#no longer a danger to herself or others | ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew that i would do anything you want me to????

[darlinimamess]

these three songs send me into crisis mode and yet i still choose to listen to them

[jaaklops]

hey dude. i don’t mean to call you so late, but did you know that no longer a danger to herself or others, she made up her mind and laced up her shoes, yelled down the hall but nobody answered, so she walked outside without an excuse. she can do anything she wants to, she can do whatever she wants to do. she can go home, but she’s not going to. so she picks a direction, it’s 90 in memphis. turns up the music so thoughts don’t intrude, predictably winds up thinking of elvis, and wonders if he believed songs could come true. i’m asking for it if they do. doesn’t know what she wants, or what she’s going to do—a rebel without a clue. so we spent what was left of our serotonin to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon. said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment, ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew that i would do anything you want me to. i would do anything for you. i would do anything, i would do anything, whatever you want me to do i will do. whatever she wants. whatever she wants. whatever she wants. whatever she wants. i will do anything, i will do anything, whatever she wants. whatever she wants.

[diyasgarden]

I always think about how in the Applebees scene where Tashi makes the joke to Art asking if he thought she'd kill herself after the injury, because in all honesty it wouldn't be surprising to think she would. She lost the life she planned for herself that day. I think anyone in her life would be worried for her. Now imagine being her best friend who is in love with her during this time....

No longer a danger to herself or others / She made up her mind and laced up her shoes / Yelled down the hall but nobody answered / So she walked outside without an excuse

You'd be lying if you said she weren't worried. There was always this nagging feeling that something would happen. That you wouldn't be there for Tashi and she'd do something rash she'd never be able to fix. The injury made her erratic, unaspiringly. She tried to push you away, but you'd never leave her. Weeks turned to months and months to a year. It was the end of the semester and it was time to go home. It's a week before you need to leave when you get the call. Her voice confident and strong as she tells you she is going on a road trip. For a moment you feel as if you've stumbled into the past and you're too stunned to answer. She says she's leaving this Saturday, and to come if you want, before hanging up.

She could do anything she wants to / She could do whatever she wants to do / She could go home, but she's not going to

At first you thought she wanted to go on a road trip back to her home, but you were mistaken. She isn't sure where she wants to go, but she knows she wants this. A part of you wants to her it's stupid to just pack your things and drive without a destination, but she's your Tashi. If she wants this, you won't stop her. You'll go with her. Her eyes gleam as you put your things into the car. A hint of determination you used to see in her eyes while she walked on to court. It's not as bright as before, but it's there. You have to bite back the grin that forms as you watch it form. Ever perceptive she notices, raising an eyebrow while looking in your direction. You shrug, as you put the last suitcase in. She rolls her eyes, and that too sends a wave of reassurance through your body. It wasn't the Tashi you'd always known, but it was closer to her than anything you'd seen the past couple of months.

So she picks a direction, it's ninety in Memphis / Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude / Predictably winds up thinkin' of Elvis / And wonders if he believed songs could come true

She decides on driving towards Memphis. Ambitious considering it's on the other coast, but who are you to say no. You put down the windows and blast music. You both sing along as you both take turns driving. There is no talk of the injury or her lost career, just you and Tashi in the moment. You feel your heart flutter every time you look over to see the wind blowing her hair back.

I'm asking for it if they do / Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do / A rebel without a clue

For the first time since the injury, you heard her talk about the future optimistically. She didn't talk about it like some burden she'd have to live through, but as if she wanted to prepare for it. Be ready for whatever came next. You'd go back and forth discussing what she may do now. Business? Law? Medicine? Deep down, you had a feeling she'd never stray away from tennis. She'd make a great coach and you knew she'd become one soon. You had a feeling she knew this too, but it never stopped these conversations. It was fun to pretend and you'd do it for ever long as she wanted.

So we spent what was left of our serotonin / To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon / Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment / Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew then.

The trip is just you driving from city to city, but you never actually make it to Memphis. Not that either of you were surprised or disappointed at that. It was never the goal of the trip. Was there even one? You're unsure but as you spend the day laughing with Tashi in the car and spend nights staring up at the moon with her, it feels like this trip was successful. You feel as if whatever was the goal of the trip has been met. Maybe the goal was just to make her smile. Or make her feel whole again. The thought of those things make you feel whole as well.

