bestie.
#i may or may not have acquired an interest in baseball#(i say 'acquired' because it was on purpose)#(too many adults won't talk to you if you don't have a favorite sport)#but now i have to keep the lid on it in front of strangers#i'm too much of a know-it-all for my own good#they are my first proper victims because none of my family members like baseball#so they'll be the only ones who KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT#and my mom likes them so i can't wax eloquent or even slightly nerdy#:(
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"each thing I learn about you just makes me want to know you more" <-text from my neighbor just now. i don't know what i'm winning at, but i'm definitely winning at something.
#he wants to go for a walk tomorrow so i can tell him about my favorite words from the french dictionary.#'do you do anything that's not dorky and interesting?' <-another direct quote#he said that before he knew about the dictionary. this was in response to learning i write crosswords#joke's on him though because now that he knows about the dictionary i think he's caught up on all the dorky & interesting stuff#i do feel like i'm really winning this acquaintanceship. not as a competition between him and me but rather#as a competition between this acquaintanceship and all other acquaintanceships i've had with other people#the trick is to not say anything about your hobbies for the first like. four interactions. then you start parceling them out one at a time.#it only works because we have so much other stuff to talk about. being neighbors.#like at no point have we had to do the awkward 'so what do you do for fun?' thing. so it's just when it comes up organically#anyway i'm enjoying this because i usually feel like i'm a VERY boring person#but i have just been nailing the pacing here. the suspense! keep em wanting more#myfirstname mylastname international man of mystery#also the other day we were talking and i said 'i told you about my mom's vibrator‚ right?' because i was sure i had told him that story#and he was like NO????? so basically he just thinks my life is about 5000% more interesting than it actually is#i'm fine with that though. if it means i get a walking buddy (who has a cat! and gives me fruit sometimes!!!) all the better#fuck it i will just make a tag for him#voisin de palier#now i need to find my first post about him from like 2018 when i was sooooo suspicious of him for absolutely no reason
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people?? being niceys to me???? for no reason except loves me?????????????
it's more likely than i think, apparently.
#this post brought to you by Grandparent i was forcibly estranged from most of my life suddenly being in it lots more than#the other side of dad's family AND my mom's family combined and like?? actually doing things??? to help me???? without asking for anything#except that i give him a personal update about my life so he doesn't find out on fb#which i can get behind even if my logic makes perfect sense to me as to why i don't do this#(easier to reach a wider crowd of people who can disseminate the information from there + don't have to repeat myself especially if it's#like stuff i'm still really tender or emotional about + keeps me from spilling all the beans about my private life because fuck FB + i don'#tell ANYONE specifically - everyone is getting the news the exact same way so i'm not running into any favoritism nonsense#though i'm getting the impression the fact that a large portion of my life was avoiding looking like i was picking any particular side migh#not be the way a vast majority of people go through life#much to ponder wow my family really is fucking toxic as hell#i can't even accept help offered to me without making sure they know i don't want to inconvenience them at all#which like???? idk which culture THAT'S originally from but boy did my family come from that one#i'm pretty sure i'm supposed to completely reject any assistance completely but like#a bitch got no money i'm not saying no if my granddaddy wants to send me some because of reasons#hilariously learning that this side of the family also has all of the same symptoms and issues i have#and that i had noticed that my mom's side of the family has rampantly which just like#of fucking course my genetic makeup was a perfect storm of Fuckery#i got loose joints and heart problems on BOTH sides on top of pain issues and audhd and mental health issues just smothering the damn tree#i have so many complex emotions regarding my biofamily i s2g lol
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amecareth is a monsterfucker? context? <3
OH god the context for that one is a series of fantasy books written in french by Anne Robillard, Les Chevaliers d'Emeraude (the Knights of Emerald in english, the 12 book series has been translated in english (!!rare thing to have happen) and is available as ebooks on her website but I don't really recommend them).
I'm going to put a content warning here for rape even though I'm not going to go into graphic detail.
