#no matter how hard he tries obi wan just can’t find the words to convery his faith and pride in ahsoka | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

firefly-fez · 2 years ago

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in all honestly a resolution in ahsoka and obi wan’s relationship would be nothing but tragedy. meeting after order 66 wouldn’t go…well. there is immediate relief to see that the other is alive. just as quickly, there is guilt. obi wan’s guilt. he cannot bring himself to tell her that he is anakin’s killer. ahsoka sees obi wan’s depression. he looks hopeless and lost. the mentor she knew is gone forever. she sees the guilt in his eyes thinking it’s because he couldn’t save anakin. she tries to tell him it’s not his fault, he’s not alone, she loved him too, they can grieve him together— he won’t let her in. the obi wan she knew is gone; what can she do? she cannot help someone who does not want to be helped. he won’t talk to her about what happened and she doesn’t understand why. years later, she understands why. in horror, at last, she understands why. she’s questioning everything all over again. how can she trust herself? everything she was ever taught was taught to her by— him. obi wan, still nothing like his old self, but a little better, now, thanks to the purpose luke (and leia) have given him, runs into ahsoka again. he recognises her guilt, her grief, her doubt, immediately. her fear. her fear of herself. she knows. his belated attempt to be there for her isn’t the comfort he hoped it would be. it’s not that she’s angry. not at him. it’s just that she doesn’t believe him. not anymore. he tries to reassure her that she is not destined to fall into the dark side. all ahsoka hears are empty words. his belated belief in her is just empty now. you believed in him, too, she says, defeated. you always said we were so alike. give me a reason. any reason to believe in me that you haven’t once said about him.

and he can’t.

#obi wan #ahsoka tano #i actually think that the distance between obi wan and ahsoka in the rebellion era makes a LOT of sense #beyond ‘we can’t retcon the OT so… uh…they think that each other are dead’#ahsoka represents everything obi wan doesn’t want to confront after mustafar #and by the time he has healed enough to be ready #she is all grown up; grown away from him; and his voice is no longer the voice of counsel and reason she goes to for guidance #even after they both know the truth about vader #they’re not on the same page #obi wan leaves his confrontation convinced anakin is gone and vader is his killer #ahsoka leaves her confrontation with vader believing anakin remains. she tries to bring him out again and almost succeeds.#obi wan breaks the mask and sees anakin dead #ahsoka breaks the mask and sees anakin alive #they are not on the same page #i think obi wan can’t accept cader could be redeemable #because he can’t accept that HE can’t be the one to save him. he can’t accept that he’s not enough #but i think that ahsoka could. luke and leia could bring something out of anakin that she cannot just like they did for obi wan #no matter how hard he tries obi wan just can’t find the words to convery his faith and pride in ahsoka #putting his wholehearted faith into her means nothing after his wholehearted faith in anakin proved to be undeserved #how can he find the words?#he cannot #someone could #someone could remind her that she is able to let go; something anakin never could do; that she is more like qui gon now than her master #she embodies the true selflessness of the jedi; for she doesn’t prioritise lives based on how much she loves them but by their innate worth #you have mastered the very lesson that anakin could not; which led to his fall #someone could find the right words #but i don’t think that someone could be obi wan #because that would mean admitting that /anakin/ fell; it goes against the lie that vader killed him #OT era obi wan is still in denial #but i think ahsoka acknowledges anakin’s duality in a way obi wan can’t accept

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