I would do anything you want me to / I would do anything for you / I would do anything, I would do anything / Whatever you want me to do, I will do / Whatever she wants, whatever she wants

When you both admit it's time to return to normal life and start the drive back, a peaceful silence overtakes the drive. You feel hopeful for her. You feel good for her. Maybe Tashi would never be the same, but she'd be fine. You could rest easy knowing that. When she thanks you for going on this trip with her, you have to fight the urge to laugh. Doesn't she realize you'd go anywhere she asked? Maybe she doesn't, but you do. You'd do anything Tashi wanted you to. Now and always.

[the-record]

omggg your lyric fics are killing meeee !!! your so talented <3 you should defo consider doing graceland too by phoebe bridgers (the ultimate sad yet peaceful lesbian lullaby that haunts my dreams)

graceland too

i didnt know if you wanted this with abby BUT if you wanted it with a different character i would be happy to make a new one :)

i love abs shes so ! this is not proofread!!

i do not use description for reader and the photos do not describe the reader !!

my masterlist

no longer a danger to herself or others she made up her mind and laced up her shoes

“go. just take him.”

light poured in through the curtains, just barely illuminating the room in the early morning. abby slept soundly on your chest, her head rising and falling with your body. you couldnt help but admire her.

she’d been through too much, but she was still perfect to you.

pretty brown lashes that fluttered every so often. soft lips you wanted to admire forever. her hair was starting to grow out and you made a mental note to trim it later so it would grow out evenly.

yelled down the hall but nobody answered so she walked outside without an excuse

her eyes fluttered open slowly, gradually adjusting to the light. you smiled, leaning down to press a kiss to her temple.

her eyes fluttered open slowly, gradually adjusting to the light. you smiled, leaning down to press a kiss to her temple.

“good morning sleepyhead,” you teased as she pulled you tighter. “you sleep okay?” she hummed as she nodded against you. “want some breakfast my love?”

“mmm, not yet.” she nosed her face into your neck.

“whatever you want.”

you ran your hand down her back, nails gently scratching as you went. she sighed and pressed a kiss to your collarbone.

she could do anything she wants to she could do whatever she wants to do she could go home, but she’s not going to...

“i could just lay here forever. how are you so comfortable?” you laughed, shaking abby’s head. “are you laughing at me?” she looked up at you, shocked, as you tried to hide the giggles. “oh my god, you are totally laughing at me! i’ll give you something to laugh about.”

you yelled out just as she gets her fingers in your sides, tickling you. “fuck off! abby stop, shit!” you laughed and tried to push her off, but to no avail. “abby please! im sorry!”

she let up, pulling you to her. “i know, i know.” she smiled, she couldn’t help it. “i love you, you know.”

“i know.” you nodded, leaning on her chest to look up at her. “im so proud of you. you’ve been through so much and look at you.”

so we spent what was left of our serotonin to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon

“all i did was survive. same as you.”

but you shook your head, sitting up to have this conversation.

“no, not you. manny, owen, mel... your dad. you’ve just, you’ve lost so much.” your hand cupped her cheek and abby gently gripped your wrist. “and then when ellie found you,” you took a breath. “fuck, i thought you died abby. you and lev, i thought you were dead. everyone else was and i couldn’t get you out of my head.” she followed the tear that tracked down your face.

“and then i stumbled across you and lev, and i just couldn’t believe it. i couldn’t believe you were alive.” you sniffed, throwing a smile her way. “and you didn’t even take a second to worry about yourself when we got here, just wanting to take care of lev and i.” you thumb rubbed her cheek gently.

said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew

“can i be honest?” you nodded, scooting closer to her. “i didnt think i was gonna make it. and, i dont think i cared if i died...” tears filled her eyes but she kept going. “and then, ellie was there. she helped me down, and i saw lev, and i knew i had to get out of there. i had to see you again.