The Big Bad Evil Guy, Emperor Amecareth of the Tanieth, has a hobby called "raping non-Tanieth people to have hybrid kids and have them learn magic and have a gaggle of superpowered evil kids to take over the world".
I think the Tanieth are meant to be beetle-humanoids ? But their home was once compared to an anthill so they're just ant guys in my brain. Little funny ants who are super tall and will kill you.
The manner in which Amecareth is written is very "he's evil and he rapes people for shock value, with 0 care attached to those kinds of storylines", and rape is rarely a subject I enjoy writing about, so I was just... writing a fanfic where he really is just the Tanieth equivalent of a monsterfucker, and doesn't rape people. Also he's the Tanieth equivalent of a very lost 20 year old in that fic.
I think he could be an immensely interesting character while still being an evil imperialist motherfucker (literally) without the need to go "yeah he's a rapist to tell you he's evil in a Shock Anecdote !"
But that would just loop back to my general gripes with Anne Robillard's writing - I think there's often very little care or substance on whatever she's writing/implying at any given moment. Amecareth being a rapist could be a useful character bit in the hands of another writer. I don't want to write that, as I don't think I have the skill to do so currently, so I'm chucking it out in the waste bin.
Now, realizing that political alliances with all sorts of human and non-human people is SUPER USEFUL if you HAVE KIDS WITH THEM ? and THEN using these kids as a way to give more power to your evil empire ? THAT's what I want to write about, and that's pretty much what "Amecareth is a monsterfucker" is about, if we add onto that first love and getting his ass handed to him.
A brief summary of the fic would be :
"Amecareth gets thrown out of his home by his father the emperor of the Tanieth for being too ambitious for his own good, and is told to go invade a southern continent about it on his own if he's THAT smart. Once there, Amecareth begins studying the people living there, finds love, war, and death in rapid succession.
This is the story that led to Enkidiev's First War against the Tanieth."
#cw rape#sorry about that ! it's present in the books and it'd be dishonest not to talk about it#so yeah this is basically an AU where Amecareth is slightly more decent. still evil but doesn't do *that*#asks#i do not have a problem with rape in media. i have a problem where it's so badly handled it's basically a fun little anecdote#that you forget 5 pages after it's said#despite one of the main characters being. Amecareth's daughter. guess what he did to her mom.#the way i'm writing this is almost as tactless as the way it was handled in the book#even if i had the skill to write about that without it being So Bad You Want To Puke i'm not sure i WOULD. (glancing nervously at realva.)#ANYWAY YEAH UH UNFORTUNATELY THE EVIL EMPEROR AND HIS EVIL BIRD SON ARE LIKE#MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FROM THESE BOOKS#other favorites include : Wellan (basically the main character); Kira (Amecareth's daughter and SUCH a cool kid); Santo (beloved)#i have lots to say about these books I have considered making straight up video essays about them#i'd just. have to reread them. you know.#and write a script and all.#one day ! LOL i have too many projects and not enough time#thanks for asking! hope this was not an unpalatable answer !