“so i fought ellie, and i didnt give up. i had to help lev, and i had to know you were okay.” she smiled and leaned her forehead against yours. “and it was the one decision i don’t regret. im glad i made it out and back to you.”

she pressed a gentle kiss on your lips and pulled you close to her.

“glad to know you care about me.”

“oh my god lev, go fuck off!”

i would do anything you want me to i would do anything for you i would do anything, i would do anything whatever you want me to do, i will do

[twin-fantasies]

i’m mentally thrashing around and rolling on the ground and screaming these lyrics rn

No longer a danger to herself or others She made up her mind and laced up her shoes Yelled down the hall but nobody answered So she walked outside without an excuse!!!!! She could do anything she wants to She could do whatever she wants to do She could go home, but she's not going to!!!!!! So she picks a direction, it's ninety in Memphis Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude predictably winds up thinkin' of Elvis And wonders if he believed songs!!!! could!!! come!!!! true!!!!! I'm asking for it if!!!! they!!!! do!! Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do A rebel without a clue .........so we spent what!!!! was left!!! of!!! our!!!! serotonin!!!! To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew then I would do anything you want me to I would do anything for you I would do anything, I would do anything whatever you want me to do, I will do whatever she wants, whatever she wants whatever she wants (whatever you want) whatever she wants (whatever you want) I will do anything (whatever you want)I will do anything (whatever you want) whatever she wants (whatever you want)!!!!! whatever she wants!!!!!!! (whatever you want)!!!!!

[achilles-the-boy-of-gold]

No longer a danger to herself or others

She made up her mind and laced up her shoes

Yelled down the hall but nobody answered

So she walked outside without an excuse

She could do anything she wants to

She could do whatever she wants to do

She could go home, but she's not going to

So she picks a direction, it's ninety in Memphis

Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude

Predictably winds up thinkin' of Elvis

And wonders if he believed songs could come true

I'm asking for it if they do

Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do

A rebel without a clue

So we spent what was left of our serotonin

To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon

Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment

Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew then

I would do anything you want me to

I would do anything for you

I would do anything, I would do anything

Whatever you want me to do, I will do

Whatever she wants, whatever she wants

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

I will do anything (whatever you want)

I will do anything (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want

[katesmilkteeth]

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no longer a danger to herself or others

she made up her mind and laced up her shoes

yelled down the hall but nobody answered

so she walked outside without an excuse

she could do anything she wants to

she could do whatever she wants to do

she could go home, but she’s not going to

so she picks a direction, it’s ninety in memphis

turns up the music so thoughts don’t intrude

predictably winds up thinkin of elvis

and wonders if he believed songs could come true

i’m asking for it if they do

doesn’t know what she wants or what she’s gonna do

a rebel without a clue

so we spent what was left of our serotonin

to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon

said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment

ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and i knew then

i would do anything you want me to

i would do anything for you

i would do anything, i would do anything

whatever you want me to do, i will do

whatever she wants, whatever she wants

whatever she wants (whatever you want)

whatever she wants (whatever you want)

i will do anything (whatever you want)

i will do anything (whatever you want)

whatever she wants (whatever you want)

whatever she wants (whatever you want)

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[stevesstranger]

Spotify Playlist

CELIA J. HILL

i. clean, taylor swift "the water filled my lungs i screamed so loud, but no one heard a thing. rain came pouring down when i was drowning, that's when i could finally breathe." "ten months sober, i must admit just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it. ten months older, i won't give in. now that i'm clean, i'm never gonna risk it."

ii. graceland too, phoebe bridgers "said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment. ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew that i would do anything you want me to. i would do anything for you." "no longer a danger to herself or others, she made up her mind and laced up her shoes. yelled down the hall, but nobody answered."

iii. birthday cake, dylan conrique "it's hard to know what she would say, but i think she'd want you to live like the world's on fire, want you to love like hearts don't break, never look down when you walk the wire, like she made it to forty-eight."

iv. you're on your own, kid, taylor swift "i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this. i hosted parties and starved my body like i'd be saved by a perfect kiss. the jokes weren't funny, i took the money. my friends from home don't know what to say. i looked around in a blood-soaked gown and i saw something they can't away because there were pages turned with the bridges burned, everything you lose is a step you take."

v. if you could see me now, the script "i'm trying to make you proud, do everything you did. i hope you're up there with God saying, 'that's my kid'. i still look for your face in the crowd, oh if you could see me now would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?"

vi. head above water, avril lavigne "come rescue me, i'll be waiting, i'm too young to fall asleep. God, keep my head above water. don't let me drown, it gets harder. i'll meet you there at the altar as i fall down to my knees. don't let me drown."

vii. sober, demi lovato "wake me when the shakes are gone and the cold sweats disappear. call me when it's over and myself has reappeared. i don't know, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know why i do it every time. it's only when i'm lonely. sometimes i just wanna cave and i don't wanna fight."

[koheletgirl]

no longer a danger to herself or others she made up her mind and laced up her shoes yelled down the hall but nobody answered so she walked outside without an excuse she could do anything she wants to she could do whatever she wants to do she could go home but she's not going to so she picks a direction it's ninty to memphis turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude predictably winds up thinking about elvis and wonders if he believed songs could come true im asking for it if they do doesnt know what she wants or what she's gonna do a rebel without a clue so we spent what was left of our serotonin to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew then i would do anything you want me to i would do anything for you i would do anything I WOULD DO ANYTHING whatever you want me to do i will do whatever she wants whatever she wants whatever she wants whatever she wants i would do anything i would do anything whatever she wants (whatever you want) whatever she wants (whatever you want)

[cleradinthealps]

el hopper - graceland too

No longer a danger to herself or others

She made up her mind and laced up her shoes

Yelled down the hall but nobody answered

So she walked outside without an excuse

She could do anything she wants to

She could do whatever she wants to do

She could go home, but she's not going to

So she picks a direction, it's ninety in Memphis

Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude

Predictably winds up thinkin' of Elvis

And wonders if he believed songs could come true

I'm asking for it if they do

Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do

A rebel without a clue

So we spent what was left of our serotonin

To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon

Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment

Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew then

I would do anything you want me to

I would do anything for you

I would do anything, I would do anything

Whatever you want me to do, I will do

[riseofthecommonwoodpile]

No longer a danger to herself or others, she made up her mind and laced up her shoes. Yelled down the hall, but nobody answered, so she walked outside without an excuse.

She can do anything she wants to. She can do whatever she wants to do. She could go home, but she's not going to.

So she picks a direction. It's 90 in Memphis. Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude. Predictably winds up thinking of Elvis, and wonders if he believed songs could come true.

I'm asking for it if they do. Doesn't know what she wants or what she's gonna do. Rebel without a clue.

So we spent what was left of our serotonin to chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon. Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment, ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew then

I would do anything you want me to. I would do anything for you. I would do anything, I would do anything. Whatever you want me to do, I will do.

[setmeatopthepyre]

No longer a danger to herself or others She made up her mind and laced up her shoes Yelled down the hall, but nobody answered So she walked outside without an excuse

So she picks a direction, it’s ninety in Memphis Turns up the music so thoughts don’t intrude Predictably winds up thinking of Elvis And wonders if he believed songs could come true

Doesn’t know what she wants or what she’s gonna do A rebel without a clue

So we spent what was left of our serotonin To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon Said she knows she lived through it to get to this moment Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and I knew then I would do anything you want me to I would do anything for you

[vickyxc]

No longer a danger to herself or others

She made up her mind and laced up her shoes

Yelled down the hall but nobody answered

So she walked outside without an excuse

She could do anything she wants to

She could do whatever she wants to do

She could go home, but she's not going to

So she picks a direction, it's ninety to Memphis

Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude

Predictably winds up thinking of Elvis

And wonders if he believed songs could come true

I'm asking for it if they do

Doesn't know what she wants

Or what she's gonna do

A rebel without a clue

So we spent what was left of our serotonin

To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon

Said she knows she'll live through it to get to this moment

Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor, and I knew that

I would do anything you want me to

I would do anything for you

I would do anything

I will do anything

Whatever you want me to do, I will do

Whatever she wants

Whatever she wants

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

I will do anything (whatever you want)