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ive successfully gotten most of my family to watch good omens (s1), including everyone who I thought i COULD convince and 1 who i DIDN'T
#i also didn't even actually TRY to get my dad to watch it#we just happened to choose to watch it on my parents room so we could lay on the bed#and he happened to be in the room and didn't leave#i didn't think anything of it until episode 5 when he laughed at 'you wouldn't get that kind of performance from a modern car'#and in ep6 he asked of we'd be good 'GOOD tennant' in s2 cus his theory#on why they survived the hellfire/holy water#was ig that they switched places as angel and demon ???? which is a FASCINATING theory imo#anyway I'm going back to their house AGAIN next week to watch all of s2 :)#have to let my sister know so she can join us if she wants#she's already seen episodes 1-3 but will my mom has always been better at binging than my sisters gjkskvksjf#I'm slightly nervous about s2 just bc of how very very queer it is amd my oldest sister and dad are...... not exactly the easiest???#to show these things??????#bc i have no idea how to predict their reactions#my mom will be pretty fine with it probably... my sister has been known to make comments about how the 'sjws' push stuff so much#and my dad is....... pretty old fashioned to say it nicely. he knows that me and my sisters are queer (sexuality)#and doesn't really have any issues#and his favorite actor is cary grant who is ??? controversially bi????? but like i said; hard to predict#anywho I'm still excited anyway#good omens#shh ac
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I actually love talking about my traumas with my mom when i’m drunk because i’ll be like yeah I went to do my laundry today, I washed my bed sheets and a load of dark clothes and btw do you remember in 2006 when M. did X and caused us all eternal trauma and my mom will be like oh really? was there a lot of people at the laundromat today :)? Oh and btw M. did X. and caused us all eternal trauma in 2004 actually. Btw. Just so you know. :) and it’s actually so validating to have random childhood traumatic events confirmed and put back in their rightful timeline idk
#i've said it before and i'll say it again#my mom is great at keeping secrets but awful at lying#so asking her direct questions is the best ways to be able to reframe my early teenagehood traumas tbh#i say childhood sometimes but i honestly never really really got traumatized before the age of 12 so whatever#one of the reason i'm afraid to become a parent tbh: you can be the best ever and your kid can still end up traumatized#because you're not gonna raise that child in a box#anyway i still think it's an interesting case of nurture vs nature#because my mom who i love so much and her entire family are so open#meanwhile i'm like my favorite sandwich? that's too personal of a question tbh#and i've been this way since i was like 11 years old tbh#i'm so like the women in my family except that i'm far less honest and direct and they have much finer hair than me lmao
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Currently applying for disability rn because I have like, 6, and seriously can't work, but I want to be able to at least feed myself with the pittance that is disability 'benefits'.
It's been horrible. It's so hard. I have three different 'can't do paperwork' diseases, and yet this is a poorly-worded loop-de-loop of harsh redtape nonsense that requires original copies of things and everything done *exactly* to standard , on top of needing to prove to a non-disabled person that I'm suffering enough to need a tiny bit of help, and hoping that they're not a massive dick, because it's just one person I have to 'impress' through writing things correctly. Also there's a short time limit. And if I miss the time limit (given I haven't gotten a call back from my case worker; I will miss the time limit) my case is automatically rejected and then I have to wait months before I can try again.
All because, I guess, the government is scared that a handful of people will abuse the system and take precious hundreds of dollars that could have gone to the billions sent overseas to bomb children every year, instead.
I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.
#fuck this shhiiitttt#I hate how abled people never believe you#like when I had that crisis with the bitch that was getting on me for disabled at my old job#and all the employee resource people flipped on me as soon as they heard that I was autistic#I was so stressed; this was my sanctuary when I couldn't go home in my teen years; and now some person that everyone who actually worked#there hates is harrassing me and I'm trying to at least get transferred or even just *less hours with her because they put our schedules#together* and hr and eh turned on me and I got literally yelled at for trying to ask for options#that yeah. I literally felt like I was dying. I was passing out and couldnt eat or sleep for a week. cause my panic disorder and autism#were frayed to the breaking point#so I was forced to quit because yeah I literally would have died#and I couldn't do anything about it because I was too naive to have actually recorded those conversations :)#haven't seen the coworkers I like in years; my favorite died and I didn't even hear about it until months later#even though she was like a surrogate mom#oh and afterwards hr pulled very similar shit on another guy but he shot up the place and killed 11 folks#so I felt pretty guilty for having given up on trying to get something changed#they even fired someone for literally just saying 'hr failed here; we need to do better' during a meeting; they claimed that was somehow#her threatening to shoot up the place herself#(or; y'know; was going to rightfully criticize them)#anyway#shit's fucked#it hurts to not be normal; and it's easy to lose your entire support network when you trust too much who to tell you're disabled#my city#really fuckin sucks#this place is all old white blonde karens gentrifying everything like roman-pillar-loving-locusts#please help
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