I will do anything (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

Whatever she wants (whatever you want)

[lastparty]

[flute and guitar then guitar and violin instrumental] no longer a danger to herself or others she made up her mind and laced up her shoes yelled down the hall but nobody answered so she walked outside without an excuse she could do anything she wants to she could do whatever she wants to do she could go home but she’s not going to so she picks a direction it’s ninety in memphis turns up the music so thoughts don’t intrude predictably winds up thinking of elvis and wonders if he believed songs could come true i’m asking for it if they do doesn’t know what she wants or what she’s gonna do rebel without a clue [guitar and violin instrumental] [harmonising] so we spent what was left of our serotonin so chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon said she knows she left through it to get to this moment ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and i knew that i would do anything you want me to i would do anything for you i will do anything i will do anything you whatever you want me to do i will do whatever she wants whatever she wants (whatever you want ) whatever she wants (whatever you want) whatever she wants (whatever you want) i will do anything i will do anything (whatever you want whatever you want) whatever she wants whatever you want

[shiningsunbeams]

the SONG i want to live by:

Graceland Too- Phoebe Bridgers No longer a danger to herself or others She made up her mind and laced up her shoes Yelled down the hall but nobody answered So she walked outside without an excuse She could do anything she wants to She could do whatever she wants to do She could go home, but she's not going to So she picks a direction, it's ninety in Memphis Turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude Predictably winds up thinking of Elvis And wonders if he believed songs could come true I'm asking for it if they do Doesn't know what she wants Or what she's gonna do A rebel without a clue So we spent what was left of our serotonin To chew on our cheeks and stare at the moon Said she knows she'll live through it to get to this moment Ate a sleeve of saltines on my floor and I knew that I would do anything you want me to I would do anything for you I would do anything I would do anything Whatever you want me to do, I will do Whatever she wants Whatever she wants Whatever she wants (Whatever you want) Whatever she wants (Whatever you want) I would do anything (Whatever you want) I would do anything (Whatever you want) Whatever she wants (Whatever you want) Whatever she wants (Whatever you want)

[achilles-the-boy-of-gold]

NO LONGER A DANGER TO HERSELF OR OTHERS

SHE MADE UP HER MIND AND LACED UP HER SHOES

YELLED DOWN THE HALL BUT NOBODY ANSWERED

SO SHE WALKED OUTSIDE WITHOUT AN EXCUSE

SHE COULD DO ANYTHING SHE WANTS TO

SHE COULD DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS TO DO

SHE COULD GO HOME, BUT SHE'S NOT GOING TO

SO SHE PICKS A DIRECTION, IT'S NINETY IN MEMPHIS

TURNS UP THE MUSIC SO THOUGHTS DON'T INTRUDE

PREDICTABLY WINDS UP THINKIN' OF ELVIS

AND WONDERS IF HE BELIEVED SONGS COULD COME TRUE

I'M ASKING FOR IT IF THEY DO

DOESN'T KNOW WHAT SHE WANTS OR WHAT SHE'S GONNA DO

A REBEL WITHOUT A CLUE

SO WE SPENT WHAT WAS LEFT OF OUR SEROTONIN

TO CHEW ON OUR CHEEKS AND STARE AT THE MOON

SAID SHE KNOWS SHE LIVED THROUGH IT TO GET TO THIS MOMENT

ATE A SLEEVE OF SALTINES ON MY FLOOR, AND I KNEW THEN

I WOULD DO ANYTHING YOU WANT ME TO

I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU

I WOULD DO ANYTHING, I WOULD DO ANYTHING

WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO DO, I WILL DO

WHATEVER SHE WANTS, WHATEVER SHE WANTS

WHATEVER SHE WANTS (WHATEVER YOU WANT)

WHATEVER SHE WANTS (WHATEVER YOU WANT)

I WILL DO ANYTHING (WHATEVER YOU WANT)

I WILL DO ANYTHING (WHATEVER YOU WANT)

WHATEVER SHE WANTS (WHATEVER YOU WANT)

WHATEVER SHE WANTS (WHATEVER YOU WANT